Hii, I'm F/22, a happily married housewife living in Canada! I am originally from the US but I moved away to be with my husband. We are childfree but we have 2 bunnies that are spoiled with love. 🐰🐇
I'm on the lookout for an online friend who I can share both silly and serious moments with, and someone who is open-minded. I'm shy but I will eventually warm up, so when I get to know you better, we can make calls and play games together or watch movies! I think being penpals would be fun as well, but I'd like to wait a bit before we do that, of course. I just love to write letters and make little pop-up cards lol. I also have tons of cute stickers to use. 😂
A bit about me: - I love playing games (board games, video games, etc.) - Cooking and baking are my passion - I enjoy writing poems - Making art is another way I like to express myself
There is more but I will save it for when we talk haha. I've always been considered the "therapist friend" so if you ever need a listening ear, I'm here for you. Feel free to reach out whenever! My DMs are always open. Thanks for reading! 💝

I promised myself that I wouldn't settle down until I find someone I think about when I close my eyes, see when I open my eyes, dream of when I'm asleep, even the thought of her makes me smile and makes me feel more alive.
Someone I can laugh, flirt with, talk deeply about life with and comfort her through thick and thin.
Someone I can write poems and songs about, hold hands and cuddle with, the lady who gives me the strength to get through this world. Someone I can live with in any part of the world as long as this woman is next to me because for me home is where my love is and I want to find such a strong love for me.
I'll know that she's the one when...
I'm too scared to lose her and even thinking about it makes me cry. I can imagine my whole life with her, her happiness becomes my happiness, her pain becomes mine and I would want to do anything to ensure that she knows that I'm here for her whenever she needs me, comfort her through thick and thin. Most importantly if she shows the same level of passion for me that I'd have for her like I would when I'd be in love with her, then she is the one for me.
My greatest dream...
To find true love, and someday have a family of my own in the future. To be surrounded by people who care about me as much as I would care about them. I never had all of that in my life as my biological family never made me feel home and I don't want anybody to go through that pain ever. Someday I want to have a son of mine whom I want to love so much and give him all the love and care he deserves that I never got.
This is me >>
https://imgur.com/a/x5Stlg7
I'm a 25 year old brown-black haired, brown eyes open minded guy who is a Muslim, of Indian and Arabian ancestry, brought up in Saudi Arabia and India and now live in Massachussets, United States but I don't mind where you are from.
I'm an open minded Non-judgemental guy and don't mind talking to women who have been through a lot in their lives or with a past or who are atheists or belong to any other religion.

I promised myself that I wouldn't get married until I find someone I think about when I close my eyes, see when I open my eyes, dream of when I'm asleep, even the thought of her makes me smile and makes me feel more alive.
Someone I can laugh, flirt with, talk deeply about life with and comfort her through thick and thin.
Someone I can write poems and songs about, hold hands and cuddle with, the lady who gives me the strength to get through this world. Someone I can live with in any part of the world as long as this woman is next to me because for me home is where my love is and I want to find such a strong love for me.
I'll know that she's the one when...
I'm too scared to lose her and even thinking about it makes me cry. I can imagine my whole life with her, her happiness becomes my happiness, her pain becomes mine and I would want to do anything to ensure that she knows that I'm here for her whenever she needs me, comfort her through thick and thin. Most importantly if she shows the same level of passion for me that I'd have for her like I would when I'd be in love with her, then she is the one for me.
My greatest dream...
To find true love, and someday have a family of my own in the future. To be surrounded by people who care about me as much as I would care about them. I never had all of that in my life as my biological family never made me feel home and I don't want anybody to go through that pain ever. Someday I want to have a son of mine whom I want to love so much and give him all the love and care he deserves that I never got.
This is me >>
https://imgur.com/a/x5Stlg7
I'm a 25 year old brown-black haired, brown eyes open minded guy who is a Muslim, of Indian and Arabian ancestry, brought up in Saudi Arabia and India and now live in Massachussets, United States but I don't mind where you are from.
I'm an open minded Non-judgemental guy and don't mind talking to women who have been through a lot in their lives or with a past or who are atheists or belong to any other religion.

Conversational Uglies in Cafe
Hi guys. I’m aware this poem requires a bit of (medical) context so you can scroll to the end for it or you can just experience it blind. ( 1 2 )
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My body is whimpering these begs to stay alive.
But I withhold the medicine in a a literal gut wrenching tease (side effects include: severe abdominal pain).
There’s no cure for this disease and several names for this cruelty.
I’ll shuffle through them like a deck of cards. Make your bets now. How many hospital visits this year? Just one if I do this right…
When the lights go off and nobody’s home,
the report will say the house was last observed hollow,
because my body was eating itself to stay alive and all these ugly musings died with me.
What can I say? My liver’s a champion.
I’m lucky. That’s what the doctor said.
Ha.
On my deathbed, the boisterous cadences of my hunger will have followed me.
Echoing from the flimsy walls of this wicked anatomy.
(A moment of silence to let the teenage-edginess pass, please. The flesh must mock itself to save itself).
What was it for? I.E this self-inflicted torture.
A body in pain is easier to inhabit, that’s how it’s always been for me.
Even the anxieties are worth the way my collarbones jut in this sexy way.
“Too much, too much, Body. Rein it in. Tone it down.”
There’s a strategy to this, you see. The best killers are only briefly suspect.
My skin is yellow. My skin is dry. I’ll go blind one day. Not today. Two warring concepts. Who I Am and Who I Thought I Was.
(“You’re lucky.”)
Oh, how the dress clings…
Insert cartoonish sound effects of medicine being injected.
The swelling is instant. Of my body, and of the orchestra as my life is finally fed. (THE DRESS CLINGS! IT MUSTN’T! IT MUSTN’T!).
My bloodstream’s biased. Can’t listen to it. My brain chemistry is feeling conflicted about the whole ordeal but it’ll come around.
Self-love is important and I’m afraid the insulin metabolizes it, too.
I won’t let myself swallow my reality.
But this tiramisu serves my goals perfectly, friend (It comes in biscuit-cream-coffee-chocolate-devastation layers).
I’m supermodel-level agonized, baby. That’s the suffering we all strive for.
I make an idol of the grief.
The months keep track of themselves loudly. (Doctor in ICU: you’re just waiting for an accident to happen. (Girl has no response)).
Anyhow, a corpse can’t feel regret so I’m not too worried.
Just pretend you understand my humor (like how I pretend I don’t understand this sacrifice).
This one’s on me if you promise never to ask how I am.
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Context: Diabulimia is a complicated eating disorder where a diabetic will purposely withhold insulin to lose weight (as insulin is a hormone that helps sugar enter cells for energy and therefore cause weight gain). As insulin is withheld, the liver begins to breakdown fat and basically melt it into the bloodstream for energy. Weight is lost but the blood’s acidity rises as a consequence leading to DKA, fatal if not treated. If you or someone you know is exhibiting side effects of DKA or diabulimia, allow me to be cliche and advise you to seek help.

