**Fujimaru Ritsuka, the Last Master of Humanity, Enemy of the Crypters, Ammo of the Black Barrel, Feller of Goetia... is batshit insane.
Let me explain.
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Lack of Basic Understanding of Causality

Fujimaru's bizzare tendencies show up from the very beginning of FGO. According to the game, he joins Chaldea after seeing a poster and deciding to take the job on a whim.
However, Chaldea is in Antartica. The implication is thus that Fujimaru abandoned his family, abandoned his life, abandoned everything he'd ever known and loved, to go to Antartica for a job that he had no idea what was, with zero guarantee of getting the job, with no certainty of a return trip-
On a whim.
Immediately after this, while getting lectured by his potential boss, being told everything he needs to know to pass the entry test, he decides now would be a perfect time to take a nap. Understandably, his boss is miffed by the new intern with zero experience taking a nap right in front of her while she's explaining the most important part of their job, and she decides to fire him.
Fujimaru reacts to this with... nothing. He's a little concerned and stressed per his dialogues, but you'd think he'd be significantly more horrified about needing to walk back home through the Antarticas or join an oil mine at the bottom of Chaldea. Instead, he just... chills with the doctor?
When he finds out Chaldea is on fire and even all the skilled, significantly better Masters than him are dead, his reaction isn't terror or fear. Instead, he remembers a girl he talked to ONCE, and immediately rushes over to the literal origin site of the fire to check if she's alright. Then he sees that she's buried under a building. As a regular guy, he has no prospects of saving her. And the longer he stays, the lower his chances of survival get. His response?
Ignore everything to hold her hand and stay there till no hope of getting out remains.
Presumably CHALDEAS itself is impressed by what is either the tremendous love of Ciel-lookalikes or the complete lack of basic understanding of consequence in this man, and it sends him to Fuyuki presumably in hopes to unite him with fellow madman Shirou so that their collective insanity can open a path to the Root or something.
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What's Self-Preservation? Can I eat it?

Fujimaru is teleported to a hotter fire surrounded by skeleton upon skeleton. Fortunately, the girl he held hands with turned into super servant Galahad. She can protect hi-
Ritsuka why the hell are you throwing yourself into danger when you have a LITERAL SHIELD at your side?
No Fujimaru do not sacrifice yourself trying to protect someone WHO LITERALLY WEARS ARMOUR AND HAS A SHIELD!
Fujimaru taking a page from the book of Shirou Emiya has a violent martyr complex and nearly dies dooming all humanity in the first twenty minutes of the game. Very fortunately, Cu Chulainn notices this and not wanting to be outdone by someone else dying before him, saves the day.
Ritsuka later proceeds to instantly grasp the concept of Shadow Summoning and turn it into his technique which further raises the question of if brain damage in the Nasuverse just lends you power somehow when we consider the strongest techniques in the series:

• Unlimited Bladeworks (manifested by swordtism)
• Tsubame Guashi (manifested by fightingtism)
• Strong Punch (manifested by Soujuuro)

Ritsuka then acts normal for some time till we reach the end of Singularity-F. He finds out about the END OF HUMANITY.
He is somehow barely fazed by this and determines to save it all himself. This random chump with no mage skills, no Master experience, nothing at all, is entirely confident. This is presumably the true reason why Servants keep being summoned - not by Mash's roundtable shield - but because Fujimaru's balls are just so big they've developed their own gravitational fields and draw in Servants from the Throne like a blackhole.
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Psychopathy in the Singularities

Fujimaru Ritsuka, Humanity's Last Asylum Escape, then goes to Orleans, sees several thousand dragons, ignores the terror of that sight, murders a fanfiction OC, murders his way through Septem without going insane in the process despite interacting with Nero, and finally we reach the madness that is Fujimaru in Okeanos.
Fujimaru in Okeanos:

• Volunteers to race against HERACLES
  
• He WINS this race against HERACLES
  
• He, a completely inexperienced magus, fights a woman WHO HAS SINGLE-HANDEDLY KILLED POSEIDON AND IS BEING POWERED BY A HOLY GRAIL and wins?????
  
• Fujimaru also wouldn't have full understanding of Shadow Summoning at this point, so the implication is that Fujimaru just half-assed it and then made up the difference by fistfighting her? What sort of gym is this kid going to?
  

We continue on to London. Fujimaru sees a Goddess, the human equivalent of a God, a fragment of Amaterasu, one of the Heavenly Kings, all back to back and is completely uninterested.
He trusts Mordred, literally known as the Knight of Treachery and Jekyll whose best known myth is him pretending to be another person to get out of the consequences of his desire to be evil and betray all his friends.
From this we conclude Fujimaru Ritsuka has no understanding of basic human minds and operates on some greater level of humanity known only to him and Soujuuro.

Train him wrong as a joke? Wait, we were supposed to train him?

Fujimaru walks across the entirety of America on foot in less than a month. In Lord of the Rings, this took over a year. Now, this wouldn't be surprising for a mage. They can boost their physical capabilities so-
What do you mean Fujimaru doesn't know how to enhance his body?
Yeah, as it turns out, contrary to a number of doujins and... basic expectations, not a single person taught Fujimaru Ritsuka, Last Master of Humanity, the guy on whom the entire world depends, basic f***ing magecraft. You know, Da Vinci, maybe some things are more important than making fun of Romani for liking Vtubers? Maybe you could have taught the kid literally the most important fundamental to keeping up with Servants?
This is shown in Lostbelt 1 where Kadoc is surprised that Fujimaru can't enhance his eyes before Fujimaru reveals that he doesn't know anything about enhancement at all, which is... C'mon, Paracelsus, Avicebron, Circe, Medea, they're all literally part of the team. Did not one of them consider "huh, I wonder if I should teach the Last Master of Humanity, the guy on whom all humanity depends, magecraft?"
Shirou was trained wrong. Ritsuka? Somehow Chaldean staff are even more negligent than Kiritsugu. He wasn't trained at all!
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Fujimaru tells God to eat Shit

Fujimaru goes to Camelot. He's almost normal for most of it besides a tad too deep sense of social justice shared by Mash.
Then he confronts the Lion King. The Lion King who could smite him with a single thought. The Lion King who wields the Pillar of the World. He looks at her, this terrifying force of nature, an actual divinity, God to mortal.
...And he tells her she's a dumbass.
"Humans aren't butterflies you can put on a board!" says Fujimaru Ritsuka, having for unknown reason decided to try to refute a GOD. And flabbergastingly, this works as Lion King takes brain damage presumably from the sheer bafflement that a child with no special abilities is talking down to her, causing her to go berserk and lose when Bedivere activates his Bitch-Slap Airgetlam.
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Then he goes to Ancient Uruk/Babylonia/I still have no clue where this is. He meets Gilgamesh, King of Heroes, several tiers beyond what Fujimaru will ever be.
"I'm going to skip the line to talk shit to you and ask you to join me," decides Ritsuka. Gilgamesh, unimpressed tries to make him do housework. Fujimaru reveals that in addition to being Humanity's Last Master, he's Humanity's Last Housewife and perfectly does everything till Gil is forced to respect his impressive janitorial skills and they go off to Literal Hell together.
Fujimaru's insanity then makes him befriend several people he shouldn't including:

• God known for betraying everyone she knew (Ishtar)
• God trying to kill them (Gorgon Lily )
  
• Other God trying to kill them (Jaguar)
  
• the Grim Reaper (King Hassan)
  
• The Grim Reaper if it was an anime Waifu (Ereshkigal)
  
• Merlin, who if you've studied Arthurian mythos, you know is the LITERAL ANTICHRIST.
  

