I've got some intense hyperarousal and hypervigilance symptoms. If I hear the sudden chirp of somebody locking their car with a keyfob while I'm walking by on the street, I'll practically jump 5ft in the air and shout.
I really don't enjoy certain aspects of it, like how it prevents me from being able to relax enough to fall asleep or how it makes me an incredibly light sleeper who jolts awake at the slightest sound.
However, I am kind of appreciative of my hypersensitive fight-or-flight response, especially how it always veers towards "fight" over the other options.
If somebody tries to jump out at me or sneak up behind me as a joke, I'm always shocked to learn my body involuntarily responds with lightning fast, ninja-tier reflexes; jabbing someone in the eyes with my fingers, elbowing them in the diaphragm so hard they can't breathe, kneeing them in the groin, smashing them over the head with whatever I'm holding, etc.,
Like, I'm not happy to hurt anyone, but 1. If your idea of a good time is deliberately scaring someone, you deserve whatever happens next and 2. It's nice to know that if a genuine threat occurs, my sympathetic nervous system can handle it.
I'm also grateful for the fact that it allows me to shut down creeps with ease. I'll watch a lot of my friends humor the creepiest freaks imaginable for months on end because they're afraid of confrontation or hurting someone's feelings.
Meanwhile, if someone makes me feel on edge and uncomfortable, all fear flies out the window and is immediately replaced with anger. I end up shutting them down and chasing them off with overt hostility very early on. It's like my unconscious mind is thinking "I'm willing to do whatever it takes to get this person to NEVER interact with me again, time to make a stranger cry".
It's honestly been very useful!
Can anybody else relate?

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May 19 2AM	May 19 5AM	May 19 10AM	May 19 11AM	May 19 6PM	May 19 7PM

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Venue
Nagoya Congress Center
Nagoya, Aichi Prefecture, Japan
Match Card

#	Match			Notes	Time Limit
1	Francesco Akira [4]	vs.	Drilla Moloney [4]	BOSJ 31 B Block Match	30
2	BUSHI [2]	vs.	Kosei Fujita [4]	BOSJ 31 A Block Match	30
3	DOUKI [4]	vs.	Dragon Dia [0]	BOSJ 31 B Block Match	30
4	Kevin Knight [6]	vs.	Yoshinobu Kanemaru [2]	BOSJ 31 A Block Match	30
5	KUSHIDA [6]	vs.	Taiji Ishimori [6]	BOSJ 31 B Block Match	30
6	Titán [6]	vs.	Clark Connors [4]	BOSJ 31 A Block Match	30
7	Hiromu Takahashi [4]	vs.	Ninja Mack [4]	BOSJ 31 B Block Match	30
8	TJP [0]	vs.	HAYATA [4]	BOSJ 31 A Block Match	30
9	Robbie Eagles [4]	vs.	SHO [4]	BOSJ 31 B Block Match	30
10	El Desperado [4]	vs.	Blake Christian [8]	BOSJ 31 A Block Match	30

A Block

	PTS
Blake Christian	8
Kevin Knight, Titán	6
Kosei Fujita, El Desperado, Clark Connors, HAYATA	4
BUSHI, Yoshinobu Kanemaru	2
TJP	0

B Block

	PTS
KUSHIDA, Taiji Ishimori	6
Robbie Eagles, Francesco Akira, Drilla Moloney, DOUKI, Ninja Mack, SHO, Hiromu Takahashi	4
Dragon Dia	0

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After seeing a post moaning about BOSJ I wanted to just say a massive fuck yeah to this years tournament. Amazing matches, great storytelling as it builds, some real breakout performances from DOUKI, Ninja Mack, my man big Fuj. The matches fly by, and are all super fun.
I know NJPW isn’t in its greatest place right now and there’s a lot of discourse around the top of the card and that’s all fair, but it’s nice that BOSJ gives us something that’s self contained and isn’t concerned with those issues.
Big up the juniors

