Today, I had history. My teacher (female) was checking off an assignment that was meant to be complete over the weekend or Friday. I did not complete this assignment because I was picked up before lunch ended and was taken on a family trip to a desert resort with a golf range on Friday. This trip would last until Sunday and I obviously did not bring school supplies/hard items required for completing assignments with me for a trip. The reason for this trip was my Father‘s birthday and Mother‘s day, as EVERYONE knows. Yesterday, I was attending an end-of-the-year concert for my school band which lasted from around 4:30 to 7 pm. I had little to no time to complete my assignment. So today, in history, my teacher asks me if I had completed the assignment. I say I wasn’t able to. She says I was. I say I wasn‘t able to. She says I was again. I tell her how I went on a trip and how it was two important holidays and how it would be rude to work instead of spending time with my family. She straight up FUCKING SHAMES ME for using my dad‘s birthday as an „EXCUSE“ to not work. I am so tempted to whisper „fuck you“, but her attention was on me, so she would have definitely noticed. I feel like telling my dad about this predicament, but I feel more comfortable telling strangers online about it since the chances of it spreading are 1 in multi-billions. Thanks for listening.

I (29m) recently started dating (not exclusive, not boyfriend / girlfriend, just getting to know each other) a new woman (33f) after leaving a long term relationship (over 10 years) with an ex (28f). I haven’t really dated before (I was asked out by my ex early on in high school and never dated before) so dating is new to me. When meeting new people I avoid over sharing information about my past romantic history early on unless asked very specifically about it. For example, I will share information about my past history like when we broke up, why we broke up, what I learned, and on but I’ll avoid more details about how involved we were together (e.g. living situation, traumatic events, etc) or particularly difficult topics for me until I get to know the person more.
I’ve started slowly dating one woman. On date two (about a month ago) she casually brought up pets and asked about my experience with animals (would you ever want a pet, have you taken care of a dog before, etc). I talked about my experience with pets early on in my childhood but did not discuss the dog that my ex bought for emotional support (despite my objections) and that I helped care for in the last two years of our relationship. I avoided this topic because my ex and I got into a particularly nasty argument splitting up property (I had expected her to not fight me over certain sentimental items in exchange for me not trying to fight for her dog, which didn’t go as expected) a week before the second date. I knew that if I brought up my ex’s dog I would probably get upset and I didn’t want to trauma dump or throw things off on our date, so I didn’t mention it.
We’re going on date four later this week. Last week we talked about deeper relationship questions. She talked about how she really values transparency, being direct and avoiding white lies with a partner which are things I value too. I was remembering the pet discussion last night and this morning I now feel conflicted - maybe even ashamed - of avoiding talking about the dog before. I wasn’t trying to misrepresent who I am to her, just avoiding a sensitive topic early on, but I feel like in doing so I may have misrepresented myself and I feel bad about that because it doesn’t align with my values (even though this wasn’t a white lie). I don’t really know how to handle under sharing vs lying by omission though. It seems like a gray line unless you always default to over sharing.
So my questions here:

1. Would you characterize my actions as lying by omission or undersharing?
2. How do you recommend tackling lying by omission vs under sharing in the future? How do you draw the line?
3. How can I go about making things right here? I want to tell her eventually, but I’m not sure about the best way to bring this up.

Hey x
Got home not long ago and just got into bed.
How comes you stopped taking the prescription? Is it because you’re in taking a lot of other stuff at the moment already? Hopefully the lay down does you good.
Did a quick shop after work then just sat in the car park eating cold fried rice and a few bites of a plum. Still didn’t really have an appetite but did feel like I needed to eat. Thank you again. If you pack lunches anything close to that for missys packed lunch at school then other kids are going to be envious for sure! I really appreciate it. As well as jumping out of the house as soon as it happened. Superman ain’t got nothing on you for sure.
Whilst I was in my own thoughts eating in the car, someone came and knocked on my window and asked if I could help jump start their car. Which I did. Just had a thought that this is the first time that excuse has come true lol.
When we do look back on all this, there are certainly stories to be told. Unfortunately, a lot of them car related! Maybe if I had just let you drive me home all them years ago, it would have shaken off this car damage curse!
If you’ve fallen asleep already, hope you have a good night. Will be up around 8 in time for the guy to do what he needs to do so will keep you updated in the morning x

I am 22F and im jealous of my best friend (also 22F) because of her appearance. Before I go further I just want to state that she's my one and only friend and I love and value her and this is completely not her fault I feel this way because she has never brought me down or insulted me or meant anything bad. we are friends of 8 years since school.
It only started lately and I believe mostly it happens because of weight difference. She's slim and has a beautiful face. I don't think im ugly or anything, like the way I look but got some extra weight though. I started doing sports 1,5 years ago (yoga, pilates, stretching) and currently feel much better but still hasn't lost weight. Also I never had a boyfriend (idk why, it's a long talk) and she's currently in a relationship and has an ex of 5 years. Needless to say it affects my self esteem (not her fault ofc, not trying to blame it on her)
Regardless we spend great time together going to museums, exhibitions, parks, bars, cafes, etc, taking pictures, messaging daily and updating each other on everything. It all seemed to be fine and it never really affected our friendship.
I don't really know how to feel about it. the worst part is that I can't talk to her about it because I love her and I don't want to make her feel miserable. i know she will feel this way cause she can't help me and I will sound vulnerable and insecure and im afraid this will kinda spoil our friendship. At the moment I decided to temporarily distance myself from her, just said I don't feel mentally ok and I won't be chatting for some time and she accepted it. I know she will be waiting until I tell her what happened.
I have no one to talk to about this issue and im VERY insecure about what I write, but I saw people sharing such stories here so I decided to make an account and write a post.
so basically if you had similar experience how did you handle it? should I actually tell her (im really unwilling but if it helps) or should I just work on myself and not bring it up? I will much appreciate all the possible answers. if there is any advice and tips on how to fight jealousy I would gladly read them.

I am 22F and im jealous of my best friend (also 22F) because of her appearance. Before I go further I just want to state that she's my one and only friend and I love and value her and this is completely not her fault I feel this way because she has never brought me down or insulted me or meant anything bad. we are friends of 8 years since school.
It only started lately and I believe mostly it happens because of weight difference. She's slim and has a beautiful face. I don't think im ugly or anything, like the way I look but got some extra weight though. I started doing sports 1,5 years ago (yoga, pilates, stretching) and currently feel much better but still hasn't lost weight. Also I never had a boyfriend (idk why, it's a long talk) and she's currently in a relationship and has an ex of 5 years. Needless to say it affects my self esteem (not her fault ofc, not trying to blame it on her)
Regardless we spend great time together going to museums, exhibitions, parks, bars, cafes, etc, taking pictures, messaging daily and updating each other on everything. It all seemed to be fine and it never really affected our friendship.
I don't really know how to feel about it. the worst part is that I can't talk to her about it because I love her and I don't want to make her feel miserable. i know she will feel this way cause she can't help me and I will sound vulnerable and insecure and im afraid this will kinda spoil our friendship. At the moment I decided to temporarily distance myself from her, just said I don't feel mentally ok and I won't be chatting for some time and she accepted it. I know she will be waiting until I tell her what happened.
I have no one to talk to about this issue and im VERY insecure about what I write, but I saw people sharing such stories here so I decided to make an account and write a post.
so basically if you had similar experience how did you handle it? should I actually tell her (im really unwilling but if it helps) or should I just work on myself and not bring it up? I will much appreciate all the possible answers. if there is any advice and tips on how to fight jealousy I would gladly read them.

