I have a Ryzen 3 3200G, I can’t upgrade my CPU just yet but I will in a few months. I just need a GPU now, alin kaya ang mas matipid sa kuryente at mas hindi mag-bobottleneck? I will also plan to pair the selected GPU with a FSP HV Pro 85+ na 550W.
Could the 3050 be useful and playable? I plan to play single-rpg games at least at Medium/High settings. 3050 is cheaper among the 3 options by the way.
Once again, I will upgrade my CPU rin pero not right now, in a few months pa. I just need a GPU at the moment.
Also, if it helps: I have a dual-stick 8GB RAM. So that’s 16GB total.

My first symptom was 5/20 mild fever, on 5/21 I woke up with a mild sore throat. I was with him at his apartment during this time, which from what I understand is the time one would be most contagious. I had an immediate bright purple positive line on the test that I took after I got home from work on 5/21. Fortunately, he didn’t get sick, and neither did any of my clients from 21/20. I began my isolation on 5/22 and had a remote doctors appt, she told me that I should isolate for 5 days after my first symptoms, and assuming that my symptoms were improved and I was fever free for 24 hours without fever reducing medicine, I could return to work and using public transportation, masked, regardless of test results. By Sunday, 5/26, it had been a full 5 days since my first symptoms, it was my 6th day since onset of symptoms, day zero being 5/20. I was feeling 95% better aside from very mild lingering congestion, and tested with a very very faint line. My partner had planned on coming to visit me to help me with a computer problem and to bring a care package, and I assumed we would mask and open the window. He’s never shown great caution surrounding Covid risk, and I’m the one who gets sick constantly and he’s literally never gotten my cold. I’ve never actually seen him sick in two years. He’s never had Covid and always updates his booster vax yearly + flu shot. He’s very healthy and low risk, so I was shocked that he told me he had planned on visiting outdoors only, and would talk to me “through a window” or on a walk, and that there was absolutely no way he’d come inside. I felt really hurt and abandoned because it had been a really hard couple of days for me, and I really needed his support, but I told him that standing 6ft away on the street would just make me feel worse so not to bother coming by with supplies, I wasn’t sick anymore and could get things for myself. We had to cancel our travel plans, and I took it really hard because I’ve been very stressed. I struggle with mental wellness and have been on and off antidepressants and see a therapist regularly to try and manage it, and I was just in a really dark place and still haven’t been able to get out of it even though I started work back up today 5/28. I haven’t forgiven him for being unwilling to be indoors with me using the precautionary measure of masking/ventilation. If he had been sick for 5+ days, was 95% better, with only a super faint line on his test, I’d have taken the chance. I’m not saying anyone should have been willing to be indoors with me, but the chance I would spread it to anyone at that point, especially masked, was low enough, that my partner should have been willing to. It made me feel horrible and he still won’t even admit that he was exercising a level of caution which exceeds doctor and cdc recommended guidelines, and after I returned to work today masked, he still did not offer to visit. I feel insane, I genuinely want to know if I’m being crazy, or if my feelings are valid.

Has anyone else had a similar experience?
TLDR: RJ, but turned into a weird game by partners ex. AITA? Have you had any experience with compulsions building over years? How did you overcome them? Have you struggled with RJ and body dysmorphia?
My boyfriend & I have been dating for over 4 years. Whenever we first started dating he showed me a picture of his ex & would talk about his ex gf what felt like me to be all the time. She was in every story he told & every old photo. At the time I had just gotten out of a relationship where the guy was obsessed with and constantly compared me to his ex. This felt kind of normal to me. I began to look at her social media. I wanted to know her and the version of my boyfriend she knew… I was jealous that she was and would always be his first love & first time. I hated that I thought she would always be special to him.
What was RJ turn into something else a year into our relationship, when she called my boyfriend randomly. He didn’t answer, and he immediately blocked her number. Green flags right? Yes, but it also made me wonder what her motives were… did she want him back? Had he done something to make her think he was available? Did he want her back? If she asked for him back, would he go? I began to investigate her on social media, and one time accidentally requested to follow her- I tried to take it back immediately, but she had already seen it.
She knew I was watching and she liked it. She later told me she thought of it like a game, I did too at first. She started communicating with me through the captions of her photos. It was mostly like “Hello,” “Welcome back.” My favorite was “feeling obsessive yet?” This moved from one social media platform to eventually tiktok. I was curious if she was watching me there too, so I thought I would experiment by creating tiktoks with the same sounds to see if she said anything- and it was like… a literal competition for likes. She noticed and she posted about me, multiple times. I blocked her and unblocked her repeatedly (to see if she was posting about me) after this. Apparently I happened to use the same audio as one of her friends, and this deeply offended her- she then decided to reach out to my boyfriend from various phone numbers sending him “proof” that I was copying her, none of which included the parts she played. Most of the videos were trends… My boyfriend didn’t really care about what she had to say but we also never reeeeeally talked about it.
Later I started going to therapy. I wanted to get better I wanted to heal. I felt the need to apologize, so I sent her a message apologizing and requesting her to block me as I thought this would help me. (I did not ask my therapist I probably should have.) Not reply, no block. For a while I was fine, until the thoughts came back. Recently, I clicked on her story on one of the platforms I had her blocked and this caused her to text my boyfriend “proof” that I was looking at her stuff yet again. We were able to talk and I explained this isn’t a game to me and again requested that she block me if she doesn’t want me to view her story or public profiles. Thankfully, she blocked me and apologized for her part in feeding into my compulsions which makes me feel weird…
Since then I have been struggling with not looking… It feels like an itch that needs to be scratched.
Also- I hate myself? Any advice or similar experiences would be greatly appreciated.

