I "dated" a Cap (M) 40 and I'm a Pisces (F) 40 for 8 months. We were both in long term relationships when we met. We have been friends for years but were strictly platonic. He was with Pisces (F) and I was with a Libra (M). One day we met and instantly clicked. He was a straight shooter out the gate. I was surprised how agressive he was about being so transparent. We began seeing each other and the energy was so magnetic. We talked everyday all day for hours via text and phone. We saw each other as much as we could. He owns and runs a very successful company and I work from home. We both have children and we agreed not to introduce our kids to each other until the timing was right. We did so much together. We became inseparable. I was scared/nervous and skeptical to fall for him since he had already been in a relationship with another Pisces (F) and my thoughts were "if it didn't work with her, there's no way it would work with us". Plus he told me that he had never loved any other woman besides her. So, I definitely had my guards up. When I tell you, this man poured into me, he poured into me. He was so consistent with his actions and words that I began to fall in love. I was the first one to admit that I was in love and he also confessed he had fell in love and that he had never felt the way he felt with anyone else. He said he had sexual relationships with over a hundred women and "experienced" everything under the sun and that he never realized that what he was actually searching for was "connection". He said he was surprised by how easy it was to talk to me and just be honest and vulnerable. We literally would be together for hours and days (sometimes) with no television, no distractions, and just talk for HOURS. We really enjoyed each others company.
Flashforward, the other Pisces woman (41) began to beg for his return. They have children together and she begged and begged for another chance to connect with him "for the sake of the kids". She claimed that he never gave her an opportunity to emotionally connect. He told me he never felt comfortable being vulnerable or honest with her in all the years he's known her. I could feel him slipping away and pulling away. I could tell he was becoming conflicted. How could I compete with her when they had so much history? I just found it confusing because for months I held back on giving him my heart completely but he repeatedly assured me that he was all in and that "she couldn't change his mind". He told me it was safe to trust him, it was safe to be vulnerable, it was safe to love him.
All of a sudden, within the last 30 days I could feel him shifting and his internal turmoil bubbling up. I suggested that he take two weeks of no contact to figure out what he wanted to do. He called me 5 days later and broke up with me. He said he couldn't stand seeing he emotionally breakdown the way that she had and that they had a lot of history together and that he feels bad because he was never truly vulnerable or honest with her. He basically blamed himself and said that before he could be with me or anyone else he "has to try" for the sake of the kids and to make sure he did all he could do to "save" the relationship.
Of course, I broke down in tears. I felt betrayed. We experienced so much together, grew together, built trust, I allowed mysef to love him fully and completely and then he blindsided me and broke up with me! My initial reaction was shock. I kept muting myself during the phone call. He did not tell me in a gentle manner. It was very "conversational" which was abnormal. The next day, I called him to ask questions and I broke down and actually cried on the phone (like full on ugly cry). We continued to talk for days afterwards b/c he felt bad for me and he misses our banter. After going back and forth talking (sometimes as if he did not break up with me), he asked if he should stop communicating with me until he was 100 percent done with his current situation and was single. I asked him, what he felt led to do and he wouldn't answer. Finally, today, I told him it would not be fair to her or me if he continued to talk to me because that's not him moving in an honest manner and he would basically be using me as a "crutch" or a "backup". He told me, that I would always have a place in his heart and that I was unforgettable and that this would be his final communication with me. I acknowledged is text message and shed a few tears.
Hours later, I noticed he actually blocked me on all social media platforms. I was not expecting that! Especially since I did not break up with him, he broke up with me and HE broke MY heart!
We were supposed to take a trip together in June. He reimbursed me for it (after I asked)...should I give him time to work things out (cool down) and still go or just leave him alone completely? My heart is broken! I really thought he was my forever person! I miss him so much.
Him: Cap Sun, Gemini Moon, Cap Mercury, Sag Venus, Cap Rising Me: Pisces Sun, Leo Moon, Pisces Mercury, Aqua Venus, Scorpio Rising Other woman: Pisces Sun, Sag Moon, Aqua Mercury, Aries Venus

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Previous Part
Morning eventually came, banishing the eyes that seemed to peer at me through the night. It was strange how suddenly the feeling left me, making me think that someone really was watching me. The whole thing was really doing wonders for my paranoia. Despite the rough morning and sleepless night, I still found myself waiting outside Bianca’s house bright and early that morning. The air was cool but not chilly, one of those perfect days that’s cold enough you’ll never start sweating unless you really try, but warm enough that a T-shirt will get you through without too much trouble.
I only had to knock once before Bianca threw open the door.
“Where you just waiting there for me?”
I asked, cracking a smile and raising an eyebrow.
“You’ll never know” she added playfully, “Are we ready to go then?”
Bianca had made some preparations for the trip, she didn’t have a backpack ready to go but she definitely made an effort to dress the part… sort of. She was wearing an old grey combat jacket that I imagine she pulled out of Stein’s closet. The jacket was way to big for her but she made it work. Her combat boots matched the jacket, looking old and well worn. What didn’t match was the bright red yoga pants she was wearing, but I wasn’t about to complain. Besides, I had packed each of us a spare set of clothes just in case.
“Oh! So I had an idea, its a long walk, not crazy but I’d rather not just walk the whole way if we can help it. Frank and Stein used to have some bicycles when we first came here so I asked them about it and well.”
Bianca chirped, as she led me around the back of the house and pulled a tarp off two abysmal looking bicycles. The bikes were both red at one point but that was a long time ago. Now they were covered in a layer of rust and I could barely make out the branding that may have once read, “Shwinn”.
“Um… Bianca I think I might get tetanus if I sit on that thing.”
“Oh come on! Aren’t you tired of walking everywhere? Lets just give the bikes a shot, if they crumble to dust we can leave them.”
“And get me a tetanus shot.”
I added quickly
“Fine, and get you a tetanus shot.”
Bianca shot back, she feigned annoyance but she couldn’t hide the smile that crossed her face.
Laughing to ourselves, we got on the bikes and took off North, out of town and onto a dirt path leading to the woods. Bianca didn’t say much on the way out but I could tell she was having a good time. This may have been her first time out of the house for something other than supervising Frank and Stein. She tried to hide it by riding fast and staying out in front of me, but I could still catch her eyes literally glowing with happiness every now and then. I thought back to what Frank had said about her eyes glowing when she experiences strong emotion. I hoped that was the case and she wasn’t just trying really hard to influence me, which he had also said would make her eyes glow.
As we neared the end of the path, the forest’s edge came into view. we let the bikes roll to a stop then got off and let them fall over onto the dirt. I half expected them to explode into a puff of rusty brown dust the second they touched the ground but to my surprise, neither bike did. I could’ve swore I heard Bianca sniffle almost like she’d been crying. I opened my mouth to say something and then thought better of it, if she wanted to tell me what was going on she would. Well, that or she’d just manipulate me away from the question. Wait, was she doing that now? It’s hard to tell, maybe that’s how everyone around her feels. The more I thought about it the more I realized how difficult it must be for her just to have friends or form relationships with people at all. If she told them the truth they’d never know if what they were feeling around her at any given moment was real. All they’d have to go on would be her word, could they really trust that, could I? If she kept her secret she’d know that at any moment she could just change how they felt about her, manipulate them into anything she wanted. Could she resist that kind of power over them and still look someone in the eyes and say she was their friend. Not to mention how hard it would be to keep that secret over years of knowing someone.
“So Keith, were exactly are we headed? You do have some Idea where this mine you’re looking for is right?”
Bianca asked skeptically, snapping me out of my thoughts.
“Well about that…. I just know its out here in the forest somewhere. That’s pretty much all I have to go on from Frank, Stein, and that massive bartender in town.”
I told her sheepishly.
“Well that explains why you over-packed so much then. Seriously? How long do you think we we’re going to be out here, you’re packed like some kind of survivalist.”
She mocked, picking through the pack I’d made for her. After she finished rooting through the pack I made for her like some kind of giant squirrel and, chastised me yet again for not doing more research on the mine, we set off.
The forest felt imposing as we walked into the woods through a manicured patch of trees. Someone had gone to great lengths to braid a few trees over this little path before the forest turned back into its natural wild state. It gave off the feeling that civilization ended with this path and something else entirely began. As we got off the path our light faded quickly, chocked out by the limbs of massive pine trees. All this cover meant there was very little foliage on the ground which was covered in a blanket of needles. The though occurred to me that we were looking for a mine in a valley. That’s weird because what exactly would be in a valley that warranted the creation of a mine? Usually you’ll find them in mountains so what exactly was one doing out here.
“Bianca I just had a thought, Why would they build a mine out here? I mean what’s the point, is there even anything valuable out here to mine?”
“Yeah, come to think of it your right. What other reason would there be to have a mine out here?”
“Unless they were just mining from a cave but that still doesn’t answer the question of what they were…”
Bianca cut me off
“What was that first thing you said?”
“Um… mining from a cave?”
A lightbulb went off over her head as she exclaimed,
“That’s it! There’s caves under the town, I’ve heard Frank talk about them before! Maybe they didn’t have a real mine so they were just mining something out of the caves.”
“Not to burst your bubble Bianca, but that still doesn’t get us any closer to these caves or mines or whatever it is.”
I responded cautiously, trying not to sound to critical of her revelation.
“Well not exactly, Frank said they were in the East of the forest somewhere so all we have to do is head East till we run into them.”
Bianca said, full of confidence. Then something occurred to me, we had no real way of getting back to the bikes other than retracing our steps. Now that was easy enough now, if we went deeper into the woods we would get lost pretty quickly.
