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2024.02.06 23:11 History_Explained An introduction + trying to get out of 10 year long addiction
Hello! Recently I have learnt about this place, and I thought abot bringing my own contribution (M, 21). I am sorry for the fact this text is so long, but it was an attempt at documenting my fight with porn addiction though 10 years, and how it began for someone as young as 11-12 at the time.
(Warning, this is going to be a long post; I tried adding a bit of a TL;DR at the end as general outline for how things evolved)
How it all started
About 10 years ago, I was still a naïve elementary school student. Up until that moment, I used to believe that sex was a pagan activity only pagans would do (I was still a very religious person), as I was not aware yet where children come from. However, one day as I was reading an all-ages encyclopedia, my mind finally made the connection, and suddenly understood what sexuality is. I did not learn anything about that in school, as the topic is still extremely taboo in Romania, and my parents did not want to talk about such a topic, be it out of shame or hesitation to explain. At that moment, something sparked – sex was no longer that bad thing I used to believe, but suddenly started sounding like the coolest thing there is. And the lack of education, combined with personal shyness to ask, would trigger a series on unfortunate developments at a very important stage in growing up.
A bit more on education
I would not say this been the greatest factor, as in “had I been better educated, I would have avoided developing such an addiction”, but I would say it did play a role in it. In Romania, let’s just say any forma of sexual education is absent in schools or high schools. Besides complete lack of sex education in Romanian schools, each time someone comes to propose such a course, there is a constant moral panic, and parents march along with the Orthodox Church under the idea that such education “will corrupt the children” and “will encourage them to have even more sex”. Probably the most frustrating moment happened in middle school. At the Anatomy course, the course book had an entire, 25 pages long chapter dedicated to the topic of human conception, growth, development and advice in preventing any possible problems that could come up with sexuality, all presented in a decent manner. However, at that course, we have completely skipped the chapter, and the teacher never brought it up. Only in the last course of the year, they have remembered that “oh yeah we have this chapter as well”, and presented to us a 30 minutes half-assed explanation of everything which could be very easily summed up as “just use a condom”. From that moment on, the discussion was not brought up again; especially as in high school, I followed Humanities, where we barely studied any bit of science (in a course that covered superficially general Biology, Chemistry and Physics). Probably the most I learnt about the human body in high school was when I was assigned to make a presentation on contraception methods. I still wish we had that chapter studied, and I find it a real shame that there is a constant pushback in even trying to educate children on such an important topic, even at an elementary topic.
Development + first stop
Not long after that realization, I somehow managed to learn on my own how to masturbate, following some experimentation. I say “somehow” because I did not have access to any sort of source where I could learn from about it. As time went on, I started feeling more and more looking to satiate my newly discovered curiosity. Therefore, I started pointing my fapping towards different things that would be provocative. First thing that fell to my hands was books with nude paintings. Those images were enough to make me feel excited, as for me, “a naked woman was a naked woman”, no matter the media form. From there, I started following regular films on TV, waiting for the softcore scenes (I was not ready yet for anything extreme). Everything in this phase lasted about 2 years. However, one evening, my lack of awareness ended up with me being caught by my parents. Following a 1-hour long interrogation from which I will never forget the image of my mother crying, I remained with strong trauma that I still have to some degree even today. “If only you were older, we would have understood…” (I was 13 at the time). Due to the events of that evening, I completely stopped masturbating for a whole year. However, that was not to last…
The return
Through that one year, despite not masturbating, I was still actively looking through films and waiting for the softcore scenes to appear. At the same time, I have also discovered erotic films, due to them being aired on TV. Romanian television was odd at the time – on some of the general public/”must-carry” channels, after 11 PM, they would start broadcasting porn and erotic films and shows, or “documentaries” about the “behind the scenes” of the porn industry. (All of these things would disappear eventually) My first contact with an actual porn film was very shocking. The first reaction was one of repulse, and wanting to switch the channel as quickly as I could. I was not yet a victim of fully consuming the “adult entertainment” industry. In that time, I did not stay idle. I was always looking to find a creative way of pleasuring myself while watching such films or shows, and eventually I just got back to fapping, still as a secret activity.
