Nicknames for a bestfriend

Idk how to really start þis. So recently I have had to move overseas temporarily, it has been like 6 monþs but I don't þink þats very important. Additionally, recently, about 7 monþs ago, we (me and bestfriend of 2,6 years) had like a soft break up or like some turbulence in our relationship, but we have like mostly recovered to þe maximum we probably could rn.
Over þis period I have been texting/dm'ing her, and we have had a lot of conversations but it is mostly like a little bit of back and forþ and þat's it. "Recently" she hasn't been doing well, and recently she doesn't want to tell me and I don't pry (idk if it has to do wiþ our troubles 7 monþs ago, which on April 1st I did talk to her about again). Our average conversation goes someþing like
Me: "[Greeting]* Janwepeka^, how are you/how has [X] been/what are you doing?" Her: "Horrible" Me: "[optional vocalization like ah or oh] do you want to talk about it?" Her: "No" Me: "Okay" Her : [Heart reacts] *[Hey, ey, oi, yo, wazzub, wazzgood,] ^[often a nickname or a general noun of direct address and not her full name]
and like I don't have þe heart to tell her when I ask þat I am not just meaning how she is mentally, it has been and probs will continue to be horrible, I also mean like what has happened in her life, to which she normally responds "noþing/it sucks".
Like I am sorry I do want to know how and what is boþering her she just doesn't tell me*. Idk how to start a better conversation. I have tried like sending her images or memes þat pertain to heus, but it is just like we have a little back and forþ and not like a conversation.
*but like she will tell our oþer friends, I was talking to one of my oþer closer friends (Janlejona) right after I had had one of þese classic altercations, and she had to stop mid-way into our convo because Janwepeka needed to talk to Janlejona about what was boþering her (Janlejona told me about having to talk to Janwepeka midway into our conversation and did slip a bit about what is boþering her)
I just don't know how to start a convo wiþ her þat doesn't lead into her being depressed and not discussing furþer or being short wiþ me and having a short skermish instead of an actually convo.
I'm unsure, maybe she's just mad at me, but she has also just stopped interacting wiþ me. I have dmed her reacting to what she posts on IG- she leaves me on seen. I have texted her- on delievered (þis is normal but not for like ÞIS long). But she does like and sometimes reply to my comments on her posts.
When we were like besties and I wasn't overseas, it was pretty easy to talk to her over texting, but since (I did leave like right after we had some trouble) it has been tough. Þis could be her way of telling me þat she doesn't want me anymore, she does say she tries to hint at me about stuff like þis but I haven't gotten it, which isn't like super true like I've gotten what I am pretty sure are þe hints it's just þat her mood and behavior changes WAY too much for me to be able to know if she's hinting at someþing or just fickle (which is what it ultimately ends up feeling like) (I feel like such an incel saying þis omg). Espesh if it is someþing she has told me she is going to be direct about or if it is someþing þat I would assume is just me being paranoid or anxious like all my friends hating me and faking being my friend.

I thought I had a decent friendship with these 2 people calling them X and Y. Now, I am aware of the fact that most trios have a duo and for the better part of it, I thought we didn't and we all were doing fine and nothing seemed off.
Until like 2-3 years ago, where they suddenly started calling each other their bestfriends and I for the longest time kept trying to convince myself that maybe it's all in my head and I am not treated differently even when it didn't feel right. They both actively text and you can blame me too, because I started withdrawing and interacting less.
Whenever we met in the past 2-3, it always felt like I was an unnecessary add on. They always want to hang out for some bizzare reason, even though we barely text and when we eventually meet, it's always a reminder of how close both of them are. One of them always makes it a point to call the other by her nickname (which she has given her) in front of me and acts like she knows everything about her and I am sat there thinking of why am I even there.
I don't want to have these relationships anymore but at the same time I don't want to be looked at as some miserable loner, so I maintain decent terms but it's so exhausting. Meeting them drains my energy. I'm tired to making excuses and I want to end it once and for all but I just never know how to.
I might have been terrible and I always try to look back at things and make note of what all I could have possibly done wrong but I can't pin point anything.
X always made sure to mention that she was prioritizing Y and would go so as far to take off from work for going to cafes with her meanwhile when it came to me, it always the "I was busy with work" and "you should understand" or some bitchy remark. Y too in her own ways, in more subtle ways, that are not too obvious made sure to treat X better than she treated me even though I was continuously told over text that I was her close friend. This cycle keeps repeating and now I don't want anything to do with both of them anymore.
They don't bother to check on me but will always complain about me it just makes me wonder why do they even want me involved in their plans, if all they are going to do is bitch later?
Also this year, despite knowing that I was in a rough situation, they ignored me and only called/messaged because they were planning to meet and that's about it.

The title gives it away
Lol I want to see your headcanons!
I'll go first. Prepare for a lot of reading lol
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Headcanon 1 (Low and Alone's backstory):
Low and Alone were close friends before entering the Nowhere, Low was Alone's only friend. (Personally I think they were in institution, the same one where Noone was.) Low began to have the nightmares and would tell Alone about them, she would listen to everything he would say and comfort him. When Low first disappeared (Entered the Nowhere.) Alone was distressed, and begged the people running the place to find him. Alone became more anxious and pretty depressed, She didn't talk to the other kids and barely talked to the counselors. She kept to herself and was always off in the corner of a room when people were around. She would cry herself to sleep, missing her best and only friend.
2 Months After Low's disappearance is when she started having the same nightmares Low had, and soon entered the Nowhere. She spent almost 4 months Alone in the Nowhere (Hence why she's called Alone.), before she reunited with Low. Trapped, they stayed and traveled the Nowhere for a few years, witnessing and running from the horror's the Nowhere holds. Only having each other, they grew more closer than ever before.
Together, hand in hand they now travel to find a way out of the world they're trapped in. (This is where Little Nightmares 3 will take place.)
Headcanon 2 (Why Six betrayed Mono):
Mono and Six have a sibling dynamic. Their friendship wasn't fake, Six generally cared about Mono and bonded with him, and Mono was the same. It was the Signal Towers fault. The Tower took advantage of Six's PTSD and Fear (And Such) and gave her the music box.
The music box is her coping mechanism, so the Tower used it to hypnotize Six and turn her into a monster. It's pretty clear that Mono (Not purposely) was hurting her physically and also mentally while breaking her music box and trying to turn her back. The tower still had it's effect on Six while her and Mono were escaping. So the Towers hypnosis + Mono (Not on purpose) hurting Six is what caused her to drop him.
Headcanon 3 (Six isn't evil):
(Too long to post here, click Here for my Headcanon why.)
Headcanon 4 (Time isn't the same in the Nowhere and Waking World):
Time isn't the same in the Nowhere and Waking World. So 2 months will feel like 4 months, 4 months will feel like 8 months, etc. So Low and Alone were separated for at least 1 year according to the Nowhere. (My own Headcanon is confusing me- LOL)
Headcanon 5 (Alone has Separation Anxiety):
Alone has Separation Anxiety. When she first arrived at the institution everyone seemed to ignore her, so she didn't have friends and was always alone all the time. So when she met Low and they became friends, she was attached at the hip with him.
And because Alone has Separation Anxiety, Low's disappearance caused her to be distressed and way more anxious since he was gone.
Headcanon 6 (Real Names and why their nicknames are their nicknames):
Six: Sasha People always told her she was lucky like the number 6, 6 is also her favorite number.
Mono: Milo He was a only child, Mono = One. It's also a reference to his Monophobia.
Runaway kid: Ethan He technically doesn't have an official nickname, so IDK.
Raincoat Girl: Lily Same as Runaway kid.
Low: Logan It was the nickname Alone gave him (Before entering the Nowhere.). It also because he always felt Low after entering the Nowhere and not being able to see his bestfriend. (Before they reunited.)
Alone: Susie She was always Alone as a kid before meeting Low. She also traveled the Nowhere alone for a while before reuniting with Low.
Headcanon 7 (Ages, Heights, and Eye Color):
Six is 8 in VLN, turns 9 in LN2, and is 9 in LN. She's 4'2 (127.5 cm). She has brown eyes that are tinted red. (Personally I love red eyed Six, so I mixed it with a natural color.)
Mono is 11. He's 4'11 (149.9 cm). He has black eyes.
Runaway kid is 10. He's 4'7 (139.7 cm). He has blue eyes.
Raincoat Girl is 10. She's 4'6 (137.2 cm). She has brown eyes.
Low is 11. He's 4'9 (144.8 cm). He has dark blue eyes. (Another Headcanon, Low is blind in his left eye and has a scar on it. This is something he had before entering the Nowhere.)
Alone is 9. She's 4'4 (133 cm). She has green eyes.
Well that's all the headcanons I have for now! (So since we don't know their backstory, I made one for Low and Alone! Also don't criticize me for Low having blue eyes please. I know it's rare for black people to have them, I just think he'd look good with them!)

