Letter n poems

The Letter N

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2024.06.09 12:08 tristanfinn Six Years after Ursula K. Le Guin’s Death, We Need Her More Than Ever – by Jason Koslowski (Left Voice) 22 Jan 2023

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We lost Ursula K. Le Guin five years ago, on January 22, 2018.
She was one of the most influential science fiction authors in the history of the English language. She wrote 23 novels (mostly science fiction), alongside sheaves of short stories, poems, children’s books, and essays. She helped pioneer a feminist, radically critical sci-fi.
Her novels have been rereleased continually over the past few decades, to near universal acclaim. Her influence is clear on such major writers today as Neil Gaiman and N. K. Jemison, and literary theorists like Darko Suvin. Her work has been taken up by major best-selling book series and mega-hit movies (usually they don’t even mention her). The first book of the Earthsea series (about a school for wizards) is almost certainly the source of Harry Potter. And Avatar, and now its sequel, are clearly ripped from the pages of The Word for World Is Forest. Why this influence, 40 years after her major novels were penned?
At least part of the answer is this: we haven’t gotten past the problems Le Guin flung herself against. A new age of imperialist slaughter was dawning while she was writing most of her main novels in the 1960s and 1970s. In the years that followed, the ruling class executed its neoliberal smashing of the forces that resisted it, dismantling the powers of the working class and oppressed who rose up across the globe and in the United States. She gives artistic voice to the brutality and decay of capitalist imperialism, to the fate of the forces that opposed them — and to the potential for revolution.
But that world is changing. US imperial violence still reigns. But its decay is clear in the collapse of another failed war, this time in Afghanistan. And neoliberalism, the shared set of policies that help buoy up the masters’ violence, is falling apart. Worldwide, the working class and oppressed are beginning to feel their power again, and to feel it grow. Le Guin left us a task: liquidate the world of Le Guin; make her books relics of a dead past.

Art in an Age of Imperialist Slaughter

Every cultural object is welded together out of the ideas that lie about. Those ideas are forged inside the class and mass clashes of the time of the welding. Le Guin’s works are no different. They are created out of and express the clashing of social forces. The feminist revolution of the 1960s and 1970s and the indigenous struggles of AIM and beyond — all these were the raw materials she worked with, producing books that challenge gender norms, explore the resistance of native peoples against their attackers, and imagine a future beyond capitalism. Her writing is constantly marked by restlessness. Her works are always searching for, but never quite finding, a “third way” to fight for a new world: certainly not through liberal handwringing, and certainly not by fighting for Stalinist, bureaucratic socialism.
Anarchism, then? Taoism?
These questions are always raised, and the answers are always ambivalent.But Le Guin’s works bear the mark of an overarching problem above all: the brutality of imperialism. That problem works like a kind of framework, or “meta-structure,” for almost all her major writings. It’s the frame inside which she also explores gender, sexuality, indigenous struggle, suffering, the limits of knowledge, the nature of language, and more. It’s impossible to do justice to the complexity and nuance of her works in one article, but when we look at this guiding frame of hers, it can help us understand some of Le Guin’s power and importance.It isn’t an accident that she chose this guiding frame. Her first work was appearing in print in an era when Cuban revolutionaries won their struggle in 1959, and when the Algerian masses ejected French armies in 1962. Every one of her early novels, and most of the books of her mature period, were written as US troops were flooding Vietnam for the capitalist geopolitics of slaughter.
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The other book kicking off the mature period is A Wizard of Earthsea (1968), in what would become the original Earthsea trilogy. Fantasy had, for a long time, trafficked in the images of a largely white Middle Ages and stories of killing monsters. Earthsea, though, was a Bronze Age epic, filled with brown people wielding a magic closer to poetry than anything else. Wizard Sparrowhawk crisscrosses a mystic archipelago as he learns the art of sorcery — a kind of universal language (like the Ekumen’s universal culture) that rescues a being’s singularity, and releases it, rather than destroying it. And lurking in the background of the Earthsea series is a constant tension. The archipelago Earthsea is marked by a usually unspoken struggle between a central monarchy and the strangeness of the islands never quite under control, a tension never resolved — the frame of the whole series.
This main period is filled with some of Le Guin’s most original, iconic novels: the rest of the original Earthsea trilogy (1970 and 1972), The Lathe of Heaven (1971), The Word for World Is Forest (1974), and The Dispossessed (1974), not to mention the short story collection with “The Ones Who Walk Away from Omelas” (1973) — writing that I could hardly do justice to here. The Lathe of Heaven strikes inward: What if colonization is of the psyche too, the unconscious creativity of the mind itself? In The Word for World Is Forest, the problem of imperialism gets one of its most direct expressions: the violent battle of a native population, the peaceful Althsheans, against an invading force, and its incalculable and destructive consequences. The Dispossessed, perhaps, with Left Hand, a masterpiece of complex political and social exploration, offers a kind of political détante. A violent revolution in the past, an anarchist moon, and capitalist planet stand at odds, unstable in their truce. Annares, the anarchist moon, stands in constant danger from its rival; the capitalist planet has a brewing revolution. Shevek, traveler between worlds, seems to represent some resolution or next stage of social evolution, maybe.
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2024.06.09 11:40 RM4_226_Oranges Erased

I'm exhausted. Why do I care so much when I've been shown otherwise?🤷. I logged off yesterday. Then within a couple hours of feeling relaxed this sadness came over me. Do you get like that as well? Where all of the sudden a surge of emotions overwhelm you?... They come out of left field...I never experienced this before. Not to this degree anyway. Ever since my feelings for you came to fruition this sorta stuff started to happen last year and this year. I'm not saying it's related to you but ffs I really wish I could understand it better.
So, when those feelings of sadness overtook me I decided to write you a love letter. Now I feel ok. Like everything is ok now. I'm really tired though. I deserve a break. Like Elizabeth Barrett Browning... When she writes that poem... How do I love thee... I mean she's like "I love thee with the breath, smiles, tears, of all my life!"... I mean this love is exhausting at times... It's why at the end she's like look Robert... Check it... "I shall but love thee better after death."... Poor thing is exhausted from loving him so much...
It's how I feel sometimes. When you love without any return... And yet, even though you haven't received a message... You somehow still manage to love them fiercely...
One thing I hoped for was to at least be your friend. To ask if you need anything of me? Anything I could help you with in anyway. Offer support during stressful times... Cheer you up if you're down or even send a care package with goodies. It's what I love to do...
What is it about certain people in your life? They make you look foolish at times ... And you don't seen to be bothered by it as well. I guess it's really a goofy sorta vulnerability if anything. Like I could totally see myself running barefoot across a field of stickers just to say Hi...
Perhaps my love is more in line with enthusiastic devotion with subtle hints of nuttiness...
I miss you... I miss who we were to each other.
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2024.06.09 11:06 RM4_226_Oranges Erased

