I cant feel pain if i dont exist. I would much rather have never been born but beggars cant be choosers so i might as well make do with the next best alternative. I have existed for 21 years, i have no prospects, no close confidants aside from the one person whose heart i broke and in turn broke mine, and no sense of direction or motivation. I made a choice i thought would protect her from pain and disappointment, and ended up causing so much pain and disappointment she could no longer bear the idea of being with me. She could no longer see a future for us. We had spent so long discussing possible futures, destinations, careers, even fucking pets, and in one moment i ruined that reality, or possibly rather revealed its unreality. If she couldnt accept me at my worst, most shameful state, did she deserve to see me at my most proud? If there is a God he, she, or whatever fucking pronouns they use are a cruel manipulator on a cosmic scale. 1.5 years may be a blip in the eyes of some master creator but im barely 2 decades old and this shit has been a massive fucking chunk of my life so far. I know theres other people, i know the key to happiness is working on myself, but why should i even fucking bother when all i want is to devote my life to her? Some find solace in religion, praising and worshipping whatever deity some guy thousands of years ago pulled out of their fucking ass and maybe that brings them peace. I wish it did for me. I wish i was able to keep believing that some guy in the sky created an entire race of sentient beings out of fucking dirt and then somehow had a son with one of these dirt gremlins for the sole purpose of this son dying ‘for the sake of our sins’. I wish so badly this made sense to me. Maybe then i could direct all my energy to that and find purpose in it. But i dont. And i cant. It just makes no sense to me. Id rather put my energy and soul into someone i can perceive, after all perception is the only confirmation of our reality. I cant see some sky daddy up in the clouds, but i can see her. I worshipped her, i praised her. If there was a God it took shape in her. They say he made us in his image but the only proof of that i can see is corrupt, selfish, and altogether destructive to itself and the world he supposedly created for it to foster. If we are the image of God then he is a vile, ugly, sadistic being. I remember learning in school about tragedies, and their main defining trait is that they revolve around the downfall of the protagonist due to a flaw of their own they were unable or unwilling to overcome. Humanity is a fucking tragedy. The only animal cursed with the knowledge that we are slowly decaying. What kind of existence is that? Im supposed to find purpose knowing im just a sack of atoms with an unknown expiry date? How do i live knowing everything and everyone around me will not only cease to exist at a certain point, but if our mess of a species manages to make it into any sort of distant future, most of us arent even likely to be remembered? I hate sentience, i hate existence, and i hate pain. I hate the way my heart aches when i see her. I cant seem to escape this prison of affection she has me in. i hate that i let myself be so vulnerable and then hurt her so badly she can no longer be vulnerable with me. I worked so fucking hard to earn her trust. It was a fucking grueling experience. And i would do it all again if given the chance. The looks of mistrust turning to a deep reliance, as i slowly peeled away the layers to her soul. She used to describe her trust as eggs she was putting in my basket, and the day she said i had all her eggs might have been the most loved i ever felt in my life. 2 weeks ago she told me i broke one of her eggs, and she had to take them back now to protect them. I dont think ive ever felt so much pain and remorse as i did in that moment. Not only for hurting the person i cared about most, but because i have to live with the fact that that unreality we had built together would stay that way, and it was all on me. I hurt her, and i hurt myself. I know theres probably someone out there with more shared interests, with more quippy one-liners, possibly someone im even more attracted to physically. But i just dont fucking care. What point is there in chasing that when it could all get fucked like this? I cant do this again. I wont do this again. Its too much. I think i might be done. One of these days i might finally get the fucking balls to do it. ive been so scared for so long. The afterlife, my family and friends, her. But fuck it. My parents see me as the problem child, and they wouldnt even be fucking wrong. My siblings barely know me and i barely know them. Visiting home is like a hotel where im constantly reminded of how much of a failure i am and all the ways everyone around me is better. And im genuinely not even jealous. I could care less about any of my cousin’s lifestyles, or my sisters much better academic performance and artistic skill, or my brother’s athletic prowess. I really am happy for them, they all deserve it and more given the work theyve put in. The only thing i give a shit about is the fact that i get treated less because of these things. I just want to be able to live my life without being put down for choices that im happy with. I just want genuine fucking support, and when i fail to not have it shoved in my fucking face as if i dont already feel like enough of a shit sack. I dont need a 6 figure salary i need a fucking support system. A small but significant part of me holds a deep resentment for my parents for actively choosing to bring me existence. When i get the fucking chance i might just have to take that existence into my own hands and strangle it away, but for now im too much of a fucking pussy to try. I dont even know how id do it. I want it short and painless, almost instant if possible. I dont want any chance of survival in the form of life support, so maybe looking into a dnr would be useful but i dont even know where to start with that. Ive heard of a trick with the car exhaust, but i dont own a car and i dont want anyone finding my dead body in their vehicle. I just want an easy death, life has been hard enough. I feel like im tipping over the edge

When Lou tries to break up with Ivo because she thinks he is only having fun with her and she has nothing meaningful to offer him, Ivo throws some pretty solid arguments back at her of why they should stay together... She gives him honesty, freedom and faith... ❤️ Not just pleasure and excitement.
Sometimes, not everything is exactly as it seems.

