Sagi maa aur bahan k sath chudai

2023m mera first attempt tha with boards my score was as low as 289 fir bhi mere gharwalo ko lga ki mera ho skta h agr m mehnat kru to to maine drop Kia aur iss baar mera second attempt tha is baar bhi mera score kuch khaas improve nhi hua I'm still at 430s
Sach btau to jb se ppr deke aayi hu kuch accha nhi lgra kuch smjh nhi aara kya kru last year hi decide kr lia tha agr nhi hua to bs ab aur drop nhi krungi life m aage bdh jaungi. Pr ab mera mn nhi Maan ra "itna easy ppr aur fir bhi nhi hua mera? Mtlb maine apna 100% to nhi dia tha to ek last baar try kr leti hu" ye mere ppr k baad Wale week k vichar the to mere parents ne bhi offline coaching m admission krwa dia kyuki online m mera self discipline nhi bn pata h . Ab mujhe Roz ye khyal aata h ki dekho tum pdhne m jaisi bhi thi(acchi hi thi) kya kr payi aakhir jo log mujhse bhi gye gujre the they are doing much better than me vo badhiya lyf enjoy kr rhe h new cheeze experience kr rhe h aur m? M vhi 12th k baad vale phase m stuck ho gyi hu .
Ab to mera kisi se baat krne ka bhi dil nhi krta mere bestfriends se last meri baat exam vale din hi Hui thi bs ab mera mn hi nhi krta kisi se baat krne ko sharam aati h mujhe khudpr apne circumstances pr ki yr kaha fasa lia h maine khud ko. Kitna aage nikl gye h sb mujhse kitna busy h sb ab m agr kisi ko MSG bhi kru to ghanto baad reply aata h jaise sb hass rhe ho mujhpe . Mere apne dost mujhe boring bol k aage nikl gye h. I had a boyfriend jisse mil nhi payi m ajtk because of this fcking exam aur jb maine use bulaya to usne mna kr dia. Vo bhi mujhe chor kr Jana chahta h or maybe chla hi gya h already 1 hfte se baat nhi Hui kehta h tumhara hona na hona sb barabar hi h mere liye. Usne to ye tk keh dia ki bhagwan aisi chutiya gf kisi ko na de. Life k hr aspect m har gyi hu m sbse peeche kahi door chhut gyi hu. Na m acchi beti hi bn payi kitni umeed thi maa baap ko mere mujhse ki ho jayega iss saal jb btaya unhe to papa k aakho m aasu the aur mummy kuch boli nhi. Na acchi dost na acchi gf aur shyd na hi acchi insaan
Kbhi kbhi to lgta h mujhe ki shyd ye sb h hi nhi mere liye doctor bnna itna noble profession h m uske kabil hi nhi hu. Kaise koi mujhpe bharosa krega kaise m kisi ki jindgi ki responsibility le paungi lyak hi nhi hu m iske ki koi mujhe doctor bhi bole .mujhse khud ki zindagi to smbhali nhi jari m kaise kisi aur ki zindgi bchaungi
Khair...koi baat nhi krna chahta mujhse aur mujhe kisi se ye sb kehna tha to yha likh dia

I am 26 tard jee aspirant meri maa expire hone k baad ghar me kalesh bohot badh gaye aur mai bhi frustrated feel karta hu i was totally exhausted after my 10th board 2 mahine tak numb raha hu . Lekin mere father is so toxic ki mere kehne k baad bhi kota nhi bheja lekin mene online se apna basic of pcm aur 2 2 chapters conplete kar liye h , bohot regret ho raha h kota na jane ka is it too late to go to kota??

Summers going on and my childhood friends barely meet now and we are not interacting anymore I just wanna know that ky baki log k sath bhi esa hota h ky ki dost aapse baat krna aur milna hi chod de agr aap pehle na kre to ?

As I clearly mentioned only females. No males DM me. Ek hawsi chudasi maa chahiye ish hawsi madarchod bete keliyem. maa ek dum hawas se bhari hui chudasi ho. Ushe apne bete se chudna bahot pasand ho. Bete ke lund ki pyasi maa, din raat jo bete se lagatar chudti hi rahe...
Ghar me bhi maa nangi rahe or bete sath bahar jate time adhi nangi hoke jaye taki beta jab chahe tab chudai kre maa ki

Har jagah k log kuch na kuch ulti sidhi chije krte hai. Hum desi bhi krte hai. To socha ek post share Kru. Offend nhi krne ka mujhe kisi Ko, bs jo observe Kia hai vo likha.. sahi aur galat aap decide kro.
India Mai humne observe krke yahi sekha hai patiently wait nhi krna. Jaha place mile ghus jao.. chahe vo tum ho, ya tumari gadi. Bs ghusa do. Jaha free ka kuch mile tott pado..
Fortunately maine kuch countries solo ghumi hui hai and Starting ke time Maine kuch ese cheje observe ki dusare countries Mai mujhe thodi odd lagi. Fir logically socha to sense banne lagi. Abhi bhi I'm not perfect but Haan thoda control/change Aya hai. Ye post likhne ka idea es liye aya kyuki abhi Mai Apne parents k sath West Mai hu and firse Wahi cheje dekhne Ko Mili jo maine ki thi. But this time ye thoda alag hai. Abhi Kuch cheje India k Metro cities Mai Hoti hai kuch nhi. maine points likhe hai, Aajo samjhata hu..
Waiting in queue - example deta hu: ek line hai, aur counter hai do. But line counter 1 ke aage hai. To hum assume krte hai ki "yaha aja, dekh 2 no. ke aage Khali hai"
Humme na sikhaya hai na bataya kisi ne ki bhai patience kya Hoti hai. Chahe vo Line Mai chup chap khade hona ya apni turn ka wait krna, ye I guess India Mai sirf airport checkin counter par he hota hai.
Sidewalk/footpath - Hum bc chalte hai jese hum Malik hai eske. West mai mostly log will not utter a single word. They'll just patiently wait ki Kahi se thoda rasta mile to cross kre. Otherwise vo apke piche chalte rahege.
Constant stare - Ye wali chej to bhai.. ladki, ladka, gay, trans, lesbian, homeless, kutta, bili, raincoat wala kutta, rubber shoes wali bili. Humko dekhna he hai jee bhar k, ache se. (Yes, pets ke bhi yaha pakade hote hai) Bhahar se nikale but Restaurant ke andar kya chal rha hai Humme dekhna he hoga Ruk ke. lol.
Greetings - kisi cafe mai gye. Counter par ladki: "hi, how are you guys?". We: "2 cappuccinos double double".
Usse pehle menu dekhna hai apun logo ko ekdam bich Mai khade hoke. Rasta block ho rha ho, koi baat nhi.
Loud burp (डकार लेना)- tum khana kha lo ya beer pi lo. डकार to ese Lena hai jese bc dushman desh ka tank udana ho. Restaurant ho, train mai, plane mai ya kahi open area. Kya kare Maza nhi ata bina liye. 2-3 funny stores bhi hai burp ki mere pas bta Dena if interested Mai share kr duga
Fukare/bloddy show off - Rear windshield par for some reason 'haryana' ya 'punjab' likha hoga. I'm sure local must assume ye car owner ka Naam hoga. And Custom number plates Apne surname ya cast ki (concept mast lagta hai mereko)
Rules - vo kya hai ji. Road wale ya pedestrian wale. Road wale I can't explain to Brampton driving subreddit dekh Lena. Pedestrian wale simple hai, J walk krna. Sidewalk pr bhi yaha signal hota hai ki kab kare road cross. And people follow. Road chahe Khali bhi kyu na hu. Par you know sab log signal ka wait nhi krte.
Phele aap - 500m counter ke piche khade ho jao ya building ka darwaja open krna ho. Yaha log chup krke door pakad lege apke liye. Counter se dur khade ho ese he, par vo tumare piche khade ho jayege and sayad he ye puche ki "are you guys in line?"
We so emotional - this is something that make us special I guess. Recent Ek incident share krta hu.. city cruise par gaya tha parents k sath. Waha bar counter par Indian ladka tha. Naam se notice kra parents ne. To baate krne Lage. Maine bhi bhai Ko hello kra. 1 hr baad jab exit k time usko parents ne bye bola and usne mere parents k feet touch kre. Then I thought humare sanskar har jagah sath rehte hai.
Homeless people - Humare wale Gareeb hath jodd k paise ya khane k mangte hai. Yaha walo Ko to govt paise k sath fresh Syringes bhi deti hai. Lol.
Neverending Thank you and sorry - Har ek chej par tumko thank you bolege and sorry bolne ka to Act bhi nikal Dia hai. 'The Apology Act' in Canada.
So that's it. Sayad kuch cheje apko pta bhi na pata ho ki aap unintentionally kr dete hai. Jese Mere liye Line toddna tha, lol.
Let me know if you have observed similar behaviour ya kuch aur chej jo mere se miss ho gyi ho.
Ek aur chej.. paise jodo aur ghumane jao. Duniya bhut badi hai. Bhut kuch Naza sekhne aur dekhne Ko milta hai :)

