there’s always been a voice in my head telling me that i’m not allowed to feel happy or fun unless i’m with someone else and it’s been so hard to fight it. that voice has always been in my mind, torturing me no matter how hard i try to push it away. i’m trying to do the things that i love alone even if that voice is my keeps telling me that 24/7. i’ve kinda realized that it’s fun doing the things i like to do by myself but i’m scared i’m gonna fall back into that dark hole at any minute. i rlly hope that i can keep this up and i know it’s not gonna be easy but as of right now, i’m not gonna give up.

Hiya! I’m Jude (FTM) I’m happily partnered, a elder millennial , and a long time role player. I just purchased a used bookstore/coffee shop that I run in the cozy Pacific Northwest, but am mostly available daily to rp.
I wrote in third person past tense, I’m a literate multiple para to novella style writer. If there are action or dialogue heavy scenes, I tend to do a shorter back and forth and honestly quality over quantity is more important to me.
I only do M x F (with me in the male role) I don’t double, but I’m more than happy to write side characters of either gender to help move the story along. I prefer to use discord but can use Reddit chat if it’s a deal breaker.
I'm really hoping to find a partnership/ friendship , someone who can add to our story, and most importantly, someone who wants a long-term connection. I love chatting ooc with my partners, love gushing about our characters, setting up mood boards, sound tracks, etc. I’m also good for a kitty picture or two I own four of them!

• 20 + partners only
  

•  An decent grasp of grammar, punctuation, spelling, and capitalization. I promise I’m not a grammar nazi I just want to be able to read what you’ve written. 

• If you don’t get exited over our characters, trading head cannons, making mood boards, geeking out over plot then we probably won’t make a good match
  

•  While I'd prefer real life face claims, I'd also be open to using realistic art if you're uncomfortable with real life. Though I draw the line at anime/cartoon style art. 

I have a list of tropes, genres, themes and plots that would be happy to send. I’m also fine with trading writing samples as well but it isn’t a must.
I am fine with writing about anything except for high fantasy. I have a fondness for the supernatural, paranormal, mysteries, thrillers, even a bit of horror however I like all my stories to have romance. Dark Forrest’s, small spooky towns, werewolves, cults, things that go bump in the night, modern tellings of fairytales are my kind of vibe.
I’d love to hear from you, drop me a note, chat or private message.

No matter what I do to get better, it just constantly feels like I fuck things up.
I'm currently on vacation and usually when I travel, I take trips for about 1 week maximum and it's always local to home. But this trip is 3 weeks long (2 weeks in) and across the globe. And I've had a lot of fun. But im.reaching thst point where I'm starting to get angsty, I cant fall into my comforts because I dont have them and I'm getting really overwhelmed. My boyfriend (who is such an amazing man) has been unwell the past few days. I ended up spiralling and logged out of all my social media to just remove myself from everything before i said or did something I regretted. But I got a text from a friend saying that he's now in hospital. I feel awful for taking a step back when he probably needed me most. I did it to look after myself but I now feel selfish.
Also, the friend I am on this trip with had plans to visit a particular place today. Its been the thing she's been looking forward to the most on this trip. But after a really bad episode last night, chronic illness which makes walking difficult and a lack of sleep, I made the decision to back out and let her see it herself. I said whilst she was out, it would be really beneficial for me to just have some time to myself for the first time in 2 weeks and some time alone to just ride this out. But now, she won't go. She's upset about not being able to go. And whilst I know logically, I'm not stopping her, it feels like my fault.
Finally, things are going south with my mum. For context, my mum is terminally ill. I moved out last year, as caring for her full time when she was downright horrible to me was too much for me to handle. Her behaviour, her attitude and her neglect is a lot of the reason I am the way I am the reason I have to feel like this and the reason I react the way I do and the reason I cant just have a normal day. I need to remove her from my life, for my benefit, but some part of me just keeps hoping she'll come around when I know she won't.
Logically, I know I am doing better. I used to have episodes daily and now, I barely have them weekly. I've gotten better at expressing my feelings and putting myself first.
But I feel like I fuck everything up and im hurting everyone around me for doing things for myself. I dont want this feeling to ruin the last week of my trip. I mean, I'm in Japan for fucks sake. But everything is just going wrong and it is so difficult to handle right now. Thanks for reading, dont forget to hydrate today <33

Sorry I’m new to Reddit and I don’t know if I’m posting correctly. Trigger warning: just disgusting stuff going on in that house. Bodily fluids and such.
I would like to start off, none of this is the kids fault. Absolutely none of it is. They’re children and this all lays in the hands of the adults in that house as they’re currently failing them.
The way she keeps her home; the way she “cleans”, makes my skin itch and sends me into a cleaning spiral in my own home. My house is by no means spotless all the time, nor am I a cleaning expert. I do work 45 hours or so a week and have a dog with long hair that is currently shedding a lot bc of spring. I’m no means a super bleach clean person, but gosh, I whip out the bleach every time I learn about something that goes on in her household. The way I wanna reach in and just clean that place myself
The walking around sweaty like that, her kids are sweaty, she’s sweaty, touching public items and probably bumping into people in the stores because she nor cash have a sense or personally boundaries. Imagining getting bumped by someone that sweaty when I’m trying to grocery shop, would make me want to put everything down and go home or go to a different store.
The pooping in the pool. I would have banned her immediately. Do you know how much business they would lose? Her couple of memberships isn’t worth enough to cover a full day of pool shutdown or the people that would no longer attend the pool because people are routinely pooping in there whenever they attend.
The chicken coop, that speaks for itself. The amount of germs in that is insane. I’m not too sure about it, but my mom always stressed how much germs birds can carry, and to never touch feathers fallen from them. And here she is, sitting her kid in a bird poop nest. The kid that puts his hands in his mouth, touches everything, that probably doesn’t know how to properly wash their hands because I doubt their mother knows either. He’d touch it and it’d go to her other poor kids that would probably end up touching it and then their own mouths, she even has a baby and we all know how babies put everything in their mouth.
The state of her home just speaks that she doesn’t clean enough. I know it’s rough for parents to clean and keep clean, but she takes it to a level I’ve never witnessed. Every child can do small tasks to help keep the house clean. Even 4 year olds can, just a small task like matching socks or something. Clean up their toys, something that doesn’t take too long. But I highly doubt she’s teaching them anything in regards to being clean. I don’t know if she knows how to clean.
Her house is a mess but it’s more of a disaster. Im surprised no one from any government agency or services has told her to clean it up or risk losing her kids and that she’s putting her kids health at risk. Her kids literal health is at risk at the way she’s “maintaining” this homes
Even when she’s on live doing laundry I’m cringing. Is the washer even clean? How many bodily accidents happened in those clothes? Pets or children or even adults. Is she just washing the clothes in poopy/sweaty/pee/anything filled water?
It makes me wonder if that cyst that was on a child’s nose was possibly made worse or got infected in the first place because of the condition she keeps her house. Even if the cyst was going to form, having a clean bed, face towel, even cleaning their face itself, couldn’t have hurt and maybe lessen any infections they could have gotten.
I think her house is a downright fire hazard. Too much stuff, too much unkept stuff, too much of everything everywhere. It’s go up like a match box if one of those chords caused an electrical fire. Either from an animal chewing on it, someone got their hands where they couldn’t, someone put metal where they shouldn’t, the list goes on. And I’m terrified that no one would know what to do in an event that it happens.
Her house isn’t just mess but it’s more of a disaster and I dare say biohazard after learning about the bathtub situation. Where else is she allowing to happen and just not mentioning? Glad that the kids are peeing/pooping even if it’s -blank-? Surely it’s not just when submerged in water. Which makes me now concerned about that lake/pond they are near by.
Im surprised no one from any government agency or services has told her to clean it up or risk losing her kids and that she’s putting her kids health at risk. Her kids literal health is at risk at the way she’s “maintaining” this home.
Dear god, this is just what I beg (in this regard). Get off live and clean.. if you have to be on live. Go live and clean. Just deep clean everything. Tidy up, bleach the floors, carpet clean, vacuum couches, clean the walls, baseboards, the ceiling, the bathrooms, the washer machine and drier, even the fridge and pantry at this point. The kids deserve to be able to have at least one day where their house doesn’t smell like a barnyard. And don’t start that it’s a country thing. I’m in the country. And I would get hives thinkin about spending any time there.

