Hello there! I'm a 16-year-old guy on the lookout for some new friends. Here's a bit about me:
I absolutely love being indoors. My interests include watching shows and movies, spending time with my pets, talking to people, and listening to music. And I’m also a atheist.
I'm hoping to make some long-term friendship, ideally with other guys around my age (sorry girls, I’m looking for some male pals), but I'm open to connecting with anyone. Voice-calls are an absolute requirement!
If you find my post intriguing in the slightest, please don't hesitate to send me a DM. Thanks! 😊

So I hear all the time how if you wanna make friends it’s best to join a group or hobby of something you like and you’ll probably meet somebody and grow some kind of connection whether it be a friendship or relationship. However, that is extremely rare in my case as I’ve been in a number of groups, and I’ve met a number of people who act friendly or nice with me for months in years, and when I take the step to try to build a friendship with them they never reciprocate. It doesn’t matter how long I’ve known them even compared to others within that group. They will reciprocate with them a lot more than they will do to me. this has made me realize that just because you know somebody for a long time does not mean they trust you or want to do anything with you.

Hello. I just wanted to share a little bit of my feelings here. My now ex texted me 5 mins ago "I don't feel respected and you're not getting the support you need from me" and we broke up. Due to my problems of isolation, I barely ever make friends and he was the only one in my whole life who truly knew me, or at least was the closest one to it. My religious family never even knew I was in a relationship and my few friends don't even comprehend how important and life-saving my friendship with him was. So I have no one to talk to about it. I guess I kinda did mess it up but for the past year I also did really want to end it sometimes to work on myself. Just wanted to share it somewhere. I hope the pain goes away by the time I'm 30(23 now)

Hey there! 👋
I have to admit, I'm not the best at starting conversations or socializing first 😅, but I'm hoping to meet some new people and make connections. If you're up for some friendly chats, I'd love to get to know you better!
I'm open to talking to anyone, no matter your age, gender, or where you're from. I think it would be amazing to exchange cultural thoughts and maybe even learn a new language or two! 🌍
Here are a few things I love and some I'm not too fond of:
Likes: - Animes, Cartoons, Webtoons, Mangas: I've read and watched a ton and can recommend some great ones! - Games: Currently into Valorant and CS:GO, but I've also played Apex, COD, Rocket League, GTA, and I adore campaign-themed games like Assassin's Creed. - Movies and Series: I've seen a lot, so I'd love to discuss or judge a movie together! 🎬 - Kpop/Jpop/Cpop (and dramas): I'm a fan of their plots, songs, and crisp writing. - Arts: I appreciate all forms of art – painting, music, dance – and want to learn more. - Technology: Interested in AI/ML, product management, and industrial electrical sector. I'm working on a few projects, and I love discussing cosmos, quantum physics, psychology, and more.
Hobbies: - Cooking: I’m pretty good at it! 🍳 - Photography: Love taking photos, whether it's human portraits, nature shots, or adorable dogs! - Painting: Learning digital portraits and would be thrilled to make one for you! - Trekking and Camping: Prefer the forest over the beach, sorry! 🌲 - Reading and Music: My taste isn't too vibrant, so I'd appreciate some recommendations.
Let's start a new friendship! 😊

Hey there! 👋
I have to admit, I'm not the best at starting conversations or socializing first 😅, but I'm hoping to meet some new people and make connections. If you're up for some friendly chats, I'd love to get to know you better!
I'm open to talking to anyone, no matter your age, gender, or where you're from. I think it would be amazing to exchange cultural thoughts and maybe even learn a new language or two! 🌍
Here are a few things I love and some I'm not too fond of:
Likes: - Animes, Cartoons, Webtoons, Mangas: I've read and watched a ton and can recommend some great ones! - Games: Currently into Valorant and CS:GO, but I've also played Apex, COD, Rocket League, GTA, and I adore campaign-themed games like Assassin's Creed. - Movies and Series: I've seen a lot, so I'd love to discuss or judge a movie together! 🎬 - Kpop/Jpop/Cpop (and dramas): I'm a fan of their plots, songs, and crisp writing. - Arts: I appreciate all forms of art – painting, music, dance – and want to learn more. - Technology: Interested in AI/ML, product management, and industrial electrical sector. I'm working on a few projects, and I love discussing cosmos, quantum physics, psychology, and more.
Hobbies: - Cooking: I’m pretty good at it! 🍳 - Photography: Love taking photos, whether it's human portraits, nature shots, or adorable dogs! - Painting: Learning digital portraits and would be thrilled to make one for you! - Trekking and Camping: Prefer the forest over the beach, sorry! 🌲 - Reading and Music: My taste isn't too vibrant, so I'd appreciate some recommendations.
Let's start a new friendship! 😊

My wife and I will pause a show multiple times an episode and have at least a minute or two of conversation/theory crafting about it, and with our current run of House, it can sometimes take us 2-3 hours to get through an episode.

1. House is an ass, but he never actually takes dirty shots at people who don't deserve it. He might mock someone's intelligence, but usually they aren't smart enough to be offended (which makes him right). He goes for the low hanging fruit when he's being sexist/racist and plays it up, rolling his eyes and making it clear he's not actually prejudiced against anyone (except maybe religious people). He pokes Foreman about being an ex-criminal sometimes, but usually only to point out the fact that Foreman is being prejudiced or Holier-than-thou with patients.
2. On the topic of prejudice: Everyone CALLS House racist, sexist, homophobic etc but he never actually judges anyone for it. It's his job to figure out what's wrong with his patients and he does it, whether it's a homeless crackhead, a well-respected politician, a nun, or a trans-person. Most of the time it's his TEAM who makes judgmental decisions, allowing their own prejudices to get in the way of doing their jobs properly, a mistake which House berates them for every single time (as a good mentor would).
3. Cuddy gives him a hard time for coming in late but never actually does anything about it. I pointed this out to my wife and she said "Yeah, because he's at the hospital until midnight all the time! He probably works 15 hours a day". She has a major point, he's either staying up burning the midnight oil trying to solve the puzzle, or actively running tests on patients while everyone else is asleep in their beds.
4. Wilson, despite appearances, is a much worse person than House. This might seem obvious, but people talk about their friendship like it's one-sided and it's really not. House gets somebody who will put up with his gruff personality, and Wilson gets a moral punching bag who he can talk down to and lecture, despite being an active cheater and only really acting like a nice guy because he has so much repressed guilt from other areas of his life. This actively spills over into their friendship when he freaks out on House for pointing it out multiple times.