I just had things ended because a guy I was talking to finally told me today that he didn't want me and that I wasn't for him, but it ended up going way worse than I wanted.
Everything started with me reconnecting with him in Walmart. I knew him prior to this because we used to go to the same high school together but never really talked. I gave him my instagram and we were talking about our exes cause that is how we even knew each other. While I was texting him, he asked me for my number then we started texting on imessages. He would text me, send me pigeon games, and call me every now and then.
There was one day where he called me and he wanted to ask me sexual questions, I was cool with it cause we had been friends for 2 weeks and plus I don't really have anything to hide. I didn't think much about it while telling him and asking him stuff cause we were friends, he had started talking about how he wanted someone to be friends with benefits with that it wouldn't end up ruining the friendship and I told him I could never do that stuff cause I want to be in a relationship with those that I am sexual with, plus I get clingy with them cause I tend to actually like them.
At some point of talking, he even asked for me to send and I told him that I wanted to do all of that stuff when I get married because my last ex (the ex he knew about) had taken my virginity to get his ex (the guy i was talking to's ex) jealous. I don't know exactly what he said but he said something like "Well it would suck to wait for someone during the relationship just to realize that they aren't good at sex", which made me feel like I was waiting for no reason because after that ex, I never was sexually active with anyone (about 2-3 years counting). I ended up sending some old nudes because I thought it wouldn't matter anymore and that he was kind of cute. After that, the more we talked the more the sexual tension got heavy, he was talking about how he liked my body and how he wanted to fuck me, and I was eating it up cause he was making me feel pretty and wanted. He ended up jerking off to my picture when I let him take the time to (cause I really didn't want to do e-sex cause I've always felt unfulfilled doing it) and when he came back everything was fine.
After some days, we had gotten into this habit of me sending him nudes, taking them how he wanted them to look, with him complimenting me and jerking off to them, there was only one time where we did e-sex, everything else was sending. The sending nudes ended up making me feel how I did in my previous relationship which was like a whore, not an actual person, and like a porn magazine, so I talked to him about it and he told me to just tell him to stop when he does ask. Time passed some more and he would still asked so I talked to him again about it because everytime we would have a sweet moment he would ask me for nudes or say something sexual, but this time he was still entertaining the idea, I assume he was thinking I was playing hard to get, I really don't know, but this time I told him, "I don't think you'll get to the point of actually liking me" because during this time he made it seem like we were leaning into a relationship while I always said that I wanted a relationship, he had backed off when I said that but he replied saying "(my name) don't be like that". After that, the only time that we would be sexual was whenever I initiated it, which would be about once every 2-3 weeks.
During that I would treat him like a boyfriend, but he was still being plain towards me, (he even told me that he liked the way I treated him) the only time he would compliment me was when I dressed up, so I asked him about how he was rarely lovey dovey towards me and he told me that he needed more time to get to like me even more than he did cause he wanted to take things slow, I got salty and told him that sexting me and wanting me to send nudes wasn't take it slow, he didn't say anything about that but smirked and change the topic. Every now and then, I'd make slick comments about stuff that didn't make sense. We had gotten to a point where he told me that he wasn't going to be texting and calling as much because he wants to start his business up, which I had no problem with that, I told him that I would always be there for him and when needed me, if there was anything I could do to just let me know, and I even told him if he felt like he needed to not pursue a relationship right now that we could stop or cut ties for now. He agreed with him not pursuing a relationship, again stating that he wants to put all of his focus in the business, and that there was nothing wrong with me, just that he wanted to focus on himself. I told him that I didn't know if I was cool being just friends because I was actually trying to pursue a relationship with him and that if I figured out how I felt about it I would let him know so that things didn't get toxic between us.
6 days later (5/10/2024),
At night, I told him the way everything is right now is making me confused and overwhelmed because I didn't really understand what our status was, and it wasn't somewhere I wanted to be especially after sending him pictures of my body using a voice message. I also told him that I was regretting showing him my body cause of how I felt I was being used but didn't want to assume and was hoping that he just needed time, he replied the next day during the afternoon telling me that I was a good person just that he couldn't see a future with me, that he thought he made his want of being only friends clear, that we would go different directions if we did get together. I got confused about that part because everytime I would try and talk to him about us meeting up and how we would maintain the relationship, he would tell me that it was too soon to talk about it, so i got a bit mad and asked him how he came to that conclusion knowing that we didn't talk about it at all, how he knew my boundaries but didn't straight up tell me that he didn't want me so I could save my time, and how he didn't make anything clear cause I thought we were on pause for now and going to attempt to try again once the business started up. He then told me that I was trying to guilt him, to not be mad at him because he didn't want a relationship, that he didn't want me, that I wasn't for him, and to not get mad at him for something he couldn't control.
I told him that I wasn't meaning to guilt him (cause I wasn't, I was just being transparent and honest on how I felt) and that I wanted to call instead of texting cause i didn't like it, I felt more miscommunication was happening, he told me he didn't want to call because he didn't want me to call him an asshole and how my problems are his fault, I told him i never said it was his fault but he corrected me by reminding me i said it in the voice message i sent last night (I was really high when I made it, so i didn't remember much when I woke up), so i listened to it and I literally told him that it was half of his fault that I'm confused about our status and how I needed more stability from him, so I told him that just adding that I was also at fault to for not knocking him down when he first came at me. After that, I started screenshotting the messages for my notion journal to dissect more on how I feel about it to try to understand more on how i felt and to help me move on, but he gets PISSED, he texted me on imessage.
him: "yeah no, fuck your screenshots"
me: "why you don't even know what i'm going to do with them?"
him: "1 screenshot. Sure. 3??? Nahhh. You trynna catch me up. I one you and screenshots and I don't fuck with it. That drew the line for me. You right. We shouldn't talk."
THEN HE FUCKING BLOCKS ME ON EVERYTHING EVEN GETTING A MUTUAL FRIEND OF OURS TO BLOCK ME. So i start racing to talk to him because I didn't think it was a big ass deal, so i text him on discord and he's telling me to fuck off and blocks me. I kept finding ways to contact him trying to explain to him and apologizing that I'm keeping it to myself and that its nothing more but he tells me to fuck off even more to the point where he even threatens to report me. I gave up and I sent my last message to him telling him that he basically sucks, doesn't reciprocate any mercy I've given to him or treat me as if I mattered to him, how it was unfair how stubborn he was to not even try to understand how i felt, how i still, despite, the entirety of the situation, love him, and hopes his life goes well.
I do want to add that I understand constantly texting him and calling him about it was a bad move, I truly was just acting on my emotions instead of calming down then making a choice. I am obviously at fault for it

Hello. My name is Bungling-Worm. You may remember me from my highly condemned submissions such as "Socialists-The Moralist Busybodies Preventing You From Beating YOUR Cheating C\nt of a Wife and Annoying Children", "Profit or: Humanity's Raisin Deter (sic).", "Who Really 'Needs' Clean Air and Water Anyway?", "Hayek Was Right! - How Fascism Saved Western Civilization™ From the Bolshevik Menace" and "SWEATSHOPS!-The Greatest Gift to Third-World Youths Since the Polio Vaccine.*"
Today I'd like to address my fellow capitalists. It's no secret that, much like the U.S. military in Iraq circa 2003-2011, we're losing the battle for the hearts and minds of our intended slav..subje...vict...vassa...thral...our fellow men™. For this reason my employer, Generic Right-Wing Think Tank Inc., in partnership with our good friends in the U.S. Central Intelligence Agency and the U.K. Special Intelligence Service (formerly U.K. Military Intelligence, Section 6), have contacted the eminent propagandist conservative philosopher and gained his gracious permission to make an official Part 2 to his highly acclaimed How to argue in favor of capitalism and against socialism, a helpful guide the table of contents of which is freely available (for a limited time only) here: https://www.reddit.com/CapitalismVSocialism/comments/1cqvdsv/comment/l3wuegi/
Without picnic-boy's pioneering achievements in sophistry this work would not be possible. Now, without further add-do (sic) I give you a sneak peak into the table of contents of How to argue in favor of capitalism and against socialism, a helpful guide: Part 2.

1. State, often and always without evidence (because none exists), that socialists control all mainstream news media, organized religion (especially the Catholic Church, the Jesuit Order, the Hasidic College and every sect of Islam), Western academia, K-12 public education, the entire U.S. civil service (from the municipal all the way up to the federal), the FBI, the CIA, the Justice Department, the Democratic Party, the Fraternal Order of Freemasons, Hollywood, all police unions, the entire federal judiciary, all the major drug cartels and organized crime syndicates, the Federal Reserve System and the governments of literally every single third and second world country, especially the far-right and non-white majority ones. At the exact same time, and this is really important so pay close attention, accuse socialists of being unpopular teenage losers living in their parents' basement who're too lazy to get a job.
2. When socialists remark upon how similar the claims in point 1 are to contemporary Neo-Nazi conspiracy theories and start to question how you feel about Jewish people turn around and accuse them of being "the real anti-semites" for "wanting to take all the Jews' money away ". In no way is this conflation of all Jews with rich capitalists a form of economic antisemitism. If someone points out that it is simply cherry pick quotes from Marx's "On the Jewish Question" out of context so that none of the parts where Marx makes it clear he is only critiquing Judaism as a religion while at the same time advocating for the political emancipation of Jews as people are clear to the reader. After that go on to talk about how much you support Israel and how much happier you think diaspora Jews would be if they permanently immigrated there. Also and for no particular reason talk about the "failure" of the Kibbutzim apropos of nothing and don't elaborate on anything.
3. Always portray struggles of democratic socialists within ML states/the Eastern Bloc as struggles for capitalism. Yes, it is true the people who organized the East German Uprising of 1953, the 1956 Hungarian Revolution, the Prague Spring of 1968, and the Polish Solidarity Movement of the 1980's (before the Vatican and CIA hijacked it) all demanded democratic socialism, yes they all said that, but what they "really wanted" was capitalism and don't you let any so-called "historian" tell you otherwise.
4. Pretend that socialists invented the very concept of the state and thus that all state rulers from the Roman Emperors, Egyptian Pharaohs, Greek Archons, etc. to modern Kings, Kaisers, Tsars and Presidents were/are "socialists".
5. Don't forget to liberally pepper your psychotic rants with plenty of freudian slips and accusations in a mirror. For example, make the claim that socialists want to destroy the family so that they can isolate, abuse and indoctrinate women and children while at the same time assert that wives and children are nothing more than an extension of "the individual" who need to be shielded by this individual from an unrealistically hostile and confusing world (literally everything and everyone outside the home).
6. Assert that socialists invented taxation and ignore that the first taxes in recorded history took the form of land-rents set by the first governments (which were councils of militaristic landlords).
7. Defend rent-seeking and landlordism so long as it's done by private individuals. Remember rent-seeking is only bad when the government does it because they spend that money on social parasites and welfare leeches, unlike landlords who spend it on their second families in the next state over.
8. Claim fascism is a form of socialism but also defend the legacies of lesser known fascist regimes, military dictatorships and other totalitarian right-wing governments whose symbols and mottos the people in your country haven't developed a learned fear response to yet the way they have the Swastika and the Fasces.
9. When leftists point out that the main victims of things like the Great Purge and the Chinese Cultural Revolution were socialists,communists, anarchists and other left-wing intellectuals who opposed Stalin and Mao's cults of personality either ignore them and maintain that the "real victims" were the tiny minority of "innocent" religious extremists, ultranationalists (who were "definitely not" fascist collaborators or spies), and resource hoarders who were killed or do a complete one hundred and eighty degree pivot and actually defend the Great Purge and Cultural Revolution because "The more left someone is, the more violent/dictatorial they are, therefore anyone to the left of Stalin and Mao would have been more violent than them and it's a good thing they were killed."
10. If you think any of these points are self-contradicting just remember that doublethink is merely a tool and "communists" (Stalinists) shouldn't be the only ones allowed to make use of it.
11. Ignore the mountains of evidence that an anti-Stalinist left exists. Portray these leftists as right-wingers and edit their most famous works to leave out the many mentions of their own support for socialism.
12. Remind your interlocutor(s) that socialism is gay and cringe.
13. Remember that reading is gay but total illiteracy is still kinda cringe (unfortunately). Therefore read as little as humanly possible without going full illiterate. Our recommendation is to only read blurbs from ancap websites, your favorite right-wing conspiracy theorists' social media threads and your fellow "capitalists' " reddit posts and nothing else.
14. In keeping with point 13 let the only things you "know" or "learn" about socialism be things you absorbed through osmosis and half remember from your high school history textbooks assuming you even read them at all. Never look at primary sources, never listen to people trying to explain things to you in detail, always complain that quotes provided to you are "blocks of text" or "unoriginal".
15. Remember that conformism, unquestioning obedience to authority, an unflinching belief in the correctness of the current socioeconomic status quo and conventional wisdom, and a general Panglossian worldview with a huge heaping of moral nihilism (which is definitely a real philosophical school of thought and not just a rationalization of one's own sociopathic tendencies) are actually somehow radical and that "conservatism is the new punk rock" of the 21st century.

