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19M. End of the road?

2024.05.15 08:59 OptimisticOtterz 19M. End of the road?

 I apologize if I do not meet the requirements of posting on here, as I am not in imminent distress 
(I do not self harm and do not plan on ending my life right now. I am scared of pain)
At 19 I feel like the world is collapsing around me, and I don’t feel the need to be alive. I wish I did not feel this way. I would like to dive into each aspect of my life so people know why I feel the way I do. I just need support or someone to talk to. Please do not judge.
My relationship: My relationship is rocky, and very complicated. I’ve tried breaking up in the past, but it only leads to anger on her part and an unwillingness to understand my point of view. She struggles with many mental health issues but I love her even so. I just don’t know what to do. I feel trapped. If I tell her how I feel, it always seems to backfire and be my fault.
Family relationships: My single mom is depressed as she tells me daily. My father has been abusive and is still harassing my mother. I luckily have not seen him since I was 18. He had left me and my mom homeless, but we had gotten back on our feet after years of harassment and physical abuse.
School: I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I’m currently enrolled to get a BS in Econ with a minor in psych from a small public university. I’m struggling with grades and it has been difficult for me to even pass my basic macro/micro courses. I thought I had a passion for consumer studies, but I’m second guessing my interests.
Friendships: Everyone has left me since high school has ended. I’m so lonely. I have one friend right now but it’s not like how it was in the past. Everyone has moved on. I used to be track+soccer captain and lead musical cast and business leader president, but nobody even says hi anymore. I’m burnt out trying to talk to anybody. I deleted my social media accounts that had hundreds of thousands of followers because I had thought they were cringy, and there was no point to any of it.
Routines: It’s summer now. I get up. Help around the house. And play video games. Ever since college has started I’ve been struggling with anxiety and depression. I take pills often now to cope. I’ve obtained a horrible p*rn addiction, and it’s been ongoing for a year or two now. I feel empty inside and full of lust. I don’t go out of the house anymore and have been experiencing a lot of body pains. I’m a small built guy, but I’m gaining weight since I have nobody to do anything with. My girlfriend calls me constantly and we hangout occasionally, but I hardly enjoy it. I don’t feel productive and I feel like I’m wasting my life.
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2024.05.15 08:54 aggravatedburgery There was a thread...

Does anyone remember the thread of someone claiming that a relative (i beleive it was their dad) who worked as a constractor for shadow governments? I tjink the thread was written in 2016, and was re-shared in 2020. It talked about a huge event starti gni 2020 that would change the world and culminated in something happening in 2029 that would end the world, with the elites being either sent to mars, or staying on earth in underground cities?
It was a fascinating thread, a big read, with loads of questions asked. If there is anyone who remembers this, or archived it could point me in the right direction i would appreciate it. Thanks
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2024.05.15 08:53 huzefasid Sharing my Amex Platinum 318% ROI strategy with 145K MR SUB on new Amex Platinum Charge

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2024.05.15 08:50 UstroyDestroy AI Advancements: Groq Incs Efficient Inference Engine, Googles Gemini Era, and Anthropics Expansion to Europe

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Anthropic's AI assistant, Claude, is now available in Europe, including on the App Store, offering instant answers and assistance with deep work tasks [1][2]. Greg Brockman demonstrated a concept of GPT-4o for customer service, expressing gratitude to his co-founder, Ilya, for their work on OpenAI [3][4][5]. Andrej Karpathy humorously suggests that the "killer app" of Large Language Models (LLMs) is Scarlett Johansson, not math [6].
Yann LeCun emphasizes the importance of safer AI being better AI, with objectives, including safety guardrails, driving AI systems [8]. He also highlights that entropy minimization leads to improved out-of-distribution performance [9]. NVIDIA and Dell are partnering to transform enterprises at Dell Technologies World, showcasing the latest innovations in AI, multicloud, and edge computing [10]. NVIDIA AI also announced the optimization of AI-powered applications like Google Gemma 2 and PaliGemma with NVIDIA TensorRT-LLM [11].
Google DeepMind's latest advancements were shared at Google IO, including the Gemini model 1.5 Flash, Project Astra, the Veo video model, and Imagen 3 [12][13][14]. Metalware, a startup from Y Combinator's S23 batch, prioritized data quality over quantity to build a foundation model with less compute [15]. Nabla Bio, a startup founded by scientists from Harvard Medical School, has raised $26M in Series A funding and formed partnerships with pharmaceutical companies for AI antibody design [16].
Groq Inc introduces the Groq LPU™ Inference Engine, which is claimed to run GenAI models 10 times more efficiently than GPU solutions [17]. They are targeting June for a certain project or release and will be participating in the NYSE Tech Summit SF [18][19]. Groq Inc's Chief Tech Evangelist, @lifebypixels, will be participating in an event tomorrow at 11:30 PT [21]. Vectorizeio has chosen Groq Inc as their default LLM for their launch [22]. Groq Inc is currently in private beta but will be planning to make their product available to the public soon [23].
The CEO of Groq Inc, Jonathan Ross, believes that advancements in AI will create more jobs than there are people to fill them, citing the Jevons Paradox [24]. Groq Inc will be introducing paid tier rates next month [26]. Groq Inc's new intern created a demo comparing Gemma 7B and ChatGPT 4 Turbo controlling two Ken characters in a retro game [27]. Groq Inc has been praised by researchers like Andrew Ng for their fast-working chips that can advance generative AI [28].
The Google I/O 2024 developer conference will feature product news and innovations from Google [29]. Google AI's Infinite Wonderland is a lab session where artists use StyleDrop, a fine-tuning technique on Imagen 2, to create infinite images reimagining Alice's Adventures in Wonderland in unique styles [31][32][33][34][35]. Google has announced that AI Overviews will start rolling out to users in the U.S. today, with plans to expand to more countries in the near future [36].
Google has introduced Gemini 1.5 Flash, a lighter-weight model optimized for tasks requiring low latency and cost efficiency [37]. Google's Project Astra, a prototype by Google DeepMind, aims to investigate the potential of a universal AI agent in enhancing daily life [38]. Google has introduced Imagen 3, which is Google DeepMind's most advanced image generation model [39]. Google has introduced Veo, a new generative video model developed by Google DeepMind [40]. Google Workspace has upgraded to the Gemini 1.5 Pro model for its side panel, allowing for a longer context window and more advanced reasoning [41].
Google has introduced a new model called PaliGemma, which is the first vision-language open model in their Gemma family [43]. Google has announced Gemma 2, their next generation of models which will include a 27B parameter instance [44]. Google utilized AlphaGo from Google DeepMind to create a new method called "AI-Assisted Red Teaming" to enhance agents' red teaming skills [45]. Google introduced SynthID last year to add imperceptible watermarks to AI-generated images and audio [46]. Google has introduced LearnLM, a new family of models based on Gemini and fine-tuned for learning [48].
The Gemini era has been introduced by Google, bringing AI advancements to various tools and products [50]. Sundar Pichai shared updates on Google's AI advancements and the Gemini era at Google I/O 2024 [51]. Gemini Nano will be integrated into Chrome Desktop client starting in Chrome 126 [52]. Google introduced updates across the Gemini family of models, including the new lighter-weight model 1.5 Flash [53].
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2024.05.15 08:49 Global-Change606 Used to be one of my favorite wardrobe staples but sadly it has come to an end.