Life ki sach m lag chuki h 19 ki hu, 17 m 12th krliya tha aur abhi Tak college ka kuch pta nhi h 4 saal (11th-2nd drop) se neet ki tyari kri lekin iss bar bhi state quota se mil jayega college jiski fees 12lakh + h jo m afford ni kr skti.
Parents m bs maa h jo khud struggle kr rhi h aur depressed h. Recently ran away from house (with mom, my mom's family knew) kuki waha toh halat aur bhi kharab thi aur mmy zeher khane ja Rahi thi
Mujhe samjh ni ara meri galti kaha h , mujhe pta h life fair nahi hoti lekin iska mtlv ye thodi ki har jagah se m hi pilu , mene toh wo sab kuch Kiya Jo mujhe supposedly karna chahiye tha
1- sab classes m 94% + leke ayi
2- kabhi intentionally kuch galat ni kiya kisi k liye
3- hmesa chup rahi taki sar k upar chath ho
4- bewajah mar khayi , gaaliya suni , wo sab kuch suna or dekha Jo ek bache ko sunne or dekhne se pehle mar jana chahiye
5- anxiety attacks ate the toh khud toh wrap krke Beth jati thi
6- dosto ne apni aukat dikhai
7- family toh chalo family kehlane layak thi hi nhi
8- jab mmy ki Jaan m baat aai toh himmat dikhai or unko leke aai us nark se bahar
9- hmesa sbko hosla dete gyi ki sab thik honaega, krlenge hum kuch
10- jab mmy ko sath leke ayi toh mmy ne kuch kam pakda kharche k liye toh padai k sath Ghar sambhala
Na jane kya kiya kya nahi Lekin kuch bhi thik nahi ho rha
Maa kehti h tu pad m apni jewellery bech dungi lekin uske alawa toh hmare pass kuch h bhi nahi toh agar jarurat pad gyi toh kya krenge
Bhai bhi wahi bnta ja rha h jisse dur bhagi thi itni himmat krke.
Mmy kehti h tu koi choti moti job krne ki mat soch , apne career m focus kr m tujhe achi jagah dekhna chahti hu . Unko prove Krna h sabko ki wo galat the aur mujhme potential h lekin mujhse ab nhi hota.
M thak chuki hu , M THAK CHUKI HU

I am from India and have been listening to Anjum from his Mein mixtape days. What got me hooked to him was his unrelenting spirit to strive for greatness and his God consciousness which reflected in his lyrics. He is influenced by Allama Iqbal so that explains a lot. But as time has passed and the duo has seen unprecedented success, I feel like his lyrics(relating to God and faith) have gone towards veiled defenses of his being a good man regardless of his indulging in things that religiously are evil. I'll give some examples from before and after fame: Before fame: - "Mujhay aik buzurg ne kaha tha chotay aise zindagi guzaar le ke tujhse maut daray Maula madad, tera he tou aasra hai Mera kisi se bhi kya muwaazna hai?" - "Ab mujh jaisa mehez aik insaan bhalla Kya bolay ga khuda ke kaam mein" - "Everytime I write songs umeed jaati toot Ke bas ye aakhri, ke bas ab aur nai Ke mere mein ab dunya se larnay ka zor nai Par Maula Madad keh ke, hum agay barhtay rehtay" - "Tu bada tu haathi hum fly hum sath aaye jaise ababeel You know how it goes brother" - "Apni bebasi ka khud zimmedar mai Heavy kisam ki khud parasti ka shikaar mai But I’ve been looking for a reason to get over you Aks mayassar hai tera ek huu ba huu Something tells me tu khush hai jo duur hai Khuda ki koi behtari is me zarur hai Mai kabhi samjha nai mili hui rehmaton ko Maa kehti thi Raheem Woh Ghafoor hai" - The entire verse from Fikar e Aakhirat
Just the fact that the tone of talking about self is equal times calling himself bad and at fault and also self boasting(flex rap)
Now some lines after the success: - "Music haram woh bolein, Phir mere upar kis Khuda ka saaya hai." - "Kaza meri namazein sab kabar azaab hi Par dil mera saaf, kia uska kio hisaab bhi?"
The tone has shifted from self criticism to defense of self in terms of faith. The only redeeming song I can think of lately is Day Dreamer. This is in no way a criticism of anything just an observation and an opinion of mine. You're free to have your own. But the constant ladkiyan, sharab, nashe, taur flex has really reduced the grandeur of Talha Anjum in my eyes since he always has said he despises these things in general in music. Although nashe and sharab has always been there for the sake of "being real". But when your audience is impressionable teens, you can't just shy away from the responsibility of not influencing them in a bad way. And I do understand that this is probably irrelevant to many but the purity and innocence in his lyrics and how he talked about faith were major factors for me liking him(being a stan even). That innocence and purity is now not present in his art for me. The only rappers I can think of who still have that are probably Jani and a little bit of JJ47