Hi guys, i'm a brazilian 17 year old guy that was happy, sympathetic and caring towards others, I am catholic and I participate in Sunday school every Saturday, but since the start of the pandemic in march 2020 onwards, i suddenly became brainwashed and paranoic with Christian conspiracy theories, mainly Qanon, and end times prophecies but in 2022 it only got worse, it all started at school when my sociology teacher who coincidentally was an evangelical pastor started talking a little about the end of times/Ragnarok and my friend said that between 2023, 2024 the apocalypse will begin, or it doesn't happen anything in these years, very probably in 2025 and 2027, and i searched on youtube and i saw various evangelical channels claiming that we are at the end of times and 2030 the world will end bc in that year Jesus will come back to only save evangelical christians and will only save those who are on the Life Book and will throw everyone who's those name wasn't on Life Book burn alive on the lake of fire of the hell alongside the antichrist, false prophet and everyone who followed him and God will destroy the universe and we will be living in the New Jerusalem, and they say repent of sins because the devil exists and they insist on saying that sin and the devil exist even though this has not even been scientifically proven, such as not wearing short clothes like shorts, jeans, not getting tattoos or piercings, not eating meat of pork, prohibiting homosexuality, free will, dating during adolescence and many others, they say that we are experiencing the greatest apostasy in history, which means that people are moving away from faith and and God and ignoring the warnings about the doomsday bc the world is becoming more ''sinful'' and the love between the people has been cooled and we are living like in the antediluvian days when Noah warned about the cataclysm but people ignored, mocked and called him demented and paranoid and instead they were eating, drinking and partying until the flood came and destroyed the world. world and killed everyone, and they keep repeating this saying that this is real even though it has been proven that it never happened and that it is impossible for a storm this strong to cover the top of Mount Everest, they think they are right and scientists are wrong, because science is an ''abominable sin'' against God, They say that God is merciful but he is also wrathful and cruel against those who do not follow his commandments. and they also talk about Jesus' appearance as if it were true at that time even though it has not yet been proven. i've watched some videos of these pastors and missionaries of my country and never got their prophecies and predictions wrong, all of things that have said become true
They say that geopolitical tensions are increasing which will cause ww3, it is no wonder that countless billionaires around the world like Mark Zuckerberg are building bunkers and selling several of their assets, i saw a letter written in 1873 that a American Freemason named Albert Pike who in his letter predicted the first two world wars, and is now supposedly ''predicted correctly'' the third world war, which would begin with a conflict between Zionist Israelis and Arabs, and also they claim that this war between Israel and Iran -Hamas is also the prophecy of Gog and Magog being fulfilled, They also say that the world will enter an unprecedented global economic crisis worse than the great depression, which would increase prices absurdly and this would culminate in the greatest famine the world has ever had, surpassing the great famine of the Middle Age,
They also say that elites such as the World Economic Forum, the UN and the Bilderberg Group will launch a gigantic EMP weapon that will shut down all energy and appliances in the world, and that they will then enact global martial law that will taking citizens off the streets and homes via buses and putting them in concentration camps and killing mainly white and conservative Christian groups and burying them in FEMA coffins which will start the famous New World Order and mass depopulation through the great reset and agenda 2030 and will put an end to all cash and create an electronic currency where payment is made with the global fingerprint, which they also say will replace passports with this global biometric password, they also say that They will do away with clothes and food and will replace them with processed foods made from insects, GMOs and laboratory-grown meats and everyone will be forced to wear the same clothes and have their names changed they also say that they will install government cameras inside the houses to know if any intruder is entering the empty houses
and all of this will begin the antichrist's rise to power, he will be a powerful leader who will unite all sovereign governments into one government and people will worship him and will implant the mark of the beast, where no one will buy and sell without it and will kill everyone who does not accept the mark, which means that everyone in the cities will die, only those who go to the fields or mountains will survive, it is no wonder that they are asking to stock up on water, non-perishable food, batteries , flashlights, medicines especially ivermectin (so much so that I've seen reports of people curing themselves of COVID using this medicine and chloroquine) and radios to survive between 2025 and 2027, because according to them, there will be a pandemic 30 times more lethal than the previous one that will kill almost 400 million people in just two years and that will be the period where seal the seven-year peace agreement between Christianity, Judaism and Islam and will sacrifice a red heifer in the Al-Aqsa Mosque, where it will be destroyed in sequence to begin the construction of the third temple where the throne of the antichrist will be during the final three and a half years
They also insists that global warming is a lie bc all of these disasters that are happening such as frequent strong earthquakes which happened in turkey, morocco, japan and taiwan recently, floods that left the southern of my country almost destroyed, tornadoes and hurricanes becoming stronger and killing more people and wildfires becoming more frequently is caused by these globalists, for example, the recent wildfires that happened in hawaii, canada and chile was caused by massive lasers coming from satellites and these floods and earthquakes caused by HAARP, and the fact-checking and social media such as reuters and afp is lying bc they are owned by rothschild and george soros for example
And i'm worried to have a cancer or a fatal heart attack when i become 20 years old that they discovered that in the last years have an increase on cases of cancer and fatal heart attack on young people, and they claim that is bc of the vaccines bc they contain aborted fetuses and microchips and graphene
And they also talk about the woke agenda, where defenders of this theory claim that globalists use films, video games and series to misrepresent characters from these entertainment industries to promote progressive agendas such as LGBT, black lives matter, abortion and feminism, for example, they made Ariel from The Little Mermaid black in live-action instead in white, as a way of indoctrinating masses and grooming children to be subjected to being perverse, it's no wonder that Disney is in one of the biggest crises in its history by excessively promoting identity issues in every film they release. And it's also no wonder that the number of abortions in the world increased over the last years
What I am most afraid of is the claim that globalists have knowledge of future events that makes the masses accept the event when a certain thing happens, this is called predictive programming, for example, in many disaster and science fiction films, there is a subliminal message in numbers called ''923'', supporters of this number mean that something very bad will happen on September 23rd, but obviously nothing happens, in White Noise for example, there was a train accident in the state of Ohio and in 2023 a train derailment with toxic products occurred in the same state as the film, Black Mirror ''predicted'' several technological innovations, The Simpsons for example predicted the September 11 attacks and Trump's victory in the elections, The Matrix also predicted predicted several technological innovations, such as the redpill movement and the production of babies in uterine machines. As for the Leave the World Behind', they say that the film predicted the accident of the ship that collided with the bridge in baltimore, Lastly, the film The Knowing is incredibly identical to the plot of the biblical apocalypse, but these claims are already debunked by fact checks
And i became scared of these prophecies that have been ''fulfilled'' such as Ezekiel which mentions that Dead Sea became filled with fishes and signs in the sky and stars disappearing
i will mention some of them:
They discovered recently that the moon have some rust pigments and the sun are frequently producing giant black spots which in apocalypse 6:12-17 means that the sun became black and the moon becoming blood
The days are passing faster, which on matthew 24:22 mentions that unless those days were shortened, no flesh would be saved; but for the elect's sake those days will be shortened.And unless those days were shortened, no flesh would be saved; but for the elect's sake those days will be shortened.
The Euphrates River is drying up which in apocalypse mentions that the sixth angel poured his bowl over the Euphrates River and its waters dried up and released four demons who destroyed half of the population
Some Rivers and seas are becoming red, which refers to Apocalypse 16:4 that the third angel poured his bowl on rivers and seas and became red as dead blood
And I started to think that some mathematical calculations they do are simply not coincidences, they took the year the Black Death ended in 1353 with the year the WHO declared a global COVID emergency in 2019, subtracting those years would give the result in 666 (2019-1353=666 to be simpler) which alludes to the number of the beast and nd other math that they also thinks its a proof that we are at the end of times uf we use the word ''CORONA'' as a code where the alphabet is corresponding to its letter in ascending order (for example a = 1, b = 2), it would give the numbers 3, 15, 18, 15, 14, 1 will also give the number of the beast is correct if we multiply these numbers.
I'm trying to follow channels that disagree that we are in the end times and treat people with love, like the method of preterism where it states that the apocalypse happened in the year 70, but they say that this is heresy because in Matthew 24:24 it says that in the last days false prophets will emerge deceiving many people and in 2 Peter 3:3 where it says that at the end of time many will mock and disagree with the imminent Return of Jesus
i'm asked my parents and my friends to repent of your sins and believe in the Word of God, But I bothered them so much that now they don't even want to hear it,
however after all that, I started to think that these evangelical channels only preach fear in people, thinking that Jesus is going to return physically and that I have been superior all the time for no reason at all. I researched these things so much that now it appears when I search for an account on Instagram or YouTube, I would like to thank anyone who could give me some tips on how to get out of this and get rid of these pests, how i do?

