This may sound crazy but at the moment my village largely consists of my in laws and they have been wonderful, they came to visit first week baby was born and dropped off food, shoveled snow, gave us plenty of space in regards to nursing and sleep, MIL even cleaned the whole kitchen without asking and did the dishes multiple times while she was here. They have since been back to visit and we have been to their house 2.5 hours away. Each visit has left me feeling good, they've been overall respectful of our boundaries and time. It's also been fun to watch LO bond with them over time. MIL doesn't give any unsolicited advice and tells me how good we are doing frequently.
On the flip, we were living in my mom's house throughout my pregnancy. She winded up being awful to us, verbally and emotionally abusive but to this day denies any wrongdoing. I will say I was not always the nicest being hormonally pregnant, but anyway we ended up in a big fight/communication breakdown that led to us having to move when I was 37w pregnant because we couldn't take it anymore and I didn't want my daughter growing up in that kind of environment. So we ended up further away from my mom than I initially wanted at the beginning of my pregnancy and closer to my in laws.
Fast forward to last week my mom meets her granddaughter for the first time when LO is 3-4 months. She keeps lecturing me on how I have a huge responsibility now (no duh) telling LO how she wishes she was closer and could see her everyday (you had that chance but ruined it) and telling me she could clean the house but then not doing anything or worse, telling me how she could hold the baby while I cleaned the house. She kept insisting I was reading my own baby's cues wrong and was just overall so stressful be around.
Anyway, TLDR; Just wondering if anyone else has the experience of preferring to be around their in laws over their own family or if I'm an outlier here.

This is an extremely low stakes advice post bc I had a weird interaction the other day and I can't figure out if I handled it properly.
Driving down a relatively narrow country lane, the kind where there's two defined, opposing lanes but it's a lil tight, you know? Like you can totally get traffic flowing both ways but you'd be nervous if you saw an oncoming lorry.
I came up behind a group of 5 cyclists. Not sure if they were racing or marathoning or something, but they were clearly serious cyclists kitted out in matching, colourful gear.
I'm always on the country lanes and I'm comfortable passing bikes in a safe way. But these guys were all over the road. Cycling side by side, one dude just kept swerving out to the centre line, basically dominating the full width of the lane. I'd have had to pull completely into the opposing lane to pass safely. (I usually do that anyway but it was 100% necessary here). They were taking up about 3-4 car lengths, and the road was consistently curvy so I never saw far enough ahead to know I'd be safe in the opposing lane for long enough to pass them all.
I was a bit miffed but didn't really mind, it's a nice day on a pretty lane so I was happy to just follow. We were doing no more than 20mph (the road was national speed limit). I'd have passed if I could do it safely but I couldn't, so I didn't. I gave them a fair amount of space and happily trundled along behind them.
But I just seemed to... really piss them off. The one in the back kept glaring over his shoulder. Swervy guy kept looking in a little mirror he had and shaking his head. I eventually passed them when we got onto a more open main road and they heckled me, one flipped me the bird.
I can't figure out what I did wrong. I could not safely pass them. I didn't tailgate them. I didn't beep or rev or give them any kind of aggro. If they wanted me to pass they could have at the very least, gone single file on the outside for a minute then I could maybe have risked riding the line. But they didn't.
I even wondered if I'd made some massive blunder and used a road that was closed for a cycling event, so I checked. I work as a community healthcare assistant; my whole job is driving from house to house looking after the elderly and disabled, so I check for closures/events before every shift, and I was already certain that there wasn't one, but I rechecked after the encounter. Nada.
I'm like 99% sure I handled it properly and safely but am I missing something? Is there some group cyclist etiquette I don't know about? Did I deserve the bird?

Need help navigating how to best use status/match/ rewards in order to optimize the travel experience for me and 2 guests- LAX to LIR.
I have Elite on Alaska and Gold on American. I will be booking my reservation separately via corporate card since it will be a business expense.
I will be booking 2 guests (children) and linking the reservations together after booking.
I’m not sure where to start in order to take advantage of upgrade options for all (which I am willing to pay for). I do have premium seat rewards on the American account.
Here are my goals:

1. Reservations are linked
2. Premium seats at minimum
3. Good lounge access (may require booking a better seat type/ ticket type)
4. Take advantage of Gold benefits for best travel experience

Any guidance is greatly appreciated.
I assume I need to book through Alaska and mot American.
Do I need to convert any status/ match from American to Alaska?
Do I need to make sure my 4 recent Alaska trips are applied to my Advantage account before booking?
Should I use miles from either account?
As you can see, I’m in over my head here.

Lose*
I have struggled with this for a while now. I never truly got answers of my 1.5 year GF just dumping me out on the curb like a piece of trash. Of course, for the past a little over 4 months I've tried figuring out what was so wrong with me so bad that she left me and just gave up. This has destroyed my self confidence. I've lost 55lbs since the end of December and I am 20lbs away from my goal, but I still feel so empty inside, I feel ugly, I feel like I'm not worth it to anyone in the future.

Now I just need people to talk me into actually pulling the trigger. I’m 17 about to graduate and take a year to work and save before college and atm I can afford a basic monocular setup with some left over, so now I’m just at the point where I’m trying to justify the purchase and trick myself into thinking that 4 grand really isn’t that much. Please brainwash me into hating money enough to buy a setup

First timer here so I apologize for any terms that may not be used correctly.
My husband is here on H1B (university cap) and I’m on H4 on our first term. Our visa will be expired mid May (next week) and we are on the process of renewing our visa respectively. (Just got receipt notices from USCIS).
Timeline for EB2-NIW ROW Submitted everything at the same time through attorney : I140 / I765 / I131 / I485 + I639
10/26/2022: PD 12/9/2022: I140 - RFE - ETA Form 9089 12/28/2022: Fingerprints (postponed from 12/6/2022)
1/18/2023: I140 - approved 1/29/2023: I765 - approved (petitioner) 1/30/2023: I765 - approved (dependent)
3/16/2023: I131 - RFE: dependent left the country so it was requested for document
3/20/2023: I131 - approved (petitioner)
4/14/2023: I131 - acknowledgment of case withdrawn (dependent)
5/12/2023: I485 - both cases transferred to NBC
5/25/2023: I485 - pausing work on our cases
7/18/2023: RFE - I693 because first forms didn’t include Hepatitis B (both applicants)
8/16/2023: RRFE - I693 were received
January 2024: our case numbers were current
5/6/2024: I485 - new card being produced. (Petitioner)
So it took about one year to get I485 approved after case (petitioner’s) was transferred to NBC.
My I485 has not been approved (a dependent). Hope the timeline would be a positive sign to those who are on similar PDs.

Not all of it. (This isn’t a question or asking for help but a reminder that foreigners need to document everything when moving into new apartment. I think locals are are aware and too careful for these kinds of scams)
So I have been living in temporary furnished apartments since I moved to Germany which is almost 2 years(I was more comfortable for me not having to deal with the logistics of renting an apartment in a new country where I didn’t even understand the language). Which was pretty good for me. I have lived in three different apartments with varying quality and amenities. My previous two apartments were owned by companies and I had no problem at all when I moved out. I recently found a permanent apartment that I liked and moved out of the third temporary apartment.
This apartment was old and every appliance was either rust or or broken. The bed textile, pillows were practically unusable because of the dirt and I told her I have my own I didn’t want them. She said put in the storage compartment and I did when I moved in. Unfortunately, I didn’t take photos or had a protocol when I moved in as she assured me everything was documented. I didn’t think anything of it. After a couple of days, the lady reached out to me saying that I left the apartment wasn’t in a good condition and she needs to cut my deposit. I already pay 120€ cleaning fee for the apartment when I leave which we agreed would be deductible from the deposit. She said she will need two extra cleaning hour fees at 40€/hour rate. She wanted me to pay for a kettle because it looked rusted(I didn’t use it and it’s at least 10 years old from the model). She wanted me to pay for 4 pillows because they are dirty(didn’t use these either). She wanted me to pay for kitchen towels which I did use but threw away a couple. She wanted me pay for a bedsheet because it was torn, which i didn’t use either.
I told here this isn’t fair and that she knew about all the dirty textiles and old appliances and she said I have lived in there and they were dirty. In total she is charging me about 250€ plus the cleaning of 120€.
I have talked to the website on which I found the apartment and I don’t think I’ll get any help but I just wanted people to know about these things. I believe she does this to all tenants because she doesn’t change anything in the apartment when someone new moves in.

* Not on probation but saw a lot of posts in this sub with questions like this and looking to see other experiences*
I am not required to take a hair test for ETG & Kratom in any specific timeframe so this would not necessarily be something urgent, but I will have to do 3 of them (1st, 60-80 days later 2nd, and then 60-80 days later) so seeing as it will take some time I would like to get the 1st done as quickly as I can. I am staying with family for the short term (moved from apt and wanted time to find a next place) and have given them saliva tests and a breathylizer and am in an IOP after care program currently. I essentially quit drinking (kratom has not been since january) ~March 1st. I have drank 4 times (4-5 beers and a pint of vodka each time, last time 3 weeks ago when I moved all my apartment stuff to a storage unit before moving in with family full time.
From all the research papers I have read about ETG washout, most detox shampoos do not work any better than water. I have access to a hot tub here that I can use to have chlorine water in my hair for some time. The only time the research has shown any significant effect was when a certain shampoo was higher ph (alkaline) than the hair. Would use of castile soap on the hair on the back of my head (and armpits, though because this is not a required test I think I could ask them which to take by saying I know 6 months of data would show higher ETG but that recently it has gone down to about once a month.
Has there been anyone that has had to do ETG and gotten results and looked at what their usage was to create that result so I could know what I would be looking at? I think what most people seem to agree on at this point is to use a base to open the hair and then essential just continually wash it?

