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Blood pressure discussion
2013.01.31 14:41 butthurtnerd Blood pressure discussion
A sub for discussing blood pressure and individual experiences with dealing with it. Always speak to a doctor when attempting to treat your high or low blood pressure.
2024.02.04 16:10 tellray HighBloodPressureInfo
This community shares positive experiences in reducing and managing blood pressure. While some rely on prescription medication, there is much more that can be done with diet, exercise, breath work, supplementation, and helpful devices. In the area of supplements, there is a great deal of research that has led to great products which we'll discuss. There is so much we do for ourselves instead of just drugs. It is not intended to replace medical advice from your health care providers.
2020.04.06 21:28 melodicjello CoronavirusObesity
Coronavirus has now brought the obesity health epidemic front and center. Yet we still call the underlying health condition “heart disease” or “high blood pressure”. Obesity is the cause of those conditions. Obesity is the condition! We need to confront this as a country and change our behaviors.
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2024.05.19 10:18 Specific-Volume5652 My experience with a PTSD spouse
I (M42) and my spouse (F40)
I just had the shock of my life, and possibly the most dramatic upheaval imaginable. I'm scared, concerned and i wonder if anyone else has a similar experience. This is concerning my soon to be ex-wife. Not an easy read or even to type, but strap yourselves in. We were married for 13 years, had known each other for 23. She was a child that grew up in a war in her home country, and was effected by it more than she let on. During the last 4 years of our relationship, she started developing incredible anxiety and depression. She would become like an exposed nerve, and every perceived slight became something she would ruminate on for days at a time. We had some events in our marriage that were incredibly stressful. Our son was born prematurely, our daughter when she was born was also traumatic. She was always highly strung when i knew her. i was very much the calming influence to her and it was a role that developed in our dynamic. i would be her rock and safe place. Things started to change, and dramatically so. I travel with work and she would look after the kids. i would be home large parts of the year, but i would have to go away sometimes for 4 weeks at a time. When covid hit, we were both home for a better part of 18 months, and i started to notice things that concerned me. She began to become incredibly paranoid about neighbours. She was certain they were spyi ng on us somehow (even though they were 80, and not at all interested in us). This spiraled from the neighbours commenting on the length of our grass. It effected her, and she became fixated. Any new neighbours she instantly distrusted, and she believed they all spoke badly of her.none of it was true, but in her state of hypervigilance, she was misinterpreting signs. A strange look, or half glance was enough to make her feel unsafe and scared. This slowly devolved into her being fearful of being spied on in the shower, people who walked dogs the same time each morning past our house were doing it to spy on us, etc. I could see it was draining her, and making her very ill with stress so we discussed maybe going to therapy, which she did. During the years we were together, she had been on various anti-depressants to cope with depression. I always chalked it down to post natal depression and the stress being a mother brought to her, especially when i went away. She attended therapy, but would stop when it became uncomfortable. She then opened up to me one day regarding it. It turns out that she was molested as a child by a family friend, and had buried it. that coupled with seeing her childhood friend die from an explosion (which i knew about) had effected her more than we knew. The therapy seemed to make it worse, and since that point things took a massive nose dive. She was an incredibly bubbly, happy and cheerful person to everyone. or so i thought. She would sometimes drop the mask at home, and i could see the turmoil developing. I hate to admit it, but i was blind to it for many years. she had masked it from the very beginning. Her paranoia got worse and worse. she came off of her antidepressants and started using weed vape pens to be able to cope with the incredible anxiety. I watched her drift apart from me over the last two years, her kindness towards me vanishing and almost a resentment towards me. She would complain about the new house we had bought and that she hated it because of the neighbours. We discussed moving, but she realised in her more lucid times that the issue would follow her whereever she went. The last year together she would speak about moving to another country. I said i would, but after my parents, who are old, passed. i didn't want them to not see our children in their final years. We had grown apart, she had this strange push-pull dynamic with me. One day she'd love me and be this caring person, the next cold and distant. I tried incredibly hard to pull us back together whilst dealing with her delusions of paranoia that were still ongoing, but the more i tried (and at some points i was quite combative and forceful) to get her to communicate, the more she pulled away. There was hardly any intimacy, which i yearned for and would comment on. She would initiate it sometimes, but for me, i'm ashamed to say, i complained about it a lot. She would have sex with me on occasion, and then if we argued later say "i didn't really want sex, it was like rape". This hurt me to my core, and made me bitter about how we were. The arguments became worse and worse. She started resenting me for trapping her. That was her reality. i had trapped her in the relationship. It wasn't true, but she was upset i travelled with work and could escape when she couldn't. It was never escape for me, i travelled because i had to. Her and the kids were all i wanted to be with. Travel to me was a chore.
Slowly she withdrew more. The more i tried to help and talk, the more she withdrew. All the time she was still paranoid, and now believed the neighbours were spying on her with cameras in the garden. the "cameras" were garden lights.
After three years of constant paranoia and her anxiety, it was starting to effect me. We couldn't go out in the area as she hated the neighbours. Yet to their faces she was bubbly and happy, smiley and almost overly kind. Yet when we were alone, the mask would slip and all her thoughts about them would spill out. Our social life started to be affected,
Anything i said was misunderstood or taken in such a way that i was insulting her. If i said she was silly for thinking in a certain way, i was calling her stupid. Anytime i tried to logic something out with her regarding the neighbours (for example she believed they were watching her shower) it was dismissed. I actually showered and told her to ask if she could see me from the garden. She was confused when she saw she couldn't.
The delusions became worse, and she became more and more paranoid. The textured glass in the bathroom was the wrong way around in her eyes, so people could see in. The motion activated light at the bottom of the garden was a camera, for sure. things like this.She withdrew more and more. I had to go away on a work trip, and the day before i left she asked for a divorce. I was hurt, but said "we can talk about it when i get home" when i arrived at the destination i was working across the world, i messaged her. No response. I tried multiple times until eventually i got a text "The kids will be taken away from me, and i will be sent back to my home country" I rang my father who lived very close to us to find out what was happening.
She had asked him to take her to the police station. She said to report the neighbours for spying, which she did try to do. they obviously didn't listen. She was taken to hospital by my father as she was having a mental breakdown and behaving strangely. I told my boss i had to fly home as something was happening. he booked me the earliest flight and i flew back. I was arrested from the plane. She had accused me of Rape, Control and coercion and ABH. Things i would never do. I was arrested, questioned and told not to go back to my home or to contact her. In one day i lost everything. I was in shock and was an emotional wreck. Worst of all i was concerned and scared for my wife and kids. She blamed me for her emotional state. said i had caused everything and had abused her constantly for years. After a week of staying at my friends house, social services got involved as the kids were missing school. It turns out she was taking the kids to hotels because she was terrified of staying at home. The kids told me later that "mummy thinks men are after her" instead of telling any authorities this, she said it was because she was scared of me. Social services believed everything she said. I was under investigation for the allegations, although not charged. The investigations were ongoing for three months, and in that time i wasn't allowed to contact her at all. Unfortunately in my fear i contacted her repeatedly. She had me arrested for harassment, and i was charged and convicted. I wasn't ever abusive in the texts, but i did contact her a lot.
I secured access to my children through a rushed family court order. I also placed a block on her leaving the country without seeking my permission with the children, as she had taken my passport details to apply for the kids passports without my knowledge. I did this due to her erratic behaviour and i knew she wasn't stable. My father thought i'd over-reacted, but my ex was so good at masking she hid how she really felt even to him. Oscar level masking.
Looking back i realise how bad it was. She ran from her home country at 18 and always ran. she always wanted to move jobs if something went wrong. She would cut off long term friends in an instant if she felt any pressure form them. Her first instinct would always be to flee anything. Any littlle insignificant thing or slight would become something she'd chew over for weeks, often applying the worst case scenario that would then become her reality. The truth was she was constantly afraid. I think at the end i became something she was afraid of too. My determination to keep us together and keep her from falling apart became too much for her. I wasn't always kind and was exasperated a lot. I was too demanding on someone that was exhausted, anxious and clearly unwell. Unfortunately i didn't realise this until too late. I still see the children, but have zero contact with her. She filed a restraining order due to the harassment conviction which i will adhere to. I'm currently going through family court again to secure further rights. She applied for full custody and has said some very terrible untruthful things at court to almost destroy me and remove me from her life. I'm a broken man because of it all, but staying strong for the kids.
I hope there will be some sort of resolution in the future, but i realise that she's scared of me now as she is scared of everything. She told me near the end that she trusts nobody. This broke my heart. The court on the last visit realised that something wasn't right. they have ordered a investigation into our family, and it will hopefully be reported in June when we go back to court. Her medical documents have been re-visited and statements taken. My father witnessed some very strange behaviour and has reported it. We just have to see what happens. She has requested to sell the property we lived in, and i'm slowly watching the life we built implode. She also has asked for the order that stipulates the need for permission to leave the country lifted. June will be the crunch time.
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I just had the shock of my life, and possibly the most dramatic upheaval imaginable. I'm scared, concerned and i wonder if anyone else has a similar experience. This is concerning my soon to be ex-wife. Not an easy read or even to type, but strap yourselves in. We were married for 13 years, had known each other for 23. She was a child that grew up in a war in her home country, and was effected by it more than she let on. During the last 4 years of our relationship, she started developing incredible anxiety and depression. She would become like an exposed nerve, and every perceived slight became something she would ruminate on for days at a time. We had some events in our marriage that were incredibly stressful. Our son was born prematurely, our daughter when she was born was also traumatic. She was always highly strung when i knew her. i was very much the calming influence to her and it was a role that developed in our dynamic. i would be her rock and safe place. Things started to change, and dramatically so. I travel with work and she would look after the kids. i would be home large parts of the year, but i would have to go away sometimes for 4 weeks at a time. When covid hit, we were both home for a better part of 18 months, and i started to notice things that concerned me. She began to become incredibly paranoid about neighbours. She was certain they were spyi ng on us somehow (even though they were 80, and not at all interested in us). This spiraled from the neighbours commenting on the length of our grass. It effected her, and she became fixated. Any new neighbours she instantly distrusted, and she believed they all spoke badly of her.none of it was true, but in her state of hypervigilance, she was misinterpreting signs. A strange look, or half glance was enough to make her feel unsafe and scared. This slowly devolved into her being fearful of being spied on in the shower, people who walked dogs the same time each morning past our house were doing it to spy on us, etc. I could see it was draining her, and making her very ill with stress so we discussed maybe going to therapy, which she did. During the years we were together, she had been on various anti-depressants to cope with depression. I always chalked it down to post natal depression and the stress being a mother brought to her, especially when i went away. She attended therapy, but would stop when it became uncomfortable. She then opened up to me one day regarding it. It turns out that she was molested as a child by a family friend, and had buried it. that coupled with seeing her childhood friend die from an explosion (which i knew about) had effected her more than we knew. The therapy seemed to make it worse, and since that point things took a massive nose dive. She was an incredibly bubbly, happy and cheerful person to everyone. or so i thought. She would sometimes drop the mask at home, and i could see the turmoil developing. I hate to admit it, but i was blind to it for many years. she had masked it from the very beginning. Her paranoia got worse and worse. she came off of her antidepressants and started using weed vape pens to be able to cope with the incredible anxiety. I watched her drift apart from me over the last two years, her kindness towards me vanishing and almost a resentment towards me. She would complain about the new house we had bought and that she hated it because of the neighbours. We discussed moving, but she realised in her more lucid times that the issue would follow her whereever she went. The last year together she would speak about moving to another country. I said i would, but after my parents, who are old, passed. i didn't want them to not see our children in their final years. We had grown apart, she had this strange push-pull dynamic with me. One day she'd love me and be this caring person, the next cold and distant. I tried incredibly hard to pull us back together whilst dealing with her delusions of paranoia that were still ongoing, but the more i tried (and at some points i was quite combative and forceful) to get her to communicate, the more she pulled away. There was hardly any intimacy, which i yearned for and would comment on. She would initiate it sometimes, but for me, i'm ashamed to say, i complained about it a lot. She would have sex with me on occasion, and then if we argued later say "i didn't really want sex, it was like rape". This hurt me to my core, and made me bitter about how we were. The arguments became worse and worse. She started resenting me for trapping her. That was her reality. i had trapped her in the relationship. It wasn't true, but she was upset i travelled with work and could escape when she couldn't. It was never escape for me, i travelled because i had to. Her and the kids were all i wanted to be with. Travel to me was a chore.
Slowly she withdrew more. The more i tried to help and talk, the more she withdrew. All the time she was still paranoid, and now believed the neighbours were spying on her with cameras in the garden. the "cameras" were garden lights.
After three years of constant paranoia and her anxiety, it was starting to effect me. We couldn't go out in the area as she hated the neighbours. Yet to their faces she was bubbly and happy, smiley and almost overly kind. Yet when we were alone, the mask would slip and all her thoughts about them would spill out. Our social life started to be affected,
Anything i said was misunderstood or taken in such a way that i was insulting her. If i said she was silly for thinking in a certain way, i was calling her stupid. Anytime i tried to logic something out with her regarding the neighbours (for example she believed they were watching her shower) it was dismissed. I actually showered and told her to ask if she could see me from the garden. She was confused when she saw she couldn't.
The delusions became worse, and she became more and more paranoid. The textured glass in the bathroom was the wrong way around in her eyes, so people could see in. The motion activated light at the bottom of the garden was a camera, for sure. things like this.She withdrew more and more. I had to go away on a work trip, and the day before i left she asked for a divorce. I was hurt, but said "we can talk about it when i get home" when i arrived at the destination i was working across the world, i messaged her. No response. I tried multiple times until eventually i got a text "The kids will be taken away from me, and i will be sent back to my home country" I rang my father who lived very close to us to find out what was happening.
She had asked him to take her to the police station. She said to report the neighbours for spying, which she did try to do. they obviously didn't listen. She was taken to hospital by my father as she was having a mental breakdown and behaving strangely. I told my boss i had to fly home as something was happening. he booked me the earliest flight and i flew back. I was arrested from the plane. She had accused me of Rape, Control and coercion and ABH. Things i would never do. I was arrested, questioned and told not to go back to my home or to contact her. In one day i lost everything. I was in shock and was an emotional wreck. Worst of all i was concerned and scared for my wife and kids. She blamed me for her emotional state. said i had caused everything and had abused her constantly for years. After a week of staying at my friends house, social services got involved as the kids were missing school. It turns out she was taking the kids to hotels because she was terrified of staying at home. The kids told me later that "mummy thinks men are after her" instead of telling any authorities this, she said it was because she was scared of me. Social services believed everything she said. I was under investigation for the allegations, although not charged. The investigations were ongoing for three months, and in that time i wasn't allowed to contact her at all. Unfortunately in my fear i contacted her repeatedly. She had me arrested for harassment, and i was charged and convicted. I wasn't ever abusive in the texts, but i did contact her a lot.
I secured access to my children through a rushed family court order. I also placed a block on her leaving the country without seeking my permission with the children, as she had taken my passport details to apply for the kids passports without my knowledge. I did this due to her erratic behaviour and i knew she wasn't stable. My father thought i'd over-reacted, but my ex was so good at masking she hid how she really felt even to him. Oscar level masking.
Looking back i realise how bad it was. She ran from her home country at 18 and always ran. she always wanted to move jobs if something went wrong. She would cut off long term friends in an instant if she felt any pressure form them. Her first instinct would always be to flee anything. Any littlle insignificant thing or slight would become something she'd chew over for weeks, often applying the worst case scenario that would then become her reality. The truth was she was constantly afraid. I think at the end i became something she was afraid of too. My determination to keep us together and keep her from falling apart became too much for her. I wasn't always kind and was exasperated a lot. I was too demanding on someone that was exhausted, anxious and clearly unwell. Unfortunately i didn't realise this until too late. I still see the children, but have zero contact with her. She filed a restraining order due to the harassment conviction which i will adhere to. I'm currently going through family court again to secure further rights. She applied for full custody and has said some very terrible untruthful things at court to almost destroy me and remove me from her life. I'm a broken man because of it all, but staying strong for the kids.
I hope there will be some sort of resolution in the future, but i realise that she's scared of me now as she is scared of everything. She told me near the end that she trusts nobody. This broke my heart. The court on the last visit realised that something wasn't right. they have ordered a investigation into our family, and it will hopefully be reported in June when we go back to court. Her medical documents have been re-visited and statements taken. My father witnessed some very strange behaviour and has reported it. We just have to see what happens. She has requested to sell the property we lived in, and i'm slowly watching the life we built implode. She also has asked for the order that stipulates the need for permission to leave the country lifted. June will be the crunch time.
2024.05.19 10:17 Hotpot-creations Short story - Mystery: Emily Is Missing
 | Image by Hotpot.ai submitted by Hotpot-creations to HotpotAI [link] [comments] Emily Is Missing Story and image by Hotpot AI Private investigator Dirk Armstrong had seen all the greatest sleazy hits in his line of work. The cheating spouses, the embezzling employees, the fake Worker's Compensation injuries. It had all become pretty mundane. But when a call from a new client came in, it caught his attention. This case was different, like something out of a movie. This case was about a missing heiress, Emily, who had vanished without a trace. Emily came from an old-money banking family, with a fortune that could make anyone's head spin. And now, she was gone. Her family was desperate to find her, and they turned to Armstrong for help. As Armstrong delved into the case, he quickly realized that this was not a simple missing person's case. There were layers upon layers of lies, deceit, and hidden motives in high society. The family's desperation to find Emily seemed to be more about protecting their fortune than finding their beloved daughter. Armstrong's investigation led him to Emily's closest friends and family members, all of whom seemed to have something to hide. But one person stood out to Armstrong: Emily's brother, Marcus. He was the one who had hired Armstrong, and he seemed to be the most anxious to find his sister. But his anguish also seemed a bit overwrought. Maybe even faked. As Armstrong dug deeper, he discovered that Marcus had a gambling problem and was in deep debt. Could he have something to do with Emily's disappearance? Armstrong couldn't shake off the feeling that Marcus was hiding something, but he needed concrete evidence to prove it. Then, four days after she had gone missing, there was an traceable email communication from someone who stated that they had kidnapped Emily and were holding her hostage. They made a demand for a ransom of one million dollars, and stated that they would be in contact again soon. Not long after this, Armstrong received a call from an overseas insurance company. They were investigating a million-dollar claim for Emily's kidnapping. They explained that six months earlier, the family had taken out a specialty insurance policy on Emily for high net worth individuals. It was a highly unusual policy, paying five million dollars in any case of kidnapping, seven million dollars in cases that are resolved by paying ransom, and 10 million dollars in cases where the insured individual dies in the course of the kidnapping. The insurance company had serious doubts about the legitimacy of the claim, and wanted to send their own investigator to interview Armstrong. They wanted to know if he had found anything suspicious in his investigation. Armstrong couldn't legally reveal the details of his investigation to any third party, but he did tell the insurance company's investigator that something didn't add up. He couldn't put his finger on it, but there were certain things about Emily's kidnapping that didn't ring true. The insurance company's investigator thanked Armstrong for his time and left, but his words lingered in Armstrong's mind. He couldn't shake off the feeling that there was more to this case than meets the eye. Weeks went by with no further word from the kidnappers. Everyone feared the worst. Police detectives gently counseled the family that there was little hope any kidnapped victim is still alive this long after the abduction and involving this long a silence. Because they didn't follow up on pursuing the million-dollar ransom, the family expressed fear that the kidnappers had panicked and killed Emily in order to walk away from the whole plan with impunity. But then, early one morning, the seemingly impossible happened—Emily appeared. She looked exhausted, malnourished, and was wearing the same clothes she was wearing when she disappeared. She told a strange story of being abducted by three men in Halloween masks and thrown into a van. She said they had kept her in some warehouse in the inner city, handcuffed to one of the warehouse's metal support poles. She said that she was never allowed to catch as much as a glimpse of the men's real faces the entire time. They did not abuse or physically harm her, she said, but they provided only minimal care during her captivity. Then, at daybreak this day, they suddenly removed her from the warehouse, put her in the same van, and drove her near home and tossed her out of the vehicle. This all sounded very dramatic, but because of the insurance money at stake, no aspect of her story or the situation overall could be accepted at face value. The insurance company's investigator interviewed Emily at length, but could not find flaws in her story to gain leverage with since she had been—or claimed to have been—confined and blindfolded at all times in the kidnappers' presence. Usually, a good insurance investigator can tell whether someone's story stinks by picking apart their story and analyzing all the details. But in this case, that wasn't possible because Emily had not seen anything at all, and only heard a few things, none of which were helpful to police and the investigation. As Armstrong continued his own investigation, he ultimately uncovered a shocking truth: Emily was not really kidnapped. It had been a fraud pulled by her family, who had been experiencing financial pressures despite being pretty rich compared to most people. They had concocted the plan, and Marcus was the mastermind behind it all. He had convinced Emily to go along with the pan to fake her kidnapping, promising her it would solve all of the family's money problems. Armstrong confronted Marcus with the evidence, and he finally cracked. He confessed to everything, including Emily's involvement. The family's greed had blinded them, and now they were facing serious consequences. Emily herself was destined to do several years in prison for her participation, which was critical to the entire scheme. As Armstrong handed over his findings to the authorities, he couldn't help but feel a sense of satisfaction. Justice had been served, and Emily was safe and sound. But the case left a lasting impact on Armstrong. He had seen the dark side of high society, where money and power could corrupt even the closest of families. And he knew that he would never look at his job the same way again. |
2024.05.19 10:11 Unfair_Solution1333 Brain fog and Vitamin d strange side effects
I have been suffering from brain fog and low mood for almost 10 years.
Lately I did serious effort to resolve the issue, I have done multiple blood test.
The result found out I have very low vitamin d. I know many have this issue and I thought so, however after I take the dose 50k IU per week things has been changed.
The brain fog and fatigue has been decreased very significantly and the sleep quality is better, but I had strange side effects which include high pressure in head and chest lose of appetite and libido.
I stopped Vit D now the pressure almost gone however I had the brain fog but not strong as before and my libido still not as used before!
I went to see many doctors for what the reason but still no luck and no one seems to find link.
