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Outage Update and Credit Refunds

2024.05.19 03:05 anotherstiffler Outage Update and Credit Refunds

From Discord: ETA: 1 to 6 days
Hi folks. I just got out of a call with the DevOps team to write this, and then I'm popping back in with them. They've worked non-stop since the outage began and even were working through the night to get us to where we are now. Our current estimate time for Minehut being fully back online is still 1 to 6 days.
The great news is that we have successfully managed to redeploy our control machines and are bringing systems back online. You may have even noticed earlier today that for a few moments Minehut showed 1,500 servers were online - it's a sign of things to come! At this very moment, we are working on rebuilding the connections with our account databases which our game network/servers and website and other services all use. And that's what our process is going to be like moving forward: connecting each individual system back to the core and making sure everything is working properly before we put everything back online for you to access. It'll take more time, but it's looking good so far.
About Refunds and Compensation I know a lot of you have been asking questions about this, so here's the answer:
You will receive 2x credit refunds for the duration of the downtime based on what you should have received (server hosting, ranks, etc...). For example, if you had a subscription for 1,800 credits/month, and our total downtime is 4 days, you will be credited 240 credits x 2, which is 480 total credits.
This process for refunding will be completed in the future after we get all systems back online and stable for a few days. We do not have an ETA on when refunds will be processed yet since we don't have everything back online yet.
Thanks, as always, for your continued patience. I hope you all have enjoyed the live streams in the meantime! Will update you again as I have more to share.
FAQ link: https://support.minehut.com/hc/en-us/articles/29448169958803-Minehut-Downtime
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2024.05.19 03:02 tatedglory New player looking for help!

Replay code: RAG4YG
Battletag / in-game username: Boo!
Hero(es) played: Kiriko
Skill tier / rank: Bronze 2
Map: New Queen St
PC or console: PC
Description of the match / things you want reviewed: Hi all, I'm a brand new OVW player looking to improve my gameplay and rank up. I've been particularly drawn to Kiriko on Supp for her gameplay style and ability to be self-sufficient. I admit I may play entirely too aggressive, but slowing down and letting my teammates try and work through an enemy team hold feels like pulling teeth for me. I feel really lost and frustrated, because I'm trying to implement everything I've learned from watching and reading guides online but to no avail. I've lost nearly every game I've played today, and have been flamed relentlessly for only avg. around 4k healing. I'm begging for help.
Thank you to anyone who takes the time out to read and assist.
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2024.05.19 03:01 Shybella_1114 Looking for a server to host your favorite game?

Looking for a server to host your favorite game?
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2024.05.19 02:58 alexior41100 [DnD5e][LFP][Beginner and 🏳‍🌈 Friendly][Free Session Zero][Tue/Wed][FoundryVTT][PAID] Vecna: Eve of Ruin - Who will save existence?

Vecna: Eve of Ruin🎲

The evil lich-god Vecna has unearthed secrets he can use to unravel and remake the multiverse. Stopping Vecna will require working with three of the multiverse's most famous archmages, traveling to far-flung locales, and rebuilding the legendary Rod of Seven Parts.
Vecna: Eve of Ruin is a high-stakes adventure in which the fate of the multiverse hangs in the balance. The heroes begin in the Forgotten Realms and travel to Planescape, Spelljammer, Eberron, Ravenloft, Dragonlance, and Greyhawk as they race to save existence from obliteration.
A level 10 to 20 adventure.
🤓 About me
👉 What am I paying for?
📖 Content details
🐲 Rules
📞 How can I contact you?
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2024.05.19 02:58 alexior41100 [DnD5e][LFP][Beginner and 🏳‍🌈 Friendly][Free Session Zero][Tue/Wed][FoundryVTT][PAID] Vecna: Eve of Ruin - Who will save existence?