I am fairly confident the title is male authors or something very similar, except YouTube keeps showing me poems by men. It’s a woman. The poem is complaining about male authors. The memorable line for me is “The two cigarettes agreed.”

My ex and I had a very messy 1 year relationship. He was incredibly narcissistic and toxic, he made me distance myself from my family and was very selfish. He also cheated on me many times with his ex. He was also a relationship hopper who did not love himself and did not know how to be alone. I tried to help him many times and took him to therapy but he just did not want help.
Despite all of this, he helped me understand my depression and he made good music that really helped me heal.
The last time he cheated on me was with someone much younger who he met on tinder. I left and never looked back. I blocked him on everything and despite doing this before, we could never keep no contact. But this time I was determined to do so. It was incredibly hard because I cared so deeply for this person and it hurt knowing he was with someone else. They moved in together after 2 weeks and this is when I cut ties.
It took me a good 8 months to forget he existed.
3 years later.. out of the blue, I get an email from him asking if we could speak. I didn’t really want to as I know how manipulative he can be and my friends all told me no, but something in my heart was telling me this was different.
I was SHOCKED he reached out because he has an ego the size of Texas and so I never expected him to contact me.
Something seemed so off.. He called me crying (something he never did) and he apologized for everything he put me through and tells me that I was the only person who truly accepted him for who he was and his deepest regret was treating me the way he did blah blah I didn’t take too much of it to heart as I know how manipulative he can be.
Regardless, I told him I forgave him a long time ago as I truly don’t hold space in my heart for hate or resentment and that I just hope he is now being a better person to others.
We planned to meet face to face a couple of days later.
The day came and he never showed, I texted him but he never replied. I got a call that same day from him at stupid o’clock but I was so mad that he stood me up, so I didn’t answer. I couldn’t believe I was made a fool once again and I fell for his antics.
Well, little did I know that he passed away that night. His pain and regret for the things he did was too much for him to face.
As I spent the next couple of years grieving him, I learned that I actually loved and cared for him more than I thought I did and so did he. At his funeral, I had the chance to speak to his mother who always supported us and who also tried to help him to change. She told me that they did have to go through all of his things with the police, including his phone and computers. I was shocked to hear about how many songs, poems and messages expressing his love and regret. I never thought he actually cared about me at all.
This taught me that you should never underestimate the hole your absence will leave in someone’s life. However, you must give them space to miss you. Sadly, men only learn value via losing.
On the other side, protect your peace, guard your heart and forgive yourself. Apologize to them if you need to, cry if you need to and let it go.
His family kindly allowed his demos to be uploaded onto Spotify for me and his friends to listen to.
If you’re ever wondering if he misses you, of course he does but people miss people dead or alive, it’s nothing new.
Whoever you meet, always try to leave them better than how you found them - and I don’t mean baby them or try and change them - what I mean is, SHOW them, using your actions, how people SHOULD be. No matter how bad of a person they are, always be kind, always be patient, always forgive (but you don’t need to forget) - you may ask why, as some people really don’t deserve it, but please understand that you might be the closest thing to love someone will ever experience.
I hope this made sense ❤️

So I want to understand well my Capricorn and avoid to be a weirdo or freak her up.
So after a lot of years I retook contact with her because I wanted to apologize with her because I'm the past for lies from others, she ended getting mad at me for something I didn't have nothing to do and would take my distance for very long.
So we retook contact and was fine and good but something I have notice is that when chatting sometimes she won't answer more questions or keep the conversation going, so I would let her days to do her stuff and all that.
I know many would say but she is just disrespecting you and doesn't care , but I know her besides hating social medias and all that, she hasn't been doing great as well since her cat die some weeks ago, even thought it was a lot of years without contact I decided to help a little even thought she was surprised and say that she would repay me as soon as possible, I say it was allright that she would have done the same if I would be on difficulty.
Last week she have a fall down and posted some stuff about her cat, so we chatted a bit and she told me about the cats she has lost and even thought many hate sensibility , I somehow find this cute and give me more understanding of her.
Eventually I made an acrostic poem of her cat name with each letter, I don't know if it was cringe or bad , or that she simply read it and push the difficulties she got on the week.
The thing is that I didn't got an answer and I understand that she has been dealing with a lot, week has been busy for both of us.
But I don't know I'm thinking to write her seeing that tomorrow is Sunday and everybody got free but I don't want to be annoying or feel clingy to her.
Sooo capricorns, what should I do? What you people think is going on?
She hasn't answer many times in the past but I don't take it personally and let her be, she doesn't really write me first before except a few times with a greeting with a lot of exclamations marks hahaha.
I just don't want for her to lose interest, neither to feel alone and misunderstood in those difficult times.
She has told me that she doesn't feel understood about the situation of her cat with her family and she wrote me about it.
Sometimes in afraid to say the wrong thing because I feel like walking in a glass bridge that could break at anytime.

Saltpyre from vermintide insists they are beastman who worship a different god, and while the details in the poem where the skaven are first mention doom of Kavzar is intentionally vague we do know two things.
When all remaining survivors of the disaster in their despair turn to chaos, offering human sacrifices and performing rituals to seek aid from the chaos gods nothing happens… with the screaming bell hinted at being the cause. Shortly after the skaven appear out of nowhere and claim to be the lords of the city and all the dwarfs below are dead with the new skaven lords ruling below in their hold.
Whoever wrote this poem was probably either there or had spoken with the survivors who fled before the very end, so not everyone is being included in this account which may have been altered over the years. What if some of the human survivors had become something else?
Assuming the horned rat didn’t exist before the doom of Kavzar then someone in the poem probably becomes the horned rat and who better than the mysterious grey man who fooled them all? All of Kavzar problems started when he finished the tower with a addition of his own god, himself! (Probably) The events of the poem happen slowly at first with endless rain causing a famine snowballing into meteor showers as more people die from starvation. The screaming bell block the aid of good and evil leaving the horned rat in control?
Imagine this situation the logical answer to your food problems were stealing and cannibalism, which would have the group kick you out so lies and deceit became your trade. Whether it was gradual or sudden chaos infesting the city would have turned you into a form that best represents these traits, a rat.
Ironically these ratman would then really be the lords of the city with the black hunger that makes then ravenous a constant reminder of their sins. As far as ratman are concerned everyone in the city still belongs to them and the dwarfs refusal to help earlier and belief they were hoarding halls filled with food made these new ratman attack them and by the time they appear in the poem have likely killed all the dwarfs and eaten whatever food stores were left.
Some among them were probably chosen by the horned rat hearing his voice perhaps for showing particular cunning or because they held power as lords of Kavzar becoming over time grey seers acting on a great plan, a vermintide! But as soon as the poem ends with all remaining humans dead and eaten no food would have cause a civil war that would have destroyed any accounts made by the ratman on the doom of Kavzar and all their education and technology to be lost as most rats don’t care about history. With the horned rat plans constantly failing due to the nature of a rat… Even the name skaven is likely given to them by other races and since be adopted as if they called themselves anything else it would have soon been lost and forgotten in the constant infighting and civil wars, again most rats don’t care about history.
This is my favourite but not the only possibility, they were always rats in the city, maybe they mutated into bigger rats? Children were born deformed maybe maturing quickly into full grown skaven? But these aren’t as twisted as mine, making the choice rather then the choice being made for you is always more interesting… that the people of Kazar in their vanity to touch the heavens fell literally into a hellhole of their own making!
P.s sry for the length of this post but wanted to clue you in on the key parts doom of Kavzar for those who hadn’t read it I have a post somewhere with the full story! Having the skaven being once human implies even they can be redeemed? It also is a warning that humans are more capable of cruelty than any other race in warhammer… on a bad day….

