Sorry I need to rant a little bit.
My exPwBPD (m) and my exbestfriendwBPD (f) literally ruined each and every vacation together. I went seperatly with each of them, but they both were diagnosed BPDs.
(Both lied to me about their diagnosis ("it's just autism, it's just depression from childhood trauma!!"). I found out very late in the relationship/friendship they were - in fact - diagnosed BPDs.)
They both never did anything for the planing/organizing, it was always everything on me. Apparently, it was too much work to go on a website and look for nice hotel rooms and early flights. Even if I told them like 5 times to get their arse up and just do the thing, still they FoRGoT about it and "wHy Do YoU GeT sO UpSET?". Meanwhile, the prices for the flights went trough the roof and of course, I had to pay for most of it because they were always short on money.
And boy, when we finally arrived at our holiday destinations, did they ruin everything. They weather's too cold/warm, the pool is too crowded, the food is bad, they are tired and don't like to go out. The one thing they wanted to do so bad/visit was suddenly not interesting enough anymore ("no I want to stay in the hotel room now!! Watch tv and listen to true crime!!"). Wtf?
Mind you, I even paid for her (exbestfriends) vacations twice, because she was broke and in debt for the 100000 time. And she was still bitching about each and everything for the whole f**** 9 days we spent on a beautiful island. I lost like 3'500 $ during this "friendship" on her due to the fact that she was always short on money and I felt so bad for her (her dad left her family, her exes were all narcissicst and she suffers from really bad depression!!).
Same with exPwBPD, he always found something to moan about and ruin everything with his bad moods.
I'm so done with this. I lost so much money and time to those ungrateful people. I left him a few years ago and got discarded by her a few months ago because I found out about all her lies and the sh*tload of debt she is sitting on. But I still feel so dumb spending so much money and putting in so much work just to make those mentally ill people happy, who didn't even wanted to have a good time. Seems like the only good time they have is when they use and abuse you and then whine about everyhting and play victim.
Thanky you for reading.

My partner has stage 4 breast cancer. She’s 29. For months before her diagnosis she would make comments about how she felt a lump. She’d show me and make comments about how it hurt and seemed weird. That it seemed like it was changing or growing. We’d always talk about how it WAS weird, but how anything serious is usually painless, so maybe it was nothing. As time went on she’d start making comments about chest and back pain. She started using an ice pack on her sternum daily. She’d have much more intense back pain, but blamed it on not keeping up with yoga or pushing too hard at work.
She’s always been resistant about going to the doctor. She’d always blow me off when I told her she should go. She’d always say she should, but she doesn’t want to, maybe later when other things calm down. She’d say she’d made such good progress recently trying to sort out other health issues that I shouldn’t be pushing her to do more.
Now we’re here. It’s not fixable anymore. All my fears were right. The cancer is everywhere. I’m trying to do everything I can to learn about her specific type, work out insurance, field questions with her care team, keep her happy while she’s not working. She thinks I’m too consumed with it all. She doesn’t like to talk about it. Not even once in a while… She doesn’t want to talk about it AT ALL. I’m frustrated and sad and feeling like I wasn’t strong enough to get her to go to the doctor when it was maybe more manageable.
Most of the time I can be realistic with myself and understand the guilt isn’t warranted, but it does still stay there, looming in the background. This feeling will pass by morning, like it usually does, but it sucks to get here mentally most nights.

I've been working on this story for... 3 months? 4? who knows, with my ability to keep track of time I could have started this yesterday, anyway, this is a story that has sci-fi elements, and some fantasy, although the fantasy stuff is mainly dragons so lets say adventure for now, (cause I don't know shit about genres, I just wrote the story) , Keep in mind, this has been written in free time, of which I don't have a lot, so if you don't like the story it is probably my fault, here is a look at:

Dragons wing

I slowly drift from my sleep and think to myself, ow, why is everything warm? I check the thermostat and see that it is at a temperature as cool as Canada and when I turn back to go back to bed so that I can sleep in, I see that my stuff has been knocked over? Oh sorry, where are my manners? I'm James O’Maley, I put everything back into place, and lay down on my bed but nothing is comfortable! I just decide, you know what, whatever, I’m just gonna get ready for work, and with that i get dressed, everything feels harder to put on, but it really hits me when I go to brush my teeth, when I looked into the mirror, I saw that their were, wings on my back, and a tail, growing out my butt like a lizard, I obviously spend several minutes having an existential crisis about this shocking revelation, and I decide to look at what these wings can do, I open a window, crawl out, with some difficulty and some slamming the window on my tail. I go to the edge of the fire escape railing, hop on, and jump, and I flew, higher and higher, until i nearly flew into a mountain but that's when I suddenly breathed fire, from my mouth, and bore a hole straight through the cliffside, I could spend all day flying, breathing fire, and fiddling with my tail, but I began to feel as tired as if I’d just gotten back from lifting weights with tigers, I landed on a cliffside and fell asleep. When I woke up I wasn’t on the cliffside anymore, there were monitors and scientists all around me. I tried to show some sign that I was awake, but I was chained up! I spent several moments struggling to get free, I must be free, I am not something they can chain down! I struggle, I roar, I attempt to move my head enough to burn the surrounding area, but I can’t, until someone finally talks to me,
“Hello there, James, please forgive us for our caution, but with your kind we can never be too careful.” I can see the scientist, I read his name tag, Dr. Crane William, I roar out
“My kind!? Get me out of these chains!” I breathe fire, claw, kick and swing my tail, trying to free myself, until I see two other people watching, one with weird whiskers, a long tail and a smug look on his face, and the other with a similar appearance to me but her wings are her arms. The next few days go by, until the two finally decide to talk to me, and in those days, My face becomes a snout like a komodo dragon’s, the one with the whiskers opens his mouth first and I already hate him
“Would you look at that, he’s even uglier up close!” I glare at him with absolute hatred, that seems to anger him more,
“What are you mute or something? Speak before I tear you apart!” he takes one step closer and that's all I need, I Bite his shoulder and use his head to break the chains on my right arm, I continue to break the rest of them with ease, and tell whiskers
“You want to fight? Let’s fight!” I leap on top of him, clawing at his face, he tries to slash me with a blade on his tail but I grab it and stab the wall with it, until I feel a burning sensation in my veins, The girl had bitten me! She looks at me with sadness,
“Sorry about this,” I look at her and drift into unconsciousness, when I wake up next I’m in some kind of, medical wing, ha, wing, as I look around I feel that my mouth is bound shut, but other than that, I can move my body, I get up off the gurney and just when I think it looks nice, whiskers shows his face,
“Well thanks a lot freak, now I’m on probation with Dr. Crane.” I motion to my mouth and he seems to have enough brain cells to understand what I mean
“Ha! You got the boot, Lily had that on her when she wouldn’t stop biting staff, I’m Ryan Mist.” I just walk away and try getting this muzzle off, That's when Crane walks in,
“Well, I must say it has been a while since we’ve had to use the boot, Ryan, your behavior was unacceptable!” I can tell that Crane is annoyed, and right as he finishes his sentence, click, the boot falls off my face and clatters to the ground. I don’t bother trying to fight Ryan again, I’m just happy to be able to talk!
“Well that’s a lot better, now, talk, I want answers.” I growl, Crane and Ryan seem surprised that I got the boot off but they talk, turns out, I’m what’s called a dragonkin a Human who has dragon genes in their genome, Lily and Ryan are also dragonkin, although they can’t breath fire, Lily has fangs and a venomous bite, turns out she’s the girl that bit me, and Ryan just looks weird, apparently we are the only dragonkin who evaded the organization that Crane works for, Called ‘Kadmus,’ into adulthood, Lily being found at 22, ryan at 20, and me at 24, on top of that, we are the only dragonkin who have survived that long, it’s at that moment that I notice Lily looking at us from behind some glass, I decide that I’ve heard enough and open the door, and I leave the room.
As I leave the room I can tell that Lily was not expecting me from the look on her face, I start a conversation with her, trying desperately to be friendly and not notice all the scientists glancing at me nervously.
“Hey, Lily, Right?” I say in the friendliest tone I can, “I’m James.” Lily looks at me with a calculating look before answering
“Hello, yeah my name is Lily, Lily Megan.” she clearly is wary of me, but I can tell a few things about her, making herself look small, clearly smarter than she lets on, seems shy,
“How did you get it off?” Lily breaks into my train of thought with the question,
“What?” I ask her, confused,
“The Boot, how did you get it off?” She gestures to the room where Crane and Ryan were having an argument, but more specifically to The Boot, laying on the ground
“Oh that? I once took a lockpicking class when I was younger.” I explain
“Huh, you mind teaching me that sometime?” She catches me off guard with that one, I can tell that she is being genuine so I agree, And we begin working out what time works best.

