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This situation has been going on for quite a while and I need people opinions about it. (I’m sorry for my poor English).
Me and my bestfriend have known each other for almost 5 years. He was the first person I have ever felt a real connection with in all my life and it’s thanks to him that I feel like I’m alive. We spent a lot of time together in school, playing video games and also going outside. We also got to a point in our friendship where we both opened up about our problems.
It was in this occasion that I started to feel that something was off. After some things he said about friendships in general (which I won’t talk about in this post firstly out of respect, secondly cause it would make it too long) I had the impression that he was more connected with a friend we have in common than with me.
At the moment I thought that was totally fine, but later on I realised how unfair it was. He was my brother, my priority in life, my bestfriend above all, even my family, and for him I was nothing more than a second choice. I was second place to someone who didn’t even care about him the way I did and more than that put other people above him. I didn’t talk about it with him though as I didn’t wanna be seen as the one trying to sabotage their friendship despite the fact that everything I had to say was real.
Fast forward a year and the situation is still the same. We are still bestfriends and as all young people do we start to dream about things we could do in the upcoming summer. All ideas and even promises that were broken. During summer we ended up seeing each other only 4-5 times (counting some birthdays that were celebrated in those months) despite the fact I always reached out to him and asked him to hang out, to which he always answered ‘no’ or found stupid excuses becoming dryer and dryer at every text. I ended up rotting in bed for most of the season, even though we told each other we would have done lots of things.
Later on I asked him about why he seemed to be wanting to avoid me, maybe he was having some problems in private so I asked. He said that everything was okay and that we had hang out already too much, but that he would make an effort to hang out more. Blinded by the love (platonic love) I felt for him I excused him once again. However that was a mistake. In the following months (up until December) I still tried to create occasions to see each other. To all my questions he always replied no.
At this time I started to realize that maybe he was a bad friend after all. He never asked about my day (I did), he didn’t read most of my texts, he always admitted to not care about what I was talking about (I thought he was joking but maybe he wasn’t), he was always dry, he never reached out first, he never made time for me. All things that I did to him because I loved him (platonically).
I decided once again to talk about it with him. I specified how I felt about everything, how I didn’t feel appreciated and how I was always comprehensive about the situations. At first he was angry. He replied he was sick of being seen as ‘the bad friend’. Then he calmed down and said that he was sorry I felt that way, that he would try to reach out first and make time for me and that he still considered me as his bestfriend and also loved me. But I didn’t feel that. It felt like he never wanted to be with me alone. The only times we would be together were only if our other friends were with us. But that wasn’t the case with his other ‘bestfriend’. Whenever this friend suggested something he was always down and never came up with different excuses.
To cut it short. It’s been 5 months since that conversation and the one to still start the conversation, the one still trying to see each other, the one still putting effort into the friendship was me. All his effort went to that other ‘friend’ we have in common (who I get bad vibes from). That’s when I realised I was watering a dead plant.
So, AITA for ghosting my ‘bestfriend’?

you guys remember the recall? yeah still have not received mine. I've cut off the rubber thing back in last year December and it's already May now. I've tried sending emails asking for refunds 4 weeks after waiting. I'm someone who uses a blender for smoothie everyday so I can't be waiting for MONTHS for them to respond. Seeing how they continue to advertise their products everywhere on social media makes my blood boil, knowing there are so many people like me waiting for the replacement.

Im 14 so i will get 2 months at most but I'm still nervous and don't wanna fumble another baddie.
I am barely a 5 with a new cut and skin care.She is a good 8 who's humble enough to find me as a friend. I really don't wanna fuck stuff up and wanna bag her(get her to be my GF) but I'm nervous.
She shows signs of liking me too like sharing me stuff and secrets daily,quick responses and apologizing if she can't,friendlines,laughing at my jokes and being understanding. It is all i could ever want.
I took her out once to but while i got sushi she only got a chicolate cake which makes sence,since she's incecure about her weight(she isn't fat at all like she's 46 kg(don't forget we are 14) Then we went to a bar and got drinks (SHE PAID FOR MY DRINK) i felt so bad but it's ok i guess.
I plan to take her to a cinema to watch a horror movie,by her request,but i don't know what to do either.
Give me ideas about places to take her,gestures to make, subtle compliments and different ways to hint that I like her.
Im really good at psychology and can easily tell by eyes,body language, language,way with words,gestures and literally everything about what someone wants from me. She wants us to be equel not me paying for everything but paying for most stuff of course.
TL;DR:Planning to take a girl out of my league to the cinema. What to do next? How to act? How to hint my interest in her?