Things are going online
For most of my childhood, I grew without access to the internet. I started using the internet in the 5th grade, mostly for school, and only got my first smartphone just before I entered high school. Fast-forward a few years later, the TV in my room was gone after moving around some furniture (at that moment, I just felt I no longer wanted to watch TV, so that was not too much of a loss). However, I was about to go on my next step towards porn addiction. I started using my phone more and more often, as I was making accounts on different online platforms. One of those platforms was Pinterest. I can still remember one night that I got an email from Pinterest recommending me new pins (despite the fact at the time I did not have any pin of my own), and all of those pins were photos of naked women, of more or less pornographic nature. At the time, Pinterest was still plagued with an extreme amount of such images, and entire accounts specialized in posting them. Until that moment, I did not have proper contact with photos outside of a random Playboy magazine cover and perhaps some joke postcards you could buy at the seaside. I was extremely hooked by what I saw, and from that moment, I wanted more of it. As I started using Pinterest more and more, I also discovered that people who were following my pins were either posting porn on their accounts, or were subscribed to other channels posting porn. Pinterest did give me a moment of shock and disgust though. During one of the sessions, I ended up coming at one video that ended up with the woman undressing being a hermaphrodite. I was so shocked I did something like that, wanting not start liking such content, that I stopped masturbating for two weeks.
Danbooru & hentai
After more than half a year of staying in lockdown due to “2020 being 2020”, I started finding new interests and franchises to follow. One of these was Touhou. At the time, due to me liking drawings and fanart of that series, I started looking up for more. Moreover, one day, I had the misfortune of stumbling upon the image board website Danbooru. Seeing the characters, I used to like from that series perverted and put into all kinds of sexualized situations was yet another shock for me. I was not familiar with the world of lewd fanart, and still found such a concept to be repulsive and in bad taste. Until finding out that website, I could not really conceive the idea of going after or seeing so much explicit material related to the thing, you like. One of my friends pretty much decided to get me into a "drunk watch of Star Wars R34 art/comics", minus the "drunk" part - all I can say is that evening was a little difficult to digest. Skipping a few months after that event, directly to when I found Touhou (so in like December 2020). Just as I drew my first Touhou fanart (seen in the Anime thread), and was asking by this friend why did I draw something with so small boobs. I told him a bit about what Touhou is, showed him a bit of official art, then he asked me what was the name of the character (I showed him an official art sprite of Yuyuko from PCB). Less than a minute later, what is the first thing he decided to show me? A R34 image of Yuyuko - my first taste of such content when it comes to Touhou. I was quite a bit shocked to see it, even if he intended it just as a joke and to get a laugh out of my innocence I still had at the time. Skip about a year later, and my first discovery of Danbooru. Initially, I was not even supposed to be on that website. On Safebooru (an image board platform dedicated to, as the name implies, safe-for-work images), I remarked that by searching "Iku Nagae" (one of my favorite characters at the time) there was nothing. Thinking there was something wrong; I decided to go for other boards. Without paying too much attention, I ended up on her Danbooru page (and realized I had to search it as "Nagae Iku"). What was the first thing that got into my face? Any kind of R18 I could imagine - from nude pose to intercourse (both straight and yuri/lesbian). For a while, I pretty much decided to NOPE out of there, and stayed on Safebooru. However, eventually, I ended up replacing Safebooru with Danbooru. For the past 6 months, I have only using the latter on a daily basis, so in the end I feel like I became desensitized to such kind of content. Therefore, my question when it came to all this research was out of curiosity, not any kind of outrage for the existence of such content. I pretty much went from "I cannot imagine this kind of content existing/I don't really want to be in contact with it or purposefully go after it" to "alright, this exists, I guess [example fitting my mentioned requirements] looks rather neat". Curiosity turned into addiction, and addiction eventually turned into me starting to masturbate to these drawn images. Could things get any worse?
Pinterest Strikes Back
Through the whole Danbooru period, I have been using Pinterest as well. I have discovered more and more of the accounts following me either contained or were following other porn-posting accounts, and so I decided to keep following what is happening. This time, however, I started paying attention to the links some of these image posts had (usually where they came from). That way, I have discovered different websites hosting pornographic content, but a very specific one became my go-to website whenever I was bored and wanted some “fun”. It was one of those “leaked OnlyFans” platforms, with lots of new content daily. At first, I was watching whatever was posted, but at some point I started forming favorites and specific channels I was paying attention to whenever they posted something new. That is how I have been until not so long ago.