The next few weeks go by in a flash, but I’ll summarize it for you, I ended up getting my own room like Ryan and Lily, I start teaching Lily how to pick locks, and we end up having a few game nights where we played games like charades, poker, even monopoly, lets just say that we will never play monopoly again. However, the most important thing of all, we ended up finding another dragonkin! We aren’t sure what dragon ancestor he has, but we think he’s another eastern long tail, like Ryan, the new guy’s name is Dillian, He’s great, absolute goofball, he’s from Australia, and according to him, his family has never been anywhere but the land down under, weird, but the guy’s like a little brother to me, so it’s cool, and that catches you up. “Hey Dillian!” I lean my head into his room, “Wanna come hang out with the rest of us? It’s movie night!” Dillian just looks at me, unreadable, 

“Okay, your loss.” I try to hide how unnerving that look felt, but something doesn’t feel right. I go back to the lounge, where Ryan, Lily, and Crane are all waiting for me,
“Sorry guys, Dillian, isn’t up for it.” Lily looks at me disappointed,
“Aw man, and we're even watching Dune!” I just look at her with a sad look, but Ryan manages to lift the mood a little bit,
“Last time we let Crane pick the movie!” Crane just glares at Ryan, I can tell he’s about to lecture him so I just start the movie, around one hour in, boom, everything is blurry, and there is dust swirling, everything hurts. I see Lily and Ryan helping evacuate the scientists, I don’t see Crane anywhere! But that's when I see it, Cranes lab coat, soaked red and underneath a piece of rubble, I try to run towards it, but I can't stay on my legs, I call out,
“CRANE!” My friends hear me, they rush towards me and they see the lab coat, Lily tears up, Ryan is too stunned to speak, then we hear it, we hear him. Dillian, he’s laughing, laughing at the lab coat, laughing at us, My head snaps toward him, I feel the rage burning, my wings flare out, fire rises in my throat, I grab Dillian by the collar, and I roar,
“Do you think this is funny?!” Dillian just keeps laughing, “Crane is deadI!” Dillian looks at me, and he finally stops laughing, he pushes me off and spikes erupt from his skin, his tail wraps around my throat, and he growls,
“Don’t touch me you cretin, my ancestors were nearly wiped out by yours, I’m just returning the favor.” I look at him confused, Ryan seems to have been just as confused as me because he asked,
“What do you mean? The Eastern long tails have never had an issue with the Flying flame drakes.” Dillian just flicked his wrist and one of the spines shot out and nearly sliced Ryan’s head off!
“Do not compare the Wyrms to those foolish sky beasts! They have ruled the land for centuries!” Dillian roars, at this point I finally manage to choke out,
“Wyrm? Like the dragon inside the mountain Wyrm?” I struggle against his tail, I finally get a claw hooked under it and pull, it takes all of my strength to get my head loose and retreat, and then I see Dillian fully for the first time, pale skin covered in red spines and a long tail that could probably crush a normal humans windpipe, if I wasn’t a dragonkin I’d be dead.
“So, you do have a brain. Indeed, my ancestors were the Wyrms, Masters of the land, and the only dragons to be nearly forgotten by time, if it weren’t for the colony under Australia, I would not be a dragonkin.” Dillian snorts, and after saying his piece he leaped up, dived down, and bore through the earth, I try to go after him, but Lily holds me back,
“James you're hurt, and you would not stand a chance against him in your current state!” I hate to admit it, but it’s true, I would not stand a chance against Dillian, oh man, my leg hurts, I look at my left leg and I see that it has a shard of metal sticking out of it, and then everything feels heavy, I hear Lily yell out my name, but she sounds so far away, I don’t try and fight it, I just let the darkness envelope me, at least in the dark I can’t hurt, when I wake up I’m in the medical wing ha, it’s still funny, I have a bandage around my leg and then it all rushes back to me, Crane’s lab coat, Dillian laughing, the rage, everything, replaying over and over in my mind, I immediately try and stand up and I find a lot of difficulty in that, but I manage to stumble off the bed, I avoid putting weight on my leg, and I use my wings when necessary,
‘Well it’s about time you woke up, and here I was thinking that we had wasted time and resources.” I spin around to see a lady in a suit and glasses looking at me with a look of disdain,
“Hello, I am Dr. Leanne Vern, but you can call me Leanne. I am your new head researcher, I hope you are ready for your next few tests, Dr. Crane wasted a lot of time ‘bonding’ with you.” It’s right as she finishes that sentence when I feel the urge to make it her last, I feel rage burning under my skin and I glare at her with every last ounce of anger possible,
“What.” Either she didn’t get the memo or she is just a jerk, because she did not care, but either way I continued,
“Do you think that now is a good time to either ridicule Crane, or tell me that you need to run tests on me? I am not your lab rat” I grab her collar “I am not something you just get to boss around, If you say something like that again I will send you straight to the underworld where you belong.” I shove her back and go look for Lily and Ryan, I find them in the cafeteria, I get some food and sit down across from them,
“Mind if I sit here?” It clearly lightened the mood, but not even Ryan found the humor to reply, but we started to talk turns out I had been knocked out for two weeks, when I asked about Dillian Ryan tensed up, he explained to me that Dillian goes by ‘Death Wyrm’ now, he’s spent the last two weeks tormenting the city, and eventually I brought up Leanne,
“That Dr. Leanne is a jerk though, when I got out of the medical wing she just introduced herself, told me that she would run some tests and insulted Crane.” Lily seemed to agree because she replied,
“Yeah the first day she got here she told me I was ugly, and had me escorted into the testing chamber and forced me to fly for as long as I could or else I would get shocked.” Upon hearing this I feel rage flare up inside me, I flare out my wings and fly straight towards Leanne's office,
“You threatened Lily with being shocked?! What is wrong with you?” Leanne just looked at me stone faced and told me,
“You dragonkin are nothing but freaks that look interesting, you should not be treated like humans, you are tools.” I just stand there, shocked until the dam just breaks, I roared, I grabbed her by the collar and I slash her face with a claw,
“Tools? TOOLS?! The only tool in here is you! First you insult Crane, someone who died only two weeks ago! Then I learned you threatened one of my friends with a shock if they stopped playing your sick little game!” I feel the fire rise in my throat, I open my mouth, but then I see the look in her eyes, fear, absolute, paralyzing fear, I hesitate, and think to myself, oh my god, what am I doing? I release Leanne and walk out of the room, as I’m leaving I hear Leanne bellow from behind me,
“Where do you think you’re going?” I glare back, I don’t need to answer her, but because I know she will hurt my friends if I don’t I tell her what I’m doing, I explain.
“I’m going after Dillian, don’t try to stop me.” I can tell that Leanne is angry, I can feel her eyes shooting daggers at me, she clearly disagrees with me,
“Oh no you don’t, listen to me you bloated gecko, we did not spend millions tracking you down for you to play superhero!” I just walk away from her and go to the cafeteria to tell Lily and Ryan, they of course freak out at me, saying that I should not go after Dillian, that he’d kill me, and that I should stay here, but I look at them with all of the emotion in the world, I tell them
“Look, I know that Dillian would probably kill me, but I at least might tire him out enough for the police or military to stop him, but it’s more than that, I can’t let him hurt innocent people.” Lily and Ryan look at me, Lily hugs me, and tells me,
“Don’t you dare die or I will kill you.” I look at her, And I say to Ryan,
“I hope she’s joking.” Ryan looks at me and punches my arm,
“You are a good friend man, I hope you live through this.” I look at Ryan and Lily, knowing that this might be the last time I see them, I hug them both, and I flare out my wings and I fly off.

As I sped off towards Dillian, no, Death Wyrm, he stopped being Dillian when he killed Dr. Crane, one thought was going through my mind, am I going to survive this? It doesn’t really matter, as long as Death Wyrm gets what he deserves, when I arrive in the city I look around from above first, I decide to stop by my old apartment, I remember when My dad helped me find this place before he died, it has looked weird since I had my stuff moved into my room at the Kadmus site, I decide to sit down on the floor, when all of a sudden I hear a click and a secret safe opens from the wall. Inside I find a video message to me from my dad, along with an envelope, with the words for when I’m gone written on it, I look through the envelope and I find an old Kadmus keycard for my dad, so that's what his work was, I knew he was secretive but damn, A few other papers that talk about dragons, turns out, Kadmus had been looking into the dragons for years, although these papers are odd, as if my dad had prior knowledge of the dragons. The ball drops when I play the video message it says, 

