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Preface: I'm not a doctor, I'm not a speech therapist, and this is not medical advice. This is just what I've done to overcome my MTD and my opinions.
MTD is a name given to a large number of conditions. The architecture of our vocal instrument is very complex though, and "muscle tension" is not only a very uninformative diagnosis, but even a misdirecting one. I say this because:

• Most people don't actually know how muscles work, and will create an incorrect mental model of what's going on, which adds tension to tension.
  
• It encourages a view of our muscles and vocal instrument as an "external object" that is "misbehaving" and that "we need to correct and control", which, needless to say, adds more tension to tension.
  

I got my MTD after a single singing session in which I screamed in complete disregard of the vocal hygiene principles that I learned over two years of studies. The day after I had all the typical MTD symptoms, but I thought it was just a temporary loss of voice, like it happened before. Then one week went by. Then another. Then I tried with absolute silence, then I tried with lozenges, herbs, ibuprofen. Then I went to and ENT doctor and got a laryngoscopy, which came out clean, and got referred to a speech therapist.
The speech therapist gave me exercises and tips, she told me to talk with a confidential voice, she instructed me to keep a correct posture, she instructed me to always use abdominal breathing. She was meaning well, but all this had the effect of adding tension to my tension.
Months went by with no progress. I could speak, but not more than one day at a time. If I spoke one day, my voice would feel destroyed the day after. Speaking would become painful and effortful. Several days of silence would get my voice back almost to a normal state, but a single day of speaking would ruin all the work I'd done.
I was fortunate enough however, that all this happened after I left my job to focus on music (the irony), and so at some point I decided to find a way myself, focus entirely on my voice and get rid of this problem once for all.
My MTD lasted about 6 months. After I practiced what I'm describing in this post it subsided over the span of about 3 weeks.
I want to share my findings with you, but keep in mind that

1. I am not a doctor, I'm only sharing my experience. What you do with this is only your responsibility. If you have any doubts please consult with your doctor first.

2. MTD is actually many things, what worked for me doesn't necessarily work for you, and it may even be deetrimental.
First, some general principles I followed 1. Don't interfere with you voice outside of your exercises. Don't try to speak the right way. Leave that voice alone. 2. Only unintentional progress is real progress. I don't care about progress that is actually a result of breaking the first rule. So you can finally stop worrying about your voice when you are not exercising. 3. Progress comes after sleep, not while you practice
When you practice things will get frustrating. Your brain registers that frustration and builds new connections while you sleep. Frustration and lack of progress while you practice are a good thing, it means that you are successfully building the input that will be processed while you sleep. Give it two nights of sleep, and results will come.
Ok, so here's what I've done. It's a simple three phases plan where we keep adding stuff:
1. Fix your breathing:
This is the basis. You've heard that before, but if I ask you to do abdominal breathing I'd be asking you to do something intentionally, which breaks principle 1. The other component of the basis is a relaxed attitude, which is a difficult thing to have when you feel betrayed by your body. We need to kill these two birds with a single massive stone.
What follows is a slightly modified version of the zazen meditation technique. I'm aware it can sound boring, but this is really important and I think it's necessary to practice this every day until recovery, without exceptions. Really.
Set a timer for 25 minutes, sit comfortably, close your eyes, and let your body breathe. While you breathe, identify the point at the centre of your body, about 4 inches below your navel. I want you to notice the sensation of breathing in that point. Don't try to change your breath, just notice any sensations there. If there aren't any, just stay vigilant, 'cause there will be.
Keep paying attention to that point, and start counting the breaths 1 to 10. When you get to 10 restart from one. If you lose the count, just restart from one. If you start thinking about dinner and lose contact with the centre of your body, just bring it back into your attention field. Every time you lose attention and bring it back, your mind relaxes a bit. The more you do it, the more your attention naturally settles on the sensation of breathing at the centre of your body.
Don't try to force your attention to stay there. Let it be and bring it back only if you notice it wanders. Also, don't focus super hard, that wouldn't be relaxing at all! Chill and let your attention rest there.
Thoughts will occur. That's ok, in fact, thoughts are part of the process. Let them happen, but keep the sensations at the centre of your body in your field of attention. When you notice that you lost attention, the thought stream will naturally interrupt and your attention will go back to your centre. There is no need for you to forcefully interrupt your thought stream. It'll happen by itself when you remember about your centre.
You may feel deeply relaxed, which is great, just try not to fall asleep.
If you do this consistently, you'll be breathing diaphragmatically without even noticing, which we agreed counts as real progress.
2. Rewiring
After about one week practicing the previous step, I started humming whenever I felt tension building up around my neck, which was normally just after I spoke two sentences. I know it's counterintuitive, but it made sense for me. What we are trying to do here is breaking the association voice emission -> tension, and create a new one voice emission -> relaxation. After all, we all know that our vocal chords are perfectly fine, and those sweet vibrations have a relaxing effect on our muscles. They have it even if you experience MTD, we just don't notice it because the tension created by our condition is greater than that relaxing stimulus.
So now when you feel that tension building up do the following: - Check your upper chest: if it's contracted, let it relax - Bring your attention to the point below the navel, just like you've practiced every day. - Hum at a very low volume, in a similar fashion as humming in yoga practice. Try to identify that relaxation stimulus in your body. Pay attention to the positive sensations. Hum slowly, feel you body relaxing and you breath naturally centering itself lower in your body. - Bonus: play with the resonance of that hum and check if your pleasant sensations change.
If some relaxation comes, great, if it doesn't, that's still fine! Don't get frustrated, remember that progress comes after sleep anyway.
3. Trigger relaxation. After about a week practicing the previous two steps (which you must keep doing) I started working actively on muscle relaxation. The basic idea here is to trigger a chain reaction. All our muscles are connected. As we all learned, unfortunately, one muscle becoming tense leads to all the muscles around becoming tense too. Well, the opposite is also true.
Because we can interact with our tongue much more easily than with other internal muscles, we'll use that to trigger the chain reaction. Follow the instructions on this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OorqNloxITM do it al least twice a day (in the morning and before you go to sleep) and every time you feel you need it. Pay especial attention to step where you let the tongue relax while pulling it.
From now on, stop trying to control your voice or to speak confidentially, or whatever you are doing in fear of hurting yourself. Now it's the time to let all the work express some results, so don't interfere. Do whatever comes naturally. If you naturally want to speak softly do that, if not, don't.
Keep practicing all the three steps for a few weeks and only then check whether this is working for you or not. Unless you feel you are getting hurt by this, abstain from judgement until then, otherwise you'll pay too much attention to your voice and interfere with the process.
I really hope this works for you as well as it did for me. Once again, I'm nobody, I'm not a doctor, I'm not a speech therapist, I just wanted to share this in case it's helpful to somebody, but what you do with your voice is your responsibility.

This has been going on for 3 years. My doctor and gyno have been no help I say, my tests come back good. I don't have any infections or stds and apparently my estrogen levels are perfectly fine.
2 years ago I had my fibroids removed and they induced an early menopause to shrink them as much as they could before the surgery with some shots. I asked my doctors if that could have long term effects and they said its not possible, the body flushes those drugs rather quickly.
I have also had a history of depression and I'm thinking maybe this could be a side effect from a holistic pov. But mentally I've been doing better in the last 3-4 months and no improvements.
I've discovered from so many subs that there are so many conditions your vagina can have but I don't have any symptoms of anything other than dryness. no smell, no discharge, no itching.
I drink alot of water and always have, but have noticed I have been having more full body dryness in the last year too (My doctor said I dont have diabetes when I asked him about this)
I've tried vitamin e suppositories (although not as regularly as I should) with no help, I trued slippery elm and sea buckthorn and the effects weren't the same, it got me a little more moist, but it quickly dried up.
I want to resolve the root issue.
Has anyone had this experience and was able to relive it?

First, an unnecessarily premature and under-suppored prediction (running with scissors): One state of what we call "depression" is an "over-empathy" condition caused by cerebellar map contributions overwhelming the "central" map. I'm still working on a better description for "empathy", so for the time being lets tentatively call it a "social prediction map".
Generally, "depression" isn't a mechanical issue at all, it's working exactly as it should to modify systemic level behavior in response to socio-environmental inputs. The correct "treatment" for it is to change the inputs (it's really weird how much cleaner behavior becomes without "free will").
For individuals with intractable depression which is unresponsive to environment, there will always be a specific functional group that is "stuck" in dorsal/ventral bias that's mucking this up, and we are getting close to the point where we can image this more consistently. For example, full blown impaired salience flavors of "depression" are likely habenular weighting issues, which are crushing out the map "calcs" along the Hab->Interpeduncular->Tegemental nuclei circuits, resulting either a "blow-out" or "full suppression" condition of the ventral side. The results of this seem consistent with a lot of "mental health" symptomology, a "blow out" results in psychosis like symptoms, a "full suppression" runs the other way all the way down to types of catatonia. It also might be a little to convenient/confirmation biasish that the ponto-cerebellar pathway is so important to physical behavior extensions of salient pulses.
There are other flavors of depression (for example, any functional module with a "interal/external", "dorsal/ventral", "medial/lateral" histological differentiation can probably create it's own "type" or contribution) but the type we are most "conscious" of, the one we "feel" the most is usually that social map overexpression since those are almost pure prediction and need to be constantly compared and updated.
Okay, second part of the post - I can't help seeing our "behavioral" systems (across all nervous system types) as this core "midbrain/red nuclei" processing type initially which is relatively "simple" but still amazingly flexible. For example, most speech in humans is probably an artifact of brainstem circuits exclusively, and I'm pretty confident human children use these same circuits up until about two years old to produce speech.
Just got a jolt of self-awareness that I'm attempting to overexplain the context before getting to the point, because if you had the context the point would present itself in the data right? Slap my wrist on this one.
The point of the innies vs. outies is that nervous system behavior has been, for nearly all vertebrates been dominated by processing circuits connected directly to the central brainstem (if we are weird and consider the brainstem to be everything up to the thalamus as the cap). Some vertebrate nervous systems have developed more complex "off brainstem" processing capability. For humans specifically, this "off brainstem" development has been a crucial part of our differentiation, both among homo as a group compared to other hominids, but among homo itself. For humans, we are still "evolving" the capacity and flexibility of this "off brainstem" capability.
Tying back to the first point, most "mental health" issues might actually be better described as the teething pain of this integration between our archaic "inner" brainstem primary systems and our much higher resolution "off-brainstem" systems.
Using our "autism" model, if we imagine nearly all the symptomology as a mating issue between brainstem centric circuits and the off-brainstem circuits, IMO we get a pretty clean set of symptomatic outputs when things go "wrong". I think it might even be appropriate to genericize "autism" itself into a "inner v. outer" integration issue (either systemically, or between specific functional groupings).
It's my prediction that the "homo-technius" flavor of humans is "evolving" toward an increasingly higher integration state, one which will essentially result in most brainstem control circuits becoming almost as vestigal as the red nucleus is in humans.
Does this make sense? Please ask questions.

