Welp. I’ll try to sum this up as best as possible but I just feel like writing out my feelings and feedback will be helpful. But after month and months of trying and talking about “you moving out” the day has come and tomorrow my movers will be here at 8:30 in the morning. I’m not taking much, if anything at all. I didn’t want to do it because I’m actually terrified of being alone (past trauma from loosing my mom at a young age).
I’ve made in pretty well in life, most of my success is new after years of giving everything to my companies I am finally seeing the reward but also being conservative about it. I spend on things I like but mostly am minimalist. I signed a lease at a relatively frivolous apartment 5 miles down the road from her and we’re still together but this starts the journey of living apart. She however isn’t financially sound at all and I’m worried. I can take care of myself okay, but I just don’t know how this space / boundary thing is really supposed to work.
I know I’ve got work to do on myself. My mind runs crazy, so being alone isn’t something I’m great at. At the same time I’m of course giving this all a chance, but I’m just looking at my stuff spending our “last” night together as me living here and I’m as anxious as can be. I feel like I should be pumped about it. New place, downtown, brushing shoulders with the upper epsilon, .4 miles from the beach in lovely Boca Raton FL. But I sit here terrified of being alone and mentally not being able to do it.
We are saying we’ll see each other daily but and as much as I’d love that, I don’t think that enables me to do the work I should be on myself. I also fear that she doesn’t take good care of her self. Her finances are low as she’s trying to get her business off the ground. I want to help her financially as much as I can (I keep most my business in my company because I don’t need more then what I need right now). But, I’m not sure what to do or how messy that gets.
I love her, I just want her to be okay, I want to be okay too. I’ve always taken care of others so much better than myself. And I’m just feeling really stuck and scared for the future. I’ve never really lived alone (without a partner / Roomates etc). And frankly I’m not sure If I’ve gone too far and should have waited longer and not have signed the lease and all that.
Any advice would be welcomed.
TL;DR: 31, successful, moving out on my own away from my partner. Worried about myself and her through this process.

Hi everyone! I'm 23 years old, and think I'm experiencing significant ADHD symptoms that interfere with my daily life. It was suspected by a teacher in second grade since I was struggling so much, but my mom was averse to the idea and insisted I was gifted and needed to be put in harder courses. This eventually burnt me out by high school, and I began regularly skipping, failing courses, and nearly didn't graduate.
Fast forward to university, and I had to drop out because everything felt so difficult to the point school felt like drowning. I've had numerous other difficulties in adult life with remembering appointments, general organization and cleaning, etc. I feel lazy and awful and broken.
I've been in intense psychiatric treatment for 3 months, and things are starting to finally look up for me and I want to go to school again. However even with a higher mood all the struggles with focus, organization, etc are present. I can barely keep a clean house let alone study. I think I need to get assessed but I am nervous both because I am worried they will see me as drug-seeking because of my SUD diagnosis, as well as being worried that it is "too late" for me, since every ADHDer I know in my life got diagnosed either in childhood or around 18-20. Does anyone have experience with later diagnosis/pursuing ADHD diagnosis as someone with a SUD diagnosis?
Thanks!

To start with I love my boyfriend, I never ever intend to cheat on him and personally find it inexcusable to do such a thing. 2 weeks ago I met my bf’s colleague and since then I can’t stop thinking about him, I have never felt like this after meeting someone for the first time (it usually takes a few meetings or dates). It’s not that I want to further anything with him, but it’s upsetting me just how often my thoughts drift to him. I love my bf, he’s become so thoughtful and I want to think about the future together, so this is really bothering me. The tough part is that I am going through a very difficult time in my life, one of the hardest ever in fact. I feel so often that I am overwhelmed and can’t cope, I deal with a lot of emotionally tough things on a daily basis and feel a huge amount of pressure in almost every aspect of my life. I get very sad thoughts a lot of the time, and I feel thinking about this guy is my mind’s way of distracting me so I don’t fall deeper into a depression. So on one hand I don’t want to think about him cause I feel it takes away from my good relationship with my bf, on the other hand I feel it may be protective in some way, but I could be wrong. My question is it the right thing to stop thinking about him? And if so how can I deal with these feelings and how should I stop them?

