Doxycycline avelox

I first contracted sinusitis in early January after overcoming a horrible cold over Christmas and New Year. My GP initially put me on Augmentin (2 weeks) in addition to a steroid spray and saline nasal rinses. Augmentin was renewed (another 2 weeks) after my symptoms (including green discharge) failed to resolve.
Since then, I have also cycled through Doxycycline and Avelox to no avail. I have continued the steroid spray and saline nasal rinses every day to little effect. Green mucus continues to appear along with post-nasal drip. Facial pain constantly afflicts me, with the maxillary and frontal sinuses being the worst (but not only) culprits.
My GP has done no diagnostic testing other than a perfunctory x-ray (which he claimed showed nothing). He finally (reluctantly) agreed to order me a CT scan. After a two-month wait, this has still not been performed. He attempted to refer me to local ENTs. The earliest appt he was able to obtain was for late August.
Every day, I suffer through varying degrees of pain and discomfort. Chronic sinusitis has had a devastating physical and psychological impact on my life. It has also exacerbated my diabetes and hypertension. I have been left feeling extremely frustrated and defeated by this affliction and I have experienced a deep sense of abandonment by my GP and our public health care system (Canadian).
I have undergone numerous health episodes over my lifetime, but none have had such a negative effect on my daily life as chronic sinusitis. I don’t know what the ultimate solution will be in my case (I expect that it might be surgical), but it cannot come soon enough!

I have a chihuahua/corgi mix, medium sized dog who is 9 years old. she developed a hacky cough in september 2023. She has never been boarded. two other dogs that live in the same house never got sick. With bouts of coughing she would bring up clear mucous or sometimes vomit stomach contents. take her to the vet. Diagnosed with kennel cough. treated with doxycycline for 2 weeks with no improvement. two weeks later tested negative for hearworm, chest xray does not show any abnormality, no CHF, no pneumonia, no tracheal collapse. I gave her nebulizer treatments with pulmicort and brovana to no avail. Tried low dose prednisone (10 mg/day) pepcid, claritin for one month without improvement. Vet thinks its tracheal collapse and nothing can be done. I am a pulmonologist and this did not seem right. I gave her avelox for one week, no improvement. Gave her chloramphenicol. cough may have been a little better but it could have been my imagination. Gave subcutaneous celestone (betamethasone 30 mg/ml) 1 cc injection. Within 24 hours her cough resolved completely. Continued chloramphenicol for two weeks. repeat celestone shot was required for recurrence of cough 1 week later. This second shot was effective for 12 days. she received 3 rd shot today. Will see if the interval for requiring steroid shots keeps getting longer. No doubt in my mind that betamethasone injection helps this tracheobronchitis in dogs

My husband had a severe case of pneumonia when he was young and any time he gets any lung/respiratory symptoms his doctor has had a standing prescription for avelox. I am not a doctor and therefore I’m putting my opinion’s aside to seek information. (In my country, Avelox was a antibiotic that was kept “in the vault” for only extreme cases.) My husband has NEVER finished his antibiotics, he quits taking them as soon as he feels better. Because my husband believes he will die if he doesn’t take antibiotics, I cannot convince him to see another doctor for a second opinion. He is truly afraid he will die without Avelox. (I am not judging his belief, and I fully appreciate the power of belief.)
I have some antibiotics in our emergency preps. 100 mg Doxycycline Hyclate and 500 mg Amoxicillin. In an emergency situation, would either of these be appropriate to give my husband for bronchitis/pneumonia?
Many, many kind thanks in advance.

