Dirty chatrouletteirty chatroulette
I feel Im fucked up
2024.05.13 23:19 Active_Study_5751 I feel Im fucked up
This happened 8 years and a half ago, December 2015 (really long time yeah).
I was being a studpid teenager boy and went into chatroulette/omegle and I found someone who I though was real and I jerked off and even showed my face. But it resulted to be fake, because when I finished the video turned off and a man was waving at me saying that he recorded everything. I was 17, so I told him thay I was a minor and that he would go to jail. I pretended to take a picture of him (he was not show his face though). Then I left the conversation in absolute panic, not really knowing what to do. So I dont know if he was gonna try to ask me for money (even though he didnt have any personal information of myself) or if he just wanted to laugh at me...
It is a traumatic situation that has been coming back and forth to my mind, sometimes haunting me. I looked in porn sites for videos of "webcam" or "solo" categories from time to time in the years after, sometimes doing really deep research, but I never found anything.
Now this came to my mind really hard again, after some years in which I even forgot or didnt care, but now I care a lot for some reason... I feel dirty, weak and full of fear. But it does not make sense because if the video is out there, it has been too long and lost in the Internet, and if not even me looking for it I could find anything, who that I know could?
How would you live with the uncertainty of not knowing what happened? Was he just laughing at me or he had the intenciones publishing it was well? Why would he have showed me himself mocking at me?
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I was being a studpid teenager boy and went into chatroulette/omegle and I found someone who I though was real and I jerked off and even showed my face. But it resulted to be fake, because when I finished the video turned off and a man was waving at me saying that he recorded everything. I was 17, so I told him thay I was a minor and that he would go to jail. I pretended to take a picture of him (he was not show his face though). Then I left the conversation in absolute panic, not really knowing what to do. So I dont know if he was gonna try to ask me for money (even though he didnt have any personal information of myself) or if he just wanted to laugh at me...
It is a traumatic situation that has been coming back and forth to my mind, sometimes haunting me. I looked in porn sites for videos of "webcam" or "solo" categories from time to time in the years after, sometimes doing really deep research, but I never found anything.
Now this came to my mind really hard again, after some years in which I even forgot or didnt care, but now I care a lot for some reason... I feel dirty, weak and full of fear. But it does not make sense because if the video is out there, it has been too long and lost in the Internet, and if not even me looking for it I could find anything, who that I know could?
How would you live with the uncertainty of not knowing what happened? Was he just laughing at me or he had the intenciones publishing it was well? Why would he have showed me himself mocking at me?
2024.05.13 17:38 Active_Study_5751 Recorded without my consent
This happened 8 years and a half ago, December 2015 (really long time yeah).
I was being a studpid teenager boy and went into chatroulette/omegle and I found someone who I though was real and I jerked off and even showed my face. But it resulted to be fake, because when I finished the video turned off and a man was waving at me saying that he recorded everything. I was 17, so I told him thay I was a minor and that he would go to jail. I pretended to take a picture of him (he was not show his face though). Then I left the conversation in absolute panic, not really knowing what to do. So I dont know if he was gonna try to ask me for money (even though he didnt have any personal information of myself) or if he just wanted to laugh at me...
It is a traumatic situation that has been coming back and forth to my mind, sometimes haunting me. I looked in porn sites for videos of "webcam" or "solo" categories from time to time in the years after, sometimes doing really deep research, but I never found anything.
Now this came to my mind really hard again, after some years in which I even forgot or didnt care, but now I care a lot for some reason... I feel dirty, weak and full of fear. But it does not make sense because if the video is out there, it has been too long and lost in the Internet, and if not even me looking for it I could find anything, who that I know could?
How would you live with the uncertainty of not knowing what happened? Was he just laughing at me or he had the intenciones publishing it was well? Why would he have showed me himself mocking at me?
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I was being a studpid teenager boy and went into chatroulette/omegle and I found someone who I though was real and I jerked off and even showed my face. But it resulted to be fake, because when I finished the video turned off and a man was waving at me saying that he recorded everything. I was 17, so I told him thay I was a minor and that he would go to jail. I pretended to take a picture of him (he was not show his face though). Then I left the conversation in absolute panic, not really knowing what to do. So I dont know if he was gonna try to ask me for money (even though he didnt have any personal information of myself) or if he just wanted to laugh at me...
It is a traumatic situation that has been coming back and forth to my mind, sometimes haunting me. I looked in porn sites for videos of "webcam" or "solo" categories from time to time in the years after, sometimes doing really deep research, but I never found anything.