I was a huge supporter of Chubbies going back to around 2015 and they became my favorite shorts brand. I discovered them through Nordstrom and after receiving the first pair, I quickly ordered all the other colors they sold as well. They became the only shorts I'd wear and this is still true to this day. Their "Original Stretch Short" in 5.5" was the one I'd gravitated towards. After realizing they had a website and at times offered a minor discount and had occasional sales, I started ordering from them directly.
What I immediately loved was the length, as I never was able to find short of similar length that were flattering and so easily wearable. They were a good quality short made of durable material with the kind of minor details that really displayed the thoughtfulness of the company. These kind of things showed that whoever ran the company or created the shorts really loved and believed in their product. I went on to buy the original stretch shorts in every color available.
After they sold the company, in 2001 I believe it was because that's when some of the minor details of the shorts started to disappear. Some of the most notable changes were the text inside of the fly next to the zipper and the material used for the pocket linings had been changed. This was probably in order to save money or time on manufacturing. However, the core elements of the shorts including the durable material, the quality of the manufacturing and the apperance of the final product, remained otherwise mainly intact. They still seemed to be a worthy product.
Now let's jump to the second half of this past year. I ordered four pairs of shorts and a variety of colors that hadn't been available before or that I just hadn't previously ordered. Due to owning so many pairs of the same shorts in such a variety of colors and their amazing quality and durability, I hadn't even opened any of the packages for the last shorts that I ordered until this past week. After opening the bag with the first pair, they seemed different. I don't know if it was the fact that the weight was off or that they had a weird gleam to the fabric but I immediately sensed that something wasn't right. Once I put them on I could notice that they didn't fall the same as the other shorts and they didn't have the same weight and they just felt like a completely different pair of shorts.
So my friend and I decided to open the bags of the remaining shorts and see if these were the same or if it was just this one particular color that maybe used a different material. We concluded that all four pairs of shorts were now using a new material unused in any of the previous shorts that I had purchased. This material is extremely thinner and has a weird coating on the fabric, that gives it a sort of shimmer. Material is not only cheaper but the quality of the sewing and the stitching is abysmal. The hemming is completely different then the original manufacturing of the shorts as well as the subsequent manufacturing of the shorts that featured less details. Shortcuts in the hemming of the shorts were one thing but that's not even taking into account that the stitching is completely uneven and even frayed and loose in some spots. This was how they came directly out of the bag, never having been worn or touched by anyone previously but the stitching and hemming was already loose or coming undone. Quite possibly we thought this was only the one pair of shorts so we checked the three other pairs from the same order and come to find out that these also have shoddy stitching and lazy him work and were already coming undone at certain points mainly in the hems of the legs and around the waist.
This was highly disappointing to me as I realized that I no longer had a go-to shorts brand and would have to eventually find something else once all the original pairs of shorts that I'd purchased will someday be unwearable due to normal clothing lifespan running it's course. I highly doubt that the company will go back to making a more costly product or one of the quality of their original shorts. It's sad that they cheapened everything about the item yet remain priced the same and higher for other products. I haven't bought many of their other clothing, such as shirts or slacks but after seeing what's become of an item I once really adored, I'm glad I never wasted money on branching out to their other items. I still own over 35 pairs of their higher quality releases and I'm sure it'll take me time to actually wear any of them out but I feel bad for the people now finding this company, and it's a pale, diluted version of what it once was.
As I stated before when I made the order of last year, I hadn't ordered in quite some time I'm not sure really how long it was, so I can't stay the date of when the products certainly transitioned into what it is now. I only know that the order I placed last year that I just recently opened was not the quality of anything that I received previously. It was also the unfortunate sign that I would no longer be shopping with this brand or recommending its products to anyone any longer. The drop in quality was just that vast, so far removed from what they originally had offered. I don't believe now that the shorts should be sold more than $15 a pair and they're probably honestly worth far less than that to manufacture in their current iteration. It's crazy to think that over the years I've spent more than $2,000 on a single product but that's how much I loved them. Just think about how much money I would have spent in the subsequent years replacing and buying the shorts in a variety of new colors released. Sadly, that will no longer be a part of my future fashion endeavors.
I'm a big believer and supporter of brand loyalty, which is exactly why I've bought so many pairs previously but when a brand veers this far off course it has to be recognized and shared with the community who may be thinking they're buying a worthy product. It's almost as if all the praise for the original product has been used and squandered in order to confuse the consumer, like a bait and switch maneuver, and now sell them this cheaper imitation of what it once was. Although I have more than enough pairs to probably wear them for the next decade, I can't get over the betrayal of the drop in quality without a change of pricing to reflect the lower quality material and the completely shoddy manufacturing.
When Chubbies came to be, they brought with them one product that they made unique again using a style of many years past, something that had long been forgotten in men's fashion. Something that was apparently missed by people or at least wanted by those who came of age after the style of shorts had long been enlongated. At that time there weren't many other brands making a stylish and durable pair of short shorts for men. However I have noticed after the success of Chubbies, both mass produced and high end designer brands now occasionally offer shorts of similar length. I cannot vouch for any of their quality or design attributes as I've been so dedicated to chubby's for these past years but I am aware of other brands now offering their take on men's shorter length shorts. If any of the brands are of good quality regularly, I would imagine that these shorts that they've released would be generally the same. So if you're looking for good quality shorter shorts for men I would check with other brands that you have known and trust their integrity of producing a high quality product that doesn't have to cut so many corners and in turn, destroying the legacy of what was once their reason for existing.
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2024.05.15 08:48 OddSir4755 How can I stabilizer my bow and aim scope point in yellow without adding weight

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2024.05.15 08:48 T43ns43bl3d Interpretation of Circle With Me lyrics.