I'm no writer and English is my third language. Please don't trash me or my punctuation.
Firstly, mallikajan becoming suddenly patriotic is absurd. It was almost like she had nothing in her hands and she's trying to fill the void of the fall of heeramandi. Like see, it has to be gradual atleast.
My alternate version
MALLIKAJAAN
In the scene where bibbojaan sneaks in the freedom fighters(yes, they very much were) mallikajan stares at her stoic before walking away. We find them in the next scene spoken to by phatto - satto all the things Mallika had originally said. One of the fighters embrace the other remembering the demise of the shaheed when a potli falls open from his pocket. We see jhumke and some rings which Mallika recognises and calls him out saying they are of waheeda almost accusing them of theft. Bibbo responds rather angrily " Ammi!!!" When waheeda interrupts and says she had given them the jewellery . Waheeda goes "takreeban 20 saalon me Pehli dafa jisam par se kuch utaarne par Mera rooh aitiraz nahi kiya." A little taken aback, Mallika walks away saying "Noor Haveli k chaar tijori aapke aur aapke biwi bacchon k liye khule hi."
I feel like it would still preserve her character a little and from here she could have been shown to have gone soft ( you know, with her requesting nawab's wife to talk to other nawab's for her). I know it was not pretence, but her being patriotic was a little off.
When mallikarjaan hears that bibbojaan is getting executed, she breaks down crying. Next scene is her in her room all cried out. Looks at bibbojaan's picture and mutters "meri beti...meri beti bibbo... bibbojaan.... Bibbojaan azaad." We see satto fatto and all the members gathered crying over the news mallikajaan enters , commands them not to cry as bibbo would be the first tawaif to sacrifice her life for her mother( India).
TAJDER
Tajder comes home injured and Alam questions him and he had to reveal that he was manhandled by the British while they were protesting ( he wore black muffler and wasn't recognised though). Alamzeb asks "Aap ye mulk se beintehaa mohabbat karte ho na?" And tajder chuckles and says " jaise aap apne shayari se" and alamzeb goes "shayari ko ham hamara fitoor maante hi par aap mitti ko apna farz. As she wipes his injuries she asks in a soft tone " nibhate hue kese lagta hi?". " Filhaal..... Jaise ek zakhmi maa ko unka beta marham na de paraha" says tajder teary eyed. So maybe here a montage of atrocities of British he has witnessed could be shown as he explains alamzeb why he he'd become anti British. By this the freedom factor is a little more emphasized rather than it being abrupt , also, it invokes patriotism in alamzeb.
ALAMZEB
Alamzeb literally gave it away saying that sher infront of general Cartwright, he very much speaks hindi 🤦‍♀️.
In the alternative version alam while being taken into the jail screams "inqilab zindabad" and tajder is shown to be secretly Proud. Tajder looks at her fondly while she shouts naare and her parwana sher gets played simultaneously.
And in another scene a little after Alam's realise mallikajaan says to alam: "Heeramandi ki shehzadi ho tum. Yaha ki mehek sirf eethar ki hi, na sihayi ki na hi lahoon ki ."
Alamzeb says to herself, "Hamara pyaar(tajder) ka manchaaha eethar tho ghili mitti hi ammi. Is zaameen ki mehek mehfooz rakhenge, apni lahoo se mitti nam karke hi sahi."
(Tajder says he loves ghili mitti just before it rains in the mango farm.)
FAREEDAN
Fareedan's change was rather abrupt. It's just not too convincing.
ALTERNATE VERSION

 Cartwright tells fareedan how mallikjaan had her stoop so low infront of everyone in the police station. Fareedan laughs hard and asks him what has he done. Cartwright explains what happened and when he turns around fareedan looks rather quiet unable to figure out how to feel about it. When Cartwright asks her what happened she says the dialogue she originally does. Cartwright asks her to be happy for him and his boys as they wouldn't get an opportunity like this in England cause a true lady would never sleep with five me. He proceeds to say this only happened because she's an Indian wh*re. This strucks her, she quietly leaves his house placing his gift, that gown on the table. At night during the fountain scene fareedan overhears everything from her window and sheds a tear. Fareedan witnesses Cartwright killing tajder deliberately. She runs and tells that to alam who is still in shock and is repeatedly saying she needs to see dadi. Fareedan takes her to dadi and while is upstairs Cartwright visits Tajder's father who is confronting him. Fareedan walking down the staircase says how she witnessed his death and it was Cartwright who killed his son. Cartwright says that he doesn't know her and if at all she had ever been in a police station it would be because of crimes she committed and he names few off her records intimating that he knows about her past. Fareedan feeling deceived and disrespected she is not afraid of what is going to happen to her and that Tajder's father deserves to know the truth. She tells him how she witnessed him killing his son. Cartwright interrupts and says she is afterall a tawaif and he shouldn't listen to her words. Fareedan says that she's tawaif indeed but she had a mother who take care of her all night when she was sick. She can only imagine what Tajder's father is going through and that he deserves to know the truth. She says he isn't her father or a relative but you don't need a blood relation in this mulk. She calls him khalujaan and asks him to believe her. Tajder's father walks away from her and asks Cartwright to try finding out who the attackers were and walks away indicating that he believes Cartwright and not her. Cartwright mockingly says to her that true Indians only believe the ones who are working for their welfare, the british. Fardeen walks out hurt and disappointed. 

These two incidents can makes fareedan's change more gradual.
CARTWRIGHT
I don't understand why Cartwright would want to sleep with Alam when his sister literally murdered his higher authority and is about to get killed by them. Moreover, he killed Alam's fiance. He has grave threat from Alam.
Alternate version:-

 CARTWRIGHT visits heeramandi's silent corridors and mocks mallikajaan. 

He proceeds to say had she been on his side it would have saved her from many troubles. Alam interrupts and says that she's the next huzoor of heeramandi, the next tawaif. She'd do her first dance, her first nath uthrai for him in return of him not causing the members of heeramandi any further troubles. Cartwright interrupts her and says he wants her nath uthrai not in their fort but in his bedroom. Mallika interrupts reminding how the ritual goes. Alam stares at Cartwright before agreeing. In the later scene she performs infront of him and in the end gets on the top of him stabs him to death in sync with the beat of the music and leaves his house.
THE CLIMAX