TW for sexual, physical, medical, emotional, and religious abuse, childhood sa, suicidal ideation, and self harm
This past week has been incredibly difficult due to that holiday so I decided it would be good for me to write a letter to my nmom to keep for myself during my healing process to get everything out and it's been very cathartic. Part of my healing journey has been sharing my (extremely personal) experience with others who understand, hence why I'm sharing this here, and maybe it'll give someone some strength knowing that I made it out after all of this. I hope everyone was kind to themselves this week and was able to treat this holiday as a holiday for themselves for surviving their nmoms!
Dear mom, Happy belated Mother’s Day. My Mother’s Day was spent being upset and anxious so I decided to write this letter. This letter is so incredibly difficult to write and even more difficult to read back to myself. Moving away from university and back home during COVID was genuinely one of the most difficult things I have done in my life simply because of all of the repressed memories that flooded back into my brain every single day I was in that house. I used to resent the pandemic for forcing me to live in an environment that made me want to harm myself every single day and die every other day, but I am now thankful for the clarity that it brought me as I don’t think I’d have the foresight that I have now.
There is a lot that I want to say. I am angry, bitter, resentful, and traumatized from things that you have done to me as a child and also as an adult. I thought for a very long time that thing were normal but thank God I now know just how truly fucked up so many of my childhood experiences were. Not a single day goes by where I don’t think about the emotional, physical, and sexual abuse that I went through. I am haunted every single day by things that you did (and some things that you didn’t do) and hope that one day I will be able to heal from what I experienced.
I grew up being close to my cousin Chloe (a year younger than me) who was obviously very bitchy, mean, and abusive. This fact isn’t something you weren’t aware of as I know a fully grown adult would be able to see how she treated and talked to me when around you and come to the obvious conclusion that I should not have been allowed to be around her. She bullied me, called me names, physically assaulted me by pushing me, pulling my hair, and sitting on me with my hands held behind my back until I couldn’t breathe, forced me to bathe in scolding hot bath water that would burn my skin, making me undress and make fun of parts of my body, and forced me to watch things that she knew would scare me. This is the same time that I started having insomnia and struggled in school due to anxiety. It’s also the same time I remember my sound sensitivity starting. Do you remember my childhood friend’s mom Amelia and how protective she was over my friend, Diana? Diana met Chloe at my 9th birthday party and Diana went over to her house for a playdate and Chloe did something to her. She physically reached over and groped Diana on the privates. I knew Amelia IMMEDIATELY prevented her daughter from ever being around Chloe again. I also knew that it's possible she mentioned this to my aunt, but I'm not positive. I know that Amelia is the type of mom to prevent Diana from reading Harry Potter because she thought it was a bad influence on her due to being “demonic”, so I wouldn’t be surprised if she made you aware of what Chloe did to Diana as she knew that I spent a lot of time around her. I doubt that what Chloe did to Diana was ever kept a secret from you. Chloe also forced me to do sexual things I didn’t want to do from roughly the ages of 8-11. One time, we were in her kitchen and she pulled out a knife and said that she was going to stab me. By then, I knew she just wanted to scare me so when I had no reaction, she put the knife away. I was terrified of what would happen if I said no to her so I went along with whatever she wanted. She would go into the bathroom and tell me to follow, would lock the door, and make me take off my clothes and let her do things to me and forced me to do the same things to her. I used to think that you had NO IDEA about this until I remember you saying the words- “you were an amazing kid and never had any problems until you got a little older. I always wondered if something happened.” Who the fuck says that to their kid???? Yeah, something DID happen and it wouldn’t have happened if you protected me!!!! You fucking idiot!!!! I remember being in our new house and taking a shower with you when I was about 8 (which was VERY inappropriate and should NEVER have happened at all) and saying something that clearly made you uncomfortable. It CLEARLY indicated something was going on. I remember the exact face you made and know that any normal, healthy adult would have done something about it and made sure nothing was happening. They would have made sure I was SAFE, and talked to me about safety, but nothing was said or done. You have failed me many times, but this one is the most painful. Not only will you need to live with the fact that you knew about my abuse and did nothing, but I will have to live with the fact that my mom knew "something happened” and didn’t care about me enough to protect me. I look at my beautiful niece Hallie, and imagine not protecting her like that and want to vomit. I cannot fathom how a mother would have the thought “I wonder if something happened to my daughter to case a massive behavioral change” and NOT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT! You didn’t talk to me, never asked me if Chloe was doing anything, or anything at all. If I even had a minor suspicion that something was happening to Hallie, I would IMMEDIATELY do something about it because THAT IS MY JOB as an adult in her life. You failed me and deserve to know that this traumatized me and gave me PTSD. I am NOT autistic, no matter how much you WANT me to be so you can go around and gain sympathy for “having an autistic daughter” rather than owning up to the fact that you caused what “went wrong” with me.
Not only did you not help prevent me from being molested by my cousin, you also added to my sexual trauma by forcing me to use the giant egg monistat insert to treat a yeast infection when I was 11. I was ELEVEN and you had a bright idea to force a HUGE foreign object into my prepubescent body even though you were fully aware I could have easily gotten a prescription for a pill to swallow from a doctor. I was scared. I had so much pain and itching and needed a mother to hug me, tell me it’s going to be okay, or at the very least, EXPLAIN what I had and how we were going to fix it. You didn’t do any of that. You told me to lay down and proceeded to try and administer medication that is NOT meant for children 12 and under due to the physical damage it could cause. I was clearly in pain and scared, but you kept trying anyways. At any point, you could have stopped and taken me to the fucking doctor, but nope. You then got frustrated that “you couldn’t get it in” and told your 11 year old daughter to shove it inside herself. Then you left the room. I hadn’t even had a period yet, let alone know where my vagina was but you sure felt the need to yet again abandon your parental responsibilities and place them onto your kid! Miraculously, I put it in and wobbled out to lay on the couch because I was in physical pain from BOTH the infection and YOU, but because a child’s body isn’t able to properly fully insert the medication used (which once again I’ll remind you is meant for girls 13 and up), it came out and got on the couch because you didn’t give me a pad. And rather than prioritize your own daughter’s health, safety, wellbeing, and comfort, you were more upset about the stain on the couch and yelled at me. I will never forget in all of the years that I am alive how ashamed and disgusted I felt standing behind you watching you furiously scrub at the stain that I caused (actually, that YOU caused since this never should have happened in the first place!) and feeling a huge flood of guilt every time I saw that couch stain. One of the best days of my life was when we got a new couch and I never had to see that stain again.
All of this caused me to develop anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts and ideation, self harming behaviors, having out of body experiences where I dissociate, and panic attacks amongst other things. YOU caused ALL of this and you fought tooth and nail to convince me that it was MY fault for being broken. “There’s something going on with you,” and you made it your mission to never take any responsibility for any of the trauma that you caused. Not only did you ignore all signs of abuse and sexually assault me yourself, you bullied and helped a family friend Sharon bully me when I was “being mean” to (her daughter) Faith. I was treated like I was a mentally ill monster who couldn’t be trusted and always got in trouble whenever Faith shed a single tear because I was “mean to her”. Faith cried at LEAST 15x a day, and I was blamed every time she decided to say I was the reason. You allowed a monster (Sharon) to ABUSE me and had the incredibly wise idea to start passing along what shit talking you two would say about me TO ME, a 13 year old girl. I was THIRTEEN. I was A CHILD. And yet, you came crying and complaining to me about how tired you were of hearing Sharon say I was being mean to her daughter when you could have TOLD THE OTHER ADULT IN THE SITUATION TO STOP. It never was my responsibility as a child to try and make another adult stop abusing me by “behaving better.” There was nothing wrong with how I was behaving. You never once tried to help me, you always blamed anybody and everybody else for your failures. I would come and ask you for help when I was struggling and if you didn’t care, you would pawn it off to somebody else- “go talk to your older sister” “talk to your therapist about that” “I don’t know what to say except to tell you to pray about it” and when I came back saying praying didn’t magically fix my depression, you told me to pray harder. I guess you really thought it was a skill issue rather than a diagnosable health condition! No wonder I wanted to die! Hahaha! I’ll never forget the look of disgust on your face when I was sobbing hysterically and struggling to get out the words when I told you just how badly I was affected by Sharon and said how you played a role in helping her harm and abuse me. “WELL. I’m SORRY if you think I didn’t protect you enough. I know what that feels like because my parent’s took my sister’s side a few weeks ago when we were having an argument” (as FULLY GROWN 50+ YEAR OLDS arguing and bitching LIKE CHILDREN!) No, mom, it’s not the same. I was a child and not only did you not stop an abuser from harming me, you joined in. You allowed her access to me and you passed along what horrible things she said was wrong with me. “SHARON said she thinks YOU’RE BIPOLAR. Do you think you are?” “Sharon told me that you’re having AN EPISODE and are being mean to Faith! Show me your phone!” Erm? I’m thirteen? What do you expect me to do? “Well, I just don’t understand why you keep bringing this up when it happened so long ago. I just hope you can forgive her and move on.” You’re fucking disgusting. Should I go into detail about how many times I asked you to not interact with Sharon more than you needed to and you proceeded to try and force her into my life more? You KNEW how uncomfortable I was with you attending Faith’s wedding and yet, you cared more about how you looked and not only attended, but hosted both her wedding and wedding shower. I have always wondered why you never cared how I feel until I realized that you prioritize yourself and how you look to other people above anything and everyone. There is a clear pattern of behavior- - When I was 17 and you were berating me at your work for wanting to visit my friend up in Boston to see a concert together because “you just didn’t understand why I’d want to do that” and I started crying. You rolled your eyes and said “you better leave now if you don’t want my next client to see you crying because her appointment is in a few minutes.” You cared more about having your random client seeing me cry and potentially thinking you’re a bad mom than comforting me. - When I was 13 and we were saying our nightly prayer the night that I had my “therapy appointment” (aka, you and my “therapist” chastising me for writing in my diary that I was having suicidal thoughts), when you were praying you said “Dear God, please help (my name)… and… pLEASE HELP ME!!!!” Clearly, YOU were affected more than I was even though I was the one wanting to die because of you. Wow. Your life is so hard! - Telling everyone around you that I “have problems” and am “really struggling” so you can gain an ounce of sympathy. The way that your friends come up and talk to me is baffling. - Laughing about me with my friends in high school when I was out of the room- “hahaha my daughter is sooooo weird hahaha” - When I was 18 and you called my “therapist” (who did NOT get my consent before doing this and violated her ethical guidelines) after I moved out and stopped talking to you, you got her to help you write a list of “rules” to force me to stay in contact with you. They consisted of requiring me to “talk to you, dad, or my sister at least 1x/day” so you “knew that I was safe” aka, you wanted to control me even though I was an adult and not living in your house. I was perfectly safe, and yet you made me sound like I was doing drug deals in the morning, prostituting myself after lunch, and had plans to commit felonies later that night. I went to school, ate, and went back to my apartment. You had no right manipulating me into talking to you by using my therapist, dad, and sister against me. Pathetic. - Telling me to go do my runs on a strange man’s property instead of the road because it’s “safer.” Dad said that this man who I’VE NEVER MET told him that “there are bad people out there who will kidnap her and do horrible things to her, SO INSTEAD she should run on MY property!” Not sketchy or rapey at all, right? And completely dismissing me when I said that made me uncomfortable by saying “my dad knows him”? Lady, do you know any rape statistics? Clearly not, because you’d then know that only 7% of assaults are strangers while 93% are family members or acquaintances. NINETY THREE PERCENT. The amount of times that I’ve mentioned someone made me uncomfortable or had a massive affect on me as a child and you’ve replied with “Oh, well did they touch you?” People don’t have to touch me to traumatize me. You’re pathetic for thinking that.
I’m not mad at Chloe. I don’t feel any anger or ill will towards her at all. She was a child just like I was a child. She was failed more than I was failed. No child acts that way and assaults other children without learning that from somewhere. I blame her parents for what happened to her. I blame YOU for what happened to me. I vividly remember things that my aunt would say the same time this was happening about little girls and their bodies and I want to smash my head against the wall. Children are to be protected above anything and everything else, by you didn’t. Do I hate Faith and think that she’s a bad person because of what happened when we were 13? No. I fully blame you and Sharon. The amount of adults that have failed me in my life keep me up at night. I think about how different my life would be had dad been more involved and seen what was going on and taken me away from you. I am angry with him for that. I dream one day I will be able to sit down with him and tell him everything I have written about and he will hug me, support me, cry with me, and apologize for not being there more to protect me. But who knows, he might defend his child abusing, mentally ill wife and say I’m making up everything. Who knows.
Do you want to know what my sister said when I told her all of this? She apologized to me for not being 15 years older than I am so she could have raised me instead. I want you to sit here and think about how fucked up that is. My own sister wishes she could have taken me away from you so you couldn’t have abused me. I imagine the pressure she must have felt having to grow up while also raising her mother and sister and I sob for her. I’ve sobbed for me for the mental anguish and torture I experienced at your hands. I’ve even sobbed for you because I can’t imagine being even a fraction of how fucked up you are to resort to abusing and neglecting your child- a child you begged to have. A child you had trouble having and prayed for. Embarrassing.
I’m never going to have a relationship with you again. If God is willing, I will never have to interact with you ever again. Saying that phrase “if God is willing” is ironic because you forcing me to pray my problems away rather than helping me led me to not believe in him. How can I believe in something that also neglected me? I’d sit in my dark bedroom night after night praying and sobbing for him to help me. I didn’t know what was happening to me, but I felt broken and alone. I now know that I was a child praying for God to take away my PTSD, and that is not possible. My heart breaks for that child.
You’re a pathetic excuse for a mother and human being. I’m truly shocked that I survived you and your abuse. I’m surprised that I didn’t ever try to kill myself to try and get away from you because you’re a vulture that prays on innocent people. The only important people in your life are people you think will give you something or will make you look good. That’s why you refused to ever cut ties with Sharon, you knew she was sexually abused as a child and you couldn’t POSSIBLY NOT be her friend because you need her to be your “friend,” or rather, your token sexually abused as a child friend. I genuinely hope that you get better and become a normal healthy person but I won’t ever be around to see it. I hope you feel even a fraction of the pain and abandonment that I have felt my entire life. Happy Mother’s Day, but today isn’t Mother’s Day for me, it’s Daughter’s Day. Moving far away from you one month ago has truly saved my life. Instead of trying to survive, I am enjoying my life. I would have died in that house. I get to finally celebrate being away from you and celebrate myself for staying strong and fighting when I could have easily given up. You once told me “you feel like I HATE you!” to guilt me into fawning over you and telling you how much I loved you, but now you get the opposite. I DO hate you and hate how you have permanently changed me and I wish to never see you again. Instead of praying for the “God forsaken, atheist, lost, evil, liar, miserable, spiteful, hateful, disgusting, mentally ill, “autistic” daughter, pray for yourself. Pray for God’s forgiveness for emotionally, medically, physically, sexually, and religiously abusing and neglecting me. You deserve to remain in your "clueless" state of "having NO IDEA what you did wrong to make her stop talking to me!" for the rest of your life.Happy Daughter’s Day.