okay so here's the thing, I've been dating this guy for about a year now, and lately I've been feeling like he's just... not understanding me at all. I mean, I get that relationships are hard work and all, but is it too much to ask for a little bit of empathy and support?
we both have demanding jobs and by the time we get home, we're both exhausted. but somehow, i always end up being the one who has to do the cooking, cleaning, and other household chores. he just plops down on the couch and plays video games or watches tv. i tried talking to him about it and he said he’s tired too and needs to unwind. but like, don't i also deserve to unwind? it's not like my job is any less stressful.
the other day, i came home super late from work because i had to stay for an extra meeting. i was really hoping he'd have started dinner or at least thought about it, but nope. the kitchen was a mess from the night before and he was sitting there playing his stupid game. when i asked him about dinner, he got all defensive and said i was nagging. seriously, nagging? because i asked about dinner?
and it’s not just the chores. it feels like he never listens to me. i try to talk to him about my day or things that matter to me, and he’s always so distracted, either on his phone or the computer. i just want to feel heard, you know? like what i say and feel actually matters.
then there's the intimacy thing. it feels like he's only affectionate when he wants sex. i'm not saying that i don’t enjoy being close, but sometimes i just want to cuddle or talk or just feel connected without it leading to something more. but whenever i try to initiate that kind of intimacy, he brushes me off or makes it sexual. it makes me feel like that's all he sees me as.
i’ve been contemplating whether this is something worth continuing. i love him, but i’m not sure if love is enough when it feels so one-sided. has anyone else dealt with something similar? how did you handle it? is there a way to make him understand without coming off as nagging or overbearing? i’m just really lost right now and could use some advice.

Key: for later in the story Older sister: Horse Younger sister: llama Me: Bunny My wife: Fox Creepy boyfriend: Leech
Anybody who has more than one kid in the family knows that one of them is a "pick me" child. Well I have one, my older sister. How do I describe her, you know the Pokemon Ditto? Yes just like that, a purple blob that mimics any Pokemon, she mimics anyone. She made my life a living hell. Get ready Reddit it's a long one. I will have to break this up into multiple parts.
Let's start with my childhood/teen years. So my older sister is a couple years older than me and our dad was married to her mom. Anyway our dad ends the marriage when he finds out her mother was cheating on him. A little bit after that my mom and dad got together and well ....they got married and then I was born. A couple of years later my little sister was born. My older sister's mom pretty much screwed my parents and had to take her every other week. God I hated those weekends because we had to do everything she wanted, buy the food that she could only eat, watch only what she wanted to watch, and she made my sister and I her own personal Barbie dolls. When I say personal Barbie dolls, she wanted to be a hairdresser when she was older and practice on us. She thought that she could get better -newsflash! -she didn't. One time she wanted to put curls in my hair so I let her when the curls came out I looked like bloody Shirley Temple. 😤
Adult years: It only got worse as we grew into adults. For some reason my older and younger sisters had competition between each other, which left me in the dark and that was okay, I was too weird for them. At this point I had gone through my own demons. Anyway, we are all "adults" The older sister still acts like she never grew up. In 2016, all hell broke loose my older sister got into sell mlms (yuck!). The only reason why she said that she got into selling mlms is because she was helping her friends, hmm yea no just wanted to be a part of a group. She was selling herbal life, a weight loss program, now she did lose the weight while on this program, but she didn't stick to it. Also at this time she was married to her husband of eight years. She then met her current boyfriend when her family moved to another town. After that her and the husband split up. Now reader ,I never said they got legally divorce so they are still married to this day while she is with another guy. In 2017, I met my lovely wife on Facebook. We had a long distance relationship for a 1.5 years. In 2018 they came over to the states and asked me to marry them and of course I said yes!! They came back over in early 2019 because we had an event plan and while they were here we had a big family dinner. Oh goodie, I would rather go to church then do this dinner. The day of the family dinner comes up and everyone is happy to meet my fiancee, Fox. Well let's get on with dinner. The whole family went and sat down, and even before we started eating, Horse insisted on saying a prayer, now I was raised Christian, but I am pagan and so is my fiancee. After that we went to the all you can eat buffet. Now my mom can't have the buffet because she has a seafood allergy (understandable) ,but Horse and Leech didn't go to the buffet because and I quote, " Oh Leech doesn't eat seafood and neither do I." In my brain I am "What?!? since when?!?" That was a lie 🤥!! She used to eat a pound of shrimp when we were the kids. As we were eating, we were talking to each other, Llama asked me, "Bunny where are you guys going to get married", and I explained that I was going to move to Ireland, (where I live now) and we are going to get married at the register office and later on we are...then Horse butt in and said, "Leech and I are getting married at the lake" All of sudden both Llama and I said,l: "Aren't you still married?!" That shut her up. Yes my reader she never got divorced , so legally she is still married. After that I finally got to say what I was going to say, "Going to have a vow renewal at Ren fest in Kansas City later on down the line." All of a sudden Horse said: "Oh there is no way Leech and I can go because Leech is a convicted CP." In my mind:" Wtf, you are my sister and you are picking a guy over my vow renewal ?!? After that , I lost all my respect for her. Like they say like mother like daughter. Would you like a part 2. Let me know!!! Thanks!!