Apologies for the lengthy post, but I (23f) have been stuck in a rut with my boyfriend (23m) for over a year now and I have no idea what to do from here. It’s not an active, intentionally emotionally abusive thing, and I truly believe he doesn’t want to hurt me, but I’ve come to the slow conclusion that my current physical and mental health state has to be related to my stress over him, and yeah sure, I’ll get some strangers to weigh in on this. We’re long distance, and have been close romantically on and off since high school. I cut things off twice, once after just a year, and again when we just started college, but both times we just couldn't stay apart.
We’ve been together seriously for 3 years now, but I feel like he hasn’t been in love with me since early 2023. We talked less and less over the course of the year, with no real work to see each other or anything. He even jokingly confided in me that he considered he might be aromantic but shrugged it off. That’s a lot coming from somebody who ALSO confided that during our second split that he was flirting and entering relationships either to 1. make me jealous or 2. try and replace me. Outright-- to try and fill the gap I’d left. When I confronted him about the fact that, on top of his general apathy towards me and me having to do all the heavy lifting in the relationship, he’d considered just naturally not experiencing romantic attraction while still “dating” me. And he just kind of brushed it off.
I’ve had multiple lengthy, LENGTHY conversations with him about how I feel like we don’t do anything together, how I feel like he really only talks to me out of obligation if he talks to me at all, and how it really, really feels like I’m a girlfriend in name only. He spends all his time with newer friends, and I’m happy that he’s happy, but I didn’t expect the change to completely wipe me out of the picture. I don’t want to sound like I’m being a clingy, jealous woman here; he used to have involved, fun talks with me daily, and now he just will not talk to me for days for the sake of spending more time with new people. He got really attached to one person, getting all giggly and excited when they expressed wanting to get closer to him too, and it felt like he really had a crush on them. I insisted if he didn’t love me the same way anymore, that was fine, we’ve got our entire lives ahead of us to find the people we DO love, but he reiterated, a bit unconvincingly, that he was definitely, for sure, still in love and still wanted me and no one else.
The real crux of this happened in February, a few weeks after the first time we talked about how I felt like a title and nothing else. He asked me early in the morning if I’d be okay with him having phone sex with one of his new friends (shock of all shocks, the same one he got all starry-eyed over). We’ve always had a lax policy on physical intimacy, because of the distance between us, but the key thing here is that that stemmed from how little we could actually give it to each other. I didn’t mind any physical encounters he’d had, and really, all of them hadn’t gone further than kissing a girl at a club or similar small things. But the idea of him having phone sex bothered me, because… The whole reason we agreed ACTUAL sex was okay was because of how little we could actually offer that to the other. Something like that was one of the few things I could offer all the time, and he wanted it from someone else? I told him alright, but there’s one condition-- Now that I know you want this, you’re coming to me for it moving forward. He agreed, but just 10 minutes later said the two of them backed out of it because the other person was afraid of catching feelings.
He went cold every time I tried to initiate anything sexual, or really romantic at all for that matter. I ALSO asked what the deal was with that, and he said he just preferred actual intimacy to this. I brought up how suspicious he sounded, saying that the other person backed out right after I made my jokey rule, and suddenly he doesn’t want this thing he was sheepishly asking about just days ago. However, the closer we get to the date of his trip to visit me, the more he keeps subtly mentioning that he might not have the energy when the time comes for that, either. So rest assured, team, he’s definitely not just keeping me around for the sex.
He’s not even a good friend anymore in general. I try to support him whenever he needs me, even if it means staying up until 3 a.m. when I have work tomorrow, but when I need comfort, I get simple, curt replies. When I started doing the same to him, he asked why I was such a defeatist over his problem. He would ignore me for days if I wasn’t interesting enough to him, and though he’s been getting better about that, he still constantly talks over me on simple matters like our interests or my day. He expects me to be invested in everything he’s invested in, but he won’t even sit through an hour-and-a-half movie with me after I’ve tried to get him to for years. Embarrassingly, I didn’t fully pick up on this until one of my friends invited me to introduce them to one of my favorite things, and actually listened and engaged with me throughout.
So, I can’t be happy around him, or I’m ignored. I can’t be sad, or it somehow loops around to being about him again. And I sure as shit can’t be angry. I’m already a villain for leaving him twice.
I’ve realized recently that I feel like I’ll always be somewhat in love with him, but ultimately, it would be best for us to break up. However, he’s always been on shaky ground with his depression, and it seems like it’s only gotten worse with time. He’s reached a vulnerable point that he hasn’t hit before, at least in the time I’ve known him, and despite his lackluster attitude towards me, I know things will get very bad very quickly if I try to break things off myself. But… if you’re not romantically attracted to me, not sexually attracted to me, not interested in my life or our friendship, forget relationship-- What’s the point of NOT seeing other people? People who could make him happier than me, people he’s obviously interested in!
Sorry again for the length here. As you’ve probably guessed by now, this has been tearing away at me for a long time. He’s visiting in a month, and I can’t muster the energy to pretend to be excited about it. If anything, I’m dreading it, because it’s sure as hell not cheap to get flights these days, and I don’t want him busting hundreds of his own money just to ignore me and be bored with me in person. I don’t want to sound overdramatic or selfish, but this really has me crying almost every other day, fearing what would happen if I did just try to cut things off myself. I have no idea how to ask anyone for advice on this, because it’s just so… much, and I love him and don’t want him to seem like a bad person. I know he’s not. But I HAVE to have some sort of closure. Communication isn’t helping. I have to have a plan moving forward if I want to get better myself.
TL;DR: My bf is neglecting me in almost every department to the point the stress is taking a toll on me, but to break up with him would destroy him at an already weak point mentally. I’ve talked to him about this a dozen times, explicitly saying I feel like he’s no longer in love with me, and that’s alright, but we need to cut it off if he isn’t. He keeps insisting he still loves me. What can I say or do moving forward when communication isn’t cutting it?