• What you used (flowevape/dab/edibles/etc) Alcohol
• How long was your usage (including any breaks) From March 1st ~4 times, 6-10 drinks each
• What type of test and how long till you have it ETG and can take any time but would like to get the first test by the end of this month
• Height 5-10
• Weight 150
• Age 34

Kieran was walking back home with a hop in his step, it was late, really late. He and Valentino danced and drank for hours. Kieran's hooves were aching from his boots, but he had never had so much fun. A bunch of golden butterflies swarmed around his head, a large smile on his face.
He walked through the doors of the house, he was sure everyone was asleep so he tried his hardest to be quiet. He bit his lip, trying to silence his giggles as he walked up the stairs. He suddenly feels his arm being pulled.
Kieran didn't really like to be touched so he pulled away from the person's grasp immediately, he had let Valentino touch him earlier, but he was mostly being polite, he didn't know why it felt different when Valentino had touched him it just did.
"Sorry for grabbing you! Tell me everything!" It was Charlie, she was practically vibrating with excitement. Kieran bit his lip trying to hide his smile.
"Nothing happened. Nothing like that." Kieran said after a bit, he sat beside Charlie on her bed. "Ew gross Kieran! I didn't mean that! Did you meet any guys?" Charlie asked, she was still vibrating with excitement. Kieran bit his lip again and looked away, unsure if he wanted to tell the truth or not.
"I met one guy." He admitted. Charlie let out a loud gasp. Kieran covered her mouth with his hand. "Shhh! You're gonna wake everyone up!"
"Sorry Kir! But this is so exciting!" Charlie gushed, she clapped her hands, resisting the urge to hug him, she had learned from a lifetime spent with Kieran to wait for him to initiate affection, unless your Lucifer, Kieran let Lucifer hug him whenever.
"It's not really Char, we just danced." Kieran said, more butterflies appeared as his embarrassment grew. Charlie gave him a look and smiled wide. "Well did he say if he wanted to see you again?"
"No not exactly but he gave me his number" Kieran said unfolding the piece of paper. It had a number and under it "Call me Principito." In neat cursive.
"Kieran! That means he's into you!" Charlie gushed, she had always wanted Kieran to find friends, he had always been a loner preferring the company of bugs and animals to most people. "Tell me about him!"
"Well he's purple and tall, like really tall, he has four arms, he's a moth, but he's not cute, like actual moths, he has really long antenna. Hey did you know that you can easily tell the difference between a butterfly and a moth by the antennae? Their also a vital-" Kieran said about to go on a tangent about moths, Charlie snapped her fingers to regain his attention. "Focus Kieran!"
"Vital part of the food chain." He finished, a slight glare on his face, he hated being interrupted. "He was really charming, we danced for hours…I talked a lot, and he wasn't annoyed!…it was…incredible Char…it was like nothing I've ever experienced before." Kieran said, sounding breathless.
Valentino sat on the sofa smoking, he had just gotten back from the club. His legs were up on the coffee table. "He was so fucken hot, oh he got me so fucken hard and the best part he's a virgin!"
Vox gave him a confused look. "You fucked him already? I thought you wanted to lure him in first." That had been the plan, find a lost, naive soul to trap.
"No i didn't you should be proud babe, you have no idea how hard it was to resist fucking him in front of everyone."
"Then how can you tell he's a virgin?" Vox wasn't as well versed in the world of sex as Valentino was, he wasn't sure how Valentino could tell so easily.
"I could practically taste it, you can tell by the way he holds himself he's never been fucked in the ass before. He was all shy, blushy, I think he's magic or something. He had these stupid gold butterflies that wouldn't leave." Valentino said, taking a long drag and blowing out a red cloud of smoke.
"He might be magic like Lucifer. What else did you see him do?" Valentino looked bored and started to drink some wine. Vox glared and brightened the light on his screen to get Valentino's attention. Valentino stared at the bright screen, as if he was entranced. "What else did you see him do?"
"Nothing! He's a lightweight, a virgin, and likes bugs, that's pretty much all I found out." Vox rolled his eyes. He really wished he had a more helpful business partner.
"Well you should get your claws in deep before you scare him off. Make sure the deal gets made. Mr. Morningstar will be a great asset to us." Vox said, a smirk on his face.
"I will. Trust me he's gonna be so easy. He's gonna fall right into my trap." Valentino said in a bored tone. Sure Kieran was hot, had a nice ass, but he was painfully unaware of social ques and just talked. The entire time they danced he rattled on about random topics, mostly to do with bugs.
"Think about it, Val. That kid probably has insane power he doesn't even know about yet! And with Kieran aligned with us Lucifer won't ever bother us. Do not screw this up. Get your claws in deep and don't let go."
"I won't. I cant wait to fuck him."
Kieran woke up in the morning and made his way down to the kitchen, he grabbed a mug, and poured himself coffee. Lucifer was sitting at the table already. Lilith and Charlie were probably still asleep.
"So son, I heard you met a boy yesterday." Lucifer said with a smirk and a raised eyebrow. Kierans eyes widened, this was the last thing he wanted Lucifer to know about. "Who told you that?"
"Your sister, last nigh told me you went out to meet some boys." Lucifer elaborated.
"I did." Kieran responded hesitantly. "Where at? And what is he? Hellborn?" Lucifer asked, his eyes wide with curiosity. "He…he's a sinner. We met at a…club" Kieran responded looking anywhere but at his father. He decided to leave out the fact that it was a sex club.
"A sinner Kir? Really? I've told you they're dangerous! Nothing good ever comes from them!" Lucifer said immediately, his eyes wide, a look of fear on his face. "Dad it's not anything serious, we just danced a little I doubt anything will come of it." Kieran said quickly wanting to calm his father's concerns.
"I just want you to be safe Ducky." Lucifer whispered, he had gotten up and walked over to Kieran, grabbing his hands gently.
"I know dad I promise I will be." Kieran assured, squeezing Lucifer's hands.
"I…I just can't believe how grown up you and your sister are. It seems like just yesterday you two were born. And I held you two for the first time." Lucifer whispered, his eyes getting teary. Kieran dropped Lucifer's hands and hugged his father tightly. Lucifer let his tears fall as he tightened his grip on Kieran. Lucifer almost couldn't deal with the fact that his kids were adults now. And they wouldn't need him as much anymore.
"Dad, don't cry please." Kieran whispered. Kieran hated when people cried. "Just because I'm older doesn't mean I won't need you, you're still my dad."
"I know I just…I don't want you to forget about me." Lucifer admitted after a while. Lucifer had grown used to having Kieran near him at all times. He didn't want to think what would happen if Kieran actually left, but at the same time Lucifer knew he couldn't keep Kieran here forever.
"I could never forget about you dad." Kieran whispered, leaning his head on Lucifer's.

Today alone my game has crashed 4 different times. All of them mid-mission. I haven't been able to complete a single mission because of this.
Just now I was doing a mission on terminids with 3 others. Everything was going so godamn well, no one was dying, everybody had the right weaponry. It was great. We were all extracting, when out of nowhere, all 3 of my teammates just up and vanish. I have no idea why. And just as the Pelican was about to land with 10 seconds left, I die and get auto reinforced far from extraction, so the extraction got cancelled. I re-called extraction and then my game just fucking crashes. A gruelling 35 minutes down the drain.
Anything I can do to prevent the game from crashing so much, and that too mid way in a mission?

The thought entered my head and made me chuckle. I am so over all of this bullshit, every last bit.
Years 0-1 was confusion, 1-2 anger and unhealthy distractions, 2-3 despair, 3-4 idgafam, 4+ is now just cloud spotting and making sure I wake up every morning. I haven’t felt normal for 1500 days…. One thousand, five hundred days
I had more going for me at 15 than I do at 23. I have to laugh about it.
I can be stoic 4/7 days of the week but those other 3 I just want to watch the world burn.
Any dark humour would go a long way today
Love you all