Somehow, he gets all of these to work together including mortal enemies Gilgamesh and Ishtar, and inspires King Hassan to give up his Grand title to become a different Grand- a Grandfather.
Fujimaru Ritsuka fights with Lucha Wrestler God trying to kill him by attempting to... suicide tackle her by being air dropped for some reason instead of just breaking the damn magic stone powering her because Fujimaru has offscreen developed telepathy and knows exactly what Lucha Goddess wants.
Having befriended a fourth god trying to kill them, they go to befriend Mom by beating her to death. The gang cheers as they succeed and Waifu Grim Reaper is outed as a tsundere.
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Coughing Baby vs Omnipotent King of Seventy Two Demon Gods (the baby wins)

Fujimaru goes to outer space. He meets unsurmountable odds. Seventy-two immortal Demon Gods. His reaction?
"Nah, I'd Summon."
Fujimaru transforms the game into a Kingdom Hearts story as the bonds he formed along the way act as a catalyst to summon EVERY SINGLE SERVANT IN THE THRONE to fight for his ass. Goetia screams like a baby as Fujimaru performs the ultimate JJK beatdown by calling in every damn person to ever do anything of note to kick Goetia in the balls through the sheer overwhelming power of friendship.
Goetia reveals himself to be a fraud and pulls "with this treasure I summon Ars Almadel Salmonis: The Time of Birth Has Come, He Is the One Who Masters All!"
Fujimaru calls in additional support from Archetype Eggplants to block an attack that destroyed seven humanities. Following this, he calls in Goetia's dad to put his omnipotence on timeout.
Then, Fujimaru Ritsuka, this untrained regular human with zero enhancement skills, solos Goetia with a Shield he's never used, beating him in a straight boxing match.
Combined with the Francis Drake thing, it makes me wonder if he's secretly the FGO version of Soujuuro.

Conclusion

You liars told me he was a regular ordinary human and the most boring Type-Moon protagonist with no mental problems like the rest.
What the hell did you mean? I have never met a man more on the spectrum, insane, off the walls, unhinged, bonkers and genuinely weird than this guy.
How did I let myself be fooled? He's a Type Moon protagonist! It should have been obvious from the get go!

Fujimaru Ritsuka is Completely Insane.

FIN.

I (18 M) have had quite mental health issues, it’s been a while since I stopped taking antidepressants and there were not many issues besides physical from lowering the dose too quickly.
Now my feelings are just like they were when I started puberty. Even a small request makes me want to punch to a wall to relieve the stress and when I don’t I start to cry. I know, it’s a mess.
I just get really uncomfortable very easily, when a chair is uncomfortable I can not sit on it even though I have been sitting on it all my life. Now the chair makes me upset.
In the past, I had a feeling there is something wrong about me. My mom’s friends told her when I was a little child that they think I might be autistic. She has never taken me to the doctor to get it checked, because she was worried it would be a problem for me to get a job having this diagnosis (that’s my and my friends assumption).
Do you think this could be a symptom? And do you think I can do something about it? I just feel like I can not function as a normal human being, because my feelings are completely wild and I can’t control myself.

TL;DR - selfish asshole of an older brother scams me and my parents out of $200.
Okay, so I’m not doing too well financially, but I live with my Mom and Pops so we try to make ends meet. A couple weeks back we were in such rough shape financially, that I had to juggle three day jobs just to cover rent and suppress the collector’s from knocking on the door regarding our collective debts. We so broke I literally can’t even afford to sleep because in the night=I can get freelance work done. “I can sleep when I’m dead,” has become my full-time motto (unfortunately). Anyways, to try to bring some income in my household I offer services as a freelance video editor.
A while back, my older brother (who’s a career criminal and has flee’d multiple countries when authorities were after him for violent offences) hit me up and asked if I’d be down to edit for him. I was hesitant at first, being as last time I heard from him was after he beat our Mum to a pulp when I was only 12. For context bro or sis, whoever you are that is reading this: if I was only three years older I wouldn’t have let that slide—I would have mobbed his ass right then and there, pinned him down and done him so fucking dirty… IDGAF if my 15 year old ass had gone to juvie for it, I would do anything for my mother, including take a life. But instead, all that’s been imprinted in my brain is how much of a bitch I was at 12–cowering under the dining table as he took multiple shots with a shoe, at our crying helpless mother on the ground.
Anyways it’s been a few years, I’m 24 now and he gave me a big sob story how he has changed. I bought it up like the good little sheeple I am… started editing for him under the guise that he’d pay me $200 per video: SCORE! That’s a lot of money!!!
I got to know his business (shady as fuck) and got to find out he now dreams of being a finance influencer (double shady) but alas, he’s my big bro and no matter what wrong-doing he’s doing, he convinced me that he was a good man. Ight, bet, I’ma edit for him and make some money for the fam! In between his ‘takes’ of videos he sends me, I piece together that his “wife” films the videos, and he’s still an extremely abusive person. He tries not to let it show on camera, but I’m really good with people, emotions and hidden trauma so I can feel the sickening ‘abuser-of-people’ energy SEEPING off of him, still, to this day. I feel sick to my stomach editing for him, but shit, he’s promised me $200 per video. Over the course of a few weeks I can see why he never told us about his wife, it seems he keeps her pent up somewhere in Georgia, Batumi, and forces her to do whatever he wants. He once referred to her as “his slave” which I originally thought was A JOKE, but now in the grand scheme of things… I don’t think it was a joke. I pray that authorities get to them before he does something to her, but idek where to begin to put a ‘concerned citizen tip’ in a foreign country.
Some context as to why I put up with all the red flags: Mom’s not working as she has to take care of the house and she’s also trying to make money online, any ways possible. She’s starting to sell her favourite clothes. It fucking breaks my heart that I can’t do shit about it… at 24 years old, with all the social media influencing and advertising, I feel like garbage that I can’t fully support my parents… at least not yet! Dad is constantly depressed because he’s almost 80 years old and can’t retire ‘cuz my parent’s are in too much debt.
Okay, anyways, three BIG videos done for him (by big, I mean I spent +8 hours on each vid) and brother’s paid me for ONE via PayPal… no worries, he keeps leading me on saying the money will come, the money will come. And PayPal says I got $200 coming my way from him! Uhh ight, bet? Mind you, I start PLANNING my life around this $200 notification because that’s a hot stack for me and my family!!! Takes PayPal about 20 days to actually let me use the money… ridiculous because we NEEDED it… but that’s okay, I work around the problems in life, much like we all have to.
Here comes the turning point: I’m a little overworked and a little coo-coo sometimes, and one night I start telling him personal shit, kinda pouring out my heart to him, venting almost. I don’t really remember about what, just life I guess, nothing negative towards him. Somehow he misconstrues it, gets upset with me, and ‘tells me off.’ I get upset with him, tell him his business is a sham and I’ma change the rules that we agreed upon. Since his fake-ass can’t pay me what was agreed upon, (maybe $200 is a lot for him, as well) so I ask him if we can do $10 per hour instead. I pitch to him that moving forward, anytime I edit more than five hours ($50), I will refuse to edit until the money gets sent. The conversation turns hostile, QUICK. He calls me a ton of bad names with an underlying message that I’m the biggest loser on earth for pursuing a dream in working in Entertainment & he ends it with a sweet “you’ll never be anything.” LOL WHAT? Completely out of pocket and out of left field, so naturally, I tell him to eat shit, I won’t be doing anymore free work and he can pay me a mere $30 (yes, thirty dollars) for the entire portfolio of audios, texts/scripts, videos, and clips I’ve taken from the internet that ‘match’ the vibe he wants in his videos.
Context: at this point I’ve completed SIX FULL VIDEOS FOR THIS DUDE and he’s only paid me the one payment of $200. Not good at maths? Me neither, lemme help you out. He owes me $1,200 from our original agreement because I’ve spent more than 48 collective hours working on his videos, and he’s only paid me $200. But I tell him: I’ll let it all slide if he pays me $30 for the portfolio of about 50 gigabytes, and then moving forward, he’d pay me the $10 per hour if he wanted more content from me. He already has the six full videos in his possession. The ‘portfolio’ is stuff I’ve found that’s free-use on the internet, stuff that I’ve compiled, and even some scripts that I’ve written out! ALL MINE that I did for HIS business. So it seems logical for me to give this portfolio as an option, just incase he wants to say nah moving forward on me editing for him, and just take the material & go our separate ways…
In response, my (35 year old) brother files a complaint on PayPal claiming he only hired me for a channel encompassing trailer that I did not provide and that I’m attempting to extort him for more money. LOL, WHAT? PayPal’s like BET and automatically attempts to deduct from MY chequing account, without even getting to the bottom of it. Obviously doesn’t work, my account (not PayPal account, my fucking bank account. these mf so overzealous that they reached right into my mf pocket!!!!) gets put in the negatives and I attempt to appeal, with no sweat on my brow ‘cuz I’m like no way PayPal finna let this slide. I then proceed to message my terrible relative multiple times, with texts, videos and audio recordings and I’m in a hysterical mess. I begin threatening him, I begin begging to him, pleading with him, saying anything under the sun just for the hope that he has some heart and would send back the $200 if PayPal does end up taking it from me. Already my chequing was fricked but I could do some damage control… I was cocky, thinking PayPal would obviously side with me once they heard the whole story, so I also told him since he’s caused such pain for me out of absolutely nothing, like completely unprovoked, then shit: I want the original $200 PLUS an extra $200 for all this trauma. He responds by blocking me on everything. It’s 4 A.M. and I’m shaking as I’m typing this…
Somehow after all the information I provided, PayPal sides with him. Wow, wait, what? PayPal has since tried to deduct my PERSONAL CHEQUING ACCOUNT multiple times in order to fish back the $200 which I ALREADY HAD TO USE!!! Idk if you ever had a payment tried to be taken out of an account which already has a negative balance, but the payment doesn’t go (it does a minus then a plus) but usually the bank is like WTF and charges you fees. Multiple times = Multiple fees…
Before, I was in the negatives on my ONE chequing account I own… now I’m in the NEGATIVE-NEGATIVES… no clue how tf I’ma get out of it, but we all persevere eventually! I’ve reached out to PayPal but I’m almost sure nothing will come of it.. I’m considering taking PayPal to small claims court to somehow try to fix all this mess, but I fear it’ll break me off more trouble than repair anything. If you want to DM me, I’ll gladly give you my brother’s socials to send a report to his accounts on Instagram or TikTok, or even leave him a not-so-nice comment if you’d like. Also let me know if you know how I can get in contact with the authorities in the country of ‘Georgia.’
I have absolutely no issues posting his socials, address, doxxxing his ass to the fullest extent, all to do whatever’s necessary: because I fear he will one day gain notoriety and scam a shit ton of people. Praying that never happens.
Let me know what y’all think!!!