Bare with me here guys, cause I'm in the midst of it and I feel overwhelmed. It's a lot and I just really want to get it off my chest. I know it's too much for ppl to read it.
Me 39F have been in a loving relationship with a 41M, also happens to be HSP. We've been together since 2006. He has his struggles, suffers PTSD and some trauma. We bond over it and have a loving relationship. He is my best friend. And we feel it's us against the world a lot of the time. We can talk for hours. Still, after all those years. We don't have kids since I have severe endometriosis, was diagnosed in 2020. And having a hard time with it. I've become chronically ill, was diagnosed with adenomyosis as well, and the endo has gotten to a stage 5 where my organs are adhered, deeply invaded and I'm in daily pain. Nervepain as well. I had surgery for it but it's returned. And it's worse. I had to stop working because of it. My partner is very understanding and helps out where he cans.
I installed Snapchat, tbh I don't know why. Since I don't use socials other than reddit. So I can't say why. Then all of a sudden someone added me. This was last oct. And it turned out to be my long lost ex bf, that ghosted me 21 years ago. My first love. Not my first bf, but someone I truly loved for the first time. Someone I was madly in love with. He lives in the UK, while I lived in the netherlands back then. We had a 3.5 year long distance relationship. Which is a long time when you're 17/18/19/20. We saw each other every other month tho. When I was 20 I wanted to study abroad and was making arrangements to go to the UK to study. But it was delayed, and I went on holiday to see him. I didn't see anything coming. But in that last holiday in dec of 2003, I stayed with him for 4 weeks. He was different from day 1. He was late to pick me up, and was stressed out, he didn't seem happy. He said he missed me so much if I wasn't around. Yet I had a nagging gut feeling that something was up. I caught him ringing this girl, in the garage. And me being an HSP, I could spot his lies right away. He convinced me he was talking to his friend, to ask for some advice about our relationship. Pretty strange while I was right there. He was shocked. So I knew he lied. Over the next few weeks I was alone in his house. He was working, his mam also was working. I felt aweful. I cried a lot. Was alone with his dog, who comforted me. That holidays was one big mind f*ck. On Monday he wanted to be with me, on Tuesday he had no idea, on Wednesday he assured me he would make it work etc. I checked his computer when he was not around. I found some weird Emails to this American girl. She said she loved him, encrypted photos, he's told me about her. So it was double the shock. I couldn't tell the date so who knows it mightve been before our relationship. But he's told me about her and he said it was never romantically.
Anyways, I wrote down some telephone numbers and email actresses I found on his computer. Who belonged to his lady friends, ppl he actually told me about. I knew he was friends with. The days after that, I caught him ringing someone in the bathroom. While listening at the door. He was frustrated and I couldn't here what he was saying but it was obvious he was talking to the same person as he was in the garage.
I checked his phone when he was downstairs. And saw messages and missed calls and I had a name. I knew he was cheating. He never told me about this girl. I confronted him, he said she was just a friend. And I was accusing him he said.
With new years I was upset and went to bed early, I had nothing left. He wasn't being honest. Even tho he still tried to convince me we'd work it out. I knew it was the end. My first love was cheating and lying. At. New years I acted like I was asleep. He actually left the house with the car. And I had no idea where he went. It was 11 o'clock at night. He came back around 1.
This holiday was a holiday from hell. Never saw anything coming, up until that first day I arrived. And he picked me up from the airport. I thought we were going to have a great holiday. Talking about how we might move in together at some point after my study. I was madly in love. And he said he was as well and was sick to his stomach If I wasn't around.
The despair in the departure lounge when I had to go back home was real. I was in shock. He had been mind f*king Me for 4 weeks. And we still were intimate. Something I regret until this day. Why didn't I say no? And how can he have sex with me while being in love with someone else? I knew there and then that he didn't love me at all. Even tho he said he really did.
The weeks after I was home he started breadcrumbing me. Lying that he was ill and busy. Didn't have time for me. I asked for answers and finally told him that I knew he was lying the entire time. I reached out to his lady friends, cause I had written down there emailadresses. And we used MSN back in the day. He told me he went swimming with one of em. Turned out to be a lie, cause I asked this friend of him, she said she hadn't seen him in ages. When he was in the garage telling me he needed guidance from his friend.. I also had her email. So reached out to her. She said she never rang him while I was with him. So I knew he was lying here as well.
I told him he was lying said I was accusing him and I kept asking for answers. Then he said he didn't love me anymore and ghosted me completely. I kept trying to contact him and weeks later. This girl picked up screaming her lungs out to leave him alone. So I knew he was with her. I tried contacting him in every way possible. Even trough his mam. He never responded.
I was gutted. My heart ripped out of my chest. Never ever did I experience heartache and lies like this. A dagger to the chest. I fell into a deep depression. Had never felt that way. Guys, it took me 2.5 years to get over him. Or should I say.. To be able to block the emotions. I never got over it. This left me with a scar so deep that still up until this day I tell ppl it's the worst thing I've felt. I looked him up in 2007, 3 years later. And saw he was still with her. Looking happy on the picture I saw on Facebook. I told myself what a lying piece of sh*t and tried to move on but again it upset me. I was already with my partner and he was understanding. He knew all about my heartache. I literally thought I'd never be able to love again. I wanted to become a nun. I told myself. And then my current partner arrived. While I was still in love with my ghosting ex.
So last oct he added me on Snapchat. I gave him my number and we started using the whatsapp. I told my partner all about it and he said I should be cautious. I was like noooo come on its 21 years later its lovely to talk to my first love again. I had nothing but good memories. We talked for days on end. He seemed so open and was interested. He remembered so much. He even said I was his first love we well and he will always love me. We shared similar interests, he told me all about his 3 kids. And then told me about his ex wife. I learned it was her. The woman he cheated with. He didnt say her name and it turned out he had forgotten all about how things went down. Then I told him I remember her well. He didn't respond. He told me how she abused him physically and emotionally. They have a son together that she also seems to be using emotionally. He divorced her in 2016. He says it's the worst choice he ever made. To be with her. She hit him, screams swears.. And he hates to leave his son with er for 4 days a week.
Sad to say a little thing in me was like: "ok karma does excist" then again I really felt for him. It sounds like she is aweful. He lost friends because of her as well. They wanted nothing to do with him anymore.
Over the months after that we talked every day. He is newly married and has been with his new wife since 2017. They have 2 kids together. I love how he talks about them. His kids are great. My partner is fine with us talking. But over the months memories came flooding back in. Memories of the ghosting, of the lies, of the pain I went trough. I started getting some resentment. And I noticed he pulled away from me. Still messaged me every day, but not as intense. It felt like he knew that I remembered it all again. And one day I woke up and it felt like I was back in 2004. The pain was unreal. I was angry, sad.. And had the full picture again. He never mentioned a word about it. And I was keeping it in. Trying to be tough.
Then I remembered he did say in oct that he tried looking for me online in 2016 cause he thought he wanted to apologise. But I was nowhere to be found. Cause I didn't use socials in 2016. He thought he wanted to apologise? Strange.
Over the last few months he's been pulling away from me. Messages have become very polite instead of cracking jokes and telling me about his kids. It's polite and short. And then I all of a sudden snapped. On the whatsapp. We had only rang each other 3 times. And every time he said he is busy and it's hard to ring each other. He also doesn't want his wife to be around when we call. My partner does stay around. He doesn't mind and trusts my judgement. So I asked Mr ghoster if his wife knows we're in touch. He said yes but not the amount we talk. I told him that worries me cause he kept saying that he would love to meet up when I go to the UK this year.
So all a bit uncomfortable. After these questions it became more distant. But still regular. When I flipped out I told him that I remembered our past. A d that it hurts. He send me a long messages with apologies. That he was immature. And aweful to me. That I never deserved that. I told him I wanted to speak to him on the phone or video call. He said he didn't have time. It would take weeks before I finally spoke to him. I told him before that he needed to own up to it I order for me to move on. Since I deserved some closure. He said he was willing to. Hated how he treated me.
So I rang him last Saturday. After weeks of waiting. He didn't apologise at all. He said he made poor choices and for the rest just listened. And I was being very polite. Too polite in my partners opinion. He said I didn't speak my mind and gave him way too much credit. He didn't own up to anything. He kept saying his ex was toxic and it was kinda her fault. While I absolutely believed he would own up to it like he did on the whatsapp before. But none of that. He did listen to me. I told him I was so hurt back in the day and I made such poor choices because of his actions. Cause I felt worthless. He was my first love. And you only have one of those. He said he also loved me back then but with a lot of hesitation.
He remembers details of our relationship that I didn't. Which perfume I had on, the way my hair looked, the movies we watched, what we ate, where we went etc. Details I had forgotten. I feel very loved when I think about our relationship. But that last holiday it all changed.
I don't know how to handle this contact with him. I feel I still love him. But not romantically. I see that I've grown so much over the years and he seems to be stuck, has issues with his emotions, I feel he's not opening up anymore. And he seems like a different person than back in oct. He keeps apologising that he doesn't have time for me. And it's all just very weird. When I called him last Saturday he ended by saying that he would def talk to me that day. He was pitying me. He kept emphasising he would try and talk to me. It felt like he was feeling sorry for me. Very odd. He then talked to me on the WhatsApp and said his phone died and that was that. I haven't spoken to him anymore.
I don't know what to make of it. It feels awkward now. I told him it'd overwhelming and that the phone dying excuse is so childish. That I don't need him to pity Me. I feel he's not being honest. It's that HSP gut feeling that tells me something is up. Idk if it had something to do with his wife, or something in the past or abojt me. But my sixth sense is in overdrive.
Idk if I should stop this contact. Since Im happy he's back in my life. But at the same time he doesn't seem sincere at all. Not anymore. Having him back in my life is almost unbearing to me. I remember the trauma it's caused me. Yet I feel I've overly romanticed that he's back into my life. My partner says he's narcissistic and he's tricked me. Cause he acted like my BFF for months until I started remembering the past. And brought it up.
Im struggling to have him in my life, but I don't like the idea of not speaking to him anymore. And losing him again. I thought I was going to meet his wife and kids. But I do wonder now if she knows we're talking. Why does this get to me so much? Why do I feel I need that real time apology. On the phone, in real life. For something that happened 2q years ago?! My friends say they would feel the same. Since he treated me badly. And ghosting is so damaging. I also think it wasn't being immature. It was a lack of caring. He moved on so quickly.
This man is really getting to me. Because of our past and the hurt he's caused, but also the lovely thoughts about him being my first love, but also my gut feeling that something is off about him. And the fact he can switch his demeanour like that. He comes across very sincere when you hear him. But is he fooling me? My HSP radars are in overdrive since being in touch with him. I'm completely out of balance. I can't focus. I have all these questions. Of anger of hurt, but also joy and happy memories... Wtf?! My partner is so understanding and talks to me abojt all these emotions. And I'm very honest about em. He says this guy is messing with me. But it doesn't feel like it. Yet it does. Aaaaarghh what do I do?!
I've always known I'm HSP. I have it badly. Sometimes even with paranormal experiences. I know when something is going to happen and to whom. I have many examples of that. I can get really sick around some ppl. And Im so sensitive to energies. Me and my partner talk without words. Our HSP is so strong that we don't need words and have endless conversations sometimes. It's very hard to explain.
What do I do with my first love. I'd love to make it work and have a friendship with him. But I get this gut feeling. Idk what it is.

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Partners and customers alike, how do y’all feel about presenting customers at the window with a “question of the day”? I am awful at connecting and when I do I’m just an awkward mess. I was thinking about maybe asking customers a daily question to spark a short conversation, but it seems a little silly. What do y’all think? Any other tips on connecting?
2 years into this job and I cannot for the life of me connect with folks at the window (embarrassing, I know). It’s easier to talk to customers when they come in, but something about talking to customers at the window (especially during rushes) is just super intimidating.