Attempt at stopping
By last year, I got into the point in which I was willing to share stuff with other people online, even if I kept it at the level of nude drawings I was finding on Danbooru. At the time, I was still part of a server on Discord in which a part of the people were artists, and a lot of them were drawing NSFW art (although I did not like most of their works). That encourages me further to share drawings with others. I was not doing that to anyone random though, but was asking first of they were OK with me doing it. I did do that with a friend for about a week. Only after week though, I got a message from him asking me to stop, despite the fact just not long ago he enjoyed it. That person told me that the liked the art, but wanted to stop because I have accidentally reactivated their own porn addiction. On one hand, I felt outraged he did not tell me earlier, moment at which I could have stopped. On the other hand, I felt sad for having caused harm to him, and started realizing that I might have a problem. For a few days afterwards, and with a strong sense of guilt, I stopped watching NSFW art and other media, and stopped fapping.
That was not going to last though, as soon after I got back to it. I have tried stopping on a few occasions, but I could never stop for longer than 5-7 days (I also had periods in which for a full week I may have not a need to fap, but that did not remove the tendency to watch NSFW content). For me, someone at the age of 21, who never had sex or even had a girlfriend (which many people asked me about back in high school as why have I never done that), the feeling of loneliness did not let me get out of my addiction, and thought it was a way to cope with it until things would magically “fix” for me. The temptation for photos, short videos and drawings of beautiful women was too high. I also used to have some rules of content consumption, those rules being 1) no drawings/photos/videos depicting intercourse (so only women as I did not want to see any man), 2) no exaggerated proportions / unrealistic proportions, 3) nothing in which one or both of the characters look like children. In time, outside rule 3), the first two have been first warped, and then broken to various degrees just because the thrill was no longer the same. However, things could get worse. The more I was staying like this, consuming content, the more I was looking for the real thing.
Despite the fact I am only 21, I was starting to grow concerned that if I do not do something soon, I will be too old to be able to enjoy sex and I will believe either my partner or myself will look too old and ugly. I had the wrong concept that if people are no longer in their early 20s, someone already becomes “expired” and no longer attractive (I never understood the appeal of MILFs, despite knowing people that seemed to like that sort of stuff). Meanwhile, I myself have been feeling that I am unattractive, or that there’s nothing special/interesting about me. This addiction only added the fear I might not be able to be as satisfy as well as the men in the stuff I have seen, or that I will be mocked/will disappoint just because “I am not like that”. My mind was filled with fantasies, some more achievable than others.
There was still chance for redemption though, even when I was at my worst with the addiction. Whenever I was spending a bit of time with a real girl I might have had feelings for, every dirty thought I may have had was gone, and my desire to consume porn/any NSFW materials was gone. Not even to this day am I fully sure what actually happened, or how that worked, but it was a very nice feeling to be free eve for a bit and get my happiness from something real. Overall, something had to chance…
Last charge of the addiction
Most recently, the final think I started getting an interest for was vintage photography. Because of my curiosity, combined with the addiction for easy dopamine, I ended up discovering the concept of “vintage erotica”, and especially the (in)famous “French postcards” of the early 20th century. To some degree, I was already aware of these old photos because of Wikipedia, but now I was actually able to find a lot of them, at high resolution. I was always craving more, and wanted to see which ones I liked the most. I was feeling conflicted though. On one hand, I felt these images were more refined, and in better taste than modern pornography – some of these old photos, especially those from the 1910s and 1920s, were looking like photographed, living paintings. On the other hand, I felt this was nothing more than just porn, and my attempts at justifying why I like it and thought it was more refined were just a way to cope. To make things worse the more I was looking at these photos, the more I ended up believing that women from these old photos (and therefore of old time) were more beautiful than the average woman nowadays. Therefore, I was feeling extremely guilty for liking these old photos. At one point, something was supposed to change.
Stop and current situation
Two weeks ago, I woke up seeing a friend from a common Discord server saying that he wanted to quite porn and masturbating. At that moment, I felt like I had a chance to cease it myself too. I told him that we are sharing the same situation, and that both of us want to get rid of this unhealthy addiction. After finishing that reading, I was surprised that I did not want to watch porn or masturbate anymore. After further discussions, I was recommended a better source to read from, and so I discovered Your Brain on Porn. From that moment on, I was fully convinced I wanted to put an end to all this, and that it does not provide me anything useful but only harm. Now, two weeks have passed, and I am feeling much better than I used to be. Despite some moments of doubt and moments when I thought I was about to break, until now I am still going strong. I am still in the risk of going the other extreme though, that of turning into, or at the very least behave like a puritan, despite that being the last thing I am looking for. Moreover, for a few days, mostly likely misguided, I became a puritan. I thought “artistic nudity” does not exist, and that it is just an excuse for a supposedly refined depiction when actually is just more fapping material (and given my early history, that is actually what it has been). Not even now am I sure what to believe, as I see myself in a bit of a moral crisis, and any image that has a nude scares me that it could make me come back to my old desires. I do not know what to think about the old museum paintings depicting such topics, or the old photos I have mentioned they are looking like a “photographed, living painting”. I really hope that in time, all the negative effects will be gone, and so I will be able to enjoy life any other person. Hopefully, this is going to give me the strength and courage to slowly give up on any other non-porn related addiction, and I will be able to use that time for personal improvement. But if I managed to do it until now, I don't see it as impossible to overcome my other issues as well.