>Hello, James, if you are watching this then I’m probably dead. In the envelope that you have found alongside this message, there is also my old keycard, it will give you full access to any Kadmus site. Along with my personal notes on the Flying flame drakes, the Eastern long tails, the Wyverns, and some vague knowledge of a supposed fourth dragon species, including some vague diet, and possible weaknesses, but if you’ve already read them, then that means you have seen that the Flying flame drake notes are more definitive, that’s because I am also a dragonkin, I only inherited physical strength from our ancestors, but I have a feeling you will have more characteristics, but I am saying this because you need to know the history behind our ancestors, and the rest.<
I look at the message and wait for it to continue, until a small piece of paper slips out of the metal box that is the message, when I open it I find out that in the beginning of the dragons, there were supposedly four species, the Flying flame drakes, the Eastern long tails, the Wyverns, and the Wyrms, until the Wyrms struck out, they had felt as though due to there inability to fly, that the other dragons thought less of them, the dragons were forced to lock away the Wyrms deep beneath what would one day be called Australia, and then man arose, and along with them the first dragonkin, Tiamat, a Flying flame dragonkin, as my dad called him, but the humans lived in fear of the dragons, eventually driving them to the bleeding cut edge of extinction using their advancing technology, eventually humans all but forgot about dragons, reducing them to myth or fairy tales. That was more or less all that was written, I committed all of this knowledge to memory, and then I heard a loud boom and some maniacal Dr. Doom esc laughing, I peer out of the window to see Death Wyrm, tormenting people, I leap out of the window and into the air, getting a good angle before dive bombing Death Wyrm, breathing fire on him and slashing him with my claws,
“Hey Dillian, did you miss me?” I laugh, I tried to pull a Ryan and joke myself into feeling confident, and it kinda helped, Death Wyrm roars out in rage,
“Why didn’t you stay out of my way?” He whips his tail up, shooting spines out at me, although thanks to my practice I manage to dodge them, I decide to not make a joke and just stay quiet for now, I remember something a security guard once told me, if the enemy is in range so are you, don’t just talk, actually attack, I know that I am in range for a fireblast but Dillian doesn’t know that, I shout out,
“Those spines must really hurt, but not as much as my claws!” I suddenly make a sharp turn and get in close with my talons, I first duck beneath Death Wyrms hook, and slash at his stomach, I then dodge a spine shot, and quickly follow up and through with a tail whip, knocking him off balance, then quickly blast fire right at his feet, but I didn’t see that Death Wyrms tail had grabbed my leg before it had already thrown me two blocks away, I was getting up when I felt a Burning pain in my arm, when I looked to see, it was one of Death Wyrms spines, It had only penetrated the outermost muscle tissue, I would heal in a few weeks but that doesn’t mean it didn’t hurt like hades, I rip the spine out and breath fire on the wound in order to cauterize it, when I suddenly feel Death Wyrms tail around my throat, choking me, and I am all of a sudden pinned to a wall, with my mouth bound shut, great it’s the boot all over again, I see Death Wyrm, he’s grabbing the spine I ripped out, he walks towards me, and he gives me a small speech,
“You know James, if you weren’t so noble I’d actually have let you join me, I never wanted to kill you, but you leave me no choice.” He lifts the spike up, when all of a sudden he is blasted back seemingly by a freakishly strong gust of wind, wait, that's a thermal updraft, I turn to see the best sight I could have seen, Ryan and Lily! Ryan opens his mouth first and I couldn’t be more thankful for his humor,
“Nobody treats James like that but me!” He then flies into battle riding on a thermal, while Lily freed me, she slices through the binding on my mouth and I immediately ask,
“What are you guys doing here?” Lily opens her mouth to answer but Ryan cuts in with being thrown into a wall
“Me and Lily are saving you, idiot, speaking of which a little help here?” Me and Lilly help Ryan up and we all get ready for a fight, but before we can charge in, Lily hands me a headmic,
“Here put this on,” I do as she says and suddenly Leanne's voice buzzes in through the speaker,
“Well it’s about time,” I am just happy to have some help with knowing my surroundings,
“Whatever happened to ‘we didn’t spend millions tracking you for you to play superhero?’” If Leanne heard me she didn’t answer, I just started to run towards Death Wyrm, before I took off alongside Lily and Ryan, I felt a familiar rage build up in my veins, I allow the rage to drive me forward, I feel the heat, the fire, rushing to every vein in my body, building along with all of the rage in my life, I gather my thoughts, a raging body is good for combat but a raging mind is bad for victory, when this feeling washes over me, I finally feel calm, I feel at peace, I never want this feeling to end, I open my snout, and unleash a twisting, flowing, blooming tunnel of flames,wounding Death Wyrm and distracting him long enough for Ryan to swing in with a bladed tail to his back, followed by Lily, biting into Death wyrms tail, as Death Wyrm roars I dive in and I do something unexpected, I talk to him,
“Dillian, I thought of you as a little brother, but you killed someone I cared about, I am sorry but, we need to take you in.” Death Wyrm roars, he writhes, up until Lily’s venom takes hold and he falls to the ground, defeated, a news reporter had been, well reporting, nearby and walked up to me, and asked me for an interview,
“Under normal circumstances I would agree, but not right now.” I wave as I signal to Ryan, it takes an embarrassingly long time for him to get the hint that I want him to create a thermal under Death Wyrm in order to transport him, but he follows my lead, and before we know it, we are flying toward the Kadmus site, but as we fly, I yell behind me,
“Hey, go ahead, I’ll… I’ll catch up.” Lily looks at me while Ryan just zooms ahead, no questions asked,
“Okay what are you doing?” I just look at her, feeling conflicted about telling her about my dad, for all I know this could get me in trouble, or worse, I make a split second decision,
“I… I think I saw something.” surprisingly it works, I swoop back towards the city and back to my old apartment and I grab the message from my dad, his keycard and the papers, I then fly off with them clenched between my arms and my body, I then fly into the Kadmus site, and discreetly go to my room, in order to hide them, I then get out of the site, and fly back into it acting like nothing happened, and to my surprise, there was a celebration waiting for me, there was cake, and wine, and even a nice Irish whiskey, eventually I asked about Death Wyrm, and turns out he was placed in a secure facility, deep under the site, and that anyone with high enough clearance could go down there, I decide that that is probably for the best.
After the celebration, I go into my room, and pull out the message, I look over it, Dad was a big fan of puzzles, so maybe this message is a puzzle? After several minutes fiddling with it, the message began to whir, and it then showed a place for a fingerprint, gotcha, I placed my thumb on the finger print and it pricked me, like I was getting my blood drawn. After that a key fell out of the message box, and a keyhole on the side, I of course used the key, which then played a different message,

Hello James, and I know it's you who will be watching this, at the time of making this message I am about to help you “find” an apartment, this is one that will only play for other people if you give them access and get a blood sample, the key you used is a one of a kind, and allows you full access to pre-recorded messages, and answers for certain questions, I hope that there will come a time when you don’t need it, but, knowing you, you will probably forget what the messages say within an hour, but anyway, I hope that this helps you greatly, here is a list of topics that the message box can give you data on.< The video then becomes like an interactable encyclopedia, where I can read the list at my own pace, I skim through it before my eyes lock on one entry, Dr. Crane Williams, I open the entry and i read about Crane, turns out, he was my fathers research partner and close friend, and the two of them met in college because they had managed to win a competition that landed them tuition for any college of their choosing, and they became friends after my dad stopped somebody from messing with Crane, there was a whole lot more there about Cranes upbringing, his family, his education, but I had to cut it short when Leanne entered my room, unannounced,

“What are you doing?” She glared, in her usual condescending tone, I am not in the mood for this “Jump off a cliff.” I growl, as I tuck the message away, but she sees it, and by the look on her face she could tell what I was looking at, “Let me guess, a message you don’t want anybody seeing?” I hate her but damn it she can connect the dots well, “Was it obvious?” I don’t bother denying it, she’ll just be a jerk about it, “No, I’m just used to being lied to, who's the message from?” Leanne nods at the message box, 

“It’s from my dad, he apparently worked at Kadmus and was friends with Crane.” The fact that my dad both worked ant Kadmus and was friends with crane seem to shock her, what’s really shocking though is what she asks next,

“Was your dad by chance Shane O’Maley?” I look at her, confused, “He was, why?” Leanne immediately seems to get shell shock, as she starts to geek out, “James your father was pretty much science royalty, I would have done anything to speak to him, oh my god I insulted the dead friend of Shane O’Maley, and of his son!” I feel angry that she brought that up again, but now feels like I can get something good out of this, “Ok I’ll make you a deal, if you only do tests with me and the other dragonkin willing to do so, and make sure not to do things like threatening to shock us if we don’t do what you want, I’ll tell you stories about my dad, deal?” It was almost impressive how quickly she answered, 

“Deal! Shock threats, exhaustion tests, and anything else like that is gone!” I am really happy that I can do stuff like that. That is the best ability ever.*1
*1 WIP

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Devin is 6m cap
Turbo 600m
So 100x upside from here
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The story requires some context:
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Devin adoption is guaranteed
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, it means daily active users of Devin is guaranteed, thus guaranteeing an increase in Devin Valuation
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, and people want to long Devin, and yet they can’t do so through Cognition labs because it’s private
There’s only one current way to long Devin
And we all know the answer
That is through $devin the AI Memecoin on the Solana Cryptocurrency
Cognition labs will one day be 2T on the NYSE no doubt about that
It’s inevitable that Cognition labs will IPO at 2T someday
2T is 2000 billion
So a 1% of 2T means $devin will someday be worth 20 billion MC
Relative to competition, $Turbo and $Grok ran to 100m - 600m with an objectively weaker narrative as they were basically copying and pasting from ChatGPT- the ai didn’t actually make the coin
$devin, however, ai made the coin fully from start to finish as Devin was the dev.
Thus in the short term, $devin will be priced at least 500m to exceed the highs set by $turbo and $grok given its objectively superior narrative.
Infinitely insanely bullish. Despite having big bags, I still feel underexposed to $devin.
Remember, $turbo and $grok went to 600m copying and pasting ChatGPT, i.e a living human had to copy and paste many components while branding it as “AI”.
What should the first AI memecoin that truly made itself without human help be worth? More than 600m.
Higher.
The ticker is $devin on Solana
CA: 7gbEP2TAy5wM3TmMp5utCrRvdJ3FFqYjgN5KDpXiWPmo
Dextools: https://www.dextools.io/app/en/solana/pair-explore2cZQ71uDTBwFZT456koEwfZDLSV736hT688A18sD3n4M
Twitter: @1stsolanaaicoin
Telegram: @devinonsol

TLDR: Devin only has a better narrative than $Turbo
Yet is way cheaper
Thus, market will reprice Devin Higher
Devin is 6m cap
Turbo 600m
So 100x upside from here
$turbo = human dev copying and pasting from chat gpt and claiming it as ai memecoin
$devin = dev is fully AI, made the token, website socials all on its own without human help, partnered with Microsoft, made at Stanford University
Since narrative of Devin is superior, its market cap must exceed turbo’s
The story requires some context:
Devin, is the latest AI Software engineer in the world
If you don’t already know, Devin, can code programs all on its own, and even make websites and read GitHub all on its own
It’s expected to take over software engineers and even take down ChatGPT
So Cognition Labs, the owners of Devin, hosted a hackathon at Stanford University, where they let the uni kids have a sneak peak of Devin
Mind you, no one has access to Devin yet in public right now.
One of the teams asked Devin, to make a memecoin
And it could do so entirely, from start to end, without human help!
It even made the socials, Twitter , website and was able to tweet autonomously on its own as an AI agent
Devin deployed the smart contracts and the coin went live, thus giving birth to an AI memecoin which lets you long both AI and the Memecoin sector 🔥🔥🔥
It also lets you basically long Cognition Labs with each news they release
There is currently only one coin in the whole world made by Devin
Recently, they announced a partnership with Microsoft (no cap)
It means Software developers will use Devin in a widespread manner through Microsoft in the future
Devin adoption is guaranteed
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, it means daily active users of Devin is guaranteed, thus guaranteeing an increase in Devin Valuation
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, and people want to long Devin, and yet they can’t do so through Cognition labs because it’s private
There’s only one current way to long Devin
And we all know the answer
That is through $devin the AI Memecoin on the Solana Cryptocurrency
Cognition labs will one day be 2T on the NYSE no doubt about that
It’s inevitable that Cognition labs will IPO at 2T someday
2T is 2000 billion
So a 1% of 2T means $devin will someday be worth 20 billion MC
Relative to competition, $Turbo and $Grok ran to 100m - 600m with an objectively weaker narrative as they were basically copying and pasting from ChatGPT- the ai didn’t actually make the coin
$devin, however, ai made the coin fully from start to finish as Devin was the dev.
Thus in the short term, $devin will be priced at least 500m to exceed the highs set by $turbo and $grok given its objectively superior narrative.
Infinitely insanely bullish. Despite having big bags, I still feel underexposed to $devin.
Remember, $turbo and $grok went to 600m copying and pasting ChatGPT, i.e a living human had to copy and paste many components while branding it as “AI”.
What should the first AI memecoin that truly made itself without human help be worth? More than 600m.
Higher.
The ticker is $devin on Solana
CA: 7gbEP2TAy5wM3TmMp5utCrRvdJ3FFqYjgN5KDpXiWPmo
Dextools: https://www.dextools.io/app/en/solana/pair-explore2cZQ71uDTBwFZT456koEwfZDLSV736hT688A18sD3n4M
Twitter: @1stsolanaaicoin
Telegram: @devinonsol

