Someone somewhere is feeling my despair

Good Loredas!
I would like to have the experts here review my load order. I’m sure there are many things that could be altered for the better and I’d like to have the benefit of your expertise.
Is there a way to export your load order from Bethesda net to a CSV or other file for posting as a list? I can write down the individual mods one by one, but I feel like there should be a simpler method for it.
I did a search in the subreddit but didn’t find that particular answer anywhere. If someone could point me in the right direction, I’d appreciate it.
Thank you. May the gods watch over your battles, friend!

I lurked, read all the posts for months, and thought I had everything ready. I'm now on my first night in Dublin and nothing works
I knew my phone would have issues internationally. I bought the first round of Samsung S22 Ultras on the Verizon network back in 2021, and they had a sim card issue that made it not able to connect to alternative carrier networks. I found this out the hard way in Barcelona that same year. The international plan is charged, but the phone will not connect to any other network. It turned out to be a known issue, but verizon assured us they figured it out. I didn't believe them so I had arranged to rent a mobile hotspot from wificandy here in Ireland.
Now we're here, the verizon network doesn’t work (as anticipated). The wificandy unit keeps dropping a signal. I emailed them and they said to try taking out the battery to check the sim card. I did that and found the battery to be squishy and puffy. I don't feel comfortable putting it back in the unit at all, let alone trying to use it.
I just need Google maps so I can travel. I'm ok with checking email and texts when I can connect my phone to hotel or other wifis, but I need to be able to use the maps, preferably online.
Please can someone help with ideas on what to do? I can't use a sim from a local carrier because verizon never unlocked the phone after purchase. I don't think an esim would work for the same reason. I would be willing to purchase a whole new phone if it was relatively cheap and I could prepay data, or, preferably it has unlimited data without a contact.

Context: I’m in high school and have this girl that i’m very good friends with and I really like her. She has a long term boyfriend but I don’t think it is working out to well. She on friday told me that they were taking a break for a while, but then sent me a picture together last night. I have liked this girl for a while and am pretty sure she just wants to be friends. But i have been told by many people (her and my friends) that they think she likes me and flirts with me a lot. I need to tell her how I feel but don’t want to ruin our friendship. Tommorow we are going on a hike with some friends from school. I am planning on dropping her off last afterwards and having a talk with her about my feelings. The following is what I want to say. Let me know if there’s anything I should change.
"I had a great time with you today. There's something important I need to share with you. I know you and (boyfriend) are together, and if you're happy, I'll respect that and won't bring this up again. However, I want to be honest and let you know that I have feelings for you, and I have for a while. I needed to get this off my chest.
I understand if you don't feel the same way, but I want you to know that I think you're an amazing person. You deserve someone who will treat you with all the care and respect you deserve.”

... the fear of this growing right wing, trad wife, traditionalist nonsense really takes a hold of me. I get so tired of handholding men through correct decisions. I'd rather just be able to say words and have those words taken at face value. No, instead I have to mind my tone and have tact. But that's the thing, I can have tact when it comes to addressing a difficult thing with someone I care about. But when it's just some dude I work with, why do I have to go so far out of my way to be listened to.
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who is acutely aware of how close women are to losing the independence my generation was born into. Hell, my mom wasn't even allowed to have a credit card of her own choosing until the 70s. There is an increasingly vocal group of men who want to go back to that, who are legislating bringing women back to that. Men who want to get rid of no-fault divorce, and let the violence against women act expire and give parental rights to a rapist and let known abusers have guns.
I look at the men in my life who make choices keeping no one else in mind and feeling entitled to insist that everyone be sensitive to their idiosyncratic behaviors. Who put people at risk because of this entitlement. Who put people in danger. In harms way. Who need to be convinced that they're wrong rather than just simply told. The frustration is overwhelming.
And when I look at the men in my life and know for a fact that 99% of them will take the power when it's given to them. Men in my life who are generally on the level I know will just shrug in the face of these rights rollbacks. But I also know that my ability to have a voice in my own home if shit gets really bad is dependent on tying myself to a man. A good man, but still.
My anger has no where to go. Rant over.

I keep wondering if i had done kpop whether id actually pass or debut at all. given that its only just started doing western auditions its a shame cause its too little too late for someone my age to debut in kpop, i wouldve needed lots of singing practice or rapping abilities of some type.
why so many younger kids debuting in kpop as well? theres not much for anyone my age to follow these days? if theyre in the militaryi have to wait for them to comeback and even then id still not get to see them perform in person
im neither pretty nor ugly just in between average if you will, im neither talented but never had the chance to try anything of the sorts cause we just didnt have this sort of entertainment from a young age, im neither old nor young therefor do not fit in the bracket of being cute and adorable. i wouldve loved to have done something musicy even if it was only for a short period maybe in an older generation. at first i kept wondering why so many would want to do so much to themselves but i can see the appeal of it for the younger generations who have more entertainment than what i had growing up lol
my other concern is idols have to do much online to connect with their fans further and as much as i like the extra videos they do its really not what id do if i were in kpop, i feel like id do better if it had been any other older generation. like say if kpop had been around in in the 80s since it was around in the 90s i just never heard of it. they seem to have fasicnation with foreigners or foreign sounds but only just started putting actual westerns in their groups recently and you have to be so fluent at korean which i know id fail at. even so id have given it a shot just sadly im in the wrong time or generation to do it and it just seems to have a lot of general problems either with online backlash or some type of negarivity that idols have to deal with again i think those problems would be less if kpop had started from before the internet came about