Thought I'd make some closing thoughts on the CS experience at this school for future/current students.

1. Figure out what the goal of college is for you - to get a job, to get into academia, to strengthen your knowledge in CS, to go out to bars and make lots of friends, or a combination of all/some of these. This will save you lots of time when making decisions. Should you work all night to bump that MP from 85 to a 95, or would you rather go to happies with your friends. Would you sacrifice your grades to make new friends and gain leadership experience in RSOs. If you know your goal, it is relatively simple to make these decisions.
2. You don't need to know exactly what you want to do within CS, but do not let that be an excuse to do nothing. Don't know if you want to do machine learning, cybersecurity, backend, ui/ux, frontend, product management, or leadership? Doesn't matter. Choose something, and dive deep into it. If you like it, great! If not, move on to the next thing.
3. Being kind gets you further than being smart. I'm not saying being technically competent isn't important -- it is. but, DO NOT BURN BRIDGES. TALK TO EVERYONE. BE KIND TO EVERYONE. This is especially valuable for freshman. I'm not telling you to be the most outgoing person or spend all your time trying to make random friends just for the sake of it. But when you run into people you met once, say hi! This is very dependent on the type of person you are, and why you are even in college, but in general I notice that people who are just kind and get along with everyone tend to do better in life lol.
4. If you want to go into further education, do research. or, have connections with some faculty/professors. You cannot get into most masters program without some academic letters of rec, so be a face that some professors know. I graduated with a very high gpa, but didn't apply to a single masters program because I had no connections in the university.
5. Almost everyone around you is cheating. It is pretty wild how UIUC is ranked so highly with a HUGE proportion of students cheating in classes like Data Structures and Systems Prog. Again, if you know your goal is to just explore computer science topics and expand your knowledge, this wouldn't bother you. However, if your goal in college is to land a high paying job or get into higher education, it will definitely bother you that others are taking easy routes to potentially take your job/college spot. My best advice is to either ignore the issue or join them. Complaining tends to do nothing. I'm sure professors know and don't care, either because they are lazy, or because if you cheat in college you are usually just cheating yourself out of an education.
6. College isn't designed to be a pipeline to a job. I found myself many times wondering why I'm spending all this time on a course/topics that I won't need in Software Engineering. However, the curriculum is designed to give you a wide breathe of computer science topics, not software engineering topics.
7. Go out more. Make deep, real connections with people as well as some not-so-deep friendships. Make mistakes, make dumb decisions. Messing up now is way better than messing up in the real world.

Hello, I'm 16 F and I'm wondering whether my situation is normal or not. Growing up my mother has never been affectionate, and always seemed to care about how she looked, how she's dressed, what her colleagues at work will think of her outfit etc etc.
She always dictates what I have to do and how I have to do it, from giving me exactly what I'll wear to school tomorrow (if I don't, she will get upset and scold me) to telling me how I should do each little thing I do. She judges my interests and tells me what I should do instead. (E.g I play guitar and do track running, she tells me to do gymnastics instead.)
Whenever I'm in a queue with her for something (a hospital, bank,...) she would feel like she has the privileges to go in front of everyone else?
Doesn't matter if I feel stressed, sad or happy and proud, in need of sharing how I feel with my mom, she would always kind of dismiss it. Then she tells me she's my mom and I should tell her everything.
Now the worst thing about our relationship is that she used to physically abuse me. Emphasis on used to. She would hit me on the head, kick me and throw objects at me without any reason? Right now, the only thing that makes my days with her unbearable is her remarks. The classic: kill yourself, I wish I never had children, When I see other children I get disgusted of mine, etc.
Now I know that probably none of you are trained professionals and can't tell me anything for sure. But I'd be happy to hear suggestions, what should I do in this situation? My grades are starting to drop and I feel more and more miserable as time passes.

A few days ago I posted about being exhausted playing into my husband’s harmful ABDL fantasies, and about his poor treatment towards me and his general immaturity and abusive patterns.
After our first marriage counseling session on Friday morning, I decided to leave the house and stay with a friend indefinitely. He opened up about ABDL (which the counselor didn’t know about, but took it well), and I shared some abusive things my husband has done to me or around me.
It was validating, scary, and triggering for me to open up about the abuse that I’ve been denying since we got together and since we’ve been married. But I know I needed to if I want healing and restoration.
After counseling, my husband (unknowingly, according to him) starting gaslighting and belittling me. His issues with me are the size of an ant compared to the elephant sized issues I have with him.
His behavior and attitude sent me off the edge and that’s when I decided to pack up and stay with a friend for the time being. I also texted/called his mentors and a trusted friend about his behavior and I have their support, and they also reassured me they would be there for my husband and tell it to him like it is.
Since I’ve left my husband he has declared he’s giving up his ABDL addiction, he will be going to therapy, and he has admitted he has been abusive and has mental issues. He says he will also remain accountable now that these mentors and friend know about his ABDL addiction. I have also brought up that he might be a narcissist, which he took surprisingly well.
I won’t be living with him again for a good while. I’m traumatized, in physical pain from the stress, and need to learn how to function and be myself again. I’ve been doing whatever I want to do, watching movies I want to watch, feeling no obligation to be there for him- it’s been great in that way! No more “Mommy, I need my bottle filled, check my diaper, why didn’t you do sparkle makeup, you get everything wrong, I need a change,” etc etc. Also no one waking me up in the middle of the night because of they “need Mommy’s touch” or their diaper needs changing!
This MAN, not baby, needs to learn he can’t treat the person who LOVES him the most like shit and expect her to stick around with a smile on her face.
We’re in contact; he texts me what he’s learning now that I’m away. I wish he could have heard me the first time I said I wasn’t ok and needed medical and mental help, and for him to stop his selfish ways. Unfortunately me leaving is what got his attention. Literally just like a child lol.
Yesterday he texted me that my “baby” is growing up. I’m not sure if I believe him, but I hope it’s true. I just want my husband. ❤️

Okay this might be the longest reddit post I've ever made. But this requires a lot of context before I ask for advice from you guys. So thanks for reading in advance.
Okay where to start? Me (20F) and this guy (20M) (let's call him P for anonymous reasons) were very good friends for around 8 years, before we even really considered the fact that we liked each other. So a few years back in 2021 (yes that messy year) he asked me out. And I said yes. I couldn't believe my luck honestly. I never thought he would ever like me back (maybe that's partly due to my self esteem issues idk) but he did!
Okay so we went out for a few months before things started to get a bit difficult. I met his parents early on and they liked me and everything was great. But then several bad things happened which I will now talk about.
First up we attended youth group together. This was amazing at first. But then there was this prom (if you don't know what that is its kind of like a disco) with a lot of young people together. And he ignored me basically the entire night which really upset me (as you can imagine) And this is when my mom started to really dislike him (they had a great relationship)
A few weeks after that we attended a camp holiday together. Even though I was slightly upset I did love him and I wanted everyone to get along. After all that's what everyone wants right? Anyway during this camp, P ignored me the entire time. And then I attempted to badly injure myself.Now you may think that's it right? No. And that's kind of where this entire mess starts.
After that my mom despised him. She started to distrust me (not just because of P but because of other unwise decisions I had made) she came across sexual messages on my phone from him, and as I claimed to be ace and was upfront about sex making me uncomfortable, this infuriated her. I was 17 at the time and I was studying for a levels (and so was he) she because of this forced me to spend a year without seeing him and we both really struggled with this. After that year took place and I got a place at uni, we mutually decided to see each other of our own accord. After a few months, I decided to ask him out again following a trip to his accommodation (and things being very tense between us) and he said yes, after being slightly hesitant over problems it may cause. So that's what we did. We became secret and loved each other in the way we always wanted to but couldn't.
So that brings us to the present. I recently told Mom in therapy I was seeing P again because I couldn't handle the guilt anymore (as you can imagine) and I told him after and he said that is was over between us. I knew he didn't want this and we had an argument regarding the situation (we rarely argue) and I later found out exactly why he was so angry (a friend really hurt themselves) so he wasn't acting himself. We tried to give each other space but couldn't, and we found ourselves flirting consistently with the other and then a few days later he asks do you want to be friends with benefits instead? I said yes (knowing this is probably the best I would ever get)
Now I don't know a lot about the whole friends with benefits situation, but it seems to be certain rules you stick by. Like the relationship is purely based on sex, and there's no kisses goodbye or whatever. No cuddles whatsoever. Now writing this I have just spent a weekend with him, and we both said we love each other several times. As well as having sex, and doing all the usual couple things. I am so confused at what we are.
Now I haven't yet told you in detail about his side of this situation. He is disabled (he had a stroke at 4) and half of his brain is damaged which has sadly impacted some of the decisions he has made. His parents got told by my mom and my uncle that he was trying to commit sexual abuse towards me and that I was emotionally far below my age. Now everything I did with him was purely mutual and consentual. We had discussions regarding me being ace and being comfortable in situations. Now his parents think we are just friends and mom has claimed she is going to tell both of them about him seeing me.
Guys I want to know what you all think. Am I right in pursuing this strong emotional connection with him? Our futures both align perfectly and even my friends have said how perfect our connection is, and how they dream that they could have something similar. I genuinely belive he is my soul mate. I know people have gone through relationships their parents have disapproved of and it's ended up okay. He is my rock and I'm his. I just want us to be together with no secrets.
Again thanks for reading and I appreciate all views! I just really need the help and advice on what to do next
Thanks