“One more thing Bianca, Maybe we should come up with a way to find our way out? I really don’t want to end up lost out here.”
I asked nervously, fidgeting with my hands.
“Way ahead of you on that one, I left my phone back by the bikes. Here give me yours and I’ll put my number in so you can track it and find our way back.”
She said, taking my phone, putting her number into it, and turning it to me to show she’d tracked her own phones location with it, giving us a path back to the bikes.
As we turned East and headed even deeper into the forest the terrain started to change. Instead of the pine needle coating we started to see rocks and the ground was more rugged. Here and there we’d even pass a boulder or two. I decided to break the silence of our search.
“So are you ever going to tell me how you met Frank and Stein?”
Bianca sighed before responding.
“I suppose you deserve to know if your sticking around. You probably guessed I wasn’t always living with them. Lets just say before that I was with someone who I though meant the world to me but I never meant the same to him. It was all a game to him and eventually I noticed that. Then, a little while afterwards I realized I wasn’t exactly powerless anymore and I did some things that I’m not exactly proud of to survive on my own.”
I could tell talking about this hurt her but I needed more.
“That’s not exactly telling me a whole lot Bianca.”
I pressed, maybe a little to hard.
“I found out I had powers and I used them ok! I got myself out of a situation where I was pulled so many way I didn’t know which direction was up! The second I found out I could do the same thing to people myself, I did! You’re the first person to actually seem to give a shit that wasn’t some crazy doctor that tolerates my existence or someone I just manipulated into caring! Maybe I even did that with you! I JUST DON’T KNOW ANYMORE!”
Bianca screamed at me, getting in my face with tears beginning to run down her own. Her eyes were glowing electric blue again and I knew I’d crossed a line.
“Hey I’m sorry I didn’t mean to hurt you. I… I didn’t know.”
“No.. you didn’t but I guess you should”
Bianca sniffled out, trying desperately to pull herself back together and keep up the act the everything was ok. Bianca went silent for a while as we kept walking along, crying to herself before she finally took a deep breath and said,
“You know, this is the first time someone’s asked me to come along and do something outside the house in years. I spend so much time cooped up in there just helping with experiments and looking after Rocco. It’s actually nice to get out and talk for once.”
Her voice still a lifts hoarse from screaming at me before.
“Look if you want to talk about it we’ve got nothing but time out here. I’d like to know a bit more about you anyways.”
I said taking her hand and trying to sound comforting.
“Yeah maybe I should get some of it off my chest. Here it goes I guess.”
Bianca said, taking a deep breath and tightening her grip on my hand. Her eyes still glowed faintly as she told me her story as we ventured deeper into the forest.
I’ll give you the shorter version of it here, mostly cause I’m not sure how she’d feel about me spoiling all her secrets.. She ran away from her family and her college education for a guy, his name was Brooke. Brooke was from money and had a job lined up by his family at a law firm so Bianca thought she was set for life with him. Bianca was madly in love with him at the time but as days grew into months and years, Brooke became a monster. He cheated on her and told her she wasn’t enough, that her shortcomings drove him to do it over and over again and somehow it was all her fault every time. He became abusive not long after the cheating started, flying into fits of hysteric apology afterwards only further convincing Bianca she was somehow at fault. After three years of this she eventually got up the courage to leave and never looked back. On the road she discovered her powers of manipulation, letting her play with people’s emotions and she only got better at it with time. Unfortunately her abilities got her into a very specific form of getting money out of people, prostitution. One day she tried to solicit Stein and he saw straight through her. Stein took her with him to the hotel he and Frank were staying at and they took her in on the spot. The trio traveled together ever since, Bianca becoming a kind of daughter to them.
I was in shock once she finished her story, it sounded like she’d really been through the ringer.“I don’t know what to say, that’s awful, all of it.”
“It was, I lived it. But I made it through, doesn’t matter how at the end of the day. I’ve got Frank and Stein and that’s enough, they let me into their home and I recovered in my own way, I’m still here so I’ll take what I can get right?”
Bianca stated with a cold loom of determination on her face. It was painfully obvious to me that despite the masquerade of being fine she was barley holding it together underneath. Like just talking about it with me was driving a finger into old wounds.
“At least you’ll never have to go through something like that again. With your abilities you never have to get pushed around like that.”
I said with completely no tact whatsoever. Bianca stopped suddenly as I said this and whirled around to face me. The fire I’d seen in her eyes earlier reigniting in seconds.
“Do you really think that’s all this is?! I’m no better than him, even you don’t know what you really think when you look at me! Admit ti!”
Bianca growled at me, hysterical once again.
“No, Bianca I…”
“Look I know your trying to help but just leave it, ok? I’m done talking about this”
She cut me off, pulling herself back together and signaling very clearly we were done with that particular conversation.
“Besides look over there, That hole in the rock see it? That might be what we’re looking for.”
Bianca said, gesturing to the stone wall that now jutted out of the ground beside us.
The rock wall she pointed out was chipped near the middle in a way that couldn’t have been natural. Straight lines don’t really exist in nature and this hole was cut squarely into this rock wall. As we got closer I could see that it wasn’t just an entrance either. The hole opened into the rock wall but then suddenly dropped, like whoever carved it had hit a point where the ground just fell out from under them. From where Bianca and I were looking into the hole we couldn’t quite see the bottom.
“Well we found what we were looking for, is this bringing back any memories from those dreams you had?”
Bianca asked, sounding a little short tempered still as I searched through my bag.
“What are you looking for in there?”
“Rope, I’ve got to see what’s in there and I’m hoping I brought enough to climb down there.”
I replied hurriedly, still tearing apart my bag to get to the rope I had packed underneath everything else.
“Rope? you’re not seriously going to climb down that pit are you? I can barely see down there.”
Bianca complained, sounding exasperated.
“Here, this should help you see down there.”
I said, tossing her one of the two head mounted flashlights I brought along.
“ME? I never said we were going down there!”
Bianca panicked momentarily.
“Look, you can stay up here and wait for me if you really don’t want to go down there. But I would appreciate having you to watch my back.”
I added trying to soften her up. Bianca opened her mouth like she was going to say something but stopped, instead dropping her own pack to the ground and searching through it.
“Look if I’m going down there I’m going to need something better than yoga pants on and…. You actually packed a change of clothes in here. Geez you really did think of everything.”
As Bianca took the jeans I packed and went off to find somewhere to change I finally found the rope. It was about 50 feet of strong climbing rope that I kept for an occasion just like this. Now that’s not to say I was a professional climber by any means but a 20 or 30 foot rappel I should be able to do. I was hoping that the descent wasn’t much further than that. I anchored the rope to a tree a little ways away from the hole in the rock face and tossed the rope down the hole. It hit the bottom with a satisfying thud just as Bianca got back from changing. The jeans I had packed were a little big on her but she’d manage. She looked like a mess in her ancient combat boot and jacket, all of which were too big for her. I tried to open my mouth to tell her she looked nice, I swear I really did but what came out was hyena-like laughter at her appearance.
“I…. Oh god I’m…. It’s just”
I struggled to get out, laughing all the while.
“Well I’m glad you like it at least, ok seriously come on, stop laughing.”
Bianca scolded as she began giggling herself. Soon enough we were both laughing, Bianca’s earlier storminess cleared up by the absurdity of the situation.
Here we were, a succubus and a guy with a strange mark out in the woods getting ready to rappel into a hole in the ground that apparently didn’t exist. All this was almost starting to feel… I’m not really sure how to put it, not normal but not so strange. Honestly I finally felt like I’d found some kind of purpose again out here. As weird as it all was I was starting to enjoy… this, this whole odd situation I’d found myself in. Bianca and I finally got ahold of the laughter and stood back up from our place on the ground.
“Do I really look that bad?”
She asked
“I’ve never heard you complain about your looks before. But no, with those jeans on you look like maybe, just maybe you prepared a little bit for coming out here.”
I teased, getting a little wry grin out of her.
“Come on, lets get going. Hopefully we can be in and out of there pretty quickly.”
I said, handing Bianca her pack and shouldering my own.
Rappelling in wasn’t actually all that hard, really dangerous without safety equipment sure, but neither of us had any trouble descending the maybe 20 foot drop. At the bottom I saw something that shocked me, this place wasn’t abandoned. I saw lighting set up, not on but very clearly set up recently. Bits of old mining equipment were scattered around the… cave? Mine? Im not really sure what to call it anymore. What concerned me more than anything was the light I saw at the far end of the cave (I’m settling on calling it a cave). The light came from a massive bonfire and I could just make out the shadows of several people sitting around it. I have no idea how we didn’t see the smoke on our way in. It wasn’t filling the cave but it also wasn’t coming out from anywhere I saw on the way here.
“Bianca get down!”
I whisper shouted at her, turning off my headlamp and falling flat to the ground myself. Bianca dropped to the ground as she heard me with unexpected grace. I didn’t know if those figures by the fire had seen us but I certainly wasn’t taking chances.
“Ok, I’m going to creep up and see if I can hear them talking or something. Can you just stay here and watch my back? I don’t want you getting any closer than you have to.”
I instructed Bianca who answered with a quick nod and reached into the inner pocket of her jacket. She withdrew a jeweled golden dagger from it.
“I sorry, what’s this now?”
I asked, confused and thrown off guard by the weapon. It was a really beautiful blade, the hilt was silver with several purple gems inlaid in it. The blade was golden save for the razor sharp edge which was some kind of strange blue material that was roughly the same color Blanca’s eyes glowed.
“I had a life before this you know.”
Bianca responded.