The idea of being with someone is literally feels like a far away dream to me. It’s been over 7 years since I had spoken to any girl. I now don’t even have friends, many of them got married and have children’s and t”are pretty busy in their lives.
Looks does not matter because I am decent looking and I do make a good living, I have nice high paying white color job and my standard are high. I do spend well on myself.
Part of the problem is I am an extreme introvert, it’s very hard for me to express my feelings or communicate and I do have the fear of rejection and I am currently working on it. I am trying to go out more of my comfort zone and talk to strangers, just chit chat and i feel like i am improving but i still don’t know if ill be ever able to walk up to a girl and ask for her number.
I am also a non native speaker so id don’t have the accent but i think i can speak well. Even if it’s in my own language impressing a girl for me would be a difficult task through texts and i do know if I’ll be able to do it in English.
Shit man I don’t know if I should just give up on relationship and marriage and focus on other things or keep trying. We humans have made everything complicated. Marriage and reproduction is the basic necessities of every life on this planet and yet we human are struggling while other living beings are able to do it without any problems. Feels like no one is in touch with reality.

It's been a while since a post about positions has been made on the sub, and I thought that after Samidare's release I might make one since Fuma, EJ and Taki now have a good amount of lines in the title track :)
Apart from official positions which will be noted by (*), these are all my own perceptions of &TEAM's positions, minus dancing positions because I cannot accurately analyze that, beside Main Dancer. So in order, from oldest to youngest:
K: Performance Leader*, Main Vocalist, Main Dancer, FOTG, Oldest
While oldest isn't a position per se, it is a role that K has to take on, so I've listed it here. K's Performance Leader position has been confirmed by himself on that one interview (forgot the name), which indicates that he is also Main Dancer. Now for Main Vocalist - it's long been debated whether K should be Main or Lead vocal, but after Samidare I do believe that he is a Main Vocalist. He consistently sings chorus, and is always in the top 4 for line distribution. He also does adlibs which a Main Vocalist would usually do. And for FOTG, it's mainly because he was already popular on I-LAND and made it all the way to the end, but didn't debut.
Fuma: Sub-leader*, Vocalist.
Fuma is officially the sub-leader, supporting EJ who is the leader. I believe that Fuma will take over the leader position completely while EJ serves his military duties, whenever that will be. Up until recently, Fuma didn't get a lot of lines in songs but with Samidare, he is ranked 6th which is an improvement from the bottom three, though not by far. I hope that next comeback he will be in the top 4.
Nicholas: Main Rapper, Lead Vocalist
And as everybody knows, Nicholas is the Main Rapper. If only one person raps in a song, it will be Nicholas. However, I feel like that his positions as Main Rapper and Lead Vocalist sort of clash, if you get what I mean. Basically Nicholas will rap as much as he can in a song, if he has a good amount of lines then he won't get too many more singing lines, or sometimes none at all. But in a song where there is no rap, Nicholas will get a good amount of singing lines. But what I'm saying is that he doesn't both rap a lot and sing a lot in the same song.
EJ: Leader*, Lead Rapper, Vocalist
EJ is leader, that's official, no doubt. He and Nicholas are the only two who rap, and even EJ doesn't come in too often. I've written Lead Rapper here but that's only because EJ does actually come in to rap multiple times, whereas other members make the odd appearance and never rap again. And believe it or not, EJ was actually number 2 in line distribution for Samidare! (the song, not the whole album). I haven't given him a Lead Vocal part yet because this could just be a one time thing, however by the end of the seasons series (or whatever it's called), we will definitely be able to confirm whether EJ is a lead or sub vocalist.
Yuma: Main Vocalist, Main Dancer
Yuma is either number 1 or 2 in terms of vocal ability, and by the number of lines he consistently gets, he is definitely another Main Vocalist. He and Maki also support Jo's killing parts often since Jo is a weaker vocalist than them, we'll get back to that later. Yuma is also a great dancer, I believe he's danced for the longest out of &TEAM? But I do believe that he would hold the Main Dancer position if officially assigned. Also on the Kpop wiki on fandom, they list Yuma as having a rapper position. But I can't recall the last time Yuma ever rapped in a song, somebody please tell me if that's ever happened.
Jo: Center, Vocalist, Visual*
Ok so let's continue off what I said about Jo being a weaker vocalist than K, Yuma and Maki. That is definitely true, but HLJ still gives Jo killing parts and a really good amount of lines. Why? Because they're pushing him as Center.
Now with &TEAM, the center is a bit weird since &TEAM has so many members, but bear with me. A commenter on another post (here) suggests that &TEAM could have three centers - those being K, Jo and Harua. K would be the performance center, (similar to Yeonjun of TXT) and is the face for their concept (Dark Moon) and Harua is the most promoted both within Japan/Korea and overseas since his popularity is pretty balanced globally, but I believe that the traditional K-pop center would be Jo. He's pushed mainly on visuals (Jo introduced himself as Visual once, so that's confirmed) and is given lines despite being a weaker vocalist, and he's popular, so people want to see more of him in songs.
Harua: Vocalist, Visual
That whole section above also applies to Harua I guess, he gets a good amount of lines, not too many and not too few, and is mainly pushed as a visual. Not trying to hate or anything but there's not much to say.
Taki: Vocalist
Honestly not too much to say about Taki either apart from the fact that he finally got a good amount of lines in Samidare! The first thing I thought of when I listened to Samidare was 'hey, Taki's getting so many lines! I'm so happy!' Afterwards I realised that EJ and Fuma had gotten lots of lines too. Hopefully he will be pushed on vocals more in the future, his vocals have improved so much since we first met him on I-LAND and he needs to showcase them.
Maki: Main Vocalist, Maknae*
K, Yuma and Maki are the three main vocalists of &TEAM. Some may think that it's too many, which is a fair point, but having three strong vocalists and not using them would be a waste. They often exchange parts, especially in the chorus, and Maki often sings the first part of the last chorus, which is quite an impactful part. This is also when K does adlibs.
So that's it I guess, &TEAM's positions as of Samidare. I think I will revisit this when the seasons series ends, hopefully by then the positions will become clearer and we get fairer line distributions.