I did check for mag,zinc,testosterone,prolactin all seems fine.
Any idea why libido affected so badly ?
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Lately I did serious effort to resolve the issue, I have done multiple blood test.
The result found out I have very low vitamin d. I know many have this issue and I thought so, however after I take the dose 50k IU per week things has been changed.
The brain fog and fatigue has been decreased very significantly and the sleep quality is better, but I had strange side effects which include high pressure in head and chest lose of appetite and libido.
I stopped Vit D now the pressure almost gone however I had the brain fog but not strong as before and my libido still not as used before!
I went to see many doctors for what the reason but still no luck and no one seems to find link.
I did check for mag,zinc,testosterone,prolactin all seems fine.
Any idea why libido affected so badly ?
2024.05.19 10:11 girl_of_yourdreams_ My cat's sgot and sgpt is highly elevated
 | Hey so I posted couple of days back how I was feeling that my cat is loosing weight and vet seems to think it's normal. But after I insisted he did the blood test and the test says that his sgot and sgpt are highly elevated almost to 345 instead of 57. I am really concerned, do you guys have any idea about it. Please help submitted by girl_of_yourdreams_ to cats [link] [comments] |
2024.05.19 10:05 Broad-Difficulty-203 Getting blood work done to figure out my problem.
I'm finally getting my blood work done very soon, after years of trying to shed body fat and never really been able to shed a lot of it off, other then IF although with my current job doing IF isn't advisable (light Infantrymen) l've tracked calories with a scale a high protein diet, hit the gym and sauna, consistently have improve lifts, Run 5 times a week and swim as well. Usually I do 2 or 3 a days with the swims involved. Lost very minimal weight although I have definitely gotten stronger and a few changes have happened, Can't seem to drop some weight or body fat no matter what I try even stopped drinking for months, other then IF And I'm talking about 3 plus years of doing the same thing and hopefully time will kick in but it hasn't, before I get told just give it more time, so I got told to get my blood work checked, when it comes back what should I look for? what should I do or is the doctor just gonna tell me what I should do? And What do you recommend?
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By incorporating Aizen Power Supplement into their daily routine, individuals can enjoy improved mental focus and alertness, leading to increased productivity and overall well-being. The powerful antioxidants and anti-inflammatory properties present in the supplement help combat oxidative stress and reduce inflammation, supporting the body's immune system.
Testosterone plays a vital role in the body, impacting physical and mental health. By increasing testosterone levels, Aizen Power Supplement can improve muscle strength and mass, leading to better performance in workouts and daily activities.
Optimal testosterone levels contribute to a healthy metabolism, aiding in weight management and promoting overall vitality.
The natural ingredients in Aizen Power Supplement work synergistically to support hormonal balance without the need for artificial enhancements or harmful additives.
Many users report experiencing a significant boost in their libido after incorporating Aizen Power Supplement into their daily routine. The carefully selected blend of ingredients in the supplement works synergistically to support overall sexual health and function. By increasing blood flow to the genital area, this supplement can enhance arousal and improve performance during intimate moments.
Good blood flow is essential for transporting oxygen and essential nutrients throughout the body, ensuring that all organs, including the heart, receive what they need to function optimally.
Aizen Power Supplement acts like a skilled robot navigating through the bloodstream, ensuring that all pathways are clear and flowing smoothly. Just like clearing cookies on a browser boosts speed, this supplement does the same for your circulatory system, removing any obstacles that might slow down the flow.
Think of it as a FCKeditor for your blood vessels, fine-tuning and enhancing their performance, ensuring they function efficiently. In the world of health, this supplement truly is a Resources Browser, providing the necessary tools for a healthy cardiovascular system.
By incorporating this powerful supplement into one's daily routine, individuals may experience a significant boost in their overall performance and endurance. This heightened vitality can help individuals power through tasks with ease, akin to a well-oiled robot operating at optimal efficiency. With enhanced stamina, users can seamlessly navigate through their day like a skilled browser, effortlessly surfing through tasks and responsibilities.
Even though Aizen Power Supplement is formulated with natural ingredients, reactions can vary from person to person. Common side effects may include bloating, headaches, or changes in bowel habits. Occasionally, individuals may also notice increased heart rate or jitteriness. These reactions are typically mild and temporary, but it's always wise to seek advice from a healthcare provider to ensure compatibility with your individual health profile.
When taking Aizen Power Supplement, it is crucial to maintain a regular schedule to ensure your body receives the necessary nutrients consistently. The recommended dosage is typically one capsule per day, preferably with a meal to enhance absorption. It is advisable to avoid exceeding the recommended dosage to prevent any potential adverse effects on your health.
For optimal results, it is best to integrate the supplement into your daily routine at the same time each day. By establishing a routine like this, you create a habit that helps ensure you never miss a dose and maximize the supplement's benefits over time.
Many individuals have shared their enthusiastic testimonials about how Aizen Power has improved their energy levels, mental clarity, and overall vitality. Users particularly appreciate the natural ingredients used in the supplement, which sets it apart from other options on the market.
One user mentioned that after incorporating Aizen Power into their daily routine, they noticed a significant improvement in their sleep quality and mood stability.
Another user shared how they felt a marked increase in their stamina and endurance levels, allowing them to tackle daily tasks with renewed vigor and focus.
When looking to buy Aizen Power Supplement, consumers can easily find it on the manufacturer's website, where they will have access to the latest offers and promotions. Authorized sellers on popular online platforms like Amazon also carry the product, ensuring convenience and quick delivery. By purchasing from these reliable sources, customers can avoid any risks associated with counterfeit products. The availability of Aizen Power Supplement in official channels guarantees that consumers get the genuine formula, formulated using cutting-edge technology and high-quality ingredients.
This guarantee serves as a safety net for users who might be hesitant to try a new supplement. If a customer finds that the Aizen Power Supplement does not meet their expectations, they can request a refund within a specified duration.
The money-back guarantee policy usually requires customers to return the unused portion of the product. It's important to note that certain conditions may apply, such as the need to provide proof of purchase or comply with the return process outlined by Aizen Power.
The blend of natural ingredients in Aizen Power Supplement is specifically designed to support overall health and vitality. Many users have praised the supplement for its noticeable energy boost and improved focus. The company behind Aizen Power takes pride in their dedication to quality and customer satisfaction, evident in the high ratings and testimonials. With today's hectic lifestyle, having a reliable health supplement like Aizen Power can be a game-changer in maintaining optimal wellness. The efficiency and reliability of Aizen Power make it stand out among the sea of supplements available on the market.
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In this article, we will delve into the ingredients of Aizen Power, how it works, its benefits, potential side effects, dosage recommendations, customer reviews, where to buy it, and whether there is a money-back guarantee.
Stay tuned to find out if Aizen Power Supplement is worth trying for a healthier and more fulfilling sex life!
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Key Takeaways:
- Aizen Power Supplement is a natural dietary supplement that aims to improve male sexual health and performance.
- The supplement contains four key ingredients - L-Arginine, Horny Goat Weed, Saw Palmetto, and Asian Red Ginger Extracts - known for their effectiveness in boosting testosterone levels, increasing libido, and improving energy and stamina.
- With positive customer reviews and a money-back guarantee, Aizen Power Supplement is worth trying for those looking to enhance their sexual performance and overall health.
What Is Aizen Power Supplement?
Aizen Power Supplement is a revolutionary enhancement product designed to cater to various aspects of nutrition and health. Its unique formula combines cutting-edge technology with natural ingredients to provide users with a potent solution for their well-being.The supplement acts as a virtual powerhouse, enableing the robot in your body - the cells - with an arsenal of beneficial nutrients. Picture it as a sophisticated browser for your health, carefully navigating through the complexities of your body to deliver vital support where needed. Just like how cookies enhance your browsing experience online, Aizen Power Supplement enriches your body's internal processes, optimizing functionality seamlessly. Its composition is akin to the coding finesse of an expert using the versatile FCKeditor - refined, precise, and effective. With Aizen Power Supplement, users can harness their body's potential like a seasoned explorer using a Resources Browser, uncovering vitality and wellness."
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What Are The Ingredients Of Aizen Power Supplement?
The ingredients of Aizen Power Supplement are carefully selected to ensure maximum effectiveness and safety. Each component plays a vital role in enhancing the overall performance of the supplement.Among the key ingredients is the powerful robot extract, known for its ability to boost energy levels and improve focus. This natural ingredient provides sustained energy without the crash associated with synthetic stimulants, making it ideal for enhancing mental alertness and physical stamina.
Another essential component is the unique blend of browser extract, which supports cardiovascular health and promotes overall well-being. This extract contains potent antioxidants that help protect cells from damage, reducing inflammation and supporting immune function.
L-Arginine
L-Arginine is a crucial ingredient in Aizen Power Supplement known for its ability to improve blood flow and circulation. It aids in enhancing overall cardiovascular health and supports various bodily functions.By boosting nitric oxide production, L-Arginine helps relax and widen blood vessels, allowing for better oxygen and nutrient delivery to muscles and tissues. This vasodilation effect can improve exercise performance and recovery. It plays a key role in promoting healthy immune function and hormone regulation.
The inclusion of L-Arginine in the Aizen Power Supplement formula ensures that users experience optimized energy levels and endurance during workouts. Its synergistic effect with other ingredients enhances the overall effectiveness of the supplement, acting almost like a Resources Browser that directs nutrients to where they are needed most efficiently.
Horny Goat Weed
Horny Goat Weed is a key ingredient in Aizen Power Supplement known for its aphrodisiac properties. It has been used for centuries to boost libido and sexual performance, making it a valuable addition to the formula.Historically, Horny Goat Weed was prized in ancient Chinese medicine for its ability to enhance sexual vitality and improve overall well-being. This powerful herb contains icariin, a natural compound that increases blood flow to the genital area, aiding in erectile function and arousal.
Studies have shown that Horny Goat Weed may help regulate hormone levels, leading to heightened sexual desire and endurance. By incorporating this potent ingredient into Aizen Power Supplement, users can experience improved stamina, performance, and satisfaction in the bedroom.
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Saw Palmetto
Saw Palmetto in Aizen Power Supplement is known for its positive effects on prostate health and hormonal balance. It is a natural ingredient that supports overall well-being and vitality.One of the key benefits of Saw Palmetto is its ability to reduce inflammation in the prostate gland, which can help alleviate symptoms of conditions like benign prostatic hyperplasia (BPH). Men often experience improved urinary function and reduced nighttime urination frequency when incorporating Saw Palmetto into their routine.
Saw Palmetto has been linked to the regulation of dihydrotestosterone (DHT), a hormone that can contribute to prostate enlargement. By inhibiting the production of DHT, Saw Palmetto helps maintain hormonal balance and supports healthy prostate function.
Asian Red Ginger Extracts
Asian Red Ginger Extracts are a potent component of Aizen Power Supplement known for their stress-relieving and mood-enhancing properties. They contribute to the overall well-being and mental health of the users.The Asian Red Ginger Extracts work synergistically with the body's natural processes to reduce stress levels, promoting a sense of calmness and relaxation. By incorporating these extracts into the Aizen Power Supplement, the formula aims to combat the negative effects of stress on both the mind and body, enhancing mood and emotional well-being.
Users often report feeling more centered and in control of their emotions after regular consumption of this supplement enriched with Asian Red Ginger Extracts. The gentle yet effective nature of this botanical ingredient makes it a valuable addition to the daily routine of those seeking natural ways to manage stress and improve their overall quality of life.
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How Does Aizen Power Supplement Work?
Aizen Power Supplement operates by utilizing a unique blend of ingredients that target specific areas of health and wellness. Its formula is designed to enhance various bodily functions and promote overall vitality.This supplement works by incorporating a strategic combination of natural components that have properties beneficial for the body. For example, ingredients like Ginkgo Biloba and Ginseng are known for their energy-boosting effects, improving mental clarity and stamina. Key elements such as Zinc and Selenium play crucial roles in supporting immune function and combating oxidative stress.
The Aizen Power Supplement functions akin to a diligent robot, navigating through the body’s systems like a proficient browser, identifying areas that need repair or enhancement. It utilizes these 'cookies' of goodness to fine-tune bodily processes, ensuring smooth functioning like a well-coded program.
What Are The Benefits Of Aizen Power Supplement?
Aizen Power Supplement offers a wide range of benefits, including boosted testosterone levels, enhanced libido, improved blood flow, and increased energy and stamina. Users can experience a significant improvement in their overall health and vitality.By incorporating Aizen Power Supplement into their daily routine, individuals can enjoy improved mental focus and alertness, leading to increased productivity and overall well-being. The powerful antioxidants and anti-inflammatory properties present in the supplement help combat oxidative stress and reduce inflammation, supporting the body's immune system.
Boosts Testosterone Levels
One of the key benefits of Aizen Power Supplement is its ability to boost testosterone levels naturally. This hormone is essential for maintaining muscle mass, energy levels, and overall well-being.Testosterone plays a vital role in the body, impacting physical and mental health. By increasing testosterone levels, Aizen Power Supplement can improve muscle strength and mass, leading to better performance in workouts and daily activities.
Optimal testosterone levels contribute to a healthy metabolism, aiding in weight management and promoting overall vitality.
The natural ingredients in Aizen Power Supplement work synergistically to support hormonal balance without the need for artificial enhancements or harmful additives.
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Increases Libido and Sexual Performance
Aizen Power Supplement is known for its ability to enhance libido and sexual performance in both men and women. It can improve sexual desire, stamina, and satisfaction.Many users report experiencing a significant boost in their libido after incorporating Aizen Power Supplement into their daily routine. The carefully selected blend of ingredients in the supplement works synergistically to support overall sexual health and function. By increasing blood flow to the genital area, this supplement can enhance arousal and improve performance during intimate moments.
Improves Blood Flow and Circulation
By enhancing blood flow and circulation, Aizen Power Supplement supports cardiovascular health and overall well-being. Improved circulation can lead to better energy levels and vitality.Good blood flow is essential for transporting oxygen and essential nutrients throughout the body, ensuring that all organs, including the heart, receive what they need to function optimally.
Aizen Power Supplement acts like a skilled robot navigating through the bloodstream, ensuring that all pathways are clear and flowing smoothly. Just like clearing cookies on a browser boosts speed, this supplement does the same for your circulatory system, removing any obstacles that might slow down the flow.
Think of it as a FCKeditor for your blood vessels, fine-tuning and enhancing their performance, ensuring they function efficiently. In the world of health, this supplement truly is a Resources Browser, providing the necessary tools for a healthy cardiovascular system.
Enhances Energy and Stamina
Aizen Power Supplement is designed to enhance energy levels and stamina, providing users with the vitality they need to tackle daily challenges. Increased energy can lead to improved focus and productivity.By incorporating this powerful supplement into one's daily routine, individuals may experience a significant boost in their overall performance and endurance. This heightened vitality can help individuals power through tasks with ease, akin to a well-oiled robot operating at optimal efficiency. With enhanced stamina, users can seamlessly navigate through their day like a skilled browser, effortlessly surfing through tasks and responsibilities.
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What Are The Potential Side Effects Of Aizen Power Supplement?
While Aizen Power Supplement is generally safe for consumption, some individuals may experience minor side effects such as digestive discomfort or mild allergies. It is important to consult a healthcare professional before starting any new supplement regimen.Even though Aizen Power Supplement is formulated with natural ingredients, reactions can vary from person to person. Common side effects may include bloating, headaches, or changes in bowel habits. Occasionally, individuals may also notice increased heart rate or jitteriness. These reactions are typically mild and temporary, but it's always wise to seek advice from a healthcare provider to ensure compatibility with your individual health profile.
How To Take Aizen Power Supplement?
To maximize the benefits of Aizen Power Supplement, it is recommended to follow the prescribed dosage instructions provided by the manufacturer. Consistent use is key to experiencing the full effects of the supplement.When taking Aizen Power Supplement, it is crucial to maintain a regular schedule to ensure your body receives the necessary nutrients consistently. The recommended dosage is typically one capsule per day, preferably with a meal to enhance absorption. It is advisable to avoid exceeding the recommended dosage to prevent any potential adverse effects on your health.
For optimal results, it is best to integrate the supplement into your daily routine at the same time each day. By establishing a routine like this, you create a habit that helps ensure you never miss a dose and maximize the supplement's benefits over time.
What Are The Customer Reviews About Aizen Power Supplement?
Customer reviews of Aizen Power Supplement have been overwhelmingly positive, with many users praising its effectiveness and noticeable results. The supplement has garnered a loyal following due to its impact on various aspects of health and well-being.Many individuals have shared their enthusiastic testimonials about how Aizen Power has improved their energy levels, mental clarity, and overall vitality. Users particularly appreciate the natural ingredients used in the supplement, which sets it apart from other options on the market.
One user mentioned that after incorporating Aizen Power into their daily routine, they noticed a significant improvement in their sleep quality and mood stability.
Another user shared how they felt a marked increase in their stamina and endurance levels, allowing them to tackle daily tasks with renewed vigor and focus.
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Where To Buy Aizen Power Supplement?
Aizen Power Supplement is available for purchase through the official website and select online retailers. It is recommended to buy directly from the manufacturer to ensure authenticity and quality.When looking to buy Aizen Power Supplement, consumers can easily find it on the manufacturer's website, where they will have access to the latest offers and promotions. Authorized sellers on popular online platforms like Amazon also carry the product, ensuring convenience and quick delivery. By purchasing from these reliable sources, customers can avoid any risks associated with counterfeit products. The availability of Aizen Power Supplement in official channels guarantees that consumers get the genuine formula, formulated using cutting-edge technology and high-quality ingredients.
Is There A Money-Back Guarantee For Aizen Power Supplement?
Yes, Aizen Power Supplement offers a money-back guarantee to customers who are not satisfied with the product. The guarantee reflects the manufacturer's confidence in the supplement's quality and effectiveness.This guarantee serves as a safety net for users who might be hesitant to try a new supplement. If a customer finds that the Aizen Power Supplement does not meet their expectations, they can request a refund within a specified duration.
The money-back guarantee policy usually requires customers to return the unused portion of the product. It's important to note that certain conditions may apply, such as the need to provide proof of purchase or comply with the return process outlined by Aizen Power.
Final Verdict: Is Aizen Power Supplement Worth Trying?
Aizen Power Supplement offers a comprehensive solution to various health concerns and goals. Its unique formula, positive customer reviews, and money-back guarantee make it a promising option for individuals looking to enhance their well-being.The blend of natural ingredients in Aizen Power Supplement is specifically designed to support overall health and vitality. Many users have praised the supplement for its noticeable energy boost and improved focus. The company behind Aizen Power takes pride in their dedication to quality and customer satisfaction, evident in the high ratings and testimonials. With today's hectic lifestyle, having a reliable health supplement like Aizen Power can be a game-changer in maintaining optimal wellness. The efficiency and reliability of Aizen Power make it stand out among the sea of supplements available on the market.
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Frequently Asked Questions
1. What is Aizen Power Supplement?
Aizen Power Supplement is a dietary supplement designed to support men's sexual health and performance. It is made with natural ingredients that work together to enhance testosterone levels, improve libido, and combat common sexual health issues.2. How does Aizen Power Supplement work?
Aizen Power Supplement works by targeting the root causes of sexual health problems in men. Its powerful blend of ingredients helps to increase blood flow, boost testosterone production, and improve overall sexual function and stamina.3. What ingredients are included in Aizen Power Supplement?
Aizen Power Supplement contains a blend of natural ingredients such as Tongkat Ali, Maca Root, L-Arginine, and Horny Goat Weed. These ingredients have been used for centuries to improve sexual health and performance in men.4. Are there any side effects of taking Aizen Power Supplement?
Aizen Power Supplement is made with all-natural ingredients and is generally safe for consumption. However, as with any supplement, it is always recommended to consult with a healthcare professional before use, especially if you have any pre-existing medical conditions.5. How long does it take to see results from Aizen Power Supplement?
Results may vary from person to person, but many users report seeing noticeable improvements in their sexual health within the first few weeks of taking Aizen Power Supplement regularly. It is important to follow the recommended dosage and use the product consistently for best results.6. Can I purchase Aizen Power Supplement without a prescription?
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2024.05.19 09:57 JauneStrife Help, Previous Tenant Left Us a Gift
I always thought this was something that happened to other people. Like in Oceans, or to my horrible ex after we broke up.
Guess this is karma for laughing.
Came home on Friday to the announcement from the roommate that we have bedbugs. They were all over in his bed, seemingly sourced by the baseboard on the outside wall.
Naturally I panicked. I looked through my room over a dozen times and didn’t find any bugs, blood smears or excrement. I have taken all the fabric I own barring the mattress and computer chair, and it’s sitting in bags in my car. Roommate has taken a steam cleaner, can of raid and diatamateous earth to his room.
Just because I didn’t find anything, doesn’t mean that there wasn’t any, right?
I have heard such mixed reviews. That what my roommate did will shut them down. That this will be a months long battle. That this is game over and it’s time to move. We can’t contact the landlords yet because it’s May long weekend here. I’m hoping they bomb the place, in which case I should leave my clothes and stuff there so it gets hit too, right?
One recommendation I’ve received is to put all my stuff through the dryer at high heat for a long time, and that that will do them in. Any truth to this?
At the moment I’m thinking I’ll only bring the bare essentials back to my apartment and leave the rest in my friend’s freezer because I’ve also heard that will deal with them in a few days.
Just really hoping somebody here can shed some light on this for me. Will the steps my roommate is taking be enough? Is it likely that my room was spared? We share a wall but the infestation and his bed (main affected area) were on the farthest wall from me. What steps should I take with my clothes and pillows to make sure they survive this? Can they survive this? How boned am I?
Deeply appreciate any advice people can give.
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Guess this is karma for laughing.
Came home on Friday to the announcement from the roommate that we have bedbugs. They were all over in his bed, seemingly sourced by the baseboard on the outside wall.
Naturally I panicked. I looked through my room over a dozen times and didn’t find any bugs, blood smears or excrement. I have taken all the fabric I own barring the mattress and computer chair, and it’s sitting in bags in my car. Roommate has taken a steam cleaner, can of raid and diatamateous earth to his room.