My partner was diagnosed with Ureaplasma about a year ago and we decided to do the suggested treatment by our GP.
1st treatment: 7 days doxy (100g twice a day )
Symptoms disappeared completely for me (I would get rashes all over my body during infection) but then slowly returned so we got treated again
2nd treatment: 2g azithromycin (1mg on first day followed by 500mg on day 2 and 3)
Nothing changed so we did Doxycycline again for 7 days and nothing changed again so after a month we got perscribed Avelox (Moxi) for 5 days which we did and after about 3 months symptoms returned and after 4 weeks partner tested positive again.
So then we followed this forum and did 28 days Doxycycline followed by 2.5g of azith (1g straight after followed by 500mg daily until finished). while this did reduce symptoms, after a week they came back so being unable to wait 4 weeks to test we are now doing 4 weeks of minocycline 100g twice a day then waiting 4 weeks to test.. Hoping this is the end of this as this is mind boggling how it can still persist within us. During first treatment, we did have intercourse unprotected which made me believe might have caused us to reinfect eachother but apart from that we are not engaging in intercourse with eachother unless protected (we are extremely careful) and we are tired of meds...
Any tips apart from waiting for test results after the mino? Extend the mino treatment, let it finish (we are at week 2 of 4) or add moxi to the end of this mino treatment?
Thanks for your help guys, would not have been able to do anything if it wasn't for this forum and the countless amount of helpful posts.

So I'm finally clear from UREAPLASMA and MYCOPLASMA HOMINIS. So that's amazing. I'm still having some complications that I'll get into at the end of this post but first, I'm going to tell you how I did it and everything I've learned from having this terrible infection for 3 years. Let's start from the beginning bc all details are important:
-diagnosed with Ureaplasma 3 yrs ago right after getting HSV 2 (genital herpes) - symptoms at the time were weird thrush feeling in vagina and some weird feeling after peeing . That was it.
-doctor didnt think it was a big deal, gave me 7 days of doxycycline (ANYONE WHOS ON THIS MSG BOARD KNOWS THIS AINT ENOUGH and in MANY cases ureaplasma is resistant to doxy and most of the Tetracycline antibiotic class) and sent me on my way. Didn't work. Then I did azithromycin for 5 days. Didn't work.
-Gave myself a break from it for a while. Got a boyfriend. Told him. He didn't seem to care much about it. We slept together for a year and 1/2 and he never had symptoms.
-Then I got real bladder issues ( real bladder pain, serious urinary frequency etc) and decided to start taking treatment seriously again esp knowing that Ureaplasma left untreated can cause bladder problems etc. I saw a urologist and bladder doctor. My bladder seemed fine. They said it must be the Ureaplasma and I went back to my GYNO. Also I had my BF tested via URINE and he came out positive for only ureaplasma.
-My gyno put me on 7 days of Moxi. While on Moxi, my symptoms highly diminished however when I stopped they came back FULL FORCE. IMPORTANT THING TO KNOW ABOUT MOXI and the Fluoroquinolone antibiotics class (this includes Avelox, Moxi, Cipro etc) - these antibiotics should be used as a LAST resort. They can cause serious side effects. I truly believe they have their place in medicine but they should be taken only in serious situations. I was lucky to have no symptoms when I took Moxi the first time. Also right before this, I had been taking colloidal silver for about 8 days which helped symptoms but be aware that silver will kill bad and GOOD bacteria (just like antibiotics).
-At this time I started investigating natural cures including Stephen Bruhner mycoplasma protocol. I haphazardly ordered some herbs (not the full protocol) and started taking herbs everyday for only about 3 weeks with my boyfriend with no significant change in symptoms. I wonder if I would've seen in a change had I done everything properly for the recommended 3 months. I definitely think natural cures are worth exploring. I never followed this advice BUT one woman I found on a message board who had been cured said to me "Took Avelox (in 2015) for 10 days, was ok for 2 years, then had a relapse. Three months of Chinese herbs and acupuncture helped, tested in September 2019, 2 and half years after the treatment, negative results. Find a TCM practitioner, it's more expensive, takes longer but totally worth it. And you need to be patient and have faith."
-Then I finally took a Microgendx VAGINAL swab STI test. EVERYONE DO THIS. Up until now, I only thought I had Ureaplasma. Test results came back and I had ureaplasma (at a LOW level) AND mycoplasma hominis (at a MEDIUM level) and some other stuff (prevotella bivia, BV etc). Turns out my Ureaplasma is resistant to everything except the Fluoroquinolone antibiotics. My mycoplasma hominis is only susceptible to Clindamycin. So I return to my GYNO and go over the results with him. I'ma little discouraged considering I've already been on a week of Moxi. BUT, when I had done the Moxi, I hadn't learned about lowering bacterial load before starting Moxi or biofilm disruptors so I figured let's give it another shot WHILE TAKING A BIOFILM DISRUPTOR BEFORE AND DURING. I asked for 10 days of Moxi and 10 days of clindamycin. My doctor DID not want to give me both at the same time bc he said it would lead to serious GI problems. So I did Clindamycin vaginally for a week and Moxi orally. NOW - when I took Moxi the second time - I had HORRIBLE HORRIBLE side effects. Numbness, joints and body on fire, eye floaters, anxiety, insomnia etc. I pushed through 5 days and then stopped. I felt my symptoms diminish though and then I went rogue, got my hands on oral clindamycin (10 days) and 2 weeks of Minocycline and took both at the same time immediately following Moxi with no days in between . Was this stupid? YES. It fucked my stomach to the point where I had to go to urgent care because they though I had C. difficle (had to do a stool sample). Did it clear the infections however? YES. I tested 5 weeks after via urine and vaginal swab with Microgendx and my GYNO and I'm all clear. Oh and my BF only made it through 2 days of Moxi (he had terrible side effects) and then he did 2 weeks of minoycline and 3 days of azithromycin and his Microgendx test via semen showed he was clear of everything. He also did a test through urine.
-things I think everyone should know:

1. Minocycline OVER doxycycline ever time.
2. YOU NEED VAGINAL SWAB AND SEMEN TESTS in addition to Urine.
3. LONG COURSES WORK (14 days minimum) 21 days I think is even better
4. TRIED LITERALLY EVERYTHING AND NOTHING WORKS? Try LONGER COURSES or Get 14-21 days of Pristinamycin (only avail in france or AUS) Pristina doesn't work? CHINESE HERBS/ natural protocol for 3-4 months.
5. TAKE YOUR HEALTH INTO YOUR OWN HANDS. So many doctors don't know enough about this. They are only human and have limited knowledge. READ clinical studies, read other peoples stories. Self educate.
6. DO NOT HAVE SEX OR ORAL SEX AT ALL WHILE ON ANTIBIOTICS/TREATMENT. No one told me oral sex was off the table and you can get ureaplasma and mycoplasma in your throat.

-then to end this whole thing I think its important to talk about how I'm doing NOW. I've cleared the infections and def feel better BUT i have minimal thrush feeling (which i think is from HIGH Candida albicans) and still have bladder symptoms. Part of me believes these infections did serious damage to my bladdereproductive organs. My microgendx test showed that I have HIGH candida albicans which could be causing a lot of issues. My next step is to figure out why exactly my bladder is still out of whack. It's been officially a month and 2 weeks since everything. I'm hoping things will diminish as I build up my vaginal flora and gut flora and immune system. I plan on getting tested again in a month or so. Anyways, hope this helps everyone. And if anyone else has been cured and is still having some bladder symptoms, holler at me. Also, as someone who wants to have a baby in the next few years, IF ANYONE ELSE has advice about how to go about assessing fertility and damage done to the reproductive system, I would greatly appreciate talking. Love and support to you all. I'm very thankful for this community.

Details:
39, male, 85kg, 6 feet, non-smoker, otherwise healthy.
Situation:
- Started feeling sick on Friday 20th July: coughing, fever, shortness of breath, aching muscles.
- Diagnosed with pneumonia on Friday 27th July by my GP and prescribed amoxycillin for 5 days which I finished taking on Weds 1st August.
- Monday 30th July I am feeling no better. The GP prescribes me 7 days of doxycycline saying my lung scans reveal I still have infected lungs. Fever has died down. All other symptoms remain.
- Saturday 4th August fever returns and I feel terrible with the same symptoms described above. I go to hospital. They conduct a series of tests (xrays, blood tests) and say I have double pneumonia on both lungs that they think it could be something like Legionnaire's disease. They prescribe a third antibiotic which is Avelox / moxifloxacine and send me home saying to rest and hopefully this medicine will work and I'm to catch-up with my doctor if I feel worse.
Questions:
I am concerned that at this point I've been sick for 3.5 weeks and have taken 3 different types of antibiotics. The doctors from my perspective have no exact handle on what's wrong with me and just seemingly prescribing various different antibiotics to see what sticks, rather than fully determining what the issue is.
Is it normal for pneumonia to persist for this long and shouldn't the doctors be keeping me in the hospital until they fully determine what is wrong with me and treat me?
Also if they're suspecting Legionnaire's disease shouldn't they be able to determine this one way or the other?