That’s all it was. A game.
Something my friends and I used to play during the summer when we had nothing better to do. I never expected that it would get so out of hand.
I never expected it to come back long after recovery.
To anyone reading, please don’t do what I did.
I’m putting this out there to warn people.
On that warm summer evening, we played the role of Pandora.
Except, the monsters we released were far worse than what’s told in stories.
Because stories end.
And this doesn’t.
I still remember the date. July 16, 2013. I was an upcoming senior in high school while the others were getting prepared for their freshman year of college, raving on about their majors, life plans, dorms, you get the point. The summer had been bittersweet as those months would be the last I’d see them for a while. Because of this, Anthony, Lola, Eliza, and I would spend the bulk of our time together going to festivals and various camping trips, trying to make the most out of the summer while we could. On that day, the day I wish I could forget, Eliza had run late to one of our hangouts at my place. This was odd since as an Ivy league student, she was usually early or right on time to these kind of things. Half past three, we heard her knocking on my door rapidly, which was also out of character considering that she was usually the calm one in our group. A bit worried, I hurried down the stairs with Anthony and Lola following close behind, expecting Eliza to be in hysterics due to her frantic behavior. When I opened the door, however, there she was with a bright smile on her face, her red hair getting in the way of her eyes, which were a dark green shade. She pushed her hair out of her face with one hand and held a brown box in the other, and she was bouncing up and down as she usually does when she’s about to talk about something exciting.
“You’ll never believe what I found.” Eliza’s voice could barely hold her impatience as she stepped inside and kicked her shoes off once she crossed over my threshold.
“What’s up with you today?” Anthony questioned, looking more confused than concerned now.
“I’ll show you guys in a minute. Can we go up to your room, Felix?” Eliza looked over at me with her trademark smile, knowing damn well we were all too curious to just leave that box unopened. Without a word, I led the group up to my room and shut the door after everyone had walked in. Anthony took his usual spot on my beanbag and unzipped his hoodie, which had the MSM logo sprawled across the front in big red letters. He adjusted his dark rimmed glasses and took on his usual stoic expression. Lola wore a dark blue FIT shirt, which she revealed more of when she moved her locs over her shoulder as she sat on my desk chair and wheeled over to us. As she did, the various necklaces she wore clinked against each other. Eliza herself was the smartest out of the group, and probably in the whole school as well. She had gotten accepted into multiple prestigious schools, but ultimately settled for Harvard to pursue a degree in some obscure philanthropic career. Unlike Anthony and Lola, Eliza wore her regular outfit –usually a white tank top and jeans– and sat on my bed with the box in her lap. I took a seat next to her to get a closer look.
“So what’d you find?” The others moved closer.
“Something we probably haven’t thought about for a really long time. Do you guys remember that one game we used to play in middle school? The one we made after Felix joined our class?” Eliza looked at our puzzled faces to see if we had connected the dots, but her clue didn’t seem to strike any of us with familiarity.
“After Felix joined? Didn’t we just hang out or something that weekend?” Anthony questioned.
“We did, but there was something else,” Eliza raised an eyebrow, “you guys seriously don’t remember?”
At that moment, I saw Lola’s eyes light up and a thin smile grew on her lips, something she always did whenever she was able to figure something out.
“You mean that little map game we played? Where we would go out to the woods and explore?”
Both Anthony and I seemed to have remembered as well with the mention of a ‘map game.’ I chimed in, “ yeah I remember! Every once in a while when we were all bored, we’d pick a random spot on a map to go to and explore there for a bit, right? When did we stop doing that anyways? I remember really enjoying it.”
“Well life happens,” Eliza responded to me, “but I was thinking of things to do for the rest of the summer when I suddenly remembered that game! That’s why I was so late for our meetup today, I was looking through my attic for this.” Eliza shook the box slightly and a couple things clattered around inside.
“There’s no way.” Anthony sounded like he was in disbelief.
“You mean…?” Lola sat forward in the chair. Eliza smirked, her adventurous nature creeping out as realization swept over us like a wave.
“Mhm! I found the map we used to use as well as the things we collected from our little escapades.” With that, Eliza opened the box, revealing a folded piece of paper and various trinkets scattered over the bottom of the capsule. Lola squealed with excitement and immediately snatched the box from Eliza, who simply chuckled and leaned back on the bed.
“No way! Everything’s still in here!” Lola digged through the box and placed whatever objects she found across the blanket. Anthony got up and sat at the foot of my bed, to observe our findings more closely. There was a piece of some clay pottery, some rusty springs and scraps of metal, an old digital camera, and some other random stuff I can’t recall to memory right now. Anthony picked up a spring and turned it in his palm.
“Shit man, this is from that abandoned junkyard we found in 8th grade…that feels like such a long time ago now.”
I examined the piece of pottery with Eliza looking over my shoulder. Lola picked up the digital camera.
“Do you remember where this came from?” I turned to Eliza and held up my discovery.
“No clue,” she shrugged. It must have been a while ago if even she didn’t remember. I turned the piece over and grew curious when I saw weird symbols inscribed on the inside of it. I squinted a bit, trying to discern some sort of pattern within the scribbles.
I turned to Eliza again, “hey, what do you think-”
“OH MY GOD GUYS IT STILL WORKS!” Lola’s voice went up a whole octave as she motioned to us.
The rest of us looked up as she turned the camera to face us. There were various photos we went through. All of us at lakes, museums, exploring the woods; everything we did from 7th grade until my freshman year seemed to be documented. The last photo was arguable the best and msot bittersweet. It was a picture of the whole group from a while ago. We were sitting at Eliza’s dinner table with a giant chocolate cake on the middle of it adorned with two candles shaped like the numbers one and five. Eliza was talking to me in the photo. Her hair was even more red at the time and she wore it in a braid. I looked about the same in the photo as I did then, with light brown hair, blue eyes, and freckles scattered all over my body and face. I was smiling sheepishly at Eliza. I now knew why Anthony said it was obvious I had a crush on her in 8th grade. Lola went through the most changes out of all of us. At the time in the photo, she had her hair straightened and side-swept, with a bright pink streak in her bangs. She wore clunky jewlery and a frilly skirt underneath a long tank top, leaning over the table to cut another slice of cake. All of us had birthday hats on except for Anthony, who kept his sitting on the table. He held up a peace sign staring straight into the camera with a stoic expression. He looked like a statue compared to the rest of us, who were laughing and smiling. You could tell he was having fun, though.
“Well don’t you look like a ray of sunshine,” Lola snickered as Anthony shot her a dirty look.
“At least I didn’t go through some weird scene phase in freshman year,” He smiled and watched Lola’s face, knowing she was blushing despite her dark skin which made it practically invisible. I let a laugh slip out, but quickly stifled it knowing that if I kept going it would mean death. Lola side-eyed me and continued, “I was using my creative liberty to experiment with my options as an artist,” she said with an overly-posh accent that made Eliza laugh.
“Yeah Anthony, don’t be such a downer,” Eliza teased. Anthony simply rolled his eyes and suppressed a smile to pretend like he was mad at all of us. He looked into the box and picked up the paper we left, unfolding it with a hint of excitement and curiosity. When he looked at it, only two words came out of his mouth.
“Holy shit.”
“What, what is it?” Lola tried to look at the other side of the paper, but Anthony quickly held it out of her view.
“What if I didn’t want to show you?” A smile crept onto his face. This was one of those rare moments where he’d be in the moos to joke around with us.
“Don’t be a dick bro,” I said, laughing as I went to grab for the paper. Anthony just held it up in the air and pushed me off of him and I landed on my floor. While he was distracted, though, Eliza took her chance and snatched the paper right out of his hand.
“You boys need to learn to be nice,” she warned in her jokingly stern voice as she unfolded the paper and spread it out onto my bed. We all leaned over to look.
It was a map of a couple towns including ours. There were around ten small star stickers placed on different areas on the map near the streets the four of us lived in. On the top of the map, a couple words were scrawled in black sharpie; “Pick a Place!” I could see everyone’s faces light up.
“Oh my god it’s our map!” Lola shouted and pointed to one of the stars near her street, “this was where we found that old junkyard right?”
Eliza smiled, “I remember that. It feels like such a long time ago now.” She pointed to another star, “and this is where we found that lake we made a hideout of. I still remember swimming in there in 8th grade…”
The four of us reminisced for a while, talking about where we had gone and what we did there, and how impressive it was that we didn’t get tetanus from that junkyard. After nearly an hour of conversation, Eliza asked something that made all of us stop.
“So how about it guys? Do you want to do one last round before the summer ends?”
The rest of us looked around at each other. It was clear we all wanted to do it. Eliza seemed to catch on and she nodded.
“Who wants to pick where we go?”
“How about you do the honors?” Lola suggested, motioning towards the map. “You’re the one that brought this stuff in anyways.”
Eliza raised her eyebrow but didn’t object. Without a word, she examined the map for a few minutes, then placed her finger on one spot a bit far from my house.
“How about here?”
“You think we can make it that far?” Anthony asked.
“Well, we can drive now so why not?”
“You sure there’s some type of trail we can drive on? That spot looks pretty deep in the woods”
“We can find a path to drive on for a bit then walk the rest of the way. C’mon guys, this is probably our last chance to do something like this! Felix, you can drive right?”
Eliza and the rest turned to me with a hopeful expression. I had to comply.
“Sure. No big deal, right?”
All three of them cheered and high fived each other, looking pretty excited to go on one last adventure.
“So when do we leave?” I questioned.
Eliza flashed that smile again, “right now.”
“Right now?!”
“Hell yeah,” Lola chimed in. “It shouldn’t take that long, right?”
“I guess…” Even then I felt uneasy about the whole thing. I didn’t feel prepared enough to go on some random trip into the woods. I needed to pack food, water, flashlights, I had no idea how long this was going to take. Little did I know that those things would be the least of my worries a couple hours from then. I wish I could go back and convince my 17-year-old self that it wasn’t worth it, that I should just convince my friends to stay and talk for the rest of the day. I wish Eliza had never remembered that stupid game. In a way, I’m almost mad at her for what happened, but I know it wasn’t anyones fault. We just wanted to have fun. I wish we could’ve just had fun. But God had a different plan for us. One that made me think Satan himself devised it instead. On July 16, 2013, Anthony He, Lola Smith, Eliza Landserson, and Felix Johanson went on an adventure that none of them were ready for.
Author's Note:
If you just read all of that then thank you so so so much for doing so! I'm a rookie writer, so feel free to comment any constructive criticism you might have if you have actual writing experience! This is the first silly little story I'm posting here, so I hope you enjoyed :)