i downloaded chat RTX successfully , but it wont run , I get the error of
httpx.ConnectError: [SSL: CERTIFICATE_VERIFY_FAILED] certificate verify failed: unable to get local issuer certificate (_ssl.c:1007)
and here what does it look like in the web:
and here what look like in app cmd

This site can’t be reached

127.0.0.1 refused to connect.
Try:

• Checking the connection
• [Checking the proxy and the firewall](chrome-error://chromewebdata/#buttons)

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127.0.0.1 refused to connect.
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Environment path found: C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag
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C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\langchain\chat_models\__init__.py:31: LangChainDeprecationWarning: Importing chat models from langchain is deprecated. Importing from langchain will no longer be supported as of langchain==0.2.0. Please import from langchain-community instead:
`from langchain_community.chat_models import ChatAnyscale`.
To install langchain-community run `pip install -U langchain-community`.
warnings.warn(
C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\langchain\chat_models\__init__.py:31: LangChainDeprecationWarning: Importing chat models from langchain is deprecated. Importing from langchain will no longer be supported as of langchain==0.2.0. Please import from langchain-community instead:
`from langchain_community.chat_models import ChatOpenAI`.
To install langchain-community run `pip install -U langchain-community`.
warnings.warn(
C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\langchain\embeddings\__init__.py:29: LangChainDeprecationWarning: Importing embeddings from langchain is deprecated. Importing from langchain will no longer be supported as of langchain==0.2.0. Please import from langchain-community instead:
`from langchain_community.embeddings import HuggingFaceBgeEmbeddings`.
To install langchain-community run `pip install -U langchain-community`.
warnings.warn(
C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\langchain\embeddings\__init__.py:29: LangChainDeprecationWarning: Importing embeddings from langchain is deprecated. Importing from langchain will no longer be supported as of langchain==0.2.0. Please import from langchain-community instead:
`from langchain_community.embeddings import HuggingFaceEmbeddings`.
To install langchain-community run `pip install -U langchain-community`.
warnings.warn(
C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\langchain\llms\__init__.py:548: LangChainDeprecationWarning: Importing LLMs from langchain is deprecated. Importing from langchain will no longer be supported as of langchain==0.2.0. Please import from langchain-community instead:
`from langchain_community.llms import AI21`.
To install langchain-community run `pip install -U langchain-community`.
warnings.warn(
C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\langchain\llms\__init__.py:548: LangChainDeprecationWarning: Importing LLMs from langchain is deprecated. Importing from langchain will no longer be supported as of langchain==0.2.0. Please import from langchain-community instead:
`from langchain_community.llms import Cohere`.
To install langchain-community run `pip install -U langchain-community`.
warnings.warn(
C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\langchain\llms\__init__.py:548: LangChainDeprecationWarning: Importing LLMs from langchain is deprecated. Importing from langchain will no longer be supported as of langchain==0.2.0. Please import from langchain-community instead:
`from langchain_community.llms import FakeListLLM`.
To install langchain-community run `pip install -U langchain-community`.
warnings.warn(
C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\langchain\llms\__init__.py:548: LangChainDeprecationWarning: Importing LLMs from langchain is deprecated. Importing from langchain will no longer be supported as of langchain==0.2.0. Please import from langchain-community instead:
`from langchain_community.llms import OpenAI`.
To install langchain-community run `pip install -U langchain-community`.
warnings.warn(
Using the persisted value form dataset_vector_embedding
Open HTTP s://127.0.0.1:48710?cookie=48e206cf-1b47-40a3-a517-ff7f0223f1ed&__theme=dark in browser to start ChatRTX
Running on local URL: HTTP s://127.0.0.1:48710
Traceback (most recent call last):
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpx\_transports\default.py", line 69, in map_httpcore_exceptions
yield
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpx\_transports\default.py", line 233, in handle_request
resp = self._pool.handle_request(req)
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpcore\_sync\connection_pool.py", line 216, in handle_request
raise exc from None
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpcore\_sync\connection_pool.py", line 196, in handle_request
response = connection.handle_request(
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpcore\_sync\connection.py", line 99, in handle_request
raise exc
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpcore\_sync\connection.py", line 76, in handle_request
stream = self._connect(request)
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpcore\_sync\connection.py", line 154, in _connect
stream = stream.start_tls(**kwargs)
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpcore\_backends\sync.py", line 152, in start_tls
with map_exceptions(exc_map):
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\contextlib.py", line 153, in __exit__
self.gen.throw(typ, value, traceback)
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpcore\_exceptions.py", line 14, in map_exceptions
raise to_exc(exc) from exc
httpcore.ConnectError: [SSL: CERTIFICATE_VERIFY_FAILED] certificate verify failed: unable to get local issuer certificate (_ssl.c:1007)
The above exception was the direct cause of the following exception:
Traceback (most recent call last):
File "D:\chatrtx\CRTX\RAG\trt-llm-rag-windows-ChatRTX_0.3\app.py", line 706, in