I know this sounds awful but I lied about my grandma's health to get a few days off work. My job has been super stressful and I felt like I was at my breaking point. So, I told my boss that my grandma died. the truth is my grandma is totally fine. I spent the days off just relaxing at home, watching netflix, and catching up on sleep.
I feel really guilty about it now. My grandma doesn't even know I used her as an excuse, and my boss was super understanding and supportive. I guess I just needed a break but didn't know how to ask for it. Anyone else ever done something like this?

Not much to say here since I wanted to see what happened with the Weaver. Enjoy!
Ch. 21

• Oh how creepy is this…door shutting, handle gone, and the Weaver softly saying “who's in my house?”
  
• Holy shit why does she look like that?! Don't tease me with the young body but then have The Ring girl’s face attached to it. She's definitely a double bagger, absolutely terrifying.
  
• Omg Feyre, you go scorched earth and set fire to the entire cottage with a candle instead of using your flamethrower ability with your hands and torch the Weaver. SMH
  
• Escape through the chimney though, that's smart. This girl has some bright moments
  
• Wait, is the Weaver cooking faeries?! And is she weaving their entrails or flesh or something??? I mean, on the one hand that's just plain gross, but on the other, why don't you just weave you a new face???
  
• Isn't Feyre like super strong now? Why doesn't she just punch through the chimney?
  
• Weaver is gaining, please feel free to use your mind bullets at any time now Feyre. Also, feel free to step in at any time Rhys and help out lol
  
• Oh wow, the Weaver made her house of out of the bodies of her victims, this is the stuff of nightmares
  
• “What the hell did you do?” LOL Rhys just chilling on a tree, winnow the fuck out plz and ty
  
• Dude Amren can just vanish vomit? I think my question about fae plumbing has now been answered!
  
• So the ring was just a memento from his mom? Makes sense
  
• Thank you Feyre for finally coming to your senses and wanting to learn how to fight and how to use your abilities. It only took almost dying again to realize it
  
• Oooh diving into Rhysand's pensive! Let's see what he shows Feyre
  
• Damn, Ianthe wants some High Lord D!
  
• Oh interesting, so Ianthe does have ulterior motives…this is like some bene gesserit scheming going on. At least Rhys knows not to stick his dick in crazy. Much respect, he's channeling that Lucien energy again!
  
• Very cool developments!
  

Ch. 22

• Oooh some Mor backstory, thank you mommy
  
• Damn so faeries are just as petty as humans when it comes to selling off their daughters…BRUTAL
  
• Good guy Cassian always coming to the rescue, this guy chads
  
• Oooh Feyre chose Azriel to carry her, Cassian and Rhysand are like wtf
  
• Oh nice they're in the mortal lands now.
  
• Quick side bar: what's Tammy been doing all this time? Is there any palace left? I'm assuming it's rubble from all of his tantrums of losing Feyre. Or maybe he's going through all the bureaucratic faerie red tape to demand an audience with the night court. I'm surprised Lucien hasn't tried to make contact, but I'm guessing he thinks this is for Feyre’s benefit.
  

Ch. 23

• Oh shit it's Elain and Nesta! This must feel surreal for Feyre
  
• Damn Nesta is cold-blooded. No sympathy for Feyre at all
  
• Why doesn't Feyre just explain that they'll glamour everyone and ward their house so no one knows that the faeries will be in their town?
  