Greetings Guardians (and potential future TSOLites)!
I’m Stevie and I’m an admin here at The Servants Of Light. We are a broad group of gamers and friends who like to hang out, chat and play games, sometimes even Destiny. Take a moment to read through our little recruitment post here and see if you think that our little corner of the internet is somewhere you would like to call home.

The Essentials

System: PC - All platforms are welcome thanks to crossplay. But please make sure you have a way to chat with us over discord as that's how we arrange everything.
Region: We are primarily based in the UK. We have a fair few EU members and even 1 or 2 on other timezones. We don't really recommend signing up if you are US based as you will likely miss out on alot of our events and fun things due to the time difference. (sorry)
Active Times: You will usually find us active from late afternoon/early evening and sticking around toward midnight.
Rules Summary: Our rules boil down to not being an idiot or a bigot. We love to joke around with each other but we do not tolerate hate. No homophobia, sexism, racism or any kind of gender or religious attacks. We are a welcoming place for all people but if you harbour distaste for anyone for just existing as their true self, you don't belong with us.

Who Are The Servants Of Light?

About Us: So, The Servants Of Light (or TSOL [tee-sol] for short) started out as another Destiny 2 clan made to give a few people a way to earn some extra rewards and group up easier. Over the past 5 years we have grown and evolved into so much more. Destiny is, of course, a big part of what we do and who we are, but I think that what makes TSOL special is everything else we get up to. From just talking to each other in the general chat, debating silly things like what counts as a sandwich all the way to all our events. We have fortnightly Game Nights, Movie Nights and a special raid night known as Raid Roulette. We also like to do bigger events throughout the year, the biggest of which is our end of year BONANZA! A huge gameshow style event where we like to dress up all fancy, announce the winners of our community voted awards and challenge you to various themed rounds with a prize on offer. We even have a yearly meetup for those so inclined towards in-person interaction.As for our general focuses for within Destiny, we do a little bit of everything. I would probably say we are a much more PvE leaning clan, we have teams going for clears on contest mode (and may have a space or two open for the next one if you are into that kind of thing and get along with us), we do GM’s and raids every season and aren’t scared off by legend difficulty activities. PvP wise, we have a few guardians who jump into things like trials regularly but for most of us PvP is an ‘as and when’ kind of activity, stacking 6 in iron banner is always fun though.No activity is mandatory and we really just want to play the game we love with people we like, in whatever form that takes. (NOTICE: If Gambit is your favourite gamemode then you will be judged for it but not penalised)

The Testimonials

Not something you see much of in your average recruitment post but I asked some of our current members as well as some friends of the clan to give a little insight into what people really think of the clan named TSOL.
NebulaAndi (our clan leader): "TSOL was created as a place for people to come together and hang out, not just play destiny. It has blossomed into something I'm incredibly proud of, and has fostered some amazing friendships and memories. I've watched many of our longer-standing members grow, and everyone continues to welcome new people with open arms. We've got so many things going on - day one raids, movie nights, and we even had our second irl meetup last year which was incredible. I love these guys with all my heart, and despite them forcing me at gunpoint to write this, I know they'll welcome you too."
Lucasacul (one of our mods): “If you are looking for the funniest, kindest and most helpful clan in Destiny 2 then join us here at The Servants of Light. This is not a cult”
Weiland: "very welcoming group of people, almost always down to run stuff/help people out."
Rapideagle147: "It's a clan full of muppets"
Havelock: "TSOL is a really welcoming, friendly and diverse clan and absolutely not a cult. Brilliantly social not just playing Destiny but having DnD, Minecraft, games/film nights and solid definitely not cultist chat."
Kenny: “A clan so good, you’ll kill your old clan just for the chance with them”
DT: "I used to hate destiny 2 the video game with a passion, now I hate destiny 2 the video game with a passion, but with friends."
Evey: "TSOL - A Haiku Sherpa'd my first raid, Then soon became dearest friends: This weird clan is great!"
Sheep: “TSOL is a fantasic clan, who really go out of their way to be welcoming and inclusive to anyone that joins. Destiny with them is always fun and there's a great community where anyone will try to help with whatever you want which just makes destiny, even when it's not fun, just that little bit more enjoyable”
Nuggets: "excited monkey noises"
Athena: "Found TSOL about a year ago and the people here are nothing short of being the weirdest and loveliest folk that I've ever met. There's always something going on in the server, even during the quiet periods of Destiny."
yapX: "TSOL allows you to actually enjoy Destiny 2, a remarkable achievement that Bungie haven't been able to replicate"

How to get involved

Requirements: The only real requirements we have for joining the clan are 1) to use Discord, which is how we communicate with everyone and arrange all our activities. It's also where you can chat to your clanmates and have fun. 2) follow the rules. The full rules list is in our server for you to read through.
How to: So, if you somehow made it through all that and still think that this is a clan you would like to check out, add or shoot me a DM over on Discord (indigostevie) and I'll get you sorted. If you wanna jump in the server and get to know us a little before you join the in game clan, that's fine too, same deal.
I love this clan with all my heart. They are some of the best friends I've ever known. I hope you like us too :)
https://www.bungie.net/en/ClanV2/Index?groupId=3541785 (we will not accept join requests without a message to an Admin just FYI)

Greetings Guardians (and potential future TSOLites)!
I’m Stevie and I’m an admin here at The Servants Of Light. We are a broad group of gamers and friends who like to hang out, chat and play games, sometimes even Destiny. Take a moment to read through our little recruitment post here and see if you think that our little corner of the internet is somewhere you would like to call home.

The Essentials

System: PC - All platforms are welcome thanks to crossplay. But please make sure you have a way to chat with us over discord as that's how we arrange everything.
Region: We are primarily based in the UK. We have a fair few EU members and even 1 or 2 on other timezones. We don't really recommend signing up if you are US based as you will likely miss out on alot of our events and fun things due to the time difference. (sorry)
Active Times: You will usually find us active from late afternoon/early evening and sticking around toward midnight.
Rules Summary: Our rules boil down to not being an idiot or a bigot. We love to joke around with each other but we do not tolerate hate. No homophobia, sexism, racism or any kind of gender or religious attacks. We are a welcoming place for all people but if you harbour distaste for anyone for just existing as their true self, you don't belong with us.

Who Are The Servants Of Light?