TL;DR version
Realization what sex is > learning how to JO > paintings > regular films > caught, 1 year stop and lasting trauma > return > new films > Pinterest > Danbooru & hentai > return to Pinterest + related websites > attempts to stop > vintage photography > stop and current situation + optimism for the future
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(Warning, this is going to be a long post; I tried adding a bit of a TL;DR at the end as general outline for how things evolved)
How it all started
About 10 years ago, I was still a naïve elementary school student. Up until that moment, I used to believe that sex was a pagan activity only pagans would do (I was still a very religious person), as I was not aware yet where children come from. However, one day as I was reading an all-ages encyclopedia, my mind finally made the connection, and suddenly understood what sexuality is. I did not learn anything about that in school, as the topic is still extremely taboo in Romania, and my parents did not want to talk about such a topic, be it out of shame or hesitation to explain. At that moment, something sparked – sex was no longer that bad thing I used to believe, but suddenly started sounding like the coolest thing there is. And the lack of education, combined with personal shyness to ask, would trigger a series on unfortunate developments at a very important stage in growing up.
A bit more on education
I would not say this been the greatest factor, as in “had I been better educated, I would have avoided developing such an addiction”, but I would say it did play a role in it. In Romania, let’s just say any forma of sexual education is absent in schools or high schools. Besides complete lack of sex education in Romanian schools, each time someone comes to propose such a course, there is a constant moral panic, and parents march along with the Orthodox Church under the idea that such education “will corrupt the children” and “will encourage them to have even more sex”. Probably the most frustrating moment happened in middle school. At the Anatomy course, the course book had an entire, 25 pages long chapter dedicated to the topic of human conception, growth, development and advice in preventing any possible problems that could come up with sexuality, all presented in a decent manner. However, at that course, we have completely skipped the chapter, and the teacher never brought it up. Only in the last course of the year, they have remembered that “oh yeah we have this chapter as well”, and presented to us a 30 minutes half-assed explanation of everything which could be very easily summed up as “just use a condom”. From that moment on, the discussion was not brought up again; especially as in high school, I followed Humanities, where we barely studied any bit of science (in a course that covered superficially general Biology, Chemistry and Physics). Probably the most I learnt about the human body in high school was when I was assigned to make a presentation on contraception methods. I still wish we had that chapter studied, and I find it a real shame that there is a constant pushback in even trying to educate children on such an important topic, even at an elementary topic.
Development + first stop
Not long after that realization, I somehow managed to learn on my own how to masturbate, following some experimentation. I say “somehow” because I did not have access to any sort of source where I could learn from about it. As time went on, I started feeling more and more looking to satiate my newly discovered curiosity. Therefore, I started pointing my fapping towards different things that would be provocative. First thing that fell to my hands was books with nude paintings. Those images were enough to make me feel excited, as for me, “a naked woman was a naked woman”, no matter the media form. From there, I started following regular films on TV, waiting for the softcore scenes (I was not ready yet for anything extreme). Everything in this phase lasted about 2 years. However, one evening, my lack of awareness ended up with me being caught by my parents. Following a 1-hour long interrogation from which I will never forget the image of my mother crying, I remained with strong trauma that I still have to some degree even today. “If only you were older, we would have understood…” (I was 13 at the time). Due to the events of that evening, I completely stopped masturbating for a whole year. However, that was not to last…
The return
Through that one year, despite not masturbating, I was still actively looking through films and waiting for the softcore scenes to appear. At the same time, I have also discovered erotic films, due to them being aired on TV. Romanian television was odd at the time – on some of the general public/”must-carry” channels, after 11 PM, they would start broadcasting porn and erotic films and shows, or “documentaries” about the “behind the scenes” of the porn industry. (All of these things would disappear eventually) My first contact with an actual porn film was very shocking. The first reaction was one of repulse, and wanting to switch the channel as quickly as I could. I was not yet a victim of fully consuming the “adult entertainment” industry. In that time, I did not stay idle. I was always looking to find a creative way of pleasuring myself while watching such films or shows, and eventually I just got back to fapping, still as a secret activity.