Hi so I’m in high school (15f), and dated a guy around a year ago before I realized I was a lesbian. I’ll call him James (16m). Immediately after we broke up, he became an asshole, though he was super nice throughout the relationship. This other girl who he’s dating, who I’ll refer to as Lily, (also 15f) is pan (I believe), and we hooked up casually a few months ago before they got together. Me and Lily used to be really good friends before they got together, and she never mentioned even liking him, though she knew we used to be a thing. Since we were friends, I know she values honesty very highly in relationships, as someone she was with previously happened to cheat on her. James has recently been extra mean to me, without being provoked, so I got really pissed at him, and at this point me and lily weren’t friends anymore. (It wasn’t just her getting with James without telling me that made me not like her, she has also been transphobic at times (I’m dating a trans girl), and is just a bitch in general.) Regardless of how much I hate her, I have reached out to warn her how toxic he could be at times, but she didn’t listen. It’s nearing the end of the school year, with mon, tues, and wed of next week being the last days (I’m currently writing this on a Friday night), and so we have a ‘locker clean out’ thing on Monday. Also, lily is moving over summer break and won’t be at our school next year, So earlier today, I got fed up with their shit, and I’m petty, so all I was thinking about was what James would think abt me, the girl he hates for no reason (I promise I never did anything to him, and I had thought we ended on good terms), and his gf, having fucked before (she never told him). So, I wrote a little note. It said basically just ‘I fucked your gf’, but with more words. I never said my name, but added something where James would know it was from me, but wouldn’t be able to prove it. (Id also like to mention that looking back, I didn’t specify when, so he might assume it had been while they’ve been together, and get mad at her for “cheating on him” or smth). I put it in his locker before I left school, in a very visible place, may I add. I did so with the intention that he’d find it on Monday (locker clean out), and I’d be able to see his reaction. I wasn’t really thinking clearly about what would happen after, and I’m not sure what will. I’d planned that if lily confronted me abt it, I’d just mention her whole ‘honesty’ thing, and that he ‘deserved to know’. Part of me feels bad about this, but the other just wants the power move of “I fucked your girlfriend”, and wants James to know. So AITA?

An alternative title for this is: Should I ever offer more without any knowledge of competing bids? OR Can someone explain to me about this automated offering system my realtor seems to be working with?
Anyway, here is my story:
Working with some realtor Zillow gave me. I know not the best, but he seemed okay during the tour. I wanted to make a fast offer on this foreclosed property (being sold by a bank) with asking price of $210k, and working with him just seemed the best way to do it.
I told him I'd like to offer $200k and see where things would go. So we make the offer. I expect the sellers to come back with a counter offer. This is on day 6 of the listing.
The next day we don't hear back from sellers. However, the realtor he mentions off-hand how the sellers are taking offers for the first week, then picking from the best or something? With this knowledge, I mention being concerned about my offer being weak, and maybe I should increase it. I REALLY like this place, and 210k seems well below what it's worth. I don't want to lose it.
My realtor states: "Nah, your offer is good. There's going to be people offering $100k. You have nothing to worry about."
Since this was day 7, the final day, I convince him to increase my offer to $206k. He says "Okay, but your pre-qualification is for 200k, can you afford that?"
I tell him I've been pre-qualified for $220k+, I just ask my lender for pre-qualifications that match the offer I'm making so my hand isn't tipped with the seller.
After I say this, my realtor says "Well... if you're going $206k, might as well make them happy and match their 210k asking price."
This seemed weird... especially since earlier he seemed to treat $200k as totally acceptable.
I sign the $206k offer and we send it off. Then about 30 minutes he comes back to me and says, "The website counter-offered for asking price ($210k), so it's just a matter of who has been countered this asking price, and how many people offered above this price."
At this point I'm confused. I asked a bit more and apparently the bank thats selling the property is using an automated system to accept offers. I'm not really sure what to make of this. The realtor is telling me I should offer above asking price... but I haven't even been given confirmation of another offer by someone else existing? How do I even know if I'm being out-bid?
I ask my realtor if we would be given an opportunity to outbid another offer if there's one better than ours, and all he says is "If they see an offer they like, there's a chance they'll go with it."
So I'm sitting here wondering if I should offer more. I say 212k, and my realtor says I should do more. I say 215k, and he's like: "for every 1k, it's only a couple dollars a month. You should go higher. I'd say what would be the best offer you would be able to offer them and to offer that" (Those statements are copied from our texts exactly)
Finally I say, "I don't understand, they gave us a counter offer at asking price. Can't we just accept the counter offer and then everything's set?"
He says (forbeitum): "We won't know until the offer is either accepted or rejected. The next offer is probably going to be the last offer we submit because it says "Highest and Best" above our offer"
I ask him what he means and he says: "It won't let me change the offer type from highest and best when I was clicking on it. That made me realize this is probably the last offer we are going to submit before they decide"
So I sign on an offer for $215k.
Once again, it feels weird since he seemed fine with $200k earlier, but now keeps pushing me to offer as much as I can now that he knows I can offer more.
Anyway, the day ends.
And there's nothing.
The next day, day 8 since the listing goes by.... no response.
It's now nearly the end of day 9. My offer has technically expired, and I'm wondering what to do. According to the realtor, there has been no response from the sellers.
"Good morning. No there are no updates at this time. I keep checking in to see if anything has changed"
I ask: "Are things usually this non-communicative when it comes to buying from banks? Seems weird to have no response at all."
He says: "It's not a normal offer"
Wtf does that mean?? I asked him to clarify and he never responded.
I want my realtor to be communicating with a real person, but it seems like all they can do is interact with a machine? Is this normal? What's the strategy here?
I haven't signed anything exclusive with this realtor, besides the expired offers. Should I quickly find someone else to make an offer with? Should I tell them my situation and ask them to force communication with a human?
Is my realtor genuine? I still don't understand the counter offer thing with the automated offer system and why I should be offering more than that. Any guidance would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!!