Vecna: Eve of Ruin🎲

The evil lich-god Vecna has unearthed secrets he can use to unravel and remake the multiverse. Stopping Vecna will require working with three of the multiverse's most famous archmages, traveling to far-flung locales, and rebuilding the legendary Rod of Seven Parts.
Vecna: Eve of Ruin is a high-stakes adventure in which the fate of the multiverse hangs in the balance. The heroes begin in the Forgotten Realms and travel to Planescape, Spelljammer, Eberron, Ravenloft, Dragonlance, and Greyhawk as they race to save existence from obliteration.
A level 10 to 20 adventure.

• 📕 Game system: DnD5e
• 🕛 Game start time: 2,00pm EST/8,00 pm GMT+2
• 🎮 Game Link - Tuesday - 2/6
• 🎮 Game Link - Wednesday - 3/6

🤓 About me

• I played RPG's for over 10 years, almost exclusively as a DM. Conventions, local game centers and community interactions are all things I did and enjoyed. Decided to go online to continue what is, to put it the simplest, my passion.
• Several ongoing campaigns: players are engaged, looking forward toward next sessions, actively engaging in their own discord communities
• I would picture myself as a rules as fun DM rather then rules as written. I do homebrew materials, constantly rewriting and improving. I reward roleplay and creative thinking. My players make the story - I just flesh it out.

👉 What am I paying for?

• The work I put into my campaigns: Even though I run established adventures I do not run them straight out of the box - I always make sure to purchase additional maps, resources and outright change the story if need be just so my players have a memorable time
• Dedicated players with a certain level of maturity, a fee eliminates player no-shows and creates a full experience where we look to finish the module, not just start it.
• Scripts and modules that automate the combat and provide players with a smooth gameplay experience
• Full access to Heroforge
• Maps from talented patreon creators: Domille's Wondrous Works, Czepeku, Mad Cartographer and more.
• VTT dice from Q-workshop and Rollsmith.

📖 Content details

• Any official WotC/Paizo product
• Unearthed Arcana/Playtest materials
• Homebrew (open for discussion)

🐲 Rules

• Be respectful to other players - everyone wants to have a fun game.
• Everyone is welcome, regardless of sex, gender, sexual orientation, minority status, language skill or game skill. 💕

📞 How can I contact you?

• I am active on discord each day. A private message here or a discord small talk is all it takes: dmthetulio
• If you would like to play another campaign, in the same time period in any of the systems I do paid sessions in (pathfinder, starfinder, dnd5e) be sure to contact me! I am more than willing to change the campaign for something else if we are still waiting for players.
• Reviews

Vecna: Eve of Ruin🎲

The evil lich-god Vecna has unearthed secrets he can use to unravel and remake the multiverse. Stopping Vecna will require working with three of the multiverse's most famous archmages, traveling to far-flung locales, and rebuilding the legendary Rod of Seven Parts.
Vecna: Eve of Ruin is a high-stakes adventure in which the fate of the multiverse hangs in the balance. The heroes begin in the Forgotten Realms and travel to Planescape, Spelljammer, Eberron, Ravenloft, Dragonlance, and Greyhawk as they race to save existence from obliteration.
A level 10 to 20 adventure.

• 📕 Game system: DnD5e
• 🕛 Game start time: 2,00pm EST/8,00 pm GMT+2
• 🎮 Game Link - Tuesday - 2/6
• 🎮 Game Link - Wednesday - 3/6

🤓 About me

• I played RPG's for over 10 years, almost exclusively as a DM. Conventions, local game centers and community interactions are all things I did and enjoyed. Decided to go online to continue what is, to put it the simplest, my passion.
• Several ongoing campaigns: players are engaged, looking forward toward next sessions, actively engaging in their own discord communities
• I would picture myself as a rules as fun DM rather then rules as written. I do homebrew materials, constantly rewriting and improving. I reward roleplay and creative thinking. My players make the story - I just flesh it out.

👉 What am I paying for?

• The work I put into my campaigns: Even though I run established adventures I do not run them straight out of the box - I always make sure to purchase additional maps, resources and outright change the story if need be just so my players have a memorable time
• Dedicated players with a certain level of maturity, a fee eliminates player no-shows and creates a full experience where we look to finish the module, not just start it.
• Scripts and modules that automate the combat and provide players with a smooth gameplay experience
• Full access to Heroforge
• Maps from talented patreon creators: Domille's Wondrous Works, Czepeku, Mad Cartographer and more.
• VTT dice from Q-workshop and Rollsmith.

📖 Content details

• Any official WotC/Paizo product
• Unearthed Arcana/Playtest materials
• Homebrew (open for discussion)

🐲 Rules

• Be respectful to other players - everyone wants to have a fun game.
• Everyone is welcome, regardless of sex, gender, sexual orientation, minority status, language skill or game skill. 💕

📞 How can I contact you?

• I am active on discord each day. A private message here or a discord small talk is all it takes: dmthetulio
• If you would like to play another campaign, in the same time period in any of the systems I do paid sessions in (pathfinder, starfinder, dnd5e) be sure to contact me! I am more than willing to change the campaign for something else if we are still waiting for players.
• Reviews

Vecna: Eve of Ruin🎲

The evil lich-god Vecna has unearthed secrets he can use to unravel and remake the multiverse. Stopping Vecna will require working with three of the multiverse's most famous archmages, traveling to far-flung locales, and rebuilding the legendary Rod of Seven Parts.
Vecna: Eve of Ruin is a high-stakes adventure in which the fate of the multiverse hangs in the balance. The heroes begin in the Forgotten Realms and travel to Planescape, Spelljammer, Eberron, Ravenloft, Dragonlance, and Greyhawk as they race to save existence from obliteration.
A level 10 to 20 adventure.