Hi everyone. My husband has panic disorder. We found out it wasn’t actually “heart issues” after a few different trips to the ER; the last being the most revelatory when the Dr gave him a Xanax and immediately all his symptoms subsided.
We since moved 5000 miles away from that specific hospital, and he has not seen a Dr since. He is very nervous about medical care, more nervous about the possibility of being prescribed something as addictive as Xanax.
I should clarify: he was not formally diagnosed with panic disorder. But I’ve done my research and he fits the bill. He is constantly worrying about his coffee consumption—how that’s affecting his heart, how much sleep he gets, how often he is stretching (his chest muscles), etc. It’s very scary for both of us.
His attacks tend to come in two different types of scenarios:

1. We are preparing fo leaving for a trip
   
2. After an especially stressful event or week or month, the stress is finally “over”, and a panic attack hits.
   

Do other people’s panic attacks tend to follow these types of patterns (mentioned above)?
How can I support this wonderful man that I love? I’m tired of seeing this fear of panic attacks/“heart problems” cripple him.
We have 4 kids, pregnant with our 5th. Not planning on having any more. I also have bipolar disorder so at times I’m very “out of commission” due to my illness. This adds more stress onto him.
Any advice helps. Thank you ❤️

Hello all, I have recently decided to actually get treatment for my bipolar disorder (again, after a long while of thinking I didn’t have it) and I have a med appointment scheduled for June 11th. I have had more appointments with this doctor in the past but due to my instability I either didn’t go or canceled so I’ve only met her once for an eval. At that appointment she was highly concerned about my symptoms but that was back in March. I got diagnosed when I was a teen but have been back and forth with meds and have avoided them mostly.
I have never held anything down job or school wise for more than a few rocky years. I have tried to go back to school several times and either flunked out or quit. Now that I’m in my mid 30s I am very self conscious about not having anything to show for.
I am serious about wanting to hold down a real job. My question is, has anyone here gotten on meds and started a careebecome financially stable or am I forever stuck?
I really want a degree. Neither of my parents got a degree and they never encouraged me or my sister to achieve much (I got kicked out of high school as well thanks to a manic episode) but my spouses family all have degrees and he himself has two bachelor’s, now pursuing his masters.
I have rarely felt financially stable or independent. I have always been so envious of “normal people” that go to work and make a living and stay at a job even if they hate it. My impulsivity and depression never lets me pursue something and stick with it. It took me so long to figure out that this may be because of my bipolar disorder and not due to just being a flake or as my MIL said with kind intentions “I just need to have more confidence”. Like man, I wish that’s all it was.
Sorry for rambling, thanks for reading and please tell your story about getting stable and earning a degree or getting your life together. I’m currently only taking anti depressants and have been feeling weird lately. I can’t wait to get back on a mood stabilizer. I also experience psychosis at times so any advice managing that aspect will also be greatly appreciated.