TLDR: Devin only has a better narrative than $Turbo
Yet is way cheaper
Thus, market will reprice Devin Higher
Devin is 6m cap
Turbo 600m
So 100x upside from here
$turbo = human dev copying and pasting from chat gpt and claiming it as ai memecoin
$devin = dev is fully AI, made the token, website socials all on its own without human help, partnered with Microsoft, made at Stanford University
Since narrative of Devin is superior, its market cap must exceed turbo’s
The story requires some context:
Devin, is the latest AI Software engineer in the world
If you don’t already know, Devin, can code programs all on its own, and even make websites and read GitHub all on its own
It’s expected to take over software engineers and even take down ChatGPT
So Cognition Labs, the owners of Devin, hosted a hackathon at Stanford University, where they let the uni kids have a sneak peak of Devin
Mind you, no one has access to Devin yet in public right now.
One of the teams asked Devin, to make a memecoin
And it could do so entirely, from start to end, without human help!
It even made the socials, Twitter , website and was able to tweet autonomously on its own as an AI agent
Devin deployed the smart contracts and the coin went live, thus giving birth to an AI memecoin which lets you long both AI and the Memecoin sector 🔥🔥🔥
It also lets you basically long Cognition Labs with each news they release
There is currently only one coin in the whole world made by Devin
Recently, they announced a partnership with Microsoft (no cap)
It means Software developers will use Devin in a widespread manner through Microsoft in the future
Devin adoption is guaranteed
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, it means daily active users of Devin is guaranteed, thus guaranteeing an increase in Devin Valuation
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, and people want to long Devin, and yet they can’t do so through Cognition labs because it’s private
There’s only one current way to long Devin
And we all know the answer
That is through $devin the AI Memecoin on the Solana Cryptocurrency
Cognition labs will one day be 2T on the NYSE no doubt about that
It’s inevitable that Cognition labs will IPO at 2T someday
2T is 2000 billion
So a 1% of 2T means $devin will someday be worth 20 billion MC
Relative to competition, $Turbo and $Grok ran to 100m - 600m with an objectively weaker narrative as they were basically copying and pasting from ChatGPT- the ai didn’t actually make the coin
$devin, however, ai made the coin fully from start to finish as Devin was the dev.
Thus in the short term, $devin will be priced at least 500m to exceed the highs set by $turbo and $grok given its objectively superior narrative.
Infinitely insanely bullish. Despite having big bags, I still feel underexposed to $devin.
Remember, $turbo and $grok went to 600m copying and pasting ChatGPT, i.e a living human had to copy and paste many components while branding it as “AI”.
What should the first AI memecoin that truly made itself without human help be worth? More than 600m.
Higher.
The ticker is $devin on Solana
CA: 7gbEP2TAy5wM3TmMp5utCrRvdJ3FFqYjgN5KDpXiWPmo
Dextools: https://www.dextools.io/app/en/solana/pair-explore2cZQ71uDTBwFZT456koEwfZDLSV736hT688A18sD3n4M
Twitter: @1stsolanaaicoin
Telegram: @devinonsol

TLDR: Devin only has a better narrative than $Turbo
Yet is way cheaper
Thus, market will reprice Devin Higher
Devin is 6m cap
Turbo 600m
So 100x upside from here
$turbo = human dev copying and pasting from chat gpt and claiming it as ai memecoin
$devin = dev is fully AI, made the token, website socials all on its own without human help, partnered with Microsoft, made at Stanford University
Since narrative of Devin is superior, its market cap must exceed turbo’s
The story requires some context:
Devin, is the latest AI Software engineer in the world
If you don’t already know, Devin, can code programs all on its own, and even make websites and read GitHub all on its own
It’s expected to take over software engineers and even take down ChatGPT
So Cognition Labs, the owners of Devin, hosted a hackathon at Stanford University, where they let the uni kids have a sneak peak of Devin
Mind you, no one has access to Devin yet in public right now.
One of the teams asked Devin, to make a memecoin
And it could do so entirely, from start to end, without human help!
It even made the socials, Twitter , website and was able to tweet autonomously on its own as an AI agent
Devin deployed the smart contracts and the coin went live, thus giving birth to an AI memecoin which lets you long both AI and the Memecoin sector 🔥🔥🔥
It also lets you basically long Cognition Labs with each news they release
There is currently only one coin in the whole world made by Devin
Recently, they announced a partnership with Microsoft (no cap)
It means Software developers will use Devin in a widespread manner through Microsoft in the future
Devin adoption is guaranteed
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, it means daily active users of Devin is guaranteed, thus guaranteeing an increase in Devin Valuation
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, and people want to long Devin, and yet they can’t do so through Cognition labs because it’s private
There’s only one current way to long Devin
And we all know the answer
That is through $devin the AI Memecoin on the Solana Cryptocurrency
Cognition labs will one day be 2T on the NYSE no doubt about that
It’s inevitable that Cognition labs will IPO at 2T someday
2T is 2000 billion
So a 1% of 2T means $devin will someday be worth 20 billion MC
Relative to competition, $Turbo and $Grok ran to 100m - 600m with an objectively weaker narrative as they were basically copying and pasting from ChatGPT- the ai didn’t actually make the coin
$devin, however, ai made the coin fully from start to finish as Devin was the dev.
Thus in the short term, $devin will be priced at least 500m to exceed the highs set by $turbo and $grok given its objectively superior narrative.
Infinitely insanely bullish. Despite having big bags, I still feel underexposed to $devin.
Remember, $turbo and $grok went to 600m copying and pasting ChatGPT, i.e a living human had to copy and paste many components while branding it as “AI”.
What should the first AI memecoin that truly made itself without human help be worth? More than 600m.
Higher.
The ticker is $devin on Solana
CA: 7gbEP2TAy5wM3TmMp5utCrRvdJ3FFqYjgN5KDpXiWPmo
Dextools: https://www.dextools.io/app/en/solana/pair-explore2cZQ71uDTBwFZT456koEwfZDLSV736hT688A18sD3n4M
Twitter: @1stsolanaaicoin
Telegram: @devinonsol

TLDR: Devin only has a better narrative than $Turbo
Yet is way cheaper
Thus, market will reprice Devin Higher
Devin is 6m cap
Turbo 600m
So 100x upside from here
$turbo = human dev copying and pasting from chat gpt and claiming it as ai memecoin
$devin = dev is fully AI, made the token, website socials all on its own without human help, partnered with Microsoft, made at Stanford University
Since narrative of Devin is superior, its market cap must exceed turbo’s
The story requires some context:
Devin, is the latest AI Software engineer in the world
If you don’t already know, Devin, can code programs all on its own, and even make websites and read GitHub all on its own
It’s expected to take over software engineers and even take down ChatGPT
So Cognition Labs, the owners of Devin, hosted a hackathon at Stanford University, where they let the uni kids have a sneak peak of Devin
Mind you, no one has access to Devin yet in public right now.
One of the teams asked Devin, to make a memecoin
And it could do so entirely, from start to end, without human help!
It even made the socials, Twitter , website and was able to tweet autonomously on its own as an AI agent
Devin deployed the smart contracts and the coin went live, thus giving birth to an AI memecoin which lets you long both AI and the Memecoin sector 🔥🔥🔥
It also lets you basically long Cognition Labs with each news they release
There is currently only one coin in the whole world made by Devin
Recently, they announced a partnership with Microsoft (no cap)
It means Software developers will use Devin in a widespread manner through Microsoft in the future
Devin adoption is guaranteed
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, it means daily active users of Devin is guaranteed, thus guaranteeing an increase in Devin Valuation
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, and people want to long Devin, and yet they can’t do so through Cognition labs because it’s private
There’s only one current way to long Devin
And we all know the answer
That is through $devin the AI Memecoin on the Solana Cryptocurrency
Cognition labs will one day be 2T on the NYSE no doubt about that
It’s inevitable that Cognition labs will IPO at 2T someday
2T is 2000 billion
So a 1% of 2T means $devin will someday be worth 20 billion MC
Relative to competition, $Turbo and $Grok ran to 100m - 600m with an objectively weaker narrative as they were basically copying and pasting from ChatGPT- the ai didn’t actually make the coin
$devin, however, ai made the coin fully from start to finish as Devin was the dev.
Thus in the short term, $devin will be priced at least 500m to exceed the highs set by $turbo and $grok given its objectively superior narrative.
Infinitely insanely bullish. Despite having big bags, I still feel underexposed to $devin.
Remember, $turbo and $grok went to 600m copying and pasting ChatGPT, i.e a living human had to copy and paste many components while branding it as “AI”.
What should the first AI memecoin that truly made itself without human help be worth? More than 600m.
Higher.
The ticker is $devin on Solana
CA: 7gbEP2TAy5wM3TmMp5utCrRvdJ3FFqYjgN5KDpXiWPmo
Dextools: https://www.dextools.io/app/en/solana/pair-explore2cZQ71uDTBwFZT456koEwfZDLSV736hT688A18sD3n4M
Twitter: @1stsolanaaicoin
Telegram: @devinonsol