Me, M(18); my ex F(18) Hi sorry for my english. English is my third language. Lately i have been doing really bad like sometimes i cant breathe or i am not able to think properlyi have headaches i cannot concentrate on school on nothing. I see my ex everyday in school. We are in the same class so like i see her in rhe school bus in class. She is laughing. She is having fun for exmaple not always but like talking to guys touching them but not touching touching just like idk how to say it but i hope u all understand. So she was combing her hair and a guy like touched her hair and she said nothing to thim although she knew i am like behind her. She is having gun everything. Everyone in the class is a little weird to me especially the girls although i am a very friendly person. So the breakup happend two weeks ago we had been together for 1,5. a little backstory she was and still a piece of my hearz. I gave her hundered nicknames and like send her poetry abt her besuty while she was sleepingnlt everyday but like 5 times a month minimum i had no money like not even a cent cause my family wasnt doing well while hers was she hasnt had a problem. In the beginning she told me that her ex relationships werelike fun and good and after couple of months when she fell in love with me she told me me she was SAed which broke my heart and i immediately decided to give everything to this girl.i loved her without any limkts i asked her weekly if she is oksy with how our Relationship is workin and she always said i love it the problem was which i never minded she shouted alot even if we were in public so she mostly always shouted when we had like small fights and i always tried to calm her down but she pushed me and cried. Now couples of months went by i changed her she had always rhe same opinon like me abt clubbing and dressing sense i mean everything. We were doing great but i always had problems with myself like insecurities abt my financial stability and body i am 6,1=185cm and 110kg but i dont look chubby and her past always made me insecure about our intimacy i thought i am not doing good cause she couldnt orgasm ( she was the first girl i had intimacy with so i dont know how woman orgasm but like she was wet and cremy always i dont know if that counts)she always said its cause of her past trauma but i couldn’t always believe her everytime i asked her ey u told me this and that either she told me she never said that or it was a lie. But she always cared and loved me so i didnt care . After our one year anniversary things went downhill. She didnt really understand me or tried she didnt want to talk abt our problems and fights alhtought she was always rhe one that was desperate to talk about our fights. At this time there was a girl in our friendgroup who i didnt like and had many times problems so like her boyfriend called my ex that she is his btch and my ex like calmed me down cause we were sitting together in a cafe and i was desperatly wanted to break his jaw and after rhat i gave my ex an ultimatum that we are not gonna chill with her anymore cause they both didnt apologized she didnt hear and i let it slide and like still talked to both of them the girl and her bf. She started to hang out with her more and more and they like had done same nails heared lana del rey together bought same bags and i wasnt comfortable with her. While all this was happening i told her manytimes hey if u sont feel comfortable in this relationship we can go seperate ways cause she dowsnt want to ralk abt our fights or anything blamed me for most or things happening to her and like always said i have migraines and i am not doing well and i felt bad and i thought i was the problem cause i really felt i was between her joy and her . Few weeks later she was with rhis girl in the city and we had like a day where we went on a school trip i was late but i had to go cause my mom said u cant stay at home. I called my ex to tell her that i am coming and she said no why and dont come it was weird so i went to her and she was chilling with that girl. I didkt think much of it and just told my ex hey i wanna buy some things lets go she said i am chillin with her she took money from me went with his girl and liked chilled with her while i was alone i waited and waited later that day she told me she talked abt it with rhis. Girl and she wants to break up cause she wanna go out clubbing i couldnt bear it i begged her we will find a way so we came back together. After some time we flew to rome as like a schooltrip where we had a fight and i went to her hotelroom to talk to her and she denied so automatically after telling her 10times i was like loud and suddenly the girl i dont like shouted at me and said its my room and u cant shout her this incident happened my ex and i we didnt talk like she didn’t even say hi or anything as if we were strangers after that when we flew back i was loke mentally at the end i always shouted punched laterns and even broke my finger in rome while i punched the wall i always hsd problems with my aggression but i wasnt crazy i had it in Control sometimes when she cried in public i maybe punched sth but like once in a blue moon( i know its wrong but i coudlnt besr the disrespect ) so after rome i became crazy didkt give a fk about what she was doing and she said why dont u care and rhis and that so i sorried and tell her i will give my best and told her i am doing good mentally good i just want to be loved and she should try to show me love and she said i have the same love for u bur she has problems showing it cause i told her many times i dont feel loved thats why i bevame like that. One day i was hangingout with my bros and one of them is the bf of her og bestfriend (not the girl i was talkin abt earlier) he told me shes gonna stay rhe night at their place cause they both lived together and i got mad she diekt tell me that i callled her asked her in a seeious voice why she wouldnt tell me and she just was laughing and not taking me seriously and hung up i got mad shouted at her so she hung up like five times on me i called her told her i am breakin up and hukg up. She didnt call me back two days after i tried to talk her and she said i should fuck off she is happy she is free and i should stop texting her and the rest is history. Am i the bad guy and any tips to get over her. Sorry that the text is too long. Edit: she told her og bsf that she didnt want to have sx with me and she did not like it i dont really remember if she said that but she meant something similar but i am 100% sure that she said she didnt want to have sx with me cause i can remember sth like that. Sayin all that while she promised she wont even say a word against me.
TL;DR; : This is a sample summary of the TLDR rule, all things are bold. Is this going the right way?