Hey y’all! I’m a female in her mid 20s looking for a writer of any gender around the same age to partner up with. I’m based in Mountain Time in the US, but I really don’t mind your timezone. As long as we have some sort of overlap, we’ll be golden.
While I don’t mind who’s on the other side of the screen, I am only interested in writing FxM and FxF stories at this time. Something I really value in my partner is the feeling of excitement, especially when planning and plotting. If you’re too eager to jump into something immediately with no preparation at all, I’m not a suitable partner! I’d love to talk deeply with someone to brainstorm something equally satisfying so that we can build a story that’s sustainable.
I’ve been writing on and off for about ten years now. I can write in either POV and typically write anywhere from one to five paragraphs depending on what the story needs. I tend to match my partner’s length but definitely prefer responses on the longer end. I tend to write openly and freely, so I will sometimes mix up present and past tense. I’m not a huge stickler on grammar, just please have good spelling at least.
Circling back to the title, I’d absolutely love to write some relaxing slice of life with someone! Right now, I’m looking to play a pair of coed best friends who are super cute and wholesome with each other. Maybe they’re naturally flirtatious, but the pressure of a formal romance just doesn’t exist. I’d love to see these two characters go on adventures with each other, support one another through drama, and cuddle in each other’s arms without ulterior motives. Maybe there’s a push and pull between them when it comes to romantic elements, but I don’t necessarily want a romantic end game. Instead of romance being the driving plot, perhaps the story is more about our characters and their hobbies/interests/careers, etc. We can go really wild with how our two characters know each other exactly, let's live a little larger than life!
I have an original character created for this story, and I’d love to play against your original character. If we chat, I can absolutely share my character with you so you can get an idea of the effort I’m looking for in return when it comes to character building. It’s nothing crazy or heavy at all, I just don’t want to write against someone who can only provide a basic physical description and nothing else. I need to know your characters' likes, dislikes, quirks, backstory, etc.
I sincerely hope that I don't sound super needy or uptight in this request! I'm pretty easygoing, love to talk out of character, and genuinely want to get along with my writing partners and have a great time. I just want to refrain from wasting my time or yours, and I hope that the things I'm asking for resonate with someone else.
If you’re interested in writing this plot with me, please start a chat with me or send me a message letting me know why you’re interested in this plot and your favorite color so that I know you read this entirely. Hope to hear from ya soon! ✰

Hiya, I'm 27 and from England, UK. My main selling point is my three puppies, which are the cutest. Photos on a selective basis 😋 With working for myself I have more flexible timing, And with the additional free time, I thought it would be great to connect with new people and get to know each other. I am looking for an engaging and relaxed conversation. You can be from anywhere. Whether it's short or long term, I'm open to both, but a lasting connection would be great 😊
A brief insight into my personality and interests: I love to cook & bake; enjoy exploring various cultures, especially cuisines and find peace in hiking to escape to escape the chaos of daily life. I am great at conversating when I really click with someone, and prioritize maintaining mental and physical health. A good cup of coffee and a cosy cafe are essential for me. I also love design in many things and enjoy activities like writing, caring for plants, and my work amongst other things
If we share common interests or you believe we could have a good conversation, feel free to send me a message introducing yourself. Any messages which are low effort or inappropriate/creepy will result in you being blocked. And to those who read to the end, I hope you are healthy, happy and safe. If you are not, I hope you get there. Keep trying your best! If YOUR best is not good enough for someone, that is not your problem, it is theirs. People will complain no matter what. If the post is up, I am still looking to chat.

