This is going to be about the Pineapple conure(Daisy) and the turqoise cinnamon conure(Olive). So Olive was my absolute love. Their cage is in my room so she was my roommate also. She would come and preen me while I slept every pmce and awhile lol. Oh she was my heart. A few months after we got her, we got my other dear Daisy. A very very nervous girl that was passive and was never handled beforehand. They fell in love with one another.
In January, the worst thing happened when in a sudden blink of an eye, Olive went from completing fine and then dying in our hands. I was not okay and I'm still trying to heal. Daisy was left alone but she loves other birds and wouldn't let me love her no matter how long I worked with her. So I know I needed a friend, even if I wasn't done healing from Olive. Daisy made Olive's noises so it was like I still had her in a way. I connected with Daisy as much as I possibly could. I still tried with any hand training to one day get to that point she would let me, but I would talk with her a ton and tell her I love her and bop with her. But she still needed a friend. About a month ago maybe I finally got the yellowsided turquoise, Tulip. Tulip is a fire cracker and also doesnt like handling as her breeder didn't care enough. Yet Daisy loved her immediately and they would cuddle at night.
I got my very first job 3 weeks ago. While rushing out for work, I accidentally forgot to close my door. On the 17th, the family had the back door open, something scared the birds and Tulip and Daisy went flying. I don't know how anyone was able to get Tulip, thank God they did. But Daisy has been gone. We had a reported sighting of her the next day but since, nothing. She has been posted on all the facebook missing pets in my area.
This was so lengthy, I am very sorry. I just don't know what to do. I've been so torn up and riddled with guilt that I'm nauseous and now my new bird that was meant to be the support bird has been showing some signs of loneliness also. I don't know how to get over this. I assume Daisy is gone. I'm trying not to lose hope but with how easily she lets herself get bullied, I can see her being hurt and maybe even killed by wild birds or chased off far enough. My eyes are hurting from the crying. Knowing that she has died/will die cold and alone keeps hitting something deep in me. I dont know how to be okay and move on after losing my two dear pieces of my soul so close after the other and now have to worry about Tulip by herself.