Hi, i've been feeling super lonely these days, i'm going through a lot of things lately and i really have no friends, no partner who i can talk to, destress playing some games or watching an anime or a movie.
A little bit about myself:
Call me rizzio, I'm 26, almost 27, I'm a videogame developer prior to graduate from university. My goal is to become a level designer or a 3d modeler in the industry, move to any country in the world that it's not latin america and get a family and get a bestfriend for life. My hobbies are Playing Videogames, designing some levels (but university drains me so much i have no time or motivation right now so i play instead) and sometimes making some 3d models. I like anime but i'm not watching them right now.
English is not my first language, it's spanish, so if you're a little uncomfortable that i make mistakes writing and spelling i'm sorry, i'm trying my best to get better each day.
I stream on twitch almost everyday at night just to pass the time of being alone. I play almost anygame, As a Developer i often love many genres out there and i don't say no to try new games, as they can give me ideas or knowing borders i never played before. So if you're a gamer we can definitively play some games together. I play mainly on PC but if the game has crossplay i have no issues on playing! i'm not picky at all.
What am i looking for? I just want to get a friendship or a relationship with someone that truly cares for me, gives me attention and wants to spend time chatting or playing. For myself i am a caring, loving person, who gives a lot of interest if you do the same for me. i don't care about the looks, but i do on how your personality is and if you make me feel loved.
Here's a pick of myself

Hello, I am writing a Pokemon fanfic and I am likely putting way too much behind it, but hey, Gotta love the storytelling hobby.
Pokemon Urban Black is a cyberpunk semi-realism take on Pokemon as a concept overall. The book has mature themes (not NSFW but certainly an older age range) and asks several questions about the nature of a pokemon world.
Anyway, I'm looking for a few voice actors who can help with snippets from the story. There will be no full-fledged chapter reading and even the most prominent roles will have snippets that last less than 1:30, if that.
This is a fun fan project. I am paying but I am not making profits off this. Below I am going to list roles from most to least prominent, along with two lines you can read if you so choose (not required before contact). Please let me know what roles you're considering when you reach out.
The one's that say "Pokemon" in parenthesis are characters from the actual games/manga/anime that you can look up.
Trevor Black
Black male, 23-years-old, smooth urban voice, AAVE swag. Semi-sarcastic. He's a hacker that gets himself caught up in some shady business with criminals, by accident.
"Nah, what do you think, Frenchie?"
"Yeah. You right. But it's not him I care about. The shame is all that money he's leaving on the table. He probably spent his life building that up, and for what?"
Godlove Benjamin
Black male, 49-years-old, deep commanding urban voice. Sometimes Sarcastic, Everything he says puts you on edge. Main Villain of Pokemon Urban Black. Mob boss of a gang called Pressure.
"Yeah, that's it. You came to me all excited and shit cuz you caught that lil Sandshrew"
Teanna Black
Black female, Age 19-45-ish as story progresses. Natural voice, weathered by life but optimistic. Teanna is Trevor's mother but we will be hearing her voice from audio journal recordings that range from when she's 19 on.
"My name is Teanna. Teanna Black. I'm 19 years old about 5'6", brown eyes. Very cute. You know. You know. But \ahem* really. I'm doing this because my mom always told me to and I never did."*
Amber Renee Carter
Black Female, Age 24, confident, sweet, encouraging. Renee is the 8th ranked Pokemon Master in the world and famous for it. She starts dating Trevor near the beginning of the story.
"Okay 'Trev'... how about I take your number, instead?"
Frenchie
Black Female, Age 24, sassy, sarcastic, slight (very slight) southern twang, AAVE Swag. Trevor's best friend. A "keeping it real" type of personality.
"Please Trev, like you give a damn about what happens to some rich CEO"
"Yes! Do you know how powerful a Mudkip can be?! and it's sooo cuuuuute."
James (Pokemon)
White male, 34-years-old, (NOT like show voice), Suave, smooth, velvety voice. Apathatic, confident swag. James is second only two Giovanni in Pokemon training capability. One of the strongest trainers in the story. (Jessie is in the story too, but she is already cast)
"Just... James"
"Ah yes, and the world was reminded of what the word 'Legendary' truly means."
Guzma (Pokemon)
White Male, 42-years-old, Sarcastic, kind of gruff, but playful voice. Laid back, carefree. Guzma is the leader of the "Skull" gang, but... despite being a career criminal he's not exactly a bad guy.
"Kid's too soft. I'm doing his ass a favor."
"Eh, well you know what they say... polished shit is still shit."
Plumeria (Pokemon)
White female, 26-years-old, Quiet, reserved, can be stern, but typically calm. Plumeria is second in command of the "Skull" gang.
"N's a good kid,"
"We'll be violating the family ground laws."
Cyrus (Pokemon)
White male, 56-years-old, Collected, pensive, wise. Leader of the Galactic Game, once a reputable science organization gone bad.
"It was certainly possible. You know it was. The science was sound. Even the magic aspects checked out. You were just afraid,"
Ryme (Pokemon)
Black Female, 74-years-old, Somewhat raspy voice, but commanding, and collected. She's the godmother of the underworld crime families.
"This meeting has been called to clear up these confusions so that we can avoid any unnecessary mistakes in judgment." Her eyes again found Jessie. "You have the table."
Brock (Pokemon)
Black Male, 48-years-old, Street hardened, heavy voice, no-nosense. perpetually angry but always keeping it under wraps. Far different from Brock in the series, he's had serious trauma and he's looking for revenge.
"That Sandshrew... where'd you find it?"
If anyone has any questions feel free to simply reach out to me. There will likely be other required voices but as of now these are all I have. Thank you!

