How to write a letter to long lost friend

TL;DR at the bottom
I tried to bold the more important information
My partner and I have been dating over half a year now and we've been in love and share so many interests, hobbies, and beliefs together but I've felt that we're much more different as people in what we want and need out of the relationship. I want to see how it goes for a bit longer and eventually discuss the topic but I'm worried that things will go catastrophically bad, especially for her (and I don't mean that in a demeaning way).
For context: We're long distance where she lives almost across the country so we can't really see each other. One of my family members has also been sick for nearly a year now and even though things are better now I don't think I could visit still. She has also had previous relationships she didn't enjoy with the last one being very messy in its duration and how it ended with our relationship being "the best one" she's had. She also struggles with self-esteem and tons of anxiety. Overall things are not in her favor for relationships.
She really likes attention in any form and will basically give everything for me (which frankly I don't approve in principle that it could make things hurt more if things don't work in a relationship). She also loves giving gifts and having long conversations and being together even if she tries not to mention or act on it. I've learned as the relationship goes on that I'm not very good at giving her attention as I'm more introverted in that aspect and like being alone (I love being in the same room or space though! I just like the idea of "separate but together" if that makes sense???). I also struggle with long conversations in our relationship, and I don't simply mean a long discussed topic or debate on an idea but rather multiple long conversations one after the other. She's also the type to get anxious or worried if I still like/love her if I take too long to answer or not answer as frequently (Which she has gotten a lot better about the longer we've been together).
She is also far more established as a person than I am as I'm still trying to make and find stability in my life which has been increasingly difficult as of late. She actually has a new job starting soon with far better pay and benefits and I'm super happy she's going to work in a far less toxic environment than she had before! I just don't feel quite adequate enough on that aspect and I'd like to improve.
I love and trust her and she loves and trusts me (I believe she's more loving and trusting actually). But I just don't think things will work for us in the long run and I fear that the longer things go the worse the conversation and breakup will be. She needs someone who can give her all the attention she needs and to help her grow from her insecurities which I don't feel adequate enough to do. And I need someone who doesn't mind a more quiet relationship overall. But the problem comes that if I try to discuss our relationship or try to break it off, even gently or slowly, I worry she'll have a panic attack or worse during or after it. I don't want her to hurt and I really hope we can still be friends and enjoy all the things we did before we dated but I fear things will end messy regardless.
I wanted to discuss this with her after she started her new job and found some more stability (but she recently had a very bad experience and needs time to heal) so I want to wait, though I'm worried about increasing that time before the discussion. I really don't know how to approach this or what to do, I'm worried I'm an asshole for thinking such things and I'm scared of finally ripping off the bandage and talking about it.
TL;DR: I want to discuss/break off our relationship but I'm worried doing so will hurt her too much and basically ruin her perception of herself/her relationships. I want her to be happy but I know I can't give that to her and she needs to find someone who can.

I've been heavy my whole life. I'm 35 now and currently at about 133kgs (I was at 155kgs late last year. I'm only about 5'9" so this is not a great situation to be in, I acknowledge that. About three years ago, I was doing keto and lost a ton of weight, was down to about 107kgs and it's the best I've felt in as long as I can remember. Then COVID, job loss, kids, excuses, blah, blah, blah.
Anyway, I've always yo-yoed up and down but this is the most up I've been over a period for a long time. My wife has never really had weight issues and she basically eats whatever. She's usually really supportive, perhaps slightly leaning into enabling.
Recently, we were at a 4 year old's birthday party and one of the kids said "You have a big fat tummy". Which sucked to hear, but kids are kids, right? Well the kid's mum was horrified and said "We don't comment on other people's bodies like that" which just kind of increased the embarrassment, but I get that she had to teach her kid a lesson (I have two kids, so I get it). The worst part was my wife just goes "Well, the kid is right".
Such a little comment, and again, being heavy my whole life I've certainly had worse comments made about me. But this really hurt. Still does.
I decided it was time to get serious about it (in addition to being heavy, I'm also vindictive and petty haha). So I've basically been starving myself this past week. Shake for breakfast, shake for dinner, and just salad for lunch (lettuce, carrot, celery, cucumber, a bit of feta, and a can of tuna). I lost about 3.5kgs this week, which I know isn't a healthy way to lose weight.
I just feel stuck. I want the weight gone. Part of it is shame, part of it is just how uncomfortable I am, part of it is wanting to prove a point to my wife, part of it is wanting to make sure I'm around for my kids.
Anyway, not a question really... Just thought someone here might "get it" more than someone on offmychest...

I (35F) have a friend of 20 years I want to end a friendship with. She goes out of her way to make me feel bad about myself and she puts little effort into our friendship. I always plan everything that we do together. She never asks me how I am but always talks about herself. I don’t know why I’m even still in this friendship. It’s just been so long that I couldn’t let go. I am torn between meeting her in person, ghosting her gradually or sending her a text. I feel like she will put the blame back onto me instead of listening. What should I do and how should I do it?

So, a lot of you aren't going to like this.
Those of you who work at agencies ESPECIALLY won't like this, because it's gonna make those of you who are lazy and blame everyone else for your problems...
Well it's gonna make you look like you're lazy, and blame everyone else for your problems.
So here's my central thesis for this post, done in my best Alec Baldwin impersonation:
"Facebook's not weak, YOU'RE weak!"
Okay, fair enough, Facebook is actually kinda shitty. But have you heard that old (admittedly misogynistic) joke, "Women, can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em?"
Well that describes FB.
I hate FB. I despise it with every fiber of my being.
But... it also makes me a lot of money. So I still run a lot of ads on there.
Quick note about me so you know I'm not some random dipshit: Been in online marketing for a long time, been running ads for about 5 years. Currently do about $5mm a year in spend, a decent chunk of it with my own personal cash for my own business. I still consult and run ads in JV/partnership deals, however, so not ALL my own money.
So, lots of posts lately about FB being shitty. Interestingly enough like many things there have always been these posts en masse. ios14 was a huge turning point in this industry. And it seems to keep getting worse and worse.
That said there's still people CRUSHING it on FB on a daily basis. Individuals who are doing 50k - 100k in spend a day (I've been one of them, right now more like 20k a day though.)
And these are direct response guys, not big ass brands who can afford to throw cash away.
So the question is... why are you struggling and they aren't?
Well first of all let me let you in on a secret: FB sucks for them too. It sucks for me, it sucks for all of us.
But if you want to be successful, you need to focus on what you CAN control, not what you can't.
So here's my rules for success:

1. UNDERSTAND FACEBOOK SUCKS

I've run five copies of the exact same ad in the same ad set at the same time and gotten wildly different results. That's why I test the way I do (Test images/videos and copy at the same time, so I can have duplicates of everything and cross reference/aggregate performance)
Also understand something that works in your market is half the battle... you need something FB likes too. Which you'll never know what it is until you stumble upon it.
Which brings me to my next point...

1. YOU'RE NOT TESTING ENOUGH

I've seen SO MANY posts where people are like, "We've tested TEN IMAGES and nothing works!!!"
My friend. 10 images is what I test in a day. I've been known to test 100 videos a week. I'll write ten pieces of copy for one day's testing.
Do I do this every day? No. I wish I could. I don't have the time/energy. But ideally I SHOULD be doing this every day.
Now if you're running a budget of $100/day obviously you have a lot less you can test.
But my point is... even for those of us who know what we're doing... it takes a LOT of creative testing to get a hit.
Creative testing should be 80% of your time on FB. The guys who tell you it's about the campaign structure or whatever... I mean yeah that stuff is important and can help. But if your creative is good you can kind of ignore that stuff and still get decent results.
Oh and every account is different in terms of what it likes. So you kind of have to treat them separately and test creatives on each. Have fun!

1. IF YOU'RE A MEDIA BUYER AND CAN'T UNDERSTAND CREATIVE YOU SHOULD GET A NEW JOB

Look, not everyone is a great copywriter, or video producer, or artist.
But any good media buyer should be able to take a guess at WHY the creative isn't working, and what should be changed. They should know how to test in a way that is getting these insights that can then be used to further iterate on and improve creatives.
I have met some media buyers who don't know shit about creative but are great at scaling. They're rare, but they're out there. Maybe 10 - 20% of great media buyers are like this. But these people could never fly solo. They only shine in a team with a big creative producing "engine". And they still know how to test to get that learning - they just don't really know why.

1. YOUR TESTING STRATEGY SUCKS

Tests are experiments. They should, as much as possible, isolate one variable.
So many times I hear about people testing in different campaigns, or on different days of the week, or whatever.
No. Testing is in one campaign. Usually different ad sets because otherwise FB will pick a favorite, but if I could throw all ads in one ad set and have FB evenly spend I'd do that.
Furthermore, you should have a very clear goal when you test. "We're testing angles." "We're testing whether red or blue gets a better CPC." "We're testing which of these 10 pieces of ad text does the best."
Don't just throw up a bunch of random videos. At least not often. Test one element. An intro. A CTA. Whatever. Have a plan, and stick to it.

1. WHAT AGENCIES TELL YOU IS BULLSHIT

And the worst part is then the people working there start to believe it.
A small incomplete sample of bullshit things I've heard:
"Facebook has to get out of the learning phase."
False. A good creative will work pretty much straight away. FB's pixel's been dogshit since ios14. Yes, generally training a pixel will help, but this "it needs 7 days of learning" horse shit is just that... horse shit. Often said by people who want to make excuses rather than get down and dirty and do the hard work - making good creatives.
"The pixel takes time to learn."
A half-truth, see above.
"It takes a month to even start getting data"
If I took a month to get data I'd be destitute. You should be able to test if a campaign is going to work in a week, assuming you have the creative ready to go.
If you can't figure out whether something's going to work in a week or two and 1 - 2k of spend, you suck at your job.
If you can't spend 1k a week, then you're working with a client that's super small and that has its own set of challenges, especially on FB.
And if an agency tells you they can't give you some damn good data and an action plan on exactly what you should do in a week or two, run from them and find someone else.
There are more that get my goat but you get the point.
BTW... MOST (not all) agencies work like this:
They sell you a ton of bullshit. You sign on as a client. They give you a junior they get from the Philippines or Eastern Europe for like $400 a month while charging you $3k. They give you endless excuses for months on why results aren't there until you finally leave but hey at that point they got like $15k in profit out of you... they don't care.
WHY I POSTED THIS:

1. Because there are people on here who believe this shit and waste time spinning their wheels when they could be getting traction
   
2. Because I hate lies and incompetence
   
3. Because I enjoy watching all the terrible media buyers come out of the wood work and try to argue with me on why I'm wrong (seriously, do it. Let's go. I need to procrastinate when I should be writing copy.)
   