Vecna: Eve of Ruin🎲

The evil lich-god Vecna has unearthed secrets he can use to unravel and remake the multiverse. Stopping Vecna will require working with three of the multiverse's most famous archmages, traveling to far-flung locales, and rebuilding the legendary Rod of Seven Parts.
Vecna: Eve of Ruin is a high-stakes adventure in which the fate of the multiverse hangs in the balance. The heroes begin in the Forgotten Realms and travel to Planescape, Spelljammer, Eberron, Ravenloft, Dragonlance, and Greyhawk as they race to save existence from obliteration.
A level 10 to 20 adventure.
🤓 About me
👉 What am I paying for?
📖 Content details
🐲 Rules
📞 How can I contact you?
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2024.05.19 02:58 alexior41100 [DnD5e][LFP][Beginner and 🏳‍🌈 Friendly][Free Session Zero][Tue/Wed][FoundryVTT][PAID] Vecna: Eve of Ruin - Who will save existence?

Vecna: Eve of Ruin🎲

The evil lich-god Vecna has unearthed secrets he can use to unravel and remake the multiverse. Stopping Vecna will require working with three of the multiverse's most famous archmages, traveling to far-flung locales, and rebuilding the legendary Rod of Seven Parts.
Vecna: Eve of Ruin is a high-stakes adventure in which the fate of the multiverse hangs in the balance. The heroes begin in the Forgotten Realms and travel to Planescape, Spelljammer, Eberron, Ravenloft, Dragonlance, and Greyhawk as they race to save existence from obliteration.
A level 10 to 20 adventure.
🤓 About me
👉 What am I paying for?
📖 Content details
🐲 Rules
📞 How can I contact you?
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2024.05.19 02:58 Cowchawps Girlfriend is driving me crazy

It’s a long distance relationship, but we’ve known each other for almost two years. We admitted to liking each other and after about four months we started to date officially. It was great the first couple weeks, but then she started sending hundreds of “I love you” and “you’re so beautiful” etc wholesome memes and gifs a day. It was cute at first but it quickly got annoying. I talked to her about it, saying it was a little overwhelming and I would like to be able to talk about things besides how much we like each other. She agreed and after that we were still affectionate of course, just toned down. But starting two weeks ago she started getting bad again. With the constant i love yous, and I want to hold you, and I miss you(how can you miss someone you’ve never met?) we can be talking about video games or our days or what we wanna eat and she’ll suddenly say she loves me or sends me one of those damn memes/gifs. It’s always out of nowhere. It started with one or two but now she’s up to about ten a day. And constantly saying she misses me and wants to hold me. I know i should be grateful she likes me so much but it’s draining. We’re in our 30’s, not high school! It’s getting to the point I want to dump her but I don’t know how. We have a lot of the same online friends.
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2024.05.19 02:58 Zaxaroff 🎮 Undercat Game Release 🐾

🎮 Undercat Game Release 🐾
https://youtu.be/dmmSQt8OBRY
🎮 Undercat GameRelease 🐾
https://reddit.com/link/1cvc3zq/video/5smvtoln7a1d1/player
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Developed by the creative minds at SparkyTailGames, Undercat is a #PixelArt masterpiece where you join the Resistance in a high-stakes adventure to overthrow the Cats’ tyranny and liberate the animal city. This #FamilyFriendly title brings a #LocalCoOp mode, allowing you to team up with friends or family for double the fun!
🔥 Main Features:
Non-restrictive gameplay: Freedom to complete missions your way.
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Secrets and power-ups: Sniff out hidden paths and unlock exciting abilities.
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🌟 #IndieGame lovers, it’s time to rally! Support the underdogs in their fight against the feline overlords. With its engaging gameplay and charming #PixelArt Graphics, Undercat is a must-play title that promises hours of entertainment.
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👉
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2024.05.19 02:56 Grouchy_Hedgehog5109 A Method I Have Been Trying to Help With Impulse Spending

