Quotes about moving away from friends

I’m 26M from Bengaluru. I’m here to lookout for someone to spend some part of our life together. As anybody of my age would experience, I’m looking at friends drifting away from life. My life right now has almost no social life and haven’t met any new people recently.
Weekends feels lonely in this buzzing-overpopulated city, I feel the need to have that someone to spend quality time and miss that romance everyone in their 20’s deserve to have. I know my life isn’t ready to get into another serious long-term relationship, so not thinking of that rn. I’m not looking for anything in the extremes of a ONS or a LTR. I want something short but meaningful and passionate.
Why here ? I did try DA, but the experience was meh. The matches sucked in conversations or lacked clarity or confused or found better match, whatever it was. It didn’t work for me and was thoroughly exhausting. Also I lack words to woo some stranger women. I felt I can express better here and let me test my luck.
About me - I look for a reason to go out and explore. I love my food and open to try new cuisines. I like going out for city strolls, if I have a company. I love watching movies(in cinemas with friends, if they don’t crib if movie turns out bad or alone mostly). I like having good deep conversations with people. I like a slow and calm lifestyle & I value honesty. Looks wise I may be decent 6-7/10, almost fit. And have lived all my life in a metro city. I take my time to get along well with new people. This will be my first time dating (or befriending) someone from the internet.
What I would like in you : Sane and serene person. Clarity and honesty. Willingness to put efforts into conversations and further. Decent looking.
We can talk and see what each other seek. Our preferences and boundaries, our needs. Etc etc. we can talk and figure out further.
If you’ve read till now,thanks. And if interested, please DM. I can confirm not being creepy. I want whole scenario to be slow and safe, open-minded and non-judgemental, consensual and mutually respectful and honest.

Essentially, my dad told me I couldn't borrow the car he's planning on selling because he fears I'll "devalue" it. I currently drive a '93 Toyota Camry that is heinously damaged, as someone rear-ended me going very fast the literal day I bought it. The damage is so extensive that half the doors won't open from frame damage. I didn't bother filing a claim, the person who hit me was uninsured and I didn't have uninsured motorist coverage. Before I continue, I do need to mention my track record with cars isn't great. I've had some accidents over the course of my 15-ish year driving career; never any major ones thank god but a couple fender benders and I hit a pole once (I was 19.)
So, my dad accidentally ended up with two cars. He needed a specific part that only the dealer could get and they were taking forever to get it from overseas. At the six month mark he gave up and bought a new (used) car because it was a good deal, etc. After over a year and a half they finally got the part and fixed it, but right before his big move to Amsterdam.
He didn't have time to sell it before leaving and its currently sitting in the driveway doing nothing. I floated the idea that I take out full coverage on it, pay for the insurance myself, and borrow it while he's gone. Doing so would allow me to get a better job due to reliable transportation (which I do not currently have) and, in turn, allow me to save money to buy a car of my own. And perhaps more importantly, get me out of a car that is objectively unsafe.
He said no, he didn't want me to "devalue" the car. I asked by what metric and he said, well even if insurance covers whatever damage it'll still be considered an incident and I won't be able to get as much at auction. Which is, of course, assuming I incur any damage at all while I have it.
A very close friend of mine was recently in a horrific car accident and is extremely lucky to be alive, even though she was driving a newer car with high safety ratings. I mentioned this to my dad, inferring that if the tables were turned and I was in that accident driving the Camry, I most likely would not have been so lucky. He shrugged his shoulders and said, well the chances are slim that you'd get in an accident, so you driving a safe vehicle is inconsequential to me.
Wait a minute, first I'm not allowed to drive the car due to fear of being in an accident and it being devalued. Now I'm not allowed to drive the objectively safer car because chances are I wont be in an accident and driving a safe vehicle is useless. How does that make any sense?
After a heated debate I said to him, ok Dad lets play devil's advocate here. Let's say I'm in an accident that requires a decent amount of work. How much would that devalue the car, exactly? A few hundred, couple thousand, maybe? That's the amount of money you're hypothetically afraid of losing in a hypothetical situation? Is that what my life, my safety is worth to you? You care more about money than keeping me safe?
I told him it felt like he was putting a price on my life, and it hurt my feelings. He told me to stop being such a drama queen and continue driving the death trap.
AITA for feeling like my dad put a price on my life? AITA for saying so? AITA for asking to borrow the car to begin with? AITA for being upset that he won't let me?

Hi, I'm an 18-year-old male engineering student. sorry for the shitty English. First of all, I'd like to start off by telling you that I'm bisexual. So, I live in the men's hostel provided by the college. When I came here in the first year, I hated being here; the whole of the first semester passed just like that. During most of the first semester, I didn't make any connections with any of my classmates except for the two people who sit with me and two of my roommates. That's when I met this guy (I've seen him during class and in my hostel; he is in the room next to me). I've never actually talked to him. He asked to borrow my phone to make a call. After that, he started coming to my room somewhat frequently, and I liked that because I had a crush on him. Whenever he's in my room, he always sits next to me on my bed, sometimes sleeps on it too (it's a really small bed meant for one person), lies on my lap (sometimes sleeps). During the second half of the first semester, we slept on that small bed together almost every day.
In the second semester, I started having tendencies to come out to my friends there, but I didn't have the courage to do that, so I got piercings (piercings are considered kind of gay here). In the second semester, one night as we were sleeping around 3 o'clock, he rolled over and got on top of me (I wanted to kiss him, but I didn't because I didn't know if the roll was intentional). I felt like dying whenever he went home. In the second half of the second semester, something hit me, and I started to hate him to the core... I didn't want to see him or talk to him, but I never told anyone anything (he was still coming to my room and hanging out... I just kept a fake smile). The hate didn't last very long.
Fast forward to the third semester (new hostel building and new rooms), he's again in the room next to me. Still comes to my room and hangs out with me and my roommates. Same thing goes for the fourth semester too. During the third and fourth semesters, I've gotten really close to him... I really like him, but the thing is that I don't know if even he likes guys. Yesterday, he and I were alone in my room. There is a vacant bed in my room currently because both my roommates went home for the study leave. I stayed here, and he came back from home some days ago. Ever since he's been back, he's been sleeping on one of the vacant beds in my room. Yesterday, as we were talking about the yearly industrial visit, he came near me and sat next to me (I was lying in my bed) and started talking about things. After some time, he was lying next to me in a spooning position. Then after some time, he said, 'We aren't gay, but this feels gay,' with a really slow and subtle tone.
My question is... Is there any chance that he might be into guys? Don't tell me to ask him... We are not that close. Or give me some advise on how to proceed with this further.shouod I just forget everything and move on?
Help me, guys.
TL;DR: 18M bisexual guy has a crush on his classmate 19M who is really intimate with him, but he doesn't know if he's into guys."

I am afraid my parents and brother have an alcohol problem. I lived away from home for 3 years and have recently moved back. I have been back 1 month and not a single day has gone by where they have mot had at least one glass of wine. Generally each nights they will have atleast 2 glasses of white wine at dinner, and then my parents will have red wine after wards by themselves. Do you think I should be concerned about this and how should I bring it up to them? I expect them to get quite defensive if I do bring it up.