“Yeah we talked about it but you didn’t really tell me much about this part apparently. Doesn’t matter I guess just surprised you have Jeff Bezos’s butter knife in your jacket pocket.”
I whispered, pointing at the dagger in her hand.
“Well we can talk more about how I ended up with this later, not really the time now. Just be careful ok.”
I got up as she said this, realizing she was right. Now really wasn’t the time to be asking about strange daggers, I had more pressing issues.
I crouched down and started creeping towards the figures by the bonfire, careful to avoid the rusty machinery bits scattered across the ground. As I got closer I saw a passage I had missed in the dark. I dared to turn my headlamp on for just a second, trying to block out most of the light with my hand. What I saw through the dim light and shadows of my finger left me awestruck. Inside the passage a coliseum had been constructed, with seats carved into the stone. The structure itself was made up of the rusted metal pieces that littered the room, collected and smelted together to form the walls of the structure. What frightened me the most was the symbol clearly and meticulously drawn on the dirt floor, the same symbol that adorned my back, the symbol of the thunderbird. Moving on, more shaken than ever I crept closer still to the roaring bonfire. I could just about make out the words the figures were saying. When I got close enough to make out the word “tests” the fire suddenly went out with a gust of wind.The room temperature must have dropped 10 degrees immediately and I could swear I heard the sounds of heavy rain above us. But the sudden lack of light isn’t what rooted me in place, cowering on the cave floor. What did that was the two illuminated grey eyes that pierced through the darkness like lightning in a storm, eyes I would never forget, the eyes of the woman from Imalone.
This time I clearly heard the voices of the figures from around the bonfire as they all dropped to their knees.
“Shaoni! We weren’t expecting you till later, Stormcaller.”
The figures all said some variation of in unison. Their tone sounding almost as though they were begging for forgiveness. In a voice that hissed like rain on pavement the woman apparently named Shaoni spoke.
“I’ve come to oversee the start of the trials, is everything prepared?”
In one bone chilling moment her eyes locked on mine and she said the one thing I’d hoped she wouldn’t.
“You didn’t tell me we had guests.”
The moment the words left her lips I turned back to where Bianca was waiting, her now glowing eyes cutting through the darkness of the cave. Giving up any form of subtly, I bolted for the rope behind Bianca. I just wanted to be out of this cave, whatever I might learn from searching around was far outweighed by the fact that Shaoni was here. I’d seen the kind of destruction she’d left in her wake in Imalone and I had no desire to see it happen again here. I banged my ankle on several of the little bits of rusty metal on the floor as I ran, sending sparks of pain up my leg. I didn’t hear anything behind me at all which was almost more unnerving than the footsteps I expected to hear. I closed in on Bianca and saw she hadn’t moved at all, her eyes fixed on something behind me. I dared to take a quick glance back over my shoulder and saw Shaoni taking her first step away from the extinguished bonfire. Lightning crackled around her like one of those novelty plasma globes. In the flashes of light I could see her face. There was no smile or frown, no emotion at all. She simply stared straight ahead towards me and took slow calm steps, inching ever closer.
“Bianca we’ve got to go… NOW!”
I shouted, snapping her to attention. She nodded and turned on her heels, back toward the rope we’d thrown in earlier. Only, when we got to the rope and gave it a tug, it came falling back toward us.
“There’s no way. I…I anchored it to that tree, it should’ve held!”
I cried in disbelief. Bianca and I starred up at the now stormy sky through the hole we would’ve escaped from. Two men walked into view on either side of the hole, glowering down at us. I notice a marking on one of the men’s hands in a flash of lightning from the storm. I could only assume if I was able to make it out I would’ve seen a marking just like the one on my back. Just as soon as the men had appeared a shape flew in from the left with a low growl, taking both men along with it.
“Ok, new plan! There’s something else up there and I really don’t want to get involved with… whatever that was either. I didn’t see any footprints near the entrance so I’m assuming those guys we saw by the bonfire got in another way. We’re just going to have to find where that was and get out that way.”
I instructed Bianca, gesturing to the men in toe with Shaoni and trying not to sound as afraid as I was.
“Ok, I’m with you but lets get moving, I don’t want to any closer to her than I have to be.”
Bianca answered, putting her hand on my shoulder. I suddenly felt a wave of calm rush over me and for the second time I was grateful for Bianca’s ability to simply turn off my fear response.
Shaoni now stood about 50 feet from us with four men following behind her. In the light she gave off I could see the men were all dressed like normal people. I kind of figured they would be more of those canvas wrapped weirdos from Imalone but no. There stood four men in jeans and flannels standing there. Shaoni looked like she could’ve stepped right out of a painting of Pocahontas. She wore an animal hide dress with frills along the bottom and arms. Her head was adorned with a leather band containing several hawk feathers. In short she looked like she’d stepped out of a different time. But I had no time to look over the finer details of her clothing as Bianca and I rushed towards her. Once we got within striking distance I pulled Bianca to the left, towards the passage I had seen earlier. Shaoni never made a move towards us, she just simply looked at me, the ghost of a smile briefly crossing her lips. One of the men with her grabbed at Bianca though, pulling her out of my grasp momentarily. That was a mistake because she was on him immediately with the ornate dagger I’d seen before. As the man grabbed her Bianca lashed out with the dagger, sticking him in the gut with the blade. He screamed in anguish and let go of her but Bianca wasn’t done yet. She followed up by stabbing the man in the back of the neck as he bent over, grabbing at the hole in his abdomen. The other three men were so taken aback by the sudden ferocity she displayed that they didn’t come any closer. As time stood still for a second the men all looked toward Shaoni, awaiting instructions but hesitant to get any closer to Bianca. Using the brief moment of disbelief Bianca had caused, we ran down the side passage towards the coliseum.
“What was that?”
I asked, still shocked by how suddenly Bianca had acted.
“He tried to grab me, I don’t like when they try to grab me”
Bianca responded, distant and… scared? I got the sense she was still in shock at what she had done too. But I couldn’t worry about that right now, we still had to get out of here. Luckily the men didn’t seem to be following us. Wether Shaoni called them off or they stopped to care for their friend I didn’t know, and frankly I didn’t care.
Rushing through the rusty coliseum was haunting. I expected something to jump out of every shadow in the imposing structure. As we slowed to a jog in the middle of the coliseum, right where that eagle symbol was, we stopped to look around. We had come into this arena through an open arch but the only other exit I could see was a similar but barred archway. The coliseum was huge for something constructed in a cave, probably 400 feet across. I had no idea how this thing could’ve been made without anybody finding out.
“Bianca are you seeing anyway out of here? Bianca!”
I asked, then shouted as I turned to see her standing still as a statue in the middle of the Eagle symbol. She was staring at the dagger she had stabbed that man with. Blood still stained the blade and dripped from it intermittently.
“Bianca are you alright?”
I questioned as I walked over to her. She still had this look in her eyes, like she was miles away.
“Bianca? Come on talk to me. Look, you did what you had to do back there, sure it wasn’t exactly pretty but it had to be done.”
I tried to comfort her with my words but the truth is, my heart just wasn’t in it. I was a little scared of what I saw from her in those few moments. She just lashed out and attacked him, not that he didn’t deserve it but going back for more was too much. But what would’ve happened if she didn’t act? It’s not something I could really dwell on now and I’m not sure it really mattered. I just wasn’t feeling all that great about the fact we may have killed someone.
“I don’t like it when they grab me.”
Bianca finally repeated, still appearing catatonic. I leaned down to her level, putting my face right in-front of her’s and putting her head in between my hands.
“Bianca I know enough to know that whole situation may have dug up some memories for you but nows really not the time. We have to keep moving, we have to find a way out of here, and I can’t do that without you right now.”
Bianca tensed up as I spoke to her, but I could feel her relax as I finished. A single tear fell from her eye as she gave me a nod and followed behind me as I walked toward the barred off archway.
Before I made it to the archway there was a massive crash as something tore the rusty bars from their mountings and fell into the room.
“Tuck?!”
I exclaimed, recognizing his colossal figure on the floor immediately. His shirt and pants were torn to shreds though, Like he’d flexed too hard and burst out of his clothes. Bianca and I rushed over to check on him but apparently he was fine. Before we even started walking towards him he was already back up on his feet and lumbering towards us.
“Tuck what are you doing here? Actually never mind, are you ok?”
I asked, concern in my voice.
“It’s going to take more than this to stop me son. I figured you might go looking for that old mine I mentioned the other night so I came to find you. I feel real bad about ya run’in off the way ya did and I got to thinking. Maybe I could make it up to ya if I told ya about the mine. So I came out here and found some shady look’in fellas poking around and figured maybe ya needed help, looks like I was right.”
Tuck explained, dusting himself off and brushing away some of the tattered remains of his shirt. I didn’t buy his story for a second but I wasn’t going to argue with this bear of a man.
“So how did you get in anyway?”
“Used the old entrance from back when this place was still run’in, come on I’ll lead ya out.”
Tuck answered, already turning and walking back the way he came.
The walk out was long and none of us talked much so I just looked around. The further we walked down this little tunnel the more I noticed crushed equipment. The walls looked like they were made up of bits and pieces of crumbled rock that may have once been the ceiling of a much bigger tunnel here.
“There was a collapse, just like the report said only, whatever caused it wasn’t any fault of ours. It was that damn thunderbird waking up.”
Tuck piped up, answering one question and making me ask another.
“Wait you knew about her?!”
“All the miners did, some decided to follow her after she woke up and brought the walls down on us. Others wanted revenge for the brothers we lost, I’m one of the former. You see son, the reason I stayed around this town so long was because of that bird. I want a chance to return the favor.”