And if you think I'm looking for clients... I'm not. I don't really have the time. Unless you want to do a profit share deal and your biz is already doing at least $1mm a year in revenue, then yeah, PM me, but it's gotta be a very attractive proposition for me to work on your shit.
Full disclosure: I am considering starting a YT channel where I basically get drunk and/or high and rant about shit like this for 5 - 10 minutes at a time. But as you know there's no money in that.
IN CONCLUSION:
Most of the shit you've heard is dead wrong and spread by people who either don't know any better or want to sell you this fantasy that ads are impossible. They're not. They're just a lot of hard fucking work.
BTW, you can reach out to me via PM for questions but honestly I'd rather you post it here so we get a discussion going and please don't take it personally if I don't have the time to answer back.
Now stop being on reddit and go make some more creatives and write some more copy to test.
Oh, and to all the lame media buyers who are upset that someone's shining lights on just how lazy and useless they are:
Bring it on, bitch.
P.S. I don't know why the preview is showing all my numbers as "1". I swear I learned how to count, even if it took me longer than some of the other kids. If anyone knows how to fix that, please post a comment or PM me. Bonus points for a funny joke at my expense.

Hi I'm unsure how to address this. The girl I have been dating sent me a text that she needs to figure out how to balance her life and dating but she still talks to me and talks about going on dates. My friends keep giving me advice ranging from just keep having conversations and wait till she is ready some are saying they I should chase her a bit more(ask her out on dates, go out to dinner with her, etc). She has expressed that she is worried about integrating me in her life with all of her past things and her kids. I want to give her space to deal with her stuff but also reasure her that I do want to be part of her life and tell her I'm in it for the long run if she wants me to be there with her. How would I go about saying that without scaring her away?

We're now onto the Dress Up Days episodes. I had these episodes on DVD when I was a kid, and so I watched them many times. This ep in particular popped into my head a few years ago, and that's what got me back into this show. I'll admit that I'm partial towards this ep and some of the others I grew up with. Anyways, spoilers ahead, so read at your own risk.
We open with the gang at Strawberry's house (including Blueberry, the writers make good use of her character immediately after introducing her). They were supposed to have a garden party, but immediately starts raining heavily. While inside, Blueberry suggests going to her house and playing dress up, since all of the picnic food was "ruined" (It didn't look that bad from what I can tell). Also, sidenote: Blueberry's voice sounds especially high pitched in this ep, even more so than in her first appearance. Idk if there were some audio issues or if the VA was trying something out. Anyway, Strawberry has a bunch of extra raincoats that she gives her friends. She takes the last one, which isn't as cute/stylish as the other ones (although, I'm sure some people would find the appeal in it). Her friends make fun of her, which, come on y'all she gave you her pretty raincoats, be f'ing grateful. Anyway, we cut to when they're at Blueberry's house and start exploring her costumes. Strawberry sees her book collection, and she didn't realize that Blueberry had so many books (even though her love of reading was established in the first episode, and the whole gang helped her set up her bookshelf. Ik I say I'm gonna stop commenting on the continuity, but then something like this happens and I feel the need to say something). They have the idea of picking one of the stories and putting on a play of it. They settle on Cinderella, and Blueberry just so happens to have a pair of glass slippers (she stored them at the bottom of her trunk, which... uh, how did they not break?). The slippers happen to fit Strawberry perfectly. I get that Blueberry offered the slippers to Strawberry, but they were her slippers, presumably bought to fit her feet. But oh well, this show revolves around Strawberry Shortcake, so she of course gets the lead role (on a related note, it's kinda wild that Strawberry never lets power get to her head. I think it would have been interesting to have an episode where Strawberry is on a power trip and has to learn from her mistakes, but oh well). Custard and Pupcake become the equivalent of Cinderella's mice friends. Angel Cake insists on being the fairy godmother. Blueberry agrees to be the stepmother, meaning that Ginger and Orange are the stepsisters (there are some unfortunate implications with our only characters of color being antagonists, but I don't wanna get into it here. That discussion can continue in the comments). Apple is the queen of the castle. Then, they realize that they need a prince, so they go to Huck, the one boy in Strawberryland, and they have to bribe him with pies. We cut to some time later when the sets are built and they're ready to go. They get their pets to be the audience (and Cola's also here. The coach for the stepfamily's carriage looks a bit like Peppermint. It makes me think that the writers wanted to include Peppermint in this episode, but either they didn't know how to write her in or the VA wasn't available). Anyway, Blueberry narrates the opening scene and spends quite a bit of time highlighting how ugly "Strawberella's" clothes are, which are clearly based on her patchy raincoat. Strawberry tells Blueberry to knock it off, and then she checks the mail, making the "mailbox" fall over. This reminds us that this is a low budget play performed by a bunch of kids. We're then immersed into this story, where the stepmother takes the invitation, and reads it. The stepfamily tells Strawberella that she can't go to the ball, which makes her cry. Then, Blueberry, Ginger, and Orange break character and apologize. Angel has to stop them, since them being nice spoils the story. We get to the stepsisters fighting over a dress and it lands on Strawberella's head, which makes her think the lights went out (which is a really silly thing to think. She had to have felt the garment falling on her head). She asks her stepsisters if she can wear it, but then her stepmother rips it up and tells Strawberella to get back to work. We then go into the first musical number, where Strawberella fantasizes about how great her life would be if she only had nice enough clothes to wear. We then cut to the night of the ball and the stepfamily literally leave Strawberella in the dust. Then, the fairy godmother shows up and makes a carriage out of a strawberry, turns Pupcake into a horse, Custard into a coachman, and bestowing Strawberella a beautiful gown and glass slippers. On the way, the fairy godmother has to stop them and let them know that the magic only lasts until 8 pm (since midnight is past their bedtime), which begs the question, what time is it in that moment? The sky is clearly dark, but it doesn't seem incredibly cold out. That makes me think that it's 6 pm at the earliest, which doesn't give very much time for enjoying the ball. Anyway, we get to the ball where one of the stepsisters is dancing with the prince, but then he steps on her foot. I think it would have made more sense for her to step on his foot, which would have incentivized him to find another partner. Anyway, Strawberella shows up, and immediately catches the prince's eye. He awkwardly asks her to dance, and so they do. This scene and episode in general is probably the biggest one that Struckleberry shippers point to, but they conveniently forget that this is a play, and Huck had to be bribed to participate. Anyway, Strawberella loses track of time and the clock strikes 8. I think it would have made more sense if it struck 7:45 or smth, bc with the way that it is, it seems like the magic would have worn off right there in the middle of the ballroom, which is a plothole, but I kinda remember that being an issue with the Disney movie too so I'll let it slide. Anyway, she drops the one slipper, gets home just in time, and then we skip to the next day. The queen and prince show up with glass slipper. The stepsisters try it on, but Orange's foot is too big and Ginger's is too small. I kinda appreciate that Strawberella doesn't have tiny feet in this adaptation since that would have sent the message that smaller feet are inherently prettier. Ig there's a bit of a plothole that with Strawberella having average feet, that shoe could have fit multiple people, but it doesn't really matter. Strawberella fits the shoe, and we get into the musical number about how looks don't matter. I don't usually point out the lyricism in these songs, but I have to mention this one line, "Clothes don't make the kid, it's the other way around." I get what they were going for that clothes don't define you, but that line inspires the image of children in sweatshops, and I don't think that's the kind of thing you'd want to think about while watching a wholesome kids show. Anyway, the play ends and we come back to reality. The other girls apologize to Strawberry for making fun of her raincoat, and it's a happy ending all around. Overall, it's a simple retelling of the Cinderella story that we all know and love, and does a good job with that. There are several episodes later on that are also fairytale adaptations, and I'm not completely sure how to feel about it. I don't necessarily dislike these episodes, but they do make me think that the writers ran out of ideas and used fairytales as a fallback. I'm sure I'll expand on these thoughts later on.
Comment your thoughts below!

Hey there, my names Greyson and I’m a 17 year old high school grad! First off, as I’m 17 (turning 18 and in a few weeks) please be within the age range of 17-19! I really would rather be friends and write with fellas around my age, no exceptions
Anyways if you made it past that little roadblock here’s an introductory type thing:

• I’m a guy but I DONT care what your identity is as long as you’re cool
• I’m in the CST time zone and I BEG you are also near that, it’s so much harder for me to talk to people in other time zones
• I have a part time job, but other than that I’m about as chronically online as possible
• I love talking about random stuff, but I struggle with texting first anxiety when I’m just getting to know you so bare with me!
• I’m autistic (doesn’t really matter but Yknow whatever)
• I draw as much as I can and would 100% be down for drawing our guys doing silly stuff, that’s like the best part of this
• I ONLY write on discord and in 3rd person when roleplaying
• I only main male characters, though for side characters I can write any gender! I only ask that you are fine with writing side characters as well
• On that note I am fine with any MxF/MxM pairing, whatever! No preference

What type of genres/themes I’m into:

• I’m a huge history geek especially in the time periods of the 1800s-1980s, anything from cowboys to yuppies is my jam
• Supernatural elements are always welcome! I don’t require that at all, but I’m always down for something unique
• I love any sort of action or conflict imaginable, the crazier and scarier the better
• Crime and whatnot always interests me, it’s part of my major
• Romance is cool, but what’s really cool to me is a slow burn enemies to lovers type beat. And I mean REAL enemies cliche, not just mild dislike
• I’m kind of into a lot of stuff that’s hard to put into words so here’s some media that I enjoy: Hannibal, Fear & Hunger (Termina especially), Darkest Dungeons, Dexter, the Mafia trilogy, LA Noire, Pathologic, Disco Elysium, Dishonored, any film bro movie, Fallout New Vegas, Bioshock, are just a couple to name a few
• P.S PLEASE CHECK COMMENTS TO SEE WHAT TYPE OF CHARACTERS I WRITE!!! Not a lot of people are very interested in my kinds of characters so yeah. Also, this sub kept on tagging it when I tried to add the link so that’s why they’re in the comments

That’s about all from me, sorry for being so lengthy. If you made it this far PLEASE give me an introduction about yourself (like name and age for starters) and anything we clicked on. Thanks for making my summer and hopefully the future less boring!