 Mallikajaan marches towards the police station with everyone to support bibbojaan. Iqbal riding cart nexts to her stops her suddenly with a talvar reluctantly and says she doesn't deserve a last time with her daughter like he was never given one with saima. Satto fatto shocked asks what he's doing. He cries and wipes his tears and backs away. Mallikajaan looks at fareedan who looks concerned for her. She walks right into the talvar to everyone's horror. Satto fatto and everyone tries to come near her but she asks them to go. Fareedan asks Mallika to come with them and says that bibbojaan will need her mother, she needs to treat herself and that ammi ki zarurat hothi hi. Mallika says her daughter will live kuch pal too without her like she( fareedan) did all these years. She insists on them leaving and being there for bibbojaan. They all March towards the execution place. Bibbojaan is given a last chance to reveal the other members of her group. She is hit with whiplash when she starts singing with all the women from heeramandi behind the walls chorusing with her. Simultaneously mallikajaan is shown dancing while bleeding in a silent , windy and deserted street singing to herself. She pats her feet covered in mud on the ground like she's dancing in her fort, does gajgamini walk manically laughing. Bibbojaan doesn't reveal the names so the officer intimates to kill her. On the other hand mallikajaan is dancing while bleeding with dirt and blood on her face. Tired She falls on her knees. She hears footsteps approaching her running. She sees zoravar (her son) with his hand streched out running towards her calling her ammi. Bullets are shot at bibbojaan simultaneously. Mallikajaan picks up the sword next to her and tears open her blouse from the back and falls on the ground. Zorawar stops and turns away his head. Mallika is seen smiling slowly closing her eyes (preserving her nature of vengeance). Bibbojaan is shown to lay on ground slowly finishing the last word of the song. Her eyes wide open, she loses her life. The narration says bibbojaan has inspired all the beti's of heeramandi to take part in freeing their country. They March and roit religiously from then on to get freedom to this country as no one understands the value of freedom better than the ones who's soul is not even theirs. 

bhai dekho ill try to be as nice and to the point to be possible
when i came to this subreddit for the time it was the first time me using reddit coz a friend of mine used to share posts of this subreddit and i genuinely enjoyed scrolling jeeneetards but bhai abhi itni negative vibe hogyi h iss sub ki har koi bas dukh ki baate karta h lets come to the first point cheating bhai kitna roge bhai ? cheating karli wow karliya bash usko dedi gaali beetgaya ek hafta ab aage bado na ? kitna rona dhona karoge about ruining jee han i understand jee kharab hojaata h har jagah mehnat kaam nahi karti bhagwan kismat ek chees hoti h i understand but bhai hafto hafto tak bas rote rhoge ki nta esa h wesa h ? kuch kar skte ho to karo nahi to chup betho lekin tmuhe post karna h padayi k ilava dusre exams ki tayyari ko chordkar reddit scroll karna aur post karna h aur jo log khete h saare exams gande gaye bhai tum chutiya ho jo saare exams gande kardiye jee 1st gaya 2nd gaya advanced maanlo cuet gaya vitee bhi gaya? bitsat bhi gaya ? be mtlab rr karna hota h genuine posts karliya karo bhai kabhi to rr k ilava jitna scroll karo all you do IS CRY i guess our youth has to come up with a strong mental state and thoda positive mindset ham bhot jyada hi rr karte hai aur bhot jyada hi negativity se surrounded hote h hobbies ko side rkh dete ho jocheeso ko enjoy karte ho side rkh dete ho bhai maa chudaye jee 2 ghante to kuch esa karo jisme sukoon milta ho maja aata ho thike bhai nahi jayenge iit nahi jaayenge nit make it clear to parents
JEE IS ONLY TO GIVE A BOOST TO YOUR CAREER INSTEAD OF A 6LPA ull get 10-14LPA thats fucking it THHE END FULL STOP thats the only thing of jee to meet good people and give a boost to your career yall have made it your entire fucking life han maine bhi holi chordkar jee ki padayi kari diwali side rkhke padayi kari COZ I LVOED TO STUDY I KNEW MAI ABHI CHOTI UMARMAI MEHNAT KARUNGA TO AAGE JAKAR UTNA PEACEFUL LIFE HOGA i study coz i want to study and i like studying i like solving questions the sense of achivement i get after solving a uqestion aur mock mai 25 mai se 20 sawal ya maths ka tough question hona tests mai questions hona i get the sense of achivement isliye padta hu kisike pressure mai nahi padta hu kisi KE LIYE NAHI PADTAH U APNE LIYE PADTA HU
reservation ke liye bhi rote h ye bache are jee ki padayi karte wakt nahi pata tha kya ki kitne percentile laani h ? tab nahi rona aya ki obc sc st le jaata h seat tumhari ?
are le jaata h to le jaata constitution badlega ? dusre exam ki tayyari karle lagrta h 99% nahi aayegi to loan leke padliyo bitsat clear karle just stop with rr thing
bhot time se mann tha ye vent out karne ka kyuki ccuties se ghirkar tang aagya hu
anyways keep studying work hard bhagwan ki pooja karo mann ko shaant rakho upar wala jo akrega acha karega have a good day

Hello guys, M25 here. Ami ekhane kichu share korte esechi. Ami amar maa er sathe thaki. Just the two of us. Father passed away when I was a kid. Financially we are doing well and good. Du jon e financially independent. Ebar boli, my mother started behaving weird, jokhn e raat hoy kichu din dhore she is behaving crazy. i run two coaching centres, sekhan theke bari firte late hole e she is shouting, even abusing me. Okothhyo bhasay kotha bolche, nije e kadche. Neighbours are giving me the side eyes, and one even asked me maa k kno kadai. Sobai amake khub kharap bhabche but ami maa k kichu boli ni, ami shob ta kori barir jonno, maa er jonno. Maa k khub bhalobasi, kintu maa erom korche, kichu bujhte parchi na kno erom korche. Aager bochor ae somoy exactly erom korchilo, but tar por nije e thik hoye gechilo, abar erom korche. I really don't know what to do. Feel free to ask me anything. Please jodi keu help korte paro, amake bolo. I am not willing to give up my maa.