The link between Post-SSRI Sexual Dysfunction, Hard Flaccid Syndrome, Post Finasteride Syndrome, Pelvic Floor Dysfunction, Chronic Pelvic Pain Syndrome and advice on how to start your healing journey based on 8 years of research and personal experiences : pssdhealing (reddit.com)
Here are all my thoughts and advice based on my personal experiences, other people’s insight and helpful experiences, and research I have done on and off about pelvic floor issues from the past eight years or so. I am not claiming that any of this is revolutionary, but I hope it can help some of you out there to give you a head start on healing and advance our understanding of these conditions. As I am a 27 year old male with previous major problems with pelvic floor issues and hard flaccid, some of my advice may be biased towards my condition. However, I believe everyone can benefit from a lot of this because I really do think that all of these conditions that I mentioned are linked in at least some way, especially by pelvic floor dysfunction and sex hormone desensitization. I try not to come to these forums because it increases anxiety and negative emotions which leads to worse pelvic floor symptoms, so my apologies if I do not respond to your questions. For hard flaccid and pelvic floor affected people, follow my advice and I am confident you can heal and reach a place where your symptoms barely affect your life, if at all, which is where I am at now. The mentality of trying to find a 100% “magic cure” solution just leads to anxiety and catastrophic thinking if you have a set back which will only worsen your symptoms. You can and will heal. I know this is a lot of information, but try to implement just one or two things at a time. Focus on the present, and take it one day at a time. Don’t get overwhelmed. All of this is my opinion and not professional medical advice. Talk with your doctor before starting anything.
Post Finasteride Syndrome (PFS), Post-SSRI Sexual Dysfunction (PSSD), Hard Flaccid Syndrome (HFS), Pelvic Floor Dysfunction, and Chronic Pelvic Pain Syndrome all can have some similar symptoms. I believe that they are all either caused or can be exacerbated by androgen and estrogen receptor insensitivity and are triggered by medication, genital injury, and pelvic floor inflammation and dysfunction. The pelvic floor is rich in androgen receptors and estrogen receptors. However, without proper androgen receptor activation and sensitivity, the pelvic floor muscles don’t have enough DHT which line the tissues of the pelvic floor, genitalia, and lower urinary tract. DHT is vital for healthy sexual functioning in both sexes - it provides an anabolic effect to tissues to provide strength, stability, healing, and relaxation to tissues. As a result of androgen receptor insensitivity and lack of DHT, the pelvic floor can become chronically weakened, tight, and inflamed which reduces blood flow to the region leading to even more androgen receptor insensitivity and thus less DHT. These symptoms can cause psychological stress to the individual which tightens the pelvic floor further leading to more symptoms and less blood flow. One study found that androgen sensitivity has raised the possibility that androgens can be used to rebuild the weakened and/or damaged muscles comprising the pelvic floor - source. Some people may also have normal hormone levels in the blood when tested, but these hormones cannot reach or be effective in the pelvic floor tissues or brain due to sex hormone insensitivity and the lack of the blood flow in the region caused by pelvic floor tightness and dysfunction. It is also likely that there is a problem with desensitized estrogen receptors causing a similar mechanism of dysfunction because they are also found in the pelvic floor, genitals, and brain and are important for pelvic floor health, sexual functioning, cognition, and emotions in both sexes. The most important element to remember to help start the healing process for these disorders is to boost blood flow through supplements, stretches, and exercises which will increase both androgen and estrogen receptor sensitivity over time.
Many males with PFS, PSSD, and Pelvic Floor dysfunction are affected by the hard flaccid condition.
Post Finasteride Syndrome (PFS) caused by Finasteride, a 5-alpha-reductase inhibitor (5-ARI), plummets DHT levels in the body to try to help hair loss causing sexual dysfunction and pelvic floor issues. Androgen receptors that surround the pelvic floor, genitals, and brain become desensitized due to the Finasteride leading to less DHT binding to these receptors causing dysfunction and a tight, weak pelvic floor. The tight, dysfunctional pelvic floor now restricts blood flow which impacts healing and the delivery of testosterone to this area that further exacerbates androgen insensitivity leading to less DHT in these tissues. Since androgen receptors are found in the brain and androgens have neuroprotective effects, this could be one reason why some PFS and PSSD sufferers are also impacted cognitively. An herbal supplement called Saw Palmetto has also been reported to cause a disorder similar to PFS because it is also a 5-ARI that blocks the conversion of testosterone into DHT. Another disorder called Post Accutane Syndrome (PAS) is also similar to PFS and it reduces DHT as well through being a 5-ARI: “Isotretinoin, used to treat severe acne, has been shown to induce hormonal changes, especially to reduce 5 alpha-reductase in the production of the tissue-derived dihydrotestosterone (DHT) metabolite 3 alpha-Adiol G.”. PFS, PAS, and PSSD are thought to cause not only androgen receptor desensitization, but likely estrogen receptor desensitization as well.
For Post-SSRI Sexual Dysfunction (PSSD), SSRIs are also known to decrease androgens and down regulate androgen receptors. This study shows that SSRIs can have an anti-estrogenic effect as well and can even reduce the expression of estrogen receptors (ER), including in the hypothalamus.. As sex hormones get desensitized in the pelvic floor, genital region, and brain, it causes localized DHT and estrogen levels in these tissues to decrease causing emotional blunting, sexual dysfunction, pelvic floor issues, hard flaccid syndrome, and more. The pelvic floor dysfunction can then prevent the sex hormone receptors from being reactivated and sensitized due to restricting oxygen and sex hormone rich blood flow to the tissues. SSRIs can cause androgen receptor insensitivity and estrogen receptor insensitivity by severely inhibiting the serotonin transporter (SERT) leading to increased serotonin levels which desensitizes those receptors throughout the body. One key to help heal from PSSD is increasing androgen production, androgen receptor sensitivity, and blood flow to boost BDNF, SERT, and DHT levels to hopefully allow any estrogen receptor desensitization recover on its own over time after everything else is normalized. Once androgen levels in local tissues (pelvic floor, brain, genitals) are normalized again through androgen receptor activation and sensitivity, it will encourage the conversion of androgens into estrogens in these tissues via aromatase. It is also worth to mention that some community members are trying to restore estrogen receptor sensitivity via boosting estrogen in various ways including by taking hops extract which is a potent phytoestrogen. This is also interesting: Estradiol represents another important natural ligand for androgen receptors that may play an essential role for the androgen receptor function and the development of the male reproductive system.
As mentioned earlier, people with PSSD and other disorders might have normal looking hormone blood tests (testosterone, DHT, estrogen, etc), but the issue is that these hormones are not functioning in the brain, pelvic floor, and genitals properly due to androgen and estrogen receptor insensitivity. An important thing to also recognize is that the medical community still has no official explanation how exactly SSRIs cause all of these debilitating side effects, but they are still being readily prescribed without informed consent about the risks of PSSD. It is unfortunate that it is people like us on the internet leading the charge to investigate and inform. We all need to continue to do our part to spread awareness of these iatrogenic disorders to warn people about the risks of taking these medications because their medical providers aren’t likely going to. Thank you to the PSSD Network for helping to give a voice to the unheard.
Post-SSRI Sexual Dysfunction (PSSD): Biological Plausibility, Symptoms, Diagnosis, and Presumed Risk Factors
Androgen receptor (AR) inactivation in mice led to reduction in hypothalamic neural nitric oxide synthase (nNOS), indicating the regulatory sexual function of this neurotransmitter. Furthermore, activation of the pre and post-synaptic 5HT1A receptors was found to be correlated with inhibitory effect on erectile function. All of these factors are speculated to be involved in this symptom and might be related to epigenetic alteration of androgen receptor (AR) and estrogen receptor (ER) densities due to influence of SSRIs on the epigenome.
In male PSSD sufferers, the penile shaft can be rigid during erection, yet the glans of the penis remains flaccid.This symptom may arise from hypo-activation of the dopaminergic and oxytocinergic pathways. The glans of the penis, in particular, receives its blood supply from the deep dorsal artery. Perhaps this points to a selective arterial malfunction relative to pelvic floor dysfunction which usually accompanies PSSD.
Here is another interesting study that gives support to the importance of increasing blood flow to help heal:
If SSRIs produce sexual side effects by impairing vasocongestion to the genital region, it would be expected that pharmacologic agents that increase blood flow to the genital region would improve sexual functioning. Indeed, several anecdotal reports and studies have found that sildenafil (a drug designed to treat erectile failure by increasing blood flow into the penile tissue) was successful in reversing SSRI-induced sexual dysfunction in both men and women [8,9,87,88,109]. Sildenafil acts to increase blood flow into the genital tissue by facilitating c-GMP activity that is initiated by nitric oxide [19] and preliminary evidence suggests that the SSRIs may cause sexual difficulties by inhibiting nitric oxide synthase [39,118].
Here is a paper from a community member that hypothesizes that the main issue is lasting estrogen receptor insensitivity just to give another interesting perspective on Post-SSRI Sexual Dysfunction, Post-Finasteride Syndrome, and Post-Retinoid Sexual Dysfunction
As the body is starved of DHT, ARs upregulate in response. At the same time, ER activation is significantly increased as a result of the increased production of Estradiol during treatment (due to higher Testosterone availability by reduced 5a reduction to DHT) - eventually leading to ER downregulation.
Hard Flaccid Syndrome (HFS) - There are many men suffering from HFS and pelvic floor issues due to PSSD, PFS, heavy weight lifting, excess kegeling, or in the case I’m presenting here, physical damage to the genitals from excessive, vigorous sexual activity (my case) or penis enlargement exercises. When the genitals get damaged, an inflammatory process starts and the pelvic floor contracts to protect itself. Since the pelvic floor is now in a chronic, contracted state, it limits oxygen and sex hormone rich blood flow to the genitals and pelvic floor which leads to sex hormone insensitivity and negatively impacts healing, muscle relaxation, and DHT production in these tissues. Finasteride, Accutane, and SSRIs also desensitize sex hormone receptors in the genitals and pelvic floor tissues leading to hard flaccid and pelvic floor dysfunction. Since the pelvic floor tightness restricts blood flow, it is difficult for hard flaccid sufferers to reactivate and sensitize their pelvic floor muscle androgen receptors again to regain relaxation and strength in their pelvic floor muscles, including the ischiocavernosus (IC), bulbocavernosus (BC), and pubococcygeus (PC) which are in a contracted state; the IC muscle in particular is thought to be the most implicated in the cause of hard flaccid. We first need to promote relaxation in the pelvic floor by boosting blood flow through supplements and stretches because tight muscles are weak muscles. Once the pelvic floor is in a chronic state of tension, it is hard to heal from pelvic floor issues because you likely already had bad habits such as poor posture, unhealthy sexual practices, stiff muscles, sedentary lifestyle, unchecked anxiety, and other negative lifestyle factors. Along with supplements, exercises, and stretches, correcting these bad habits is necessary to heal to have an even healthier pelvic floor than you ever had before because it likely was already tight and dysfunctional to begin with before developing obvious issues, but it was more subtle and you had no awareness of your pelvic floor muscles until now. You have the potential to now become a much healthier person overall than you ever would have been without being affected by pelvic floor dysfunction and hard flaccid.
32% of women will develop a pelvic floor disorder in their lifetime which is double that of men. While childbirth and pregnancy plays a role in this discrepancy, women also have far less testosterone and DHT levels than men which I believe plays a major factor. Since women have less testosterone, their androgen receptors that line the pelvic floor don’t make enough DHT to adequately support these tissues compared to men. This makes them more prone to pelvic floor dysfunction that causes them a disparate amount of pain, tightness, and inflammation. Androgen receptors and their ability to convert testosterone into DHT play such a vital role in pelvic floor health and sexual functioning. This is mentioned in a research study: Prevailing scientific literature has indicated the presence of androgen receptors in the levator ani muscle and pelvic fascia. The existence of androgen receptors in the vaginal wall can play an essential role in the development of pelvic floor disorders in women.Thus, androgen-related disorders may interfere with the function of pelvic floor muscles. [Many people mistakenly believe that androgens are only important for male sexual health:](https://www.bumc.bu.edu/sexualmedicine/patientinformation-physicians/androgen-insuffiency-in-women/#:~:text=Androgen%20insufficiency%20syndrome%2C%20characterized%20by,of%20sexual%20dysfunction%20in%20women.] Androgens have a three-fold action on female sexual function. They (1) increase libido by providing the fuel for a woman’s psychosexual stimulation, (2) increase sensitivity and blood flow to the external genitalia, and (3) increase the intensity of sexual gratification.
What I see in all these conditions is that sex hormone receptors become desensitized in the pelvic floor and genital tissues either from a drug, pelvic tightness, or inflammation from injury leading to less hormones being produced causing sexual and pelvic floor dysfunction. The pelvic floor now goes into a chronic tightened state as a response, leading to less oxygen and testosterone rich blood flow to the genital and pelvic region which leads to more androgen insensitivity and subsequently less DHT. This all explains why many people who have these conditions are helped by supplements that improve androgen receptor sensitivity and blood flow, and why pelvic floor therapy and exercises are so helpful to many of them. Estrogen receptor insensitivity in the pelvic floor also appears to have a similar mechanical negative effect by leading to less estrogen levels in the pelvic floor and genital tissues. It is also possible that some people with PSSD/PFS may have subtle or no pelvic floor symptoms, but the medication still desensitizes sex hormone sensitivity in their genitals and pelvic floor tissues that is leading to sexual dysfunction.
Another study linking androgens and the pelvic floor: Levator ani and other muscles of the pelvic floor and lower urinary tract are sensitive to the anabolic effects of testosterone. Androgen receptors are also expressed in the pelvic floor and lower urinary tract of both animals and humans. Anabolic effects of androgens may play an important role in the female pelvic-floor and lower-urinary-tract disorders. Furthermore, the interactions between androgen and nitric oxide synthase and arginase have been demonstrated, suggesting that androgens may also participate in modulating the physiological functions of the lower urinary tract through nitric oxide. The action of androgens in the lower urinary tract and pelvic floor is complex and may depend on their anabolic effects, hormonal modulation, receptor expression, interaction with nitric oxide synthase, or a combination of these effects.
My solution to help heal and improve the well-being of people with these issues is to try to improve sex hormone receptor sensitivity and pelvic floor function through supplements, stretches, exercises, and boosting blood flow which will hopefully restore normal levels of estrogens and androgens in pelvic, genital, and brain tissues. The body has a tremendous capability of self-healing, but we need to support it through active recovery methods.
We will first start with supplements (this is not professional medical advice - talk with your doctor before taking):
L-citrulline - This is the precursor to l-arginine, and it will improve blood flow and levels of nitric oxide to help get oxygen and testosterone rich blood to the pelvic floor and genital tissues to increase androgen sensitivity. Nitric oxide can also induce smooth muscle relaxation which is important for relaxing the pelvic floor. Herein we report on a young man affected by PSSD who regained sexual functioning after 3-month treatment with EDOVIS, a dietary supplement containing L-citrulline and other commonly used aphrodisiacs.. I recommend taking at least 6000 mg daily by taking 2000mg three times throughout the day. The max dose is 10,000mg. Even potentially better, people report great results using Cialis to improve blood flow and healing rather than L-citrulline and some doctors will even prescribe it to women if you show them the evidence - talk with your doctor. “Tadalafil (Cialis) reversal of sexual dysfunction caused by serotonin enhancing medications in women”. L-Citrulline and Cialis are not recommended to be taken together.