Chapter 2. (Dracula)
Nine Hundred years later deep deep far in the the Shadow Forest a place called Castlevania in the black castles the kings chambers a beautiful black haired blue eyed woman named Isabell Bolton was travailing in pain as she was giving birth to her first born child, the queens maid that was there helping deliver the baby held the little child cleaned him up and wrapped him in the blanket.
“Is the Baby ok Sara?” Isabell asked very exhausted.
“Yes it’s a boy!” Sara said very excited as she gave the mother her baby.
“He’s So Handsome. Luther come quick see our boy!” Isabell said with glee.
King Luther Bolton came in and grabbed his son hugged him.
“My boy Oh my baby boy.” King Luther said very happily.
Suddenly a dark and evil witch named Festus appeared in the room with them she was pure evil.
“Oh! what do we have here aww how sweet the Dark One was finally born He will be called Dracula he will be a terror of this world he will be known all over the nation and he shall live till the end of time his power will come on his thirtieth birthday when he drinks from the cup of Shalom that’s full of blood of the wolfs tears no one will stop his destiny he is a warrior of Econdire!” The witch said with a wicked evil laugh.
King Luther drew his blade and pointed it to her as he gave the baby back to the mother.
“You will not take my child and he will not become what you said!!! You will die this night!” King Luther shouted as he charged at the witch. She disappeared as King Luther swung his blade.
“Hahahaha you can’t kill me mortal and you can’t change what is to come I’m just here to warn you if you don’t want that to happen then you must kill the baby you can change prophecy Luther Bolton! Or seek out the skull face man named Slaygar he will gladly take the child and the Prophecy will not come true! Or should I say. “Your Majesty” hahahaha! Oh Luther. Ten years from now on a day before your wife gives birth to Your fourth son you will die and Dracula will be crowned King then time will count down. Hahahahahaha!!!” Festus said laughing as she disappeared out from a window in black smoke. Luther ran to the the window she disappeared from then she went to his wife who was weeping and crying out of fear
“Honey shush it’s ok!” King Luther said as he looked with worry and concern out the window.
“We’er not calling him Dracula we’er not his name is Gabriel Luther Bolton!” Isabell said sternly. “He will be a beacon of Hope.” Isabell said smiling.
“Yes That’s Beautiful, Gabriel. I like that name. Gabriel.” King Luther said in his thoughts he was worried about the prophecy.
Years passed and Gabriel had three more brothers Drakeul, Nathen, and Samuel, Then his father got sick Gabriel was ten years old and he was trying everything he could to heal his father he was a mage a healer and he put all his herbs and couldn’t stop his father infection nor could he keep him from getting sicker. He was only able to take the pain away for a wile. But King Luther got worse and worse. The King grabbed Gabriel by the arm as he coughed and said.
“We got to get you better father I....” Gabriel said his voice shaken as he was interrupted.
“Gabriel listen it’s over there’s nothing more you can do. I feel my body shutting down before I go...” King Luther said as he winced in pain.
“No Father!” Gabriel said weeping.
“Shush! Gabriel be strong for your mother and your brothers she’s in labor now so you got to be Strong your a good man and you be a good king but I got to tell you something and you got to fight for what’s right no matter what! Your hear me son?” King Luther said as he was feeling weaker and weaker.
“Yes sir.” Gabriel said as he straightened his shoulders.
“Ten years ago when you was born a evil witch came and told us that you was the Dark One and you was to be the terror of the world til the end of time and you had a different name but I’m not at all going to speak that name and she said you was to be the warrior of Evondire.” King Luther said as he looked a his handsome boy and he smiled at him.
“Econdire? The evil prince?” Gabriel asked confused.
“Yes son and....” Luther told him all what had happened even to the point where they searched for the good witches mages sorcerers and wizards.
“They said Love is the first thing that change this fate and they said have more children as many as possible before My death and to surround you with Love and train you to be the best of yourself that love and good will overcome evil.” King Luther said as he tried hard to make sure His son knew to not loose his Live for others and those who loves him.
Gabriel looked at his father he didn’t know what to say but he swallowed and said.
Gabriel: I will live to the best of my ability to Love and be good to all.
“Good now go be with your mother and the child they need you...” King Luther didn’t finish his statement when he took his last breath and he left this world.
“Father! Father! No Father come back! Father!!!” Gabriel shouted and wept over his dead father.
King Luther died, Gabriel put his head on his fathers chest and wept the tears fell from his face on to his fathers chest. One of the Priests of Shalom walked up his name was Dagon Gibbs.
“My son he’s gone hey come here hush now.” The Priest Gibbs said with comfort.
“Bring him back Father Gibbs! Bring him Back!” Gabriel shouted still crying.
“Hush now I can’t do that I’m not God my son. I’m sorry for your loss I will prepare his ceremony but you mother gave birth to a son you need to go to her. Your coronation to be Crowned King after the ceremony of your father’s funeral. Life must go on Prince Gabriel you have a lot of priorities and obligations that Have to be done be strong Prince Gabriel.” Priest Gibbs said with a comforting voice.
Gabriel walked to the room his mother was and heard the cry of the baby he opened the doors to see his smiling mom holding her baby boy her blue eyes sparkled. She saw her firstborn and her smile faded. She then said to Gabriel.
“Gabriel come see your baby brother! I named him Logan!” Isabell said as she noticed the look on Gabriel’s face.
Gabriel held his baby brother.
“He’s so handsome and healthy, Luther would be so so happy.” Isabell said as she put her hand on Gabriel’s shoulder.
Gabriel looked at his mother and the tears fell from his eyes as well as his mothers.
“I know he be in here if he wasn’t gone but he is I know it. It was prophesied by that witch.” Isabell said as her voice shook with grief.
Gabriel put his head down.
“Oh I know baby you tried your best but his time was up sweetie. We talked long about this. I can’t grieve now you got to be ready for what’s come Gabriel.” Isabell said with sadness.
She began to weep, as she held Gabriel close to her. Gabriel gave the baby to Drakeul and hugged his mother as they wept for her for their loss. They had the beautiful ceremony for King Luther they buried him in a tomb under the castle.
Seventeen years passed the palace grew and the people where happy everything looked great Gabriel had a beautiful women they got married his it was so beautiful they had two sons identical twins Trevor and Alucard.
The year started off wonderful but then an man named John Bayn a wicked king from the deepest part north he was full of rage and sought nothing but power he attacked Transylvania and declared war against Gabriel, the king caused Gabriel to loose his source for food and he cut his supply of water king Bayn got some men inside Gabriel’s city who turned some of the people against Gabriel.
“Gabriel my brother what is your plan we have to do something we have to fight against these basters or we going to loose the city!” Drakeul said as he looked at his brother who was now king.
“Easy Drakeul getting angry at the King won’t fix this.” Samuel said as he grinned.
“He has a point Samuel we got to do something!” Nathen said to them both.
Gabriel turned around and looked at his brothers.
“Tonight we will gather the most faithful soldiers and we will attack and kill that king. I will not loose my city I will destroy my enemy!” Gabriel said with determination.
The Priest Gibbs walked up to the war table And looked at King Gabriel.
“Your Majesty. Think before you act I pray you. I dreamed of you last night, you was dark cold bitter your eyes were as red as the blood I seen you drink from the cup of Holy water from Shalom’s Temple but it was filled with blood blood that came from the Wolf’s tears you must not give in to this anger it take you far then you want to go.” Priest Gibbs Said with a Urgency and a warning.
Gabriel looked at the Priest as did everyone in the room.
“King Gabriel I beg you sir be patient don’t go wait the Lord will make away and give you Victory! Please Your Majesty stay they will come to you and the witches prophecy won’t come to pass! If you go out there, My King. The curse will happen three years early then what was told!” The Priest Gibbs said again with Urgency.
“Father Gibbs. I will not give into a witches curse I will not let a curse stop me from protecting my people I will do what has to be done and show them I am not to be played with they will know not to come against me! Like they knew not to come against my father.” King Gabriel said as he began to give out his plan.
“My King...” The Priest Gibbs said as he put his hand on King Gabriel’s shoulder.
“No Father Gibbs! They killed your son today! It stops now!” King Gabriel said as he gently put his hands on the Priest Cheek. “I will not give in to the Curse I will hold on to my Love for others and the Love y’all have for me” King Gabriel said as him and his knights went out the war room.
The Priest swallowed hard, tears fell from his eyes he didn’t know he lost his son last he spoke he sent him to the market to get bread.
“How...” He asked his voice shaky.
King Gabriel turned and looked at the Priest “They skinned him alive and put him on a spike right out the gate I’m sorry we took him down and took him to his chambers.”
Tears fell down his cheeks he walked towards Gabriel. One of the knights put their hand on the Priest shoulder to push him back, the king lift his hand stopping the knight, Gabriel walked to the Priest. The Priest put both his hands on Gabriel’s cheeks.
“Gabriel please I beg you my son is dead please heed my warning don’t make me loose another son. Listen to me don’t go out there bad things will take place that will hurt you in a way that you will curse the Lord in His temple! Please Gabriel hear me.”
Gabriel hugged the old priest as he wept over the lost of his son, not knowing that the old man was weeping over him that night was the last night of Gabriel would be a human king but Gabriel didn’t realize that the Lord himself was trying to talk through Gibbs and Gibbs was weeping because he knew Gabriel would not take heed to his warning.
Later that day just before the king and his twelve knights were going to fight for their land he kissed his wife Hope, and his two sons Trevor and Alucard.
“Here Sweet Husband.” Queen Hope Said with a sweetness in her voice.
She put a letter in his hand.
“I will be waiting their.” Hope said with love in her voice.
“Ok I’ll meet you and the kids there.” King Gabriel answered as he smiled at his beautiful wife.
Logan came running up.
“Brother!” The Prince Logan shouted.
“Logan what are you doing?” King Gabriel asked seeing Logan was decked in armor.
“Let me fight I can fight!” Logan asked determined to fight.
“No Logan you must stay here!” Gabriel demanded.
“But Brother I can fight I’m not a child I’m seventeen! I killed a Lion and stopped a thief and kept several prisoners from escaping! Please let me fight for our kingdom!” Logan asked with hope in his eyes.
“I know! What you been doing it has not been unnoticed. That’s why I need you here protect my wife and kids stay with them ok! Please Logan do this for me brother.” Gabriel said as he walked passed Logan. Logan didn’t like it but he nodded and went and stood by Hope.
They walked out the city Drakeul, Nathen, and Samuel walked side by side with their king brother Gabriel tonight was the night for Victory! The 12 Knights walked behind them as well as fifteen thousand of the faithful soldiers.
The war began the fight was harsh side by side the Bolton brother’s fault side by side and backed to back fighting the enemies as well as the twelve knights who was protecting them they fault and killed many, then faced the face King Gabriel and King Bayn began to fight each other it was a hideous battle Gabriel took a lot of wounds but before it was over King Bayn was on his knees.
“You Won but I have brothers and friends they come and avenge me! You will not stand! Your own people don’t even trust your leadership! Hahaha!” King Bayn taunted.
Gabriel swung his sword cutting Bayns head off, he picked up Bayns Crown and handed it to a red haired knight named Andrew Archer, who seemed to loose his helmet during the battle.
“Take this that will be one of my trophies.” King Gabriel said as he handed the crown to the red haired knight.
The Red head Knight Spoke.
“What about the rest any prisoners?” Andrew asked with concern.
Gabriel looked at the village that was still burning and relived walking through and seeing again what they did to those poor people. He looked at Andrew and said very coldly.
“We will show no mercy they all will die but slow I will hang them on a spike and point the towards the village they destroyed and the people they murdered so they see why they are dying so painfully!” Gabriel said with anger in his eyes. Andrew Swallowed hard and they all did as they were told and they left back to the city the screaming and pleads for mercy echoed in their ears.
Back at the castle of Transylvania a war broke out Gabriel’s soldiers was fighting for their lives against some other soldiers who was turned by the King Bayns men. Hope Trevor and Alucard was in the Temple of Shalom and the Logan was fighting to protect them Hope was a Mage she used her magic to destroy the last few guards that turned against her, she looked at Logan.
“Logan You Ben and Cole take my Sons and go!!! Go Now!!! Keep them safe!” Hope said scared for their lives.
“I can’t just Leave you!” Logan shouted.
“You must Logan protect my babies please!” Hope said with urgency.
Logan Ben and Cole took Trevor and Alucard and ran them out of the city they got on their horses and headed south. Gabriel came and saw what was going on they went and fought killing every betrayer and every last one of Bayns men. Then Gabriel remembered the note and ran to the temple and when he Got there he saw the Priest Gibbs knelt down by Hope her stomach was carved into with a knife her hands cut off her throat slit. Gabriel fell beside her.
“NO!!!! MY BABY!!!! HOPE!!!! NOOO!” King Gabriel shouted tears falling downs his cheeks as he wept. He stood up anger and raged filled him he cursed cursed the temple and the wolves he cursed everything that the temple represented and he pointed at the Priest and yelled!
“THIS IS YOUR FAULT!!!!” King Gabriel shouted in anger tears screaming down his cheeks falling to the floor.
He cursed the priest. All the 12 knights stood around him his brothers got between him and the Priest.
“Gabriel! What are you doing! It’s not his fault!” Drakeul said trying to get Gabriel under control.
“Gabriel calm down you.... Oh My God!” Samuel said as his mouth dropped open his eyes widen.
Gabriel turn to see what everyone was looking at and saw the statue of the Wolf of Shalom from its eyes were tears of blood that dropped into the Holy Water cup. Gabriel was then immediately A trance he walked to the cup.
“NO!!! STOP HIM DONT LET HIM DRINK FROM THE CUP!!!” The Priest Gibbs said with urgency.
His brothers ran to him and pulled on him he sent them flying back with a wave of his hand.
“That ain’t no magic I ever seen.” Nathen said his eyes widen and his voice shaken with fear.
Gabriel picked the cup which was full of blood and began to drink it the priest and Drakeul yelled!
Drakeul and Priest Gibbs Shouted as One. “GABRIEL!!! NOOO!!!
Gabriel drunk the cup all of the blood in the cup then the curse happened but three years early. Gabriel yelled as his body changed and his face went pale and fangs grew in his mouth and his eyes went from a beautiful blue to crimson red.
Then the Angel of the Lord appeared and said. “My name is Gabriel I am the Messenger of the Lord you have defiled this temple of the Lord and you cursed the God that created you and came against the church of the most high God you our forever cursed to walk this earth as a monster til the end of time you will bring fear and terror....”
The Angel stopped when Drakeul walked up to him, Drakeul look the Angel in the eye fear filled him he trembling knelt down grabbed the Angel by his feet he felt the Archangels Power he spoke his voice shaky.
“Please I inquire a audience with the Lord!” Drakeul asked shaking.
“You cannot see the Lord you will not survive.” The Angel Gabriel said.
“Then please tell him applaud him to have mercy no he didn’t show mercy and he did the most worse thing but please I beg you don’t let him be damned take me instead give him another chance! Please don’t let him be damned!” Drakeul pleaded with him and his brothers salvation.
Drakeul began to weep at the Angels feet, The Archangel looked at Drakeul was a little fascinated how he a soldier who Stern and cold would be weeping over his brother who did such terrible deed. Then the Lord Spoke to the Angel.
“Gabriel Bolton will still be cursed but there is away that he can redeem himself but he will have to find it but he is forever bound from the temple of the Lord until he redeems himself and only you Brothers can help him find the boy that can change him the boy must become Him and he must become the boy and the certain deeds must be done, only then shall the spirit of your Brother be redeemed however the curse of Your Brother will be on a innocent Christian who will battle to redeem the Spirit of Dracula. Your brother Gabriel’s name will change this day he will be known as Dracula the rest of this worlds time! You will share his curse soon and help him walk the right path.
The brothers looked at each other confused.
The Angel looked at the twelve knights.
“From this day till the end y’all are the wolves of Shalom there shall be many of warrior wolves through y’all and y’all will fight against Dracula and all that becomes as he is that choose evil over good and there will come a time where Vampires and Werewolves will join together to fight an even. Greater foe an evil that has been locked away. There will rise a dark mage who will set the dark lord free and become the dark lord this will be the road that may redeem Dracula. But as of now your fight is to get and keep Dracula out of the temple this day!” The Angel of the demanded.
The twelve Knights became Werewolves the first ever to walk on earth. The Angel looked at Gabriel.
“Take him Out!” The Angel commanded. Then he disappeared!
Gabriel attacked the Werewolves and the fight was extremely hideous the werewolves gave a beating but each place they clawed open healed instantly, Gabriel beat them till the turn back in human form his blood was ragging but the. The power hit them and they arose again as the werewolves and begin to drive him out of the temple.
As Gabriel taught them he saw himself in a mirror the monster he became the crimson red eyes sharp fangs pale face the sharp claw like finger nails and at that moment he saw what he done and he saw what he did to the knights and as he saw them in wolf form walking towards him wounded even but still coming he didn’t want to hurt them they were his men his people and he was hurting them and he defiled the Lords Temple. He ran out the temple his brothers followed him.
“Gabriel! Gabriel! Drakeul Shouted.
He turned around quickly he put his hand around his brothers shoulder and with that same hand lifted him off the ground like he was paper without the help of his other hand.
“My Name Is not Gabriel!!! I am Dracula!” Dracula shouted. Gabriel Bolton was no more.
He threw his brother into his other brothers Nathen and Samuel caught Drakeul and the impact knocked them three feet back they pulled themselves up off the ground and they saw his face pale as the dead his eyes which used to be beautiful blue was now bloody red, he spoke again.
“My name is Dracula every King every army will never dare to attack my country or my family I will crush them and they will know the meaning of fear!!!” Dracula shouted crazily.
Dracula said his blood boiling hot as things were transitioning in his body.
And so the prophecy was fulfilled but three years before the time. And so fear filled the land the terror of Dracula spread through each city of Transylvania and Castlevania where Dracula’s Castle was the place which was beautiful and full of light was now darkened and full of fear.
Three days later at the docks of Dragons Bridge Logan asked Ben and Cole to take his little nephews to a safe place he was going back to his brothers to help fight.
“Logan! Are you crazy man Hope asked you to get Alucard and Trevor to safety man come on with us.” Cole said with concern for Logan.
“Yea man we’re young we got to get to Safety” Ben said.
“I must go back make sure it’s safe and send for y’all. And no y’all can’t come with me y’all thirteen and fourteen” Logan said sharply.
“No I’m fifteen Logan and you need to come with us man” Ben shouted at Logan.
Cole: And I’m two days from Sixteen. And your not seventeen yet your three days from seventeen and Hope asked you to save her nephews!
“I know y’all keep them safe now please go! I will not hear anymore.” Logan said as he turned from them.
And with that Logan turns away from them in the boat and went off towards home with his friends calling for him to come back and to not be stupid, but Logan kept on walking. Ben spoke.
“Come on Cole he’s not gonna listen to us.” Ben shouted angrily.
They set out for the other side which lead to a country called Albion and to a city called Camelot where King Constantine Pendragon III ruled and Uther Pendragon was a young mighty Prince who had a Amethyst who used a spell to keep him young for a thousand years. The children would be safe there the Ben and Cole thought.
As for Logan three days passed it was his birthday he turned seventeen and he was not happy for the things he was seeing and home the enemy that attacked the city was outside the gate dead hanging from a spike he heard on of them groan he drew his sword and thrust it through the dying mans heart to end his suffering he heard more, and saw a whole line of them he went by killing them ending their suffering. Dracula stood in front of his brothers and spoke.
“No one will dare to attack me now unless they want to die which I’m more then happy to oblige, brothers with this power we’re unstoppable I can give you this gift and you can be stronger.”Dracula said to his brothers. Drakeul Samuel and Nathen couldn’t believe what they were hearing from there Brother. “Was Gabriel really gone.” They both thought. Drakeul walk up to his Brother.
“Brother! Listen to yourself this is insane! look at you! this ain’t no gift it’s a curse! The Father Shalom Cursed you made you this monster, I will not become this thing you are!” Drakeul shouted out. Dracula looked at his brother with a elite shock look the laughed mockingly
“O dear Brother you actually think I’m giving you a choice that’s rather cute.” Dracula Taunted.
In a flash he grabbed his brother he moved faster then lighting he but Drakeuls neck and began to suck his blood Drakeul went limp almost dead Dracula bit his wrist and let the blood poured down to Drakeuls lips then Drakeul died. Samuel turn to run as did Nathen out the door, Dracula flicked his hand and the door slammed shut in his face Dracula grabbed him and done the same thing to Samuel as he did Drakeul. And Nathen tried to fight Dracula but failed and suffered the same fate. Dracula took a red towel and wiped his mouth and turned around to see Logan looking straight at him fear hit him hard he watched his brother suck the blood from his other two brothers.
“Gabriel what....” Logan said scared and shaken over what he saw.
“Hush now Logan they be back and my name is no longer Gabriel it’s Dracula I am a Vampire”Dracula said with a soft a soothing voice. He was hoping to calm his baby brother.
“What Happened to you what did you do what did you become? This isn’t right Gabriel it’s not right!” Logan said still scared and shaken he never seen something like this before.
“It’s a gift Logan and I can give it to you and you never be weak again!” Dracula said trying to tempt him.
“No!!! Your a Monster this is a curse you are not my brother I don’t want your gift!” Logan shouted.
Logan turned and walked outside straight into Dracula’s arms. Fear jumped in Logan’s chest his heart started beating very fast. Dracula embraced him with a loving hug put his cheek to his brothers in a gentle hug.
“Easy baby brother I hear your heart beating way too fast trust me you be way stronger.” Dracula said as he pulled Logan back in the door and closed it then he tilted Logan’s head to the side and he bit his neck as Logan screamed.
“NOOO! BROTHER!!!! NOOO! PLEASE!!!! NOOO!” Logan screamed.
Logan died with the blood of Dracula running through his vainest and Dracula’s blood was very powerful. Dracula put his brothers in three tombs and closed them up and said. “In Three days they will be reborn more powerful then before.”
Three knights past and Dracula’s brothers came out of their tombs.
“I refuse to be evil!” Logan Shouted.
His eyes red as blood face pale white he looks like his brothers as they all looked like Dracula.
“We all refuse to be evil!” Drakeul said.
“Lets remove ourselves from this Kingdom of Dracula!” Nathen said.
“I Agree!” Samuel said.
Suddenly The Angel of the Lord appeared it was the Angel Gabriel again.
“No harm can be done to Dracula. Like you he is immortal and will forever be so as for you friends your decisions and Trevor and Alucards decisions will be the results of Dracula’s salvation or his soul forever damned. Now go you are the Guardians of Shalom save the world from your brothers wrath and hunger and save your brother.” The Angel Gabriel said. Then the Angel disappeared Logan up looked and said to his Brothers.
“Y’all go I’m going to Dracula!” Logan said as he walked to the Throne Room of Dracula.
“Little brother you can’t.” Samuel said with concern.
“Yes I have to!” Logan replied.
Logan went out to find his brother. He found his brother in the Castle sitting on his throne with a golden cup full of fresh blood.
“Logan! How’s my baby brother? You looking handsome.” Dracula asked.
“Dracula I will not follow you I will not be evil...” Logan snapped.
“Brother I’m not evil! I did what I had to do!...” Dracula interrupted and said as Logan interrupted him saying.
“Shut up Brother look at yourself look what you become look at the hideous mess you done at front gate half of them was still alive! No brother there’s nothing you can say or do to get me to follow you! You can burn in Harcarsh with the devil! But as long as I can breath you never see your children again.” Logan shouted at Dracula. Logan walked out the door and flew like lightning towards Albion and to the city Camelot he was going to do all he could to make sure those baby boys never be in reach of Dracula.
Ben and Cole made it into Albion and got off at the docks in at a small village of Noplend. No sooner then they showed up Dracula walked the land. Cole was looking at the beautiful land, Ben spoke.
“Cole this is so beautiful!” Ben said
“Yes it is!” Cole replied.
“So glad to see my little brothers friends are keeping my two boys safe.” Dracula said behind them.
They both turned around and saw their King they heard the rumors that spread about the good Great King Gabriel turned to an evil monster known as Dracula, when they saw him fear hit them their kings face was Pale white hair to his shoulders his eyes bloody red his fingernails were like claws and talons.
“My King Gabriel...” Cole said shaken as he tried to bow.
“Stop! My name is Dracula! You two kept my children alive for that I’m grateful but Logan will soon join you and I must show him something when he finds you you be dead and the message will be clear of what I can do, and when you come back as the same as he is he realize I could have kept you both dead!”
In a flash he rushed at Ben but His neck drained his blood and gave him his blood forcing him to swallow it then he broke his neck. Cole seen what happen drew his sword and attacked Dracula yelling at him for killing his best friend. Dracula drew his sword blocking Coles blade and he played with Cole speaking to him as each time the blades met.
“Cole don’t take it personal boy, it has to be this way.” Dracula said to him.
“You killed my Brother.” Cole shouted in anger trying to kill his King that looked like a monster with his red eyes and sharp fangs showing as Dracula started laughing.
“And your next it has to be this way and o yes y’all thank me later.” Dracula said as he grabbed Cole.
“Do you hear your self Dracula or who ever you are now your killing your own!” Cory shouted scared.
Dracula thrust his sword into Coles chest and pulled it out, Cole dropped his sword and feeling the life drain drone him as he felt Dracula bite his neck and drink his blood, Cole pulled away fast Dracula held his weak body closer to him Cole was getting weaker by the second, Dracula bit his wrist and forced Cole to open his mouth and the blood poured in Cole spit it out and Dracula did it again and Cole tried to resist but Dracula covered his mouth with his hand Cole kicked and and tried to get away he died with Dracula’s blood in his mouth the blood went down his throat and spreading through his veins. Dracula heard his sons crying he went and picked them up.
“Hush now it’s ok they both be back watch them and watch Logan. Logan needs to learn you can’t take my sons from me and not get away with it.” Dracula said as he kissed both his sons before he disappeared in blood red smoke.
Logan came and saw what Dracula did to his friends he fell to his knees and wept.
“NOOO!!! NOOO!!!” Logan shouted crying.
He heard Cole gasp air and he rose up quickly as did Ben they both were now vampires their eyes bloody red as Dracula’s and Logan’s was.
“What NO! I’m sorry I’m so sorry this happened to you!” Logan said as he could feel a sharp pain in his heart. The pain was intense more then usual and it stayed it didn’t ease like it used to after awhile.
Dracula laughed.
“Well now sense everyone is up and doing good let’s have a talk about my children!” Dracula said still laughing.
“Brother why did you do this?!?” Logan shouted his tears dropping to the ground like rain.
“Because I can and you learn to love it! Now as for my sons you should know better then to try to keep my children away from me. Y’all will protect my children and y’all find a good family for them and let them be raised by a mother and father and you protect them. Yes I’m not crazy look at me I know I can’t raise my children alone don’t ever try to keep them away from me?” Dracula said stern and angrily.
“Take my kids to King Arther and Queen Guinevere make sure their safe.” Dracula demanded not knowing that Arther and Guinevere didn’t exist yet.
“Um King Gabriel...” Cole said his voice shaken.
Dracula looked at him with a cold glare.
“Dracula Sorry. Um their is no King Arther Or a Queen Guinevere.” Cole corrected himself and then said plainly.
Dracula put his head down confused he started having visions that morning and he was have more he shook his head again.
“Right King Constantine III Arther Pendragon is not born yet. Take my sons to Constantine.
“Dracula are you ok? Brother” Logan said. Despite the situation Logan still Loved Dracula and he could feel the love.
“Shut up and Go!!! Get my kids there!” Dracula shouted he could feel Logan’s love and it was a warmth to his cold heart and it hurt him cause all he could think about was Hope.
When the red smoke he disappeared from them. Logan covered his face and shook his head and looked at the children sleeping and he looked at his friends and said.
“Ben, Cole, I’m sorry I’m sorry he did this to you.” Logan said tears falling from his eyes.
“It’s ok Logan I feel good and strong better then I ever had. But we need to figure out what to do to keep Trevor and Alucard safe.” Ben said hoping to make Logan feel better.
“Your right well let’s go to Camelot.” Logan replied.
“I’m so thirsty. I... I want blood!” Cole said as he held his stomach.
Logan’s thirst hit him to as well as Bens.
“Logan the babies.” Ben said with concern.
A mage appeared he was old his hair and beard was long and white his name was Amorous.
“Logan Bolton Son of Luther Bolton the Vampire that will save Emyrs and Merlin and set them on their paths to their destiny.” Amorous said very happily.
Logan, Ben, and Cole, looked at the mage their mouth was open the smelt his blood and he looked like food to them. Amorous pulled out three big water bags that were full of blood.
“Here drink and get your strength there’s much you have to learn. And let’s get the little ones to a good home.” Amorous said as he gave them the blood to drink. Their long journey began.