I see my ex everyday and i cannot live properly
Hi sorry for my english. English is my third language. Lately i have been doing really bad like sometimes i cant breathe or i am not able to think properlyi have headaches i cannot concentrate on school on nothing. I see my ex everyday in school. We are in the same class so like i see her in rhe school bus in class. She is laughing. She is having fun for exmaple not always but like talking to guys touching them but not touching touching just like idk how to say it but i hope u all understand. So she was combing her hair and a guy like touched her hair and she said nothing to thim although she knew i am like behind her. She is having gun everything. Everyone in the class is a little weird to me especially the girls although i am a very friendly person. So the breakup happend two weeks ago we had been together for 1,5. a little backstory she was and still a piece of my hearz. I gave her hundered nicknames and like send her poetry abt her besuty while she was sleepingnlt everyday but like 5 times a month minimum i had no money like not even a cent cause my family wasnt doing well while hers was she hasnt had a problem. In the beginning she told me that her ex relationships werelike fun and good and after couple of months when she fell in love with me she told me me she was SAed which broke my heart and i immediately decided to give everything to this girl.i loved her without any limkts i asked her weekly if she is oksy with how our Relationship is workin and she always said i love it the problem was which i never minded she shouted alot even if we were in public so she mostly always shouted when we had like small fights and i always tried to calm her down but she pushed me and cried. Now couples of months went by i changed her she had always rhe same opinon like me abt clubbing and dressing sense i mean everything. We were doing great but i always had problems with myself like insecurities abt my financial stability and body i am 6,1=185cm and 110kg but i dont look chubby and her past always made me insecure about our intimacy i thought i am not doing good cause she couldnt orgasm ( she was the first girl i had intimacy with so i dont know how woman orgasm but like she was wet and cremy always i dont know if that counts)she always said its cause of her past trauma but i couldn’t always believe her everytime i asked her ey u told me this and that either she told me she never said that or it was a lie. But she always cared and loved me so i didnt care . After our one year anniversary things went downhill. She didnt really understand me or tried she didnt want to talk abt our problems and fights alhtought she was always rhe one that was desperate to talk about our fights. At this time there was a girl in our friendgroup who i didnt like and had many times problems so like her boyfriend called my ex that she is his btch and my ex like calmed me down cause we were sitting together in a cafe and i was desperatly wanted to break his jaw and after rhat i gave my ex an ultimatum that we are not gonna chill with her anymore cause they both didnt apologized she didnt hear and i let it slide and like still talked to both of them the girl and her bf. She started to hang out with her more and more and they like had done same nails heared lana del rey together bought same bags and i wasnt comfortable with her. While all this was happening i told her manytimes hey if u sont feel comfortable in this relationship we can go seperate ways cause she dowsnt want to ralk abt our fights or anything blamed me for most or things happening to her and like always said i have migraines and i am not doing well and i felt bad and i thought i was the problem cause i really felt i was between her joy and her . Few weeks later she was with rhis girl in the city and we had like a day where we went on a school trip i was late but i had to go cause my mom said u cant stay at home. I called my ex to tell her that i am coming and she said no why and dont come it was weird so i went to her and she was chilling with that girl. I didkt think much of it and just told my ex hey i wanna buy some things lets go she said i am chillin with her she took money from me went with his girl and liked chilled with her while i was alone i waited and waited later that day she told me she talked abt it with rhis. Girl and she wants to break up cause she wanna go out clubbing i couldnt bear it i begged her we will find a way so we came back together. After some time we flew to rome as like a schooltrip where we had a fight and i went to her hotelroom to talk to her and she denied so automatically after telling her 10times i was like loud and suddenly the girl i dont like shouted at me and said its my room and u cant shout her this incident happened my ex and i we didnt talk like she didn’t even say hi or anything as if we were strangers after that when we flew back i was loke mentally at the end i always shouted punched laterns and even broke my finger in rome while i punched the wall i always hsd problems with my aggression but i wasnt crazy i had it in Control sometimes when she cried in public i maybe punched sth but like once in a blue moon( i know its wrong but i coudlnt besr the disrespect ) so after rome i became crazy didkt give a fk about what she was doing and she said why dont u care and rhis and that so i sorried and tell her i will give my best and told her i am doing good mentally good i just want to be loved and she should try to show me love and she said i have the same love for u bur she has problems showing it cause i told her many times i dont feel loved thats why i bevame like that. One day i was hangingout with my bros and one of them is the bf of her og bestfriend (not the girl i was talkin abt earlier) he told me shes gonna stay rhe night at their place cause they both lived together and i got mad she diekt tell me that i callled her asked her in a seeious voice why she wouldnt tell me and she just was laughing and not taking me seriously and hung up i got mad shouted at her so she hung up like five times on me i called her told her i am breakin up and hukg up. She didnt call me back two days after i tried to talk her and she said i should fuck off she is happy she is free and i should stop texting her and the rest is history. Am i the bad guy and any tips to get over her. Sorry that the text is too long. Edit: she told her og bsf that she didnt want to have sx with me and she did not like it i dont really remember if she said that but she meant something similar but i am 100% sure that she said she didnt want to have sx with me cause i can remember sth like that. Sayin all that while she promised she wont even say a word against me

I caught my mom cheating on my father with her 'friend'.
I am turning 19 and my mom and my dad are married for 17 years. She had a first husband that she separated with because of cheating (they had my eldest sister and brother), my father also had the baby mama of my 2 older sisters (they weren't married). My mom and dad are not good for each other even before. My dad is a compulsive gambler and a drug addict. My mom is a narcissist. These past few years they have been talking about annulling their marriage because of countless problems that come to our family. But, we never had a problem with them committing adultery. I told my mom that it's okay for us, her children, if she leaves him and find another guy because our father only got worse and he's not even willing to change while my mom is trying her best for us.
Yesterday, I found out that my mom is cheating. I saw their conversation when I held my mom's phone for a while and I saw my mom say "Love u (nickname) 😘" to the guy. I was in shock. I know the guy and I've seen him a lot of times. My mom and that dude became friends and she knew about the guy's family and told us about it. The guy is a womanizer. He has 5 kids and his wife is overseas. He's living with his so-called "childhood bestfriend" that is his mistress. My dad has been feeling jealous over that guy because my mom always talks about him for the past few weeks. He still doesn't know. 3/6 of us children already know. My mom kept on saying she won't fall for that guy because she doesn't want to.
I'm too shocked and mad at her. I feel betrayed because I've been with my mom and the guy and they totally act friends infront of me. I never gave malice to their actions because I firmly believed that my mom would never cheat. She wants to talk to me right now as I am typing this but I don't know what to do. I'm so mad. I said she could replace my father but not cheat on him. It just hurts so much because she knows how much I loathe cheaters as I have been cheated on many times before and we've been talking shit together about our family members who cheat. Also, she heard me talk about how I will do unthinkable things to my father if he cheats because they always joke about it (my father is very loyal). I just never expected all of this. I'm afraid I'll explode and say mean things if I talk to her.

This happened when I was 11, I (11 f) have two friends let's call them Jema and Luna for privacy reasons both are (11 f) we were at the park close to my house and Luna tells Jema that they are going to Luna's house and Jema says, "Oh, I though I had time to get the presents first".
Then I asked what they were talking about then Jema says "Oh we're just talking about the birthday party I'm having later" I said "Oh, well have a good time at the party I have to get home" while I was keeping back tears from forming I then started walking back home while walking I started crying because they were my bestfriends at the time. At home my mom said "Beanie (my nickname) we're going to costco" I then said ok and ran inside when my mom went to talk to the neighbor about the dead tree in the front lawn that was rotting.
I screamed into my pillow and cried for a bit then went to the car and sat in my seat while still crying a bit, my mom got into the car then started driving out of the neighbor hood before we got out she noticed me crying in the back mirror she asked me if I wanted a hug and I said yes, we then got out of the car and hugged for a bit then I told my mom what happpened and she was pissed.
She then called Jema's mom to tell her what they both did, and to tell Luna's mom what they did. We never went to costco that day. I am still friends with Luna but me and Jema's relationship has deteriorated a bit we are no longer bestfriends because we haven't talked since.