Bray Wyatt was a truly brilliant man, a mastermind of creativity that brought to life characters, the likes of which we never dreamed we'd see in WWE.
From a cult leader to a funhouse to a fiend and many more iterations, Wyatt left an impact with his career and with his passing.
Many would say his career was cut too short and he had so much more to give, so much unrealized potential.
I'm sure by now we've all heard the rumors of Bo Dallas's return and the shoes of Bray's he looks to fill. I aim to write the best possible run for Bo to make for a respectable, iconic tribute run that would hopefully be a worthy successor to the legend that was Bray Wyatt.
NXT, 4/9/24:
It's the NXT after WrestleMania and the wrestling world is buzzing, especially given the fallout from Stand & Deliver.
Everyone is anxiously awaiting the tag team championship bout, however, right before introductions begin, a video airs.
[The scene opens with a dimly lit room, filled with eerie masks and props reminiscent of Bray Wyatt's countless ominous personas. Bo Dallas stands in the center, dressed in a black tuxedo, a ruby red rose tucked into the pocket. His expression is solemn as he gazes at the array of memorabilia.]
"My brother Bray... he was more than just a man. He was an enigma, a mastermind of both darkness and light. He taught me, not just about wrestling, but about life. About embracing the darkness within us and finding strength in it."
[Bo picks up a white sheep mask, running his fingers along its intricate details.]
"These masks... they're more than just fabric and paint. They're symbols of his creativity, his imagination. Each one tells a story, a story of the man who wore it. And now, it's up to me to carry on that legacy, to keep his memory alive."
[He pauses, a somber look crossing his face as memories flood his mind.]
"Bray and I... we shared a bond that went beyond blood. We were kindred spirits, wandering in the darkness together. And even though he's gone, I can still feel his presence, guiding me, urging me to continue the journey."
[Bo walks around the room, touching various items, each one invoking memories of Bray. He runs his fingers along the mask of Uncle Howdy, and bits of Bray's feud with LA Knight flicker across the screen. He passes by the sheep mask, and images of The Wyatt Family fill the picture, scenes of their destruction on full display. Bo dares to grip The Fiend mask last, and the monstrous reign of terror Bray went on is summarized with flashes of his darkest showings.]
"I may not be Bray Wyatt, but I am my brother's keeper. I am Bo Dallas. And I promise to honor his memory in everything I do. To carry on his legacy, to spread his message. Because that's what he would have wanted."
[As the camera fades to black, a single candle flickers in the darkness, illuminating Bo's determined expression, a symbol of hope in the face of loss.]
NXT, 4/16/24:
[The scene this week finds Bo Dallas in a ring, not the NXT ring, but at an undisclosed location, surrounded by eerie lighting and haunting music. His demeanor has shifted slightly, displaying hints of the madness that once defined his brother, Bray Wyatt.]
"Welcome, my friends, to the theater of the mind. Tonight, we embark on a journey into the dark limelight. For too long, I have walked in the shadows of greatness, but now, it's time for me to step into the spotlight."
[Bo's eyes gleam with an unsettling intensity as he speaks, his voice carrying a hint of the manicness that consumed Bray.]
"You see, I've spent my time wandering in the wilderness, searching for answers, seeking the truth that lies beneath the surface. And what I've found... it's both beautiful and terrifying."
[He paces around the ring, his movements fluid yet erratic, mirroring the unpredictability of his brother.]
"But fear not, for I am not alone in this journey. No, I carry with me the spirit of Bray Wyatt, my brother, my mentor, my lantern in the darkness. Together, we shall unleash chaos upon the world, for it is in chaos that true enlightenment is found."
[As he speaks, cryptic images flash across the screen, hinting at the impending madness that awaits. Two stand out, a smiley face with blood splattered on the bright yellow exterior, and an uber-realistic heart still beating, decorated with disturbing facial features, the eyes gouged out and grey bruises left in the sunken holes.]
"So to those who dare to stand in our way, know this: the reckoning is coming. The shadows will consume you, and you will be left to live in fear. For the madness of the mind knows no bounds, and soon, you will understand the true meaning of terror, the true face of fear."
[The camera zooms in on Bo's face, a wicked grin spreading across his lips as he stares into the abyss, indescribable intentions lining his tortured mind.]
NXT 4/23/24:
Bo Dallas vs Scrypts
[Bo Dallas finally makes his in ring return, to the brand he once called home, the brand he was once champion of. He enters to Feared, seemingly confirming his past role. Across the ring from him is the highly acrobatic Scrypts, eager to get an upset victory over the, presumably rusty, Bo Dallas.
In the closing moments of the match, Bo Dallas delivers a new finishing maneuver. He locks Scrypts in position for a Sister Abigail, kiss and all, before securing the head and falling back into a devastating DDT laying out Scrypts for the three-count. As the referee raises Dallas' hand in victory, the arena is left with a mixture of awe and fear, witnessing the emergence of a new force on the white and gold brand.]
NXT, 4/30/24:
Bo Dallas vs Davey Vega (Local Competitor)
[In the heart of the performance center, Bo Dallas stands ready, his gaze fixed on his opponent, Davey Vega, a local competitor stepping into the lion's den. From the opening bell, Dallas unleashes a relentless assault, showcasing the brutal side of his newfound madness.
As the match progresses, the referee is forced to intervene, calling for the bell and awarding the match to Bo Dallas via referee stoppage, signaling the end of Vega's valiant effort.
However, Dallas shows no signs of mercy, launching a vicious post-match assault on the defenseless Vega, driving home the message that he is not to be trifled with.
Suddenly, the arena erupts with the arrival of Axiom, charging down the ramp to confront Dallas and put an end to his rampage. Bo Dallas, unfazed by the interruption, simply smiles in response, leaving a chilling sense of uncertainty in his wake as he retreats from the ring.]
NXT, 5/7/24:
The week after Bo Dallas bludgeoned a local competitor who was thankfully rescued by Axiom, a video airs detailing Bo's thoughts on this 'heroic' act.
[The scene opens with eerie music playing in the background as the screen flickers to life, revealing a dimly lit room. In the center of the frame, Bo Dallas sits, his expression veiled in shadows, radiating an aura of malevolence.]
"Axiom, my dear adversary, I have a message for you. A message that carries with it the weight of inevitability.
You see, Axiom, you and I... we exist on opposite ends of the spectrum. Where you seek light, I revel in darkness. Where you find solace, I find chaos. And in that chaos, there lies a power that few ever get to feel."
[As he speaks, the camera zooms in on Bo's face, revealing a sinister grin that twists his features into an unsettling visage.]
"But fear not, for I am not here to harm you... yet. No, I am here to offer you a choice. A choice that will define your destiny, a choice that will determine what kind of man you're going to be left as."
[His words hang in the air, heavy with implication and menace.]
"So heed my warning, Axiom, because I'm not a bad person. I don't wish to harm you. Believe me, it will hurt me more than it will hurt you, and that's truly, truly saying something. The choice is yours... choose wisely."
[With a flicker, the screen fades to black, leaving behind an ominous silence that lingers long after Bo's message has ended.]
Later that night, we cut to a scene of Axiom & Nathan Frazer in the locker room with Nathan Frazer anxiously pacing back and forth, his expression wrought with concern. Axiom, his tag team partner, stands nearby.
"Axiom, listen to me... I've got a bad feeling about this. You can't take this match with Bo Dallas. It's like... like there's something dark hovering over him, something... unnatural."
Axiom furrows his brow, puzzled by Nathan's urgency.
"Nathan, what are you talking about? We've faced tough opponents before. Hell, we just won the NXT Tag Team Championships last month. Bo Dallas is just another challenge for us to overcome."
"No, this is...this is different. I can't explain it, but, I know, somehow, that this guy is bad news."
The lights flicker, as Nathan's eyes begin to dart, wary of... something.
"Axiom, please, I'm begging you... don't do this."
Axiom shakes his head, his determination unwavering despite Nathan's pleas.
"I appreciate your concern, I really do. But I can't back down from this. Bo may be...troubled, but I refuse to let fear dictate my actions. We've trained hard for moments just like this, and, just imagine what it'll do for us if I beat a former NXT champion."
Nathan's shoulders slump in defeat, realizing that his words have fallen on deaf ears.
"Just... promise me you'll be careful. Promise me you'll watch your back. There's something... something sinister about him. I'm afraid that if you face Bo Dallas, you won't come out of it the same."
Axiom nods solemnly, trying to show Frazer that he takes his concerns seriously. He reassures Nathan that he's got this, and by this time next week, they will be on the road to bigger and better things. He goes to get the match made official, leaving Nathan alone with his dark premonitions.
NXT, 5/14/24:
In the backstage area, dimly lit and filled with an air of anticipation, Bo Dallas prepares for his upcoming match against Axiom. Dressed in his ominous attire, reminiscent of his brothers, but with a touch of his own style. He methodically wraps his hands with tape, his mind focused on the task at hand. Suddenly, Joe Gacy appears, his smile warm and inviting as he approaches Dallas.
"Bo, my friend! I just wanted to say, I've been admiring your work lately. Your commitment to embracing your darker side is truly inspiring. For example, what you're going to do to Axiom tonight. If a guy like that doesn't want to listen to guys like us when we're warning him, begging him not to oppose us. Well, they get what they deserve."
Bo Dallas, though polite, eyes Gacy warily, sensing an underlying tension beneath his seemingly friendly demeanor.
"Thanks, Joe. I appreciate the... kind words. But let me ask you something...I hear your gospel, and you preach a lot about redemption. Do you truly believe in redemption? Or are you just using it as an excuse to justify your own actions?"
Gacy's smile wavers slightly at the question, but he quickly regains his composure.
"Of course, Bo. Redemption is a core belief of mine. I believe that everyone, no matter how lost they may seem, deserves a chance at redemption. Even those who have embraced their darker nature."
Bo Dallas nods, though the skepticism still lingers.
"Because you know, guys like us, of course. We don't make apologies, we don't make excuses, we don't need redemption. If you feel that you do, well, maybe you're nothing like me at all."
Before either can dive deeper into the conversation, a stagehand interrupts, signaling that it's time for Bo's match.
"We'll continue this conversation later, Joe. Right now, I have a match to focus on."
With a curt nod, Dallas strides off towards the ring, leaving Gacy standing alone in the dimly lit hallway, his smile masking the darkness that lurks beneath the surface. As Dallas's theme music echoes through the arena, Gacy watches with a knowing glint in his eyes, hinting at the turbulent confrontation yet to come.
Axiom vs Bo Dallas
[The arena buzzes as Axiom makes his entrance, his determination palpable in the air as he clutches his Tag Title strap. Across the ring, Bo Dallas stands, a sinister grin etched on his face as he eagerly awaits his opponent.
As the bell rings, Axiom explodes into action, showcasing his high-flying prowess with dazzling maneuvers, but Bo Dallas is unfazed, meeting Axiom's athleticism with a ruthless onslaught of dirty tactics and underhanded tricks.