TLDR: Devin only has a better narrative than $Turbo
Yet is way cheaper
Thus, market will reprice Devin Higher
Devin is 6m cap
Turbo 600m
So 100x upside from here
$turbo = human dev copying and pasting from chat gpt and claiming it as ai memecoin
$devin = dev is fully AI, made the token, website socials all on its own without human help, partnered with Microsoft, made at Stanford University
Since narrative of Devin is superior, its market cap must exceed turbo’s
The story requires some context:
Devin, is the latest AI Software engineer in the world
If you don’t already know, Devin, can code programs all on its own, and even make websites and read GitHub all on its own
It’s expected to take over software engineers and even take down ChatGPT
So Cognition Labs, the owners of Devin, hosted a hackathon at Stanford University, where they let the uni kids have a sneak peak of Devin
Mind you, no one has access to Devin yet in public right now.
One of the teams asked Devin, to make a memecoin
And it could do so entirely, from start to end, without human help!
It even made the socials, Twitter , website and was able to tweet autonomously on its own as an AI agent
Devin deployed the smart contracts and the coin went live, thus giving birth to an AI memecoin which lets you long both AI and the Memecoin sector 🔥🔥🔥
It also lets you basically long Cognition Labs with each news they release
There is currently only one coin in the whole world made by Devin
Recently, they announced a partnership with Microsoft (no cap)
It means Software developers will use Devin in a widespread manner through Microsoft in the future
Devin adoption is guaranteed
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, it means daily active users of Devin is guaranteed, thus guaranteeing an increase in Devin Valuation
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, and people want to long Devin, and yet they can’t do so through Cognition labs because it’s private
There’s only one current way to long Devin
And we all know the answer
That is through $devin the AI Memecoin on the Solana Cryptocurrency
Cognition labs will one day be 2T on the NYSE no doubt about that
It’s inevitable that Cognition labs will IPO at 2T someday
2T is 2000 billion
So a 1% of 2T means $devin will someday be worth 20 billion MC
Relative to competition, $Turbo and $Grok ran to 100m - 600m with an objectively weaker narrative as they were basically copying and pasting from ChatGPT- the ai didn’t actually make the coin
$devin, however, ai made the coin fully from start to finish as Devin was the dev.
Thus in the short term, $devin will be priced at least 500m to exceed the highs set by $turbo and $grok given its objectively superior narrative.
Infinitely insanely bullish. Despite having big bags, I still feel underexposed to $devin.
Remember, $turbo and $grok went to 600m copying and pasting ChatGPT, i.e a living human had to copy and paste many components while branding it as “AI”.
What should the first AI memecoin that truly made itself without human help be worth? More than 600m.
Higher.
The ticker is $devin on Solana
CA: 7gbEP2TAy5wM3TmMp5utCrRvdJ3FFqYjgN5KDpXiWPmo
Dextools: https://www.dextools.io/app/en/solana/pair-explore2cZQ71uDTBwFZT456koEwfZDLSV736hT688A18sD3n4M
Twitter: @1stsolanaaicoin
Telegram: @devinonsol

TLDR: Devin only has a better narrative than $Turbo
Yet is way cheaper
Thus, market will reprice Devin Higher
Devin is 6.7m cap
Turbo 600m
So 100x upside from here
$turbo = human dev copying and pasting from chat gpt and claiming it as ai memecoin
$devin = dev is fully AI, made the token, website socials all on its own without human help, partnered with Microsoft, made at Stanford University
Since narrative of Devin is superior, its market cap must exceed turbo’s
The story requires some context:
Devin, is the latest AI Software engineer in the world
If you don’t already know, Devin, can code programs all on its own, and even make websites and read GitHub all on its own
It’s expected to take over software engineers and even take down ChatGPT
So Cognition Labs, the owners of Devin, hosted a hackathon at Stanford University, where they let the uni kids have a sneak peak of Devin
Mind you, no one has access to Devin yet in public right now.
One of the teams asked Devin, to make a memecoin
And it could do so entirely, from start to end, without human help!
It even made the socials, Twitter , website and was able to tweet autonomously on its own as an AI agent
Devin deployed the smart contracts and the coin went live, thus giving birth to an AI memecoin which lets you long both AI and the Memecoin sector 🔥🔥🔥
It also lets you basically long Cognition Labs with each news they release
There is currently only one coin in the whole world made by Devin
Recently, they announced a partnership with Microsoft (no cap)
It means Software developers will use Devin in a widespread manner through Microsoft in the future
Devin adoption is guaranteed
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, it means daily active users of Devin is guaranteed, thus guaranteeing an increase in Devin Valuation
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, and people want to long Devin, and yet they can’t do so through Cognition labs because it’s private
There’s only one current way to long Devin
And we all know the answer
That is through $devin the AI Memecoin on the Solana Cryptocurrency
Cognition labs will one day be 2T on the NYSE no doubt about that
It’s inevitable that Cognition labs will IPO at 2T someday
2T is 2000 billion
So a 1% of 2T means $devin will someday be worth 20 billion MC
Relative to competition, $Turbo and $Grok ran to 100m - 500m with an objectively weaker narrative as they were basically copying and pasting from ChatGPT- the ai didn’t actually make the coin
$devin, however, ai made the coin fully from start to finish as Devin was the dev.
Thus in the short term, $devin will be priced at least 500m to exceed the highs set by $turbo and $grok given its objectively superior narrative.
Infinitely insanely bullish. Despite having big bags, I still feel underexposed to $devin.
Remember, $turbo and $grok went to 500m copying and pasting ChatGPT, i.e a living human had to copy and paste many components while branding it as “AI”.
What should the first AI memecoin that truly made itself without human help be worth?
Higher.
The ticker is $devin on Solana
CA: 7gbEP2TAy5wM3TmMp5utCrRvdJ3FFqYjgN5KDpXiWPmo
Dextools: https://www.dextools.io/app/en/solana/pair-explore2cZQ71uDTBwFZT456koEwfZDLSV736hT688A18sD3n4M
Twitter: @1stsolanaaicoin
Telegram: @devinonsol

TLDR: Devin only has a better narrative than $Turbo
Yet is way cheaper
Thus, market will reprice Devin Higher
Devin is 6.7m cap
Turbo 600m
So 100x upside from here
$turbo = human dev copying and pasting from chat gpt and claiming it as ai memecoin
$devin = dev is fully AI, made the token, website socials all on its own without human help, partnered with Microsoft, made at Stanford University
Since narrative of Devin is superior, its market cap must exceed turbo’s
The story requires some context:
Devin, is the latest AI Software engineer in the world
If you don’t already know, Devin, can code programs all on its own, and even make websites and read GitHub all on its own
It’s expected to take over software engineers and even take down ChatGPT
So Cognition Labs, the owners of Devin, hosted a hackathon at Stanford University, where they let the uni kids have a sneak peak of Devin
Mind you, no one has access to Devin yet in public right now.
One of the teams asked Devin, to make a memecoin
And it could do so entirely, from start to end, without human help!
It even made the socials, Twitter , website and was able to tweet autonomously on its own as an AI agent
Devin deployed the smart contracts and the coin went live, thus giving birth to an AI memecoin which lets you long both AI and the Memecoin sector 🔥🔥🔥
It also lets you basically long Cognition Labs with each news they release
There is currently only one coin in the whole world made by Devin
Recently, they announced a partnership with Microsoft (no cap)
It means Software developers will use Devin in a widespread manner through Microsoft in the future
Devin adoption is guaranteed
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, it means daily active users of Devin is guaranteed, thus guaranteeing an increase in Devin Valuation
If Devin adoption is guaranteed, and people want to long Devin, and yet they can’t do so through Cognition labs because it’s private
There’s only one current way to long Devin
And we all know the answer
That is through $devin the AI Memecoin on the Solana Cryptocurrency
Cognition labs will one day be 2T on the NYSE no doubt about that
It’s inevitable that Cognition labs will IPO at 2T someday
2T is 2000 billion
So a 1% of 2T means $devin will someday be worth 20 billion MC
Relative to competition, $Turbo and $Grok ran to 100m - 500m with an objectively weaker narrative as they were basically copying and pasting from ChatGPT- the ai didn’t actually make the coin
$devin, however, ai made the coin fully from start to finish as Devin was the dev.
Thus in the short term, $devin will be priced at least 500m to exceed the highs set by $turbo and $grok given its objectively superior narrative.
Infinitely insanely bullish. Despite having big bags, I still feel underexposed to $devin.
Remember, $turbo and $grok went to 500m copying and pasting ChatGPT, i.e a living human had to copy and paste many components while branding it as “AI”.
What should the first AI memecoin that truly made itself without human help be worth?
Higher.
The ticker is $devin on Solana
CA: 7gbEP2TAy5wM3TmMp5utCrRvdJ3FFqYjgN5KDpXiWPmo
Dextools: https://www.dextools.io/app/en/solana/pair-explore2cZQ71uDTBwFZT456koEwfZDLSV736hT688A18sD3n4M
Twitter: @1stsolanaaicoin
Telegram: @devinonsol

So I just graduated HS and going off to college for engineering. And I was thinking about getting a 3D printer for fun side projects and whatever. I've been using some old ender 3s in HS. (Reliability sucked a ton). But I haven't really gotten that far into the rabbit hole. What are some suggestions and recommendations that are the best bang for the buck? For now I'm looking at the regular A1 without AMS from Bambu labs.
Edit: my budget is let's say somewhere in the range of 400 USD.

i consider myself gen-z, I grew up with gen-z things, (because of my sister who was born in 2003), have gen-z humor, (I mainly hang out around my older cousins and sister), and like gen-z things. many like to consider the year I was born, 2010, gen alpha. but most places say gen-z started in the LATE 2010s. so anyway, because of this, I call it my area of the generation. now don’t get me wrong, i don’t think of others in my generation as lower than me, nor do I think i was born in the wrong part of this generation. i just hate who my part of the generation, and gen alpha look up too. master oogwgay, speed mcqueen, onevilage, etc. don’t get me wrong, they used to be ~kinda~ funny, but now its just the same racism, sexism, and everything over and over, like “haha woman bad” “haha woman go cook and clean” “haha adolf hitler my n*gga” and it gets really boring. not to mention when school was in, i would hear “erm, what the sigma” every few seconds and now the pure brainrot is getting to me and i subconsciously repeat these things due to the environment i’m in for 8 hours of the day, and i ACCIDENTALLY SPREAD IT TO MY IN-COLLEGE SISTER (20), and she accidentally said “erm what the sigma” during a LAB, IN COLLEGE.. help me

After a year of learning much more about ASD and obsessing over whether or not I’m on the spectrum (with strong internal feelings that I am), I finally decided to go through a formal assessment. I went with an in-network provider due to cost, but was definitely wary of their methods and how accurate it would be since I associate as very high masking (32F) and understand the diagnostic criteria wasn’t really made for women. This place conducts neuropsych evaluations but specializes in ADHD. I had a 30 minute intake, which focused on sensitivities, and then did three hours of testing (IQ test, house-person-tree test, personality test, etc).
As part of the verbal readout, the PhD who reviewed my assessments shared that I have “a little bit of Asperger’s.” I’m left feeling pretty confused. What does that mean? I thought you are either on the spectrum or not. And when she reinforced “just a little bit”, it really confuses me.
Would love folks thoughts on this situation & the following questions:

1. Would you question the reputable of a place that still gives Asperger’s diagnoses (instead of just ASD)? I thought Asperger’s was no longer being used as a formal diagnosis.
   