So after asking this sub-reddit if I should get the game or not and getting lots of helpful replies, I got it! Some people asked if I could record what happened and commentate, but I don't have a good enough mic for that. Instead I'll post what I was thinking and attach the video. (turns out reddit doesn't like how large the video file was so I'll just have to share clips of the best moments in the future)
First off I explored around a bit and said hello to the local aliens. I noticed that when I fell too far or jumped into the ghosty stuff four eye shadows appeared on my screen, so I must be an alien too! I experimented with the scout launcher, so it shoots cameras? cool. Then I headed down into the zero g cave like I was told and experimented with how the jetpack suit works. I figured out that the observatory must be the big building with the telescope sticking out so I headed over there. I looked at some of the alien stuff like the statue and the writing, I wonder if they're going to involve humans in the story? that would be a cool fourth wall break. After looking at the gravity crystal and the angler fish I headed up the ramp and found a map! the solar system is really small and looks ready to be explored. Then I said hello to the alien who gave me the launch codes, and I headed back down the stairs. As I was about to leave, the statue that I saw before turned around and looked at me! It looked like it flashed everything that I had recently done in front of my eyes? that was weird. I head outside and find the alien who showed me the statue before and tell them all about it. They seem surprised and tell me to go talk with someone on another planet. I decide it would be quicker for me to jump down, but apparently I jumped too far. What a tragic ending to the game, right? But I'm back at the start? I tell the alien by the campfire what happened and now he thinks that I'm insane. At least I still have the launch codes.
I get into my spaceship and after a quick bit of exploration launch off into the sky. I fly around the planet and see a weird spiky thing in a crater, so I head down to look. Apparently it's some sort of seed? I shoot my scout into like I was told and it seems to fall for ages. Also music is coming out if it? After a few shots I manage to get a view of a campfire... inside of the seed? maybe that's the music that I'm picking up! Maybe there's somebody lost in there! I decide to leave the planet and explore the solar system. I fly up to the sun and notice two twin planets. I try to catch up but unfortunately my piloting skills aren't up to it. I drift off and look at my map, I'm heading in the direction of the spooky place. Might as well go visit it. I fly up to it and bump my ship a bit too hard, best repair that before heading on. I explore the planet a bit and space seems... funky to say the least. Things seems to grow the closer I get and I follow some red lights into the fog. Turns out the lights were angler fish, duh. I get swallowed by the largest angler fish I've ever seen and get sent back to the start. I'm so lucky I'm in a loop of some sort.
Let me know if you liked this, because if I write more of these entirely depends on how you guys respond. So far the game seems fun and I can't wait to explore more!