interface.render()
File "D:\chatrtx\CRTX\RAG\trt-llm-rag-windows-ChatRTX_0.3\ui\user_interface.py", line 426, in render
interface.launch(
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\gradio\blocks.py", line 2209, in launch
httpx.get(
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpx\_api.py", line 198, in get
return request(
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpx\_api.py", line 106, in request
return client.request(
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpx\_client.py", line 827, in request
return self.send(request, auth=auth, follow_redirects=follow_redirects)
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpx\_client.py", line 914, in send
response = self._send_handling_auth(
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpx\_client.py", line 942, in _send_handling_auth
response = self._send_handling_redirects(
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpx\_client.py", line 979, in _send_handling_redirects
response = self._send_single_request(request)
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpx\_client.py", line 1015, in _send_single_request
response = transport.handle_request(request)
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpx\_transports\default.py", line 232, in handle_request
with map_httpcore_exceptions():
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\contextlib.py", line 153, in __exit__
self.gen.throw(typ, value, traceback)
File "C:\Users\User\AppData\Local\NVIDIA\ChatRTX\env_nvd_rag\lib\site-packages\httpx\_transports\default.py", line 86, in map_httpcore_exceptions
raise mapped_exc(message) from exc
httpx.ConnectError: [SSL: CERTIFICATE_VERIFY_FAILED] certificate verify failed: unable to get local issuer certificate (_ssl.c:1007)
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I have to say this, I need to put this somewhere, I need to be seen
I’ve been struggling with burnout, depression, extreme avoidance, loss of skills, procrastination and anxiety for the last few years (I’m 23) failed multiple classes in university, isolated myself, started using substance before realizing I needed help badly.
Almost 2.5 years ago, I questioned whether I was neurodivergent. It took me longer than that to actually seek proper help rather than screaming for help in my head. I’m in the middle of getting assessed for ADHD, just in the past 6 months or so I’ve been wondering if I’m autistic/withadhd
I’ve yet to seek assessment for autism
Anyway, about 2 years ago, my first step had been to go to my uni’s clinic and talk to a physician about my mental health. I was still hesitant to seek help from counsellors. After a few appointments with the doctor I got meds prescribed for attention (vyvanse) and depression/anxiety.
Shortly after that, I told the doctor that I think I’m having panic attacks. I wasn’t sure about that previously but after having several experiences in front of my best friend, he suggested if it might be a panic attack. It never felt like that to me, it felt different but just as severe. I was in the process of finally trying to validate myself and my experiences (realizing nobody was coming to save me and I had to take care of myself yada yada) so I told the doc and gave her a few vague details cause I was afraid she wouldn’t take me seriously. She prescribed some medicine for that and told me to take it only when absolutely necessary (just fyi I’ve never taken even one). I never felt the need to take them. As in, every time I got what I was previously assuming were panic attacks…. It didn’t feel like a panic attack and I didn’t ever felt the need to take that medication. Anyway.
Then I didn’t think about it too much, just thought that my subjective experience was different and that’s it.
Then very recently, during my ADHD assessment, I was asked about my mental health and I told them I had panic attacks every now and then. Like before, I described it very vaguely, but unlike the physician, they just kept staring at me waiting for me to elaborate. Which honestly confused me. I wasn’t able to describe it for them very well. After going home I thought about it for hours. And now a month later (I’m waiting for them to make a decision on my assessment, the final appointment is on Tuesday) JUST NOW I read about internalized autistic meltdowns….. AND AND AND that sounded wayyyyyyyy more like what I experience at times when I get stressed by seemingly random or harmless stuff. And I just realized that I was never having panic attacks, I was panicking sure, but it wasn’t a panic attack and it might have been me having meltdowns but internalizing them
(to really try and describe them, it would feel like a spiral of thoughts and emotions. Always triggered by something, but never something too big, my reaction would externally look like a huge overreaction. I would occasionally throw an object across the room, scream internally until I felt pressure in my face/head and like I’m going to pop. My thoughts would descend into extremities like thinking my life is over, that I should just die, feeling extreme anger, shame, fear and laughing in a hysterical way for a few seconds before dissolving into tears. It ALWAYS ended in tears. I’m starting to recognize that I feel anxious in my chest and occasionally my vision would start to feel blurry. I would want to rage and scream and tear and break and die. My heart would feel like it’s in my mouth. I cannot keep still, i would pull my hair real hard, angrily stomp across the room or out of the room if someone is with me, almost like I’m about to pounce on someone but I’ll stop short, fists raised and pivot and breath very heavily)
Pls can someone just share their experience if you have a similar one?
If any of you can be a little descriptive about your meltdowns, especially ones where you’re trying real hard to not react physically…. I think that would help me to understand this a little more. Only if you can. If not, I still appreciate you reading this.
I realize this post sounds like a rant, should I have used a different flair?
Thank you 🙏🏼