• I'm wondering if Nesta is jealous at all with Feyre. I bet she's waiting for some high fae to sweep her off her feet the way she talks to Feyre about bouncing from court to court
  
• Nice! No time to waste, let's get the meeting started
  

Ch. 24

• Oh interesting Feyre's last name is Archeron? Hmmm….Cursebreaker sounds better
  
• Also, is this meeting turning into a triple date???
  
• Lol Azriel doesn't want to be here at all
  
• Dinner too??? They just need to pair off now
  
• I'm sure there's meaning behind where everyone sits at a feast, but I'm ignorant to all that decorum.
  
• Cassian sitting next to Elain though, the first move has been made!
  
• Interesting, so human food doesn't taste good at all to fae? How is it different?
  
• “I can eat, drink, fuck, and fight just as well as I did before. Better, even.” THE SHADE. Cassian choking on his water in response is hilarious
  
• Hahaha Cassian found his lover, he's sizing Nesta up and she's having none of it.
  
• Lol she's not even acknowledging him, this bro is in love.
  
• OH SHIT Elain mentioning Clare Beddor and both her murderers are in the house! And Rhys is just keeping his head down eating shit food lol. Peak awkwardness.
  
• Bro…Cassian is straight up imprinting on Nesta right now. He wants that mating bond BAD.
  
• Just two rooms? I bet Rhys and Feyre get the room with just one bed.
  
• LOL Rhys just side steps the awkwardness with his multi-dimensional closet, that's super handy
  
• “Nesta is a delight, by the way.” Bahaha I think deep down in his heart of hearts he knows Nesta has a hold on Cassian and he’ll be seeing a lot more of her
  
• Lol they're talking wages now? And they have banks??? Lines of credit? What's the APR on that Velaris Platinum card?
  
• Awww Rhys is butt hurt that he missed Feyre's birthday…I'm sure he'll make up for it somehow. Maybe his mother's ring???
  
• “My money's on Nesta…So’s mine.” LOL put me down for a dime on Nesta as well
  

Ch. 25

• FINALLY some element bending training.
  
• Feyre wants to train in private because Rhys is a distraction? Lol if that doesn't scream I'm into you I don't know what is
  
• “You could try rubbing it on certain body parts and I might come faster.” Hahahaha bro why don't Rhys and Lucien get along? These guys have the same snarkiness
  
• Oh cool, some inter-dimensional pen writing, NBD
  
• “I'm watching Cassian and Nesta get into it again over their tea.” lol can we get a chapter on this interaction? That sounds better than reading about Feyre staring at a candle for an hour and not asking for help
  
• “Life is better when you're around.” I mean, how long is this little Do-Si-Do between them gonna last? Just kith already
  
• OH SHIT it's the Attor!
  

These recent cliff hangers have been great so far! Let's hope Feyre taps into her abilities and freezes the Attor’s nuts off. Thanks for reading!

So, I watched Toonami for the first time tonight. There were a bunch of warnings during the commercial breaks saying "Toonami contains mature content that may disturb some viewers". Why do they put this during Toonami. Toonami's pretty tame compared to regular Adult Swim. Smiling Friends literally pushes the boundaries of what's considered fit for airing on TV. Yet you put the warnings during Ninja Kamui?

