Gand mummy

Yaaar this is just a vent u dont need to read it mei sabse jhut bol bol ke thak gyi huu ab bus ab sab sach likhna hai akhri baar So meri journey chalu hoti hai 9th se mummy ek din aise hi puchti hai konsi stream legi and i had no idea about it matlab ye sab cheezo ke baare mei pata hi nahi tha never ever cared to know about aage ka, meine kahan pata nahi dekhenge bhai ne bola arts le lena and mummy ne gusse se bola arts nahi legi ki wo option hi nahi hai and i am a very rebellious kid thus fir mei bhi bolne lagi ki haa arts mei kya problem hai blah blah but then 10th end ho gya and mera confusion bohot jyada badh gya i could not choose between sci,comm,arts i just couldnt say ki ye ek cheez karni hai my thinking was ki abhi tk inme se kuch try nahi kiya toh choose kaise karu it was also related to guilt nahi chahiye future mei so bohot bohot socha aur fir mummy ne bola sci safe option agar accha nahi laga to "stream switch" wala bahana diya and i was okay with it kyunki i couldnt choose then waise mujhe maths bohot pasand tha school se hi so 2nd reason mummy ka ye tha, then started 11th mei bohot serious thi ki jo bhi karungi best banungi ussme so isiliye i had decided i will give my 100% if not enough 200%, starting mei achhe se religiously padha marks bhi theek thak the the problem that happened in start was mei chutiya coaching mei chali gyi the problem was with the crowd it was so dumb and not serious, mere marks theek thak the fir bhi meri class mei rank 5-6 thi imagine and ye sirf start mei nahi hua pure do saal yahi hota raha mei gande marks laati thi but fir bhi wo mere peers se better the toh mei delusion mei rahi ki i am also topper jab ki mei nahi thi, 11th saare lecs attend kiya did not even miss a single lec and carefully listened all of them then aaya 12th it kind of gave me reality check ki mei kahi stand nahi karti and i aggressively started solving diff types of books like literally dc pandey hc verma and sbt ke ques karti thi of the same chap but again the problem was saare nahi kar paati thi only some sums i used to do and never did it in time bound manner, still uk what i got selected in the toppers batch i wasnt even a topper T_T it was just relatively i was better than my classmates for eg; mujhe mains wale mock mei 139 aaye the toh baaki ko 120-100 range mei so ofc i was not good but i was just better than others, ab iss toppers batch mei aane ke baad aukat pata chali i was constantly scoring less marks generally i was the 2nd last or last in the list eventually i got removed from it baadme aaya october syllabus was over and i was all set ki revision karungi oct mei and then mocks from nov onwards meine toh test series bhi le liye the allen and fitjee ke, but my procrastination kicked it i stopped studying uske baad classes bhi band ho gye the so puri tareeke se padhai band hogyi thi i mean ek sec bhi padhna chhod diya tha meine mujhe fomo hone laga tha kyunki literally i had given up on living life for 2 years meine padhai ke alawa kuch nahi kiya na movie dekhi na logo se baat ki na khelne gyi na kuch celebrate kiya no functions nothing pura isolate kar diya tha and one day mere friend ne status pe rakha tha ki uska bday hai and i was baffled kyunki mujhe toh yaad tha ki abhi kuch dino/mahino pehele hua tha naa 1 saal kaise hogya and that moment changed me, mujhe kuch jyaaddaaaa hi fomo hone lag gya tha i thought ki mei kya baat karungi logo se ki jab badi ho jaaungi mujhe toh pata hi nahi hoga kya hua inn do saalo mei(tabhi mujhe ye realise ho raha tha ki ye baate itni imp nahi hai but my inner self could not accept it it was enough for her) so meine movies dekhna chalu kar diya literally koi bhi bakwas si movie jo bhi youtube pe available ho kyunki mere pass koi prime ya netflix nahi tha then it was dec mei pura dec fifr movies and yt shorts scroll karte rehe gyi then jan same routine drr hi nhi lag raha tha mujhe idk whyy, kuch ig 3 din bacche the mere 1st attempt ko i started to get scarred i started to revise everything day and night mains ke pehele puri raat soyi nahi revise