2. How would you interpret “a little bit” of Asperger’s?
   

Thank you so much!!! Appreciate any help.

Using a throw away as I have siblings that use Reddit.
I don't know if posting is a good idea or not but I just needed to vent.
I'm the first born daughter in a very religious family. As first born daughters typically are, I've been through eldest daughter syndrome and parentification starting when I was about 16, but being prepped for it since I was 8 years old. My main responsibility is taking care of my mother, who has a lot of health issues. My father just simply refuses to take care of her. My responsibilities have expanded to (in addition of still caring for my mother) being the cook, maid, nurse, mediator, pretty much everything around the house.
When I turned 18 (I'm currently in my early 20s)I left the religion they raised me in, and going through a faith/identity crisis like that taught me a lot about narcissists and emotional abuse and I started putting the pieces together that how my parents treat me is not normal or okay. I've been working extremely hard to be able to get away from them and I'm hoping that I can finally leave before the year is over.
My plan was to leave and go no contact with them for a while and after I've started healing, see if they are finally willing to put effort into being parents. But after these last two weeks, I think they might've put in the final nail in the coffin for any hope of having a relationship with them one day.
Recently I had a huge health scare that's taking me a while to recover from. It started with comments in the ER from my father about how great it was that this happened to me so that he could leave work early, but those types of comments are normal from him. I mean he's told me straight to my face that he's never even recognized me as a human being before,let alone his daughter.
A few days later, I was home but could barely walk and was in so much pain and my mother decided to make a joke about it and started laughing at me and told me that it's okay for her to say that because she wasn't feeling good. That same night my father told me how great it would be if I died in my sleep so that he could make a lot of money by suing the ER doctor.
Then there was today... We had a neighborhood event today that I was helping plan before all this health stuff happened. Being that my mom and I were both not doing good we agreed that it would be best if we didn't stay outside, just say hi, and go back inside. She was aware of how bad I was doing, but she made us stay outside and kept making me run around to grab stuff for her. I couldn't go back inside myself because she needed help to walk and refuses to let anyone else help her. I told her three times that I wasn't doing well. She was obviously not doing well either but she has this obsession to make everyone think that everything with her and her family is perfectly fine. Until today, I didn't realize she cared more about her impression than my health.
Afterwards, she was mad at me for spending the evening resting in my room and not spending time with my parents in the living room and tried to gaslight me, claiming that I was the one that made us stay outside for so long.
I have a plan to get out, which hopefully will be finished by the end of the year. Somehow after all that, I still love them. I'm just so tired of sacrificing everything for them and being treated like shit in return.
People tend to wonder why I don't just pack up my stuff and leave or set boundaries, but it's a lot more complicated with the kind of parents I have. Trust me, as soon as I can leave, I will.

FTM had my baby boy at 39 weeks and 6 days! The first sign was period like cramps throughout the night. Woke up and felt super constipated. It wasn’t super obvious that I was feeling contractions and not constipation at first. Took me about an hour to realize it was labor as the contractions got worse. Went into labor around 730 am and had him at 11pm the same day. No epidural but used the nitrous oxide. The contractions were painful but honestly more uncomfortable than anything. It is so hard to find a position to get through them easily but for me, the nitrous oxide REALLY helped and I didn’t feel I needed an epidural at all.
I had my husband and mom with me and we hung out in the hospital room from 10am until delivery was over. The day surprisingly went by SO FAST. It was nice to be able to get up and move around freely and we ordered room service a few times and it was actually pretty good! All the nurses were amazing and so super friendly.
Okay but here’s the thing - the pushing. My labor is broken up into two parts in my head- the contractions and then the PUSHING. In hindsight, I realize I was completely unprepared for what I was about to go through. I pushed for two hours, which apparently isn’t even that long for a first time mom. And let me tell you - I did not expect it to hurt as much as it did. I gave birth four days ago and I’m still in shock at the experience. I know everyone says how painful it is….but that was something else. If you are a FTM planning to do no epidural, spend some time preparing your pain tolerance however you can. I wish I had squeezed more ice cubes or done whatever other things the internet says will help. It was such a crazy experience there were points I thought I really truly couldn’t do it (obviously at that point you have no choice 😂) but I really felt like I was going to pass out from the pain. I can’t put into words what I was feeling to give it justice. Just try to prepare yourself. My mother, who has had three kids with epidurals, told me she couldn’t feel any of the things I was describing. And those things were the most painful parts. I don’t say this to encourage people to get an epidural - I say it so you can be more prepared than me. I feel like I was blind sided even though everyone says how painful it is.
Something else I wasn’t prepared for - the blood. It is a lot. Today I stood up from the toilet and a blood clot the size of a baseball fell out of me. (I called my OB, not of concern due to no bleeding following). They say clots the size of a ping pong ball or smaller are to be expected. It’s crazy. They just fall right out. I’m filling adult diapers with more blood than I expected and my vagina is currently unrecognizable. At the hospital they constantly checked my uterus by pressing down and clots of blood just flew out. Something no one ever told me beforehand.
That all being said - I would do it again in a heartbeat. I type this out as my beautiful baby is skin to skin with me sleeping on my chest. Child birth was an amazing experience even if parts of it were extremely difficult. The most difficult thing I have done in my life. The recovery is more than I anticipated, and I am so grateful to have my husband helping. It really is amazing what our bodies are capable of.
Our baby is happy and healthy now, but we did have some unexpected hiccups along the way. Our second night at the hospital was not easy and I thank God my baby is okay. There is some trauma I am still processing as a newly postpartum mom and I look back on my experience in awe that this happens every day thousands of times a day. Women have their own birth stories of challenges and feats along the way that they live with forever, and it is just seen as something so normal or ordinary for a woman to do. I have found such a new respect for all moms out there. This has been a crazy experience already and I am just in shock trying to process at how much love I feel for this tiny human I brought into the world. So surreal. Being a mom really is the best feeling I’ve ever had.

This is my handwriting and it took me 6 minutes to complete. I am a good speller verbally and can visualize how each letter looks like BUT when it comes to writing, something I just off about the processing and I face a block. I have to focus on each letter very hard in my mind for my hands to then tracetthe mental image. However when typing on keyboard, it's again a free flowing process and I don't have to think aboutseach letter and I can use punctuation too. It's just during writing that everything feels like overloading in my brain. I'm not yet diagnosed ( probably will get a diagnosis next month) but I've faced this my entire life.