A while back I was messing around with the Wayback Machine & came across this diamond in the rough on AP's MySpace page. Also found some photos, but most importantly, a track-by-track [Armed To The Teeth] interview from Sony Connect that they did back in '05 (presumably around the same time they did the Sony Connect set with the acoustic songs).
In the interview, Tommy tells the story behind each track on Armed To The Teeth (except Lucky). You'll also find tidbits about the process, lyrically & sonically of these songs, and much more!
If you want to read it/see it from the "raw" source and discover more, here's a link with the Wayback's capture I found on the interview blog: https://web.archive.org/web/20071005015435/http://www.myspace.com/abandonedpools
Now without further ado, the Sonic Connect Interview:
A track by track discussion of Armed to the Teeth from the Sony Connect Store interview:
LETHAL KILLERS TW: As far as how that [demo of the] song was constructed ... I did this trick where I would take a half-time drum loop and sort of nudge it one way and then put in another track and nudge it the other, and we got this sort of double time, rolling drum feel. So that - plus the sort of round-robin type of guitar parts that we have going - was sort of a very easy construction for a song. And then you start moving the bass part around, and, boom, you've got a song.
But I think that lyrically - I want to make it clear that that song isn't necessarily [about] "church is bad, government's bad." I think it's a little bit more complicated than that, though sometimes if you mix the two of religious power and government power, that can be bad for both of them. And I kinda like the idea of not living a life saying, "Well, you better live life in a certain way because then, you know, everything's gonna be great later in heaven." You know, the idea of, like, if this is all we have now, if that idea was just a little bit more embraced, our world could be a little bit better. I just find that a little bit more satisfying, too, if you think like, this is all you have and then you're gonna die. [Laughs] It seems a little bit more like, "Oh, okay, well!" instead of, like, thinking that there's some other life at some other time and you can put things off.
RABBLE TW: Well, a lot of the songs on this record - about two-thirds of it - have to do with a relationship I had that went south, and you know when you go through relationships you always have such a good 20/20 hindsight about things. And I think "Rabble" is just trying to basically say to somebody, "I just wanted to know you better" . . . It's just one of those things where, with this relationship in particular, I wish it would have turned out better. And there's a lot of things that happened that shouldn't have happened, and it's just sort of one of those "oh, what could have been?" scenarios.
THE CATALYST TW: "The Catalyst" is definitely along the same lines. I think the main line in that one is "I wish I could say something beautiful to make you fall in love again." There's a Coachella reference in there, too: "Love has slowly faded away like spotlights shining into space." Have you ever been to Coachella? Of course you have. You know, there's all those spotlights that shoot up in the air. I just thought that was kinda cool, like, how far do those lights really go? "The Catalyst" was also the last song written for the record. It was demoed while we were in the studio. And it's one of those songs that I said two-thirds of the record was written for somebody. That's one of them.
TIGHTER NOOSE TW: "Tighter Noose" is the oldest song on the record by far. It was probably written back in '99, 2000, or somewhere in there. I was thinking about it for the first record [2001's Humanistic], but it didn't really fit in with those kind of songs, so I kept it around and we'd even play it live occasionally. I think it fits in with these songs way better. [As for what "Tighter Noose" is about,] that song is one of those breaking-off-on-your-own- what-have-you-got-to-lose kind of things, because that was written sort of in the wake of when I was in The Eels. It wasn't a terribly happy situation, so I was like, well screw it, I'm just gonna go off and do my own thing. And then it's sort of like, well, you know: "I'm gonna go start my own thing. Uh, I have to learn to sing and write songs now." [Laughs] It's kinda funny: "Screw you guys! I'm gonna go get a deal!" And then like, "Uh oh." But really, I'm a firm believer in that [idea that] you just gotta go for it. And so it was like, well, this is gonna be difficult, but it's gonna be better than what I had before. And actually, with some distance on that situation, I realized I made the right decision and made a lot more money and was a lot more happy as a result. So that was sort of a leap of faith, you know. I didn't want to be someone's stupid bass player. Now I'm my own stupid bass player.
WAITING TO PANIC TW: There was a lull between record companies. The first record [Humanistic] was on Extasy - I don't know if you know about that company, but we were basically the poster-child for the implosion of an indie label. I came off the road in 2002, the label's folding, and I'm like, well, I'm just gonna go back and give this my best shot and we'll get another deal. It seemed highly unlikely, but we ended up doing it. And there was just a lull in there where nobody was interested. I had attorneys not returning my phone calls - that kinda stuff. It felt like, I'm just waiting around and I'm really anxious. So that was a song of frustration that was written and demoed all in one day - it was a song that just came out of me in like eight hours. We also put an EP out [The Reverb EP] and on the EP is the version of that demo that I did in one day. It doesn't happen [like that] very often. Usually I build bed tracks and come back to it a few weeks later and add something, and then come back a couple of days later. This one was all in one shot.
HUNTING TW: My friend Ross Golan, who has his own band Ross Golan and Molehead, had been following the wake of the relationship. He's like, "You just gotta write her a song and use her name." And I'm like, nah, nah, it's not covered enough. And he's like, "No, just do it. Go for it." So I did. I wrote this song and I wrote it for her for her birthday and I used her name, which is in the first lyric of the song, which is "Ginny." So I just went for it and wrote it. It was basically a birthday gift, and it was basically saying, like, you know, "Oops!" [Laughs] It didn't get me very far, but I like the song. We're friends, she's a good girl, absolutely, but back at that time, it was kinda like, "Erraaghhh! Here's a song!" But I like the song and I just think it was one of those times where I was really putting myself out there, and I know she liked it, too. But then, I think that's a myth where you just write a song and all of a sudden the girl just says, "Oh! Okay!" But, you know, hey. There it is. It's on the record.
That's the romantic notion of how they'll react to the song, at least.