I 30 (f) am fed up with husband 40 (m) For context we have a 1.5 year old, loving and caring for our son is the most important thing in my life . I have been a stay at home mom the whole time. While pregnant we discussed my husband paying me x amount a month so I can do things for myself , like get a coffe or hair cut. I haven't received any, which is okay we have food and shelter I just miss that pinch of financial freedom to care for myself. While pregnant I also made a bill chart so he knows how much all of our bills are when they are due and how much money we will have at any given moment . I'm so frustrated I don't even know where to begin. Well the bill chart was not adhered to in favor of frivolous purchases. Now we are in debt. I mentioned to him I have an opportunity to work part time at my old job. I was told he is not comfortable looking after our child, And it is pointless for me to work for so little money. Well, I respect and appreciate that maintaining the home is my job as well As obviously nurturing and caring for our beautiful child. I get ZERO help. I have mentioned it would be nice if he could take out the trash or feed the animals on his way to work . Doesn't happen and it is pretty difficult to do all that one hand with a child on my hip. There is Plethora of other little nit picky things i could dive into . Suffice it to say I feel like I get no respect in our home zero concern in our interpersonal relationship. While I have voiced my concern repeatedly (and politley) and ask for help I am still always on the bottom of the totem pole. I feel like I'm at the end of my rope yet I'm called a cold bitch when I'm upset with him. For not helping me or not even giving me time so desperately need to gather myself . So am I the asshole ? Or am I. Just expecting to much ?

My disabled partner has been living with me for two years and I love them alot. Without me they would have no care and no housing. Im 22 and i just feel like im in a decent place in my life. Until my mom gave me an ultimatum of living with her till i find i a job, and shes threating too take away my insurance (which i need to live), she doesnt provide anything other that and some help monthly towards my car payment. I have two months till i grdauate and then i have to move back after the graduation and im really worried about what im goin do and i just want like someone to say hey its going work out. I honestly just wanna cut contact but i cant because its just so upsetting. Idunno.
This is really scattered i just wanna get my thoughts out on paper i guess. from your favorite daughter

Hi. I remember watching this movie years ago on late night TV. It seemed to revolve around a group who were working on a movie (a movie within a movie). Along the filming of this movie members of the cast/crew start dying due to suspicious accidents on set. The protagonist with a supporting actress begins to connect the dots and they come to realise that there is actually a killer among the crew.
I faintly remember the final scenes where the killer gets his comeuppance. The actor and actress are on a boat in the ocean. This might have been a scene from one of the prior accidents/deaths. The actress realises there is a clue under the water (possibly a sunken wreck) and dives into the ocean to retrieve it while the actor keeps an eye out on the boat above. He hears a plane nearing their position but does not realise the killer is flying so he dismisses it and averts his attention back to await the return of the actress who is still underwater.
I guess she finds what they were looking for and heads back to the surface to report her findings. At this point the actor sees the aforementioned plane (revealed to be a seaplane) positioning to land on the water and he now realises it must be the killer who has come to to tie up lose ends. As the killer lands on the water the actress emerges to see this seaplane rapidly approaching her position. The plane was still carrying a lot of momentum from the landing and is gliding across the surface of the water to her position at great speed. She does not have enough time to react to the impending threat and is dispatched as one of the skids (floats) from the plane collides with her head.
This leaves only the actor on the boat and killer. Unfortunately for the killer, the plane collision with the actress causes the seaplane to go into an uncontrolled tumble across the water's surface while he is still strapped in. The tumbling stops near to the boat occupied by the actor and the seaplane then begins to sink beneath the water with the windshield facing up towards the waters surface (camera).
In the killer's final moments the actor takes a vantage point above the rear of the boat staring at the killer beneath the water who is now helplessly trapped. The killer realising his deadly predicament stares up to the actor (camera) above the water.
The killer is unable to unstrap himself from the seat and begins to fruitlessly bang against the inside of the windscreen with his fist in an attempt to escape the sinking plane but he inevitably drowns in short time. The viewers (actor) get a view of his now drowned face as he and the plane continues to gradually sinks further away from the camera till we get a cut back to the protagonist bringing the scene to an end. If I remember correctly the killer had fractured his clavicle in one of the earlier filming related accidents to avert suspicion from himself. One of his arms might have been suspended in plaister mitigating his ability to be able to easily escape the sinking plane fast enough.
I believe I was early teens or younger back then and cannot remember the names of the stars but hopefully my limited description may ring a bell for someone. I tried ChatGPT but did not have much luck. Thanks for your time.