Just because I didn’t find anything, doesn’t mean that there wasn’t any, right?
I have heard such mixed reviews. That what my roommate did will shut them down. That this will be a months long battle. That this is game over and it’s time to move. We can’t contact the landlords yet because it’s May long weekend here. I’m hoping they bomb the place, in which case I should leave my clothes and stuff there so it gets hit too, right?
One recommendation I’ve received is to put all my stuff through the dryer at high heat for a long time, and that that will do them in. Any truth to this?
At the moment I’m thinking I’ll only bring the bare essentials back to my apartment and leave the rest in my friend’s freezer because I’ve also heard that will deal with them in a few days.
Just really hoping somebody here can shed some light on this for me. Will the steps my roommate is taking be enough? Is it likely that my room was spared? We share a wall but the infestation and his bed (main affected area) were on the farthest wall from me. What steps should I take with my clothes and pillows to make sure they survive this? Can they survive this? How boned am I?
Deeply appreciate any advice people can give.
2024.05.19 09:56 iamnotvanwilder 96bpm waking, needing to pee, and very gassy?
Hello,
I woke up to my fitbit at 96bpm. No chest pain. No dizzy. I am usually on My stomach or back. I found it doesn't happen on my side. It is like a bad dream, flush of anxiety, and it makes me unhappy.
About a month ago, I got a prompt on my fitbit and it said afib. When I looked online what this meant, I felt anxious. My doctor moved and I can't find a new one taking patients so, I went to a urgent care.
They did some tests. He manually checked me and I went to their lab for some weird test. He told me I am in good health but these gizmos/smart watches can mistake palpitations or PVCs as that prompt.
What else should I do? I do get night terrors and I have had sleep paralysis before but mostly sleeping on my back. I switched to side laying. I think I wedge myself good for side laying around but I wake up out of position and then it happens. High bpm. Fitbit says 66bpm but I manually checked. 94-96bpm but who knows? It could be higher. I wake up. I wonder about deprivation or sleep apnea?
Any tips or advice is welcome. I don't have a family doctor. The scary part is that, I noticed a lot of young people experiencing this for some reason. Very alarming.
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I woke up to my fitbit at 96bpm. No chest pain. No dizzy. I am usually on My stomach or back. I found it doesn't happen on my side. It is like a bad dream, flush of anxiety, and it makes me unhappy.
About a month ago, I got a prompt on my fitbit and it said afib. When I looked online what this meant, I felt anxious. My doctor moved and I can't find a new one taking patients so, I went to a urgent care.
They did some tests. He manually checked me and I went to their lab for some weird test. He told me I am in good health but these gizmos/smart watches can mistake palpitations or PVCs as that prompt.
What else should I do? I do get night terrors and I have had sleep paralysis before but mostly sleeping on my back. I switched to side laying. I think I wedge myself good for side laying around but I wake up out of position and then it happens. High bpm. Fitbit says 66bpm but I manually checked. 94-96bpm but who knows? It could be higher. I wake up. I wonder about deprivation or sleep apnea?
Any tips or advice is welcome. I don't have a family doctor. The scary part is that, I noticed a lot of young people experiencing this for some reason. Very alarming.
2024.05.19 09:55 IntrepidNectarine8 Did your job build your stress resilience, or did you start with high stress resilience?
I considered a career in ATC, but everyone tells me I'm a high stress person in general, so I wondered - have you always been good at managing stress? What were your first months on the job like? Did the tolerance to pressure build up over time, or did you start out being resilient already? How big of a drawback is the stress of the job for you?
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2024.05.19 09:55 recursiveecho ChatGPT makes me feel better
I'm just a software engineer who doesn't know a lot but kinda knows how to talk to ChatGPT and I thought some of the info I prompted might alleviate some people's worries. Everyone is calling FFIE a pump and dump, but it never occurred to anyone that it could have characteristics of a pump and dump because a lot of retail investors didn't hold like the rest of us. That's why it's important to stick together here!
ChatGPT below 👇
Based on the gathered information, here is a detailed analysis to determine whether FFIE’s stock movement on May 17, 2024, was a short squeeze, a pump and dump, or a combination of both:
However, elements of a pump and dump were also present, especially considering the rapid profit-taking and subsequent decline.
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ChatGPT below 👇
Based on the gathered information, here is a detailed analysis to determine whether FFIE’s stock movement on May 17, 2024, was a short squeeze, a pump and dump, or a combination of both:
Key Findings
Characteristics of a Short Squeeze:
- High Short Interest: FFIE had a short interest of approximately 95% of its float, making it a prime candidate for a short squeeze.
- Coordinated Retail Activity: Retail investors on platforms like Reddit and Twitter coordinated buying efforts to force a short squeeze.
- Trading Volume Surge: There was a dramatic increase in trading volume, with over 445 million shares traded in a single day compared to the average of 41 million shares.
Characteristics of a Pump and Dump:
- Rapid Price Increase and Decline: The stock experienced a rapid rise followed by a sharp decline, typical of pump and dump schemes.
- Lack of Fundamental Support: The surge was not supported by significant positive news or improvements in company fundamentals.
Conclusion
Based on the evidence, it appears that the stock movement of FFIE on May 17, 2024, was predominantly driven by a retail investor-coordinated short squeeze.However, elements of a pump and dump were also present, especially considering the rapid profit-taking and subsequent decline.
Detailed Analysis
Retail Investors and Short Squeeze:
- High Short Interest: The significant short interest in FFIE made it a target for a short squeeze.
- Coordinated Efforts: Retail investors used social media platforms to coordinate buying, similar to previous short squeeze events like GameStop.
- Price Surge: The price surged as short sellers were forced to cover their positions, driving the stock higher.
Pump and Dump Elements:
- Rapid Decline: The subsequent sharp decline after the surge indicates that some investors were likely taking profits quickly.
- Speculative Trading: The stock's movements were highly speculative, driven by hype and market manipulation tactics typical of pump and dump schemes.
Final Thoughts
While the primary driver appears to be a retail-driven short squeeze, the characteristics of rapid profit-taking and the lack of fundamental support suggest elements of a pump and dump. Therefore, FFIE’s stock movement on May 17, 2024, can be seen as a hybrid event involving both a short squeeze and pump and dump dynamics.Current Status of FFIE and Potential for a Short Squeeze
Summary of Recent Activity
Faraday Future (FFIE) recently experienced a dramatic rise in stock price due to what appears to be a short squeeze. On May 17, 2024, the stock surged by over 367% during intraday trading before closing down 37.58% at $1.03. This significant volatility was driven by retail investors coordinating efforts on social media platforms to buy and hold the stock, targeting its high short interest.Key Indicators of a Short Squeeze:
- High Short Interest: FFIE had a short interest of approximately 95% of its float, with about 36.34 million shares shorted. This made it a prime target for a short squeeze, as identified by investors and analysts.
- Coordinated Retail Activity: The surge was fueled by retail investors, particularly those influenced by figures like Roaring Kitty, who led the 2021 meme stock rallies. The coordinated buying efforts were aimed at forcing short sellers to cover their positions, driving the stock price up.
- Unusually High Trading Volume: On May 17, FFIE's trading volume surged to over 445 million shares, compared to its average daily volume of 41 million shares. This spike in volume is a strong indicator of a short squeeze as short sellers were forced to buy shares to cover their positions.
Current Status:
- In Progress: Based on the ongoing high trading volume and continued interest from retail investors, FFIE appears to be in the midst of a short squeeze. The stock's price and volume fluctuations suggest that the squeeze is still active, with significant buying pressure from retail investors countered by profit-taking and short sellers re-entering the market.
When the Short Squeeze Might End:
- Price Stabilization or Decline: The short squeeze is likely to subside when the stock price stabilizes or begins to decline steadily, indicating that most short sellers have covered their positions.
- Decreased Trading Volume: A significant drop in trading volume back to normal levels will suggest reduced buying pressure and the end of the short squeeze.
- Reduction in Short Interest: Monitoring short interest reports for a notable decrease will confirm that the squeeze has ended as fewer shares remain shorted.
Conclusion:
FFIE's recent price movements indicate that a short squeeze is currently happening, driven by high retail investor activity and a substantial short interest. The situation remains volatile, and the short squeeze will likely continue until the factors driving the buying pressure diminish.Current Status of FFIE Short Sellers
Short Interest and Recent Developments
As of the latest available data in early May 2024, Faraday Future (FFIE) has a short interest of approximately 85.71%, with about 36.34 million shares sold short. This indicates a high level of short interest, making the stock susceptible to a short squeeze.Indicators of Short Sellers Covering
- High Trading Volume:
- On May 17, 2024, FFIE saw an extraordinarily high trading volume of over 445 million shares, compared to its average daily volume of about 41 million shares. This surge in volume is indicative of short sellers covering their positions amid the buying frenzy driven by retail investors.
- Stock Price Movements:
- FFIE experienced a dramatic price increase, up by as much as 380% during intraday trading before closing down 37.58% at $1.03. The initial surge followed by a sharp decline suggests significant short covering activity followed by profit-taking by retail investors and re-entry of short positions by hedge funds.
- Days to Cover:
- The "days to cover" ratio, which measures the time required for short sellers to cover their positions based on average daily trading volume, is currently 1 day for FFIE. A low days to cover ratio further supports the occurrence of a short squeeze as short sellers quickly buy back shares to close their positions.
Conclusion
Based on the current data, FFIE is still in the midst of significant short covering activity. The high trading volume and price volatility indicate that many short sellers have covered their positions, but the situation remains fluid with continued retail investor interest and hedge fund activity. Monitoring short interest reports in the coming weeks will provide further insights into the extent of short covering and whether the short squeeze is ongoing or subsiding.2024.05.19 09:51 mi555trZ [Store] 300+ KNIVES AND GLOVES e.g. Cool Mint FT, Smoke Out MW, Finish Line MW, Overprint FT, Polygon FT, Falchion Emerald, AWP Fade, Butterfly Ultraviolet, Kukri Crimson Web & Vanilla, Karambit Freehand FN & Lore FT, Daggers Sapphire ST, Talon Vanilla, Glock Emerald FN, UMP Fade & many more
Taking csgo skins mainly (knives, gloves, aks, m4s, awps and so on). Anything as long as offer is good
I don't update this list everyday, so I have many items which aren't listed here. Check if something interests you! Also, some of the items are on trade hold, for release date you can add me or check by yourself.
TRADE LINK: https://steamcommunity.com/tradeoffenew/?partner=35769104&token=J30wyEpy
Add me to talk here: https://steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561197996034832
Keys from these buy outs aren't TF2 keys. I don't take Hydra keys either.
Buy outs are in keys for the sake of having a buy out, I trade for skins mainly.
Gloves/wraps:
Gloves Cool Mint FT - B/O 74 keys
Gloves Smoke Out MW - B/O 61 keys
Gloves Finish Line MW - B/O 53 keys
Gloves Turtle MW - B/O 51 keys
Wraps Overprint FT - B/O 40 keys
Gloves Rezan MW - B/O 36 keys
Gloves Polygon FT - B/O 34 keys
Gloves Lt. Commander FT - B/O 33 keys
Gloves Mogul FT - B/O 32 keys
Gloves Overtake MW - B/O 31 keys
Wraps Leather FT - B/O 31 keys
Gloves Polygon WW - B/O 30 keys
Gloves Boom FT - B/O 29 keys
Gloves POW WW - B/O 28 keys
Gloves Cool Mint BS - B/O 28 keys
Gloves Smoke Out FT - B/O 27 keys
Gloves Mogul WW - B/O 26 keys
Gloves Lunar Weave FT - B/O 25 keys
Gloves Bronze Morph FT - B/O 24 keys
Gloves Turtle FT - B/O 23 keys
Gloves Diamondback FT - B/O 22 keys
Gloves Black Tie BS - B/O 21 keys
Gloves Jade FT - B/O 20 keys
Gloves Unhinhed MW - B/O 20 keys
Gloves 3rd Commmando Company MW - B/O 19 keys
Gloves Forest Ddpat FT - B/O 18 keys
Gloves Rezan FT - B/O 18 keys
Gloves Overtake FT - B/O 17 keys
Gloves Jade BS - B/O 16 keys
Wraps Constrictor MW - B/O 16 keys
Gloves Blood Pressure BS - B/O 16 keys
Gloves Needle Point MW - B/O 16 keys
Gloves Case Hardened BS - B/O 16 keys
Gloves POW BS - B/O 16 keys
Gloves Boom BS - B/O 15 keys
Gloves Diamondback BS - B/O 15 keys
Wraps Desert Shamagh MW - B/O 15 keys
Wraps Arboreal FT - B/O 14 keys
Gloves Finish Line BS - B/O 14 keys
Gloves Rezan BS - B/O 14 keys
Gloves Yellow-banded FT - B/O 14 keys
Gloves Buckshot FT - B/O 13 keys
Gloves Needle Point FT - B/O 13 keys
Gloves Unhinged FT - B/O 13 keys
Gloves Transport FT - B/O 13 keys
Wraps Constrictor FT - B/O 13 keys
Wraps Arboreal WW - B/O 13 keys
Wraps Duct Tape FT - B/O 13 keys
Gloves Bronzed FT - B/O 13 keys
Gloves Guerrilla FT - B/O 13 keys
Wraps Desert Shamagh FT - B/O 13 keys
Gloves Convoy FT - B/O 12 keys
Gloves Guerrilla BS - B/O 12 keys
Gloves Bronzed WW - B/O 12 keys
Gloves Overtake BS - B/O 12 keys
Wraps Constrictor BS - B/O 12 keys
Gloves Emerald FT - B/O 12 keys
Wraps Duct Tape WW - B/O 12 keys
Gloves Bronzed BS - B/O 11 keys
Gloves Convoy WW - B/O 11 keys
Gloves Mangrove MW - B/O 11 keys
Gloves 3rd Commando Company WW - B/O 11 keys
Gloves Yellow-banded BS - B/O 11 keys
Gloves Transport BS - B/O 11 keys
Gloves Rattler FT - B/O 10 keys
Gloves Emerald WW - B/O 10 keys
Gloves Emerald BS - B/O 10 keys
Gloves Racing Green FT - B/O 10 keys
Knives and high tier items:
AWP Fade FN - B/O 190 keys
Glock Emerald FN - B/O 100 keys
UMP Fade FN - B/O 85 keys
Butterfly Ultraviolet FT - B/O 150 keys
Butterfly Urban Masked FT - B/O 105 keys
Butterfly Safari Mesh WW - B/O 105 keys
Kukri Crimson Web MW - B/O 135 keys
Kukri Vanilla - B/O 112 keys
Karambit Lore FT - B/O 160 keys
Karambit Freehand FN - B/O 140 keys
Karambit Rust Coat BS - B/O 105 keys
Karambit Forest Ddpat FT - B/O 90 keys
Karambit Scorched FT - B/O 90 keys
Karambit Safari Mesh MW - B/O 90 keys
M9 Safari Mesh FT - B/O 73 keys
Bayonet Case Hardened MW - B/O 80 keys
Bayonet Freehand FN - B/O 64 keys
Bayonet Stained WW - B/O 44 keys
Bayonet Rust Coat BS - B/O 42 keys
Bayonet Night FT - B/O 42 keys
Bayonet Urban Masked FT - B/O 37 keys
Talon Vanilla - B/O 90 keys
Talon Night FT - B/O 53 keys
Talon Urban Masked WW - B/O 45 keys
Talon Boreal Forest FT - B/O 45 keys
Skeleton Safari Mesh FT - B/O 41 keys
Stiletto Ultraviolet WW - B/O 41 keys
Stiletto Night WW - B/O 35 keys
Stiletto Forest Ddpat MW - B/O 34 keys
Stiletto Forest Ddpat BS - B/O 30 keys
Classic Slaughter FN - B/O 70 keys
Classic Vanilla - B/O 57 keys
Classic Case Hardened BS - B/O 34 keys
Classic Stained FT - B/O 31 keys
Classic Night MW - B/O 29 keys
Clasic Urban Masked FT - B/O 24 keys
Classic Scorched BS - B/O 22 keys
Classic Urban Masked BS - B/O 21 keys
Flip Autotronic MW - B/O 61 keys
Flip Freehand MW - B/O 40 keys
Flip Bright Water FT - B/O 36 keys
Flip Ultraviolet WW - B/O 32 keys
Flip Urban Masked MW - B/O 31 keys
Flip Rust Coat BS - B/O 30 keys
Flip Boreal Forest FT - B/O 25 keys
Ursus Case Hardened FT - B/O 43 keys
Ursus Scorched MW - B/O 21 keys
Ursus Scorched FT - B/O 20 keys
Ursus Forest Ddpat Ft - B/O 19 keys
Ursus Safari Mesh WW - B/O 18 keys
Ursus Boreal Forest BS - B/O 18 keys
Nomad Fade FN - B/O 185 keys
Nomad Urban Masked MW - B/O 56 keys
Nomad Night FT - B/O 55 keys
Nomad Scorched MW - B/O 33 keys
Nomad Scorched FT - B/O 29 keys
Nomad Urban Masked BS - B/O 25 keys
Nomad Safari MEsh FT - B/O 25 keys
Huntsman Doppler FN - B/O 95 keys
Huntsman Slaughter MW - B/O 60 keys
Huntsman Case Hardened WW - B/O 40 keys
Huntsman Lore FT - B/O 36 keys
Huntsman Blue Steel FT - B/O 35 keys
Huntsman Autotronic BS - B/O 33 keys
Huntsman Crimson Web FT - B/O 31 keys
Huntsman Black Laminate WW - B/O 25 keys
Huntsman Bright Water MW - B/O 25 keys
Huntsman Freehand FT - B/o 23 keys
Huntsman Forest Ddpat MW - B/O 22 keys
Huntsman Ultraviolet FT - B/O 21 keys
Huntsman Ultraviolet BS - B/O 21 keys
Huntsman Scorched FT - B/O 20 keys
Huntsman Rust Coat BS - B/o 19 keys
Huntsman Safari Mesh BS - B/O 19 keys
Huntsman Boreal Forest FT - B/O 19 keys
Bowie Marble Fade FN - B/o 53 keys
Bowie Case Hardened MW - B/O 48 keys
Bowie Case Hardened FT - B/O 40 keys
Bowie Case Hardened BS - B/O 35 keys
Bowie Crimson Web WW - B/O 30 keys
Bowie Autotronic FT - B/O 29 keys
Bowie Freehand FT - B/o 23 keys
Bowie Bright Water FN - B/O 22 keys
Bowie Ultraviolet FT - B/O 20 keys
Bowie Bright Water FT - B/O 19 keys
Bowie Black Laminate WW - B/O 19 keys
Bowie Forest Ddpat WW - B/o 18 keys
Bowie Night BS - B/O 18 keys
Bowie Safari Mesh FT ST - B/O 18 keys
Bowie Boreal Forest FT - B/o 17 keys
Bowie Forest Ddpat FT - B/O 17 keys
Falchion Emerald FN - B/O 210 keys
Falchion Gamma Doppler FN P3 - B/O 80 keys
Falchion Lore FT - B/O 33 keys
Falchion Crimson Web FT - B/O 30 keys
Falchion Freehand FT - B/O 25 keys
Falchion Black Laminate MW - B/O 21 keys
Falchion Bright Water FT - B/O 21 keys
Falchion Safari Mesh MW ST - B/O 19 keys
Falchion Night BS - B/O 19 keys
Falchion Urban Masked BS - B/O 18 keys
Falchion Boreal Forest FT - B/O 18 keys
Paracord Stained FT - B/O 21 keys
Paracord Stained WW - B/O 20 keys
Paracord Safari Mesh FT - B/O 15 keys
Paracord Safari Mesh WW - B/O 15 keys
Survival Case Hardened MW - B/O 43 keys
Survival Case Hardened FT - B/O 35 keys
Survival Case Hardened WW - B/O 28 keys
Survival Case Hardened BS - B/O 27 keys
Survival Stained FT - B/O 21 keys
Survival Boreal Forest MW ST - B/O 19 keys
Survival Forest Ddpat FT - B/O 16 keys
Survival Safari Mesh MW - B/O 16 keys
Survival Boreal Forest BS - B/O 15 keys
Survival Safari Mesh WW - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Doppler FN P1 - B/O 38 keys
Navaja Vanilla - B/O 29 keys
Navaja Case Hardened FT - B/O 25 keys
Navaja Tiger Tooth FN - B/O 25 keys
Navaja Case hardened WW - B/O 21 keys
Navaja Damascus Steel FN - B/O 18 keys
Navaja Night Stripe BS ST - B/O 17 keys
Navaja Blue Steel MW - B/O 17 keys
Navaja Blue Steel BS - B/o 16 keys
Navaja Damascus Steel MW - B/o 16 keys
Navaja Blue Steel FT - B/O 16 keys
Navaja Damascus Steel WW - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Rust Coat BS - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Damascus Steel WW - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Rust Coat WW - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Damascus Steel FT - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Night MW - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Ultraviolet FT - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Stained WW - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Night FT ST - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Scorched MW - B/O 14 keys
Navaja Ultraviolet BS - B/O 14 keys
Navaja Boreal Forest MW - B/O 14 keys
Navaja Urban Masked WW - B/O 14 keys
Navaja Night FT - B/O 14 keys
Navaja Urban Masked FT - B/O 14 keys
Navaja Night BS - B/o 14 keys
Daggers Sapphire FN ST - B/o 110 keys
Daggers Tiger Tooth FN - B/O 26 keys
Daggers Case Hardened WW - B/O 22 keys
Daggers Case Hardened FT - B/O 22 keys
Daggers Crimson Web BS - B/O 18 keys
Daggers Autotronic FT - B/O 18 keys
Daggers Autotronic BS - B/O 17 keys
Daggers Damascus Steel MW - B/O 17 keys
Daggers Blue Steel WW - B/O 16 keys
Daggers Damascus Steel FT - B/O 15 keys
Daggers Urban Masked WW - B/O 15 keys
Daggers Ultraviolet BS - B/O 15 keys
Daggers Scorched WW - B/O 15 keys
Daggers Black Laminate MW - B/O 15 keys
Daggers Bright Water MW - B/O 15 keys
Daggers Boreal Forest MW - B/o 14 keys
Daggers Bright Water FT - B/O 14 keys
Daggers Night FT - B/O 14 keys
Daggers Forest Ddpat FT - B/O 14 keys
submitted by mi555trZ to GlobalOffensiveTrade [link] [comments]
I don't update this list everyday, so I have many items which aren't listed here. Check if something interests you! Also, some of the items are on trade hold, for release date you can add me or check by yourself.