Now this came to my mind really hard again, after some years in which I even forgot or didnt care, but now I care a lot for some reason... I feel dirty, weak and full of fear. But it does not make sense because if the video is out there, it has been too long and lost in the Internet, and if not even me looking for it I could find anything, who that I know could?
How would you live with the uncertainty of not knowing what happened? Was he just laughing at me or he had the intenciones publishing it was well? Why would he have showed me himself mocking at me?
2024.03.15 17:41 Prestigious_Wall_239 Scammed by some assholes in Philliphines
So, a week ago I was messing around on Chatroulette. I matched with this “woman” who couldn’t speak, but only type. She proposed on doing sexual stuff and if we could switch to Discord. Of course I had my doubts, I even asked for pictures for like proof, anyway the one thing led to another and we were video calling and showing each other private parts.
Turned out it was a video recording on loop (amazingly edited). The “girl” even waved, walked from one room to another, crazy.
A few minutes into video calling “her” camera turned off and I received a message in chat with my Facebook link, Instagram link, screenshots of my friends and family. They started threatening on exposing me to everyone and that I had to pay ofcourse.
This never happened to me before. I was constantly forced on sharing my screen, if I dropped the call immediately they would start threatening again. After negotiating they wanted 300, fine I’ve sent it. Then the motherfucker came with this dirty trick in which he placed the video in the recycle bin, and said “if you want it deleted from recycle bin, same deal”.
I was really scared! Because of constantly being forced (I let that happen myself I know) on sharing my screen and staying on the call I didn’t get a chance to call my friends or anything. My stupid ass transferred another 300. Of course that didn’t help with anything as the new trick was; “ I deleted only 1 video, if you want both deleted from recycle bin another 300”.
That was after a 7-8 hours since the first transfer (the transfers take time) and I contacted my best friends already. I realized that, since the beginning I never had the guarantee that they would delete the stuff if they received a money. It was a scam on a scam on a scam.
Guys, I hope from the bottom of my heart that this might never happen to anyone.
If it happens:
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Turned out it was a video recording on loop (amazingly edited). The “girl” even waved, walked from one room to another, crazy.
A few minutes into video calling “her” camera turned off and I received a message in chat with my Facebook link, Instagram link, screenshots of my friends and family. They started threatening on exposing me to everyone and that I had to pay ofcourse.
This never happened to me before. I was constantly forced on sharing my screen, if I dropped the call immediately they would start threatening again. After negotiating they wanted 300, fine I’ve sent it. Then the motherfucker came with this dirty trick in which he placed the video in the recycle bin, and said “if you want it deleted from recycle bin, same deal”.
I was really scared! Because of constantly being forced (I let that happen myself I know) on sharing my screen and staying on the call I didn’t get a chance to call my friends or anything. My stupid ass transferred another 300. Of course that didn’t help with anything as the new trick was; “ I deleted only 1 video, if you want both deleted from recycle bin another 300”.
That was after a 7-8 hours since the first transfer (the transfers take time) and I contacted my best friends already. I realized that, since the beginning I never had the guarantee that they would delete the stuff if they received a money. It was a scam on a scam on a scam.
Guys, I hope from the bottom of my heart that this might never happen to anyone.
If it happens:
- Drop the video call immediately
- Go fully private on all your socials even deactivate them (they already copied your followers list, but still)
- Do not get scared by their threatening messages
- See if they gave you their transfer email to receive payment, and report it to the payment platform
- Block them
- NEVER send the money. They will not delete the video’s
2024.02.06 01:29 Suspicious_Door4617 This probably gets asked a lot, but is there a 2010-2011 layout like this?
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2023.09.16 23:49 oSeafu BS expressing care and love for me despite betrayal. I want to do everything to show fundamental change and commitment to Reconciliation
Sunday will be 1 week since D-Day and will be our first in-person talk since. BS explained he has a lot of things to say to me before making more progress to process what I did to him. Without a doubt I want to provide full transparency, no matter what, I don’t want to leave any room for second-guessing. I want to show BS not through just words but through actions the fundamental changes in myself and my behavior and how committed I am to earning his trust. I understand it’s a long journey but I want to fight for our love, no matter what it takes.
BS still hugged me before I gave him space, assuring me he loves me and it won’t be our last hug. He also texted me that he hopes I’m eating and taking care of myself, despite the pain I’m putting him through, he still shows love. And is another reason why I’m so dedicated to rebuilding what I destroyed and give him the love and honesty he deserves.