Hi there!
I was diagnosed with SLE five years ago. Around 4 years ago, I started taking Plaquenil 200mg daily for maintenance.
I recently switched rheumatologists, and my new rheum thinks I'm being drastically under-treated. He ran a few tests (labs, xrays) during my first exam and diagnosed me with secondary Sjogren's . We came up with the game plan of having me on Plaquenil and Imuran before weening me off of the Plaquenil completely.
Only issue was that I got *extremely* itchy on the Imuran and had a bad reaction. My body really tends to hate medications -- in fact, I'm allergic to most abx (penicillin, amoxicillin, keflex, avelox, doxycycline, sulfa).
Our next game plan is to have me try to take methotrexate. I'm a little nervous to try it - but given that half of the above antibiotics put me in the hospital for allergic reactions, I think it's understandable LOL.
Does anyone have any advice? How did you do with methotrexate? Which rx are you on? I'm truly open to any recommendations.
Thank you! xo

I was put on Doxycycline and Moxifloxacin, both have failed to heal my condition. This case has put my life on hold, I was soon to start a new family but now I'm rather stressed and my social life and work performance are crashing.
I'm a 22y/o male 5'7", 125lbs(143 before sickness). First Doctor diagnosed me with Sinusitis and the second rolled with it when prescribing Avelox. Both have failed to treat me, I'm allergic to Penicillin and Sulfa.
No other existing medical issues that I am aware of.
I woke up with tightness in chest and shortness of breath this morning but my breath came back to me mid day. I can't find any data on bacterial infection survival rate before antibiotics. If treatment doesn't help me, how likely am I to survive??
This is the only question I have, please if you can answer me even if its bad news

Bayer is the manufacturer of Cipro and Avelox, which are the brand names for the generic antibiotics ciprofloxacin and moxifloxacin. Bayer recently released a warning letter to doctors:

"These labeling changes provide for revisions...to include a new limitation of use statement for...uncomplicated urinary tract infection...to reserve systemic fluoroquinolones for treatment in patients who have no alternative treatment options." https://floxiehope.com/2016/10/17/letter-from-bayer-to-doctors-regarding-cipro-and-avelox/