• 📕 Game system: DnD5e
• 🕛 Game start time: 2,00pm EST/8,00 pm GMT+2
• 🎮 Game Link - Tuesday - 2/6
• 🎮 Game Link - Wednesday - 3/6

🤓 About me

• I played RPG's for over 10 years, almost exclusively as a DM. Conventions, local game centers and community interactions are all things I did and enjoyed. Decided to go online to continue what is, to put it the simplest, my passion.
• Several ongoing campaigns: players are engaged, looking forward toward next sessions, actively engaging in their own discord communities
• I would picture myself as a rules as fun DM rather then rules as written. I do homebrew materials, constantly rewriting and improving. I reward roleplay and creative thinking. My players make the story - I just flesh it out.

👉 What am I paying for?

• The work I put into my campaigns: Even though I run established adventures I do not run them straight out of the box - I always make sure to purchase additional maps, resources and outright change the story if need be just so my players have a memorable time
• Dedicated players with a certain level of maturity, a fee eliminates player no-shows and creates a full experience where we look to finish the module, not just start it.
• Scripts and modules that automate the combat and provide players with a smooth gameplay experience
• Full access to Heroforge
• Maps from talented patreon creators: Domille's Wondrous Works, Czepeku, Mad Cartographer and more.
• VTT dice from Q-workshop and Rollsmith.

📖 Content details

• Any official WotC/Paizo product
• Unearthed Arcana/Playtest materials
• Homebrew (open for discussion)

🐲 Rules

• Be respectful to other players - everyone wants to have a fun game.
• Everyone is welcome, regardless of sex, gender, sexual orientation, minority status, language skill or game skill. 💕

📞 How can I contact you?

• I am active on discord each day. A private message here or a discord small talk is all it takes: dmthetulio
• If you would like to play another campaign, in the same time period in any of the systems I do paid sessions in (pathfinder, starfinder, dnd5e) be sure to contact me! I am more than willing to change the campaign for something else if we are still waiting for players.
• Reviews

At first it was fun to see her bull shit and call her out, but now it really actually pisses me off. In my opinion, she represents how corrupt and fucked the beauty industry is when it comes to influencers. Not only is she such a disgusting “role model” for little girls on this app, but her constant body checking, lying about her sizing and “40 pound” weight loss over night is making most women look at themselves and wonder what they’re doing wrong. And yet she still has thousands and thousands of people supporting her bull shit. I used to think she sucked, now I honestly think what she’s doing is VILE. It’s hard for me to even see her posts anymore without it enraging me. She won’t stop until her stans wake the fuck up. But at this point I don’t know what it’s going to take. Here are a few things that she’s done that have still not led to her cancellation or even a popular conversation about how problematic she is.

• Mascaragate: People talked about it for maybe 2 weeks.
  
• “Try being an influencer for a day” this lost her a few followers and got people talking but nothing really happened.
  
• Roe vs. Wade post and lying about her donation: this really stuck with us who are in this sub, maybe even brought a few people in here, but still no real uproar.
  
• Not disclosing an ad/lying about almost every product: a lot of people have caught on, but most of her followers turn a blind eye or trust what she’s saying and think she’s credible.
  
• Facetune and constant editing of her face and body: I believe this is the most prevalent reason for people not supporting her. But once again, her fans will say it’s angles and lighting.
  
• Constant boasting of her wealth and blatantly being out of touch: her fans will say how proud of her they are and how hard working she is.
  
• Not speaking up about Palestine: a lot of people are calling out influencers for their silence on this topic. Yet it hasn’t seemed to affect her following by much at all.
  

What will it take for these mindless sheep to wake the fuck up and realize that she is not a good person? That she constantly lies to capitalize off of their ignorance? Seriously, what are these people getting out of supporting her? SHE DOESN’T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU. All she wants is your money.

• Total budget (in local currency) and country of purchase. Please do not use USD unless purchasing in the US: Total Budget: Ideally, something under $1000 USD before tax. (I have some wiggle room but nothing above $1500), Country: USA
• Are you open to refurbs/used? No
• How would you prioritize form factor (ultrabook, 2-in-1, etc.), build quality, performance, and battery life? Performance, built quality, battery life, style. I do not want that red nipple thing.
• How important is weight and thinness to you? Very important. Less than 5 lbs. as I will need to carry it to and from school/internship/practicum at some point. Nothing bulky.
• Do you have a preferred screen size? 14 to 16 inches
• Are you doing any CAD/video editing/photo editing/gaming? List which programs/games you desire to run. Sims 3 & 4, Cities Skylines, Omori, and other like games. Zoom. I do use a lot of custom content/mods for the Sims.
• If you're gaming, do you have certain games you want to play? At what settings and FPS do you want? Sims 3 & 4. I usually use laptop mode but have most of the settings on medium. I would like to play other Steam games like Omori and Cities Skylines
• Any specific requirements such as good keyboard, reliable build quality, touch-screen, finger-print reader, optical drive or good input devices (keyboard/touchpad)? Ability to extend storage via SD cards. Good keyboard and build quality. I plan on getting a monitor to hook up to the laptop so I can have an easier time multitasking.
• Leave any finishing thoughts here that you may feel are necessary and beneficial to the discussion. I am looking at the Lenovo Slim Pro 7. Ideally, I would like this laptop to last me through grad school and a few years after post-grad. Windows only.

Was scrolling through this community and found nothing as incredibly specific as the title I've written today, so I guess I've decided to ask about this considering I'm still processing up to now my experience working for a startup which I resigned from a couple of months ago.
But yeah, just like the title said: anyone here have any particularly terrifying/traumatic/frustrating experiences working for a startup? I'll start:
Some time back, I entered a company in a junior position for a startup whose posting enticed me. What got me was that a) they were near me, and b) the potential for growth seemed promising given the product this startup was peddling around. (Writer's note: I'm not gonna mention the company, the field, or the position here but I might be comfortable sharing some in PM) Signed up and eventually came to have a very mixed relationship with this company. Here are some things that I did appreciate:

1. In the training period that was given to me as I entered the position, it was great to learn a hefty amount of knowledge from the learning modules the company had prepared for training employees in that position. I would say that coupled with some very welcoming and pleasant interactions with the rest of the team that I was a part of, I had fun too.
2. Personal growth was quite significant, especially since I had a hand at ensuring certain matters and tasks assigned to me were delivered as requested. We could also work anywhere as the company head said in their interview with me!

But... what's the problem? Well...

1. Remember that "work anywhere" mantra I mentioned? Well, I felt annoyed because on some mornings whenever the company had a meeting, there would be shortcomings in the delivered output based on who was responsible for it and what would sometimes end up happening is the company head going on an unnecessary tirade that sometimes included about how they think about making people work in the office more because of this. (Okay, probably debatable, but I did not enjoy dealing with this)
2. Actually, more on the boss: apart from turning what is an initially promised 1 hour meeting into a 2/3/4-hr / whole morning one, really really likes to stress work-life balance... but will have the gall to get frustrated when an employee is sick to the point na they'll even try to get someone to contact them while the other person is recuperating. Nakakabastos.
3. Breaking point for me really was this week that we had a bunch of holidays clumped together in the same week, but the impression I got from that morning's meeting was that we didn't deserve to have a break because we weren't meeting goals (and even made it a point to emphasize na if may balak magtrabaho on the holidays to finish deliverables hindi yun counted as special holidays w/c should mean na may multiplier sa pay). This was what prompted me to just eventually resign and search elsewhere.

It's pretty clear that my horror story revolves around how much the company boss ruined any of the good or promising things I saw in this company. Though I'd say it also gave me a hard lesson about being very, very judicious and informed about the startup I'm getting into. I did my research later on and saw that the head really likes to make a lot of these companies/organizations/initiatives in the name of social entrepreneurship. A couple of duplicate companies here and there, di man lang makakuha ng market dito because the competent sales people all left for similar reasons. "Do this because you're making a difference to a lot of people," well the low pay, abusive upper management, and the lack of self-accountability doesn't help justify the lack of sleep and the anxiety I've developed dealing with this type of stuff. (Or the fact that... well, they've been a startup for so long pero mas marami nang nakaangat na companies in the same field established after theirs.)
How about you? Might be useful to hear your thoughts for future readers who are looking to get into the same world soon.