I 29f left the home I share with my 30m husband because he started going on a rant about my family. But I’m scared I’m over reacting about my safety.
I don’t know where to begin but my mother threatened his life a few years ago during a screaming match over what she said was him disrespecting me. She refused to apologize and he has been holding on to it for years. At first he just didn’t want anything to do with my family and we would go back and forth. For the last year he has been trying to make an effort to see them but the real issue has never been addressed.
On more than one occasion he has gone on a nasty rant calling my mom names and saying he wants to hit or he wish he could have when she threatened him. And I’ve learned to just let it go so it doesn’t cause a fight. Even though it makes me sick. I know what my mom did was wrong and crazy but I can’t make her apologize and for a while he didn’t want me to try.
This time he spent all day being pretty manic, talking about my family, demanding they apologize, having deep convo about my childhood, to talking about his career, all day. He then comes home and almost immediately starts talking about how he has to have an apology and I need to tell them I’ll never speak to them again if they don’t. And it ramped up to him yelling and calling my mom every name, racial slurs, and it just scared me to the point that I felt compelled to leave. I left the house to take a walk and I was so afraid to go back. I did and he was leaving to go for a drive and said he wasn’t coming back.
I packed up my pets and my work clothes and left. But now he’s saying I over reacted and it’s not fair because he’s never hit me or did anything violent to me. Which is true. He has never put his hands on me in a serious way. I’ll admit I have been the one to try to slap him once and I’ve accidentally hit him while having a panic attack. So he says I’m the one who’s more likely to hurt him. But I just feel like this is what you hear in the news. I’m scared he could just snap. But at the same time I feel like I’m just being dramatic or sexist. My family says they’re worried about my safety.
He has never threatened his life but has confided in me about being suicidal or at least thinking about it more. That makes me scared that he might hurt himself, or hurt me too. But he has never hurt himself so I feel like I’m blowing it out of proportion.
He’s also upset that I took out pets and I don’t know if that was right but I couldn’t handle leaving them and not knowing what was happening. His mom said I was wrong for taking them and I feel terrible.

I’m new to this subreddit and by the looks of it most of you in here can relate in some way so I figured why not confide in those who share my struggles even if it’s barely.
So I 19M am currently just wondering what the point is at this point. I’ve got some goods going for me, if you could even call them that. I have a job that not only pays amazing for someone who graduated from highschool 2 years ago, but also doesn’t need to have a degree to have so that’s an upside I guess. I have 1 one my dream cars (even though it doesn’t fucking drive at the moment). And that’s really it.

 Nothing else is going good for me and it’s making think what to do. I got injured at work and am currently in a lawsuit with the state because of it. Due to missing work so much because of this injury I am around $3,000 in debt because of a loan I had to take out to pay for the medical expenses. I’m at risk of losing my job also due to my attendance because of this injury. I haven’t had car insurance in almost 3 months now because once again, no money. Very few friends 1-2 of which don’t feel comfortable around me because i don’t express myself or act like they do in public (im a very introverted person and have to keep my behavior in check because if i just let loose and let my mind and body act as they want im probably gonna kill someone), no girlfriend (for a number of reasons but primarily im not good looking and trust issues). I barely talk to my parents because i feel as if they’re disappointed in me and that’s why they wanted another son so badly. I’m not particularly smart. Dropped out of college before the semester even started because I knew I would fail since I barely graduated high school. And am in constant pain for various reasons. And to top ALL OF THAT OFF, I’m also black (mixed but it’s not like people can tell the difference) so I also have to deal with racism and discrimination everywhere I go. So to sum all of that up, I’m broke, lonely, have trauma because of a bunch of other shit, depressed, tired, in pain, ugly, hated because of my skin, stupid, and a disappointment. So I ask you people of Reddit. What the fuck is the point of going on with life. I know it’s not all sunshine and rainbows and the world’s not fair. But idk how to keep going. I’ve been dealing with depression for the past 15 years and the other day my mom asked me while i was visiting her if i was depressed because im also constantly tired. KNOWING I WAS. I didn’t even answer I just looked at her. And when I told her why she stared at me and didn’t know what to say. Not even my grandmother who is a licensed therapist had any words to give me. Makes me think that if not only a therapist can help me then what’s the point. Here’s the other thing that sucks. I have so MANY thoughts that run through my head but if I share them with family or friends. I’ll lose the last bit of familiar interaction I have. I have a lizard to keep me company at my apartment but I’m barely taking care of him. He’s doing even better than me. Free food, water, shelter, entertainment. 

I want nothing more than to die but nothing scares me more than death. Ironic isn’t it, how the thing I want most is also my greatest fear. Almost poetic. So please, tell me what to do suggestions are welcome.
PS: for those who wonder what my job is I’m a correctional officer. I can’t say what state for a few reasons but it’s in the Midwest.

Hello all!
I've (31, F) been dealing with rosacea type 1 and 2 since I was 15 with a mild case of ocular thrown in the mix (yay for the winning combo).
Treatment background: I've tried Ivermectin, Elidel, Metronidazole, Rozex, diets/suppl, no alcohol, doxycycline, Mirvaso, hypochl. acid, azelaic acid, zinc oxide and other OTC products, have been wearing sunscreen daily for years, IPL and Vbeam.
I've definitely seen progress with some of the treatments (could be a post of it's own) but I'm still not where I'd like to be. Right now I've put my fight with Type 1 on hold because the treatment interferes with my Type 2 treatment:
In the recent years I've had two serious type 2 flares for which doxycycline proved to be the winner of all treatments. Bonus: ocular symptoms improved aswell. When I came off the doxy (was on it for 3 months) for the first time I'd see my skin worsen but it was nowhere as bad as before.
Around August 2023 I think my skin was already pissed off by using sulphur soap too often and not moisturising properly. Then the morning after a party (alcohol incl), summer heat and using Azelaic acid was the final blow. The months after my skin exploded and I was miserable. Suddenly my type 1 didn't seem so bad because I was dealing with a full blown type 2 party from hell. It's still hard to admit to this day but at times I wanted to end it all because of how miserable I had gotten. I starting working from home permanently, stopped dating, hardly went out anymore. It was terrible. I decided to try another round of doxy to get me out of this state, which thankfully helped!
I took my round 2 of doxy (100/day) for around 8 months. I know it's way longer than the usual 3 months but I spoke about it with my derm at length. Plus, I started looking for a new job at that time, started dating again and I desperately needed to feel like a happy person again after feeling like absolute shit for half a year. Thankfully, round 2 worked like a charm again and I was clear, minus some minor breakouts.
Now, I know some people here are on antibiotics permanently but I wasn't comfortable with this idea. After going through my options with my current derm and seeking a second opinion from another derm everyone came to the same conclusion: either take doxy in cycles (so that I can still come off) permanently or try a last option, isotretinoin.
Iso scares me because of the side effects but potential antibiotic resistance scares me even more. So, two weeks ago I decided to bite the bullet, come off the doxy and started isotretinoin. FYI: doxy and iso are not to be taken together because of potential swelling of the brain.
I'm 70 kgs and on 20/day, started on the 7th of May. Blood testing included, zero alcohol, sunscreen always. No chance of me getting pregnant so not on birth control but I need to do a mandatory pregnancy test anyway. The latter is just protocol, so I'll respect that.
Why am I posting all this? For two reasons. Firstly, I know what it feels like to be absolutely miserable because of this condition. Hiding from society, scared of the future of my skin and mental health. I've spent countless tears and dark days dealing with this shit. I want to tell you that you are not alone. You're not "being dramatic" or "vain" when the skin on your face feels like it's burning all the time or covered in p&p's. What you're feeling is valid. But I'm also here to tell you not to give up! There's progress to be made! Ask me anything in the comments!
Second reason: I'll be posting each month for anyone dealing with type 2 that considers taking isotretinoin. I'll be 100% transparent about the treatment, progress, side effects etc. Reading other ppls posts on here has helped me immensely so now it's my turn. I hope my isotretinoin journey will help you decide your own path.
Thank you. I will post in around two weeks, when I'm 1 month in on 20/daily isotretinoin.