I have been really struggling with impulsive purchases recently. I’ll go “oo, I want that!” and just buy it. However, this is something that has been helping me. I adopted this idea from a YouTube video I saw!
TOOLS: - a notebook - a pen
Whenever there is an item that I want, I add it to the list along with a point value.
For example, a book I’ve never heard of until today I decide I want. So I add the book title to the list and mark it for 1000 points.
I keep track of points using tally marks. Every day that I remember to look in the notebook (aka remember that the items even exist), I get to place a new tally mark next to all the items listed there. Right now I make each tally mark worth 100 points.
Once I hit the point value listed on an item, I could buy it…if I even still want to. Part of the purpose of the notebook is to place time between buying an item to make sure you actually want it.
I’m still new to this method but so far it has helped and stopped me from immediately purchasing things I see online. It’s kind of a game now where I go, “oh I need to earn points for that!” and enjoy pulling out my notebook to keep track and score things. Maybe this will be helpful to someone else!
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2024.05.19 02:56 Radiant_diamond_4664 Hey! EST-16 looking for a friend to game with! 👍

(( sorry for the typos in advanced 🙏 ))
Heyyy I’m looking for someone to play games with on multiplayer, I play on console (Xbox). I do play a lot of cross play games so that isn’t a problem for me. I’m EST time and stay up very late. I have game pass so I don’t mind downloading any games. Some games I currently enjoy are ⬇️
RDR2 online
R6 Siege
BattleField ( I play all but 5 is my fav )
GTA 5
Injustice/mortal combat
War Thunder
Insurgency Sandstorm
Farcry 5
Warzone
And some other little games like sea of thieves, wreckfest, nascar, golf, halo/split gate 😂. I have a lot more but am to lazy to type it all. I’ll play whatever honestly and I’m down to try new games. I prefer to voice chat during games bc I can’t shut up ( im a yapper), but if that’s not your thing I don’t mind. Anywaysss thx for reading this and if you wanna play just DM me 👍
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2024.05.19 02:55 Straight-Ground-4526 How do I deal with a friendship like this?

I’ve been friends with a guy I met online through gaming around 2 and a half years ago. Our friendship has been pretty stable, we get along well and enjoy each others company. He’s quite thoughtful and will message me a lot of the time.
He tries to involve me in a lot of things he does when gaming, he has searched for people to play with us, which I really appreciate. For some reason I couldn’t vibe with some people, I felt like they were fake or just not gonna stick around for long. My intuition is very strong and I’m right about a lot of things (not saying this out of arrogance but a lot of my beliefs have reigned true). He doesn’t take my advice on board quite often, he’s not great at reading people but when they don’t bother with him much longer it’s always an “I told you so” in my head.
Now here is where I have a problem, he’s a lovely guy and probably one of my best friends, we’ve met in person. When he finds new people to play with he gets quite wrapped up in that world, I sometimes would feel left out or upset that he would always sing their praises and be playing with them 3/4 times of the week and not bother much with me. I feel like these are phases of his? In the end, majority of people would just leave. I just worry about where I stand with him because he’s talked about people before that he has maybe drifted or he vibes better with others. I don’t want to come across as needy or anything but I am a very loyal person that only cares to have a couple friends and I’m contented. I’m worried that he would maybe stop bothering with me as much and that I would again have to search for other friends… what do I do? I feel like if I address it with him that he would think I’m being needy maybe.
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2024.05.19 02:53 Moibeaucouppeniss 1500-1700$ cad (after tax) to play in 1440p, 144hz

Is this a brand new build, or an upgrade to an existing build?
Please list any existing parts or monitor(s) you have that you would like to re-use with this build. For upgrades, a PCPartPicker list of your full build is extremely helpful. Be as specific as you can be here, including links or exact model numbers of each component whenever possible.
•Idk
What will this PC be used for? Examples include things like gaming, general/multimedia use, photo/video editing, coding, AI/ML, etc. Include specific games and applications you intend to run, and any particular performance goals you have, as each may have different specific hardware needs.
•I will only be gaming on this pc
What country will you be purchasing in? If you are in the US, do you live near a Micro Center? For other countries, please check if your country is supported by PCPartPicker by using the country selector dropdown on the top right - if not, please provide some links to reliable local vendors you are comfortable ordering from.
I live in Canada in a small town so I’m gonna have to order online
Do you need one or more monitors included in the budget? Please list how many and any size/resolution/refresh rate preferences if needed.
•No
What is your preferred and maximum budget range for this build, in local currency? Parts lists may sometimes have additional shipping costs. Please note whether prices in your country include sales tax or not, and adjust your budget accordingly. Typically VAT countries will have it included in the part list prices, whereas regular sales tax countries like the US and Canada will not.
•1500-1700 cad
Do you need WiFi, or do you have a wired ethernet connection available?
•Idk
Do you have any specific size or noise requirements for the build?
•Not super loud
Do you have any aesthetic preferences for color or lighting? Describe what you're looking for, or feel free to provide some links to examples that may help. Some people prefer an inobtrusive stealth build, while others may prefer a case full of rainbow RGB.
•black
Any other specific requests or requirements? Examples might include a specific minimum amount of storage, or a particular CPU socket for a future upgrade path, etc.
• At least 2tb of storage
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2024.05.19 02:53 Eringaege Crossbow rec’s?