TRADE LINK: https://steamcommunity.com/tradeoffenew/?partner=35769104&token=J30wyEpy
Add me to talk here: https://steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561197996034832
Keys from these buy outs aren't TF2 keys. I don't take Hydra keys either.
Buy outs are in keys for the sake of having a buy out, I trade for skins mainly.
Gloves/wraps:
Gloves Cool Mint FT - B/O 74 keys
Gloves Smoke Out MW - B/O 61 keys
Gloves Finish Line MW - B/O 53 keys
Gloves Turtle MW - B/O 51 keys
Wraps Overprint FT - B/O 40 keys
Gloves Rezan MW - B/O 36 keys
Gloves Polygon FT - B/O 34 keys
Gloves Lt. Commander FT - B/O 33 keys
Gloves Mogul FT - B/O 32 keys
Gloves Overtake MW - B/O 31 keys
Wraps Leather FT - B/O 31 keys
Gloves Polygon WW - B/O 30 keys
Gloves Boom FT - B/O 29 keys
Gloves POW WW - B/O 28 keys
Gloves Cool Mint BS - B/O 28 keys
Gloves Smoke Out FT - B/O 27 keys
Gloves Mogul WW - B/O 26 keys
Gloves Lunar Weave FT - B/O 25 keys
Gloves Bronze Morph FT - B/O 24 keys
Gloves Turtle FT - B/O 23 keys
Gloves Diamondback FT - B/O 22 keys
Gloves Black Tie BS - B/O 21 keys
Gloves Jade FT - B/O 20 keys
Gloves Unhinhed MW - B/O 20 keys
Gloves 3rd Commmando Company MW - B/O 19 keys
Gloves Forest Ddpat FT - B/O 18 keys
Gloves Rezan FT - B/O 18 keys
Gloves Overtake FT - B/O 17 keys
Gloves Jade BS - B/O 16 keys
Wraps Constrictor MW - B/O 16 keys
Gloves Blood Pressure BS - B/O 16 keys
Gloves Needle Point MW - B/O 16 keys
Gloves Case Hardened BS - B/O 16 keys
Gloves POW BS - B/O 16 keys
Gloves Boom BS - B/O 15 keys
Gloves Diamondback BS - B/O 15 keys
Wraps Desert Shamagh MW - B/O 15 keys
Wraps Arboreal FT - B/O 14 keys
Gloves Finish Line BS - B/O 14 keys
Gloves Rezan BS - B/O 14 keys
Gloves Yellow-banded FT - B/O 14 keys
Gloves Buckshot FT - B/O 13 keys
Gloves Needle Point FT - B/O 13 keys
Gloves Unhinged FT - B/O 13 keys
Gloves Transport FT - B/O 13 keys
Wraps Constrictor FT - B/O 13 keys
Wraps Arboreal WW - B/O 13 keys
Wraps Duct Tape FT - B/O 13 keys
Gloves Bronzed FT - B/O 13 keys
Gloves Guerrilla FT - B/O 13 keys
Wraps Desert Shamagh FT - B/O 13 keys
Gloves Convoy FT - B/O 12 keys
Gloves Guerrilla BS - B/O 12 keys
Gloves Bronzed WW - B/O 12 keys
Gloves Overtake BS - B/O 12 keys
Wraps Constrictor BS - B/O 12 keys
Gloves Emerald FT - B/O 12 keys
Wraps Duct Tape WW - B/O 12 keys
Gloves Bronzed BS - B/O 11 keys
Gloves Convoy WW - B/O 11 keys
Gloves Mangrove MW - B/O 11 keys
Gloves 3rd Commando Company WW - B/O 11 keys
Gloves Yellow-banded BS - B/O 11 keys
Gloves Transport BS - B/O 11 keys
Gloves Rattler FT - B/O 10 keys
Gloves Emerald WW - B/O 10 keys
Gloves Emerald BS - B/O 10 keys
Gloves Racing Green FT - B/O 10 keys
Knives and high tier items:
AWP Fade FN - B/O 190 keys
Glock Emerald FN - B/O 100 keys
UMP Fade FN - B/O 85 keys
Butterfly Ultraviolet FT - B/O 150 keys
Butterfly Urban Masked FT - B/O 105 keys
Butterfly Safari Mesh WW - B/O 105 keys
Kukri Crimson Web MW - B/O 135 keys
Kukri Vanilla - B/O 112 keys
Karambit Lore FT - B/O 160 keys
Karambit Freehand FN - B/O 140 keys
Karambit Rust Coat BS - B/O 105 keys
Karambit Forest Ddpat FT - B/O 90 keys
Karambit Scorched FT - B/O 90 keys
Karambit Safari Mesh MW - B/O 90 keys
M9 Safari Mesh FT - B/O 73 keys
Bayonet Case Hardened MW - B/O 80 keys
Bayonet Freehand FN - B/O 64 keys
Bayonet Stained WW - B/O 44 keys
Bayonet Rust Coat BS - B/O 42 keys
Bayonet Night FT - B/O 42 keys
Bayonet Urban Masked FT - B/O 37 keys
Talon Vanilla - B/O 90 keys
Talon Night FT - B/O 53 keys
Talon Urban Masked WW - B/O 45 keys
Talon Boreal Forest FT - B/O 45 keys
Skeleton Safari Mesh FT - B/O 41 keys
Stiletto Ultraviolet WW - B/O 41 keys
Stiletto Night WW - B/O 35 keys
Stiletto Forest Ddpat MW - B/O 34 keys
Stiletto Forest Ddpat BS - B/O 30 keys
Classic Slaughter FN - B/O 70 keys
Classic Vanilla - B/O 57 keys
Classic Case Hardened BS - B/O 34 keys
Classic Stained FT - B/O 31 keys
Classic Night MW - B/O 29 keys
Clasic Urban Masked FT - B/O 24 keys
Classic Scorched BS - B/O 22 keys
Classic Urban Masked BS - B/O 21 keys
Flip Autotronic MW - B/O 61 keys
Flip Freehand MW - B/O 40 keys
Flip Bright Water FT - B/O 36 keys
Flip Ultraviolet WW - B/O 32 keys
Flip Urban Masked MW - B/O 31 keys
Flip Rust Coat BS - B/O 30 keys
Flip Boreal Forest FT - B/O 25 keys
Ursus Case Hardened FT - B/O 43 keys
Ursus Scorched MW - B/O 21 keys
Ursus Scorched FT - B/O 20 keys
Ursus Forest Ddpat Ft - B/O 19 keys
Ursus Safari Mesh WW - B/O 18 keys
Ursus Boreal Forest BS - B/O 18 keys
Nomad Fade FN - B/O 185 keys
Nomad Urban Masked MW - B/O 56 keys
Nomad Night FT - B/O 55 keys
Nomad Scorched MW - B/O 33 keys
Nomad Scorched FT - B/O 29 keys
Nomad Urban Masked BS - B/O 25 keys
Nomad Safari MEsh FT - B/O 25 keys
Huntsman Doppler FN - B/O 95 keys
Huntsman Slaughter MW - B/O 60 keys
Huntsman Case Hardened WW - B/O 40 keys
Huntsman Lore FT - B/O 36 keys
Huntsman Blue Steel FT - B/O 35 keys
Huntsman Autotronic BS - B/O 33 keys
Huntsman Crimson Web FT - B/O 31 keys
Huntsman Black Laminate WW - B/O 25 keys
Huntsman Bright Water MW - B/O 25 keys
Huntsman Freehand FT - B/o 23 keys
Huntsman Forest Ddpat MW - B/O 22 keys
Huntsman Ultraviolet FT - B/O 21 keys
Huntsman Ultraviolet BS - B/O 21 keys
Huntsman Scorched FT - B/O 20 keys
Huntsman Rust Coat BS - B/o 19 keys
Huntsman Safari Mesh BS - B/O 19 keys
Huntsman Boreal Forest FT - B/O 19 keys
Bowie Marble Fade FN - B/o 53 keys
Bowie Case Hardened MW - B/O 48 keys
Bowie Case Hardened FT - B/O 40 keys
Bowie Case Hardened BS - B/O 35 keys
Bowie Crimson Web WW - B/O 30 keys
Bowie Autotronic FT - B/O 29 keys
Bowie Freehand FT - B/o 23 keys
Bowie Bright Water FN - B/O 22 keys
Bowie Ultraviolet FT - B/O 20 keys
Bowie Bright Water FT - B/O 19 keys
Bowie Black Laminate WW - B/O 19 keys
Bowie Forest Ddpat WW - B/o 18 keys
Bowie Night BS - B/O 18 keys
Bowie Safari Mesh FT ST - B/O 18 keys
Bowie Boreal Forest FT - B/o 17 keys
Bowie Forest Ddpat FT - B/O 17 keys
Falchion Emerald FN - B/O 210 keys
Falchion Gamma Doppler FN P3 - B/O 80 keys
Falchion Lore FT - B/O 33 keys
Falchion Crimson Web FT - B/O 30 keys
Falchion Freehand FT - B/O 25 keys
Falchion Black Laminate MW - B/O 21 keys
Falchion Bright Water FT - B/O 21 keys
Falchion Safari Mesh MW ST - B/O 19 keys
Falchion Night BS - B/O 19 keys
Falchion Urban Masked BS - B/O 18 keys
Falchion Boreal Forest FT - B/O 18 keys
Paracord Stained FT - B/O 21 keys
Paracord Stained WW - B/O 20 keys
Paracord Safari Mesh FT - B/O 15 keys
Paracord Safari Mesh WW - B/O 15 keys
Survival Case Hardened MW - B/O 43 keys
Survival Case Hardened FT - B/O 35 keys
Survival Case Hardened WW - B/O 28 keys
Survival Case Hardened BS - B/O 27 keys
Survival Stained FT - B/O 21 keys
Survival Boreal Forest MW ST - B/O 19 keys
Survival Forest Ddpat FT - B/O 16 keys
Survival Safari Mesh MW - B/O 16 keys
Survival Boreal Forest BS - B/O 15 keys
Survival Safari Mesh WW - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Doppler FN P1 - B/O 38 keys
Navaja Vanilla - B/O 29 keys
Navaja Case Hardened FT - B/O 25 keys
Navaja Tiger Tooth FN - B/O 25 keys
Navaja Case hardened WW - B/O 21 keys
Navaja Damascus Steel FN - B/O 18 keys
Navaja Night Stripe BS ST - B/O 17 keys
Navaja Blue Steel MW - B/O 17 keys
Navaja Blue Steel BS - B/o 16 keys
Navaja Damascus Steel MW - B/o 16 keys
Navaja Blue Steel FT - B/O 16 keys
Navaja Damascus Steel WW - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Rust Coat BS - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Damascus Steel WW - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Rust Coat WW - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Damascus Steel FT - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Night MW - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Ultraviolet FT - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Stained WW - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Night FT ST - B/O 15 keys
Navaja Scorched MW - B/O 14 keys
Navaja Ultraviolet BS - B/O 14 keys
Navaja Boreal Forest MW - B/O 14 keys
Navaja Urban Masked WW - B/O 14 keys
Navaja Night FT - B/O 14 keys
Navaja Urban Masked FT - B/O 14 keys
Navaja Night BS - B/o 14 keys
Daggers Sapphire FN ST - B/o 110 keys
Daggers Tiger Tooth FN - B/O 26 keys
Daggers Case Hardened WW - B/O 22 keys
Daggers Case Hardened FT - B/O 22 keys
Daggers Crimson Web BS - B/O 18 keys
Daggers Autotronic FT - B/O 18 keys
Daggers Autotronic BS - B/O 17 keys
Daggers Damascus Steel MW - B/O 17 keys
Daggers Blue Steel WW - B/O 16 keys
Daggers Damascus Steel FT - B/O 15 keys
Daggers Urban Masked WW - B/O 15 keys
Daggers Ultraviolet BS - B/O 15 keys
Daggers Scorched WW - B/O 15 keys
Daggers Black Laminate MW - B/O 15 keys
Daggers Bright Water MW - B/O 15 keys
Daggers Boreal Forest MW - B/o 14 keys
Daggers Bright Water FT - B/O 14 keys
Daggers Night FT - B/O 14 keys
Daggers Forest Ddpat FT - B/O 14 keys
2024.05.19 09:47 Ufratys First Time ACOMAF Reader (ch. 21-25) Thoughts & Impressions
Not much to say here since I wanted to see what happened with the Weaver. Enjoy!
Ch. 21
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Ch. 21
- Oh how creepy is this…door shutting, handle gone, and the Weaver softly saying “who's in my house?”
- Holy shit why does she look like that?! Don't tease me with the young body but then have The Ring girl’s face attached to it. She's definitely a double bagger, absolutely terrifying.
- Omg Feyre, you go scorched earth and set fire to the entire cottage with a candle instead of using your flamethrower ability with your hands and torch the Weaver. SMH
- Escape through the chimney though, that's smart. This girl has some bright moments
- Wait, is the Weaver cooking faeries?! And is she weaving their entrails or flesh or something??? I mean, on the one hand that's just plain gross, but on the other, why don't you just weave you a new face???
- Isn't Feyre like super strong now? Why doesn't she just punch through the chimney?
- Weaver is gaining, please feel free to use your mind bullets at any time now Feyre. Also, feel free to step in at any time Rhys and help out lol
- Oh wow, the Weaver made her house of out of the bodies of her victims, this is the stuff of nightmares
- “What the hell did you do?” LOL Rhys just chilling on a tree, winnow the fuck out plz and ty
- Dude Amren can just vanish vomit? I think my question about fae plumbing has now been answered!
- So the ring was just a memento from his mom? Makes sense
- Thank you Feyre for finally coming to your senses and wanting to learn how to fight and how to use your abilities. It only took almost dying again to realize it
- Oooh diving into Rhysand's pensive! Let's see what he shows Feyre
- Damn, Ianthe wants some High Lord D!
- Oh interesting, so Ianthe does have ulterior motives…this is like some bene gesserit scheming going on. At least Rhys knows not to stick his dick in crazy. Much respect, he's channeling that Lucien energy again!
- Very cool developments!
- Oooh some Mor backstory, thank you mommy
- Damn so faeries are just as petty as humans when it comes to selling off their daughters…BRUTAL
- Good guy Cassian always coming to the rescue, this guy chads
- Oooh Feyre chose Azriel to carry her, Cassian and Rhysand are like wtf
- Oh nice they're in the mortal lands now.
- Quick side bar: what's Tammy been doing all this time? Is there any palace left? I'm assuming it's rubble from all of his tantrums of losing Feyre. Or maybe he's going through all the bureaucratic faerie red tape to demand an audience with the night court. I'm surprised Lucien hasn't tried to make contact, but I'm guessing he thinks this is for Feyre’s benefit.
- Oh shit it's Elain and Nesta! This must feel surreal for Feyre
- Damn Nesta is cold-blooded. No sympathy for Feyre at all
- Why doesn't Feyre just explain that they'll glamour everyone and ward their house so no one knows that the faeries will be in their town?
- I'm wondering if Nesta is jealous at all with Feyre. I bet she's waiting for some high fae to sweep her off her feet the way she talks to Feyre about bouncing from court to court
- Nice! No time to waste, let's get the meeting started
- Oh interesting Feyre's last name is Archeron? Hmmm….Cursebreaker sounds better
- Also, is this meeting turning into a triple date???
- Lol Azriel doesn't want to be here at all
- Dinner too??? They just need to pair off now
- I'm sure there's meaning behind where everyone sits at a feast, but I'm ignorant to all that decorum.
- Cassian sitting next to Elain though, the first move has been made!
- Interesting, so human food doesn't taste good at all to fae? How is it different?
- “I can eat, drink, fuck, and fight just as well as I did before. Better, even.” THE SHADE. Cassian choking on his water in response is hilarious
- Hahaha Cassian found his lover, he's sizing Nesta up and she's having none of it.
- Lol she's not even acknowledging him, this bro is in love.
- OH SHIT Elain mentioning Clare Beddor and both her murderers are in the house! And Rhys is just keeping his head down eating shit food lol. Peak awkwardness.
- Bro…Cassian is straight up imprinting on Nesta right now. He wants that mating bond BAD.
- Just two rooms? I bet Rhys and Feyre get the room with just one bed.
- LOL Rhys just side steps the awkwardness with his multi-dimensional closet, that's super handy
- “Nesta is a delight, by the way.” Bahaha I think deep down in his heart of hearts he knows Nesta has a hold on Cassian and he’ll be seeing a lot more of her
- Lol they're talking wages now? And they have banks??? Lines of credit? What's the APR on that Velaris Platinum card?
- Awww Rhys is butt hurt that he missed Feyre's birthday…I'm sure he'll make up for it somehow. Maybe his mother's ring???
- “My money's on Nesta…So’s mine.” LOL put me down for a dime on Nesta as well
- FINALLY some element bending training.
- Feyre wants to train in private because Rhys is a distraction? Lol if that doesn't scream I'm into you I don't know what is
- “You could try rubbing it on certain body parts and I might come faster.” Hahahaha bro why don't Rhys and Lucien get along? These guys have the same snarkiness
- Oh cool, some inter-dimensional pen writing, NBD
- “I'm watching Cassian and Nesta get into it again over their tea.” lol can we get a chapter on this interaction? That sounds better than reading about Feyre staring at a candle for an hour and not asking for help
- “Life is better when you're around.” I mean, how long is this little Do-Si-Do between them gonna last? Just kith already
- OH SHIT it's the Attor!
2024.05.19 09:42 trendgreats HVAC Components for Improve Indoor Temperature
Introduction
Keeping your home comfortable year-round hinges on a well-functioning HVAC system. Whether it’s a scorching summer day or a chilly winter night, your HVAC system ensures you stay cozy. But what exactly makes up this vital system? Understanding the key components of HVAC systems can help you maintain them better and make informed decisions when issues arise.Thermostat
Definition and Function
The thermostat is the control center of your HVAC system. It regulates the temperature by switching the heating or cooling system on and off as needed to maintain the desired comfort level in your home.Types of Thermostats
Programmable Thermostats
Programmable thermostats allow you to set different temperatures for different times of the day and days of the week. This customization can lead to significant energy savings.Smart Thermostats
Smart thermostats take it a step further by learning your schedule and preferences. They can be controlled remotely via smartphone apps, providing convenience and even more energy savings.Importance of Thermostat Placement
Proper placement of the thermostat is crucial. It should be located away from direct sunlight, drafts, and heat-producing appliances to ensure accurate readings and efficient operation.Furnace
Definition and Function
The furnace is the heart of your heating system. It heats the air that is then distributed throughout your home via ductwork.Types of Furnaces
Gas Furnaces
Gas furnaces are common and efficient, using natural gas to produce heat.Electric Furnaces
Electric furnaces are less efficient but are a good option in areas where gas is unavailable.Oil Furnaces
Oil furnaces are less common but are used in some areas. They require regular maintenance to ensure efficiency.Efficiency Ratings for Furnaces
Furnace efficiency is measured by the Annual Fuel Utilization Efficiency (AFUE) rating. A higher AFUE rating indicates a more efficient furnace, which translates to lower energy bills.Heat Exchanger
Definition and Function
The heat exchanger is a critical component that transfers heat from the combustion process to the air that is distributed throughout your home.Importance in HVAC Systems
A well-maintained heat exchanger ensures efficient heat transfer and prevents dangerous gases like carbon monoxide from entering your home.Evaporator Coil
Definition and Function
The evaporator coil is located inside the indoor unit of your HVAC system. It absorbs heat from the air inside your home, cooling it down before it is circulated back into the living space.How It Works with the Furnace
In cooling mode, the evaporator coil works in conjunction with the furnace blower to circulate cool air. In heating mode, it helps to distribute warm air produced by the furnace.Condensing Unit
Definition and Function
The condensing unit is the outdoor component of your air conditioning system. It releases the heat absorbed by the evaporator coil to the outside air.Components of a Condensing Unit
A condensing unit typically includes the compressor, condenser coil, and a fan. Together, these components work to expel heat from the refrigerant, allowing it to cool down and cycle back into the indoor unit.Refrigerant Lines
Definition and Function
Refrigerant lines are the conduits that carry refrigerant between the indoor and outdoor units of your HVAC system.Types of Refrigerants
Common types of refrigerants include R-22 and R-410A. R-22 is being phased out due to environmental concerns, while R-410A is the more eco-friendly alternative.Importance of Proper Refrigerant Levels
Maintaining proper refrigerant levels is crucial for the efficient operation of your HVAC system. Low refrigerant can cause poor cooling performance and damage to the compressor.Ductwork
Definition and Function
Ductwork is the network of ducts that distribute heated or cooled air throughout your home.Types of Ductwork
Sheet Metal Ducts
Sheet metal ducts are durable and commonly used in many HVAC systems.Flexible Ducts
Flexible ducts are easier to install and are ideal for tight spaces but may be less durable.Fiberglass Ducts
Fiberglass ducts are insulated and help in noise reduction but can degrade over time.Importance of Duct Sealing
Properly sealed ducts prevent air leaks, improving the efficiency of your HVAC system and reducing energy costs.Vents and Registers
Definition and Function
Vents and registers are the outlets through which conditioned air enters the rooms of your home.Types of Vents and Registers
There are various types, including floor, ceiling, and wall registers, each designed for optimal air distribution based on their placement.Importance of Proper Vent Placement
Proper vent placement ensures even distribution of air, avoiding hot or cold spots in your home.Air Filter
Definition and Function
The air filter removes dust, pollen, and other particles from the air before it is circulated throughout your home.Types of Air Filters
Fiberglass Filters
Basic filters that provide minimal filtration and are inexpensive.Pleated Filters
More efficient than fiberglass filters, capturing smaller particles.HEPA Filters
High-Efficiency Particulate Air (HEPA) filters capture nearly all airborne particles, providing the best air quality.Importance of Regular Filter Replacement
Regularly replacing your air filter ensures clean air and helps your HVAC system run efficiently, preventing strain on the components.Blower Motor
Definition and Function
The blower motor moves air through the ductwork and into your home.Types of Blower Motors
Single-Speed Blower Motors
These run at one constant speed, offering less control over air flow.Variable-Speed Blower Motors
These adjust speed based on your HVAC needs, improving efficiency and comfort.Return Air Ducts
Definition and Function
Return air ducts bring air back to the HVAC system for reheating or cooling.Importance in Air Circulation
Proper return air flow ensures balanced air pressure and efficient operation of your HVAC system.Humidifier
Definition and Function
A humidifier adds moisture to the air, improving comfort and air quality.Types of Humidifiers
Bypass Humidifiers
These use the furnace blower to distribute moisture.Fan-Powered Humidifiers
These have their own fan to add moisture to the air, offering more efficiency.Benefits of Using a Humidifier
Humidifiers can alleviate dry skin, reduce static electricity, and improve overall indoor air quality.Dehumidifier
Definition and Function
A dehumidifier removes excess moisture from the air, preventing mold growth and improving comfort.Types of Dehumidifiers
Refrigerative Dehumidifiers
These cool the air to remove moisture, similar to air conditioners.Desiccant Dehumidifiers
These use a desiccant material to absorb moisture from the air.Benefits of Using a Dehumidifier
Dehumidifiers help maintain a comfortable humidity level, protect your home from moisture damage, and improve indoor air quality.Air Handler
Definition and Function
The air handler circulates air throughout your HVAC system.Components of an Air Handler
Air handlers typically include a blower, filter, and sometimes heating or cooling elements.Conclusion
Understanding the components of your HVAC system is key to maintaining a comfortable and efficient home. From the thermostat to the air handler, each part plays a vital role in heating and cooling your living space. Regular maintenance and proper usage can ensure your system runs smoothly for years to come.FAQs
What is the most important component of an HVAC system?