kar rahi thi and then gave mains got 75%tile and the main thing is nobody knows all this stuff thats happening they think i gave my 100% but the truth is i gave up in the end i didnt try at all in the last, then came the bad news uk what i started to watch porn yaa i am fully wasted person, so backstory i was introduced to porn by my friend in school and i told her i will never watch it and dusre dost ne bola tha ki wo mujhe porn dikha ke rahega and i used to tell him it wil never happen but unfortunately it did happen and the problem with it was it entered in my life at wrong time i was already lonely and miserable and thats why i started watching porn starting mei it wasnt addiction but lately it has started to affect me badly meine mains ke baad naa hi boards ke liye padha naa hi second attempt ke liye and i have not revised since so many months just counted 6 months i have not studied a single thing, i have no college and i have no backup, parents ameer bhi nahi hai naa hi business hai humara i am fucked in life i blame myself for it fully i deserve all the loneliness and isolation i am a toxic person who should not live i cant do one thing properly i cant control myself i cant do anything i dont have any talents but i do have many things that interests me but i have no hope from life currently, was suicidal rn so thought i could vent out all and feel lighter and yes i am feeling lighter idk kya hoga mera but lets see what happens i have alot of dreams which are unrealistic thats why i need to live to complete those, now slowly i am getting back on track although i waste alot of time still of reddit and youtube but still i am now consiously trying to reduce it and study again i need to get a college this year i cant take a drop my mental health wont support that decision of mine sooo peace out byee idk maybe i wont come on reddit after this or probably i will(99.999% i will itna self control built nahi hua hai) There's a lot more to this but i cant type each and every thing but atleast while writing i recalled those things thankss ps: there might be errors but who cares i aint going to read it again neither should u read it

My first post here, This will just be a rant,when i was in 10th standard,i had a keen interest in biology and I really like studying biology alot more than the other subjects present at the time being,which eventually led me to select pcb as the stream I could take. I was more on the artsy side as a child and everything I wanted to do was only that. There was an intense pressure by my family ki Lena hai to sirf science hi lesakte warna hamlog tujhe kuch karne nai denge aur tu gharpe nai rahega and whatsoever Papa ji pcs officer hai to inko lagta Inka beta genius hai,chutki me neet nikal lega 11th ki starting thi aur josh tha ki neet hi karlete hai (i never liked the profession to become a doctor,and I still don't want to be) I continuously conversated with my mother ki kaise mujhe doctor banne ka koi interest nai hai,and mai biology sirf uske keen interest me padhta,sort of uski research wagera karni agar usko pursue karna,there wasn't anything else I liked in science in the end,sapna nai tha to nai tha yar To bhi i tried my best and i was doing good in mocks and still in 11th and the starting of 12th i was doing fine,but ultimately I just started hating all of it,and nothing really made sense to me,one day I went to a hospital and saw doctors and everyone working and i instantly realised I don't want to be this,I can't do this and i never wished to Abtak aimlessly jaaraha tha and ab mujhe nai karna tha I started searching about design exams and usse related cheezein,as mujhe usme boht passionate feel hota tha and i told mom about it and she started to resent me Dad ko bataya to he started to verbally abuse me and said ki agar kuch aur karne ka socha bhi to gala kaat denge,and whatsoever Mummy boli bhatak raha hu,and kaise mai bas ek failure rehjaunga,I told her about UCEED,NID wagerah and how it is fine and mere interest ka hai