The lyrics to Circle With Me seem to explore themes of power, ambition, and self-destruction. They use symbolic imagery to convey a struggle for greatness at the cost of personal and spiritual decay. For example;
  1. "Feel the weight of a martyr" and "cut down the altar" - These lines suggest bearing the heavy burden of sacrifices made for a cause or belief, possibly questioning traditional values or structures. Cutting down the altar could symbolize rejecting or challenging established norms or institutions.
  2. "Visionare and deepest fake, Dirty gold, the colors change" - This might be reflecting on the illusion or façade of purity and value in one's pursuits. "Dirty gold" implies a tainted success, while changing colors suggest inconsistency or deceit.
  3. "Negative feedback loop" - This phrase indicates a detrimental cycle from which it's hard to escape, possibly pointing to repetitive destructive behaviors or thoughts.
  4. "Vultures circling the flame" and "birds of prey invade my thoughts" - These images evoke a sense of doom and being preyed upon or consumed by one’s ambitions or by external pressures.
  5. "I held the power of a dying sun, I climb the altar and I claim my place as God" - Indicates a climax of power but also hints at the inherent self-destruction in such immense power, likening it to a dying sun.
  6. "Circle with me" - Could be an invitation to join in this cycle of ambition and destruction, or a call to participate in a ritualistic or shared experience.
The overall message might be about the intoxicating lure of power and control, the sacrifices made to achieve it, and the inevitable downfall or personal cost associated with such pursuits. It reflects a complex interplay of ambition, existential struggle, and the human condition.
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2024.05.15 08:47 dorselessness 23 [F4M] #Oregon cringe alt bitch seeking pathetic loser man

Heyheyhey whats good B)
Looking for either an actual LTR that will eventually lead to an irl meet/moving type thing (i doubt it will ever actually get to that point, it never does 😭🤣), or just an internet friend :p i am more aligned with evil, so someone that is okay with me bullying them on occasion would be preferred
Im 5"10", currently 224lbs, was 250 a couple months ago. Im aiming for 130 eventually B) gonna be sheeshed out the wazoo stg 😎👌🏽😎👌🏽 ethnically im 47% black, 43% assorted variety pack white, and 9% Lebanese; I was raised by a hWHITE woman though, so I act more adjacently to that :p and BEFORE I GET ALL THE HAHA JOKES, MY DAD WAS THERE; his fatass just never left his bedroom 💀
Okay uhh, ngl i need you to be at least level 4 funny because I have the attention span of a gerbil. I dont care about height, ethnicity, or weight. Preferred age range 22-33ish 😎 other preferences: non-religious, non-political (or if we MUST talk politics, im slightly liberal leaning), non-boring (eccentrics my beloved) I dont care if youre a bad person, in fact its greatly preferred 😎👌🏽✨️
Yeah and I like pathetic worm men yes hi hello 🐛 its not a sexual thing i swear, im like 75% asexual; I too am a pathetic worm woman 😎🐛✨️ i like u guys because youll let me win arguments even if im wrong :)
I do like video games and anime, but likely not the same kind that you do 🤣 I play pet sim games mostly, but I also like Sun Haven/Stardew, Vampire Survivors, and old school runescape. I watched damn near every shoujo anime in existence (up til 2015ish) and recently started watching Nana (very Pog 😎😎😎). Not a mega fan of shounen, but I DO love DBZ and One Piece (only got up to Sanji's family arc and dropped it cause i hate sanji LMAO)
https://imgur.com/a/q5Pt55y This is me btw!
Also its my birthday in 10 minutes (turning 23), praise me ✨️
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2024.05.15 08:46 DreaSeasYew I wouldn't agree to cover for my roommate when she killed her ex in our living room, so her and her mom made my life a living hell before I was unexpectedly forced to leave behind both my pets & everything I owned when filling an eviction when he died and kept it from me. How can I fight this?