TW: Exactly. And I'm really glad we're past that whole ironic phase, which I was part of with The Eels, where everything was super ironic and we'd play "The Macarena" on stage - [sarcastically] and that was funny! I'm glad we're through all that stuff, even though I was still a Beck fan when he was doing all that stuff, too. But I like being sincere and sappy and romantic. I kinda think that's a great thing.
ARMED TO THE TEETH TW: This is one of the first songs written when we came off the road and I had a lot of momentum. If you look at the state of the industry you can see a lot of corporations that seem to have to buy everything in sight. They just have to own everything, and to what purpose? Does it really make the industry much better? No. There's fewer outlets, there's a lot more gatekeepers. They want to buy stuff and it just kinda makes things bad for everybody. All the radio stations play the same shit - except for Indie 103.1 and KCRW in L.A. In spite of it all, I'm just gonna try to do my best and have a career anyway. When we came off the road I felt like I had a lot of momentum. Performing live is inspiring to writing, so it was just the whole idea of, "Alright, now that I have one record under my belt, I'm gonna really go for it in spite of all the forces that be." Even though they're pretty much indifferent to us, [laughs] their actions do affect us. It's sort of a song of bravado.
Why did you also choose "Armed To The Teeth" as the name of the album, too, which, in turn, implies it as the overall theme?
TW: Yeah, which is funny, since I kinda decided on that theme early on, thinking I was gonna go in a certain way, but then, like I said, two-thirds of the record is love songs. So "Armed To The Teeth" doesn't really fit in a certain way, but I also liked it just because [of] that idea of, like, now I'm really ready to make a record, and also I think it reflects the state of the country a little bit. Everything's a little bit aggressive, we're at war, and I thought it was sort of timely in that way
SOONER OR LATER TW: "Sooner Or Later" is another one of those tracks that was written after we got signed, so it's a newer song. I mentioned that sort of double time drum loop thing with "Lethal Killers" - this is the same thing. It's a half time drum loop that I nudged in one direction and then put in another track and nudge it in the other, then "boom," it's double time. And I like that, it's a good effect. It really sets up this kind of overlapping, rolling sound that a real drummer can't do. And things flam a little bit, and I really like that feel, so this song was constructed in the same manner where you have a rolling drum loop and then you put over a couple of guitar parts here and there and all of a sudden you got a song - I think this song is over six minutes. This is, um, I guess it's a couple things. Lyrically, it's sort of saying, like, whatever you do or whatever you say, there's no point in hiding anything because it all comes out in the end - which is the tagline in the chorus. There's no hiding. And in the verse it says, "Sooner or later / It's all coming down." In some way or another, whether you acknowledge it or if it just eats at your self, you can't really get away with anything. It's sort of fatalistic that way, but also in terms of, like, seeing how I also look at as a bigger picture of, like, politically, and since we're at war right now, it seems like things are getting a little scary. And that's kind of like one of those doomsday scenarios. If you look around a little you can really freak yourself out if you're reading about, like, bio-warfare and things like that. So a lot of this talk about "smoking gun in the shape of a mushroom cloud" and all that, it sort of brought up for me a lot of doomsday scenarios. So it's two-fold: it's that doomsday scenario, in terms of as far as the world is concerned, and then, personally, if you do stupid shit then you're eventually gonna pay for it somehow.
SAILING SEAS TW: Like "Hunting," this is probably the most direct, out-there storytelling song. Instead of using her [real] name, it's switched to "Holly," which is in the chorus. So it's another one of those songs talking straight to somebody. And there's a lot of details in there that I wouldn't talk about in normal conversation. That's the funny thing about songwriting where I wouldn't talk about this, but then I can put it in this song and you can still hear it and you still understand, but it's sort of masked a little bit. It's presented in a certain way where it's somehow okay to say that when you're in a major key or something. Because like, the second verse is about pretending you're outside a room listening to somebody [you love] have sex [with someone else], and that's a situation to put yourself into to really torture yourself. I created this scenario in my head and I put it in a song, and it's kinda brutal, but the [beat of the] song is upbeat and happy.
RENEGADE TW: This is a sample-based type song [with] drum loops. The cello was originally a Bjork sample and we replaced it. This one is sort of hard to explain. To me it’s just sort of like just a creation, because some of the record is social commentary, and I think there's a lot of that in this song, and it's like little snippets and ideas, and not necessarily one unifying idea. I think it's just kind of a song based on looking around and taking stock of things. This song in particular isn't really even about anything. It's just, like, observations, pretty much. And, oh, by the way, Billy Howerdel, the guitarist from A Perfect Circle, is playing guitar on that song. He jumped on that track and he's the one that makes it sound scary.
MAYBE THEN SOMEDAY TW: That was one of the first songs written in the wake of the breakup. It was one of those kind of "well-it-just-didn't-work-out-but-maybe-one-day-we'll-see-what-happens" kind of things. Because the circumstances are such that it wasn't gonna happen immediately so I was kinda like, well, we'll see. I don't have much to say about that; it's just grouped in with "songs about her."
GOODBYE SONG TW: That was also written when there was not a lot going on for me and we hadn't really nailed down the record deal. She [Tommy's ex-girlfriend] always thought she was bad luck - she'd show up and bad things would start happening - so she thought it was her fault that I hadn't got a deal. She actually moved away and soon as she did, we got a deal. [Laughs] I think it's funny to sort of say, like the first line of the song is "I'm not washed up / And you're not bad luck for anyone," so, you know, get off the ledge, really. And it's just one of those things; it's one of those yearning songs. I think with a lot of those songs there's a certain amount of effort spent on presenting evidence, like, "Look, I know this is how you feel, but look at all the other stuff." It's almost like making a case for your self [in a song]. And like I said, it didn't get me far, but it's still a good venting process. And I sort of realize when I say things like, "I wrote this for her" or whatever, it's not really for her. It's more self-indulgent to get this stuff out. And in a way you're saying, "Yeah, I wrote this song for you," but no, you wrote it for yourself so you could say things that you felt like saying. So I realize that and I think I realized that while I was writing them, but my job is to write songs so you take from what's around you to make it happen.