While every component is crucial, the thermostat is often considered the most important as it controls the overall function of the system.How often should HVAC components be serviced?
It's recommended to have your HVAC system serviced at least once a year to ensure all components are working efficiently.Can I replace HVAC components myself?
While some minor tasks like changing air filters can be done by homeowners, most HVAC component replacements should be handled by professionals to ensure safety and proper installation.What are common signs that an HVAC component needs replacement?
Common signs include unusual noises, reduced efficiency, higher energy bills, and inconsistent heating or cooling.How can I improve the efficiency of my HVAC system?
Regular maintenance, proper use of a programmable thermostat, sealing ducts, and ensuring proper insulation can significantly improve the efficiency of your HVAC system.2024.05.19 09:42 trendgreats HVAC Components for Improve Indoor Temperature
Introduction
Keeping your home comfortable year-round hinges on a well-functioning HVAC system. Whether it’s a scorching summer day or a chilly winter night, your HVAC system ensures you stay cozy. But what exactly makes up this vital system? Understanding the key components of HVAC systems can help you maintain them better and make informed decisions when issues arise.Thermostat
Definition and Function
The thermostat is the control center of your HVAC system. It regulates the temperature by switching the heating or cooling system on and off as needed to maintain the desired comfort level in your home.Types of Thermostats
Programmable Thermostats
Programmable thermostats allow you to set different temperatures for different times of the day and days of the week. This customization can lead to significant energy savings.Smart Thermostats
Smart thermostats take it a step further by learning your schedule and preferences. They can be controlled remotely via smartphone apps, providing convenience and even more energy savings.Importance of Thermostat Placement
Proper placement of the thermostat is crucial. It should be located away from direct sunlight, drafts, and heat-producing appliances to ensure accurate readings and efficient operation.Furnace
Definition and Function
The furnace is the heart of your heating system. It heats the air that is then distributed throughout your home via ductwork.Types of Furnaces
Gas Furnaces
Gas furnaces are common and efficient, using natural gas to produce heat.Electric Furnaces
Electric furnaces are less efficient but are a good option in areas where gas is unavailable.Oil Furnaces
Oil furnaces are less common but are used in some areas. They require regular maintenance to ensure efficiency.Efficiency Ratings for Furnaces
Furnace efficiency is measured by the Annual Fuel Utilization Efficiency (AFUE) rating. A higher AFUE rating indicates a more efficient furnace, which translates to lower energy bills.Heat Exchanger
Definition and Function
The heat exchanger is a critical component that transfers heat from the combustion process to the air that is distributed throughout your home.Importance in HVAC Systems
A well-maintained heat exchanger ensures efficient heat transfer and prevents dangerous gases like carbon monoxide from entering your home.Evaporator Coil
Definition and Function
The evaporator coil is located inside the indoor unit of your HVAC system. It absorbs heat from the air inside your home, cooling it down before it is circulated back into the living space.How It Works with the Furnace
In cooling mode, the evaporator coil works in conjunction with the furnace blower to circulate cool air. In heating mode, it helps to distribute warm air produced by the furnace.Condensing Unit
Definition and Function
The condensing unit is the outdoor component of your air conditioning system. It releases the heat absorbed by the evaporator coil to the outside air.Components of a Condensing Unit
A condensing unit typically includes the compressor, condenser coil, and a fan. Together, these components work to expel heat from the refrigerant, allowing it to cool down and cycle back into the indoor unit.Refrigerant Lines
Definition and Function
Refrigerant lines are the conduits that carry refrigerant between the indoor and outdoor units of your HVAC system.Types of Refrigerants
Common types of refrigerants include R-22 and R-410A. R-22 is being phased out due to environmental concerns, while R-410A is the more eco-friendly alternative.Importance of Proper Refrigerant Levels
Maintaining proper refrigerant levels is crucial for the efficient operation of your HVAC system. Low refrigerant can cause poor cooling performance and damage to the compressor.Ductwork
Definition and Function
Ductwork is the network of ducts that distribute heated or cooled air throughout your home.Types of Ductwork
Sheet Metal Ducts
Sheet metal ducts are durable and commonly used in many HVAC systems.Flexible Ducts
Flexible ducts are easier to install and are ideal for tight spaces but may be less durable.Fiberglass Ducts
Fiberglass ducts are insulated and help in noise reduction but can degrade over time.Importance of Duct Sealing
Properly sealed ducts prevent air leaks, improving the efficiency of your HVAC system and reducing energy costs.Vents and Registers
Definition and Function
Vents and registers are the outlets through which conditioned air enters the rooms of your home.Types of Vents and Registers
There are various types, including floor, ceiling, and wall registers, each designed for optimal air distribution based on their placement.Importance of Proper Vent Placement
Proper vent placement ensures even distribution of air, avoiding hot or cold spots in your home.Air Filter
Definition and Function
The air filter removes dust, pollen, and other particles from the air before it is circulated throughout your home.Types of Air Filters
Fiberglass Filters
Basic filters that provide minimal filtration and are inexpensive.Pleated Filters
More efficient than fiberglass filters, capturing smaller particles.HEPA Filters
High-Efficiency Particulate Air (HEPA) filters capture nearly all airborne particles, providing the best air quality.Importance of Regular Filter Replacement
Regularly replacing your air filter ensures clean air and helps your HVAC system run efficiently, preventing strain on the components.Blower Motor
Definition and Function
The blower motor moves air through the ductwork and into your home.Types of Blower Motors
Single-Speed Blower Motors
These run at one constant speed, offering less control over air flow.Variable-Speed Blower Motors
These adjust speed based on your HVAC needs, improving efficiency and comfort.Return Air Ducts
Definition and Function
Return air ducts bring air back to the HVAC system for reheating or cooling.Importance in Air Circulation
Proper return air flow ensures balanced air pressure and efficient operation of your HVAC system.Humidifier
Definition and Function
A humidifier adds moisture to the air, improving comfort and air quality.Types of Humidifiers
Bypass Humidifiers
These use the furnace blower to distribute moisture.Fan-Powered Humidifiers
These have their own fan to add moisture to the air, offering more efficiency.Benefits of Using a Humidifier
Humidifiers can alleviate dry skin, reduce static electricity, and improve overall indoor air quality.Dehumidifier
Definition and Function
A dehumidifier removes excess moisture from the air, preventing mold growth and improving comfort.Types of Dehumidifiers
Refrigerative Dehumidifiers
These cool the air to remove moisture, similar to air conditioners.Desiccant Dehumidifiers
These use a desiccant material to absorb moisture from the air.Benefits of Using a Dehumidifier
Dehumidifiers help maintain a comfortable humidity level, protect your home from moisture damage, and improve indoor air quality.Air Handler
Definition and Function
The air handler circulates air throughout your HVAC system.Components of an Air Handler
Air handlers typically include a blower, filter, and sometimes heating or cooling elements.Conclusion
Understanding the components of your HVAC system is key to maintaining a comfortable and efficient home. From the thermostat to the air handler, each part plays a vital role in heating and cooling your living space. Regular maintenance and proper usage can ensure your system runs smoothly for years to come.FAQs
What is the most important component of an HVAC system?
While every component is crucial, the thermostat is often considered the most important as it controls the overall function of the system.How often should HVAC components be serviced?
It's recommended to have your HVAC system serviced at least once a year to ensure all components are working efficiently.Can I replace HVAC components myself?
While some minor tasks like changing air filters can be done by homeowners, most HVAC component replacements should be handled by professionals to ensure safety and proper installation.What are common signs that an HVAC component needs replacement?
Common signs include unusual noises, reduced efficiency, higher energy bills, and inconsistent heating or cooling.How can I improve the efficiency of my HVAC system?
Regular maintenance, proper use of a programmable thermostat, sealing ducts, and ensuring proper insulation can significantly improve the efficiency of your HVAC system.2024.05.19 09:42 trendgreats HVAC Components for Improve Indoor Temperature
Introduction
Keeping your home comfortable year-round hinges on a well-functioning HVAC system. Whether it’s a scorching summer day or a chilly winter night, your HVAC system ensures you stay cozy. But what exactly makes up this vital system? Understanding the key components of HVAC systems can help you maintain them better and make informed decisions when issues arise.Thermostat
Definition and Function
The thermostat is the control center of your HVAC system. It regulates the temperature by switching the heating or cooling system on and off as needed to maintain the desired comfort level in your home.Types of Thermostats
Programmable Thermostats
Programmable thermostats allow you to set different temperatures for different times of the day and days of the week. This customization can lead to significant energy savings.Smart Thermostats
Smart thermostats take it a step further by learning your schedule and preferences. They can be controlled remotely via smartphone apps, providing convenience and even more energy savings.Importance of Thermostat Placement
Proper placement of the thermostat is crucial. It should be located away from direct sunlight, drafts, and heat-producing appliances to ensure accurate readings and efficient operation.Furnace
Definition and Function
The furnace is the heart of your heating system. It heats the air that is then distributed throughout your home via ductwork.Types of Furnaces
Gas Furnaces
Gas furnaces are common and efficient, using natural gas to produce heat.Electric Furnaces
Electric furnaces are less efficient but are a good option in areas where gas is unavailable.Oil Furnaces
Oil furnaces are less common but are used in some areas. They require regular maintenance to ensure efficiency.Efficiency Ratings for Furnaces
Furnace efficiency is measured by the Annual Fuel Utilization Efficiency (AFUE) rating. A higher AFUE rating indicates a more efficient furnace, which translates to lower energy bills.Heat Exchanger
Definition and Function
The heat exchanger is a critical component that transfers heat from the combustion process to the air that is distributed throughout your home.Importance in HVAC Systems
A well-maintained heat exchanger ensures efficient heat transfer and prevents dangerous gases like carbon monoxide from entering your home.Evaporator Coil
Definition and Function
The evaporator coil is located inside the indoor unit of your HVAC system. It absorbs heat from the air inside your home, cooling it down before it is circulated back into the living space.How It Works with the Furnace
In cooling mode, the evaporator coil works in conjunction with the furnace blower to circulate cool air. In heating mode, it helps to distribute warm air produced by the furnace.Condensing Unit
Definition and Function
The condensing unit is the outdoor component of your air conditioning system. It releases the heat absorbed by the evaporator coil to the outside air.Components of a Condensing Unit
A condensing unit typically includes the compressor, condenser coil, and a fan. Together, these components work to expel heat from the refrigerant, allowing it to cool down and cycle back into the indoor unit.Refrigerant Lines
Definition and Function
Refrigerant lines are the conduits that carry refrigerant between the indoor and outdoor units of your HVAC system.Types of Refrigerants
Common types of refrigerants include R-22 and R-410A. R-22 is being phased out due to environmental concerns, while R-410A is the more eco-friendly alternative.Importance of Proper Refrigerant Levels
Maintaining proper refrigerant levels is crucial for the efficient operation of your HVAC system. Low refrigerant can cause poor cooling performance and damage to the compressor.Ductwork
Definition and Function
Ductwork is the network of ducts that distribute heated or cooled air throughout your home.Types of Ductwork
Sheet Metal Ducts
Sheet metal ducts are durable and commonly used in many HVAC systems.Flexible Ducts
Flexible ducts are easier to install and are ideal for tight spaces but may be less durable.Fiberglass Ducts
Fiberglass ducts are insulated and help in noise reduction but can degrade over time.Importance of Duct Sealing
Properly sealed ducts prevent air leaks, improving the efficiency of your HVAC system and reducing energy costs.Vents and Registers
Definition and Function
Vents and registers are the outlets through which conditioned air enters the rooms of your home.Types of Vents and Registers
There are various types, including floor, ceiling, and wall registers, each designed for optimal air distribution based on their placement.Importance of Proper Vent Placement
Proper vent placement ensures even distribution of air, avoiding hot or cold spots in your home.Air Filter
Definition and Function
The air filter removes dust, pollen, and other particles from the air before it is circulated throughout your home.Types of Air Filters
Fiberglass Filters
Basic filters that provide minimal filtration and are inexpensive.Pleated Filters
More efficient than fiberglass filters, capturing smaller particles.HEPA Filters
High-Efficiency Particulate Air (HEPA) filters capture nearly all airborne particles, providing the best air quality.Importance of Regular Filter Replacement
Regularly replacing your air filter ensures clean air and helps your HVAC system run efficiently, preventing strain on the components.Blower Motor
Definition and Function
The blower motor moves air through the ductwork and into your home.Types of Blower Motors
Single-Speed Blower Motors
These run at one constant speed, offering less control over air flow.Variable-Speed Blower Motors
These adjust speed based on your HVAC needs, improving efficiency and comfort.Return Air Ducts
Definition and Function
Return air ducts bring air back to the HVAC system for reheating or cooling.Importance in Air Circulation
Proper return air flow ensures balanced air pressure and efficient operation of your HVAC system.Humidifier
Definition and Function
A humidifier adds moisture to the air, improving comfort and air quality.Types of Humidifiers
Bypass Humidifiers
These use the furnace blower to distribute moisture.Fan-Powered Humidifiers
These have their own fan to add moisture to the air, offering more efficiency.Benefits of Using a Humidifier
Humidifiers can alleviate dry skin, reduce static electricity, and improve overall indoor air quality.Dehumidifier
Definition and Function
A dehumidifier removes excess moisture from the air, preventing mold growth and improving comfort.Types of Dehumidifiers
Refrigerative Dehumidifiers
These cool the air to remove moisture, similar to air conditioners.Desiccant Dehumidifiers
These use a desiccant material to absorb moisture from the air.Benefits of Using a Dehumidifier
Dehumidifiers help maintain a comfortable humidity level, protect your home from moisture damage, and improve indoor air quality.Air Handler
Definition and Function
The air handler circulates air throughout your HVAC system.Components of an Air Handler
Air handlers typically include a blower, filter, and sometimes heating or cooling elements.Conclusion
Understanding the components of your HVAC system is key to maintaining a comfortable and efficient home. From the thermostat to the air handler, each part plays a vital role in heating and cooling your living space. Regular maintenance and proper usage can ensure your system runs smoothly for years to come.FAQs
What is the most important component of an HVAC system?
While every component is crucial, the thermostat is often considered the most important as it controls the overall function of the system.How often should HVAC components be serviced?
It's recommended to have your HVAC system serviced at least once a year to ensure all components are working efficiently.Can I replace HVAC components myself?
While some minor tasks like changing air filters can be done by homeowners, most HVAC component replacements should be handled by professionals to ensure safety and proper installation.What are common signs that an HVAC component needs replacement?
Common signs include unusual noises, reduced efficiency, higher energy bills, and inconsistent heating or cooling.How can I improve the efficiency of my HVAC system?
Regular maintenance, proper use of a programmable thermostat, sealing ducts, and ensuring proper insulation can significantly improve the efficiency of your HVAC system.2024.05.19 09:41 trendgreats HVAC Components for Improve Indoor Temperature
Introduction
Keeping your home comfortable year-round hinges on a well-functioning HVAC system. Whether it’s a scorching summer day or a chilly winter night, your HVAC system ensures you stay cozy. But what exactly makes up this vital system? Understanding the key components of HVAC systems can help you maintain them better and make informed decisions when issues arise.Thermostat
Definition and Function
The thermostat is the control center of your HVAC system. It regulates the temperature by switching the heating or cooling system on and off as needed to maintain the desired comfort level in your home.Types of Thermostats
Programmable Thermostats
Programmable thermostats allow you to set different temperatures for different times of the day and days of the week. This customization can lead to significant energy savings.Smart Thermostats
Smart thermostats take it a step further by learning your schedule and preferences. They can be controlled remotely via smartphone apps, providing convenience and even more energy savings.Importance of Thermostat Placement
Proper placement of the thermostat is crucial. It should be located away from direct sunlight, drafts, and heat-producing appliances to ensure accurate readings and efficient operation.Furnace
Definition and Function
The furnace is the heart of your heating system. It heats the air that is then distributed throughout your home via ductwork.Types of Furnaces
Gas Furnaces
Gas furnaces are common and efficient, using natural gas to produce heat.Electric Furnaces
Electric furnaces are less efficient but are a good option in areas where gas is unavailable.Oil Furnaces
Oil furnaces are less common but are used in some areas. They require regular maintenance to ensure efficiency.Efficiency Ratings for Furnaces
Furnace efficiency is measured by the Annual Fuel Utilization Efficiency (AFUE) rating. A higher AFUE rating indicates a more efficient furnace, which translates to lower energy bills.Heat Exchanger
Definition and Function
The heat exchanger is a critical component that transfers heat from the combustion process to the air that is distributed throughout your home.Importance in HVAC Systems
A well-maintained heat exchanger ensures efficient heat transfer and prevents dangerous gases like carbon monoxide from entering your home.Evaporator Coil
Definition and Function
The evaporator coil is located inside the indoor unit of your HVAC system. It absorbs heat from the air inside your home, cooling it down before it is circulated back into the living space.How It Works with the Furnace
In cooling mode, the evaporator coil works in conjunction with the furnace blower to circulate cool air. In heating mode, it helps to distribute warm air produced by the furnace.Condensing Unit
Definition and Function
The condensing unit is the outdoor component of your air conditioning system. It releases the heat absorbed by the evaporator coil to the outside air.Components of a Condensing Unit
A condensing unit typically includes the compressor, condenser coil, and a fan. Together, these components work to expel heat from the refrigerant, allowing it to cool down and cycle back into the indoor unit.Refrigerant Lines
Definition and Function
Refrigerant lines are the conduits that carry refrigerant between the indoor and outdoor units of your HVAC system.Types of Refrigerants
Common types of refrigerants include R-22 and R-410A. R-22 is being phased out due to environmental concerns, while R-410A is the more eco-friendly alternative.Importance of Proper Refrigerant Levels
Maintaining proper refrigerant levels is crucial for the efficient operation of your HVAC system. Low refrigerant can cause poor cooling performance and damage to the compressor.Ductwork
Definition and Function
Ductwork is the network of ducts that distribute heated or cooled air throughout your home.Types of Ductwork
Sheet Metal Ducts
Sheet metal ducts are durable and commonly used in many HVAC systems.Flexible Ducts
Flexible ducts are easier to install and are ideal for tight spaces but may be less durable.Fiberglass Ducts
Fiberglass ducts are insulated and help in noise reduction but can degrade over time.Importance of Duct Sealing
Properly sealed ducts prevent air leaks, improving the efficiency of your HVAC system and reducing energy costs.Vents and Registers
Definition and Function
Vents and registers are the outlets through which conditioned air enters the rooms of your home.Types of Vents and Registers
There are various types, including floor, ceiling, and wall registers, each designed for optimal air distribution based on their placement.Importance of Proper Vent Placement
Proper vent placement ensures even distribution of air, avoiding hot or cold spots in your home.Air Filter
Definition and Function
The air filter removes dust, pollen, and other particles from the air before it is circulated throughout your home.Types of Air Filters
Fiberglass Filters
Basic filters that provide minimal filtration and are inexpensive.Pleated Filters
More efficient than fiberglass filters, capturing smaller particles.HEPA Filters
High-Efficiency Particulate Air (HEPA) filters capture nearly all airborne particles, providing the best air quality.Importance of Regular Filter Replacement
Regularly replacing your air filter ensures clean air and helps your HVAC system run efficiently, preventing strain on the components.Blower Motor
Definition and Function
The blower motor moves air through the ductwork and into your home.Types of Blower Motors
Single-Speed Blower Motors
These run at one constant speed, offering less control over air flow.Variable-Speed Blower Motors
These adjust speed based on your HVAC needs, improving efficiency and comfort.Return Air Ducts
Definition and Function
Return air ducts bring air back to the HVAC system for reheating or cooling.Importance in Air Circulation
Proper return air flow ensures balanced air pressure and efficient operation of your HVAC system.Humidifier
Definition and Function
A humidifier adds moisture to the air, improving comfort and air quality.Types of Humidifiers
Bypass Humidifiers
These use the furnace blower to distribute moisture.Fan-Powered Humidifiers
These have their own fan to add moisture to the air, offering more efficiency.Benefits of Using a Humidifier
Humidifiers can alleviate dry skin, reduce static electricity, and improve overall indoor air quality.Dehumidifier
Definition and Function
A dehumidifier removes excess moisture from the air, preventing mold growth and improving comfort.Types of Dehumidifiers
Refrigerative Dehumidifiers
These cool the air to remove moisture, similar to air conditioners.Desiccant Dehumidifiers
These use a desiccant material to absorb moisture from the air.Benefits of Using a Dehumidifier
Dehumidifiers help maintain a comfortable humidity level, protect your home from moisture damage, and improve indoor air quality.Air Handler
Definition and Function
The air handler circulates air throughout your HVAC system.Components of an Air Handler
Air handlers typically include a blower, filter, and sometimes heating or cooling elements.Conclusion
Understanding the components of your HVAC system is key to maintaining a comfortable and efficient home. From the thermostat to the air handler, each part plays a vital role in heating and cooling your living space. Regular maintenance and proper usage can ensure your system runs smoothly for years to come.FAQs
What is the most important component of an HVAC system?