I’m going to try and keep this short. I have no one to talk to anymore I have pushed everyone away due to their drama. I don’t do drama. Anyways, I have been a stay at home mom for the 18 years of my babies life. Now my baby is grown and moving on. I am not sure what I am supposed to do now. I feel like I have no purpose. The one thing I was good at was being a mom. My husband wants me to be home for him as I always have been. To have dinner ready and the house clean. It’s so quiet and lonely at home. I can barely stand to be here. But I don’t want to go anywhere else. I use to do a variety of crafts and I just have no motivation to do anything. My new hobby is to catch a buzz and ride the rest of the day out just to do it again tomorrow. What does a stay at home wife do?

So I’m 17 and it’s been a few yrs now since my mum is my main source of emotional support, which has done me more harm than good and I can’t seem to stop myself.
I keep telling her every little problem I have in my life and I feel the need to get validation from her that I am making the right choices in my life and I just want to feel loved as her daughter. But, I always set a trap for myself and it lead to her giving me the same advice that is unsolicited and seems very uninterested in me, to make me shut up.
For example, if I were to tell her that I was feeling sad because I’ve started uni this yr it’s been 5 months and I feel like no one in uni seems to like me and I feel like I haven’t made any friends (even if I have made acquaintances). Then her response would be “it’ll be fine over time” “this is why I’m telling you should go to church find friends there if no one likes you at uni.” And yes she is extremely religious pushing her religion onto me and nagging me to go to youth groups. I find it very uncomfortable because I have tried going and I feel that it’s not for me and I keep telling her but she always ignores me and throws a tantrum.
Also, It’s just annoying how she agrees to the fact that “I have no friends” even tho I expressed that I just feel that way. She would also all the time when I talk to her about my problems turn on her phone and watch loud YouTube videos mid way through me talking. It’s just extremely rude of her and when I point it out she pretends that it’s normal and rolls her eyes at me.
Worst of all my dad is not any better he would join mid convo with my me and my mum and say to me “your friendship life is not important and it’s irrelevant” he says it in a angry condescending tone to me as if trying to tell me off for trying to get emotional support.
Not only that but they won’t even let me go to therapy, I used to harm myself and they found out which I asked if I can get help but they told me that therapy is evil and medication is bad for your body, (religion related).
I have extremely low self esteem and I feel like I always make the wrong friends who are much similar to me depressed and likes to stay at home. I can’t make desicions for myself either I rely on my friends and my parents alot. I just feel like because of my parents, I don’t know if I am just victimizing myself or if they are truly narcissistic?

I’ve been looking around for this album called Welcome 2 My Hood by bleeda da zookeepa looked on discogs no luck use to be on datpiff but went down checked min the internet archive and no luck

One of my favorite spots for Moosing is in the cold northeast. I just did the save/reload trick once I locate a moose.
Funniest thing, and this is where the invincibility comes in, I shot the 3 star moose with my bolt action rifle, express round, and dead center between his eyes. His hung swung back and he ran way. Rendering him a 1 star. I had to reload.
Mind you between the eyes always took out anything I’ve ever shot at. All the big game went down! So I made it a habit. And just in case it matter it was straight on, another words the moose might as well have been looking at me. Completely dead on.
This time, I used my bolt action again except I switch over to high velocity (HV) rounds as maybe his ability to survive the higher powered rounds of the game was based on that tad bit of range that express shots don’t have that HV do. I fire, completely dead on moose-head-angle dead center of his eyes. Head swings back and the 3 star, which I was fortunate enough to get two in a row!, demotes to a 1 star and he runs away.
The biggest reason I came on here was to ask is anybody out there shooting noses? Because I actually have noticed boars and some other animals go down with a precise nose shot. I hit that specific area out of necessity. Your horse is full sprint, your torso is uncomfortably angled, you’re in dead eye mode, the boar is running terrified, and that nose is the best option when trying to painstakingly slowly glide your crosshairs, amidst all of the above simultaneously happening, to the boar’s head area.
And by all means, if you’re not a nose or ‘center of eyes’ marksman for effective 3 star preserving hunter, do share what works best for you in hairy situations with evasive game and keeping pristine pelts just that, perfect.
Thanks, team!

So I (24M) am going through a difficult time emotionally in terms of trying to figure out my current situation. One thing I can’t get over is what went wrong with my parents who are somehow still together. They both CLEARLY don’t like each other very much and I’m pretty sure the reason why is that they spend way too much time in the house together and it’s been going on for so long. My dad “worked” from home for a long time as a photographer (basically most of the time that I’ve known him) and things got real tough on his business for a good minute. But he went out of his way to not suck it up and do certain work that would’ve helped pay the bills (refused to shoot weddings, other things that annoyed him). It honestly comes off to me now as a bit lazy, and low and behold do I learn that he was a big pot head for my entire life. I personally don’t have an issue with weed, but I used to find it strange why he never really had energy. He also used to vent to me about his marital frustrations and how depressed he was CONSTANTLY, which I think I’ve figured out is because he smoked too much damn weed. This also made things very hard to enjoy when I was growing up bc I think I kinda felt responsible for him. He was always in an existential crisis. I’m gonna stick with the occasional joint but I’m going to be a booze guy from here on out (responsibly I might add, I’m not an idiot). Through all that, I generally have pretty good memories with him as he could be lots of fun at times. In terms of fatherly advice though, he kinda sounds like he barely, if at all, knows what he’s talking about. A lot. BUT, he did show up to everything that me or my brother were involved with and was and still is our biggest fan. He may just kinda repeat back what I say a lot when I ask for advice, but at least he’s trying. I appreciate the effort.
Mom was different. She worked a nursing job on the weekends that she had to commute to. This pretty much destroyed her mental health in my opinion, as she’s incredibly isolated and used to exaggerate how bad, irresponsible, and not caring I was as a kid and teen (I was the kind of kid adults DREAM of. 4.0 student, full ride, helpful, interesting hobbies but can also have fun. Never a burden to anyone really, club joiner, plenty of friends. The whole 9 yards). I was pretty introverted but I think it’s because of how they set everything up to be SO isolated. Putting me in an isolating school that was pretty far from our neighborhood because mom resented it. Our house is literally in a ditch that was pretty separated from everyone (only 1 neighborhood friend). Social skills were honestly at a premium to develop, but I survived. She always seemed so irritated at me, would point out a lot of insecurities I had to her friends to laugh about with, and never really cared to participate in things with me. Never showed up to school events or functions that I was involved with, blamed it on a fear of crowds (which she conveniently doesn’t have when it’s something she wanted to do). She was just kinda mean and distant. Did I jaw back and embarrass her occasionally? Sure, but considering other kids were shooting up heroin in our family (a true fucking story that she had to stick her nose in), I think I can be forgiven. This isolation had an incredibly negative impact on her health. The house is a wreck, her heart sucks as she had a heart attack a couple years back. It’s bad. Real bad. All she does is sit on her damn phone and watch tiktok. Her brain (which, she actually was acutely intelligent) is pretty much fried. It also didn’t help to learn from my aunt that my mom has had affairs (I want to think multiple but I can only confirm one), and the one I can confirm is with a convicted pedophile that she continues to defend (and my dad idiotically goes along with her bullshit on it)… so yeah. What the fuck am I supposed to do with that information.
So how do I make sense of all this. I’m very bad at communicating what I need unless I’m drunk, but I still want them to do better. I work from home with great pay for a single man, so I’m sorta using that to “make up for lost time” on things I missed out on as a kid, but I still feel isolated and stressed bc of the situation. I know I have a deep mistrust and fear of women that I need to get over as well, but I don’t know how to do that. I’m going to see yet another therapist about this, but even that’s burning me out. What’s with this situation?