I'm putting this out there to document my adventures with early menopause. I'm also hoping to hear from other women who have had a positive experience. I'm grateful to this community for providing many recommendations and personal experiences which have guided me in making informed choices for my health. Background: 41 y/o, no period for a full year. Probably was going through peri since my early 30's and just didn't know it. A lot of weird symptoms the past 5-10 years make sense now! I just went through the process of getting a menopause diagnosis from an online provider called Alpha. I decided to skip the run-around with my PCP and GYN since usually the goal of the online concierge medicine apps is to provide you with meds that you already know you want/need. I plan to see my regular providers in a couple of months (the soonest I can get in) and hopefully one of them will take over writing my Rx so that I don't need to pay a monthly fee to Alpha (for now only $30, which is reasonable, but I'm afraid there might be hidden fees, so we'll see. Overall, I would recommend them for now)
Because of my age the Alpha NP still had me get my hormones checked and have a transvaginal ultrasound. This confirmed my hormones have run dry (estradiol <12, progesterone 0.5). Thyroid was normal. She did have me test FSH and prolactin too, which were inconclusive and also asked me to take a home pregnancy test despite me telling her my husband had a vasectomy 20 years ago (I get it, people sneak around). The ultrasound experience was fine and nobody should be scared to get one (make sure they let you put the probe in yourself- I did not have to ask for this, my US tech was lovely and they even warm the gel)
I am glad the Alpha provider was thorough in order to rule out anything more serious. Turns out I had a fibroid, but otherwise normal and once in the clear was given options for HRT. At first she only offered patches or oral estradiol. I requested topical estradiol gel since I've read many complaints on here about patches and they sound annoying. She prescribed the lowest dose 0.25mg. Also got 100mg oral progesterone and vaginal estradiol 0.1mg for dryness.
It took about 2 weeks to actually get meds due to waiting to get the tests etc. But I wasnt in a huge rush- it's already been over a year after all. I have high hopes, but mainly just afraid of nasty side effects, as I got MHT for long-term health (bones, brain etc) and not so much for symptom management (I feel pretty great overall).
Honestly I already feel like a superhero - went through peri while simultaneously starting and finishing nursing school, raising 2 children, working full time, went through a divorce (and many years of drama prior to that), moved 3 times, remarried and finally feel very settled the past 4 years. I am a fighter and a survivor and I want these hormones to keep me strong and loving the life I have made for myself because I'm not ready to waste away yet!
A few things that I think have helped prior to getting meds: pilates, walking and resistance training; tracking macros (aiming for 100g protein daily), low saturated fat, low sugar, high fiber diet (I got my high cholesterol down to normal levels in 8 months once I made big changes), microdosing psilocybin (yes! This really made a huge difference in mood and general outlook- look into it. I don't use it often now but it saved me during a dark night of the soul), low caffeine- just one tea daily, sunlight, fresh air and the love of a partner who truly cares (healthy relationships are a big priority, cut out the toxic people). I will update in a few weeks/months. Praying for a positive experience!

He rejected me because apparently it's not a good idea to get involved with colleagues. He made a full song and dance about it, about how he'd done it before and it ended badly, he couldn't do it again etc. So anyway I took it well, believed it, never mentioned the subject again. Told me it's really not about me etc etc.
Lo and behold, 4 months later, he's dating someone here. In our office. I just feel lied to, he didn't need to go to such great lengths, I wasn't going to die if he just said he wasn't interested. Fortunately I'm looking for a new job because I don't want to be around him/them whatsoever. It makes me feel ill.

So I have an addiction, and I havent been to confession for a couple months, because I know that I will likely commit the sin in the near future again. My plan is to go to confession once im ready to cut it out of my life permanently. And I know i am not yet. So I wait. And I feel terrible.
Am I correct that confession which doesnt involve a true resolution to stop doing the sin would be invalid?

Its been a month and a half and i feel like ots only getting worse. At first it startef as what i like to believe is hypomania, less sleep less appetite but i was productive and happy and talkative and overall more engaged in my every day life. And then it slowly became, not sleeing at all and still euphoric but less productive and more impulsive. And now im running on about 2-3 hours of sleep every other day, im angry and irritable and arguing with everyone that minorly bothers me, ive been impulsive and drinking and stealing and i started minorly hallucinating again (im guessing from the lack of sleep) and i overall just feel like shit.
I dont wanna get back on meds, i was on trileptal for 2 years but got off it cause it made me gain 20 lbs which made me relapse back into my anorexia. My therapist is begging me to give meds a shot because my episode does not seem like it will die down anytime soon. Are there any meds that dont make you gain weight cause my psychaitrist told me my only other option is abilify.

Hello all,
I am looking for some collective advice, support, and wisdom. My apologies ahead, I can't always be precise and succinct. I'll try to keep it as brief as possible.
I (42M), she is (33F), been with my wife for over 10 years, dated for 2. Have an 11 year old. Always had issue with her depression as she was a stay home mom for many years and I think the routine got to her. We used to yell at each other a lot, the kid also picked this up later in life. This is a toxic environment, imo. She also frequently projects one or two similar events onto many, completely cutting me off from the decision-making, because she thinks my response/reaction to one event will be the same for all of them. Then blames me for what may occur at the many events rather than 1 or 2 initial once.
Last 4 years were especially tumultuous with her going to work and me looking after our 11 yo. This was the beginning of the end, I think.
I got fed up at the beginning of this year and proposed a divorce and said I would leave in the next few months after. We've been all up in arms with each other since then, mostly me being extremely angry with the situation that I didn't know how to fix but this was my like 1000th time proposing a divorce and now it was very serious. I got some good advice since then.
Recently found out my wife has been having an affair since March with some guy she met August-September but according to her haven't spoken much (I believe it) until February. Things escalated quickly after I proposed the divorce. She quickly started a process of adapting to me not being there. I guess she just couldn't stand the idea of being alone after I left but I did not. I cooled down and in April proposed to reconcile. She was stunned. She didn't think it was possible. Doesn't know what to do about the affair after I confronted her about it. It took me a great amount of skill to fish the information out of her as she wasn't forthcoming with it and was lying through her teeth. The whole thing is extremely draining on me. I am not sleeping much these days and always stay up late just so I don't have to go to bed with the negative thoughts circulating in my brain like a swarm of bees. I don't have much of a support group either.
Here is the icky part, she does not mind an attempt at reconciling even though she is angry with me that it took me so long to cool off as it looks like I pushed her into an affair (I am definitely partially responsible for this). Looks like she is willing to put this affair behind her but I know for a fact that she won't sever the contact until she is sure that I will change my way about her. Also, says the "big" love she had for me has gone after she thought I was leaving her even though she acted jealously when I got a telemarketing call that hung up on me without saying anything. Also says she doesnt know if she could forgive me for neglecting her over the years (which is largely true. I got too comfortable). I assume the part about love is her telling me about how her unconditional partner relationship for me is gone. And the part about forgiving the neglect is the part about accepting me in the family for the sole reason of helping her raise our child (or any physical help around the house)? It looks like in a sense she broke down our relationship into two parts, where one are feelings and the other is any physical support around the house. I am extremely uncomfortable by this. I will not be able to stay with her just to have this inorganic relationship of convenience to help her. I will just go nuts and so I'd rather avoid this if I can help it.
I want to give this relationship one last serious effort to put some good advice I got to use, fix my mistakes and never make them again. Help her with her issues as much as I can because I want to keep her. What would be the best and fastest ways to rekindle her feeling of love for me and reassure her that I am the same man she fell in love over 10 years ago.
I'd welcome any other suggestions. Maybe I am not seeing something I need to see. I am sure someone somewhere experienced situation similar to mine and can give me an invaluable advice.
P.S. I will be posting updates and clarifications as I get responses.