Any interesting insights you've had into the characters or TV show in general?

Data-Miner Gego stared at the results of the analysis, still in disbelief that this wild theory had borne fruit and stood up to scrutiny again and again. But now, here before him in data as clear as even the youngest apprentice could see, was evidence, clear and unshakable:
Humans were not what they promised themselves to be.
Feeling slightly nauseous with anxiety, he keyed in a request to meet with the diplomat’s office as soon as possible.
As the diplomat looked over his latest treaty proposal, there was a faint sound of horns in harmonious blaring, signifying someone had requested permission to enter. Glad for any distraction from the monotonous paperwork, he activated the intercom, saying “You are recognized and accepted. Please enter.”
As the crouched and scrabbling shape stepped into the doorway, diplomat Hale-he mused again how interesting it would be if the if their ancestors could have heard such a magnificent call for a mere diplomat. Previously, such a grand instrumentation would have been reserved for a high chieftain or king, and yet here was Hale-he, a diplomat to be sure, but certainly no ruler of any stripe, heralded by a song that would bring envy even to high lords and minor rulers in ages past.
The individual sat before him, and Hale-he could tell by their coloration and the shape of their antenna they were a scientist or engineer, someone likely far more familiar with numbers than he was. Hale-he, while now taking on the rich purple hues of a diplomat, had the underlying color of brilliant crimson, a mark of his near-decade of study as a historical scholar and graduate before his appointment into diplomacy.
“What do you have for me? Gego, I believe?”
The other individual nodded, crossing his pinchers in a sign of deference and respect. “I am sorry to disturb your appointment, but I have important information regarding humans.”
“Ah yes, humans,” said Hale-he, feeling a degree of relaxation and comfort at the mention of the gregarious and affable people.
Humans had taken quite some time in venturing out to the stars, but their planet was located such that a number of major trade routes passed quite near to their system. Several species had reported contact with them before humans had in turn reached out and started to make contact of their own. But from all reports, they were kind, clever, and selfless to a fault, with no recent instances of conflict despite a very violent early history. They were renowned for having an impeccable record of interspecies relations.
“I'm actually in the process of framing a new trade treaty with some of their inner-system human colonies. I believe the primary planet in question is called Mars, but they also have gas refineries and extractors above their gas giants, and several mining operations set up on a number of moons and their asteroid belt.”
“Yes, I have seen the newscast about how much this treaty is expected to aid both species,” said Gego. There was an odd note of apprehension Hale-he could detect in their chittering voice. “There is some invaluable context that I believe needs to be put to light.”
“Context? What do you mean, ‘context?’”
“Well, you are aware that we, the Civicor, first met humanity when a trade ship fell off course and crashed upon Earth?”
“It is a well-known accident. Some manner of navigational mishap; Thankfully, our propulsion systems are far more accurate today.”
“This is true, but are you also aware the Bayons have a remarkably-similar story related to their first contact with humanity as well? A military scout vessel, intending to regroup with the bulk of their fleet and engaging the Dendite menace, and they were likewise drawn off course, spiraling to crash onto Earth as well.”
“I remember the stories that time hypothesized that it was Dendite sabotage, even though it was unlikely for such a minor and inconsequential vessel,” said Hale-he. “Other than that, I’m unfortunately not familiar with their own reports on it.”
“But our two species are but a few from over a dozen first-contact reports with humanity. All stemming from engine failures, navigation failures, and crashes or forced landings of ships that lost control and arrived on Earth.”
“Well,” said the diplomat, starting to see the shape of the data-miner’s point, “Warpspace travel.has always been an inexact science at times, and was even less accurate decades ago. It's possible you are reading too much into a handful of coincidences.”
The data-miner rubbed their eyestalks, feeling exhaustion creeping in for how much frantic effort they had put in over the past three-day cycle. “Yes, but to borrow an idiom for the humans, ‘Once is happenstance, twice is coincidence, but three times is a pattern,’ let alone a solid dozen instances within barely a fifty-year timespan. Even the most heavily-trafficked routes past the most dense or erratic planetoids have only achieved a third of that number.”
“You're asking me to disrupt peaceful and productive diplomatic ties with humans by suggesting they were responsible for these instances. Are you truly suggesting that this was intentional from humanity's part?”
“I am.”
“That may be, but we will require more proof than mere happenstance, unlikely though it may be.”
“I have additional data as well.” Gego was the most proud of this next part, and he carefully pulled up the diagrams and charting maps. A vibrant animation appeared onscreen of what appeared to be a rainbow-colored and spiked disc, surging and shaking on the screen. “This is the analysis of the gravitational field irregularities within a quarter of a solar year of Earth's primary star.”
The diplomat looked nonplussed at the diagram. “I would assume the fluctuations here are not ideal?”
“No indeed. They could be likened to a reef within a shallow sea, permitting transit in the calm regions but damaging and disrupting ships passing through a rough space. I have reached out to several of the shipping guilds for more details, but initial reports back support this theory, with several commenting that the route passing near to Earth is highly undesirable amongst experienced pilots due to the rough effects it has on engine stability and wear and tear.”
The diplomat looked over the diagram further before attempting to wave it away dismissively. “But who’s to say that this isn't a natural phenomena of Earth’s system? There are many regions of space that are disruptive or dangerous to travel through in warpspace, so what would make Earth's patch of turbulence unique?”
“The fact that they can turn it on and off at will.”
The diplomat coughed violently as the surprise dislodged the piece of fruit pulp he was eating out of his primary digestion sack and instead into the top of his gas exchange organ. “What in the three spheres do you mean they can turn it off?”
Gego grimaced this time as he keyed in some commands to the report. This time the disc figure that was pulled was much grainier and blocky, fine measurements now showing as wide swaths. “This was reverse-calculated from a series of gravimetric scans done across that entire arm of the galaxy.”
Even with the poor resolution, the diplomat could still see that this was a wildly chaotic and dangerous gravitational field. “It looks the same.”
The data-miner nodded. “Yes, but watch here: It's hard to tell, but this readout is actually playing in reverse, stepping backwards through time. We're about to hit 76 years ago.”
“What's so important about 76-” The diplomat cut off, words caught like fruit pulp in his throat as the image abruptly stilled. The disc depicting the gravitational field was now still and smooth as a windless pond.
“So it just started one day?”
“Indeed, Diplomat Hale-he. And furthermore, this beginning of the turbulence was a mere month before the first vessel lost controlI and was forced to make an emergency landing on Earth.”
The possibilities were rapidly narrowing, but Hale-he was still in favor of exploring whatever possible shred he could find to avoid confronting the dawning reality about humans.
“Well, while things of this nature are highly irregular, I presume, I'm still not convinced that this shows they can activate it at will.”
“I know, Gego said, “Which is why I wanted to show you that data before I show you this.”