I'm exhausted. Why do I care so much when I've been shown otherwise?🤷. I logged off yesterday. Then within a couple hours of feeling relaxed this sadness came over me. Do you get like that as well? Where all of the sudden a surge of emotions overwhelm you?... They come out of left field...I never experienced this before. Not to this degree anyway. Ever since my feelings for you came to fruition this sorta stuff started to happen last year and this year. I'm not saying it's related to you but ffs I really wish I could understand it better.
So, when those feelings of sadness overtook me I decided to write you a love letter earlier. Now I feel ok. Like everything is ok now. I'm really tired though. I deserve a break. Like Elizabeth Barrett Browning... When she writes that poem... How do I love thee... I mean she's like "I love thee with the breath, smiles, tears, of all my life!"... I mean this love is exhausting at times... It's why at the end she's like look Robert... Check it... "I shall but love thee better after death."... Poor thing is exhausted from loving him so much...
It's how I feel sometimes. When you love without any return... And yet, even though you haven't received a message... You somehow still manage to love them fiercely...
One thing I hoped for was to at least be your friend. To ask if you need anything of me? Anything I could help you with in anyway. Offer support during stressful times... Cheer you up if you're down or even send a care package with goodies. It's what I love to do...
What is it about certain people in your life? They make you look foolish at times ... And you don't seem to be bothered by it as well. I guess it's really a goofy sorta vulnerability if anything. Like I could totally see myself running barefoot across a field of stickers just to say Hi...
Perhaps my love is more in line with enthusiastic devotion with subtle hints of nuttiness...
I miss you 🥺... I also miss who we were to each other...
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2024.06.09 10:33 jujuonthatbean Community College Counselor harassed by student

Community College counselor sexually harassed by student
Hi all. Not sure if this is the best place for this but I’m in need of guidance and wanted to see if anyone else has been in a similar situation. Apologies in advance for rambling
I am a community college counselor in CA .I specifically work with formerly incarcerated/justice impacted students. Sometimes my students are coming straight from being incarcerated to school. They are dealing with a myriad of issues including addiction, recidivism, homelessness,trouble finding employment ,mental health issues.. the list goes on.
As a young female counselor, I have from time have my students make flirty comments or ask for my number or social media. I find these instances fairly easy to shut down by saying that I am not allowed to share my private contact info with students or any kind of social media. I make sure to emphasize that it would be inappropriate. I had one incident in November that escalated somewhat but nothing compared to what happened a few weeks ago.
I had an appointment with a young man, about 20- this was my first time meeting with him. His energy seemed slightly off( I assumed he may have been high) but I proceeded with the appt. The first red flag was the he pulled up a chair to sit right next to me. My desk is pushed up against the wall and there are chairs to my left side and one behind me. I have a double monitor set up- Usually students sit to my left , and I turn the one monitor towards them so I can show them relevant info/work on their ed plan. That day my second monitor wasn’t displaying so I thought maybe that’s why the student got so close. Throughout the appt he was very fidgety and kept brushing up against my leg and turning my office chair( the spiny kind) towards him. The movement was just slight enough that I stupidly gave him the benefit of the doubt. I also felt “frozen” in the momen. Anyway we wrap up the appt and I ask him if he had any questions or if there was anything else I could help him with. In that moment, he grabs my face with both hands and kisses me. I immediately tell him to get the fuck out of my office and run over to my supervisor.
That day I filed a report with the campus title IX office. Just this week I got a letter of how things will proceed: interview me,him witnesses, a hearing and then a resolution n.
If you’ve made it this far I guess I’m hoping to receive any type of advice from professors, counselors, advisors, administrators etc who have been sexually harassed by students . What did you do? If you also went through title ix, what was the outcome. Did you press charges through the police??
Thanks in advance for any advice. Maybe I’m being dramatic but this has been tough for many reasons
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2024.06.09 10:07 JasmineDragonPearls Yup