what if there was a dumb guy
and the dumb guy was really, really profoundly dumb
what if he was so dumb he spent all day every day all his life pooping himself and playing with his poop
what if he spent so long pooping himself and playing with the poop that he pooped
so very very long pooping himself and then playing with the poop that he accumulated that magic malcolm gladwell 10,000 hours, and then still way even more hours than that, under his belt, of self pooping experience
and in the course of playing with his own poop the dumb guy learned to make intricate and baroquely ornamental poop sculptures from the poop
like some kind of a poop savant
and sometimes the dumb guy tries to show the poop sculptures to people because they're so beautiful and ornate
but everyone runs away. because no matter how exquisitely formed all of the poop is it is just too disgustingly smelly
but one day someone with with a little curiosity and a strong stomach strays a tad closer to the dumb guy than most do
and that someone is perceptive and sensitive enough to notice that there may just be something special here about these poop sculptures, that the dumb guy may well have something to give, if only his poop didn't stink so bad
so the someone takes a deep breath, puts a clothes peg on their nose, and says Yes i would love to look at your poop sculptures tell me all about them
and the dumb guy is overjoyed beyond words. he is swept away with ecstasy at his undreamt fortune. a non-dumb person who doesn't play with their own poop wants to talk to him and be his friend and be interested in the poop sculpting together
the someone, in their turn, is graduallly captivated and charmed at the dumb poop guy's endless passion and enthusiasm and willingness to share it. they even think things to themselves "i wish i loved anything as much as this dumb guy loves playing with his own poop"
but the peg stays on their nose, of course
the someone also knows the pain the dumb pooping guy feels from his isolation. the someone thinks it isn't fair. the someone wants to fix it. the someone wants to help.
so the someone goes to the art supply store (they cannot take their dumb friend there, obviously) and at their own expense they purchase a smorgasbord of workable material: polymer clay, beeswax, silicone resin, salt dough and more, in all the colors of the rainbow
and with extremely tactful and diplomatic grace, they carefully broach the possibility of the dumb guy exploring different mediums to display his sculpture skills in
specifically, odorless ones
well, the dumb guy is intrigued. he is a bit confuzzled about why exactly anyone would want to make sculptures out of anything aside from one's own poop; but the someone is his best friend now, and if it makes the someone happy for some reason he's right on board
the dumb guy launches himself into his new task with gusto. it's heavy going at first, and there are some false starts; the consistency of the odorless clay is not quite the same as that of his poop, and he can't quite make it do the same things. compared with his poop sculptures, the new pieces are honestly quite mediocre.
but the someone tells him they're wonderful and he should be proud of them. over and over. and even in his profound regardation he can tell something is changing with them. he doesn't know why, but the more time he spends on making the bland and indifferent clay sculptures, and the less time he spends masterpieces out of poop, the happier they seem and the more time they want to spend together
one day, the someone even takes the peg off of their nose. by now, the dumb guy barely smells of poop at all
they come up with a suggestion: it's time to open the doors and introduce the world to the newly clean guy, whom in the absence of any poop stink it is questionable to even call dumb anymore. an grand exhibition, open to one and all, of the plain old guy's normal-smelling masterpieces in various plastic media
it's a little scary but it's exciting too. the guy is so grateful to the someone for helping him and putting the time in when no one else would. that long standing ache in his heart is almost gone. privately, he has absolutely no idea why the someone thinks his new stuff is so incredible; but he still wants to show his friend, and the world in general, gratitude and beauty by making the best pieces he ever can
so while the someone is busy with all the invitations and arrangements, the guy plans a suite of last minute adjustments and reornamentations so his gallery will be as stunning as it can possibly be
and he gets down to it
yes he gets down to it
on the day of the grand exhibition, a crowd has formed outside the grand hall. there is an anticipatory hubbub in the air. the someone proudly cuts the ribbon and throws open the doors
and their noses are powerfully assaulted by a tidal wave of stench. the stench of pure poop.
all of the mediocre and uninspired clay sculptures have been transformed into rancidly putrid masterpieces, by the addition of intricated and delicately sculpted layers of the dumb guy's poop. poop is his best medium, and the public deserves better than mere clay
in the middle of it all is he, squatposed, smeared even more deeply with poop and being more gross and dumb than he ever was before
in that moment the someone's heart breaks and shatters into one krillion seventy eight kajillion brillion tiny little bits. and with no words, no words at all, not even the cries of horror and disgust emanating from the rest of the crowd, they leave and run far far away and never come near the dumb guy ever again
and the dumb guy doesn't understand. he has no idea what he did wrong. no matter how much he thinks, it just doesn't occur to him that poop smells bad and people don't like it
because he is too dumb
grieving the loss of this deep friendship is an extremely painful and lonely process for him but he manages to make it and bounce back, by the sole means of - you guessed it - pooping and playing with his poop and making even more wonderfully accomplished poop sculptures
after all, the only possible reason everyone ran away from the exhibition must be that his poop sculpting skills weren't up to par. that's gotta be it. gotta spend more time poopsculpting. poopsculpting, poop grinding for the rest of his life. one day he'll make it. one day it'll all go right. just gotta keep pooping.
so yeah what if all of that happened