Attention: A big rant coming your way so dekh lena padhne hain ki nhi
Hah toh background about me I am class 12 student with commerce and maths student IDK it is the best place to talk about things like mental breakdown all. So let's start mere 11th ke exams 14th of March se khatam huye and uske agle din se maine coaching join kar li with all the peak levels of motivations that I could gain from earlier bahut maja ata tha 1-2 classes hoti thee accounts ki ata tha practice karta tha eak alag hi maja aa rha tha april start hote hi maths and eco ki class shuru ho gyi and even school bhi shuru ho gaye. Thoda sa pressure hua but somehow main kafi ressilient rha roj ache se padhta backlog nhi hone deta lekin fir aya mera official breakdoen ka point accounts me test hua lekin number bilkul chude hue aye jisme main padh kar bhi gya frustration hua but koi nhi lekin sir ko dekh ke aisa laga ki yar BC is admi ne toh mere kuch expectation rakhi thee woh bhi nhi puri kar pya coaching me main starting woh overexcited bacha tha joh sabse pehle answer nikalne ki koshish karta doubts puchta and eak alag sa CHIGMA male attitude aa gya tha shayd thodi ego bhi coaching ki ladkiyon se bhi bat hone woh momint hi alag tha jab unhone pucha Ansh itna kaise padh lete ho tum? main toh eak bar hi pigal gya lekin woh hi chutiya reply maine bhi diya arey kha lekin MKC test me gande numbers ane se pura self-respect ki amma behn eak ho gyi and main eak alag hi rha me nikal gya pichle eak mahine se mere me woh Richyard Fenyman wali vibe ane lagi joh koi bhi physics ka numerical aur ghand phad questions bar me jake lap dance lete hu karta tha yah BJ. Lekin BC woh kismat humari kha meyesain muthi baji ki rha me kuch jyada hi age nikal gya rat ko 12 baje muthi marta tha suabh 5 baje uth ke school jata lekin yar woh post nut clarity wala kuch scene hi nhi hua dimag maa ki eyes chal hi nhi rha ladkiyon ke bat karne me eak jijhak. Hah pta hain ki ap koi ayega niche loduuuuuu hilaya mat kar leikin BC 1 week hote hi tharak roof top phad dete hain hormones peak par aa jate hain. Us time pe mera dimag aise trick karta hain ki lodu sun dekh abhi badhiya lag rha hain hain top of the world coaching me ijjat bani hui hain muth mar aur stress bhula de afsos main apne is dimag ke sharyantra me aa hi jta hua (bhayankar rone wala emoji) . Lekin tum soch rhe hoge ki nhi yar isme toh sab kuch theek hain main bat yeh hain ki maine IPMAT ki class bhi join kar rakhi hain toh time ka pta hi nhi chalta aur coaching me downfall hi chal rha hain whi school me comeback lekin wah ka kya hain andhe ghante exam se cum karne se bhi cumbak ho jta hain don't ask me why. Lekin main problem hain coaching eak toh BC joh maine yeh nyi coaching join kari hain sare hi kuch jyada hi ammeri ke ghode lagete hain. BSDK maths ki class me 150 rupee ki coffee lake questions solve karte hain bolte hain "Bruh you know what coffee is the best invention of this humankind I can't fucking imagine a day without it" tab toh indeed bol deta hun lekin man me main bhi bolta hun in bhak bsdk ke. Main toh galti se eak vada pav hi kha ke aja toh mami ko pura explanation dena padhta hain hain ki kyon main is dhuvidha me fassa and ghar ake kyon nhi kha lekin fir woh hi mummiyon ke dialogue paise kya ped pe ugte hain toh jah mere liye bori bhar kar la kaun samajye. Age badhte hain I wish thoda sa mera balance bane and eak kafi possitivity aye academic comebak hoye and female interactions aur badhe. (Kash woh sote huye yeh sochti ho ki yar main kabhi zinadagi me Ansh ke sath betray nhi karungi eak bar uski bandi ban jau toh and Ansh kitna shi banda hain padhta bhi hain topper bhi hain and nerd bhi nhi aur top notch meme language me bat karta hain) Chalo fir bhai ke prathana karne DM karna ho toh thodi der backchodi karte hain stress relief ke liye

It's 13 may my result was announced at 11.50 am .. i was little nurvous bcause i thought i might have passed anyway.. I have seen many people passed exams who don't know anything.
First let me start my story since childhood
Mai bachpan se thoda sa padhayi mai nalayak tha school skip krne ke bahane bnata tha ()... Dheeere dheeere . 8th class tak avg student se achha ho gya tha padhne me aacha score kia 9th k kuchh mahino baad COVID aagya tha 9th v online exam deke nikal gyii..kuchh nhi padha saal bhar bass kuchh games khelta tha youtube chalata .. uss time thoda sa ethical hacking me thoda sa pair rakh dia... class 10th me April me mere dad ko COVID hua ..and he passed away (2021) it was the most painful moment but mai itna dumb/ch##ya tha, tab kya sahi h kya galat iska koi smz nhi tha , Papa k gurajrne ke 3 din baad hi mai gaming mai guss gya ye soch k ki youtube krunga aur paise se ghar sambhal pauga(first & worst decision of my life) .. uss time pubg m tha , papa k guzarne ke un 13 dino v mai 9 10 ghante game khelta tha rec krta achha video nhi nikalta delete kr deta tha...(Device 3gb + screen cracked) Itna time waste hua 59% score kia thodi bahut padke kyuki exam time me game khelta tha.. bolta tha sabko mai v scout ki trh lakho kamauga ..... 10th barbaad Hui 59%. Score kia ghar pariwar me case wase ka chakkar (family issue) toh ham 3no (mai , Meri bhen, mummy) ne hometown chhor dia 100 km door rhne lage fir meri... Kuchh din baad meri ek sabse badi bhn(didn't mention above) , unhone suicide kr lia zeher kha k (kisi ladke se pyar th) (June 2022) kuchh mahino baad meri 11th class start Hui aur mai nalayak tha kuchh aata tha nhi , aur sab teachers se argue krta tha .... Ki mujhe chemistry smz nhi aati , (ofc base clear nhi tha toh)... Unse yahi bolta rha mai apna dekh lunga aap musse mat kaho , aur sake samne bezzti marte the sir log , 11th me 25% attendance gyi jata hi nhi tha mummy ko mna kr deta tha Ghar baithke game khelta sabke taane sunta... Kuchh videos upload Kiye fir chhor dia upload karna( kuchh nhi hoga sochke). 11th me compartment (physics) . inn dinoo andrew tate , iman gadzi , kuchh podcast sunn leta tha... Ghar pe mummy ne support Kia kisi ko na bata k .. same 12th gyi Kam attendence , padhayi v nhi kia .. last month mai Thora bahut padhh let tha .... Exam time me 'pass ho hi jaunga' soch k Thora bahut game khel leta tha.....
Recently mai local mai digital marketing ka job krne lga tha Aaj 3rd day tha 10k/m pe AAJJ JAB RESULT AAYA toh dekha ki ESSENTIAL REPEAT (failed) abb kya kruu bahut ghabrahat ho rhi h ...
Private addmission ka process kya h bta dena , mai toh ek rassi(rope) khareedne jara 🥺