About Us: So, The Servants Of Light (or TSOL [tee-sol] for short) started out as another Destiny 2 clan made to give a few people a way to earn some extra rewards and group up easier. Over the past 5 years we have grown and evolved into so much more. Destiny is, of course, a big part of what we do and who we are, but I think that what makes TSOL special is everything else we get up to. From just talking to each other in the general chat, debating silly things like what counts as a sandwich all the way to all our events. We have fortnightly Game Nights, Movie Nights and a special raid night known as Raid Roulette. We also like to do bigger events throughout the year, the biggest of which is our end of year BONANZA! A huge gameshow style event where we like to dress up all fancy, announce the winners of our community voted awards and challenge you to various themed rounds with a prize on offer. We even have a yearly meetup for those so inclined towards in-person interaction.As for our general focuses for within Destiny, we do a little bit of everything. I would probably say we are a much more PvE leaning clan, we have teams going for clears on contest mode (and may have a space or two open for the next one if you are into that kind of thing and get along with us), we do GM’s and raids every season and aren’t scared off by legend difficulty activities. PvP wise, we have a few guardians who jump into things like trials regularly but for most of us PvP is an ‘as and when’ kind of activity, stacking 6 in iron banner is always fun though.No activity is mandatory and we really just want to play the game we love with people we like, in whatever form that takes. (NOTICE: If Gambit is your favourite gamemode then you will be judged for it but not penalised)

The Testimonials

Not something you see much of in your average recruitment post but I asked some of our current members as well as some friends of the clan to give a little insight into what people really think of the clan named TSOL.
NebulaAndi (our clan leader): "TSOL was created as a place for people to come together and hang out, not just play destiny. It has blossomed into something I'm incredibly proud of, and has fostered some amazing friendships and memories. I've watched many of our longer-standing members grow, and everyone continues to welcome new people with open arms. We've got so many things going on - day one raids, movie nights, and we even had our second irl meetup last year which was incredible. I love these guys with all my heart, and despite them forcing me at gunpoint to write this, I know they'll welcome you too."
Lucasacul (one of our mods): “If you are looking for the funniest, kindest and most helpful clan in Destiny 2 then join us here at The Servants of Light. This is not a cult”
Weiland: "very welcoming group of people, almost always down to run stuff/help people out."
Rapideagle147: "It's a clan full of muppets"
Havelock: "TSOL is a really welcoming, friendly and diverse clan and absolutely not a cult. Brilliantly social not just playing Destiny but having DnD, Minecraft, games/film nights and solid definitely not cultist chat."
Kenny: “A clan so good, you’ll kill your old clan just for the chance with them”
DT: "I used to hate destiny 2 the video game with a passion, now I hate destiny 2 the video game with a passion, but with friends."
Evey: "TSOL - A Haiku Sherpa'd my first raid, Then soon became dearest friends: This weird clan is great!"
Sheep: “TSOL is a fantasic clan, who really go out of their way to be welcoming and inclusive to anyone that joins. Destiny with them is always fun and there's a great community where anyone will try to help with whatever you want which just makes destiny, even when it's not fun, just that little bit more enjoyable”
Nuggets: "excited monkey noises"
Athena: "Found TSOL about a year ago and the people here are nothing short of being the weirdest and loveliest folk that I've ever met. There's always something going on in the server, even during the quiet periods of Destiny."
yapX: "TSOL allows you to actually enjoy Destiny 2, a remarkable achievement that Bungie haven't been able to replicate"

How to get involved

Requirements: The only real requirements we have for joining the clan are 1) to use Discord, which is how we communicate with everyone and arrange all our activities. It's also where you can chat to your clanmates and have fun. 2) follow the rules. The full rules list is in our server for you to read through.
How to: So, if you somehow made it through all that and still think that this is a clan you would like to check out, add or shoot me a DM over on Discord (indigostevie) and I'll get you sorted. If you wanna jump in the server and get to know us a little before you join the in game clan, that's fine too, same deal.
I love this clan with all my heart. They are some of the best friends I've ever known. I hope you like us too :)
https://www.bungie.net/en/ClanV2/Index?groupId=3541785 (we will not accept join requests without a message to an Admin just FYI)

im ramos , and interested to chat with new people or make new friends . im a tranquil , quiet , and awkward person .. but ill always be 100% genuine about being me and to others . my interests are meditation , reading (books , mangas , and poems ! ) , listening to music ( i mostly listen to instrumentals and pluggnb beats but my playlist is really diverse when i wanna listen to songs with lyrics in them ) , going to parks and enjoying nature , and taking breaks off my phone :,) . ive been braindead for a bit with nothing much going through my head but ill offer my time and bring what i have to offer to the conversations :”D . to be honest , i hate messaging on reddit just because my reddit is so glitched and wont load at all , so i do prefer imessage ( numbers ) , and i do also have whatsapp and discord for communication as well if giving numbers is too uncomfortable . if not then ill try my best with this app haha .

Hi, I wasn't able to find this guide so here you go. Disclaimer 1: Yup, "nothing new" for game experts here, it's a guide for newbies or those who doesn't remember all the details. Disclaimer 2: Please, read carefully. If it says "don't touch any mobs, just run" it literally means it. Disclaimer 3: This guide is made for Gracia Final with rates x1, but probably is applicable for Epilogue and H5 too.
Our goal here is to complete these ~10 quests as fast as possible, so every detail can be crucial. This guide is made for EO (Elven Oracle), coz it's the easiest and the fastest quest for 1st profession. But it will more or less work for all the races except Dark Elves (DE can make even more money with it's chain of quests, but not that fast).
So, let's start:

1. You've created an Elven Mystic and is standing under the beautiful tree. DON'T touch any gremlins or NPC here, just click on SOE to Kamael Village. Talk to Newbie Guide and now you are lvl 2, congratulations!
   
2. Run to the southern (there is "N" on your minimap in top right corner of the screen, works like a compass) exit. Talk to Marcela and take a quest Supply Check. Visit a couple of NPC in village and now you are lvl 5 with wooden set in your bag. Wear helmet, boots and gloves, ignore BP and gaiters.
   
3. Run to Newbie Guide and become lvl 6. Take buffs and a shadow staff with a coupon. Place spiritshots on shortcuts bar and equip a staff.
   
4. Run to Marcela again and take a quest Head of the Hill. Find a Gatekeeper Ragara on a city square and teleport to Stronghold I. Run to the south, find Green Goblin or Werewolf. Kill them until you receive 1 (one) claw. After you get it use SOE to Kamael Village, go to Marcela to report the quest. In dialogue choose "exchange for Adena" - "Say no".
   
5. Run to Newbie Guide (yeah, again). Talk to him and become lvl 10. Choose "Teleport to another village" - "Elven Village" (Note! If you made another a character of another race on this step you need to go to your home village and complete analogue quest for your race).
   
6. Talk to Sentinel Kendell next to the Gatekeeper. Take a quest Skirmish with the orcs. You receive "Kendell's N order" here N will mean the orc you need to kill. Now go google "kaboo orc map" and find a map with all the numbers. According to that map run to find quest monster you are told to kill. Kill it and use Adventurer's SOE. Speak to Kendell again and that lazy ass sends you to kill another one quest orc, so find the new number on the map run/tp to it and kill. Return to Kendell, report the quest and become lvl 11.
   