Bo sinks to new depths of depravity, resorting to underhanded tactics such as eye rakes and choking Axiom with the ring ropes when the referee's back is turned. He strategically targets Axiom's limbs, ruthlessly wrenching at joints and ligaments with painful submission holds, eliciting agonized screams from his opponent. At one point, Bo viciously slams Axiom's knee into the ring post, causing a sickening crunch that echoes throughout the arena, leaving Axiom writhing in pain on the mat.
He repeatedly drives his knee into Axiom's ribs with malicious intent, ignoring the referee's warnings and relishing in the damage he deals.
Despite the odds stacked against him, Axiom refuses to back down, channeling his inner resilience to mount a comeback against his twisted adversary. With every leap and flip, he defies gravity, inciting faint Axiom chants that become even fainter as the finish nears.
Axiom attempts a shooting star from the top rope and gets caught in Sister Abigail positioning, kiss, DDT. Commentary dubs it Grim Affection. A dominant victory for Bo Dallas over a game Axiom.
"I told you, Axiom, that you had a choice to make. A choice to define your destiny, to decide what kind of man was going to be left. You... you didn't believe me."
Bo drops the mic and drags Axiom out of the ring. He nears the announce desk and begins slamming Axiom's head into the table. Again, and again, and again. Repeatedly. After several sickening collisions with the desk, medical personnel back Bo up and wring his grip off of Axiom's neck.
Perhaps, people should be asking what drove Bo to do this, how he could do this, but then again, he did warn us. Rather, one question seems to linger.
Where was Nathan Frazer?]
NXT, 5/21/24:
Bo Dallas vs Riley Osborne
The following week, Bo Dallas is paired up with the impressive up and comer, Riley Osborne. Osborne, a dynamic highflyer known for his breath-taking maneuvers, brings an energy to the match that contrasts sharply with Dallas's dark and brooding presence.
With Dallas in the driver's seat, Joe Gacy emerges from the shadows, making his way to ringside with his trademark smile firmly in place. His presence unnerves Dallas, who becomes increasingly distracted by Gacy's watchful gaze.
Sensing an opportunity, Osborne seizes the moment, launching a series of high-flying attacks that leave Dallas reeling. With the crowd firmly behind him, Osborne delivers a flurry of strikes and aerial maneuvers, building momentum and gaining the advantage.
However, just as it seems that Osborne may secure the victory, Gacy interjects himself into the match, distracting the referee and creating an opening for Dallas to strike. Seizing the opportunity, Dallas delivers a devastating blow to the back of Osborne's head, knocking him to the mat and leaving him vulnerable to Grim Affection.
Dallas quickly executes the DDT, driving Osborne's head into the canvas with brutal force. Dallas covers Osborne for the pinfall victory, all the while, keeping a weary eye on Joe Gacy. His victory tainted by the interference.
As Dallas stands victorious in the ring, Gacy watches from ringside, his smile wider than ever as he silently applauds Dallas's triumph, his motivations indeterminable.
Backstage, Bo strides purposefully towards Gacy, his expression a mix of frustration and curiosity. Gacy stands nearby, his back turned to the approaching Dallas.
"Joe, we need to talk. What the hell made you think you could get involved in my match?"
Joe turns to face Dallas, his smile unwavering despite the tension in the air.
"Bo, it's simple. I got involved because that's what friends do. We look out for each other, we support each other, no matter what."
Dallas narrows his eyes, unpleased with the explanation.
"Friends, huh? Joe, let me make something clear to you. You and me are not friends. You talk about 'guys like us.' but if you were really anything like me, you'd know, guys like us don't get the luxury of friendship. Stay out of my way."
Dallas walks off, leaving Gacy alone in the dimly lit hallway, feeling confident his warning will be the last he hears from Gacy. As Gacy watches Dallas's retreating figure, his smile fades slightly, a hint of the darkness leaking out behind his facade of friendliness.
NXT, 5/28/24:
In the aftermath of Dallas's confrontation with Joe backstage, tensions between the two competitors continue to simmer beneath the surface. As Dallas prepares for his next match, Gacy lurks in the shadows, his smile masking the intentions that lie beneath.
Bo Dallas vs Je'Von Evans
As Dallas steps into the ring to face off with the spry Evans, Gacy watches from ringside, his presence a constant reminder of the brewing conflict between them. Throughout the match, Dallas's focus is split between Je'Von and Gacy, the unsettling feeling of being watched lingering on his mind.
As the match reaches its climax, Gacy's interference once again comes into play, this time in the form of distraction tactics that allow Evans to gain the upper hand, ending his dominant sequence with a huracanrana to send Dallas out of the ring. Frustrated by Gacy's meddling, Dallas lashes out, confronting Gacy at ringside.
"What are you doing?! I told you to stay out of my business."
"I'm just trying to help, Bo. Can't you see that? We're in this together, whether you like it or not."
The confrontation between Dallas and Gacy escalates, drawing the attention of the referee and the audience alike. Sensing an opportunity, Je'Von seizes the moment, delivering a springboard crossbody that leaves Dallas smashed against the barricade.
As the match comes to a close, Dallas finds himself on the receiving end of a corkscrew frogsplash, pinned to the mat as the referee issues the three-count. Gacy watches from ringside, his smile wider than ever as he revels in Dallas's defeat.
As Dallas staggers to his feet, his anger evident, Gacy offers a mocking clap of applause, his smile taunting Dallas from across the ring.
NXT, 6/4/24:
The following week, Bo is obviously beside himself, given his first loss since returning due to the meddling nature of Joe Gacy. He wants answers, and he gets them, but they are perhaps...not what he expected
The video opens with a dimly lit room, casting eerie shadows across the walls. In the center of the frame, in an old rocking chair, sits Joe Gacy. He's surrounded by a cluttered array of photos, newspaper clippings, and pins connected by lengths of yarn. His expression is intense, bordering on obsessive, as he addresses the camera.
"Greetings, my friends. I wanted to take a moment to share something with you. Something that has been weighing heavily on my mind as of late."
He gestures to the wall behind him, where a complex web of connections links various images together.
"You see, I've been doing some... research. Trying to understand the connections between us all, the threads that bind us together."
He points to individual photos, each depicting familiar figures, including Alexa Bliss, Bo Dallas, Braun Strowman, Bray Wyatt, Erick Rowan, Luke Harper, and even the iconic sheep mask.
"Bo Dallas... Bray Wyatt... They're more than just competitors to me. They're kindred spirits, souls bound by a shared vision of darkness and redemption. And now, with their guidance, I seek to create something truly special."
His voice takes on a fervent tone, his eyes gleaming with manic intensity.
"You may call me a fan, a devotee of their work. But I see myself as something more. I am a disciple, a vessel through which their legacy will live on. Together, Bo and me will forge a new path, a new family built on the foundations of their greatness."
As the camera zooms in on Gacy's face, his smile widens, revealing a hint of madness lurking beneath the surface.
"So to Bo, my dear friend and partner in crime, I say this: embrace the chaos, embrace the darkness, and together, we will create something truly extraordinary."
With a final unsettling chuckle, Gacy reaches forward to turn off the camera, a squeak echoing from the rocking chair and cascading across the disturbed audience.
NXT, Battleground:
Bo Dallas vs Joe Gacy
As the lights dim in the UFC Apex arena, anticipation hangs heavy in the air as Bo Dallas and Joe Gacy make their way to the ring, their paths on a collision course fueled by obsession.
From the opening bell, Gacy wastes no time in asserting his dominance, launching a relentless assault on Dallas with a combination of technical prowess and psychological warfare. Gacy taunts Dallas, insisting that he needs Gacy to unlock his true potential, but Dallas remains defiant, refusing to give in to Gacy's grand delusion.
Despite Gacy's mind games, Dallas fights back with a fierce determination, fueled by a desire for revenge against the man who has cost him victories and sought to manipulate him. The two competitors trade blows in a brutal back-and-forth, each refusing to back down in their quest for supremacy.
As the match reaches its climax, Gacy's desperation becomes apparent as he resorts to underhanded tactics to gain the upper hand. He attempts to lure Dallas into his twisted worldview, promising power and redemption through submission to his will, both literally and figuratively as he traps Dallas in Hell's Gate. Dallas sees through Gacy's deception, though, refusing to be swayed by his false promises and makes it to the ropes.
In a dramatic turn of events, Dallas mounts a ferocious comeback, unleashing a barrage of strikes that leave Gacy reeling. With the crowd rallying behind him, Dallas summons every ounce of strength to overcome Gacy.
In the final moments of the match, Gacy attempts his handspring lariat, but Dallas catches him! Dallas has him in position and connects with Grim Affection, Gacy's delusion shattered in the face of Dallas's unwavering resolve. With a triumphant roar, Dallas secures the victory, standing tall.
As Dallas celebrates his hard-fought victory, Gacy slinks away into the shadows, his facade of superiority crumbling under the weight of his defeat.
NXT, 6/11/24:
On the NXT following Battleground, Bo Dallas makes his way to the ring. He details how Gacy was one of the hardest fights of his career and he has a newfound respect for him. Gacy is clearly...confused about any potential connection he may have to Dallas, but Dallas has been a man of much confusion in the past and he can sympathize.
He asks Gacy to come out to the ring so Dallas can shake his hand after their war at Battleground. Instead, Gallus's music hits, the trio of bruisers signaling their arrival. The Coffey Brothers & Wolfgang have been on a Shield-esque run recently, terrorizing anyone they deem a threat to their success and dissecting them via the numbers game.
As Gallus surround the ring, preventing Dallas from making an escape, they bore their eyes into a trepidatious Bo.
Just as the wolfpack is about to swarm, Love Is Blind hits and Joe Gacy runs down wielding a steel chair. He jabs Wolfgang in the gut, and levels Mark Coffey with chair shots as well. This leaves Joe vulnerable to Dallas's attack, laying out Coffey. Coffey flees from the right side of the ring as Gacy enters from the left. Gacy and Dallas end up bumping, back to back, into each other.
They stare each other down cautiously, before Dallas sticks out his hand, Gacy shakes it and the two unlikely bedmates stand united against Gallus.
NXT, 6/18/24:
Bo Dallas & Joe Gacy vs Gallus (The Coffey Brothers)
[With Dallas & Gacy seemingly aligning for the moment, with the numbers game of Gallus being too great for either to overcome alone, this match is made.
Joe & Mark Coffey showcase their brawling ways and take the fight to Dallas, wearing him down throughout the match. It's not until Bo makes a hot tag to Joe Gacy that tides start to turn.
Gacy matches the brutality of Coffey and battles back as the freshest competitor in the match. As Gacy closes in on a victory, Dallas clears out Wolfgang at ringside who was attempting to get involved.
A moment later, Gacy is pinning Mark to secure the win for him and Bo.]
Later that night, Bo and Gacy run into Gacy's old running mate and NXT General Manager, Ava. She says that she was impressed with their performance and if they're interested in accepting it, would like to offer a Tag Team Title opportunity to them next week.
Joe looks to Dallas for his answer, and Bo agrees to the match. It seems Joe is finally getting his wish, to team with a man who's work he's admired for some time in Bo Dallas.
NXT, 6/25/24:
Axiom & Nathan Frazer (c) vs Bo Dallas & Joe Gacy: NXT Tag Team Championship Match
[Ever since Bo's encounter with Axiom, there's been tensions between Axiom & Frazer. Frazer has been somewhat absent, slacking in comparison to Axiom's extreme efforts. Not to mention, Nathan's choice to let Dallas brutally beat on him last month.