Things are going online
For most of my childhood, I grew without access to the internet. I started using the internet in the 5th grade, mostly for school, and only got my first smartphone just before I entered high school. Fast-forward a few years later, the TV in my room was gone after moving around some furniture (at that moment, I just felt I no longer wanted to watch TV, so that was not too much of a loss). However, I was about to go on my next step towards porn addiction. I started using my phone more and more often, as I was making accounts on different online platforms. One of those platforms was Pinterest. I can still remember one night that I got an email from Pinterest recommending me new pins (despite the fact at the time I did not have any pin of my own), and all of those pins were photos of naked women, of more or less pornographic nature. At the time, Pinterest was still plagued with an extreme amount of such images, and entire accounts specialized in posting them. Until that moment, I did not have proper contact with photos outside of a random Playboy magazine cover and perhaps some joke postcards you could buy at the seaside. I was extremely hooked by what I saw, and from that moment, I wanted more of it. As I started using Pinterest more and more, I also discovered that people who were following my pins were either posting porn on their accounts, or were subscribed to other channels posting porn. Pinterest did give me a moment of shock and disgust though. During one of the sessions, I ended up coming at one video that ended up with the woman undressing being a hermaphrodite. I was so shocked I did something like that, wanting not start liking such content, that I stopped masturbating for two weeks.
Danbooru & hentai
After more than half a year of staying in lockdown due to “2020 being 2020”, I started finding new interests and franchises to follow. One of these was Touhou. At the time, due to me liking drawings and fanart of that series, I started looking up for more. Moreover, one day, I had the misfortune of stumbling upon the image board website Danbooru. Seeing the characters, I used to like from that series perverted and put into all kinds of sexualized situations was yet another shock for me. I was not familiar with the world of lewd fanart, and still found such a concept to be repulsive and in bad taste. Until finding out that website, I could not really conceive the idea of going after or seeing so much explicit material related to the thing, you like. One of my friends pretty much decided to get me into a "drunk watch of Star Wars R34 art/comics", minus the "drunk" part - all I can say is that evening was a little difficult to digest. Skipping a few months after that event, directly to when I found Touhou (so in like December 2020). Just as I drew my first Touhou fanart (seen in the Anime thread), and was asking by this friend why did I draw something with so small boobs. I told him a bit about what Touhou is, showed him a bit of official art, then he asked me what was the name of the character (I showed him an official art sprite of Yuyuko from PCB). Less than a minute later, what is the first thing he decided to show me? A R34 image of Yuyuko - my first taste of such content when it comes to Touhou. I was quite a bit shocked to see it, even if he intended it just as a joke and to get a laugh out of my innocence I still had at the time. Skip about a year later, and my first discovery of Danbooru. Initially, I was not even supposed to be on that website. On Safebooru (an image board platform dedicated to, as the name implies, safe-for-work images), I remarked that by searching "Iku Nagae" (one of my favorite characters at the time) there was nothing. Thinking there was something wrong; I decided to go for other boards. Without paying too much attention, I ended up on her Danbooru page (and realized I had to search it as "Nagae Iku"). What was the first thing that got into my face? Any kind of R18 I could imagine - from nude pose to intercourse (both straight and yuri/lesbian). For a while, I pretty much decided to NOPE out of there, and stayed on Safebooru. However, eventually, I ended up replacing Safebooru with Danbooru. For the past 6 months, I have only using the latter on a daily basis, so in the end I feel like I became desensitized to such kind of content. Therefore, my question when it came to all this research was out of curiosity, not any kind of outrage for the existence of such content. I pretty much went from "I cannot imagine this kind of content existing/I don't really want to be in contact with it or purposefully go after it" to "alright, this exists, I guess [example fitting my mentioned requirements] looks rather neat". Curiosity turned into addiction, and addiction eventually turned into me starting to masturbate to these drawn images. Could things get any worse?