7. By the Gatekeeper near go to Talking Island Village. On the central square talk to Newbie Guide - now you are lvl 15. Talk to Elias near to take a quest Cure for fever disease. Go to Gatekeeper and teleport to Talking Island, Northern territory. Kill Giant Spiders till you get Poison Sac. Use SOE, go to church, talk to Priest Yohanes about the quest. Go back to Elias, report the quest.
   

Important! If you had to kill to much spiders or didn't listen to instructions and killed more mobs and now you are lvl 16 - sorry, but you need to die. Nothing personal, but you need to be lvl 15 to go on.

1. Talk to Newbie Guide and become lvl 18. Ask for support magic again. Go to Gatekeeper - tp to Gludin - tp to Gludio. Go to church.
   
2. Talk to Priest Manuel. Learn some skills (at least Weapon Mastery, Armour Mastery, Battle Heal, Wind strike. Talk to him again, take a quest Path of the Elven Oracle. (Again, if you aren't Elven Mystic do the quest you need to get the 1st profession).
   
3. Talk to Gatekeeper - tp to Gludin. Run to Gludin Harbour. You can open in-game map, click "Tracking", choose the quest and it will show you the exact position of needed NPC. Talk to Allana, kill 3 mobs that appear after it. Talk to her again.
   
4. Run to the lighthouse on the hill behind the harbour (map - tracking). Talk to Perrin. Kill the ogre, talk to Perrin again. Return to Allana
   
5. Use SOE to Kamael Village. Go talk with the Gatekeeper - tp to Gludio - talk to Priest Manuel in church to report the quest. Talk to High Priest in church about the first class transfer - Oracle - Change the profession. Learn more skills, if you want.
   
6. Talk to Gatekeeper - tp to Dark Elven Village. Find Carlon in warehouse, take a quest Dwarven Kinship.
   
7. Talk to Gatekeeper - tp to Gludio. Find Haprock in warehouse. In quest dialogue choose "Say you will do the favor".
   
8. Gatekeeper - Gludin - Norman in warehouse, report the quest.
   
9. Gatekeeper - tp to Orc village. In the left wing of the King's Hall Talk to seer Livina, take a quest Walk of Fate.
   
10. Gatekeeper - Schuttgart. Go to Orc Guild, talk to seer Moira, take a quest Ominous News.
    
11. Gatekeeper - Crypts of Disgrace. Report both quests to Karuda. Now you are lvl 21 (if you aren't - kill a couple of monsters there around to become 21). SOE to Kamael Village. Gatekeeper - Elven Village.
    
12. Talk to Sentinel Starden on the western exit, take a quest Legacy of the Poet.
    
13. Talk to Trader Creamees in Grocery Store, take a quest Blood Fiend.
    
14. Gatekeeper - Elven Fortress (not forest). Run into the fortress and in first two rooms kill orcs until you get four poems.
    
15. Now you will need to run bravely and unstoppably through the whole fortress (use healing potions if needed) to the last room to find there quest monster Kinurak and kill it (google the quest to find the way if you are not sure where exactly to run). There are guards near to it but if you stand on the max range from it you should be able to kill it before guards reach you about your expired warranty. After killing Kinurak you can fight guards or die and stand to to village. If you are a great warrior and have won - use SoE. Report those 2 quest ti NPCs you got them from.
    

Now you have +/- 277k Adena. You can sell all the things from your bag to get another ~30k (don't sell EAD, enchant scroll, you'll probably need it later).
Thanks for your attention. AMA if needed.

im ramos , and interested to chat with new people or make new friends . im a tranquil , quiet , and awkward person .. but ill always be 100% genuine about being me and to others . my interests are meditation , reading (books , mangas , and poems ! ) , listening to music ( i mostly listen to instrumentals and pluggnb beats but my playlist is really diverse when i wanna listen to songs with lyrics in them ) , going to parks and enjoying nature , and taking breaks off my phone :,) . ive been braindead for a bit with nothing much going through my head but ill offer my time and bring what i have to offer to the conversations :”D . to be honest , i hate messaging on reddit just because my reddit is so glitched and wont load at all , so i do prefer imessage ( numbers ) , and i do also have whatsapp and discord for communication as well if giving numbers is too uncomfortable . if not then ill try my best with this app haha .

Greetings Guardians (and potential future TSOLites)!
I’m Stevie and I’m an admin here at The Servants Of Light. We are a broad group of gamers and friends who like to hang out, chat and play games, sometimes even Destiny. Take a moment to read through our little recruitment post here and see if you think that our little corner of the internet is somewhere you would like to call home.

The Essentials

System: PC - All platforms are welcome thanks to crossplay. But please make sure you have a way to chat with us over discord as that's how we arrange everything.
Region: We are primarily based in the UK. We have a fair few EU members and even 1 or 2 on other timezones. We don't really recommend signing up if you are US based as you will likely miss out on alot of our events and fun things due to the time difference. (sorry)
Active Times: You will usually find us active from late afternoon/early evening and sticking around toward midnight.
Rules Summary: Our rules boil down to not being an idiot or a bigot. We love to joke around with each other but we do not tolerate hate. No homophobia, sexism, racism or any kind of gender or religious attacks. We are a welcoming place for all people but if you harbour distaste for anyone for just existing as their true self, you don't belong with us.

Who Are The Servants Of Light?

About Us: So, The Servants Of Light (or TSOL [tee-sol] for short) started out as another Destiny 2 clan made to give a few people a way to earn some extra rewards and group up easier. Over the past 5 years we have grown and evolved into so much more. Destiny is, of course, a big part of what we do and who we are, but I think that what makes TSOL special is everything else we get up to. From just talking to each other in the general chat, debating silly things like what counts as a sandwich all the way to all our events. We have fortnightly Game Nights, Movie Nights and a special raid night known as Raid Roulette. We also like to do bigger events throughout the year, the biggest of which is our end of year BONANZA! A huge gameshow style event where we like to dress up all fancy, announce the winners of our community voted awards and challenge you to various themed rounds with a prize on offer. We even have a yearly meetup for those so inclined towards in-person interaction. As for our general focuses for within Destiny, we do a little bit of everything. I would probably say we are a much more PvE leaning clan, we have teams going for clears on contest mode (and may have a space or two open for the next one if you are into that kind of thing and get along with us), we do GM’s and raids every season and aren’t scared off by legend difficulty activities. PvP wise, we have a few guardians who jump into things like trials regularly but for most of us PvP is an ‘as and when’ kind of activity, stacking 6 in iron banner is always fun though. No activity is mandatory and we really just want to play the game we love with people we like, in whatever form that takes. (NOTICE: If Gambit is your favourite gamemode then you will be judged for it but not penalised)