Earlier in the night, it's made clear that Frazer's most egregious example of this recent behavior is taking place at the most inopportune time. Axiom first gives an interview early in the show, Nathan isn't here yet but Axiom stays confident in their defense tonight. Axiom later voices concern to Ava over Nathan not being here yet. Finally, Axiom finds a note in his locker, clearly informing Axiom that Nathan isn't coming.
Axiom is asked pre match about these developments, the champion states he's going to go out there and vigorously defend his title, and if he fails...well he's no longer got a tag team partner, maybe he shouldn't be a tag team champion.
It's a big fight feel with the tag team titles up for grabs, but once Dallas and Gacy finish making their entrance, Axiom enters alone. The handicap is evident as despite Axiom's valiant efforts, the revolving door of tags from his opponents keeps him weak.
Axiom unleashes a series of big maneuvers on both men, fighting his heart out until his last breath. Axiom dives onto Dallas at ringside and attempts to on Gacy as well, but gets tossed into the ring apron. Gacy sends him back in and flattens him with a handspring lariat. He feeds Axiom to Dallas who lands Grim Affection.
With that, the Tag Team Championships now belong to Bo Dallas & Joe Gacy. A defeated Axiom writhes on the canvas, a harrowing loss noticably affecting him.]
NXT, 7/2/24:
It's the week after the big Tag Title victory, and Dallas & Gacy make their entrance, eager to celebrate Gacy's first WWE Title and Dallas's first in over a decade.
They seem very giddy to be Champions, Dallas compliments Gacy's vision and states that Joe knew they would make a great team even when Bo didn't want to accept it.
Dallas states that when he first came back, he was nervous, nervous he wouldn't live up to that legacy, fill those boots. Thanks to Gacy though, it was easier than Bo expected and know that he's got gold, he can finally relax. He feels that weight off of his shoulders.
This seems to unsettle Gacy who states that the hard part has just begun though and it's time to put in their best work. The tag titles are just phase one of the plan. Dallas says that, eventually sure, maybe they'll go after other titles and bigger things, but for now, this feels comfortable for Bo.
Gacy simply stares at him for a moment until Edris Enofé and Malik Blade arrive. Gacy turns away from Dallas to spot the young, hungry tag team. Enofé and Blade state that they are one of the longest tenured teams in NXT right now and they deserve a tag team title shot.
Dallas tries to tell them they'll need to earn it, not seeing the irony of how easy his road to the titles has been, Gacy however accepts on Bo's behalf and schedules the match for later tonight.
Joe tries to talk some sense into Bo backstage, letting Bo know that Gacy helped him capture gold as a way to inspire Bo to work harder, to fulfill his destiny and truly become great with Gacy. Dallas shouldn't become comfortable right now, now is when you double down on that effort and become undeniable. Dallas seems disinterested.
Bo Dallas & Joe Gacy (c) vs Edris Enofé & Malik Blade: Tag Team Championship Match
[The enthusiastic team of Enofé and Blade have the biggest opportunity of their young careers, as they take on two established foes with NXT tag gold on the line. The very different styles contrast throughout, the aggressive, smash-mouth style of Bo and Gacy opposite the adrenaline fueled, fast paced Edris and Blade.
It begins to look unlikely that the challengers will have a chance to fulfill their long awaited dream as Dallas and Gacy continuously cut off their momentum.
In a last gasp effort, Blade is able to turn the tides and neutralize Gacy at ringside, this leaves Dallas vulnerable to Enofé who closes the gap by standing on the back of Dallas and dropping into a DDT. Bo somehow gets the shoulder up, and Edris directs Malik to the top rope. Swanton Bomb by Blade, cover by Edris. New Tag Team Champions.]
After the bout, Gacy hugs a distraught Dallas. Bo is facing away from the camera, Gacy is facing towards it. Gacy whispers something in Bo's ear before planting a kiss on the side of his head. Dallas turns around just as Gacy connects with a handspring lariat. Joe stands over the flattened Dallas, and in disappointment, leaves the ring.
NXT Heatwave:
Bo Dallas vs Joe Gacy, Love & War:
[The stage is set for a hazardous clash as Bo Dallas and Joe Gacy step into the ring for their Love & War Match, a twisted variation of an Extreme Rules bout. The atmosphere is personal, the hurt of betrayal evident on the face of Bo, as the two rivals lock eyes, each determined to emerge victorious.
As the bell rings, Bo Dallas wastes no time in unleashing his pent-up frustration on Joe Gacy, launching a relentless assault with a steel chair in hand. Gacy, however, remains cool and composed, dodging Dallas's swings with ease before retaliating with a series of calculated strikes ending in a bodyslam on the open chair.
The match quickly spills to the outside, where Dallas sends Gacy crashing into the steel steps with a vicious Irish whip. The impact reverberates through the arena as Gacy writhes in pain on the cold concrete floor. Gacy eye pokes Dallas and tries for a sit-out piledriver on the bottom set of stairs, the top set tipped over beside it.
Dallas connects with a back body drop, though, sending Gacy cascading into the top half of the stairs. Back inside the ring, Dallas sets up a table in the corner, his eyes burning with determination as he prepares to put an end to Gacy's deception once and for all. Following a Sunset Flip, Dallas shows his strength, carrying Gacy across the ring and sending him crashing through the table with a devastating powerbomb, the wood splintering beneath the force of the impact.
But Gacy refuses to stay down, rallying back with a barbed wire bat in hand. With a sadistic grin, Gacy swings the bat at Dallas, striking him across the back with brutal force. The barbed wire tears at Dallas's flesh, leaving behind a trail of blood as he staggers back in agony.
Gacy introduces a ladder, propping it up in the corner, he slingshots Dallas into the hard steel. The ladder is set on Bo's neck, trapping his head in the middle of it, Gacy connects with a german suplex while Bo's head is trapped.
Joe fishes out a barbed wire wrapped table, setting it up outside the ring. Gacy re-enters and spots a vulnerable Dallas. He attempts a handspring lariat, but as soon as he goes upside down into the ropes, Bo spears Gacy, driving both men out of the ring.
Dallas and Gacy brawl on the apron, footsteps away from the barbed wire table. Gacy gets Dallas sat against the steel post and attempts a cannonball, Dallas pulls himself into the ring last second and Gacy crashes into the steel post.
Dallas runs the ropes and connects with a suicide spear through the barbed wire table. With Gacy reeling from the impact, Dallas seizes the opportunity to end the match once and for all. He sets a table ablaze in ring, the flames licking at the sky as he hoists Gacy into the squared circle.
Dallas sets up the ladder and begins to climb, he's thinking an elbow drop on the downed Gacy, but Joe climbs and gets Dallas in a fireman's carry position. Bo frees himself and gets Gacy in electric chair position.
The crowd waits in baited breath, as with a primal roar, Dallas falls backwards with Gacy on his shoulders, from fifteen feet in the air, into the table, the fire consuming them both in a blaze of glory. The crowd erupts into cheers as the referee counts the three-count, declaring Bo Dallas the winner of the Love & War Match.
As Dallas stands tall amidst the smoldering wreckage, a sense of catharsis washes over him, his victory a symbol of triumph over betrayal. As he gazes down at Gacy's body though, one thought runs through his head, a thought that scares him to his core, it's implications undeniable.
"That was fun."
WWE uploads an exclusive backstage video showing Gacy approach Bo. Dallas is on edge and stiffens up, Gacy grabs him by his face.
"Good. Now go fulfill your destiny."
Gacy claps Dallas on the chest and leaves, leaving Bo in a mix of emotions as he is forced to consider Gacy's betrayal may have been a selfless action.]
RAW, 7/15/24:
SummerSlam is just over two weeks away and things are heating up. Shortly before the respective parties make their entrance for the main event of the evening, a video airs.
[The camera flickers to life revealing the familiar face of one Bo Dallas, coming off arguably the most brutal match of his career and an enigmatic piece of advice from Joe Gacy.]
"It's been said that those who are baptized in the darkness, cannot handle the light, for it will surely blind them. As I stand here today, I feel the weight of those words.
I've spent so long living in fear, fear of not living up to those who came before me..."
[Flashes of The US Express and Bray Wyatt shoot across the screen.]
"Fear of failing."
[This time, flashes of Bo's initial run with WWE, losing his winning streak to R-Truth and then beginning his losing streak.]
"Fear...of judgement."
[Bo, previously staring at the ground, gazes up.]
"I thought I'd be able to feel him, but not like this. He's... he's everywhere. In everyone he's ever stood across the ring from. One man, he stands out in particular, not for no rhyme or reason, see my brother...he knew this man very well.
SummerSlam is fast approaching and I just wouldn't miss it for the world. And as for my opponent? Well, discretion is the better part of válor.
I can't tell you that part just yet, one thing I can tell you though? I am not afraid...anymore."
[The gaze of Bo stagnates on screen prior to the feed cutting off.]
RAW, 7/22/24:
Towards the end of the show, a big match occurs, harkening back to their days in NXT fighting over the top title, Finn Bálor collides with Pete Dunne in singles action.
It's a hard hitting affair, with McDonagh & Bate getting involved as well. Bálor scores the triumphant victory off his patented Coup De Grace. McDonagh has long disappeared, fighting with Bate to the backstage area.
Suddenly the lights go out, dimming section by section. Chills coat Bálor's body as deja vu swarms him. He's been here before.
Suddenly, Bo Dallas appears behind Finn Bálor, a single swinging spotlight allowing him to be seen. Bálor turns around and gets caught with a forearm to the face. Dallas drags him up and connects with Grim Affection.
Bo sits in the corner of the ring, murmuring to himself. The message is clear, Bo Dallas has set his sights on Finn Bálor.
RAW, 7/29/24:
The go home episode of RAW before SummerSlam, another video from Bo airs.
"My brother was a troubled man with a troubled mind. He loved this business more than anything else, and he gave his life to it. Bray was always...erratic, different and he was judged for it, believe me. I remember, five years ago, Bray called me in the middle of the night and just started to ramble about this thing. This thing that was going to finally make him. He was obsessed with the prospect of fear, fear is power, and Bray is a man who often had his power stripped from him. Fear was his way of getting it back.
In Toronto, maybe for the first time, Bray was a truly fearsome man, and with that, he became truly, truly powerful. Five years ago, Finn, you were the example. The more things change, the more they stay the same.
I have a question for you, Finn, when you are at the center of all of the judgement that you cast, will you survive? I suppose I'll get my answer, on August 3rd."
[Bo settles back into his chair, contemplating before continuing.]
"You were supposed to be someone, Finn, there's a reason my brother targeted you in the first place, he saw that same darkness that he never could resist. That darkness though, is gone now. You've spent so much time...chasing rabbits. You've lost sight of who you were meant to be.
I fear, now, it's too late. There's nothing left of you to salvage, which is bad news for you, but very good news for me. Feeble as you are, you will be a perfect example, a sign of things to come, a canvas for which I will paint with my demons. Finn, I will ensure you do not die in vain, your sacrifice will be very, very worthy.
In five days, I become, for the first time, truly powerful. And in five days, Finn, you will find, we're all mad here."
[Bo exits the room as a small white rabbit skitters on to the desk in front of the camera.]