Ok so basically my friend B is dating my other friend K. They’ve been dating for like 3 months now and already I’m worried about their relationship bc at multiple parties I’ve been at with both of them K has simply ignored B and acted like she isn’t her gf which I didn’t really like since I know it’s caused B to question whether K really wants to be with her or not many times. Not to mention B is going off to college soon while K is still finishing Highschool which I believe will cause even more problems since B is absolutely obsessed with K. This happened gradually, at first she would talk about her a lot and do stuff with her often which is normal for a couple who just got together, but recently B has completely changed. We used to talk for an hour or two on the phone every day and would text each other a lot, and now she barely answers my texts and doesn’t call me at all with no reason for it bc we haven’t like gotten into any fights recently or anything that would warrant her distancing from me like this. It’s not just me either. She’s literally made K her entire world, disregarding me and other ppl in our friend group just for K. I understand being obsessed with your partner since I actually did the same thing in my first relationship, but I also know the amount of friends it cost me and I just don’t want that to happen to my friendship with B or her friendships with anyone else. I just don’t know what to do or how to fix this without making her think that I don’t support her. What should I do? Any advice would be helpful thank you.

If any other state was behaving like Israel, the US would both condemn and sanction them immediately, and the evidence of war crimes/crimes against humanity perpetrated by the Israeli government/IDF is so overwhelming that you can't deny it even if you're pro-israel. Collective punishment of the Palestinian civilian population for Hamas actions, & that's only the tip of the Ice berg. Let's talk about the mass starvation and withholding aid, cutting off water & electricity. Like.. how do you even defend that? Let's talk about the INDISCRIMINATE bombing. Gaza has basically been turned to rubble. What about the deliberate & systemic destruction of the healthcare system? Targeting hospitals?? refugee camps??? Heck, Israel has killed Americans healthcare workers in Gaza, and some Americans STILL support the genocidal regime.
Like.. what Israel/IDF has been doing the past 8 months is appalling, and yet US support never ceases. Even when Biden "condemns" Israel for committing hideous war crimes, its never followed with an embargo or even a halt of weapon trade, It was literally just ONE shipment, and it was only briefly stopped. Or when the ICC rightfully announces their intention for issuing arrest warrants for Israeli politicians, several US republicans write a letter threatening to invade The Hague?! Like... this actually feels like some dystopian future. They're literally behaving like the Mafia. Like they're above the law & that international laws shouldn't apply to them. How can anyone in their right mind think that these are the good guys???
Plus the disgusting weaponization of antisemitism. whenever you legitimately criticize the state of Israel, you're either a) Antisemitic or b) you're Pro Hamas/Pro terrorist. Like its such a disingenuous response and is used in bad faith. I actually believe that Israel is the cause of so much antisemitism because they commit so many heinous acts and they claim to represent ALL jews, so no sh*t they create a bunch of antisemites that way. Also the smear campaign the media spreads about Pro-Palestine protestors claiming that they're "AnTiSeMiTiC", when there are usually a lot of Anti-Zionist Jewish groups at the centre of these protests. I want to ask the average American, since I know your government doesn't necessarily represent you, do you still support Israel in spite of all the horrors it has committed, or are you finally waking up? or do you still support Israel

So I haven’t actually played yet. I put it on download last night and will be booting it up for the first time today.
A few questions!
Which difficulty should I play on? I’ve completed DS 1, 2 and 3 - on normal difficulty, albeit with a bit of walkthrough guidance.
I’ve heard this is harder than DS and I’ve even seen reviews with people saying they’ve refunded it because of the difficulty!
Should I use KBM or controller? I would much prefer to use controller as long as there are no major disadvantages.
Are there any other hints/tips you can give me now to make the game more enjoyable for when I start?
I quickly skimmed through this subreddit and one of the first posts I saw was titled ‘Grand Finale’ or something.. so now I know who the end boss is and I didn’t want any spoilers :( - reluctant to look at this sub at all now.
Thanks in advance!

I’m close friends with a young turkish man named Emir, but he likes me to call him Ian. He’s 18, tall, skinny, black hair, and attends an art highschool. He might have graduated recently or soon.
He’s the most important person to me and he suddenly stopped contact with me months ago and went dormant on all his social media that i know of (instagram, discord).
I don’t know how in the world i could contact him now and why he stopped communicating with me. i’m not an insane person who would drive him away, but i know he struggles with lots of mental issues and extreme social stress and isolation. i don’t know what to do now and im very distressed.
I’d at least like to know if he’s even alive or dead.
please help. I don’t know his full name or residence. i’ve given pretty much all info i have. he wiped his instagram a long time ago and only used it to talk with me, and has since deleted the app. we then used discord to communicate but he hasn’t appeared active. i don’t know any other online communities he’s a part of, and i know nobody else in his life or family.