Hi Reddit community,
I’m grappling with feelings about my mother’s behavior and wondering if I’m overthinking things or if my concerns are valid. I’d appreciate your insights.
Growing up, I felt loved and supported in a home that, while not perfect, seemed caring. However, now that I have my own children, I see the shortcomings of my upbringing—like not being encouraged to excel academically or in sports.
My wife and my mother have always clashed. An accusation from my mother against my wife, which was baseless, has soured their relationship further. My mother’s indirect approach to issues contrasts with my wife’s directness, causing friction.
Post-divorce, my mother stopped working at 45. I worry about her financial future and feel she should contribute if she were to live with us, to avoid straining my marriage and household.
Despite my efforts to help her find employment, she hasn’t shown interest in applying for jobs, which makes me feel she’s relying on others for support.
As a grandmother, she’s loving but often distracted by her phone, which concerns me regarding her attentiveness to my young children.
My wife and I have chosen to leave social media for our children’s safety and asked our family to refrain from posting my childrens images online. Everyone agreed except my mother, who not only continued to post their pictures but also used them as her profile image.
After discovering a comment where she lied about us preventing her from seeing her grandchildren, I confronted her. Instead of understanding, she accused us of being cruel and keeping her from her grandchildren, despite her lack of effort to maintain contact.
I’m torn between the guilt of potentially cutting ties with my mother and the need to uphold my family’s values and safety. Is it unreasonable to expect her to respect our wishes, or am I being too harsh?
This is a very very drummed down version 10 years of issues.
My mom often uses people around her to rally her troops and do her fighting for her so she can continue to play the victim or the innocent party however its evident where its coming from.
I am not perfect, I am fully aware of this, however standing up and protecting my family has to come first and my wife is my wife. She is angry now, and no longer wants to know my mother. However this has come from years and years of accusations towards her. Worst of all the accusations come in the form of gas lighting and makes you wonder if your are imagining it.
Thank you for your perspective.

I recently was offered a really cool government contracting job as a software engineer and I’ve been very excited to start. However, for this job it requires a secret clearance ( which I knew going in)
I’m only 22 but I have skeletons in my closet from when I was underage and some of the choices and struggle I’ve had getting to this point. I knew that no matter what I would eventually have to discuss that part of my life and it’s been eating at me alive.
When I was between 16 and 17 (2018-2019) I spent a lot of time out of the house and smoked marijuana a few times a month on the weekends. My mom was an addict and alcoholic and got violent often, we lived in the home with my grandmother as well so as a teenager I made a lot of self destructive decisions to avoid being home. I had also experimented once with LSD in 2019 and the experience was pretty traumatic (for my own good I’ll add).
Thankfully I kept my head half way on my shoulders and got accepted into college, and transferred to computer science half way through my degree.
From then on I have only had two isolated incidents of marijuana use, once in 2022 and once in 2023 and the last two times felt so bad it made me sick to the thought of doing it again. But regardless of that statement, I still made the choice to do it and now I am worried about if I’ll be cleared.
Additionally the last two incidents were times that I made a poor choice as an adult. Ive grown so much in the last year, I’ve turned my life around, improved my work ethic, had a more positive outlook on life, quit nicotine, cut ties with any associations that no longer supported my goals.
I’ve been to therapy to talk through my past and I’ve worked so hard to lead a ‘normal’ life despite growing up surrounded by poverty and addiction.
Of course as every piece of advice has stated, I have come clean about all of this on my form and even went further and told my security officer about my history with substances. I have integrity as a person and in some ways it feels good to let all of this out but I am so scared that my work on myself as a person will all be in vain and that I will lose out on this opportunity.
I would love to hear from anyone with similar experience.