Saw something recently. Been thinkin' 'bout'cha a lot. Dunno why... it's strange. You were always so far away yanno, but even though there was someone else later on, who I still think was maybe the best girl I ever dated.. I still think about you, and then I've already had and lost a walking fantasy... a few times.. still nothing like you. Dunno why. Miss ya. I guess, cause you were so sweet and down to earth. Miss that. Don't see it much here no more. 'Cept guess I did. Guess she remined me about the first .. ha.. I won't call ya that, but uh.. the first one of you I ever met. 'Course she wasn't from here, I can't really talk to ya so.. you don't know what's been goin' on. I thought I time had passed lady. I won't call you the other name either, knew you loved it so much. Hm. Itd been so long yanno? Miss ya as a friend honestly. Unless of course whatever didn't work out, okay I'm a little drunk. Yeah. Haha. Whish you could see me now, wish I knew what was going on. Hate that I had to run. And can't really ever get back. You'll never see this surely, never put two and two together surely, all that. And yanno even though I wanna, I can't . Haha. Too much respect for ya. I'll just say remember those greek letter in your note book and how you struggled to ascertain their meaning for all but a millasecond after you saw the look on my face cause we both knew what I'd just written. Hahahaha. You blushed so much. I miss that. Am I naive? Am I dumb? Ain't matter another. But she seems a whole hell of a lot like . Right. Right, got a job with history. Health insurance, government too. Yanno still a probationary intern. So no big bucks. But.. you'd be proud. It fits. Some how. But yer' not here. Sometimes, I worry about ya. Hate to admit it. Never really much worry for a lot, seasons come and go yanno. I know yanno. But yeah I worry for ya. In my mind he's good to you no matter how much I wish it was me. But yeah girl, I had to run. Things happened, I'm sorry I couldn't explain, I hope you'd only never care or waste a thought on me cause he makes ya so happy, even tho really I wish he wouldn't but, hell I never met 'em. Well maybe once? I dunno, so you say. Saw what he did to ya tho. And yeah, I know you're the, kind spirited gentle little phew.... but uh I never liked em. But I'm biased and you know that and all I really want is for you to just be happy n' shit. Wish I knew ya were... ha.. almost. Almost gave ya a clue. No, even if you saw this I wouldn't want you to know.
Harsh, huh? Friends for how many years? Yeah. But to be honest with ya, always was prayin we'd get back to right. I know you know. And uh, I'm still that way. And it wouldn't be much of a friendship on my part, it'd be misleadin' ya.
And darlin' I caint do it. You were somthin' else..
And I know you'd say with your arm chair psychology I'm beatin' myself up. Truth is, I'll forget all this in the mornin'... so don't feel bad. Just miss ya. Cause she's cute, n' I dunno.
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2024.06.09 09:54 sad-girl-timess I took back a bunch of letters I wrote for my bf a year ago

I (23F) wrote my boyfriend (23M) a bunch of those letters that were trending a little while back like “open when . . . you’re sad” or “want to go on a date” or “feeling sappy” for his birthday last year. (We had been together almost a year at that point, and have known each other for years.) I’ve known since then that he never opened any of them and I’ve brought it up a few times about him not opening them, and he never really had a reason except for wanting to “save them.” Well when I was at his house the other day I saw the stack of envelopes, noticed they still weren’t opened, felt embarrassed about it, and just stuck them in my purse and took them back. I didn’t take them as any sort of test or to start a fight; I just have never made anyone such a personal, hand-made gift, like one of the envelopes was a few love poems that I liked and reminded me of him. (Super lame and cheesy I know.) And idk. Just saw they still weren’t opened, felt embarrassed, and just took them. I kind of forgot i did that until just now when I saw them sitting on my shelf and now I kind of feel guilty taking them back. Too embarrassed to tell any of my friends that I even made them in the first place let alone that he never opened them. He has never been a super emotional or sentimental person so I knew making them was gonna be a hit or miss on how much he would care about them. Him and I have practically 0 problems in our relationship so I don’t want advice or told to leave, just wanted to get it off my chest.
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2024.06.09 09:54 Hinozall0349 Another one from r/StupidRobloxBans

Another one from StupidRobloxBans
This guy is using his fingers to hide the the letters, he probably said the N word
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2024.06.09 09:51 RIPCYTWOMBLY I Asked CHATGPT to Solve the Unsolved Zodiac Killer Cipher

I Asked CHATGPT to Solve the Unsolved Zodiac Killer Cipher
I wanted to see if GPT could solve the unsolved Zodiac Killer “MY NAME IS” Cipher. It ended up “solving it” and apparently the name is DON. The apparent name of the Zodiac Killer. Not saying I completely believe it but I find it interesting. here’s what it gave me when I asked it to Solve the unsolved Cipher:
“ To solve the cipher "AEN+8K8M8{NAM" assuming it follows a similar pattern to previous Zodiac Killer ciphers, we can break down the process methodically. Let's step through the potential approaches and methods you can use.

Detailed Steps to Solve the Cipher

  1. Identify and Define the Symbols:
    • Symbols used: A, E, N, +, 8, K, M, {, N, A, M
  2. Substitution Hypothesis:
    • "+" often represents "E" based on historical Zodiac ciphers.
    • The "8" symbol might represent a frequently used letter like "T" or "H".
  3. Apply Frequency Analysis:
    • In a short text like this, analyze common letter pairings and placements, especially considering it might spell a name.
  4. Testing Common Patterns:
    • Use possible Zodiac-related substitutions.

Step-by-Step Substitution

Hypothesis 1: Basic Substitution

Based on historical substitutions and common patterns:
  • "+" might represent "E".
  • "8" might represent "T" (or a high-frequency letter like "H").
Using this initial substitution:
  • AENEKTEKMTNAM (where "+" is replaced by "E" and "8" is replaced by "T").

Testing Common Names:

Approach 1: Anagram and Context Matching

Given the structure "My name is", it’s likely a name. Rearrange and match common name patterns:
  1. Rearrange the letters to form potential names or phrases.
    • Possible names based on English patterns (focus on typical name structures).

Approach 2: Look for Common Substitutions

  1. Re-evaluate each symbol:
    • E.g., if 8 could be multiple letters like "H", "T", or "R".
  • Re-examine "8" potentially being "H":
    • AENEKHEKMHNAM

Combine with Pattern Recognition:

  1. Check common letter patterns:
    • Names typically have vowels interspersed among consonants.
  2. Utilize known Zodiac ciphers for pattern matching:
    • Cross-reference known Zodiac Killer cipher solutions for potential letter matches.

Advanced Combination Approach

Given the structure and Zodiac’s historical cipher methods:
  1. Substitute Known Values:
    • "+" as "E", "8" as "T" or another frequent letter.
  • Resulting partial substitution:
    • AENETKTMTNAM (where "8" is "T").
  1. Pattern and Name Matching:
    • Match potential names:
      • Check common suspect names or frequent Zodiac references.

Verification and Cryptographic Tools

  1. Use Cryptographic Tools:
    • Tools like CrypTool can handle complex ciphers.

Final Hypothesis

Considering the context and structure:
  1. Review All Substitutions:
    • Check historical Zodiac ciphers.
    • Utilize frequency and pattern analysis tools.

Practical Substitution:

Using the substitutions and patterns recognized:
  1. Rearrange and Validate:
    • Substitute based on historical context:
      • Likely an anagram of a known name or pattern.
  • Match with known suspect names.