I just got access to private land unrestricted for archery, and looking to get a crossbow this year and not familiar with them. I’ve shot traditional archery for fun but never felt comfortable shooting at game, and I’ve just never shot compounds well. Honestly just trying to put meat in the freezer this year for myself and the landowners. I’ll also get to hunt with rifle but won’t have as much access. I’m not really familiar with xbows other than occasional handling them in passing so wondering what to look for besides comfort.
Also I know I’ll need the Xbow itself plus additional bolts, broadheads, practice target, and decock target. Anything else I’ll need? Budget would be about $500 for the xbow itself most likely from basspro/cabelas as all the local archery shops have closed, or ordering online but wary of that since I won’t have a feel for it first
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2024.05.19 02:52 tiny-rosie F/22, seeking platonic friendships 🤍

Hii, I'm F/22, a happily married housewife living in Canada! I am originally from the US but I moved away to be with my husband. We are childfree but we have 2 bunnies that are spoiled with love. 🐰🐇
I'm on the lookout for an online friend who I can share both silly and serious moments with, and someone who is open-minded. I'm shy but I will eventually warm up, so when I get to know you better, we can make calls and play games together or watch movies! I think being penpals would be fun as well, but I'd like to wait a bit before we do that, of course. I just love to write letters and make little pop-up cards lol. I also have tons of cute stickers to use. 😂
A bit about me: - I love playing games (board games, video games, etc.) - Cooking and baking are my passion - I enjoy writing poems - Making art is another way I like to express myself
There is more but I will save it for when we talk haha. I've always been considered the "therapist friend" so if you ever need a listening ear, I'm here for you. Feel free to reach out whenever! My DMs are always open. Thanks for reading! 💝
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2024.05.19 02:49 Aggravating-Sand6320 I’m an overly Philosophical Femboy

Hi everyone I have a fun/interesting case and this is my first time posting. I’m open to DMs if anyone wants to chat further about the following topics but first I’d like just a little clarity 😅
I’m a straight 20-year-old male struggling with a complex mix of mental health issues, and I'm looking for advice or shared experiences. I suffer from depression, existential OCD, and Bipolar disorder, which causes me to swing between intense existential realizations and deep, hopeless depression. I also have (important) autogynephilia and am a part-time cross-dresser. I started cross-dressing in secret as a child, feeling immense guilt due to my religious upbringing. The difficult part about it was not that I didn’t look good enough, it was that I looked way better dressed as a female and even my irl and online friends would agree. I have a small waist, large hips, soft skin and just preform better as a submissive during intimate sessions. Why would God make me such a passable feminine body along with autogynephilia (the sexual attraction to oneself thought as a woman aka trap, femboy, cross dresser, trans or whatever you want to call it.) Fortunately, I have a loving girlfriend who not only accepts but enjoys and supports this aspect of me. Despite this, the religious guilt is overwhelming, especially because I grew up in a strict religious environment.
I'm constantly plagued by thoughts and dread about the afterlife, God, and the universe. I often feel that the rapture is imminent and am troubled by the idea of a cruel God. This consumes my mind daily. Recently, I’ve had panic and anxiety attacks about going to hell and the impossibility of being good enough to enter heaven. I feel destined for hell, and every action is scrutinized through the lens of my fear of eternal damnation. It’s making my life miserable. These thoughts and feelings have been with me for as long as I can remember.
These issues deeply affect my relationship with my girlfriend. I go through phases where I fully embrace cross-dressing, and we have a lot of fun together, but then I swing to the opposite extreme, throwing away all our toys in fear of eternal punishment. My research into Near-Death Experiences (NDEs) has only added to my confusion, as everyone seems to have different experiences, making life feel like a cruel game.
It doesn't help that people find my brain extremely interesting and believe I’m destined for so much more, given my talents as a closeted femboy. This has driven me to search for truth beyond religion and philosophy. I’ve attempted exposure therapy, but it's hard to apply it to these deep existential concerns. I've seen two therapists who found my case too interesting or entertaining to be genuinely helpful. I even tried talking to a priest about my issues, but he ended up trying to take advantage of me, leading to my girlfriend and I leaving that town. Ultimately, I want to achieve a mindset where I’m not in constant cognitive dissonance and can live without the fear of eternal torment for being the way God made me.
Has anyone else dealt with similar issues or found effective ways to cope with such profound existential and religious anxiety?
For example, why would God give me 1. A passable feminine body 2. Autogynophelia to match the body 3. A perfect GF that loves me for who I am then send me to hell because of it?
Any advice or shared experiences would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for reading.
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2024.05.19 02:47 merchanime How I Started Making Money Online from Home - Tips and Insights