The gravitational field display became the ragged tumultuous ocean of currents and surges, and this time in the higher detail that told Hale-he this was more recent readings. “I'm sure you saw the announcements a fortnight ago that humanity had tested their first faster than light engine they had made themselves, rather than trading for, and successfully made a jaunt out to the furthest planetoid in their star system and back without incident?”
“Yes?” the diplomat said cautiously.
“I received this data from a colleague, who was concerned there may have been an instrument malfunction to produce such data as I’m about to show you. She checked and validated it herself. It was fully accurate and reliable, which makes it all the more troubling. I don't think she realized the cause of what she was seeing, but unfortunately the timing of it adds up too perfectly.”
The data-miner continued quietly recalling “I believe at this point we're at 30 seconds to launch the human’s test flight.”
Hale-he let out an involuntary gasp of breath as the gravity field abruptly stilled again, perfectly smooth simultaneously across the entire spread of it.
Grimly, the data-miner said “Here we had the jump,” and after a short pause continued “-and the return.” A few seconds later and the field abruptly resumed its turbulence.
The diplomat was still in shock, staring at the gravimetric readout, when Gego said “That's also not the most concerning part, either. This was supposed to be humanity's first faster-than-light capability of their own they were testing here; Isn't that right?”
“Well of course,” replied Hale-he. “It was on all the new stations. A great achievement for a species that had been slow to achieve that milestone.”
“I would remind you then that the readout here is half a light-year in diameter.”
The diplomat scrunched his eyestalks in confused concentration, trying to understand what the other alien was implying, when suddenly it hit him. “Yet they were able to disrupt such a large region simultaneously, and stop it equally quickly?”
Gego nodded. “Whatever means they have at causing such a disruption is certainly faster-than-light, and immensely wide-ranging. If it was slower and confined to a small area, I might have some theories as to how it could be accomplished, but this size, this scale and the speed? I have no idea. It is beyond anything our sciences and technology can produce, or that of any other known species.”
The diplomat sat back, stunned. “By the Spheres.” He glanced up at Gego. “What do you propose we do with this information?”
The data-miner waved an arm. “Perhaps we can get to the bottom of this: Go to humanity with the information we have. Tell them we want the secrets of this technology and the power sources that feed it, as it far eclipses anything we can currently achieve. Tell them that we will expose these findings to the rest of the space-faring civilizations of the galaxy if they continue to hold back.”
The diplomat’s eyes widened, before after a long moment he said “I see. Well, I still need to get to my duties and figure out how to handle this. You are excused, and a reminder to keep the strictly confidential while I inform the appropriate other parties.”
Gego bowed in deference before leaving the office. After he left, Hale-he leaned back in his saddle chair and groaned. The idiot had uncovered humanity possessed the capability of affecting a wide chunk of space at a power and complexity unheard of among any other known species, and his first suggestion was to blackmail them? The diplomat rubbed his head trying to make the sudden headache go away.
A few thoughts were coming to mind, snippets that had been dismissed in the moment, but now he couldn't shake them as he was reminded of the first species that had ever encountered humanity, and the comments by their scientists. They had said that humans were curiously disinterested in their warpspace drivers, despite not having faster-than-light capabilities already.
Then the second species that encountered humanity had mentioned that a child of one of the diplomatic party had become separated from the group, and accidentally come in contact with and ingested some Earth flora. It wasn't something toxic or dangerous to humans, but the physiological makeup of that species reacted poorly with alkaloids in the flora and would have resulted in a swift and painful death if left untreated. But instead, the humans had administered a series of emetics and alkaloid-binding treatments, something they said was common in the case of an accidental poison ingestion, The diplomat remembered reading a footnote from the inhuman physician at the time that this particular blend of neutralizing agents was not something commonly found in human medical kits, and in fact was uniquely suited to their own species’ biology.
Both had been written off as flukes, interesting anecdotes at most, but now the diplomat began to see the greater shape of it, as a species that cared not for faster-than-light travel, for they'd doubtless already achieved it, mastered it, and discarded it as uninteresting at some point before. A species, who upon supposed first contact, had comprehensive medical and anatomical knowledge of their guests sufficient enough to save a child in mere minutes from otherwise certain death.
All this from a species that had befriended and gregariously hosted every alien ship that had come astray upon their planet, and offered nothing but support and friendship to both waylaid travelers and their subsequent diplomatic summits, despite seeming to lack the ability to travel outside of their own star system. A species that was confident, at a basal level that Hale-he was only just now beginning to truly understand.
He opened a communications missive, addressed to all the other diplomats of similar station amongst the other species humanity had made contact with.
”Greetings to my fellow ambassadors. * *I come bearing difficult news regarding humanity: * *They are not what they appear to be. * *Yet, I believe it is of the utmost importance that we continue to pretend that they are, * *For fear that otherwise, we will learn who, or what, they truly are…”
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I just felt like I needed to make a somewhat happier post here at least once, and this one is dedicated to my Best Friend- and I really don't know how the universe works but it definitely works when you least expect it and when you need it most- as I don't think I've ever really had a best friend before you- and I want to thank you for being my best friend because I know we may not have known each other a year at this point but I feel like I've known you forever and honestly Soulmates can be best friends too because you just get me- and I know I can ramble sometimes and I know I talk a load of shit sometimes and can absolutely imagine craziness for sport but you actually come along for the journey- you've actually joined the journey with me and been crazy and fun with me rather than just nod and go "Mmmhmm" or pretend like your listening only to ask me what the hell I'm harping on about- you actually listened when I needed it and you made me feel seen and at a time when I was most lost you found me and I found you; and without you I have no idea what jungle I'd be lost in but I know I wouldn't be as happy as I am right now to have you in my life.
You saved me bestie and I will never not be grateful for your friendship, I love you so so much and knowing that your my best friend makes me feel so lucky because what are other people with normal besties doing- because surly I got the best bestie! You win the number one bestie award! You are the kindest most caring and understanding person I have ever known, we laugh together, cry together and simp over dilfs together! I don't understand how you hadn't been snaffled from the bestie store before because you are quite simply the best and its ironic that as a writer I cant find the words to express how much I love and appreciate you.
Like I say- it's weird how the universe works but I'm glad it worked in the way it did, I love our crazy adventures we go on, wether we are fighting a nether brain and romancing vampires, wizards and druids in Faerun, sitting in the back seat of an impala watching two crazy dudes killing monsters, watching another crazy dude kill evil superheroes or even when we are in the halls of an Immortal moon hunter who has caught us sneaking around- regardless of where we are or what Shenanigans we are up to- you have made me smile more and laugh more this past (almost) a year than I ever have in my life- so thank you for being my best friend and heres to plenty more adventures to go on <3