“But what about Robert? If you hate the thunderbird so much why’d you let him in? You had to see that tattoo on his hand.”
“I know he thinks that damned bird will “save” him or something but I don’t blame him. Everyone deals with things in their own way and it’s not my place to judge folk for it.”
Tuck lectured, as we made our way further down the passage. His words made sense to me but I didn’t understand how he could be so understanding. From what I understood the thunderbird had a part to play in the original mine’s collapse and the death of the workers there. Only for some of the survivors to revere this creature. If I were in Tuck’s shoes I don’t think I could forgive and forget.
Finally we saw light at the end of the tunnel. We emerged into the whispers of what I’m sure was a monster of a storm. But that’s not what drew my attention, what did were the boulders scattered around the hole we just came out of. It looked like they had been moved, and recently. The suspicious red stain just barley peaking out from the bottom of one of them only served to convince me further. Tuck’s story didn’t quite make sense and this entrance seemed like it should’ve been blocked up until very recently. I wasn’t about to question the guy who saved us though, so I let the issue rest.
Bianca’s idea of tracking her phone to find our way to the bikes worked like a charm. We followed the directions my phone spit at us and eventually found our way back to the bikes. Tuck’s old Ford Bronco sat behind our bikes leaving me to question if he followed us on our way here.
“Well do you kids want a ride back to town?”
Tuck asked, his voice bellowing across the forest. Seriously it was like the guy swallowed a loudspeaker at some point and just spoke through it now.
“No we’ll find our own way back.”
“Alrighty then, stay safe son.”
Tuck called back to me as he got into his truck and drove off. Bianca and I stood up our bikes and got ready to head back to town.
“Hey Keith?”
“Yeah what is it Bianca?”
“Next time you offer to bring me along somewhere can you warn me about the damn thunderbird that seems to just show up around you.”
I laughed at this, it was nice to see Bianca joking around again. After what happened in the caves she seemed like someone else, none of her usual cheeriness was there. Not that I knew if that was what she wanted me to see from her or how she actually presented herself but still. I trusted her enough at this point to assume she wasn’t using her abilities to mess with my head.
When we got back to Bianca’s house the sun was just beginning to set, washing the town in shades of purple, orange, and red. We walked the bikes around to their place behind the house and I walked Bianca back to the front door.
“Thanks for today Keith,I don’t… get out very much anymore and it was… nice… to do something other than sit around the house for once. You know, despite everything that happened it was actually fun.”
I was taken aback by her words at first. If it was me I’d immediately want nothing to do with this person who just put me in danger.
“You had fun? The thunderbird showed up again and we may have killed a guy and you had fun?”
I asked, raising and eyebrow suspiciously.
“Can we not talk about that right now? Anyways I don’t exactly have a high bar for what is and isn’t fun at this point. I’ll see you later Keith.”
Bianca said, cracking a smile and walking into her house.
I was about halfway back to my own house when I realized she never gave me my backpack back. Well, looks like I’d be seeing her again then because I need that stuff back. I wasn’t sure what to think about what I’d seen today. If the thunderbird was in those mines years ago why did she end up in Wisconsin? There was also a very real possibility some people in this town worshipped her so I’d have to keep an eye out for that. The really interesting thing to me was the Shaoni never seemed to want to hurt me in the cave today. She was terrifying as all hell sure, but I didn’t get the sense that she wanted to cause me any sort of harm. If she wanted to do that my gut told me she would’ve done it quickly and efficiently.
Thunder suddenly cracked outside, interrupting my train of thought. As I stood up to see what time it was a knock came from the front door. I froze, who exactly could it be? I doubt Bianca would come over, I don’t think she even knows where I live but maybe she came by to drop off the backpack she absconded with? The knock came again, more forcefully this time.
“I’m coming, I’m coming!”
I shouted, as I jogged to the door. My heart dropped as soon as I opened it, On the other side of the door stood Shaoni. She was dressed normally for once, wearing a long flowing white nightgown. Shaoni stepped into my house as she cooed in her usual misty voice.
“Good evening. Keith was it? We have much to discuss.”

TLDR - Straight male, 26, looking for a relationship preferably from USA but interested in long distance if we really click. Shoot me a DM if you'd like to talk :)
Hello! I hope everyone is having a phenomenal day today.
I will start this by saying I'm a yapper when it comes to introductions so I'll try my best to keep this short lol. My name is Caleb, I'm 26, and I live in the United States! I work in telecommunications as a project manager but I am (slowly) working on switching careers to data analytics because I think I'll have a better chance at making a long lasting career doing data analytics than I would project management.
Hobbies: I enjoy doing lots of things! I'm usually pretty laid back and open to do anything and I love joining in on my friends/partners hobbies. I mostly spend my free time going to the gym(working on getting healthier), listening to music, watching tv/movies (Harry potter is the best movie SERIES change my mind) and playing video games!
What am I looking for? I am looking for someone who IDEALLY lives in North America so it's easy to travel. Outside of NA is debatable, I think it would be quite hard to see each other, and the goal is definitely to close the distance. If I click with someone then i would be willing to make it work, however I am not interested in moving outside of America at this time, so if we were to have a long lasting relationship I would want you to move to America down the line.
I am also looking for someone with a good personality, a good sense of humor, and someone who can be as bubbly as I am but also be serious when it's needed. I think it's important to have that balance. I am looking for someone who is dating for the long term and someone to hopefully build a future with, I don't want something short term/casual. And most importantly I need someone who is a strong communicator as that is THE MOST important thing in a relationship IMO. Exercise has recently become pretty important too me in my life, not saying you HAVE to be into exercise haha but i think it would be cool to have an accountability buddy :)
Anyways, I tried to not make this too long but also not too short, did I succeed? Probably not, but I'll leave that up to you. If I sound somewhat interesting I'd love it if you shot me a message with an intro of yourself!!!
Start it off by answering this question: If you could drop everything and go on a 2 week paid vacation right now, where would it be and why?
I hope to hear from all of you, regardless have a fantastic day! :)

TLDR - Straight male, 26, looking for a relationship preferably from USA but interested in long distance if we really click. Shoot me a DM if you'd like to talk :)
Hello! I hope everyone is having a phenomenal day today.
I will start this by saying I'm a yapper when it comes to introductions so I'll try my best to keep this short lol. My name is Caleb, I'm 26, and I live in the United States! I work in telecommunications as a project manager but I am (slowly) working on switching careers to data analytics because I think I'll have a better chance at making a long lasting career doing data analytics than I would project management.
Hobbies: I enjoy doing lots of things! I'm usually pretty laid back and open to do anything and I love joining in on my friends/partners hobbies. I mostly spend my free time going to the gym(working on getting healthier), listening to music, watching tv/movies (Harry potter is the best movie SERIES change my mind) and playing video games!
What am I looking for? I am looking for someone who IDEALLY lives in North America so it's easy to travel. Outside of NA is debatable, I think it would be quite hard to see each other, and the goal is definitely to close the distance. If I click with someone then i would be willing to make it work, however I am not interested in moving outside of America at this time, so if we were to have a long lasting relationship I would want you to move to America down the line.
I am also looking for someone with a good personality, a good sense of humor, and someone who can be as bubbly as I am but also be serious when it's needed. I think it's important to have that balance. I am looking for someone who is dating for the long term and someone to hopefully build a future with, I don't want something short term/casual. And most importantly I need someone who is a strong communicator as that is THE MOST important thing in a relationship IMO. Exercise has recently become pretty important too me in my life, not saying you HAVE to be into exercise haha but i think it would be cool to have an accountability buddy :)
Anyways, I tried to not make this too long but also not too short, did I succeed? Probably not, but I'll leave that up to you. If I sound somewhat interesting I'd love it if you shot me a message with an intro of yourself!!!
Start it off by answering this question: If you could drop everything and go on a 2 week paid vacation right now, where would it be and why?
I hope to hear from all of you, regardless have a fantastic day! :)

[5] Spires End Hildegard + Bows and Breakfast - $40 (unplayed, shrink removed from cores box only)
[4] Aeons End Outcast + Return to Gravehold + Southern Village $55
[4] Cthulhu Wars Duels + [4] Extinction + [5] Reunion $55
[4.5] One Deck Galaxy Deluxe - $30
[4.5] Battlecrest + Expansion Collection #1 - $25
[4] Aeons end Legacy (played) - $15
[4.5] Pandemic hot zone north America $5
[3] Terrors of London - $10
[4.5] Heroes tale the corrupted forest - $5
[4.5] Rick & Morty Funkoverse - $5
[4.5] Risk Legacy (opened box never played) $20
[5] My Hero Academia Plus Ultra $7
[4.5] Harsh Shadows (sleeved) - $10
[4] Gloomhaven Jaws of the Lion (played with custom foamcore insert) - $15
[3] The Game quick and easy - $5
[4] Love letter (red pouch Ver.) - $5
[3] Sushi Go - $5
[3] Epic card game - $5
[4] Dark Souls the card game - $25
[3] Mage Wars (3rd printing 2013) + Forcemaster vs. Warlord + Druid vs. Necro + Conquest of Kumanjaro + spellbook pack 3 - $35
[4.5] KDM 1.5 + [5] Gamblers Chest - $600----Local Preferred
[4] Pandemic Legacy Season 1 (played) $15
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Afterimage Steam code $15
--Trades Wanted--
Lost Ruins of Arnak: The Missing Expedition
Astro Knights Eternity Kickstarter
Dwellings of Eldervale
Anachrony
Mindbug
Dune Imperium Uprising
Unmatched Adventures
Kanban EV

This is advice I would have given myself before I started studying, had I known everything I do now, to make my bar prep easier. I passed in July 2023. A lot of the "advice" posts on here I feel aren't very accurate, helpful, or are extremely generic.