For context, BS discovered my online cheating with a random stranger I added off a Chatroulette site. I have a sexual desire for virtual sex and dirty texting that I only wanted with my partner, but I was too afraid to communicate this out of insecurity and risk of embarrassment. My insecurity convinced me that opening up to my BS about this desire and insecurity would make him feel sexually incompatible with me. Instead of communicating,
I made the selfish decisions to try and relieve this desire with a stranger. I tried it with an AI sexchat but they were all heterosexual and the few gay ones were terrible. At the time I convinced myself that if I only do it with a stranger I don’t find an emotional or physical connection with that I wouldn’t be intentionally hurting my BS because it would be like porn. Never would I even consider knowingly cheating, I love my partner dearly to ever want to share an emotional connection or physical intimacy with anyone else. After experimenting my desire with this stranger, I realized that I could only ever fulfill this desire with my partner whom I love dearly. When I was sexting and sending dirty messages I was fantasizing that it was my partner I was doing it with.
Reality hit me and I started to realize that it doesn’t matter if I didn’t feel any emotional or physical chemistry with this stranger, I hid something from my partner knowing it might hurt him because I was too afraid to open up about my insecurity. I was selfish and betrayed the person I love most in the world.
This whole week has been the most painful life lesson I’ve ever gone through and I’ve been prioritizing deep self reflection to and making fundamental changes to myself and my behaviors and figuring out WHY I cheated and how I know I’m sure it won’t ever happen again. The guilt and remorse I feel about my actions and understanding the pain it caused BS changed something in me. Never do I ever want to hide anything from my partner out of fear. I’m taking full accountability by being honest with the people in my life and making fundamental changes to myself, seeking counseling, research, and fully comprehending my actions. Understanding how much pain I caused my partner because I was insecure and failed to communicate has taught me what my real needs are. I no longer have the need for sexual validation virtually.
What else should I say or do when BS and me talk again. I want to do whatever it takes to show I’m willing to give a chance?
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BS still hugged me before I gave him space, assuring me he loves me and it won’t be our last hug. He also texted me that he hopes I’m eating and taking care of myself, despite the pain I’m putting him through, he still shows love. And is another reason why I’m so dedicated to rebuilding what I destroyed and give him the love and honesty he deserves.
For context, BS discovered my online cheating with a random stranger I added off a Chatroulette site. I have a sexual desire for virtual sex and dirty texting that I only wanted with my partner, but I was too afraid to communicate this out of insecurity and risk of embarrassment. My insecurity convinced me that opening up to my BS about this desire and insecurity would make him feel sexually incompatible with me. Instead of communicating,
I made the selfish decisions to try and relieve this desire with a stranger. I tried it with an AI sexchat but they were all heterosexual and the few gay ones were terrible. At the time I convinced myself that if I only do it with a stranger I don’t find an emotional or physical connection with that I wouldn’t be intentionally hurting my BS because it would be like porn. Never would I even consider knowingly cheating, I love my partner dearly to ever want to share an emotional connection or physical intimacy with anyone else. After experimenting my desire with this stranger, I realized that I could only ever fulfill this desire with my partner whom I love dearly. When I was sexting and sending dirty messages I was fantasizing that it was my partner I was doing it with.
Reality hit me and I started to realize that it doesn’t matter if I didn’t feel any emotional or physical chemistry with this stranger, I hid something from my partner knowing it might hurt him because I was too afraid to open up about my insecurity. I was selfish and betrayed the person I love most in the world.
This whole week has been the most painful life lesson I’ve ever gone through and I’ve been prioritizing deep self reflection to and making fundamental changes to myself and my behaviors and figuring out WHY I cheated and how I know I’m sure it won’t ever happen again. The guilt and remorse I feel about my actions and understanding the pain it caused BS changed something in me. Never do I ever want to hide anything from my partner out of fear. I’m taking full accountability by being honest with the people in my life and making fundamental changes to myself, seeking counseling, research, and fully comprehending my actions. Understanding how much pain I caused my partner because I was insecure and failed to communicate has taught me what my real needs are. I no longer have the need for sexual validation virtually.
What else should I say or do when BS and me talk again. I want to do whatever it takes to show I’m willing to give a chance?
2023.09.16 22:31 oSeafu BS expressing care and love for me despite betrayal. WS wanting to express active change and worth for Reconciliation
Sunday will be 1 week since D-Day and will be our first in-person talk since. BS explained he has a lot of things to say to me before making more progress to process what I did to him. Without a doubt I want to provide full transparency, no matter what, I don’t want to leave any room for second-guessing. I want to show BS not through just words but through actions the fundamental changes in myself and my behavior and how committed I am to earning his trust. I understand it’s a long journey but I want to fight for our love, no matter what it takes.