TL;DR - selfish asshole of an older brother scams me and my parents out of $200.
Okay, so I’m not doing too well financially, but I live with my Mom and Pops so we try to make ends meet. A couple weeks back we were in such rough shape financially, that I had to juggle three day jobs just to cover rent and suppress the collector’s from knocking on the door regarding our collective debts. We so broke I literally can’t even afford to sleep because in the night=I can get freelance work done. “I can sleep when I’m dead,” has become my full-time motto (unfortunately). Anyways, to try to bring some income in my household I offer services as a freelance video editor.
A while back, my older brother (who’s a career criminal and has flee’d multiple countries when authorities were after him for violent offences) hit me up and asked if I’d be down to edit for him. I was hesitant at first, being as last time I heard from him was after he beat our Mum to a pulp when I was only 12. For context bro or sis, whoever you are that is reading this: if I was only three years older I wouldn’t have let that slide—I would have mobbed his ass right then and there, pinned him down and done him so fucking dirty… IDGAF if my 15 year old ass had gone to juvie for it, I would do anything for my mother, including take a life. But instead, all that’s been imprinted in my brain is how much of a bitch I was at 12–cowering under the dining table as he took multiple shots with a shoe, at our crying helpless mother on the ground.
Anyways it’s been a few years, I’m 24 now and he gave me a big sob story how he has changed. I bought it up like the good little sheeple I am… started editing for him under the guise that he’d pay me $200 per video: SCORE! That’s a lot of money!!!
I got to know his business (shady as fuck) and got to find out he now dreams of being a finance influencer (double shady) but alas, he’s my big bro and no matter what wrong-doing he’s doing, he convinced me that he was a good man. Ight, bet, I’ma edit for him and make some money for the fam! In between his ‘takes’ of videos he sends me, I piece together that his “wife” films the videos, and he’s still an extremely abusive person. He tries not to let it show on camera, but I’m really good with people, emotions and hidden trauma so I can feel the sickening ‘abuser-of-people’ energy SEEPING off of him, still, to this day. I feel sick to my stomach editing for him, but shit, he’s promised me $200 per video. Over the course of a few weeks I can see why he never told us about his wife, it seems he keeps her pent up somewhere in Georgia, Batumi, and forces her to do whatever he wants. He once referred to her as “his slave” which I originally thought was A JOKE, but now in the grand scheme of things… I don’t think it was a joke. I pray that authorities get to them before he does something to her, but idek where to begin to put a ‘concerned citizen tip’ in a foreign country.
Some context as to why I put up with all the red flags: Mom’s not working as she has to take care of the house and she’s also trying to make money online, any ways possible. She’s starting to sell her favourite clothes. It fucking breaks my heart that I can’t do shit about it… at 24 years old, with all the social media influencing and advertising, I feel like garbage that I can’t fully support my parents… at least not yet! Dad is constantly depressed because he’s almost 80 years old and can’t retire ‘cuz my parent’s are in too much debt.
Okay, anyways, three BIG videos done for him (by big, I mean I spent +8 hours on each vid) and brother’s paid me for ONE via PayPal… no worries, he keeps leading me on saying the money will come, the money will come. And PayPal says I got $200 coming my way from him! Uhh ight, bet? Mind you, I start PLANNING my life around this $200 notification because that’s a hot stack for me and my family!!! Takes PayPal about 20 days to actually let me use the money… ridiculous because we NEEDED it… but that’s okay, I work around the problems in life, much like we all have to.
Here comes the turning point: I’m a little overworked and a little coo-coo sometimes, and one night I start telling him personal shit, kinda pouring out my heart to him, venting almost. I don’t really remember about what, just life I guess, nothing negative towards him. Somehow he misconstrues it, gets upset with me, and ‘tells me off.’ I get upset with him, tell him his business is a sham and I’ma change the rules that we agreed upon. Since his fake-ass can’t pay me what was agreed upon, (maybe $200 is a lot for him, as well) so I ask him if we can do $10 per hour instead. I pitch to him that moving forward, anytime I edit more than five hours ($50), I will refuse to edit until the money gets sent. The conversation turns hostile, QUICK. He calls me a ton of bad names with an underlying message that I’m the biggest loser on earth for pursuing a dream in working in Entertainment & he ends it with a sweet “you’ll never be anything.” LOL WHAT? Completely out of pocket and out of left field, so naturally, I tell him to eat shit, I won’t be doing anymore free work and he can pay me a mere $30 (yes, thirty dollars) for the entire portfolio of audios, texts/scripts, videos, and clips I’ve taken from the internet that ‘match’ the vibe he wants in his videos.
Context: at this point I’ve completed SIX FULL VIDEOS FOR THIS DUDE and he’s only paid me the one payment of $200. Not good at maths? Me neither, lemme help you out. He owes me $1,200 from our original agreement because I’ve spent more than 48 collective hours working on his videos, and he’s only paid me $200. But I tell him: I’ll let it all slide if he pays me $30 for the portfolio of about 50 gigabytes, and then moving forward, he’d pay me the $10 per hour if he wanted more content from me. He already has the six full videos in his possession. The ‘portfolio’ is stuff I’ve found that’s free-use on the internet, stuff that I’ve compiled, and even some scripts that I’ve written out! ALL MINE that I did for HIS business. So it seems logical for me to give this portfolio as an option, just incase he wants to say nah moving forward on me editing for him, and just take the material & go our separate ways…
In response, my (35 year old) brother files a complaint on PayPal claiming he only hired me for a channel encompassing trailer that I did not provide and that I’m attempting to extort him for more money. LOL, WHAT? PayPal’s like BET and automatically attempts to deduct from MY chequing account, without even getting to the bottom of it. Obviously doesn’t work, my account (not PayPal account, my fucking bank account. these mf so overzealous that they reached right into my mf pocket!!!!) gets put in the negatives and I attempt to appeal, with no sweat on my brow ‘cuz I’m like no way PayPal finna let this slide. I then proceed to message my terrible relative multiple times, with texts, videos and audio recordings and I’m in a hysterical mess. I begin threatening him, I begin begging to him, pleading with him, saying anything under the sun just for the hope that he has some heart and would send back the $200 if PayPal does end up taking it from me. Already my chequing was fricked but I could do some damage control… I was cocky, thinking PayPal would obviously side with me once they heard the whole story, so I also told him since he’s caused such pain for me out of absolutely nothing, like completely unprovoked, then shit: I want the original $200 PLUS an extra $200 for all this trauma. He responds by blocking me on everything. It’s 4 A.M. and I’m shaking as I’m typing this…
Somehow after all the information I provided, PayPal sides with him. Wow, wait, what? PayPal has since tried to deduct my PERSONAL CHEQUING ACCOUNT multiple times in order to fish back the $200 which I ALREADY HAD TO USE!!! Idk if you ever had a payment tried to be taken out of an account which already has a negative balance, but the payment doesn’t go (it does a minus then a plus) but usually the bank is like WTF and charges you fees. Multiple times = Multiple fees…
Before, I was in the negatives on my ONE chequing account I own… now I’m in the NEGATIVE-NEGATIVES… no clue how tf I’ma get out of it, but we all persevere eventually! I’ve reached out to PayPal but I’m almost sure nothing will come of it.. I’m considering taking PayPal to small claims court to somehow try to fix all this mess, but I fear it’ll break me off more trouble than repair anything. If you want to DM me, I’ll gladly give you my brother’s socials to send a report to his accounts on Instagram or TikTok, or even leave him a not-so-nice comment if you’d like. Also let me know if you know how I can get in contact with the authorities in the country of ‘Georgia.’
I have absolutely no issues posting his socials, address, doxxxing his ass to the fullest extent, all to do whatever’s necessary: because I fear he will one day gain notoriety and scam a shit ton of people. Praying that never happens.
Let me know what y’all think!!!

I’m 30 (M) my situation is currently very bad I came with a visa and I overstayed due to my moms cancer, she passed away 2019, since then I’ve been alone in this country with an ilegal inmigrant status, things have been really rough lately, no job, no car, behind 2 months of rent, debt with the irs, high depression, loneliness, only thing that makes me stay is my pride, and the fact that I haven’t n save any money, any advice?
My plan is to save at least 3,000 and then leave I got a dentist degree in my country by the way

To give some background on me, I have 60k in savings which was meant for a down payment on a house. I make 75k at my job currently and I’m also in nursing school which would finish fall 2025.
My live with my family at the moment which is a special form of hell of earth. Since childhood my mom had substance abuse issues and now my older sister does as well and after 6 years of having no issues, their behaviors have come back worse than I remember them being. After 8 months of naively hoping this would magically stop, I’ve realized this is not a good place for me to be in.
My plan was always to move after when I finish school because things have not been this bad. But now I don’t see how I could possibly last until next fall.
Anyway, I guess my question is - would it be a really bad move to take 10K of my savings to help bring down rent? I live in an area where studios are 2000-2200 and 2400+ for 1br
Also, at the moment I don’t want to move far because my dad is here dealing with my mom and sister.
If I do the math without savings would leave me pay check to pay check basically and with my savings it would allow more wiggle room.
TLDR home life is shit, want to move out a year earlier then planned but need to use some savings to help me do so. Worth it? Not worth it?

For starters, I've done my due diligence and researched these jobs pretty extensively, even reading the CFTEP, but I'm stuck between deciding on pursuing linguistics or EOD. I'm very much interested in both jobs, but as far as practicality and outside transferability are concerned, which translates better outside the military?
Currently, I've been doing recommended training schedules to try to surpass the EOD physical standards for fitness, but i'm still definitely a long ways off. I do have a passion for languages but I hear it's pretty common that you don't even end up using it frequently, and while EOD isn't blowing things up everyday, I do enjoy the thought of doing frequent training to be proficient, if that makes sense.
Any people inside these professions can offer any day-to-day or general advice before choosing?

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Name	Specs	Price	Comments
HP Victus	15.6" Full HD 144Hz Gaming Laptop AMD Ryzen 5 7535HS NVIDIA GeForce RTX 2050 8GB RAM DDR5 512GB SSD Backlit Windows 11 Home Bundle with 64GB USB Flash Drive	$565	This laptop offers solid gaming performance at an affordable price. While it may lack some refinements, it’s definitely worth considering for budget-conscious gamers and multitaskers alike.
‎Lenovo IdeaPad Gaming 3 82SB0001US	15.6" FHD - 120Hz - AMD Ryzen 5 6600H - NVIDIA GeForce RTX 3050 - 8GB DDR5 RAM - 256GB NVMe Storage - Windows 11 Home	$649	While it won’t blow you away, it gets the job done for everyday computing and casual gaming
MSI CYBORG 1512043	15.6" 144hz Gaming Laptop - Intel Core i7 - NVIDIA GeForce RTX 4060 with 8GB RAM and 512GB SSD	$799	Great gaming laptop
MSI GF63 12VE-066US	15.6" 144Hz Gaming Laptop: 12th Gen Intel Core i7, NVIDIA GeForce RTX 4050, 16GB DDR4, 512GB NVMe SSD	$858	Powerful CPU that is great for productivity work, its GPU is not bad either
MSI Pulse GL66 12UGKV-464	15.6" FHD 144Hz Gaming Laptop: Intel Core i7-12700H RTX 3070 16GB 512GB NVMe SSD, Type-C USB 3.2 Gen 1	$999	A solid choice for gamers with its Intel Core i7 and RTX 3070. The 144Hz display ensures smooth gameplay. 🎮🔥But the GPU is a bit dated
Acer Nitro 5 AN515-58-781P	Intel 12th Gen i7-12650H NVIDIA GeForce RTX 4060 Laptop GPU 15.6” FHD 144Hz IPS Display 16GB DDR5 1TB Gen 4 SSD	$1119	A well-rounded gaming laptop with a powerful RTX 4060 GPU and ample storage so no need to upgrade it yourself
MSI Katana B13VGK-484US	15.6" 144Hz FHD Gaming Laptop: 13th Gen Intel Core i7, RTX 4070, 16GB DDR5, 1TB NVMe SSD, USB-Type C, Cooler Boost 5, Win11 Home	$1330	A worthwhile entry as one of the best value for money gaming laptops on the market.
Acer Predator Helios 16 PH16-71-74UU	13th Gen Intel Core i7-13700HX NVIDIA GeForce RTX 4070 16" 2560 x 1600 240Hz G-SYNC Display 16GB DDR5 1TB Gen 4 SSD	$1399	A worthwhile entry as one of the best value-for-money gaming laptops on the market. Ideal for gaming and content creation. 🎮
ASUS ROG Strix G16 G614JIR-AS94	16” ROG Nebula Display 16:10 QHD 240Hz, NVIDIA® GeForce RTX™ 4070, Intel® Core™ i9-14900HX, 16GB DDR5-5600, 1TB PCIe Gen4 SSD	$1899	A premium gaming laptop with an impressive QHD 240Hz display, Core i9 processor, and RTX 4070. Designed for serious gamers. 🎮
Lenovo Legion Pro 7	16" 240Hz Display, Intel Core i9-13900HX(24-core), GeForce RTX 4080, 64GB DDR5 RAM, 1TB SSD	$3099	A powerhouse with a 24-core Intel Core i9, RTX 4080, and massive 64GB DDR5 RAM. For extreme gaming and productivity. 🎮🔥💼