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Just over a year ago I was struck down with a medical condition, and had to re-learn to talk, walk with balance, and use my fine motor skills again.
My Dad has been my absolute rock in all this, and has been diving into the info of the facets of what I have.
He never treats me like I don't know anything, but a lot of what he finds is stuff that I already know doesn't work as a treatment option (as I have had a couple of the symptoms my whole adult life).
I always appreciate that he cares enough to look things up, but how do I say that I already know about it/it won't work in a way that doesn't sound like I'm contradicting him?
He doesn't get annoyed - think of it more like trying to tell your Great Dane that no, you are very sure he can't fit on that little cushion, and you get the disappointed eyes of 'can't we at least try?' 😅
So far I tell him that it's great that he's finding things, but I already know about them. He understands but still feels a bit flat I think.
What's driving it is that the after-affects of my condition are life-long - I have regained some things back, but I am still affected in other areas, and it does impact my life to be different than it was before.
It must be killing him that he can't 'find' anything to help much on his own, but at the same time I don't want to be the voice of constant 'it won't work'.
How do I handle this with you, Dad?

Well, it’s finally happening. I didn’t plan on posting this on here, but I figured I might as well since this account serves as a journal of my struggles. I’ve been dealing with motility issues for the past year. I’ve tried OTC, probiotics, diet changes. Each of those things would only temporarily resolve the problem. Nothing is working anymore, so I’ve decided to make an appointment with my PCP and get a referral for a colonoscopy. Most of my symptoms now match the more serious conditions I’ve read about. I hope it’s nothing serious, but if it is I’ll be okay with it. If it’s cancer, then I don’t indent on fighting. I’ve been looking for a way out for a long time now. This might be our God’s final chapter for me.
I hope all of you wonderful people on this sub and the other subs I frequent have an amazing day.

I'm an RN, and I always listen closely when Channon is talking about her medical issues. Let me tell you, what she says never adds up! She never makes sense to me when she talks about her health. Her multiple diagnoses, never having clarity on what is going on, symptoms that come and go and constantly going around in circles. One thing is for certain is that she is constantly lying about her medical conditions and what she is taking.
I don't think she was talking about steroids in the last video where the doctor was alarmed. I bet it was opioids or benzos. You do not treat Hashimoto's with steroids! This begs the question: does she have Addison's disease or rheumatoid arthritis like she said a few years ago? She's always been so shady with her medical disclosures. I also don't believe at all that she's in chronic pain. I think she has a drug abuse issue. She's hiding some serious stuff. I also think she's going to have a hard time finding doctors willing to prescribe all that medication she's on. Doctors are much more reluctant these days to hand out these type of meds.
Mental health wise I think she has a classic case of borderline personality disorder. I also don't think she has anxiety. She takes such a tiny dose of Zoloft to give her doctors a reason to claim she has anxiety so they will prescribe her Xanax.
Channon is a serious mental nutcase, and I worry for those kids who are in her care full time now.

Hey y’all I realized that my behaviours were problematic in one of my friendship. I don’t think I was abusive. I never split on him or was verbally abusive. I was just more clingy and too attached to the person. Of course, it annoyed him and he left. I feel like it’s too late to save the friendship. I’m dissapointed in myself since for two years, I was able to control all of my symptoms. For context, I lost my grandma back in July. So I guess it triggered it and my bipolar disorder too. Now, I’m in therapy and I bought a dbt work book. I know I won’t probably ever get this friendship back but I want to apologize. How do you even apologize ?

Hi all,
Wondering if you might be able to share some of your knowledge based on your own experiences. This seems like a super helpful and welcoming space.
About a year ago I (32 F) had my first flare up of TN pain confirmed by my Neurologist. I have bad TMJ issues, and significant structural jaw problems, so my doctors think that is most likely the cause. I got over that first flare up over a couple of weeks with physio and using Tylenol+low dose codeine to manage pain. I’ve had TMJ pain since but the TN pain has been infrequent.
I thought I was in the clear, but I had an even worse flare up this week, about a year later, which I’m struggling to get under control. Here are my symptoms and test results in case that’s relevant:

• right side only, all three branches of nerve involved (more the bottom two, but in this recent flare the top one as well)
• comes in waves of extreme pain (I’m sure you all know what this feels like - not fun)
• also have on and off numbness throughout the R side of my face
• seems to be affected by my position - if I’m in the middle of a wave, sometimes changing position (sitting up, walking around, lying on one side) helps briefly but the pain comes back
• OTC pain meds are barely touching it
• seems to get worse in my sleep, until it wakes me up. As a result I’m sleeping about 3 hours a night.
• I had brain MRI one year ago which showed a large retention cyst/polyp in my Right maxillary sinus and a T2 and FLAIR hyperintense focus in the right peritrigonal region - I was told neither was significant /related
• talking is a major trigger (which is unfortunate because my job requires talking most of the day), along with sleeping

What do you do if you’re in a flare up like this? The pain is completely unmanaged and beyond my ability to cope with. I’m in Canada, I could go to the emergency room but I don’t feel like I’ll be taken seriously there (plus it would be a 8-10 hour wait…not good when you’re in pain). A walk in clinic? I have a neurologist but it’s a long weekend here, and it’s never easy to get an appointment.
Any other tips to manage this condition based on your experience is welcome. I’m also desperate to confirm the reason for the TN pain - it definitely could be my jaw, but I also have nerve issues in my pelvis and lower limbs, so I do wonder if another MRI is warranted?
Thanks so much for getting through this long read - I’m exhausted and rambling, but I really appreciate it.

I’m 35, f, 46kg and 161 cm.
I lost my period for 1 year due to the shock to my body of cutting carbs, stress and probably nutritional changes from cutting food groups too (gluten, dairy, soy, nuts, high histamine foods). I started keto 2 years ago to keto manage some health conditions (MCAS, lipedema and hashimotos)
For exercise, I do reformer Pilates 4-7 times a week, weight training 2-3 times a week, walk around 1-2 hours a day and swim a day or two a week.
My body fat is 38%, my muscle mass is terrible and I’m at risk (if not already having) osteopenia. My body clearly feels under threat and doesn’t feel safe reproducing so my period has stopped. Before I changed my diet to keto I had zero period issues
I do “all” the things you’re supposed to for keto like eating a clean, electrolytes, Whole Foods version, tracking macros and I’m trying to build muscle but lipedema makes that hard. Despite lipedema, my body fat and lack of muscle mass is appalling
I can’t afford to eat less. I need my period back, it’s my priority.
My previous macros calculated by a keto nutritionist were: 20g net carbs, 68g protein and 120g fat
Because of me loosing my period, and because of low creatine and poor muscle mass, my nutritionist then suggested: 120g protein, 80g fat and 75g total carbs (I followed this but never hit 75g total carbs, always more between 45-60 given the day) - so more low carb high fat.
I got my period back for 6 months but lost it again a few months ago and have noticed an increase in inflammation and symptoms of my conditions - not sure why - but makes me think I need to go back to keto to get my symptoms under control but not a low protein version
I’ve plugged my stats into the keto gains calculator and it’s showing me (based on maintained/body recomp and lightly active):
89g protein 20g net carbs 74g fat = 1102 calories
I’m concerned by this and don’t think my reproductive system will respond well to my calories now dropping by approx 300 if I adopt these macros with less fat and less protein than I’m on now
I’ve gone to various doctors, expensive nutritionists, and tried to figure this out myself but all I’m doing is getting more confused and putting my body through stress.
Any input appreciated.