I'm a 5'7 INFP non-denominational christian who has been in the faith for about 7 years now, I was saved from the New Age movement and before that was agnostic for most of my life. My favorite books in the bible are Proverbs, Ecclesiastes, and Matthew. Having kids was something I wanted but given the current state of the world and how expensive everything is, I'd much rather just settle down with someone and have a cat or two and just grow together enjoying each other's company. Oh and here's a picture of me to know if I'm your type
Cooking is my main hobby but I'm also learning to draw, still got a long way to go tho. My favorite things to draw are usually cute fictional animal characters like Pokemon, Digimon, Yordles, Lilo & Stitch experiments, and anything with a similar vibe. My goal with art is to eventually turn some of my fanfics into comics and make some money with commissions, I also only draw traditionally. The main reason for that is I am drawn to doing things the old fasioned way like washing clothes by hand, collecting VHS tapes, paying with cash, cooking over a fire, etc. I don't strictly live that way btw, it's just fun. I'm a big fan of traditional animation so I love 2D animated movies and such, I'm more of a cartoon fan than an anime fan but I like both.
If you're interested or want to know more feel free to DM me, good luck to you all and I hope we all find what we're looking for :)

hey guys. You probably don't know me, but I've been a lurker on the sub for around half a year now. I've made a few posts and comments, but nothing compared to some other users around here. I recently got rejected from my dream school, Columbia. While my stats were not the best (especially hs gpa, it's pretty bad; you can see it in one of the previous posts I made), I put the most amount of effort I've ever put into something into my application, and I poured my soul out into my essays. I was absolutely devastated by the rejection and losing out on my dream of living in NYC and studying with ivy kids who were nothing but absolutely inspirational. Since Columbia was my last decision, I am now officially done with the transfer cycle.
I want to preface this by saying that I know that I was likely carried hard by being an in-state Virginian for my applications, but in total I applied to 4 schools: VT (accepted into CS degree), Northwestern (rejected CAS), UVA (accepted CAS), and Columbia (rejected CAS). Looking back on everything, I wish I had applied to more schools since going to an ivy is still my dream. However, I'm still so incredibly thankful for my acceptances at VT and UVA. As someone said before in the sub, sometimes it feels like being in-state was the only thing that got me into those two schools, but I am trying not to look at it that way, since I really worked hard on every single essay that I wrote for every school.
So, while it has taken some time, I have finally started to come to terms with my rejection from Columbia and have decided on continuing to push towards a new goal. I have committed to UVA for the class of 2027, and now my goal is to attend an ivy for graduate school. Again, I am so incredibly grateful for my admission into UVA and I know that I am incredibly lucky to attend such a great school. However, I don't exactly want to stop. While I knew that with my stats, an ivy was nothing but a dream, the amount of talented and bright people in this subreddit who try more than anything to get into these top schools has inspired me to keep going no matter what. I've gained a lot of hope and confidence reading all the posts here, and this whole process has been so thrilling that I don't want to stop trying to get into these schools.
The cycle's over, but life keeps on going. I want to especially thank u/PomegranateWest620 for giving me insight into what it's like as another super exited but super nervous Columbia applicant. And u/Idkbruhtbhlmao, for keeping the mood light and bringing us together with the great sports posts. I'll keep you guys updated, but wish me luck for graduate school, and good luck to all the rest of you reading this as well.

Hi everyone! My current pc is about a decade old now and struggling hard with newer AAA games, so I figured it's about time to retire it and make a new build.

Is this a brand new build, or an upgrade to an existing build?

• Brand new!

Please list any existing parts or monitor(s) you have that you would like to re-use with this build. For upgrades, a PCPartPicker list of your full build is extremely helpful. Be as specific as you can be here, including links or exact model numbers of each component whenever possible.

• None. Looking for all new parts including monitor.

What will this PC be used for? Examples include things like gaming, general/multimedia use, photo/video editing, coding, AI/ML, etc. Include specific games and applications you intend to run, and any particular performance goals you have, as each may have different specific hardware needs.

• Mainly gaming with some general internet browsing / Youtube. Games include Baldur's Gate 3, Horizon Zero Dawn, Elden Ring, Helldivers 2, Cyberpunk 2077, Witcher series, FFXIV, indie games like Hades 2 and Stardew Valley. I'd like to be able to play at 1440p when possible.
  
• I'm not into competitive gaming, and I don't mind playing games that's not maxed out frames, performance, or quality settings. Just want a pc that can actually play newer AAA games at least decently and is built to last a while.
  