1. Don't over extend yourself and focus your efforts on committing what you've learned to long-term memory.
   • It's better to focus on the heavily tested topics than it is to try and learn EVERYTHING. The scope of "possible" topics on the bar is so large that if you spend your time stressing or trying to learn literally everything that *could* be tested, you will ruin your mental health and miss out on review time, which is when the rules actually *click* and stick for you.
   • I tried so hard to watch both the Barbri lectures AND read the conciser outlines AND read JDadvising outlines, etc, because I was so afraid I would miss some obscure rule or example. This ended up working against me, as I barely had any time left for review by the end of it. I should have just stuck with one, focused on the heavily tested topics, and given myself plenty of time for review to commit it all to longterm memory.
2. Reserve time for practice. Dont spent all your time just on reading/learning. Do LOTS of MBE practice questions. Buy Adaptibar. Don't waste time writing essays, but try to read and do issue spotting outlines for as many essays as possible so you learn what your pitfalls are.
   • At the end of the day, knowing the black letter rule is absolutely no help if you've never seen the format of the MBE, or applied that knowledge to a prompt.
   • When I first bought Adaptibar, I got so many questions wrong, even though i could recall the rule, because I didn't understand the questions and didn't have practice applying the rule to facts.
   • The black letter rules are ultimately abstract concepts. You NEED to have practice applying it in order to pass the bar. For example, only after doing several evidence essay questions did I realize I was consistently missing easy points because I would forget to talk about relevance. Don't waste time writing full essay answers, do outlines.
3. Quit your bar prep program early if it isnt working for you, and come up with your own schedule.
   • I stuck with Barbri's program until late June because I felt I had to, when I should have quit much sooner.
   • Everyone's study habits are different. Don't stick to your program if you know it isnt working. I eventually completely stopped watching the lectures and focused solely on reading outlines and making flashcards, because I knew my problem was recall. I understood the rules just fine, so watching lecture after lecture of someone explaining the rules to me wasn't actually helping me.
4. Be okay with not passing.
   • Anxiety, stress, etc., will not help you with retention and will affect your sleep. You need to come to terms with potentially not passing. Internalize it.

LOOOONG first time trip report! 5/13-5/18, stayed at Beach Club, visited all four parks, bought Genie+ every day, had the standard DDP. Family of 4, two girls 5 and 9. I learned so much from this group over the past year and especially loved trip reports, so hopefully this post will be helpful to someone!
💲BUDGET💲
-- I booked the trip a year out so I could break it up into 12 manageable payments. I opened the no fee Disney VISA, which gives you several months of no interest on charges made towards Disney travel packages, rewards dollars to use at Disney, and a couple other perks like character meet and greets and discounts.
-- I signed up for Disney Movie Insiders. This is what you're supposed to do with all those little codes that come in Disney DVDs/Blurays. You enter the codes in exchange for points, and at 1000 points, you can redeem for a $10 Disney gift card. You also get points for being subscribed to Disney+, seeing Disney movies in the theater, their social media accounts, and a whole bunch of other things. I got $50 in gift cards from this alone.
-- If you want Disney-themed luggage, try thinking outside the box to save money! I got plain luggage in Mickey colors--red and black--and Mickey luggage tags to make them Disney themed.
-- I tried to budget for souvenirs via gift cards... but I failed, lol. Everything is so expensive, $100 is gone in a second. Plushes are like $40, coffee cups are $20, etc. Whatever you're planning to spend, double it! I get what people say about most shops having the same stuff, but it's definitely not all of them, most of the ones post-ride have unique stuff. And honestly it's kind of nice most of them have the same stuff, if you want to get whatever your kid was asking for earlier, you don't have to walk all the way back to the one shop you saw it at.
-- We paid for Memory Maker and I'm on the fence about it. On the one hand, it's really nice to get all the ride photos and meet and greet photos and magic shots. It's also really nice for the whole family to be in a lot of pictures and not have to swap with the other adult or find someone willing to take your picture. On the other, we definitely didn't utilize it as much as I wanted to because a lot of the photographers had pretty long lines and I just didn't want to spend time waiting for a picture I could take myself. If we came across someone with a shortish or no line, we made sure to get it, but for anyone with a long line, we just stood around the same spot and took our own.
🗓️PLANNING🗓️
-- If you have kids and live within easy driving distance of another amusement park, highly recommend making a visit BEFORE going to Disney to get an idea of how they handle that kind of day/environment, especially if they have never been. I quickly discovered we would absolutely need a stroller and I would need to be militant with the kids about staying hydrated. Also to avoid face paint, as heat + tears + paint + eyes = bad day! I felt so much better making these discoveries beforehand and being able to prepare accordingly, rather than making them at Disney.
-- USE AN AGENT! An agent is free to you, so why not have the help? Ours was amazing, she gave us quotes, booked the package, rebooked as needed later when a better deal came out, made all the payments, dining and extra reservations, and was just all-around awesome to work with. It was such a load off to know I wasn't on my own with all this stuff.
-- Watch everything Ear Scouts. No one explains Genie+ better, and Rob and Erick's videos are just so positive and beautiful and well done.
-- I also enjoyed reading Disney Tourist Blog--lovingly snarky but super informative!--and Disney Food Blog for fun tips and news.
-- I didn't find any park to be a half day park, we filled our whole day in every one and still didn't see everything!
-- My kids did really well, whenever they were on the verge of cranky, we had one ride in the stroller for a while, bought a snack (usually ice cream or popcorn), and used the bubble wand, and/or gave them some ibuprofen, and everyone felt better pretty quick. We never tried to do fireworks, we were all done by 8 so always left after dinner. The only park we closed down was EPCOT because we didn't get out of dinner until after close, and that was a really cool experience, the park was so quiet and empty and beautiful!
-- You don't NEED a Magic Band... but man, was it convenient. We just had 1.0 Magic Bands though, we didn't bother with the 2.0s.
-- I guess moving through security fast is important to people rope dropping... but as someone who didn't, it added like maybe 30 seconds to a minute to the experience the couple times my bag got flagged, it's really not a big deal.
-- I'm not saying anyone's lying about bad experiences or exaggerating or anything, but try to remember that far more people go on the Internet to complain than they do to praise. I got so stressed about all the things that could go wrong, and we had a pretty much perfect trip. The only attraction that broke down on us was Muppetvision, of all things. The only "bad behavior" we witnessed was the morning we were leaving, we could hear a dad across the hall yelling at his family, I think they overslept and were going to miss their flight or something? We just turned the TV on so we didn't have to hear him. A couple times we forgot to take our stuff with us when we parked our stroller or forgot some food in it, and neither people nor animals bothered it. The only dicey thing that happened to us was me dropping my phone into the Dumbo moat, the cast members fished it out and it still worked, I sent them a cast compliment for all their help! All the cast members were great, I'm not really sure what people expect but IMO they all do amazing for having to be peppy and helpful all day in absolutely blazing heat, walking a ride conveyer belt nonstop, repeating the same spiels over and over, meeting person after person, etc. I wouldn't last a 2 hour shift let alone 8. Cast members, you rock!!!
✈️TRAVEL✈️
-- We flew Delta, flight there was flawless, flight home was delayed by an hour waiting for crew and was a little bumpy (which is not great for a nervous flyer like me) but otherwise fine.
-- Get TSA PreCheck! Good for a few years, if the adults have it the kids have it too. It made the whole experience so much easier. That said, even PreCheck still moves kind of slow at MCO, so definitely get there at least 2 hours early for your flight. Use curbside check-in for bags, way faster than the long line inside!
-- On our agent's recommendation, we used Away We Go for ground transport in Orlando. They communicate really well, both ways were flawless, no complaints!
-- We used Minnie Vans to get to Animal Kingdom + Sanaa and Magic Kingdom, what a wonderful service! Definitely pricey, but they had cartoons on in the car, booster seats they set up for you, and the drivers were so nice and friendly and had fun trivia to share. I never had any problem requesting one when I needed it.
⛱️BEACH CLUB⛱️
-- We knew we wanted an onsite hotel where you could walk to at least one park. This pretty much limits you to a handful of Deluxe hotels or the Swan and Dolphin. Beach Club won for us because it's "in the Disney bubble" and you can walk to 2/4 parks. Note that while you can technically walk to Hollywood Studios, it is a LOOOONG walk. The boat is a nice not crowded alternative! We did not make use of Early Entry or Extended Hours, we're just not built for either. Beach Club was lovely, we booked a resort view but I think we ended up with a water view, we were right by the quiet pool and could see the water beyond from our room. Stormalong Bay was a little crazy for us but we loved the quiet pool. Best thing about Beach Club though is the location, EPCOT is literally steps away!
🌳ANIMAL KINGDOM🌳
-- We had read that there's really no bad day to do AK, so we started there. We rode: Navi River Journey, Flight of Passage, Kali River Rapids, Everest, Kilimanjaro Safaris, Triceratops Spin, and Dinosaur--so pretty much everything! With Genie+ we walked onto all of them. We also met Moana, Pocahontas, and Russell! The only thing we didn't do here that we wanted to was the Gorilla Falls trail, but we just ran out of time before the park closed.