I, 18f, have been in a relationship with my boyfriend, 18 m for half a year (9 months). however, since the past 6 months we've faced a continuous erupting issue in this "relationship".
to be honest, I acknowledge and I do know and I'm completely aware that all the toxic acts are from me and I am the one with the unhealthy ways of communication.
sometimes quite often nowadays I regret having jumped into relationships so young. my first one was when I was 14. all the relationships I've been with have been mentally draining and very manipulative against me, I've broken down very bad. a continuous pattern was cheating, me being an option, faulty or a deep lack of communication from their side, cheating and lying.
but now when I've finally been in this relationship I see myself being my previous exes and it's hard to process it like I turned out to be the same? it hit me hard and for a long time I've been trying to work on it for his sake.
I have bpd and a bad relationship with my mother and layers of trauma from other places and that's why I think I can't be in a relationship ever? and I wish I wasn't like this so I actively try to read good healthy advice to desperately work on it and do better, be better for him. I've had enough of pain in my life and although I know being a bad hurtful partner hurts him it equally makes me feel deeply bad every night too because I know why I do that. why? because I'm immatured, childish, can't healthily process or regulate anything for the love of God. it's either that or I choose to stay with toxic partners but by the standard textbook definition I guess my current boyfriend has been the best?
to be honest, I don't know whether out of fear of abandonment I repressed my emotions and converted them into apathy or a variation of it so I'm numb to his actions for our relationship or am I ungrateful or am I right that our relationship isn't actually that great like it never was or if there's a perspective I'm missing.
it was hard for me to communicate but since a few weeks I've been doing it but apparently whatever I do it backfires horribly and I think it's because of my bpd? see, I've tried to work on my bpd codependency since 2 years but what is immensely hard is how I'm quick to react extremely either towards myself or the other person, how I jump to conclusions, I assume? and I'm always suspicious of the other person which grieves me too because wouldn't it hurt me too that my nature doesn't allow me to trust him or anyone so heating how other people feel connected to their people breaks me really bad? also the above things I said are what he doesn't like about me. plus I don't have a personality too and I've been to therapy thrice and I have hobbies, I make trinkets and sell them, I teach part time, I write, I do it all and I genuinely try to read maybe mechanically how to deal with relationships better.
I often mimic how to be a person because I find it hard to be one, obviously the bpd. so these relationship reels on Instagram or girlfriend reels or unsolicited relationship advice from content makers and loads of comments from other girls on what's right and whats not makes me think that I'm so inexperienced and very bad at differentiating between what's right and wrong in a relationship? besides I'm the last person who can make good decisions considering my history with abusive exes. I also feel bad I can't think about sex or don't much often because these guys I've been with, you know, "send nudes" culture so but my boyfriend has always said that we needn't ever do it but I still feel bad because isn't it a primal need so what if he feels bad inside but he's just not telling it to me? another reason why I don't trust people is because I'm always the person who people come to vent about feelings they repress from the other person or their actual thoughts about it and I've seen it between bestfriends and group of friends too like people aren't that completely honest and the cons are many.
these relationship reels have sides. some profess being a bad boujee where you have to place him on a pedestal and amount him to what all can he do for you and provide for you because ofcourse like their philosophy you're a bad bitch , is it the equivalent of gymtok? because I've often heard "you have extremely low self esteem" I've tried taking advice from these bad boujees because they get provided a lot atleast on a screen and I know a friend who practices it and she quickly moves on from guys and experiences much less emotional pain which I want so badly. bad boujee professes that raise the bar and if he can't reach that then leave him and they also say being loyal and communicating to you is a basic and I've met people who say just because he does it doesn't mean he's the one and you should be with him just because of that.
so what are the reasons to be with someone? how do you know I'd they're mechanically trying to be a good partner or doing it actively because they love you as a deed and not as a feeling? get me? when I told him "these are just basics, every boyfriend cares for their girlfriend, should I be so grateful because you're loyal to me and you stay on call when I'm sick" he said "but those are my efforts because I love you" so what should I do? when I see girls who raise their standards and somehow from some fucking where get men who reach those standards I question whether am I lowering mine to something basic or is that enough and I'm being mildly delusional or childish as reality is different? but you also read where people really have done huge devoted acts of love which did happen in reality too so its very confusing. but then comes the question why do I deserve x if x reaches all those high standards? I'm just a girl with bad self esteem and family issues and not a full education, I'm just someone with no deep friendships or anything I'm a nobody. realistically it's true right?
my only standards are please understand me emotionally and love me as deep as I love you but our ways of expressing are completely different. my way of expressing it on text is I will write paragraphs on why I love you, how I love you, how I care and everything, if one thing makes them sad ill write a paragraph deeply empathetically because well I would love it immensely if someone did that for me so thats why so that's a desire for me but he doesn't do that. he's depressed and always struggling and always sounds dead, rarely texts, should I be like those ldr immigrant couples where one is in Dubai and other in India and be okay with him texting very rarely and dead? we text everyday but he sounds dead thesedays like a very surface level lacking character sort of mechanical conversation.
sometimes I see reels about fussy or emotional girlfriend's or insane or possessive girlfriend's and I thought oh me being healthy maybe is not attractive and I should mould into that now maybe perhaps so I did which didn't turn out good. one good thing is that these conflicts would never happen irl because I don't have the spine to confront people or communicate face to face without feeling like I'm being judas iscariot for expressing an emotional need.
he feels too mechanical sometimes or am I too needy? I don't know. I always used to feel that he loves me because I love him because he's grown up alone and without female interaction and he doesn't interact with anyone beyond basic surface conversations and doesn't express much with anyone and has deep-rooted family issues so I thought do you love me or do you love me because I'm so nice to you? so it started off as that. also because I used to notice him mimicking me on texts which made me feel like mirroring which made me feel even more that he doesn't love me but he loves being with someone so I asked him and he said he loves me.
personally from my side we lack emotional connection, we never open up to each other, our go to method is "let's sleep this off" whatever the fuck it is our go to approach is bury, bury, suppress, suppress and apparently he acts like he's better with that than facing it. so am I but relationship advices say the opposite so. he tends to suppress a lot. he doesn't know how to express care for someone so I always thought he learnt words and sentences from me and the exact nicknames I use for him and the same lovey tone and he's mirroring it all back instead of something true, authentic and genuine so how can he love me? even if I do go to him while I'm sad everything he says sounds too mechanical, it's hard to believe care from someone who's completely different with everyone else in their life, but its easy to believe it from my friends atleast in mild amounts because I know they're actually being themselves. plus he can get rude with his tone but so do I so but it started with me so I'm at fault there.
so many times from my pov it feels like we stay because we're afraid of abandonment than actual love and it breaks my heart to see people happier. these social media standards would be having no social media, having no celebrity crush, not being into porn, not finding anyone from opposite gender appealing, and small actions like he doesn't have socials so this one gf sent him instagram reel links and he used to reply to every single one of them on whatsapp or text you whenever wherever whatever happened like djs replying mid dj session or kohli replying to anushka? 😭 or making gifts for you like just being thoughtful.
my boyfriend does none of it. I know I have to ask and communicate but, isn't it wrong in a way to be that lenient and think that you have to ask someone to be loved that way? he should invest something original into the relationship too and not make gifts because I asked but because he wanted to and naturally occurred to him. yeah I told him unfollow thot accounts and he did immediately, but I had to tell that. there are boys who wouldn't go into that in the first place right? once he made me feel bad about preferring innocent boys instead of realistic ones who watch porn or have watched porn and lust whether they're addicted or not either into actresses or thots or real women, but was it wrong of me to prefer innocent boys who've never touched porn ever?
because social media made liking actresses as something as a do not in a relationship and I caught him saving ahem ahem pictures of some, I communicated and he didn't do that again. he's stayed with me through my doubts even if it's 4 am and called me up and taken my calls when I'm in desperately mentally bad situations too but it doesn't help because what he says then fuels my already deteriorating mental health even more like he makes stereotypical assumptions about my mental health like I'm trying to seek attention by sh? but if it was me I would rather cognitive empathetically delve into it and respond what words would exactly help a person more in a situation like that. it's odd how I know that yet still act like a toddler sometimes. he emphasizes on how far he's come from how he used to be when I met him as a person, that he respects women more now and he doesn't belittle love anymore from his nihilistic perspective but social media says don't date guys like that, date ones who already from the beginning had respect for women and was a good guy. sometimes my boyfriend responds to emotional criseses in the worst way possible. even though it goes against my nature I try to make him feel soothed by counting along with him when he feels anxious and singing him to sleep or giving him remedies he can make at home when he's sick or talk to him like one would talk to a kid when they're sad in that tone when he's sad but he does none of that. I wish he was more gentle with me but he's not? so for a long time I couldn't bear that I do all that and while at the same time yeah he's loyal and all that there's something vastly missing too in us and I don't know what is it and that missing element has brooded between us now and I feel very far away from him like two strangers in a namesake relationship where for a formality we do some things but it's mostly dead, he says he's okay with that and he says he'll never ever leave me.
yesterday I told him about someone I used to be with who made me feel better emotionally. I mean, should I always understand that he shows emotions differently and he cares but doesn't express it as meticulously as I do because of his upbringing and antisocial nature? this blew up and be got mad saying I hid it from him for so long, tbh I only thought about when I sat down and thought that do I have crippling trust issues or have I ever trusted or felt better anywhere else before and yeah I did.
he says he goes through a lot because of me too. after this conversation he said he'll come back but he doesn't know when, he posted a reel about how he wants to be loved. one thing he deals from me are my trust issues and I already said why I feel them. another is because I've bottled up too much it bursts out and I say stuff like how i feel this relationship is wilted and dead. he thinks I'm hypocritical because I don't allow for some things that he would allow me for. he complains I react quick and get offended quick, that's because everyone says if something is not going good breakup that's why. once I made a remark on how I'm at a better more sound financial place than him which hit him, I picked it from boujee reels. we don't intend to breakup ever and catastrophically well marry no matter what. I would like to know opinions about this and how to make it better and more adaptable to be with. I can do something about my emotions. he says he somehow suppesses his frustrations and still stays with me so I feel like I owe it back to him.