I have been dealing with depression since my mom and sister passed away. Mom was diagnosed with cancer and lived for two years before she died, !y sister was diagnosed with cancer the day our mom passed. Sister lived for a few months before she died in my arms. I lost a year and a half, my husband says all I did was sit and stare. Met my husband a few months before my mom passed and I am so grateful for him. After my sister passed is when I lost my mind. During that time we ended up being homeless. One of my husbands friends helped us with housing in a different state, but the friend ended up being a twat and moved out in the middle of the night. The friend hadn't paid any bills though my husband had been giving him money for bills. Lived there during the pandemic till about a year ago. Never look for roommates on craigslist, at least in some states, cause they are likely drug addicts. About a year ago we were short $40 for rent so the rental company started the eviction process. Thankfully another one of my husbands friends helped us. So moved states again. Unfortunately my husband hasn't been able to get a job that'll work with his physical and mental issues,(the army screwed him up). I don't normally share anything about me but it's becoming more than I can handle and I have no one to talk to so I came here to unload.thank you for reading.

I was dating someone over winter break this past year and it was going great. We hit it off instantly and it was the first time where I seriously dated anyone or considered a future with them. I have struggled with self image issues and he did so much in just that month to help me work past them, but it all ended when the semester started up and he moved back to his university 3 hours away. We tried to keep it going but he ended it about a week in on a friendly note, and i am just now processing it because of how busy I was during the semester. Now that its summer, I feel so bad and I really want to text him since I saw him on tinder and know hes in our hometown again, but I know it would just end the second school started again in the fall. I think part of me is holding out hope that once he graduates and moves back permanently something can happen but I also know that’s unrealistic. What do I do?

For starters, I (24f) became the primary care taker of the family dog (10, beagle mix) when my dad passed away 2 years ago. I pay for his vet appointments, insurance, food, and everything in between alone. I walk him the most and I was already in 2nd in line of command for my dog before my dad passed away. It just seemed natural for me to take on the role my dog & family expected me to.
Now, My sister (29f) wants to take the dog on a camping trip for MDW with her friends and one child. She asked me and I said no. She ended up screaming at me and and calling me a jerk and how I don’t trust her with the dog. I feel very overprotective of my dog and if it was one day camping I’d probably say yes and feel uncomfortable, but one day is one day. Problem is that until April, my sister wouldn’t walk the dog without complaining and telling me how she regrets having one and was barely involved in taking care of him for the past few years, unless it was to show him off to her friends. She decided to react and feel differently about the dog in early April. She helps me by walking him in the afternoon now & at work, I still walk him morning & night.
However, I still feel uncomfortable/overprotective and I know my dog gets anxious when he isn’t in a familiar location and/or surrounded by strangers. The woods would definitely be different for him (and it’ll be around 80 degrees this weekend so being outside for so long sounds like a bad idea for him?? he is a senior!) but I feel bad that I said no now, I understand she changed her mind about the dog like a month ago, but it’s hard for me to move on from years of back and forth. so AITAH?

Throwaway account for obvious reasons.
That will be a long and chaotic post, I'll try to organise it somehow but it's all complex.
My partner (39M) and I (female, turning 30 this Friday) have been together for 2.5 year and always been good communicators, but in the last few months things have been getting haywire and completely out of control, and I just don't know what to do anymore.
We both come from a cPTSD background (sexual and physical abuse, being raised by narcissistic mothers, homelessness), mine is sadly worse due to extra abuse suffered from partners and some workplaces, also doing some occasional sex work for food when homeless. Basically, thanks to capitalism (yay), I have never felt safe in my life, even after moving 3000km away from my abusive family - basically every morning I wake up wondering if I still have a job and whether I won't get evicted.
I went through some cPTSD therapy (EMDR as well) before meeting him and I thought I fixed myself, but the relationship unleashed new hell on me. I fully acknowledge I started the problems, as I've severely violated his boundaries several times and didn't see the pattern until we've had several horrendous arguments. Part of this was because my partner has been raised to always bottle things up and people please, so I never really know if he means something is not a problem or he just doesn't want to say it and it will blow out weeks or months later.
Anyway, we worked through the worst problems, when he got more knowledge about the extent of my trauma and some very toxic things I was made to believe where normal, he acknowledges that I don't perpetuate some patterns consciously. I signed up to therapy (despite it being a huge financial burden), I do all I can to control myself, be very nice to him, spend quality time together etc.
HOWEVER. I work in an extremely toxic environment where the goalposts are moving every single day, there's a fuckton of manipulation, what boss says is not what he means, workers are pitted against each other etc. The workplace is actively re-traumatising me daily, but I need to keep this job for several reasons. My partner knows it. And yet, he blames me for having meltdowns, and it always follows the same pattern. Just to give you an example, from today:

• I've been verbally abused for 6h straight by 15 people at work, so when my partner told me in a rather disappointed tone "Well, you HAVE TO keep on attending therapy", I felt like he's attacking me for not doing enough.
• I got triggered but recognised I'm spiralling out into a full-blown panic attack, so I went downstairs and told him "Look, I know you wanted to encourage me that therapy is the right thing, but the way you worded it triggered me, because it felt like (description here of how my mother would use semantics to trick me into fake feeling of safety and then abuse me". I've been getting extremely triggered (and still having another few hours of getting berated at work) so I started actually screaming my explanation at him without realising it, BUT without any blaming, names etc.
• He got all triggered and said I berate him and accuse him of being like my narcissistic mother, that all is always his fault etc. and then went into his trauma response. His trauma response is completely shutting down and getting mad, and any attempts of explaining the situation are "excuses, lies, attacks" etc.
• Seeing where it's going and not wanting another week-long argument right before a lovely b-day weekend we had planned, I tried to get through to him, reassure him that nobody is blaming him, that I specifically said I'm triggered to let him know I have a trauma reaction, that I try to provide data so that he understands why I got so triggered by a sentence he meant as reassurance. I apologised for screaming, explained I didn't realise I was yelling, tried to get through to him. But he just started bringing back up all the problems we've already worked through, said I always CHOOSE to abuse him, that I always punish him for being too good to me, that clearly the therapy is not working because I can't control myself (I've just started, after 30 years of difficult life with no help!), that nothing ever is my fault, that trauma is not an excuse. I tried to point out to him that he's having a trauma response as well and that why I always try to use safe words, non-accusation wording, provide him with more data etc. I pointed out to him that I like to know about his triggers to avoid setting them off, and that's why I try to explain my triggers to him too, even though the yelling was clearly wrong. And he just took it as more personal attack and started yelling how I choose to attack him whenever things go right, how I'm a liar, manipulator, abuser, I chose to have a meltdown, he doesn't need therapy because it's just me ruining everything etc. and stormed out, swearing, saying how I'm ruining his life. He also got mad at my therapist because they "provide me with more excuses" because they said I'm in fact being so re-traumatised at work I have stress levels as if I was at war.