🌐EPCOT🌐
-- We had read to avoid EPCOT on Fridays and Saturdays, so we went on Wednesday. We rode: Grand Fiesta Tour, Living with the Land, Nemo, Spaceship Earth, Imagination with Figment, Frozen, Remy, Journey of Water, and Guardians--everything we wanted! Again, with Genie+, we walked right onto everything! We also met Anna and Elsa! Tried a couple of Flower and Garden snacks: chicken and waffles, fruit and cheese strudel, and potato pancakes, all were delicious! Everyone had a different favorite day, but EPCOT was personally my favorite day, it felt like we were firing on all cylinders and the day just went really smoothly!
🏰MAGIC KINGDOM🏰
-- We had read that Wednesdays were the quietest days at MK, so we were originally going to try to do it that day, but we could only get a reservation for Cinderella's Royal Table on Thursday, so we switched it up. Definitely the most crowded of all the parks we visited, but I think that's just the norm for MK, everyone wants to go to the castle park with the most rides. We rode: Regal Carousel, Tomorrowland Speedway, Barnstormer, Magic Carpets, Mad Tea Party, People Mover, Dumbo, Small World, Little Mermaid, Pirates, Space Ranger Spin, Jungle Cruise, TRON, and Peter Pan. Again, with Genie+, we walked right onto everything! The only ride we missed at this park that we wanted to do was Pooh, I couldn't manage to get a return time that was earlier than we planned on leaving. Outside of our character meals (more on those in the dining section!) we also met Mirabel, Tiana, and Rapunzel! We had both the Rapunzel and Aurora ice creams, both so good and cute!
🎬HOLLYWOOD STUDIOS🎬
-- We had read that, like MK, it's better to do HS later in the week, so we went Friday. We rode: Slinky, Alien Saucers, Toy Story Mania, Rise, Smuggler's Run, Runaway Railway. Again, with Genie+, we walked right onto everything! The only ride we missed was Tower of Terror, again I couldn't manage to get a return time that was earlier than we planned on leaving. We also met Olaf, be aware Olaf doesn't sign stuff, they just give you a signature card. This park needs more shade IMO, especially Toy Story Land, I know it's supposed to be Andy's backyard, but I don't see why that means we can't have some shade from trees or something. 🤪 Blue milk from Galaxy's Edge was really good, the family was all fighting over it!
🍽️DINING🍽️
-- We almost certainly lost some money on the DDP, but I'm still glad we got it because it allowed us to do more table service meals and have less stress overall about expenses. We easily used up everything but child quick service credits, we had a few of those left over near the end.
Here's where we ate!
BOARDWALK DELI/PIZZA WINDOW: Pizza for the kids, sandwiches for the adults. Tasty and satisfying after our day of travel!
BEACHES AND CREAM: Got the kitchen sink for the experience, but honestly it's not great, all the ice cream and toppings melt together quick and you just end up with weird ice cream soup.
SAT'ULI CANTEEN: LOVED this place, everything was so yummy! Best quick service we had!
SANAA: Since Animal Kingdom closes so early, we thought we'd try to extend the experience by eating at Sanaa. What a great idea, we got seated right by a window and saw so many animals! The food was great too.
AKERSHUS: Our favorite princess meal! We met Aurora, Tiana, Snow White, Ariel, and Belle. They were all lovely, and the breakfast was really good too. Only 1 credit on the DDP!
GARDEN GRILL: Our kids really enjoyed getting to look down over Living with the Land and the fact that the restaurant spins. We met Farmer Mickey, Pluto, and Chip and Dale. They were fun and even came to our table more than once. Food was good!
SPACE 220: Not on the DDP, but wow, what a cool restaurant! Almost like a ride with the theming and the elevator up. Food was really good.
CINDERELLA'S ROYAL TABLE: You gotta eat in the castle! We paid for it OOP because we didn't want to use up 2 DDP credits here. You're really going for the location and the princesses, the food is kinda meh, not bad but not as good as other places. The restaurant is small and they have to turn tables quick, so it's very understandable to me that the princesses have to move fast. It's not that they rush you, they'll take all the pictures you ask for and sign whatever and answer your questions, but if you don't have much you need, they try to keep moving. Akershus is much bigger so they are able to be more relaxed there. The only small bummer is that we didn't see Merida (maybe she was on vacation too!) We did meet Cinderella, Ariel, Jasmine, and Aurora though!
CRYSTAL PALACE: We are not big on buffets but we enjoyed meeting Pooh, Piglet, Eeyore and Tigger!
TOPOLINO'S: Maybe the best food of the trip, steak and eggs were so good! The character artist costumes are so cute too. It was fun to have an excuse to ride the Skyliner to get here from Beach Club too.
DOCKING BAY 7: The theming is great, but the food wasn't as good as Satuli Canteen IMO.
THE MARKET AT ALE & COMPASS: We had quick service credits we wanted to use up on the last day and we didn't want to leave the resort again, otherwise I would have gone somewhere else, food was meh.
✨EXTRAS✨
-- I originally wanted to book Bibbidi Bobbidi Boutique for my kids, but it's so expensive/competitive that I decided to didn't want the stress. Instead I booked Have Wand, Will Travel to come to our room and bought dresses from Presley Couture and Only Little Once. I chose Have Wand, Will Travel because they keep character throughout. Fairy Godmother Elyse was amazing and so much fun, my kids loved it and kept talking about it all day!
-- That same morning I ordered a Sammicakes breakfast box with beignets for us to eat. I also ordered a pretend letter from Tiana on Etsy to make it seem like the breakfast came from Tiana. My kids also loved this and had fun telling Tiana about it both times we met her. Sammicakes was good but a LOT of food, sadly we didn't end up eating half of it. It can last you at least 3 days!
-- Matching shirts and ear hats, all from Etsy! So many cool designs there, hardest part is choosing!
-- Got my kids a pin trading lanyard with some pins, they loooooved pin trading! It was like free souvenirs.
🧳PACKING🧳
-- Things the Internet Told Me to Pack That I Needed: Scissors, ziploc bags, ibuprofen (kids and adults), garbage bags.
-- Things the Internet Told Me to Pack that I Didn't Need: stainless steel straws (the paper straws are more like cardboard, they really don't break down unless your kid is gnawing on them or something), ponchos (it did rain some most days, but wearing a poncho was almost more miserable than not wearing one, it's so hot and humid to be walking around in a plastic bag! We did better taking shelter and using umbrellas.), wipes (obv you need them if your kid is younger, but mine were older and just never got messy enough to need them.), glow sticks (we never stayed anywhere long enough to use them.) Basically, the less you can get away carrying in the parks, the better. It's annoying to lug stuff around you don't end up needing or using!
🛞STROLLER🛞
-- I know it seems insane that your 5 year old and 9 year old will need a stroller, but mine definitely did. Once I accepted that I was going to have to get one, I tried to make the best of it, and actually got really into decorating it so we could always easily spot it in the sea (the decorations also later made nice wall decor for a gallery of our trip!) The Magic Spotter flag was the best investment, hardly anyone had them so it was easy to instantly spot our stroller anywhere we left it, even if it got moved. That said, I definitely didn't want to spend a lot on a stroller we were really only buying for this one trip, so I got a used Joovy Caboose on Facebook Marketplace for $50. It was very hard to handle with two older kids in it, and even with one it was hard to handle unless the kid was in the back seat. So we basically used it like a single stroller, glad I didn't spend a lot on it since it was so hard to drive!
☔WEATHER☔
-- We had mostly great weather, it rained some every day except Magic Kingdom day but it passed within an hour each time. We wore socks with Crocs so that if/when it rained, we could just take our wet socks off and walk in our Crocs, this worked great! Don't trust the weather reports though, two days it wasn't supposed to rain. One day it actually didn't, the other day it did and we had to walk in wet shoes because we didn't wear the Crocs that day. Just figure it might rain any day and be prepared! See above note RE: ponchos being not great and shelter + umbrellas being better. When it didn't rain, It. Was. Hot. 🥵 In the 90s but definitely felt hotter with the humidity making it so sticky. We felt there was plenty of shade at Animal Kingdom and EPCOT, but hardly any at Magic Kingdom and Hollywood Studios, which I would say slightly affected how much fun we had on those days comparatively.
Phew! That's about it, let me know if you have any questions!

Kisskiss,
I am worried about you. You would probably say you're fine, if you're safe and don't need a friend's shoulder..then good.
Do you feel stuck? I can be there for you...I'm going to buy a plane ticket and get a hotel room.. you don't have to visit me, or even talk to me if you don't want to, I won't show up and try to be some kind of retarded hero - just keeping a promise to the most important woman that isn't in my life . If you choose not to come see me, it's ok too I won't be upset. The important thing is that you're safe and you dont need anything No need to feel pressured. If you reach out, you reach out..if not..I'll assume you don't need me..
I have to say if you present yourself - wow I will be so Fn happy.
You're a grown independent woman and I know you are fully capable of solving issues for yourself...but everyone needs a safe space where they can be themselves. I promise, I wont try to fix unless you tell me you need fixing, deal? I'm making myself available for your emotional support cause I care about your silent, non responding butt..lol. I hope you come and use my shoulder to cry on and my arms to feel safe in, because you are my purpose for being there, let me help you!!
I'm coming in case my intuition is right. I can support you much easier there for a little while than I can from this F'n state. It's up to you to take advantage of it.
If you decide to come see me...trust that you will be safe with me..i understand it's been a long time and you don't really know me anymore. I promised action and I feel this is right.
We can hang out, talk go get food, groceries, or whatever..I want to be clear so you don't think I'm trying to have sex with you, I care about you more deeply than that. If our relationship was built on sex, well, I'd be better at it and I would not feel what I've felt during I'm our long years apart. I'm there for you as a friend - it's not a boundary, just my intent. Its where I'm at right now..I don't think I can handle my hopes getting sky high from something between us only for us to hurt each other again, it would probably kill me.