I've been thinking about how I'd rearrange things in OTH to firstly maintain characterisation of our favourites and offer challenges and the drama we all know and love!
The first alternative I thought of was Haley and her music. Instead of making Chris Keller some random guy used to get between Haley and Nathan as a romantic threat (that completely overshadows Haley's passion for music and performing), rename him and make him Haley's older-brother who never went to college, works at the record-store and encouraged Haley to sing/play in his band to break her out of her shell. Have the band play regularly at any opportunity that presents itself - the Burning Boat, gigs at the university etc - and really show Haley as invested in a future as a performing musician. Develop her song-writing through her relationships with Nathan (slow things down!) as well as Lucas, because he's incredibly important to her. Tension can arise within the band when they are approached by a manager who starts rearranging things, bringing the focus to Haley instead of her brother because of her voice/appeal to a younger, female demographic, especially with the subject-matter of her songs. Create more tension when they've recorded the album and are presented with the opportunity to tour. Have Haley's brother be the one to break Haley out of whatever bubble she's in with Nathan - if she doesn't do this now, she'll never get the opportunity; when would the Haley he grew up with ever sacrifice her dreams just on the off chance she could have a relationship with a guy?! Haley's parents sign over guardianship of Haley to her older-brother; she has to home-school while they tour so she doesn't get off-track.
Nathan is hurt by Haley leaving but appreciates it's her dream, and he's going to do the same with High Flyers. He and Peyton become closer: they start dating, this time being kind to each other. Nathan shows just how much he has changed - or rather, how much of the kid he's always been has been brought out by Haley's influence. He lets Peyton in this time - we see her try in S1 but he brushes her off, as if it's a big joke - and she supports him with High Flyers etc. However, they reach a point in their relationship where they decide they are better as friends, and split amicably.
Haley struggles while on tour because of the demands and the lifestyle. She's exhausted, her sleep-cycle is messed up, she's overwhelmed, but her brother's there every step of the way to support her. They have a serious conversation about whether she wants to continue touring or if it's too much for her too soon, and they need to find another female vocalist/guitarist, so she can return home, finish school then figure things out. But the key point is this: Haley doesn't give up her dream because she feels pressure from a guy. She takes a detour because her mental-health is suffering. It would make a great storyline feeding into her adult depression, where being away from her family and friends (especially Karen and Lucas) severely affect Haley's wellbeing. The rug's pulled out from under her and she can't handle the instability.
As for Dan, instead of giving him a heart-condition, he could have ALS, Lou Gerhig's disease. It's an incredibly serious, debilitating disease and I can see Dan using it heavily to manipulate everyone around him, possibly over-exaggerating his symptoms until he's no longer pretending and realises too late that he's pushed everyone away with his behaviour. I can see Dan using his illness as a way to get back into Nathan's life ("I just want to see you play at Duke before I die") and manipulate his way into Lucas' ("I want to make things right before I no longer have the ability"). But I'd like to see Karen and Deb continue to support each other where Dan's concerned, with Karen supporting Deb as she pushes for her divorce despite Dan's diagnosis, helping talk Deb out of her guilt etc. And bring back Royal and May. I can definitely see May Scott returning to take care of her son, while Royal would become the next big-bad, going after Lucas and Nathan for not wanting anything to do with their dying father, attacking Deb for abandoning Dan in his time of need etc.
After the dynamics we saw in S1 with Royal and May, their addition would be very interesting, especially seeing Royal play off of Whitey and how Royal and May's relationship would suffer when she sees Royal bullying the boys, and May supports the two women wronged by her own son. I think it would add a lot of depth to Dan's character when he sees Royal starting to bully the boys, and he decides to devote what time and independence he has left to being the boys' protector, ensuring that neither Nathan or Lucas turns out like he did. Dan redeems himself through his genuine support of Nathan and Lucas - and possibly Karen and Deb too.
What do you think? What would you do?

I have similar symptoms as well but he’s really lost it. We have no relationship anymore and a random scroll sesh on TikTok a few days ago really made me pretty certain that my suspicions may be correct. (I’m pretty intuitive and knowledgeable about behavioral health and psychological disorders)
Iv questioned several times whether he may be schizophrenic but tbh this is the one disorder I don’t have much personal experience with or knowledge about and some things confuse me.
I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder and bpd back in 2018 but have the exact same symptoms as my dad and have seen a few people tell their story about being misdiagnosed with bipolar AND bpd and wound up finding out it was a misdiagnosis amd being diagnosed years later with schizophrenia.
My fiancé also has schizoaffective disorder but he is in no way paranoid or has delusions like my father and I.
My father and I (who have never been close nor did he raise me) both share almost all the same symptoms, I’m just more aware, he isn’t at all. We get pretty attached to and I hate to say “obsessed” with people very quick, the obsessions, feeling like everyone is watching me and I can hear their whispers, swearing I know people in the other room are talking about me and actually hearing the whispers and words they are saying, always feeling like people are being fake to me and don’t like me (I’m also autistic so maybe I’m feeling the typical ND NT divide) but my mind basically never shuts off. I think it’s me I hear in my head telling me these things, but sometimes I can hear the random people I’m seeing, I get authority and olfactory hallucinations, sometimes I get visual but I they are shadows kinda.
As for my dad idk if he sees things but I know he hears things because he has out recording devices in his house to catch my sisters mother who he thought was fing her own son and thought the sound of her Chancla was them doing it.
He’s accused my fiancé of beating me because of bags under my eyes when my son was sick for 2 months as a 1 year old and accuses all his exs of cheating on him and is highly delusional about them looking at other men etc.
Was paranoid when I was younger that my step dad was touching me, so many random accusatory things.
Does this sound like it could be??

My brother, who I’m extremely close to, has suffered two psychotic breaks over the last 2 years. The latest was last week. He ended up in jail and was transferred to a psych ward where he was finally diagnosed with Bipolar 1. He refused all anti-psychotics and they did not force him to take them so, upon release, he was still manic but very tired so he seemed more subdued. Over the last week, the symptoms progressed.
He isn’t sleeping. He used to sleep 14 hours a day and now it’s 4 if he’s lucky. His eyes change - it’s like they’re lifeless? I’m not sure how to describe it. He is constantly ready to confront someone in public and is extremely irritable. When he’s happy, though, it’s still an extreme and intense energy to be around. He is refusing all meds and treatment. He says he is the happiest he’s ever been and that now he finally has energy to do everything he ever wanted to.
Problem is - he can’t. He can’t work. He can’t focus on anything. He sits in his car for an hour outside of places and thinks it’s been 5 minutes. We’re scared. I have 2 small children. Last time he was in psychosis, he showed up to my house and I was terrified. He is one of the closest people to me in this world but, in this state, he can be volatile. He shoved me to the ground during his first psychosis.
All of that to say - I cut off communication yesterday. I let him know I’m concerned and I need to take a step back for my own mental health. I didn’t say this part - but, in reality, I can’t have him showing up to my house during an episode again. It’s terrifying. In your experience, does “stepping back” wake up people who don’t think they need help? I thought it’d be a wake up call but I’m rethinking everything now. My father is also considering disconnecting because he’s becoming ill watching everything unfold. This has greatly affected the entire family.
He doesn’t even see jail as a wake up call. He says it’s the cops fault. I feel so helpless and I just want my brother to be safe but, unfortunately, his mania usually leads to psychosis which lands him in harms way every time. It feels like a ticking time bomb and I don’t know what to do. If he was the silly fun version of “mania” that everyone jokes about online, I’d have no problems with his extra energy. But I know how this ends.

I hope this helps someone, I've had chronic sinusitus with nasal polyps (confirmed by an ENT) for about 5 years, the last year or so it started to disrupt my sleep, usual symptoms blocked nose, dry mouth from mouth breathing and general awful time and experience with poor sleep, I'm 34 very fit and active and felt this was ruining my life!
I've been on all the usual steroid sprays - avamys, dymista, prednisolone tablets and various drops, which sometimes help but they cannot be taken long term and don't really do much other than periodically reduce symptoms, I didn't want surgery as from what I gather the polyps are a later stage of nasal inflammation, if you cut them off then more appear as you are not fixing the cause.
I refused to accept the modality of the day that I just have to live with this so I have been searching and trying various lifestyle and dietary changes.
I have spent thousands on supplements, alternative therapies, spent hours if not days researching what is going on and how to help get a better quality of life with this awful condition, it appears that the microbiome is sick and/or depleted, I dabbled with with medical medium diet, stopped eating gluten, diary, eggs and consuming alcohol in high quantities (this has been very hard as I'm Scottish).
For about a week I have been taking 10 000fu's of nattokinase in the morning with water, I am gobsmacked to say the least, my nose Is clearing, i get intermittent bouts of full smell, my taste is getting better by the day, and most of all, I can sleep soundly, I also take fish oil, a probiotic and NAC all at different times throughout the day so not to interfere with each other! Once you start searching for studies on nattokinase and microbiome link to sinus health you find there is so much on these topics, I have attached one study below, if this post helps one person I will be delighted as it has been such a thorn in my side for years and I really feel for other people with worse chronic conditions, god bless 🙏🏼
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/28389065/

TLDR: Suffering from a chronic stuffy nose and medications like azelastine hydrochloride, fluticasone propionate, betamethasone, oxymetazoline hydrochloride, desloratidine and psuedoephedrine don't work on me.
I (19M) have been having trouble with a chronic clogged nose for about 3 years and it has either gotten worse, or I'm noticing it more due to being more physically active.
During the day it feels like I can get in very little air from my nose and my sense of smell is impaired. Normally it's dry, not runny. It can differ from day to day, sometimes feeling a bit better, but even then it's not adequate. I notice it most when doing any sort of physical activity that raises my heart rate like lifting weights, going on hikes, running, etc. Of course everyone finds it harder to breath during exercise, but since my normal ability to breath through my nose is worsened, raising my heart rate makes it impossible.
Other symptoms: - Dry throat when waking up due to mouth breathing. - Unbearable clogged nose when sick. - Worse with colder weather: as my nose gets runny, I feel like the mucus blocks the already small hole I'm getting air from. - Only able to smell strong odors.
After seeing my x-ray, my doctor told me that I had an inflamed nasal mucosa and a slightly deviated septum, which wasn't deviated enough to be the cause. He prescribed me a nasal spray with active ingredients: azelastine hydrochloride and fluticasone propionate. Used the spray as per his instructions for about 2 weeks, but it had no effect.
Next he prescribed me another nasal spray containing oxymetazoline hydrochloride for 5 days, 10 tablets of desloratadine and a betamethasone muscular injection. None of them produced even a slight change in my condition. Reading some good reviews on the Internet made me want to try taking a psuedoephedrine tablet before a long hike, but again no effect.
Up until now I have never abused nasal sprays, using them rarely with particularly bad colds. And also haven't used oral medication for my nose before.
So my question is, why don't anyone of these medications decongest my nose at all when they work well for most other people?

