Me and best friend have been in each other’s lives since we were 12 years old. We’re both 27 now. I’ve lived an hour and 20 mins away from her since I’ve been 13 years old. There’s always been that distance but no matter what we always kept in contact. I’ve always made the drive to see her and spend time with her. Fast forward to 2023, she becomes pregnant. I’m so happy for her. Excited and buying stuff for the baby already. She gives birth in June and I’ve never been so happy and proud of her. Legit cried when i saw him. It’s October now. She’s invited me to her baby’s baptism. There were 2 times stated on the invitation, one for the church and one for the venue. So the week of I reached out to find out if we’re meeting at her house or the church. She tells me to just go to the venue instead. I get there with my boyfriend. You know when you feel a certain vibe? Like an uncomfortable/ awkward vibe? I felt it in my stomach but I ignored it and start to say hi to her and her whole family. We sit at our designated table. I start to hear conversation from her friends about how the church was. I look at my boyfriend confused because I assumed it was only family. That made me questioned why were these people there? Friends that I was just introduced to 2 months ago, but I wasn’t? I’ve been feeling very weird with our relationship. As if we’re outgrowing each other. So i posted to my finsta just expressing how I felt. She saw it and she called me. She said what is this about? I said “ it’s just been how I’ve been feeling about us. i find out that everyone was at the church, but me? “ she said “ well where were you during my pregnancy? I barely saw you.” Now at this moment I’m thinking of all the times I’ve seen her thought out the year which was normal amount of times we seen each other. So i said “you never called or texted me about anything during your pregnancy. Never said anything that you needed me.” She said “i shouldn’t have to. You stopped prioritizing me. I thought it would be different when i gave birth but no.” (A little background on me. I have a full time job working overnights in a hospital. Started going back to school full-time in September of 2023 for nursing school. I have my own relationship and dog-ter. My own apartment which went up 50% this year too. A lot has been going on with me as well) I told her I just started school again, and the times i have off i spend it studying or relaxing at home. She said “well you could’ve made at effort, we couldn’t deal with him as a newborn.” I said “well again you never said anything” she said “you didn’t think my instagram posts meant anything ?” To be honest, saying stuff on instagram is completely different from actually reaching out to people. I told her “i figured you wanted to be alone since you’re figuring out how to be new parents” she said “how dare you make decisions for me. Do you know how it was not to make you a Godmother?” I start to bawl my eyes out. The way you get when you’re trying to catch your breath type of cry. Because we’ve always talked about that since we were kids. Making each other the Godmother to each other’s kid. I said “yes that hurt me” through my sobs. Trying to hold it together so i can speak. She said since i wasn’t there for her that I deserve that title. I’ve always been there for her for anything. She calls and I come. No matter what. I make arrangements. I’ll try to be there. She said that I couldn’t even make it to her baby shower. Which she’s right i couldn’t. Back in May of 2023, she was telling me when she was planning the baby shower. I told her that weekend is my little brother’s graduation in the of Florida. So i wouldn’t even be in NY. I begged her to make it for the following weekend so I can attend because i really wanted to be there. I was buying stuff every week till the baby shower to make her a baby shower basket. With diapers of every size. Wipes. Even hair clips for her too. So she knew i wouldn’t be there and still chose to plan it that day anyways. So i didn’t push anymore it’s her day, but i made sure my boyfriend was there. He helped set up and get the cake. He bought the gifts i bought them even the high chair. Now back to our conversation, i told her it was my little brother’s high school graduation. You knew this. She said okay? You could’ve came for a little bit and left that night. I said no. I was with my family. That’s why i asked for the following weekend. She said “well no why would i change it for ONE person?” I said “okay so why are you mad ?” I’m sorry but i wasn’t not missing my only little brother’s high school graduation. So she didn’t make me a godmother meanwhile her child has 5 Godmothers. I wasn’t 1. There’s other situations that have happened as well throughout the years. But this was the icing on the cake. Something I cannot forgive in my heart. It hurts so much. She’s MY ONLY best friend. She has an army behind her. I would’ve done anything for her. I’ve always showed up for her when she called me. I’ve always made her a priority. But now that I’m trying to better myself and the one time I’m finally thinking of me. I’m the fucked up friend ? So Am I the asshole?

not exactly michelle related, but in the last sub we had a thread where we shared how our partners did kind things for us and i was thinking about it today. i just want to remind you that if you have a partner who goes above and beyond for you, to show them support and appreciation.
i hope you guys don’t think im oversharing but few months into my relationship w my current (& FOREVER hopefully) bf, he got fired & didn’t have a job for a few months. i was anxious bc of similar experiences w an ex, but the differences in character & work ethic between them were like night & day. so i stuck around. my man struggled for a bit & almost broke on me but i continued to push him forward. now he works where he’s happier, loves what he does, earns more, and is valued. he isn’t the richest, but always spends on me. gifts, food, drinks, fills my gas tank, spending money, works on my car. and he’s so comfortable doing it, bc he knows that i don’t treat him like an atm. and he knows if he falls again, i got him. and having that trust between the both of us (cus i know i can rely on him too), means so much more than a $10k chanel bag, a $23k/mo home, or even a pink porsche.
obv, please don’t stay w someone who doesn’t want to better themselves! but showing support and genuinely being there for your partner can make a big difference. although money is important in a relationship, our partners (especially men) are more than just a source of income.

Please be kind as this whole situation has me kinda anxious. I feel like there's no right answer on what to do.
Minor TW for mention of SA but its not significant to the whole post.
TLDR- My ex from almost 10 years ago has been secretly stalking my Instagram account for just under 2 years. The situation gives me the ick but I also don't care enough to take the time to block him. Especially as I feel his behavior doesn't deserve my attention or acknowledgement and could just lead to bigger problems i dont need. How ever, the girls girl in me feels bad for his wife because I know she would not be happy to find this out. I wouldn't be happy if my fiance did this. Am I the asshole for not making a bigger deal out of this. For not confronting/blocking him or telling his wife.
Here's more details. The long version with the back story.
My (28F now 17/18F at time of relationship) ex fiance (21/22M At time of relationship) has been stalking me on Instagram. Our relationship started when I was a junior in High School at a local Votech. He was my shop teachers son who was paying for and taking classes as an adult for another shop along side the high school students. A special opportunity that he was presented because of his parents employment at the school. That's how we met and started dating in like April of 2013.
He was extremely toxic in our relationship (I'm not saying I'm perfect). He would constantly try to make me jealous. First by saying a girl in the shop class he was taking was constantly flirting with him. Later by telling me while working at his job (gas station convince store) women gave him their number. Even one time trying to tell me some woman messaged him asking to sleep with him. I told him it sounded like an ad from a porn site and he got extremely offended and tried to convince me it wasn't an ad but that a real woman was trying to get him to come sleep with her. Basically the whole "other women want me. You should feel lucky I only want you" behavior BS. He also refused to let me have friends. He would start fights with me almost every time I was with a friend. I'm bisexual so he assumed I would cheat on him with my girl friends. None of my friends liked him because of this.
But I was naive and thought I was in love. He proposed to me on Valentines Day 2014. I turned 18 and graduated a few months later before going to college in August 2 hours away. Things got worse between him fighting with me all the time about him being paranoid I'd cheat on him. Then him taking 2 months before visiting me only to say he was coming up for the weekend then actually only come up to visit for 2.5 hours, fuck me, eat a donut, and then decide to leave and go home. Long story short we broke up at the end of October after some toxic shit.
I quickly moved on because of some homophobic shit he said to a friend of mine causing me to lose any love or respect I had for him. His SIL messaged me after we broke up to tell me how horrible I was for breaking his heart. He had told his family we broke up because I had "cheated on him with a female and decided I'm a lesbian." I promptly told her he lied and told her what really happened including screenshots. I thought that was the end of everything. Deleted everyones number and moved on. November came and went and in December I met a different guy we can call Matt and we started dating.
After 6 months of dating Matt, my exs SIL messaged me cussing me out, insulting and threatening me. Telling me he found someone much prettier and better than me (her cousin who we had actually met at her wedding to his brother). She claimed my ex said I had been texting him gloating about my new relationship and sending him photos of Matt and I. I explained I hadn't texted my ex since the day we broke up in October and lost his number with in the same week. It was not me trying to text him. But I was genuinely concerned and wanted to know who did since I didn't want or need unnecessary drama. I offered to help find out who was doing this (though my suspicion told me it was him using a text app on his iPod Touch to text himself and the photo that was sent was one of my public FB Profile pictures since as I said above he tried similar to make me jealous before when I was his GF so it would not shock me if he did it to the new girl too). Unsurprisingly when I asked for the number that texted him this stuff he conveniently deleted it and didn't know the number. But I was told if they texted again the SIL would tell me the number. They never texted again. That was in 2015. I hadn't thought about them since.
Until this past December 2023.
I was on Instagram looking through stories. Instagram showed me a "People you may know" story with a few accounts it thought I may want to follow. The first one showed my Exs account, his picture of him and his wife (the SILs Cousin). This weirded me out because we've been broken up for 9 years at this point. We don't have mutual friends or social circles. He shouldn't be in my "people you may know". But then I saw it specifically said "Follow BACK" indicating he was following me. Which is why it showed me his account. I was so confused because I would have noticed if my ex had shown up in my notifications.
I went to his profile and I actually did recognize the username. And was able to check when he had followed me. He followed me in August of 2022. But he didn't have a PFP or any post then. I didn't realize it was my ex because even though the username included his first name it had been so long that I didn't even think it was him. The only reason why I remembered the account even following me is because it includes his middle name (that I forgot was his middle name at this time) and that middle name is the same first name as the man who assaulted me in 2017. So I was afraid the account was my rapists Instagram but realized I was being paranoid and that he was still in jail at that time so it couldn't have been him. A lot of random accounts follow me on Instagram because my account is public.
Anyway, he followed me in August of 2022 and never had a PFP or any post until November of 2023 which is why I had no idea he was following me and why he showed up in December as someone I may know (because he was active on Instagram then and recently made his first post). I know he sees my post because he only follows 9 accounts, me, a few shops, and model accounts.
What had me the most weirded out by this is that in the 9 years we were broken up I never saw him or ran into him. But in the time between August 22 and November 23, he showed up at the mall at the same time as me. More than likely a coincidence. But it was still weird. I considered blocking him but both my fiance and best friend told me not to worry about it unless he does keep showing up places. Because otherwise I'm just giving him a response to his behavior and he isn't worth that.
Some may say not blocking him means I'm trying to rub my relationship and family (I have a toddler and another baby on the way and I'm getting married this year too) in his face. But I'm not forcing him to look. I'm not posting anything with him in mind. And it's not my responsibility to help him move on. If he wants to look through my photos, as long as it doesn't actually affect or hurt me, I honestly could care less.
So I let it go. And honestly forgot about it until this week. While driving to my OB appointment I got a notification that my Exs account liked one of my photos on Instagram. When I saw this later at my appointment I did take a screenshot and then clicked the notification to see what it was. This wasn't a recent photo. It was a photo from 2015. Instagram showed he had unliked it, indicating he didn't mean to and was probably hoping I wouldn't see that he did in the first place. But what was weird to me about this was that he had to scroll through over 1,000 photos on my Instagram to get to and accidentally like this one from 9 years ago. So like this wasn't a casual just keeping tabs on how my ex is doing these days. He was scrolling through over 1,000 photos I've posted.
I once again considered blocking him but my friend made a good point that he followed me undetected before for over a year. He could make a new account and follow me again undetected. At least right now I am able to document anything that happens incase things were to escalate. And that not warranting the behavior with acknowledgement or a response is best. As it's highly unlikely this will go beyond him looking at my Instagram. I didn't post i was going to the mall the two times he was also there. And I don't share my location on any other social media apps. So it truly was more than likely a weird coincidence. So I'm just documenting everything incase it does escalate OR incase he tries something again like mentioned above and I get threatening messages from his family.
This is the part that's eating me up. His wife knows who I am. As I said I met her when his brother and her cousin got married. We were both in her bridal party. She's had me blocked on Facebook since the situation were her cousin messaged me about someone texting him thinking it was me. She was also with him at the mall the second time he was coincidentally there and she definitely saw me which was in itself an embarrassing encounter (because I had just bought my fiance a father's day gift but they couldn't remove the security tag from it so as I exited the store the alarm sounds like I'm robbing the place armed and they were in the food court right by the entrance and all this attention was on me, I went back to the counter but they told me they couldnt remove the tag so I had to let the alarm go off as I leave and it will turn off after a moment). I heard her even say "isn't that [my name]?" Anyway, I know she probably would not be happy to know he's following me. I looked her up on Instagram, she doesn't post often but most recently posted on Valentines Day about their 5 year wedding anniversary. But I don't think she knows he has an Instagram. She only follows a few accounts, including her cousin mentioned above. But neither of them follow her husband, my ex. And he doesn't follow any of them either.
Idk, maybe it's just me. But I would be livid to find out my fiance/husband had an Instagram where he didn't follow me but did follow his ex. I honestly feel bad for her because I know it would hurt me. But I also don't know if she truly has no idea. I asked my friend if I should say something to her but my friend said I'd just be opening myself up to unnecessary drama and stirring a pot that doesn't need to be stirred. Unless things escalate. That it would be wrong to potentially cause issues in their relationships over what could be innocent curiosity.
Idk. Maybe I'm over thinking things as I am hormonal as I'm 7 months pregnant. But I feel bad not telling her. And I also don't want to block him because at least now I know and can be aware of what's happening. Since he doesn't know I know at this time. I guess it's important to mention I have diagnosed ptsd from multiple things including abusive partners and had an ex stalk me previously. So being able to document things makes me feel calm and more in control of the situation. As finding out he was following me unnoticed for over a year was extremely triggering and as I said before blocking him could result in him just making another fake account.