i found this blog post interesting and come out to share it with you:
I've seen a lot of discussions around making money online, and I thought I'd share my journey and what I've learned along the way. A while back, I was searching for ways to earn some extra income without having to leave home. After trying out various methods, I've managed to find a few that really worked for me. Here are some tips and insights based on my experience:
  1. Freelancing: There are tons of platforms like Upwork, Fiverr, and Freelancer where you can offer your skills. Whether you're a writer, designer, or developer, there's always someone looking for your expertise. I started by offering writing services and gradually built up a steady stream of clients.
  2. Online Surveys and Market Research: This isn’t going to make you rich, but it’s a good way to earn some pocket money. Sites like Swagbucks, Survey Junkie, and Vindale Research pay you for sharing your opinions.
  3. Affiliate Marketing: If you have a blog or social media following, affiliate marketing can be quite lucrative. It involves promoting other people's products and earning a commission for every sale made through your referral link. There are many programs available, such as Amazon Associates or ShareASale.
  4. Creating and Selling Digital Products: If you're good at something, never do it for free! I started creating e-books and online courses about topics I was passionate about. This passive income stream has been quite rewarding.
  5. Starting a Blog: This has been a game-changer for me. Blogging can be a great way to share your knowledge and eventually monetize your content. You can start by choosing a niche you're passionate about, providing valuable content, and using SEO strategies to drive traffic. Over time, you can monetize through ads, sponsored posts, and affiliate marketing.
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2024.05.19 02:46 ZayAndi PS3 Online play

I just bought a ps3 that’s been modded with evilnat & webman and has a crap ton of games. I want to play online challenges but it says I need to be signed into psn. I went to do so by pressing triangle and R2 clearing syscalls, and then went to psn, but it wants me to update my system. Obviously not cause it’s jail broken so I won’t update that way. PSN patch sounds like the answer but how do I install it using FileZilla? Where do I place the file and how to I install it on my ps3? I have a fat external hard drive but I don’t know if my ps3 is reading it. I’m still new to this. Any tips on getting online? I don’t want any mod menus or to cheat I just want to play the games
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2024.05.19 02:46 AurumTemerity What is the worst example of online game addiction you have personally witnessed?

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2024.05.19 02:44 GigglyGamer7 Awesome seed!!!