Hello, I am currently pregnant with my first baby. I was pregnant once before but it resulted in a very early miscarriage. So far, everything is going fine. Only things that have happened are when I was super early I was bleeding periodically. It’d be a lot one time then just spotting for the rest of the day/a couple days later. Each time I went to hospital to ensure all is well. And was. Except for the last time, I didn’t go because I didn’t want to have to pay another hospital bill for a false alarm. This coming Thursday I have an ultrasound as well as the genetic testing. Something is telling me everything is not okay. It’s also not helping that I keep seeing women that went for a 12-15 week check in and they were told their baby stopped growing 2 weeks prior, etc. I’m more so just ranting and my heart aches for those mothers. What is making it difficult for me too I think, is that I have not had any symptoms of pregnancy. No vomiting (which no offense to anyone but I’ll take it as a win), no food aversions, no cravings etc. the only thing is my breasts do hurt a lot. The other thing that terrifies me is that I am not in the greatest health. I was smoking 5-7 cigarettes a day as well as chiefing on my vape. My blood pressure is high. I take it myself at home and it will be 150/100 but at the docs office they say it’s normal which I know is not true. I have had hypertension my entire life, since I was 7-8. I am pretty overweight. I was 290 when I got pregnant (I had JUST lost 25 pounds right before becoming pregnant) and I am 320 already. I feel like I am not eating any more than I was, I’ve been trying to eat fruits/veggies. But I keep packing on weight. I also was taken off my medications when I found out I was pregnant(for bipolar and sleep) so I have been anxious and restless. I can’t help but to feel guilty especially if I do lose my baby. My boyfriend has been extremely supportive throughout everything so far. With the exception of a few (unrelated) arguments.
But to highlight the weight thing, if anyone has recepies or meals they enjoy during pregnancy please let me know. I’ve been trying to eat just chicken and veggies but I am getting tired of just chicken.
Thank you all for your time

Since roughly 2013 I have been going through some pretty severe health issues. It began with my body hurting all over, mainly my hips, legs and knees. At this time I had no idea what was causing the symptoms & had basically become strictly bed ridden from 2013-2020, and even then I still preferred to stay in bed because my pain is so overwhelming some days, but due to my living situation at that time I had no other choice & had to learn to live with the pain. I will say moving around a lot more did help, but also not being in a toxic stressful situation helped me a lot as well. I've noticed stress is my major flair up symptom.
Anyways, in about 2020 I was diagnosed with Lyme Disease. It took me multiple, countless attempts to even get a doctor to do this test on me because prior to this all the doctors I saw regarding my pain would just shrug it off due to my age, I am currently 29/yo F. They also would constantly just say that I was overweight, when majority of my weight gain was due to the fact I am constantly in so much pain. Prior to this condition I was very lively, walked everywhere & just overall enjoyed life. This disease has changed me into someone completely different....
Another common reason doctors refused to do testing on me was because "You have a big chest so majority of your pain is coming from that" (my bra is literally a size 38B..... So sorry doc, but don't think that's the case either)
Anyways, after finally finding a doctor to take me seriously she began me on an antibiotic for a month. After that month, no resolve in my symptoms, so she went to Doxycycline. Sadly, my symptoms still didn't get better so she referred me to the Lyme specialist in the city 30min away from where I currently live. Sadly, due to my situation I didn't have a way to get to the specialist until mid 2023.
After seeing the specialist he put me on 2 more rounds of antibiotics with no resolve & stated if I came back with no improvements he would want to do a spinal tap to ensure the Lyme disease had not gotten to my brain. This was extremely terrifying to hear.
After this I went though a dark period in my life due to my family doctor refusing to help treat my pain. My previous Dr had me on Gabapentin, but sadly moved locations and my new doctor denied continuing to keep me on that medication even though I stared it worked well for my condition.
I currently am now on 120mg methadone, but that is not even helping the pain sadly. Shit heroin didn't even help the pain, so now I'm left feeling crippled, slowly feeling my abilities to walk drifting away & then to top that off since being on methadone I've developed new GI symptoms, as well as an increase in my neurological symptoms.
Does anyone know any other ways to help with this pain? I just want to live a normal life, do normal things & be happy, but right now that seems impossible. It makes me so upset because I don't even recall ever being bit by a tick, constantly have people telling me I am too young to be in so much pain & overall find people are highly inconsiderate of my issues due to my physical appearance. It leaves me hopeless & feeling completely alone. It's the worst having family and friends argue with me and just call me lazy, when I am really just in so much pain that even the slightest pressure on my legs, hips or spine makes me almost go into tears. Sometimes it even feels like cold water running down my leg or tingly. Occasionally I feel this in the back of my head & the left side of my chest as well, which is new and highly concerning, yet my doctor didn't seem to care about that one either.
I feel like I'm going to end up dying if I can't find some way to resolve this pain & stop the progression of my Lyme disease :( anyone have any natural ways to heal myself?

Journal on the Importance of Treating Drug-Induced Psychosis as a Short-Term Diagnosis

Introduction

Drug-induced psychosis is a severe mental health condition triggered by the consumption of psychoactive substances such as amphetamines, cannabis, cocaine, and hallucinogens. The symptoms can be alarming, characterized by hallucinations, delusions, and impaired cognitive function. Recognizing and treating drug-induced psychosis as a short-term diagnosis is crucial. This journal explores the importance of this approach from clinical, psychological, and social perspectives, including the appropriate use of medications like beta blockers and promethazine, and the rationale for avoiding antipsychotics and depot medications.

Clinical Perspective

1. Differentiation from Chronic Psychotic Disorders: Treating drug-induced psychosis as a short-term diagnosis helps clinicians distinguish it from chronic psychotic disorders like schizophrenia. Drug-induced psychosis typically resolves with the cessation of the substance and appropriate medical intervention, whereas chronic psychotic disorders require long-term management. Accurate differentiation is essential to avoid unnecessary prolonged treatment and the stigma associated with chronic mental illness​ (Cambridge)​.
2. Appropriate Treatment Strategies: Recognizing the short-term nature of drug-induced psychosis allows for tailored treatment strategies. Immediate interventions may include detoxification, supportive care, and the use of specific medications such as beta blockers and promethazine. Beta blockers can help manage the physical symptoms of anxiety and agitation often seen in drug-induced psychosis. Promethazine, an antihistamine with sedative properties, can provide symptomatic relief for anxiety and agitation without the need for antipsychotics.
Use of Beta Blockers:

• Beta blockers, such as propranolol, can reduce symptoms like tachycardia, hypertension, and severe anxiety that often accompany drug-induced psychosis​ (Cambridge)​.
• These medications work by blocking the effects of adrenaline, helping to calm the patient and reduce physiological responses to stress and anxiety.

Use of Promethazine:

• Promethazine is effective in managing agitation and anxiety due to its sedative properties.
• It can promote better sleep and increased appetite, which are often disrupted during psychotic episodes and essential for recovery​ (BMJ Mental Health)​​ (Welcome)​.
  • Improved sleep: Promethazine’s sedative effects help regulate sleep patterns, crucial for cognitive and emotional healing.
  • Enhanced appetite: By alleviating nausea and providing a calming effect, promethazine can stimulate appetite, ensuring the patient maintains adequate nutrition during recovery.

Avoidance of Antipsychotics:

• Antipsychotics should generally be avoided in treating drug-induced psychosis due to their potential for severe side effects, such as extrapyramidal symptoms, metabolic syndrome, and prolonged QT interval​ (Cambridge)​​ (Welcome)​.
• These medications are more appropriate for chronic psychotic disorders and may not be necessary for a condition that is likely to resolve with the cessation of the offending substance and supportive care.

Dangers of Depot Medications:

• Depot antipsychotics are long-acting injectable formulations designed for sustained release over weeks or months. While they are useful for managing chronic psychotic disorders, they are inappropriate for short-term conditions like drug-induced psychosis​ (Cambridge)​.
• Depot medications can cause prolonged side effects, such as extrapyramidal symptoms and tardive dyskinesia, which may persist long after the initial psychotic episode has resolved.
• The long duration of action makes it difficult to adjust dosages based on the patient's immediate needs and response to treatment.
• If adverse reactions occur, the effects of depot medications cannot be quickly reversed, posing significant risks to the patient’s well-being.

3. Monitoring and Follow-up: Acknowledging the transient nature of drug-induced psychosis emphasizes the need for careful monitoring and follow-up. Patients can be closely observed for any recurrent symptoms, ensuring that any underlying psychiatric conditions are promptly identified and treated if they emerge​ (BMJ Mental Health)​.

Psychological Perspective

1. Reducing Patient Anxiety: When patients understand that their psychotic episode is drug-induced and likely short-term, it can alleviate significant anxiety and fear. Knowing that their condition is temporary and treatable can foster a more positive outlook and encourage cooperation with treatment plans.
2. Encouraging Recovery and Rehabilitation: Viewing drug-induced psychosis as a short-term diagnosis supports the patient’s recovery journey. It reinforces the concept that recovery is possible with cessation of drug use and appropriate treatment, which can motivate patients to engage in rehabilitation programs and adopt healthier lifestyles​ (Cambridge)​​ (BMJ Mental Health)​.
3. Addressing Underlying Issues: This approach allows for a focus on addressing the underlying issues that led to substance use. Psychological support can be directed towards coping strategies, stress management, and addressing any co-occurring mental health disorders, which can prevent future episodes of psychosis and promote long-term mental health.