I'm struggling. In so many ways right now. Actively trying to be better and do better and chase positive things and I'm stalling. Not because I want to, but my health seems to have other plans. I said no to the date. For a variety of reasons, primarily being I didn't want to mess up a friendship or professional relationship. I got dumped as a client. He still checks in as a friend. He apologized for 'falling into feelings' and I apologized for not feeling them in return. Why do people apologize for things like that? How you feel can't necessarily be helped, it's how you act/react that matters.
I started this art project and has been taking up a lot of my time. Having people who've had an impact of any kind in my life write down word(s) and send them to me. Sometimes they are pulled from conversations we've had. Things that they've said the past few months that made me realize something and then they'll be added to this project and painted over. Some times where you can't see the word, sometime where it's barely visible, sometimes where it's clear as day. So far it's felt good and somehow freeing. I mean, reaching out to my dad after years of no contact to get the word disappointment was interesting. XD
So far there are twenty requests out there, 18 have sent them so far. One I don't think ever will. The other I dunno. Depending on how I feel closure wise after will dictate if I reach out to more people. I was told this would help. That I could make art from past things and generate the next canvas I'll paint over from the past. That I can start some what new, even with the past in the past and only I can dictate what comes forth to the future. The last two are the ones that mean the most to this project and the reasons I agreed to do it in the first place. I probably should have explained it to them, why it's important to have the words in their handwriting. Why I'm so damn weird. I feel like a dumb ass though. Why would they even care about something so silly and trivial? Something that's only beneficial to me.
So far I've requested ten negative words, four neutral ones, and six positive ones. The canvas is 16*20. I think it's about time I find some more positive words. With every thing going on in my life I need to make sure the positive comes to the future. I don't know what positive words to request.

Admittedly, my views on female friendships have changed quite a lot over the years. In my teenage years, I used to think that female friends were good only because if I befriended a girl for long enough maybe she'd grow to like me and want to have sex with me. I thought that women were attracted to guys who were completely moral, nice to them, and were good friends. This of course was a delusional bluepilled take.
Then, in the early half of my twenties, I flipped in the complete opposite direction. I then began to believe that female friendships were completely useless, lame, and boring, and that there's no point in talking to women unless I'm either having sex with them or trying to get to the point of sex with them. This was better than the bluepilled worldview because it allowed me to actually begin flirting with and polarizing women which led to more sexual experience. However, this worldview was also limiting.
Now that I'm in my late twenties, I've found a more balanced approach. I now understand that female friendships can actually be useful and helpful. My approach is that if I meet an attractive woman, I usually start by immediately flirting with her and trying to polarize the interaction. If she's not single or not interested, she'll usually still want to stay friends, because women are generally desperate for non-sexual male friendships. This also benefits me because firstly, having more women in my network means more social proof. It shows the women that I'm trying to date that I actually know how to talk to women (and people in general), and it gives me exponentially more options of women to choose from, without me having to approach them as a complete stranger. Secondly, if I actually begin dating a girl and she sees that I've got potential options, she'll be less likely to act a fool or shit test me. She'll respect the relationship more if she knows that I could possibly dump her ass for a chick who's just as hot, or maybe even hotter.
Lastly, socializing with women can be enjoyable if you make it enjoyable. I'll admit, women themselves generally aren't particularly interesting people unless there's sexual tension involved. They typically don't have interesting hobbies or super unique deep ways of thinking since they mostly just follow the crowd. However, even if you're not dating her, you can still tease her, poke fun at her, practice banter, teach her things, and practice your leadership skills on her (women enjoy being led by men in general, even if she's not dating the man). This is all excellent practice for when you finally find a girl that you can actually date, and it's fun if you make it fun.