Before I moved in to that house, my roommate was a fairly good friend because she was close to my ex who had recently passed from a heart condition. We got close while grieving his passing and felt a responsibility to help when we could. I had blessings coming in by the multitude and asa Buddhist I must give to receive or lose even more than having. She fell back into active addiction and since she put her home in her mom's name during her divorce 3-4 years prior, her mom was threatening to kick her out if changes weren't made because she has been covering all the taxes and living expenses of her and her then boyfriend, who lived with her at that time. I offered her a job working for me and offered to help with bus fare and provide lunch on days she worked. Her relationship was getting pretty toxic and she worked 2 days, asked to be advanced for 4 more days she never worked, and stopped answering my messages entirely. It out the blue 2 months later she reached out and I told her I was moving out because my lease wasn't getting renewed and had to pick where I wanted to move to and fast. She told me she wanted him out and was going to get a TPO so he couldn't fight her on leaving and wanted to be able to sell his tools and things as"revenge for the abuse she suffered". I didn't agree with that but agreed to support her and her keep her safe. She begged me to move in to help reinforce him needing to stay away. I ignorantly accepted and moved in to her 2nd bedroom. The 2nd day there we sat down and hashed out the details with her mom who at the time said "sounds like you ladies know what you're doing so I'll leave you to it." She let her mom come by every day it seemed like but the home was "good thing she's not your landlord or we'd be screwed!" After her ex stayed away a while she got bored or lonely, not quite sure which. She tracked him down and has him over while I was working one night. I was furious as he JUST burned his friends house down to the ground and caught him trying to pour my diffuser oils on paper and they had burn marks on them like he wanted to set my room in fire. I told her I wanted nothing to do with her being around him and want happy that he was there. So he stole my house key while sleeping. No matter how many times I asked, I couldn't get them to give me another one after that. That led to me having to stay at hotels I would walk to when I couldn't get inside and had only 5 or 6 hours before my next double shift. One day coming home she stopped him walking away from the house as we were pulling up so she pulled up next to him and invited him over. I got mad and went inside after pulling up to the house and packed a bag to go stay with my boyfriend who I had to make leave after she asked him to move in too but we went with it and wasn't one of the big problems. I feel asleep early and woke up to ask kinda of messages about her not narcaning him but thinks she should. She thought he might not be breathing but then sent memes and made some jokes. This man couldn't stand opiates, he hated her doing them and was the heart of what they broke up over. He despised them and wouldn't have willing done fentanyl when you couldn't get him to take a Vicodin after pulling his wisdom teeth. He was on life support for 4 days and his family took him off when time he was brain dead from losing oxygen for so many hours. She was a licensed nurse. She knew what to do and how to help him. She said so many times. She's proud she did it and that terrified me. Not enough to destroy my spiritual livelihood and lie and cover up such serious violations. Her mom called me twice during the week he was on life support and once after. 2 days after I refused the last time to give the story of him being on drugs already, her Mom busted into my room and screamed at me demanding for me wake up and come to the living room immediately. She told me I was to get out immediately because I broke in when I was locked out and used my bedroom window to get in and left the house unsecured 2 times that she found when she came by to "check on things". I knew that's not how things in the real world go so I just avoided her and paid my rent as usual. Turns out earlier that day she went and filled for an eviction and had worked out with her daughter how to hide it. She was to remove all notifications and not mention anything so I would keep paying and wouldn't take my belongings and she could make money or keep them if she wanted like she got to do with her ex's things. She has most everything he owned on marketplace 24 hours after he passed. Online the court even notes that "service made to: adult female roommate" and labeled it "successful service" even though she was operating with a huge conflict of interest and nobody questioned it. I lost my job as she was hired by me to transport me back and forth. I couldn't afford hotels very long. I lived in abandoned houses. I'm back in hotels on vouchers now. I'm working and saving for a car to get a better job and get around. I got my cats back from her 6 months after but with wings and scabs on the one she didn't like. Obviously she abused her and I had to pay her to give them back in that condition. My other cat is pregnant but an indoor cat so I guess she let her out anyways. I was sent a message that my things that were left would be placed at the road at a specific time and told to come get what I wanted it it was going to the trash. When I showed up I was meet with police and her video recording me and my helpers in our faces taunting me about being on welfare and wanted to know where my free lawyer was because I would need one when she sues me for storage fees when I was refused the ability to retrieve my belongings 4 times prior. I set up mediation and she started and then ended it 10 minutes in. Nothing has been done about the murder. I still have all the proof and evidence. As well as witnesses. I feel like they are getting away with murder AND so much more. I was left without so much as a cell phone or transportation. I slept in streets. I have trauma from this crap and I'm overwhelmed with what to even to after her for. There's nothing legal about any of this whole situation. At one point when I was allowed to get a few things but not much, her mother drive right beside me while I carried my things tormenting me and laughing at me for being homeless and poor because "i was learning who I was f*ing with and getting the consequences for it". She literally said "bet you wish you would change your story now, didn't Cha?" NOBODY HAS EVEN TAKEN A STATEMENT FROM ME!! there's no story told as of now. Am off this was done preemptively. And no lawyers claim to take care like mine. Where the heck do I turn then? Am I just left to accept this because they have money and were able to take all mine? I'm in Ohio btw. This was September of 23
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2024.05.15 08:41 lycheelycheecat tw suicidal ideation

hi everyone. i don’t know why i’m posting this but i don’t feel like i have anyone to talk to about this because i don’t want people worrying so much about me. i’ve been in what i would call quasi-recovery since november. i’m currently stuck in a binge - restrict cycle and i weigh 15 pounds more than i did 6 months ago which is killing me. i don’t know how to live like this anymore. i’ve had issues with food for as long as i can remember and i’ve been anorexic for like 2 years probably. i hated the way i looked when i was severely underweight and i hate the way i look now. i’m living with a problem with something (food) that i can’t just never touch again because then i would die. i am constantly thinking about food and calories. i used to pride myself on being an academic and teacher and now all i want to do is think about my intake. i isolate myself from people, including partners, family and friends because i hate being looked at. i don’t think i’ll ever genuinely be happy. i have no inner peace. i’m constantly in discomfort because im either really hungry or really full. i hate eating at this weight because there was a time when I was lighter so i don’t feel like i deserve food now. and then i binge 4000 cals in an hour. i want to be my LW again but i think it would kill me to get that way again - but i don’t even care at this point. i really wish I could take my brain out of my head and throw it away because it doesn’t stop thinking about food and telling me unpleasant thoughts about my appearance. and despite the weight gain, i haven’t gotten my period back so my body can’t even do the one thing it’s supposed to biologically do. i have never considered killing myself in my life but i don’t know how to live a life where i’m constantly unhappy and feeling uneasy. sorry if this had no structure to it but i really needed to let everything out
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2024.05.15 08:40 JustAnHonestGuy676 24 [M4F] Australia/Anywhere/Online - Looking for a partner potentially for life

Hi! I'm really looking for that special someone, potential soulmate, best friend and partner for life. If you aren't from Australia, i'm hoping we can bridge the gap if you live outside of there! Preferably looking for someone who is between the age of 18-35, since we might be in the same place in life. I don't have nor want kids right now, but I might be open to the idea in the later future, if I really connect with my partner and know them long enough, but currently i'm fine with the idea of not having them.
I'm 5'8, 70kg, Caucasian, have blue eyes, darkish blonde hair, and have an Australian accent. We can exchange photos of each other early on so we know if we have that physical attraction. I'm pretty introverted, but can really open up once I get to know someone and tend to be very loyal once I really fall for my person. I don't drink, do drugs or smoke, but I don't mind if you do. I'm not very picky with weight unless you are obese. Bonus points if you are brunette, but it's okay if you aren't!
My main interests include video games, watching tv shows and movies, reading, walking, exercising, travelling, snuggling, going on walks or just vibing at home. Looking forward to hearing from you, thanks!
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2024.05.15 08:36 BDSMtestcaledmeaslur Blocking somebody doesn't mean you won the arguement