This would have happened at the end of the season party.
Harsh - Show koi bhi jeeta but Rushali and I were the lion and lioness of the villa 😎🦁🦁
Arbaz - Bhai tumne to King Kaween bola tha. Sher Sherni to hum they 🤔😎
Harsh - Mai to bas romance karne Gaya tha Splitsvilla. Mujhse panga liya to dikha dunga fir 😡
Rushali - Bhai bas karde overacting. Splitsvilla over ho gaya. Waise bhi maine sabko bata diya hai that we are just friends and bahar se setting karke aaye they 😏
Raja - Harsh bhai ye thoda jyada ho raha hai. Ladki ne dil tod diya tera. Iska Phone utha ke fek 😶
Nayera - Please guys ye se sab faltu ki baate karke party ki vibe ki maa behen mat karo 😑
Siwet - Maa ke bare me bola ? tu ladka hoti to mu tod deta tera 😡
Anicka - Siwet wtf is wrong with you. Mu se hagna band karde. I'm fucking traumatized because of you. 🥲🥲🥲 Poore season ek task dhang se nahi hua tere se
Aniket - Dikki dekh tere wajeh se ye ladai ho gai 🙄
Deekila - Ayyyyyeeee maire ko dhokhaa diya saaaale neee !!! 😡😢😡😢
Aniket - sorry sorry... I wanna get married to you............some day........... eventually.................when I'm ready to settle down. Please calm down 🙏
Unnati - Ye marrige se yaad aaya, Arbaaz bhai bhabhi kaisi hai ? 🤣
Digvijay - Haan aur Tera bf kaisa hai ye bhi bata de sath me ? 😂
Ishita - See I told you I'm better for you than her 🙄
Kashish and Addy see that no one is noticing them and they start making out in front of everyone 😘
Adit/ Khanak - Guys we know you are doing this for attention but there are no cameras here. Please stop this falcon shit in public 🤮
Akriti - Hein. No cameras. To mai yaha kya kar rahi hu 🤔
Akriti - Guys tum sabne bohat pee rakhi hai. To tum sab ek kaam karo. Sab apne wallets and belongings mere is bag me daal do nahi to gum ho jayega. 🤑🤑🤑
Jash - Guys tum sabne bohat pee rakhi hai. To tum sab ek kaam karo. Sab apne wallets and belongings Akriti ke bag me daal do nahi to gum ho jayega. 🤪
Sachin - Akriti ye sab mat kar yaar. I know tera kya plan hai 🤦‍♂️
Akriti - Chotu jyada faltu ki bakwaas mat karna mujhse samjhe. Poore season tumko itne favors kiye hain. Meri wajeh se tum aaj yaha khade ho. Chalo ab favor return karo and niklo yaha se 😏
Akriti - Ayushman tum bade chup khade ho aaj. Kuch bol kuy nahi rahe ?
Ayushman - Bola bhi to editors ne kaat hi dena hai sab and tujhe hi dikhana hai. Kuy karu fir bekaar me mehnat 😐
And that was the last time they saw Akriti and their belongings 💀

Bhailogon... mai pehli bar akele bahar shopping karne ja rha hu ... isse phle aas pas se saman le liya krta tha ya mostly online hi leleta tha jo bhi lena ho BUT abhi kuchh special case hai...
IMPORTANT:- SASTA ME BADHIYA SAMAN CHAHIYE...sasta bole to dirt cheap bilkul agar possible ho to ...nhi range k sath suggestions de dena please
I will tell you my conditions now... What I need :- •1pair shoes regular use k liye (workout, sports etc) ... •1-2 Lowepajama for daily wear purpose... •1-2 shorts regular use k liye (daily wear aur outdoor activities k liye bhi) •1 deo/perfume (Men's only) • Formal Shirt aur trouser
Ye sab aaj shaam me lene jana hai ....mai soch rha tha sarojini se le aau ... lekin vaha kabhi gya nhi aur kaha se lena chahiye exactly vo bhi nhi pta aur bargaining kaise krni h ya koi tips ho to please batao urgently. Dhanyawad

Bhai pata nai kyu Diploma valo ko sab tuchh aur nichi prajati k prani k tarah treat karte he sab log, ya to ham sab k liye exist hi nai karte ya phir Diploma k baad hamari Degree sabko JEE valo ki comparison me low level lagti he, aesa nai he bhai ham log bi tum logo k sath hi padh rhe hote he(han par mene diploma Kiya tab mujhe pata nai tha k sab colleges me D2D k quota nai hote to ham sab college me admission nai le sakte), Bhai ham logo ko diploma me last 2 sem me 10 cgpa sivay CS/IT me tier 1-2 STATE government colleges me bi admission nai milta, mere 9 cgpa the phir bi muje tier 4 city k shitty Government College Jana pada(mene diploma IT me Kiya tha isliye degree bi IT me hi karna tha isliye kash ECE le leta tier 1 State government college me🥲)
ham logo ka biggest concern for seats SC/ST nai he plastic aur Environmental engineering branch vale he vo sale diploma aesi koi bi branch me kar lete he phir BTech me branch change karke CS/IT le lete he, aese imbalance k vajah se hi aab DDCET(like JEE but for diploma students) aa gya just this year..
Kher aap apni rai to batao yha bi sab aesa hi sochte he? ya phir kuch aur?

mah man Moji... hanxu तोप hunxu hola rogi... kaslai k tha k xa bholi.... herxu saap ko para,..... sabai papi yogi ,.... cuhaudai ryaal , kitdai dara..... ,kasari bolam satye boli.... aba suun yo kura..... bhanxu maan lai kholi.... stye ko koji.... vetinxa bhanne ash yoo..... Saap afnai ichhya ko daas ho.....
bado xa veed.... tei ni kina yeti sunyeta..... Saap afnai soch ma bhulne yaa..... k vaisakyo duniya.... Sabbai lai xa kaam kai besta yaa.... Malai k k tha... kasko kasto xa yaa awsta..... saap ko akha Mobile maa..... tesaile mero sathi ya..... dada pakha adhi xa.... duka pani कमी pani..... jindagi ma xani .... jaba parxa raat ..... ani tah din xa rangi-na.....
tara,hindai xu ma akha rato.... पारा zig _zag dekhdai xu lutpaat mar kat ..... Yaad rakh tero mero.... gantabye xa ghat ..... madye-raat maa xa sath.... matra khat .... bhujdai xa chitta.... gari afai sanga baat..... hasdai xu ni dukha mani .... koi xaina afno thani..... sabyeta ko nam maa..... dekhdai xu man mani.... soja chai pagal ani randi rani.... tesile garxu sangat xani.... jo sanga milxa kura kani .... man sun ko khani .... tara.... kharb xani mero bani.... baddo xa kharcha sunye amdami.... sano khusi lambaudai tani.... dukha mani xu mah danga ..... haat jodxu ishowr sanga .....
tada xa maya.... man parxa ghaam ... tara daar lagda dekhda afnai xaya..... kura xa ya yetti ki.... darlagdo hunxa bekti ..... jo xa afai sanga harya..... bivinna lat sanga juddai ..... sudrina kojda ni dekhdai xu..... jiban afno haat bata xutdai .... kati hinnu lukdai afai sanga .... nata xa tutdai .... thaki saki.... boliranxa dimag ..... mah paki saki..... maan vanxu .... kasari manum har .... ajja jiban baki xa ni ..... samaye lai jimma..... mritu nai taki rani....