Lord English is biggest wasted potential to me that Hussie didn't even bring on touching. He is a prefect contrast to John and even Dave in some aspects so let me cook in this autistic sperg.
Lord English works perfectly as John's antagonist because he is contrast to John and his growth as person which is theme of the comic alongside breaking out and choosing your own, you know the drill but what makes him contrast is that:
Lord English despite being only character to actually change and go from thin wrist to absolute unit was still the same childish person he started as mentally while John in original comic looked the same as he started to the end but changed and grew as person and decided to break out of it and choose his own life which is why LE should've acted same as Caliborn but with extra muscle.
He is on surface completely different man but deep down he's like a child on playground, he wants to be unbeatable toy that can make up any excuse to beat Mc's but when they leave into real world and stop child's play he becomes nothing. This is contrast to John and why he works as hero.
John is a nobody. Unlike every other character he is least interesting in a way he doesn't have too much going on with his life or special traits. He is just another kid and just like Emmet from lego movie that's why he's the one. Because he is nothing he can be anything.
Eeryone else is too much biased and riddled with flaws that if they were up to John's task they wouldn't have even passed through some acts. John becomes special because he is just some guy, he acts like most of people and is willing to save the world because like many others in his situation they would done the same maybe with more panicking. This is why he is perfect guy alongside Dave to kill Lord English.
Caliborn was opposite of John, he was born on crazy deranged wasteland as extremely rare universal ending species that has to take up role as main bad guy and most important thing ever to fight. To him his life is battle of importance and meaning and him having to fight John, some generic guy who isn't even special in any way and also weak nothing burger species that decides to leave in the end breaks him because he didn't get to have the conventional generic self righteous MC to fight. This is where also Dave fits in.
Dave is perfect contrast to Vriska and also makes sense why he'd slay LE in the end.
Dave was kid with weird abusive brother that turned him into strong fighter but thing is he doesn't care or want to be any of that such as hero but ends up doing the heroic and right thing in the end unlike Vriska that at any attempt to take spotlight fades into obscurity and gets sidelined. Even in the end Vriska gets fucked up and transported into new universe while Davepeta (another version of dave) fights LE. Even if Epilogues and Beyond canon weren't written Vriska still loses by being in background ignored with Caliborn to just rot away while John lives a normal life not looking back.
This is why Dave also works. He never wants to be hero but ends up doing it so out of actual care and love for his friends so he goes up fights the enemies and finishes them off while Vriska having heroic qualities never actually does it for heroic reasons, only for selfish gain and her own goal and her constant larp as some Mc even in the end gets her jackshit as she charges army and they all get blasted away in seconds proving she is literally other than being kinda strong useless. Dave in the end slays him because he beats the big bad mosnter as some random guy that doesn't care or isn't even willing to even try and play hero but becomes the true definition in the end alongside John some kid that becomes the hero because he can just be anything others command him too
Ok that's too much.lol

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M34. I had a discussion with my 22F crush at work who's dating another guy, slightly older than her. https://www.reddit.com/lonely/comments/1cvyb7o/i_went_for_a_hike/
Turns out they've been dating for 5 months. I made my position perfectly clear that I fully like her as a woman and I'm there to make her succeed. I went full blast, calm, steady tone, straight into the eyes. To be honest, I took a very confident stance towards it and almost can't believe myself. I think its because I saw it in a stubborn way. Regardless, she appreciated the fact that I spoke to her honestly. She needs some time for now to feel relaxed but I intend to keep trying to establish a friendship first and relationship (if available myself by then) next. She asked me to be chill during gatherings (outside of work). I fully intend to do just that.
I also had a brief discussion with friends who are or were muslims; syrians, turkish, iranians. They do agree in one thing that the hardcore ones are dangerous. Its the same for any religion, but with Islam its even worse. My personal opinion is that I don't trust this guy, also muslim. So I told her the only non-intrusive way I could think of; I value her choice but even more so I value her wellbeing. If any red flags appear, I strongly suggested that she speaks up (and hopefully break it up with him). I know he recently got a visa and he referred to visiting my home country. Im pretty sure he plans to go with her, together. Pretty sure he wants to meet parents etc. I surely do not like it but I have no way to avoid it unless someone has something to suggest.
Yes my motives are selfish because fuck loneliness. And honestly, fuck this guy too, he's an idiot and surely does not deserve her. He has a stupid demeanour and when things get tough, he wont step up. At this point I will fight with any tool I have available. I will be the dependable, the wise, the supportive, the optimistic, the experienced, the mentor. I will speak out against bigger fish that try to downplay her. Even if I had any, I would never use any power over her professionally. And I will ask her out again. I like her.
I know what loneliness feels like and Im no longer afraid of it. Im simply sick of it! Im angry at it.