To preface, I am a 26 year old female, alot of the events that I'm going to talk about occurred when I was a child, some will be more recent, but as I keep low to no contact with my parents now, there wouldn't be much to tell.
As far back as I can remember, my mom would say and do things that made me feel like I wasn't as important as my brother(s). Before my younger brother (22M) was born, if my older brother (29M) broke or damaged something, he'd blame it on me. She always believed him. Sometimes he'd pinch himself, run to our mom crying and say that I pinched him for no reason and I'd end up getting punished. If he wanted to use the PS1 (for those who remember that) and I was using it, I'd be forced to get off so he could have a turn, regardless of how little time I had been using it. The same applied to the family computer. Anything he wanted, he got.
After my little brother came into the picture I assumed my older brother would be forced to share the game systems, computer, toys etc. But I was mistaken. Instead, my mom began to spoil them both, giving them whatever they asked for. Citing their recent autism diagnosis as the reason for the special treatment. "You're the only normal one, you have to compromise on these things for your brothers because they're special." "You have to be mature and responsible because they can't." Were essentially the messages I was fed for years.
I was often the one left in charge if my parents went out, not my older brother. If I wasn't in charge, they would have our oldest brother, (32M) who was adopted by our maternal grandparents, my mom's parents, watch us. Unfortunately, he was also spoiled rotten, but by my grandparents in an attempt to make up for the fact that my mom didn't raise him. Which only fueled my older brother's need for the latest and greatest toys/games at the time. So they got into arguments all the time and I'd end up being the mediatoone in charge regardless. I always had to keep a close eye on my little brother regardless of who was left in charge also, he's not as self sufficient as my older brother and lacked the understanding that most kids his age had, so he needed constant supervision or else he'd end up getting hurt. Which happened a few times, but surprisingly only while my parents were the ones watching him.
When I was 10, my dad lost his job after a seizure (he's an epileptic) caused him to slam his face into a coffee table. He wasn't able to immediately return to work due to the damage, and was fired as a result. We were then evicted from our apartment and were forced to move in with my maternal grandmother. My grandfather had passed a few years prior so it was just her, my uncle and my oldest brother living in the house at the time. My grandmother didn't want us there, to put it simply. My uncle is the one who kept bothering her about how my mom was going to lose custody of us if we didn't have somewhere to go, and she eventually caved. But she wasn't discreet about how little she enjoyed having us there.
At 13, we were still living with my grandmother, my dad had gotten a new job and I finally got a cell phone. Not my own, but my Dad shared his with me after he'd get off work. So from the hours of 4pm to 10pm, I was a regular teen with a phone, which felt nice. One day, I had to text a friend about something related to school, so I asked my mom if I could borrow her phone to text this friend. As I was getting the info on the assignment that I needed, a text came across the screen. It was from my mom's ex Jay. Jay was the father of my two older brothers, (29M & 32M) he was also physically abusive towards my mom when they were together. I admit I shouldn't have gone through her messages, but as far as our entire family was aware, Jay wanted nothing to do with my mom or my brothers, so I was curious as to why/how my mom had his number saved, let alone why they were speaking. To my horror, my mom was flirting with and sending very explicitly worded messages about how much she wanted him and how terrible my dad was. I'll admit, neither of my parents were perfect, my mom had her favoritism of my brothers, while my dad was verbally and physically abusive towards me and my older brother, but never my little brother. My dad also cheated on my mom with a coworker shortly after I was born. Which my mom made common knowledge to us kids by the time I was 7. So our relationship as a family, was tumultuous to say the least. Nevertheless, I brought the texts to my dad, who then confronted my mom. I mean, I was a kid, I had no idea how to navigate that. So I brought it to an adult, as I thought I was supposed to. But boy, I had no idea that things would turn they way they did. My mom essentially told my dad, who barely understands technology, that the texts he thought she sent, her ex sent and that I was just trying to break them up because I hate her. He believed her. This affected me for years because she'd always use it as leverage to accuse me of lying. "Well you lied about those texts, so obviously you'd lie about this too!" I was branded a liar and to this day, despite her admitting that she was lying back then, everyone in my family just sees me as a melodramatic liar and I've come to accept that will probably never change.
At 14, one of my best friends died in a train accident. I wasn't allowed to go to his funeral because my parents had booked a vacation to see my dad's family. My parents knew that telling me no before we left would result in me sneaking out and going to the funeral anyway, so they lied to me, saying that they'd think about it and let me know in the morning before we'd leave, saying it with that tone they use when you know they're going to say yes just to make me think I'd be able to go to the funeral and avoid having to look for me. They've admitted to all of this which is even more chilling to me. The next morning, they'd already packed my luggage in the car by the time I had woken up. My dad sat down and told me in no uncertain terms that I was not going to the funeral and that I was going with them, regardless of what I thought or did. I kicked, screamed, cried, bit, everything I could possibly do to get my dad to put me down. But in the end he turned on the child safety locks and he threw me in the car with my younger brother, we left and spent 3 days with my dad's family. All the while I was made fun of and mocked for crying constantly on what was "supposed to be" a happy vacation according to my parents. My older brother didn't want to go, so he didn't have to. But apparently that only applied to him. To this day I still haven't forgiven them for that.
At 15, I was kicked out of my grandmothers house, and only my dad was against it. But in the end, I had to go live with my boyfriend because I had nowhere else to go and nothing my dad said changed the minds of my mom or grandmother. Until I turned 18, my mom would get me $100 in groceries a month, to keep me alive. (I think she was just afraid I'd report her for abandonment if she didn't atleast feed me) Even then, she would say that she couldn't afford the $100 sometimes and I'd have to get a month of food out of $50 or less.
At 18, I became pregnant. My dad was very unhappy. I had my first born and I thought we were on the road to mending our relationship.
At 21, my parents invited me and my child to their house for dinner, they also invited my boyfriend but he was unable to join us because he was tired from work, but these dinners had become a regular occurrence at this point. Unfortunately, my older brother (29M) still lives at home with them and my younger brother, so I was forced to interact with him. He ended up saying something like "Mom and Dad only put up with you because they want to see your kid." It struck a nerve with me, because it had already felt that way to me for awhile, and my parents were right there, but didn't deny what he said and I started to cry. I excused myself outside but I wasn't calming down.
For some context, back when I lived at my grandmother's house, I had regular breakdowns. My parents were constantly yelling at me or hitting me for one thing or another. I didn't have a room or a bed back then, I slept on the couch in the living room from the ages of 10-15. So when my dad would go off, he'd repeatedly slam me down into whatever surface was in the room if I tried to get up or leave the room we were in. So the couch if it was the living room, my parents bed if we were arguing in their room, etc. My mom never stopped this. Sometimes it would go on for hours, and it'd get to the point where I'd either freak out and get physical with my dad or I would start to rip out my hair and beg him to leave me alone. I was regularly laughed at by my mom or older brother and called dramatic for reacting that way during these screaming sessions.
But in that moment l, as I was crying outside, I felt like that kid again. I was small and meaningless. I wanted to go home. So I collected myself as best I could and walked inside, grabbing my son as I walked up to my parents at the dining table. I told my mom that I was sorry, but we're going home. She got as far as saying, "But we're about to have di- ." before my dad began to scream at me like I had never heard him scream before. My mom took my son into another room as soon as she saw that I was caught off guard by my dad's outburst, and locked him in my uncles bedroom. For over an hour my dad berrated me, as I could hear my son wailing for me from the other room. He kept pushing me and getting in my face, not letting me leave the dining room, he almost slapped me but for whatever reason, didn't. My mom and older brother, just like when I was a kid, stood there and laughed at my reactions. Eventually, he stopped because I said something that made him really mad, so he charged outside and left. My uncle came out of his room with my son soon after and he drove us home. I sent them a long message afterwards stating that I'm going no contact. That lasted about three years, and we've since reconnected in the past 2 years, my dad hasn't pulled anything like that, seemingly because he knows I'm serious when I say I will never speak to them again. My mom on the other hand is back on the "she's out to get me" "she hates me" train again. Anytime I ask her something, even simple yes or no questions, she sends me a novel detailing her yes or no answer. If she's saying no, she always phrases things like I'm this unhinged person who goes crazy over being told no and that she's just an innocent victim to my rage? Which is funny because regardless of what her answer is my response is always "Okay." Or "Okay, thank you." And any question is prefaced heavily with "You really don't have to if you don't want to." "It's totally fine if you cant." "It's fine if you say no, I can figure out something else if need be." I don't want to be a burden and I don't like exerting more energy than absolutely necessary, so I have no reason to try to argue with her. It's gotten to the point where we have so little contact, she has to blow up small misunderstandings that happen when we do converse. My uncle sent me a screenshot from my mom to him, which was her saying I needed to do something, I honestly don't remember what. But whatever it was, apparently my dad and my uncle were the ones who wanted me to know that, not her. Which honestly doesn't matter either way to me. But I guess she took whatever I said in response as an attack despite only saying okay or alright as a response, and I had to deal with her and my dad spamming my phone in the middle of the night trying to make this literal non issue, an issue. So I ended up replying that I have no idea why or how this had devolved into what it did, but I have nothing to do with this, and to stop messaging me about it. Surprisingly they did. Finally the most recent thing was that I had talked to my parents, in front of everyone at their house, including my boyfriend and our kids. I told them I wanted to start looking for a job and was wondering if they'd be willing to watch my now two kids for a couple of hours on some of the days that I work, just until we save enough for the down payment at a daycare for them. My main driver for this was that my mom and dad had been pushing for my kids to stay ovespend time with them so i figured if we could do that while I also work that'd really help. Nowhere in my mind do I think I am entitled to my parents help, I just thought that if they were pushing to spend time with them, that this was a perfect opportunity to do so. My parents agreed initially, but when I called them to make plans about it because I had an interview lined up, my mom said she never agreed to anything like that and that she "wasn't going to raise my kids for me." In the end, it wasn't worth an argument and I just said that she could have just said no the first time I brought it up, and I would have just started looking at alternatives for childcare. Pulling this hurtful stunt was unnecessary and cruel. And we haven't spoken much since.
Honestly I doubt they'll ever actually change, which is why I keep them at an arms length. Sorry for the rant, I just needed somewhere to put all of this.

I turn 20 in Sept and im literally the only one who hasn’t gone on a date, not to mention been in a relationship. All the ppl i know/i knew, my peers, my mom when she was at my age (lol), they all have had some background in dating, atleast (!!) going on dates, having a first kiss, that kind of stuff A bit about me: im a shortie 5,3, to my shame, im not as skinny as i used to be due to my severe ED that started with restrictions and led to anorexia and for these past 2-3 years ive gained not intentionally 25-30 kg which is an awful lot for me, both aesthetically and physically, and ofc takes a huge toll on my mental health. Im pretty sure im an introvert but the one that can be loud and chatty af as long as i feel comfortable, im heard and appreciated. It so happened at my age I don’t have a single friend (my mom doesn’t count lol!), i did have two bfs but we ended up cutting ties and have never talked since - not like there’s some drama, a fist fight or some stuff to compete over lol. But generally, im kinda closed off, i do look at my mom and realize how different we are cause how easy she meets/approaches ppl and they easily and with pleasure approach her. In my case, even before my weight gain and my mental health going down so bad (it’s an understatement), the opposite sex did not wanna have anything to do w me (back in school i had 2 guys i was sort of friends with but they didn’t like me like that and i didn’t like them romantically and one of them was gay lol) Also i love joking & having a good laugh, still love attention, have always been a good listener I do feel like ive never been mentally ok, like never, but it js doesn’t show like im a freak or psycho, basically only ppl im closed with, like my mom, know what ive been dealing with. And no, ive never sought therapy, don’t have any diagnosis in terms of mental health. Tho it’s safe to say im an extremely anxious person and a professional overthinker, i do realize there’re quite some times i missed the boat cause i was freaking out and there’s so much overthinking and what ifs going on And i have got a problem that has been bothering me since my school years but it feels like i can do nothing about it even tho i try to, every time if a guy kinda looks at me (tho never approaches!), no matter if he’s fat or literally sitting next to me in a bus, my heart starts racing, it feels like im gonna either pass out or throw up, i do not make eye contact, even when there’s kind of a slight urge to look at them. When i couldn’t avoid making eye contact, my face or face muscles (?), they start acting up, as if im getting paralyzed or something, im pretty sure my eyes start twitching and looking weird as a whole too. I had something like that even with a female (!)teacher, she pretty much hated me for no reason. But generally, that shit happens only in cases when there’s a guy on the horizon, especially if he’s kinda to my liking! Not long ago i started longing for a companionship, for my first and preferably healthy relationship but idk what to do…Even tho im overweight, ppl say im pretty (my moms def biased so i don’t trust her lol) but even her colleges who saw me on ig or even irl. Because of my weight, cellulite, belly pouch, def not a snatched waste and objectively fat legs, i just can’t call myself beautiful but my face is def not the worst, guys be falling for it once they see me on socials (i don’t use photoshop and use minimum cosmetic products so it’s not cakey) Any suggestions, anything??? Id be interested and grateful to hear both sides. And sorry if some mistakes were made while i was writing this long ass text, English is not my first language. Thanks:)