(( sorry for the typos in advanced 🙏 ))
Heyyy I’m looking for someone to play games with on multiplayer, I play on console (Xbox). I do play a lot of cross play games so that isn’t a problem for me. I’m EST time and stay up very late. I have game pass so I don’t mind downloading any games. Some games I currently enjoy are ⬇️
RDR2 online
R6 Siege
BattleField ( I play all but 5 is my fav )
GTA 5
Injustice/mortal combat
War Thunder
Insurgency Sandstorm
Farcry 5
Warzone
And some other little games like sea of thieves, wreckfest, nascar, golf, halo/split gate 😂. I have a lot more but am to lazy to type it all. I’ll play whatever honestly and I’m down to try new games. I prefer to voice chat during games bc I can’t shut up ( im a yapper), but if that’s not your thing I don’t mind. Anywaysss thx for reading this and if you wanna play just DM me 👍

ೃ༄🐛ೃ༄ introduction ೃ༄🐛ೃ༄

if you are involved in the shifting community, you may have seen the mention of some sort of 'lifa app' with no explanation as to what it is. sometimes, in scripts, it will say stuff such as...
'when i shift to this reality, i will have a lifa app to check in on my cr self and it cannot be deleted or destroyed.'
but what is the app that everyone is talking about? is it an actual app or sort of app in another reality that everyone just knows of?
in this post, i will be explaining the lifa app as a full guide of how to use it. its features, and what it is.

༊·˚🌿 what is the lifa app? ༊·˚🌿

the lifa app is a reality shifting based app that lets you keep track of your dr or multiple drs in literally every way imaginable. from the time it is to your memories. it even gives you diary entries for yourself. it is meant to be used as a tool to help shifters keep track of all of their information about them and their dr. it also allows a gateway to meet other shifters like yourself and shift with them to the same reality.

｡･ﾟﾟ･ 🥞 🥯 features 🥯 🥞 ･ﾟﾟ･｡

the lifa app has many features. the main ones you can see first are dr details, visualizations, group shifting, sharing.
let's go over each feature one by one.

: ̗̀➛ dr details

the first thing that you will get when you are greeted by this an i icon that says about this dr. when you click on it, you are able to type the location and a background story about your desired reality.
: ̗̀➛ time
this feature allows you to add a time and date to your dr. time will pass the same as it does here. for example in my dr, it is currently november 19, 2130 and is 1:47 pm. i chose to freeze time in this dr and submitted it.
: ̗̀➛ theme
this holds the name of what your dr is called, the icon it has, and the background of it when you click on the app. you can also choose the font color and a background tint as well. it also holds your name in your dr.
: ̗̀➛ timeline
you are able to establish a timeline of your desired reality before the point that you shift. i recommend keeping it brief to the important stuff. main instances of childhood and things that you remember with the same importance as you do now.
: ̗̀➛ notion script
this feature is if you have a script on the website notion script. it is a website in which you can gather and fill in shifting templates and is a great way to organize yourself. this is not necessary though. there are other features you can use for your script on here.
: ̗̀➛ about me
this is just a section where you write all about yourself. your name, your age, nicknames, safe word, height, hometown, ethnicity, race, nationality, sexuality, pronouns, gender, language(s), positive traits, negative traits, habit, likes, dislikes, hobbies, and skills.
: ̗̀➛ relationships
when you enter this tab, it will take you to a screen that has a place where you can add family members, friends, pets, significant other(s) or 'other'. the other tab has you in it.
when you decide to add let's say a friend, you start off by adding their name. then there age, closeness, and appearance. you can follow that up by adding a photo of said friend. you can type in relationship dynamic, how you met, and extra info. the format is the exact same no matter the type of relationship aside from pets.
the pet section is a little bit different. you add their name, age, species, pet bed, size, and about them.
there is also a recorder option where you can move around the placements of these characters.
: ̗̀➛ scenarios
this includes upcoming scenarios that you had planned, past scenarios that you did while in your reality, desired upcoming scenarios that include no date but you want to do or have plans to do. finally, you have memories which has no date. these are things that you will automatically remember when in your dr.
it's just a brief section where you can type in a title and add as much as you want of details of that memory. you can add a photo and select if it has a date or if it is a past memory or not.
: ̗̀➛ calendar
this just has the date of your dr. you can also create events on specific dates. that's pretty much it, this section is short.
: ̗̀➛ diary
you can write diary entires. talk about your day, memories, anything that may make you feel closer to your dr. this section is also short.
: ̗̀➛ playlist
so is this one. you make a playlist. and link the playlist, whenever you open the playlist, you get a new tab that takes you to that playlist to listen. i use it to keep my shifting subliminal playlist, but you don't have to.
: ̗̀➛ hero/villain
this is a tab within a tab so i'm bolding it. the first tab is customize, but that feature is locked behind a paywall with a monthly subscription of $3.99. i will talk about the subscription later.
then you have powers. you type the name of it and what your powers do. you have weapons which have the same explanation as powers. missions means you can make your own missions.
then there is combat skills. you list your strength, speed, agility, intelligence, compatibility, stamina, and flexibility out of five. then you can add your backstory. it's a blank sheet where you can type it out.
next is costumes where you describe what your costume looks like.
ally team includes your team name, how well you work together, specific events and upcoming battles, and other details. you can also add relationships from your relationship section and names of that.
enemy team is relatively the same. a team name, specific events or battles, other details, and can once again, select relationship with each member.
finally, there is timeline which has a title and description. you can also add scenarios if needed.
thankfully, that is thee last feature about dr details and we can now move on to visualizations.

: ̗̀➛ visualizations ‧₊˚🖇️✩

this tab focuses all on the visual aspects of your desired reality. even if you can't visualize, you can still use these to get a good idea on what things will look like.
: ̗̀➛ appearence
you can add a hair claim, face claim, body claim, hand claim, voice claim, and specific features claim. personally, i think that the last one could be explained easily in body or face claim.
either way, when you press one of these tabs, you can type in a detailed description on what you look like. now, i didn't notice at first but all the way at the bottom will be a small section that says add photo to which you can go into your gallery and choose a photo for yourself on that specific claim.
: ̗̀➛ wardrobe
this section will include an area that says wardrobe. you press the giant + sign on the top right hand corner and it takes you to a section that says create wardrobe. all you gotta do is add a title and a description. once you do that, you click on the tab again and then add a photo of a specific outfit of yours. you can add multiple photos, move them around using the recorder option right next to photos.
: ̗̀➛ photo gallery
you can make multiple photo galleries , customize albums of different things relating to your dr.
: ̗̀➛ pinterest boards
here you can add the link to your pinterest board...and a title. that's about it.
: ̗̀➛ wallet
this does not connect to any funds in this reality. it's supposed to keep track of money in your dr. i find this feature a bit dumb tbh and seems to waste more time preparing to shift than actually shifting.
: ̗̀➛ outfits
again, this is the same as wardrobe but more customized. you can add each individual clothing item separately if you wanna do that.
: ̗̀➛ belongings
you add photos and a title of what you own and its sentiment. yeah.
: ̗̀➛ or self
it has a stick figure of you. you list your family, what they're doing, their location, and your action, mood, and location.
: ̗̀➛ music group dr
without paying, you can only add one music group and one album. there is a members tab but you need a monthly subscription in order to access it.
i use this feature in one dr to describe my favorite band to listen to and an album i like. if you wanna add more than one album, then you also need to pay,
: ̗̀➛ school app
this is a doozy and has multiple tabs so this will be rapid fire.
you have your student i.d. report card, schedule.
schedule contains period, subject, and teacher. your school in your dr. you can add a photo, location, mascot, colors, class song, traditions, and history of your school.
you can also add your school uniform if you have one. this includes daily uniform and gym uniform. you can add a school map and a yearbook (????????)
again, these are fine i think but the yearbook seems unnecessary, just script who is in your class with you.
also there's a teacher mode but you can only access that with payment.
: ̗̀➛ chat
you can make a chatroom. and roleplay as every single member in that chatroom...for some reason. i don't need to repeat myself here, you already know what i'm going to say.
: ̗̀➛ chat ai
this is locked behind a paywall. just use character ai, it's free and you don't have a limit of 200 messages per day.
: ̗̀➛ family tree
for some reason you can't add siblings. the only way to add siblings kinda is to make them have the same parents as you on a new family tree.
this is just so not necessary. just write down your siblings in your script. no need for your entire extended bloodline. the universe will figure that out.
: ̗̀➛ places
you add places in your dr.
: ̗̀➛ fame phone
you can make a knock off insta account, twitter account, a wikipedia, and a youtube. again, not needed. just shift. also the settings and notifications features are locked behind a paywall.