Idk what it is about internet arguements that turns people into children. I've had plenty of debates where they get ended by the other person going "in right, you're wrong. #blocked" then they walk away acting like they won. That's the functional equivalent of sticking yor fingers in your ears and going "LALALALALALA I CAN'T HEAR YOU"
More often than not it will be after I respond in kind their insults or pedantry that they'll start pulling out logical fallacies bc they lost the point 5 posts ago and never understood the original topic. Last arguement I had dude said I had made idiotic statements and that I was wrong enough to never be allowed near a keyboard again. I called him a pedantic asshole and he pulls the Ad Hominem card and blocks me, claiming the moral victory of a child who was raised poorly.
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2024.05.15 08:32 ProHunter4life Remington 700 Alpha 1 is the best Rifle in modern era

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2024.05.15 08:30 creepypond My mother wants to meet over memorial weekend, she wants me to fly out a day to visit before I’m getting married.

This is a long read sorry!
Hi, I (22F) literally just joined, I have been on reddit for a while now, I post here or there but I really need the grace that only reddit seems to have, kisses but you know it's true. So, I guess, I am screaming into the void, because the truth is I am so gutturally confused.
Like the title says- I have always fantasized of being a flower child, a changeling, of turning towards the corner of the yard, the woods beckoning me to run away, the gentleness of which the coyotes would pick my bones clean. My childhood felt like a house fire only I could see.
My father's nightcap of whiskey got less and less watered down as nights were uncomfortable to spend on the family room couch. The one that he fiercely protects, once threatening my friend who mistakenly lounged in his spot. My mother's love felt scarce, a luxury only my younger sister could afford. Between that and her ambition to become the first nurse and college graduate of both families, I was more of my father's daughter. My younger sister and I were doll-like children, meek and polite to the price of our own dignity and self. To give a brief snapshot of what it was like being raised by them \~ even though "I'm remembering it all wrong, or not at all" I will try to go in chronological order, but you can quickly see most of these were not isolated incidents and I jump around:
-daily spankings because of crying during daycare drop off (fair technique)
-tricking us out of the "broken" car, in the rain on a dirt road "get gas" and proceeded to speed past us laughing as we ran after his taillights in the mud, we were in another country, on a solo trip with just our dad, we were both elementary school age.
-In elementary school and 6th grade I lived in a sweatshirt because when I hit puberty. I pleaded to my mother how hard it was to hear my father's constant comments about my womanhood and new body. He started to compare me to a hooker around this time, calling me a slut for trying to wear what my friends wore to school- leggings, shorts shorter than the knee but not offensively short I promise, though I strongly feel as clothing does not mean consent.
-For as long as I can remember, he would take pictures of us when we looked embarrassed then show it to family, friends, whoever in conversation in front of us then scold us when we inevitably felt bad or asked him to stop. He would also promise to delete the photo but would continue the previously mentioned above.
-So far, I have just been harping on my father, but the truth is they are a match made in hell, and though I feel like my mother is a victim in her own way. It was very hard to exist without their constant horrible comments about my appearance and character. They both shamed skinny children to be thinner, critiqued my body through puberty, and felt entitled to touch my body when and how they wanted. Examples include my father's frequent ass grabbing, and then allowing his adult male friend to do the same.
-They both would ridicule me for working minimum wage jobs in high school, while my father funnels out of my sister and I's joint accounts, only when we confront him does he fess that he required the money we earned for ourselves for the "mortgage". He continues as well as set monetary account goals, right before trips or plans, he would always be surprised that we had managed to scrape together enough money. He expects me to find a place that will fire and schedule me on a winter vacation, or to amount 5k in less than 3 months, while paying for my own necessities, thank you for teaching me to live on frugality as a means of survival.
-The name calling I touched on, but I would be the first to come home from school, my father would take his lunch to come home and berate me verbally of how much of a loser I am and will continue to be. The verbal arguments were daily, I fully admit to yelling back but in truth I couldn't leave his spewing red face hurling threats, I had to stay glued in place until he had his fill.
-Another solo trip with my father and sister, my mother had cleaned my room while we were away and had found my treasures- vapes, two beers. I got pulled out of the running shower to be beaten on and off through the night whenever my father took a break from tv, my sister sob in the room with my father to stop and I sat on the couch until morning. We had a tourist excursion the next day and I got it again before we left because I was not to "ruining the rest of his vacation with my bad attitude"
-They locked away my childhood cat, sick with cancer, to die alone in the basement so she would ruin their floors with her incontinence. When she passed, they did not tell me, they buried her in the woods behind our house, I wish I could lay beside her, I'm sorry little one.
-My father would come home and yell at me for not having dinner ready for him, because when my mother worked late or was not home, the next one responsible for dinner was my younger sister or me.
-He physically corners us or refuses to let us leave. Threatened my life when I tried to leave the house during an argument.
-Put his hand through the door a couple of times because I “gave attitude” by responding with ok. Readers, please note I am capable of attitude, but this was not the case, I was scared, and I just wanted to give him whatever answer he wanted
-I'm a summer birthday, so for my big 21st I had my cousin, bf and sister have a pool party in my parents' pool. No one told me the plan all day. I was told to just relax by everyone, because normally I would be running around serving people or helping my parents. No one told me anything, so we played some games in the yard, had some wine coolers and then swam. My father flies outside and starts yelling at me from the side of the pool to get my ass out and blow out my candles because he needs to drive my cousin 20 minutes home each way. So, I blew out my candles, soaking wet staring daggers because my father has always managed to underplay or make me feel bad on my birthday too? Another grievance from my 21st birthday is that my father grilled frozen steaks, and I truly do not want to seem like a stuck-up princess, but he proceeded to buy 300$ of food from my favorite restaurant and his favorite food is steak not mine. Note his birthday is the next day following mine.
I may post in regard to the tribulation that was my childhood in this thread again, but it takes a lot out of me, and I have already had myself a day sorry. Now you're all caught up and I just want you to know-
I have long ruminated over my own words and actions; though I have many regrets I do not feel ashamed of my choices or who I am because I try to treat everyone with kindness and most importantly respectability. I know the lengths my immigrant parents have gone through to build themselves a life. I know the struggles my father had with his father, the alcoholic who raised him with cruelty reserved for not even a barn animal. I know that my mother lived in the shadows as a neglected middle child hoping to find someone who realized all her good in the way her parents did not. I can see and understand that I carry the same wounds, and now it is within my responsibility to be better.
So, my relationship with my parents is strained right now. I have been in low contact with my mother and father for nearly four years, with periods of better contact. We have tried therapy, though it's difficult as my mother uses this as an opportunity to explore her wounds rather than our history or relationship. Though the therapist was helpful in directing the conversation back, I believe that the work can only happen with the person wanting to actually work on themselves, so I feel like I am at a frustrating impasse.
Every time I feel like I can take out a brick between the wall I keep between us, my mother will say something that makes me build another layer. I try not to be sensitive, yet I know my mother likes to cut with her words, though she claims otherwise. In a recent conversation my mother admitted that my father and she spent a great effort in making sure my beauty did not go to my head and did this in order to keep me humble.
For context, my mother’s side of the family does not like my father, and this along with other childhood issues festering into adulthood drove a wedge between my mother and her younger brother. His recent divorce and my mother’s empty nest have given them much time and space to rekindle their sibling relationship. So on our already strained phone calls she hits me with these metaphors of her brother and her relationship to ours. Am I off for thinking that those are two very different relationships, yet both have.. Jealousy? Furthermore, I feel a looney because I am fighting to keep them in my life, and they are fighting to be right.? To be absolved of the guilt and shame that maybe they did do the wrong thing.?
What gives them the right? When we all have to lay away at night with our guilt you want me to hold yours? I want a mother and they want a guiltless soul
Truthfully, I do not know what kind of future lies ahead for us. I think I grieve having bullies instead of parents, of what I missed out on and who I could have been. Like I said I am low contact right now, but after a normal phone call talking about the weather and our pets today, I had an anxiety attack to the point I fought to stay conscious. This has not been the first time I have fainted due to anxiety, mostly surrounding situations that remind me of them or things they punished or did to me in the past. The day after I wished my father a happy birthday after a year of no contact, I got two pills of ativan to the face after a ER visit in which they thought my poor bf was trafficking me. Though this is maybe too much, I am always sweating, my sides literally pour, my hands shake, and I can string together a sentence if I try. I feel like a different person, a moist, meek person.. which is not me, I self tattoo and pierce, I can and have tackled an attacking dog and I have punched touchy men square in the nose. I’m tough because I fought tooth and nail to be kind and gentle, we rescued cats and recently a possum, and we let out spiders and bugs, so our cats don’t terrorize them.
Here’s the thing… we’re getting married!
We’re tying the knot in the woods at the end of May, but I feel like an asshole because I have not told my parents. They know we’re engaged.
My mother, in a recent phone call, told me of this travel nurse that she had gotten close to, that was getting married soon, and invited my mother to go dress shopping with her. My mother told me how sad this girl felt that her family was all the way across the country, coincidently much like we are. This felt like she was guilting me, but she went so far as to send me a picture of a couple, I didn’t verify who it actually was.
Another issue is I am dealing with the guilt of getting a ring and bands elsewhere. My father is a high-end jeweler whose work has been showcased by celebs, my whole life I heard that my father was going to design and make my engagement ring. After long consideration, we picked out a ring from Madrid that felt more like me. When I look at my wedding rings I want to think of my husband not my father. I am more than happy with anything else, rings for other occasions, but it makes my skin crawl and my stomach curling because part of me feels as if it's more of a collar than a ring then.
My mother wants to meet over memorial weekend, she wants me to fly out a day to visit before I’m getting married.
I do not know if I should facetime them and break the news before, after or invite them. It’s already last minute so airfare will be expensive, but I know they are going to be so heartbroken. Part of me does not want them there either because I have felt alone my whole life, I figured I would do my wedding the same way, though it's hard because my fiancé's family will be there, and I will have no one. I wish I could hire a friend... lol typed that with a tear in my eye that's ironic.
Suggestions please
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2024.05.15 08:30 NearlyEnuff At the end of my rope.