While every component is crucial, the thermostat is often considered the most important as it controls the overall function of the system.How often should HVAC components be serviced?
It's recommended to have your HVAC system serviced at least once a year to ensure all components are working efficiently.Can I replace HVAC components myself?
While some minor tasks like changing air filters can be done by homeowners, most HVAC component replacements should be handled by professionals to ensure safety and proper installation.What are common signs that an HVAC component needs replacement?
Common signs include unusual noises, reduced efficiency, higher energy bills, and inconsistent heating or cooling.How can I improve the efficiency of my HVAC system?
Regular maintenance, proper use of a programmable thermostat, sealing ducts, and ensuring proper insulation can significantly improve the efficiency of your HVAC system.2024.05.19 09:39 Over-type-07 What blood tests are used to screen for Coeliac?
A GI MAP stool test has showed up high Anti-Gliadin IgA and high Secretory IgA. So I want to get screened one last time for Coeliac. I will be going off gluten indefinitely after this, regardless of results so I want a full proper screen for this as I have been checked in the past and tests were negative. I have Hashimotos and my Mum is Coeliac and I do feel better not eating it and I also have a range of general GI symptoms, heartburn and IBS.
So please advise all blood tests that can pick up issues, as the marker came up in the stool I’d like to get that checked in blood anyway and along with the usual others …
The doctors will decide then if I should go for a scope. Should I be going for that based on GI MAP results alone and the Hashis + Genetics?
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So please advise all blood tests that can pick up issues, as the marker came up in the stool I’d like to get that checked in blood anyway and along with the usual others …
- Anti-Gliadin IgA
- Tissue Transglutaminase IgA antibody (tTG-IgA)
- Anti-Endomysial IgA Antibodies
- Total IgA
The doctors will decide then if I should go for a scope. Should I be going for that based on GI MAP results alone and the Hashis + Genetics?
2024.05.19 09:38 SaviodaVinci 2007 Toyota Matrix weird sounds from engine bay and RPM jumping?
Hey, recently I have been having issues with my car, my dad thinks I had bad gas and we ended up getting some Seafoam but now my car doing something different after working fine for about a week after using Seafoam, below will be information related to my current issues:
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- The car is an Automatic 2007 Toyota Matrix (basic model) with 190k miles.
- This issue just started occurring yesterday.
- Engine idles at a little less than 1,000 rpm, however, when accelerating on the road (noticed at 45 mph at first) my rpm just stays at anywhere from 4,000 to 6,000 rpm when going around 45-60 mph respectively. the rpm never drops when I'm at my steady driving speed, but if I let go of the gas and then apply even the slightest bit of pressure my rpm jumps back almost instantly.
- I want to note if I press my gas while in park, my rpm doesn't jump like when on the road and acts normal.
- As for the whirring sound, it could be just from where I can hear my rpm staying constantly high, however, when I do have a speed of 45 mph or above I can hear an increasing whirring sound and can feel the vibration of my car pretty intensely.
- On that note, while on the road, when I press my gas, the rpm jumps, but if I let go of the gas, every time for like a split second I can hear almost like air (maybe fluid?) being pushed out of like a nozzle sound? or maybe it sounds like if you open your mouth slightly with your teeth together and push out some air through? I'm not sure if it's a normal sound (like the injectors), but I do now notice it after listening carefully while driving with this issue.
2024.05.19 09:37 borj5960 3 years with this, countless appointments, I feel like nothing has changed.
Sorry this is long... I feel like I'm back where I started 3 years ago and the situation is urgent.
Context: 3 years ago I stopped being able to eat normally. the smallest bits filled me up and made me feel sick, and I started rapidly losing weight. My PCP referred me to a GI doctor. The GI doctor, sadly, seemed under the impression that I had an eating disorder. For the next year, I proceeded to essentially starve, while begging people to believe I was not anorexic. I begged to see another GI doc, but per clinic guidelines this was not allowed. I eventually got down to a BMI of 14.8 and could barely get out of bed. My mom had to leave work to come stay with me. Finally, I stopped being able to even drink water or pass any stool. I went to urgent care and there was an impaction in my rectum. Upon clearing that and then a course of magnesium citrate, I could eat again.
Since them, I have been on miralax 3x daily. That worked great. I gained 20 pounds and got back to a borderline normal weight. Amazing. My GI doctor realized I wasn't anorexic, but still provided no real advice other than take miralax the rest of your life, and the root cause of this doesn't matter. I had an anorectal manometry, and an MR defecogram (both of which I had to beg for as dr said was unnecessary). They diagnosed me with dyssenergic defacation , a form of pelvic floor dysfunction. P.S. I did ask for a sitz marker test, but dr denied saying it's not necessary. I had a gastric emptying study (it was normal). Dietary changes make no difference.
GI doc says I have pelvic floor dysfucntion so that must be what's causing this. I finally managed to see another GI doc who said I likely have a separate motility issue, but said it doesn't matter what or why as long as miralax is helping. I have no idea which is true.
I thought I'd been managing with miralax, but in the past week the same is happening again. I can barely eat or drink anything. I can barely pass any stool despite miralax 3x daily. I tried Senna today but nothing is happening. My belly is horribly distinded. There is incredible pressure in my upper right colon. I feel virtually no hunger and can barely eat or drink.
Another problem I face now is that, I assume related, is I get hypoglycemia all the damn time. On a bad day i can get it 4-5 times per day. And not slightly low, but dangerous low - a month ago I woke up and my blood sugar was 40 mg/dl and I could barely get out of bed. I have similarly had countless dr appointments expressing my concerns, especially given that I live alone, but there seems to be little concern. I assume because no one believes me. My last endocrinologist quit. I finally got another one, who cut me off one sentence into the appointment, told me I was wrong and that I've never had hypoglycemia, that my glucometer was inaccurate, and that even my BLOOD TESTS FROM THE FUCKING HOSPITAL were wrong because I live in a rural location and they don't know what they are doing. I proceeded to sit there for the full 40-min appointment and listen to her rant on about how she does not believe I deal with blood sugar issues, and how women get low blood sugar on their periods so that must be it. Any time I tried to speak she cut me off immediately and kept going. i thought of killing myself after that appointment.
INTERESTINGLY - now that I can barely eat, my blood sugar is not falling horrifically low. Maybe the food is staying in my colon long enough to be digested? I don't know.
Does anyone have advice? This is a horrible pit of misery.
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Context: 3 years ago I stopped being able to eat normally. the smallest bits filled me up and made me feel sick, and I started rapidly losing weight. My PCP referred me to a GI doctor. The GI doctor, sadly, seemed under the impression that I had an eating disorder. For the next year, I proceeded to essentially starve, while begging people to believe I was not anorexic. I begged to see another GI doc, but per clinic guidelines this was not allowed. I eventually got down to a BMI of 14.8 and could barely get out of bed. My mom had to leave work to come stay with me. Finally, I stopped being able to even drink water or pass any stool. I went to urgent care and there was an impaction in my rectum. Upon clearing that and then a course of magnesium citrate, I could eat again.
Since them, I have been on miralax 3x daily. That worked great. I gained 20 pounds and got back to a borderline normal weight. Amazing. My GI doctor realized I wasn't anorexic, but still provided no real advice other than take miralax the rest of your life, and the root cause of this doesn't matter. I had an anorectal manometry, and an MR defecogram (both of which I had to beg for as dr said was unnecessary). They diagnosed me with dyssenergic defacation , a form of pelvic floor dysfunction. P.S. I did ask for a sitz marker test, but dr denied saying it's not necessary. I had a gastric emptying study (it was normal). Dietary changes make no difference.
GI doc says I have pelvic floor dysfucntion so that must be what's causing this. I finally managed to see another GI doc who said I likely have a separate motility issue, but said it doesn't matter what or why as long as miralax is helping. I have no idea which is true.
I thought I'd been managing with miralax, but in the past week the same is happening again. I can barely eat or drink anything. I can barely pass any stool despite miralax 3x daily. I tried Senna today but nothing is happening. My belly is horribly distinded. There is incredible pressure in my upper right colon. I feel virtually no hunger and can barely eat or drink.
Another problem I face now is that, I assume related, is I get hypoglycemia all the damn time. On a bad day i can get it 4-5 times per day. And not slightly low, but dangerous low - a month ago I woke up and my blood sugar was 40 mg/dl and I could barely get out of bed. I have similarly had countless dr appointments expressing my concerns, especially given that I live alone, but there seems to be little concern. I assume because no one believes me. My last endocrinologist quit. I finally got another one, who cut me off one sentence into the appointment, told me I was wrong and that I've never had hypoglycemia, that my glucometer was inaccurate, and that even my BLOOD TESTS FROM THE FUCKING HOSPITAL were wrong because I live in a rural location and they don't know what they are doing. I proceeded to sit there for the full 40-min appointment and listen to her rant on about how she does not believe I deal with blood sugar issues, and how women get low blood sugar on their periods so that must be it. Any time I tried to speak she cut me off immediately and kept going. i thought of killing myself after that appointment.
INTERESTINGLY - now that I can barely eat, my blood sugar is not falling horrifically low. Maybe the food is staying in my colon long enough to be digested? I don't know.
Does anyone have advice? This is a horrible pit of misery.
2024.05.19 09:30 kimyoungkook92 Singapore's most neglected and most poorly managed HDB neighbourhood?
 | 19 May 2024. Seen today at Boon Lay Avenue, all photos taken within 5-10 minutes walk. 1) Unauthorized bicycle repair workshop at pedestrian footpath and common area. Storage of combustible materials and men doing hotwork in residential common area. 2) Man made sheds and junks. Areas filled with stagnant water. Swarms of mosquitos hungry for blood. 3) Rows of unauthorized sheds made of bamboo and other combustible materials. Grass patch used as storage area for junks. A lot of cigarette butts from high rise littering here means a fire could take place anytime. 4) Common area used as dumping sites by residents, contractors and local businesses. 5) Unstable and cracked manhole in open pedestrian area with heavy foot traffic. submitted by kimyoungkook92 to singapore [link] [comments] Note: Seen all these about 3 years ago during visit. 3 years later, these hazards are still there. Friend (resident living there) is too fed up to complain - it's a waste if time to do so. Too much excuses and inaction by the authorities. Expect nothing to be done. People who think Singapore is well managed has not seen this part of Singapore. |
2024.05.19 09:29 Secret-Tomatillo5044 I Accepted a Job to Film on the Dark Web pt1
I Accepted a Job to Film on the Dark Web
Man, I am pumped to tell you chronically online content addicts my story. Wait is that too mean of an intro? Will this get taken down for harassment since I painted too accurate a picture of the people on this site? Sorry, everyone, I’m sure you all smell like an expensive bakery and have touched grass this morning. Anyway, I promise I have something interesting. It even involves the dark web you uncreative writers cream yourselves over! I mean, totally real people speaking about their strangely similar experiences. Okay, fine I’ll stop bullying you through the screen before you click off.
This all started when I was seven years old and my parents were killed in front of me in an anti-indigenous hate crime, but let's be real you don’t care. I’m just some annoying Cherokee kid with dead parents so I’ll skip to the good parts. I spent years in an orphanage, gradually becoming more interested in death and violence. As bad as it is, I went out of my way to expose myself to that content in the hopes of desensitizing myself. Which ended up working too well, since now I’m obsessed with causing and viewing pain, though I don’t find any joy in hurting myself.
I got adopted at twelve and after a few months of staying at my new family’s home on the reservation, I went with them to a state sweatier than the average Reddit user, California. Long story short, both of my caretakers, whom I referred to as Uncle and Auntie because they could never be my parents, died. Leaving me in the care of their older son, who I call cousin. I’m not stupid enough to give up any real names, so I’ll call him Brick, cause he’s as dumb as one. He was in his early 20s when he was tasked with taking care of me and is the world’s worst excuse for a babysitter.
I’m almost always alone at the apartment, with him only coming by to drop off supplies and stay for a few hours so the neighbors don’t get too worried. Unless I get in trouble at school, then he’d suddenly give a shit. It's useful because he doesn't about the gory stuff I look at, but some display of interest would be nice. Oh well, ninety percent of the population sucks so he’s just part of the majority. Now, with that said, you’ll be able to understand the perfect storm that led me here. During my time on the deep web, I found a particular website that caught my eye. They had new footage relatively consistently and they were the easiest for me to access since I didn't go too far into the dark web, especially with all the honey pots lying around.
I even bought a couple of files for myself to study and admire. One thing irritated me though, the cameraman. He was always sobbing, breathing, shaking, or some combination of those. It seriously killed the vibe of the killings. Something I commented on under many videos, often saying I would do a better job filming. A choice that in hindsight was me asking to end up in one of those recordings. I didn't think anything of it at the time. I was mostly the only one who commented but I was sure they wouldn't care. I was embarrassingly wrong.
I was staying up like usual, but it was past one AM on a school night, and back then that was a lot so I tried to sleep. Closing my eyes, tossing and turning, the works. I had just started drifting off when I heard the front door open. I remained calm but immediately found it weird since Brick never showed up this late. The thuds of the individual's feet grew louder as they got closer to my bedroom. I tried to convince myself it wasn't a stranger, especially since they got in with ease, but I knew that was wishful thinking.
They hummed as they opened my door. My dumbass had left it unlocked. I remained on my side, trying to look like I was asleep. They turned on the flashlight of their phone, shining it in my face. It was hard but I stayed still while they traced it over my features. I could tell they were smiling as they clicked their tongue.
“Heh, I knew it was a brat,” they whispered to themselves, pulling tangles out of my hair. Something I struggled not to groan from. They pulled up the hair over my ear and got so close spit got on my ear lobe.
“I know you’re awake kid,” they murmured, putting a blade to my neck. I let them grab my shoulder and move me onto my back, I knew how to fight but I wasn't about to take that big a risk with the position they had me in.
“You think you’re so cool saying you can do better than our guy.” they snickered, kneeling, their flashlight still shining in my face.
“Do you seriously believe that?” they questioned, moving the light away.
“Yeah, I do.” I stood my ground, they might have been intimidating but I wasn't gonna let that stop me from being honest.
“I wouldn't sound like I’m gonna piss myself every time it gets gory. I’m confident I could get better footage too, getting up close is something I’ve fantasized about.”
They clicked their tongue again and ran their finger over the bridge of my nose.
”Well, I know you’re a big fan of what we do, and you’re confidence makes me think you got something to back those claims up, so how’d you like a deal?”
I was surprised by how civil they were being aside from the touching and weapon against my throat.
“What kind of deal?” I asked, for all I knew this guy wanted me to lick their feet or some weird shit like that. They placed a finger underneath my eye, tracing a half moon with their nail.
“You have till this Friday to film a video of you killing an animal and put it on a flash drive that I’ll pick up here. If it impresses me and the crew we’ll hire ya with a handsome salary.” They began, moving their hand down to my cheek.
“But if you don't show, or it doesn't meet our standards, then I’m fucking up one of the parts of your face.” They warned, pinching my skin harshly.
“And if I say no to this deal?”
They put their hand over my mouth, scratching my lips.
“That’s cute, if you say no I’ll just slit your throat.” they grinned.
“Or rip it open with my teeth if you got a preference,” they smirked, before running their tongue across their sharp teeth.
“Okay, since I have no choice I’ll go with it, but I’m telling you now I can give you something way better than what you likely expect of me.” I prefaced, looking into their sunken eyes. They scratched my scalp, including the side of my head that was shaved.
“Good choice, I’ll be back to pick it up and if you're not here I’ll assume you don’t have the video. I genuinely wish you luck, because you’ll need it.” they removed the blade from my neck and walked away. I sat still for a few minutes in the dark, processing what had happened and wondering how they got into my apartment with such ease. I was confident I could blow their sniveling excuse of a cameraman out of the water, but I was worried about the people I was getting caught up with.
Sure, I had been on a lot of gore sites over the years but I was always just watching and occasionally commenting. Compared to most in the scene I wasn't much of a threat. I could defend myself and have contemplated killing for years but I hadn't murdered anyone or worse. Plus, I am part of way too many targeted groups to not be constantly at risk. Teenage, fem-leaning, two-spirit, indigenous kid with trauma? Yeah, I might as well be walking sign screaming “Hate crime me”.
So yeah, there was a lot to worry about. Regardless, I couldn't let that fear hold me back. I had a job to do and a group of sickos to appease. The next morning was rough, I got no sleep cause I’d spent all night brainstorming. I barely mustered the energy to change and drank straight mouthwash instead of brushing my teeth. Slogging onto the bus with drool on my cheek, I went to the back like usual. No one sat there cause, the seats were extra worn down, and I scared off anyone who attempted to with my active, rabies-infected bitch face. That day was different though.
I blanked on his name and where I knew him from, but I recognized his wavy hair and prominent curved nose. He glanced at each seat on the bus, before somehow settling on my area. He tried to give me space but ultimately seated himself beside me after realizing it was the only spot that didn't look like it would give him cancer. I glared at him as I did with everyone, but it didn't phase him.
“You know you could pick anywhere else right?” I murmured. He stared at the floor, then at me.
“I’m aware, but a few months ago I started a mission to sit on every part of this bus, and this is the last place.” he smiled, his lips softly curving at the sides.
“What’s the point of that?”
His mouth moved into a more neutral position, but his eyes kept smiling.
“I just thought it would be neat to see the same place from a bunch of different perspectives.” he took out his phone and snapped a photo from the point of view where he was sitting. Maybe my sleepiness made my bitch face less effective, cause he hadn't shown a hint of fear, which kind of annoyed me.
“That’s cool I guess, but I wouldn't do that if I were you. I’ve done some back here alone that would make your skin crawl.” in hindsight my attempt at unnerving him just made me sound like a pervert, which is probably why he held back laughter. Trying to hide a chuckle by clearing his throat.
“Hey, it's not my business what you do, no matter how Haram it is. It’s your life so that’s between you and whatever you believe in. Just don’t shake hands with me.” he joked, playfully putting his hands up. Strangely, I remembered his name at that moment.
“Oh shit, you’re Abdul! We have art together.” I sat up, haphazardly slamming my hand down on my leg.
“Uh yeah, I’ve seen some of your paintings, they’re pretty cool. I like the way you texture them, I’m trying to work on that.” he complimented, seeming more weirded out by my sudden energy than my accidental insinuation. I felt a little stupid for yelling his name but decided not to dwell on it.
“Thanks, you’re stuff is nice, and you’re good at shading.”
He stretched his arms while thanking me. We talked for a few more minutes, taking jabs at each other throughout. Turns out he was better at being an asshole than his artsy charismatic appearance made me think. The thing setting our insults apart being that you could tell he was a loving person underneath. It was the nicest conversation I had with anyone in a while. Though he could tell I was tired so he quieted down, letting me sleep, waking me when we got to school. We went our separate ways until the last two periods we shared. All that time, I spent my remaining energy plotting how I was going to handle the video. What I’d kill, record with, and how to dispose of the evidence. It was a lot to consider, but through three classes I devised a plan.
I’d find a stray around my apartment complex and take it out in my room. Record it on a portable camera since I broke the ones on my phone, no, I will not be answering how that happened. Then once I had my footage I’d put the body in a trash bag, throw it in the complex’s garbage, and clean the blood off my floor. It didn't seem like Brick would come by so he wasn't a factor I thought I’d have to consider. The plan was almost too easy, but I decided to believe in Occam’s razor. I got so lost in thought that by the time I reached Art, which was my second-to-last period, I didn't process that we were moving seats.
“She called your name,” Abdul reminded me. Our teacher placed us next to each other at our four-person table. The two girls sitting with us were already friends, so I didn't bother to say anything, but I was interested in talking to him more.
“So, what do you think of this assignment?” He shrugged, taking out his sketchbook.
“I’m not that good at drawing people, but the idea of combining two people’s faces into a portrait seems interesting. Any ideas on who you’ll pick?”
“Probably the members of the music duo Brain Tumor, they’re my favorite artists and they both look weird as hell.”
“Wow way to talk about your favorites, if that’s what you say about them I can‘t imagine what you have to say about me.” he joked, pulling up reference pictures.
“First, it’s not an insult, second I don’t have anything to say about you. Brain and Tumor have features and styles that make them stand out. Sure they’re ugly, but it just adds to their visual charm. Hot people are boring, there’s nothing to pick at.” I explained, unzipping my bag.
“Oh, so you’re saying you think I’m hot.”
His comment wasn’t serious but it kind of got to me.
“Shit, that’s not what I meant, I was trying to say you’re boring. All hot people are boring, but not all boring people are hot, okay?” I explained, flipping to a clean page.
“Alright, but if I’m so bland then why talk to me?”
I hesitated, contemplating how much of a dick I was gonna be.
“Because it means you probably need some spice in your life, which I can provide.”
He began sketching a head on his paper.
“I like spices, but I feel like you’re the kind of person to dump a cabinet’s worth onto me.”
I flicked my pencil over to his side of the desk, putting on a mocking grin.
“Aww, you scared I’m gonna get you into trouble?”
He picked up the pencil and started using it, putting his on my side.