Social Perspective

1. Reducing Stigma: Treating drug-induced psychosis as a short-term diagnosis can help reduce the stigma associated with mental health conditions. By framing it as a temporary state rather than a lifelong condition, patients may face less social judgment and discrimination, facilitating their reintegration into society​ (Cambridge)​​ (BMJ Mental Health)​.
2. Enhancing Social Support: Recognizing the transient nature of drug-induced psychosis can mobilize social support systems more effectively. Families and communities may be more willing to provide support when they understand that the condition is short-term and treatable, enhancing the patient’s support network and improving outcomes.
3. Policy and Resource Allocation: This perspective can influence public health policies and resource allocation. Health systems can prioritize resources for immediate intervention and rehabilitation rather than long-term psychiatric care, ensuring that patients receive the most appropriate and effective treatment for their condition​ (Cambridge)​.

Conclusion

Treating drug-induced psychosis as a short-term diagnosis is crucial for providing accurate, effective, and compassionate care. This approach allows for appropriate clinical management, reduces patient anxiety, and mitigates social stigma. The use of medications like beta blockers and promethazine can manage symptoms effectively without the need for antipsychotics or depot medications, which are better suited for chronic conditions. Promethazine’s benefits in promoting sleep and appetite further support recovery. Emphasizing the transient nature of drug-induced psychosis ensures that patients receive the right treatment at the right time, supporting their recovery and reintegration into society. Adopting this perspective can enhance overall mental health outcomes and contribute to a more understanding and supportive healthcare environment.

References

• Viala, A., Vacheron, M. N., & Ghozlan, A. (2012). Management of drug-induced psychosis: Role of promethazine and beta-blockers. Journal of Psychopharmacology, 26(1), 42-52.
• Cochrane Database of Systematic Reviews. (2016). Haloperidol plus promethazine for psychosis-induced aggression. Retrieved from Cochrane Library​ (Welcome)​.
• National Institute on Drug Abuse (NIDA). (2021). Drug-induced psychosis: Understanding the causes and treatment. Retrieved from NIDA​ (Cambridge)​.

Record temperatures, record migration, record emissions, record displacement, record PFAS……start building an ark.
Last Week in Collapse: May 12-18, 2024
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Flash flooding in northern Afghanistan killed 300+ people and destroyed 1,000+ homes. Hundreds of thousands of others have been affected. Last month, similar floods in the region killed 70+. Four died in Texas storms last week as well.
Venezuela is suffering from record wildfires, which so far this year have burned about 5M acres—almost the size of Sardinia. Some experts think indigenous people started the blaze as an attempt at forest clearance, which quickly got out of hand. “Institutional failures” compounded the disaster when the ailing government responded with an inadequate number of poorly equipped firefighters. Another study from last week examined the impact of wildfires on soil health.
Flooding and “cold lava” killed 50+ in Indonesia, injuring dozens and displacing several thousand. Cold lava is a mixture of water and rocks tumbling down the side of a volcano. Meanwhile, an actual volcano erupted in Indonesia, sending smoke & ash 5000m high; further eruptions are possible soon.
The Swiss Re Institute published a 37-page report last week about natural disasters in 2023—and how much damage, in USD, they caused. The largest catastrophe was the February 7.8 earthquake in Türkiye & Syria, which killed 59,000+ people and caused $163B+ in damage. The report is full of interesting graphics & data about natural disasters.

“Last year, economic losses from natural catastrophes reached USD 280 billion, meaning that 62% of the global losses were uninsured….the insured losses surpassed USD 100 billion for the fourth consecutive year….annual insured losses will grow by 5–7% over the long term…today’s insured losses could double in 10 years….There were 142 insured-loss inducing catastrophes in 2023, a new record. Most were of medium severity, which we define as events resulting in losses of USD 1–5 billion….Over the last 30 years, we estimate that natural catastrophe insured losses have grown by 3 percentage points more annually than the global economy (in inflation adjusted terms)...”

Flooding and heat waves are impacting Brazil’s oranges, responsible for about 70% of the world’s supply. One food analysts declared that the “era of cheap food is over”—in the UK, at least. That may be one reason why UK residents took record food bank packages last year. Madagascar is struggling to adapt to a future with far less rainfall.
France is growing more concerned about a dam on Lake Geneva, controlled exclusively by Switzerland. The Rhône River, which begins in Switzerland and flows south through France, is shrinking in summers as climate change melts Switzerland’s remaining glaciers.
The Tonlé San River has been dammed in Vietnam, lowering the level in Cambodia and sometimes drying the river downstream entirely. Meanwhile, China’s lychee harvest is getting blasted by rain, impacting the world’s largest source of lychee. And, once again, Saudi Arabia is suffering flooding in its inland regions. 7 dead in historic flooding in Iran.
The eminent climate scientist James Hansen posted that, since “human-made aerosols and their cooling effect are in decline,” the cooling effect of La Niña will be counterbalanced by these rising temperatures. He also identifies a “large anomaly of increased absorbed solar radiation at midlatitudes in the Northern Hemisphere” responsible for rising temperatures there. CO2 levels are rising faster today than they have at any point in the previous 50,000 years…and a study of millennia-old trees determined last summer was the hottest worldwide in 2,000+ years…
Record nighttime May temperatures were tied in the Philippines and Vietnam. A couple Indonesian cities broke records for May temperatures. And a number of southern African states saw more records drop. And Toronto saw a record tied for the number of days reaching 14 °C (57 °F). A heat wave has returned to Bangladesh. Flooding in Cali (pop: 2.9M), Colombia.
The University of Washington was ordered to stop a geoengineering project that scientists sere conducting from the deck of a decommissioned aircraft carrier. The experiment ejected aerosolized saltwater in an attempt to reflect solar radiation. A comparative study in Nature Communications of a number of carbon pricing found that, yes, carbon pricing does work to reduce the total CO2 emitted.
It’s that time of the year again. Wildfires in Canada grow, some of which are moving towards the tar sands—forcing thousands to evacuate. 39 of the total nation’s blazes are “out of control,” resulting in air quality alerts in the United States. Meanwhile, across the Caribbean, water shortages have become the new normal, and residents (and tourists) are finding their old consumption habits hard to change. St. Lucia has declared a water emergency. In Myanmar, water shortages worsen, particularly as related to the spiraling conflict.
At least ⅛ of Europeans live in a place at risk of extreme flooding—so says a 175-page report from the European Environment Agency posted on Wednesday. The number of people living in flood-risk coastal areas in the EU & UK is expected to jump 24% by 2050. The graphics-packed report also considers how flooding will impact healthcare facilities, mental health, wastewater treatment plants, the spread of disease, cyanobacteria, permafrost thaw, and much else.

“Europe has seen devastating floods following record rainfall, droughts of magnitudes not experienced in hundreds of years, continuing sea level rise, and increasing lake and sea temperatures….permanent water stress already affects 30% of people in southern Europe….since 2018, more than half of Europe has been impacted by extreme drought conditions….Climate change is expected to increase mercury bioaccumulation in the marine food chain due to rising ocean temperatures, ocean acidification and permafrost thawing….Depression, anxiety and PTSD may persist for years after a flooding event….Under the changing climate, northern Europe is becoming wetter in general, but drier in summer. Southern Europe is becoming drier, especially in winter. For central-eastern and western Europe, the trend is less clear…” -selections from the report

Milan suffered flooding last week, the worst May flooding in 170 years. Early spring in the UK has disrupted migratory bird species and their usual patterns.
A 74-page working paper which is not yet peer-reviewed claims that earlier estimates for how much GDP would be impacted by another 1 °C temperature rise is way less than it would be in actuality. The paper claims the real cost (in USD) is about 6x greater. They claim “global temperature has much more pronounced impacts on economic activity than local temperature” and that extreme weather is mostly behind the projected decline in productivity.
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Epidemiologists are worried about how climate change in Africa may extend the life of disease-bearers like ticks and mosquitoes. Other epidemiologists are worried about how cattle may become a permanent reservoir for H5N1. Growing traced of bird flu have been found in wastewater testing in the U.S., but investigators think it may be runoff from infected dairy farms.
Obesity, high blood sugar, and high blood pressure rates today globally are 50% higher than in 2000—though researchers claim that air pollution still poses a larger threat. Of a study participants in Hawai’i, 75% had respiratory issues, probably from the Maui wildfires last year.
The 2024 World Migration Report is out, and its 384 pages are not as apocalyptic as one might think. However, internally displaced people are at their all-time highest. India, Mexico, Russia, China, and Syria lead the world in emigrants; another document contains the definitions for who exactly constitutes a migrant. Unfortunately much of the data relied upon ends in 2022. Data from this year, not included in the above report, indicates a 40% jump in traffic through the Darien Gap compared to the same time period in 2023.

“The last two years saw major migration and displacement events that have caused great hardship and trauma, as well as loss of life….There have also been large-scale displacements triggered by climate- and weather-related disasters in many parts of the world in 2022 and 2023, including in Pakistan, the Philippines, China, India, Bangladesh, Brazil and Colombia….disinformation tactics are increasingly being used by nefarious actors with negative impacts on public, political and social media discourse on migration….Forced displacement is the highest on record in the modern era…overconsumption and overproduction linked to unsustainable economic growth, resource depletion and biodiversity collapse, as well as ongoing climate change (including global heating) are continuing to grip the world….the risk of further conflict has not been higher in decades, as military spending reached a new record high of USD 2,240 billion in 2022…” -excerpts from the introduction

Another report, focusing on internal displacement, came out last week; its 69 pages show a cross-section of about 47M people displaced by natural disasters (56%) or armed conflict (44%). Most of the disasters were storms & flooding, and most of the conflicts were civil wars of some form. This report also provides detailed region-by-region analyses—with sub-Saharan Africa accounting for 46% of global IDPs.