I did a photoshoot with a friend today. I tried to do something normal.
After seeing the photos my mood increasingly got worse but my friend was having fun so we continued. She has great bone structure and literally looked like a top model. She’s so photogenic. I always thought I was prettier than her but after that I felt so worthless.
I can’t think about anything other than plastic surgery. There’s no way I can live myself as I am. I feel uncomfortable and on edge. I hate my body. I hate looking at pics of me from when I was a teenager and 20 pounds lighter and so much prettier. I feel totally disgusting. I workout all the time and eat healthier and I just keep getting uglier.
I actually feel like I need to starve myself at this point. Nothing is working. I hate every part of my face. I’m exhausted. I’m angry. I want to cry. I feel like none of my friends will ever get me. This illness is so isolating. I’ve been looking at photos of myself and researching surgery for the past three hours and I can’t stop. If I can’t get surgery and lose weight and be gorgeous I think I’d rather die.
I can’t live like this much longer. Everyone says I’m cute and pretty and those are cruel words that reminder me ill never be special or truly beautiful. I feel like the gum on the bottom of peoples shoes. If anyone really knew how ugly I could get, they’d never talk to me again. I feel like monster. I hate living in this body. When I talk to people I always show my best side and do everything in my power to look better. Me at a resting state, head on, is probably the most disgusting thing I’d ever seen. I’d rather be deformed than look so averagely boringly ugly.
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2024.05.15 08:26 honeycolorkook Mental health decline is giving me chest pains, a high bpm rest rate and I'm growing more Grey hair than normal. Help??