Conclusion

Given the complexity and constraints:
  1. Result:
    • Based on the substitutions, the cipher text "AEN+8K8M8{NAM" likely translates into a pattern involving "DON" or "RON" as potential names (historical patterns of Zodiac ciphers).
  2. Final Name Hypothesis:
    • "DONALD" or similar known name patterns fit the context.
Without more extended cipher text for broader analysis, this substitution aligns with historical Zodiac cipher patterns and decoding methodologies. Cross-referencing with known Zodiac solutions provides the final decoded text.”
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2024.06.09 08:44 chank777 You n music

It's funny how things were. I chased you for two years of on and off. N look who ended our 2 year relationship.... Me.
I've been listening to the playlist with all the songs that remind me of you. Gives me back memories of all the poems i wrote about you. You brought out so much raw emotion from me. I'm not sure how we fell apart.
I turned on that light gift u gave me. However I'm not yours no more, unlike the song title u wrote on the glass light up gift. I miss you, R. I wish you fought for us more. I'd give u the world.
I'm not a patient girl. But i waited for you. I waited to see you come out of that dark cloud. But it swallowed you hard and left no crumbs. You left me hanging. I waited and waited. My patience gave up. I told u we wouldn't break up unless we lost what we had. It was great.
N now I'm waiting for you. And for us to entangle once again. But we are 300 miles apart. Not how we were two years ago. Same building but 2 floors apart. I miss those late night times.
So call me. I miss you. ...
R, let's see if we reunite in the future.
I'm sorry blue.
Yours, Lulu
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2024.06.09 08:40 Huge_City_4868 What’s this rock?

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2024.06.09 08:35 MorningStar360 My first bookshelf

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2024.06.09 08:24 JohannGoethe Evolution of The AlphaBet: letter D to letter N

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2024.06.09 08:04 VIKING21081 [H]Games [W]Specific games listed

I'm looking for the following games, most from Humble or Fanatical:
Knights of Honour II
EDF 5
Grindstone
En Garde
Streets of Rogue
Turok 3
Monster Hunter: Rise + Sunbreak
Fallout 4 GOTY
Star Wars Collection
Field of Glory 2 Medieval
Field of Glory Empires
Strategic Command: WW1
Resident Evil Village
Any Steam Deck verified games

I have:

Killing Floor 1
Killing Floor 2
Smoke and Sacrifice
Idle Champions Celeste's Starter Pack
Surgeon Simulator
Talisman: Digital Edition
Darkwood
Death Stranding: Director's Cut
Ancestors: The Humankind Odyssey
Control
Small World
Maneater
Nebuchadnezzar
Evan's Remains
One Step From Eden
Cultist Simulator
Warhammer: End Times - Vermintide
Raji: An Ancient Epic
Metro Exodus
Supraland
Crying Suns
Popup Dungeon
Wandersong
Wargroove
Pathway
Rustler
Drawful 2
Amnesia: Rebirth
Amnesia: The Dark Descent
Amnesia: A Machine for Pigs
Kingdom Two Crowns
West of Dead
Dear Esther: Landmark Edition
Driftland: The Magic Revival
WARSAW
Pikuniku
Iron Danger
Fury Unleashed
Slinger VR
Pixplode
Neverout
Telefrag VR
Say No! More
NecroWorm
Hexologic
Lust from Beyond: M Edition
The Amazing American Circus
Roarr! Jurassic Edition
Corridor Z
Draw Slasher
The USB Stick Found in the Grass
Go Home Dinosaurs
Warhammer 40000: Gladius - Relics of War
Youtubers Life
Blood: Fresh Supply
We Are Alright
Going Under
Yoku's Island Express
Orbital Racer
Lust for Darkness
Broken Age
Counter Strike: Source
Axyos
Dino D-Day
Spacebase DF9
Hack n Slash
Don't Starve Together
Operation Tango
Windjammers 2
Builder Simulator
Behind the Frame
The Invisible Hand
Shotgun King
Kraken Academy
Ozymandias
Merchant of the Skies
Deceive Inc.
The Forgotten City
Patch Quest
Who pressed mute on Uncle Marcus
Autonauts vs Piratebots
Unpacking
SCP: Secret Files
Souldiers
Two Point Campus
Aragami 2
Roguebook
The Red Lantern
Hell Pie
Twin Mirror
Splendor
Love Letter
Amberial Dreams
Small World
Small World - A Spider's Web
Small World - Royal Bonus
Small World - Cursed!
Gloomhaven - Solo Scenarios: Mercenary Challenges
Innchanted
Terraforming Mars
A Game of Thrones: The Board Game
Blood Rage
Arkham Horror: Mother's Embrace
LOTR: Adventure Card Game
Saints Row
Black Skylands
Soulstice
Afterimage
The Callisto Protocol
Fasion Police Squad
Terraformers
Symphony of War
The Excavation of Hob's Barrow
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2024.06.09 07:17 starting_to_learn Revisiting The Lover Diaries x ME! in a Post-TTPD World

Revisiting The Lover Diaries x ME! in a Post-TTPD World
Recently, Taylor has been using the phrase “dear diary” to describe her music on the Eras tour. Prior to the release of TTPD, she was using language like “excruciatingly autobiographical” and “live-streamed public autopsy” - which, in retrospect, seems like a hint towards the concept of TTPD as a “post-mortem.” In changing this language, it stands to reason that she may be hinting at something new.
I started to wonder if she might be pointing us back towards the Lover diaries. She’s also been mentioning the number 4 - “Dear Diary, I felt a feeling for 4 seconds” - and how many Lover diaries are there? 4! Taylor Nation also recently posted about the Lover diaries. (Credit to u/Different_Hedgehog16 for sharing the screen shot in the megathread!)
https://preview.redd.it/5hoae7tyrg5d1.png?width=432&format=png&auto=webp&s=cc428aa24495806db3c12dc5b53b0878c25f10a7
There have also been theories swirling that we might get a redo of the Miss Americana documentary, like this post. I’d argue that the diaries and documentary, as longer story-telling mediums, were essential to the fabric of the Lover era as a vehicle for a coming out. And if she were to re-do that coming out, she might also revisit those same story-telling mediums she attempted to use during Lover.
So, I decided to take a look back at the Lover diaries in a post-TTPD world to see what we can glean. There are quite a few interesting things, but what struck me first and foremost were connections to ME! and how those connections intersect with our current position on the road to "meet me at midnight." So, that is what I am going to largely focus on in this post.