“No, ‘cause I’m good at setting boundaries. I’m more concerned that you’ll get annoyed with how unafraid of you I am.”
I stared at him for a moment, I hadn't expected to hear that.
“Jeez, man you didn't have to read me like that.”
He shrugged, observing the red paint from past projects that lay on my pencil.
“It's not hard to figure out, just this morning you were trying to push me away on the bus. Lucky, or unlucky, for you I want you to have a friend and you seem like a fun person.”
“Wait are you saying I have no friends?” I squinted at him.
“Well, do you?”
I didn't answer.
“If your response is silence I suggest you take up my offer.”
I was stunned, to be honest. No one had offered to be my friend since 6th grade, and that didn't last long. Of course, I accepted it, but for the rest of the period, there was an awkwardness in my mind. As pathetic as it sounds I wasn't used to others genuinely enjoying my company like he did. Which was partly by design cause I get joy out of scaring people away, but still. I forgot how it felt to have conversations about normal things like art. He had such a nice smile too, usually when I see a grin I want to slap it off, but I liked his. His voice was also nice, it’s hard to describe what in particular but it was easy on the ears.
Okay, I’m starting to get off-topic. I’ll skip to the important part. Toward the end of class, he started talking about how he was interested in filmmaking and got a portable video camera as a gift at last year’s Eid. He didn't have it on him, but he showed me a picture.
“Heh, that’s funny, I bought the same one a month ago.” I pointed out.
“Yeah, it's a popular model, I’m still getting the hang of it though cause I’m so used to using my phone.”
“Well, maybe I could bring you over to my place or vice versa after school and I can help you out.” I suggested.
He smiled, putting his phone back in his pocket.
“I thought you said you’ve only had it for a month? You know I can always look up tutorials from trained professionals.” he reminded me with a notable smugness that I'd used with him before.
“Well those guys are stuffy and I’m a fast learner.”
He redirected his attention back to his page, picking his pencil up.
“Alright, I suggest we go somewhere public instead. You’re not exactly the kind of person I want to bring home to my parents right away. Plus they always need to meet my friends and their guardians before I hang out at their home.”
I gave an exaggerated sigh, stretching my back.
“Aw man, looks like we can’t get high in my murder pit during our first hangout.”
He didn't respond for a solid few seconds.
“Wait, you do know I'm joking right?”
He shrugged, the smile in his eyes appearing again.
“I mean, one of those things is a little less believable than the other.” he snickered, and I laughed with him.
We set up a time and a date, which is where I screwed myself. He ended up being busy with projects from his other classes and family which just left us with Friday, the same day I had to submit the video. Now, did I tell him I wouldn't be able to make it? No, of course not, because I decided to be stupid and even more overconfident. I said that I’d one hundred percent be able to hang out with him after school like I didn't have a mutilator who was going to drop by my place at an unknown time.
The rest of the day went over fine but that bad timing led me to feel like a dick later. When I got home I was able to write out my plan, even sketching a few specifics of what I’d do. It was more exciting than when I’d been brainstorming, but this is when the gravity of the situation began to set in. When I said I’d fantasized about killings I meant it. I mean my teddy with twenty-five stab wounds should say enough. Regardless this would be the first time real blood was on my hands.
It made me feel powerful, but a little afraid. I’ve heard stories of people thinking that it would be an awesome experience and then feeling like shit. I doubted I’d be one of those people but still. Plus, I didn't exactly trust the guy who gave me this job. There was a good chance that this whole situation was rigged and they’d kill me no matter how good the video was. Or worse turn me into the feds and expose my collection. Honestly, if that happened I’d probably eat a shot to avoid going to jail. Wait, can I say that on this platform? Okay to the mods, that was a joke, I want to live a long life. Ugh, I’m doing a terrible job of staying on track. The point is there was a lot up in the air despite it being a matter of life or death.
I knew I’d go through with it but it was still a lot less straightforward than it initially seemed. I wracked my brain to remember where most of the cats stayed and tried to come up with a good way to lure one without raising suspicion. This also proved harder than first thought because I didn't think to account for the cat man, an old guy who lived alone and fed all the cats in our dingy complex while also housing a few. Knowing how obsessive he was he’d probably notice if one of them disappeared. Then again not all the cats return consistently or at all. It makes more sense that he’d think one of them was run over rather than slaughtered. It was getting late again so I rested my head for a moment, a bad move cause I ended up falling asleep at my desk. Not even changing out of the clothes I’d worn before, I woke up late and barely caught the bus the next morning.
I went to my usual spot but Abdul had already taken it. He patted the area next to it, which he’d covered in a towel, a smart move knowing how nasty it was. People gave me a few dirty looks as normal, which I smiled at. I stretched, my mind slightly less out of it than the previous morning.
“Uh, you do realize that-”
“Yeah, I know I’m wearing the same clothes.”
Abdul looked me up and down, his eyes remaining soft, but with a mix of concern and judgment. He set his backpack down and took off his sweater handing it to me.
“Dude what are you-”
“Look I don't know what led to you not being able to change but I think you should at least have a fresh top.”
I was surprised he was offering me something to wear but I took it.
“Uh, thanks, I’ll change into it later.”
He nodded as I put it in my backpack.
“You know you didn't have to do that.” I reminded him.
“Well there’s a lot of stuff I don’t have to do, but I do it because I want to, and I wanted to help you out.”
He smiled, his face still warmer than an Arizona summer. I got a strange feeling in my chest at that moment, I still can’t tell if it was good or bad.
“Well, thanks, I'll give it back to you tomorrow.”
We talked a little more and he mentioned something that caught my attention.
“Have you heard about all the animals that have been turning up dead?”
My eyes widened with surprise.
“No, I haven't, when did you hear about that?”
He pulled on his long-sleeve shirt.
“My sister said her friend who works at a shelter noticed a bunch of animals were getting adopted by people around the same time, and since then gore videos with them have been showing up. She found out through her co-worker who was emailed it by some random creep.”
I covered my mouth and looked away to hide the smile growing on my face. He had just given me the perfect cover-up without knowing. Now if I killed an animal people had an entire violent ring to connect it to instead of me! I stayed quiet for a minute because I could tell he’d likely see through any phony sad sounds I made.
“Oh wow, that’s awful, do you think they’ll ever find out the people behind it?”
He sighed, running his hand through his wavy hair.
“I hope so, for now, all we can do is pray that no more animals get hurt.”
I couldn't contain my grin as he said that so sincerely like animals and people didn't die constantly and that taking down one group would somehow stop the issue.
“Is there some joke I don’t get?” he furrowed his brow.
“Uh, no, sorry I smile when nervous.”
His gaze softened again, and he didn't press further.
His bringing up the animal killings ended up being the exact push I needed to get my hands dirty. I’d spent the entire day before planning so it was time to put that plan into action. I stole some cat treats that the cat man had laid out and spread them around my apartment which was on the bottom floor. Waiting for one of them to take the bate outside my window was pretty boring but one of them came after a few minutes. A scraggly brown and black cat with a tuft of fur missing on one side of his head. It's messed up but I felt like a little less of an asshole for taking him in since he looked like he was already struggling. I scooped him up and he didn't attempt to fight back.
“Hey there buddy” I waved, feeding him some more food. His eyes had a lot of crust on them, it was kinda gross but I don’t have the right to say with how often I wash my jeans. After a minute or two he let me pet him. I knew making any kind of attachment was bad but I thought it was the right thing to do so he’d fall into a sense of security. I was just about to take him into my room when the door opened.
“Hey, I’m back with groceries!” my shithead cousin announced with two plastic bags in his hands. He looked down to see me with the cat, his eyebrows raising.
“Aw come on, you know we can’t afford a pet.”
He groaned placing the bags on a table and unloading them.
“I know, but he doesn't look like he’s got a lot of life in him I at least want to help him feel better before he kicks the bucket!”
Brick rolled his eyes, putting the cereal box on top of the fridge
“Jeez, did you even think about what diseases he might have? His eyes look puffy what if he has something that can get you sick?”
He had valid concerns which was surprising since he’s usually stupid, but I was still annoyed with him.
“I’m sure he’s fine, I’ll even try to wash him, just please let me hold onto him for a little.”
He folded his arms looking down at us.
“Have you even named him?”
I froze for a second, before using the first thing that came to mind, which ended up being pretty awful knowing my plans.
“Cash cow.” I blurted, awkwardly patting his head.
“Honestly that’s better than what I was expecting. I was sure you’d pick ‘Hellspawn Mcgee’ or something else corny.”
He meant to make fun of me but honestly, I would have named him that if I had more time.
“Ugh, anyway I got those dumb chips you like.”
He then pulled out a bag of the wrong chips.
“Dude those are the wrong ones, this is the third time you’ve mixed up the flavors.”
He threw them at me, scaring the cat slightly.
“Well, I pay for it so you shouldn't be so picky. Anyway, while I was in line I picked up something you might be into.”
He then tossed me a trashy teen magazine. One of my least favorite sorry excuses for an influencer on the cover.
“This is a joke, right?”
I couldn't believe my own adopted brother gave such little shit in my interests.
“I don't know, you decided to start being a girl for real this time so I thought the makeup tips on page ten would help you out.”
I scrunched my face at his comment.
“Dude I’ve been this way for years, just because I started wearing more makeup and dresses doesn't mean I’m more of a girl than when I didn't. I know you won’t get the two-spirit thing but come on.”
He shrugged, seeing me done with me even though he’d just shown up.
“Yeah well hey I’m trying. Anyway, just so you know a friend of mine is coming here Friday.”
My heart stopped.
“Wait why here? You live elsewhere why can’t you assholes go there or their place!”
He slammed his fist on the table.
“Will you shut the fuck up!”
He screamed with a phrase I’d grown numb to.
“I don't know, to be honest, something about wanting to move into this complex and this being a way to scout it out. I’m just letting you know now so you don’t act like a complete freak.”
“Jokes on you I’ll piss in whatever shitty beer you bring just cause you said that!”
I yelled back raising my voice higher than his. He face-palmed before putting the plastic bags in the drawer under the sink.
“Whatever, you and your ketamine-addict-looking cat have fun,” he told me while seating himself on the couch. I picked up the cat and walked into the bathroom to clean it. I closed the door and placed him in the dry tub. Using a small disposable mouthwash cup I got a little bit of water. I hadn't had a pet before so I wasn't sure how to approach the task. I dipped my fingers in the water and carefully pet it while pouring s small bit down his back. Any other cat would fight back but he just made pissed-off noises without doing anything.
I scrapped my old shampoo bottle and kneaded it into his thin fur. His skin was bumpy and dry beneath the hair so scrubbing it was uncomfortable. I made sure to avoid getting soap in its eyes but I did pull away some of the crust on its lids. His pupils were so clouded I was surprised that he could see at all, making me feel even more sure that he would be on its way out with or without me.
After drying him I set him on a beat-up shirt I wore when modifying clothes. He sunk his claws into it a few times, playing with a loose string. I ignored him for the rest of the night, hopping into the shower and changing for bed. His meows woke me up a few times but I tuned it out after a while, reminding myself that he wouldn’t be my cat for long.
The next day was Thursday and there wasn't a second that passed by where the weight of the murder I’d have to commit didn't weigh on me. I seriously shot myself in the foot by taking care of that scruffy, pubic hair pile. I was supposed to be hyped about killing it, after all, I’d dreamed and seen way worse than what I was going to do. Yet once I got home and started setting up I felt grosser with each step. I decided to record it in my bathroom instead of my bedroom so it would be harder to connect to me. I set down a few fabric scraps and a worn-out beach towel, placing it all inside a tub for easier cleanup later.
“Okay, I guess it's time,” I mumbled to myself. I brought the cat in and placed it down, setting up my camera once it was comfortable. I also wore my most generic clothes in addition to a mask, putting my hair in a bun for sanitation. When I saw the flicker of red showing that the camera was on I felt I was dreaming. I smiled, excited that I’d get to live out my violent desires. Yet, when I looked down at its pathetic frame and confused expression those urges left me.
I rationalized what I was doing, reminding myself how many animals die all the time and that I’d been forced into this, but it didn't help much in the end. I won’t get into it but under the pressure of impressing the group Cash Cow didn't go out as fast as I would have liked for a first task. Getting rid of the evidence was especially rough, the textures were pretty nasty, to put it mildly. It was surreal watching the blood go down the tub drain and gradually drip off my hands as I rinsed them. I couldn't conjure a single thought the entire time I cleaned it up.
Whether I was wringing out the clothes or putting the remains in plastic bags, it didn't matter. All I could focus on was the task at hand, with hints of disgust along the way. I ended up finishing at three AM. My hands were wrinkled and shook once I settled. I won’t deny that during the murder I didn't hate it. Slashing into something was fun and it made me feel strong. Still, it wasn't nearly as fulfilling as I expected it to be. Part of it was guilt, but it was mostly disappointment. I’d built it up for years and it wasn't earth shatteringly good or bad.
Overall, I expected to feel more, but it just left me hollow with an uncomfortable itch. There was no way I’d ever be able to see the tub the same way, hell I don’t think I’ll ever use it again. Luckily I almost always shower anyway so it's not too big of a deal. I watched a few horror game videos, trashed everything, changed and went to bed.
My scalp hurt like a bitch the morning since I kept my hair in that stupid bun. Despite getting less sleep than the past two days I held myself together a bit better in the morning. I brushed my teeth, changed, and had some fried bread before getting on the bus. Regardless I looked like complete shit and struggled to slump into my seat.
“Rough night?” Abdul asked
“Uh, yeah.” I quietly responded looking to the floor.
He frowned, looking at me with concern.
“You can talk about it if you're comfortable,” he assured me. I contemplated giving him a thinly veiled metaphor or vague explanation so he'd comfort me but stopped myself before my mouth could run a muck. He wouldn't be able to do much of anything and I don’t like opening up.
“Uhm, thanks but it's something I have to deal with alone.”
He nodded, respecting my boundaries.
“You know, I understand if you can’t hang out today it seems like you have a lot going on.”
I avoided eye contact with him as he spoke. For once I was feeling hints of guilt toward a person. I wanted to spend time with him, but I knew that I wasn't in the state to do that.
“Yeah, I think it’ll have to wait, I’m-” I cut myself off before apologizing. A fact about me that should surprise no one is that I hate apologizing. Even when I do feel kinda bad the act fills me with embarrassment.
“You what?” he asked, his eyes telling me that he knew what I was going to say.
“I’m emotionally not great.” I spat out in an admittedly poor attempt to get out of saying sorry. As always he remained calm but I could tell he saw through me.
“Okay, like I said I understand, whatever it is I hope you feel better.”
I told him thank you and we didn't speak for the rest of the day. At home I changed into more comfortable clothes and brushed my teeth. Unfortunately, I wasn't bouncing back from killing nearly as much as I expected.
“It wasn't even that bad! That thing was on its last legs anyway.” I grumbled to myself, smacking my forehead. I was feeling worse than when I did it which is weird. I ended up spontaneously decorating a ratty tie from the bottom of an accessory drawer to distract myself. It helped me get my mind off things, for a little. I had zero plan, just wanting to make something needlessly complex. Hours that felt like minutes passed and soon it was covered in patches, frills, and beads. I just tried it on when I heard the front door open.
“Man, that shit was wild!” I heard Brick laugh groggily. I didn't have to see or smell him to know he’d gotten lit. I rolled my eyes, closing my bedroom door.
“Hey, who’s there?” his friend asked, seemingly referring to me.
“Oh, that’s my little sis, don’t mind her she’s just on her emo shit!” he joked, which pissed me off for the petty reason that I didn't even listen or dress emo.
“Hey, that’s alright with me, I went through one of those phases,” they responded, their words less slurred than my cousin’s.
I fucked up and forgot to lock it when I closed it so they were able to swing it open, almost smacking my desk.
“Hey emo girl!” they waved as Brick haphazardly pulled them back.
“Okay, man, seriously I think she wants to be left alone.”
The way his friend looked at me made me uncomfortable. Like they’d snap my neck if I pissed them off. They clicked their tongue while stepping through the door frame.
“Alright, but I gotta say calling her an emo is inaccurate, they look like they watch gore and most emos just say they do.” they flashed a sharp toothy grin. At that moment I began to connect the dots.
“Easy, she’ll get pissy with you dude, now come on.” Brick warned tugging their opened button pushed him away. They looked me dead in the eyes.
“I don’t think she minds, in truth, I feel like we’ll have a lot to discuss later.” they smiled again, finally walking back into the living room. A chill ran up my spine when I saw them. The sharp teeth, New York accent, unsettling gaze, that motherfucker was the person who recruited me! They were able to get into my place so easily cause my dumbass cousin probably gave them a spare key or the opportunity to make one, and now they were a room away from me!
I dug my hands into my pillow as I contemplated what to do, no matter what happened next, I knew it was gonna be a rough visit.
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Man, I am pumped to tell you chronically online content addicts my story. Wait is that too mean of an intro? Will this get taken down for harassment since I painted too accurate a picture of the people on this site? Sorry, everyone, I’m sure you all smell like an expensive bakery and have touched grass this morning. Anyway, I promise I have something interesting. It even involves the dark web you uncreative writers cream yourselves over! I mean, totally real people speaking about their strangely similar experiences. Okay, fine I’ll stop bullying you through the screen before you click off.
This all started when I was seven years old and my parents were killed in front of me in an anti-indigenous hate crime, but let's be real you don’t care. I’m just some annoying Cherokee kid with dead parents so I’ll skip to the good parts. I spent years in an orphanage, gradually becoming more interested in death and violence. As bad as it is, I went out of my way to expose myself to that content in the hopes of desensitizing myself. Which ended up working too well, since now I’m obsessed with causing and viewing pain, though I don’t find any joy in hurting myself.
I got adopted at twelve and after a few months of staying at my new family’s home on the reservation, I went with them to a state sweatier than the average Reddit user, California. Long story short, both of my caretakers, whom I referred to as Uncle and Auntie because they could never be my parents, died. Leaving me in the care of their older son, who I call cousin. I’m not stupid enough to give up any real names, so I’ll call him Brick, cause he’s as dumb as one. He was in his early 20s when he was tasked with taking care of me and is the world’s worst excuse for a babysitter.
I’m almost always alone at the apartment, with him only coming by to drop off supplies and stay for a few hours so the neighbors don’t get too worried. Unless I get in trouble at school, then he’d suddenly give a shit. It's useful because he doesn't about the gory stuff I look at, but some display of interest would be nice. Oh well, ninety percent of the population sucks so he’s just part of the majority. Now, with that said, you’ll be able to understand the perfect storm that led me here. During my time on the deep web, I found a particular website that caught my eye. They had new footage relatively consistently and they were the easiest for me to access since I didn't go too far into the dark web, especially with all the honey pots lying around.
I even bought a couple of files for myself to study and admire. One thing irritated me though, the cameraman. He was always sobbing, breathing, shaking, or some combination of those. It seriously killed the vibe of the killings. Something I commented on under many videos, often saying I would do a better job filming. A choice that in hindsight was me asking to end up in one of those recordings. I didn't think anything of it at the time. I was mostly the only one who commented but I was sure they wouldn't care. I was embarrassingly wrong.
I was staying up like usual, but it was past one AM on a school night, and back then that was a lot so I tried to sleep. Closing my eyes, tossing and turning, the works. I had just started drifting off when I heard the front door open. I remained calm but immediately found it weird since Brick never showed up this late. The thuds of the individual's feet grew louder as they got closer to my bedroom. I tried to convince myself it wasn't a stranger, especially since they got in with ease, but I knew that was wishful thinking.
They hummed as they opened my door. My dumbass had left it unlocked. I remained on my side, trying to look like I was asleep. They turned on the flashlight of their phone, shining it in my face. It was hard but I stayed still while they traced it over my features. I could tell they were smiling as they clicked their tongue.
“Heh, I knew it was a brat,” they whispered to themselves, pulling tangles out of my hair. Something I struggled not to groan from. They pulled up the hair over my ear and got so close spit got on my ear lobe.
“I know you’re awake kid,” they murmured, putting a blade to my neck. I let them grab my shoulder and move me onto my back, I knew how to fight but I wasn't about to take that big a risk with the position they had me in.
“You think you’re so cool saying you can do better than our guy.” they snickered, kneeling, their flashlight still shining in my face.
“Do you seriously believe that?” they questioned, moving the light away.
“Yeah, I do.” I stood my ground, they might have been intimidating but I wasn't gonna let that stop me from being honest.
“I wouldn't sound like I’m gonna piss myself every time it gets gory. I’m confident I could get better footage too, getting up close is something I’ve fantasized about.”
They clicked their tongue again and ran their finger over the bridge of my nose.
”Well, I know you’re a big fan of what we do, and you’re confidence makes me think you got something to back those claims up, so how’d you like a deal?”
I was surprised by how civil they were being aside from the touching and weapon against my throat.
“What kind of deal?” I asked, for all I knew this guy wanted me to lick their feet or some weird shit like that. They placed a finger underneath my eye, tracing a half moon with their nail.
“You have till this Friday to film a video of you killing an animal and put it on a flash drive that I’ll pick up here. If it impresses me and the crew we’ll hire ya with a handsome salary.” They began, moving their hand down to my cheek.
“But if you don't show, or it doesn't meet our standards, then I’m fucking up one of the parts of your face.” They warned, pinching my skin harshly.
“And if I say no to this deal?”
They put their hand over my mouth, scratching my lips.
“That’s cute, if you say no I’ll just slit your throat.” they grinned.
“Or rip it open with my teeth if you got a preference,” they smirked, before running their tongue across their sharp teeth.
“Okay, since I have no choice I’ll go with it, but I’m telling you now I can give you something way better than what you likely expect of me.” I prefaced, looking into their sunken eyes. They scratched my scalp, including the side of my head that was shaved.
“Good choice, I’ll be back to pick it up and if you're not here I’ll assume you don’t have the video. I genuinely wish you luck, because you’ll need it.” they removed the blade from my neck and walked away. I sat still for a few minutes in the dark, processing what had happened and wondering how they got into my apartment with such ease. I was confident I could blow their sniveling excuse of a cameraman out of the water, but I was worried about the people I was getting caught up with.