Student & General Use

Name	Specs	Price	Comments
ASUS C423NA Chromebook (refurb)	14" HD Laptop (Intel Dual Core Celeron Processor N3350, 4GB DDR4 RAM, 64GB SSD	$123	A budget-friendly Chromebook suitable for basic web browsing and productivity tasks. Ideal for students or casual users.
Acer Aspire 3 A315-24P-R7VH	15.6" Full HD IPS Display AMD Ryzen 3 7320U Quad-Core Processor AMD Radeon Graphics 8GB LPDDR5 128GB NVMe SSD	$299	Offers decent performance with an AMD Ryzen 3 processor and Full HD display. Good for everyday use.
Lenovo IdeaPad 1	AMD Ryzen5-5500U 15.6" Full HD (1920x1080) 8GB Memory 512GB SSD Storage Windows 11	$319	A budget-friendly laptop with a decent processor and storage. Suitable for light tasks and web browsing.
Lenovo Ideapad 5	15.6" FHD IPS Laptop, AMD Ryzen 7 5825U, 16GB RAM, 512GB SSD, Abyss Blue, Windows 11 Home, 82SG00BLUS	$499
HP Envy x360 2-in-1	15.6" FHD IPS Glass Touchscreen AMD Hexa-core Ryzen 5 7530U (Beats i7-1255U) 16GB RAM 512GB SSD	$569	Versatile 2-in-1 laptop with a powerful Ryzen 5 processor, ample RAM, and SSD storage. Great for productivity and entertainment.
Acer Swift Go 14	14" 1920x1200 100% sRGB Touch Screen Display Intel Core i7-1355U Intel Iris Xe 16GB LPDDR5 512GB Gen 4 SSD	$599	A sleek ultrabook with an Intel Core i7 processor, good RAM, and a high-resolution touch display with high color accuracy
SAMSUNG Galaxy Book3 NP750XFG-KB2US	13th Gen Intel Core i7-1355U Processor / 16 GB / 512GB, Thin and Light, FHD Screen	$769	Thin and light laptop with an Intel Core i7 processor, suitable for productivity tasks and multimedia consumption.
HP ProBook 450 G10	15.6" FHD Display, 13th Gen Intel 10-Core i7-1355U, 16GB RAM, 512GB SSD)	$845	A business-oriented laptop with a powerful Intel Core i7 processor and ample RAM and a solid build. Designed for professional use.
Samsung Galaxy Book4NP940XGK-KG1US	14", Intel Core 7 Ultra Processor 512GB, 16 GB RAM, 3K AMOLED (2880 x 1800) Touchscreen	$1449	Premium laptop with a stunning AMOLED display, powerful Intel Core 7 Ultra processor, and ample RAM. Great for content creators and professionals. 🎨✨
LG Gram 16Z90R-K.ADB9U1	Intel 13th Gen Core i7 Evo Platform, Windows 11 Home, 32GB RAM, 2TB SSD	$1589	An ultralight laptop with impressive specifications, including a large SSD. Ideal for portability and performance.

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Here is how the most popular GPUs stack up to each other

😔 Intel HD Graphics 4600 👉 Vega 7 👉 Intel Iris Xe Graphics 👉 MX450 👉 RX 5500M 👉 GTX 1650 👉 RTX 3050 👉 RTX 3050 Ti 👉 RTX 4050👉 RTX 3060 👉 RTX 4060👉RTX 3060 Ti 👉 AMD RX 6700 XT 👉 RTX 3070 👉 RTX 3070 Ti 👉 AMD RX 6800 👉 RTX 3080 👉 RTX 3080 12GB 👉 RTX 3080 Ti 👉 AMD Radeon RX 6800 XT👉 RTX 4070 👉 RTX 3090 👉 RTX 3090 Ti 👉 RTX 4070 Ti 👉 AMD RX 6900 XT 👉 AMD RX 6950 XT 👉 AMD RX 7900 XT 👉 RTX 4080 👉 AMD RX 7900 XTX 😀
CPU - Following the graphics card, the processor stands as the second most pivotal element in your gaming laptop. Although the GPU generally bears the brunt of gaming demands, the CPU significantly influences overall system performance and holds the potential to bottleneck the GPU's capabilities. Gaming laptops housing more robust GPUs are often accompanied by 8-core processors. In the mid-range spectrum spanning $400 to $800, you'll typically find quad-core CPUs. While dual-core CPUs can handle gaming, they aren't optimal since sustaining boosted clock speeds might not always be achievable.
Here is how the most popular CPUs stack up to each other
😔Ryzen 3 3200U 👉i3-1115G4 👉Ryzen 5 3450U👉 Ryzen 5 3550H 👉i7-1255U👉i7-1355U👉Ryzen 5 5500U 👉Ryzen 5 7530U👉 Ryzen 7 5825U 👉Ryzen 9 5900HS 👉Ryzen 5 7535HS 👉Ryzen 9 5900HX 👉 Ryzen 7 6800H 👉Ryzen 9 6900HS👉Ryzen 9 7940HS👉i7-1260P👉i7-12650H 👉Ryzen 9 6900HX👉 i7-12700H👉 i7-12800H 👉 i9-12900H 👉 i9-12900HK 👉 i7-12800HX 👉i7-13620H 👉i9-12900HX👉i9-13980HX 😀
RAM is generally the most straightforward laptop component to upgrade. So, if you're working with a tight budget, you have the option to choose a laptop with lower RAM and later upgrade it yourself. Overspending on RAM is unnecessary; 16 GB is sufficient for gaming. However, considering 32 GB can provide future-proofing for your laptop.
Storage-wise, if your budget permits, it's advisable to select a laptop equipped with an SSD for storage. An SSD can significantly enhance a laptop's speed, particularly when compared to an HDD. This translates to reduced boot times and quicker load times, resulting in noticeably improved performance.
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I lived in Tokyo for 6 months on VISA and unfortunately couldn’t find a job that I felt suited me. Truth is, I don’t enjoy being a teacher and would rather do therapy. I made a lot of close friends in Japan and miss them dearly. I miss Japan so much, but couldn’t make enough money there with the job opportunities I had.
Is it possible to buy a vacation home in the Kantou region? I’d love to be able to visit multiple times a year and keep in touch with my loved ones there. I really did make a home for myself and my land lady was like a second mom to me, she helped me so much.
Anyways, if anyone has any advice or knowledge or suggestions, I would really appreciate it. I feel homesick for Japan :(