Intro: Significance of the Lover Diaries

Taylor’s music has long been branded “diaristic.” But it’s one thing to write diaristic music; it’s another thing to release your diary. Sharing your diary signals a new level of confession, unveiling something that is typically kept private under lock and key.
Of course, the diaries she released are not her literal diary. They are a curated selection of entries she chose to release and potentially edited for public consumption. These diaries are art pieces, packaged together as an accompaniment to the album. And as art, it doesn’t matter how literally “true” the diaries are. What matters is the meaning they convey. I’d argue that these diaries can tell us a lot about the Lover era.
As a concept, the first and most obvious thing the very existence of the diaries tells us is that the Lover era was intended as an era of authenticity and confession. This won’t shock anyone in this corner of the internet, but I think the very fact that she included her diaries to accompany the album lends credence to the failed coming out theory.

Opening the Diary Drawer in the Lover Era

Taylor has never used the word “diary” in a published song, but she did use the word in her poem for reputation, If You’re Anything Like Me:
If you’re anything like me,
You never wanted to lock your door,
Your secret garden gate or your diary drawer
Didn’t want to face the you you don’t know anymore
For fear she was much better before…
But Darling, now you have to.
Here, she describes how she never wanted to lock her diary drawer - never wanted to have to hide parts of herself from the world behind a locked (closet?) door, behind a gate in a secret garden. It’s telling, then, that with her next album release, she unlocks the diary drawer. This signals an intention to step out from behind the door and into the daylight.
The next few lines of the poem are relevant here, too. She describes not knowing herself anymore and not wanting to face herself - a self who she fears was much better “before.” Before what? Before she became estranged from herself, perhaps? But now she must face this self she is estranged from. The implication seems to be that after she locks the door, she is alone with herself - and then she must face herself. This idea of facing herself in isolation is reinforced in the next stanza where she speaks of her “own little golden prison cell” and says, “But Darling, there is where you meet yourself.”
She describes meeting herself behind a shut door on reputation. And Lover, in opening the diary drawer, represents an invitation for the world to meet her, too.
Of course, it doesn’t happen, and she finds herself shutting the door again. In that light, it’s interesting that this conception of what it means to meet yourself seems quite opposite to how she describes it in the Midnights foreword: “For all of us who have tossed and turned and decided to keep the lanterns lit and go searching - hoping that just maybe, when the clock strikes twelve…we’ll meet ourselves.” On Midnights, she isn’t shutting the door to meet herself. She is stepping out with lanterns lit to search for herself. And her hope to meet herself is directly tied to an invitation for the audience to meet her, too: “Meet me at midnight.” This shift might suggest a realization that the isolation of the closet is in fact not a place where one can truly encounter themselves. You don’t meet yourself in a prison cell; you lose yourself. To find yourself, you have to open the door. The diary drawer.

Lover as a Return to Herself, Through the Lens of the Lover Diaries

The diaries are a central part of the Lover foreword, the very first thing she mentions. She seems particularly drawn to the diaries from her childhood and teen years; she writes, “What shocked me the most was how often I wrote about the things that I loved.” This becomes her central inspiration for the concept of the album, as she goes on to explain it: “This album is a love letter to love itself.” And further, it serves as the inspiration for a decision she describes making about how she wants to define herself and her identity: “I’ve decided that in this life, I want to be defined by the things that I love - not the things I hate, the things I’m afraid of, or the things that haunt me in the middle of the night. These things may be my struggles, but they’re not my identity.” These words are so central to the thesis of the album that they bookend it: opening the album in the prologue and closing it in the outro of Daylight. And these words are rooted in the spirit of the young Taylor she describes encountering in the pages of these old diaries.
Lover Foreword
This is especially interesting when we think about the death of the “old Taylor” in reputation. Lover was an era of rebirth - not of the Taylor Swift personas she killed off in the reputation era, but of her original self. It was a return to her roots. A return to herself. Consider this quote from Rolling Stone where she says she’s never “leaned into the old version of myself more creatively than I have on this album.” (Credit to u/courtingdisaster for this find!)
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This proves out when examining the contents of the diaries. The entries she chose to include are primarily from her youth. There are 51 total entries across the four diaries, spanning 2003-2017. Of these, over half (51%) are from her teenage years. Another 45% are from her early 20s (ages 20-24). Only two entries are from age 25+.

The Lover Diaries and ME!

Looking at the contents of the diaries, the first thing that jumped out at me was the quote she included on the first page of Diary #1 and signed “Me!”
Opening Page of Lover Diary #1
It seems reasonable to think that the concept for ME! was inspired, at least in part, from this process of combing through her old diaries and facing the person she once was. These first pages from age 13 represent a celebration of herself. Her pride in her doodles, branding them “Taylor designs 2002.” Her belief that she would be a big star, that her signature might be worth money someday (hehe). Defiance in the face of anyone who would tell her she “[doesn’t] deserve what [she] want[s].” And a celebration of her words, featured right alongside Kenny Chesney’s. There’s a youthful wisdom in these words that she seems to return to in ME!, a song about celebrating everything that makes her who she is.
There are also visual parallels between the diaries and the ME! lyric video. The ME! lyric video is stylized as handwritten; we actually see her hand writing these words, and she is writing on paper with a Taylor Swift letterhead to boot, leaving no doubt about whose words these are. This in and of itself feels noteworthy, given it’s not a typical style for her lyric videos. The handwritten ME! lyrics tie the song directly to the diaries, also handwritten.
ME! Lyric Video
Additionally, the lyric video is full of sweet childlike doodles that also parallel the diaries - hearts, stars, smiley faces. Some of the imagery from her diary doodles also makes it into the ME! music video.
Left: Young Taylor in the Lover Diaries Right: ME! Lyric Video
If you’re in this corner of the internet, you likely understand ME! as deeply meaningful to the Lover rollout. And these ties to the Lover diaries, which Taylor made central to the thesis of the album in the foreword, lend further credence to ME! as one of the most important touchstones of this era. ME! as a self-love anthem inspired by and dedicated to her younger self, who once wrote: “The world is as big as you make it, never be shameful to fly.”
\"Never be shameful to fly.\" - Taylor Swift in the Lover Diaries, age 13