Sure, I had been on a lot of gore sites over the years but I was always just watching and occasionally commenting. Compared to most in the scene I wasn't much of a threat. I could defend myself and have contemplated killing for years but I hadn't murdered anyone or worse. Plus, I am part of way too many targeted groups to not be constantly at risk. Teenage, fem-leaning, two-spirit, indigenous kid with trauma? Yeah, I might as well be walking sign screaming “Hate crime me”.
So yeah, there was a lot to worry about. Regardless, I couldn't let that fear hold me back. I had a job to do and a group of sickos to appease. The next morning was rough, I got no sleep cause I’d spent all night brainstorming. I barely mustered the energy to change and drank straight mouthwash instead of brushing my teeth. Slogging onto the bus with drool on my cheek, I went to the back like usual. No one sat there cause, the seats were extra worn down, and I scared off anyone who attempted to with my active, rabies-infected bitch face. That day was different though.
I blanked on his name and where I knew him from, but I recognized his wavy hair and prominent curved nose. He glanced at each seat on the bus, before somehow settling on my area. He tried to give me space but ultimately seated himself beside me after realizing it was the only spot that didn't look like it would give him cancer. I glared at him as I did with everyone, but it didn't phase him.
“You know you could pick anywhere else right?” I murmured. He stared at the floor, then at me.
“I’m aware, but a few months ago I started a mission to sit on every part of this bus, and this is the last place.” he smiled, his lips softly curving at the sides.
“What’s the point of that?”
His mouth moved into a more neutral position, but his eyes kept smiling.
“I just thought it would be neat to see the same place from a bunch of different perspectives.” he took out his phone and snapped a photo from the point of view where he was sitting. Maybe my sleepiness made my bitch face less effective, cause he hadn't shown a hint of fear, which kind of annoyed me.
“That’s cool I guess, but I wouldn't do that if I were you. I’ve done some back here alone that would make your skin crawl.” in hindsight my attempt at unnerving him just made me sound like a pervert, which is probably why he held back laughter. Trying to hide a chuckle by clearing his throat.
“Hey, it's not my business what you do, no matter how Haram it is. It’s your life so that’s between you and whatever you believe in. Just don’t shake hands with me.” he joked, playfully putting his hands up. Strangely, I remembered his name at that moment.
“Oh shit, you’re Abdul! We have art together.” I sat up, haphazardly slamming my hand down on my leg.
“Uh yeah, I’ve seen some of your paintings, they’re pretty cool. I like the way you texture them, I’m trying to work on that.” he complimented, seeming more weirded out by my sudden energy than my accidental insinuation. I felt a little stupid for yelling his name but decided not to dwell on it.
“Thanks, you’re stuff is nice, and you’re good at shading.”
He stretched his arms while thanking me. We talked for a few more minutes, taking jabs at each other throughout. Turns out he was better at being an asshole than his artsy charismatic appearance made me think. The thing setting our insults apart being that you could tell he was a loving person underneath. It was the nicest conversation I had with anyone in a while. Though he could tell I was tired so he quieted down, letting me sleep, waking me when we got to school. We went our separate ways until the last two periods we shared. All that time, I spent my remaining energy plotting how I was going to handle the video. What I’d kill, record with, and how to dispose of the evidence. It was a lot to consider, but through three classes I devised a plan.
I’d find a stray around my apartment complex and take it out in my room. Record it on a portable camera since I broke the ones on my phone, no, I will not be answering how that happened. Then once I had my footage I’d put the body in a trash bag, throw it in the complex’s garbage, and clean the blood off my floor. It didn't seem like Brick would come by so he wasn't a factor I thought I’d have to consider. The plan was almost too easy, but I decided to believe in Occam’s razor. I got so lost in thought that by the time I reached Art, which was my second-to-last period, I didn't process that we were moving seats.
“She called your name,” Abdul reminded me. Our teacher placed us next to each other at our four-person table. The two girls sitting with us were already friends, so I didn't bother to say anything, but I was interested in talking to him more.
“So, what do you think of this assignment?” He shrugged, taking out his sketchbook.
“I’m not that good at drawing people, but the idea of combining two people’s faces into a portrait seems interesting. Any ideas on who you’ll pick?”
“Probably the members of the music duo Brain Tumor, they’re my favorite artists and they both look weird as hell.”
“Wow way to talk about your favorites, if that’s what you say about them I can‘t imagine what you have to say about me.” he joked, pulling up reference pictures.
“First, it’s not an insult, second I don’t have anything to say about you. Brain and Tumor have features and styles that make them stand out. Sure they’re ugly, but it just adds to their visual charm. Hot people are boring, there’s nothing to pick at.” I explained, unzipping my bag.
“Oh, so you’re saying you think I’m hot.”
His comment wasn’t serious but it kind of got to me.
“Shit, that’s not what I meant, I was trying to say you’re boring. All hot people are boring, but not all boring people are hot, okay?” I explained, flipping to a clean page.
“Alright, but if I’m so bland then why talk to me?”
I hesitated, contemplating how much of a dick I was gonna be.
“Because it means you probably need some spice in your life, which I can provide.”
He began sketching a head on his paper.
“I like spices, but I feel like you’re the kind of person to dump a cabinet’s worth onto me.”
I flicked my pencil over to his side of the desk, putting on a mocking grin.
“Aww, you scared I’m gonna get you into trouble?”
He picked up the pencil and started using it, putting his on my side.
“No, ‘cause I’m good at setting boundaries. I’m more concerned that you’ll get annoyed with how unafraid of you I am.”
I stared at him for a moment, I hadn't expected to hear that.
“Jeez, man you didn't have to read me like that.”
He shrugged, observing the red paint from past projects that lay on my pencil.
“It's not hard to figure out, just this morning you were trying to push me away on the bus. Lucky, or unlucky, for you I want you to have a friend and you seem like a fun person.”
“Wait are you saying I have no friends?” I squinted at him.
“Well, do you?”
I didn't answer.
“If your response is silence I suggest you take up my offer.”
I was stunned, to be honest. No one had offered to be my friend since 6th grade, and that didn't last long. Of course, I accepted it, but for the rest of the period, there was an awkwardness in my mind. As pathetic as it sounds I wasn't used to others genuinely enjoying my company like he did. Which was partly by design cause I get joy out of scaring people away, but still. I forgot how it felt to have conversations about normal things like art. He had such a nice smile too, usually when I see a grin I want to slap it off, but I liked his. His voice was also nice, it’s hard to describe what in particular but it was easy on the ears.
Okay, I’m starting to get off-topic. I’ll skip to the important part. Toward the end of class, he started talking about how he was interested in filmmaking and got a portable video camera as a gift at last year’s Eid. He didn't have it on him, but he showed me a picture.
“Heh, that’s funny, I bought the same one a month ago.” I pointed out.
“Yeah, it's a popular model, I’m still getting the hang of it though cause I’m so used to using my phone.”
“Well, maybe I could bring you over to my place or vice versa after school and I can help you out.” I suggested.
He smiled, putting his phone back in his pocket.
“I thought you said you’ve only had it for a month? You know I can always look up tutorials from trained professionals.” he reminded me with a notable smugness that I'd used with him before.
“Well those guys are stuffy and I’m a fast learner.”
He redirected his attention back to his page, picking his pencil up.
“Alright, I suggest we go somewhere public instead. You’re not exactly the kind of person I want to bring home to my parents right away. Plus they always need to meet my friends and their guardians before I hang out at their home.”
I gave an exaggerated sigh, stretching my back.
“Aw man, looks like we can’t get high in my murder pit during our first hangout.”
He didn't respond for a solid few seconds.
“Wait, you do know I'm joking right?”
He shrugged, the smile in his eyes appearing again.
“I mean, one of those things is a little less believable than the other.” he snickered, and I laughed with him.
We set up a time and a date, which is where I screwed myself. He ended up being busy with projects from his other classes and family which just left us with Friday, the same day I had to submit the video. Now, did I tell him I wouldn't be able to make it? No, of course not, because I decided to be stupid and even more overconfident. I said that I’d one hundred percent be able to hang out with him after school like I didn't have a mutilator who was going to drop by my place at an unknown time.
The rest of the day went over fine but that bad timing led me to feel like a dick later. When I got home I was able to write out my plan, even sketching a few specifics of what I’d do. It was more exciting than when I’d been brainstorming, but this is when the gravity of the situation began to set in. When I said I’d fantasized about killings I meant it. I mean my teddy with twenty-five stab wounds should say enough. Regardless this would be the first time real blood was on my hands.
It made me feel powerful, but a little afraid. I’ve heard stories of people thinking that it would be an awesome experience and then feeling like shit. I doubted I’d be one of those people but still. Plus, I didn't exactly trust the guy who gave me this job. There was a good chance that this whole situation was rigged and they’d kill me no matter how good the video was. Or worse turn me into the feds and expose my collection. Honestly, if that happened I’d probably eat a shot to avoid going to jail. Wait, can I say that on this platform? Okay to the mods, that was a joke, I want to live a long life. Ugh, I’m doing a terrible job of staying on track. The point is there was a lot up in the air despite it being a matter of life or death.
I knew I’d go through with it but it was still a lot less straightforward than it initially seemed. I wracked my brain to remember where most of the cats stayed and tried to come up with a good way to lure one without raising suspicion. This also proved harder than first thought because I didn't think to account for the cat man, an old guy who lived alone and fed all the cats in our dingy complex while also housing a few. Knowing how obsessive he was he’d probably notice if one of them disappeared. Then again not all the cats return consistently or at all. It makes more sense that he’d think one of them was run over rather than slaughtered. It was getting late again so I rested my head for a moment, a bad move cause I ended up falling asleep at my desk. Not even changing out of the clothes I’d worn before, I woke up late and barely caught the bus the next morning.
I went to my usual spot but Abdul had already taken it. He patted the area next to it, which he’d covered in a towel, a smart move knowing how nasty it was. People gave me a few dirty looks as normal, which I smiled at. I stretched, my mind slightly less out of it than the previous morning.
“Uh, you do realize that-”
“Yeah, I know I’m wearing the same clothes.”
Abdul looked me up and down, his eyes remaining soft, but with a mix of concern and judgment. He set his backpack down and took off his sweater handing it to me.
“Dude what are you-”
“Look I don't know what led to you not being able to change but I think you should at least have a fresh top.”
I was surprised he was offering me something to wear but I took it.
“Uh, thanks, I’ll change into it later.”
He nodded as I put it in my backpack.
“You know you didn't have to do that.” I reminded him.
“Well there’s a lot of stuff I don’t have to do, but I do it because I want to, and I wanted to help you out.”
He smiled, his face still warmer than an Arizona summer. I got a strange feeling in my chest at that moment, I still can’t tell if it was good or bad.
“Well, thanks, I'll give it back to you tomorrow.”
We talked a little more and he mentioned something that caught my attention.
“Have you heard about all the animals that have been turning up dead?”
My eyes widened with surprise.
“No, I haven't, when did you hear about that?”
He pulled on his long-sleeve shirt.
“My sister said her friend who works at a shelter noticed a bunch of animals were getting adopted by people around the same time, and since then gore videos with them have been showing up. She found out through her co-worker who was emailed it by some random creep.”
I covered my mouth and looked away to hide the smile growing on my face. He had just given me the perfect cover-up without knowing. Now if I killed an animal people had an entire violent ring to connect it to instead of me! I stayed quiet for a minute because I could tell he’d likely see through any phony sad sounds I made.
“Oh wow, that’s awful, do you think they’ll ever find out the people behind it?”
He sighed, running his hand through his wavy hair.
“I hope so, for now, all we can do is pray that no more animals get hurt.”
I couldn't contain my grin as he said that so sincerely like animals and people didn't die constantly and that taking down one group would somehow stop the issue.
“Is there some joke I don’t get?” he furrowed his brow.
“Uh, no, sorry I smile when nervous.”
His gaze softened again, and he didn't press further.
His bringing up the animal killings ended up being the exact push I needed to get my hands dirty. I’d spent the entire day before planning so it was time to put that plan into action. I stole some cat treats that the cat man had laid out and spread them around my apartment which was on the bottom floor. Waiting for one of them to take the bate outside my window was pretty boring but one of them came after a few minutes. A scraggly brown and black cat with a tuft of fur missing on one side of his head. It's messed up but I felt like a little less of an asshole for taking him in since he looked like he was already struggling. I scooped him up and he didn't attempt to fight back.
“Hey there buddy” I waved, feeding him some more food. His eyes had a lot of crust on them, it was kinda gross but I don’t have the right to say with how often I wash my jeans. After a minute or two he let me pet him. I knew making any kind of attachment was bad but I thought it was the right thing to do so he’d fall into a sense of security. I was just about to take him into my room when the door opened.
“Hey, I’m back with groceries!” my shithead cousin announced with two plastic bags in his hands. He looked down to see me with the cat, his eyebrows raising.
“Aw come on, you know we can’t afford a pet.”
He groaned placing the bags on a table and unloading them.
“I know, but he doesn't look like he’s got a lot of life in him I at least want to help him feel better before he kicks the bucket!”
Brick rolled his eyes, putting the cereal box on top of the fridge
“Jeez, did you even think about what diseases he might have? His eyes look puffy what if he has something that can get you sick?”
He had valid concerns which was surprising since he’s usually stupid, but I was still annoyed with him.
“I’m sure he’s fine, I’ll even try to wash him, just please let me hold onto him for a little.”
He folded his arms looking down at us.
“Have you even named him?”
I froze for a second, before using the first thing that came to mind, which ended up being pretty awful knowing my plans.
“Cash cow.” I blurted, awkwardly patting his head.
“Honestly that’s better than what I was expecting. I was sure you’d pick ‘Hellspawn Mcgee’ or something else corny.”
He meant to make fun of me but honestly, I would have named him that if I had more time.
“Ugh, anyway I got those dumb chips you like.”
He then pulled out a bag of the wrong chips.
“Dude those are the wrong ones, this is the third time you’ve mixed up the flavors.”
He threw them at me, scaring the cat slightly.
“Well, I pay for it so you shouldn't be so picky. Anyway, while I was in line I picked up something you might be into.”
He then tossed me a trashy teen magazine. One of my least favorite sorry excuses for an influencer on the cover.
“This is a joke, right?”
I couldn't believe my own adopted brother gave such little shit in my interests.
“I don't know, you decided to start being a girl for real this time so I thought the makeup tips on page ten would help you out.”
I scrunched my face at his comment.
“Dude I’ve been this way for years, just because I started wearing more makeup and dresses doesn't mean I’m more of a girl than when I didn't. I know you won’t get the two-spirit thing but come on.”
He shrugged, seeing me done with me even though he’d just shown up.
“Yeah well hey I’m trying. Anyway, just so you know a friend of mine is coming here Friday.”
My heart stopped.
“Wait why here? You live elsewhere why can’t you assholes go there or their place!”
He slammed his fist on the table.
“Will you shut the fuck up!”
He screamed with a phrase I’d grown numb to.
“I don't know, to be honest, something about wanting to move into this complex and this being a way to scout it out. I’m just letting you know now so you don’t act like a complete freak.”
“Jokes on you I’ll piss in whatever shitty beer you bring just cause you said that!”
I yelled back raising my voice higher than his. He face-palmed before putting the plastic bags in the drawer under the sink.
“Whatever, you and your ketamine-addict-looking cat have fun,” he told me while seating himself on the couch. I picked up the cat and walked into the bathroom to clean it. I closed the door and placed him in the dry tub. Using a small disposable mouthwash cup I got a little bit of water. I hadn't had a pet before so I wasn't sure how to approach the task. I dipped my fingers in the water and carefully pet it while pouring s small bit down his back. Any other cat would fight back but he just made pissed-off noises without doing anything.
I scrapped my old shampoo bottle and kneaded it into his thin fur. His skin was bumpy and dry beneath the hair so scrubbing it was uncomfortable. I made sure to avoid getting soap in its eyes but I did pull away some of the crust on its lids. His pupils were so clouded I was surprised that he could see at all, making me feel even more sure that he would be on its way out with or without me.
After drying him I set him on a beat-up shirt I wore when modifying clothes. He sunk his claws into it a few times, playing with a loose string. I ignored him for the rest of the night, hopping into the shower and changing for bed. His meows woke me up a few times but I tuned it out after a while, reminding myself that he wouldn’t be my cat for long.
The next day was Thursday and there wasn't a second that passed by where the weight of the murder I’d have to commit didn't weigh on me. I seriously shot myself in the foot by taking care of that scruffy, pubic hair pile. I was supposed to be hyped about killing it, after all, I’d dreamed and seen way worse than what I was going to do. Yet once I got home and started setting up I felt grosser with each step. I decided to record it in my bathroom instead of my bedroom so it would be harder to connect to me. I set down a few fabric scraps and a worn-out beach towel, placing it all inside a tub for easier cleanup later.
“Okay, I guess it's time,” I mumbled to myself. I brought the cat in and placed it down, setting up my camera once it was comfortable. I also wore my most generic clothes in addition to a mask, putting my hair in a bun for sanitation. When I saw the flicker of red showing that the camera was on I felt I was dreaming. I smiled, excited that I’d get to live out my violent desires. Yet, when I looked down at its pathetic frame and confused expression those urges left me.
I rationalized what I was doing, reminding myself how many animals die all the time and that I’d been forced into this, but it didn't help much in the end. I won’t get into it but under the pressure of impressing the group Cash Cow didn't go out as fast as I would have liked for a first task. Getting rid of the evidence was especially rough, the textures were pretty nasty, to put it mildly. It was surreal watching the blood go down the tub drain and gradually drip off my hands as I rinsed them. I couldn't conjure a single thought the entire time I cleaned it up.
Whether I was wringing out the clothes or putting the remains in plastic bags, it didn't matter. All I could focus on was the task at hand, with hints of disgust along the way. I ended up finishing at three AM. My hands were wrinkled and shook once I settled. I won’t deny that during the murder I didn't hate it. Slashing into something was fun and it made me feel strong. Still, it wasn't nearly as fulfilling as I expected it to be. Part of it was guilt, but it was mostly disappointment. I’d built it up for years and it wasn't earth shatteringly good or bad.
Overall, I expected to feel more, but it just left me hollow with an uncomfortable itch. There was no way I’d ever be able to see the tub the same way, hell I don’t think I’ll ever use it again. Luckily I almost always shower anyway so it's not too big of a deal. I watched a few horror game videos, trashed everything, changed and went to bed.
My scalp hurt like a bitch the morning since I kept my hair in that stupid bun. Despite getting less sleep than the past two days I held myself together a bit better in the morning. I brushed my teeth, changed, and had some fried bread before getting on the bus. Regardless I looked like complete shit and struggled to slump into my seat.
“Rough night?” Abdul asked
“Uh, yeah.” I quietly responded looking to the floor.
He frowned, looking at me with concern.
“You can talk about it if you're comfortable,” he assured me. I contemplated giving him a thinly veiled metaphor or vague explanation so he'd comfort me but stopped myself before my mouth could run a muck. He wouldn't be able to do much of anything and I don’t like opening up.
“Uhm, thanks but it's something I have to deal with alone.”
He nodded, respecting my boundaries.
“You know, I understand if you can’t hang out today it seems like you have a lot going on.”
I avoided eye contact with him as he spoke. For once I was feeling hints of guilt toward a person. I wanted to spend time with him, but I knew that I wasn't in the state to do that.
“Yeah, I think it’ll have to wait, I’m-” I cut myself off before apologizing. A fact about me that should surprise no one is that I hate apologizing. Even when I do feel kinda bad the act fills me with embarrassment.
“You what?” he asked, his eyes telling me that he knew what I was going to say.
“I’m emotionally not great.” I spat out in an admittedly poor attempt to get out of saying sorry. As always he remained calm but I could tell he saw through me.
“Okay, like I said I understand, whatever it is I hope you feel better.”
I told him thank you and we didn't speak for the rest of the day. At home I changed into more comfortable clothes and brushed my teeth. Unfortunately, I wasn't bouncing back from killing nearly as much as I expected.
“It wasn't even that bad! That thing was on its last legs anyway.” I grumbled to myself, smacking my forehead. I was feeling worse than when I did it which is weird. I ended up spontaneously decorating a ratty tie from the bottom of an accessory drawer to distract myself. It helped me get my mind off things, for a little. I had zero plan, just wanting to make something needlessly complex. Hours that felt like minutes passed and soon it was covered in patches, frills, and beads. I just tried it on when I heard the front door open.
“Man, that shit was wild!” I heard Brick laugh groggily. I didn't have to see or smell him to know he’d gotten lit. I rolled my eyes, closing my bedroom door.
“Hey, who’s there?” his friend asked, seemingly referring to me.
“Oh, that’s my little sis, don’t mind her she’s just on her emo shit!” he joked, which pissed me off for the petty reason that I didn't even listen or dress emo.
“Hey, that’s alright with me, I went through one of those phases,” they responded, their words less slurred than my cousin’s.
I fucked up and forgot to lock it when I closed it so they were able to swing it open, almost smacking my desk.
“Hey emo girl!” they waved as Brick haphazardly pulled them back.
“Okay, man, seriously I think she wants to be left alone.”
The way his friend looked at me made me uncomfortable. Like they’d snap my neck if I pissed them off. They clicked their tongue while stepping through the door frame.
“Alright, but I gotta say calling her an emo is inaccurate, they look like they watch gore and most emos just say they do.” they flashed a sharp toothy grin. At that moment I began to connect the dots.
“Easy, she’ll get pissy with you dude, now come on.” Brick warned tugging their opened button pushed him away. They looked me dead in the eyes.
“I don’t think she minds, in truth, I feel like we’ll have a lot to discuss later.” they smiled again, finally walking back into the living room. A chill ran up my spine when I saw them. The sharp teeth, New York accent, unsettling gaze, that motherfucker was the person who recruited me! They were able to get into my place so easily cause my dumbass cousin probably gave them a spare key or the opportunity to make one, and now they were a room away from me!
I dug my hands into my pillow as I contemplated what to do, no matter what happened next, I knew it was gonna be a rough visit.