Are you putting your vibes into the void??When I think of you, I feel overwhelmed, I feel empty, I feel sad, I feel alone, I feel anxious about something. And this worries me because I think those are the feelings you may be experiencing. I can't say why, though...very strange.
I swear..I don't really believe in a lot of the mystical things out there but after today, I am convinced, more than before, that you and I are connected. And I'm being urged to act so I am doing so.If you need me sooner than mid-next week..you need to let me know..otherwise I will assume it's fine. It's prob fine since you're not really expecting me to show any follow-through.
You are a priority for me all the time..not only when it's convenient for me -just try me.
No more preaching from me on reddit..I've served my purpose for being here..I will pop in from time to time.
Maybe a love letter or 10 for my love <3
I would love to see you. I've got the Dad bod going on but I am a handsome fucken devil ask any of the people whom I consider friends that have supported me through some of the craziness, they think the same thing..i have to beat them off with a stick...like they've all fallen in love with my letters and they're very jealous of you.
Jk..just trying to make people smile
I truly hope we can reconnect this time..if not, then next time, it's unconditional.
You will not be rid of me so easy, because I love you GD much!
<3<3

I'm a 29 year old guy living in NYC and looking for someone to vibe with and develop a relationship with them. I'm a pretty easy going and relaxed person. Currently working in the tech industry and been loving it so far! I have a mix of introvert and extrovert energy where I love to go out for concerts and events but love to relax at home with a good cup of tea on the couch. I am pretty nerdy but do enjoy doing all sorts of things in my free time. Physically, I'm 6 feet tall, white, wear glasses, thin/decent shape and have dark blonde hair. Once we start talking, I would be more than happy to swap selfies.
For hobbies, I like doing all sorts of things such as cooking/baking (always happy to swap recipes!), traveling, reading comics/manga, playing board/video games, live music, exploring the city in search of great food/cafes, and boba. This year I will try to cut back up bubble tea but do love drinking it! Ive been cooking since college and have gotten pretty good. It's been fun looking at recipes online and YouTube and making them at home. I'm a big fan of manga and comics and usually read them pretty often. I'm trying to jump start my Yelp reviews of restaurants so I'll definitely be moving around the city to review and find new food to try out!
Mainly looking in NYC and the northeast area (22+) but if you feel like we could be a nice match then feel free to message or chat!

I'm a 29 year old guy living in NYC and looking for someone to vibe with and develop a relationship with them. I'm a pretty easy going and relaxed person. Currently working in the tech industry and been loving it so far! I have a mix of introvert and extrovert energy where I love to go out for concerts and events but love to relax at home with a good cup of tea on the couch. I am pretty nerdy but do enjoy doing all sorts of things in my free time. Physically, I'm 6 feet tall, white, wear glasses, thin/decent shape and have dark blonde hair. Once we start talking, I would be more than happy to swap selfies.
For hobbies, I like doing all sorts of things such as cooking/baking (always happy to swap recipes!), traveling, reading comics/manga, playing board/video games, live music, exploring the city in search of great food/cafes, and boba. This year I will try to cut back up bubble tea but do love drinking it! Ive been cooking since college and have gotten pretty good. It's been fun looking at recipes online and YouTube and making them at home. I'm a big fan of manga and comics and usually read them pretty often. I'm trying to jump start my Yelp reviews of restaurants so I'll definitely be moving around the city to review and find new food to try out!
Mainly looking in NYC and the northeast area (22+) but if you feel like we could be a nice match then feel free to message or chat!

I want to post this isn relationship advice community but idk why Couldn't. And I just made this 2nd account to post this coz I really really do need help. It's been year and half since my bf '21M' had started smoking weed. When we start dating he and I always get in the argument and we used to had fight. After fighting lot he told me he will quit and it is not easy for him to simply quit but he will try. He even tried to quit and he was controlling on amount of weed he intake. Sometimes he used to smoke weed infrond of me and we had fights. But everything was going well. But many things from my past came and he was so upset and sad again he started smoking like before. It's not I was laying to him, it's he never asked me about and I didn't say anything about past. He was upset sad and it was difficult for both of us. Ik it still hurt him and it was not easy for him amd neither for me. But we came through and it's going well.and it was 3 4months ago. Something when we get into argument and he brings past things and again he smokes a lot but we too stand through and I helped him and was always with him and we are dealing with this.and everything was good. So yesterday I messed up everything. Like recently he was talking weed much and was only focusing on his work and was forgetting about me and I felt out of love. Ik he love me but due to weed he was just focusing on work and was forgetting me. So I decided to give him gifts and write letters about how much I love him and expressing myself. I gave him gift was good and he even told me he will quit once and for all. And I was so soo sooo happy. Amd at day time he smoke lil bit and I didn't say anything as he was trying and at night he again smoked and I didn't say anything as it was night. It was good until again he went out and ik he may smoke so I had warned him not to and he said he won't. But he smoked and came I was so so mad at him and idk what got into me I hit him. I never wanted to hit him never once in my life I have thought but I did. I realised what have I done after a while and it was over. I said sorry and never ment to hit him I already did. He didn't say anything yesterday just said okay and I was crying whole night. I never wanted to hit him but idk why I did. He is acting okay but ik he is not doing well. He is not fine. Idk what to do now. And he is smoking again... I always wanted to help him and I was trying my best to be understanding and be his supporter but I again messed it up. I want to help him but now everything is messed up. What to do in this situation?? How to deal with this situation? I really really love him and ik he loves me too so breakup and all are not in our options. I just want to help him and I want to fix everything but idk how? Please help me I really really need help. I want to help him. Any suggestions and advice will be great. And also can someone tell me how to deal with person who smokes weed? How to make them understand how weed is effective our life?

My first XXL triathlon.
I chose the Frenchman because it was close to me, only 2 hours drive. It's flat. It's non IronMan brand so relatively cheap. I entered this race for 2023, I was also training for PBP at the time. Due to niggling injuries and trying to focus on 2 different events I decided to postpone the tri till 2024. Luckily I had taken out the insurance, and a Dr's letter got the job done.
With PBP and all, I have no problem cycling long, but I'm not fast. My biggest fear was missing the bike cut-off. I had a pile of Excel formumas where I could plug in all the variables to find out the minimum times to make the cut off. I've been running for years and years so a 6 hour marathon to dip in under 17 hours didn't seem a problem. As well as the running club I also joined a cycling club, to help get me more consistant. Cranked up the pool swims. I swam 4km 3 times and cycled 200km 3 times too before the event.
Unfortunately a lingering achilles injury stopped me running as much as I would have liked and then pulled a hamstring the week before race day.
We have had months and months of rain here in SW France. BUt race day saw sunshine. 2000 competitors participated in the half distnace on the Friday, and there were 600 of us for the full on Saturday. 19 in my age-group V5 (I'm 62). Dawn broke over a flat lake, not a breath of wind. I was pleased that I hadn't forgotten anything. Bike racked the night before and the transition bags in place.
The swim was an out and back into the lake, 17°C. We started in 1 mass start from the beach, the first few hundred metres was carnage. Once I had clear water I really enjoyed it. I'm a solid swimmer, and I got into an easy rythm and ground it out. Sighting was difficult on the out because we were swimming into the dawning sun. I came out of the swim at mid pack, 1h20, got my wet suit off, sunscreen on, took some salt tablets and headed out to the bike leg. T1 10 minutes.
The bike was 2 laps of 90km. Feed stations every 40km or so. A few little hills in the first 25km and then long straight flat roads. Roads weren't closed to traffic, but there were police and volunteers stopping the traffic at crossroads and roundabouts so we could fly straight through.
I rode to heart rate, forcing myself to stay bottom part of Z3. There was about 30km into a headwind on poor road surface which dropped the average, and I was passed by hundreds of cyclists, especially in the first 30km.
The temperature climed and on lap 2 the wind strengthened and I struggled to keep my heart rate down, but I also noticed I was pulling back a lot of other cyclists who had over cooked it. I finished the bike leg in 6h33 which was way faster than I hoped. A leasurly T2 of 13 minutes (more food, more sunscreen, toilet stop to reassure myself it WAS wind on not the shits that was behind the stomach cramps!)
So I started my run after 8h15. Leaving me over 8 hours for the marathon. I knew then I was going to finish.
I run/walked to a 2h45 half marathon, but at 30km my hamstring pain and a blister under my foot were too bad and I decided to walk the rest. 5h54 for the run. The course was a 10km loop with food stations every 2km. The crowds and the volunteers were superb. My wife who came with me was there for encouragement and photos and it was great when I saw my son had come along too.
At the finish line I said "never again" but I'm now keen to get a better time, compete without injury and train more intelligently.
This may come over as humble brag, but I felt a bit disappointed that I finished it easily. I had always seen XXL distance as insanely far and difficult, but nowI'm convinced that if you do the training, it's within the grasp of anyone.