I don't know how to get to him. I try my very best to address 30 years of severe abuse, but right now the dynamic is shifting towards "Every single thing in our relationship is your fault, I don't have any trauma responses" and I really don't like that dynamic. But when I try to bring that up, he gets even madder. He also doesn't cool down when left alone, just spirals out more and more.
He's ADHD (diagnosed), I'm autistic + cPTSD + chronic pain (also diagnosed).
Again, apologies for this massive rant, I just feel so confused and alone. It's like he's becoming a completely different person than the one I've loved, and I feel like I'm no longer allowed to have any negative emotions / reactions because suddenly it's all "abuse".

Hello everyone,
I'm a first-year university student from Kenya, currently enrolled in a BSc Statistics and Data Science course. I'm really passionate about learning Python, especially for data science applications. However, I have zero experience in both areas and I'm finding it quite challenging to get started.
Unfortunately, the lecturers at my university aren't very helpful, so I need to self-teach most of the material. I'm looking for advice, resources, and possibly a mentor who can guide me through the basics of Python and data science.
Should I focus on learning Python as a language first and then move on to data science applications, or is there a way to combine both from the beginning? Any recommendations on where to start, useful courses, or beginner-friendly tutorials would be greatly appreciated!
Thank you so much for your help!

I am so sorry for how long this is, but there's quite a bit to cover.
I am a 28F mechanic who works for a rather large dealership in my city. I love my job, I love working on cars, and I love the men that I work with. It's like having an army of brothers that would do anything for me, and I have genuinely never had such a wonderful and supportive workplace environment.
Until "Collin" (26M) started about 6 weeks ago.
Before I start with him, I want to tell you about my "superpower." When I was very, very young, my mother noticed that I had this uncanny ability to detect "bad" people. Even as a toddler, there were certain people I didn't want near me or holding me for seemingly no reason. If they tried, I would scream until they left me alone. If said people tried to pick me up anyway, she'd snatch me away from them and tell them that I said no and to leave me alone. When they'd ask why or push that I "didn't know what [I] wanted," she'd shut them down and say that me not wanting that was reason enough. She's never, ever questioned my "ability" and instead leaned into it and helped me nurture it (especially after certain charges came out about a previous church member that I was uncomfortable around).
Back to Collin. Obviously, that's not his real name, but what is real about him is how... creepy he is. It was evident to me the moment I first met him, but I didn't want to come off as judgemental. My "superpower" has never been wrong, but I have a problem setting boundaries when I'm on the clock because I never want to be the "problem child" for a company. As the only female mechanic, I'm even more aware of that, so I tend to walk on eggshells out of fear of being treated differently.
With Collin, it's a little hard to explain, but to start, he's got personal space issues. As in, I have an issue with how little he respects my personal space. An example: I keep snacks in one of my toolbox drawers for when I and my teammates are too busy to stop and eat a proper lunch. A few days ago, I was bent over and fishing around for a protein bar when I felt him walk up behind me. Of all the angles he could've approached me from, he picked directly behind me and got so close that I felt him brush up against my butt. I immediately shot up and told him to back the fuck up. He tried to play it off as an accident, but I told him, quite loudly, that it's not an accident to sneak up on someone like that and touch them. When he saw a few of my coworkers looking over at us, he quietly made a comment about me overreacting, and walked away.
A few days before that, as I was working on a car, he came up to my toolbox and just took an impact gun. It wasn't mine; I was borrowing someone else's because mine was being repaired. So I stopped him and told him to put it back. He asked me why. This was weird to me because, as far as he knew, it was mine and if I said no, he should've just left it at that. So, I said, "Because it's not yours and I said no. Please put it back." "It's not yours either," is what he said. He tried to walk away with it. At this point, I physically stepped in front of him and said "All the more reason for you not to take it. It isn't mine to lend out. Please put it back." He then asked me if he had a problem sharing. I asked him if he had a problem with respecting boundaries.
Y'all... the look Collin gave me sent chills down my spine. At that moment, he glared at me like my ex did right before he put my head through a wall, and I was actually scared. I swallowed that fear and stood my ground, even though I just wanted to curl up and disappear. He must not be used to people standing up to him because he just sighed in annoyance and slammed the impact down on my bench, then walked away. He, thankfully, avoided me for the rest of the day.
Since those two situations have happened, I've asked for my friend/coworker, "Evan," to make a new group chat for that handful of us that hangout after work because I wasn't comfortable with Collin having access to my phone number. Evan had added him, without asking the rest of us, when they'd gone to a theme park together a few weeks prior. I'd opted out because I didn't want to hang out with Collin, but they used the group chat to communicate plans and such. Evan agreed to make a new group chat so that I feel safer.
Now, finally , the reason I am writing this post is because of what happened yesterday. I may have overreacted? My fiancé thinks I acted well within reason, but sometimes my anxiety makes me believe that I go overboard, even if I'm being perfectly rational. I'm not sure if that's the case here or not.
I caught Collin fishing around in my toolbox. Except, this time, it was the drawer that I keep my purse in. It's not a secret that it's there; every morning when I walk in, my coworkers see me put it in that specific drawer. I used to keep it with the snacks, but the men I work with are a little more old fashioned and won't even go near my purse, so they'd get hesitant when they saw it near the snacks. I moved drawers so they could freely grab food when I was too preoccupied to personally hand them something in order to avoid my purse. It was no bother to do so, but boy did it bother me when I saw Collin huddling over that drawer with my purse in it.
I shouted with my whole chest, "What the fuck do you think you're doing?" He immediately stood up and started mumbling about needing a certain tool, to which I bombarded him with questions like, "And you were just going to take it? That's not even where any of them are! Why were you going through my purse, you creep?" He couldn't keep up to answer any of my questions, but as far as I was concerned, he wouldn't have been able to come up with a good enough excuse because it's quite well known that that's the place where I keep my personal belongings. It got to the point where I was just yelling at him, and other coworkers had to come pull me away from Collin because I was getting increasingly aggressive. I was so mad, in fact, that I didn't even realize that he was getting aggressive too, and the reason why Evan and "Peter" had to pull me away is because Collin was getting in my face and calling me names. When I try to think about it now, I don't remember hearing that. I was so angry, that all I could really hear was the blood pumping in my body.
I had to sign a write up this morning. Absolutely fair, seeing as how I lost my shit and all professionalism in the workplace. I'm annoyed because this is my first write up, but management needs something to prove they "punished" me in some way for my behavior. What I'm not okay with is Collin telling people that I flew off the handle for no reason. Then this guy has the nerve to approach me today and tell me he forgave me for the way I treated him yesterday and that he hopes we can be friends in the future. I might be the asshole because I told him, calmly, that "I never want to be friends with someone who is so apathetic and disrespectful when it comes to boundaries and personal space" and that I'd appreciate it if he left me alone in the future. Now he's moping and saying I didn't even give him a chance before being a bitch to him.
Am I the asshole? Did I overreact?