I 28/F have been with my partner 28/M for 12 going on 13 years. He’s my only REAL relationship experience as we got together when we were 15/16. I came from a very troubled household so in a lot of ways he has been my savior growing up. However in 2021 things started to get difficult, I put it on myself because both of my parents had passed away that year and I was in a very dark place. I started drinking a lot and stopped taking of myself (taking my medications) and I ended up pregnant. I knew I was very emotional and going through some things so I tried my hardest not to be clingy but he just stopped caring, I remember begging him to not to leave me in the house big,pregnant and depressed but it never worked. After we had the baby, I found out that he was distant cause he had cheated and once again I made excuse cause I knew my pregnancy was difficult, and I was very sick as well as grieving, I just felt like I wasn’t a good partner so I attempted to forgive(really I was so alone, just lost all the family I had and the one I built with the man I loved was crumbling before my eyes, I just wanted things to stay the same) . So fast forward a year and things are still rocky. We argued 2 months ago and he let me know that he has another child (basically he has been cheating the whole 12 years and has decided that he knows he wants us now) I tried to explain how that’s such a big betrayal of trust, and literally broke my heart but somehow I was told that I was being selfish and him having a baby just out in the world doesn’t effect me. Now he has involved family who are telling me I’m being selfish for wanting to leave. ( I should mention that at the start of 2021 we moved across country and I do not have any friends or family at all) maybe I am being selfish but it’s impossible to believe he could love me. Now it feels like he’s begging me to check back in to the relationship but I can’t look at him without being disgusted. Am I wrong for planning to leave?
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TLDR After 12 years with my partner he told me he had a child sometime during our relationship but that’s all. Now he’s calling me selfish because I told him it changes everything.

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im a puppy. i want daddies to fuck me and tell me gross things theyd do if there were no limits in the world. im talking gross fantasies you feel awful about but that are still what you end up going to if nothing else works to get you off. the ones that make you feel greasy and shameful. make me think fucked up things are normal and sexy because daddy says they are :3 and daddy is allllllways right. even when he lets other people use my sloppy hole!
if ur talking to me u can assume im high. u can tell me to take vape hits always. if i like u ill let u choose how many psychs I take to really fuck my mind. I keep pussying out and making accounts because I feel so ashamed but I've been fapping the whole time I write my intro post and now I can proudly say I love being a dirty little puppy gooner and I love fucking my needy little cock! force me to take pills so i can fulfill my purpose every day. day and night bating with daddy <3 letting him use my holes. these are just some examples of the things I think of. I want it to feel dirty and fuckedu p and above all I want to feel wanted in a greasy, dirty way.
i have some audios and videos of me bating my stoned edged cock. longest audios are three hours each, one right after the other. i am a real marathon gooner and i love to get seriously fucked up and even better is when gross daddies watch and encourage me to throw my life away for porn and yucky old man cock! make me praise your gross fetishes, make me beg for daddies cock, brainwash me to think eeeeeverything is hot. Force me to masturbate to gross new ideas and then ban me from touching my cock.
my only limit is scat, no judgement, just not my thing, sorry. but i can be convinced to see the sexy side in pretty much anything else. treat me as you toy and make me goon to all your gross fantasies as i pop pills and get so high all i can do is hump my vibe and and moan for you. ideally i want to hear long detailed fucked up things. tell me why you find them sexy. tell me all the details you think of when youre fucked up and accessing the part of you with no inhibitions. if you do this in a way thats intriguing maybe ill send you one of the audios i made of myself on a fucked up cocktail of mind ruining substances begging daddy and my gross bro to fuck my dirty puppy pussy and keep me stooooooned. none of this is required i love being treated lke an object toy and forced to intake more substances, touch myself, send me porn and tlel me to get lost. make me call you so you can watch my cock twitch to the porn you send and hear my nasty porndrunk goonbabble as i rub rub rub my swollen sensitive cock. for your fuckpuppy robot to work best he has to know all of your worst grossest fantasies! that way he can make them even better and add new things to twist his mind about. i hope to see your disgusting thoughts in my dms soon

Hey all,
I’m a 22(F) from the Southern Tier. Born and raised. I have just graduated from a small college in my hometown, with a Bachelor of Arts. And I’ve been thinking about leaving within the next two years after I finish my masters in school library.
My two big reasons for leaving include

1. The Weather
2. High Taxes
   
3. Now, hear me out. I do love all 4 seasons. (I love the fall and summer.) But I’ve had knee surgery twice, and I get really bad knee pain in the winter (no matter what kind of exercise I do). And I have pretty bad asthma that is not controlled. (I’m trying to control it and have been going to the doctor’s.) But the winter makes my asthma worse, and so does however, super humid and hot air.
   
4. This one is pretty much self-explanatory lol.
   

I’ve been thinking about Florida because I have some family down there, but I also don’t like the governor and how crazy some people are there…
Please tell me some reasons why I should stay.

I’ve seen a good amount of discourse on some of the puzzles in KEY, but I wanted to share my thoughts on a few specific puzzles (good and bad) to see if other people shared my struggles/opinions.

1. The locked book in the cafe - The graphic design for this clue is incredibly flawed in my opinion. Why would you have lines drawn from one point of the compass to a specific number if you didn’t want players to conclude that number is connected to that specific point. (Looking at you, 4). I spent probably two hours on this puzzle thinking I was supposed to count the number of pictures on the wall or plants in a specific corner…not cool.
   