Sorry for the long paragraph. I don't know which community is right. I am new here.
just to give you a bit of background, yes I changed it a little,
I would appreciate it if any of you take the time to read it. it took a lot to share my problems.
So, um when I was in class 8. We have a board exam that year. So I kinda started my year with a banger. I was studying more attentively. I was being more present in class. I was answering questions. I never answer unless the teacher picks me, which rarely happens. I am a good student. This makes me a bit arrogant, cuz if I got such decent results by not even properly studying, I don't need to stress. So yeah. My year was going super good. And boom covid fucking started. And even tho I was super studying. I am way too lazy too. Now that we were in lockdown. I completely abandoned my books. Forget studying. I was on my phone all day. Like actually all day. To give a bit more info. Class 8 has a board exam. Class 9,10 are studied with the same books, it's where we choose majors like science, commerce, and arts, I was a science student. 11,12 is college and we still have majors like science, commerce, and arts, still choose science. After that is uni. Class 8,9 went like this. Then in class 10. We finally went to school. Like I said classes 9, and 10 are the same book. Soo, I didn't touch my book for a year now I know nothing. That went like this. In the class sitting helpless cuz I know nothing. Then my sister told me about her tutor, so me and my friend went to him. He, we will call him C, introduced us to his friend, and we'll call him K who also became our tutor. Side note, I got comfortable with K, way more than C. K was kinda of my motivation, I wanted to make him proud, but I didn't, I failed. I haven't called him in a year. I am so sorry. I didn't want to disappoint you of all people. But I did.
I think since all I did during lockdown was be on my phone I am still kind of stuck at that age in some ways, mentally. I am almost 18. I was 13 when COVID started. Me and my mum were in some bad blood at that time, probably she asking me to study, but I not. Other than studying for my tutor's homework. I didn't touch my books enough. Suddenly it was exam time. It was a fucking board exam. It would decide my college. To be honest, even at that point I don't think I ever realized the importance, the gravity of the exam. I was prepared I'd say 60%. And yeah. when it was exam time, she became all affectionate. Bringing me milk, stay with me at night. You better believe I fucking hated that. I wanted to be alone. she didn't leave me alone. She was in my room. I hated her sooo much at that time. Just leave me alone na. So just to fucking spite her I didn't study until she was here. I would be on my phone and phone and she still wouldn't leave so I went to study at around 1 or 2 at night. In case you couldn't tell I was heavily dependent on my phone at that time just to well forget what's happening in my life. I kinda got addicted, maybe. So even if I was watching videos I was making plans about how I would study and all. In my head. I was preparing myself mentally. Guess who it took to crash all of this down. Yes, my one and only mum. While I was encouraging myself and all, my mum would come and be like you don't study, look at the maid's daughter doing much better than you ever will. My luck was this bad that I was your mum and all that shit. My maa always talks about how she didn't have to worry about me ever cuz I did everything myself. I don't understand what she thinks this will make me feel. Maybe I didn't want to do shit alone. Now that I truly want to be left alone, yall up my ass.
You think I will study now. Hell, nahh. So I didn't. Some day I went to my exam after barely reading the book at around 8. My exam starts at 10. Yeahhh. good times. It went like this all exam season. Of course, I didn't do well. I got a GPA of 4.52. Of course, I wasted all my free time for 6 months after the exam. I bed rotted the whole 6 months and more. I put on a lot of weight. Soo, I got very insecure. So when me and my friends went to the same tutor I also went there. But suddenly everything was new. I couldn't get past if I went like I was before. I went for a month maybe. I got behind them. I got so scared and insecure. All of them got into the government college there. Only I didn't. I got more insecure being there. I felt like I couldn't catch up even if I tried. So I did what I am best at. Run away. The college started with me bed rotting. I put on a lil more weight. I got even more insecure. It's been almost a year since then, I can count the times I went. Not more than a week. And the half-yearly exam, I failed it's my fault. I didn't study. Only time was passing by. I still am where I was a year ago. In my bed rotting. I haven't touched them, my textbooks, I mean it, they are still brand new. Now my final is in a month. I am still in my bed rotting. I just am soo insecure with my weight and study now. I can't bring myself to study. I feel like I already failed. More my mum started staying with me cuz it's hella hot. I felt like me studying would make her win. I would lose the battle I started. My brain is like unless someone tells me step-by-step detailed instructions on how to do life, I can't do shit. What do I do?? I am so lost mentally. I am just soo scared that I will be the one left behind. I mean I already am. My friends are not mine anymore. I am just one of many of theirs. I fear I would be left behind to rot. I know I am not some saint. I know what I am doing isn't what I of all people should be doing. But how do I win against my brain? It's like if I can't catch up with everyone in a day then it isn't worth trying. If I can't lose that weight, it isn't worth trying. What do I do?? I can't go to a gym. Can't jog or stuff. My mother becomes angsty if I starve. What do I do? Sometimes I just want to disappear for a while.
truth be told, I have no motivation. I don't have anyone, I am willing to work for, not even myself, parents, a better life, everything I dreamt of, future, nothing seems worthy. the only thing I can do is daydream. I understand I am not hardworking as much as I should be. I am quite privileged in life. but I don't know what to do. I am like a sponge, I am all my environment is. I don't want to do this anymore. I hate myself like this. I want to change. I like studying. I like knowing things. I just physically can't bring myself to do the necessary things. it feels like I already lost, I can never catch up. it's upon me to get into a good fucking university, even if I plan to go abroad for higher study.. see I have soo many dreams, yet I can't bring myself to work for them. it's like I am being physically stopped. I am just waiting for something to happen that will be the push I need, but I fear it will be too late then. it's my life I don't need a reason to change myself, especially when I know that this version is doing me more damage than good. I guess it seems from the fact that others know this version, and change is terrifying, especially when you are alone. I am always jealous of the people that have somebody to look up to. I have a lot to add. But I just need to do this it's been 2 days since I wrote it. Sorry if there are any typos. Thank you, if you took the time to read all that. -♡♡