Hi all, first time poster looking for some advice. I have had a pretty rough journey of breastfeeding my now 4 month old. Up until 8 weeks, he was getting more from expressed BM in a bottle than double the time nursing sessions which caused me substantial pain. At 8 weeks, we cut his tongue tie and the pain reduced but his feeding was still not as good as with a bottle. I’ve sort of accepted that I’ll do both and see the perks to pumping but want to keep nursing because it’s hard to care for him and find time to pump while doing so. My present issue is that for the last several days when I pump, regardless of time of day, my supply is reduced, I’m having fewer letdowns and my boobs still feel swollen and a bit lumpy after. I have worked with a LC on and off since he was born and feel confident about the settings on my pump (and have replaced parts recently) but I did try bumping up the level to see if that helped, it didn’t. I drink a ton of water, look at pics of my baby and try to relax (although anything related to feeding him sets off some level of anxiety when it’s not right). When I breastfeed him, I don’t notice the fullness or lumps after so I’m okay doing that for a couple days but it’s not sustainable for me long term. Pumping has always been my safe fallback when I’m not sure if he’s nursing well or if his weight gain is below the recommended amount so I’m a bit concerned and shaken up about this. Anyone have similar experiences? Did this just resolve on its own? Any advice other than hot showers, massage, baby pictures that might be helpful are much appreciated. I want to make it to 6 months of most BM supplementing with formula as needed but this whole “magical” experience feels more like a nightmare sometimes.

So I am 37(M) and my mother (73) before she passed away on 24/12 /23. The thing that happened was that my mom ended up, having health scares one after another last year. So essentially it was first when she was told to get minor cataract surgeries, this time of month last year and both her and me were busy with her tests and later surgeries in June, July. Since she had Care insurance, she applied for her cataract surgies claim - earlier both got approved for 30k each for both surgies costing almost 50k each but then suddenly they backtracked & said one claim was rejected as place where we got surgies done, was blacklisted later. Now the single 30k claim should have been deposited, right. But nope, it still stuck & since my mom later got diagnosed with stage-4 kidney cancer in September which really shocked both me and my mom as my mom's tests have always been decent, we couldn't follow up more than couple of attempts & instead got focused with dealing with the cancer situation. Irrespectively, I got her on keytruda immunotherapy asap as surgeon couldn't operate till it was reduced and my mom was indeed reacting very positively to the treatment despite some issues with side-effects. However despite my best efforts, my mother suffered a brain stroke and I had to take the difficult decision of taking her off life support while dealing with another care insurance tantrum where they rejected her icu charges when she was admitted as I rushed her to hospital while having a brain stroke. In short, I ended up paying almost 1lakh out of my pocket and still had to pay additional 2.5lakh for further processes which was further complicated by my narcissistic sister who was only around to get her inheritance & making my life hell so I had almost no time to arrange the amount as I had only 40k left. Thus I unfortunately withdrew funds from my mom's accounts (I am Nominee & had her credentials though I also refunded them once I had a more stable mindset & recovered from fevemy learning disability med issues throughout January). Either way, I initiated the Maharashtra govt ppo closure (I had refunded the amts taken from pension accounts prior to initiating paperwork) by Jan end & also approached local cbi home branch for also closing my deceased father's family pension to my mom. The branch manager directed me to this problematic deputy branch manager to whom I did admit that I had to withdraw funds from my mother's pension accounts but I have refunded them once I gathered resources(basically my sibling & family members are useless besides the fact that my sister has indulged in some criminal offenses like harassing me & my mom both before & after her death, etc while said family members did nothing besides ignoring my complicated health issues as I could have died the day my mom passed away). Since my mother also took 3 online FDs earlier in 2023, the deputy branch manager wanted me to break them & told me that individual account won't be closed & only her CIF would be directly deactivated. Also it was only few months for FDs to maturity & state govt pension closure was yet to occur - I told her that I will file for death claim settlement once state govt pension is closed & excess pension is recovered by them as deactivating the CIF will make this troublesome & a legal case. So she agreed to wait till state govt pension is closed and I gather all necessary documents in the meantime. Luckily state govt treasury did close the ppo & withdrew excess pension by 19th March while I also managed to transfer most of the mutual funds where I am Nominee. However since state govt treasury office (it's in another city from where I live & reasonably far), didn't give me letter of closure/confirmation - I was asked to wait for 1 month by local treasury officer (as financial year closing was approaching) which I informed to said deputy branch manager again. During this time, I also had to deal with legal paperwork as the lawyer my mom knew, didn't inform her or me to register the will, my mom made & also wasted my time in March. So I had to look for other ways to inherit one immovable property (my sibling holds 16.66% share and I have 83.34% as per my mom's wish to inherit the property as per her will), one problematic mf scheme transfer which I accidentally botched by editing Nominee details (still not sure as my mental health was seriously impaired in Jan/Feb & I also have same scheme, so not sure how it happened as there's no email confirmation except for an otp I found though I am not sure why I would update nominee details when I am already nominee there & even mentioned in will). Since UTI rejected both of my transmission claims so I am waiting for my current lawyer to complete the gift deed & apply for heirship certificate at municipality for filing my deceased mom's ITR. Also please note that despite timely updates to deputy branch manager, she let the FDs renew without my permission & has been acting dubious besides acting very rudely with me. So situation is,