Me (f25) and my bf (m24) is going 3yrs na. Last sunday, nagkita kami sa bahay nila and he cooked a meal for us. Bigla nawalan ng gas while he was prepping so he asked me to call the gas delivery sa phone nya. And there sa contacts list nya may nakita akong nickname with a heart sa dulo. So its like, "nickname <3"
Di ko alam kung sino to, but I have a hunch na ex nya to. So I secretly got the number and pagkauwi ko, checked yung name sa gcash. And yes, correct ang hula ko.
Now the thing is, we had issues before with this ex of him. Dahil lumalabas parang girl bestfriend nya ito na tipong kahit hiwalay na sila they are very open w/ each other to the point na kinukwento pa ni gbf ang hook ups nya sa bf ko. Pinag awayan namin to. I mean oks na nga ako na friends sila pero parang iba naman na ata pag pati hook ups pinag uusapan pa. Told him they need to set boundaries. He compromised by cutting her off. 1 year na lumipas, actually. April din yun nung nagka issue kami with this ex.
Nakakainsecure at paranoid lang knowing na andun pa contact number ng ex nya tapos may pa heart emoji pa. Samantalang ako pang-asar yung name ko na nasa contact list nya. To be fair din naman, di sya mahilig maglinis ng phone. Number ng mother nga nya di nakasave sa phone nya, kabisado lang nya.
Di ko pa sinasabi sa kanya yung nakita ko. Tbh, gusto ko mang away pero ayoko ng away. Ang gulo. HAHAHAHA. Imbis na goods sana yung meet up namin nung sunday, parang nawala tuloy ako sa mood. Gaano ba kahirap palitan ang names sa contact list? Considering na magtatatlong taon na kami. Never man lang nya pinalitan? Nakakalungkot na nakakainis. HAHAHAHAHA.

Some of it I wrote before in a previous post but with additional info.
Prior to 1994, Curtis Saint Patrick was a happily married man with their son James Saint Patrick. He was nightclub owner in Queens, not rich but doing well for himself. James was motivated by this. At some point Curtis got involved with some gangsters and lost the club which caused him to go into major debt with a known drug kingpin which caused his wife abandon him and her son resulting in Curtis becoming a struggling alcoholic. Curtis and James end up moving in with Curtis’ bestfriend Gabriel while struggling to pay back the drug kingpin.
Set in 1994. While finding ways to pay back the debt, they both came up with an idea to start a jazz club together after seeing the run down Cafe Vous formerly owned by Shirley. Out of desperation and nowhere else to turn to come up with the money, the Curtis and Gabe gamble their lives and decide to take a loan from the drug lord to establish and run the jazz club. While the club is up and running, Curtis and Gabe deal with situations involving the club. This causes more stress to Curtis and pushes him more to drink.
While Curtis is stressed with his situation, he was always heavily verbally abusive to 15 year old James. Always pushing him to study hard in school and not make the same mistakes he made by not getting mixed up with the wrong people, but their on going abusive arguments only pushed James more towards the streets although James always kept his head in the books, motivated to get out of the hood and away from his father. James is completely unaware Curtis has been in debt with gangsters for the time being but as a couple seasons go by, Curtis and Gabe were able to pay off their debt and the jazz club is successful.
Throughout this time, Jamie is in the streets. He already met Breeze and is nicknamed Ghost. Ghost is heavily influenced by Breeze but then he starts to realize how extremely dangerous he is due to his extreme greed for power. Ghost even comes up with little ideas to expand but Breeze refuses and wants to stay straight street. No partnerships. All territory for himself. This is the cause of an ongoing war with enemies which Breeze and his crew have taken out plenty of enemies.
The same drug lord that owned Curtis and Gabe is beefing with Breeze over territory. The war puts pressure on the Antagonist and extort Curtis and Gabe again, but this time Curtis says no although Gabe pleaded him to. This is when Ghost finally finds out that Curtis and Gabe have been working for the Antagonist under his POV which causes things to get more complicated for the Saint Patrick’s.
So with the war continuing, Antagonist wants his cut from Curtis. Curtis continue to refuse and is killed. Ghost heart shatters and runs away to Tommy and Kates home. Ghost becomes a straight savage mode from here: Ghost realize Breezes war is the cause of Curtis death. He, Tommy, and Kanan plot to kill him orchestrated by Ghost himself but a bit of Kanans influence. Breeze gets killed, Ghosts first kill.
The final season would be the beginning stage of Kanan being the new kingpin and Ghost going savage mode dropping bodies and killing the Antagonist.

Me 18M and my Gf 18F almost split up yesterday and I need your opinion on this topic
Our dispute began 2 days ago when I said that she can sometimes be a burden. I said that because we're still going to school together and do something like 5-6 times a week. She also needs a lot of maintenance, I often have to reassure her and she's often mad, even though it's bs what she's mad about or she didn't communicate and that's why. She's also very jealous even though we're together for 2½ years and she's to only person ever I was intimate with. The thing is I'm very chill and laid back and just try to enjoy my youth, so that's kind of my personality. She wants things like cute nicknames( even though I gave her one it's just not stereotypical like baby etc.)and other small things. I know that and I try my best to make her happy but sometimes I just can't keep up with it.
So the big Problem that I had was that when she asked me to do her these favors I tried my best. BUT when she promised me to change something like to not be mad or jealous this often she didn't really. There are also small things annoying me like s3x. I also always have to begin and do foreplay for her, but when I told her I wished she began it sometimes she agreed but didn't begin it once. Also small things like when she's at my place and I come out of the shower she doesn't even look or say something. Then there's also the topic of p0rn. She doesn't want me to watch p0rn but also doesn't send me n0des. I don't think watching p0rn sometimes is considered cheating, but she does.
When we had the dispute 3 days ago I was the mad one because she wants me to change a few things for her but if I wanted her to she didn't. The next day she meet up with her bestfriend who kinda changed her mind to be mad because of me and yesterday we thought about breaking up. I don't think I'm in the wrong still, but here's how it went:
We first argued for like an hour and talked about the things listed here. After we said everything that had to be said she told me that she knew my types Asian and I don't like it that much to have s3x when shes on her period. SHE KNEW THAT BECUASE ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS TOLD THAT HIS GF, WHICH IS HER BEST FRIEND. (So mad that he betrayed my trust like that but I will talk to him today)Then we decided to make a "Contract" with our wishes because her bestfriend told her that's a good Idea. My wishes were:

• Don't be mad over small things -Communicate more
• Also think about my perspective
• To trust me more (which also kinda means don't be jealous when I for example only EXPLAIN A GAME TO A GIRL THAT I'M NOT EVEN BEFRIENDED WITH WHILE SHE SITS BESIDE ME) -And to give me the feeling that she's really attracted to me and to sometimes start the deed

Hers were: -To also see her Perspective -to pay attention yo small things -to priories her -to be mindful and honest -No p0rn -to change what she communicates -to not be annoyed when she begins to talk about things she's mad about -to give her emotional support
So after we both agreed she stayed another hour but said that she doesn't want to have s3x(mostly because of that p0rn thing and that my types not really her, but I still find her beautiful)That kind of made me mad because how can she be like that after I said to her I want to have s3x more often and we didn't have s3x for a week. But I didn't showed that I was mad and walked her home.
I don't want to leave her beacause I do love her ,but I also want to have a relaxed relationship where she isn't mad about something 3 times a week and let's me have a bit of freedom(I'm not even talking about having female friends or to go to party's alone etc.) I get that I sometimes am confused and don't give her everything she wants from me. But a this point I'm just exhausted and want to ask you guys about your opinion. Do you think the contracts a good Idea? Do you think we made the right choice? Am I in the wrong? Should we split up?

My bestfriend and i went on a trip just the two of us to a resort. First, he took a video of me and said something to the lines of he's not my boyfriend and i should look for one and then proceeded to act like one during the whole trip. He has a caring nature but I really felt like I had a boyfriend instead of a friend, so i told him to lower down his caring and worrying too much about me. In fairness to him, i am sickly so he tends to get worried.
I thought he was gay but he said he was really fluid and it brings up alarm bells. He kept complaining i was stopping him from looking for other people to have romantic liaisons in that city but I told him I was not stopping him and he can just go but he didn't. He mentioned a lot of people like him but he goes for the "chemistry".
Later on, we talked about our childhood stories and the things we are similar with. Then, he now has a nickname for me. I mentioned I had a favorite singer and he said it like it looks like him.
He also tends to explain himself to me. Like when i was trying to guard my phone, he was saying one thing he is proud of is that his exes never complain about data privacy.
He also constantly observes me, affirms that he's happy when he's with me cause we are always laughing and mentioned in the past that i meant so much to him to which at first i attributed to brotherly love but i can't tell now cause sometimes he gets really weird. When we're together he said he never gets bored. We constantly have a lot of jokes and banters.
So, i was wondering what's up with his remarks? Obviously i know he isn't my boyfriend and why do i have the feeling like I'm dating someone instead of having a friend? It feels like the ones i see on dating reality tv shows.

This was way back when I was still in high school (a known chinese school in manila), I met this girl by chance, we got to know each other as me and a friend of her often ride the same jeep to school every morning. She was 1st year high school then and I was on my 3rd or 4th.. we got along well, we talked on the phone almost everyday for hours, talking just about anything. As time goes by, I began to have this feeling towards her, missing her when I don't get to talk to her, that feeling of butterfly in your stomach when I see her.. but I was afraid to tell her as i'm afraid that we might lose our closeness.. a bestfriend of mine even courted her during those days,.and yes I was jealous.. then one day, i had this idea of sending her a message through pagebeeper (okay, age reveal there), i kinda confess my feelings towards her on that message, but the stupid part is, I changed the last 2 digits of our phone number that I gave the operator, and even used a nickname from Star Wars The phantom menace movie.. just a few minutes after the message was sent, my phone rang.. and it was her, checking if I was the one who sent the message, obviously the torpe in me denied it.. damn I feel so stupid after that, and I really regret for not telling her that I like her.. i should have told her when i had the chance to...

So my bestfriends fav flower is a carnation and the nicknames we have for each other is honeybunch. if someone could please draw a carnation with the stem being the word honeybunch. i would prefer a minimalist design but am open to suggestions. please and thank you.