Of all the anime I've seen (not a whole lot), I am enjoying this anime more than any anime I've seen. The rewatch ability for me is huge for this anime. The tough topics such as depression and ED that it deals with, I am honestly surprised on how well it was done. And honestly, it's refreshing to see an anime where when two people are of adult age and are in love, that actually sleep together. I don't care that they don't show the act but it's just the fact that the anime isn't being shy on the fact that people in love and are together sleep with each other. I am so tired of the extremely bashful and shy couples that never do it because something. When if this was real, in reality, they be fuckin.
Then there are just the holy shit moments in the anime. 2 stick out the most. In the beginning of season 2 after Rudeus gets drunk with Soldat after the incident with Sara and Sara overhears the less than nice things Rudeus had said about her, even though what Sara did the night before was SUCH a bitchy thing to do, I wasn't until my second watch where I see Rudeus try to kill himself right there. It was so fast, but my mind was like HOLY SHIT!! Very few anime gets that reaction from me. The second holy shit moment was in the last episode that aired where Sylphie says she is pregnant, you should have seen me, I automatically stuck a victory pose in excitement for the two of them. Then afterwards when he got the letter about Zenith, I was like, oh no. This situation sucks for both Rudeus and Sylphie.
There are multiple things I am excited to see that I accidentally spoiled for myself when I was trying to learn the characters on the Wikipedia page. Like all of Rudeus' children and with who. I am extremely curious how those conversations are going to go in the future when Rudeus runs into two specific people. Especially Sylphie's reactions. I'm currently so worried how she will react in the future.
I am so invested in this anime's future. I want to know if Rudeus takes Roa back form the slime that took over after killing Eris' grandfather. I hope Rudeus becomes the leader of Roa. I think it would be cool for Rudeus and Orsted have a chat like Al Pacino and Robert De Niro in HEAT where Rudeus and Orsted come to a truce/understanding.
Super excited about this anime. Will watch until the end and eagerly so.

was eating a baked potato and when i got the last bite, noticed that the potato close to the skin was a unique color. worried it was mold and i wasn't paying attention my bites until the end because i was watching a video, so i probably ate a bunch of this. i got a pack of russets and had to throw like 4 away because they had black discoloration on the skin and were dented in in those spots so i figured those were bad. washed and kept the last three that looked perfectly good on the outside. now i'm super worried.
if any parts look purple, that's because i was eating purple carrots that bled into the potato and were releasing purple juices on the plate... mostly this area was dark grey and brown. the part that was like this was a drier texture than most of the potato.
i did store these potatoes in the fridge, however the other potatoes i mentioned look bad looked bad prior to refrigeration. this potato looked fine on the outside but not on the inside! since i ate a big potato and wasn't paying attention until the last bite here, im worried i ate a lot of this.
i'm going to attach the photos in the comments

I just read chapter 16 in Too Like the Lightning and, without spoilers, explain what literally happened in the chapter because it was super confusing.
How I understood this is that there was a security drill (for some reason I don't know or understand) and then while this drill was happening, Jedd Mason, who seems like a super important character (and from what i understand is the son of a Mason who are the head of one of the main Hives), came to the house. It seems like the Cannner Device was spotted here (I think) or at least signals have suspected it to be here.
Jedd is looking for Dominic for some reason. And then mentions that Mycroft is working for Jedd as well... but Mycroft as the narrator says he isn't?
Idk this book is crazy difficult but I'm really loving it. Also a quick explanation of who the bash mates are would help too lol. I kinda know Sniper is the human doll wierdo and Thisbee is like Mycroft's confidant/lover or something. And I know Caryle the senseer. But Cato and Okham I'm not sure of.
Anyways thanks in advance. I'm going to bed so hopefully I'll understand more tomorrow before I read more lol