L-Carnitine - This will improve the number of androgen receptors and their sensitivity to testosterone to increase levels of DHT in the pelvic floor, genital tissues, and brain. I recommend taking 2000mg daily. Acetyl-L-Carnitine can pass through the blood-brain barrier, while Propionyl-L-carnitine has a high degree of interaction with testosterone. Propionyl may be better for sexual and pelvic floor dysfunction, while Acetyl might help people suffering from the mental effects of PSSD. This study used each at 2000mg daily to improve erectile dysfunction along with Viagra.. I would work up to 2000mg each of Acetyl and Propionyl L-Carnitine along with Cialis instead of Viagra as it lasts in the body for much longer (36 hours) for increased blood flow healing purposes. You can also use L-Citrulline instead of Cialis as mentioned earlier. Discuss with your doctor before taking them.
Vitamin D - This vitamin, which acts more like a hormone, works directly with the endocrine system. It has its own receptors throughout the body and they are often in close proximity to androgen receptors. Deficiency in vitamin D is associated with a stunting of testosterone's effects on androgen receptors and a decline in testosterone levels. Vitamin D will encourage androgen receptor resensitization. One study found that higher vitamin D levels are associated with a decreased risk of pelvic floor disorders in women, and The levator ani and coccygeus muscles are skeletal muscles that are critical components of the pelvic floor and may be affected by vitamin D nutritional status. I recommend 4000IU of vitamin D daily or whatever gets your levels to 60 - 80 ng/ml.
If you have inflammatory issues or pain due to pelvic floor dysfunction, I recommend a fish oil supplement daily. I take fish oil, and I find that it helps limit pelvic inflammation. I also take Magnesium Glycinate to relax the smooth muscle that lines the pelvic floor and genital tissue. I recommend it for people with clear pelvic floor dysfunction, but others should be careful as research says magnesium is a 5-alpha-reductase inhibitor. Take quercetin and bromelain as needed if you experience pelvic inflammatory flare ups and pain, but just be careful as quercetin can also inhibit the production of DHT from testosterone as well. Some say fish oil blocks DHT too, but experiencing chronic pelvic floor pain and inflammation will do more harm to you than minimal DHT blocking. I recommend staying away from all DHT inhibiting foods and supplements for people with PSSD, PFS, and PAS unless you are experiencing pelvic pain and inflammation.
As always, discuss these supplements with your doctor to see if they are okay for you. Lower your supplement intake based on side effects. These aren’t a magic cure, but a tool to help you on your journey to recovery. Don’t do anything without doctor supervision, but this thread gives more evidence for the “cure” for PSSD/PFS being resensitizing androgen receptors and estrogen receptors along with enhancing blood flow as it details how some men recovered through taking high doses of androgens, post cycle therapy, and Cialis. This at least gives hope that a hormonal cure can be created one day by medical professionals. I would of course recommend trying to heal yourself naturally for a long time before doing any hormone treatments under the supervision of a doctor.
I also recommend doing some form of yoga or pelvic floor stretches daily to improve blood flow for pelvic floor relaxation and sex hormone receptor sensitivity. You also need to request to see a pelvic floor therapist for an evaluation and treatment. Learn how to do reverse kegels. Doing reverse kegels will be difficult at first because your pelvic floor is tight and you have little to no awareness of these muscles, so just focus on lengthening and relaxing the pelvic floor through stretches for now. Do not do regular kegels for pelvic floor issues. Learn how to diaphragmatically breathe in 360 degrees to create expansion in your rib cage and abdomen to encourage pelvic floor relaxation. Do not breathe through your chest, and “belly breathing” isn’t the right term because the ribs need to expand as well. You can learn how to diaphragmatically breathe through an exercise such as 4-7-8 breathing. Here is a great video on diaphragmatic breathing and another video. I cannot overstate it enough: retraining yourself to properly breathe diaphragmatically is the single most important thing that you can do to heal from pelvic floor issues. Be a student of breathing: study and take notes on how to breathe better.
Stretches/Yoga poses I recommend:
Hold the Malasana/hindi/yoga squat pose for at least 5-10 minutes at least twice a day, but doing it morning, mid-day, and at night would be the best. Some get great results holding it for 15-20 minutes.This is one of the most important things for your pelvic floor because it will help lengthen and release it. Doing them barefoot is also very beneficial to strengthen your ankles and feet which are connected to your pelvic floor. Again, remember to breathe deeply down into your belly and pelvic floor for all these stretches.
Begin your stretching routine with an Exercise ball ab stretch and Upward-facing dog/cobra pose. This will help stretch your lower abs and psoas muscles so that you can get more breath deeper down into your pelvic floor for the rest of your stretches. Some people say that these types of stretches aren’t great for people who have Anterior Pelvic Tilt, which we should fix, but I still do them as it is important to stretch the lower abs that are hard to get to. You can experiment with doing them sporadically instead of every time you stretch.
This is my current personal complete stretch routine I do in order 3+ days a week:
Myofascial release on my glutes with an orb massage ball but you can use any small hard ball (don’t do this if glutes are currently sore) > Calf stretch against a wall or a yoga block which is what I use > exercise ball ab stretch > upward facing dog > (optional) Do a handful of cat cows > Supine hamstring stretch with yoga strap or an IdealStretch tool which is what I use > Kneeling hip flexor stretch > flat on back supine single knee to chest stretch > then bring knee to opposite shoulder stretch > supine figure four > I do this stretch next right after figure four > Reclined bound angle pose > (optional) butterfly stretch > (optional) A little bit of downward facing dog to stretch the calves > (optional) Lizard Pose) > (optional) Half split stretch/Half monkey pose with yoga blocks > Half-pigeon pose > Child’s pose > Wall quad hip flexor stretch > Wall figure four stretch > Wall straddle pose > Wall happy baby pose > Flat on back while pulling knees apart > kneeling with one leg, other leg out to side for adductors > (optional) Frog pose with feet together > regular Frog pose with feet separated in line with the knees > Yoga squat/malasana > Corpse pose
All these stretches are the ones I found most useful in a routine. See what works for you and develop your own routine. Consistency is the most important. This long stretching routine may not be possible for you to complete regularly so make adjustments, but doing this routine at least 3 days a week is ideal. Stretches such as the yoga squat, supine hamstring stretch, hip flexor stretches, and wall stretches are vital and should be done most days to help relax the pelvic floor. For how long you should hold each stretch, just go by how you and your body feels. Really let go, breathe, and sink into every stretch. On rest days, doing some deep breathing in child’s pose, reclined bound angle pose, flat on back while pulling knees apart, and the happy baby wall pose is really great while trying to do gentle reverse kegels.
You can also work on more individualized stretches for posture to correct anterior pelvic tilt, muscle imbalances, and to release other tight muscles, such as the upper body. Listen to your body if you need to give yourself a rest day from stretching. Adding in a 30-60 minute walk/swim on rest days is incredibly beneficial as well. Eventually, you can also try to learn isometric PNF stretching to incorporate it into some of the stretches such as the kneeling hip flexor stretch and hamstring stretch.
After working to relax and lengthen your pelvic floor through yoga and stretches, I would begin gentle body strengthening exercises that are pelvic floor safe. The pelvic floor is a master compensator. So, if the glutes, adductors, deep hip rotators, transversus abdominis, and other supportive muscles are weak, then the pelvic floor is in the prime position to pick up the slack which leads to a lot of strain on the pelvic floor which results in tightness and dysfunction. You need to strengthen the surrounding muscles to relieve tightness in the pelvic floor. This is where working with a pelvic floor therapist would be helpful to point out safe individualized exercises for you. Yoga will help strengthen your muscles in a safe way too.
The glutes and transversus abdominis in particular are very important to strengthen. Glute bridge, single glute bridge, side lying leg raises, lateral band walks can help build up glute strength. Deadbugs, Bird Dog, 8- point planks, or planks with pelvic floor-friendly modifications, can help to strengthen the transversus abdominis (TVA). Abdominal work may be triggering to your pelvic floor symptoms, especially the 8 point plank, so you can instead look into hypopressive exercises to work the TVA without overworking the pelvic floor. These exercises will help you bring more awareness to your breathing, diaphragm, TVA, and pelvic floor which are all important for recovery. Here is how to find and become aware of the TVA. Do side planks for your oblique ab muscles.
For hip/abductors do the side lying hip abduction exercise, fire hydrants, and the shinbox lunge. For the adductors, do Copenhagen adductor exercise, cossack squats, and an exercise where you squeeze a soft ball between the knees just don’t do any crunch movements with pelvic floor issues. For hamstrings, Nordic hamstring curl/glute ham raises, and single leg bridge. For the back, do supine pelvic tilt. One person even reported that dorsiflexion exercises and stretches were one important element to solve his pelvic floor issues; this is most likely because the ankle bone, like everything else including even our jaw, is connected to the pelvic floor.
Like with anything, do all these exercises in moderation and stop if you sense your pelvic floor is not responding well to them - do them one at a time to see which ones your pelvic floor can handle for now. Here is an exercise routine from another poster that has helped many people. Just be careful of the ab exercises such as the ab wheel and 5 minute planks with your pelvic floor issues - don’t over do it or avoid it if they cause too many symptoms.
Myofascial release and foam rolling to release trigger points also helps a lot of people to relax their pelvic floor muscles and improve blood flow. The glutes are the most important area to target for pelvic floor issues when foam rolling in my experience if you only had limited time. Using a soft ball to lay on and breathe deeply can help release trigger points in the abdominal muscles and psoas which can help you breathe better and relax the pelvic floor. I haven’t done it, but you can also try out a massage gun for myofascial release; just be careful and don’t use it in sensitive pelvic areas. Some men and women also report success using a therawand to release internal trigger points that are causing them pelvic floor dysfunction symptoms.
Walking and swimming for 30-60 minutes are some of the best exercises to lengthen, relax, stretch, and release your pelvic floor, boost blood flow, and help to retain and build strength in muscles that give support to the pelvic floor. Walk or swim for 5+ days a week for the best results. The breaststroke and freestyle are very helpful for pelvic floor sufferers. Along with swimming, people also use an elliptical at a low resistance to help provide a cardio workout that is safer for your pelvic floor.
Fix your posture. Pelvic floor issues and hard flaccid syndrome are closely associated with Anterior Pelvic Tilt and other postural issues. Get evaluated by a physical therapist so that they can give you exercises and stretches to fix it. You could also look into the Postural Restoration institute and see one of their providers and try to implement some of their exercises. In the meantime, here is one video playlist on how to fix APT. Another video to fix APT says to stretch the hip flexors, lower back, while focusing on strengthening the abs, glutes, and hamstrings. Make sure that you sit and walk with good posture - watch this to learn how to walk correctly - activate your glutes during each step and push off with your back foot!. I also recommend getting a standing desk to try to avoid sitting for long periods of time.
Weight training can be effective for boosting active androgen receptors in the body to increase testosterone and DHT levels. However, you need to make sure that it isn’t making your pelvic floor symptoms worse which defeats the purpose. If you are going to lift weights with pelvic floor issues, don’t lift heavy, do any intensive ab workouts, or any other exercises that can put extra strain on your pelvic floor. Do lifts where you can sit down instead of standing up. Start with yoga, stretching, and gentle body exercises to relax your pelvic floor and strengthen surrounding muscles before incorporating consistent weight training. I highly recommend, however, just sticking with yoga and pelvic floor safe body weight exercises to build strength instead. Those with PSSD without pelvic floor dysfunction may benefit a lot from lifting weights, high-intensity interval training, and doing bodyweight exercises such as squats regularly to boost androgen receptors and DHT. Remember to see a pelvic floor therapist to get evaluated first before starting any weight lifting because many people have pelvic floor issues without even realizing it.
Work on your mental health. Anxiety can worsen pelvic floor issues. Just as dogs tuck and tense their tails when stressed, we tense our pelvic floors which are directly connected to our tailbone where we used to have tails ourselves in our evolutionary history. As we are impacted by sexual dysfunction and pelvic floor dysfunction symptoms, we become anxious along with other negative emotions which leads to more pelvic floor tension symptoms due to the fight or flight mode response causing even more anxiety leading to more symptoms. It is a vicious cycle that needs to break by not becoming anxious and negative when we experience pelvic floor symptoms or hard flaccid and instead let go, accept, and realize that it is a normal process when trying to heal because sometimes our muscles that are used to that tightness don't want to let go of the tension we hold in our pelvic floors. Daily yoga, meditation, stretching, and walking will help with anxiety. I would also see a mental health therapist because all of these issues are deeply traumatic and we cannot go through this alone. We often hold tension in the form of emotions and trauma in our bodies, especially our pelvic floor and genital areas. By openly talking about these issues with a therapist, it will help us process and release our emotions and trauma that we are holding inside our bodies to improve our anxiety, relax our pelvic floor, and to let go of all of our tension. Many people who healed their hard flaccid and pelvic floor issues said that solving their anxiety and negative thoughts by talking to a mental health counselor was vital in recovery. The mind-body connection is so powerful, and it directly impacts our pelvic floor. Those who are stuck in the cycle of experiencing pelvic floor symptoms leading to anxiety and negative thoughts will also benefit from Cognitive Behavioral Therapy you can do by yourself like in this video or preferably with a trained therapist. Here is an informative mini lecture on how stress impacts the pelvic floor.
I would also definitely go on a healthy anti-inflammatory diet. Avoid caffeine, alcohol, marijuana, and other substances. Avoid foods and liquids that can trigger pelvic floor inflammation such as highly acidic fruits and veggies, carbonated beverages, very spicy foods, and artificial sugars. To maintain a healthy gut to reduce inflammation in your body I recommend trying a low-histamine probiotic supplement along with eating healthy. You should also work on preventing or fixing constipation; eat a lot of soluble fiber to not get constipated - take a supplement such as metamucil if you have to. Check the Bristol stool shape chart to identify if you are constipated because even mild constipation can contribute to pelvic floor tension. This is because the constipation leads to a lot of pressure being put on your rectum and pelvic floor leading to the muscles becoming weak and dysfunctional. I am willing to bet many of you are constipated and don’t know it because it isn’t just whether you go regularly, it is also how your stool is shaped. People with pelvic floor disorders are at a high risk of constipation which makes their tension and dysfunction worse which then worsens the constipation, another cycle to fix. I recommend getting a Squatty Potty to reduce strain on the pelvic floor during elimination.
To help heal hard flaccid and pelvic floor issues, never watch pornography again (this is vital). Go on NoFap for 90+ days to help heal your brain and body from any unhealthy pornography and sexual habits you have partaken in. Pornography leads to involuntary kegels, a tight pelvic floor, desensitizes you, and messes up the dopamine and arousal circuitry in your brain. Don’t climax too often. Learn how to reverse kegel by yourself and during sexual activities. Never edge or regular kegel - it leads to pelvic floor tightness and dysfunction - just relax your arousal through a reverse kegel. Keep your pelvic floor relaxed during sexual activities.
Stay strong and never give up. You will heal. Thank you for reading.