Hello Ladies Gents and everything in between! I hope you all are having a lovely evening! My name is Jay(21F), I have been playing DND for around 11 years now (Ya I was corrupted young). I started DMing around 5 years ago and haven't looked back since. I currently run a campaign and we play that one on both Friday and Saturday from 6 pm to 10 pm.
Info
1: I already have one person who will be playing in this campaign. We would prefer a later session but can move the time around a bit. We aim to have sessions that run 4 hours at the least, but if everyone is free and wants to keep going, then we are game!
2: The campaign that will be run will be more free-range and sandbox-like. Meaning there is no main questline. The party will meet in some way and will travel together picking up quests and exploring the world to its fullest! This style of campaign can go on for as long as the players want and allows for freedom to do anything you want! From kingdom-making to being the villains!
3: Everyone is welcome! We don't turn anyone away! No matter how new you are or what you identify as you are welcome to apply! Everyone will be looked at equally!
4: Homebrew Rules And World! We don't follow the book like it's law! Where is the fun in that? So you are welcome to use homebrew content but It needs to be run by me first! I don't want any OP characters so I got to read and approve it before you use it!
5: Roleplay Heavy! I'm a sucker for roleplay I won't lie! My campaigns are roleplay-based BUT since this is an open-world campaign you all are welcome to fight your way through whatever you want just know you can almost always try and talk your way out of it!
6: We use Discord and roll20! We use Discord for any pictures or info I may send and many other things and roll20 for maps, character sheets, and rolling. We don't use video chat BUT we do use Voice!
7: We have dogs! I know this is random but that means there are chances for a stray bark to go through. It's just a warning as some get upset by it so before you decide to apply just know we have dogs!
Campaign Plot There are two options for plots and based on who is picked and what the preferred world is will determine which one it will be! You'll get to pick between the two or pick either in the application.
Into The Unknown
“Denus”, is a city that sits in what is believed to be the center of a forest called “Rajani” meaning darkness. A city of around 50,000 people, they all follow Lord Omi a high elf who has been in power for as long as anyone can remember. No one has ever questioned him accepting that they needed a leader at some point and crime was at an all-time low due to the harsh punishments.
The wost is banishment, while normally Lord Omi forbids anyone from entering unless they are told to. The body of the person who had been banished would either appear on the edge of the forest where they had entered a few days later half eaten or would never return. People feared this, not knowing what was killing them. However, when Pentrla and Will two half-elfs who had been banished nearly 50 years ago were found on the edge of the found on the edge of the forest in perfect health people became confused but curious.
Many wanted to travel into the forest in hopes of freedom, in hopes of something more. However. Lord Omi forbade it setting guards up around the edge of the forest and setting a curfew stating he wants to keep his people safe. People tired of getting banished and when he caught onto this he changed the punishment people began to give up hope.
That was all 50 years ago and many speak as if it was a myth or a fairy tale.
The Frontier
“In the past, that is now lost forever, there was a time when the land was sacred and the ancient ones were as one with it. A time when only the children of the great spirit were here, to light their fires in these places with no boundaries, when the forest were as thick as the fur of the winter bear, and when a warrior could walk from horizon to horizon on the backs of the buffalo. And that time when there were only simple ways, I saw with my heart the conflicts to come, and whether it would be for good or bad, there was one thing certain; there would be change.”
This is a wild west, a land of adventure and time for romance, Cowboys/cowgirls roam the plains driving cattle. Gamblers and prostitutes profit from boom towns that rise and fall nearly overnight. Salesmen peddle their wares, while lawmen try their best to keep the peace - yet it scarcely takes more than a stolen horse or a bad hand of poker to put bodies in the ground.
Other about this Prompt
Renames thing:
Wizards are called Magicians, Warlocks are called Contractors, Clerics are called missionaries(might change to peachers), Druids are called Shamans, Rouges are called Outlaws, and Homebrews will be renamed to be more fitting as well.
Potions = Tonics
Other:
Everyone will start with a basic horse.
You will have a reputation that can be affected by a party member
New things added:
Hunting/skinning
Possibilities:
Magic guns for spell casting focus instead of wands and staves.
Magic could just be removed altogether depending on if we want to lean more into a more gun-heavy western instead of a reskinned DND.
Weapon list and eventually weapon upgrades (depends on above)
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Hi there! With uni work not bogging me down now, I’ve got a lot of free time to fill up lately! Naturally, that has my muse for writing at the highest it’s been in a long while. As you could probably tell by the title, I’m looking for some fantasy and/or medieval roleplays!
I’m personally only comfortable writing with people over the age of eighteen, no matter the nature of any plots. When it comes to activity, I can admittedly be sporadic. Sometimes I’ll be available all day/night for writing, and sometimes it might take me a day or two to get to our thread. Third person & past tense is my preferred style, with at least two paragraphs per post- even though I tend to write a lot more depending on the scene. While I write primarily on discord, I’m also not opposed to sticking to reddit pms depending on which you’d prefer!
As far as a setting goes, I’ll admit that I’m not much of a world builder. I tend to prefer pre-existing worlds (Forgotten Realms, Westeros, Ebberon, etc) or a vague original setting that we make together. Or, if you have one, I’m definitely open to using a world of your own! I’m entirely flexible with details, whether we want a grim or more lighthearted sort of land, or even something in between. I’m also not picky when it comes to magic level, whether we want high, medium, low, or even nonexistent. When it comes to races and ‘classes,’ I tend to refer to standard d&d options. But that’s hardly set in stone or required!
For characters, I’m also really flexible! Whether we want to play one main character each or have a complete party to manage, I’ll have no complaints. When it comes to dynamics, there are very few that I don’t enjoy. Romantic, familial, antagonistic, or just friendly are all definitely on the table. If you’re like me and also like ttrpgs, we could also incorporate dice rolling and character sheets- but only if you want to!
Right now I’m mostly interesting in playing something out with either an adventuring party or some political intrigue. Give me traveling companions all stuck together trying to accomplish a common goal. Give me two nobles forced to marry despite despising each other. Give me a succession battle with two loves on opposite sides. I’ve got plenty of ideas! I also have a lot of characters in mind that I’d be happy to share.
I think that’s about it! Please feel free to message me! No need to ask permission in comments, all are welcome 🤍