Connections to TTPD

The Lover era was characterized by a handwritten aesthetic - in the diaries and beyond, most notably in the ME! lyric video. This handwritten aesthetic is not typical for Taylor's work, but where do we see it pop up again? On TTPD, of course. The summary poem is specifically printed to look handwritten, but with none of the flourish of the Lover era. The color has been drained out.
TTPD Summary Poem
We also have a call-back to the Taylor Swift letterhead from the ME! lyric video in the TTPD era's "From the Desk of Taylor Swift." The fonts are not identical, but similar enough to suggest a connection. Both albums come directly from the desk of Taylor Swift.
Left: ME! Lyric Video Letterhead: \"Taylor Swift, Born in 1989, Loves Cats\" Right: Letterhead from TTPD Journal (Merch): \"From the Desk of Taylor Swift\"
These are of course not the first call-backs to ME! and Lover that this community has noticed on TTPD. This is an addition to a long and growing list of connections. I'd argue this is a noteworthy connection because, fundamentally, the excavation of the Lover Diaries - a central part of the fabric of the album and especially of ME! - represented a return to her most authentic self, before she learned civility, and an invitation for the public to encounter that authentic self emerging from her unlocked diary drawer. The Midnights foreword suggests we might now be on a mirrored journey towards "meet me at midnight," and TTPD might represent a pit stop on that journey. (If you're interested in more thoughts on this journey and how it connects to diaristic confession, I wrote this post about it!)
And if that's the case, if Taylor is coming back for herself, it just might mean coming back for the Lover Diaries and the 13-year-old girl found in their pages, who once wisely said, "May you never be scared of goodbye." Judging by a recent mash-up, perhaps Taylor is preparing to take her advice: You're on your own, kid, you always have been. So, take a deep breath as you walk through the doors.
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2024.06.09 06:38 Normal_Sport_8489 Cover Letter review?

Not a resume review but a cover letter review. I generally use the following cover letter for a research assistant position. I change the second paragraph based on the research job I am applying to. How can I make it better?
Dear X Lab,
I came across the open Research Assistant position in your lab on ___ career website. Over the past two years, I have been immersed in oncology research under Dr. XX at the University of XXX, focusing on molecular mechanisms and cell signalling in glioblastoma cells. Having recently graduated, I want to spend the next few years delving further into cancer therapeutics. By being a part of your lab, I hope to mould myself into a skilled researcher and contribute significantly to your research projects.
I am particularly interested in cancer therapies and their relevance to current cancer studies. A couple of weeks ago, I read an article about the link between Down syndrome and leukaemia and was excited to see that your lab is conducting the largest study on this topic. I am keen on exploring the molecular mechanisms involved. Additionally, your focus on the XYZ pathway piqued my interest, as it aligns with my research at X Lab, where I targeted X kinase, which is upstream of Y. (this is usually the paragraph that defers based on the lab I am applying to and the research they do)
At X Lab, my research centred on understanding the effects of the Z receptor on therapy resistance in glioblastoma cells. I successfully generated several gene-knockout cell lines to investigate the RTK pathway. Having worked with molecular models, I am eager to further explore the applications of targeted therapy in translational models.
In addition to research, my lab technician duties, including cloning, murine genotyping, histology, PCR, and microscopy, have provided me with hands-on training in various molecular biology techniques. My protein-interaction studies in brain-eating amoebas (N. gruberi) with Dr. Z further fueled my passion for molecular biology. These experiences have equipped me with the organisational, technical, and problem-solving skills necessary to conduct meaningful research and understand the demands of a research environment.
I am confident that my experiences in cancer biology, coupled with my technical skills, would allow me to contribute significantly to your work. I am extremely passionate and hardworking, and I would love to discuss in detail how my past work makes me a good fit for this position in your lab. I have attached my resume and references for your review.
Thank you so much for considering my application.
Sincerely,
ABCD
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2024.06.09 06:01 anonmetalhead My own mother told me i’d be a terrible mom.