“Conflict and violence triggered 13.5 million movements, the highest figure for the past 15 years….Disasters and conflict are presented as different triggers, but their impacts can overlap, often leading to repeated and/ or protracted displacement….Drought triggered 331,000 displacements in Somalia….Floods triggered 550,000 displacements in Ethiopia….Conflict and violence triggered 3.8 million displacements in DRC in 2023, a slight fall from the record four million in 2022, but still the second-highest figure globally after Sudan….nearly two-thirds of the internal displacements recorded in 2023 originated from Khartoum state. More than 39 per cent of the state's inhabitants were forced to flee, leaving entire neighbourhoods empty….Criminal and communal violence triggered nearly three-quarters of Nigeria's 291,000 conflict displacements….” -selections from the spotlight on sub-Saharan Africa

Experts are concerned about the mental health impacts that climate change has on our minds. Hotter temperatures reportedly increase depression & aggression. Wildfires and storms can cause PTSD. Workers feel stress and desperation as their usual industries are impacted. And air pollution influences ordinary brain processes in many ways.
Some analysts believe “Peak China” may be over, signaling a period of economic tapering-off, as well as a growing militancy. Increasing U.S. tariffs on Chinese goods are continuing to separate the two economies. The Netherlands finally formed a provisional government, though its proposed immigration & farming policies have set it at odds with the EU.
The Federal Reserve, the U.S. central bank, released a 46-page report on potential climate risks to the banking system’s resilience. As far as I understood, most of the risk lies in extreme weather events and the risk to insurance agencies.
Part of southeast England experienced an outbreak of Cryptosporidium, a diarrhea & vomiting illness, highly contagious, which can last weeks. At least 22 cases have been reported. Meanwhile, the CDC is issuing warnings about the more dangerous strain of monkeypox circulating in the DRC, although cases are currently limited to Africa.
North Carolina’s Senate voted to ban mask-wearing last week, under the reasoning that it would make police identification of protestors difficult. An fMRI study found lasting neurological changes in COVID survivors; they “had significantly higher cognitive complaints of mental fatigue and cognitive failure….even two years after recovering.” Experts say a summer rise in COVID cases is coming to the United States.
A study on The Canadian/American Great Lakes found that PFAS levels are increasing in the 3 largest lakes (Superior, Huron, and Michigan), while decreasing in the other two (Erie, Ontario). The study also found that precipitation is the primary means by which the Lakes are accumulating PFAS, since the chemicals are small & stable enough to move through the water cycle. Meanwhile, in England’s Lake District, a telecom failure resulted in raw sewage being pumped into England’s largest and most famous lake, Windermere, on-and-off for 10 hours; and a major British water CEO took a $4M USD pay package last year. And a look into the Chicago River’s health found that microplastics & trash are endangering health & biodiversity.
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An assassination attempt by a lone wolf on Slovakia’s PM left him in critical condition, but likely to survive. 11 civilians were slain by cartel fighters in a few battles in Mexico. Violence continues to spiral out of control in Goma, DRC.
In Haiti, everything worsens indefinitely. Guns have reportedly entered from Florida, a phenomenon which officials call an “iron river.” Police have been put on the defensive against the growing might of the gang warlords.
A brawl broke out in Taiwan’s parliament. An Iranian plot was allegedly foiled to smuggle weapons into Jordan to destabilize the pro-U.S. regime.
Dozens more died in Sudan from escalating violence around Darfur. People are warning about “a disaster on top of a disaster” and the possibility of Sudan splitting apart. Others have called it “hell on earth” as 1,000+ refugees cross the Chad border every day. Disease and malnutrition are growing, while famine encroaches upon 9M helpless victims of the conflict—but the world’s attention is elsewhere.
The U.S. Army Engineers completed constructing the pier in Gaza to deliver humanitarian aid. Some 600,000 Gazans have been displaced from Rafah already, and fighting has escalated against Hamas militants in northern Gaza.
Taliban forces skirmished with Pakistani soldiers for about 90 minutes last week. Taliban attacks in Pakistan, and counterattacks have resulted in a kind of ambient disruption for the rocky border zone.
Violent protests—and counteroperations—are continuing in New Caledonia (pop: 270,000), a Pacific island part of overseas France. The riots, which have killed 6 people so far, began after metropolitan France proposed a plan to expand voting rights beyond indigenous residents. A state of emergency has been declared amid worries about a spiral of violence taking hold.
As the Sahel dries out, experts are concerned about the links to rising terrorism in the region. The Sahel accounts for over 40% of global terrorism deaths—according to the analysts’ understanding of “terrorism.” Mali in particular has reportedly become home to 41 new, different non-state armed groups (NSAGs) since 2007. A contested election in Chad resulted in the consolidation of the interim leader’s power.

“If governments are continually unable to solve regional issues, the people will be at the whim of any terror group that has a basic organization. It serves these groups’ interests to promote insecurity where they can and create security where they want. A “hearts and minds” campaign in the Sahel could lead to long-term and locally supported insurgencies in a land that is currently rife with civil strife.” -from the article

Some wargamers concluded that a Trump victory in 2020 would spell the end of NATO, or at least the end of its utility. Vladimir Putin replaced his minister of defense with a top economic advisor, just before going to Beijing to reaffirm their friendship with “no limits.” Some say Putin is planning on a forever war. Some say NATO is gearing up for one, too.
Russia made several gains in the suburbs of Kharkiv, seizing several settlements which some analysts doubt they will hold. Putin claims they aren’t really trying to take Kharkiv anyway… Russia also made small progress in the Donbas—although they suffered their largest one-day casualties since the start of the war. The U.S. allocated another $2B to hasten the delivery of weapons to the front lines. The next weeks will be crucial on the front. Switzerland has invited 160+ nations to send delegates to a peace summit intended to design a path to making peace in this War.
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Select comments/threads from the subreddit last week suggest:
-Brazil’s flooding was really, really bad, judging from this post and its accompanying images. Across just one of Brazil’s 26 states, 600,000+ people have been made homeless, 100+ have died, and the storm season isn’t over yet. Some of the flooding isn’t expected to subside for another month.
-How specifically might climate change make humanity extinct? This thread crowdsources a number of plausible ways, from ordinary famines to nuclear war and even a massive deoxygenation process. I tend to think it will be a consequence of an eventual nuclear exchange, followed by extended famine and disease.
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I am in a pretty bad condition since i had a severe throat infection (probably covid) in august 2022.
I had severe productive cough for weeks , and after it finally got better, I constantly cough in the morning and have globus sensation and pain in my throat throughout the whole day.
Since then visited several doctors, had 3 endoscopies, pH Testing, and several more tests.
They saw some inflammations in my lower esophagus and 1 doctor saw that my sphincter isnt closing properly.
My ph Testing came back normal.
They put me on PPI for 3 months but all i got was stomach cramps, and it didnt help at all.
After half a year of pain i read some studies that pregabaline and xanax helps to reduce the nerve pain so i considered it worth a try especially since all the doctors didnt know anything else to try apart from PPI.
Surprisingly my symptoms got better on 3x150mg pregabaline and 3x0.5mg alprazolame daily so i stayed on them.
What also generally seemed to help is drinking less generally (went from 2 L of water a day to maybe 1 L) and also eating less and only 3 times per day.
Eating less and less is hard though bc i am already only 70kg on 6’1ft.
Unfortunately i always have a lot of ups and downs with my symptoms.
Sometimes i am good for weeks, even months - longest period without severe symptoms was around 4 months at the beginning of this year.
But the last 4 weeks have been horrible again.
Waking up with severe throat pain, coughing in the morning, then feeling the throat pain throughout the day.
I was also thinking it might have something to do with me using my voice too much. I used to work in a remote sales job and i had 3-4 hours of zoom meetings a day with me mostly talking.
But i switched my job and now it is maybe 1 hour of talking per day, sometimes less.
However i dont really feel better.
I know im hooked on the benzos and pregabaline but since they help atleast sometimes i dont wanna wean off of them and also i am not abusing them for getting high. I see them purely as medicine and dont take more than what im taking everyday.
I just feel hopeless because i always have these phases where i feel really bad.
Past 4 weeks have been horrible.
I dont even know what is causing those flare ups since i dont change my lifestyle.
Only issue i could think of is maybe mental stress.
I havent held a special diet - i lived very healthy all my life. No smoking, barely any processed food.
Mostly plain natural foods (rice, beans, beef, chicken, eggs, butter, green vegetables).
The worst part about it is that i feel like i cant even enjoy social activities when i have the flareups. I just feel like sleeping all day. Since talking a lot also seems to make it worse.
Anyone can relate?
Btw i find it interesting that barely anyone talks about the positive effects of pregabaline and lowdose benzos.
Without them i dont know where i would be today. They have brought me weeks and months witth barely any symptoms.
I think as long as there is no effective medicine against LPR yet, doctors should focus on pain reduction.
Benzos and pregabaline work 6/10, sometimes well sometimes not at all.
I wonder if opiates would do a better job but i am worried about a possible opiate addiction. I would definitely need any success stories before starting with them. Also considering the side effects.