1. I have filed compliant with cbi bank (or rather couple of them as again, I wasn't informed properly nor received proper feedback from bank plus despite calling customer care for almost 7 times, most aren't clear in their instructions as some mentioned different email-ids to complain to one asking to file a complaint with branch itself but I am not sure as branch manager said nothing despite my confrontation with deputy branch manager happening in front of him). Now I will be collecting the FDs physical certificates from branch & wait for resolution as said deputy branch manager is very suspicious(like asking me to file false FIR for missing online FDs physical certificates which I never had & whose online receipts I already have to also blaming me that I didn't tell her they were online while she wasted time & made me do a Rs500 stamp paper indemnity bond with additional documents like death certificate, AadhaPan, etc or saying there will be penalty for breaking autorenewed FDs that strangely got renewed on maturity dates without any prior indication & some things not adding up with new scheme plus the whole confusing me with different instructions & false claims all the time). Though luckily I have recorded the conversation with her first blaming me then backtracking once her fault was found. Also I atleast managed to travel to the distant city for closing state govt pension bank account & it was transferred to my savings account (it's at same problematic home branch) on 3rd May & de-activated my mom's CIF. So as bank resolution will take additional 15days to come(customer care first said 48hrs & now saying different), should I approach branch with resolution & LHC to minimize further problems despite being Nominee.(there's an error in relationship in cbi's savings account where my name & details are there but relationship is daughter instead of son but I already made Rs.100 self-affidavit as per dubious deputy branch manager instructions & all other documents including death claim form).

 

1. Applying for my mom's final ITR is necessary & I have already submitted most financial statements to my CA to compute including the TDS deducted on the FDs since I have been given July-end deadline. Plus as my mother & me spent more than 10lakh+ for her cancer treatment, I am hoping that I will get some deductible relief on her final itr besides tds. The issue is that I am still lacking any legal heirship document that will allow me to register as assessee for filing my mother's ITR. I did ask another bank where I am also nominee for mom's account, for issuing bank letter confirming Nominee details but they refused. However hopefully as I am going to execute a registered gift deed with help of my new lawyer that will mention my mom's unregistered will, I am hoping it allows me to register for the ITR. Otherwise I will have to approach local municipality office for issuing surviving family membeheirship certificate once gift deed allows me to initiate transfer property to my name.

 

1. There are still some untransferred assets such as a SBG linked to my mom's account besides the UTI scheme that's linked to same account(for uti, I already have most paperwork ready except that they asked for legal document that confirms relationship between me and my mother so while I can submit my passport copy though feeling it's better if will gets registered during gift deed process as it's mentioned there). Then there's the care insurance claim associated with same account & taken by bank officials of same bank yet it came to my attention that Care apparently messed my mom's name multiple times while issuing the policy & the claim hasn't processed as policy name & bank account name don't match (it's only a difference in middlename and could have been conveyed to my mom when she approached them multiple times). I did ask my lawyer regarding this & as amount is only 30k, he has asked me not to think about claim as for now as Care doesn't seem sincere as they haven't given it in writing that they will issue claim if I submit LHC/Registered Will with other documents. So while I will get SBG once I close the account & also uti mf scheme (hopefully), I am not sure if I should file a consumer case against Care (as an employee even misbehaved with my mom & the claim situation feels really fraudulent) or just hope that Care would honor the claim once I submit the documents.(they also only mentioned sending documents over email so again felt weird)

 
Overall all these incidents have seriously affected my health and frankly I need a break for myself as I am still struggling with my grieving (I saw my mom die 3 times & the family drama still triggers my cptsd though I am not suicidal or having med issues unlike in Jan besides still unable to take some personal time off due to these commitments). I also apologize if this post ended up too long or having details all over the place as I am still trying to piece together as much information I have as I do have written journal records of the paperwork & events that occurred though I forgot to list down some details here & there due to trying to manage everything by my own.