Summary: Lunara Reynolds, a once happy and carefree girl, experiences a tragic incident when her parents unknowingly buy a cursed dream for her birthday, leading to their gruesome murder. Despite her hatred for dreams, she builds a new family with friends and a love interest, Orian. As they navigate the challenges of dreams-turned-nightmares, Luna discovers Orian's involvement in creating them, driven by a past mistake. Together, Luna and her friends fight against the demonic entities, facing emotional and physical tolls. Orian's complex past is revealed, leading to strained relationships and conflicting feelings. Amid the chaos, Luna seeks solace with Orian, leading to a guilt-ridden encounter. The group continues their battle against the nightmares, witnessing the devastating impact on individuals' mental health, with some succumbing to despair. The story unfolds with a mix of love, betrayal, and the struggle against supernatural forces.
Edit: this is the original writing of the plot. (WIP)
Lunara Reynolds was a lovely girl, Smart,beautiful, and diligent. She never thought of anything bad, she was a loving kid. Ever since dreams were thought of as a currency, after some big mysterious man found out a way to make them and sell them. Everything seemed normal and kind. Her family was well off, a beautiful home, and food in the cabinet. That was until 2037 August 25th she faced a tragic day. Her parents unknowingly bought a cursed dream for her birthday. She didn't know she was going to watch her parents get slaughtered by what she thought was a harmful dream. Torn and ripped by every shred. She had a brother named Helius reynolds. He was out at the time. She was picked up by police before he returned. She now lived on to hate dreams.
She despised every living fact of them. She made a family of her own, Orian summers, Marcos Lee, and finally Stella & John stewart. Everything was great, she had a home with jordin, 3 amazing friends and a simple yet adorable love interest.
Luna grows up cared for and wealthy. She never had to worry about asking for what she wanted; she had it handed to her. Orian was very well off and he treated her as if they knew each other since birth. They were closer than ever. She never doubted his love for her. You’d think about now she'd catch feelings right? Well she did. She had a true love for this man. Though now she is 26 and he is 32, she could never bring herself to speak up. Though these feelings were disposed of when she occurred to a man reappearing in her dreams. Asking Orian about it she was told that the man occurring in her dream was her soulmate. She couldn't believe it. Her one true love was Orian. Or so she thought. She tries countlessly to prove the dream wrong and attempts to make moves onOrian, some working some not so successful.
Until one day, she never thought she would find herself being pressured by Orian to buy a dream. “ I thought he knew,” she told herself. Unknowingly she buys this dream hoping and praying it was a kind dream. So later that same night she has this dream. She falls into a deep yet lucid slumber. And was awakened to a Cafe. A simple cafe, the smell of coffee, the embrace of warm heat waves from the oven in the back.
Her dream seemed normal for the most part. Every night she would go to sleep happily. She was relieved she could go to sleep and experience a beautiful and calming dream. Is what she thought. She goes to sleep one night excited for her dream, was awakened to her house. It wasn't her normal house, it was her parents house. What the fuck? She thought to herself. She looks around, everything seemed the same, everything was in the same place, same angle. “Honey?” She hears from the entering hallway. “Are you home?” It was her mom. Her fucking mom? Terrified. She thinks of that night, the blood, the gore, the trauma, the screams. All of it, she saw it happen. Everything she worked so hard to put in the past she is viewing again. “M-mom?” “SWEETIE you're home! Goodness felt as if it was forever. How was school?” She looked at her hands, they changed? They were little, as if. She was her child self again. Oh no. “Me and your father got you a present! Do you want it now?” Words came out of her mouth but she wasn't speaking “yes mom yes!! I wanna see, what is it??” oh no no no she thinks. “Let me go get it” her mom leaves the room. What the fuck is this, why am I experiencing this. This isn't what I bought. What the fuck was I sold?! Desperately Lunara fight with herself to wake up. She biting and scratching just for some sense of feeling to snap her back to reality. Nothing works. She's trapped. She's trapped and she just vigilantly hurt herself. Her mom comes back with a box. the same box she saw 15 years ago. Fuck “y'know mom i think we should wait, for dad, because I want him to see it too?” She spoke. “Oh honey he's here.” She calls out for her father who appeared. “I'm here now let's open this”
They unwrap the box and it holds an orb. “look honey!! It's a dream, we thought you deserved one. But this one we can all experience!” Suddenly. It activates. We're not even asleep why is it activating?! Then as if in a second a demon appeared. Not just any demon, the same one she experienced years ago. And them almost immediately the demon attacks, Lunara sits there as everything she saw gets acted out once more. “LUNI!!!” her mom screams out. Followed along with screams and sounds of ripping flesh. Sobs and whales are projected from her body. It wasn't her though it was what was shown as her. Tears fall down her face and screams escape from her mouth. “Lu...” her mom attempts to say. But it was cut on by the slice of her neck. Her dad was killed instantly, due to his weak body. He couldn't even scream.
Lunara stands there. Terrified. She never thought she'd have to experience this again. She finally wakes up. Thinking the terror was over, she lays in her bed. Sobbing. Loud enough for the whole house to hear. A sharp pain appears in her leg, she screams and turns to her leg. A large scratch leaking with blood appeared on her leg. Trailing down her leg she sees the same demon she just accounted for. Lunara scream as she never screamed before WHAT THE FUCK she said out loud. WHY ARE YOU HERE LEAVE ME ALONE PLEASE. She yells out to the demon. She gets off her bed and tries to run away only falling instantly. During this commotion Orian comes in scared with bloodshot eyes. A gun in his hand. He looks at Lunara and grabs her immediately. Terrified he looks at the demon and takes his gun in his hand and points in at him. He didn't know what to do. The demon advances him. And within reflex Orian shoots it. The demon lands out the ground, not moving and dissolves into the ground.
After the incident Lunara discards that dream. Her and Orian go to the dream police and report the Incident. Luna didn't use dreams in a while after the tragedy. She was under recovery due to her leg. Many similar cases to luna's were appearing and some making it out and some weren’t. No one knew the causes of these nightmares. That's what they called them. They seemed to be corrupted or messed with by someone or something.
Luna tries to live with this new norm. Her and Orian go out together trying to dispose of the demons that were appearing. They tag along together tackling problems as they appear. But unbeknowingly that everytime they dispose of one night mare another one pops up almost instantly.
They find out Orian seems to be the one causing all of this, He was once from a wealthy family before the dream currency. But he was the one who made the dreams possible. To buy, to sell, to trade. Until one day. He made a mistake. A mistake in making a nightmare. The nightmare had departed him from his parents. He was so focused on reversing this he made more and more every time it stole someone from him, girlfriend,Bestfriend, even family. It targeted him on purpose. No one believed him. It was just a child’s tale to everyone. They all thought he was the main culprit. Due to everyone being so close to him. He was the suspect. Even at such a young age. And everyone believed that. He was kicked out of his home. Was sent to jail. Once released he had a hatred for everyone. Everyone who has ever doubted him. He made these nightmares since he was the only one who knew how and the secret to making dreams was released. Nightmares weren’t heard of as of yet. So it was a secret only he possessed.
Luna and friends come together and fight against the creation of demons that Orian had made. These battles carry on over time. They all gain strength, wisdom, and stealth. These demons roamed the free land like they lived there. These demons are strong, fast and can predict your every move making them difficult to defeat. Angelita who at the time was Luna’s best friend hated every molecule of Orian . She knew he was bad from the start. He never truly trusted him. She loved that she was right but on the wrong occasion. It seems she knew everyone in this city. They didn't know what to think of each other though Orian on the other hand was pushed away almost instantly. It's like those 15 years meant nothing to Luna. He was gone so quickly. Luna couldn’t help but think of him though. He really was her best friend for the last century. She still loves him after what he did. Those feelings aren’t something she could just get rid of. She wanted to reach out to him. Everything inside her told her not to but she couldn't resist.
She found herself in his home the next night. She couldn't go at day or else the others would notice. He was surprised she came back. He almost embraced her when she arrived. She pushed him away. She only came to talk. She questions him and he gives an answer every time. He was so honest with her. He told her how to kill them when she first found out. Her friends gave him the nickname “bitch boy” after they heard. She couldn't say a word after she ran out of questions. Its as if her body moved by itself but she got up and sat right on his lap. She told him to kiss her. He questioned and then kissed her. She almost moaned at his lips.
She couldn’t stop herself. She kept going. It felt so good his kisses on her skin. His hands grasped at her neck and waist. Their bodies moved in sync and the night carried on.
She returned back to her friends the next morning. Trying not to make it suspicious. She felt guilty for what she did. She was disgusted. She felt ashamed.
They returned to their normal routines. Following traces of blood and screams. Sometimes they wouldn't make it in time to save others. But they always killed the demon. Itd take them years to kill all the demons they’d have to recruit every military force out there.
The stress is unbearing to these individuals. Some dont have energy to deal with the demons. Luna and her friends have multiple encounters of individuals giving in to the demons and committing suicide.

I, (M) have been hating on my ex best friend (M) for a while now, because of all of the stuff he said to me and did to me as a kid growing up as his friend. before i decided to leave the hellhole that was our friendship, i was being bullied by him, and my ex friend group for what was like, 5 months. they would laugh at me, call me names, give me derogatory nicknames and other crap like that. and at the forefront of this was my best friend.
he was taunting me laughing at me along with the others, and made fun of me, saying i had special needs (in a way that school kids do ofc) back then, i was a sensitive kid, so i would cry and shout at him and my friends when they said that, because i knew that they meant to say that in a offensive way.
my first attempt at trying to tell my teacher about this and get the situation sorted was when i told my tutor teacher (or form teacher in us) about how they called me autistic. this however, backfired when one of my form/tutor classmates heard what i did, and told my best friend. my bestfriend procceded to ghost me, along with my other friends, and everyone who i was slightly close to ghosted me.
after this, i developed a unhealthy habit of calling myself names, and breaking myself down i cried for hours sometimes, and i lied to people about how i really felt.
flashforward to september, after being fed up with their nonsense, i left their friendgroup, and found new friends. i decided to open up to my mom about how i felt, and when my mom found out, she decided to speak to my best friends mom, to clear up what was going on. when the time came round for my mom to speak to my best friends mom, my best friend found out about this, and told everyone at school, people started to call me a snitch for seemingly 'telling' on him, and it made me feel pretty guilty. the talk happened afterschool, so i had to go to his house. he then told me to help him clear this up and say everything was fine, so 'he wouldnt be punished that badly' me, feeling guilty about what happened decided to help him.
after that we were seemingly back to normal, everything was how it was before secondary school, and we were back on square one. one day however, after the mom to mom convo, i found out that he called me a snitch, and all the other things he had said behind my back.
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so now it is the present day, i am still ignoring him, or atleast aknowleging him. i plan for it to stay that way, because i generally think hes a terrible friend. i havent really told him why i dont want to speak to him at all again, but he still thinks we're generally good friends again so i feel a little guilty when i ignore him. AITA?