Thanks in advance to anyone who takes the time to read this.
My life is in a terrible mess & just continues to spiral downwards at a rate of knots. Where I’m at has been heavily influenced by mental illness (bipolar disorder) but equally I take full responsibility for my actions.
I have 2 kids. All I care about is them. But this life I’m living isn’t sustainable.
I’m 42. I’ve been with my wife for 22 years & we’ve been married for 17. Things were good until 7 years ago. At that time my eldest child was 3 & my youngest was a baby. I had a good enough career for my wife to not work for the foreseeable. I had a history of anxiety & depressions & 7 years ago I was put on an antidepressant. I hadn’t had my bipolar diagnosis (won’t get in to all that here) & taking an antidepressant without a mood stabiliser if you’re bipolar generally ends badly. I’d not long started work at a new company & I began to feel very unwell. Even after stopping the antidepressant (when I was diagnosed soon after), I was very unwell for several months. I couldn’t do my job. My wife was at home with a baby & I didn’t want to worry her. I pretended to go to work & sat in my car all day. I thought it’d pass & I’d be better, therefore never having needed to worry her, but things got worse. Sitting alone all day every day contributed. I ended up in hospital a few months later, having suffered a huge breakdown. Even though I had good intentions to protect her, my wife felt hugely betrayed, which I can understand. She has never forgiven me.
I was off work for another 6 months after I got out of hospital. We had very little money coming in & had to borrow money from my wife’s parents. They were very cruel about my mental illness & told me I should be ashamed of myself. I found my way back due to the love for my kids. I got back to work in a more junior role, but have never regained the person I used to be. I’ve been so heavily medicated since my diagnosis & my world’s been turned so upside down that he’s lost.
I had a few years of relative stability & we were able to rebuild some of the damage. But my wife never forgave me. We haven’t had an intimate relationship since before it happened. Then lockdown came & I started to wobble. I got an appointment with a private psychiatrist through my health insurance & he put me on the highest dose possible of a medication called pregabalin (for anxiety).
Fast forward a few months (about 3 years ago) & I had a terrible manic episode. I don’t remember much of it but I had a good salary & credit rating, so was able to take out a lot of loans. Long story I buried myself in tens of thousands of £s in debt. When I came to & that episode ended, I was distraught & had to go to great lengths to hide it from my wife. As I’ll come on to, in all honesty I’m afraid of her. Also, when is a good time to tell someone that? After a year of hiding letters etc. I sunk in to a bad depression in September / October. I’ve been in it since & it continues to worsen.
I’ve been off sick all year. I was hospitalised in January as I was in crisis. It’s been a terrible ordeal for my wife. Illness or not, I’ll never forgive myself for what I’ve put her through.
I’m at home all day because the depression has just made everything impossible. I understand my wife’s frustration but all she does is shout at me. I must sound pathetic, but it’s been this way for years. I’m afraid of her. When I tell her she’s being aggressive she denies it. She gaslights me a lot. She calls me lazy & a failure. She tells me to “f off back to work”. There are some days when it’s not too bad but most days it’s constant & extremely aggressive.
My youngest has now been at school full time for 2 years. My wife won’t get a job. She gets angry with me about problems with the house but won’t work. The last time it was mentioned she made my life hell for weeks. I experienced a lot of abuse as a child & can’t stand or cope with bad atmospheres in the house. She kept saying I’d “told her to get a job”.
She knows what I’ve been going through but hasn’t even brought it up. My salary is going to drop soon as I’ll move on to the income protection plan. She’ll then be forced to work so God help me. I’m terrified.
My mental health is a mess. I forgot to mention that the pregabalin prescribed during lockdown has become something I’ve abused the last year or so. I take more when I get my prescription & leave myself with less for the rest of the month. It’s the only temporary relief from this terrible depression & how I’m treated at home.
I have no parents or siblings. Nowhere to go. It would break my heart to leave my kids but I’ve come to realise if I don’t get away from my wife then this is only going to end in one outcome. I’m not far from it at all. I’m terrified of what she’ll do. I would be able to pay the core bills on this house (around £2200) & get a cheap airbnb (I’d need to live on canned food) until this house is sold. But she’d need to work to pay for groceries & ‘non-bill’ things. She can have all the equity from the house when it’s sold. All I want is for the kids to be ok.
One way or the other it’s terrifying: I live with the aftermath of telling her about the salary drop (if my mental health gets any worse it will be dangerous) or I find the courage to leave. If I leave I dread to think what crazy stuff she’ll do.
I’m exhausted, humiliated, ill & I’ve had as much as I can take. I’m only still here for the kids’ sake. But the bad thoughts are creeping in more & more
My wife hates me. I haven’t had a hug in years. She shows no compassion whatsoever. She makes it so blatantly obvious that she can’t stand me but that she’s just here because she has nowhere else to go.. It’s horrific. I haven’t explained it all well enough here. It feels like hell on earth & I’m on countdown now until this explodes one way or another. I’m already at the end of my tether. I just have to make sure that I am still here for my kids. Maybe not in the same house. But I can’t sink any lower & not be here at all

TLDR - I should have stayed home and now every dude is gonna say "this is why you can't trust girls" 🤦🏼‍♀️ & I probably read too far into this lol
My bf (he's 30) and I (26) have the same group of friends. My bf and I have been together for 4 years & one of his other friends has been in a committed relationship with my friend Angelina, but the rest of our friend group couples are less committed and more on and off dating. (I am the youngest of our friends and the rest are 26-31)
Well first off, these other girls can be sort of "wild" & not in a sexy way that our bf's appreciate, so generally me and Angelina just hang out with the boys while the other gf's go out because they usually stay out pretty late & idk we love our bf's.
Last weekend my one friend was out of town and the boys were going golfing and they just drink beer and it's boring w/out my one friend so I just told my bf I was going to go with the girls to dinner and then there was some trivia thing at the place we were eating so the boys just dropped us off and said they would come back to get us at 12 once it was over.
Well things went not as planned and I definitely wish I just stayed back. After dinner they were bored of the Trivia so they wanted to walk to this other arcade thing but it does have a bar in it, it was just still only like 8pm and I thought we were just walking back so I didn't text my bf. Well fast forward one of the girls had my phone because she said she was going to text her bf who was the one driving to come get us so I let her but then she started saying we're getting a ride home with this person who then actually took us to this party. She drained my phone texting some other guy so it was dead. So as soon as this dude takes us to his friends house and the other girls were trashed (I wasn't drinking) I found a phone charger at this random house and called my bf and he told me to share my location. Which all the girls were pissed at me for because they weren't ready to leave. Well then they go with all these other people (mostly dudes) and they leave so I just stayed and waited on my bf to come, which our bf's were obviously already all pissed and then had to drive around trying to figure out where the girls went. My bf was just moody af and annoyed but the other ones were pissed & mad at me asking like where tf they went or if they went off with dudes etc my bf asked me if the dudes were just hitting on us and I said not really just like drunk and I mean idk I just didn't like all the tension so I didn't mention that one of the girls was texting some guy on my phone.
Well now this dude starts texting me yesterday asking what I'm doing this weekend so I just said that he's trying to text the other girl not me. And this dude has called like idk 20x and is texting me telling me to tell the other girls to hang etc and then he starts like hitting on me saying I missed out on fun with them last weekend 🤦🏼‍♀️ so I just blocked him. I didn't delete the messages and I can't decide if I need to tell my bf that the one girl was actually texting some dude on my phone, he definitely would tell his friend & the girl might hate me but I'm not as worried about that as much as my bf being mad some dudes texting me & that I lied about not knowing last weekend that she was on my phone etc. He was just already pretty irritated I was somehow in the situation but he was pretty forgiving and I already got fucked super hard for it lol I'm sore and not looking to start anymore fights even if the sex was type 2 fun (it was rough lol), it was also because I pissed him off and disappointed him but he knows those girls are trouble. Anyways, do you think it is in the past and I could just let it go or do you think I need to bring up that the guy was texting me, which I'll then have to bring up that he only had my number from texting her on my phone which then will lead to me showing him the texts which then will lead to him reading that one dude telling the girl using my phone how sexy she was and all her friends & other horrible things, like one of his texts to her last weekend he told her his friend likes MY ass/needs pussy🙈 ah oh no. I didn't read the texts until today when this dude texted me now, but that was why I just waited for my bf last weekend - the dudes were a lil too eagethirsty at that party. You can tell it's my friend texting because she texted the dude that it was her. But I still feel really bad about it all and ya I just don't want this fight now, my bf isn't controlling but he'd not be too happy about the things the guy was saying about me or like the wording was a bit much. If the dude had texted that girl like "oh your friend is cute" ya my bf would be like "you are" but if he sees its more like "is her pussy tight...would she ride it with u" 😬😳 he's probably gonna b like "this jdjrjdakwnd cocksucker needs his ass whooped god damn skajcbeiwisb" and I do not want that at all soooo do I not say more? Oh & when that guy texted me I told him I have a bf, but when I texted that he said "ya I have a goldfish" back 🤔 and then kept calling, so like I said I blocked him but my bf would probably say the dude is asking for shit.
I did apologize to my bf & took responsibility after it all last weekend. I've never cheated and I would never support it or anything so I don't want it to seem like I'm helping her hide it or I was hiding that they were hitting on me because I really was outside vaping most of the time and Idk why I lied other than i was overwhelmed by the situation and mad bfs everywhere idk but I should have just told him and let him be mad last weekend so I'm not here stuck now.
My bf won't think I cheated or anything, he knows no one else gets me in the bedroom & we have trust, which is why I care so much about not compromising that.