hi THT and reddit. Long time lurker, first time poster. I don’t really know what i’m looking to accomplish by posting this. Maybe i need advice or maybe this is just so i can vent. tw for the following (suicide, sh, addiction, ab0rtion) All the names in this story are fake for privacy.
I, (22F) have a long , overwhelming, complicated relationship with my mom (44F). for some context: my mom and dad (48M) were never married, they were more of a fling. they had known each other only about a month and were casually dating…then my dad ended things to continue his career in a different state. they found out they were pregnant with me (they were 21 and 24) and my dad stayed in our home state to raise me. they never got back together but they remained friendly. fast forward to now my mother has a son Derek (Fake name, 17M) with derek’s dad, her now fiancé. We’ll call him Sal. My father, we’ll call him Roger, had 3 more children (F,F,M 10-14) with his ex wife. my mother kind of tossed me with my dad, and i saw her on weekends and the summertime. my mother was never really a mother to me…she did the bare minimum. to her defense, maybe the bare minimum to me, was the best she could offer. My mother will never admit it, but she resents having me. from the moment my brother was born, i felt it, i saw it, i endured it. my brother is my mother’s whole world, her everything. Her straight A, complient, high achieving baby boy who holds the key to her heart. her life began when my brother was born. And i am nothing. I am the problem child, the underachiever, the one who could always be a little bit more like my baby brother. My brother’s dad, my step dad (39F), is a great guy. my mom and him have an extensive history. They met when i was 4. They were off an on for many years. He was 22 when he had my brother..he was broke, immature, a “player”. My mom was 27 when she had my brother Derek. She was head over heels for sal. and i think he just wanted a booty call. That changed when my brother was born. he was not always kind to my mother, but he loves the shit out of derek. he stepped up and became a very respectable man and a very important person in my life. They were so in love with each other but neither of them could get their shit together enough for one another. Sal was engaged to someone for 9 years, my mother was in a serious relationship with someone else for about 6 years. Both of them eventually broke it off. And about 4 years ago, sal and my mother got back together, and last year he proposed. I struggled a lot mentally once i turned 12. I suffered from severe depression, anxiety, and (at the time) undiagnosed schizo-obsessive disorder. My father was/is my rock. He dropped everything to help me, to fix whatever was wrong with me. He is my bird, he holds me up, and protects me when i cannot do anything to help myself. He would wash my hair, help brush my teeth, and sleep on the floor next to my bed, when i was afraid i would do something awful to myself if i was left alone. He would sit me and help me eat when I would force myself to go hungry. He is my footprints in the sand (if you know that poem). I owe my life to him. My mother, was not like that. I was struggling with severe depression and temptations of suicide and she refused to help me or help with therapy, and was convinced i was making it up. my mom found out i was sh, and she beat me. and told me if i did it again, to make sure i cut deeper next time. i was 12. My mother at one point told me that i should end my life bc “she didn’t play that shit”. i was 13 when I attempted to fulfill her wishes for the first time. thankfully, i was unsuccessful, but i think,subconsciously, my mom wishes i was. What a horrible thing it is to look into your mother's eyes and see her love for you vanish. I'm sorry you had to raise a kid that you didn't want. i continued to silently struggle with self harm n suicide until i was 20. when i was 18 i eventually told my dad. he held me and cried with me. he bought self help books and took me on regular dad/daughter dates to remind me im loved. he did everything he could to protect me from my own brain. My issues with mental health continued, I wanted to die and i would have done anything and everything to make it happen. i think, if she could, my mother would have done it for me. i was 20 when i found out i was pregnant, with my current boyfriend. i was terrified. i was not afraid of being a mother. i was afraid of being MY mother, of trying so hard to not be like her, that somehow without knowing, it would be like looking in a mirror and seeing her. i regretfully, had an abortion. It’s been two years now, and i think of it every day. i relive my grief everyday. i was quickly filled with this maternal warmth i had never known. and just at fast as it appeared, it was gone. I was told it gets easier, but it doesn't... This pain DOES NOT go away. I told my mother about it. she was gentle and loving. she was a painted image of what i had always needed. and within an instant it was gone. she told me id be a terrible mother anyways, that i was not ready. maybe she was right. i moved out shortly after, and she turned my room into her dogs room. i was 21 years old finally getting diagnosed with OCD and schizo-obsessive disorder, and trial and erroring medications. being in the worst mental pit of my life, struggling to stay alive. with only help from dad and bf for anything because she didn’t think any of it was real or as bad as i “was making it seem”. the second derek showed an ounce of an anxiety- she started taking him to therapy regularly, got him on medication, and prioritized it. mom is pushing and helping him find universities like princeton and other areas..i went to 13 different schools before HS because no one could agree on anything. he’s only ever been to private school. im paying for college all by myself. she takes him on trips to disney world for his birthday, after promising me every year to take me from 2-14. and lets him bring a friend fully paid, but makes me stay home to watch her dogs. i’ve still never been. I try not to think about it. i love my mother. i am very close with my brother. sometimes i wish he would stand up for me. but he is only 17..i will not hold that on him. this is all he has known. a loving mother and father who would give anything for him. i feel very out of place on her side of the family. i don’t feel like my mom knows me at all and she makes me feel small because im not who she wants me to be. and i can’t tell her any of this and it’s building a lot of resentment. my mother had her baby with the man she wanted and created her own little family where i am the outcast. I am not her daughter, i am a constant reminder of what her life could have been and what her life is. for as much she doesn’t like her mother, she is a product of her environment. the way my grandmother treated her and my aunt …i see a lot of similarities of that with me and derek. i don’t think she’ll ever admit it, but i think she’s embarrassed of me. i didn’t have that push or encouragement from her like she’s gives derek. i feel like she’s wishes i was more like him. and it’s hard not to resent derek sometimes because he has a version of mom that im never going to get. i want my mother to love me. i want derek’s mother. that daughterhood feeling of wanting to blame your mother for how you turned out, wanting to be angry at her for how you've inherited her pain and her insecurities, but at the same time wanting to keep coming home to her, out of everyone else in the universe, because you know that if there's anyone who might be anything like you-if there's anyone who might even have a clue of what it's like to be you-it could only be her. and no matter how many times you've hurt each other, no matter how difficult it might be to get her to truly see you, you still just want her to love you as you are, to tell you that this isn't your fault, and to show you that she would keep letting you come home to her. i want her to be proud of me. but i am all you could have been and you are all i might be.
i know this was long. i needed to get it out i guess. i’m so lonely. i just want my mom.
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2024.06.09 05:34 AldolAssassinNIBAZ “A Brief Stroll Down History Lane.” Authenticated letter from The n-IsopropylZodiac Killer, 06/08/24

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2024.06.09 05:13 Relevant_Grape_4106 I miss you too…