PRESENT
This is Part 2 of 3, the Present, in game events we see! Onwards!
The Protagonist is some sort of content creator, one that goes to abandoned or forgotten places and "searches" them, as can be gleaned from the cameras facing the protagonist on his desk, and his conversation with a certain Laura, or LSparks53 (there's also an error in this Harmony tab, with one of the messages from Laura reading as from LauraSparks53 instead of LSparks53. Just a note). This Laura helps our protagonist, who goes by the username of eEnsign. His profile picture are the letters UF, which is weird, since it doesn't match the username, nor what Laura calls eEnsign: Ed. Anyways, I digress. From now on, I'll call the protagonist Ed as well. Laura helps Ed get footage of these places as per the conversation.
eEnsign: "Hey Laura! I'm doing another search this weekend! Wanna come with me?"
LSparks53: "The last few times I've gone with you SUCKED LMAO."
eEnsign: "Remember that old theme park we went to see as kids? Indigo Park?"
LSparks53: "yeah? I kind of forgot about that place? Been closed for a while, right? how would you even get in?"
eEnsign: "Honestly, I don't know. I'm not even gonna bring my equipment. Jump a fence of something? We've done worse lol”
LSparks53: "aight, well just be careful. I'm gonna pass on this one. if you can get in i'll go with you to help record some other time. i'm looking it up now and there's like NO info online about it. probably swarming with cops too."
eEnsign: "I guess we'll find out! I'll check it out, maybe we can go together next week?
Lsparks53: "just be careful, Ed. I don't want to be paying your bail."
And with that conversation, we learn that these two are like a dynamic duo of sorts, having some sort of channel or website where they post footage of places lost to time and "search" them, breaking laws of trespassing and such, apparently also having "done worse", whatever that means. Maybe they took a few things from the place, so burglary? It's never specified. Probably burglary, though, considering that Ed has taken to collecting all sorts of plushies and such from Indigo Park.
What I want to point out is how weird this Laura person acts. As soon as Indigo Park is mentioned, Laura instantly seems to dislike the idea, but never directly says it. Instead, she becomes reluctant to go with Ed, despite having done worse, as Ed puts it. Perhaps she's just cautious, and based on her last sentence, they haven't been caught before, or else she would have said "I don't want to be paying your bail again."
However, I don't think that's the case. Remember when Laura said she looked up Indigo Park and found nothing? Well, we know the website is still up and running, or at the very least, Ed used some sort of service like the Wayback Machine to pull it up on the right most monitor on his desk, which can be seen in the opening cutscene. On it, there's even an option to purchase tickets still, which is incredibly weird, which I'll also go into later on. Why would a defunct theme park need a still running website? After all, if you evacuate everyone from it with no explanation, wouldn't you want to get rid of all evidence of it? If not destroy the property outright, then at least take the website down. Again, digressing, the point is that Laura didn't find this website ... or she did, but didn't say anything.
Again, this is purely speculation at this point; I mean, the two of them have broke into a few places trespassing and recording and documenting abandoned places at least a few times for the internet, and maybe she really is just that cautious, worried about being imprisoned and charged for trespassing, and even attempted burglary.
And it seems like Ed is asking the same questions we are. Behind the Harmony tab is a notes tab with several questions such as "Why did it close?" and "What is left?", among a few others that are cut off. The next question seems to ask "Is it still" something. Seems like Ed and us are in the same boat. Hopefully we can help each other out.
Regardless, Ed ends up climbing the fence and enters the closed off Indigo Park, where dozens of crates stamped with the Indigo Park logo, along with trash, can be seen. Walking around, the main gates are closed off, and one of the doors seem to open on their own, allowing Ed entry into the Registration Center, a desk with a few monitors where a Rangler would sit and check Ed in.
Inside, the Rambley AI comes to life, noting that Ed is the first person there in just over eight years, before directing us to the previously mentioned Registration Center. It is revealed here that AI Rambley has access to the cameras (both computer cameras and CCTV cameras), where he notes that Ed isn’t on the guest list, probably because he snuck in, and didn’t pay for his tickets. However, what stands out as odd is that Rambley doesn’t recognize Ed at all, asking if he was here for the first time. We know that it’s most definitely not Ed’s first time here, but it’s unclear if AI Rambley doesn’t recognize Ed because he grew up, or the registration process requires a photo upload.
Rambley AI: "Hm, I don't seem to have your face in the guest list. Is this your first time here in the park? Or did you just get plastic surgery?"
From here, Ed’s directed to go through the gates, but both AI Rambley and Ed realize that the gates are not open and are instead sending an error message. Going back to the Registration Center, Ed finds and replaces a missing gear, and the gates finally open, from where Ed is free to explore. He’s directed to the Critter Corner, where he receives a Critter Cuff to enter certain areas, and the park, from where he’s directed to Rambley’s Railway to get to know most (poor Salem) of the characters. A massive statue of Isaac Indigo and Rambley can be seen at the entrance.
As Ed makes his way through to Rambley Railway, it’s clear that the park is not in the best condition. Ransacked gift stores, empty cafes with rotting food and festering drinks, tunnels collapsing at the drop of a hat, and weeds spouting everywhere even disconcert the AI Rambley, who tries to shrug off the state of the park by claiming renovations, but it’s clear he’s unsettled with how empty and broken the park is. We’ll cover that later as well.
On this ride, Rambley introduces us to everyone, except for Salem, indicating he’s friends with everyone except her and Lloyd, for whom he has … let’s a bit of distaste for. He’s shown to be sarcastic and snippy with Lloyd, but even his supposed friends aren’t safe from his occasional jabs.
Rambley when speaking to Mollie Macaw: “You sure are [the best pilot you ever saw], Moll! Why, you only crashed into six barns this week!”
Mollie: “I’m not crashin’, Rambley! I’m barnstormin’!”
Rambley: “Haha! What’s barnstorming?”
Mollie: “It’s crashing, with style! I-it barely hurts at all!”
The stutter in Mollie’s audio is what interests me. It could be interpreted as a glitch, which is certainly possible. The park hasn’t been maintained in eight years, and it is falling apart. But it could also be interpreted as Mollie losing her characteristic confidence, upset that Rambley seems to be so keen on pointing out her failures in her hobby sphere.
Rambley, when speaking to Finley the Sea Serpent: “Why the long face? And body? … Oh Finley, you should come out of YOUR shell!”
Finley, in response. “How about YOU come into it instead?”
I would also like to note AI Rambley’s interaction with Finley’s plushie.
AI Rambley: “Ooh, you found my buddy Finley! You know, he’s really shy, like, TOO shy, like OBNOXIOUSLY shy, but he’s got a good heart.”
I want to point out the fact that when Rambley speaks about how shy Finley is, he doesn’t seem to be doing it in a jesting way. In fact, he seems genuinely annoyed with how introverted Finley is, to the point where you can hear it in his voice, and he also uses his annoyed model with slanted eyes when mentioning it.
There’s also a note here that, apparently, Rambley and Finley have known each other for over 100 years, though it’s unclear if this is actually real information, or just something the creators of the ride decided to include for the fun of it.
And another thing. At the very end of the Finley section, Finley hopes that the rider will actually visit him and Oceanic Odyssey, because he’s lonely. Why should he be lonely? He’s friends with Rambley and Mollie, at the very least. Is it because he lives on the bottom of the ocean? Or for other reasons?
Ed then reaches Salem’s area, which is noticeably, horrifically destroyed, a splatter of something bright red front and center. This is where the ride breaks down, and Ed’s required to go and fix it, before continuing onto Lloyd’s area.
I’d like to stop the story to consider the state of Salem’s area; why is it so destroyed? I’m going to avoid thinking of the red splatter as blood, to be honest, but we do know that the Mascots bleed red, thanks to Mollie Macaw. In my mind, there are three potential perpetrators.
The first two are noticeably weak connections, and the reasoning isn’t 100%, so take it with a grain of salt. We know that all the characters received Mascots, so there are three of them that, in my mind, are capable.
The first is, admittedly, a bit weird: the Mascot of Salem. We know she despises Rambley and his friends (her relationship with Lloyd remains a mystery), so it’s possible that Mascot Salem was the one to sabotage her area, as a way of getting back at Rambley. Why her area only is admittedly a bit weird, so she’s not the strongest match. Another piece of evidence would be the smashed animatronic of Mollie. Again, we do know that Salem has used Mollie before by dumping her potions onto her and making Mollie Salem’s minion. Could she also have smashed the animatronic bird?
The second suspect is Mascot Mollie. She can be seen following Ed throughout the ride, and the whole park, for that matter, and we do know there is some bad blood between her and Salem because of the arcade game Rambely Rush. It would give motive for Mascot Mollie to do such a thing, and she’s the only Mascot running about Indigo Park that we know of; Lloyd remained in his theater, not pursuing Ed when he leaves. At the end of the chapter, when Ed enters Oceanic Odyssey, it’s unclear whether a robot or Mascot Finley appears in the aquarium, but he’s likely confined there as well. Mascots Rambley and Salem aren’t even mentioned once.
Now, this one is also kind of a stretch, but the only character that would have more reason to hate Salem more than Mollie is Rambley. They are clear nemeses (again, Rambley Rush), and have been for quite some time. While the AI Rambley is generally benevolent, but still with a sharp tongue, it remains to be seen what exactly the Mascot Rambley is like. His Mascot is still likely here in Indigo Park somewhere, one of the remaining two (Mollie being dead, unless there are several of each Mascot present, in which case this elevates the terror a few notches. Imagine being chased by seventeen Mascot Lloyds) besides Salem. He could very well be the perpetrator. However, I do have a bit of trouble explaining why he would wreck the Animatronic Mollie. Maybe because he knows it’s just a fake, and not the real Mascot Mollie?
However, there is one convenient detail that I have not mentioned. Remember the smashed Animatronic Mollie, and how we were questioning why she was wrecked in the first place? Well, she does offer us one clue. When Ed approaches the bird, Mollie flickers to life momentarily, her voice garbled and distorted until finally, she says this:
Animatronic Mollie: “Not Rambley! He hurts Lloyd! He hurts Lloyd!”
After that, poor Animatronic Mollie finally shuts off for good, her painted eyes devoid of the life she once had. Well, this certainly got interesting, didn’t it? Rambley hurts Lloyd? How? I mean, think about it! How would a raccoon actively hurt a lion? This isn’t like a honey badger situation; raccoons are much more vulnerable and weaker than honey badgers. What’s also interesting is her words themselves. Why would someone program an Animatronic Mollie to say this? We eventually find out that Mascot Mollie will memorize and be able to repeat words or phrases she’s heard, if Ed has the misfortune of being caught by Mascot Mollie later down the line. Is it possible that the same is true for the animatronics? And if so, does that mean that Animatronic Mollie was shouting bits and pieces out of context, or was it supposed to be something she was never meant to hear, and was thusly wrecked?
And even if this was out of context, that still opens up a major can of worms. Even if Rambley never hurt Lloyd, who is this ‘He’ that did hurt Lloyd? Keep this in mind until we reach Lloyd’s attraction.
Anyways, onto Llyod’s area. It’s clear that Lloyd and Rambley both don’t like each other, quite possibly because Rambley hates how Lloyd used to be number one, and Lloyd possibly because he’s not happy that he was replaced by Rambley as head honcho. Rambley, for his part, doesn’t really try to antagonize Lloyd, just wearily going through the ride and trying to get out as fast as possible here.
And that’s essentially it for the ride, AI Rambley suggesting Ed go visit Jetstream Junction. Careful observation would yield the fact that Mascot Mollie has been stalking Ed, studying him from behind the scenes, though she won’t end up being an antagonist until later on.
What’s interesting to note is that at the end, AI Rambley says this: “So, whatddya think? Pretty fun, right? Now you know all about my friends! And Lloyd …”
We know that Rambley cannot stand Salem, Rambley Rush made it quite clear. So, why refer to Salem as a friend? Why is her area so wrecked? Is it possible that AI Rambley has no reason to hate her, because he’s not aware of how often he’s pitted against her in media? But that would also mean that AI Rambley would have to be quite unaware of the media surrounding him, but he seems to know a lot about the history of the park. He still dislikes Lloyd, after all. And then that would beg the question if Mascot Rambley actually dislikes Salem enough to destroy her area in his ride. Too many questions that, unfortunately, there are no answers for. We can’t even see AI Rambley’s thoughts on Salem through a plush or anything, because there are no current collectibles in Chapter 1 that refer to her.
This is actually why I think one of the more intriguing aspects of ‘Birds of a Feather’ is Salem, and her ambiguous presence within the game. There aren’t even any posters in regard to her, unlike Lloyd or Rambley or Mollie or Finley. She’s just so wrapped up in mystery … anyways.
After finding out Jetstream Junction is locked away, AI Rambley sends Ed to Lloyd’s Main Stage Theater, where Ed first catches a glimpse of Mascot Lloyd, dozing on the stage. When Mascot Lloyd notices Ed, he runs into the back, and unfortunately, that’s where Ed has to go.
When Ed reaches the stage himself, AI Rambley tells Ed to be careful, because he has no vision of the backstage area, which is weird. AI Rambley seems to have access to the rest of Indigo Park, why is this area so special? It’s just storage, for the most part … and Mascot Lloyd, but AI Rambley still thinks they’re just as good as they were in their hay day, so he has no reason to be wary of the Mascots themselves until later. It’s true that it’s a Ranglers Only area, and we haven’t really seen AI Rambley in these areas before, so that could be it? Maybe because of his dislike for Lloyd? But then why give AI Rambley access to the stage at all? I don’t know, to be honest. Yet another question. However, AI Rambley does say something interesting.
AI Rambley, to Ed, regarding the behind the stage area: “Hey buddy. I got eyes all over the park, but I can’t see anything behind the stage. If you’re going back there be careful. Your Critter Cuff is not yet able to resuscitate you.”
Why should a Critter Cuff be able to resuscitate a person? From what I understand, it’s supposed to be like those Disney Bands that you can wear at parks, giving you access to different rides and such, even having complementary features of being a pedometer, mood ring, and a heartbeat sensor. This could either be a sort of tease to future upgrades Ed might be able to get in future chapters … or implies something darker. These Critter Cuffs were given to regular guests, for what purpose should they be able to revive someone from being unconscious?
Anyways, as Ed makes his way backstage, Lloyd makes some appearances, even once trying to attack Ed before being foiled by the massive boxes landing on him, causing him to slink away. Along the path, however, is something interesting. Binders, pages, even notebooks are scattered, almost like a bread crumb trail. I was never able to make out what they say besides some months like January, or vague Table of Contents with no explanation. Just thought it was weird. Food for thought. Grabbing the keys, Ed heads back, finding the door locked behind him. Trying to open the door yields an attack by Lloyd, who is strangely repelled by a high-pitched noise.
Now, from all that I have read, there seem to be two theories as for why Lloyd flees. The first cause is that Mascot Lloyd is driven away by the high-pitched beeping from the Critter Cuff. The second, and arguably more intriguing theory, is that someone blows a tamer’s whistle. A tamer’s whistle is a whistle used by tamers to direct animals, usually in settings like circuses where the animal has to perform some sort of trick or feat of athleticism. As it’s used more and more often, the animal learns to recognize the pitch, or duration of the shrill sound, associating it with a certain action that needs to be performed. In this case, the theory states that the tamer’s whistle caused Lloyd to fall back, before fleeing.
Now, while I think the tamer whistle theory is cool in concept, I don’t know who would be able, or more importantly, willing to save Ed from Mascot Lloyd. AI Rambley is not able to see what’s back here, nor should he understand what’s happening, so that removes him from the picture. Mascot Mollie is a possibility, perhaps wanting to save Ed for herself, as she’s seen stalking and watching Ed ever since Rambley’s Railroad, and even appears briefly in the hallway when Ed exits the theater backstage, but why want Ed for herself? They probably don’t need food, else they would have died, sweet pastries and sugary drinks present or not. They were left alone for eight years, after all. The thrill of the hunt would be the only explanation. And then there are our two unknowns, running about the park: Mascot Rambley and Mascot Salem. Could they have been the ones to do it? But why assume they’d act differently towards Ed? Surely they’d still be hostile?
And if the Critter Cuff was the savior, why was it ineffective against Mascot Mollie? Could it be because of the physiological and biological differences between Mascots Lloyd and Mollie? And why did it go off only when Lloyd was nearby? After Lloyd is repelled, the noise stops, after all. Was it the elevated heart rate that tipped off the defense mechanism? But again, surely it would have done the same when Ed would be chased by Mascot Mollie?
Remember what Animatronic Mollie told Ed with her dying breath? ‘Not Rambley! He hurts Lloyd! He hurts Lloyd!’ Could this be what Mollie was referring to? After all, Lloyd didn’t just run away; he collapsed a few feet away from Ed for a brief stint, paws pressing against his ears as Lloyd curled up into a fetal position, only running away when the high-pitched sound ended. Mascot Lloyd genuinely seemed in great pain, and was only able to run away, quite hastily, may I add, once the sound stopped. Was Rambley, AI or Mascot, the one who abused such a feature? Or was it someone else?
Remember, we have no idea why the Mascots turned hostile. Possibly due to a lack of exposure to humans, and thus claiming certain territories for themselves. After all, Mollie didn’t attack Ed until he entered her designated area. But then that brings into question Mascot Rambley. Where was he all this time? Rambley Railroad is his place, after all. But this isn’t Rambley’s only attraction in Indigo Park. At least one other location that we find that bears Rambley’s name is ‘Café de Raton Laveur’, which is French for Raccoon Café. Does that mean that Rambley owns other attractions, and is stalking those? It’s unclear.
Anyways, want to know another possible reason why there was a sudden evacuation with no explanation? What if the Mascots rebelled against the humans because of mistreatment? Think about it, Animatronic Mollie says ‘Not Rambley! He hurts Lloyd! He hurts Lloyd!’ What if Animatronic Mollie wasn’t referring to Rambley hurting Lloyd, but someone else? Someone who would want to design a special feature built into his Critter Cuff that he could activate and subdue, if not straight up hurt Lloyd? And who is the only other male character that we know of besides Rambley, Lloyd, Finley, and Ed?
That’s right, Isaac Indigo himself. This could very well be a case of mistreated creatures rebelling against the horrors they endured. Think about it, when in stressful situations, the mind, both human and not, is much more willing to go into fight or flight, is much more likely to punch first, question later. Is it possible that this Animatronic Mollie caught a snippet of a conflict that arose between the Mascots, when Mascot Mollie was trying to mediate? While this does go against the theory that Animatronic Mollie was destroyed by Mascot Rambley to silence her, it’s still a possible theory, no?
Again, these theories are very much a stretch, I just wished to lay them out on the table and offer them up for people to see and debate.
After grabbing the keys, Ed goes to Jetsream Junction, where Ed goes about exploring and solving some puzzles in order to progress further into the building, as it seems to be the only other place that isn’t falling apart and seems to be in somewhat stable condition. Inside one of the rooms is the Rambley Rush arcade game, and there is something interesting that Salem says in here.
Salem, speaking to Rambley: “Meet the new and improved Marley Macaw! Now with none o’ that ‘friendship’ garbage stopping her from tearin’ you to pieces. I wonder what she REALLY thinks of you now? Have fun finding out!”
Now, this could just be me overanalyzing this thing. It’s our only reference to Salem, and some of the things I cite as evidence could very well just be regular dialogue for an arcade game. However, on the off chance that this means something, I was very interested in what Salem said about what Mollie thought of Rambley. She makes it seem like Mollie is under some sort of illusion in regard to Rambley, like he’s a villain masquerading as a good guy, but has everyone around him convinced he’s good. This could tie in with the broken Animatronic Mollie, as if Mollie found out about some truth in regard to Rambley. After all, her broken, jittering speech made it seem like Rambley was actively hurting Lloyd. Could she have gone to someone to get help, but that other someone suggested Rambley as an ally? That could explain why Mollie felt the need to emphasize that ‘He hurts Lloyd’ twice, like she’s genuinely freaking out that her best friend actively hurt others he didn’t like.
Putting that theory aside, Ed goes through the area, heading up to Mollie’s ride, only to find it inaccessible due to major chunks of broken debris. AI Rambley seems sort of horrified to find the place so broken and calls up a repair technician. It’s no surprise that the line is discontinued, due to most Ranglers likely being laid off after the closure of Indigo Park.
From here, AI Rambley, still somewhat jarred by the wreckage he’s seeing, encourages Ed to go and visit Mollie’s Landing Pad, strangely acting as if Ed had just finished his journey on the attraction, when he couldn’t even step onto it. From there, Ed goes and solves some puzzles, making his way deeper into the building. He spots Mollie a few times as she gets away from him, hiding. What’s an interesting note is that some sort of liquid seems to be dripping from Mollie. When you encounter her in one of the tubes, she leaves behind some sort of reddish grime that disappears once her animation is done. Her eyes, also, aren’t the way they’re usually portrayed. They’re similar to Lloyd’s in that there are white pinpricks of light in dark sockets, Lloyd’s being thin ovals in dark sockets.
As Ed finishes up the puzzles, he goes deeper before he’s attacked by Mascot Mollie herself, fleeing through the numerous tubes and tunnels, before eventually leaving it all behind and entering some sort of Ranglers Only Area.
Before we continue, I’d like to point out something. When being chased, Mascot Mollie occasionally rehearses some lines she once heard, repeating this.
Finely, to Rambley: “You’ve known me for 100 years.”
Reasonable enough; she was there when Ed was in the Rambley’s Railroad attraction. No, what concerns me are two other lines, identified by SuperHorrorBro in his analysis of chapter one.
Mascot Mollie: “Get back in your cage, bird.”
And finally, this.
Mascot Mollie: “Get up you stupid freak!”
Remember, Mascot Mollie only repeats what she has once heard. She doesn’t actively make her own dialogue. Remember the theory I had about the Mascots having enough of their terrible living conditions, and rebelling against the staff? It seems like this is the right direction to go in. Lloyd and Mollie do not attack immediately. While Lloyd runs away, Mollie observes, watching, biding her time. She follows you to Lloyd’s theater, and what does she see, or, rather, hear? Lloyd being pushed further and further back into his domain, the one place he should be happy, before being forced into a corner, and where he lashes out. Even though Ed ends up leaving, he ends up claiming a piece of Lloyd’s territory, and Lloyd goes back onto his instincts, to hunt. However, when he gets too close, that blasted, accursed Critter Cuff lets out its horrible whine, Lloyd collapsing, consumed with nothing but pain. Once the sound ends, he flees, like a terrified animal.
And what does Ed see when he leaves? Mascot Mollie, observing Ed. She’s seen that, yet again, a human encroaches, pushes their bounds, eventually hurting Lloyd to get what he wants. And then, he goes to Mollie’s home, the Jetstream Junction, a place she’s been locked out of due to needing a Critter Cuff, but she wouldn’t dare touch one. She saw what happened to Lloyd, who knew what sort of anguish it would inflict upon Mollie?
She enters behind Ed, stalking him, fury building as she watches Ed run about like he owns the place. How dare this man, this human, walk upon her domain whenever he wants, but she has to wait until she’s let in, like some sort of caged bird. Well, she’s not a caged bird, and she’ll make Ed see that.
At first, when AI Rambley sees Ed, he wishes to stop Ed, but seeing a towering Mascot Mollie chasing him, he opens the door, slamming it shut behind Ed just as Mascot Mollie’s head enters the room, killing the Mascot instantly as blood sprays all over the metallic door and floor. AI Rambley attempts to act like nothing happened, but fails, sighing.
He explains that he didn’t realize the danger of Indigo Park and its inhabitants due to being stuck in that early Reception Center for all of those eight, lonely years, unable to see or interact with anything inside. He was just so excited to finally see an actual person that he pushed Ed into this tour, realizing that, with the way things were, there was no way Ed would come out unscathed, and the AI seems genuine in his sorrow. However, he asks for Ed to help restore the park to the former glory, and, miraculously, Ed agrees. However, before Ed leaves, AI Rambley drops this one last piece of vital information.
AI Rambley: “Whew! That was exhausting to say that whole spiel, but Rambley’s Ranglers (registered) is a registered trademark … that expired yesterday.”
Okay, so couple things. From my impression, I had the feeling that somehow, someway the Indigo Company as a whole was alive and kicking. I mean, look at what Ed has to say when he interacts with the Rambley Raccoon plushy.
Ed: “Ah, there’s my buddy. Kinda feels like Rambley has a whole empire now, being the main man of Indigo and all.”
Ed gives us the distinct impression that not only is Indigo still around, but it’s also positively thriving, yet they allow their trademarks to expire? Trademarks essentially last forever, but you have to fight, in court, to let them continue every ten years or so. If Indigo is based on Disney, the stingiest, largest entertainment company, why would they let their trademark expire, and give access to others? Well, this might have to do with the initial terms.
You see, in order to keep a trademark, you have to defend its usage every ten years. Well, okay, then why didn’t Indigo do so? One of the terms for renewal is that you have to continuously use that trademark. You can’t just claim one and never use it again, that’s basically an infraction upon free speech. Sure, you can fight for its ownership, but there are rules and regulations to these kinds of things, you can’t just trademark something like ‘Oof’ or ‘Lmao’ and keep it without at least saying those phrases occassionally.
And, so far as we know, there are no other places such as Indigo Park owns. Ranglers are synonymous with staff in the park, so obviously, it would be hard to justify keeping a trademark when you never expect to use it. So, that’s my theory on why the trademark did indeed expire the day previously, October 6^th, 2023 (apparently, the creator confirmed the game takes place in 2023, so, that means that Ed arrives on October 7^th, 2023, and the last person to enter park left on October 7^th, 2015).
Anyways, after that, AI Rambley leads Ed to Oceanic Odyssey with the intention to get it back up and running, as it has been closed due to repairs, something that AI Rambley hopes Ed can assist with. As Ed exits, he tries entering a hallway, which AI Rambley blocks.
AI Rambley: “Uh oh. That Rambley’s Ranglers room is only accessible by Royal Ranglers. Maybe you’ll grow up big and strong enough to enter it! But for now, don’t.”
This is the first instance of hierarchy within the Ranglers that Ed has been introduced to so far, and the dark undertone AI Rambley takes when he tells Ed not to go there is somewhat concerning. What exactly is AI Rambley hiding back there? Well, I have a few hunches.
Let’s point out the obvious regarding our friends, the Mascots; they’re not regular animals. Obviously, regular animals don’t have dark orbitals with thin white slits, or have turquoise noses, or have macaws the size of cassowaries. However, they are still animals, creatures of flesh and blood that act like their regular animal counterparts; Lloyd is an ambush predator, stalking until he himself is presented with an opportunity to attack. However, lions are known to just straight up attack if they are discovered by accident, especially if the prey is weaker and slower than them. Lloyd runs away instead of attacking.
Similarly, Mollie follows Ed warily, unsure of what to think of him for most of the time. She never aggresses until he enters her territory, and even then, she’s surprisingly lenient with Ed, straight up until he finishes those color-coded symbol puzzles. Only then does she attack. And even then, this is a behavior reflected in regular macaws as well, as these birds are fiercely territorial of their area.
So, these Mascots didn’t pop up straight from the ground, did they? They had to be bioengineered at the very least, mutated regular animals becoming the Mascots guests once knew and loved. They are, however, animals at their core, animals that do not attack for no reason. They try to deescalate the situation, as Lloyd does when he runs backstage, and when Mollie pulls herself back through the tunnels, away from Ed, and striding through the corridors, until she eventually loses patience and chases after Ed through Jetsream Junction.
I’d like to propose the theory that these Mascots were created in that area of Jetstream Junction, hidden underground and away from prying eyes. This is also where the Mascots were likely mistreated and abused, called horribly names at the very least, and endured beatings and humiliating acts at their worst. This is also likely where the Mascots originally snapped. After all, literally not a single guest understands why they were evacuated. Unless the guests who saw what happened were silenced, there should have been something floating around the Internet, on some obscure forum.
Now, why would AI Rambley hide this? Because he now understands that these Mascots are dangerous, a risk he cannot allow, since he enlisted Ed to bring the park back from the dead. AI Rambley realizes that Ed doesn’t have the tools to survive that area; perhaps because one of the Mascots lurks in there, locked away, or because he doesn’t want Ed to flee, horrified as to the scientific process that allowed for the mutated abominations to roam Indigo Park.
Regardless, Ed finally makes his way to the entrance of Oceanic Odyssey, home of the Mascot Finley. In fact, we actually get to see a glimpse of Finely’s actual size in one of the aquariums as his large head and long torso appear, before the chapter ends. I don’t believe that this is an animatronic, as electricity and water do not mix, especially animatronic with running current of electricity in water.
And that’s where Chapter 1 of Indigo Park, ‘Birds of a Feather’, ends off. Chapter Two will likely revolve mostly, if not totally, around Oceanic Odyssey and Mascot Finley.
So, I have two predictions as for where the next chapter might go. Based on the reactions Mascots previously had to Ed, I believe that Mascot Finley will not be attacking immediately. He’ll likely be observing, like Mollie, at least for a certain amount of time, until he proceeds to attack and harass Ed around his attraction. Ed will eventually get Oceanic Odyssey up and running, and have to leave Mascot Finley behind, as he’s still hostile and very much a danger to Ed.
The alternative to this is that once Mascot Finely realizes what Ed is trying to do, he stops being aggressive, and might instead become a temporary ally, allowing Ed to reach certain locations with his knowledge of the place.
Regardless of Mascot Finley’s ultimate fate, Oceanic Odyssey being powered on will likely catch the attention of Indigo. Based on the information we know so far, Indigo is still a well known, public entity. It’s possible that Indigo abandoned the theme park route, instead focusing exclusively on media such as cartoons, movies, and merch, or they might have other sister locations to Indigo Park. It’s unclear.
Whew. In the words of AI Rambley, this is a lot of information. Almost nine thousand words in, and we finally finish covering Chapter 1. So, let’s proceed to the Conclusion I draw regarding the story Indigo Park tries to tell, and the future events that might transpire.