What country will you be purchasing in? If you are in the US, do you live near a Micro Center? For other countries, please check if your country is supported by PCPartPicker by using the country selector dropdown on the top right - if not, please provide some links to reliable local vendors you are comfortable ordering from.

• Canada.

Do you need one or more monitors included in the budget? Please list how many and any size/resolution/refresh rate preferences if needed.

• Yes, one monitor somewhere between 24" and 28" and ideally 1440p.

What is your preferred and maximum budget range for this build, in local currency? Parts lists may sometimes have additional shipping costs. Please note whether prices in your country include sales tax or not, and adjust your budget accordingly. Typically VAT countries will have it included in the part list prices, whereas regular sales tax countries like the US and Canada will not.

• $2500 CAD, not including tax. Willing to stretch it a bit if it opens up better options.

Do you need WiFi, or do you have a wired ethernet connection available?

• Yes, need both.

Do you have any specific size or noise requirements for the build?

• I'd like to prioritize for airflow and cooling. Preferably mid-tower size.
  
• Ideally runs on the quieter side.
  

Do you have any aesthetic preferences for color or lighting? Describe what you're looking for, or feel free to provide some links to examples that may help. Some people prefer an inobtrusive stealth build, while others may prefer a case full of rainbow RGB.

• I prefer black and more on the minimal / simple side, though I don't mind some extra colour as long as it looks good all together. Windowed and/or RGB would be fun, but not a must.

Any other specific requests or requirements? Examples might include a specific minimum amount of storage, or a particular CPU socket for a future upgrade path, etc.

• So far I'm planning to undervolt.
  
• Would like 2TB SSD to start. Planning on adding more later.
  
• Would like at least two USB-A ports on the tower's front.
  
• Flexibility to upgrade parts in the future would be great, though I don't plan on upgrading much, if at all, for at least a good while.
  
• Don't need a copy of Windows.
  

No it's not about a catch or anything, but I was hanging with some friends today (common) and my ex ( she is the dumper) spawned out of nowhere.
My anxiety just went sky high in that moment, and I was shaking big time.
I said hello and I kept it cool, i continued talking with my friends, however she asked me how I was and I told her I'm just busy with all my projects and work. In 4 month since BU a lot of things happened, I went from 110 KG all the way to 87 KG, constantly going to gym and focusing on myself.
She complimentted my looks, my new car and she even told me that she has to give me my stuff back even if this hurts her a lot, but she keeps forgetting. I said it's fine, she can keep em or donate them to kids in need.
I had her key and left it in her mailbox when I went to her city to catch a plane and she was mad and told me that I was an asshole cuz I didn't call her to let her know about the key. I told her that I didn't want to call because I just wanted the things to be left how she left them and and there isn't anything else to be said. She was left speechless and she didn't talk with me anymore after that.
When she left she fist bumped with me with the hand that was wearing the ring I gave her ( a ring golden with infinity sign that I gave her and told her I will always feel the same thing for her) for me to see that she still wears it.
To end this "rant" I'm happy and I'm happy that I could overcome a random encounter with someone who hurt me so bad, I really really loved her and to be honest with you guys, I thought she might be the one, we had such good connection until she dumped me due to her "depression" but yet again was on tinder not even a month after the BU.
Everything will change, it's just a matter of time, fight through the pain and the cuts your ex leaves you. You will get eventually through and if you fear something, embrace it breathe and let it be. As much as it hurts, you deserve the win.
A part of me is happy that I saw her and a part of me is proud of myself for how I handled it as to be honest I held a lot of hate towards her as I was so hurt for leaving me out of nowhere. I could have been mean and tell her everything I kept ruminating about all this time. But I chose peace.
Let yourself feel the pain and embrace it, you will win eventually and doesn't matter how small the win is you will feel better about yourself!
Stay cool and if everyone is going through something similar, just know you are loved and you will get better. I trust you and we all do

they said i could've had this for life? and it really seems like i did, the infection got extremely terrible the past few months and finally got found through biopsy. I've had so much bloating my entire life, always felt awful blah blah blah, this paired with undiagnosed celiac probably explains a lot of my life long chronic fatigue maybe? i just want the fatigue gone:(, i want to have good sleep again. i've been to so many doctors and feel hopeless but finally got this, celiac and Etd diagnosed. I'm in perfect shape, i eat a perfect diet, im 22. my joints hurt and everything is awful aside from how i look from the outside. please someone tell me this could be over with this antibiotic course 🥲