I have been reading about something called complex trauma, or complex ptsd. There has been a lot of good material about this out there nowadays, in the past I think this topic was not so well understood.
After learning about this, I realised how starkly ignorant I was of it before. For example, imagine being on fire but not having a concept of fire.
Trauma is something that, it seems, affects everybody or almost everybody. It does not only take war to cause trauma.
In my own life, I was totally shattered by the effects of trauma without really realising what that means. I wasn’t taught about this, I had no concept of it. I just knew the pain it entailed.
One day I became aware of mindfulness, thank you dr. hoffman. I learned about the basics of breath meditation.
I watched Sam Harris talk about how we have no self.
Then I got into Thai Forest Buddhism, then into Tibetan Buddhism.
Over the course I started having some spiritual experiences. Some of them related to seeing negative spirits. But I also had other long term issues in my life, related to illness, pain, conflict, and etc. I dove into spiritual practice as a tool for dealing with these protracted issues.
Eventually it worked but then it revealed a level that I had to learn about trauma. It wasn’t enough to learn about Buddhist texts or practices only. Sometimes Buddhists will talk about trauma but not only.
A lot of Vajrayana books have a warning in the intro that, a guru is not their job to fix your mental health problems, or your parental issues, etc. That you should see a therapist for this. And sometimes it is an issue at Buddhist centers being flooded by people in need of mental health assistance but this is not the niche of a temple environment.
In my own case, I have something called insecure attachment style. This is something I’ve been learning about only recently. I think it is really indispensable for my Buddhist practice but i’m not sure this is necessarily spelled out in Buddhism the way it is spelled out in psychology.
An insecure attachment style means not having a healthy emotional bond with your caretakers as a child. That was me. I didn’t have any healthy bonds with anyone as a child. Not any person. Also I was molested. My mother’s family has a history of pedophilia.
My mother might be armchair diagnosed as narcissistic, or borderline, or histrionic, or… psychopathic... But almost definitely also with complex trauma of her own. Especially given her own parents predelictions.
Tim Fletcher talks about how 97% of people with addictive tendencies have complex trauma. I think it was also him who said that if complex trauma were given its due (something like 70%) of the dsm would be removed.
In my own life, i’m a relatively functioning person. I am a teacher. I am a parent. I’m a loving husband. But in some way, inside I am totally and irreparably broken in a way that is unbearably excruciating. What is broken? Where is this pain coming from?
I ran into some issues before that seemed straight up karmic and I could straight up deal with them with Buddhist methods like karmic purification. I used to constantly hurt my back, i had repeat herniated discs, and I’d get poisoned a lot , i’d meet a lot of enemies, have insecure conditions. This is a karmic issue, and when i started doing dharma practice with the protections of lineage these symptoms eased up, the evil spirits went away, the back injury healed, i dont get poisoned or sick as much.
But then under this I discovered this emotional trauma related to childhood. Teal Swan talks about spiritual bypassing with regards to trama. I think I wanted to do this previously, before I discovered what is trauma. That if I could do the mantra enough times, then, I wouldn’t have to face the pain or do the work psychologically to reconnect with the shattered parts of myself.
But I didn’t know it’s possible to do it. Buddhism, especially vajrayana methods, gave me the tools to access the broken and fearful parts of my psyche. And then an understanding of trama and the relevant psychology helped me to hone my tools to deal with it more effectively.
There is something called Internal Families Systems, or “parts.” the parts of the psyche are not like one person. They are like many people, and that have different roles. Your psyche also has in it versions of your self as a child, as etc. etc. It’s all in your psyche.
At some points this becomes magical and like a shamanic journeying. You are enting the void to retrieve the broken parts of yourself and you must over come the fear of deaht to do it. Like physical therapy it is fucking painful.
In the “parts” system, there is a role called “protector.” In Tibetan Buddhism there is also something called a “protector,” or dharmapala.
Some Buddhist practices don’t consider deities to be external to us but parts of our own psyche. This is an exact fit with the relevant psychology. As I understand, Jung had some things to say about this but I never studied Jung.
Something i’m working with nowadays also is to recognise triggers. I think that this word was poisoned by memes. Triggered has come to mean “asshole.” I am a high school teacher and for so many years, “I am triggered” was the punchline for every joke. They were making fun of the people who had misused the word.
But this word needs to be dusted off, this is a real thing. I thought before that I had ptsd but i didn’t really contemplate what that meant. If you have ptsd, triggers are going to fuck you up. Learning to manage them is part of shamanic journeying. Sometimes, even now, when I hear a door opening or closing my stomach wrenches and my cortisol spikes and my heart races. I have to try to explain to my wife, what is this , why is it happening, how can she help. And it's hard to do because if something is your trigger, trying to talk about it can cause you to dissociate. But not recognising your triggers can cause you to dissociate too. And you are living like a zombie emotionally.
I didn't even understand that I was dissociating as a tactic to deal with unmanageable pain.
In my opinion the part that Buddhist practices brings to thet able that mere psychology does not is protection from karmic problems that you can’t solve with ordinary means. For example - let’s say that you’ve got some especially sticky negative karma caused by something very bad you did, and every time you try to approach healing your trauma, something gets in the way. Let’s say there are some demons feeding on your suffering and every time you approach improvement, they throw obstacles at you or press your pain so you don’t have the strength to do it.
It’s a lot more difficult to beat those types of demons without lineage protection. If you’ve figured out how to get to a level of Buddhist practice where you’ve actually got real lineage protection, you aren’t concerned about any of this kind of obstacle. Demons can’t hurt you. Negative spirits aren’t a real threat anymore. So then you can face the real darkness in your heart and you know you’re safe. It can’t really destroy you. Because the really truly fearsome things in the world, they can’t hurt you because you are under that lineage umbrella.
One of the fun things about the story of Guru Rinpoche is that he’s quite badass. This is very appealing for people who have encountered strong evils in the world. When Guru Rinpoche went about the world, terrible demons confronted him everywhere and he kicked their fucking ass every time. Knowing that he is willing and able to beat the shit out of demons is definitely relevant to spiritual practice where confronting your karmic chains is actually and in fact going to cause demonics spirits who don’t want you getting free to come around and start fucking with you. And if you’ve been fucked with by spirits, sometimes magicians and these people can talk about this, but having looked at all that I think it’s better not to play harry potter to deal with harmful spirits and instead to rely on the protection of Buddhist lineage.
Arya Tara is sometimes called “the one who protects from fears” and I once heard this explained that in Tibetan, “fears” means both the emotion of fear and the thing that you are afraid of, the dangerous thing.
Mantras have magical powers and this is an easy way to connect to lineage. In some cases I had to use buddhist mantras do deal with the physical consequences of trauma. For example perpetual fear, that kind of wrenches the heart and causes pain in the chest. Chanting the Vajra Guru Mantra I found actually dissipates this fear. And if you have these symptoms of trauma you are sick, all the time, so if there is some kind of relief to the pain you will take it.
That is enough for now
Om ah hung benza guru pema siddhi hung
Om tare tuttare ture soha