: ̗̀➛ group shifting

you need to convert your account into an online account. but you can connect with other people and plan to shift together as a group. for those that don't know, group shifting is where you and one or more people collectively decide to shift to the same dr as different people and basically share an experience in that dr.

: ̗̀➛ sharing

the exact same thing as above. except this time you can just share your dr. you need an account to access this feature. it can give others ideas on scripts, drs, or anything else of the sort. it can be a great way to connect with others.

𓍯𓂃ᥫ᭡.🩹 final thoughts 𓍯𓂃ᥫ᭡.🩹

i think some of its features are helpful! however, other parts of it can be very distracting from shifting. i almost felt like this was an oc maker rather than shifting app. some of these i think didn't need so many features. the amount of features there are is crazy. the features section alone i needed to divide into several sections because it took so much longer to get through than i initially thought. it took about two hours to review each of them and i had to take breaks in between. to a new shifter especially, this would be so overwhelming.
you don't need face claims, body claims, or special features claims. as long as you have a general idea of what you and your desired reality is like then you're fine. this is just gonna over complicate shifting and make it seem more fictional in a way. if anything, this makes you less connected to your desired reality since your focusing so much on this one.
it wouldn't be a waste to download it but i wouldn't recommend buying it. but if you do, then more power to you.
please stay safe and happy shifting ᥫ᭡

TW: reference to mild ED
We broke up!!
I decided to do it over text. I didn't think there was a real risk of her tricking or attacking me, but I've been trusting her too much for years, so I thought it was better to be cautious. Plus, I was kind of excited to do this and not have to attend to her anymore - which is probably a sign I should have done this way sooner.
This was confirmed when I told my work crew and they bought a six pack to celebrate.
I'm going to go to a few sessions of church counseling just to make sure it didn't kick anything up in regards to my eating disorder. (Which is not, I promise, erectile dysfunction.) But I actually felt much more happy with my looks and weight basically the moment I broke things off!
And while I don't plan to date for a short bit, to make sure I'm not in a weird defensive headspace when I start courting someone, people've flirted with me a few times since we broke up. So apparently I don't look hideous! 😎
I've dumped her stuff at her mother's, along with a thank you note for the reunion. Her mother is a lovely woman and I'm glad she has two other (great) daughters because her third is certainly unique. My girlfriend is still texting me and is apparently getting an earful from her mother before she'll let her take her stuff.
I'm still not entirely sure it was right to break up with her and screw with her like that, but I'm definitely sure it was right to break up. One of us definitely deserved better. (And I'm pretty sure it was me. 😅) A serious piece of advice - always check if you want to be in a relationship, or if you're sticking it out because you feel like a knight that's already pledged her fealty to a fool and is waiting for them to wise up or the contract to end. 'Duty' can be just as strong a motivator as 'love', and both are vital, but they aren't interchangeable.
For those who were concerned about my health; thank you, and luckily, due to the motivations behind it, I'm very unlikely to suffer from it again. (Unless someone I respect starts hassling me about my weight again, but I don't plan on letting that happen.) I was a little prone to fever for a while but it never got to the point of long-term damage to bone/organs.
Sort of a rambling and plain update, so here's a fun event: Marshall, our best breeding bull, got a tire stuck on his horns today. We spent half an hour riding him down and getting it off - and he promptly stuck it back on. The boy has interesting tastes in haberdashery.
Thanks so much to everyone who gave me advice or warned me to have, especially the ones speaking from personal experience or asking me if I would want my friends/family treated like this. MASSIVE shout-out to those who asked about what I would think of my friends, family, or God forbid kids being treated like this. Have a great night y'all!

Is this a brand new build, or an upgrade to an existing build?
Please list any existing parts or monitor(s) you have that you would like to re-use with this build. For upgrades, a PCPartPicker list of your full build is extremely helpful. Be as specific as you can be here, including links or exact model numbers of each component whenever possible.

•Idk

What will this PC be used for? Examples include things like gaming, general/multimedia use, photo/video editing, coding, AI/ML, etc. Include specific games and applications you intend to run, and any particular performance goals you have, as each may have different specific hardware needs.

•I will only be gaming on this pc

What country will you be purchasing in? If you are in the US, do you live near a Micro Center? For other countries, please check if your country is supported by PCPartPicker by using the country selector dropdown on the top right - if not, please provide some links to reliable local vendors you are comfortable ordering from.

I live in Canada in a small town so I’m gonna have to order online

Do you need one or more monitors included in the budget? Please list how many and any size/resolution/refresh rate preferences if needed.

•No

What is your preferred and maximum budget range for this build, in local currency? Parts lists may sometimes have additional shipping costs. Please note whether prices in your country include sales tax or not, and adjust your budget accordingly. Typically VAT countries will have it included in the part list prices, whereas regular sales tax countries like the US and Canada will not.

•1500-1700 cad

Do you need WiFi, or do you have a wired ethernet connection available?

•Idk

Do you have any specific size or noise requirements for the build?

•Not super loud

Do you have any aesthetic preferences for color or lighting? Describe what you're looking for, or feel free to provide some links to examples that may help. Some people prefer an inobtrusive stealth build, while others may prefer a case full of rainbow RGB.

•black

Any other specific requests or requirements? Examples might include a specific minimum amount of storage, or a particular CPU socket for a future upgrade path, etc.