I (17F) have never had real friends my whole life, I have only known school friends that would forget about me once the bell rang. It took a hard tool on me when I was in elementary school as I could not comprehend how I could be someone left out when we (6 to 10 y/o) were not patches of friends yet and were the most free to be friendly with one another and play. In middle school, noticing that I lacked capability to create strong friendships made me question things about myself. Was I not invested enough? Or interesting/smart enough? Or maybe it was my appearance? I could not find an answer as to why i could only be a temporary friendly element and not a friend. It made me hate my classmates from 9th to 11th grade.
As of right now, I’m in 12th grade and so my last year of school. Entering it in September 2023 I promised myself that I would work hard to create and maintain friendships. I didn’t want to leave high school knowing that in a few years I would have neither friends nor memories to be nostalgic about. And so, I did, in my first English class of the year I sat down in the last free table because I was late to the class. I happened to have sat next to a boy that I have never in school, my first challenge of the year. I started the conversation and realized he wasn’t horrible. Later that day, I found out he was bestfriend with another boy in our class. We started talking altogether, I was thrilled because I really saw potential in us. Ever since then, the boys (17M) and I are not friends yet (in my opinion) because I can strongly sense their duo in our trio and that they are things I find not right sharing that I think should be to friends because I know it will either be told or dismissed. I like the boys, they’re cool and we laugh in science class every wednesday but it is not it, I’m starting to think that I should have started my friend journey with girls.
That thought first popped up when I compared myself with the other girls in my class and realized that I was the only girl surrounded only by boys and exclusively hanging out with them. I am not a pick me (I SWEAR) and I know that my classmates also know that I’m not because I don’t act like one and like girls, girly things and I don’t think I’m different. I don’t feel bad because I am scared of being badly perceived. I am resentful of the girls in my class because they are friends with girls and realized how superior girl friendships are. You might say that a soul is a soul and both genders can be great but as a girl and with my life experiences I am more than craving a close relationship and I can’t find that in the position that I am in. The more I think about it the more I hate it. It feels wrong, I feel again left out and I’m almost outraged by the thought that the universe might not think I’m deserving of a girl friendship. I like the girls in my class and some are real sweethearts but unfortunately after so many months I have not grown close to any (the boys keeping me busy most of the time).
I like the boys and I think they are fun to have around don’t get me wrong, but I want to have more and better. This is in no way a shade to boys or boys friendships, I know they are awesome for you. Either it is me venting about how nobody likes me and how everyone is so mean, I am aware of friendships not working with me also being my fault and my doing, my goal is not to be pitied. I am open to advice on how to manage that situation and to any opinion.
P.S: I physically cringed at all the times I wrote “the boys” forgive me I didn’t want to call these immature creatures “males” and I could not find them correct nicknames to save my life.

Me (F14) and my best friend (NB20) have been friends for almost 2 years now, we met when I was in 8th grade and they were a senior. We met when I went on a walk to a park to get away from my family and they called me a slut for my outfit, but we became friends after running into each other again, and our friendship has just grown more and more since then. But recently people/friends have been telling me that they are weird and treat me badly. Saying that it’s not normal to hit your friends and call them mean nicknames as a joke. It’s been starting to get into my head and I can’t tell if it really isn’t normal, my best friend has been mad at these other people for telling me that their bad and say that it’s causing them to get depressed and telling me to stop hanging out with these people and that they will hurt themselves if I don’t. They’ve also been getting mad at me for not responding quick enough when I’m at school (they graduated and are taking time off before starting college) and I’m afraid of getting in trouble during school, but they also have depression and are known to get into depressive episodes and need me to talk them out of self harm/suicide. I have been getting upset with them because they are constantly telling me how ugly I am and that no one would ever date me/want me like they do (my boyfriend thought this was really weird), and they always threaten to hurt me, like this one time when they took me to their garage and grabbed an axe and acted like they were seriously going to kill me and even swung it at me (aimed it at a piece of cardboard behind me), it was very convincing and I even started crying. They also hit me with things as a joke cause it’s funny and I understand how they think it’s funny. This is the only place where I can freely speak and talk to other people about how I feel about my best friend because a while back they lost their discord account and I gave them access to mine, but now even though they have their account back they constantly log into mine and look at who I’m texting, read my chats, and even respond to people pretending to be me and being rude to them, and telling me to stop talking to certain people. I feel like if I don’t cut these people telling me to drop my bestfriend out of my life I’ll lose my bestfriend and/or they will hurt themselves, I really care about them and don’t know what to do. But if all these things really aren’t normal ways to interact with friends/best friends I don’t know what I’ll do, because this is genuinely normal to me and I don’t understand how it isn’t.
TLDR: People are telling me that my best friend of two years is treating me bad but I don’t see how and I feel like I’m being forced to pick between my bestfriend and other people/friends in my life.

I've been trying to move on from him.
They made him the main guy in our performance, and my bestfriend is the female lead. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEELLLL. He's like the first guy i've cried so hard for, ever. he talked to me today and called me by my nickname, i haven't heard him say it in a while. He likes someone else, but i have been having a hard time moving on from him recently because i found out he featured our picture last year. He only does that to people he's close with. I swear my heart dropped when i found out
He's also the first guy I introduced to my parents even though we never dated. (Yes, they did meet) and the first guy i've done anything physical with such as hug, hold hands, etc But it was all from last year :')) so he's unfazed and ig he doesn't really care anymore
Any advice/thoughts please?
What would you do if your bestfriend and your ex (?) crush are main characters in a romantic play?

Recently, the person(24M) whom I've been dating used his bestfriend's(23F) nickname on me;his girlfriend (23F).
When I confronted that he said me, he had a fight with her before he called me and that was running in his head and he used that in a flow. Since after that I feel worst. Why would he use some other girl's nick name on me?
I share everything with my bestfriend and she started hating him for this. I do like him but I don't want her to hate him. He did do a mistake. I can't accept that. Am I supposed to leave him for what he did?
Also one day, I made him meet my bestfriend, he didn't want to come, I forced him to meet her, she had invited me for that particular place. Later she started telling why didn't he ask you to eat. He never cared. I never thought about this that time.
But later I started fighting with him about this and he was like your friend had invited you and she should be asking you. Why are you asking me? Was what he said right?
And he does care I know that. I'm not in any delusion. My bestfriend tells that no he doesn't. He's not serious about me. But since Day 1 he's like I want you forever in my life. He's never dated before and I'm his first girlfriend.
whom should I believe? I really need help in this.
TL;DR

So for context my baby is almost 1yr and most of the time will turn her head/acknowledge when I call her name, we’ll call my baby Christine… my bestfriend(we’ll call her Brittany) constantly does and it annoys me so ducking much! And yes I have brought it up before, to which she brushes it off like it’s nothing… I don’t want her to be called by any other name so she doesn’t get confused about what her name is, nicknames are fine like “sweetie pie” etc, but a proper name like Raymond(like haha I get it everybody loves Raymond) but in my opinion call her that when she’s older and understands and knows her name is Christine. I have another child who is 5-10yrs(vagueness for privacy) older than my baby who I’ll call names like Tom or something from bluey but that’s only because she’s much older and knows her name is Pamela(fake name) so she’s obviously not confused about that.
So AITA if I bring it up again(when it happens) but put my foot down about it?
UPDATE! So we aren’t friends anymore and not even because of this post or the reason I made the post, long of the short is she has been getting distant(has a couple of jobs and is studying) like I get it and there’s also a age gap she’s 23 and I’m 31, so I figured she might want to hang out with people her own age who don’t have kids, which is cool I get that. I said as much(can put texts sent in the comments) the anger and just negativity coming from her in reply to my initial msgs. So the friendship is now ended and I can also now see she was a narcissist one who rivals my birth giver(I’m NC with my “mother” for context)
Happy to send anyone a msg about other things that happened that all led to this but yeah, thought I’d be sadder for longer(it was a 2/3yr friendship) buuuuut is it bad to say that I’m not? I get my kids to myself, o don’t have my music taste trodden all over because it’s not the ONE person they want to listen to, I get control of my radio back, I don’t have my parenting choices questions or boundaries repeatedly crossed.