BS still hugged me before I gave him space, assuring me he loves me and it won’t be our last hug. He also texted me that he hopes I’m eating and taking care of myself, despite the pain I’m putting him through, he still shows love. And is another reason why I’m so dedicated to rebuilding what I destroyed and give him the love and honesty he deserves.
For context, BS discovered my online cheating with a random stranger I added off a Chatroulette site. I have a sexual desire for virtual sex and dirty texting that I only wanted with my partner, but I was too afraid to communicate this out of insecurity and risk of embarrassment. My insecurity convinced me that opening up to my BS about this desire and insecurity would make him feel sexually incompatible with me. Instead of communicating,
I made the selfish decisions to try and relieve this desire with a stranger. I tried it with an AI sexchat but they were all heterosexual and the few gay ones were terrible. At the time I convinced myself that if I only do it with a stranger I don’t find an emotional or physical connection with that I wouldn’t be intentionally hurting my BS because it would be like porn. Never would I even consider knowingly cheating, I love my partner dearly to ever want to share an emotional connection or physical intimacy with anyone else. After experimenting my desire with this stranger, I realized that I could only ever fulfill this desire with my partner whom I love dearly. When I was sexting and sending dirty messages I was fantasizing that it was my partner I was doing it with.
Reality hit me and I started to realize that it doesn’t matter if I didn’t feel any emotional or physical chemistry with this stranger, I hid something from my partner knowing it might hurt him because I was too afraid to open up about my insecurity. I was selfish and betrayed the person I love most in the world.
This whole week has been the most painful life lesson I’ve ever gone through and I’ve been prioritizing deep self reflection to and making fundamental changes to myself and my behaviors and figuring out WHY I cheated and how I know I’m sure it won’t ever happen again. The guilt and remorse I feel about my actions and understanding the pain it caused BS changed something in me. Never do I ever want to hide anything from my partner out of fear. I’m taking full accountability by being honest with the people in my life and making fundamental changes. Understanding how much pain I caused my partner because I was insecure and failed to communicate has taught me what my real needs are. I no longer have the need for sexual validation virtually.
What else should I say or do when BS and me talk again. I want to do whatever it takes to show I’m willing to give a chance?
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BS still hugged me before I gave him space, assuring me he loves me and it won’t be our last hug. He also texted me that he hopes I’m eating and taking care of myself, despite the pain I’m putting him through, he still shows love. And is another reason why I’m so dedicated to rebuilding what I destroyed and give him the love and honesty he deserves.
For context, BS discovered my online cheating with a random stranger I added off a Chatroulette site. I have a sexual desire for virtual sex and dirty texting that I only wanted with my partner, but I was too afraid to communicate this out of insecurity and risk of embarrassment. My insecurity convinced me that opening up to my BS about this desire and insecurity would make him feel sexually incompatible with me. Instead of communicating,
I made the selfish decisions to try and relieve this desire with a stranger. I tried it with an AI sexchat but they were all heterosexual and the few gay ones were terrible. At the time I convinced myself that if I only do it with a stranger I don’t find an emotional or physical connection with that I wouldn’t be intentionally hurting my BS because it would be like porn. Never would I even consider knowingly cheating, I love my partner dearly to ever want to share an emotional connection or physical intimacy with anyone else. After experimenting my desire with this stranger, I realized that I could only ever fulfill this desire with my partner whom I love dearly. When I was sexting and sending dirty messages I was fantasizing that it was my partner I was doing it with.
Reality hit me and I started to realize that it doesn’t matter if I didn’t feel any emotional or physical chemistry with this stranger, I hid something from my partner knowing it might hurt him because I was too afraid to open up about my insecurity. I was selfish and betrayed the person I love most in the world.
This whole week has been the most painful life lesson I’ve ever gone through and I’ve been prioritizing deep self reflection to and making fundamental changes to myself and my behaviors and figuring out WHY I cheated and how I know I’m sure it won’t ever happen again. The guilt and remorse I feel about my actions and understanding the pain it caused BS changed something in me. Never do I ever want to hide anything from my partner out of fear. I’m taking full accountability by being honest with the people in my life and making fundamental changes. Understanding how much pain I caused my partner because I was insecure and failed to communicate has taught me what my real needs are. I no longer have the need for sexual validation virtually.
What else should I say or do when BS and me talk again. I want to do whatever it takes to show I’m willing to give a chance?