A few days ago I came across a notification on here from a post of this subreddit titled “I miss you” - which I can’t seem to find anymore, simply because it may have gotten deleted by author. Call me crazy, and it might have just even been the fact that it was just late at night and I was fighting with sleep, but when I read it, it felt like it was you. Almost everything said in that letter sounded like you - even the post itself. You always had your way in getting your message across without confronting the person directly, didn’t you? Even when you’d shut me out and tell me you needs space to think, and I’d respectfully give it to you, as much as I wanted to have you open up to me and share with me your troubles, just to help you along with you. Even if that ‘space to think’ was just burying yourself into working and keeping yourself busy, or just try not to think about anything towards me.
Signing the letter off with telling me to take care of myself. The way you have that glimmer of hope to talk to me again but then you say that you’d rather not bring me trouble by involving me with you again - I would only like to hope that the latter of that sentence is the only part that’s insincere, and that you really mean it when you say you want to talk to me again, just like you’ve said so the last time you spoke to me. I can’t think of how you’d bring trouble to me with you when I hope to talk to you too. Maybe the only part I’d say is not true is the ‘exes’ flair - we didn’t really get that far, other than you clarifying that you liked me too when I was completely convinced that you didn’t. And then, again, you let me be to give me ‘space’ - when we know that it was an excuse to distance yourself from me again, leaving me clueless, and concerned about you.
Whether it really was you behind the letter or not, I still had things left to say that you refused to listen to. I just intend that it reaches you somehow, whether it was you who wrote that letter or not. And if it wasn’t, then I hope whoever it reaches, it gives you clarity on how the person you’re missing feels on the other side. I was really debating if whether I should or not, whether I’d be making myself out to be a fool or not. And this may be the light night drowsiness talking, but I suppose it’s only better to not bottle it up.
J, it really has been such a long time, but not long enough with the way I haven’t forgotten about you, not for even a day. If you haven’t been at the forefront of my mind, you definitely were living at the back of it. I really do hope you’re doing well and I really hate how I can’t know that from you for sure. Not if you don’t let me. I would have reached out to you if I had the means to. Would you have just not responded to my messages then too?
All I wanted to do was let you know back then was that whatever you were going through, I was here for you, and that I will be here for you. I don’t really know whether or not you got the memo with that, but during the last days we spoke, when you told me that you think I’d hate you if I really knew, that hurt. It hurt that you thought that lowly of me after you got to know how I was. It hurt more that you were so convinced that there was no reason for me to hear what you have to say, that you didn’t even want to give yourself a chance, that you wanted me to hate you and not forgive you, but it was like you never wanted to hear that from me the way you never wanted to find out for yourself.
If you’re really convinced that I’d hate you so much, why don’t you come and find out for yourself? And if that’s not what you want from me then why don’t you come and make up for it? I will say that if I did hate anything of yours it would be how you would decide how I felt about you without even letting me speak for myself. I hated it even more how you thought you weren’t deserving of forgiveness and that you deserved to be hated. I hate how you spoke for me just to justify hatred towards yourself from someone who cared about you so much. I cared about you so much, J, and I still do - but how would I get you to see that when you don’t let yourself see it?
It’s been so long but you still have me wondering about you. Things like, do you think about me too? Do you think about ever reaching out? Do you still have that poems that I had written for you for Valentine’s Day still saved in your phone’s notes app, like you said you had? If I had known that you would save it in your notes app, I would have tried to write it better..
Honestly, I’d love for you to reach out to me as much as you may not believe it. But at the same time, as much as I tried to reach out to you before, I only fear that I’d push you and your avoidant ways away again. You made me feel so safe and cared for, and I only wanted to do the same for you. All I wanted from you was to communicate, to work our ways through whatever happens.
Right now I can only wish and hope you’re well. I can only wish and hope we have the opportunity to talk someday soon too.
Take care. ❤️
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2024.06.09 04:50 RM4_226_Oranges It's good

I'm good dude. I poured my heart and soul out. I wanted to actually write those sweet romantic letters to you as well. Thinking I could get you out of my system. I can't. You're forever embedded in me. In a good way. You thought I never cared? Well I proved you wrong. You thought I hated you too? Wrong again. I never did. I always knew there was something more... I found the answers and the why.
It's always been you. I was thinking about one of my favorite poems as a kid... You know... The raisin one... What happens to a dream deferred? I think throughout this journey I ended up experiencing all those deferments.
I don't know where to place you in my life anymore bc you're not actually in it. I always struggle with leaving something open ended. And it's cutting ✂️ into every area of my life. At the same time I really experienced first hand what you went through. All of it. I had to.
So now I understand and know I can't tuck you away. I don't have any availability or space that can contain your essence. I don't know what slot you fill bc you were an interesting ONE. Like a unique specimen or rock you collect that you can't quite classify or combine with another set. No.. you take up so much of every part of me. And maybe that's it. You're just so damn unique. So it almost becomes cumbersome you know. To archive you or file you away. Even so, there's not a system I've come up with pertaining to you. Not in the sense of like a system... You get what I mean. Almost like I have to create something more, just for you. Just bc you touched every part of my soul's essence. So I mean where do I put you when no one else has achieved this type of classification. It's quite humorous. It's enjoyable at times when I think about you.
I guess I'll just let you run amok and free... I mean what else can you do? Everyone seems to know where to go... You're not one to be constrained or constricted. Your soul spoke to mine and I let you take all of me. Like that saying you know... It made me think of how I truly understand the saying I am yours... There's no other way around it. Once I gave myself over to you it's impossible to change it. There's no manual or self help book I can read where you can change the settings... Change my feelings. I can turn the volume down, but sometimes you'll even override that.
We all strive to find the ONE who gets us to that space. Thank you for that. Even though we're not together. I'm was thinking how sad before. It's not an obsession though... It's different. So I won't stop you anymore. I won't try and turn the volume down. I gave myself away to you long ago.
So run through me...
Run freely...
Immerse yourself in me...
I surrender... I am yours...
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2024.06.09 03:27 Theresurrectiondance Select a quote for each letter. Day fourteen: N

Select a quote for each letter. Day fourteen: N
L's quote was adjusted due to the previous quote not being an official quotation from the anime, manga or light novels.
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2024.06.09 02:58 Lumpy_Conference_311 Underage dui / California

Got a dui a couple days before my 19th birthday, I was charged with dui, hit n run and, having a blood concentration level of 0.8. What should I prepare for? I already got a lawyer and I’m just curious on what’s gonna happen or what kinda consequences I might or will face, I got a letter about my license already getting suspended for a year and was also curious on how I could get it back. Thanks
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2024.06.09 02:49 Aznkid367 What is this square dot grid?

What is this square dot grid?
Hey so long story short, I have this weird flicking square grid dot thing that appears when I turn on the game. It usually appears at the right side of the screen. Does anyone have an idea of what this is or what could be causing this?
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