I’ve been crying about the gold mining in the Amazon ( miners poachers and illegal coco cultivators are the only people who deserve to be summarily executed is my hot take) , the Israel , the underdevelopment of Africa and I have been researching up on most of the production of resources and where it goes.
the vast majority of gold is not being produced by Brazil’s illegal mining for China ( why is DW allowed to lie about this shit) , it’s going to the US. recently the state department is trying to pressure the military crackdowns on illegal miners to end , which have saved the lives of countless tribes and protect hundreds of thousands of acres of land. By creating sanctions that are resulting in budget cuts. Ironically Lula strengthening ties with China has resulted in less pressure on the Amazon , allowing for deforestation to be halted more smoothly. the majority of palm oil and soy is for American cosmetics and to feed the insane beef industry here. And ofc cocaine , which is killing South America and as a result of its effect on South American biospheres will have global consequences by majorly messing up climate systems. Ofc the paper industry is honestly unnecessary.
yet all that palm oil, beef and cocaine gives nothing of value to the American consumer that parasitically siphons it off. Cosmetics make them unhappy and conformist , beef in the US has made them unhealthy obese and sickly , cocaine is a disguise for misery which just fucks u up inevitably but everything good from their own social fabric to their natural world , the things that give people happiness , are destroyed to a point of no return , for a dopamine rush that ends so quickly and leaves the consumer desensitised and spiritually destroyed. So it’s all for fucking nothing. This black pill has sort of fractured my psyche. At the expense of the millions of innocent people who die due to these cartels.
I honestly do hate cocaine users who do it for “fun” because fuck you for using it when the blood of the people required to produce each ounce of it numbers in the thousands. i want to replace the victims of those cultivators and cartels with the users in this country and make them experience the horrors of the industry and how living next to environmental degradation physically and mentally destroys you. that’s just my personal schizo anger though.
and Ofc when North America experiences the inevitable consequences of the shitstorm , none of it will have mattered, none of the dopamine , none of the social validation , none of the food and they will be the first pigs thrown out for the slaughter.
the capitalist superstructure made them this way but how do you convince the consumer proletariat that they have the power to just detach for this shit in order to weaken the superstructure. the system has successfully made them view anything for their benefit , like honest leftism , as anathema. the US has genuinely destroyed the world and is responsible for the majority of climate change. World hunger should not exist , the majority of conflicts in this world shouldn’t exist. Massive extinction events shouldn’t exist. We have the solutions but will we continue to destroy everything till there’s nothing left to solve? Probably . I am losing it.

I’ve been crying about the gold mining in the Amazon ( miners poachers and illegal coco cultivators are the only people who deserve to be summarily executed is my hot take) , the Israel , the underdevelopment of Africa and I have been researching up on most of the production of resources and where it goes.
the vast majority of gold is not being produced by Brazil’s illegal mining for China ( why is DW allowed to lie about this shit) , it’s going to the US. recently the state department is trying to pressure the military crackdowns on illegal miners to end , which have saved the lives of countless tribes and protect hundreds of thousands of acres of land. By creating sanctions that are resulting in budget cuts. Ironically Lula strengthening ties with China has resulted in less pressure on the Amazon , allowing for deforestation to be halted more smoothly. the majority of palm oil and soy is for American cosmetics and to feed the insane beef industry here. And ofc cocaine , which is killing South America and as a result of its effect on South American biospheres will have global consequences by majorly messing up climate systems. Ofc the paper industry is honestly unnecessary.
yet all that palm oil, beef and cocaine gives nothing of value to the American consumer that parasitically siphons it off. Cosmetics make them unhappy and conformist , beef in the US has made them unhealthy obese and sickly , cocaine is a disguise for misery which just fucks u up inevitably but everything good from their own social fabric to their natural world , the things that give people happiness , are destroyed to a point of no return , for a dopamine rush that ends so quickly and leaves the consumer desensitised and spiritually destroyed. So it’s all for fucking nothing. This black pill has sort of fractured my psyche. At the expense of the millions of innocent people who die due to these cartels.
I honestly do hate cocaine users who do it for “fun” because fuck you for using it when the blood of the people required to produce each ounce of it numbers in the thousands. i want to replace the victims of those cultivators and cartels with the users in this country and make them experience the horrors of the industry and how living next to environmental degradation physically and mentally destroys you. that’s just my personal schizo anger though.
and Ofc when North America experiences the inevitable consequences of the shitstorm , none of it will have mattered, none of the dopamine , none of the social validation , none of the food and they will be the first pigs thrown out for the slaughter.
the capitalist superstructure made them this way but how do you convince the consumer proletariat that they have the power to just detach for this shit in order to weaken the superstructure. the system has successfully made them view anything for their benefit , like honest leftism , as anathema. the US has genuinely destroyed the world and is responsible for the majority of climate change. World hunger should not exist , the majority of conflicts in this world shouldn’t exist. Massive extinction events shouldn’t exist. We have the solutions but will we continue to destroy everything till there’s nothing left to solve? Probably . I am losing it.