Backstory: my ex and I separated in 2021, divorced finalized a year later. While not everything was perfect, we both have told many others we are a great parenting team, we have become good friends, we are both happier, and we respect each other.
When we separated, I moved out of state. Before our divorce was finalized, she moved in with her bf (now fiancé), and my then 16 year old son. Our older son has been in college since we separated, and is living with me this summer.
Thursday my oldest son and I flew home for youngest son’s graduation. The youngest son picks us up from the airport and we go to my ex’s house. Her fiancé is out of town for work. My ex wife shows me a show box that’s wrapped up in gift paper, and tells (reminds) me it’s the ‘time capsule’ he made in kindergarten, to be opened when he graduates. I remembered writing him a letter to his older self after she showed it to me.
I suggested he open it right then and there, as it was just the four of us. My thinking was this: youngest son had SIGNIFICANT health issues from 18 months - 6 years old. As in, Make A Wish trip health issues. There were times we didn’t know what the future would hold for him. I expected the capsule to hold many memories of that time in our lives.
Ex wife was clear, “he’s waited 13 years for this, he can wait two more days.” (He was held back a year along the way).
Fair point. We can wait.
Fast forward to today. I’d been at my brothers house cleaning and prepping food for the graduation cookout and met ex, fiancé, former MIL, and both sons at graduation. When I walk in, ex wife hands me an envelope - the letter I wrote to my son that had been in the time capsule. Her, finance, and MIL start telling me about everything else that was in it and I just…. Fucking died inside.
That was us, the core 4, that was in that box from 13 years ago. It really hurt that she couldn’t wait until I was present to have him open it. I did my best to hide my face and not make a reaction. I barely spoke to ex or her fiancé the rest of the three hour ceremony. I know a few times tears welled up as I kept thinking about that time era in our lives during the graduation, but tried to play it off like I was just an emotionally happy and proud dad.
Truth is, ex has forgotten to include me in quite a few things since we separated. When I have the boys (we travel a lot, or they come see me), I send her pics and keep her updated on our adventures. She didn’t do that until I made a big deal about it, and even then I have to ask/remind her to take and send pics for things I miss. She’s also ‘forgotten’ several items of family business that usually negatively impact me. I’m beginning to think it may be somewhat petty intention on her part.
It really sucks because I thought even divorced we could remain a good parenting duo. Now I feel like with both boys being 18 and out of high school I shouldn’t ever have expectations that she’ll keep me informed or share things with me. I feel like I should make less effort to do so for her, and just do my own things with the boys. If her and I fail to communicate from this point forward, so be it.
Edit: grammar