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Hey yall, I’m a prospective Econ PhD applicant - graduated with a BS in pure math and CS and a MS in Math ~3 years ago and have been working in ML research at a small quant firm with a penchant for niche applied research areas. A lot of my work revolves around using tools from other fields, mainly statistical physics/mechanics to solve problems in financial econometrics and package them as ML solutions, so I suppose “econophysics” might be a good descriptor for a chunk of this research. A lot of the external learning about economic theory I’ve been doing on the side as well has almost fully convinced me to apply to PhD programs within the next ~2 years.
I’m in the opposite boat as most of those asking about prereqs, since my math background is decent (measure theory, functional analysis, spectral theory/hilbert space/self-adjoint operator courses, measure-theoretic probability, convex and nonlinear optimization, stochastic processes, stochastic DE/PDE sequence, algebraic/differential topology and geometry, complex geometry, and ~7-8 various PhD courses in complex and topological dynamics and ergodic theory, etc.)
On the other hand, my formal econ background is just intermediate micro/macro and an econometrics class. I keep hearing that more math is usually the better route to go, but right now the few options that I haven’t taken yet at my local university are very niche:
Continuum theory, few very application-specific numerical methods for PDEs courses, Nonlinear analysis/bifurcations, PhD course on lie algebras, combinatorial commutative algebra, topological laminations, bunch of mathematical physics courses, and a few others but the general trend is that my remaining options don’t intuitively seem very intertwined with most areas of econ theory.
My local university doesn’t have an econ PhD program, but one 30 min away does. Would it be a better option to give more math a rest and go for some grad-level econ courses instead? I was planning on taking a PhD Micro theory course in the fall, but aside from that I’m not sure what my best choices might be. I’m guessing I’ll be able to squeeze in 3-4 courses in the timeframe before I start applying, so if anyone has insight on what kind of PhD-level econ courses are typically the most valuable for admissions, that would be super helpful. For context, my area of interest leans towards econometric theory, but that might change as I get more exposure to formal econ courses.
Thanks in advance for any advice on coursework choices!

So I’m 17 and it’s been a few yrs now since my mum is my main source of emotional support, which has done me more harm than good and I can’t seem to stop myself.
I keep telling her every little problem I have in my life and I feel the need to get validation from her that I am making the right choices in my life and I just want to feel loved as her daughter. But, I always set a trap for myself and it lead to her giving me the same advice that is unsolicited and seems very uninterested in me, to make me shut up.
For example, if I were to tell her that I was feeling sad because I’ve started uni this yr it’s been 5 months and I feel like no one in uni seems to like me and I feel like I haven’t made any friends (even if I have made acquaintances). Then her response would be “it’ll be fine over time” “this is why I’m telling you should go to church find friends there if no one likes you at uni.” And yes she is extremely religious pushing her religion onto me and nagging me to go to youth groups. I find it very uncomfortable because I have tried going and I feel that it’s not for me and I keep telling her but she always ignores me and throws a tantrum.
Also, It’s just annoying how she agrees to the fact that “I have no friends” even tho I expressed that I just feel that way. She would also all the time when I talk to her about my problems turn on her phone and watch loud YouTube videos mid way through me talking. It’s just extremely rude of her and when I point it out she pretends that it’s normal and rolls her eyes at me.
Worst of all my dad is not any better he would join mid convo with my me and my mum and say to me “your friendship life is not important and it’s irrelevant” he says it in a angry condescending tone to me as if trying to tell me off for trying to get emotional support.
Not only that but they won’t even let me go to therapy, I used to harm myself and they found out which I asked if I can get help but they told me that therapy is evil and medication is bad for your body, (religion related).
I have extremely low self esteem and I feel like I always make the wrong friends who are much similar to me depressed and likes to stay at home. I can’t make desicions for myself either I rely on my friends and my parents alot. I just feel like because of my parents, I don’t know if I am just victimizing myself or if they are truly narcissistic?