Hi everyone,
I've been doing some research to possibly get a bird, most likely a cockatiel, or budgies, but I thought you guys might have more insight for me.
I own three guinea pigs and would love to welcome a feathery friend. Are they compatible? Should they be kept away from each other?
If any of you live in Canada, I would love some cage recommendations, as well as toys and other necessary accessories. I've read different opinions about cockatiels being kept alone or in pairs. Guinea pigs have to have a friend, but is this also true for cockatiels, or do they manage to do well alone? I work from home, so I'm home 24/7, if that helps.
I have never owned birds before, so I welcome any advice or pros and cons you guys have for me. I know there's no such thing as a "starter bird", but do you guys think cockatiels are good for a first time owner?
Thanks!

So me and my bf stopped talking like 2-3 days ago we weren't fully dating but we basically were (we told everyone we were dating) also we're online btw anyway we got into a argument the day we stopped talking I said multiple times that I'm done he said he would miss me and he would give me space I said ok later that day he told me to delete pictures of him and basically remove anything I have of him I was confused but said Ok because it was late and I didn't really wanna get into it we didn't talk for a day or two maybe and then I went on widget able because I was bored and wanted to take care of our pet in the app you can send notes to each other and basically text and I noticed he sent a request to end co-parenting I am unfamiliar with the app so I asked him if there is a way I can get ownership of the pet while ending coparenting I figured he would know and after I asked he said I could keep it and he would just delete the app which was fine I said ok and moved on then after he said he still thinks keeping it is a bad idea I asked why and he said he just doesn't want it around I told him if he deletes the app it won't be "around" he still went back and forth with me and ending the conversation with "k" I never replied at this point I'm still confused to why he's being distant since not even a day before all of this everything was fine (I ask for space often and he never acts likes this) then later on I notice he unfollowed me on Instagram and I see I'm still following him I confront him not in the best way but not in the worst way either I say "remove my follow weirdo" which is not out of the ordinary anytime someone unfollows me and keeps my follow I find it weird and confront them about it or silently unfollow them which tbh is what I should've done this time but I didn't because I was angry and confused and also had a bad day and he replied "I did" we went back and forth on how he didn't I said whatever and left it alone he said "stop contacting me I have a girl" this is where I kinda got pissed off because #1 I said whatever the conversation was DONE #2 I never asked if you had a girl or not #3 HE KEPT REPLYING TO ME JUST STOP REPLYING I said Awesome "I have a bf" this may or may not be true just know I am extremely petty and he knows I regret almost everything I said in this conversation after I said that he replied with k and I said "stop replying 🍆" (I said d*ckhead) then he said something else and deleted it which literally made my blood boil I hate deleting messages especially in a non joking setting I said "what are you deleting messages for 😺" (wasn't actually the cat emoji and I said p*ssy) and he left me on seen which made my blood boil EVEN MORE I often leave him on seen when he's just yapping because it's a lot to reply to also I SAID I REGRET THE WAY I WENT ABOUT THIS CONVERSATION THERE ARE WAYYYY BETTER WAYS I COULD'VE REPLIED OR NOT REPLIED AND I KNOW THAT anyway everything I said he saw and uh here's where it gets really bad and I am going to get a lot of hate for this but you have to realize he has been pushing my buttons and not everything he said here was mentioned he also did other things that he knew would make me mad I said "since we're done fr fr I cheated on you a majority of our relationship" NOW HEAR ME OUT IF SOMEONE SAID THIS TO ME I WOULD LEAVE THEM ON SEEN TOO AND THIS WAS A LIE I HAVE NEVER AND NEVER WILL CHEAT ON ANYONE IT'S GROSS AND JUST SO UNESSARY I said this because we made a contract or deal that we wouldn't talk to anyone else until we get back together officially we both agreed and if we did it is considered being unfaithful and for it to take 2 days actually more like a day and a half for you to find a girlfriend there is no way you stayed loyal also idc about him having a girlfriend I just find it odd and think he is lying he also has a history of lying he lied about have a girlfriend before and cheating on her so yeah that's all I just want to get other people's thoughts on this situation btw from what I know we never broke up or I was done with the relationship I just needed space and I feel like he took it the wrong way but what do you guys think ALSO he has reddit and he's pretty active in this subreddit so if you see this then erm Hi.? OH AND I think I should add this I am not a jealous person like at all I used to encourage him to become friends with girls and he would tell me about girls flirting with him at school to make me jealous or just to get a reaction out of me which never happened because I trusted him and if someone does leave me for someone else then like what am I supposed to do even when I was cheated on in the past it didn't really hurt and I really didn't care

That will be a long post, I hope you can accompany me until the end, I will give you a little context and I will start with my story. I 24 (F) I clarify that I am a trans girl, my ex 27 (M) heterosexual cisgender had never had a trans girlfriend. We met through a social network. We realized that we lived nearby and decided to go out to eat, before seeing each other in person I made it clear to him that I was a trans girl, which took him by surprise, it was something that he was not expected, but he still said that he felt something inside his being that told him that there was no problem. two weeks after seeing us for the first time he asked me to become his girlfriend to which I agreed because he is an excellent human being with very good values, good ethics and morals and definitely men like him difficult to find today. the relationship flowed and at about three months, he decides to leave me. He had a lot of things in his head. He was waiting for a new job, struggling with insecurities and I know that the fact that I was trans somehow took away his sleep and I didn't know how he was going to handle it with his traditional family. he lied telling me a story saying that he had to go to Las Vegas for work, for a year and a half and that he could not continue with a long-distance relationship, at the passage of the hours he confesses to me that it was a lie that he was not gonna leave. At this point deep inside me, I had already left him, I had cried and I had suffered the grief and even though I agreed to continue trying something in m broke from that first time he left me, with the passage of time, I realized that there were things that did not convince me at all his physical appearance, his personal hygiene, his height, his neediness, his way of being so closed in certain things, they made me quite angry, we talked about it, he told me that he was going to change, but I only saw changes for a certain time and then he did the same again 6 months after being in a relationship I decided to finish things this time on my own and within hours, he came regretful, telling me that everything was going to be fine that everything was going to work. After that I began to feel a little uncomfortable, but I decided to move on because he had given me a promise ring when he asked me to be his girl, since his dream was to see me dressed in white. we made many plans for the future, we planned to have a family. A month ago He managed to get that job that he was waiting for so long, everything was slowly taking form and in order to accomplish the plans we had he needed that very good job. I was able to meet his mom, he never told her that I was a trans girl and his mom didn't realize it and he kept hiding it until certain point, I got along very well with her. Everything went well and the date to meet his dad, brothers and his sister-in-law was near and I began having doubts in me. I really wanted to stay with him and meet his whole family but It would seem like an act of bad taste if a few months after i decided to end up things. Then I tried to postpone things and not meet them. when spending time with him when sleeping together when kissing, I already felt different. I felt that something was off. I felt that something had broken since that first time, we broke up, but maybe I hadn't wanted to accept it. It hurt me a lot to think that all our plans, the great work he just got, the big salary, was finally coming true, everything we waited for almost a year. I just wasn't feeling it anymore, I talked to him and told him that I no longer felt the same as he deserved someone who could give him the same thing he expected since he was settling for the little I gave him of my person, he said that this was love and that it was worth fighting and that it didn't matter how long he had to wait that it was going to be worth it. Two weeks ago, I decided to leave him and coincidentally a best friend invited me on vacation with his family. I had time to think about things and I realized that maybe I'm too young to get married. Although I feel ready, were simply mixed feelings and I didn't know what to do, when I returned last weekend we saw each other we talked and I told him that it was time to heal both for him and for me that we could not continue living a half-love because he gave everything for me, but I didn’t. I decided to put an end to our story, he told me that he would never understand why I did it if he tried so hard that if this was actually love because why I did not continue fighting, but there was simply something inside me that It made me feel that I should no longer continue and it hurts me because he is an excellent man, he will be an excellent husband, an excellent father, an excellent provider has all the qualities that any girl would die to find a man, but I simply do not know if I am getting carried away and I will regret it in the future, but I simply no longer feel this relationship. I would like you to share your opinion with me. I feel that in the future, a part of me may regret it, but for now I feel that it is the best thing for both of us to take different paths and take care of healing and doing things. Better. Maybe in our next relationship. Thank you for reading me so far, I told you it would be long. If you have any questions, leave it at the comments and I will answer since I can't put all the details here because it would be too much. Thank you. Kisses. Melina.
TL;DR I need advice if I should fight for a man that is worth it but I don’t longer feel the relationship and am not sure to continue even though I might regret it since he’s an excellent men.