Link to my splits
https://live.breizhchrono.com/external/live5/infos-resultat.jsp?detecteur=&reference=1354050643080-20&dossard=1273&heat-id=1355218866171&ref-kk=1354050643080-20-6385-1355218866171

I feel bad for Hating my nephew. My nephew is 13. My family has had custody of him since January of this year. My nephew in all fairness hasn’t ever really had it easy. His father left when he was 3. His mother never remarried but became very close to an old friend, who proceeded to raise my nephew as his own. From the ages of 4 to 11 before he passed away. Granted my nephew however is not an easy child. His issues started when he was about 8 years old. Setting fires, stealing things, stealing from his school, pathologically lying, and getting violent. He used to beat his mother black and blue, and yes despite being small and young, my sister is a skinny twig, so he really packed those punches and cause she would bruise very easily. He’d call her a shit mom, tell her to fuck off, the cops had to called countless times before he was even 10. To the point the cops just stopped responding even telling my nephew “ he was a very troubled kid, and the cops wouldn’t even react if his mother flipped the switch and beat him”. Countless hours of medication and counseling seemed to only stop the fires, not the lying or stealing. He would threaten his stepdad by telling him he was not his father. Because he couldn’t attack my brother in law as he was a 6’5 250 man, he’d hurt him by destroying his dead fathers memorabilia ( his father was a pretty small town famous tattoo artist and show performer). So that was all my brother in law had left of him, and my nephew would destroy it. I’ve had to run over and help my sister and him rein my nephew back in. One night we asked him to please put the stack of clean ceramic plates away, he Argued and thought it’d be best to just raise them up and slam them down on the kitchen floor. I was not wearing shoes and got cut a bunch from the shards flying. As time went on and the more difficult my nephew got, my brother in law and sister started to drink. Not much and not all day or everyday. Talking to my brother in law privately he’d cry and be so stressed he was losing weight. He became more and more withdrawn. Finally he got incredibly sick and was given a couple months to live. The stress combined with the alcohol caused his organs to fail. I feel I share my head with 5 other people, my psychiatrist thinks it’s part of my schizophrenia. So while I consciously don’t blame my nephew for my bother in laws death, the other people in my head certainly do. My sister shutdown while still trying to deal with my nephew. She called me one morning begging me to come over while crying. I walk in to her asking my nephew to please get dressed for school, she’s tired of getting truancy letters (he’d run away before school would start, he was 10 at this point), only for him to scream at her “shut the fck up you stupid btch). He knew I didn’t play like that so as soon as he saw me albeit sobbing he put his clothes on and I walked him to the campus and watched him go in ( sometimes he’d head to school but never actually go in). When he was 12 so last year my sister really hit a new low, got a new man, who In turn gave my nephew a gaming computer, consoles and vr headsets. He’s now acting like a 26 year old computer addict.
I think my sister let it happen because she had been dealing with my nephew by herself for years, and at this point I think she didn’t care what he did as long as he wasn’t screaming, swearing, breaking things or hurting her. Like I said we’ve had him for awhile, him living with us has been hard. Food constantly goes missing, he constantly lies, or takes peoples things and won’t admit it. Some days my mother is understanding and forgiving some days she doesn’t seem to notice anything. She is 74 and doesn’t notice a lot. I’ve noticed my nephew is also a great gaslighter and manipulator. So he can convince her that he accidentally took her brand new towels and threw them away by accident, or that he doesn’t know how a broken bowl wound up underneath his bed. And most times my mom just accepts his answers while not understanding why I’m getting on him so hard. I had a breaking point a few weeks ago, I know it may seem small compared to what others think. But we had just a conversation with him about not eating peoples ice creams (that’s the biggest thing he does is takes sweets) we tell him just ask and we’ll be more than happy to share with you. I had a frozen yogurt I was saving for after my physical therapy appointment. Came home. It was gone. I asked him and he screamed and cried he didn’t take it. I found the remnants later and sent him a video to only then did he confess that he had taken it. Lately my other sister who lives with me and along with her kid can’t take it anymore. Even though it’s easy for her to block my nephew out as she has her own kid, she can’t stand the yelling when he’s on the computer or coming home and everyone’s fight with him. She is moving out this summer, and I’m planning on moving out next January. I have attachment disorder. I love hard and easily but once you screw that up it doesn’t come back to me easily.
Before my brother died I hadn’t spoken to him in 10 years after what he said to me during a depressive episode when I was 10. I didn’t like him and I wanted nothing to do with him as he himself was an alcoholic with anger issues. Point being I’m seeing my nephew the same way I see my brother. I admit I don’t like him. I admit I try to tel myself repeatedly he’s been through sh*t and he needs help but a part of me is like “ you’ve been his half parent since he was 3 and you’ve been trying to reel in his behavior since he was 8. He’s now 13. So yes it’s getting harder and harder to have sympathy for his situations. I don’t really acknowledge him anymore other than when I am giving his cat back (his cat is a kitten and can’t be left alone while he’s in school so I take care of him during the day). I noticed I don’t respond anymore when he says “ I love you”.
I am bipolar and schizophrenic. When I start to lose my shit my moms all confused as to why and I point out to her my conditions and tell her it’s been a long time coming. For a bipolar person to always keep their anger under control 24/7 for 5 months is very hard and yes sometimes my brain just spills out. Don’t worry I’m still mentally there so I understand it’s best not to have a meltdown in front of children which is why I always retreat to my room and don’t come out for the day. I’m torn because I am the family caretaker. I take care of the dogs, cats, 7 chickens, the gardening, the cleaning and the cooking and cleaning up the kitchen. As I said my mother is 74. She’s had nothing but screwed up children all her life since she was in her 30s. 5 kids and all of us ended with some mental illness or another. I know she’s tired, and I know she’s breaking down (I’m sorry I’m starting to cry). I’m scared to move out cause I’m afraid the difficulty of raising my nephew is gonna stress her out so bad she too might die sooner rather than later. She was already very physically sick last month. She’s mentally stressed out and always exhausted. My sister lost custody of my nephew as I said.
I truly believe part of the reason she refuses to fight for custody of my nephew is because she doesn’t want him and his behaviors backs. From vandalizing the school property to stealing from people, she is over it, my other sister is over it, I’m over it but trying to be strong for my mom. And my mom I think is just numb from him. We’re great at still doing what an auntie and grandmother should do. Play with him, listen to his rants, try to calm him down when he’s mad. Gently point out his mistakes, take him out to a movie or food, or the arcade. But it’s all a facade internally. I won’t even mention how a 13 year old treats female classmates or his perverted views on them. We’ve have to tried to get him admitted, we’ve tried medication, we’ve tried counseling but this child knows he can just run away and refuse. The cops have given up on doing anything with him. So for the time being, everyone has to hide they’re stuff in personal fridges in our bedrooms. Good we don’t want taken or missing. I have cameras in my room, the garage has a motion sensor light, we all have to hide out debit cards and wallets as he’s been known to steal those as well countless times. It sucks. I know deep down subconsciously I love him like a little brother. Consciously my schizophrenia does not like him. I have the type where I hear, smell or have multiple voices in my head. Like I said it’s like having 5 other people living in my head. Luckily my schizophrenia is controlled heavily by therapy, medication and as I know the difference between right and wrong, and can comprehend one’s emotional well-being so I never lash out at anyone but it doesn’t stop the voices from speaking they’re truths. Sucks watching him walk in and the voices immediately saying sht like “ yea he’s gonna end like all the screwed up men in this family” Guys he’s only 13, he’s been through stuff “Shut up OP even you’re sick of his sht, you can’t even say I love you too back when he says it”
I know I just freeze up cause emotionally I’m conflicted, I’m trying to give him the benefit of the doubt and have hope. But in that moment i don’t how to respond when he says that.
“B*tch you’re on your own, all of us have no hope”
I’m at a loss of what to do. I want my own space for my mental wellbeing. Yes having the second floor and balcony to myself is nice but I feel I need my own own space. But I’m terrified of leaving my mother alone with the animals, house and mostly my nephew. I am however forcing her to go to Barcelona for a month, so I’m hoping that’ll at least give her brain time to relax. I’ve talked to my counselor and therapist, they are kind of at a loss of what to do as well. Except increasing my dosages especially on my anxiety meds. I don’t mind it but it makes me very stoned out and that makes me fall behind in house tasks, cause I’m just tired all the time. I’m scared, I’m tired of crying, I’m tired of being angry, I’m just tired. Between the house, yard, animals, my nephew, and my mothers well-being, I’m very tired. I’m sorry for the long rant, I’ve been sitting on this for a while and I feel I can’t tell anyone. Just need it out.

I see a lot of talk about DPS, but 90% of the wipes in random LFGs happen before even seeing 1 DPS phase!
I recently finished the 3rd week, and in all of the weeks I cannot recall one clear where the DPS was the main problem. Even when it's problem because 2-3 people missed the supers, or missed the half of the DPS phase.
I see groups start talking about "How do we do DPS" for 10 minutes before starting only to get wipe 3 times without a successful planet exchange phase.
A lot of people (I was in the bucket) don't understand how exactly DPS phases work in different bosses;
Golgoroth You can literally use specials only and will still have easy 2 phase, if you survive, don't kill each other with unstable light, pop bubbles timely and actually stay inside the bubble
Caretaker Arguably one of the few bosses where DPS matters, but still if you are coordinated and use anything with any decent rotation you'll be fine to 2 phase, or you can be quick to run and still get a 3 phase with plat. Leave your supers to 3rd plate.
Planets Just do a countdown and use your heavies / supers after the white DPS threshold thingy. Don't rush between plates, you have time, be coordinated.
Atraks DPS is not a problem it's matter of timing your super and parasite.
Oryx Just whisper and well, you are good.
Rhulk Thunderlord and supers at the end make it easy and accessible to anyone
Still, don't forget your 3 x Surge Mod on boots.
TLDR; your teams get wiped not because they don't know how to rotate or don't have BiS weapons, they get wiped because they fail to survive, cannot get the mechanics, or don't really know the boss DPS mechanics.