Pinterest Strikes Back
Through the whole Danbooru period, I have been using Pinterest as well. I have discovered more and more of the accounts following me either contained or were following other porn-posting accounts, and so I decided to keep following what is happening. This time, however, I started paying attention to the links some of these image posts had (usually where they came from). That way, I have discovered different websites hosting pornographic content, but a very specific one became my go-to website whenever I was bored and wanted some “fun”. It was one of those “leaked OnlyFans” platforms, with lots of new content daily. At first, I was watching whatever was posted, but at some point I started forming favorites and specific channels I was paying attention to whenever they posted something new. That is how I have been until not so long ago.
Attempt at stopping
By last year, I got into the point in which I was willing to share stuff with other people online, even if I kept it at the level of nude drawings I was finding on Danbooru. At the time, I was still part of a server on Discord in which a part of the people were artists, and a lot of them were drawing NSFW art (although I did not like most of their works). That encourages me further to share drawings with others. I was not doing that to anyone random though, but was asking first of they were OK with me doing it. I did do that with a friend for about a week. Only after week though, I got a message from him asking me to stop, despite the fact just not long ago he enjoyed it. That person told me that the liked the art, but wanted to stop because I have accidentally reactivated their own porn addiction. On one hand, I felt outraged he did not tell me earlier, moment at which I could have stopped. On the other hand, I felt sad for having caused harm to him, and started realizing that I might have a problem. For a few days afterwards, and with a strong sense of guilt, I stopped watching NSFW art and other media, and stopped fapping.
That was not going to last though, as soon after I got back to it. I have tried stopping on a few occasions, but I could never stop for longer than 5-7 days (I also had periods in which for a full week I may have not a need to fap, but that did not remove the tendency to watch NSFW content). For me, someone at the age of 21, who never had sex or even had a girlfriend (which many people asked me about back in high school as why have I never done that), the feeling of loneliness did not let me get out of my addiction, and thought it was a way to cope with it until things would magically “fix” for me. The temptation for photos, short videos and drawings of beautiful women was too high. I also used to have some rules of content consumption, those rules being 1) no drawings/photos/videos depicting intercourse (so only women as I did not want to see any man), 2) no exaggerated proportions / unrealistic proportions, 3) nothing in which one or both of the characters look like children. In time, outside rule 3), the first two have been first warped, and then broken to various degrees just because the thrill was no longer the same. However, things could get worse. The more I was staying like this, consuming content, the more I was looking for the real thing.
Despite the fact I am only 21, I was starting to grow concerned that if I do not do something soon, I will be too old to be able to enjoy sex and I will believe either my partner or myself will look too old and ugly. I had the wrong concept that if people are no longer in their early 20s, someone already becomes “expired” and no longer attractive (I never understood the appeal of MILFs, despite knowing people that seemed to like that sort of stuff). Meanwhile, I myself have been feeling that I am unattractive, or that there’s nothing special/interesting about me. This addiction only added the fear I might not be able to be as satisfy as well as the men in the stuff I have seen, or that I will be mocked/will disappoint just because “I am not like that”. My mind was filled with fantasies, some more achievable than others.
There was still chance for redemption though, even when I was at my worst with the addiction. Whenever I was spending a bit of time with a real girl I might have had feelings for, every dirty thought I may have had was gone, and my desire to consume porn/any NSFW materials was gone. Not even to this day am I fully sure what actually happened, or how that worked, but it was a very nice feeling to be free eve for a bit and get my happiness from something real. Overall, something had to chance…
Last charge of the addiction
Most recently, the final think I started getting an interest for was vintage photography. Because of my curiosity, combined with the addiction for easy dopamine, I ended up discovering the concept of “vintage erotica”, and especially the (in)famous “French postcards” of the early 20th century. To some degree, I was already aware of these old photos because of Wikipedia, but now I was actually able to find a lot of them, at high resolution. I was always craving more, and wanted to see which ones I liked the most. I was feeling conflicted though. On one hand, I felt these images were more refined, and in better taste than modern pornography – some of these old photos, especially those from the 1910s and 1920s, were looking like photographed, living paintings. On the other hand, I felt this was nothing more than just porn, and my attempts at justifying why I like it and thought it was more refined were just a way to cope. To make things worse the more I was looking at these photos, the more I ended up believing that women from these old photos (and therefore of old time) were more beautiful than the average woman nowadays. Therefore, I was feeling extremely guilty for liking these old photos. At one point, something was supposed to change.