My best friend of 15 years completely cut me off and began a smear campaign about me when she realized her brother in law (her husband's brother) and I had feelings for each other. This happened almost a year ago, when she told me that she, her husband, and her BIL were coming to my city for a baseball game, and I told her I always thought her BIL was attractive. She immediately responded with, "OMG me too! I've always wondered how big his dick is!". Odd response, but ok. From then on, she kept pushing me to sleep with him so she could live vicariously through me and to spare no detail, but I told her over and over that I wouldn't do that, since I was very close to her, her family, and her husband's family and felt things could get messy if it was purely physical. In between that visit and another, her BIL and I started texting and talking all day every day, and we quickly realized our feelings for each other. He and I had all the conversations regarding how to tell her and his family, how we'd navigate a long distance relationship, what would happen if things didn't work out, etc, but we didn't even get a chance to talk to my BFF or his brother because as soon as she caught wind of our feelings, she completely blew up on me and said, " You were allowed to fuck him! You weren't allowed to catch feelings!" When I asked her why, she couldn't give me a straight answer except she thought it would ruin our friendship because it would never work out anyway. She says me being with him is “disloyal” to her.
She immediately cut me off altogether, and this has led to several months of her desperately trying to get his parents on her side by trying to use my past against me and telling his mom that I wasn't good enough for him. She divulged secrets said in the confidence of a best friendship to his parents, and even gone so far as to make up outright lies about me.
I'm still struggling to process this, as I was her best friend for 15 years, the Maid of Honor in her wedding, and was asked to be her son's Godmother...so how am I not good enough for her brother in law? It's been almost a year now, and his parents are so furious with her and her husband (their oldest son) for causing a rift in the family, and they fully support our relationship. Now there's conversations surrounding family get togethers, holidays, birthdays, and what will happen since she and her husband have openly said I am no longer welcome in their home.
I do not know how to move forward with the betrayal, nor have I responded to her actions in any way in 8 months. I’m not sure how much she knows about what I know she's said about me…I have been silent since she cut me off and blocked me on all channels. I feel terrible for his parents and how they're in the middle, and she never should have involved them.
For context, her BIL and I are extremely happy and have moved in together with his parent's support and blessing. He and I are best friends and have such a healthy, loving, supportive, fun, and trustworthy relationship, but my former best friend will not back down and will not let go of her feelings and claims I owe her an apology. I, my boyfriend, and even his parents feel I have nothing to apologize for. I tried talking to her several times when this all first went down and begged her not to end our friendship, but she cut me off, so I stopped reaching out. Now she’s claiming she feels it’s time to reconcile (probably because she couldn’t get anyone but her husband on her side), but wants an apology from me.
So, am I the asshole for falling in love with her brother in law?

As mentioned in the title, I was having a bit of a dysphoric moment and so I wrote down my thoughts in the best way I could.
TRIGGER WARNING: There are slight mentions of suicide.
I would like to say, I am not suicidal at all, I used it because I fear that, if I don't take action soon, my dysphoria might get worse. I was also just feeling really dramatic when I wrote it.
"The Thoughts That Stretch Me Thin":

Is there something wrong with me? I cannot diagnose,
Because I may just go too far or even go too close.
And when I think of it at all it just makes me feel gross.

But there is still a nagging, as if time has got my scruff,
And yes, the pain, oh god the pain, I hope I’ve had enough,
Because these damned and ghostly tears, they’d make my eyelids puff.

I cannot hope to make more friends, alone as I may seem,
Until I solve this puzzle that does haunt my every dream.
But yet, alone, I fear I’ll lose my last load bearing beam.

I hate this gift they gave me, but I do not wish to scorn.
It just feels like I’ve lost a chance the day that I was born.
And to this day I sit and pray I’ll gain what I now mourn.

I sit and wait and hope it’s gone but never does it stray,
That feeling lying deep inside, spawned on that fateful day,
The day I wished that I could change this body, like it’s clay.

Oh god, this bod makes me a sod, and yet I’m stuck with it.
It holds me here and tortures me; I’m stuck upon its spit.
I hope that I can change before I rid myself of it.

I’m sitting here, I cannot think, the thinking hurts too much,
And yet, and yet, when I don’t think, I start to lose my touch.
And when I lose my touch, I fear I’ll start to drop my crutch.

But can I really trust these thoughts? They still feel like a stranger,
These thoughts that seem to only lead me into mortal danger.
And yet her words feel oh so nice, I’d never hope to change her.

These thoughts, I need to hide these thoughts, or else they just might hear,
The people, crashing, smashing, bashing, drawing ever near.
Some even want the death of me, dear god they’ve made that clear.

These angry, scary people seem to hate me for my woe,
But even if I bottle it, they still do hate me so.
The worst of them, in fact, is me, the only fact I know.

What is to come? what is to go? I hope it does not hurt,
But “que sera sera” I sing before my thoughts can blurt,
The thoughts I cannot seem to rid; the horrors they assert.