I recently watched the NCT variety show with SEVENTEEN on NCT channel . I always knew that some of the members from nct and some from svt were friends, like jun with nct china line or seungkwan and jungwoo but then I found out that they have like group gatherings with like 20 people and it is so crazy to think about . Imagining Johnny and Seungkwan singing "we will , we will Rock you" together is so funny because that's a combination I never thought about (I don't know much about Johnny or NCT).
I'm not talking about the liner friendships (age lines) but just the friendships where a lot of members from a group are friends with a lot of members from another group ig? Other group I can think about are like Shinee x f(x) , snsd-super junior (a lot of sm group friendships), MOnstax -svt , Astro- svt

Me 29F and my fiance 29M have been together for 3 years and we currently have a 15-month-old. We were always very intimate almost daily until about midway through my pregnancy it became less and less. He said it was harder because of the baby, the big jelly and baby made it hard and awkward which I understood. But afterward, he was still distant other than from time to time. I found out since midway through my pregnancy he started watching porn every single chance he got even putting off time with me for it.
It is also a type of porn as well, tranny porn. I'm a very open person and super non-judgmental. I asked him to be honest with me if he was bi or if he was bi-curious and he said absolutely not that he was only watching that type because it's not something he would actually want in real life which I don't believe is true.
We had a very long conversation about it and I told him how I feel and he said that he would stop. Months almost a year later I find out that he is still doing it I'm not sure how often because I believe he is deleting his history but it's still the same exact kind I'm not sure how often. I haven't brought it up to him again yet because I just don't know what to think about the situation.
I am wondering if he's Maybe bisexual and just doesn't want to admit it or bi-curious I've asked him about it before but he denied it but our sexual life is lacking and he's still doing the same exact thing. How would you go about this situation or what do you think? I feel at such a loss and unwanted. TL;DR "straight man" choosing trans porn over his own Intimacy in a relationship

So this post is gonna be longer and a bit more put together than my last post. I'm taking notes as I watch. I'm also following the Netflix season list so this will be me follow season 3.
Also, like before I am doing my best to stay spoiler free. I'm not looking up spellings as well so if I misspell something, oh well.

1. Naruto and pervy Santa's relationship is pretty weird man. Like my dude is lusting after a teenage boy who can transform in a woman. The whole "I'm an old, super powerful person but I act like a perv and a weirdo while I train the next generation." Is kinda over done. (Though this show is a bit old.)
   
2. Does Gaara have a demon like Naruto? Cause that would neat.
   
3. "Lee's injuries were too serious and he can no longer be a shinobi." If they think I would believe that, they can geeeeeeet fuuucked. No body puts Lee in a corner.
   
4. Is that what the 4th Hokage looks like? I swear to God if this mofo turns out to be Naruto's dad I will flip a table. That is waaay to cliche. At most I will accept a big brother, cause big brothers can be dicks. Like who puts a demon in a baby? Big brothers, that's who.
   
5. Ok Giant frog is absolutely the best thing in this show.
   
   1. I loved the scene between Naruto and shorti Hinata. So dang cute. I hope Naruto realizes that she wants to jump his bones eventually.
   2. Naruto vs Neji. Is it bad that I want Neji to win? Dude is so cool and it absolutely sucks how he was raised to be a bodyguard for Hinata and lost all choice in his life. #JusticeforNeji. Ok, my boy Neji got justice. I feel better now.
6. Kiba, Hinata and Ant-man's traineteacher lady is hot AF.
   
7. Again my girl with her fan. Shit gets me everytime. Riding in on it like the silver surfer. lol I think she is my favorite so far.
   
8. I think I've been sleeping on ol mate Shikamaru, dude is, as the kids would say, based. The music during their fight had me bopping. "Geez, I envy a cloud being so free..." -Shikamaru. Ok this dude is my new favorite so far.
   

I think since my post is getting long ill leave it here and do another part later. I would love to answer questions
Edit: Some spellings. Also, adding this was Eps 1-12 notes.
Stay fresh Cheese bags.