I cooked on an Akorn cart I got from Home Depot several years ago for about 6 years and upgraded to a used XL Big Green Egg I received as a gift. My Akorn was pretty beat up, I didn't take the greatest care of it. The ash basket was pretty rusty. It was pretty beat up and I ended up trashing it.
However, there are so many things I liked better about the Akorn. The removable ash basket is way easier to empty. I could move the cart without having to worry it's going to get knocked over. I love how the grate is flush with the lid. Way easier to cook skewers. The charcoal lasts waay longer as well. My first brisket cook on my BGE, I ran out or charcoal. Meanwhile my Akorn would have had a ton left. It holds the heat a lot better (although a lot harder to cool down). Honestly besides looks and longevity, I think it was superior in almost every other way. Kind of a random thought, but a post on the BGE subreddit made me think of some of these things.

Hi all, I made a post asking something unrelated earlier today, and someone asked some questions about how I managed to afford 3 properties whilst having a low income at 29 years old. I thought it might be a good idea to make a post with the basics of how I did it, and for laughs, the horrible things I've had to do to save the money required for it... Please have a read, laugh at the bullshit I put myself through, and maybe learn things to do/not to do, if you want to buy property at a young age on a budget.
I bought my first house which was a 3 bedroom glorified hovel in the SE suburbs of Melbourne 5 years ago. (Income was 80k per year, however I did have a side job which generated extra income) Using a combo of money I'd saved and cash I borrowed from family to fund the deposit (I paid the deposit back in full with interest, thanks to working a side hustle in addition to my full time job teaching at tafe most nights of the week at that time) I immediately did basic renos on the house, and got two housemates to move in with me which covered a decent amount of the mortage.
Was made redundant 3 times during covid, due to the nature of my work, and learnt to save every cent due to my lack of money (more on that later) Eventually, at the start of 2022, I managed to get myself back into stable employment, and saved like a madman. Foolishly drained my super during this time to put towards a combo of bills, and saving for another property.
Waited until end of 2022, bought a two bedroom house (using a combo of equity in my first property gained using covid, and a cash deposit) as a family member needed a place to stay, and rented it to them, whilst adding a 3rd bedroom to add value to the house.
A few months ago, got that house revalued, and bought a rubbish unit using a combo of cash and equity from the first two places, renovated it myself using items I'd picked up in the last year off fb marketplace for free or cheap (paint, sinks, kitchen tops etc...) and rented it out straight away.
I am now extremely cash poor, however it's nice to see the equity slowly increasing. Before I talk about the horrible things I've had to do to make/save money, I'd like to clarify, that as a landlord I make sure that I look after the tennents correctly, rent out at a reasonable price, and generally make sure they have a higher standard of living than me.
Things I've had to do to get to this point...
-I built a home gym in my garage made up of weights I've picked up online for cheap or free over the years. And carpeted it using free carpet off of fb marketplace that I had to pull out from a crack shack as payment for it.
-My protein for cheap, comes from eating duck eggs from the ducks I've bought for cheap online (they live off of my food scraps in the backyard, so super low cost)
-The toilets in my house all have a brick in the cistern to save water each time you flush them
-I exclusively piss only in the backyard to save money on water bills from flushing toilet.
-I have not owned a car with a functioning radio or air con for the last 2 years
-I work a full time job and have a side gig which I do most nights of the week after work
-Once a month or so I treat myself to lunch, everything other than its pasta or baked beans in the microwave
-I bought my first roll of toilet paper about 3 years ago, before that, toilet paper was exclusively nicked from toilets at work.
-Grew 90% of my veggies from my own garden to save money
-I do market research on topics I have no clue about every few weeks about. I generally pretend I'm interested or have some expertise in the topic beforehand so I get accepted. Every time I do this, it generally covers a week or so of grocery bills, as I accept the payment in Woollies gift cards.
-I pay cash for everything so that in the lead up to buying a property it looks like I have zero expenses.
-Take random jobs for people doing terrible things like cleaning out disgusting old fish ponds out of deceased peoples estates before the place gets sold.
-Collecting bog wood from a country property, high pressure spraying it, and then selling it to aquariums for a profit, so they can sell it to customers for a small fortune (it's a rip off)
-Sold my TV to save cash for a property deposit
-Instead of buying an air conditioner, I chopped a circular hole in my bedroom floor, and put an extractor fan upside down on there, to suck up cold air from underneath the house in summer and pump it into my bedroom. Saves money on the power bill, and only cost me the price of a $30 extractor fan.
Anyway thats how I managed to buy three properties at 29 years old on a budget. I Hope anyone reading this enjoyed it and had a laugh at the dumb shit I've done to save money. Feel free to ask me any questions and I'll do my best to answer 😁