The Testimonials

Not something you see much of in your average recruitment post but I asked some of our current members as well as some friends of the clan to give a little insight into what people really think of the clan named TSOL.
NebulaAndi (our clan leader): "TSOL was created as a place for people to come together and hang out, not just play destiny. It has blossomed into something I'm incredibly proud of, and has fostered some amazing friendships and memories. I've watched many of our longer-standing members grow, and everyone continues to welcome new people with open arms. We've got so many things going on - day one raids, movie nights, and we even had our second irl meetup last year which was incredible. I love these guys with all my heart, and despite them forcing me at gunpoint to write this, I know they'll welcome you too."
Lucasacul (one of our mods): “If you are looking for the funniest, kindest and most helpful clan in Destiny 2 then join us here at The Servants of Light. This is not a cult”
Weiland: "very welcoming group of people, almost always down to run stuff/help people out."
Rapideagle147: "It's a clan full of muppets"
Havelock: "TSOL is a really welcoming, friendly and diverse clan and absolutely not a cult. Brilliantly social not just playing Destiny but having DnD, Minecraft, games/film nights and solid definitely not cultist chat."
Kenny: “A clan so good, you’ll kill your old clan just for the chance with them”
DT: "I used to hate destiny 2 the video game with a passion, now I hate destiny 2 the video game with a passion, but with friends."
Evey: "TSOL - A Haiku Sherpa'd my first raid, Then soon became dearest friends: This weird clan is great!"
Sheep: “TSOL is a fantasic clan, who really go out of their way to be welcoming and inclusive to anyone that joins. Destiny with them is always fun and there's a great community where anyone will try to help with whatever you want which just makes destiny, even when it's not fun, just that little bit more enjoyable”
Nuggets: "excited monkey noises"
Athena: "Found TSOL about a year ago and the people here are nothing short of being the weirdest and loveliest folk that I've ever met. There's always something going on in the server, even during the quiet periods of Destiny."
yapX: "TSOL allows you to actually enjoy Destiny 2, a remarkable achievement that Bungie haven't been able to replicate"

How to get involved

Requirements: The only real requirements we have for joining the clan are 1) to use Discord, which is how we communicate with everyone and arrange all our activities. It's also where you can chat to your clanmates and have fun. 2) follow the rules. The full rules list is in our server for you to read through.
How to: So, if you somehow made it through all that and still think that this is a clan you would like to check out, add or shoot me a DM over on Discord (indigostevie) and I'll get you sorted. If you wanna jump in the server and get to know us a little before you join the in game clan, that's fine too, same deal.
I love this clan with all my heart. They are some of the best friends I've ever known. I hope you like us too :)
https://www.bungie.net/en/ClanV2/Index?groupId=3541785 (we will not accept join requests without a message to an Admin just FYI)

so , i was in school the other day and it was italian literature class (i live in italy) and we were studying the works of poet Salvatore Quasimodo in particular the poem named "uomo del mio tempo"(man of my time) in which the author talks about how modern man has developed tecnology for war , instead of peace and all that .
and it sparked a thought in me , if you ask anyone if they would ever commit violence aginst another human being (exluding self defense) they would tell you that , no , they wouldn't of course , and then you'd ask them "why?" and they'd respond with "well, because it's wrong"
and i just realised , that i never really thought like that , i always thought about things in the sense that
"well i don't do it because what i can lose is bigger than what i can gain"
and i never really felt a bond with most people , maybe after a breakup , and family members , but friends? no
even know i feel like i only talk to girls to get into a relationship with them , and being friends with boys feels like a huge waste of time , the only male friend i have is online , and he is really one of the few poeple i have a bond with.
i just want to know if this way of thinking is normal

Hi, I wasn't able to find this guide so here you go. Disclaimer 1: Yup, "nothing new" for game experts here, it's a guide for newbies or those who doesn't remember all the details. Disclaimer 2: Please, read carefully. If it says "don't touch any mobs, just run" it literally means it. Disclaimer 3: This guide is made for Gracia Final with rates x1, but probably is applicable for Epilogue and H5 too.
Our goal here is to complete these ~10 quests as fast as possible, so every detail can be crucial. This guide is made for EO (Elven Oracle), coz it's the easiest and the fastest quest for 1st profession. But it will more or less work for all the races except Dark Elves (DE can make even more money with it's chain of quests, but not that fast).
So, let's start:

1. You've created an Elven Mystic and is standing under the beautiful tree. DON'T touch any gremlins or NPC here, just click on SOE to Kamael Village. Talk to Newbie Guide and now you are lvl 2, congratulations!
   
2. Run to the southern (there is "N" on your minimap in top right corner of the screen, works like a compass) exit. Talk to Marcela and take a quest Supply Check. Visit a couple of NPC in village and now you are lvl 5 with wooden set in your bag. Wear helmet, boots and gloves, ignore BP and gaiters.
   
3. Run to Newbie Guide and become lvl 6. Take buffs and a shadow staff with a coupon. Place spiritshots on shortcuts bar and equip a staff.
   
4. Run to Marcela again and take a quest Head of the Hill. Find a Gatekeeper Ragara on a city square and teleport to Stronghold I. Run to the south, find Green Goblin or Werewolf. Kill them until you receive 1 (one) claw. After you get it use SOE to Kamael Village, go to Marcela to report the quest. In dialogue choose "exchange for Adena" - "Say no".
   
5. Run to Newbie Guide (yeah, again). Talk to him and become lvl 10. Choose "Teleport to another village" - "Elven Village" (Note! If you made another a character of another race on this step you need to go to your home village and complete analogue quest for your race).
   
6. Talk to Sentinel Kendell next to the Gatekeeper. Take a quest Skirmish with the orcs. You receive "Kendell's N order" here N will mean the orc you need to kill. Now go google "kaboo orc map" and find a map with all the numbers. According to that map run to find quest monster you are told to kill. Kill it and use Adventurer's SOE. Speak to Kendell again and that lazy ass sends you to kill another one quest orc, so find the new number on the map run/tp to it and kill. Return to Kendell, report the quest and become lvl 11.
   
7. By the Gatekeeper near go to Talking Island Village. On the central square talk to Newbie Guide - now you are lvl 15. Talk to Elias near to take a quest Cure for fever disease. Go to Gatekeeper and teleport to Talking Island, Northern territory. Kill Giant Spiders till you get Poison Sac. Use SOE, go to church, talk to Priest Yohanes about the quest. Go back to Elias, report the quest.
   

Important! If you had to kill to much spiders or didn't listen to instructions and killed more mobs and now you are lvl 16 - sorry, but you need to die. Nothing personal, but you need to be lvl 15 to go on.

1. Talk to Newbie Guide and become lvl 18. Ask for support magic again. Go to Gatekeeper - tp to Gludin - tp to Gludio. Go to church.
   
2. Talk to Priest Manuel. Learn some skills (at least Weapon Mastery, Armour Mastery, Battle Heal, Wind strike. Talk to him again, take a quest Path of the Elven Oracle. (Again, if you aren't Elven Mystic do the quest you need to get the 1st profession).
   
3. Talk to Gatekeeper - tp to Gludin. Run to Gludin Harbour. You can open in-game map, click "Tracking", choose the quest and it will show you the exact position of needed NPC. Talk to Allana, kill 3 mobs that appear after it. Talk to her again.
   