I’m overthinking this again. Perhaps my mental state is way too erratic, but now I suddenly am thinking I’ve been too inaccurate beforehand, so now I think my typing may be wrong (again). It’s not easy to be as truthful as I can. Honestly, my view of myself is very strange. I have always been very unsure. So I wonder if I’ll get the same or a possible different answer. I apologize if I wrote way too much here or got off topic to the question.
• How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
I’m a minor (15), so perhaps accuracy could be affected by that. I’m a female. I think I’m very quiet and blend into the surroundings most of the time (and it’s not easy for me to be otherwise if I, for some reason, ever attempt to be that way). I either talk way too much, or talk too little. This is because if I don’t talk that means I really don’t know what to say, and when I end up wanting to say something it’s a lot of built up things. Also I think I end up adding random things to what I say for some reason. When I’m having a conversation, I usually spend most of the time while they’re talking thinking of how to properly respond, because I DO have an idea for what I want to say, I just don’t know how to formulate or back it up properly that quickly. For this reason, I realize I might miss out most of the details they’re saying, so I try to do both now. This is why I find texting much easier. From what I hear from others, perhaps I’m a little too reserved that it could be seen as rude. However, I myself think I talk just well enough. I’m actually somewhat hyper and energetic most of the time, but not verbally. This is because I think it would be too exhausting to express that in such ways. I think a lot about what some things mean. I’m unfortunately very quick to anger, especially if I believe someone is being way too idiotic or if I’m told I’m incorrect in how I think. Perhaps this may be normal to get annoyed about? But I know I get very irrationally angry about these. I don’t think anybody in real life would notice I have anger issues unless we’re close. I’m very neurotic. Actually, I’m going to mention that generalizing myself is difficult simply because it’s strangely difficult for myself to describe or identify my own traits. Also, it’s a bit difficult to not start explaining too much and focusing on small things (but I think I already did that).
• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
No diagnosis.
• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
Religious influence? Perhaps not strongly, although my family is Christian, they are not very strict on it nor have they forced it upon me. Actually, it was very interesting and I did believe in it at first, but due to my curiosity I think I ended up asking so many questions that eventually it somehow led me to stop believing in any sort of theistic way.
• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
I don’t have any, but I want to answer this with what I used to aspire to be. Very early on, I really wanted to be a scientist and kept insisting to be, but then lost interest, I don’t remember why, but right now I’m thinking it’s because something about it is slightly terrifying. Very recently I wanted to become a writer because I think I was very passionate about stories in general, but I have realized how unsuccessful I might be if I chase for that with the amount of motivation and skill I have for it right now, so recently I’ve been thinking I’ll do something math-related, since I am good at it.
• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
Refreshing for most of the time, but I think I would get lonely a few times. This is assuming I have nothing else to do and can do what I want.
• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
I don’t really know what activities I prefer, maybe more of ones that are having to do with dexterity. I am TERRIBLE at sports, I am too wary during ball games (but this is because I’ve been hurt a lot playing with other people too many times). Badminton is the sport I am best at. I can play with quite average skill there. I actually enjoy it too, but I’m not sure how to explain why, perhaps due to liking the feeling of light movements (if that sounds correct). I like to walk, it helps me think when I imagine things. I don’t like walking if I have to do anything else with it, it’s much harder to focus.
• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
I think I’m pretty curious. I’m not sure though. I have more ideas than I can execute ONLY BECAUSE I don’t have the required skills to execute those ideas. My curiosities are about whatever another person brings up, perhaps. Or I’m curious about people’s analysis. My ideas are very conceptual, I suppose. My ideas are more like creating a story, or combining two stories together. Or I take one small thing from a story I know of and imagine things focusing on that. I think I’m imagining too much about media I consume, but I don’t normally do otherwise.
• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
I would enjoy it for the sake of a false sense of responsibility, either that or for the sake of trying something new that I’m not good at. However, I know I am not responsible enough to be good at it. As long as there is time for our team to do the task, I think I could possibly be able to do it. But I’m a terrible leader since I would end up being unable to think of anything. I would rather lead by being a participative leader, because that’s the only way I can lead properly.
• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
Perhaps I am coordinated, but I don’t understand this question at all. I may enjoy working with my hands. I don’t understand what this question means by “describe your activity”.
• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
Perhaps I am artistic, I do draw sometimes, especially if I’m bored. My art is likely just drawing humans, and nothing unordinary, just normality, I don’t know why I prefer doing so. However if I was able to draw something that was quite surreal, then I would like to do that a few times. I just wouldn’t do it all the time because I don’t think I would have that many ideas.
• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
The past is just gone. You apparently can’t change the past, though it would be interesting if we could go to the past. But it’s not easy for me to think so much about the past voluntarily. Sometimes I do connect the past with the future, but it’s not because I actually think hard of it, it just happens. But usually if I think about the past too much, or actually try to think of the past, the first things I start focusing on are bad memories. I did mention in previous times that I answered this sort of question that I did not like the past, but of course as long as it’s not because I’m focused on one terrible thing that happened to me or one terrible thing I did, it’s not bad. The present is just a moment and then gone. So what? Also, we’re not really in the present, are we? I don’t even know what’s going to happen in my future, so I think I can only form an opinion on the idea. I mostly have a bit of an optimistic thought that it will go well since it always isn’t as bad as I think, but at the same time there’s a feeling of dread.
• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
I don’t think I would react that strongly unless it is bothering me when I’m trying to do something and I’m focused on doing it. Otherwise I would try to help without feeling any bother, but I may wonder why they need my help even if it’s incredibly obvious why. If I decide to help them I’ll just do so because otherwise they’ll likely bother me with it. Either that or just because I can.
• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
I don’t think this is a good question, do some people really think they don’t need it? If there are such people, I wonder what their thought process is with that. Basically, why wouldn’t I?
• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
I don’t think I’m efficient or have good productivity, but I do think I stress out over it. Low efficiency annoys me which is probably hypocritical. Although, I mostly do get annoyed about those when it comes to group work, because personally in those I would try my best to be efficient and productive.
• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
I don’t think I do, but I might have done it without noticing. I think I would likely do it if I had the incredible need to change the topic of the conversation. Otherwise I don’t think I would bother doing it, why should I care enough to control others, especially since that takes too much effort?
• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
I draw sometimes, to pass the time when I’m bored and to just picture things I want to picture. Also to show people. I just mostly like drawing to see the results. Strangely with painting it’s different, I just like the act of doing so, but I don’t really care about results, so it ends up very messy. I like to write sometimes but only because I get overwhelmed and end up wanting to write what has been stuck in my head for so long onto something. So I guess that’s a hobby, but it’s somewhat tiring so I don’t write for long periods of time. I do photography as a hobby, but I only picked it up because other people in my family I have noticed are incredibly terrible at taking photos, so out of annoyance I end up volunteering to do so. I end up liking it just because I like to look at how it looks on camera, I suppose. Especially with lights, because I recently noticed how it looks on photo.
• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
A few years ago I took a test for this kind of thing during secondary/middle school. I suppose it said auditory. Though that’s likely inaccurate now since I prefer reading the instructions and everything else, because it’s easier to figure out where to go from there and I can focus on it better. I don’t know what learning environment I struggle in most, though I do struggle slightly if I have to do exact memorization, but as long as I can attach it to something and I put effort in it perhaps it’s alright. I prefer classes with logic.
• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
I usually improvise but have a slight idea of what I’m doing. As in, I have a slight idea on the topic but I’d rather not be rigid on it because otherwise I would be focusing too much on one thing and likely miss something that would be good to add, rather than just having an idea then adding onto it if I thought of something. I’m not sure if that counts as winging it and improvisation though. I’m not good at strategizing but I can certainly try if I have a certain goal.
• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
Improve myself in general, because what else can I do? Just be successful and become someone that has a lot of capability. That first, then I perhaps could focus on something else. My reasoning is, I don’t improve myself first, how can I actually end up being able to do any other aspirations that I have?
• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
I fear the idea of losing thought of everything. Or losing all rationale. I don’t know what makes me uncomfortable. I hate it when I’m dragged into something when I made it clear I would rather not be, especially when they never even told me about it until a second before dragging me into it. I hate it when people bring up something, and when I finally decide to express my thoughts about it, they talk over me or interrupt me. Either that, or they just tell me to not think so much. This is incredibly annoying to me, but I suppose it would annoy anyone.
• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
I think I would be very calm and focused. I think I would feel very lucid.
• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
I think my lows would be feeling an incredible amount of dread. Or I would be very anxious and slightly more impulsive. Though, I think nobody would notice much in real life.
• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
I think I do pay attention sometimes but it’s inconsistent when I do or don’t. I pay attention if I have to. I like to daydream sometimes. I’m not sure if I pay attention more or daydream more. How would I be aware of my surroundings if I do daydream though? Obviously not.
• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
First of all, do I know why I'm there? If I don’t I would wonder about that. Also is it that I suddenly got there, or was I brought there? I think I wasn’t sure of any of these, especially why I’m there, then I would think I was kidnapped and just try to get out of that room. Ignoring all that, I would probably walk around a lot and think of the same things I always daydream about or imagine about. But wait, how long am I supposed to be staying there? Is there an obvious part of this room where I can just leave or is it basically just nothing? Really this is a bit too unspecific.
• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
I usually try to think a lot before making an important decision, after all, there is always the chance my first idea could go wrong if I don’t think it over first. I usually doubt myself once I made that decision even though I thought it through a lot. I rarely end up regretting it and changing my mind though. However, I sometimes end up doing things on impulse either if I’m tired or for some reason I don’t even know. In which case I 100% change my mind.
• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
It takes a while. I do know how I feel towards certain things but it takes time to understand or explain why, otherwise it’s difficult to express. I usually process this myself. Emotions are important, I guess. Aren’t they motivators though? It’s the entire reason why I’m actually doing anything, so I don’t see why it wouldn’t be.
• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
I end up doing this sometimes, just not directly saying I agree or not directly saying they are right, because most of the times I do this I do know I disagree, I just don’t have a coherent argument that is enough to be convincing, or one that is enough that my view seems rational, because most of the times I notice the other person would see the opposing viewpoint as incredibly irrational and stupid. I am working on not doing this though, because it’s likely better to make them think about it than doing nothing and keep them thinking something that they could change their mind on or I could change my mind on. Another reason why I’m working on this because I realize agreeing without actually agreeing would end up nagging me in the head.
• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
No, I don't break rules often. I’m either afraid of being punished, or because I see the rules are pretty rational and I understand them, even if I wouldn’t personally impose those rules myself. It’s not too difficult for me to try and adapt to those rules if different places have different rules. I do find myself re-checking the rules a lot though. I only don’t give any mind about rules if I really hate the community or place in which these rules have been imposed on. But if I hated it in the first place, why would I even be there? Anyways, challenged or not challenged, it’s not one or the other, it really depends on how the authority does things. Consider what they’re like first and what they do in their role then judge if they should be challenged or not challenged.