My boyfriend and I have been planning a roadtrip to Canada for a few months now. We’re set to spend 5 days there and leave this Thursday for the long weekend. I’ve been saving up a bit of money so I decided to book and pay for our hotels in Quebec City and Montreal. I normally try to book hotels with free cancellation when traveling because you just never know- but this time I wanted us to be in a comfortable place that was within walking distance of places we wanted to see or visit so, I caved and booked them. Thursday morning my boyfriend gives me a call around 4am, which is when he normally goes into work (we don’t live together yet btw, but we’ve been together almost 4 years now) he’s in a panic saying that he thinks somebody stole his car! Of course, this woke me up instantly and I was in total disbelief but as he’s talking he goes on to mention that he missed 1 or two monthly payments and maybe they took his car… I thought 1-2 months behind was too little for the bank to repossess your car and he says oh well maybe it was more like 3-4 months behind and he kept stressing and worrying about where he was going to get the money to pay. He was a bit shaken up so I didn’t want to question him about any savings, tried to help him calm down and advised him to just wait, call his lender as soon as they opened & let me know what they said he could do to get his car back. At first Santander demanded that he pay the full 21k loan for his car outright if he wanted it back, then they decided to work with him and asked him to pay $3,500 to get the car back. His monthly payment is something around $600 so that would mean he probably owed somewhere around 4/5 months. Since he didn’t have the money, I gave it to him & I’m not expecting that money back. I’m now worried about the fact that we’ve never actually had a conversation about our finances and we were planning on moving together this year. He always seemed to be doing fine- sometimes he needed a little help to get by and I’d send him $100 to keep him afloat through the week until payday but, this is a bigger problem than what 100 little dollars can fix. I’m starting to wonder where his money is going and I don’t know how to approach that conversation. Especially because he makes more than I do and we both have around the same bills, from what I know. I also now have to reconsider this trip, I’m very excited about it since we’ve been planning for a while now but I’m worried about having to spend all of my savings over there.. Any advice on how I can talk to my boyfriend about all this without making him feel uncomfortable :/ and what should I do about Canada? The hotels are paid for so I’d be losing about $1000 if I don’t go, but can I afford a trip for two with around $2000? I’d have to factor in gas, activities and food, and we love food :( any thoughts/ideas would help greatly! I just don’t know what to do.

As someone with no income on their own yet I get extreme FOMO with dolls. It hit me first with SS1, when the dolls sold out and now Drac goes for insane prices. I only have two dolls so far, and it makes me feel less valid as a collector and disappointed. They are pretty expensive if the only money you can spend on them is the one you get for birthdays or from visiting family members...
On the other hand, in my country we only just got creepover and monster ball, and its so disappointing. I wish I could get Venus, refreshes, heck, monster fest, but they probably will only hit at the end of summer or sth.
I dont know how to deal with this feelings cuz they are like opposites, mad that I cant get dolls in time and mad because there isnt enough releases... anyone else feels like this, or am I crazy?

Hello again! I’m not sure if you've read or seen my other posts about roleplays but this one will purely be about Jujutsu Kaisen!
INTRODUCTION
My name is Hina. To know more about me, I was born and raised in Japan and I have been an avid writer ever since I moved to the States when I was 11. My second language is English but I believe it’s been pretty good these days. I recently turned 22 years old and I'm female. Talking about age, I would be comfortable with you being 17+ and preferably at least 20. Roleplaying with minors isn’t a big thing for me, I apologize. I’m in the west coast, PST timezone. Let’s see.. What other information can I give you? I would say I enjoy skating, basketball, watching tv shows and anime, and reading. My favorite anime is Nana and Death Note.
ROLEPLAY
For what i’m looking for, i’d have to say basically anything in the Jujutsu Kaisen universe. Perhaps something done in the Shibuya Arc, or even the Culling Games Arc where are our characters are participating. Or maybe something entirely different. I think it would be cool if our characters were strong on their own and everything was set up in the Culling Games Arc, them having to maybe ally or something. But we can also have it be basically them fighting together to make themselves stronger and then fight new enemies as well. I’m down for ideas!
I’m also down for a Modern AU roleplay with the original characters. Maybe an OC x CC or CC x CC in that case!
CHARACTERS
I tend to use character sheets to describe my character, these usually consist of names, background, and personality. More so on appearances, I prefer using animated or drawn references than real life people. I enjoy good enough references where I get the idea of how the character would look like.
The types of characters I write are either the lone wolf type that has some sad past which leads them to want to join someone for a redemption arc or the bubbly character who is the one that brings the mood up and is usually seen as trustworthy and of that kind.
I like all types of tropes, especially enemies to lovers or rivalry. I also really enjoy opposites attract as a whole from either opposite personality or something else they would be opposites in. Enemies to lovers takes my heart, though. I love seeing the characters go past the urge to ultimately hate each other and/or go past their usual way of disliking the others lineage or upcoming.
REQUIREMENT
I think this is my last paragraph on the roleplay. It’s the most important, at least. Requirements. All roleplay searches come with them. Or at least that’s what I heard! But don’t fret, there isn’t much.
I’ve seen this as one of the most used requirements, and I agree with it. As someone who’s first language wasn’t English, I understand that you may not be great at it. But please, I do require a partner that at least has proper use of grammar and punctuation. You don’t even have to use big words or anything, just at least know where to put your periods and the placement of your words.
My second requirement is for you to be LITERATE! Please. I’m a big writer, I tend to ramble on and tend to write more than what I thought I would. (like i’m doing right now) I write multiple paragraphs from the starter until the scene relaxes. I also understand that sometimes writing big blocks of words every response is tiring or boring so I don’t expect it all the time, at least after the starter has been made and in more important scenes. Dialogue also cuts my replies shorter.
Please please please be polite in OOC! We may just be role playing together but kindness goes all ways. If we do include OOC, I enjoy talking about many things. My day, movies, games, funny moments and stories, all of that!
I think that’s the end to this wonderful journey of an ad about my search. I hope you are still here, fellow writer! I would LOVE it if you reached out to me! This wasn’t all for nothing, right!
But don’t leave yet! I do have a passcode. I know this was a jumble of words and rambling but I still have to put one in. I heard that there’s a lot of people on here that don’t read things fully and miss out on rules or information! But.. Just because you read through this all, I’ll gladly give you options on the passcode! Also please put in an introduction of yourself! Don’t think “Oh maybe I shouldn’t bother this person with too much to read”! I like seeing big blocks.
PASSCODE:
What’s your dream country to travel to and why?
OR
Who’s your favorite TV show / Cartoon / Game / Anime character?
Feel free to pick both! Now, that’s all from me. Please don’t put your request as just “Wanna rp”!