first time poster long time lurker.
i (20f) have been with my Q (22m) for 4 years. we met in highschool right before covid and i think that’s something that caused us to have such a quick and strong bond.
it was so good in the beginning, i thought after a couple really awful boyfriends in the past that i had a good one.
we moved to a different province together so i could pursue university on campus when things started opening. he told me he was excited, and we started our life on our own together. i was so happy.
cut to the summer, he started working out of town with my family to earn big boy money instead of the minimum wage jobs inside the city. i think this is where it started.
i don’t blame my family, or even the job for what came next but i do see it as the beginning of the problem.
his habits around alcohol began to change, instead of being your usual self but drunk he became angry, sad and just mad at the world.
since then, it has only gotten worse. instead of it being a weekend affair it become daily. and the anger seeped out more and more often.
it got to the point where he would push things off shelves, yelling about how unfair life is, and still never do anything to help himself.
i reached my breaking point today when i was woken up at 5am to him sobbing at the side of the bed. ranting about the same old stuff he usually does, and not taking accountability for his part of his problems.
i spent the day thinking about what i was going to do and i broke. i called my mom and told her that i needed to leave.
our lives are so intertwined that i don’t know how to get an escape without ruining myself financially. i have a plan, that i’m fairly certain would work but i don’t know if i have the courage left in me to follow through.
she told me everything i needed to hear, that i’m not alone and the courage to do what it takes to find my peace has been with me all along, just burried beneath my fear and love.
so now, i’m waiting for his mom to call me back to tell her how bad it’s really gotten. i don’t know what to expect from this, but i cannot carry this burden alone any longer.
thank you for reading. kind words really appreciated.