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Name	Specs	Price	Comments
HP Victus	15.6" Full HD 144Hz Gaming Laptop AMD Ryzen 5 7535HS NVIDIA GeForce RTX 2050 8GB RAM DDR5 512GB SSD Backlit Windows 11 Home Bundle with 64GB USB Flash Drive	$565	This laptop offers solid gaming performance at an affordable price. While it may lack some refinements, it’s definitely worth considering for budget-conscious gamers and multitaskers alike.
‎Lenovo IdeaPad Gaming 3 82SB0001US	15.6" FHD - 120Hz - AMD Ryzen 5 6600H - NVIDIA GeForce RTX 3050 - 8GB DDR5 RAM - 256GB NVMe Storage - Windows 11 Home	$649	While it won’t blow you away, it gets the job done for everyday computing and casual gaming
MSI CYBORG 1512043	15.6" 144hz Gaming Laptop - Intel Core i7 - NVIDIA GeForce RTX 4060 with 8GB RAM and 512GB SSD	$799	Great gaming laptop
MSI GF63 12VE-066US	15.6" 144Hz Gaming Laptop: 12th Gen Intel Core i7, NVIDIA GeForce RTX 4050, 16GB DDR4, 512GB NVMe SSD	$858	Powerful CPU that is great for productivity work, its GPU is not bad either
MSI Pulse GL66 12UGKV-464	15.6" FHD 144Hz Gaming Laptop: Intel Core i7-12700H RTX 3070 16GB 512GB NVMe SSD, Type-C USB 3.2 Gen 1	$999	A solid choice for gamers with its Intel Core i7 and RTX 3070. The 144Hz display ensures smooth gameplay. 🎮🔥But the GPU is a bit dated
Acer Nitro 5 AN515-58-781P	Intel 12th Gen i7-12650H NVIDIA GeForce RTX 4060 Laptop GPU 15.6” FHD 144Hz IPS Display 16GB DDR5 1TB Gen 4 SSD	$1119	A well-rounded gaming laptop with a powerful RTX 4060 GPU and ample storage so no need to upgrade it yourself
MSI Katana B13VGK-484US	15.6" 144Hz FHD Gaming Laptop: 13th Gen Intel Core i7, RTX 4070, 16GB DDR5, 1TB NVMe SSD, USB-Type C, Cooler Boost 5, Win11 Home	$1330	A worthwhile entry as one of the best value for money gaming laptops on the market.
Acer Predator Helios 16 PH16-71-74UU	13th Gen Intel Core i7-13700HX NVIDIA GeForce RTX 4070 16" 2560 x 1600 240Hz G-SYNC Display 16GB DDR5 1TB Gen 4 SSD	$1399	A worthwhile entry as one of the best value-for-money gaming laptops on the market. Ideal for gaming and content creation. 🎮
ASUS ROG Strix G16 G614JIR-AS94	16” ROG Nebula Display 16:10 QHD 240Hz, NVIDIA® GeForce RTX™ 4070, Intel® Core™ i9-14900HX, 16GB DDR5-5600, 1TB PCIe Gen4 SSD	$1899	A premium gaming laptop with an impressive QHD 240Hz display, Core i9 processor, and RTX 4070. Designed for serious gamers. 🎮
Lenovo Legion Pro 7	16" 240Hz Display, Intel Core i9-13900HX(24-core), GeForce RTX 4080, 64GB DDR5 RAM, 1TB SSD	$3099	A powerhouse with a 24-core Intel Core i9, RTX 4080, and massive 64GB DDR5 RAM. For extreme gaming and productivity. 🎮🔥💼

Student & General Use

Name	Specs	Price	Comments
ASUS C423NA Chromebook (refurb)	14" HD Laptop (Intel Dual Core Celeron Processor N3350, 4GB DDR4 RAM, 64GB SSD	$123	A budget-friendly Chromebook suitable for basic web browsing and productivity tasks. Ideal for students or casual users.
Acer Aspire 3 A315-24P-R7VH	15.6" Full HD IPS Display AMD Ryzen 3 7320U Quad-Core Processor AMD Radeon Graphics 8GB LPDDR5 128GB NVMe SSD	$299	Offers decent performance with an AMD Ryzen 3 processor and Full HD display. Good for everyday use.
Lenovo IdeaPad 1	AMD Ryzen5-5500U 15.6" Full HD (1920x1080) 8GB Memory 512GB SSD Storage Windows 11	$319	A budget-friendly laptop with a decent processor and storage. Suitable for light tasks and web browsing.
Lenovo Ideapad 5	15.6" FHD IPS Laptop, AMD Ryzen 7 5825U, 16GB RAM, 512GB SSD, Abyss Blue, Windows 11 Home, 82SG00BLUS	$499
HP Envy x360 2-in-1	15.6" FHD IPS Glass Touchscreen AMD Hexa-core Ryzen 5 7530U (Beats i7-1255U) 16GB RAM 512GB SSD	$569	Versatile 2-in-1 laptop with a powerful Ryzen 5 processor, ample RAM, and SSD storage. Great for productivity and entertainment.
Acer Swift Go 14	14" 1920x1200 100% sRGB Touch Screen Display Intel Core i7-1355U Intel Iris Xe 16GB LPDDR5 512GB Gen 4 SSD	$599	A sleek ultrabook with an Intel Core i7 processor, good RAM, and a high-resolution touch display with high color accuracy
SAMSUNG Galaxy Book3 NP750XFG-KB2US	13th Gen Intel Core i7-1355U Processor / 16 GB / 512GB, Thin and Light, FHD Screen	$769	Thin and light laptop with an Intel Core i7 processor, suitable for productivity tasks and multimedia consumption.
HP ProBook 450 G10	15.6" FHD Display, 13th Gen Intel 10-Core i7-1355U, 16GB RAM, 512GB SSD)	$845	A business-oriented laptop with a powerful Intel Core i7 processor and ample RAM and a solid build. Designed for professional use.
Samsung Galaxy Book4NP940XGK-KG1US	14", Intel Core 7 Ultra Processor 512GB, 16 GB RAM, 3K AMOLED (2880 x 1800) Touchscreen	$1449	Premium laptop with a stunning AMOLED display, powerful Intel Core 7 Ultra processor, and ample RAM. Great for content creators and professionals. 🎨✨
LG Gram 16Z90R-K.ADB9U1	Intel 13th Gen Core i7 Evo Platform, Windows 11 Home, 32GB RAM, 2TB SSD	$1589	An ultralight laptop with impressive specifications, including a large SSD. Ideal for portability and performance.

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😔 Intel HD Graphics 4600 👉 Vega 7 👉 Intel Iris Xe Graphics 👉 MX450 👉 RX 5500M 👉 GTX 1650 👉 RTX 3050 👉 RTX 3050 Ti 👉 RTX 4050👉 RTX 3060 👉 RTX 4060👉RTX 3060 Ti 👉 AMD RX 6700 XT 👉 RTX 3070 👉 RTX 3070 Ti 👉 AMD RX 6800 👉 RTX 3080 👉 RTX 3080 12GB 👉 RTX 3080 Ti 👉 AMD Radeon RX 6800 XT👉 RTX 4070 👉 RTX 3090 👉 RTX 3090 Ti 👉 RTX 4070 Ti 👉 AMD RX 6900 XT 👉 AMD RX 6950 XT 👉 AMD RX 7900 XT 👉 RTX 4080 👉 AMD RX 7900 XTX 😀
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Here is how the most popular CPUs stack up to each other
😔Ryzen 3 3200U 👉i3-1115G4 👉Ryzen 5 3450U👉 Ryzen 5 3550H 👉i7-1255U👉i7-1355U👉Ryzen 5 5500U 👉Ryzen 5 7530U👉 Ryzen 7 5825U 👉Ryzen 9 5900HS 👉Ryzen 5 7535HS 👉Ryzen 9 5900HX 👉 Ryzen 7 6800H 👉Ryzen 9 6900HS👉Ryzen 9 7940HS👉i7-1260P👉i7-12650H 👉Ryzen 9 6900HX👉 i7-12700H👉 i7-12800H 👉 i9-12900H 👉 i9-12900HK 👉 i7-12800HX 👉i7-13620H 👉i9-12900HX👉i9-13980HX 😀
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New Mets (and baseball) fan here, so have been wondering about some of the comments I've seen online about blowing the team up and starting again.
Surely it's too early to start talking about that, only being 2.5 wins off a WC slot? I get that it's been a tough start for a variety of reason, but in two weeks it could all look very different?
Is this just fan and media hysteria? I'm coming in with a genuine lack of knowledge - is it:
a) the teams got too much talent and it'll sort itself out b) obviously not working so might as well start again c) a combination of both and needs more time
BTW as a long time sports fan from the UK I'm completely down with the idea of a sports teams main job being to underwhelm and drain fans of hope, it's what they're here for. You can't have the highs without multiple year long stretches of mundane mediocroty