Why? Because the risk of life ruining side effects is too dangerous to make these commonplace antibiotics. The actual drug manufacturer itself, the people who make money covering up side effects, are admitting this.
You should apply this to all fluoroquinolone antibiotics. Cipro, Levaquin, Avelox, levofloxacin, moxifloxacin, oflxacin, etc. None of these are "safer" than the others. There's a reason why a Google search for any of these antibiotics returns pages of horror stories. It's not a conspiracy theory, these drugs do serious damage to the body.
What should you take instead? Well, I would personally not take any antibiotics unless a bacterial culture comes back positive. Doctors prefer to issue an antibiotic on the first mention of symptoms, long before any cultures come back. Antibiotics in general are no joke. If a culture is found then doxycycline, "z-pak", bactrim, are options, but your doctor will generally have a recommendation if you say you're allergic to fluoroquinolone drugs. By the way, your doctor isn't going to know anything about this letter. No doctors know how dangerous these drugs are. You need to proactively protect yourself from them.
I know what you're thinking: "Side effects are rare, and I'm young and healthy (other than prostatitis). They won't affect me! I'm not giving in to these conspiracy theory horror stories from anonymous internet users!"
That's exactly what I thought and I took 6 pills of Cipro. Now I'm facing full body damage that is too lengthy for this post. So are many others on this subreddit.
I guarantee if you knew all the science behind how fluoroquinolone drugs worked, you would avoid them at all costs. There have been hundreds of studies since the 70s on these drugs showing full body devastating side effects. The biology behind these antibiotics is truly disturbing.
If you've taken any of these drugs before that does not mean you are safe taking them in the future. There are many reports of people who took them 1, 2, 5 times, and had no side effects, but the first pill of the next dose wreaked havoc on their body. There are some speculated reasons for why this happens biologically, but we don't know for sure. It's speculated that everyone has a "lifetime tolerance" threshold to these drugs. Eventually you'll hit your tolerance limit and go into crisis mode.
Additionally, these drugs have been documented to cause debilitating side effects up to two years after stopping the medication. The literature suggest the adverse events are statistically most likely to happen within the first 6 months, and most of those within the first two weeks, but there are case studies of year+ delayed side effects.
By the way, no one knows why this drug destroys some people and not others. This drug doesn't just destroy people in the risk factor range (over 60 or under 18, etc). There are people of all ages and all walks of life that are effected. Some suspect a genetic component but nothing has been conclusive. There are countless stories of young runners, rock climbers, swimmers, yogis, crossfitters, weightlifters, horseback riders, hikers, people in top physical condition, who now can no longer do their favorite activities.
There are hundreds of known and well documented side effects that these drugs can and do cause. They range from death after the first pill to blindness from retinal detachment to permanent disability from tendon ruptures to permanent nerve damage causing you to feel like you're in pain 24x7. Or you could get hair falling out, teeth shattering, permanent tinnitus, permanent full body muscle spams, and so much more. These are not exaggerations, and only a small sample of what these drugs are scientifically documented to do.
I took 6 pills of Cipro 2 months ago and I've had to stop bicycling, weight lifting, running, drinking alcohol, drinking coffee, smoking weed...people who recover usually measure their recover time in years. Would I rather have intermittent testicle pain than barely being able to walk, with pain making me think every step will cause a disabling achilles tendon rupture? Yes.
Taking a fluoroquinolone is gambling with ruining your life and disability. How many times do you want to roll these dice? Especially if no bacteria is cultured?

I CAN'T TAKE THIS FUCKING SICKNESS ANYMORE!!! I CAN'T STAND BEING SICK FOR 5 MONTHS STRAIGHT WITH ANTIBIOTIC AFTER ANTIBIOTIC AND NO FUCKING DOCTOR WOULD HELP ME!!!! I'VE TAKEN AVELOX, BIAXIN, OMNICEF, DOXYCYCLINE, AZITHROMAX, JESUS FUCKING CHRIST I'M GOING TO KILL MYSELF!! THIS IS TOO MUCH!!! AND NOW I HAVE TO FUCKING DRIVE IN AN AREA I DON'T EVEN KNOW AND I CAN'T EVEN GO TO FUCKING UNIVERSITY BECAUSE I'M SO FUCKING SICK!!!!!!!!! NOBODY CAN HELP ME, NOT EVEN MY FAMILY!!!! NOBODY EVER FUCKING HELPS ME!!! THE DOCTORS ARE SO FUCKING DUMB AND DON'T CARE!! THEY JUST DON'T FUCKING CARE ABOUT MY SINUS PROBLEMS!!! THEY DON'T CARE THAT I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY AND I HAVE TO DRIVE TO THE DOCTOR IN AN AREA I DON'T EVEN KNOW AND I CAN'T EVEN GO TO CLASS!!! IF I DON'T GO TO SCHOOL I FALL INTO A DEEP DEPRESSION AND I'LL END UP IN A MENTAL HOSPITAL BUT MY MOM WILL KILL ME AND WE HAVE NO MONEY!!!! I CAN'T EVEN GET A FUCKING JOB BECAUSE I'M SO SICK!!!! I CAN'T TAKE THE FUCKING STRESS AND RESPONSIBILITY!!! I CAN'T TAKE THE FUCKING FIGHTING AND FUCKING CHEST CONGESTION AND HEAD AND EAR PAIN AND FEELING SICK ALL THE FUCKING TIME! I'M A FUCKING PRISONER!!!
NO FUCKING MORE. I CAN'T TAKE IT I CAN'T TAKE IT!!!! WHY AM I EVEN ALIVE????