I own an insurance agency. I own it 50/50 with another guy. We each make on average 200k a year. I work 10-20 hours a week and I’m burnt out from many ACE experiences as a child. Here’s my deets:

1. We live in Chcago. We owe on our house 1.950,000 7300/month(mortgage is 3.2% jumbo fixed.) House is valued at 3.5 Million
2. We own three rental houses, combined rents are 6,200/month. Mortgage combined for all 3 is 2875.00/month 3.2 % interest. The three are worth 1.3 million and mortgage is 495k.
3. We want to move to an island in the Caribbean and retire.
4. We have combined savings of $280,000 . 1 car payment and no other debt. we have utilities expenses of about 600 / month and property tax is 3600/month!

so sell the properties and FIRE?
what books to read?
where do I start? im ready for the Virgin Islands. ps it would be hard to sell my half of the company. My biz partner is messy. im 54 married and have a 7 yr old daughter. if I left the states it would be hard to collect my half of profits from my business…
any thoughts or direction would help. Cheers, Steve!

I am 38 weeks with my first child, I just last week took leave from work. My husband went to bed at around 11:40 last night. He is normally a perfectly quiet sleeper. However he is overcoming a pretty rough sinus inflammation. When this happens he will snore as he cannot breathe well with his sinuses inflamed (he has a nose deformity but that’s not important).
Last night the snoring was bad. I went to bed a while later than he did and I could hear the snoring from the living room. I haven’t been sleeping much lately and things have been difficult physically and mentally. I found that I can’t control my emotions as well as I used to and I cry, lose my patience, get distracted, a lot more in the past five weeks or so. People have told me this is normal as you get very late into pregnancy.
I laid down and quickly realized this wasn’t going to work. I have dealt with snoring when he was sick in the past. But tonight I found myself really pushed to the edge.
I know anyone reading this will think “why didn’t you just… wake him up?” and to that you are right. That was clearly what I should have done, and is what a more lucid me would have done. There were lots of ways I could have handled the situation that wasn’t this.
I’ll be brief as possible. I turned his head a bit to the side as that often helps on the occasion he snores. It didn’t do anything this time. I did this a few more times over the next minutes to see if it would reduce the noise. I left the bedroom for a while as I was frustrated. I came back and tried again. I remember moving the blanket over him as he had partly uncovered himself. I tried again.
This is when I snapped, I gripped his jaw and jerked him up hard and sort of shook him. I left the room again after a few seconds of him startling awake. I came back and he asked what that was. I don’t remember if I apologized, I told him I couldn’t sleep because of him snoring.
He went to the bathroom and said to wait a minute. I laid in bed and heard him do some stuff in the bathroom, go to the kitchen, heard some moving around and groaning, then he laid down on the couch and fell asleep. I figured after a bit that he wouldn’t come back. We were talking a bit after he left the room but don’t remember what we said. I remember he told me I should have woken him up as he was getting up out of bed. I fell asleep alone way too drained to think about what had happened .
I wake up this morning and it comes back to me. I’m in disbelief. I get up and wake my husband on the couch. He says nothing to me and gets up to begin getting ready for work. He doesn’t say anything or acknowledge me the whole time he does his routine, I’m just sitting there on the couch.
He is putting on his shoes when he stops and looks at me. He tells me he is still processing what happened. He says, that if this becomes any sort of pattern he will see it as an indicator of how I will be as a mother. I reply that it isn’t a pattern. He told me I could have easily woken him up and explained. I agreed. He finished getting ready then sat next to me and told me he loved me more than anything and that he knows I can be a good mother, that this was concerning . I told him I loved him too. Then he left.
How can I come back from this? I crushed his trust in me.
I still am trying to understand. If this was a pattern of behavior maybe it would be easier to talk about. But as it isn’t I really have no clue how to approach this. I will never let myself even come close to doing something like this again. I have no history of psychological conditions. I know prenatal depression and anxiety is a thing but is that what this is?
What should I do now, how should I proceed, what should I even say to my husband? I cannot imagine doing something like this to our baby and I am telling myself that I would simply walk away or ask my husband to take over. I cannot just chalk this up to being pregnant and hormonal surely? What does this mean. I have never harmed him like this, and I don’t know how I can address this. He didn’t deserve anything like this.
Writing this now I feel shame. I have things to do today but I can’t bring myself to do much. I want some kind of relief . I won’t ever harm my baby and I want to resolve this with my husband and learn what I can do better.
We have been together for 4 years for context.
TLDR: I snapped because my husband was snoring and grabbed/jerked him in his sleep. I am 38 weeks pregnant. I don’t know what this means or what to do. I feel terrible.

Fam, I’m in my mid 40s. So my entire working life has been change. And good! To quote the great Joe Strummer, “Everyone has got to realise you can’t hold onto the past if you want any future. Each second should lead to the next one.”
The amount of hand holding & coddling I’ve had to do my entire working life is insane. It goes on and on. If you’re in your 30s or 20s & tired of shit well let me tell ya I’ve had an extra 10 years of this same shit! Older people who when new tech comes along they just say “oh I’m not doing that” or “oh I didn’t pay attention to any of the changes” all that flat out refusing to learn anything new. Then when it changes I have to hold their hands & show them the new stuff they refused to acknowledge was going to happen.
Side note, if someone tells me they are to old to learn something new that just tells me they stopped trying to learn anything new 30 years ago. I’ve known plenty of older folks that have very sharp minds & never stop learning & continue to grow & change with the times. My FIL is 77 and sharp as a knife. Always reading & learning. And I have an Uncle that’s 82, that guy never really left college & is teaching 2 classes this semester on top of taking 2 classes. He loves to learn.
Then you got the folks in their 60s I work with now. We had a simple update this morning that we all knew was coming. We all had the same training video to watch. Guess who didn’t watch. And guess who is non stop bitching this morning.
All that happened is the main app we use is no longer an app. It’s web based now. That’s it. Instead of opening an app you just go to chrome. & IT set everyone up with a desktop link. Click the link & log in. That’s it.
So far this morning I’ve heard:
Why do we have to change anything!
What’s my password? My password was saved of course I don’t know it!
Good luck with any of your saved bookmarks! (Nothing changed bookmarks still there)
This is stupid nothing works!
Not all. I’ve got one great old dude I work with late 60s smart guy. He had no problems this morning. I had no problems with it. 4 others I work with anywhere between late 30s to early 60s had no problems.
But there are always going to be people that refuse to change anything. That refuse to learn yet they sit there demanding respect & privilege. One came to my desk bitching and moaning & when I said I’ve had no problems everything is working fine they blew up even more. I don’t feel sorry for them I was prepared. Just like all my life. Latchkey kids for the win I’ve been taking care of myself since I was 10.
Have a great day everyone. Don’t let ‘em get you down!