Sorry if this isn’t the right place for this. There’s not really much to the story because it happened so fast. I got into kink to overcome trauma and feel empowered again. Things have been going well for years. I was looking for nsfw subreddits to join last week. I found a link to a telegram group in one of those subs. You know the rest.
I feel like I’m in a dream. I wasn’t even sure what I was seeing at first. Because it was just thumbnails. It felt like I lost control of my muscles. My body has this heavy feeling like when you try to swim in a dream and I haven’t been able to shake it. One minute I’m fine and the next I’m crying and sweating and I can’t stop thinking about it. I can’t unsee what’s in my head.
I study abnormal psychology and listen to true crime. I’ve heard and seen a lot of horrible stuff and been able to compartmentalize it and move on. The part that’s messing me up the most is the members. There were about thirteen thousand. That many real people in the world that are monsters. I can’t imagine what thirteen thousand anything looks like. And that’s just one group. There’s also a ton of guys trading stealth pictures of their own relatives. It makes me feel hopeless and like there’s no point in even doing things to stop it. In the process of trying to report things all I did was traumatize myself even more. Someone will just make another group.
I reported the subreddit and the telegram group to the Missing and Exploited Children Cybertipline. I tried to report users in the group but the reports go to “moderators” who probably know and don’t care. You cant report the group itself to telegram.
For anyone that has experience something like this, how did you cope. What I saw triggered a confusing childhood memory that usually just floats in the back of my mind and I don’t know what to make of that. I talked to a friend about what happened (with their consent obviously) but I could tell that hearing about it really upset them so I won’t bring it up again. I will definitely return to therapy as soon as I can afford it. I’m an unemployed college student with no insurance. I even tried researching what people who work in cyber crimes do to cope (spoiler: it’s therapy). If anyone has any realistic tips or suggestions I would really appreciate it. I don’t trust Better Health but if you know of anything similar that offers affordable sessions please let me know. Thanks if you read all this.

For context, I am in University about 50 miles from where she and my parents live, so I commute every weekend and most weekdays to see her. I love her. Plain and simple, in so many ways. We used to work together until she got a better job recently. Yesterday was her birthday. I made her some cookies common in the continent she's from, and baked them into heart shapes. I also got her 25$ of lottery tickets, flowers, her favorite energy drink, and a handwritten card with a lot of writing and drawings of us and her cat. I dropped it off to her in the morning after an all-nighter (going through it with finals and papers right now) and drove to the University to work my full shift. First she texted me thanking me for the gift, then asked me "what the fuck" those cookies were and that she choked on them. I was sad, told her what they were, and she told me I shouldn't have cooked something as a gift since I'm a bad cook. (I am, but I've made other stuff that she liked in the past). She also complained that the whole point of buying lottery tickets is to buy them, not to scratch them (I disagree?). She texted me that I shouldn't have gotten her anything if it was just going to be low effort.
I saw her later that night after she got out of work, and she was mad at me. She said I ruined her birthday by giving such a low effort gift, and that I didn't care about her. She brought up that I ruined her birthday last year too (by not immediately stopping our text conversation about some other girl and wishing her happy birthday the minute it got past midnight). Anytime I responded that I did put effort into the cookies, she would just deny it. Incredibly frustrating since I know how much effort I put in. She was mad the flowers I got her were not in a boquet, only loose, which didn't make it seem like a special occasion. At the heart of it she was mad that my gifts weren't special? To me the card and cookies were plenty special but she just says that it was stuff I've given her other days. She started calling me ret*rded, to which I responded "You're mean to me and I don't like it". I don't remember much of what she said (I'd had 4 hours of sleep in the past 2 nights), but she doubled down and continued calling me a wide variety of hurtful words, from ret*rded to stupid to childish and immature. I was already long sobbing, and in the middle asked her to just hit me instead. She obviously refused. She asked if I even wanted to go on our trip this upcoming weekend. I responded yes, and she replied that maybe I don't if I don't care about her enough to get her a decent gift.
She's horrifically depressed, and I know she has some specific trauma in response to people not caring about her birthdays. I think that explains part of it. Still, I tried. I am also depressed myself. I've tried bringing it up to her a few times and she responds that I'm "always bitching too much" because my life is so perfect. Compared to hers its way better, yes, but that doesn't mean I need a reason to be depressed. She's also acted distant the entire Spring semester. I rarely spend time with her, and even more rarely is it time that isn't just "okay we can see each other for 5 minutes but I have to go in". We havent' had sex since January, or cuddling. I very much miss both of these things, and we've had (rare) opportunities for them shes missed because shes too busy sleeping (I'm not allowed in her appartment to join her, mom discovered we had sex).
At the end of being yelled at when she denied me a hug and told me essentially to go away, I had a nervous break. Honestly I've been working too much and I'm overwhelmed with needing to find a new second job and the immense weight of finals and final essays ,things breaking on my car, and now this. I sped off, her and her mom heard my tires squealing and uninvited me from the trip. I drove recklessly for about 2-3 minutes on backroads while scream-crying about killing myself and fighting the urge to drive into a tree. Not proud of it. But I am devastated about missing the trip. She backed out on us living together, and promised we could have time to cuddle on the trip. I honestly don't feel like I have anything to look forward to.
I do a lot for her. I drive two hours round trip every time I want to see her, sometimes even for 5 minutes to drop off some food before going back. I've spent the past academic year working to support our long-standing plans of moving out together (This past weekend was my first time having more than one day off in a row since accompanying her to her surgery in October). I bring her flowers weekly, at work I do all of the hard stuff for her and massage her shoulders if she feels sore. I bring her food from my University and any treats she wants from the surrounding stores. I always ask if she wants anything. I have never said anything hurtful to her. She apologizes when she hurts my feelings too much and she realizes it, like last night. I spend thousands on her, whether jewelry (the most expensive ring she lost), buying her contacts or paying big bills when shes strugglign like drivers' ed or her wheel bearing replacements.
She texted me that shes sorry I'm not going and that she hurt me but I need to control my emotions better. That she loves me so much and regardless of our fights she will always love me so much. I responded that I felt like an unappreciated chore and didnt want to get yelled at. She replied that I'm not a chore she just hasnt had time and has been too depressed to make time for me. We texted a bit and I slept a few hours until my final/work today. She clearly didn't like me defending myself by saying that if i got a present i didnt like i wouldnt call my partner a "worthless ret*rd" by responding "i never called you worthless dont put words in my mouth...i sent you messages apologizing and being worried and your response is victimizing and arguing more...not happy with ruining my birthday? had to go further and ruin the day after?"
We've been texting each other throughout the day happier things. She's been sending me recipes to be a better cook and wants me to see her for 5 minutes after work in about 2 hours from the time of writing. I want to be with her. I love her, I've done so much, I will continue. But I feel like I'm being verbally abused. And I don't know how to stop it. I'm so overwhelmed with everythign in my life and I really just need someone on my side. I think i'll just first establish a rule of not interrupting/yelling and then telling her how hurt and lonely I feel. That I love her and I can totally work with her on managing time for me and depression but that I cannot tolerate verbal abuse.
TLDR: Gave girlfriend cookies for her birthday. She didnt like them and called me a ret*rd. I had a nervous break from other combined stressors, made a scene with reckless driving, got uninvited to a trip with her and her mom. She is texting me recipes and being nice to me today. I will see her in a few hours. I am hurt and overwhelmed with life and just want to be treated like I'm loved.
Thank you readers

We inherited the worlds most wealthy country that had arguably the best government system ever made, yet everything is going down the drain. Like ya you can blame the government for everything but frankly the people here hurt themselves way more. Most of us are obese and ignorant fucks. We have massive issues that will never be solved because despite being a democracy 90% of people are too ignorant to read a book and understand what they are actually voting on. Everyone where I live just goes biden bad and everyone in Boston or whatever has a boogey man that trump is a KKK member Russian operative. No leading politician is talking about zoning reform or education reform anything like that. Its just narratives of how evil the other side is and they say that because they know we are a stupid lazy people. I mean most people my age dont even vote and then get mad they arent represented at all. How can you blame everything on the politicians when you voted for them? We have the worlds greatest universities and your telling me we got the two choices of Trump and Biden.
Also we have become incredibly ugly as half the country is obese. How do people let themselves get to that? how is it acceptable? No one gives a fuck. People wear stupid ass t shirts look like shit walk around never read a book. And dont give me shit like ohhh its the corporations fault they poison the food eat a fucking apple instead of oreos ok. We have become so stupid its mind numbing. In my classes at university no one gives a fuck, the poor professor asks good questions like "why did Toyota use this model" stuff like that no one bothers to raise their hand its embarassing I feel bad for the guy he works hard for ungrateful children whos ambition is to skate by and not learn. My parents have fucking graduate degrees and then they say shit like if Biden wins we will be a communist country wtf are you talking about. Like Americans blame the government for them being ignorant, they blame it for them doing drugs, they blame it for them being fat. How about you read a book and don't beat your kids you fucking hood rat jesus. I work a labor job and my boss is a big fat lady and then shes like hey you move faster then me because Im so big ya I have to do your work because of you making shitty ass choices which is acceptable? you werent born like that FUCK. Like the housing crisis is blatantly caused by local boomers voting against de regulation, its not the fault of shady corporations its the fault of ignorant greedy upper middle class geezers.