Stop and current situation
Two weeks ago, I woke up seeing a friend from a common Discord server saying that he wanted to quite porn and masturbating. At that moment, I felt like I had a chance to cease it myself too. I told him that we are sharing the same situation, and that both of us want to get rid of this unhealthy addiction. After finishing that reading, I was surprised that I did not want to watch porn or masturbate anymore. After further discussions, I was recommended a better source to read from, and so I discovered Your Brain on Porn. From that moment on, I was fully convinced I wanted to put an end to all this, and that it does not provide me anything useful but only harm. Now, two weeks have passed, and I am feeling much better than I used to be. Despite some moments of doubt and moments when I thought I was about to break, until now I am still going strong. I am still in the risk of going the other extreme though, that of turning into, or at the very least behave like a puritan, despite that being the last thing I am looking for. Moreover, for a few days, mostly likely misguided, I became a puritan. I thought “artistic nudity” does not exist, and that it is just an excuse for a supposedly refined depiction when actually is just more fapping material (and given my early history, that is actually what it has been). Not even now am I sure what to believe, as I see myself in a bit of a moral crisis, and any image that has a nude scares me that it could make me come back to my old desires. I do not know what to think about the old museum paintings depicting such topics, or the old photos I have mentioned they are looking like a “photographed, living painting”. I really hope that in time, all the negative effects will be gone, and so I will be able to enjoy life any other person. Hopefully, this is going to give me the strength and courage to slowly give up on any other non-porn related addiction, and I will be able to use that time for personal improvement. But if I managed to do it until now, I don't see it as impossible to overcome my other issues as well.
TL;DR version
Realization what sex is > learning how to JO > paintings > regular films > caught, 1 year stop and lasting trauma > return > new films > Pinterest > Danbooru & hentai > return to Pinterest + related websites > attempts to stop > vintage photography > stop and current situation + optimism for the future
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2023.06.30 18:14 Hentaicbsa Package under inspection for obscenity by CBSA
My situation mirrors a thread posted a few weeks prior: https://www.reddit.com/legaladvicecanada/comments/13m8m8m/my_mangas_were_detained_by_customs_on_suspicion/
Two weeks ago my package containing a few articles was delayed and stuck at customs. After contacting my carrier they notified me that CBSA would like to contact me and gave me a phone number (9056791506) with a reference number.
After calling the number the receptionist mentioned that the package was flagged for obscenity and needed to be reviewed with an agent. They did not give me a timeline and noted that it was low priority. I asked if I would receive notification from CBSA or my carrier if a decision would be made one way or another if they would either release or destroy the articles. They said that I would not and if it was determined to be obscene they would destroy it and that would be the end of it. They mentioned to call back to inquire about the status. I have yet to do so. It's been two weeks since and I haven't received anything.
After hearing of this I decided to do a lot of reading and searching on the matter.
The package in question contains a couple of hentai books (doujins), which are Japanese hand drawn cartoon porn.
To my understanding, if a package has been seized and inspected for obscenity, a determination needs to be made within 30 days and the importer must be notified, usually by a letter in the mail. If a determination cannot be made within the time frame for whatever reason the goods must be released.
Question 1. Is it in my interest or worth pursuing the possibility that customs is back logged and would be unable to make a timely determination? Assuming that I receive no written correspondence in the next two weeks, Should I follow up with a call to check the status? Or, would this in practical purposes put a target on myself and potentially escalate matters worse. (Probably best answered at the end)
Clarification on the articles, from what I understand from the CBSA website and criminal code, one of the articles has a high chance of being considered obscene (Sex with violence, pain, rape). I am most certain this will not make it through if it gets reviewed and I will not argue it.
The rest of the articles contain drawn depictions of females in various poses and levels of undress/nudity. With no engagement in sexual activities. (However as Canada defines it, mere exposure of genitals or sexual body parts would constitute as sex), but without any undue factors like violence or humiliation, degradation etc, should not fall under the definition of obscenity. However a couple may contain some depictions that may bring into question the age of the drawing.*
*For my own sake we're not talking about toddlers or middle schooler drawings. At the worst it could be seen closer to high school age. (~16-18) In essence, some of them don't have giant fat lips or dumpster truck butts with giant bosoms busting from the seams. And more closely resemble a typical small petite Asian female which doesn't share a lot of stereotypical western depictions of age or sexual maturity. This would be the only reason I think that could get them destroyed in terms of obscenity.