A little background: we live in California where the state is phasing in universal TK. Last year kids had to be 4 by April 1 to qualify, this year June 1, and next year it’ll be fully implemented with the bday cutoff in Sept.
My kid just barely meets the age cutoff, but seems very ready for academic programs. She went to daycare from 2-3.5 yrs old but my husband stays at home with her now. They do lessons and she’s learning to read and do simple math.
We registered her for a nearby charter school and just got word that even though she was far down the waitlist, they have a spot for her.
The issue is two things - 1 she still has accidents pretty frequently. I think it’s mostly because she just doesn’t want to stop activities, but she also just doesn’t seem to care. And 2, we’re due with baby 2 the week that her new school would start. I’m worried both that she’ll feel like she’s missing out and also that school will expose us to lots of germs during the newborn phase.
Despite those things, I still think she would benefit a lot from socialization at school and I worry that when she starts kindergarten she’ll feel left out bc most of the kids will have been together a year already. Plus, no guarantee we’ll get into this school again with their lottery system.
Grateful for any advice!

I started dating this guy back in October of 2023 and the second we met we just connected and made it clear we wanted to be serious and try things out. I moved in to his apartment where he had an employee/friend living there. Everything was amazing, he was sweet, attentive, soft, and caring.
At this time he was just in charge of his record label… he is kind of famous but he was not part of his band at the time I met him….
then he started telling me he had a lot of insecurities… he is not the best looking guy but he was sweet to me and I didn’t care, I loved him for him…. also, my business is waiting on a government license and he started helping me financially with all my bills….
However, he decided for us to get a house and live alone. So we did… we moved into the house and within one month we started arguing about stupid stuff…. Little fights that would turn bug because he would tell me he didn’t like to argue… I am big on communication. He is not. I am close to family. He is not. He has 4 kids. I do not. And he decided to go back to his and and go on tour… so it was hard for me but I supported him….
one weekend we went to vegas and I saw him checking out a girl and I called him thirsty… helot me behind with his fiends and I asked him to talk to me on the side and he denied it… he came back to the room intoxicated at 7am with the help of his friend and wife so not worried that he was cheating. he once got drunk when we fought back at home
when we got back that whole day he left to his moms and came back telling me we argue too much these past 3 weeks and he is moving out… I was shocked… I waited one week for him alone in our home and he finally called me saying he wanted to come home but I asked him to get help and counseling and he got mad and started going out to strip clubs and clubs and he started adding a bunch of strippers on his instagram…. I can’t seem to get over him I am so hurt for him walking away so fast and easy… we had plans to build a family we started a a business and he just walked away like nothing. He then got upset beaucse I stayed in the furnished home he got for us which I will be taking care of the rent not him. He claims he did a lot for me. And now I am blocked..

I posted a while ago about gym etiquette and the Ketogains 5x5 weight lifting program
I'm on my 4th week now and I have not missed a day!
I have followed it closely with one exception: I've been a little intimidated by barbell squats and I wanted to get a few weeks in overall with a leg press machine until I felt a little fitter and stronger to handle a barbell. Though I did try a squat barbell on an off-vertical track and it left some pain at the base of my neck (next time I'll see if I can find a pad for the bar?)
Anyway, the point of this post is overall yes I am following the program (even down to the MCT oil, creatine, caffeine, and protein powder before lifting).
I am following the exercise order, it sounds like in general you want to work out the biggest muscle exercises first, that the smaller muscles are better to exercise toward the end of the workout when you are overall more fatigued. Here's the point about exercise order:
4. Changing Exercises Order. The exercise order is chosen for a reason. Squats first
because they are most important, but also heaviest. Stick to the exercise order, it
works best that way.
I'm wondering if there's a way to speed up my time at the gym without being too suboptimal. My question is: How much would mixing in mostly unrelated exercises during rest periods affect the overall effectiveness of the workout? For example:
Strength Workout A:

• Squats, then while resting: Bent Over Row
• Bench, then while resting: Shrugs
• Standing Overhead Tricep Extension, then while resting: Biceps

Strength Workout B:

• Squats
• Deadlift
• Standing Overhand Shoulder Press / Bent over row
• Close Grip Bench / Biceps

Is it just not worthwhile on a regular basis for the 15 minutes or so I might save?
Maybe just on days where I'm actually in a hurry?

Welcome,
I have problem with two mods to The Witcher 3 Complete Edition.
I installed 2 mods:

1. The Witcher 3 HD Reworked Project Ultimate + The Witcher 3 HD Reworked Project Ultimate Fix - Mod name: The Witcher 3 HD Reworked Project
   