• At least 2tb of storage

My husband and I quit drinking. Here’s the thing, we’ve been together 15 years and I drank socially when I met him and always handled my alcohol well. He on the other hand does not. We’ve had some pretty huge issues in our relationship surrounding alcohol consumption: one time he nearly lost his mind yelling at me all night, he has almost jumped into a car with children after a day of drinking (someone took his keys and hid them not allowing him to drive and making him stay the night). when he’s drunk he cannot control his emotions, he goes through all of them. I have pictures of him sitting in a pool of his own vomit… I have videos of him yelling his head off, calling me names etc. the list goes on. The last incident when he almost jumped into a car with the kids was rock bottom (I though getting arrested and beaten up on vacation would be the rock bottom but it wasn’t).
The incident when he almost drove was the last time he really drank (he tried to bring home beer on 2-3 separate occasions after that but I got pretty upset and gave him a hard time, he made the decision to completely keep away from it).
So in the 15 years we’ve been together there have been times when he’s quit temporarily (because he’s gotten really out of hand) but then slowly after some time he’ll bring home a beer for me, one for him (of course asking first and then I agree because I do enjoy a cold beer on a hot day), don’t get me wrong I know I should have said a hard ‘NO’ and I should have never drank again either because obviously it’s hard to have it in the house, or have someone else enjoy a beer around you when you can’t. But I always thought, one is not that big of a deal (next thing you know, he’s bringing home a few beers a few times a week).
So I was pregnant with my third baby when this driving incident almost took place, so I had already not been drinking for 9 months. Fast forward to Xmas when my baby was about 2 months old. I had a glass of wine at Christmas, he declined when my parents offered him one. It didn’t seem to bother him that I had a glass of wine, like I said I’ve never been out of hand like him.
So again, it’s been 1.5 years since I brought alcohol into the home and I don’t plan to. However, having a glass of wine on my brothers birthday doesn’t seem like it’s something that’s not allowed for me. I’m envited to my brothers birthday party and I’ll be driving so I would literally have one beer or one glass of wine in the span of hours… along with food consumption. I’m shocked that when I brought up the fact that I might enjoy a beer with my brother on his 40th birthday he began to call me an alcoholic? (Again, a glass of wine on Christmas and other then that no drinking for 1.5 years) we never talked about me not drinking, I never fucked up, alcohol doesn’t poison me and my brain like it does him. I was boiling inside when he started saying I have a problem, I told him I don’t and that I’ve been pregnant and my one glass of wine on Christmas ‘didn’t start anything’ because I didn’t start bringing alcohol into the house. I didn’t drink more after that one glass of wine. I feel like I would love to have a glass of wine a couple of times a year when a girlfriend comes to visit, or when it’s my brothers 40th bday! Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want him to start drinking again so I’ll stay away from it but I just don’t understand why he’s making a big deal about me having a beer on a big occasion when I’ve never been out of hand when drinking, or made stupid decisions like he has. I guess I was looking for him to say, ya you go ahead but I’m not having any… as opposed to starting a fight about how I have a problem? It just makes no sense to me unless he’s just projecting and maybe craving having a drink.
In the end I didn’t end up having a beer on my brothers birthday, but next year on my 40th I’d like to… I don’t want it to be an issue, and believe me if it means I can never drink again to keep him from ever drinking again I will, but I also feel like I can handle a drink 5 times out of the year without getting out of hand or starting bad habits. Thoughts?

I've owned my Polestar 2 for 3 weeks now and have a lot to say about the car.
TLDR: - Looks good on the outside and inside with performance and plus packs - Pilot pack adds to an interesting driving experience - Range and electric adds to longer journeys due to charging time and public charging prices are more expensive than petrol
Model Year: 2021 Interior: WeaveTech in Charcoal with Black ash deco - This option is a little dull to be honest. I haven't been in a Nappa Polestar but in pictures that looks really nice. I believe even the slate would look better. - I do like the comfort of the seat but I have had comfier seats. Where it really shines is the number of adjustments you can make to it. - The golden seat belts to match the brake calipers on the performance pack are a nice touch - The centre console is occupies a lot of space without providing much storage. They have tried to give some of that back with the little side storage on it which I like the concept of - no major comments about the controversial cup holder but I wish the centre storage where the second cup holder is had more space - The infotainment system is a little slow and I wish the screen had a button to turn it off for when it's not needed. Overall though I like the Android OS and can see potential once it has time to mature some more. The risk is Google likes to randomly end projects so who knows if it will get canned in some nearby year. - I really like the integration of Google maps. Firstly into the driver HUD and secondly that it can read the battery level and automatically add stops for charging points - The 360 camera is nice but I wish that the view had rear camera in a split screen. Still it's not too bad as I can use the mirrors at the same time to help. - The design of the gear knob is cool, especially with the Polestar logo. - I have the panoramic roof which I think is really cool. Unfortunately as the driver you do not get to enjoy it much. - I wish the lights had more colour options other than white - I like the music auto plays when I sit in the car - I like that there is no on/off. I just sit and drive. - The Harmon sound system is okay but could be clearer. I haven't played around with the mixer yet so maybe need to adjust that for better sound quality.
Exterior: Midnight Performance Pack - Overall I like the exterior of the car. It was one of the main reasons that I bought it. Especially with the performance pack. - Not 100% sure about the front grill though - The front lights look pretty cool. I like the motion they make when you lock/unlock the car. I have the Pixel lights and seeing them in action is awesome. - I think the back looks really nice. I think the rear light looks futuristic and the motion it does when you lock/unlock the car puts the icing on the cake. - The Polestar logo on the car blends in really nicely and isn't so in your face. - The rimless wing mirrors look great. Now whenever I sit in other cars I notice the ugly frame around the wing mirrors. The blind spot warning lights on them are really useful too. - The car has an interesting stance making it somehow look bigger than it really is - The two tone alloys and eye catching yellow brembo brake calipers make a nice combination
Motor: Long range Dual motor - It makes the range a little too short . It has over 50 miles less range than the long range single motor. Despite this I like having the additional performance power available and therefore I am willing to make the sacrifice. - The reduced range and longer recharge time versus a petrol car does add time to roadtrips unfortunately. Charging prices on the road mean the long journeys are more expensive than a petrol car as well. However for local driving it is great and charging at home is very easy and convenient.
Driving experience - The instant acceleration is fun and for this reason I'm seriously considering getting the performance software upgrade. - The steering, even on the firmest setting is still too light for me and doesn't really feel connected to the road. This is to be expected for this kind of car I guess. There is understeer when pushing it a bit as well. Interesting that you can make the car slide. - I am a convert to single pedal driving it is really nice to not really have to use the brakes. I really like going into corners and not having to use the brake to adjust the speed, as well as when having to come to a stop just letting go of the pedal and slowing nicely to a stop. - I'm undecided whether to have creep on or off. I have it on at the moment but I'm considering turning it off - adaptive cruise control with the lane control is amazing on motorways, the car is almost driving itself. Not so useful in local driving, especially in the UK but there's nothing wrong with old fashioned less autonomous driving - I had a fun experience with the rear collision detection. I thought the seatbelts were trying to choke me but after a moment realised that the car is trying to protect me when it thought someone was going to hit me from behind. I love that feature.
Keys: - The fat keys are too big but I barely use them - the active lifestyle key is slim and combined with the touch sensitive door handles suits me very well - I do not believe in my phone enough yet to use it as a full time key however it is very convenient when I just need to go to the car for any quick reason. I don't have to take my key with me because the phone is the key making it a lot more convenient. The polestar app is fairly limited but it's useful to see the battery charge, whether you forgot to lock it and where the car currently is.
One last point that I didn't really know where to fit is that I really like the online documentation that is available for the car, it's really clear and explains a lot of things and I can search through it using Google
Let's see what the next few weeks, months and years brings.

A bit about me/some general interests:
I love to listen to music, my favorite band since I was 14 lol is Blink 182(have seen them live three times). I like to watch movies and tv shows(who doesn’t?) - my favorite genre is horror, but I like other things too. I love to shop and get my nails done. I love coffee. I’m very close with my family, we spend a lot of time together. I like to stay active, and exercise daily.
A bit about the type of person I’m looking for: I live in western Canada, so a similar time zone to that would be ideal. I am looking for someone between the ages of 28-45(yes, this is a hard preference, early 20s is not “close enough”). Does not expect constant/instant replies. I would like there to be daily communication, but I’m not constantly glued to my phone. I am looking for someone that is willing and able to put effort into conversation(I will do the same). Other than that, I’m very open to most other things and am not looking for a specific “type” of person! I’m looking for friendship first and foremost, but wouldn’t be opposed to it if the friendship evolved into something a bit more flirty/feelings develop. That being said, I’m not looking for something super serious, nor am I looking to relocate or anything like that. This is what I look like, if that matters much initially
If you think this sounds like something you’d be interested in, please contact me(chat preferred over DM). Tell me a bit about yourself and the best movie or tv show you’ve watched recently, so I know you’ve read the post and have actual interest. I will ignore any single word responses - “hey” does not start a conversation.