Question 2. The question or determination of obscenity (or age) as I understand falls squarely on the agent reviewing the articles. Which I understand is very subjective. However, when and how does artistic merit come into play? I understand that if something is first found obscene, it gets a pass if it has artistic merit. While these are not part of a thesis or statement to the level of Shakespeare, there is a high level of detail, coloring, shading, composition, where I personally believe it's comparable to Renaissance nude paintings and such. I fail to see how it couldn't be considered art and be dismissed as smut. Can a work stand on its own for artistic merit or must it be part of some larger story or justification? (does pizza delivery porn plot count at all) Given that a lot of stuff doesn't make it through customs there must be some standard as to what is art. Since anyone and anything could argue that something could be art.
Question 3. Are they able to release/destroy each item individually depending if it is deemed okay or not? Or is the whole parcel forfeit?
Question 4. Regardless of the determination that the items are in fact obscene or not, am I on a list now? Will the vendor I ordered from be flagged now for future orders for myself or others? Will I get a knock on the door? Should I now take steps to protect myself when traveling or browsing the web now? (Vpn, encryption, data deletion, privacy settings, etc, do they even matter?) In case the government gets gung ho on this?
submitted by Hentaicbsa to legaladvicecanada [link] [comments]
Two weeks ago my package containing a few articles was delayed and stuck at customs. After contacting my carrier they notified me that CBSA would like to contact me and gave me a phone number (9056791506) with a reference number.
After calling the number the receptionist mentioned that the package was flagged for obscenity and needed to be reviewed with an agent. They did not give me a timeline and noted that it was low priority. I asked if I would receive notification from CBSA or my carrier if a decision would be made one way or another if they would either release or destroy the articles. They said that I would not and if it was determined to be obscene they would destroy it and that would be the end of it. They mentioned to call back to inquire about the status. I have yet to do so. It's been two weeks since and I haven't received anything.
After hearing of this I decided to do a lot of reading and searching on the matter.
The package in question contains a couple of hentai books (doujins), which are Japanese hand drawn cartoon porn.
To my understanding, if a package has been seized and inspected for obscenity, a determination needs to be made within 30 days and the importer must be notified, usually by a letter in the mail. If a determination cannot be made within the time frame for whatever reason the goods must be released.
Question 1. Is it in my interest or worth pursuing the possibility that customs is back logged and would be unable to make a timely determination? Assuming that I receive no written correspondence in the next two weeks, Should I follow up with a call to check the status? Or, would this in practical purposes put a target on myself and potentially escalate matters worse. (Probably best answered at the end)
Clarification on the articles, from what I understand from the CBSA website and criminal code, one of the articles has a high chance of being considered obscene (Sex with violence, pain, rape). I am most certain this will not make it through if it gets reviewed and I will not argue it.
The rest of the articles contain drawn depictions of females in various poses and levels of undress/nudity. With no engagement in sexual activities. (However as Canada defines it, mere exposure of genitals or sexual body parts would constitute as sex), but without any undue factors like violence or humiliation, degradation etc, should not fall under the definition of obscenity. However a couple may contain some depictions that may bring into question the age of the drawing.*
*For my own sake we're not talking about toddlers or middle schooler drawings. At the worst it could be seen closer to high school age. (~16-18) In essence, some of them don't have giant fat lips or dumpster truck butts with giant bosoms busting from the seams. And more closely resemble a typical small petite Asian female which doesn't share a lot of stereotypical western depictions of age or sexual maturity. This would be the only reason I think that could get them destroyed in terms of obscenity.
Question 2. The question or determination of obscenity (or age) as I understand falls squarely on the agent reviewing the articles. Which I understand is very subjective. However, when and how does artistic merit come into play? I understand that if something is first found obscene, it gets a pass if it has artistic merit. While these are not part of a thesis or statement to the level of Shakespeare, there is a high level of detail, coloring, shading, composition, where I personally believe it's comparable to Renaissance nude paintings and such. I fail to see how it couldn't be considered art and be dismissed as smut. Can a work stand on its own for artistic merit or must it be part of some larger story or justification? (does pizza delivery porn plot count at all) Given that a lot of stuff doesn't make it through customs there must be some standard as to what is art. Since anyone and anything could argue that something could be art.
Question 3. Are they able to release/destroy each item individually depending if it is deemed okay or not? Or is the whole parcel forfeit?
Question 4. Regardless of the determination that the items are in fact obscene or not, am I on a list now? Will the vendor I ordered from be flagged now for future orders for myself or others? Will I get a knock on the door? Should I now take steps to protect myself when traveling or browsing the web now? (Vpn, encryption, data deletion, privacy settings, etc, do they even matter?) In case the government gets gung ho on this?