2. Coffee making - aside from the wonky mechanics that take some getting used to and the annoying flipping back and forth to different recipes, I didn’t mind this puzzle. I honestly kinda like the fact that the latte art is so frustrating because it has created a hilarious meme for the game that I think every ND game needs. I lowkey feel like HER made it infuriating on purpose for this reason.
   
3. The gold artifact in the museum - I feel like this one might be more user error on my end, but I really did not understand that I was supposed to search for Rs around the town, nor did I think I was supposed to click the little button at the bottom to trigger the mechanism. I swear I had the right combination for so long but kept second guessing myself because I assumed it would open on its own.
   
4. The trunk in the antique store - I just couldn’t find the little button on the side and it stumped me for a good hour, but I will say once I got it open, the gem sliding puzzle was very fun and a very unique puzzle that I quite enjoyed.
   
5. The puppet show - Frustrating, but not enraging like some of the other puzzles. I think some more hints as to what props were needed could have helped a lot without making it too easy.
   
6. The jewelry safe - I understand what they were trying to do, and I think it was a very good puzzle, but it definitely needed better guidance from the clues in the store. I don’t know how anyone could have solved this without the strategy guide or hints, but kudos to you if you did.
   
7. The dean’s wall - I was so excited when I finally realized this was like the Bento puzzle in SAW and I knew exactly what I supposed to do, only to be incredibly disappointed when I had a correct solution about 3 different times, but it wasn’t the EXACT solution the game would accept. Very defeating.
   
8. The alchemy puzzle - I was losing steam at this point so maybe I could have solved this on my own, but I struggled a lot with understanding what the book was trying to tell me and eventually looked up the solution after about 30 minutes. BUT this puzzle was pretty fun once I knew what I needed to do and I really appreciate what they were trying to do.
   
9. The riddles in the alchemy book - I really liked the candle puzzle and the moon/knight puzzle, but once I got to the clock puzzle I just threw my hands up and said absolutely not and almost immediately looked up the solution lol
   
10. The key weight puzzle - My only complaint about this is that I don’t think it makes logical sense in real life? If you don’t know how much one key weighs, you have no idea what the order would be, right? So if you have to get solution by random guessing until Nancy says “that’s right!” How does Nancy know?
    

Okay, I think I’ll leave it with those 10 for now, but would really love to know y’all’s thoughts as well!

Lately I've been really ontiplatiting the control over my life during these times of meaningless bullshi. For the past 2 years I've been drowning my self in alcohol, weed and any else I've gotten my hands on. It's sucks to truly admit I'm addicted to substances even when I've gained to the courage to not do them. Currently I'm in a relationship with my girl "Ash". I love her dearly even if I don't show it much, but the truth is I care enough to not reveal who I can be. Maybe I'm just scared of myself or what's to come. Anyways to summarize this all I'm battling depression and my biggest opponent is myself right now. Perhaps I've always been my biggest opponent....
My request to the world is to continue playing my songs and share my content (JemustonXII) Would've never imagined myself expressing my last messages through reddit, but to each his own in this tormented reality. I'd suggest to people between the ages of 14-25 plz consider yourself more than worthy I'm sorry if life is kicking your ass just like mine, but the truth of the matter is no one is willing to save you enough more than you are willing to. In this Lifetime my submission of thought concludes pain, anger and loneliness. At the moment I feel "empty as fuck". Even when individuals notice I'm not okaii they normalize my sarcasm and exaggerated speech. They take it and chew the flavorful "Cry for Help" only to spit it out somewhere unwanted. I carry my days wondering how much more will this last and how much more can I endure this everlasting suffering on this planet. In the past 8 months I've gained much weight. Just last summer I was 180lbs, but now I'm a staggering 270lbs+. It doesn't feel very good since I lost all this weight in 2019 yet it's back just like my fears.
Initially beginning my message/goodbye for when this repurposes I just wanted to be loved by people. It's getting harder to breathe and stranger to talk with people I know much more than myself. I miss my mom. My childhood and my happiness.
Ya know after everything it might not be so bad to exist honestly but the sucky part is you have to live through bullshi you witness.
Before I input my S**cide note I first want to make sure I clear the air... Me myself I have lived a very blessed life being adopted by my aunt (Mom) mistreated in a foster home and surviving hatred from former family. Truly I have thrived very greatly. Anyways.....
First and foremost Mom, Te amo mucho y perdoname por no ser un poquito mas fuerte en estas vida. Quisiera gosar un rato mas perro me tengo que ir para lo que me espera en eternidad. Cuidadate y siempre te voy amar. Eres lo major que me has pasado!
Sister (Sol) I never hated you to be exact , but you made it very much uncomfortable to be around you at any given point especially when favor / money is involved. Its hard to forgive myself for letting you degrade me as a person time after time especially your son Raymond, but the most important part is we are both human in this world. I cherished every moment you've given me and our family especially Mom. More than anything Mom deserves your attention and kind, caring, optimistic, and unconditional love. To say you are a bad person is very much refutable. Anyways take care of the kids and my Mother.
Brothers:
I love you all and thank you Bebo for attending all my sports games and events even when my dad didnt.
Beba and Chary: I adore you both down to my core. I'm truly sorry we were split at my birth, but if anything made it worth it, it would be my existence and being able to enjoy my our first time together as me being an adult in Puerto Rico. Couldn't have asked for anymore truly ... Luv my nephews and nieces
Dad: I'm the end we didn't agree on everything but watching horror movies with you made my world much more visual to my audience. The gore in all the films define my consciousness. Regardless you couldn't be there at much as I would have liked you to but what ever was provide I cherish. I love you pops and always will!! Mom is proud of you Dude for real!!
Friends:
If we ever had a disagreement just know my thoughts process hasn't changed from the moment we argued. SadbxiiSantos man I love you dude as a brother. Thank you for all the moments and making me feel like I ever had an actual friend in real life. We've gone through a lot for dark roads yet in the end created light for each others existences. You were and still are the most outgoing person I've ever met dude. Props to your charisma and basketball skills. Remember when we were going to perform that one song on stage lol can't forget ever.