Trigger Warning: Mention of suicide, TL;DR at the end.
Hello everyone, I (22m) have a friend (20nb) from college who I've been messaging frequently in the past week, especially since my mood has become elevated (which may be either due to my mood disorder or increase in antidepressant dosage). I've been sending them nice messages everyday, but I fear that it's not enough or that it may be too much.
Lately they've been mentioning about how they feel burnt out from college and don't like being with other students because they feel alienated by them and felt betrayed because they used to have other friends. But 2 weeks ago during a college break, they suddenly went silent on me for several days, and after that said that they've been only talking with their long-distance partner (21b) because that's who they're comfortable with.
Last week, they came to college and I was with them most of the time and they often seemed sad and tired, but they didn't say anything bad about me and even invited me to go outside to a cafe with them for a while. A day later, I attempted suicide due to some argument I had with my family which is a complete other story, but long story short they called me that time and I reconsidered and stopped my suicide attempt thanks to their kind words.
The day after that, we met on college again and while they said they're ok with me, they said that they had to go home immediately so I just respected that and let them. There was a field trip on the next day, but I didn't attend due to a death anniversary and I wanted some time to reflect on and heal from my attempt. I let them know they can text me during the field trip but they didn't really text much aside from saying they feel tired and overwhelmed and want to go home.
We were supposed to call when they got home but we didn't get to and on the next day they said the passed out. In the last several days, I tend to ask them how they're doing but they usually reply very late, saying that they're sorry cause they've been sleeping a lot. I suggested that they might be severely depressed but that it's a treatable condition, but refused, saying that they're not depressed because they don't want to overthink things. I asked them if they're taking their prescribed medication since they have a psychiatrist, and they indirectly answered by saying that they're taking their anxiety medication. When I asked them if they have medication for depression, they said they're not depressed and the conversation stopped there because I didn't want to argue.
It's been like this for several days, and what's worse is that their long-distance partner has been busy lately due to family matters and hasn't been responding much either, only replying every several hour intervals. I'm really worried about my friend and I don't want to lose them. Should I contact their family so they can help them out somehow? I also told my friend to contact their psychiatrist but they said that their next appointment is on June 1.
I've talked about this with another friend but they told me not to contact the family unless I'm sure because the family might be causing the problem and potentially abusing my friend, and while I don't know much about their family, I don't know much evidence to suggest this either. Should I contact them anyways? I know I can contact them through Facebook, but it would be my first time directly messaging them.
TL;DR: My friend has been telling me that they feel tired, sad, and overwhelmed, but refuse the possibility of being depressed to avoid overthinking. Recently, they don't talk to me as often and say they're sleeping most of the time. I'm worried about them and want to get them help before it worsens. What should I do? Should I contact the family they live with? Ask them about their psychiatrist?