Just…. For gods sake, just tell me how long my Reddit post has to be for you guys to say “that’s not polybombing, that’s just innocently asking and you are a good person and a victim”.
I will type a 45 page post on Reddit, If you guys will JUST ADMIT ITS NOT POLYBOMBING!!!
We’ve been dating about 6 months, and he finally moved in with me, and cut off contact with his family. Now that our bonds are stronger, can I change everything and rug pull his whole life??
SERIOUS ANSWERS ONLY, I WILL IGNORE NEGATIVE PEOPLE

Now I have to explain this well my mom is an older sister of seven siblings with two of them being older than her . Well one of them has died as he did suicide so when my mom was like 17 she was very rich and beautiful and her family being conservative it was a kind of strict household related to fashion but other than that she was the only one studying at a prestigious school at the time so you get the idea but then my father who was extremely poor at the time and lived in Kashmir with a house of only one room for 12 people and mind you my father was also the oldest sibling so he started earning at a very young age came to the city Punjab I won't specify where to work he being a distant relative was given work at my grandpa's factory (mother's side) so my father was a really hard working man and he tried to learn everything quickly so that he could provide for his family in a better way . Then he saw my mother and always wanted to marry her (oh my god there are so many details i am missing but if you want I would explain it further just let me know) , so fast forward my father asked for my mother's hand from my grandma and promised her that he would keep her happy . My grandma was very ill at the time and my mother's sister in law was very toxic and my grandpa always favoured her instead of her own daughter as he didn't want to be a typical father in law and wanted to make her feel like a daughter so my grandma in order to protect my mother gave her hand to my father even when he had a hand disabled and with no money or background matching their own my father promised her that he would not make my mother live in the mountains and would take her out of country when he has a chance to (again many details are missing as to what abuse my father had to handle individually from when he was born) so then my mother got married to my father and then as my father didn't have any money my mother had to live for a short period of time in the poverty, dirt of Kashmir I remind you my mother is a city girl and is brought up like a flower so she has to endure and live at a place where 12 people live, eat and sleep in one room and if they have to pee they have to go in the farmlands with a jug in hand and don't even talk about the hygiene and food and she is put through it for one year after that my father went out of the country and my grandma died and this is where it all went down my mother was only told to endure all of this for just a little period of time so when my grandma died my father started to make my mother stay there with his sisters and brothers and mind you all of them being extremely abusive and manipulative. My grandma from father's side used to make my mother look like a bad guy Infront of my father and my mother being naive did not realize anything but when it is too late to mend . So back to the story my mother came back to my grandparents house in the city that is when she had my older sister my father used to send money to my mother for personal stuff but she would live at my grandparents house where all four of her sister in-laws lived and all of them were like snakes so they did many things to make my mother a bad guy and mentally abused her (if you want details I will give it to you this too long so I have to cut out so many major incidents) so at this point my mother has no hope left as her brothers and father's won't listen to her and her in laws were also the same so she was mentally abused so she tried to lay low and would beat my sister up and scold her even if she took a random piece of biscuit because again he sister in laws also had children and all of them would make a big scene out of it she couldn't even provide the things that she bought from my father'soney as it would cause a scene while they did absolutely everything to make my older sister suffer through anxiety the signs of this depression can be seen in my older sister . She was not allowed to act like a child when she was a literal 3 or 4 years child so after spending almost 4 years in this hell hole my mother insisted my father to at least send her more money so that she can rent a house so my father was still not doing well with money so he asked for some money from my grandpa as a loan and took my mother out of country with him but no no no life did not get better turns out my father barely would take enough money from his income for his own survival and used to send the rest back home as he had 12 tummies to fill ( between my second sister had also been born by this time and my father did not see her face since she was born till she was like 2 and my oldest sis being 4 when he came back to take my mother out of country) after this my mother again spent 6 years In extreme poverty and my mother's visa was also not legal at this point plus my older siblings studies were being affected for which my mother cared deeply about between my father's financial Condition had become somewhat stable in these six years and also there was extreme pressure for having a son from my mother's in laws since my parents had two girls already my mother had several miscarriages after my second sibling birth and soon after the birth of my second sibling my father became diabetic and after a year my mother became diabetic the reason of my mother's miscarriages plus the trauma after those 6 years I was born and it was again a miracle but unfortunately I was a girl but it did not affect my father at the time or maybe he pretended to (I was a very chubby baby as the nurses also called me big baby ) so back to story my mother returned back to the country for the reasons I mentioned above .she did not want to return back to the hell hole so she sold her gold jewelry to buy a plot near my grandparents house as it was on sale and then my father gradually build a magnificent house and by now my father's work escalated he became rich he brought up his 10 siblings settled them even build a big house for them to live in and married them off as well but they are lychees just sucking my father for money as i knew how they badmouthwd my Mom and us and I knew all of them even there children did not respect us or my father and they all just care for his money but my mother was ok with all of it as lomg as we lived in peace but life does not go as planned my mother and father would always get into fights and he even slapped her , there was no peace even on family function as the so called family always was the reason of the conflict . My mother's sister in law also ganged up on my mother with my mother's in laws and tried everything to destroy the relationship between my mother and father . but other than these conflicts my mother was still hanging in there and was willing to endure this for the sake of her children . Then when I was like 11 years old my mother had a heartattack and another tragedy and pain was added to the list of her painful life. After this my sister oldest sister was blasted with more responsibilities she was the one cooking washing our clothes sending usl to school and all while managing her university studies coming back home at 6 pm and doing everything.All of this but still the ship of life was cruising but then when I was 13 we got to know on one fateful night that my father had married another woman one week before we got to know so my mother packed he things up and went to her in laws to tell them about this betrayal of my father after spending 25 years of their life together and being with him through thick and thin this is what he did to her she went there with the hopes of making them question him my naive mother after all of those experiences of living hell still had hope in them . The night we got to know about it my father ran away in the hopes of coming back when the fire would cool down the next day my I'll mother spent an entire day while traveling with her sister(by the way my mother has two sisters who were too young at the time my mother married and there life has been even worse than this if you want to know let me know about it by the way my aunt's and my mother's one brother who is dead are the only good people I know In this family) so my mother went and the sight Infront was that they were celebrating my father's marriage the entire family my cousins my uncle's my aunt's everyone from my father's side they were all celebrating our demise by enjoying music and deserts and my father was also there with his wife and when they saw my mother they hid that woman and when my mother tried to pursue my father and that woman they all ganged up on her and my father's youngest sibling (brother) he hit my mother and then they just played it cool my mother returned the same night after being violated and needed no explanation that my father and her in laws all did it together it was just hidden from us . We were the fools everything hurts so bad my mother cannot do anything as we have not completed our studies and we are only girls in a conservative country but she is just living by the hope that one day we daughters would succed and they all that made my mother suffer will gar karma now I am 17 and my life is far from normal I wake up everyday and pretend everything is fine my older siblings are devastated my middle sibling wants to commit suicide but i have stopped her and convinced her not To do so while I also feel like crumbling I also wanted to do it when I was 15 and is still have an urge to do so but Allah has helped me so much . I have seen the entire world turn on me in the blink of an eye people change their faces so fast it's scary i am scared of people the suffering we endured in these 4 years is indescribable my father no longer treats me like i am a precious doll of his . He no longer loves me I see my siblings cry and I feel like their is no hope left I go out and men look at me with lust I don't go out I feel suffocated. Life has made a clown out of me. Gosh tears are streaming down my cheeks this stupid app really made me cry like a toddler I feel like a burden my mother is showing clear signs of trauma and she feels like a victim when we even make a slight mistake she no longer trusts anyone else except for us siblings her condition is getting worse she sometimes tells my siblings that they are the problem for her distress and says some nasty things which led to my sibling having suicidal thoughts but my mom is I'll her bones do not work properly she cannot walk properly she has two studs in her heart she is diabetic she has more medicine each day than food my father does not divorce my mother even when she demands it life is hell but we do have our little happy moments from time to time but they get destroyed by more and more tragic incidents Please someone tell me what do I do I feel so lost I am tired of this and life I think I have lived enough there is too much pain but Allah keeps on reminding me that there are many people out there having it much worse than us so I guess I have to hang in there until I can finally rest (there are many major incidents which I skipped in order to make it as short as possible) thank you for reading this bullshit of a lifen