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★ Huntsman Knife Black Laminate (Minimal Wear), B/O: $204.83

★ Huntsman Knife Black Laminate (Field-Tested), B/O: $184.50

★ StatTrak™ Huntsman Knife Lore (Battle-Scarred), B/O: $224.11

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★ Bowie Knife Gamma Doppler (Factory New), B/O: $2142.02

★ Bowie Knife, B/O: $230.44

★ Bowie Knife Damascus Steel (Factory New), B/O: $209.20

★ Bowie Knife Ultraviolet (Minimal Wear), B/O: $180.51

★ Bowie Knife Ultraviolet (Field-Tested), B/O: $131.03

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★ Falchion Knife Night (Field-Tested), B/O: $132.54

★ Falchion Knife Urban Masked (Well-Worn), B/O: $112.81

★ Falchion Knife Scorched (Field-Tested), B/O: $108.81

★ Falchion Knife Forest DDPAT (Field-Tested), B/O: $107.82

★ Falchion Knife Safari Mesh (Field-Tested), B/O: $107.46

★ StatTrak™ Falchion Knife Ultraviolet (Field-Tested), B/O: $143.08

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★ Paracord Knife Crimson Web (Minimal Wear), B/O: $486.48

★ Paracord Knife Blue Steel (Battle-Scarred), B/O: $163.12

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★ Survival Knife Blue Steel (Battle-Scarred), B/O: $138.26

★ Survival Knife Night Stripe (Field-Tested), B/O: $131.03

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★ Gut Knife Sapphire (Minimal Wear), B/O: $1127.79

★ Gut Knife Gamma Doppler (Factory New), B/O: $286.17

★ Gut Knife Doppler (Factory New), B/O: $246.55

★ Gut Knife Marble Fade (Factory New), B/O: $240.77

★ Gut Knife, B/O: $210.49

★ Gut Knife Lore (Field-Tested), B/O: $194.22

★ Gut Knife Case Hardened (Battle-Scarred), B/O: $151.51

★ Gut Knife Blue Steel (Minimal Wear), B/O: $124.94

★ Gut Knife Rust Coat (Well-Worn), B/O: $118.99

★ Gut Knife Boreal Forest (Minimal Wear), B/O: $109.80

★ StatTrak™ Gut Knife Doppler (Factory New), B/O: $237.96

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★ Shadow Daggers Gamma Doppler (Factory New), B/O: $264.92

★ Shadow Daggers Marble Fade (Factory New), B/O: $253.03

★ Shadow Daggers Tiger Tooth (Factory New), B/O: $237.22

★ Shadow Daggers Crimson Web (Field-Tested), B/O: $153.40

★ Shadow Daggers Autotronic (Minimal Wear), B/O: $144.42

★ Shadow Daggers Blue Steel (Field-Tested), B/O: $105.20

★ StatTrak™ Shadow Daggers Damascus Steel (Minimal Wear), B/O: $150.46

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★ Navaja Knife Fade (Factory New), B/O: $365.99

★ Navaja Knife Doppler (Factory New), B/O: $228.93

★ Navaja Knife Marble Fade (Factory New), B/O: $227.43

★ Navaja Knife Slaughter (Factory New), B/O: $209.06

★ Navaja Knife, B/O: $203.16

★ Navaja Knife Case Hardened (Well-Worn), B/O: $132.57

★ Navaja Knife Damascus Steel (Factory New), B/O: $121.69

★ Navaja Knife Damascus Steel (Minimal Wear), B/O: $109.95

★ Navaja Knife Damascus Steel (Field-Tested), B/O: $100.41

★ StatTrak™ Navaja Knife Fade (Factory New), B/O: $369.01

★ StatTrak™ Navaja Knife Damascus Steel (Field-Tested), B/O: $109.95

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★ Sport Gloves Amphibious (Minimal Wear), B/O: $2394.67

★ Sport Gloves Omega (Well-Worn), B/O: $572.33

★ Sport Gloves Bronze Morph (Minimal Wear), B/O: $338.88

★ Sport Gloves Big Game (Field-Tested), B/O: $323.66

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★ Specialist Gloves Marble Fade (Minimal Wear), B/O: $1652.07

★ Specialist Gloves Tiger Strike (Field-Tested), B/O: $599.14

★ Specialist Gloves Crimson Web (Well-Worn), B/O: $231.57

★ Specialist Gloves Buckshot (Minimal Wear), B/O: $126.21

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★ Moto Gloves POW! (Minimal Wear), B/O: $996.99

★ Moto Gloves POW! (Field-Tested), B/O: $383.31

★ Moto Gloves POW! (Well-Worn), B/O: $276.00

★ Moto Gloves Turtle (Field-Tested), B/O: $180.28

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★ Hand Wraps CAUTION! (Minimal Wear), B/O: $502.29

★ Hand Wraps Giraffe (Minimal Wear), B/O: $180.73

★ Hand Wraps CAUTION! (Battle-Scarred), B/O: $178.32

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★ Driver Gloves Queen Jaguar (Minimal Wear), B/O: $181.01

★ Driver Gloves Rezan the Red (Field-Tested), B/O: $101.66

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★ Broken Fang Gloves Jade (Field-Tested), B/O: $127.88

★ Broken Fang Gloves Needle Point (Minimal Wear), B/O: $124.55

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★ Bloodhound Gloves Guerrilla (Minimal Wear), B/O: $127.94

★ Hydra Gloves Case Hardened (Field-Tested), B/O: $102.55

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AK-47 X-Ray (Well-Worn), B/O: $478.95

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M4A4 Daybreak (Factory New), B/O: $309.51

StatTrak™ AK-47 Aquamarine Revenge (Factory New), B/O: $305.43

AK-47 Case Hardened (Well-Worn), B/O: $196.38

StatTrak™ M4A4 Temukau (Minimal Wear), B/O: $174.64

P90 Run and Hide (Field-Tested), B/O: $167.03

AWP Asiimov (Field-Tested), B/O: $153.33

Souvenir SSG 08 Death Strike (Minimal Wear), B/O: $140.00

M4A1-S Printstream (Battle-Scarred), B/O: $124.70

StatTrak™ M4A1-S Golden Coil (Field-Tested), B/O: $117.48

AWP Asiimov (Well-Worn), B/O: $115.97

StatTrak™ Desert Eagle Printstream (Minimal Wear), B/O: $112.96

StatTrak™ AK-47 Asiimov (Minimal Wear), B/O: $110.85

Souvenir M4A1-S Master Piece (Well-Worn), B/O: $102.42

AK-47 Bloodsport (Minimal Wear), B/O: $100.53

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Let me preface this with the past 5 years summarized.
My wife used to smoke when I met her. She smoked when we were married, and for many years after. Due to health concerns, she decided to quit, and did so sometime around 2013.
We used to go away on holidays together as a family. In 2016 I took our son (13 at the time) on a road trip across a lot of the South and Western US States (CO, TX, UT, AZ, NM) while she went to another city to spend time with her daughter from another relationship. Since then, we did not go on holidays or take vacation together at the same time.
In 2017 I went away with our son, and again in 2018 and 2019. Sometime around 2019 I noticed my wife was smoking again, but I decided not to bother her about it, just let it be. I didn't say anything. She would leave to go to the store to smoke, because who goes to the store 2x every day?
She got into the car cruise nights and she would take her daughter along with her. Our son would ask to go, and she would often say no, she had already promised her daughter. Sometimes she would let him go.
She never wanted me to go with her, and in fact said so with excuses all the time ("you don't like sitting in my car, you don't like being around other people a lot, you should have fun with our son playing games instead" you name it). In the fall of 2022, our son told her that we knew she was smoking, when I wasn't home. So at first the nightly shopping trips ceased, as she began smoking outside on the street.
In 2023, for our anniversary, I got her a present and sent her a nice text. She thanked me by text, and didn't do or say anything in return. For my birthday, she didn't get me a card, or a gift. For father's day, same thing, no card, nothing. I had asked her to go away with me on a trip, and she said no. So I took our son on another trip. We had to come home 4 days early because we got sick, and she was upset we arrived early. She had taken the same period off for her holidays without telling me, and was mad that she was off work when I would also be off work and at home.
For her birthday, she didn't want me to do anything or even take her out, and instead went out by herself on a cruise night. At least she said she was going by herself, I didn't verify.
I should mention that during our whole relationship, I have always shared my phone location with her, but she has never shared hers with me, even though I've asked. She said she doesn't trust location services on the phone and so didn't want to use it. Okay, fine. She never would let me see her phone, and she had a passcode she never wanted me to see. Also, we had ceased having any sex sometime around 2018, and stopped kissing each other shortly after.
In the fall of 2023, she wanted to go to a cruise happening in another city, one state over. I said I'd like to go, and it seemed like she wasn't pleased but also not showing it. I could just have been reading that wrong. We went, and checked in to our hotel for the night, and she sat on the couch beside me on her phone for hours. I tried talking and she didn't want to engage. I tried rubbing her back, and touching her and it was like touching a dead person, with no response. When I finally said that I thought maybe we could make love, she said she was too tired for that.
The next day, I told her I wanted to make love to her, and she said she would have to shower first, and when she came out of the shower, we made love. But it was different than it used to be.
She started going out again to the store more frequently, and then it became just going for a drive, or going for a walk after a drive, or just sitting in her car in some random parking lot for 6 hours listening to music (so she said).
Just before Christmas, she went to the car club dinner, and said I wasn't invited so I couldn't go along.
On New Year's Eve, she told me after supper, at 7pm, that she was going to a party that her friend was hosting, and that she wanted to go alone. I was quite upset over this, but didn't say anything. I just let her go, while I sat at home and cried.
The next week, she asked me to book a hotel room for her for middle of January, as she was taking a week of holidays. I was upset, wondering where this was leading, but I did it for her.
After her first night, I texted her and asked how she slept, and she said she didn't sleep well, was up at midnight because car alarms were going off in the parking lot, and she didn't get back to sleep until after 2:30am.
Our anniversary came, and I got her a gift, and sent her a text. She simply said "thank you for the gift" but nothing else. It seemed off, but not like this wasn't a trend. It was just, becoming more distant and off.
From the hotel stay, through until the end of February, she would be out for at least 4-6 hours every single night and the entire weekends. It was drinking with the girls from work (something she never did before) to coffee with a certain friend (we'll call her Nettie), out for a drive, etc. In the beginning of February, our son needed to go to the hospital, and he had texted her to take him, because I had already taken him 4 times in the prior 2 months. She showed up at home to pick him up, and on the way to the hospital, she was texting someone, with her phone held at an angle so he couldn't see. Several times they almost hit another car or went into the ditch.
Finally he shouted at her "who is so important that you're texting, that you're willing to kill us over?" and she angrily just slammed her phone down and said nothing.
On February 29, in the afternoon, she sent me an email that she was separating from me. I didn't see it until 7pm. She came home from work at around 6, and was really weird. I guess she didn't know I hadn't seen it yet. We decided on supper, and she went out to get the food and bring it home. While she was out, I saw the email.
She never gave me any reason why. Here was her email:

I have been unhappy for such a long time, and nothing seems to help us improve our relationship. I am sorry to say this, but this relationship isn’t bringing out the best in either of us so I’ve decided that I want to separate with the intention of reconciliation.
I feel like I don’t have any space in our house. I mentioned using the 2^nd bedroom for my painting and you said right away that you wanted to use it. I stopped even trying to do this.
I would like for you to take care of yourself and get some answers regarding your health and wellness.
Some of the steps I am taking include:
I am currently looking for a place of my own, so we both have space to work on our own stuff. I need time to reflect on myself and discover who I am again. I’m looking for peace within myself and feel I need to do this on my own.
I have opened my own account and my next pay check will be deposited into this account.
I am seeing a counselor.
In restarting our journey, I support your promise to clean up the basement and to sell the stuff. I am also hurting at this time, we both need to heal so we can continue.
I think it's best if we communicate through email for now. I will respond within 24 hours.