https://lighterpack.com/sfwtun
My friend added a lot of the stuff in the lighterpack and is the culprit for some of the silly descriptions.
My first multi-day hike! 7 days on the west coast trail. I feel like I cheated a little bit by counting my fanny pack and it's contents as "worn weight" but seeing it bring me below 20lbs made me feel better haha...
Me: I'm a 5'6, 188lbs female who works on her feet all day, cycles to work (20m) and hikes every weekend and at least walks (sometimes hikes) every day. I'm active but overweight (love food!!!) so I'm a bit nervous here.
I'm not very experienced to be honest, I've just started to getting into outdoorsy stuff in the last few years. I live on the island so I'm pretty experienced with the terrain here and hike a couple times a week but only 5km-10km. My first big trip was a 14 day cycle tour in oregon/washington. I got the tent because it's the bigger version of the tent I got for my cycle tour and I really enjoyed it despite it being pretty narrow. I'll maybe upgrade to a fancy cottage brand hiking pole tent another day as I'm leaving for my trip in 10 hours.
My main focus is trying to stay dry and warm at camp as we are expecting rain for the first 3 days. I nixed a couple meals to adjust for the Crabshack and not having a full day on the last day. I have a half fuel canister I can bring but I'm not certain of exactly how much is in it, I don't expect I'll need the entire extra can. My stakes and poles are being carried by my hiking partner.
Non-negotiables: Sandals, I practically get off on the feeling of taking my shoes off after a long day of hiking. I know the medkit can get slimmed down but I'm carrying it for me and my hiking partner and don't want to skimp in case either of us gets hurt.
Figured I could wake up and read any suggestions you folks had... Thanks!

6 months ago my boyfriend of one year left me. He said that he never really loved me and didn’t see a future with me, that he is a “window shopper” when it comes to dating. My codependency bothered him as an avoidant.
I took the breakup very hard, almost took my own life, and felt like a walking corpse for quite a while. Our relationship wasn’t ideal, he treated me horribly, none of my friends and family approved of it, but I loved him deeply and wanted to spend my life with him. My whole life was revolving around him, all of my hobbies and plans were built around his interests. So, when he so suddenly left, I felt empty and didn’t know what to do with myself.
Some time has passed now, I healed pretty well. I hang out with my friends again, I restarted all of the hobbies I abandoned while with him. Although my life is full of plans and events now, I still feel incredibly unfulfilled. Sometimes I still think of the good memories we had, and I want him to just come back as if nothing happened. However, now I also realize how horrible and narcissistic of a person he was, so perhaps I don’t miss him, but rather the feeling of being held, of having someone I can confine in, someone who can be there for me when I come home after a long day. I miss it terribly, and it makes me desperate for love.
I know that it’s not healthy, I have to be content in my own company, but I just feel so lonely without a partner. I tried looking for people, but the dating sites seem so artificial, and the people that surround me don’t seem attractive to me. Friendships just don’t do all of that for me, and as a demisexual person, I can’t even find a fwb without developing feelings that they don’t need. So all I have in the end is the feeling of emptiness that I keep trying to fill with new hobbies or friends. Has anyone else ever struggled with such a situation? I genuinely don’t even know what to do with myself anymore.

Hello.
I should clarify right away that I’m not asking for anyone to “type me”— yes, this post is asking for direction for my personal understanding, please, but ideally for the purpose of asking for information for me to reflect on…
Does the following resonate with the Superego/Compliant component of Enneagram…?

• I feel that I constantly have to be on my own case, watching and controlling my own behavior (specifically in a social context), because if I let loose, I fear I would be a monster; sort of like a “Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde” situation.
  
• If I make a mistake, I sort of panic, worrying about exposing myself to the very criticism I give myself internally from the environment, thus reinforcing said criticism’s existence.
  
• When someone compliments me on a quality I demonstrate, I worry about how long it will be until I suddenly “lose” this quality and end up disappointing them— for example, people tell me that I am very kind and helpful, which I value said input as I strive to embody said qualities, but it makes me worry if I will suddenly end up “mean” and thus disappoint them later on.
  
• I go through periods of time in which I question my personal values or “moral code” and I start to worry about the preservation of said “values”, so I write them down to make them tangible, so I have something to refer back to.
  
• If I feel I am around “bad influences”, such as people who regularly communicate meanly, vulgarly, I worry I would soak up their behaviors like a sponge and become like them, thus I refer to my tangibly written personal values again.
  

I acknowledge that it is very possible the things I described above are more pertinent to a mental health disorder, such as most likely OCD, but I still wanted to ask, please, if the things I bulleted tend to resonate with Compliant/Superego types?
Thanks in advance.

Hi. I’m writing this as I need help and advice. My bf and I have been together for 5 years. 2 years into our relationship, someone from his past contacted me accusing him of r4ping her.
In her series of texts to me, she states that he took advantage of her, & that it happened “while him and I were together, and that he had been trying to reach out to her on twitter in recent years.”
When I confronted him about this, his story was that they were friends who hung out regularly, and she also had hooked up with one of my bf’s friends/roommate. One night, she was desperate to hangout with him, and she insisted on coming over to which he eventually said ok. She brought a pack of beers, and was being more flirty with him than usual. She eventually came on to him very strongly, and took his hand and placed it on her private area. As things are happening, his roommate (the one she hooked up with) walks in and casually minded his business. They begin to hook up, and he asked her verbally for consent. He said it didn’t last long & was very short because he was tired from work. They stop, and fall asleep, and the in the next few days he doesn’t hear from her. She texts him days later accusing him of r4ping her. I saw the texts with my own eyes, and they went back and forth and my bf denied it all from the second she accused him. At some point in those texts she apologizes to him. (i believe he still has the texts.) My bf said she told him stories about her ex boyfriend and that he r4ped her, and the way she went about it was peculiarly similar to the way she was accusing him.
He allowed me to read through their strings of texts, and look through his twitter dms. I believed him because of his willingness to be transparent with me right away, and the inconsistencies in her accusations. She states it happened while him and I were together, but looking at his texts and the date/time stamps, they were from months and months before him and I began dating. There were no twitter dms to her, he had actually blocked her when this all went down and she accused him. And keeping in mind the fact that she had a very similar story to tell about her ex bf, and that he believed her character to be the type to try and ruin his relationship. She even said to me, “it really triggers me knowing he has a gf”.
When she reached out to me, I was only 21 at the time, and completely freaked out and blocked her right away, not responding to her. My bf reached out to one of his friends to ask for advice on how to proceed, & he took his advice to reach out to his accuser (looking back this is a terrible, terrible idea.) So he did, and he tells her she knows that it did not happen like that and he didnt do what she’s accusing of. Of course, she disagrees and that was the end of that conversation.
As years have passed, I’m not sure if its because I’m getting older, my anxiety has increased, or both, but this is on my mind frequently. Our relationship is amazing and has grown more serious, and if we’re working towards marriage, I’m living in fear that she will pursue trying to ruin our lives. I love him and believe him, but am aware of the world we live in. I haven’t heard from her since, she didn’t take legal action, but her words stick with me because I myself am a victim of SA. What can I do to move on from this, and should I advise him to seek legal counsel? I hate holding into this secret that no one knows except for him and I, and this sub is the only place I find comfort. I know its difficult being accused so I avoid bringing up my anxiety and fears to him.