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My (30M) partner (35M) is not out to his parents who are christian and arab have lived in the Middle East for their whole lives. He has lived here in the US for enough time to become a citizen and fall in love and get a permanent job and house.
We've been together for 4 years now and have a pretty strong relationship but I'm sort of his only strong support strucutre. He has a best friend that lives in another region of the country and maybe some good friends he made throughout life that have gone off and done their own things.
He works a ton since he's in the medical field and barely has time to feed himself or do anything around the house so I usually take care of all of that including work my 40 hours in the office.
His parents have moved to the US however due to current events and this has caused some pressure on our relationship. The parents wanted to come visit and obviously that wasn't possible since we live together. He's gonna go visit them from time to time and probably over the holidays which ofcourse doesn't bode well for me having to always spend separately.
He expresses to me all the time that he wants to be with me forever / for a long time. Our relationship feels like it's been climbing constantly even with the occasional valleys. But he's very afraid of losing his family if they were to ever find out that he's gay and dating a man. So afraid that he wakes up in the middle of the night screaming and in a panic and I have to calm him down.
I know I can't force him to come out and I would never think that's a fair choice to make between me and his family, but with them moving into the states, it makes me lose a little hope for our relationship. (But also, supposedly it's a choice because he doesn't actually know if 1) they know already 2) they won't accept him 3) maybe they don't like it but things won't even change and he doesn't have to stress about them finding out.)
He's always said that marriage is dumb and he would never do it and I've always been of the opinion that i would do it if it made sense. For us its made sense. We used to argue about it but i sort of gave up. Recently as we've been getting closer, he gets drunk and vulnerable and expresses his desire to marry me. I keep lingering on to these moments sometimes to feel happier but then it gets sour in my mouth when I remember that these things might be mutually exclusive. How can we be married but his family not even know? He would be pictured with a ring on his social media and possibly someone would notice. And if he says he can't wear a ring, that would hurt me a lot. And then what if he gets sick? Ofcourse I have to let his parents know who love him but then they're like, who even is this guy?
I haven't been in the closet since I was maybe 14 and even then my parents for the most part more so cared if I got an A+ vs an A- so it's hard for me to at the age of 30 live my life for someone else and even worse to watch him at his age consider living this life. So I got him a therapist that he talks to weekly and that's been for a month but lately my mental has been circling this idea that this will never get better and I'll have to sacrifice some of my long-term happiness so that he has his family still.
My question is, is there anyone that is either someone in my position or someone in his position that can relate to this situation and help me not feel so alone? Please.

Hello,
I have been confused about my type for a long type and finally narrowed it down to these three types. I think my issue is mainly that I can't seem to make a proper connection between my behavior and my personality because of various reasons like not being aware what exactly is causing my emotions to flare up. So I thought maybe someone here could help. I'm just going to give descriptions of why I think I fit 3/6/8 and why I don't think so and I'll see what you guys think about it. My socionics type is probably SEE, MBTI ESTP.
Reasons for 8:

• Aside from some obvious rules I have to follow I generally like to do whatever the fuck I want with my time and life. If there is a rule I need to follow I often and sometimes almost instinctively tend to break it or go around it. There isn't much rhyme or reason to my actions, I'm a pretty irrational person in that sense.
• I find it funny when people challenge me or when people bitch at me
• I can be pretty bitchy with my friends and bully some of them around if I think they don't know what they're doing or talking about
• It's hard for me to be vulnerable (also 3 and 6 ig)
• I have a really hard time knowing why I'm emotional. I guess this could also fit 3 but sometimes I get very emotional and I have no idea what caused it, I can attach something rational to it I guess as the cause but I never really know
• I'm a very action oriented-person, I don't like to wait to buy the things I want. When situations are stagnant I get bored. I am often bored. In social situations I tend to say some heinous shit to get people out of their "small talk" rut and into interesting topics or to cause chaos.
• I like to be seen as a bad person
• I can be REALLY blunt socially, sometimes I wish i could be more smooth and charming but also I like being honest
• I'm kind of anti intellectual. I like to read but I have a hard time understanding theories and such. I need people to explain this to me or to have learned it for a long time. I like more simple stuff like design books without theory or practical explanations of how something works in real life.

Reasons against 8:

• I don't think I'm a very aggressive and domineering person but idk I don't really ask people how they perceive me much. i see myself as impulsive more than domineering. I hate leadership roles that are forced onto me, I'd rather like do something creative or fulfill multiple roles.

Reasons for 3:

• I know what I want, I'm pretty ambitious about it too. It's a rather vague vision but I am working on it right now
• My personality has many different facets, people who know me a bit deeper have said this. I'm very widely read/interested in a lot of topics so it has a lot of breadth. I thought this could maybe point to identification
• Sometimes I put too much pressure on myself telling myself to not be such a pussy and just work through something
• I can be pretty anxious about some parts of me when people criticize me about it, but its mostly limited to looks and romance
• I'm pretty good at making deals with people, despite me being sort of blunt socially lol. Using people for my interests, that sort of thing, kind of machiavellian

Reasons against 3:

• I don't think I'm very charming, I go into most situations expecting people not to like me (for example expecting my teachers to hate and throw me out the program ) so its always a relief when the bad shit doesnt happen
• I have a hard time understanding enneagram 3 friends sometimes, might have mistyped them idk but I just don't understand how someone can be happy by keeping up that goofy behavior for so long. seems a recipe for mental illness tbh
• I'm not afraid to go against crowds/people and I don't think my personal interests are the interests of society at all. It's more obscure really
• I'm a pretty self deprecating person. I don't like taking myself too seriously. It's cringe.