**TL;DR;** : BFF moves to different city, starts to act differently, wears our friendship down over a series of slights, plans trip to my dream locale without telling me, during my birthday. Now wants to talk and hang out since I've gone low contact.
TW: Infidelity.
General Warning: Long AF, and this is the abridged version if you can believe it.
So my closest friend since High School, someone I considered closer than a brother, that I have been through so much with, worked with, traveled with, lived with, cried with. My kindred spirit, who's been by my side for over half of the total time I have existed. A person who shaped my growth, and I his (or so I thought), in the past 3 or so years has become borderline unrecognizable to me, and it has eaten my spirit alive.
So...essentially I could write a book about my relationship with this person, but I'll try to keep things pointed and brief. I'll refer to him as Dan. Things between us had been solid for years, and we enjoyed a closeness and camaraderie on par with the likes of Troy & Abed, or Frodo & Sam, until after a period of rising tension between him and his first wife. He divorced her for "not having enough direction in life" is essentially how he put it, which, fair enough, I knew she wasn't perfect and likely needed some therapy to improve her mind set and outlook, but I did consider her a friend, and was remorseful that they couldn't make it work. During this time I let him stay with me and my gf (I'll refer to her as Lisa) for about a month rent free while he and his ex were sorting everything out,
Eventually he moves to the next city over and condemns our hometown as being some worthless crime-infested rathole, which I assume stems from the animosity of his divorce so I let him have that. Only he started to mention some version of that every time he came to visit, now I'm not smitten with this place or anything, but what he describes is a gross exaggeration, there are tons of worse places to live and this is where my career is, so I don't love the idea of constantly being down on it. Ironically the city he moved to is considered our "Sister City" and I personally do not see much of a difference between the two.
Anyway, eventually he meets a nice girl (I'll refer to her as Amy) and they begin dating, Amy, Lisa, and I actually develop a great rapport over shared interests pretty quickly, and while I'm happy to have a new friend, I begin to resent how little effort Dan's ever put into getting to know Lisa. Lisa admits to me privately that she occasionally feels excluded by him sometimes, but she says she gets enough attention from myself and Amy that it's no big deal and we're able to do many things as a 4-person group for awhile.
This dynamic would regrettably sour during a trip to a major city for a few days, just the 4 of us again. Where a singular innocuous interaction between Lisa and Dan would apparently cause him to cultivate resentment for her, the trip itself would go fine, but upon our return Dan would tell me he doesn't think Lisa likes him, and how he didn't appreciate her insulting his driving. Though the "insult" he was referring to was a harmless tease about some minor detail that both myself, Amy, and I'm pretty sure he himself had laughed at, at the time.
I explained how I felt he was misinterpreting some things, and to his credit, he did relent over that specific instance, but he and Lisa still have no relationship to speak of and hardly communicate when they're around each other at all, whereas, in stark contrast, I'll get the occasional random text from Amy about our shared interests, and she has become almost like a sister to me in the 3 years she and Dan have been together. Dan and Lisa are both aware of our rapport, and both encourage it, but I still try to keep out casual chats to a minimum (but I never just outright ignore her either), because I dislike how Dan refuses to even try to really befriend Lisa. Yet paradoxically he almost demands that I try to cultivate a friendship with Amy on par with the one I had with his Ex-Wife, and was visibly disappointed when I said I didn't know if it was possible initially. Seems like hypocrisy that should be obvious to even him.
And I wish this was the extent of it, but it gets much worse unfortunately. After returning from a business trip about a year and a half ago, he insists that he needs to confide something in me, and goes on to confess to making out with and feeling up one of his coworkers after the two of them split a number of drinks and she invited him back to her apartment. Evidently he wasn't the only one doing any cheating because she stopped it before it went any further and changed into large, unflattering loungewear, evidently indicating she was done with their liaison.
Now this I laid into him over, lambasting it as one of the worse, if not the actual worst thing he's ever done. I think he expected me to ease his conscience, but he encouraged me to befriend Amy, so I did, so effectively he cheated on a good friend of mine, and it pissed me the f*ck off. He eventually said he'd had enough, he knows it was stupid and he'd never do it again, and I just felt absolutely lost. Burdened with this horrific knowledge by someone I cared so deeply for, to the detriment of another person I care for, not to mention the horrible optics I feared from Lisa discovering that I'd be willing to conceal such a thing. Despite the utter shock, and beginning to question whether or not I even truly know this man, I choose to conceal it. I did not think it was my place to tell Amy, if she were to even believe me in the first place.
Between the hostility directed at Lisa, and now contending with the questionability of his moral character, I began to wonder if our relationship was doomed, and seeds of resentment likely began to take root in me at this time. Shortly after this he was accepted to an MBA program and began prioritizing socializing with his classmates over me, side-lining and blowing me off again and again in favor of these people who were essentially strangers. I'll admit, I used to be a little covetous of his attention, even amongst our mutual friends, but I never openly displayed this, as it's wrong to try and dictate who a person can spend time with, but the level of "social demotion" he began to put me through was absurd, to the point it arguably warranted ghosting him on it's own.
For example: Somehow we both managed to acquire multi-day passes to this theme park we both enjoy, and have a handful of good memories of attending together in HS, around the same time. However, he could not be bothered to try and arrange an outing with me to it, because his was apparently an MBA-related thing, and he wanted to save the last couple days for his classmates because they might want to go later, and he'd have to make sure that wasn't happening before he'd deign to waste them on me. Even the few times he actually invited me to go to MBA related events, he'd spend the entire time seeking out his classmates to talk to, and would not introduce me to anyone, even if I was hovering nearby, leaving me with Amy and Lisa (not that I'm complaining, I much prefer their company to that of strangers, though of course we did a decent amount of our own mingling, the 3 of us just stuck together for the most part.)
Finally, on to the latest nail in the coffin, the one that has caused me to go low contact with him and even sent some mild reverberations through our extended friend group. Since some of the earliest days of our friendship, we have discussed going to Japan together one day. About mid-March of this year, I saw some YT Short on how the exchange rate between the Yen and my home country's currency has become very favorable, and I forwarded this to him hoping to maybe broach the topic of planning to go, I think to myself maybe finally taking this trip can help us get our relationship back on track, only for him to reveal he'd already planned a trip there for himself and Amy, next month, right on top of my birthday. My birthday being something we and our extended friend group have done for whole weekends almost ritualistically at my family's lake house that they're kind enough to let me use for the past couple of years.
At that moment I felt broken. I felt utterly betrayed, and my resentment finally boiled over. All of the callousness and selfishness I felt I perceived from him drove me into a rage and after I was finished reciting multiple, vulgar, Sophia Petrillo-style curses upon his name, I calmed myself, and text him back, "Sounds like fun. Hope you guys enjoy." and went completely low contact from there. I also decided to not arrange my party from there, I knew I would be too consumed with negativity to enjoy it. Our other friends found this odd, but I just rattled off some weak excuses as to why it wouldn't work out this year.
So now all that has come and gone, and he apparently proposed to Amy while they were over there. Of course she said yes, and honestly I wish I could be happy for them, I really do. But the relationship is founded on a profound lie, and I finally revealed the truth to Lisa when I felt that the damage to Dan and I's relationship pushed it beyond ever being fully repaired again, knowing full well what she might think of me for it, but I was at a point where I decided I don't deserve to be happy, and I have failed her, I have failed Amy, and I let Dan lead me to all this. I'm sure I've failed him in some way too, probably by not forcing him to hold himself accountable, and by not calling him out on the Japan trip. He comes off so ignorant sometimes, like he's completely unaware that his actions affect anyone else, but that's not an excuse for me.
So now...I'm stuck as to what to do next. Lisa has forgiven me for my idiocy and secret-keeping, luckily that's literally the only thing I've ever kept from her, and she was understanding about the complexity of the issue. Ultimately as long as she still loves me, everything else is a bonus from my perspective.
But now I've got our extended circle pushing us to get back in contact, and he recently text me after not reaching out for a month. They know there's some kind of rift, but they've no idea the extent of my grievances, and to reveal his infidelity in particular would likely lead to a dramatic upheaval of some kind, and it also doesn't feel like it's my place to do it. I really only told Lisa because I cannot stand to keep anything from her, and she's very trustworthy with sensitive information, in addition to being far more understanding and sympathetic than I deserve.
I really want to avoid as much drama and turmoil as possible, and my father has advised me to "quietly fade out of his live" by continuing to limit contact, but reply when he reaches out, and even be open to attending any large gatherings I know he'll be at if I have other friends there, and eventually he'll take the hint and move on without a whole volatile episode. This doesn't feel like an insane approach to me, based on his treatment of me for the last year and half or so, and him reaching out like it's business as usual after a month of no contact, seems to suggest his interest in hashing anything out is minimal.
However, I have heard from other friends that he's lost contact with most of his classmates now that they're several months past graduation, and he's apparently struggling to land a job due to how picky he is over every detail, he's had like over a dozen interviews with noteworthy entities and none of them are good enough for one reason or another and so he remains at the place he's been since prior to being accepted by the MBA, and apparently out hometown isn't such a cesspit because now he's apparently been returning to go to the local hobby shops with some of our mutual friends. It kinda feels like he anticipated some grandiose move to a large city with a high-paying, low-demand job, while retaining all his upwardly mobile MBA buddies.
Oh, and now unbelievably, he's reached out wanting to hang out just the two of us. Clearly wanting to address my recent distance from him, and likely drag me through the details of that godforsaken trip.
Any advice or insight on all this would be appreciated. In my heart of hearts I still love him, I probably always will, but what he has become only seems to bring me pain.