My twin sister might go to college in the fall and i’m so scared and sad about it. I’m just scared because we spend every second together, we work together, share a car, everything. I’m not gonna go to college. She was accepted last year and deferred to take a gap year. She’s now looking at everything and trying to get it all sorted and i’ve just been crying because I will not be in college and I won’t be with her. I’m so upset and scared that she’s gonna go and have all these experiences and meet these people and her life is just gonna move on and i’m gonna be at home struggling and working like we both have been but i’ll be alone instead. I wanna have those experiences and friends with her although i wouldn’t wanna go to the same school and the thought of that is scary enough for me, let alone being hours apart. Not seeing and talking to her and going through the daily motions with her will be so weird. it’s also just to late to apply and be accepted anywhere by the time she would go. I just keep crying. How can I cope with this?

So after searching for new kibble for my dog I quickly found Inukshuk to be the best. Sadly its not available in Europe and to find anything similar also was not easy, so I thought I might share it with some fellow EU citizens here.
Specifically the 30/25 formula caught my eye and is exactly what I was looking for. Therefore the following list is based on that.

Brand	Protein/Fats %	Main Protein Source	glutenfree	grainfree	wheatfree
PURINA PRO PLAN All Size Adult Performance	31/21	Chicken	no	no	no
Eukanuba Daily Care Working & Endurance Adult Dog	30/20	Chicken, Turkey	no	no	no
Opti Life Adult Active	32/22	Chicken	yes	no	yes
Brit Premium by Nature Sport	31/22	Chicken	no	no	yes
Brit Care Dog Sustainable Activity	32/24	Chicken, Insects	no	no	yes
Brit Fresh Duck with Millet Adult Run & Work	32/22	Duck	yes	no	no
BF Petfood High Energy	30/20	Chicken	no	no	yes

All of the above should be fairly good quality according to their ingredient list. (which is really strict in Europe)
Personally I think the Brit´s should be the best of the list. For now I went with Eukanuba because they have a big sale atm.
Hope that helps at least a few guys facing the same problem as us. If anyone has more recommendations I will gladly add them to the list!
Cheers!

I should preface this post by saying that it contains minor spoilers for day 5, so continue at your own risk.
It's 23:40 and I am visiting Bachelor to discuss bull's blood properties with him. It was a really successful day... I got enough coffee that i probably won't sleep till the end and the Maw was infected, so, ehm, let's just say strong antibiotics won't be a problem for a while. I am happily walking towards theatre for daily's pantomime, bell rings and the recap says: "you didn't save bridge square".
I was confused since i did the quest. I load the save if it was just a bug and no. I load morning save, when i was doing it, i walk across entire left section of the river only to notice the silent house. So i do load my 23:40 save, quickly run there to mark the house and the district was saved. The Cains did their thing in less than 10 minutes. I wish real life offices were this quick.
I must say that i was lucky to go to bachelor today and not tomorrow. After tasting the Maw's hospitality, I was thinking about directly going to the theatre. And since bridge square is one of the most populated districts, this would be something i would probably reset entire day for (this definitely doesn't have anything in common with my nonexisting save scumming illness).