• H 💕

The title alone might not be clear enough, so let me explain.
I used to be someone who was really into arguments and had fun arguing about any topic at all. I wasn't afraid to speak up on topics i was interested in, and even if i had a little info about the topic in hand I was eager to learn more about it. I had certain ideologies and had a way of thinking about life. I had goals. I was brave about my opinions and "assertive" with it.
I had past issues about my intelligence. I had a narcissistic friend who made me believe I was downright stupid. It took me so long to get enough confidence to call myself decently intelligent. Now I lost it all again. I can't even argue on simple things (like which flavour is better) without twitching or shaking.
Now i feel like a..hedonist? Im super apathetic to anything at all. I avoid arguments at all costs because it feels pointless since i won't change anyones mind. I dont feel excited to learn anything new. And I really REALLY became hostile towards people. I had a really traumatic year and I lost myself after that, and it's been really hard trying to get back in track. Where can I start? Im really sick of this.

Hello again! I’m not sure if you've read or seen my other posts about roleplays but this one will purely be about Jujutsu Kaisen!
INTRODUCTION
My name is Hina. To know more about me, I was born and raised in Japan and I have been an avid writer ever since I moved to the States when I was 11. My second language is English but I believe it’s been pretty good these days. I recently turned 22 years old and I'm female. Talking about age, I would be comfortable with you being 17+ and preferably at least 20. Roleplaying with minors isn’t a big thing for me, I apologize. I’m in the west coast, PST timezone. Let’s see.. What other information can I give you? I would say I enjoy skating, basketball, watching tv shows and anime, and reading. My favorite anime is Nana and Death Note.
ROLEPLAY
For what i’m looking for, i’d have to say basically anything in the Jujutsu Kaisen universe. Perhaps something done in the Shibuya Arc, or even the Culling Games Arc where are our characters are participating. Or maybe something entirely different. I think it would be cool if our characters were strong on their own and everything was set up in the Culling Games Arc, them having to maybe ally or something. But we can also have it be basically them fighting together to make themselves stronger and then fight new enemies as well. I’m down for ideas!
I’m also down for a Modern AU roleplay with the original characters. Maybe an OC x CC or CC x CC in that case!
CHARACTERS
I tend to use character sheets to describe my character, these usually consist of names, background, and personality. More so on appearances, I prefer using animated or drawn references than real life people. I enjoy good enough references where I get the idea of how the character would look like.
The types of characters I write are either the lone wolf type that has some sad past which leads them to want to join someone for a redemption arc or the bubbly character who is the one that brings the mood up and is usually seen as trustworthy and of that kind.
I like all types of tropes, especially enemies to lovers or rivalry. I also really enjoy opposites attract as a whole from either opposite personality or something else they would be opposites in. Enemies to lovers takes my heart, though. I love seeing the characters go past the urge to ultimately hate each other and/or go past their usual way of disliking the others lineage or upcoming.
REQUIREMENT
I think this is my last paragraph on the roleplay. It’s the most important, at least. Requirements. All roleplay searches come with them. Or at least that’s what I heard! But don’t fret, there isn’t much.
I’ve seen this as one of the most used requirements, and I agree with it. As someone who’s first language wasn’t English, I understand that you may not be great at it. But please, I do require a partner that at least has proper use of grammar and punctuation. You don’t even have to use big words or anything, just at least know where to put your periods and the placement of your words.
My second requirement is for you to be LITERATE! Please. I’m a big writer, I tend to ramble on and tend to write more than what I thought I would. (like i’m doing right now) I write multiple paragraphs from the starter until the scene relaxes. I also understand that sometimes writing big blocks of words every response is tiring or boring so I don’t expect it all the time, at least after the starter has been made and in more important scenes. Dialogue also cuts my replies shorter.
Please please please be polite in OOC! We may just be role playing together but kindness goes all ways. If we do include OOC, I enjoy talking about many things. My day, movies, games, funny moments and stories, all of that!
I think that’s the end to this wonderful journey of an ad about my search. I hope you are still here, fellow writer! I would LOVE it if you reached out to me! This wasn’t all for nothing, right!
But don’t leave yet! I do have a passcode. I know this was a jumble of words and rambling but I still have to put one in. I heard that there’s a lot of people on here that don’t read things fully and miss out on rules or information! But.. Just because you read through this all, I’ll gladly give you options on the passcode! Also please put in an introduction of yourself! Don’t think “Oh maybe I shouldn’t bother this person with too much to read”! I like seeing big blocks.
PASSCODE:
What’s your dream country to travel to and why?
OR
Who’s your favorite TV show / Cartoon / Game / Anime character?
Feel free to pick both! Now, that’s all from me. Please don’t put your request as just “Wanna rp”!