21 F. I had been crushing on a guy (20M) I met on Bumble for over a month, we meet, he’s all shy irl. We talk and I felt like we connected. He, however, was a dry texter (or barely had interest in me, who knows atp) and didn’t text me much after the date and after a few days I was tired of him not reaching out so I texted him and we went for a second date at his place. While we made it clear that we wouldn’t get sexually involved, there was alcohol and things got out of hand. I felt the date went well and I slept over that night like we had planned. However, he ended up ghosting me, telling me he was busy visiting his friends who flew in. Since we were both looking for a relationship, I sent him a text asking him if this was overwhelming him. He still hasn’t responded to me, it has been 2-3 weeks now. I know I deserve better so I cut contact with him. Unfortunately I still miss him and keep thinking about what I might have done wrong.
How do I heal from this and move on?
TL;DR; : Cannot move on from a guy I barely dated after cutting contact

I’m a 23F, high cholesterol does not run in the family as far as I know and I am otherwise healthy outside of being overweight. I am also two months postpartum and breastfeeding which nurse says isn’t related but found that Google/reddit says otherwise. My test before last were a little high but the doctors office never notified me as they weren’t concerned but after my most recent test they notified me of these numbers. My doctor doesn’t seem crazy concerned with my numbers just told me to change my diet and to retest in 3 months but I am kind of alarmed. Dieting has always been hard for me, I am just wondering how bad these numbers are. I tried asking the nurse who answer the phone but didn’t get a straight answer. Do I need to drop everything and eat crazy healthy immediately or can I make slower more realistic changes like cutting out fast food, soda etc? Any advice is helpful.