I'm 24F and my parents never really tied me up to the house. I never have to ASk them..I just inform them out of respect. They never call me when I'm out, they call me only once the clock strikes 6pm cause it's dark then. Whereas my bf, he has to ask him mom "maa mai Jaa sakta hu?!" Why? He earns his own money, he's the only male figure in the house. Why can't he just inform her? He's freaking 28 and has a well paying govt job! When we're out his mom and sister calls him constantly, kaha ho kab a rhe ho..kyu itna late, and it'll just be 5pm. He rushes me everytime we're out ki jldi kro jldi kro ghar time me pohochna hai😢 there are days when we don't ever eat because his mom is calling and she'll be angry. And after he reaches home after meeting me, he spends the exact amount of time that he spent with me during the day, with his mom. So you know? He's compensating for the time he spent with me. He says "baby pura din tumhare sath tha na..ab maa ko Dena hai" whyyy????!! Am I over reacting. He says to me that he can't come meet me every week because his mom will be angry! I find it so frustrating. He says that I force him to meet me and he never really wants to meet on his own, each time we've met it's because I force him out of the house. He can go months without meeting me in the same damn city. Each time he comes to meet me for short duration he always had some excuse to his mom "tailor k paas ja rha hu".."bike bana raha hu"..why?and then he meets me for shorter time and goes to do what he has originally told his mom he'll be doing, so she's convinced. I've never seen guys do this? Ok he can't directly say he's coming to meet his girlfriend but why can't he just say "thode der me ata hu ma"?! I get it that I may be over reacting and it's not my headache but still..do other guys to this? What worries me is, after we're married will we still have to ask permission to go out? And God forbid he's late(7pm)..muh Fula leti hai uski maa..she doesn't even speak to him till it's dinner time. I'm frustrated
I would really appreciate if guys commented on the psychological behind this. Why do you do this? if you do it .
EDIT: I forgot to mention, suppose he's asked permission for tomorrow, his mom with fucking make sure, he has some work to do before he comes to meet me. Like..didi ko yaha drop krdo, Bazaar se ye samaan leke ao, and sometimes MAKE LUNCH before you leave.😢😢😢

Due to the heat wave, the past 2 days se tabiyat bhi kharab chal rhi hai, vomiting headache etc. That's why mene apne last 2 days bekar kr diye, even mene gst ka ek marathon 8hrs ka complete dekha aur ek decent amount m DT bhi aata hai like all five head except capital gain m sec 50 series k alawa. DT m self Assessment or return filing mene pdha hai but kuch recall nhi kr paa raha hu. Idt m 50 to 70 % syllabus complete kr lunga 12 baje tak then samjh nhi aa rha ky kru. May 24 se related amendment bhi nhi pta hai upper se body sath nhi de rhi hai. :( Soch raha tha paper skip kr dun, but mann nhi maan rha, atleast muje lagta hai 40 toh aaram se le aaunga, by god paper thoda easy aa jaaye who knows paper skip karna it's not a right choice but during the paper vomiting aa gyi fir 😟

I'm 19M staying in Hostel far from my hometown because I got admission in tier 4 city gov college
So the thing is When I visited home, my father caught me watching porn at 3 a.m.( pure din me privacy nai milti and hostel me to pata hi hota h ak room me 3-4 bande vha bi privacy nai milti), video wasn't even started and they came and grabbed me by my neck from behind and literally slammed me down like those WWE fighters do, literally😭), then he grabbed my phone and went into his room and came again then muje bi pakad k le gye apne room me(literally jese koi police bande ko pakad k khich k leke jati h) and they started parents talk at 3 a.m. to 6 a.m. for straight 3 hours at night....
First my mom started shouting k mobile JAPT kar lo iska pele to(literally word that is used with criminal), koi jarurat nai h kal nikalne ki, ticket cancel kar do(me next day college k liye nikal rha tha hostel), then suddenly they both started crying like muje bas apna bachha sahi salamat chaiye aur kuch nai chaiye zindgi me, so I got shocked and asked what happened?
Then they started ranting about how my mama's life is now at worst condition( in short: 15 years ago a girl started talking to him on phone like this for months and months and proposed him just few months ago of his arrange marriage with conditions like me kisi ko nai manaugi, me bhag k shadi nai karungi, Jo karna h tuje karna h and all, so he broke up a marriage which family arranged but that girl back outs after he broke up marriage and then depression and toxicity at peak for 6 years and all shit happened then usk baad kahi aur bi shadi k liye koi ha nai bol rha tha to mama ne maximum kaleshi aurat se shadi kar li kyunki vo Sundar dikhti thi, in all this my nana suffered from all sides like samaj se, apne sasural se and mama bi bohot kalesh karte the har din and all, because of this much depression and stress for 15 years, he got brain tumor and died even without seeing his grandchild jise mami ne Milne hi nai diye akhri dino me),
now they misunderstood at first that I was talking to a girl at 3 a.m. and i do this everyday so mom started shouting mama ne aese hi zindgi kharab kar di mre parents ki, tuje bi yhi karna he kya? and all, so I argued how time is changed now and I know this stuff because aaj kal college me kese kese lafde hote h pata hi he and tried to convince them don't worry that much about me(vahi vale jo aap soch rhe h )...
Then mom said exactly, that's why I don't want you to go to out of town, pata hi tha bachhe hath se nikal jate h teri tarah, and argued we know why you had to go to that shitty tier 4 college and not got admission in top colleges in tier 2 city like us, pele hi larkiyo k chakkar me Top colleges to chali gai, aese hi hostel me rha to zindgiya barbad karega tu, hame apna beta ankho k samne hi chaiye and all...
(Since childhood, i had to listen to mom k tane k how my "bua's" got love married and samaj me nak kata Diya and log kesi kesi bate karte he since I was in primary, even in that put me in all boys school till 10th, so I didn't had any female interaction till 10th and was in deep fear to talk in tution also then I started junior college and I didn't hard worked that much since I was busy and stuck in figuring out what is a girl and how to talk to girls and tried to get into situationship and all shit as late teenager), so I argued you were the person who was treating me like criminal, really i was even scared to save her phone number and literally memorized those and was clearing history regularly like I was dealing dru*s and i was cleaning it's chat history and all since they check my phone in every couple of days even now when I go home(by shouting parents he tere aesa kya Ganda and ILLEGALLY Kam kar rha h tu k phone Dene se Darna pade han?)
So I finally replied you were the reason I stuck into larkibazi(unhe vahi word use Kara tha isliye exact word), since bachpan se hamesa Ghar me aesa mahol rakha tha k dar lage, isliye Mera time waste hua important, so they again started shouting we were the one who were asking you and teasing you many times like larkiyo k sath ghumne gya tha kya?(Pure 2 saal me sirf 1 baar bahar cafe/restaurant me larkiyo k sath Jane ki himmat Hui thi inke dar se),Ya Aaj kal bohot bahar ja rha h kisi k sath han? (This were the efforts in just last sem because baju vale liberal Sharma ji apne larke k sath bohot Frank the aur ham ma-bap-beta nahi the)...
So I finally tried to end the argument by saying please don't worry much about me, me kisi bi hisab se nahi bigda hu while I was crying (people still taunts me at college for being too much sida aadmi, aaj bi kabi normally 7 baje bad hostel k bahar per nai rakhta me), but they still taunted me like so jao bachha to hath se nikal gya lagta he while they were crying..
And again at next evening my mom started scolding and shouting at me like how it's too low level to watch porn and that's why they get boys married at 21 In mom's hometown ( my fathers side family is less conservative and chill but my mom's side families are too much conservative and toxic, specially in their hometown ), and final argument they done was agar hame laga k tu aese hi hath se nikal rha he aesi hi gandi aadate rhi to me Teri 2-3 saal me shadi Kara dungi
Later on father tried to console me and chill the things like don't worry that much i ain't gonna let her do that, and I will send you those links if you really want to watch(he was joking)...
But the problem is mummy don't listen to papa many times and sometimes too much possessive about me that it becomes painful, please help...
Tldr: zindgi k maze chhor k sabse sidha larka bana Raha to bi mar pad rhi h parents se tu bigad gya karke😭