• H 💕

I had mentioned on here that I can’t believe that I’m this young in my 20s and an alcoholic. Some people mentioned talking to my dad about it to get his advice/support because he’s an alcoholic and has had a pretty severe drinking problem, but he’s been sober for a couple of years now. Even though we’re really close, I was kind of hesitant to talk to him or anyone about it even though I knew it would be helpful and he would want to know if his daughter is having alcohol problems/mental health issues like that. I just knew that he would be pretty alarmed/concerned, and I also didn’t even know how to bring it up fully.
So I talked to him about it, and it really did help me a lot being honest with someone who understands. He’s pretty concerned, but I’m glad that I told him. He asked me if I thought I needed to go to detox or even rehab, and I told him that I don’t think that I do for now. I think I can do it without that but if I do end up needing to, I’ll definitely find somewhere and go (whether it’s detox at a hospital or going to rehab, but I don’t think it’s to the point of needing to go to the hospital).
I’m grateful that he’s always here for me. He’s a good dad. Iwndwyt

This is based off a post I saw somewhere else, and I thought it could make an interesting mental exercise where you'd have to think about what's the most important to you and how your goals would change based on the amount of time you had.
For the sake of this game, you'll know with 100% certainty that you'll be dead after your time allowance is up. There's no "but what if I only think I'll be dead in six months but then I'm not and I fucked up my entire life?" When your time is up, it's up. You'll be dead and won't have to live with the consequences of your actions.
So just for fun (and growth, maybe?) here's mine:
If I had 24 hours to live: Realistically, I'd know I wouldn't be able to accomplish anything of substance, so I'd just focus on pure pleasure. I'd go out and do something fun, maybe go to the nearby theme park in the city I haven't been to in a while or an expensive night club and wear my favorite outfit. I'd eat and drink whatever I wanted, and however much of it I wanted. When I got back home I'd take something to keep me as calm as possible and call/text the people I care about who live far away to let them know I care about them. I'd spend my last hours in bed watching a comfort movie.
If I had a week: I'd go on a road trip with my entire family to somewhere I always wanted to go to, maybe LA or somewhere similar, and spend the rest of my days there. Probably my actions would be pretty similar to the above, I'd just have slightly more time to do bigger things and say goodbye to people in person.
If I had a month: I'd quit my job for sure (for the top two, idk if I'd even bother to formally quit, I'd just stop showing up) and again, probably act fairly similar to above. I might try going to another country like Italy or Japan to see what it was like and try their food, but I don't think I'd want to die there. I'd also try and maybe finish something creative before my death, even if it was just a short story or a few poems.
If I had six months: 100% quitting my job and putting all my energy into finishing my long term writing project and having fun. I'd use my savings and hire a cleaner to come in once a month to take care of boring everyday tasks so I have as few distractions as possible.
If I had a year: Same as above really, but I might also try and experience a brief romance before the end. Probably wouldn't be able to truly fall in love but hopefully I'd at least meet someone cool.
If I had five years: I wouldn't quit my job, but I also try and find something better and something that would be fairly undemanding. I wouldn't be making any big career or life plans, but I would try to write something and get it professionally published before I died. I'd want to leave having made my mark on the world in some significant way.
If I had ten years: I'd probably quit my job ASAP to go back to school, while trying to find a relationship and work on my creative projects when I had free time or after I was done. IMO ten years would be super hard for me because it's long enough to where I'd definitely want to build a life but short enough to where I'd really have to haul ass if I wanted to make that life come to fruition.
If I had twenty years: Honestly, I'd probably be doing exactly what I'm doing now just with even more anxiety lol.
So yeah, feel free to add yours!