2. Indestructible Items (4.03). Mod Name: Indestructible Items - No More Weapon Degradation (Next-Gen Update Compatible)
   

And my problem is with textures of some plants.I unzip Rework to main game folder, next second mod to folder "mods" in main game folder.I try with fix and no fix from Rework. Both failed.I uninstalled game and delate Main game folder. To be sure, there is no left some old mods files. Anyone have any ideas for this problem??
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After a little ruminating, I divided the book in three parts using pink washi tape: the Rune section is the main meat of the book, full of untranslatable symbols; the Transcription section, which I think converts those symbols to their phonetics; and finally the Epilogue, which was the final chapter of the book, written entirely in some strange language I’ve learned is Hesperian.
It was almost eight in the night when I finally gave up trying to find any coincidence in Gaggle from any of the words I could catch in the Transcription section of the book. Nothing, not a single clue. With a heart full of frustration and a growing need to engage in self destructive gaming, I decided to start working with what I could understand: the Epilogue.
The translator was limited on the amount of words I could do at the same time so, I had to improvise and do several batches. In the end, this is the result I got:
A long and winding road opens before you. From the moment you pick up this book, you have three options: You can ignore this challenge and give it to someone who wants to take it; You may destroy this book and be content to destroy another line that connects us with the Tree of Origin; or dare to read and seek the meaning of these symbols. This post is for you, the brave, who want to translate the untranslatable and understand the unintelligible. It is very likely that the person destined to translate this book will not be blessed with the Arcane Infection (if we can really call it such a blessing), so here are a few words of caution.
1.- Once your mind connects signifier and signified, don't read these words aloud unless you want to confront their effects. 2.- Do not comment on this book to any uninitiated. They wouldn't believe you anyway. 3.- Your perception of reality will slowly change with each new word you identify. Don't worry, it's natural to see the colors of magic once you wake up to it. 4.- Look for the gold sign in your city, probably in libraries and hospitals. If you can't find it, you're safe to practice in your own home. If you find it, dig around and find the Elysium before experimenting. 5.- Avoid the Black Cloaks at all costs.
I don't recommend taking this book to public places, much less to the Elysée. Study him in the safety of your home, quietly, eating snacks. Take your time, this is a task that can take years, but I assure you that it is worth it.
Once you reach the end, I'll wait for you at the point where it all begins...
A couple of hints before I go:
The title means "The Butterflies of Creation." A circle means a single word combined. Follow the arrows. You'll get used to the pace of reading eventually.
I wish you the best of luck.
Please survive. Humiko
Once the process of transcribing, which was honestly quite an ordeal considering this Epilogue was written in cursive by a shaky hand, translating and recording in my notebook was done, I am left staring at this nonsense for a while.
The worst part of all this? I can’t even promise the translation is faithful, Gaggle Translate is still in its baby phases…
My eyes turn to the clock on my laptop. Already thirty past ten… it’s getting a little late for this.
“Not that it ever mattered to you. What time have you been going to sleep these days anyway? Three in the morning? Maybe four?”
Sigh. The voice is getting harder to ignore, but I make an effort to just bite my lower lip and keep my focus.
There’s a lot to unpack here. Magic being the most prominent deal, this seems to be implying that magic is real? The insensitive skeptic in me wants to disregard that entirely, after all I am a person of science! But the rest of my body can’t help but want it to be real… after all, what’s the worst that could imply?
At best, hell yeah, magic is real! Neat!
At worst… there’s a lot more power in the hands of a mysterious, underground government that keeps tabs on us at all times not only with technological means but now with magical means too.
I shudder for a moment there. My head has not exploded instantaneously upon the thought so, at least I can either assume they can’t read my mind or there is no little microchip in my brain just waiting to destroy me for learning ‘The Truth’.
Then again, is that technology even possible? I–
“Focus, Tav.”
Yes. Yes, I need to focus. What other concepts are introduced here that this Humiko just assumes I know what she’s talking about?
‘The Tree of Origin’. Okay that’s easy, it’s probably some ‘Tree of Knowledge’ kind of allegory in the mythology I am getting my nose into. Probably an equal to God with a capital G… or maybe Yggdrasil? The tree of the world? That’s another possibility they could be referencing. No idea what this goes into, but apparently it is connected to the contents of this book.
‘Arcane Infection’. Does she mean magic? Or something else? Why call it a “blessing” and then backpedal a bit? Should I be worried about my health now? I have asthma so another infection in my body wouldn’t really be welcome…
‘Signifier and Signified’. She must be talking about the runes. No idea what she’s going on about though. Maybe I have to connect each word in my mind or something? Like a huge riddle… and then, only then, something magical will happen.
“This sounds like you are entering into a cult or something…”
Look, if they start trying to convert me into a cult I will run away as fast as I can.
“If you ever realize that. It’s not like the people making cults are experts brainwashing losers and outcasts like you.”
Moving on.
‘The Uninitiated’, clearly not-mages. So there is a separation between them and us, probably some sort of magical cloak to keep entire sections of the city hidden or something like that. Like in the Wizard Boy books! I wonder if there are magical schools and such too…
“Focus.”
Yeah, yeah.
The whole ‘Golden sign’ is pretty straightforward. I have to find some symbol hidden in the frameworks of our society. No idea what symbol, the internet is not exactly useful when I put something as vague as “golden sign” in it, but I guess I can leave that for later.
What is ‘The Elysium’ though? I mean, it probably doesn’t mean the fields from greek mythology, right? It is not telling me to go die, right?
Finally, the Black Cloaks. That’s vague, too vague. I have to avoid emo kids now? It probably will make much more sense when I get to work with deeper concepts but, it’s something to look out for…
‘The point where it all begins’. Another vague note, nonsense really.
“Most of this, if not all of it, is nonsense. You should be used to it by now… why do you pay so much attention to this when you could be studying something actually useful?”
Guilt pierces my heart like a frozen dagger. Saints damn it. It’s true. Why can’t I muster all this intense attention and initiative when it comes to my studies? It used to be so easy!
“It was never easy. You always struggled paying attention.”
And yet in highschool it was all so easy… I was the first of my generation. The most promising child to ever graduate from there, and now… look at me.
Look at all I’ve accomplished.
“You wasted your future. Now you can only do your best to pick up the pieces and beg for mercy from your parents and the world at large. Squandered your potential to the worst result possible. You know the worst part? You can’t really blame anyone but yourself…”
With a heavy sigh I stood from my chair, leaving the book, my notes and the laptop on the table.
“Are you finally giving up? Can we go to sleep now?”
Yeah… yeah I think I will.
“We can always continue tomorrow! Don’t worry, it will all be still here when you wake up!”
“Yeah, waiting, like everything you’ve left unfinished.”
My feet take the first step back towards my room.
“...Don’t you want to at least check on that last couple of hints? Particularly about the title of the book?”
My curiosity is picked.
I stop, and turn right around to read the translation again. It says it is translated to ‘The butterflies of Creation’. That… means nothing to me.
“Signifier to signified…”
I need to make the connections… on the notebook, I quickly scribble the words side by side with the translated text.
The Asu Butterflies tlo’ikovithiio of Creation
It’s easy to link ‘the’ and ‘asu’, but I am not even sure if the words can correlate in the same order, or something like that. The arrows do seem to tell me that. The rest of the word though… ‘Tlo’ikovithiio’, that could mean ‘butterflies of creation’, right?
I look for the runes in the first part. Particularly the one in the cover page.
Rune 2
I see one symbol, and then a circle containing several others. Saints damn it I am not even closer to understanding this than before, am I!?
The first one must be ‘asu’...which must mean ‘the’, right?
The rest of it is ‘tlo’ikovithiio’, Butterflies of creation…
“We are tracing circles at this point. Let’s go to sleep.”
“Shhh, they’re onto something.”
I am honestly tempted to simply give up, when suddenly it hits me: Look for patterns! Passing the pages, I may find the signs on their own!
Rune 3
Eureka!
“Uhhh…”
And if the transcription is faithful, which I just have to beg for it to be now, this has to be read ‘tlo’iiio’. Again ending in ‘iio’?
Now that I think about it, that symbol, the one with two dots and a line, I can only see it in circles indicating combined words.
I know for a fact these are two glyphs now, and if they are a combined word… ‘Tlo’i’ and ‘iio’ must be the particles!
Iio must be a particle you only apply to other words, to give them a quality.
“Dear, the room…”
Shh! I am focused!!
So back to our original word, ‘tlo’ikovithiio’... It would be three words! ‘tlo’i’, ‘kovith’ and ‘iio’! Three symbols. And if I really squijnt my eyes, that symbol in the middle, the ‘tlo’i’, really kinda looks like a butterfly right? Or some flying creature for sure!!
“Santino, really. Stop for a moment.”
So there’s the big U (that maybe represents a finger), the butterfly, and the particle ‘-iio’. Maybe ‘Creation’ means the literal creation of things, the act of making! So that U, that finger, is making the butterfly by touching it. Tlo’i and kovith would then be ‘Butterlfy’ and ‘Creation’. Putting them together maybe acts like a mixing of its properties. The butterflies, they are divine!
“Tav!!”
I snap out of my hyperfixation for a moment, only to notice that everything around me is moving. The chairs, the table, the computer, everything has been taken by sudden gusts of wind that blow around me. I am in the eye of a storm of my own making.
All that remains stationary is the old, badly bound notebook. The rune I wrote on it is shining a bright green… no, it’s purple… or golden? It shifts so quickly I can’t really tell.
“Make it stop!”
No.
Deep down, I know what I have to do… I have to finish the thought. I have to connect the signifier with the signified.
‘Asu Tlo’ikovithiio’. ‘Asu Tlo’i-kovith-iio’.
Iio must indicate something, a quality, a status.
“A plural.”
Yes. The pluralism! It indicates more than one!
“I got it!”
“Good! Now make it STOP!”
Raising my hand, I try to take a deep breath and touch the words on my notebook. Without really thinking on what will happen next, I focus.. and now with a full understanding of what I am saying, I whisper.
“Asu tlo’ikovithiio.”
Suddenly the tornado around me stops mattering at all.
I feel how the air suddenly escapes my lungs, pushed by some invisible force that also spreads an indescribable warmth from my heart and through my whole body. I see the same light of many colours spread through my veins, brightly shining as it pushes and escapes from the fingers of my raised hand.
Just as something forms on the tip of my fingers and spreads its wings, my body loses all strength. My eyes lose their focus, I feel myself trembling before falling down.
I can only feel the gentle, fragile touch of a butterfly for the faintest of instants before everything becomes black.

I am 38 weeks with my first child, I just last week took leave from work. My husband went to bed at around 11:40 last night. He is normally a perfectly quiet sleeper. However he is overcoming a pretty rough sinus inflammation. When this happens he will snore as he cannot breathe well with his sinuses inflamed (he has a nose deformity but that’s not important).
Last night the snoring was bad. I went to bed a while later than he did and I could hear the snoring from the living room. I haven’t been sleeping much lately and things have been difficult physically and mentally. I found that I can’t control my emotions as well as I used to and I cry, lose my patience, get distracted, a lot more in the past five weeks or so. People have told me this is normal as you get very late into pregnancy.
I laid down and quickly realized this wasn’t going to work. I have dealt with snoring when he was sick in the past. But tonight I found myself really pushed to the edge.
I know anyone reading this will think “why didn’t you just… wake him up?” and to that you are right. That was clearly what I should have done, and is what a more lucid me would have done. There were lots of ways I could have handled the situation that wasn’t this.
I’ll be brief as possible. I turned his head a bit to the side as that often helps on the occasion he snores. It didn’t do anything this time. I did this a few more times over the next minutes to see if it would reduce the noise. I left the bedroom for a while as I was frustrated. I came back and tried again. I remember moving the blanket over him as he had partly uncovered himself. I tried again.
This is when I snapped, I gripped his jaw and jerked him up hard and sort of shook him. I left the room again after a few seconds of him startling awake. I came back and he asked what that was. I don’t remember if I apologized, I told him I couldn’t sleep because of him snoring.
He went to the bathroom and said to wait a minute. I laid in bed and heard him do some stuff in the bathroom, go to the kitchen, heard some moving around and groaning, then he laid down on the couch and fell asleep. I figured after a bit that he wouldn’t come back. We were talking a bit after he left the room but don’t remember what we said. I remember he told me I should have woken him up as he was getting up out of bed. I fell asleep alone way too drained to think about what had happened .
I wake up this morning and it comes back to me. I’m in disbelief. I get up and wake my husband on the couch. He says nothing to me and gets up to begin getting ready for work. He doesn’t say anything or acknowledge me the whole time he does his routine, I’m just sitting there on the couch.
He is putting on his shoes when he stops and looks at me. He tells me he is still processing what happened. He says, that if this becomes any sort of pattern he will see it as an indicator of how I will be as a mother. I reply that it isn’t a pattern. He told me I could have easily woken him up and explained. I agreed. He finished getting ready then sat next to me and told me he loved me more than anything and that he knows I can be a good mother, that this was concerning . I told him I loved him too. Then he left.
How can I come back from this? I crushed his trust in me.
I still am trying to understand. If this was a pattern of behavior maybe it would be easier to talk about. But as it isn’t I really have no clue how to approach this. I will never let myself even come close to doing something like this again. I have no history of psychological conditions. I know prenatal depression and anxiety is a thing but is that what this is?
What should I do now, how should I proceed, what should I even say to my husband? I cannot imagine doing something like this to our baby and I am telling myself that I would simply walk away or ask my husband to take over. I cannot just chalk this up to being pregnant and hormonal surely? What does this mean. I have never harmed him like this, and I don’t know how I can address this. He didn’t deserve anything like this.
Writing this now I feel shame. I have things to do today but I can’t bring myself to do much. I want some kind of relief . I won’t ever harm my baby and I want to resolve this with my husband and learn what I can do better.
We have been together for 4 years for context.
TLDR: I snapped because my husband was snoring and grabbed/jerked him roughly in his sleep. I am 38 weeks pregnant. I don’t know what this means or what to do. I feel terrible.