Im 17 years old and I did an exchange year last year in the US and got really close friends with a guy there. We met through mutal friends and the first couple of times I saw him at school I thought he had a crush on me because of the way he was acting towards me and things he did for me. However I quickly found out that he was in a talking stage with a girl from school, so I dropped it and settled with the thought he is straight. We became really good friends for the rest of the school year and once I left we stayed in touch. Thats when my suspicion started to rise again. He broke up with his girlfriend and I wasn’t doing too good back in my home country, so we would call every 2-4 days. He was the first person I officially came out to and hes been great about it. When we first met he always said “love you” as a goodbye and around that time he started to do so again. Moving on to february where I did some things that worried him. He would send me paragraphs saying how he was away looking at colleges and being so worried about me, he couldn’t do anything but think about me, also how much he loves me and how I will always have such a special place in his heart. Occasionally we would talk about my looks and he would always say I look really good and I’d say the same. I’d always forced myself to not think anything of it and remind myself that he’s straight, but when I came out to my dad I told about the things he hass been saying and texting me and he said “hes definitely gay, straight people wouldn’t say things like that”. Good friends of mine said the same. I kind of get that but on the other hand he is the kind of boyfriend to send good morning texts and paragraphs daily (polar opposite of a playboy). Moving on to now. Im currently visiting the US for 2 weeks and arrived just recently. He wasn’t allowed to pick me up from the airport but when I finally saw him we ran towards each other and I jumped onto him (hes 6”7). We had a hug that for sure lasted 2 minutes with no words said. While hugging it kind of felt like he was kissing my neck or is mouth was on my neck but I dont know for sure. Thats kind of when I realised how much I really wish I could be with him. We only hung out for a short time because I had to go to my host family. When I went to bed we started texting about how happy we are that I’m here. Then he said that he got really emotional seeing me and that he almost started crying. I tried to sleep but I couldn’t, because I couldn’t stop thinking about him. So I texted him saying, I can’t sleep because I cant stop thinking and he said “same”. I was a little excited because maybe he can’t sleep because he couldn’t stop thinking about me. But then he said he just really wants a beautiful girl by him. I remember the feeling of my heart dropping when I read the word “girl” and I thought “why cant be that me”. I know it sounds weird but I want to stay honest with my thoughts. The day after that we tried to make plans for a sleepover but his parents said no (they’re very strict) and I just really didn’t feel good after reading that, so I decided to write this. Now I’m just so unsure on what to do. Do I confess my feelings to him and tell him that I feel like hes been giving me the feeling that he likes me too? I really want to do that but Im scared it will hurt the friendship, especially because hes such an important friend to me. On one side I think he definitely likes me but maybe doesn’t know how to handle that because he grew up in a more conservative family and there are certain expectations to him and he doesn’t want to slip out of the role that he is in and maybe just doesn’t want to have it true that he might like a boy in general. On the other hand I think Im just being delusional and this man is straight and Im stupid for questioning that multiple times and go as far to think he likes me. I’m so lost and I really hope someone can give me their advice and judgement on the situation.