After this, she began asking me questions over several days about things, accounts, etc., and I reasoned she was seeing a lawyer. So I made an appointment and saw a lawyer, and we drafted a letter to send to her. In the meantime, before receiving that letter, she filed for divorce, with no possibility of reconciliation, and she filed to take all of my assets, and for a restraining and protection order. She filed to take the house, and have exclusive access to it, etc.
I began trying to figure out where this was all coming from. I started looking at the phone bills, something I had never done before. I reversed phone numbers she had called, and then saw that during the time she was at the hotel, she had zero phone calls, except for one. She received a call at 11:30pm on the first night she was staying there, The same night she mentioned she was awakened by car alarms when I asked how her night was.
Why did she get a phone call at 11:30pm, who was it? Why no other calls for the rest of her stay? People she would talk to knew she was away? She would typically have at least 3-5 calls minimum every single day on her phone.
Unfortunately, incoming calls don't have a call number listed, just that it is incoming. The call lasted for 2 minutes.
While she was 'separated' from me, but still living in the same home, she would not talk to me. At all. One evening, a few weeks after the divorce filing, she was texting someone, and at 9pm she went to bed. Half hour later she got up, and went out the door, and was gone for 2 hours, returning at 11:30pm, going straight to bed. Something she had never done before.
I was blindsided and struck by this separation, and then divorce. I mean, our marriage wasn't great for years, no sex, no intimacy, no "love", but I had figured she just needed some space. I gave her space.
One thing that happened 3 weeks before she separated from me, our son came to me, and told me that his mom was acting really weird for the past while. He said he had some ideas, but he didn't want to tell me because he didn't want to be wrong. I told him I already had ideas, and I had already talked to friends who gave me their opinion, and just spit it out. He said he thought she was cheating on me, and that it was possibly someone from the car cruise group. He told me about the texting incident while driving to the hospital.
Additionally, he told me the first time she took him to the car group, she told him MANY times "you don't have to worry about me, all of these people are married". He said at one point "why are you telling me that?" and she said "well, I didn't want you to think I'm seeing other people behind your dad's back".
On top of this, I had started checking up on her when she would say where she was going. And she wasn't going there. She said she went for coffee at a coworker's house, and when I went for a drive while she was there, I found she wasn't there. She also had texted me at least 8 times that she was going to see Nettie for coffee. Which is funny because I ran into Nettie a few weeks ago, and Nettie hadn't seen her since last summer, when my wife betrayed her trust somehow and walked out on their friendship.
Was my wife cheating on me? She refuses to talk to me. She is telling people lies, like saying that I came to the hotel and checked up on her while she was there, telling the front desk people to "call him if anyone goes to his wife's room". She has told people I know that I had accused her of cheating on me, and I wasn't trusting her, etc.
Is she just done with our marriage? I think it all fell apart 5 years ago, but I'm not entirely sure. The way she was with me, and at home was nearly the same until the day she gave me a separation email, as it was for the prior 5 years. Was she faking it for 5 years?
In the meantime, she has turned her daughter away from me. She and our son went out for the afternoon a couple of months ago, and she told him "isn't it so shitty what dad did to mom?". I didn't do anything... I don't get it.
If she comes crawling back to me, I will not get back together with her. She has proven now that she is 100% untrustworthy. And without trust, there can be no relationship.

I (f19) think I am going to go low contact with my father for a little bit. Now that I am getting older, I'm realizing all the hurt he has put me through is too much for me to handle at times and makes me feel this rage and sadness inside me everytime I try to talk or hangout with him.
I guess I'll just start with the most important things. My dad hasn't gotten me a birthday gift in three years. For my 16th birthday, he fixed me up a car that was totaled by my stepsister. I thanked him over and over and cried a few times. But the thing is my car broke down over a year ago and he's tried to fix it a few time but it breaks again and again. Everytime I bring up selling it or scrapping it, he gets pissed at me and tells me I just want a brand new car and accuses me of thinking that the car he got me is not good enough. That's not it? I named it and took care of it and drove it everywhere but my mom and I are moving soon and need it out of the driveway. I can't afford to lug it around on the off chance my dad can get it fixed. Anyway for my 17th birthday he told me to pick what we do and he would do it. I asked him if we could go to Dave and busters together because I love arcades and he just never took me? I am a very nonconfrontal person so I never brought it up because he complains about money all the time. My mom took me instead because she saw how upset I was about it. I guess she messaged my dad? I never told her to but I guess she messaged him something like, "I took daughter to Dave and busters since you couldn't be bothered" and next time he saw me he got upset and said I should have reminded him and that he forgets stuff. But I don't want to? I feel like if you want to take me out for my birthday you would do it, I don't want to force someone to spend money on me, it makes me feel uncomfortable. Then for my 18th birthday, he said he would make it up to me and to pick anywhere in the country to go and he would take me. I was super excited and said I wanted to go to Washington D.C. he never took me. Just forgot about it again. Then the next summer comes and my mom and I have to go down and take a college visit where we would have to stay a few days. My mom was going to get a hotel close by so we could check out the surrounding area so I at least know where ill be living in a few months. I guess my dad called my mom and just said he would take me instead and that it would be him making up for my last two birthdays. This really made me angry because mom was just going to get us a hotel just because, but now my college tour was going to be a birthday present? I have never forgotten a birthday, father's day, Christmas or any other event. I have always gotten him something. But when my brothers forget it's the end of the world.
One thing about my dad is that he always thinks about himself first. He said he would Airbnb a log cabin by a lake so we could fish. I don't like cabins and I don't really enjoy fishing but I don't know how to say no. We go and apparently the cabin is 30 minutes away from campus so we won't be able to check out the surrounding areas and the whole time he was complaining that we had to do school stuff instead of fishing. That's the whole reason we came down here? That's quite literally why I am down here? Also apparently he just got lost during the parent only tour and went back to the cabin so yeah I was in a new town and place all by myself. I was just really upset about it All.
Another thing is he hardly ever helped my mom out. Never paid child support and only started to after my stepdad died about 6 years ago. But 100 dollars a week is not a lot to help with 2 pre teens, me and my younger brother. Before college he told me he stopped paying my mom, "my half" of the child support so he can save it and give it to me before college so I have a bit to start off with. At the time he said he saved up about 300 dollars to give me and I still had a few weeks where he would save up money. He also told me that he would give me 50 dollars a week while I was in college to help with groceries and little things. I never got any of it. Never. He got injured and wasn't able to worm but I could have sworn that was a few months before he promised me any sort of money, now he is saying something along the lines of how dare I expect money from him when he is injured. Mom has been injured but she never stopped supporting us? Mom has been through surgery and came back the same night to put food on the table. Mom has cried in her room about being scared she can't afford bills that month but never asked me for any money? Mom doesn't go to church and give the church 25% of her check before she makes sure her kids are doing okay?
He's also angry at me for going to visit my stepmom and stepsisters before him this summer. They got divorced after Christmas and my stepmom made it clear I am still her daughter and told me on numerous occasions that I am always welcome at her house, so I went and visited them. My dad was upset that I still talk to them and that they let me see my neice. Why can't you just be happy for me? Their marriage went downhill after my dad would go to my stepsisters wedding because she was getting married to a woman a few years ago. Since then things have been rocky. Then you expect them to let you see their daughter after telling them they are going to hell? I don't know what I am, straight, bi, or pan and just hearing him complain to my mom that my stepsister and her girlfriend is going to hell just hurt my heart. My mom put a stop to it and yelled at him to get out. My mom isn't the best but she does her best and apparently she always thought I was lesbian and always stuck up for me.
Ever since college I am starting to grow my own voice and speak up for myself. He treats my younger brother and two older brothers horribly and my younger brother refuses to talk to him and quite frankly I do not blame him. He has always been tough with my brothers. They aren't allowed to have emotions. My brother cries, he's a pussy. My brother gets angry, he's a spoiled brat. One time my dad came over to help with his truck and my brother got frustrated, my dad, who is a big man, got all up in his face and said, "hit me motherfucker and see what happens." He was just yelling at my brother to hit him while my brother told him to stop repeatedly. I remember when I was younger he would put his hands on my older brothers and had a full fledged fist fight with one of them. They moved in with my grandma to get away from him. After all for of his kids refuse or has limited contact you would think he would realize he might be the problem.
Also he always uses me as a therapist and I'm getting exhausted, it just drains the life outta me. He talks shit about my step mom no matter how many times my mom and I have told him to stop. He talks shit about my brother and expects me to agree with him? Now he just complains how horrible his job is and how he hates it. He talks about it for 30 minutes before I try to change the topic and he just brings it back to himself. He want me to go visit him and stay at his camper and quite frankly, I don't want to. He complained how he hates the campground he is staying in and I hate camping. Have i said that he left for 2 years traveling the country, hunting bigfoot and didn't see us for the majority of that time? Plus it is always what he wants to do, not what I want to do.
A few days ago we got into a huge argument. I finally told him about how I feel and of course it's my fault and not his fault. He sent me a message that says something along the lines of I never complain about him not loving me enough it that he doesn't give me enough things and that couldn't be further from the truth. I would be over the moon if we spent the day making a cake and watching a movie I wanted but he couldn't even do that. I completely ignored him and plan to continue because I have come to learn there is no talking to him.
Aita?

Hey all! For context today was my baby shower! I had a blast, I really did enjoy myself got to see family and friends and got good gifts!
But my boyfriend (baby’s father) did a few things that just rubbed me the wrong way? He kept leaving to go with his friends and didn’t really pay me much attention so I felt a little lonely. He pretty much missed everything because of it like introductions, games, gifts and even food! Like what? After the shower he was blaming me because we didn’t get any pictures together. However he ensured he got some with his friends and even posed them to social media… only one picture with me which was a terrible off guard with half my face… when it came time for couples pictures he pulled all his friends over so it was a group photo. I guess I’m asking am I being dramatic for being upset? Or is it just hormones? Should I say something? If so how without it turning sour?
Thanks for reading.🩷

Just got back from my WDW trip yesterday, some quick thoughts:
+Wilderness Lodge was incredible. I am so grateful we were able to splurge on it. Its theming was top tier, the onsite food options were solid (especially Geyser Point) and the pool was a huge hit with the kids. It truly felt like a secluded retreat from the insanity of the parks. +Transportation from the resort was not a problem at all. Boat to MK was obviously the best but the buses were no problem either. Even took a monorail and Skyliner tour with my son on a rest day to check out other resorts. +Disney’s commitment to handling food allergies. My son has dairy and peanut allergies and as a result we rarely go out to eat as a family. Vacations have in the past all been mostly cooking at wherever we stayed. This trip, we had no issues ordering at any restaurant. My son was able to see clearly on the app what was okay for him to eat and any question or concern we had with cross contamination was answered with confidence by the staff. It was enough to make my Disney weary wife a convert. +Genie+. I hated how expensive it is but man it does make your day at a park and so much better. We did it for 4/5 park days and I wish we did for the 5th as well. +Virtual Queues, if you can get them. I was able to get Guardians but failed both attempts for Tron. +Guardians is a euphoric experience. I hadn’t seen any ride footage other than the preshow stuff so had no idea what to expect. We got Disco Inferno and when the music starts when you’re being launched, oh man it’s like nothing else around +The classic rides. This is the first time I’ve done Pirates, It’s A Small World and Haunted Mansion and all three are perfect for what they are attempting. I can still smell the Pirates scent. +Story Book Dining was so good. The dwarves were hilarious (Grumpy kept turning a kid at another table’s hat from backwards to forward and crossing his arms in disapproval). The queen was perfectly executed and honestly intimidating. And again, shout out to the handling of food allergies. My son got appetizer and dessert courses just as everyone else did and never once felt left out. I could tell my wife was tearing up when he noticed it.
-Magic Kingdom. Nothing about the contents of the park itself but my god is it crowded. Strollers as far as the eye can see, most being used without concern for where other people are walking. I get it, my kids are a few years removed from stroller age but using them as a battering ram is no fun for anyone. -Hollywood Studios and its lack of shade. Pretty insane that they did the big Toy Story and Star Wars expansions and there’s basically no shade to be had except the market area in Galaxy’s Edge. That said those two areas are incredible otherwise. Wish I was able to check out Galaxy’s Edge at night. -Lack of merch variety. Compared to 2017 when we last went there was really no variety outside of the ride specific gift shops. I have an EPCOT mug that I love that is the world showcase country flags in the shape of Mickey ears and I was looking forward to getting similar mugs this time at all four parks, but it was all the same at every park including the WL shop. I liked the 2024 designs generally but it was really all there was.
5 park days was the perfect amount. I decided to have day 3, Memorial Day, be our rest day because I figured the parks would be insane. Turns out that only EPCOT was because of flower and garden festival ending - should have done a MK day then and have our last day be a resort day because truthfully we were beat by the last day and the impending departure was weighing on our enjoyment of the parks.
I think I would have done the dining plan if I could do it over. Fully aware it wouldn’t save any money but I hated having to think about whether or not something would be in our budget.
Overall it was a fantastic trip to the point that my kids were in tears when we had to leave yesterday morning. I’ve promised my wife that next year we won’t do a Disney vacation and instead do a more relaxing one but I’m planting the seeds for a 2026 trip already. :)

Hi,
I (21m, white, Art History / French double major at Wesleyan) have recently come into a sum of money, and am looking at forever townhomes in the historic Bedford-Stuy area of Brooklyn. I understand there are a lot of racial tensions and fireworks and unleashed dogs in this area (from my research). I would like to be as respectful as possible and have already begun patronizing local businesses ,including purchasing a bacon egg and cheese from each local “bodega” in my target area and shopping at Ideal Food Basket. (This one did not sell wine - is this normal, or is it for neighborhood safety?) Specifically I am wondering:

• Will I be safe? I have considered adopting a pit bull mix for protection as I understand there is a dog run at the local park that many locals patronize.
• Will I be “cat called” for moving to a predominantly black area? My black friends (Jennifer and Riesling) are worried for my safety and suggested i might fit in better in South Williamsburg. (Is this a safe area?)
• Is there an active pottery community in this area? I am taking a course in Mesoamerican family dynamics and have developed a passion for pottery that I would like to cultivate.