Reasons for cp6:

• I can definitely rebel against rules, like I said above. Sometimes its intentional, but sometimes also not. I just like doing my thing at times, other times I think i know better than the person speaking
• I can be pretty anxious and in my head. Mostly when I don't get enough physical action or things are stagnant. I really don't like thinking deep about things to be honest. If I think too hard my thoughts go in circles and it gives me a headache. I'm happier when I can just do shit like shopping clothes or going on holiday. I have a very hard time understanding enneagram because it's so vague and spiritual.
• I often prepare for important events in advance. I dislike not having control over the entire process of them, like going on a flight. I want to control everything about moving somewhere myself.
• I ask other people for their opinions, mostly because I'm afraid of coming off too strong (has happened before) or because they're better at formulating things than me.

Reasons against cp6:

• I don't think I'm quite as anxious and afraid of ambiguity as every 6 I meet, I like chaos and winging things
• I don't really construct an ideology to live by, it's all pretty fluid.

Interested to see what people think!

about a year ago me and my at the time boyfriend had unprotected sex. I’m (F19) and he’s (M18). We were both virgins before each other, very loyal, no oral or anything. After we had sex, 2 weeks later I felt a hard lump near the opening of my vagina. After touching around I somehow noticed a soft bump at the surface. Maybe a little bigger than a pea. At first it was painless, I tried squeezing and after that, it stung when i touched it. It stung when touched for days. I could pee, no clusters, no itchiness at all. But could this have been a sore? It went away with no scabbing. But why did the surface of the skin sting? A month later I got 3 small fluid filled blisters on my lip, and before it was itching and burning, but it lasted almost a full day and disappeared. does this seem like herpes? i’m trying to move on from him but this baggage of thinking i’m carrying a virus has put a damper on everything. somebody be entirely honest.

I (f18) live with my parents and cannot currently move out. I’ve felt this way for a while but it’s gotten a lot worse recently where I feel like my parents are watching me or having someone follow me to watch me 24/7. Part of it is they actively track my phone and my dads pulled up my driving route multiple times when I get home from seeing friends to accuse me of lying. But I also get paranoid about searching anything ‘concerning’ on the internet IE a dosage guide for medication. I feel like they’ve taped my phone so they secretly have access to all I do on my phone. I especially feel like they have some way of watching me when I’m out. I’ll be out by the beach at night (every teen does this in my city) and get a paranoid fear that my dads going to drive by to find me since he has my location or he’s got someone to follow me around. I feel like they’re watching me 24/7. If I see a shadow move I think someone’s looking after me. If I see a familiar car to my parents’ I think it’s them coming to find me. I can’t shake this feeling and it’s getting unbearable. The thing is I’m a responsible kid. I behave myself, never got into any real trouble, etc… they even compliment me on how I’m an very mature kid. I’m trying to move out in October but I really can’t deal with this any longer and I don’t know what to do. I’m currently not in a position to move so I have to deal with this until the fall and I’m not even sure if I can. The anxiety about this is unlivable. I’ve asked them to stop using the tracking app a million times and they always say it’s for safety. I’m just at my limit and they never ever listen to me when I express this kind of stuff.

I’m moving from the DMV to FL this summer and calling around to get quotes. A friend had recommended Bekins, but when I called they set me up to get an estimate from their “partner,” a company in Baltimore that when I looked it up on fmcsa.gov was listed as a brokerage with 0 trucks. Is this still technically Bekins or should I avoid since I’ve been warned to never use moving brokers?

I have moved three times over the last few years. All four states being different environments entirely ranging from rain forests to desert. As different as the environment was however, society doesn't really change much and you find most of the same things. Not really that different after all.
I've spent a long time thinking about why no where I go feels like home.
It hasn't felt like home because I've come to find that home is wherever my favorite person is. I don't really have one of those and haven't for about four years so no where has quite felt right. I love my friends and family but it just simply cannot fill the space in my heart for some romance.
I thought it might be LA recently and I came all the way out here hoping for love and a much better job when a girl invited me this way. I don't regret it and the job part was true and I am super happy about it but the relationship fell apart and now I am just in LA. Doing whatever and working and living on my own.
Maybe someone could show me around or give me an excuse to fly somewhere else you never know but I am always seeking some new adventure and maybe you could be the next one.
Being single for this time was useful and required to learn what I need and want out of life myself but I've never really cared for being single. Life just has a certain energy to it when you have a partner that you can't find anywhere else and my most cherished memories always involve someone else in one way or another. I was never meant to be alone and I am passionate in the way I love, and my life won't quite feel complete until I convince someone to journey through life with me.
As far as what you'd get with me - well I am nothing special. I'm relatively intelligent but no genius. I am not ugly nor would I call myself particular handsome. I'm just a dude who talks to much and has way to much energy for his own good and smokes pot like it's going out of style soon and still somehow manages to never procrastinate much.
I am always looking for a new thing to do, a new adventure to go on, another person to meet. I am not rich but I could be a lot worse off and enjoy the work I do even if it's nothing anyone would ever notice much. I am in decent shape as well, I actually leave the couch occasionally unlike most potheads...
Just kidding I love you guys and if a cute stoner girl shows up I'd be just fine with that. You don't have to be anything special either. I can't say looks don't matter at all but I'm not look for a super model or an actress.
They said there was a loneliness epidemic recently but maybe you and I could remedy that and at least solve it for each other.
Though I wonder why you're still reading this if you've decided I am not in fact that one.