So I'm 22 years old and disabled with high functioning autism and severe vision impairment to the point that I can barely see. My mom has been a good parent to me since I was born and since then she's also given birth to my younger brother (19) and my younger sister. (16) However, in recent years my mom has become seemingly more and more frustrated with taking care of us. I currently live with her and pay 25% of my income as rent, and in exchange she provides me with food and a place to live. I never really grew out of my "being a teenager" phase, I still feel internally like I'm in my late teens (17 to 19) and I'm many years behind when it comes to maturity. I've never been in a relationship, I don't go out with anyone, I don't know anyone and haven't had any real friends since middle school, I don't know how to cook, I'm super irresponsible and lazy, and if left on my own I would probably starve even if food was right in front me. Not to mention I can't drive and won't ever be able to due to my near-blindless. I'm extremely vulnerable and need a lot of support to get by, something my mom is no longer willing to provide me.
She's taken care of me for 22 years, and now she's saying stuff like she's "sick of being a parent" and "it's time for us kids to grow up and manage stuff on our own." That "she wants more free time" and is "tired of being our personal maid." Just today she said she's never cooking us a meal again, and if we want dinner we'll have to buy or make it ourselves. It's only a matter of time until she starts refusing to clean the house and it becomes a dump due to her three kids, including me, general incompetence and immaturity. When I brought up to my mom that I'm disabled and can't fend for myself, she got super defensive and was like "oh you have mentors" (who only show up twice a week for like an hour and we usually just end up going on a walk and talking and getting lunch) and "oh you have your brother" (who's arguably even more inmature and incompetent than me) and "oh you're getting too old now it's about time you grow up and learn to be an adult." Problem is I'M NOT READY to be an adult. I only made $12 an hour which isn't even close to enough to pay for rent and due to all my disabilities I had a bunch of close calls that eventually caused me to loose my job and it's been HELL trying to find a new one.
My mom manages all my finances, all my legal stuff, all my medical stuff, I have no access or knowledge of ANY of it and even if I did I wouldn't have to means to pay for anything. Rent is like 6k a month here and I don't come close to affording that. I can't move out. I would love to be able to do everything myself. Cook for myself, clean for myself, live in my own place, but that just isn't possible because I don't have any money and I'm not nearly responsible enough to do that. And with my mom becoming less and less involved and lashing out every time I bring up that I need her help, I'm worried that she'll just straight up abandon my relatively soon when she gets tired of my shinanigans of small things like leaving my cup out on the kitchen table or my bathroom smelling weird or wet towels being on the floor of my room and all the small things get to her and she kicks me out. She's already refusing to feed me and multiple nights I'm left there starving no knowing what to eat because Mom won't feed me and she does she making disgusting weird foods that she KNOWS I won't eat but makes it anyways and then gets mad at me when I respectfully decline to eat it.
My mom's tired of being "our personal maid" but I feel like it's her responsibility as a parent to take care of us, something which made my mom VERY mad as she stormed off in her car. She feels like there's "too much on her plate to manage" and I feel like she's jealous of all the free time us "kids" (not really) get to chill and play video games with friends and watch YouTube while she "works her butt off" to provide for us. But isn't that what being a parent is? Working your butt off to provide for us kids? It's not like when dad was here that her job was any harder. My dad was barely even involved in any work around the house or with finances, medical stuff, and school and was always either at his job breadwinning or watching american football on the couch while drinking tons of Coke Zero.
Now my mom is tired of being our mom and wants to live her own life seperate from us. She is sick of taking care of us and dealing with us and wants "a break", and lashes out when we're merely enjoying ourselves because she's jealous of the free time we get while she spends every day from 6:00 AM to 7:00 PM working either at her job or at home. I have desperately needed therapy for the past TWO YEARS getting close to game ending myself MULTIPLE TIMES due to lack of therepy and me having a mental breakdown, she just has "other priorities". What priorities? Priorities higher than my own mental health?
Not to mention the dog getting old and becoming VERY hard to deal with and no one taking my concerns about the dog seriously. I had to be out in the pouring rain for 18 minutes today trying to get the dog to go onto the grass to go potty, but she refuses until the SECOND my sister and brother arrive and she runs out to greet them and then goes pee immediately afterwards. At that point I'm on my phone under the roof of the porch like anyone would be after waiting for nearly 20 minutes for the stupid dog to go pee, and then my sister gets angry at ME for being "lazy and irresponsible" when I waited for 20 minutes in the freezing rain for my dog to go into the grass and go pee but she only ends up actually doing it once my brother and sister come. Our dog also CONSISTANTLY now pees on the sidewalk, ONLY poops in the neighbour's lawn, and refuses to walk any point past said yard. She's a complete handful and yet she doesn't act that way with ANYONE ELSE. It's like everyone hates me or something. Everyone always blames everything on me and I'm tired of it.
So, who's the AH? My mom who doesn't want to parent or provide for me or our siblings anymore because we're "too old?" Or me, a disabled 22yo who doesn't have any prospects of living on their own anytime soon (at least until eye cybernetics exist) and will LITERALLY STARVE if not provided with food?
Sorry if this is the wrong sub I just really needed to vent and I have no therapist so yay.

edit:sorry this is long
So I'm the closeted/experimenting guy in this situation. At 35, I just started hooking up at the beginning of this year and have before that only been with women. While I thought I was bi, after experimenting, I'm definitely leaning towards men more if not completely done with women.
I met a guy 40, on grindr a few weeks back and we've been hooking up roughly once or twice a week ever since. While he was looking for a LTR I told him I wanted fwb only. I was over at his place last night and that's when he told me he would like for us to try to be more, and possibly even date but he had some concerns that he'd want me to think over when I get back from my vacation(I'm going to Europe for 6 weeks at the end of May).
Both of his concerns come from past experiences and experiences of his friends.
One is, because I'm not out, and because he's dated a guy in the past that wasn't out who would pretend he didn't know him when they would be out in public because he'd see someone he knew and doesn't want a repeat of that because it made him feel like shit. Which is completely valid. The thing with me is, I just don't want my immediate family to know. Random strangers I don't care about, and to be honest, I don't know enough people that I rarely run into someone I know when I'm out in public anyway, so I don't think this would be an actual issue for me. But because I've never actually been in a relationship with a guy, I don't exactly know how I'd actually act in public in the first place. Only 3 of my close friends know, and I don't mind telling someone I meet if they ask me, but that has never really come up as I'm "straight" passing(hate that phrase).
And Two, my experience. Since I just started my "journey" he's worried, based on his friends experiences, that I haven't experimented enough and doesn't want me to end up resenting him for trapping me into a relationship not having been out there more. He's had friends who have had been cheated on or turned toxic because of such feelings later on. Again, another valid concern. But for me, hooking up randomly was more of a way to see if I'm actually into men, which I've already determined I was, and I'm not in my 20s any more. I've had already around 7 different guys I've been with, and I feel like I don't think I'd have this issue of "missing out" on more because sex with him has been quite fulfilling. I've actually stopped contact with all others and have deleted grindr because I'm quite satisfied with him. Unfortunately even having said that, he's seen 3 different friends relationships turned toxic and fall apart because the guys ended up cheating or resenting their partner because they felt like they hadn't experienced enough and felt trapped.
I do feel like I'd eventually tell my parents(once they pay off my apartment, I know it's bad, but I feel like they wouldn't if they knew and I live in one of the most expensive cities that an apartment here costs as much as 1.5x houses anywhere else) or if things actually get really serious between us I'd tell them then. Whether they accept it or not is up to them, but I would hate to lose my mom and I'm about 80% sure she wouldn't accept it, all the rest I don't care about.
Just based on those 2 concerns and my view of them, would you date someone like me? Pretend I fit your type and possible most other criteria, would my responses to these concerns be a red flag for you?
Or am I possibly still not ready to date? I don't like playing with peoples feelings, but I really really like this guy that I feel like if I don't at least try, I'll definitely miss out.