Twins #Sadbxii4life

Ash: Waddlezz I have always loved you and respected you as a person even when extreme ties had led us to believe other wise in this relationship. I'm glad our bonding had reinforced and corrupted pillar in our structure. Crazy how quickly love and move if your stuck in it. Thx for meeting my mother and I'm Honored to meet your mother and grandmother as well. It means the universe that all 3 ladies always got along so well and even seeing your moments when you have cried for family inpacted me to not feel so lonely on this dust ball. May death do us part until we meet again..
To all my audience and fanbase, ECT : This is not the end of my come up! This is simply a "I'll see you soon". Don't have very much to share at this point in time while I feel very overwhelmed by emotional intake. These past couples I have been able to sleep or I oversleep to much. I get this eerie sensation of other worldy presence calling me out of the game. As if I've been on a bench my whole life. Truly idk where life ends after this but the begining is to come after we all sleep!!
Thank you to all my supporters Thank you to all my peers Thank you to all my Teachers Thank you God for this glorious life🙏
I didn't complete my goals in full or even accomplished 1/3 of my life's worth of problems hutbyey at least I made it to the final oeriod of this sentence folks...... See you soon
(FYI: this thread is made in preparation of this day)
~Jem

Yuji is special grade level and has potential to be the strongest
I am going over a series of bullet points then explain more in depth with what he may be able to learn to really convince you that much like how I covered Mahito before if Yuji reaches his full potential he’d be the strongest character in Jujutsu Kaisen.
Major point 1: He matched Yuta while Yuta had a stat buff in his domain in their fight with Sukuna. And no Yuji wasn't playing support either he helped restrain Sukuna and was throwing straight hands combining his attacks with Yuta. Mind you this was before he awakened and began landing black flashes.
Major point 2: Yuji has lasted longer than basically anyone in the Sukuna battle. Aside right after the Yuta fight where he had to take a minute to heal he’s had the longest time fighting Sukuna. More than Yuta, Choso, Maki, Kashimo. I get Sukuna has not been giving Yuji his full attention every second and we can’t put all the credit on Yuji but it speaks volumes for how strong Yuji is.
Major Point 3: It’s stated verbatim Yuji has the potential to rival Sukuna by Sukuna’s Femboy and Gojo thought Yuji had the potential to surpass him.
Major Point 4: Yuji is very new even still. At max he had a month to learn blood manipulation AND shrine. And he had to stack that with soul swapping with Yuta and Kusakabe while learning RCT and simple domain. Give him more time to properly use convergence, have him take time to mimic things Choso once did while he was alive, maybe he pulls a Choso and remembers the two brothers he once killed and take wing king for himself. And shrine you don’t have to get me started.
Major Point part 5: Yuji has had the most training of anyone in this series under the largest variety of masters. Choso, Gojo, Kusakabe and Yuta, Todo, Nanami. Who else gets this level of training. Yuji lives by their will and their teachings all of them are high level combatants. Yuji is kinda crazy.
Minor Point 1: Yuji has two really good CT’s . Blood manipulation he has rct to help with and shrine. He’s not the best with either of these but they definitely help rise his stocks.
Minor Point 2: He is chosen by the sparks of black and is alone the only character in JJK that has the ability to throw black flashes at will with the highest level of black flashes in a row and highest level of black flashes overall in history. This shows Yuji is already a master of a hight in jujutsu that obviously being Black Flashes. Gojo and Sukuna may have domain expansion but they can’t claim to be able to black flash like Itadori can.
Now then with major bullet points and minor ones at the way. Can Yuji REALLY surpass Gojo and Sukuna- yes. He’s been stated that he can surpass Gojo by Satoru himself and Sukuna’s femboy acknowledged that Yuji could be equal to Sukuna. He has been a jujutsu sorcerer for less than a full year and has reached the peak of what may be able to do with a black flash.
Yuji already has a crazy growth rate. Understanding how to use cursed energy very fast and went from getting bodies by a Finger Bearer before cursed energy to throwing hands evenly with Mahito in goodwill. Yuji has went from getting kinda bullied by Yuta holding back to actually shocking 15F Meguna with how strong he was.
He has grown insanely already and has awakened as a jujutsu sorcerer just like how Gojo once did. Even still Yuji lacks a domain expansion but what if he just… gets one there is endless possibilities for Yuji’s domain expansion so it could be extremely busted maybe even more so than Gojo or Sukuna. Maybe it’s open barrier as well. He’s also got banger H2H skills even more so than Kenjaku or Gojo who before were noted as JJK’s best in H2H.
Yuji is stronger than let’s be honest most of the verse with better feats than most characters even before his awakening. Like I said keeping up with Yuta inside his domain meaning he has a stat amp inside his own domain. This makes Yuji stronger than a majority of the verse physically. This alone strength wise puts him on the special grade level at least physically. Now this is before black flashes not being in the zone or anything. Give Yuji a few years, use him post his awakening, he can use black flash at will, has a shit load of experience and skill now, he has mastered blood manipulation and shrine, he now has an open barrier domain possibly, he has a simple domain, he has reverse cursed technique. Nobody could step to Yuji.
Sadly there isn’t more to say about this aside he could learn some more abilities maybe even unlock a maximum technique while he’s at it. He could unlock more info on the soul perhaps and train his soul so that way if he ever meets Mahito like people again we know for a fact he’s safe.
Sadly while there isn’t a lot to go into Yuji definitely would surpass Gojo and Sukuna if he got time to truly let himself grow he’s already the strongest character in physical outside them most likely.
Now to watch the world burn MWHAHAHAHAHA