I know I posted this in another subreddit earlier but I'm just going absolutely crazy. I am a 19 year old female and my life is hell and crazy and always has been. I like being busy but I am very sick so it's hard. I literally just moved to a completely new state and region 3 days ago and I've had supposed "sinus" problems for the past 5 months even though no one really knows what's wrong with me.
I have gotten countless blood tests and 2 ct scans of my sinuses and all of them negative. Everyone thought I had thyroid but it was negative. I got allergy tested and no allergies, but supposedly "non allergic rhinitis", but the doctors where I used to live sucked. My sinus ct scans were always normal, and, basically, all of the doctors haven't known what to do.
In the past 3 days I've been here I've been to 3 doctors and all of them have said different things. I've been on antibiotic after antibiotic for the past several months, and I know it's not healthy but I don't know what else to do. A few months ago I was on Azithromax and steroid dose pack, completed the course and it helped a little but as soon as I stopped symptoms came charging back. Then I took doxycycline and completed the 10 day course, managed to survive but symptoms came back again. Then came the big guns, Avelox 400 mg, and I take it for 7/10 days before receiving bad leg pains and I have to get off of it. It helped the most but the doctors here believed "I shouldn't have taken it" because it was too much.
Then I took Omnicef 300 mg for like 7 out of 10 days again but my symptoms came rushing back the worst this time. Now I'm on Biaxin 500mg pill#2. I went to some lady doctor yesterday who got rave reviews, but she said I didn't need antibiotics and thought I only had bad allergies and thyroid problems, gave me a prednisone shot (which I've gotten before and it doesn't help) and gave me blood tests again. She then put me on allegra 180, flonase and singulair (not biaxin, that was another doctor) and said i didn't need antibiotics and that i should "trust her" but by last night i felt like my head was going to explode so I took a biaxin 500mg and called it a day.
I went to a doctor today and he had basically no idea what to do and told me to get allergy tested soon. He just said take Biaxin 250 mg and was nervous for me being on so much antibiotics but he didn't know what else to do and said that if it doesn't help in 3-4 days then he's stuck. So far it hasn't done anything significant, and I'm still in major pain and am fatigues.
Oh, I forgot to say my symptoms. For months it's been feeling hard to breathe, and it's gotten better but now my chest is congested again because of constant drainage that NEVER, EVER comes out and just goes to the back of my throat and downwards. My throat is usually on fire, and my ears are killing me, along with my teeth, neck and head, and every time I lay down I feel the full effects and like I'm dying. I feel extremely fatigued and haven't even been able to walk up a hill without feeling hard to breathe for a solid month.
The most stressful thing is that I live at home with my parents (by choice because I have major anxiety/depression issues on top of everything) and we literally just moved here 3 days ago. My mom was already living here and she said that I NEEDED to get better by the time we moved and of course nothing helped so I'm still sick. I consider her my best friend yet she blames me for being sick, saying that I'm wasting her and everyone else's time because I have to go to the doctor's all the time.
I can drive but I don't know the area at all, and can't drive on highways by myself. The area is much, much more crowded than where I used to live, with aggressive drivers and you need to take highways to get anywhere. My dad has his job where we used to live and is staying there but he helped us move up here, but HE had to take me everywhere, not my mom, because she is busy with her new job.
And it's not like I hate she has a job, I'm so thankful and glad she got a good job but she gets stressed whenever I get sick and I can't help it. I've considered suicide but I'm too much of a pussy to even try it or cut myself so I just wallow in my own sickly misery. On top of this I've had anxiety since I was little and depression since I was 14 but I don't have time to find a psychologist because I'm just so sick and honestly don't care. I had a psychologist back where I used to live but she was nothing special and I'm only on 10mg Lexapro and not sure if I have to take anymore but I'm too tired to try anything new when I'm sick.
I have never really fit in anywhere. I was pretty popular in middle school, but in elementary school I was considered a freak, kind of the same with middle school but I had friends and was popular, then in high school I started to distance myself from everyone until junior year when I just couldn't take it anymore and had to do "home schooling" for 2 months, but it was a hellish experience. I was bullied relentlessly as a child through high school because I never stood up for myself, and if I tried to the bullies would just laugh at me. Mostly boys bullied me and it's hard when you're a girl and don't know what to do.