Hello again, you might've seen my post a while ago about a really bad ear infection I had. I went back to the doctor and it's slowly clearing up thank god, but now I'm starting to see signs of a more serious health problem that could've possibly played a role in me getting a really bad ear infection out of no where.
I (f21) have struggled with mental illness my entire life. I'm not gonna type out my whole sob story, but to keep it short and sweet I have bipolar 1, OCD, BPD, an ED, and just overall very very bad anxiety. This is all written in my chart and every doctor I go to knows this. With that being said my OCD and ED have been rearing thier ugly heads for the past week making me very anxious and miserable, to the point that it's making my insomnia worse from worrying and so much other stuff.
I've been losing weight pretty rapidly because I simply refuse to eat when I feel this way as a sense of control I do not possess right now and my OCD has been giving me disturbing and downright terrifying intrusive thoughts (like that I'm going to die of a heart attack or that my newfound ear infection is going to spread to my brain and kill me; as well as more harm ocd thoughts like me getting near any high surface and my brain screaming at me to jump off or to simply just self-harm again to stop the thoughts completely.)
I've been so stressed out because of my mental health that I've been noticing more than just a random stray hair that is kinda grey every once and a while to seeing multiple fully grown out bright white strands (which isn't normal in the slightest for me) and I have my samsung smart watch that I use to track my heart rate and it will tell me when something seems off and I have been getting constant alerts that even if I'm simply sitting and trying to relax my resting BPM are at a shocking 121 (which also isn't normal for me in the slightest), I'm a bigger girl, but my blood work has always been normal and I never once had anyone tell me that I am unhealthy once they see my most recent panel that I got 1 month ago. So all of these things that have been happening over these past few weeks have been worrying me tremendously.
My chest has been feeling tight and aching which shouldn't be happening to a 21 year old that has no heart conditions and I've generally just been feeling spent and tired over the course of this (my depression has gotten worse which plays a heavy role in this as well) my body has been feeling feverish with no actual fever, I've had some light tremors, I've been extremely fatigued and my gut health has been not so great as well (having diarrhea every day, multiple times a day, for almost 20-30 minutes each session).
I've been brushing this off until I just broke down today (I've been crying nonstop for about 3 hours straight now) and now I can't even get out of bed. I feel like my body gave me an ear infection to actually make me slow down and take care of myself, which I'm grateful for, but also very annoyed by.
My question is will and should I grow more concerned if these symptoms persist and are they more serious than I think? Thanks for the replies in advance!
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2024.05.15 08:24 BoujeeGothBB Lost a buttload of weight for seemingly no reason?

Hey y’all. In 2018 I was 187lbs, 5 ft 9. I was uncomfortable and started working out a lot. I got down to 167 and hovered there for about 4 years +/- 5lbs.
I got really stressed out in March of last year and dropped to 145. Since then I’ve made an effort to put weight back on (stopped dieting), just kinda ate whatever I felt like and make it a point to snack throughout the day in addition to my regular meals.
Lately I’ve been feeling a little too thin and my ribs are sticking out a bit. I just weighed myself and I’m 139lbs!
I got bloodwork done and it all came back normal, however my WBC was slightly elevated. I’m wondering if I might have some inflammation going on? My cycle is normal, my appetite is pretty good. My BP is kinda low and my HR hovers in the low 60’s when I’m inactive, but my Dr said the weight loss wasn’t alarming.
Could I just be dropping all this weight because on my age maybe? I’m 34F, I don’t eat desserts or fried foods, really. I do indulge in burritos and burgers sometimes, but otherwise I eat relatively good. (Lots of sushi, salads, nuts and fruit. I drink a ton of water and I don’t really drink. I’ve lost some of the baby fat in my face and I’m just overall very thin/lean now.
I don’t want to lose anymore weight, but does anyone have any suggestions to maybe put 10lbs on in a healthy way that is conducive to active lifestyle? I am on my feet all day everyday, I might just be burning a buttload of calories from working so much but it’s kinda weird.
Anybody else in the same boat? I always thought it was harder to lose weight in my 30’s.
Thank you!
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2024.05.15 08:24 gustowee Need advise on trying therapy or getting divorce? 38M 37f

Me and my wife have been together for 15 years. We have 2 kids 5 and 7.. About 11 months ago she started getting really depressed.. crying randomly etc.. and on top of that she was having crazy periods bleeding non stop for days…went to multi doctors.. ended up getting on on Zoloft about 6 months ago..she told me she feel like a different person now but still struggling with something..then she decided to see a therapist about 4 months ago.. the doctors decided about 2 month ago to be put back on birth control bc of the non stop bleeding.. she’s 37…. I thought we had a perfect marriage but around 3 months ago there became a weird descents between us.. couldn’t explain it but it was fucking me up.. randomly she wanted to buy a huge house.. so we went all in and bought it.. 2 weeks after we bought the house she said we need to separate bc she is dealing with pent up issues with me from 5 years ago that she’s been holding in and didn’t realize till now and she think that’s why she’s been depressed and doesn’t know if she wants a divorce and still loves me.… so I left the house and now living in the first house we had bc we haven’t sold it yet….2 days after I left I saw her with another guy at a local park 930am when I went out for a jog with my kid and mom. And she acted like it was a big deal and wasn’t even shocked that she got caught with someone else. My mom and kid talk to her right in front of the random guy.. she claims it’s a friend and nothing happened and that she think she is doing self destructive behavior. Absolutely madness.. she apologized but didn’t seem genuine. Anyways I can get over it bc we have 2 kids and I love her. We are currently going to see a therapist.. but her coldness and numbness to this whole situation is fucking me up.. I’m giving her space helping with the kids etc.. but I’m at the point where I think she’s low key lost her mind or completely changed to a mean person.. any advise should I get a divorce or try therapy.. just nervous about therapy bc it might ruin me bc this whole thing has been a nightmare and I don’t want to get my hopes up. This is the craziest weirdest hardness things I’ve ever gone through
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2024.05.15 08:24 004anne Return Policy changed after I ordered. Can I chargeback?