Thanks,
Gen

I have a story to tell you all. Witness me!
For the past three years, I have been in a relationship with a man who was married because I was hoping that he would leave his wife for me.
Before we met, I was married to a man who I had fallen out of love with years ago. There was a lack of communication and authenticity on my part. On his part, there was excessive drinking and infidelity. We were both messes and not in a place to be married to one another. Because of this, I permitted myself to fall in love with “J” (the married man), whom I met through a swinger’s messaging board. My ex-husband and I had decided to open our marriage three years ago, which is how I met J. It did not end well; however, I now have a plethora of hilarious and wild stories to share with others at least. Different life experiences build wisdom, after all. Swinging was the catalyst of my marriage ending, and while it was crumbling, I was getting more acquainted with J. We would talk every day and meet up once a month to ravage each other senselessly in some hotel room. I became enamored with him, to the point that I thought of nothing else other than the next time we’d get to see one another. I stalked his online activity and waited by my phone tirelessly for the next text I’d receive from him. It made my ex-husband jealous to the point of insanity; something at the time I was happy about. He had hurt me so much over the years, so it felt validating to cause him pain. This is not how I wish to be, and I am ashamed of my actions. But again, this is how you learn. J and I continued to grow our bond, to the point that it started to feel more like dating and less like casual fun. We started buying each other gifts, and planned future events for us to do that didn’t involve fucking. We shared intimate words of deep affection and discussed frequently how much we meant to each other. We at some point started opening up to one another gradually, about our hopes and dreams and fears and every tiny intimate detail of our lives and thoughts.
Sure enough, my marriage ended, and I was terrified that J would no longer want to continue seeing each other. When I broke the news to him, I told him I would hold no hard feelings if he didn’t feel comfortable continuing our relationship; I didn’t know how I was going to be emotionally, and I told him I may want to rely on him a bit more now that I was only seeing him. To my surprise, he was understanding and declared he wanted to continue our relationship. I felt a huge sense of relief, but something in the back of my head was telling me this was not a good idea to continue seeing someone romantically right now. I promptly ignored that part of me in favor of moving forward with J.
As the months of acclimating to my new “single” life passed, J was there to help and support me. We started seeing each other weekly instead of once a month, which was a huge commitment for J; he lived an hour away and gas for his giant truck was not cheap. He helped take care of me after I had a major surgery, and even made me food and cleaned up after my cats while I was bedbound. However, J was also married, and his spouse was starting to feel abandoned. She had a play partner of her own who moved away shortly after I had gotten divorced and was feeling lonely seeing all the attention J was giving to me. Like many who practice polyamory, she experienced some jealousy. When she told J this, it sent him into a meltdown. I started seeing him less for a while, and our texts became less frequent. He would tell me about all the plans he had with her, all the while having canceled plans we had made several times in a row, with some of those plans now being made with his wife. I don’t entirely blame him for this reaction; neither one of us properly prepared for a polyamorous relationship. Hell, when my husband and I first opened our marriage, I didn’t even want to do that; I did it to sedate my husband’s incessant desires. However, it still hurt like hell and made me feel less important. Over the years, my view of J’s wife slowly declined. I once thought she was cool, but by the end of J and my relationship, I disliked her quite a bit. I know a part of my distaste for her was because of my jealousy; I wanted what she had. I wanted J to give me the same attention and care that he showed her, and I only received half the time. A part of me thinks that I am better than her in every way imaginable, so to see him put more effort into her instead of me always irked me. I still believe I am a better person than her, but all of that doesn’t matter now. We choose the people we wish to spend our lives with for our reasons. I may not understand them, but J is dedicated to his marriage, and I must respect that.
However, the other part of me disliked her because of the way she spoke to and about J. It was disparaging, to say the least. In the three years I knew her, she never said a positive thing about J. She would complain about him, either to me or to his face. The last time J and I saw each other, hell, he told me how his wife reacted to the news of us splitting. He said that she stated that it made sense why I would leave because he has habits and tendencies that are difficult to handle. That, on top of everything else, just makes me loathe the woman at this point. I was hoping that J would open his eyes eventually and leave her. To see that I could offer him so much more than her and pick me. I stuck around for three years hoping that things would change. That he would change. Instead, I ended up hurting myself, and indirectly him as well.
Eventually, our ignorance of navigating a polyamorous relationship caught up with us. J tried his best to appease me, but life stood in the way of that, and he became more and more distant as the demands of his marriage and his life weighed heavily on him. He started making promises I knew he couldn’t keep. Sex with one another became less frequent and when we were able to spend time with one another it would only be for a few hours every other week. I was going mad and was deeply unhappy, and he knew that. He knew I was not happy, and it was causing him pain to see me so distraught all the time. We fought a lot more, until eventually during one argument he exclaimed that he didn’t think he could offer me any stability and on top of having trouble maintaining our relationship, that he was barely taking care of himself or his marital duties and felt like he was letting everyone down.
I took his words at face value, and with as much courage as I could muster and a heavy heart, I ended our relationship. After all, if he is unable to take care of himself how can he be able to take care of others?
So, in the span of three years, I ended two major relationships with two different people. Something that I didn’t believe I could do until now. At the end of the day, I chose myself, the ultimate form of self-love. These last three years have taught me a lot. I was ignorant and mean and selfish, and I still am these things to some extent…or should I say I now accept that I can act in these ways. If anything, this whole experience taught me to trust in my gut, to trust in my intuition, and to trust in myself. I have changed and for the better.
I can’t help but feel a bit bitter at times though; his wife sucks and I wish he was with me instead of her right now. He was also a workaholic who had a one-track mind when it came to getting work done, which added a great deal of strife to our relationship. For example, he refused to meet up with me after my stepdad died because he had chores to do. That almost broke me; however, he knew doing that was the wrong thing to do and spent the rest of the time we were together making up for this. He also on occasion, as stated earlier, would act in a way that made me think that he saw our relationship as less legitimate than his marriage. Again, to his credit, when I brought up how much it hurt me, he tried to change his behavior, even trying not to talk about his wife and instead focusing on me and our time together whenever we saw one another.
It was the toughest relationship I have ever had so far.
However, despite the difficulty managing a poly relationship and despite my shame of letting things get out of hand, even when I knew it would end this way, despite both our inexperience and fumbling to make it work…. I am still happy to have had J in my life for the time he was a part of it. He was the kindest man I had ever been with. He was an incredible lover and a wonderful person to talk to about almost anything. He was smart in ways that I could never be, a fact that made me admire him a great deal. I never felt judged by him, and I felt like I could be myself around him. I wouldn’t take back the last three years for anything. I think about him every day. Hell, a part of me is almost hoping that he finds and reads all this, so he knows he’s still on my mind.
A part of me that I can’t seem to rationalize away believes that, when we’ve both grown and become wiser people, someday we’ll be back in each other’s lives. I don’t know if that’s my intuition talking or wishful thinking or if I should hold on to such a notion. However, even if I never see him again, he will always hold a special place in my story. As much as I hate his wife and that he’s with her and not me…. I wish the best for him, and that wherever he is right now he’s happy.
I have been keeping all this locked up inside of me for quite some time, and it feels good to let it all out finally. Even to strangers on the internet. If anyone takes anything away from this, I hope it is to become courageous and to trust in yourself, but to also know when to let go and to know that doesn't have to be filled with bitterness and resentment. Perhaps some of you can empathize with parts of my story, or maybe some of you think I'm just a dumbass. Either way, it feels good to release all this pent up stuff and to share my story finally.