I don't have any friends, and even if I get a friend I find hanging out with them a torture and try my best to avoid them. I haven't been with another person in over a year. I've never had a boyfriend/girlfriend by choice. I find it useless.
That's also why I don't fit it. I consider sex really gross, even though I get "horny" and masturbate and after climax I instantly feel depressed. I get suicidal when people anywhere talk about sex or drugs or weed. I just don't understand what the point is or the point to having relationships. I have told therapists that I don't like being in any sort of relationship but they didn't help, and I'm too embarrassed to talk to them about sex or masturbation.
I've told my parents about how I hate having friends and don't see the point of being with another person (not about sex or masturbation) but they just think I'll grow out of it. My mom doesn't understand my depression, even though she considered becoming a psychologist at one point and has anxiety issues. I can talk to her about almost anything, and I can tell her I'm suicidal but if I sit around and mope she gets frustrated and doesn't understand. My dad said he had depression in high school but he said he got over it and when I told him I was suicidal he started to cry so I never talked about it again. I still tell him I'm depressed but not suicidal because him crying really killed me.
It probably sounds like I have Asperger's too, and I thought I might have it and I have talked to several psychologists about it and my parents but no one thinks I have it. Also, I don't seem to have any of the major symptoms for having Asperger's. Honestly, I wouldn't care if I did or not and it would explain some things but I don't think I do. I was just sheltered as a child because my mom grew up in a bad area and tried to protect me. My sibling and I are also very lazy, and our parents never made us do chores or anything. I am also motivated and I think my brain just doesn't work correctly. I also sometimes consider myself asexual but it kills me that I am. I just want to be like the girls who giggle over boys or like to have sex but even just mentioning sex and stuff on the internet makes me shiver and feel sick, and I don’t like people who smoke weed (sorry if you hate me) and just people talking about it makes me suicidal.
My depression/anxiety doesn't matter right now because I’m sick all the time. I want to get better but I can’t. I’m giving up and my dad says I could possibly see an infectious disease doctor but I don't know if I should and I need to find a good one first.
Also, my grandma is staying with us and I am very frustrated with her. She has never had a job and is socially inept. So now you’re probably thinking “oh maybe she’s autistic” but I don’t think she is, because she is capable of empathy and doesn't display symptoms of having autism or Asperger’s besides some of the stuff I will write. She is overweight and has a hunchback, and her life seemed to only be about just getting through it. I know I shouldn’t say I hate her because she’s nice to me but she gets me so frustrated. She refuses to get a hearing aid, throws a tantrum whenever she doesn’t get her way and doesn’t take things seriously, just laughing when my parents fight even though it crushes me.
Here’s another thing. My parents have been at each other’s throats since I little. My family is always screaming at each other. In their 20 year marriage they never got a divorce, and I know my mom wants one but my dad says it’s too late in his life to start seeing other women, even though they call each other names all the time, like my mom called dad “fag” or “girl”. It’s frustrating, and they won’t go to a marriage counselor and that’s out of the question, but it really messed things up. My mother is extremely independent, sure of herself and tough, but she also has anxiety problems. She is the type of woman who talks on the phone loudly at the bookstore. She is manipulative, but still understands me more than my dad.
My mom never whispers, never quiets down and always tells it like it is, so the house is always loud and there is always a screaming match. The only good thing about this move is that my dad and her will be separated by several states, but he’s currently trying to find a job here to live with my brother and I, and that’s stressful.
That’s another thing. Sometimes I want to do something with my life and sometimes I’m so depressed I just want to die and think I should just be put in inpatient care. I have no motivation, and the physical sickness has also caused me to lose motivation. Also, not wanting to date or have sex or have a significant other has made me question my purposes in life. I try to make my life worth it, and I think the only way to have a good life is to do something that matters and be famous for it, which is a terrible thing to say. And I ask myself “why am I so special out of the other 7 billion who are just living their life?” and it makes me extremely depressed, even though people are just happily going around living life every day. But I can’t imagine doing that. I actually do have some talents, but they are not good enough by today’s standards. I am only decent at playing piano, singing, and acting but every time I try to get better I get sick. I have also thought about journalism but then I lose motivation and find everything boring.