4. Run to the lighthouse on the hill behind the harbour (map - tracking). Talk to Perrin. Kill the ogre, talk to Perrin again. Return to Allana
   
5. Use SOE to Kamael Village. Go talk with the Gatekeeper - tp to Gludio - talk to Priest Manuel in church to report the quest. Talk to High Priest in church about the first class transfer - Oracle - Change the profession. Learn more skills, if you want.
   
6. Talk to Gatekeeper - tp to Dark Elven Village. Find Carlon in warehouse, take a quest Dwarven Kinship.
   
7. Talk to Gatekeeper - tp to Gludio. Find Haprock in warehouse. In quest dialogue choose "Say you will do the favor".
   
8. Gatekeeper - Gludin - Norman in warehouse, report the quest.
   
9. Gatekeeper - tp to Orc village. In the left wing of the King's Hall Talk to seer Livina, take a quest Walk of Fate.
   
10. Gatekeeper - Schuttgart. Go to Orc Guild, talk to seer Moira, take a quest Ominous News.
    
11. Gatekeeper - Crypts of Disgrace. Report both quests to Karuda. Now you are lvl 21 (if you aren't - kill a couple of monsters there around to become 21). SOE to Kamael Village. Gatekeeper - Elven Village.
    
12. Talk to Sentinel Starden on the western exit, take a quest Legacy of the Poet.
    
13. Talk to Trader Creamees in Grocery Store, take a quest Blood Fiend.
    
14. Gatekeeper - Elven Fortress (not forest). Run into the fortress and in first two rooms kill orcs until you get four poems.
    
15. Now you will need to run bravely and unstoppably through the whole fortress (use healing potions if needed) to the last room to find there quest monster Kinurak and kill it (google the quest to find the way if you are not sure where exactly to run). There are guards near to it but if you stand on the max range from it you should be able to kill it before guards reach you about your expired warranty. After killing Kinurak you can fight guards or die and stand to to village. If you are a great warrior and have won - use SoE. Report those 2 quest ti NPCs you got them from.
    

Now you have +/- 277k Adena. You can sell all the things from your bag to get another ~30k (don't sell EAD, enchant scroll, you'll probably need it later).
Thanks for your attention. AMA if needed.

This is based off a post I saw somewhere else, and I thought it could make an interesting mental exercise where you'd have to think about what's the most important to you and how your goals would change based on the amount of time you had.
For the sake of this game, you'll know with 100% certainty that you'll be dead after your time allowance is up. There's no "but what if I only think I'll be dead in six months but then I'm not and I fucked up my entire life?" When your time is up, it's up. You'll be dead and won't have to live with the consequences of your actions.
So just for fun (and growth, maybe?) here's mine:
If I had 24 hours to live: Realistically, I'd know I wouldn't be able to accomplish anything of substance, so I'd just focus on pure pleasure. I'd go out and do something fun, maybe go to the nearby theme park in the city I haven't been to in a while or an expensive night club and wear my favorite outfit. I'd eat and drink whatever I wanted, and however much of it I wanted. When I got back home I'd take something to keep me as calm as possible and call/text the people I care about who live far away to let them know I care about them. I'd spend my last hours in bed watching a comfort movie.
If I had a week: I'd go on a road trip with my entire family to somewhere I always wanted to go to, maybe LA or somewhere similar, and spend the rest of my days there. Probably my actions would be pretty similar to the above, I'd just have slightly more time to do bigger things and say goodbye to people in person.
If I had a month: I'd quit my job for sure (for the top two, idk if I'd even bother to formally quit, I'd just stop showing up) and again, probably act fairly similar to above. I might try going to another country like Italy or Japan to see what it was like and try their food, but I don't think I'd want to die there. I'd also try and maybe finish something creative before my death, even if it was just a short story or a few poems.
If I had six months: 100% quitting my job and putting all my energy into finishing my long term writing project and having fun. I'd use my savings and hire a cleaner to come in once a month to take care of boring everyday tasks so I have as few distractions as possible.
If I had a year: Same as above really, but I might also try and experience a brief romance before the end. Probably wouldn't be able to truly fall in love but hopefully I'd at least meet someone cool.
If I had five years: I wouldn't quit my job, but I also try and find something better and something that would be fairly undemanding. I wouldn't be making any big career or life plans, but I would try to write something and get it professionally published before I died. I'd want to leave having made my mark on the world in some significant way.
If I had ten years: I'd probably quit my job ASAP to go back to school, while trying to find a relationship and work on my creative projects when I had free time or after I was done. IMO ten years would be super hard for me because it's long enough to where I'd definitely want to build a life but short enough to where I'd really have to haul ass if I wanted to make that life come to fruition.
If I had twenty years: Honestly, I'd probably be doing exactly what I'm doing now just with even more anxiety lol.
So yeah, feel free to add yours!

To me, making art is about having control on your medium and have intent on how you apply that control.
Each detail of a work of art is thought through, or intentionally left un thought through. This intention is, I think what allows a work of art to be art.
Say you paint a landscape, you can decide to put a tree in one place, and you have control on every tree you place.
Similarly in a poem, you have control on every word you write.
Sometimes, art is also about giving up control, knowing you could control something, but deciding not to, say letting your subconscious decide, letting nature do the work, or deciding to let a mistake show through.
An artist has the same control over their medium whether it is painting, sculpting or photography. The control is different in photography, where you can control the subject and how you shoot it, but you still have control within the rules of the art form. Also, in my opinion, the strength of photography is in capturing the real world, which sets it apart from other art forms.
When generating AI art, you lack control over the medium, having only a prompt to work with.
If you generate a picture of a landscape, you never decided to add a tree in a place, and couldn't generate the same landscape. You can use generative fill tools to change parts of the image, but you will never have true control over what is generated. Unlike photography, you cannot decide on framing, technical details like shutter speed and aperture, you cannot influence the subject, you cannot decide on the time of day or the time of year where you take your photo, and you are not capturing the real world.
This lack of control means you CANNOT have an intent associated with all the details of the resulting image.

No one yet knew how long we lived, but still did they prepare me for a life-long journey. Cheeses and fruits fresh-picked did Our Mother gather to sustain me, and Our Father stowed in woven sacks grain to keep my strength, heaving and strapping barley on our beast's broad back. I looked outwards at the sun setting in its westerly nape, weak in th'numbness of heavy sentence new-laid, when a force struck at my thighs and grasped around my waist. My stomach was in th'dirt, my mouth fined with dust. Above me I saw looming our first father, rock in ready hand, pinning me to th'ground as he raised up his arm to Heaven in twisted invocation, something sick and wicked crinkling in his eyes. Waiting for tight- held stone to shatter my brow, the seconds stretched as centuries, but death stood still. Looking up, the stone and arm that held it sat limp on Adam’s knee as he rose with heavy breath. He reached down his hand, as though to help me rise up to my feet. I held doubts.
"I won't kill you, boy,"
he softly said. after a moment, I took his hand and he then hoisted me upwards. As he spoke he started dusting blotches of earth from my robe.
"No, I won't kill you. It's not a father's place to inherit from the son. I'll let you wander. Let the world do its bloody office. Pity your brother, that he bleeds the fields. Pity your mother, that she mourns two sons,"
his gaze finally meeting mine,
"the better one and you. Don't pity me. As man you bear my shape and name, but you're no son of mine."
His piece then said, he went toward where worm-food Abel lay interred. Ever watchful was Eve. A look half-mad lingered about her eyes as she stood in grief-mute stupor. Maybe by Abel's blood was she made deaf. No matter. I grabbed the halter, starting on my lonesome, weary way. Cresting the hill that would forever stand as sentry between me and home, I couldn't help but look back. There were th'fields from youth I'd tilled. I saw the altar where we made offerings to th'Potter, th'olive tree I had watered with brother's blood. In the midst of it all I saw Our Mother, still where I left her, looking at me. I waved meekly, my arm meeting my side almost as soon as I raised it. She was unmoved. With wavering breath, I turned toward my portion. East had He bid me. East would I then go.