völlig ernsthaft, wieso sollte ich?
bin asperger und daher wohl grundsätzlich inkompatibel mit so ziemlich jedem den ich kenne. ich kann nicht wirklich freundschaften führen, kann keine beziehung führen, und ich erlebe kaum soziale teilhabe. auf der anderen seite wurde ich aber auch quasi permanent von meinen mitmenschen enttäuscht, sodass ich eigentlich auch schon überhaupt keinen bock mehr drauf habe...
auch sonst regen mich meine mitmenschen die meiste zeit einfach auf. ich habe den eindruck dass sehr viele einfach nicht zum fassen komplexerer gedanken und der anwendung einfacher logik in der lage sind. wie fucking wiederkäuer fressen sie das was ihnen in den massenmedien vorgekaut wird und würgen es dann in ihren konversationen wieder hoch - sie kotzen mich an! ich habe das gefühl manche davon haben auch regelrecht panische angst davor, selbst denken zu müssen. vermutlich weil dann die tolle scheinwelt, die sie um ihren kopf herum haben bauen lassen, in sich zusammen fallen würde.
diese verblödung zieht sich natürlich auch durch unsere sonstige lebensweise: wir arbeiten uns dumm und dämlich, obwohl wir längst die mittel haben um einen ganzen haufen dieser jobs einfach so wegzuautomatisieren. für unser zeitalter wurde von vielen autoren und denkern z.b. eine 15 stunden woche prognostiziert. irgendwas um den dreh halte ich auch durchaus für realistisch, aber nö, das geht nun wirklich nicht. stattdessen schafft man lieber irgendwelche bullshit-jobs, um die leute zu beschäftigen und so bei der stange zu halten. these meinerseits: die menschen sollen bloß nicht zu viel zeit zum nachdenken haben. um es mit pispers zu sagen: "was glauben sie was in diesem land los wäre, wenn die menschen wüssten, was hier los ist?"
long story short: ich sehe keinen grund dafür, so zu leben. wieso sollte ich meine eigenen probleme überhaupt erst angehen, wenn ich eh in diesem ekligen drecksapparat leben soll/muss? wieso sollte ich irgendwelche energie in fucking irgendwas investieren, wenn doch von vornherein schon klar ist, dass es nichts wird. das ist doch wahnsinn.
ganz ehrlich, da ergibt es für mich viel mehr sinn mir ein hochpotentes opioid oder etwas vergleichbares zu holen und mich einfach wegzusuizidieren. klar, meine mom wäre sicherlich am boden zerstört und es wäre etwas schade um das death metal projekt an dem ich seit kurzem mitwirke, aber davon abgesehen finde ich nicht wirklich gründe das nicht zu tun.
evtl. hat jemand von euch welche?

Help! 20 years ago this guy defrauded elderly people out of $30,000,000 blowing up retirements and life savings. He ran to Panama and was extradited by the feds. His story is “I was an accountant caught up in some bad stuff and I made some mistakes.” The guy was the president of a company committing securities fraud on an intergalactic scale. He did 5 years prison and now runs some kind of oil drilling thing (which feels sketch too).
How do I get my mom to wave 👋 off and run 🚩 red 🚨 🔔?
TLDR; my mom is falling for a scumbag who ruined thousands of lives
If she married this dude, it will be the last time we communicate. I won’t have him near me or my family.

My bf (22m) and I (20f) have been LC/NC with MIL since last July. I blocked her on Facebook in may after sending her a nasty her for missing her son’s 21st birthday party. She had 2 months notice to the party and made excuse after excuse about why shouldn’t come, ultimately it ended up being because we didn’t want her alcoholic husband to be there and she refused to go with out him. She never even sent him a birthday card.
My bfs birthday is at the beginning of may and this year MILs husband sent him a message asking what he wanted for his bday during the second week of April. My bf does not like him, wants nothing to do with him and has explained this to his mom. So the message was never read because he has his notifications blocked, I saw it about a week and half after while looking on his phone and told my bf. He was annoyed but just txted MILs husband back, we didn’t hear anything for over a week and then she invited us up to dinner at her house. They live about and hour away so we said sure whenever is fine, we just want to be home before 10 pm, they wanted to wait until we all had a day off so we agreed. They were waiting to getting Sundays off so we could come up but my schedule just changed and now I have to work Sundays so I told my bf to let his mom know. She said that she is trying to find a new job because they cut her hours at work, MIL and her husband always work at the same place and her hours always get cut…
I just want to vent because this is not how my family is, birthdays are special and to be celebrated with all of your favorites because you need to enjoy life. I wish this women would even take a second of her own time to spend with her son, even on the phone without her husband talking too. She didn’t send him a card or anything this year either. We live and hour away and she commuted to a job an hour and 15 mins away for over a year!!!! I want to believe she cares about her son but everything she’s ever done to him and treats him tells me she doesn’t.

This isn’t meant to be offensive at all nor am I posting about anyone in particular. These are just some observations I’ve had as someone expecting my first child and I’m genuinely curious to get others’ thoughts, especially from those who have kids.
I’m 37 weeks pregnant for the first time and I have opted not to know the sex of my baby until delivery. With pregnancy you get so many comments but when you don’t know the sex, everyone is dying to know what you’re having. I started showing early and I work a very public facing job so I have certainly gotten my fair share of comments about the baby’s gender and what people think I’m having. But one thing I wasn’t expecting was the general attitude towards boys vs. girls based on what the person commenting has themselves. To be honest, it’s a really fascinating observation and something I never expected. I find it extremely interesting.
For example, when I talk to moms of both boys and girls, they will usually tell me the positive qualities of all of their children and tell me I’ll be blessed either way. Many women will tell me it’s really special to have a daughter, but otherwise there’s really no preference or negativity.
Moms of girls are usually similar. They’ll usually either make a comment about how fun girls are or they’ll tell me they’re broke from buying all the girly stuff. But they’re not usually negative about boys and they usually don’t seem to have a preference for what the sex of my baby is.
But with moms of boys, it tends to be different. When boy moms talk about the sex of my baby, many are downright negative about raising girls, despite not having one of their own. I’ve had several moms of boys tell me that girls are spoiled, catty, annoying, rude, and demanding. They tell me I’m better off having boys like they do and they seem to really not want me to have a girl. Almost as if having a girl is a tragedy or something. It’s really weird and makes me sad for my child if I do end up having a girl. I’m not saying ALL moms of boys are like this by any means; not at all. But it’s definitely a trend I’ve noticed and one I’ve found a little unusual to be honest. I will be happy with either sex but I’ve always wanted a daughter and I just think it’s odd that so many people without girls tend to see having a girl as a negative thing.
Anyway, I just thought this was a really interesting observation and I discussed it casually with a few other expecting moms who said they’d noticed the same trend. I’m just wondering why it might be. Is it just a general disgust for girls and women rooted in misogyny? Is it jealousy? Has anyone else noticed this?

hi guys. long story short i wanted to know if i can still get affordable housing even if my credit is bad and i have an ongoing court case which i am charged with a felony, and i havent been working but i just recently got a job and i start this week. so i am 24 years old and a month ago i left my abusive relationship of 6 years, i went to jail for 36 hours for hitting a cop while i was black out drunk and here in texas, this is a felony charge. i dont go back to court until july so i just hope i can fix that issue there. i moved in back with my mom but she also isnt the best living situation for me as she is abusive and i truly see no difference in moving back in with her and living back with my ex. she has threatened to kick me out plenty of times within this month because of my cat. i want to be at peace and i was hoping any small chance of me being able to do this so i can heal thanks guys

I am educated , have a decent resume, had a good savings, owned my 2017 rouge that I liquidated, my social life, my credit sucks, my hair etc. I have a 7 old so we moved in w my mom who is recently widowed (we never got along too well either yet we’re doing okay now), but say I survive, I’m in my 40’s w stage 4 Neuroendocrine cancer, how will i rebuild? My son and I hate NY, but I have no money. I can’t even do a job online since my emails were broken into and I’m locked out! I don’t mean to come off so negative, but I want to live, I just don’t know how?