Awesome seed!!!
After starting game when it came out and not knowing WTH I was doing by starting a new random survival seed, didn’t look around , traveled and built too many grassland villages then wasted resources upgrading them. Didn’t play for a bit then Star Wars comes out and go there and upgrade, then learn the villagers there take spaces when you weren’t capped yet in regular world villages. So wanted to start fresh and try again. Tried seeds from online in sandbox and flew around on several and wasn’t loving them. Never tried original seed in sandbox….so gave it a whirl and it’s PERFECT!!!!
-Spawns right between desert and ice biomes with one close cave in each. -Star Wars cave right freaking here too!!! -South there’s several grass caves before reaching the 4th biome of beach/shores. -desert has several other caves ive seen flying in sandbox -haven’t checked ice biome besides the one close cave Wanted to share this seed as it’s just too awesome after looking for so many when this one was right in front of me the whole time!!!!!!!!!! Seed: 11.96.30.82.35
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2024.05.19 02:40 ender2iny Toukiden 2

Are there still people who play Toukiden? It's one of my favorite games, but the online game seems a bit abandoned ;/
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2024.05.19 02:36 Aggravating-Sand6320 Interesting Femboy Case

Hi everyone I have a fun/interesting case and this is my first time posting. I’m open to DMs if anyone wants to chat further about the following topics but first I’d like just a little clarity 😅
I’m a straight 20-year-old male struggling with a complex mix of mental health issues, and I'm looking for advice or shared experiences. I suffer from depression, existential OCD, and Bipolar disorder, which causes me to swing between intense existential realizations and deep, hopeless depression. I also have (important) autogynephilia and am a part-time cross-dresser. I started cross-dressing in secret as a child, feeling immense guilt due to my religious upbringing. The difficult part about it was not that I didn’t look good enough, it was that I looked way better dressed as a female and even my irl and online friends would agree. I have a small waist, large hips, soft skin and just preform better as a submissive during intimate sessions. Why would God make me such a passable feminine body along with autogynephilia (the sexual attraction to oneself thought as a woman aka trap, femboy, cross dresser, trans or whatever you want to call it.) Fortunately, I have a loving girlfriend who not only accepts but enjoys and supports this aspect of me. Despite this, the religious guilt is overwhelming, especially because I grew up in a strict religious environment.
I'm constantly plagued by thoughts and dread about the afterlife, God, and the universe. I often feel that the rapture is imminent and am troubled by the idea of a cruel God. This consumes my mind daily. Recently, I’ve had panic and anxiety attacks about going to hell and the impossibility of being good enough to enter heaven. I feel destined for hell, and every action is scrutinized through the lens of my fear of eternal damnation. It’s making my life miserable. These thoughts and feelings have been with me for as long as I can remember.
These issues deeply affect my relationship with my girlfriend. I go through phases where I fully embrace cross-dressing, and we have a lot of fun together, but then I swing to the opposite extreme, throwing away all our toys in fear of eternal punishment. My research into Near-Death Experiences (NDEs) has only added to my confusion, as everyone seems to have different experiences, making life feel like a cruel game.
It doesn't help that people find my brain extremely interesting and believe I’m destined for so much more, given my talents as a closeted femboy. This has driven me to search for truth beyond religion and philosophy. I’ve attempted exposure therapy, but it's hard to apply it to these deep existential concerns. I've seen two therapists who found my case too interesting or entertaining to be genuinely helpful. I even tried talking to a priest about my issues, but he ended up trying to take advantage of me, leading to my girlfriend and I leaving that town. Ultimately, I want to achieve a mindset where I’m not in constant cognitive dissonance and can live without the fear of eternal torment for being the way God made me.
Has anyone else dealt with similar issues or found effective ways to cope with such profound existential and religious anxiety?
For example, why would God give me 1. A passable feminine body 2. Autogynophelia to match the body 3. A perfect GF that loves me for who I am then send me to hell because of it?
Any advice or shared experiences would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for reading.
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2024.05.19 02:35 Venus259jaded Gaming sucks, what can I do?

It's a cycle: I'll start a game, try to do achievements/side quests first, get burnt out even though I'm not even half done with the story yet, and never play the game ever again which leaves me feeling worse off. I don't enjoy online games because it's too competitive and rage inducing. I also don't enjoy games that are limited, I want there to be a lot of stuff to do, and a rich story but I abandon those games quickly. It's like I'm barred from having fun in gaming. Is there anything I could do about this?
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