Earlier this year I binged through True Blood and it was at season 2 that I came across what is perhaps my favourite vampire in fiction: The suicidal, (somewhat) morally upstanding ancient vampire Godric. And I’m certain I’m not alone in my appreciation for him; he’s a fan favourite in much the way characters like Lexi and Rose are, and like them he did this through only a few appearances in season 2 (one of which is a wordless cameo that lasts ten seconds). What has this got to do with Finn? Well, because the third season of The Vampire Diaries cribs a lot from True Blood, and Finn was clearly their response to Godric. And even if this isn’t the case, and the writers weren’t thinking about one of the biggest shows on television at that time, how the writers wrote Finn really reads as looking at every lesson that can be taken away from the writing of Godric’s character and basically doing the opposite.

Lesson 1: Have a hype man.

Before we even get our first look at Godric he is hyped up throughout the first half of the season by Eric Northman. In the first sentence his name is uttered Eric says this: “He is twice my age and ten times the vampire I will ever be”. So even before we meet him we have this expectation of this awe-inspiring vampire that makes Eric, whose name was synonymous with authority and power in the first season, look like a second rage vampire in comparison.
What is done with Finn? Nothing. Even Kol’s name is used as a threat by Elijah before we even meet the guy. The first time his name is heard is in the episode we meet him, and all we learn is that he’s been daggered for 900 years. There’s no real importance placed on Finn being daggered this long either, like it’s not ever suggested that Klaus kept him daggered this long because he feared him. It almost sounds like this 900 number was picked at random by the writers because it’s never really built upon in a meaningful way. Finn could’ve Ben daggered for 500 years or even just a couple of centuries and it would’ve changed nothing. If anything this makes him seem less important, because he’s the one who’s lived the least. Part of the mystique of The Originals is in how long they have lived, and Finn kind of instantly loses that edge, and kind of becomes a different animal entirely. Which could’ve have been interesting to build on with his dynamic with a certain ancient red-headed Viking superbitch.

Lesson 2: Fulfilling expectations is good, subverting them is better.

After several episodes of build up, we finally see Godric for the first time in a flashback, where he kills Eric’s human friends in a blur, and when we get a good look at him… he’s a teenage boy (and not a CW teen, Godric’s played by a legitimate teenage boy). He’s scrawny, tatted up, and tells a helpless Eric that he is Death. And not only is he not what we expect visually, but when we meet him in the present he’s not some amoral bastard that makes Eric or Pam look like kittens, but he’s surprisingly a very compassionate dude who is averse to bloodshed and believes in peaceful resolution.
Because Finn isn’t built up, he doesn’t have any expectations to fulfill or subvert. We kind of get NOTHING from him. He doesn’t say two words to any of his siblings until 3x18. And the dialogue that is said ABOUT him doesn’t paint an interesting picture either. When we’re introduced to Elena as a dull, mopey teen, at least we have an idea that she was different before and a clear idea of the trigger to this transformational process was. But Finn was, apparently was ALWAYS like the way we see him in episodes 3x14&3x15. As per Elijah “He’s ALWAYS hated what we are”. And because he doesn’t really interact with any of his siblings prior to the attempted murdesuicide we don’t really know what he really thinks of them beyond the vague concept that he wants them dead, which implies that he feels the same way about all his siblings, which again is pretty simplistic.
This is a lesson that the writers actually follow pretty well with Mikael. Mikael is built up as a force of nature that has KLAUS, a man who got an entire season of build up as the scariest cunt ever, terrified and running. At the end of 3x05 the mere MENTION of his name by Damon sends Klaus running. And when we finally properly meet him in the present, he’s polite, refuses human blood, and even describes humans as “the innocent”. He’s genuinely surprising. At no point during 3x14 or 3x15 does Finn really do anything to surprise us. However, that changes the following episode.

How Sage helps fix this

The very next episode, things start to turn around for Finn’s character. We’re introduced to this morally dubious vampire who talks about indulging in the pleasures that vampirism offers right after the episode where Finn calls vampirism shameful, and then we learn that they were TOGETHER. And the following episode we learnt that Finn actually turned Sage because he loved her and wanted to be with her forever. So now instead of this dull boring guy who wants to kill himself who apparently always wanted to kill himself* Finn’s this man with contradictions, with a life, actual nuance to his view on vampires. His reunion with Sage actually sets him up for several interesting arcs/character dilemmas. How does Finn, someone who was raised with certain assumptions about how men and women, deal with the fa t that he has to heavily rely on his wife to do basically anything in the 21st century? How does he deal with the existence of Sage’s vampire progeny? Why did Finn even turn Sage, and why is she such a blind spot in his opinion of vampires?
But of course they die in the most ludicrous fashion possible, and The Originals never touched on this relationship at all, despite finding time for bringing up Matt and Rebekah’s relationship on two different occasions, turning a one minute conversation between Klaus, Elijah and the Salvatores about doppelgängers into the foundation of the Red Door arc, and making an entire season about a firstborn curse that only really explains why Finn didn’t have a kid despite being in his late twenties. By removing Sage from the story and character of Finn he’s turned back into a boring, hollow, unlikeable character. And up until 3x17 we’re just left to assume that Finn was ALWAYS like this.