Me(29F) and my husband (31M) have been together for about 6 years, we married 3 years ago. For some context, we married and moved to Spain to start our lives together there. We settled there and he got a good job, but lifestyle in Europe is very different than in America. There's not really that much grind culture and so he would go to work at 9 and leave by 4, sometimes 6. We'd spend a lot of time together. We have been best friends for a really long time and we genuinely enjoy each other's company. I'm an artist, so my job doesn't require that I leave home or go to an office.
About six months ago we had to move back home, we had to sell everything we owned and basically uproot our entire lives to start over here. We had to move in with my parents since our savings weren't enough to get our own place and my husband didn't have a job lined up.
My parents are very chill, they're encouraging and don't meddle. They told us we could stay for as long as we need, free of charge, but of course neither of us is just willing to be dead weight. It burdened my husband especially since he feels he is the main provider, which is true. Though I make good money, it's not a steady income.
He applied for jobs for about 6 months, during which we spent a lot of time together, we got used to each other's company but he was starting to grow very restless and his self esteem was taking a big hit because he hadn't gotten a job.
The point is that he got an offer about three days ago. The pay is okay, is good for what we need right now, but his hours are insane. The job starts at 7am and ends at 6pm (though usually everyone stays late without extra pay, according to his new boss). He works Monday through Saturday, plus one Sunday a month. That means he's essentially having 3 days off a month.
The job seems good, he seems excited and happy and I truly am so happy for him that he's excited and likes the job, but a part of me feels really heartbroken that I will barely be able to see him anymore. I'm scared that we might grow apart or distant.
He is the love of my life, and Id support any decision he wants to make. I know he wants to provide and this truly is a promising job where he can grow professionally.
I just feel like I'm in withdrawal because I went from spending so much time together for years and years to now barely seeing him at all. I don't know what I can do about it, or even if there is anything to do.
I won't tell him to leave the job, but I also feel like I can't be fully happy and supportive about it.
What should I do?

If you are heartbroken, take in all your emotions in the rawest form, and use it for revenge, not on your previous partner, but on your past self, try and become the best version of yourself. If you are using no contact as a way to get your partner back you have nothing to lose by improving everything about yourself, you very much might even shift up in life so much that you no longer want your ex back. Start something tomorrow or even now, that hobby that you were interested in, the gym, running, eating healthy, etc, do it now. Time is the most valuable thing you can spend, so be debonair while investing it. As an 18-year-old going through my first heartbreak, I am facing some of the hardest battles daily, but knowing I am becoming a better version of myself than I was 3 months ago (in the relationship) is helping me win, and winning is healing, so get revenge on your past self, and try your best to be a better person then you were yesterday even if that means putting in 1% more then you did previously. (1^365 = 1) - (1.01&365 = 38)

This is what I want to say to/about my LO I know I sound crazy. All opinions or advice welcome just don’t make me feel more stupid lol
“I miss you. I really hate that you didn’t like me like that. But at the same time I question why I wanted you. You rarely made an effort to do anything besides fuck. You very rarely even said anything nice to me Like a compliment. You talked about yourself and life only anytime we talked. You lied to me often. You never tried to really get to know me. You could never just be straight up or upfront with me about how u felt. You told me in more ways than one that you didn’t want me yet here I am saying I miss you. I’m bout as stupid as they come. Of course you lost respect for me, hell I’d lose some respect for me. I’m coming across just desperate and needy to a man I let use me for two years. Idk why I grew such an attachment to you. All the days we were around each other weren’t all bad and that’s what I miss. I seem to be picking the few good out of the lot of bad it seems. I miss your voice, your scent, your rants about something at work or a tv show. I miss your confidence and how on top of things you are in life. Your intelligence, street and book smart, can fox almost anything, etc and work ethic was very attractive to see in a man. I miss even looking at you, you are so attractive to me in every way. Especially watching you work at your job sites. My heart skipped a beat every time your number flashed across my screen. I’d get nervous because I never knew how that conversation would go. I had no assurance from you with anything. I think about you daily even thought it’s been months. I’ve moved on and I still have sexual fantasies involving you. I haven’t quite enjoyed myself in the bedroom since you. It’s okay I guess. I use to put on a major front sometimes, but I’m sure you knew I was stuck on you. You’re on the back of my mind often. Even after I hit you up after 4-5 months, you came up with the excuse that you’ve been out of town but I really think you’ve just been occupied with someone new. Either way, it was nothing wrong with your phone. You never hit me back up after I visited you once. You never told me that you no longer wanted to deal with me. You never said anything. You just stopped texting and calling which is 10 times worse. I wish soooo much that you would have just left me alone the moment you KNEW I just wasn’t it for you. But you decided to take me on a little date here and there, spend a little money here and there so that maybe you can keep a piece of ass around. Even though you could have just about anyone you wanted. You knew you didn’t like me. You knew you didn’t really want me. I guess you just did what I allowed you to do huh…..
I know whomever you decide to be with is happy. You have everything within u to be a good mate I know. You just simply didn’t want me. It’s simple. Well it should be. But it’s a bit difficult for me to accept. But I’m still working on me. Well I know this won’t accomplish anything but I just had to get this off my chest. Continue to Have a good life. “

I have a question here for others who suffer from panic/anxiety attacks. I’ve had 3 major panic attacks in my life and all of them have been related to driving. Today was the worst one by far and some of my symptoms during these severe panic attacks are concerning. I’ve always had anxiety driving in cars, not crippling anxiety but enough to where I’d just rather not drive if I don’t have to. I do drive daily multiple times but will never offer to be the driver and if we’re going somewhere I’m unfamiliar with or on a long trip I never volunteer to drive. I’ve had two bad accidents and my brother passed away in a car accident 17 years ago but my reluctance in vehicles has been there since before these incidents. Today I was driving home from a concert in San Jose the night before. I had considered taking an Uber to and from the concert because I knew I was going to be uncomfortable and stress out driving in a new place but decided against it because of the cost. On my way home this morning I was driving behind someone who was riding another cars tail and kept breaking unexpectedly. I tried to go around and couldn’t because nobody would let me on. I felt my anxiety start to spike and it usually starts with tingling and then my vision starts to get blurry. I was looking for a place to pull off but being on the freeway there was nowhere safe. Right then the driver in front of me slams on his breaks hard and even though I was more than a safe distance behind him it caused me to slam on mine. Within 5 seconds it was a total loss of vision and my hands began to lose movement and started to tense into claws. I was forced to pull to the side where it was very dangerous because there was a wall and my car was still halfway in the lane on the freeway because I couldn’t see anything. My whole body is tingling at this point and my hand on the steering wheel was so tense and frozen I couldn’t get it off. My other hand was in this same claw position so I couldn’t roll down my windows to wave for help, my arms were completely locked at my sides. My legs were frozen and my feet were flexed. The only thing I could seem to move was my torso and head. My vision was going in and out and my chest and stomach were clenched so tight I couldn’t do my normal breathing exercises and my chest felt like a boulder was on top of it. This was the worst I had ever experienced and anyone who has panic attack know that there are similarities between a heart attack and anxiety attack. This was the first time I had chest tightness and was totally convinced I was dying of a heart attack. I couldn’t use any of my limbs so I asked Siri to call my husband because I just “knew” I was dying and I needed to tell him and my boys that I loved them. I told him he had to hang up so I could call 911. I couldn’t explain to the dispatcher where I was because I couldn’t see and then all the sudden her voice sounded as if she was a million miles away and I started to lose my hearing. At that point I’m alone in the dark in my head, halfway out in a lane on a 5 lane freeway. I know one way or another I’m dying because if it’s not a heart attack then someone is going to hit me and I start to pass out but I’m just fighting to stay awake and trying to breathe because I felt like if I lost consciousness I would never wake up. I was unable to talk to the dispatcher anymore it was like my mouth wouldn’t work and I couldn’t focus a thought. Then the police and firefighters came and my hand was so clenched on the steering wheel they couldn’t get it off and I could hear them saying the veins and muscles in my arms were bulging out from how incredibly tense and locked up my body was. Finally I was able to talk and told them I had an anxiety pill in my purse and they were able to get it to me. After about 15 mins and their coaching in breathing, my vision started to return and I was able to get my hand off the steering wheel and my body was shaking uncontrollably. My hands were still locked in claws but my hearing was getting louder and they were able to get me into an ambulance because I couldn’t walk. This has happened to me once before while I was driving but never this extreme. The 3rd time I was a passenger but again never to this level. Is this normal for a panic attack? I deal with a pretty low level of anxiety on a regular basis, so low that I don’t take medicine for it but keep some for my car in case it’s triggered by driving. I was one hundred percent certain I was dying, has anyone ever experienced a complete paralysis and flexing of their body, vision and hearing loss and loss of consciousness?

I will be traveling with family around this region of Spain and Catalonia this summer and want to do some record shopping! I am from the PNW(United States) so I am particularly interested in more obscure records from the region, Italy and North Africa. I love 70s and 80s funk jazz boogie hi life also obscure electronic weirdness. I love to dig and chat with fellow vinyl enthusiasts! Any recs would be highly appreciated!!!