Since I was younger, I imagined myself in different worlds and different characters as my friends, like, in elementary school, I remember imagining the cast of Sonic the Hedgehog hanging out with me in the cafeteria. I know it sounds silly but it’s a major problem that's continued and I’m way too embarrassed to tell anyone.
Since I have watched other TV shows or played other video games or whatever, I immersed myself into their worlds. And I still do it with a certain video game now, but I don’t want to say. It keeps me up at night, immersing myself into the world and hanging out with the characters. And I realize it’s NOT normal and EXTREMELY embarrassing, and I have never, ever told my psychologists or parents that. But I do tell them I like to imagine myself in another world, but nothing like from video games or tv shows or books. I’m too afraid and embarrassed to tell anyone my true feelings. And every time I try to get away from fantasy my mind just goes back again whenever I’m in a tough situation. Sometimes it helps telling myself that the characters are like everyone else and like sex and stuff so I won’t fit it, and that helps me get back into the real world sometimes. But every time
I get depressed I just have the urge to go back to fantasy. Especially when I’m sick. And I know I need mental help, but I’m sick all the time, so the most important thing is to always get better. But the weird thing is, I have a good immune system, so I’m not sure what’s happening and I’m suicidal because of my sickness. I feel worthless and like I would be better off dead. And I know I live in a bad household, but I’m too afraid to live on my own.
Just thinking about living on my own or with a roommate gives me extreme anxiety. Who will motivate me to get a job or go to college? My parents are the only ones to have motivated me to do things, not myself. Who will take me to a doctor? My maturity level is the same as a 14-16 year old’s, probably because I spent my high school years living as a recluse. But, my anxiety has gotten better, and I did many things at 19 that I should’ve done at 16. Like this year, I got my first job, I got my driver’s license and went to college (which I thought I would never do). But I don’t fit in with other kids my age, and it sucks that all anybody wants to do is either have ambition or do drugs.
And I hate the world because it seems so boring and depressing to me. Having a career and just thinking about sex and relationships and that's it makes me suicidal. I find that sort of ambition, to live for a career and relationships worthless and depressing (to me). I don't know why I am like this, probably because my brain is not wired correctly or I grew up badly.
Even though I hate being with people, I still need to be around people and need social interaction or else I get extremely depressed. And I realize I have made many generalizations in this long post, and I’m sorry. I’m really tired and sick and am having a hard time writing.
I'm sorry that this is really long and doesn't fit the subreddit standards, but I really needed to get this out. I don't know what to do anymore. Classes start next week and I couldn't even go to orientation because I was so sick and I don't know what classes to take. But what can I do if I'm still sick? No one can take me to a doctor except maybe my grandmother. I've just been sick for so long, wondering if I'll ever get better. I'm so lost and don't know what else to do.

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Please reply if you are living in the New York or Tri state area and are currently taking antibiotics for an illness or need to start taking antibiotics to cure an illness.
This project is sponsored by a new media platform focusing on human interest pieces from around the world. The documentary will profile individuals and families who are struggling with the high costs of doctor visits and prescription medications, such as antibiotics. The flaws of the US healthcare system will be told through the personal stories of participants, with a focus on daily the sacrifices they are forced to make.
Infections commonly treated by antibiotics include: Urinary Tract Infections, Ear infections, Sinus Infections, Sore Throat, Colds and Flu, Respiratory Infections, such as Pneumonia or Bronchitis, and Rheunatoid Arthritis
Commonly prescribed antibiotics include: amoxicillin, augmentin(amoxicillin/clavulanate), azithromycin(z-pak, tri-pak), ciprofloxacin(cipro), cephalexin(keflex), doxycycline, minocycline, tetracycline, trimethoprim-sulfamethoxazole(bactrim), clindamycin, metronidazole, levaquin, and avelox
Please respond to this thread or via email at antibioticdocumentary@gmail.com for more information on this project and the sponsor.
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Samantha
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