My GC sister (27f) is emotionally manipulating me (25f) with her kids and guilt trips. I’m fine with all the help I’ve done for her as it was out of the kindness of my heart, but she always likes to throw things she’s done for me, back in my face, or tries to embarrass or confront me only in front of others even though we have been texting on several other social media accounts. The help I’ve given her can never be repaid, as I’ve given her money, time, and energy to raise her kids and get her out of a bind time and time again. I don’t want to be resentful as I saw a good quote about not being able to pay back debt. The thing is, I didn’t view it as a debt until she started acting like I’m shortchanging her, like I owe her something. I’ve never even gotten a thank you, but it wasn’t a big deal, but if she’s going to have a double standard I can only tally and count everything I’ve done for her is more than her husband has ever given her and they’ve been together for over 10 years. I get so angry I can’t even talk to her anymore. Normally I’m okay with all the comments on my clothes, hair, body, I am under a microscope when I visit. And on top of that, I don’t tell my whole family when I’m visiting as there is not enough time or energy for me to visit everyone in the day or two I randomly get to visit, she will tell EVERYONE that I came by. Like you’re making me look bad, you’re making our family upset, and you’re making me not want to visit or talk to you because you twist everything I say. Why do you keep doing stuff like that? Why isn’t there ever any respect for me? You always slander my name and now I just don’t care. I feel so much better now that we are VLC. She doesn’t really get it I guess tho because she keeps calling and texting me everyday even if I don’t respond. And the thing is we’ve NEVER be close or talked a ton. She never wanted to be close. She was always bullying me mentally and physically, and when her husband put his hands on me she got mad at me. Now her calling me everyday just pisses me off. And If I don’t send her some kind of supply she will get the rest of the family I don’t even talk to to tell me to stop being mean to her even though most of our fights are initiated by her. As she is now chronically ill, she doesn’t have the physician leverage over me anymore (6’1GC, and me 5’5 SG). So now she either rages or starts acting really clingy. It’s driving me crazy. Idk what to do I feel like I backtracked so hard inviting them back into my life, idk what to do next if she’s so persistent despite my lack of returning her messages. I do help her financially, but I have stopped as I am in school and working part time. And I have no car, school loans, and no savings, I’ve given her everything I had, because she made me feel like I owed her and later learned she helped facilitate a lot of problems my Nmom caused for me financially. Being around them causes me anxiety, and I forgot that I didn’t have to see them anymore. Crazy right? I’ve just been on go mode after my bfs Covert mom moved in with us begging for some place to stay because she was mad her friend didn’t want to be with her even though he did a ton for her. He gave her $7,000 to find a place. She bought a ton of stuff off Amazon, never paid her share of bills, and never cleaned. She’s triangulated me and my bf for 8 months straight. It took me back to when my mother kicked me out. Having to walk on eggshells, finding new sabotages done by her daily. Like putting her bidet wash clothes under my bath towel instead of where it’s been for months. Like letting it touch. She hated me. She loved her son like you could tell she thought they were dating. He obviously didn’t stick up for me but didn’t want me to leave on my own. She never apologized to me but she apologized to him after she disowned him because he told her that if she wasn’t going to be helpful she could wait in the car, when we were moving and we have BOTH helped her move and she bothered me DAILY for helping her with her projects. On top of not cleaning she had three long hair cats, fought with only the neighbors children and never the parents, yells at everyone, and overall super moody and unpleasant to be around. She sent me PARAGRAPHS. About how hurt she was because she thought I was mad at her. And my bf made me tell her if I was or wasn’t and I asked her and she wouldn’t answer. I’ve been feeling so alone. I’m supposed to graduate college next term and my sister expects to be invited and she’s never asked me about school or anything. No one in my family has. She only talks about herself. Am I narcissistic since I keep attracting the same people with different faces. I don’t got for them they come to me and LATCH. I’ve only picked 3/7 for friends the rest were just victim of circumstance. Do you guys have this problem?

I came across two questions from another sub linked here which inspired me to write these two questions.
https://www.reddit.com/arabs/comments/10dqy9i/had_a_conversation_with_my_sister_about_this_and/ https://www.reddit.com/arabs/comments/jv3r7g/what_do_you_think_is_a_realistic_solution_to_the/
I noticed trends in both the threads. So for the first one Arabs were asked if they would befriend an Israeli and I noticed a number of common responses to the first question. Almost everyone said they would befriend a Jewish person just not a zionist Jew and certainly not a Pro Israel, apartheid, nakba denying Israeli. Others flat out said no, they wouldn't be friends with a genocide loving colonizer or they referenced Israelis they liked like Gideon Levy I think his name was, and I'm surprised Miko Peled wasn't brought up or Illan Pepe. Others just said as long as they're not an extremist or if they're a non zionist or left wing Israeli they would. A few people pointed out that nobody controls where they're born so others operated under that pretext. There was also an assumption that if they were friends with an Israeli they wouldn't recognize their humanity. One person there mentioned being friends with an Israeli as long as he doesn't take pride in it and they would even call him a Palestinian.
The second thread in the same sub was about a solution to the conflict. One person said they wanted to restructure Israeli society so it's fair to Palestinians and possibly remain it Palestine or call it Israel/Palestine. A few wanted a 1ss secular state with Israelis and Palestinians living in it. Others were saying if they could prove to Jews that such a society would protect and they would be a respected minority in Arab countries then more Jews then they believed more Israelis would accept a 1ss including a full right to return. Another user wanted to leave it to destiny to solve the problem. I noticed there are Palestinians in the sub who wanted access to all their homeland and right of return and citizenship to all Palestinians and Jews around the world, other user advocated for Palestinian military might and once that happens they will see how quickly Zionists will compromise for peace or calling for ethnic cleansing of Israelis or not wanting to share the land with colonizers.
I realize looking at the questions from the same sub this is going to be very difficult. I wonder why this conflict out of all the others hasn't been solved while other conflicts have been resolved you can say or no longer at the point where they're fighting anymore. I spoke to a Palestinian over discord who wanted a two state solution 1967 borders I think, with East Jerusalem as their capital and allowing the jewish settlers to live there as kicking them out would be difficult and didn't stress a right of return. Another Palestinian I spoke to was fine with a 2ss but with Jerusalem as the capital. I don't know if I believe him or not but he said if they have Jerusalem as their capital they would be satisfied. Now for the two questions.

1. Was is your solution to the Israel/Palestine conflict? What changes would you make with Palestinian or Israeli society, who would you like to see in charge of both places?
2. If you're an Israeli, or Jewish non Israeli how have your interactions been with Palestinians? Palestinians how are your interactions with Israelis or Jews been?

From my experience I met nice Palestinians ones who live in Israel and ones from Nabulus and many of them were nice excluding the racist ones and I told a few of them my story of my holocaust survivor family member immigrating to the British Mandate (now Israel) we had great conversations and they spoke about being against Hamas and the Israeli gov and just wanted the cycle of killing to stop.

I have a workmate who is quite known for being the serious and intimidating type sa work. He's a year ahead of me so medyo na-intimidate din ako sa aura nyang ganun when I first started where I work now.
But as I got to spend more time with him sa duty, mas nalelearn ko na he's not really as intimidating as people make him out to be. And I learned yung kind and funny side nya that he doesn't always project. Kasi introverted sya. Long story short, I developed some form of a happy crush, although wala talaga akong balak to make it serious.
Before, he would be so formal and strict sa messages nya but to my surprise, he's recently been being goofy and funny sa messages.
I've also noticed a few things he does that I find amusing. Replying fast sa messages that I send sa work groupchats namin. Asking me for my sample paperwork even if he knows how to do his (he's already had similar work done before). One time nag attend sya ng seminar somewhere (nag attend din ako and a friend of his days prior), and while at work nag message sya to ask where the CR is (hahaha) instead of asking his friend. Approaching me at work to ask about an assignment that I know pretty well he already knows how to do (kasi alam ko na may prior experience na sya).
Now here's the thing. We're a lot more open and palabiro sa messages than in person. He'd be sending emojis and laughing sa messages while having a straight face in person. Haha. Kaya minsan naguguluhan ako if I can treat him the same way in person since nahihiya ako dahil senior ko nga sya, and I don't want other seniors to judge me na baka feeling close ako masyado.
I feel that we joke around a lot sa messages but in person we're a lot reserved. Except for a few moments when we find ourselves alone & he'd sometimes relax and joke around then way he does sa texts. But with other people present, we act like we're merely workmates and he becomes a lot more poised.
Now here's the thing. Recently we get teased a lot. And not even romantically. Na tetease kami because of how he cares for me as his junior. Natetease sya sa pag aalaga sakin. Even his friends pointed out na clingy daw sya sakin because they noticed how he's particularly observant of me (like one time nag ask sya sa GC why I was in the office when it's supposed to be my day off & everybody commented he's being too clingy).
And the whole time he's kept a straight face. Meanwhile ako parang matutunaw na but I also kept my composure. Whatever emotion he shows i try to mirror kasi ayoko din mabisto na may crush ako haha.
After the teasing incident, we found ourselves on duty again and he acts like nothing happened. Which I am totally cool with. Because I do not want things to get awkward between us when I enjoy his company so much. Natatawa lang talaga ako at how he's able to keep his emotions in check when he's so different sa messages.
The rare times he lets his goofiness through in person, I find very cute.
Ang tanong ko lang, could there be something in there? If I were to take the risk? Haha

Hellooooooo
This is a long post so I'm sorry in advance.
I've been playing for around 2~3 weeks now and i really like playing with Luca and Frederick, but today i got some really harsh comments from a player in 2 ranked matches we played together. I got really self-conscious about my skills and i feel like dropping this game 💔. He told me i should never use composer again, because i was too focused on decoding and didn't save him soon enough.
For some context: i was trying to get the cipher primed while one of our teammates was in the chair, almost done for (i think it was a painter, not sure) so once i saved him (the mercenary), we could get our health back and have a better chance of escaping (i could be 100% wrong with this strategy, pls feel free to educate me), he was going as mercenary and was on the floor after failing to save the "painter" and i was close by decoding (that's why i prioritized priming, since i could come back soon enough after rescuing him. I attempted healing him before getting chaired and almost completed it but we got caught. After that i tried to save him again but was sadly terror shocked by detention)
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Sooooooo i was wondering if anyone could tell me what you think it's "toxic behaviour" coming from someone using Prisoner, Composer and Psychologist (i really like her and would like to main her so i'm trying to avoid being a burden from the start). I really like this game but their comments really hurt me and idk what to do.
If you don't mind, I'd be very greatful if you could give me some kiting advices too, but it's ok if you dont want to.
I just want to improve and i have 0 friends to play with and ask all this questions to. I'm sorry if i bothered or frustrated anyone with my post. Pls believe me i have good intentions and don't want to be a burden in my next matches. Also I'm rank deer III - IV, so I'm at least good enough to get this far.
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Not to throw him shade or anything, but in the 2 matches we played, he went as container and was almost eliminated as soon as the hunter figured out where he was, and failed 2 rescues. I've seen other mercenaries doing their thing, slaying and being the real mvps, and he had nothing that could justify such a big ego, so i don't think he even has the skills to judge me so rudely He also judged me for trying to avoid Nightmare in the hunter ban selection before the match. I don't think there's anything wrong with not liking him in a match and if it's lame, why even laugh at me, immediately talking badly of my kiting skills without even knowing how i play since it was our first match.