I'm 19M staying in Hostel far from my hometown because I got admission in tier 4 city gov college
So the thing is When I visited home, my father caught me watching porn at 3 a.m.( pure din me privacy nai milti and hostel me to pata hi hota h ak room me 3-4 bande vha bi privacy nai milti), video wasn't even started and they came and grabbed me by my neck from behind and literally slammed me down like those WWE fighters do, literally😭), then he grabbed my phone and went into his room and came again then muje bi pakad k le gye apne room me(literally jese koi police bande ko pakad k khich k leke jati h) and they started parents talk at 3 a.m. to 6 a.m. for straight 3 hours at night....
First my mom started shouting k mobile JAPT kar lo iska pele to(literally word that is used with criminal), koi jarurat nai h kal nikalne ki, ticket cancel kar do(me next day college k liye nikal rha tha hostel), then suddenly they both started crying like muje bas apna bachha sahi salamat chaiye aur kuch nai chaiye zindgi me, so I got shocked and asked what happened?
Then they started ranting about how my mama's life is now at worst condition( in short: 15 years ago a girl started talking to him on phone like this for months and months and proposed him just few months ago of his arrange marriage with conditions like me kisi ko nai manaugi, me bhag k shadi nai karungi, Jo karna h tuje karna h and all, so he broke up a marriage which family arranged but that girl back outs after he broke up marriage and then depression and toxicity at peak for 6 years and all shit happened then usk baad kahi aur bi shadi k liye koi ha nai bol rha tha to mama ne maximum kaleshi aurat se shadi kar li kyunki vo Sundar dikhti thi, in all this my nana suffered from all sides like samaj se, apne sasural se and mama bi bohot kalesh karte the har din and all, because of this much depression and stress for 15 years, he got brain tumor and died even without seeing his grandchild jise mami ne Milne hi nai diye akhri dino me),
now they misunderstood at first that I was talking to a girl at 3 a.m. and i do this everyday so mom started shouting mama ne aese hi zindgi kharab kar di mre parents ki, tuje bi yhi karna he kya? and all, so I argued how time is changed now and I know this stuff because aaj kal college me kese kese lafde hote h pata hi he and tried to convince them don't worry that much about me(vahi vale jo aap soch rhe h )...
Then mom said exactly, that's why I don't want you to go to out of town, pata hi tha bachhe hath se nikal jate h teri tarah, and argued we know why you had to go to that shitty tier 4 college and not got admission in top colleges in tier 2 city like us, pele hi larkiyo k chakkar me Top colleges to chali gai, aese hi hostel me rha to zindgiya barbad karega tu, hame apna beta ankho k samne hi chaiye and all...
(Since childhood, i had to listen to mom k tane k how my "bua's" got love married and samaj me nak kata Diya and log kesi kesi bate karte he since I was in primary, even in that put me in all boys school till 10th, so I didn't had any female interaction till 10th and was in deep fear to talk in tution also then I started junior college and I didn't hard worked that much since I was busy and stuck in figuring out what is a girl and how to talk to girls and tried to get into situationship and all shit as late teenager), so I argued you were the person who was treating me like criminal, really i was even scared to save her phone number and literally memorized those and was clearing history regularly like I was dealing drugs and i was cleaning it's chat history and all since they check my phone in every couple of days even now when I go home(by shouting parents he tere aesa kya Ganda and ILLEGALLY Kam kar rha h tu k phone Dene se Darna pade han?)
So I finally replied you were the reason I stuck into larkibazi(unhe vahi word use Kara tha isliye exact word), since bachpan se hamesa Ghar me aesa mahol rakha tha k dar lage, isliye Mera time waste hua important, so they again started shouting we were the one who were asking you and teasing you many times like larkiyo k sath ghumne gya tha kya?(Pure 2 saal me sirf 1 baar bahar cafe/restaurant me larkiyo k sath Jane ki himmat Hui thi inke dar se),Ya Aaj kal bohot bahar ja rha h kisi k sath han? (This were the efforts in just last sem because baju vale liberal Sharma ji apne larke k sath bohot Frank the aur ham ma-bap-beta nahi the)...
So I finally tried to end the argument by saying please don't worry much about me, me kisi bi hisab se nahi bigda hu while I was crying (people still taunts me at college for being too much sida aadmi, aaj bi kabi normally 7 baje bad hostel k bahar per nai rakhta me), but they still taunted me like so jao bachha to hath se nikal gya lagta he while they were crying..
And again at next evening my mom started scolding and shouting at me like how it's CHHAPRI and Tapori to watch porn and that's why they get boys married at 21 In mom's hometown ( my fathers side family is less conservative and chill but my mom's side families are too much conservative and toxic, specially in their hometown ), and final argument they done was agar hame laga k tu aese hi hath se nikal rha he aesi hi gandi aadate rhi to me Teri 2-3 saal me shadi Kara dungi
Later on father tried to console me and chill the things like don't worry that much i ain't gonna let her do that, and I will send you those links if you really want to watch(he was joking)...
But the problem is mummy don't listen to papa many times and sometimes too much possessive about me that it becomes painful, please help...
Tldr: zindgi k maze chhor k sabse sidha larka bana Raha to bi mar pad rhi h parents se tu bigad gya karke😭

Meher ke sath bhedbhav maudaha mandli karti hai. Dki nahi. If you see maudaha shadi preparation vlogs of dki she fed meher biryani with her hands and then ate herself chahe dikhane ko hi kiya par kiya to
Aur dusri taraf uski ye so called 3,3 maa jo usko ghar ka member bhi nahi samajhti. Disposable mein use khana dete hai. Dki ke purane kapde use de dete hain. Jo dki inhe maid ya aur kisi needy ko dene kehti hai. Ab jab dki ne dekha meher ko apne naam ka night suit pehne jo bohot odd lag raha tha to use us ke naam ka night suit offer kiya uska hath pakad kar aur meher pe hasne wale piche jal rahe the mujhe ye dekh kar achcha laga. Aur uski so called behen uski life ko duniya me uchaal rahi hai. Dki mujhe bhi pasand nahi but i will appreciate if dki continues to do that. Riza ko bhi ye log nahi laye the maudaha se dki jab inki life me ayi wo layi thi aur riza bhi theek thi jab tak madam aur janab uske guardian the. Chalu ke hath lag ke riza bhi annoying ho gayi. I don't want this to happen to meher. Chalu ko kya kuch nahi sikha diya groom kiya use but chalu ko kadar nahi agar meher ko bhi dki aisa bana de groom kare uski life improve ho jayegi. Isme kya bura hai. Meher ko chalu ke hath use nahi ho bas ye important hai.