Hi all! After a crazy, but incredibly fun and rewarding year earning my pilot certs, I wanted to make a write-up of my experience in hopes that it’ll be helpful for any other aspiring or current pilots. To summarize, I went from zero aviation experience to CFII in 13 months, Part 61, paying as I go and on the pretty cheap side. I do want to emphasize that I was ~incredibly~ lucky and had some very generous people who helped me out, and I could not have done this as efficiently and cheaply if it weren’t for them. I’m going to list all my takeaways below, but I think my biggest piece of advice is to network as much as you can because there are some amazing, generous people in this community that want to see us all succeed.
Background:
For context, I’m in my mid to late twenties and have been in the workforce for about 5 years. Through a combination of factors I decided to make a career switch to professional pilot but was hesitant because I did not want to take on debt. I have a family member who is an airline pilot who helped me devise a plan. I moved home and kept working my job remotely so I was able to put all my paychecks towards flying.
Private Pilot – 3 months, 75 hours TT, $12k
I did my private in a Piper Archer owned by my local FBO. The owner allowed my family member to be my instructor and gave me a small discount for pre-paying hours. We flew almost daily. I also took ground school at another local FBO in-person, and that was much more helpful than having to learn everything on my own because I was brand new to aviation. I took the private written exam as soon as my ground school concluded which was also the week of my checkride (bad idea in hindsight, but it worked out).
I solo’d around 25 hours and took my checkride with about 60 hours in the Archer (15 additional hours were in a friend’s airplane). The checkride was challenging, but straightforward and I was well prepared. The DPE said good things about me afterward and I was officially a private pilot! I’d be happy to answer questions or do a writeup in a separate post on any of my checkrides but for the sake of brevity I’ll skip that for now.
~Key takeaways from private:~
Fly as often as possible and make sure your instructor is aligned with that. Also stay on top of ground school. Also, don’t rush to take the checkride before you’re ready, it’s okay to have a lot of practice first. Lastly, I know DPE availability is a big issue in lots of areas and can cause people to have to wait on a checkride even though they’ve been ready for months. In my experience, if you try hard enough and call around, you will find someone. However, it might mean you have to travel a little bit which I know is not possible for everyone.
Instrument – 2 months, 150 hours TT, $14k
I was feeling a little fatigued after private so I was slow to start studying for instrument. I started by doing a lot of flying for fun, mainly flying in the Archer by myself on little cross countries to check off some of the requirements (in hindsight I should have found someone to split time with).
I did my instrument at a flight school in one of the adjacent states. This particular school specializes in accelerated programs, but they do not have a formalized instrument course. I went in-person and spoke with the director of flight operations to discuss my options. Since I had to take PTO to do this, the goal was to finish my instrument in one week with the checkride at the end. I paid a flat rate for the airplane and instructor time. I also stayed over there during that week so I had to pay for housing as well.
Before I went over there, I did some prep in the Archer that I did my private in and took the written exam (Sheppard air). I also purchased Sporty’s Instrument course and used that to prep and for the endorsement needed to take the written. The week I spent at the flight school was honestly a blast, and I was able to take my checkride on day 7 with 20 hours in the plane and about 4 hours of sim time. Again, happy to discuss the checkride in the comments or another post.
~Key takeaways from instrument:~
TAKE THE IRA, FII, AND IGI EXAMS AT THE SAME TIME. You only have to purchase the IRA Sheppard course and can take all 3 exams back to back. Also, again stay on top of ground school because instrument flying requires a lot of technical knowledge. But it honestly is really fun!
Commercial – 3 months, 263 hours TT, $8k
The biggest challenge for commercial was time building, of course. This is where networking saved me. I made friends with another instructor who frequented my local FBO who also owns a plane. He needed the time as well so we flew together a lot and I paid for the fuel. I also had another friend at the airport who owns a plane that he doesn’t fly often and offered to let me time build in that (again, I’ve been so lucky to come across some very generous people).
I did my checkride in the Archer that I learned in with my family member signing me off, and with the same DPE who did my private. Commercial was probably the easiest one I had done so far, but it still was no joke! I will say I was amazed with how much easier things came to me by this point versus when I first started, which was a great feeling.
~Key takeaways from commercial:~
Network, network, network. Spend as much time as you can at your local FBO or flight school and make friends with everyone. Like I’ve said, there are some very generous people out there who love to help out new pilots, and I could not have made it this far without them.
Also, in retrospect, it would have been a really good idea to have done commercial from the right seat. I’ve heard of a lot of people doing that and if I had, I would have been able to knock out CFI a lot sooner and cheaper.
Multi-engine add-on – 1 week, 298 hours TT, $4.3k
Shortly after getting my CPL, I had a week of PTO and decided to knock out my multi add-on. I found a flight school with a Seminole and got ahold of their MEI, and we figured we could knock it out during that week. I contacted the DPE who did my private and commercial and we scheduled my checkride for the end of the week. This flight school was about 2 hours driving from home, and I was able to stay with friends while I was there.
This one was a little challenging because this was in January in the midwest and we were seeing a lot of low IFR days. We ended up getting weathered out the first half of the week, but luckily the Seminole was an easy transition for me and we got me trained up in 3 days, 8 hours of flying. I took the checkride as scheduled and passed (I will say I have had extremely good luck with weather for all of my checkride days so far).
Sidenote: Prior to this checkride, I also took the AGI and IGI exams and asked the DPE who did my multi checkride to sign off on the ground instructor certificate at the same time. I did this because I’ve heard it helps when applying to CFI jobs (shows a little extra effort) and it was easier to do it this way versus having a FSDO issue the cert. Cost me $50 to the DPE.
~Key takeaways from multi:~
Do your research to find an airplane at a good rate. I paid $395 per hour which included the instructor, but I’ve seen some schools charging a lot more. Also, I looked into schools with accelerated courses that you pay as a package, and based on my experience I would not recommend because I was able to do it much cheaper my way.
My instructor did a good job of making sure I knew all the aircraft systems well enough to teach them in case I go for my MEI (which I would like to do soon). Since the MEL is light on material, I highly recommend this. Also, when I was doing research I was told to look for a Seminole or DA-42 because they’re easy trainers, which I would agree with based on my limited experience.
CFI – 1 month (on top of all my experience thus far), 316 hours TT, $5k
This was the scariest one for me. I had heard all along that CFI is the hardest and longest checkride and for the most part I would agree. I originally was planning on going to a school with an accelerated program for this, but after asking around I decided to do it on my own (with my family member signing me off).
This one was heavy on ground school. I got some lesson plans from various people as I heard that’s what everyone has prepared for the checkride, but I hardly ended up using them. I also had a friend send me PowerPoints he made for the technical subject areas. I edited them/made them my own and these are what I ended up using for the checkride along with a couple props.
As far as studying goes, the thing I found most helpful was watching random YouTube videos before bed every night. Although it was all review, I picked up a lot of tidbits that weren’t quite drilled into my brain as I still feel new to aviation overall. As the DPE described it, to be a good CFI you basically need to be a nerd about everything aviation and that’s what I tried to do. I would guess that I studied a few hours a day for a month and a half or so. As for the flying part, I had a little bit of right seat experience prior to buckling down for CFI (probably under 5 hours), so I’d guess it took me about 5 more hours to feel comfortable in the right seat. I took the checkride with the same DPE who did my private, commercial, and multi and passed! The checkride was 8 hours total so definitely a long day. As we were debriefing, I went ahead and scheduled CFII with him as well.
~Key takeaways from CFI:~
Start nerding out now (if you aren’t already). Keep a running collection of links and videos that explain concepts well or teach you something interesting, they will be useful for the checkride. Also, don’t buy lesson plans. As my DPE put it, there are really only like 5 lesson plans for any given topic and we all steal them from each other, so no need to reinvent the wheel or pay for them if someone else can give them to you. I’d also recommend really getting to know the PTS, because it lays out very clearly what you are required to do on the checkride (for example you know you’re going to need to teach runway incursions so it’s a good opportunity to be really prepared). I’m sure my last point is most applicable to those doing CFI on their own since you won’t have a school telling you exactly what to expect.
CFII – 1 month, 368 hours TT, $1.3k
CFII was possibly the easiest checkride to prepare for. I did this one in a friend’s airplane – a Mooney with a G750 and GFC 500 autopilot. It probably took about 10 hours of flying (I already have lots of time in this plane) to be ready. For studying, I reviewed Pilot Cafe, YouTube videos, and obtained some lesson plans from a friend. I did not use PowerPoints or anything for this one. I also had already completed the written exam back when I did my instrument rating. I’m not sure what else to say about this one, but I did it with the same DPE again and passed. It feels amazing to be done with checkrides for a while!
~Key takeaways from CFII:~
Select an airplane with a good autopilot. This made the flying portion of the checkride super easy. For the oral, I highly recommend working with instructors who send students for a lot of instrument checkrides. I feel like there are so many very specific questions that DPEs like to ask on instrument/CFII checkrides, so it helps if you have someone who knows what those questions are going to be. Also, FlightInsight on YouTube and Boldmethod were my favorite resources for this one. Lastly, make sure you know your avionics and autopilot really well, including reading and being able to teach all of the limitations that are in the user manuals.
Notes regarding cost:
I did a decent job of tracking all my expenses throughout this process. I noted in the title that the total cost to me was about $50k, which consists of the ~$45k that I discussed above plus some additional expenses. I also did my commercial ASES rating at Jack Brown’s seaplane base which cost me about $2.5K total (of course this was just for fun). The remaining amount consists of things like buying a headset, books, random accessories, and even some things I called “unnecessary expenses”. I temporarily paid for a membership at a flight school that I barely ended up using, so I put that in that category. While I did everything pretty cheap, I was definitely not perfect!
Here is a further breakdown of my expenses:
Airplane rentals/fuel - $36.9k
Instructor fees - $2.5k (bear in mind I got a lot of free instruction from friends & family)
Ground school - $1.3k (includes actual ground school and books)
Flight accessories - $1.2k
Written exam fees - $1.2k (8 exams total)
DPE fees - $5.8k (7 checkrides; this includes seaplane)
Medical fees - $290
Housing - $900
Misc/unnecessary expenses - $1.2k
Total: $51.7k
Overall Takeaways:
- For those doing Part 61/pay as you go, I highly recommend finding an independent instructor with a flexible schedule. This was key for me because I had a work schedule to work around.
- NETWORKING/MAKING FRIENDS. Go to every fly-in you can, always stop into the FBO to say hi to people, etc. etc. Having friends in aviation was monumentally helpful for me and saved me SO much money. Cannot stress this enough!
- If you are on a timeline, make sure you set specific milestones and when you are going to hit them. Make sure your instructor is on board too.
- Do your research! Reddit has been a fantastic resource for me throughout this process. Talk to people who have achieved the things you want to achieve. I really cannot thank you all enough for all your help and insights on your experiences!
Again, I am more than happy to answer any and all questions. I also apologize if anything is jumbled or confusing; this took a long time to write and I’m sure I missed things. I will also disclaim that while I did a good job of tracking all my expenses, I was not perfect and YMMV for sure. I just hope this gave a somewhat helpful picture for those hoping to do something similar to what I did.
As for next steps, I am aiming for the airlines one of these days! I have a couple interviews at flight schools coming up so I am planning to quit my job and finally start flying full-time soon. I want to do my MEI sometime soon as well but I haven’t figured out how I’m going to pay for the PIC time yet.
I also want to say that I absolutely love general aviation and hope to always be involved in it. I have made so many friends, had some incredible experiences, and learned way more than I could have ever imagined in the past year. For anyone thinking about flying, hopefully this is your sign to just do it! Feel free to comment with questions!