Ok this is going to be a long one but this is my first ever post about my life this is a burner account. My girlfriend (f 31) of 14 years broke up with me (m 32) a few months ago and we still live together we broke up because I let myself get too far gone. I suffer from depression and anxiety as well as PTSD from having an abusive schizophrenic mother who's a narcissist, I also got into gangs when I was young to give you some background anyway our problems started almost a year into our relationship i didn't know i had PTSD yet but I got into fights with friends and even my dad a man I respect and am closer to than anyone other than my ex and my kids anyway I always had fits and one day she tried to hit me and I smacked her hand to the table she fractured her arm and I took her to the hospital she panicked and made up something about being jumped and the cops came and I think she told them I was the cause after a while but renigged her statement later they interrogated me for hours at the station I knew not to tell the police the truth is I felt bad I felt guilty I loved her so I told the truth we both missed each other and she lived with me and my parents we rented an apartment from my dad and him and my mom lived in another at the time we had a no contact order but she got on the phone when I called my parents and pretended to be someone else and we talked and they brought it up in court I ended up having to take a dv charge I was set to win the case but they used the phone calls against us and threatened charges on her and my parents if i didn't plead guilty so I pleaded guilty and when I got out she got pregnant she was working a good job at the time but she got into a car accident she already took a pregnancy test so we knew she was pregnant and I was happy I knew she would make a good mother and I knew i wanted her to be the mother of my children and my forever since the day we met we had already had a miscarriage and she had a whole in her heart from a child that she took care of in her past relationship she was a runaway and had past trauma of her own her mother was abusive as well and every boyfriend she ever had abused her I was supposed to be different I didn't know I was so broken if I knew I had PTSD I would have left her alone but we fell in love deeply I want to say nothing happened when she was pregnant but it did we got into a bad argument and I kicked the basinet and it hit her in the stomach immediately snapped out of it after that nothing else happened until the baby was born our child was born 3 weeks premature and was my pride and joy still is my ex had postpartum so I spent a lot of time with the baby and because of the accident my ex was passing out and having seizures which later we found out were psudo seizures but they felt real and sometimes she passed out or had a seizure and woke up not knowing where she was who she was who I was but she said my voice calmed her down and I was always able to bring her back to reality she got a few concussions from her seizures but also a few from me if I'm being honest I went to the neurologist with her because of the concussions she got from the seizures but to later give her one I was disgusted with myself but she couldn't work anymore so I looked for job i couldn't find anything so I worked for the apartments under the table but that dried up I found something else it dried up too I kept looking but it was useless I had to move back in with my parents with my ex and our first born they had a 3 bedroom and we paid them well she did I eventually got on SSI because of the physical pain from my mother's abuse bipolar disorder depression and PTSD I already went to get help when my ex was pregnant because I wanted to know why I was doing what I was doing my parents wanted me to get a check so they sent me to the counselor but I wanted to get help with my relationship and being honest helped me get my diagnosis but I lost that counselor like I lost every counselor I ever actually felt i could actually open up to anyway we are in my parents house and my mom is a big trigger for me we were paying rent and she accused us of stealing even coming in our room uninvited by then she was pregnant with our youngest and I wasnt perfect then either I was still struggling with my PTSD I did for years I pushed her in the closet and told her she couldn't leave my mom was there watching a constant trigger I snapped out of it but things got bad between my ex and my mom and they started to fight each other never physical but verbal and after she had the baby she almost died she lost a lot of blood I didn't know if I could trust my mom with the baby so I didn't go I still regret that decision but when she came back we waited for a few more and I used my back pay to get her a car and to get out of my mom's house our oldest has high spectrum autism and is really smart and talkative but after that short time living with my parents she developed selective mutism and we had to take her to speach therapy so we put up with roaches for 15 months just to get away from my mom and at the new place she got her lick back she was trying to beat on me and she was trying to stab me from time to time i had a PTSD attack and it would be back and forth but to be honest this started a new problem i was young and I used to flirt i kissed a girl once when we first started dating it was an ex she also slept with her ex best friend before I got locked up again just background truth is i was a flirt for a few years I was young and still searching for the approval i never got from my mom in other women I'm not proud of it though I was talking to women on Craigslist friends only and casual encounters sadly I wasn't trying to cheat i wanted someone i didn't know to talk to about my problem I stopped talking to all my female friends and she stopped talking to her male friends at each other's requests because of the cheating and I stopped talking to anyone that would be around a lot of women and all my other friends were either too gangster to listen or already in happy situations so I wanted to talk to a stranger that was a woman for advice I don't know what it is but women give better advice so I foolishly went to Craigslist and got caught but I ended up actually cheating months later with an ex that I thought I could be friends with but she was my first love and I told her some of what I was going through and we ended up having sex I was feeling guilty and took forever to get hard she had an IUD it was horrible tbh and on top of that she tried to 3 way my ex just to get me to admit it was her after my ex called her and acted like she wasn't the one i cheated with the whole time she tried to ruin my relationship after that after a year of trying and going to specialist my ex got her own SSI check and we got out of our roach infested apartment things were ok I had been trying to work on my triggers and had way less PTSD attacks and things were better for a few years she had a problem with me liking pictures on Instagram and I admit I hate being told what to do especially when I feel I'm doing nothing wrong and I was liking everything not just girls and I never commented anything but where did you get that shirt my girl would love that or happy birthday or thank you and I never slid in dms none of that I just liked pictures and I worked on it eventually because it was the only thing we argued about after a while but then everything changed we got into a big fight and I called her a name she ran at me got on the bed and punched me in the jaw so hard like I'm pretty tough I been hit in the face with a bat and when I tell you she hit me she hit me and when she went to hit me again I just reacted I flipped her then I blacked out I woke up and my hands were wrapped around her neck I snapped out of it and my parents took her to the hospital another thing I never learned to drive my step dad the man I call dad is a good man and a hard worker but he was a drug addict and a thug who was a alcoholic so he never had a license my whole life and my mom was to selfish to teach me I was always to poor for lessons my girl is the best driver I know but never taught me because she would say things like I'll be cheating as soon as I learn to drive so I never learned I regret that too anyway they took her to the doctor and she tore her hamstring I tried to take care of her but she wasn't having it she didn't stay rested she stayed on her feet one time she even punched me when I tried to help we were still in love but it was dying we eventually made up but every year after that she was telling me she needed help telling me she was falling out of love she asked me to help around the house I was lazy at the beginning of our relationship and I got used to her cleaning but by the time we got out of the roaches my depression got so much worse I was trying to get help until COVID kept losing counselors to the point I stopped telling them about my whole life and I started skipping straight to me and my ex I wanted help I was tired of hurting the woman I love but something else happened we got into an argument and I said something slick and she tried to stab me I evaded her and calmed her down but the argument went into the next day I locked myself in the bathroom and she tried to break the door down we had a sword in the bathroom for security and I threatened to stab her with it she had a panic attack and called the police I got a misdemeanor harassment charge but I never got mad I worked on myself I didn't want us to argue like that anymore I got out of jail and I was ordered to go to anger management I wish they made me go the very first time but when I went I embraced it and used it to help me with my triggers and that helped not only with my PTSD but with my fight or flight response as well after I got out I came clean about everything and even about the ex I cheated with man she beat me in the head so bad I got multiple concussions but I wasn't mad I actually felt good because I didn't black out I was doing it i was working on my triggers but we kept arguing and every year she told me that she still loves me and wants to make it work but she's losing interest and I told her I'd change and I wanted to but i couldn't my parents didn't take much medicine my mom took Wellbutrin and other things but they made her sleep all day she was dead to the world and I took paxil and Adderall as a kid and I felt like a zombie not to mention my dad was afraid of pills and side effects so I was afraid to take medicine but I needed it my depression was so far gone that I stopped feeling empathy I was empty and I let my guilt and regret and hatred of myself lead to more depression I'm a good singer and rapper I stopped doing music I blamed her but it was depression she suffers from cyclic vomiting syndrome and I just sat on my ass when she got sick I didn't help I wasn't doing dishes but I couldn't even wake up and take a shower or brush my teeth it was horrible I didn't love myself and I was angry at the world and I took it out on her I felt useless so when we argued about me not helping I called her useless everything I felt about me I projected onto her I was numb and I think she was too then I got on tiktok and found something I was good at again I got a lot of followers very quick but that one ex that I cheated with came back and this time It was innocent but my ex told me any interaction with her and it's over but she had a large following and I was trying to get paid but my ex found out and like an idiot I was trying to not delete or block her because im a man and I'm trying to get ahead you aren't a man you can't even help the woman you love you idiot then she kept telling me she was done but we dragged it on because we loved each other by December 2023 we were done but we were still acting like a couple I was in denial thinking we were fixing it because before my birthday at the beginning of 2022 I was diagnosed with high blood pressure I decided to have 1 last year of holiday food and going out to eat and we started working out 2023 and I have lost 108 lbs with her help and her love and support we started a diet and worked out in the house 5 days a week she saved my life once again of course I was in denial of course I was trying to work it out but those last few months were crazy that last year was crazy in 2022 she got into a car accident and she was sore for a while but she found out that she actually broke her rib and healed it messed up and never knew so she got into working out to lose weight and we started our diet in 2023 but in 2022 I found Kevin Samuels and all that alpha male red pill male chauvinist poison it was bull shit I was insecure trying to convince myself that the most feminine beautiful woman I know is some how masculine and modern wtf is modern i wasn't true masculine I wasn't high value i was a loser that couldn't get off my ass for the woman I love and those ideas are disgusting even if you have money you shouldn't be allowed to cheat that's crazy I would just spew that horse shit when we argued she told me thats what really started pulling her away every time she argued that she needed help I started to act like it wasn't my place and that if I had a job I wouldnt have to clean but the truth is I got anxiety every time I saw those dishes piled up I felt like my chest was caving in same with laundry or any chores working out forced me to shower every day but I still made excuses not to shower we did 15-30 minute workouts if I had to go to the gym I might have died from getting fatter I lost my motivation and looking back I should have taken meds but I told y'all how my parents looked at medicine and my experience not to mention my girl trying to fix stomach problems and sleep problems literally experienced so many side effects I was just afraid to take the medicine but I wish I did because I would have saved my relationship neither one of us takes depression meds I looked for work but I don't even have a GED if you want that story I'll save it for the comments btw I forgot to say our child also gets a check so together we make enough money to live we just struggle for some wants everyone has clothes but there's not always a lot of money to shop for every one so we rotate between buying things for them and us through the months we even had to pay rent in two different places at the end of our lease and we made it happen off our checks and donating plasma we paid 2700 between two places with teamwork and sacrifice but like I said we broke up December 2023 we broke up and I was in denial and thought we were working out we were losing weight together going out doing couple things still having amazing sex it was always mutually great i was big on massages and running baths i was a great gift giver but I didn't lift a finger she was sick and all I did was roll a blunt and run a bath I was letting fruit flies fly around the house we were going out to eat spending money we didn't have to go out to eat that's why I gained all that weight in the first place I don't understand I love her and my kids with all my heart I never thought she would never leave me I was afraid she would leave but I just let it happen she is the love of my life afraid or not I should have taken the pills but that too gave me so much anxiety but I should have risked side effects feeling like a zombie sleeping all day anything is better than this because if I took the medicine we might still be together and since she was able to get past her depression and she feels like she was forced to get out of her depression because she was a mom she hates me she comes from a vacationing family I couldn't give them a lot of that but we still go camping and go out of town sometimes we have a car that's almost paid off but we are 32 and she has nothing to show for being with me but a car an apartment and no savings and if I loved her i would have tried harder but I couldn't i was paralyzed by depression and anxiety she doesn't believe me because she overcame her depression and anxiety we moved in our new place and I was planning on ending my life God spoke to me for the first time and my ex always wanted me to find God but my mom was gullible when it came to scamming preachers and she wasted so much of our money on books and prayer cloths that I went away from my faith for years so finding God was weird but I was accepting of his love he told me to fight for my family and that the path might be long but I can get my family back if im reborn and I make the promises I couldn't keep all of a sudden im reading the Bible every day cooking every day cleaning every day even looking for a job everyday but she says it's too late we sleep in the bed together so I don't have to sleep on the couch we slept together like twice but it didn't mean anything she wouldn't even kiss me and she cut me off we always promised we would at least have a sexual friendship relationship but i think i messed it up i just want to make it work i even told her she could have 2 boyfriends so I can work on being who she needs and have some one to help her with everything else until I can show I can be her problem solver she says it's over but we were in love for 14 years we were in love 6 months ago but in March I made a joke that killed us she was listening to a song called john redcorn and we got to arguing and I said that's some John redcorn shit she thought I meant my daughter our youngest and after what I put her through when she was pregnant she couldn't do it and like an idiot I doubled down and she thought i was saying our youngest wasn't mine it was horrible I told my kids everything they are 10 and 12 they lost hope in our relationship for a while but they want me back with they're mom I know I have to stay this man for the rest of my life if I want to get her back i have to work on communication and keep a job im even going back to counseling but she thinks I never loved her because I let it get this far what do I do?

When I met my SD, an allowance was probably lower on my list of “must haves” than it should have been. We, um, started with no allowance promise at all. But it’s all good! He’s been perfect about buying things and leaving me envelopes after our times together.
After his last visit (he’s only in town about half the time), he said he wanted to start giving me a regulascheduled allowance instead of leaving me gifts and asked if that was ok. I told him that whatever works for him is great with me.
I’m happy. I’d see him without any money involved. But it sure does make my life easier. So, yay. This feels like a good step, yah?
I want to plan something to celebrate. But how? What could I buy for a guy like him? OK, I won’t buy a gift…and I don’t cook. So I’m not making him food. The obvious answer is sex. I want to give him the best “thank you night” I can pull off. Which is hard because the last time we were together, I told him I’d do anything he wanted. Ugh!
I’ll dress in lingerie he likes and invite him over. I’ll undress him and have his favorite drink ready. I’ll extra-clean my apartment. I’ll clean my bong. 🙂 I’ll please him any way he wants. As many times.
Guys? Help me? How can I make him feel extra special? What would you want as a bonus treat?

I'll try to make this short as it's a massive drag and there's lots of legal complications I've looked into but this is realy effecting everyone and I'm not sure what to do or who's right or wrong.
Usually I see my dad (58,000 a year) 2 to 3 nights a week on Friday eavnings untill Sunday eavnings however can be more or less on special occasions
My brother (M14) sees our dad 1 or 2 nights a week dues to his autism as he prefers to stay at home
me and my brother share a mum and live with her and our step dad in a 4 bedroom house about 15 minutes away. they both earn under the 40% tax bracket
My half sister (F11) also sees our dad 1 or 2 nights a week but can vary to 3 or 4. she lives with her mum who is on a low tax bracket as far as I know however relieves small financial support from her partner who she doesn't live with
without paying child maintenance my dad after tax car rent food gads and electric gets about £1,200 (estimated using a government approved calculator) a month
with paying child maintenance (estimated using a government approved calculator) he gets about £530 a month
however last year taking into account he spent about 2000 on holidays with me and the other kids
my dad believes that because I'm going to 6 form he shouldn't have to pay maintenance for me as he believes it's under part time education. it isnt
he believes my mum isn't spending maintenance on me as I have no pocket money and don't get clothes open saying the money goes to a honeymoon from 10 years ago and private number plates both of which were gifts
he also wants to change custody to 50/50 however due to school and other factors is near impossible.
most of this started because as I am 16 my mum got a letter from the HMRC (revenue and costoms) and the CMS (child maintenance service) asking her to update my further education which she did and said I'm going to 6 form which is correct
my dad took this as my mum filing a report on him to pay more maintenance
he's been sending her messages calling her greedy and other inputs along those lines
step dad came to confront him about it saying if he doesn't stop he will seek legal action my dad took this as a threat and wants to report him to the police for such
at this moment in time I'm pissed off with my dad as I think he's being unreasonable and am worried he's going to get into more trouble as he wishes to file a court case to the CMS as he has only been paying £320 a month which is less than he is legally obliged to however my mum and step dad haven't said anything
I'm also worried that a condition he has (kidney falier) is worsening causing his recent unpredictability starting in about March earlier this year with an incident at which he blew up at a teacher who had no involvement in a situation at which a computer didn't count that I had been to a detention and placed me as a missed detention sending out URGENT* emails to all my pearents causing him to leave a work meeting amd cancelled an expensive day out for me which he couldn't get back.
there have been little to no issues with my pearents scince there divorse over the past 13 years untill march this year and ive gotten on realy well with my dad like best mates untill recent events
I don't know what to do about this situation as obviously I want my pearents to stop fighting and prevent him and my step dad from actually fighting and maintin a stable relationship with my dad
I have considered talking to my grandad (dad's dad) about the situation but haven't incase it causes me and my dad to fall out
sorry for the long post but I'm in realy desperate need at the moment and I'm in the middle of my final exams so any help would be much appreciated