I was raised by a narcissistic… i grew up babysitting and caring for my siblings while my parents partied. My mom went through multiple unstable relationships. She would steal clothes from me steal shit from my room and deny it and gaslight me. I felt like i raised my mom like she was a child who couldn’t navigate the world. Someone who valued friends and a good time over her children. She would play strip poker with her friends on a monday and continue to party all week. My little brother witnessed some things he should’ve have seen. One time she had a dui and got him to blow in a blow box so she could pick me up from a friends when i was 16. I was upset at her and she blamed it on me. When i moved out at 19 she only came to my apartment when she was drunk and fighting with her boyfriend and wanted to get out of the house. At 23 i have bipolar disorder and struggle daily with my anxiety I believe a lot of it has to do with my childhood and my mom.
I had to work at 14 every day after school so i could afford school supplies and school clothes all the while my dad was over paying in child support working 12 hour days just to afford life. He was depressed and an alcoholic because of what my mom did to him. She would use his money to go on trips, spend it on her step kids, bought a truck for her ex who she cheated on my dad with and even renovated his house. All the while supporting her drinking and coke addiction. She would rageee at me breaking down bathroom doors etc when I didn’t do things her way. Everything in my body hates her but i still feel bad for her. She recently messaged me and i am beside myself if i should ignore it or entertain the idea just for her

Introduction
Mid- 20s adult, living in house with yard in suburbs. Putting out prospective breed ideas now, it still would likely be around 2 years or so before I start seriously looking to get dog 😊
· Will this be your first dog? If not, what experience do you have owning/training dogs?
1. No, have had three dogs, who I still have, two Labrador Retrievers and a Pug. Trained all three dogs and have experience working with other dogs including in school and work (I am not a dog trainer). I have taken my dogs to multiple dog classes (beyond just puppy class) and have earned two titles on one dog. I also have general experience working and training animals so I am familiar with training styles
· Do you have a preference for rescuing a dog vs. going through a reputable breeder?
1. Breeder
· Describe your ideal dog.
1. Loyal, even-tempered (not aggressive), intelligent (enough), goofy, interested in training/learning/working but not high energy that they can’t also enjoy an afternoon on the couch (I’m not looking for border collie energy!), dependable (can generally count on temperament to be steady)
· What breeds or types of dogs are you interested in and why?
1. Curly-Coated Retriever – I’ve met two and thought they were sweet and owner said they were very trainable, graceful, and really loved being by owners side
2. Flat-Coated Retriever – have heard they are goofy, trainable, and safe, think they are beautiful
3. Clumber Spaniel – they are just so cute and I like the mellow/goofy vibe they have
4. Brittany – I’ve known multiple and they are all so sweet and kind but want to work.
· Breeds I’m not Interested In
1. I don’t think I have quite the energy for herding breeds so they aren’t really on my list.
· What sorts of things would you like to train your dog to do?
1. Leash walking, basic commands/obedience (sit, down, stay, leave it), but would also like to teach tricks or some kind of activity.
· Do you want to compete with your dog in a sport (e.g. agility, obedience, rally) or use your dog for a form of work (e.g. hunting, herding, livestock guarding)? If so, how much experience do you have with this work/sport?
1. Yes – I am someone who listens to their dog and what they like to do, but would love to do/get involved in in trick training, rally, dock-diving, etc. (Doesn’t have to be all of these, these are just sports I’m interested in). I have experience in tricks as one dog has two trick titles and working on further. I have had introductions to the other listed sports but have not seriously done these with my current dogs.
Care Commitments
7) How long do you want to devote to training, playing with, or otherwise interacting with your dog each day?
· Job is hybrid. My dogs are my life, so I plan to play/interact/train with my dog daily. I like to do training/activity (play/fetch) for at least 30-40 minutes a day and would also devote additional time to walking and multiple hours a day interacting as I like to hang at home with them.

· How long can you exercise your dog each day, on average? What sorts of exercise are you planning to give your dog regularly and does that include using a dog park?
1. I can exercise my dog for 40 minutes-2hours everyday, with more time on the weekends. I plan to exercise through walks, hikes, fetch (if they like it), and dog training/classes/sports. I have a fenced in yard so I don’t really use the dog park anymore, but there is one nearby, but that isn’t a set part of my exercise.
· How much regular brushing are you willing to do? Are you open to trimming hair, cleaning ears, or doing other grooming at home? If not, would you be willing to pay a professional to do it regularly?
1. I have some experience doing some light grooms and trims and am willing to learn and do those at home or take to a professional. I am willing to groom a few times a week.
Personal Preferences
10) What size dog are you looking for?
· Medium to Large (25 pounds – 100 pounds)
· How much shedding, barking, and slobber can you handle?
1. Shedding I don’t care about, I have three dogs who shed a ton and it doesn’t bother me a bit. Barks, I’d prefer less barking (barking to alert there are people at the dooif they see people walking by) but I just don’t want non-stop. Slobber, its fine, I don’t love the thick slobber but some drooking is okay.
· How important is being able to let your dog off-leash in an unfenced area?
1. Somewhat important – Its ideal and I would love it, but if some areas they are untrustworthy to have off-leash that is okay. I would work on off-leash skills.
Dog Personality and Behavior
13) Do you want a snuggly dog or one that prefers some personal space?
· A mix, I have both kinds of dogs and enjoy both, would enjoy someone to sit at my feet/next to me while I’m on the couch.
1. Would you prefer a dog that wants to do its own thing or one that’s more eager-to-please?
1. More eager to please, I want some challenge to train but not too much.
1. How would you prefer your dog to respond to someone knocking on the door or entering your yard? How would you prefer your dog to greet strangers or visitors?
1. Settling nicely and waiting to be acknowledged when entering yard, I am okay/fine with barking when someone knocks or passes yard. I’d prefer dog to be friendly/cordial to strangers/visitors, don’t need over the top but don’t want difficult to introduce (a little selectiveness with strangers is fine)
1. Are you willing to manage a dog that is aggressive to other dogs?
1. No
1. Are there any other behaviors you can’t deal with or want to avoid?
1. Aggression of any kind
Lifestyle
18) How often and how long will the dog be left alone?
· A few hours for work, but after work/weekends no more than an hour, hour and a half a day.
1. What are the dog-related preferences of other people in the house and what will be their involvement in caring for the dog?
1. They like dogs and will help with feeding/restroom breaks in special circumstances but majority/all of care will be on me.
1. Do you have other pets or are you planning on having other pets? What breed or type of animal are they?
· Three dogs (two labs and pug)
1. Will the dog be interacting with children regularly?
1. No, but occasionally will interact with kids so being safe is ideal.
1. Do you rent or plan to rent in the future? If applicable, what breed or weight restrictions are on your current lease?
· No restriction.
1. What city or country do you live in and are you aware of any laws banning certain breeds?
· USA, no breed bans where I live, nor are any of the dogs I am considering banned.
1. What is the average temperature of a typical summer and winter day where you live?
1. 70-90F in summer (sunny, humid-ish), winter 20-40 (can get cold and have snow)
Additional Information and Questions
25) Please provide any additional information you feel may be relevant.
· No additional information.
1. Feel free to ask any questions below.

The British Empire and by extension the British Royal Family used to rule over a phenomenal amount of land. Today many countries still have King Charles as their official head of state but usually just in a ceremonial role as royal power has declined.
What if Queen Victoria took a more medieval approach to ruling and appointed her children as Kings and Queens of foreign countries? Leopold is now King Of Australia, Alice is Queen Of Canada, Helena Is Queen Of New Zealand etc.
The local countries wouldn't be overjoyed about having a new Royal Family. But if they rule with kindness and justice what was once new and strange can become familiar and accepted in a generation or two. Maybe with a Canadian Monarch the Canadians would be happier about monarchy because it's THEIR monarchy?
The obvious next step is to consolidate power through royal marriages. The Prince Of Australia marries the Princess Of Spain. etc. with half a dozen new thrones to rule there are more royal families to marry into. Well it's all one extended family but there's more Kings and Queens so yhe promise of a top-level royal marriage holds a lot more weight than marrying the second-cousin-once-removed of a monarch.
Then.... I don't really know. Would the regional monarchs make the British Empire overall stronger and prevent the decline we saw IRL? Would the other European monarchies band together as a rivalry? Or would there be a dispute between Victoria's descendants? King Of Australia going to war with his cousin the King Of New Zealand?

I've been feeling very lonely lately, lol. So I'm looking for people around my age that would be interested in having daily chats and gaming. I would be absolutely happy if you were into ESO and Borderlands 2. We can VC in discord and just talk about random stuff.
I have ✨ cat pictures ✨ that I'll gladly share with you.
I don't have much life, since all I do is work and take care of my mom.
I hope you have a lovely evening (:
Idk if it matters too much, but I'm from South America.
Hope you have a lovely evening!