So me and my bf stopped talking like 2-3 days ago we weren't fully dating but we basically were (we told everyone we were dating) also we're online btw anyway we got into a argument the day we stopped talking I said multiple times that I'm done he said he would miss me and he would give me space I said ok later that day he told me to delete pictures of him and basically remove anything I have of him I was confused but said Ok because it was late and I didn't really wanna get into it we didn't talk for a day or two maybe and then I went on widget able because I was bored and wanted to take care of our pet in the app you can send notes to each other and basically text and I noticed he sent a request to end co-parenting I am unfamiliar with the app so I asked him if there is a way I can get ownership of the pet while ending coparenting I figured he would know and after I asked he said I could keep it and he would just delete the app which was fine I said ok and moved on then after he said he still thinks keeping it is a bad idea I asked why and he said he just doesn't want it around I told him if he deletes the app it won't be "around" he still went back and forth with me and ending the conversation with "k" I never replied at this point I'm still confused to why he's being distant since not even a day before all of this everything was fine (I ask for space often and he never acts likes this) then later on I notice he unfollowed me on Instagram and I see I'm still following him I confront him not in the best way but not in the worst way either I say "remove my follow weirdo" which is not out of the ordinary anytime someone unfollows me and keeps my follow I find it weird and confront them about it or silently unfollow them which tbh is what I should've done this time but I didn't because I was angry and confused and also had a bad day and he replied "I did" we went back and forth on how he didn't I said whatever and left it alone he said "stop contacting me I have a girl" this is where I kinda got pissed off because #1 I said whatever the conversation was DONE #2 I never asked if you had a girl or not #3 HE KEPT REPLYING TO ME JUST STOP REPLYING I said Awesome "I have a bf" this may or may not be true just know I am extremely petty and he knows I regret almost everything I said in this conversation after I said that he replied with k and I said "stop replying 🍆" (I said d*ckhead) then he said something else and deleted it which literally made my blood boil I hate deleting messages especially in a non joking setting I said "what are you deleting messages for 😺" (wasn't actually the cat emoji and I said p*ssy) and he left me on seen which made my blood boil EVEN MORE I often leave him on seen when he's just yapping because it's a lot to reply to also I SAID I REGRET THE WAY I WENT ABOUT THIS CONVERSATION THERE ARE WAYYYY BETTER WAYS I COULD'VE REPLIED OR NOT REPLIED AND I KNOW THAT anyway everything I said he saw and uh here's where it gets really bad and I am going to get a lot of hate for this but you have to realize he has been pushing my buttons and not everything he said here was mentioned he also did other things that he knew would make me mad I said "since we're done fr fr I cheated on you a majority of our relationship" NOW HEAR ME OUT IF SOMEONE SAID THIS TO ME I WOULD LEAVE THEM ON SEEN TOO AND THIS WAS A LIE I HAVE NEVER AND NEVER WILL CHEAT ON ANYONE IT'S GROSS AND JUST SO UNESSARY I said this because we made a contract or deal that we wouldn't talk to anyone else until we get back together officially we both agreed and if we did it is considered being unfaithful and for it to take 2 days actually more like a day and a half for you to find a girlfriend there is no way you stayed loyal also idc about him having a girlfriend I just find it odd and think he is lying he also has a history of lying he lied about have a girlfriend before and cheating on her so yeah that's all I just want to get other people's thoughts on this situation btw from what I know we never broke up or I was done with the relationship I just needed space and I feel like he took it the wrong way but what do you guys think ALSO he has reddit and he's pretty active in this subreddit so if you see this then erm Hi.? OH AND I think I should add this I am not a jealous person like at all I used to encourage him to become friends with girls and he would tell me about girls flirting with him at school to make me jealous or just to get a reaction out of me which never happened because I trusted him and if someone does leave me for someone else then like what am I supposed to do even when I was cheated on in the past it didn't really hurt and I really didn't care
TLDR: Me and my ex broke up 2 days ago and yesterday he said he has a new girlfriend he also has a history of lying about his dating history to seem cooler or make people jealous