CANCER ZODIAC TAROT READING - UNEXPECTED INCOME MAY 2024

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I've been trying for a while. It's been on and off. The last 6-10 months I've been trying to focus on my well being.
I have met a few people but they are not always regular at the place I go. I prefer interacting with people face to face because writing message can get messy and confusing especially for me since I have anxiety easily (there is something called Text anxiety, it fits me well😂).
I haven't made friends yet but I'm already in a better situation, just learning to be surrounded by people, interact with them. I've had a hard time because of bad (we can even say evil) people at work the last 14+ months and it's almost finally over.
One of the people I met told me about his friends and said that some of them , he met them online with Instagram.
I am really curious how in 2024 people meet new people ? Especially with social medias.
I'm not a real fan of that and I barely use them except for sending memes, reels, publish a few things. Anyway, social medias are not my whole life at all. But I can see them as a tool. Meeting apps are not for me ,I've tried.
Hobbies, I have tried, just that it is a matter of luck I guess. People just come for the lesson then disappear as soon as the lesson is done.
Im thinking about taking language lessons for fun. I wonder how are Japanese or Dutch lessons in Liège? From university of Liège
I would like to try hip hop dance next school year so I'm waiting for the dates to try for free the dance lessons. I already dance and it's fun, just that people aren't here for socializing, just dancing which is a pity and there are only women. I thought it would be great but no one has the mindset to make new female friends. Well, I enjoy dance so I keep going there for myself basically. Making friends was a bonus if it happened. I am just disappointed but I got over it since then.
Everyone say I'm stil young, I stil can make new friends. I really do believe that mostly I haven't met the "right" people yet. I'm seeing a therapist for a year now, so don't worry guys, I'm trying to take care of myself and work on myself too !😀
It's kind of weird to be born here and even for Belgian, it's hard to make new friends if you know no one basically. I am not that extroverted and I wish I had more friends to hang out with.
I also wish to go to concerts for example, but since I'm 25F, and I'm not confident to go alone especially I don't feel safe going out alone, it's something I have to give up. There are things I do sometimes alone like movies when there are films I really would like to see ,and I don't need anyone to watch it so I'm fine. But I just wish I could enjoy idk, drinks, bars, concerts, fun parties open to everyone, enjoy conversations with friends of friends and such.
I feel like missing out. I know friendships and love relationships are overrated. I don't need that many friends, but just a few ,is enough if they are genuine and sincere ! It's so basic and it's so hard to find
I've read many posts of the subreddits of Liège, Belgium or Wallonia where so many people have a hard time meeting new people AND making long lasting friendships. What the hell is going on ? I know how Belgian are, I was born here after all. The people I've met the last years, they often keep staying with their close friends from school hobbies or whatever, and they never bother getting to know new people. That's such a pity. Even myself I find Belgian being closed off, hard to interact with. We can only meet other people through events hobbies,etc, when we don't know anyone at all. It's really luck when we meet the right people for us quickly. Lots of attempts can lead to nothing for many people.
Sometimes I'm tired of this situation, but whenever someone hurt me (it happened in January this year, I cut off contact with this person she didn't respect my feelings and my pain), I just feel like I prefer being alone, at least I don't have to care for anyone else other than myself.
That's why I try to keep taking care of myself more, while keep trying to meet new people , just not all the time. I don't give up. Just I take a lot of breaks from it. I think I feel better this way, going to places regularly without waiting anything, getting used to people again, and getting to know new people when it's mutual.
How is your life going on ?
I just wish life would be like movies 😂 going to a party like in the US where you know no one, and then you make new friends at the end of the night 😂 except that I did do that in Spain when I was at a Youth hostel, partied at night in club till late at night, but at the morning people didn't care at all and went on their ways. Dunno about Liège though, I just don't feel safe in the square.

Title says it all, this post is a deep dive into the Sonic Adventure 2 OST, specifically all the songs pertaining to Knuckles. This is for a few reasons that I’ll get into in a moment, but from what I’ve seen Knuckles’ and Rouge’s soundtracks tend to get overlooked or written off by fans (More so Knuckles’) unfairly so in my opinion.
This post will serve, not only to analyze the music itself, but also Knuckles’ characterization, as you’ll see the two are basically intrinsically linked.
Just a quick disclaimer, I’m not a musician nor am I that musically inclined, this isn’t an expert’s opinion or analysis, just a listener’s thoughts.
A bit of background of me before we start, I grew up around hip hop when I was young so I can really appreciate Knuckles’ soundtrack probably more so than a lot of other people.
Ever since I was a kid, Knuckles has always been my favorite character, I always found his complicated friendship and rivalry with Sonic to me a much more interesting dichotomy than Sonic and Shadow (I know, fight me).
That and I’ve always just adored his character (Before they forgot how to write him) he can be hot headed and stubborn like Sonic, but he’s got a bit of a Yin and Yang thing going on, with his Chill nature conflicting with his Quick and Explosive temper, as well as his questioning of his purpose in life and duty to the Master Emerald.
Anyway, enough context on myself, let’s strap in and get to the meat of this veeeeeery long post (My bad guys).

BACKGROUND

So for starters, I think it’s best we talk about the style and influences that are quite evident in Knuckles’ Music, that being Hip Hop/Rap, but it goes a bit further than that.
For some historical context, Sonic Adventure 2 came out in 2001, I’m not sure how many hip hop fans hang around the subreddit but by 2001 the Golden Age of Hip Hop had been firmly left behind. Biggie and Pac had been dead for a while, and the stars of yesteryear began to fizzle out as the young blood cropped up onto the scene.
The early 2000s Hip Hop scene was mainly dominated by the East Coast and the Dirty South, lots of stars of this generation of rap included 50 Cent, Ja Rule, Outkast, Ludacris, The Game, Three 6 Mafia and Xzibit, but you also had older legends like Nas and Snoop Dogg who were still culturally relevant.
This modern sound of hip hop differed greatly in sound to the early 90s, everything was a lot more clean and refined, samples were still used but weren’t as common as before and the West Coast sound that characterized the early 90s had been long gone.
It’s important to bring this up, because comparing SA2’s Hip Hop tracks to the climate it was released in, they sound almost out of place. Listening to Get Rich or Die Trying, or Stillmatic and then listening to SA3’s tracks you’d be convinced they were separated by many years.
The Tracks in SA2 are definitely rooted in early 90s hip hop, it’s very clear that those early Gangsta Rap albums like Straight Outta Compton and Black Sunday greatly influenced this part of the soundtrack. And you don’t have to take my word for it, go and listen to the instrumentals of songs like Express Yourself or Insane in the Brain and tell me that they’d sound out of place playing in one of Knuckles’ Stages.
Early 90s Hip Hop makes heavy use of sampling, primarily of the work of Black Artists of the past two decades, because of SA2K’s early 90s hip hop influences, it too has a lot of roots in 70s/80s Black music. Elements of Soul, Funk and Jazz are commonly heard in Knuckles’ Stages, think James Brown or Isaac Hayes.
So what Groups or Artists seem to inspire SA2K’s sound? Well the obvious choice is NWA, though specifically Straight Outta Compton, Elif4zaggin has a much different sound. However I don’t believe that’s entirely the case.
Whether it’s pure coincidence or intentional, Too Short (stylized as Too $hort) was a decently popular artist from Oakland, which is up in the Bay Area of NorCal which is the main inspiration for most of SA2’s urban environments.
Anyway, Too Short was actually quite a pioneer in Hip Hop as he formed the Dangerous Crew, a Hip Hop Band who played actual instruments instead of using samples, it’s because of this that I believe Too Short and the Dangerous Crew to be the main inspiration of SA2K’s sound whether intentional or not, not only are the two defined by their funky beats, but also their use of live instruments. I recommend listening to songs like The Ghetto, Sample The Funk and Just Another Day to get an idea of how his music influences SA2K.

UNKNOWN FROM M.E. (REMIX)

Honestly I find this track to be an improvement over the original, it definitely leans a lot more into the R&B aspect over the rest of the soundtrack but it’s still distinctly hip hop with the record scratches, drums and Hunnid-P rapping over it.
Speaking of, let’s address the Elephant in the room briefly. I know Hunnid-P or Hunnid-Pacent isn’t everybody’s favorite person on this sub, either on the track or behind the scenes, and while his antics aren’t relevant to this post, I don’t necessarily agree that he’s as bad as people say he is on the mic. Is he the world’s greatest emcee? Absolutely not, but he does his job pretty well, he has good flow and a pretty good voice. I think people clown on his lyrics too much, I’m not saying he’s an Inspectah Deck level lyricist but I think the guy has dropped a few bombs and this OST has some gems, but we’ll get into this in a bit.
Getting back to the song, the content of the lyrics is basically Knuckles’ inner voice, this is basically the entire soundtrack, though Unknown From M.E. is more of a general character overview of Knuckles, its standard stuff now but at the time it was a pretty deep dive into the character of Knuckles’ in a decently subtle way.
Most of the song centers around Knuckles’ self imposed isolation on Angel Island, his duty to his people and the world to protect the Master Emerald, but also him yearning for something more and the inner conflict that stems from that.
This song actually has some underrated lines, some standout lyrics include:
“Clench my fists tight, become more redder - I don't wanna hurt her, my passion observed”
The last line is in obvious reference to Rouge and an interesting insight into Knuckles himself. He clearly doesn’t like violence and isn’t interested in hurting anybody, but his duty as a guardian and his quick temper often means he can get a bit too carried away as the line implies, good stuff.
“Been lonely all my life, does it matter? - Here for the mission, whoever want, it bring it”
Here we can clearly see Knuckles trying to reason with himself here, specifically after meeting Sonic and experiencing a life that isn’t just his duty. Here we see the Guardian side of him, he’s always been alone and it’s never been problem before, why should it be now? At least that’s what he tries to tell himself.
“Don't approve of him but gotta trust him - This alliance has a purpose - This partnership is only temporary”
I’ll get more into this when we get to Death Chamber, but these lines are obviously alluding to Sonic and the plot of the game. It’s clear that Knuckles still doesn’t completely like Sonic, however the key here is that he trusts him, he’s gotten to a point now where he knows Sonic is well meaning and their goals align. However, just like real people, he’s accepted the arrangement but he doesn’t have to like it, he still believes Sonic is brash, arrogant and takes far too many risks, it will take more than a few adventures for Knuckles to fully change his opinion on Sonic.
Hunnid-P and Marlon Saunders do a great job of bouncing off each other on this song, their voices and cadences clash with each other nicely almost like how Knuckles’ inner turmoil is split in two.
The beat is tantalizingly funky, for starters that bass line is smooth as butter and the song has a nice tempo, you get the occasional organ flourish and guitar riff that crescendo and just help to enhance the song even further. Overall a really solid track in my opinion, the content of the lyrics is interesting and the delivery is great, all over an extremely funky instrumental.