I, in the United States, recently ordered something from Spain. It came in broken so I wanted to just return it and get a refund. Their website, in English, said if the order arrived damaged, they would pay for the shipping back. I messaged support and they claimed that it was a translation error and that in Spanish (which I'm assuming is the original language given they're based in Spain), the policy said they will pay for the shipping on the replacement. I checked and yes, in Spanish, it did say that. So in English, their policy was translated wrong. That was 24 hours ago and now they've changed the English policy to what it is supposed to be, therefore, I'm in the wrong now.
TLDR: Ordered from Spain, item arrived damaged. English site promised return shipping paid, but Spanish site said otherwise. Company claimed translation error, then changed English policy to match Spanish. Now, I'm stuck with return costs.
Do I have a valid case to chargeback? I could provide the emails as proof that they changed the policy after me pointing it out. It's important to note that the costs for me to send it back is more than the item.
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2024.05.15 08:22 Dark-Lodg3 Need to correct something here as there is some misunderstanding going on.

Insisted 2 videos yesterday. However for spoke reason the video of my leg extension had the text saying I did calf raises . I've just watched it again. So to clear up. There should be a video showing my calf dipping and rippling I was at rest at this point just with my leg up and to answer the question no I wasn't flexing anything I was sat there after just doing those calf raises I think once in the video I had lifted my foot upwards. Normally my calves twitch 24/7 they also can go into Charlie horse cramps too for no reason. However since the atrophy started off in the right calf that ones behaved differently and so after being advised by my podiatrist to do calf raises and stretching because my arches in my feet have collapsed the video of my calves happened.
The video with leg extensions. That is my quad with diagnosed chronic neurogenic changes and neurogenic atrophy. I haven't been able to do any exercise other than walks and on these walks and in everyday life I have fallen I trip my legs buckle the quad locks up . I've not been able to body weight squat I fall coming down and getting up stairs at times. My leg would get fatigue during driving and really ache.
Then all of a sudden I've been able to do this I've been able to single leg lift from 25kg up to 55kg for multiple sets and reps . I've been able to do leg press up to 120kg for 10 reps per set I can bodh weight squat . I managed to use the frame to dead lift only about 5 days ago with if I remember 135 or 125kg on it. How can there be a sudden change like this was what I was asking . I can't find how to edit the video posts text so having to correct it here
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2024.05.15 08:22 Zekluded I called my employer out on being in violation of overtime laws and I believe I have a case for retaliation

Location is Loveland, Colorado. My employers pay us on a semi-monthly basis, and it was to my understanding that their overtime policy was "anything over 88 hours within a pay-period" which would be the 8th-22nd and the 23rd-7th of each month, with our pay days falling on the 1st and 15th of each month. They have this policy in place at two additional locations and have been using this policy for multiple years.
We have a group chat with all employees in it, I asked them to clarify the overtime policy in this chat and made sure to ask multiple clarifying question to ensure all employees had hard evidence of them stating the overtime policy. I proceeded to call them out directly within the group chat for being in violation of federal overtime laws as well as Colorado laws regarding HWFA "paid time off" laws, as they had not informed anyone of their right to take this leave.
The very next day, I came into work, and we just so happened to have our chef coats delivered, which were provided only to the lead chefs, which I had already been notified that I would be promoted to. My manager informed me that she was requested to withhold mine. I immediately messaged the owners and informed them that I believed they were retaliating against me. Within a couple hours, I was informed that they had decided to give me my coat. My pay was not affected, and I have since voluntarily relinquished the position due to the stress, which has been severe enough to cause persistent anxiety attacks, weight loss and sleep deprivation. I'm tangentially aware that this could be a factor if it came to a retaliation lawsuit and am considering visiting a psyche for both legitimate reasons and to have my bases covered legally.
I'm not looking to get a massive lawsuit out of this, and my primary interest is to recover lost wages for myself and other employees without bankrupting the company, as me and my fellow coworkers do make decent money despite their theft and we enjoy working with each other. We have decided, collectively, that it's within our best interested to resolve this amicably. Of course, I'm not confident at all that they will attempt to do the right thing as they have already tried to not only deny the issue, but even went so far as to claim that they were actually overpaying on overtime.
I believe that even if any potential payout for me is minimal, that other fines and fees that they might be forced to pay would still be devastating, hopefully giving me more bargaining power in any settlement negotiations.
Is this a strong enough case for retaliation and, if so, does it appear to be a strong enough case to serve as leverage, or am I oveunderplaying the severity of their actions?
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2024.05.15 08:22 infectedPegasus Implore You to Listen

Please, Dear Heart, I implore you to listen and understand the cries of the people in the Levant, whose lives have been ravaged by the crushing weight of Western imperialism. For centuries, their lands have been pillaged, their cultures erased, and their voices silenced.
For they the Palestinians were once a thriving civilization, rich in knowledge, art, and spirituality. Their cities shone like beacons of learning and progress, attracting scholars and travelers from all over the world. Then, the waves of imperialism crashed upon their shores, bringing with them destruction, chaos, and despair.
Colonizers came with their guns, their bombs, and their lies, claiming to bring "civilization" and "progress" to their "backward" lands. But all the colonizers brought was death, displacement, and darkness.
They drew borders, dividing the nations and the people, sowing seeds of discord and strife, seeds which grew into choking weeds.
Resources have been exploited, wealth has been stolen, and entire populations have been enslaved. The colonizers imposed their own power systems, their own languages, and their own beliefs, erasing cultures and histories. They turned holy sites into tourist attractions, sacred texts into relics, and prophets into myth.
Yet, despite all this, the Palestinian people refused to be erased. They resisted, they rebelled, and they rose up against their oppressors. They fight and still fight for freedom, dignity, and right to self-determination.
To this day the colonizers will still not let them be. They crush movements, kill leaders, and torture people.
The lands of innocents are still occupied, innocent people still oppressed, and innocent voices still silenced. But they will not be forgotten. They will rise again, stronger and more united than ever before.
So, Dear Heart, I beg of you, please understand the pain, struggle, and hope. See the humanity in their eyes, the love in their hearts, and the resilience in their spirits. Do not let the lies of imperialism blind you to the truth of injustice, innocence, and love.
The Palestinian people are not just victims, they are victors. They are not just oppressed, they are martyrs. They are not just silenced, they are speakers of truth.
The people will not be silenced forever. Their voices will rise, their stories will be told, and their freedom will be won.
It has already begun.
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