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U/Yass_0w0Had Made a list of possible ways/reason's that Signora would be reseructed.
Some examples Moth/Butterfly themes, affiliated with new life throu transformation/rebirth.
Her having given up her physical form already ...
But me being me I have taken up to my self to dive a bit into his concept's ( I'm not obsessed nor unhingedly interested into genshin/fictional characters I just enjoy to theories and take a look on them , I'm an artist/sketch artist ( or at least that's what I am called by my friends and family) and I wish to one day work on designing games and characters and there Stories as my profession/side husel)
Most credit is to u/Yass_0w0 check him out!!!
Signora/her moth interrupting the reserection of another character; She could interrupt the reserection of the old Pyro Archon, Take over there body/place/title and thereby claim ownership of the gnosis but the new archon won't let that be but till she(Signora) is beaten she will have given the gnosis over to dottore/capitano/Columbian and would be left to die, which makes her join us.
Dottore will reserect her, as part of an experiment or as part of a trap(dottore is unhinged and cares little for life) which wouldn't make it surprising if he reseructed her just so she could be the bait to be killed by the archon/tribes of natlan while he follows his own Agenda taking gnosis and burning irmensul as seen in that one scene and revealed by one of the Devs to happen in the future.
Capitano(if he is the blood stained knight) resurrecting her; His respect for her and his former master ( her lover) would make him feel it kind of as a duty to bring her back or at least try so, but he will fai or not even tryl to bring la signora back, instead he will reseruct Rosalyne the gentle version (with maybe memory holes).
She gave her body up, but was it destroyed? We know that she nearly killed herself while transforming into CWoF for the first time. Her giving up her body does not mean she destroyed it, it could be somewhere in natlan hidden/protected by a temple or in the liquid fire she drank(I remember reading that there was the sea of liquid fire) where she could have dived into and emerged as a bodyless version of her self that uses elemental energy to manifest a physical form. Or since we know that she was an akademiya student she could have preserved her body somewhere by artificial means.
Cracky theory I'm a giant fan of both la signora and Sandrone, seeing as we have gotten a puppet character in an hoyo game already (Herta HSR) I wouldn't be surprised getting one in genshin(yes balladeer is a puppet of raiden but technically missing the puppet aesthetic) and while Herta is pretty basic in her design she was probably used to test the waters on how to give a character such depth in its design as to produce clear and authentic puppet aesthetic(especially with the hints of us getting a 5 star version of Herta later in the game),comming to the theory What if she will be ,,reserected" into one of sandrones puppets maybe even one in image of a younger(former version)of Rosalyn like the one on arlechino story trailer with less detailed/accessories like her crown/eye patch thingy. A factor for making me think that is that sandrone who was supposedly meant to appear in fountain never did so so her having little bit of influence even if not by showing up in natlan at all would be pretty expectable not to mention hoyo wouldn't be stupid enough to neglect the customer's/players wishes especially seeing as Hsr has become the companies mayn trademark and genshin has not been doing so well since Hsr released(yes arlechino banner was very successful but you have to take into account that 3 new characters are appearing in the next patch,all of which are very popular and are expected to do very very well in getting players to pay for gems, battle pass..., as well as it being suspected that 2 other fan favourites will appear the version after that(2.4).
She won't be reseructed at all (in natlan)she is dead and won't make a return untill shneznaya where we will face her casket/coffin in the palace and then the tsaritsa will reseruct her(having the all gnosis) just to pay her back for her devotion and her having been let go/relieved of her duty will make her join us (since all Archons will be playable we will join with the tsaritsa) and so Signora would join us by default.
I was writing this while it's late and I should be asleep so it's Very cracky but alas I'm just a humble Enjoyer of the fictional worlds and there characters who wishes to share laughter, knowledge, Opinions and all of the other shareable things I'm not able to think of. And this helps me get tired for sleep 😴 Thanks For reading have a lovely day/morning/noon/afternoon/night and over all have a peaceful day...

I really don't know where to start..many moving parts to this story. My MIL is currently in palliative care and her sister (we'll call D) is in a nursing home and not doing great either. They are both in their late 70s.
It recently was revealed that D had a child as a teenager that she gave up for adoption. She then later married a different man and they had a daughter. He has since passed away.
About 3 years ago it was revealed that she had another daughter as a teenager because the daughter had done a DNA test and she eventually found her birth mother. While we live in a different city than my MIL and her sister, turns out her long lost daughter lives a few blocks from us. It was a lot to take in. We have met her, we'll call her A. It's truly a small world. Turns out I work with one of her daughters...yep real small world.
She has met her birth Mom. Birth Mom was not forthcoming with information regarding her birth father.
Over time, I am told who her biological father is. Now this comes as a complete shock to me as I knew him very well. We'll call him B. His oldest daughter and I were best friends all thru school. Different life choices has separated us. He passed away a while ago. He had 4 kids with his wife. I don't think his wife ever knew about the child he had... I'm not sure that he knew either.
I know his family extremely well. Here is my dilemma. I have contact with everyone, including his 4 kids. They do not know they have an older sister. The relationship between my MIL and her sister is extremely bad because of her sister's 'boyfriend'. He is a douchbag. He has a known MO for getting together with women, taking everything they have and then bailing. He has done it again, unfortunately.
I can only speak for myself in that if I had an unknown sibling out there, I would want to know. Do I tell the others? I have shown A pictures of them and have told her who her father was and that I remember him as a kind and loving man. That is how I knew him. MIL and her sister have a different opinion.
I really don't want to upset their mother as she is still living and she is quite religious. This would be extremely hard on her. But I also don't believe it is fair that they are all being kept in the dark. I'm at the point that I wish I didn't know the truth.
What do I do? My mother, god love her, would tell me to keep quiet and it's not my place. But no one is ever going to tell the truth.
What would you do? AITAH for wanting to tell the truth?

Hey, so I goofed. I went to college.
I went to college, but I didn’t do anything with it. I am first generation and didn’t understand jack about what makes college useful. I did my classes, went on a study abroad, and graduated, but I didn’t create connections with teachers, do research, or find internships and I’ve been stuck in the real world for a year with no career prospects and I feel like I’m drifting from my dreams.
I want to pursue a career in Computer Science and Robotics, which could make use of a Masters, but I only got a minor in Computer Science. Would trying again, taking classes and working towards a Masters be worth it? I have no debt from Undergrad, but I don’t think my prospects for grad school would be the same.
If so, how do I do that? How could I do it cheaply? Should I go abroad? Some high school counselors helped me get into undergrad, but I don’t have them anymore.
If not, are there better paths?