I had an idea a few weeks ago for a poem about Cain after he kills Abel, so that's what this is. I'm a four books into what I think is going to be a five book piece. Just wanted to gauge folk's interest, and would definitely appreciate any constructive criticism. Thanks in advance for reading this monstrosity.
https://www.reddit.com/OCPoetry/comments/1cv3ihc/comment/l4n8uh8/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button
https://www.reddit.com/OCPoetry/comments/1cupdbh/comment/l4neah7/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button

Someone has recently been posting a lot of what I would loosely label surreal dissociative poets--Mehti and Simic, for instance--and it brought to mind a quote a long time ago about modern or contemporary poetry that I can't quite place any more.
The quote was something along the lines of 'modern poetry sounds like two lonely aliens on distant planets trying desperately to communicate with each other'.
While I don't actually agree with the quote, it strikes me as an apt descriptor of the aforementioned modern surreal poets, and I was curious if anyone in the community knew the proper quote. I think it was from a fairly well-known early 20th century American journalist, but I can't place it and Google is giving me bad amateur poems about aliens.
Thanks!

4 years together. 2 living together. I loved him. He didn’t feel the same way I guess. 18 days since we’ve broken up no contact.
fuck you for not answering me. fuck you for leading me on. fuck you. fuck you for getting that one last fuck in. fuck you for letting me believe we were still gonna be friends. fuck you for being okay. fuck you. fuck you flr never defending me. fuck uou for everything you did during the relationship. fuck you. fuck you. i was never going to be enough for you. i was never going to be what you so dreamed of. no matter what i was never going to be it for you? you were it for me. fuck you for pretending like you loved me. fuck you for letting me believe a lie for years. fuck you. fuck you. fuck you for not moving to Victoria. never ballsy enough to end it but to let me live in misery. fuck you for being miserable with me. fuck you nathan. i hope one day you see this and think about how much you miss me. i hope you think back and realized that i loved you so hard and raw. i hope you realize what you did. i would’ve never slept with you or stayed with u for that night knowing you had no intention of continuing it. fuck you. fuck you. you let me believe you still loved me. you let me have hope for having you in my life. fuck you for everything you did. fuck you for letting me love you. fuck you for the way you handled this breakup. fuck you. fuck you. fuck you. fuck you for never being there for me. fuck you for letting me cry myself to sleep next you to after i got diagnosed. i made you dinner after i got literal chemo. i had spots on my brain. you didn’t even hold me after. you were not there for me. you let me sob and didn’t even look me in hen eye. fuck you. fuck you. i tried to be a cool girl with you. I will never be cool enough. did i ever mean anything to you? was i just a body to keep you company? how can you just be fine? fuck you for wrecking my college experience. fuck you for pretending to love me. how could you love me and still be okay? fuck you for not wishing me a happy birthday. fuck you for never being vulnerable. fuck you for letting me believe i was worth anything to you. fuck u for becoming this twisted villain. i wish i could go back and erase you. i wish you never dated me. i would never have to feel like this. i would never have to be this alone. fuck uou for not trying. i begged you to love me. i begged to be enough. i sobbed to you BEGGING for a change. i beg and beg and beg and you never verbalized anything. i made you love letters, playlists, poems. i planned our future. you played video games. i am pretty, fun, funny. i am kind. i am a good person, and you destroyed me. do you hear me telling you that? you wrecked me. you took my spark and ate it. you took my beauty and stomped on it. you never said or with your words but your actions. i was worthless to you. i wasn’t even worth making dinner or a date. i wasn’t worth dinner to you. I would’ve been your wife. I would’ve been your wife. I would’ve been your wife. do you hear that? i would’ve started a life with you. actually, i did! i derailed my life for someone who couldn’t even make me fucking dinner. do you feel like a man now? do feel like one of the boys now? fuck you. how can i be friends with a man that so blanatly doesn’t care about me? respect me? did you ever? and now you’re gonna go on and paint me the villain, but i think we both know how hard i loved you. remember when i asked you if you thought we were soulmates? you said you didn’t believe in soulmates. neither did i but my love for you was so intense i started too. your love for me was so dull you can just throw me away. i fell so madly in love with you for so long and you thought i was just fine. i was nothing to you. i was just to keep you company? better than being alone? the most sick and twisted part is i do wish you the best. i want you to live a good life and fall in love and feel so much love. i want you to be okay, just wish you could’ve missed me like i miss you. if only for a little while i wish you couldve loved me like i loved you. i want you to have a wife and kids and the life you deserve, i just wish it could’ve been me. i wish i could’ve been enough for you. you loved me like a first love, but you weren’t my first, just my best. this was puppy love for you, but this was soul crushing intense love for me. you’re never supposed to read this, so if you are i on a whim decided to send it. you can take it however you want. you can paint me however you see fit, but just so you know i loved (love) you. i still crave your skin, your mind, your hair. i think i might forever. you hurt me. you hurt me so deep. i feel used. maybe im angry, or depressed, or maybe i just feel disgusted by how much of myself i gave you. you told me we would continue to see each other after (if only to be friends, or maybe more) but you looked me in the eyes and promised we would still see each other, so we had sex. so i continued to be vulnerable with you. but you never intended to stay friends with me or continue hanging out. you just wanted one last fuck. we had sex better than we have in months. is it because you knew it would be the last time? when you dropped off my stuff you kept the car running. im not even worth it to stop a minute? im not worth a hug goodbye? im completely worthless to you. you never even listened to the playlist i made you. how could i expect you to love me? how could i expect you respect me? how could i expect anything at all? i don’t know how to be a person anymore. you never looked at the posts i sent you. you never wanted to go out. you never wanted me. you never wanted me. you never wanted me. i don’t understand how you can just be ok. im sick to my stomach. everytime something happens i just want to call you. i just want to hear ur voice. i just want to see your face. i know you never want to see me again and it’s so hard. the worst part is i don’t hate you at all. i love you so much. why didn’t you love me? how am i ever going to be okay again? how am i ever going to live with this constant pit in my stomach. how can you not want me back? how can you possibly be ok right now? why wasn’t i good enough for you? how are you still laughing and being funny and having a good time? why didn’t you wish me a happy birthday? why don’t you miss me ? why don’t you miss me? why don’t you miss me?