KICK THE ROCK - WILD CANYON

Probably my favorite song out of all Knuckles’ Stages, this one is definitely the most Jazzy and parallels nicely with Rouge, but has a distinctly Knuckles Twist.
That Sax and Organ combo just cause an absolute eargasm and those drums form such a nice tempo that makes this track such easy listening. Honestly there’s not a whole lot going on with this track and that is not a bad thing at all. Its simplicity is probably its biggest strength and is quite noticeable compared to something like Unknown From M.E.
Some Lyrics I found particularly interesting are:
“I'm feelin her in mysterious ways - That's why I stay on point like every single day - I gotta protect this place, I do it for my race”
Yeah yeah I know everybody finds this line and the play doh line inappropriate and funny, I understand the latter but honestly I could never get the outcry over this one
“I’m feelin her in mysterious ways” honestly, in my opinion, it’s not what you think. I’ve never really seen it as a sexual line “I’m feelin you” is basically another way of saying I get you, it’s basically Knuckles saying he gets Rouge, but he doesn’t know why and that kinda bothers him.
The context matters here and the lines after do give my interpretation some weight. It’s basically Knuckles saying to himself “I get this girl and I kinda mess with her, but I gotta job to do” Knuckles is intrigued by Rouge, he’s never met anybody like her and he obviously has some feeling towards her, though because of his lack of interaction with others he struggles to understand these feelings and instead of addressing them, he tries to ignore them and remain true to his job as Guardian
“Who could'a did this, that snitch named Rouge! - When I catch her, I'ma get her with these tools”
More obvious than the last one, but it still shows that Knuckles, despite his various different feelings toward Rouge, knows he has a job to do and tries to center himself to stay committed
Honestly it’s hard to choose between this or Unknown From M.E. as my favorite Knuckles track but either way its up there and definitely something I can bop to on the regular

A GHOST’S PUMPKIN SOUP - PUMPKIN HILL

The one everybody knows and honestly I get it, it’s got that smooth piano/guitar I can’t really tell what it is but it definitely slaps. It has that distinct G-Funk whistle which pops up occasionally across SA2K that simulates that stereotypically ghostly sound nicely
It’s definitely in contention with Deeper for the most lowkey Knuckles track and that’s saying something.
Not much content lyrically, but I managed to find a few interesting lines:
“I ain’t gonna let it get to me, I’m just gon creep - Down in Pumpkin Hill I gots to find my lost piece”
Something we don’t actually see a lot from Knuckles, fear! Most of this song is about Knuckles’ fearlessness being tested, if you view this as Knuckles’ internal monologue (Which if you don’t at this point then I’ve been doing something wrong 😂) its less about the song telling us how tough Knuckles is, but Knuckles reassuring himself that he can do this.
He’s obviously trepidatious over being in Pumpkin Hill and he has to take a moment to center himself and reassure himself that “I’m Knuckles, I’m not afraid of anything” again this goes back to how Knuckles uses his job as Guardian and his duty to motivate himself and push forward through situations, regardless of his own fear.
“I’m hearing someone saying “You a chicken, don’t be scared!” - It had to be the wind, cause nobody wasn’t there”
Considering the haunted theming of this level, this very clearly (on the surface) seems to be Knuckles encountering a ghost taunting him, but I might present another angle.
This is just Knuckles’ inner thoughts again, though this time its doubt, he doesn’t believe he can find the pieces of the Master Emerald and he doesn’t think he can make it through Pumpkin Hill, yet he pushes through anyway. This one’s kinda far fetched but it’s a nice idea
I don’t adore this track as much as a lot of other people (ironically) but I can still Jive with it.

DIVE INTO THE MELLOW - AQUATIC MINE

First of all, this track does a great job at just sounding watery, the filtered organ and the echoey bass just make it sound like cave ambience turned into music
Most of this track’s lyrics center around Knuckles’ yearning to be something more than just the Guardian of the Master Emerald and to be his own individual, these are:
“Makes you wanna sit back, enjoy the life - And do things you like doing, get to shine”
Knuckles, if it wasn’t for all the enemies and hazards, obviously enjoys being in Aquatic Mine, so much so that it brings his thoughts of a better life to the front of his mind.
This shows what Knuckles really wants, to be unburdened from the Master Emerald and to just be free to kick it wherever, in a way he’s jealous of the freedom Sonic has and wishes he wasn’t tied down to Angel Island.
“I stay Knuckled up, I’m in a deep cut”
Knuckles, despite his ideals of peace and relaxation is always ready to do what he believes is right, again this whole OST is basically Knuckles reconciling his wants and his duties.
Again Knuckles isn’t really equipped to deal with these feelings and instead of addressing them, he pushes them down and buries them under his duty and tries to keep himself busy, though once he gets to Aquatic Mine where he’s forced to slow down and explore methodically, he’s suddenly unable to distract himself from his true feelings.
“In a maze, and I don't know what to do Guaranteed though, imma find the Emeralds”
Again an obvious allusion to the labyrinthine Aquatic Mine on the surface, though I believe this too has a deeper meaning.
Knuckles is lost and confused emotionally, he’s confronted by these different feelings that conflict with everything he’s ever known. His thoughts on freedom and his feelings for Rouge which he doesn’t quite understand both conflict with his role as Guardian and he can’t reconcile them.
“I don’t know what to do” in a rare moment of vulnerability, Knuckles admits that he has no idea how to manage these feelings and he’s grappling with the monumental task of managing his panicked thoughts.
Then, just as you think Knuckles is gonna start making a breakthrough, what does he do? “Guaranteed though, imma find the Emeralds” That’s right, instead of finally addressing his swirling thoughts, he pushes them down and once again distracts himself with his duty.
Honestly, like Pumpkin Hill, I know it’s a reach but it tracks with what we know Knuckles’ character has been up to this point and it gives him insane depth and really humanizes him.
A funky beat, a nice flow from Hunnid P and some really humanizing characterization of Knuckles, Dive Into The Mellow is definitely a hidden gem of the OST.

DEEPER - DEATH CHAMBER

Sooooooo chill, honestly this song is so calm and smooth, it’s so underrated on this soundtrack it really is another hidden gem like Dive Into the Mellow.
First off I absolutely adore the bass this track has, it sounds like it’s been bit compressed for a Gameboy and honestly I’m all here for it, gives it a nice techno Eggmany twist. The funky guitar and sax just enhances the mood, the song sounds almost echoey like you’re actually standing in a Death Chamber.
Lyrically this song is unique in that it’s basically just a long conversation between Sonic and Knuckles instead of Knuckles’ inner thoughts/monologue.
It’s an interesting dynamic where Sonic is actually the reasonable one, willing to put aside his and Knuckles’ differences aside for the greater good. Knuckles however is initially a bit more standoffish, but Sonic talks him into it by appealing to his guardian nature and calling him out on his stubbornness, basically forcing Knuckles to admit that Sonic is right and that they’ll be much better off working together.
Honestly not much to say, it’s pretty much all spelled out in the song, but interesting nonetheless. An understated and uniquely funky beat make this track stand out among the others nicely, definitely a great listen.

SPACE TRIP STEPS - METEOR HERD

Finally, the last song. In my opinion, Space Trip Steps is probably the weakest track musically. That doesn’t make it bad, far from it, I just can’t groove with it as easily as the others
This song takes a lot more inspirations from G-Funk than the other tracks which does give it quite a unique sound amongst the soundtrack, it wouldn’t sound out of place on The Chronic or Regulate… G Funk Era. The wavy synths and sharp base with the fast tempo give it an almost garage feel too, definitely not a sound for everyone but I think it does a good job at sounding very ethereal and space like
As for lyrics, this seems to be a turning point for Knuckles as a loner:
“Took a shuttle to space and left from our homes At least we're with friends and I'm not all alone”
Knuckles is in a completely foreign environment and feels completely out of his depth, however he feels comforted by the fact that he’s surrounded by the people he’s finally started to call his Friends, the first time he’s admitted such.
He’s forced now to acknowledge that he can’t do everything by himself, and that asking for help from his friends doesn’t make him any less of a man, he finally accepts that he can trust outsiders, but he still has a ways to go.
“Bad thing was that the Emeralds spilled - Gotta search space, man, time to get ill”
Still, Knuckles is bound and almost blinded by his duty, forcing himself to abandon his friends to search for the Master Emerald pieces that were scattered in space.
It’s clear now that Knuckles isn’t too happy to leave his friends, but as we’ve come to know him, he does the typical Knuckles thing of pushing his feelings to the side in the face of doing what he believes is right. This just tells us Knuckles still has a lot to work on before he can really come to terms with who he is.
Again, a pretty unconventional track so it can be an awkward listen and definitely not my favorite on the list, but it does something unique which I can definitely give it props for, Hunnid P even has a completely different flow, dragging out his words like he’s getting further away, hammering home that space theme.

CONCLUSION

And that’s it, if you made it this far through my long winded ramblings, then I’m extremely impressed 😂 I tried to trim the fat as best I could but I ended up getting a bit too attached to most of what I wrote
Honestly I feel like these songs have been unfairly painted as the silly crappy Knuckles rap songs with bad lyrics that are only good because of their instrumentals, and I just can’t agree with that.
I feel like in a lot of ways these songs do a much better job of characterizing Knuckles than SA1 or SA2, I really wish we got see more of his inner turmoil and him butting heads with Sonic in the game itself.
I think it’s a sad thought that for a long time, Knuckles has been a shadow of his former self (Har har) and has just been relegated to the token meathead that’s about as one dimensional as a square. Frontiers is definitely a step in the right direction and I’m excited to see what the new writing team can cook up with for his character.
But what are your thoughts though? Do you agree? Disagree? Did I manage to change your mind or have you always felt this way? Maybe you have a different take or something else to add? I’d love to hear it.
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