But as per mere papa ki ego hai,wo mujhe kuch aur nai karne denge Mummy peeche peeche to bolti thi ki jo karna hai Karo,but ultimately papa ke saamne she took his side and left me isolated and alone And now I'm here,giving my first attempt I got depressed and very very mentally tough in last year ke October,i left eating and sleeping ekdum Gym wagera jaata tha and padhta tha,dono chohr diya tha I lost 15 kilos of weight and my mother still didn't understand ki mai mentally sahi nai feel kar raha and i don't want to do this Mera baap to mere paer wagera pakadne laga hai neet karne ke liye,and told me ki 11-12th ke school ka hi syllabus aata,gand kyu phat rahi Teri saale Samjhane gaya to ignore kardiye,for more information dad doesn't live with us He comes here once a week as per his job Now he's retired and stuff so saara hukhm jhaad rahe hai and everything,and i really hate it Birthday gifts bhi dete to usme bhi compromise karte Now I'm here,and mocks me 100-200, bhi nai ban rahe And parents to soch rae bete ko sahi raaste pe laa Diya sapne todke uske bhatak raha tha waise bhi I am so lost,nai hoga to he'll make me take a drop Ek baar,do baar teen baar 10 saal mbbs karo,phir zyada gand marani to upsc bhi dedo Suicide cases ke baare me baap hasta hai,mazak banata Aur ma bolti ki sab bacche chutiye hote Jo karlete Mai apni mental health ki baat karta to shaant kardete and blame kardete sab mujhpe Ab to I just don't even blame them We're just incompatible,i never could become the child they wanted And i never got the support and actual care which I maybe wanted I seldomly think that I don't deserve it ab,all I've done for them is not even enough There's enough convincing You can't convince someone who already knows what he'll say when i shut up
I'm just waiting for it all to be over,i sort of want ki sab khatam hojaye ab It's very,very frustrating living here Bhaiya wanted to be an artist,forcefully neet ki padhai karwai Nai kiya to bsc karwadi same city me ki kahi aur city me jaake maze na karpaye,yahi rehjaye Music artist banna chahta tha,koi support nai Mila usse bhi
Mujhe bhi lagta sab aise hi ghutke khatam hojaega yaha pe bhi mere liye Boht rant hogaya

its going to be long i dont know what i am gonna write . i will be writing whatever is in my mind while listening to the songS..
so, the story begins after i got 90 percent in class 10 i know its classic . then family wanted me to become doctor . so got admission in AAKASH . studies where going good till october or november got distracted scrolled quora , youtube. par control me agya thoda at the end of 11th . aise krte krte 12 agya aur socha bhai ab comeback karenge par par ..
bhagwaan ke kuch aur plan the April 5 , 2022 ko body pain aur bukhaar aya(103-104) aur spine pain 1 mahine ke lie . 3 doctor ko dikhaya toh last me pata chla ki meri lag gyi . spine me TB hogayi phir kya medication challni thi 1.5 saal aur 6 months ke lie bed rest . aur voh period mental aur physical health ki chud gyi like sab school me sab last year enjoy kr rhe koi khi jaa rha mai yhi bencho bed pe leeta hu dhin bhar dawa khata rehta hu . toh is sab ko escape karne ke lie dhin bhar movie , anime , reddit , youtube chalata tha , kaash pehle se pata hota ki yeh kya effect dalega mere future pe aur mai addict aur distracted ho jaunga . phir aisa chalta rha condition acchi ho rhi thi . thoda accha improvement hua toh doctor ne bola ab school jaa skta pr sirf 1 ghnta baith skta phir rest krna . yeh kho school accha tha toh infirmary tha toh vha rest krta tha . isi period meri best friend ne propose kiya aur voh gf bhi ban gyi . toh 12 september , 2022 ko pehli baar school gya bed rest ke baad . phir bkl ne khud bola ki mujhse nhi ho rha 1-2 mahine baad . toh us chiz ne bhi aur mental fuckup kr diya . aur insaab me meri internet addiction badh rhi . phir kya jaise kaise boards diye khuch nhi padha shi se aur 78 percent bane . phir NEET DIYA USME 92/720 bane. ha ha bohot gande haii ..
1 drop
sab soch rakha tha ki haa aise aise padhunga aur starting me padha bhi par voh period ki vjh se jo internet addiction bani voh chuti nhi aur din par din haavi hoti rhi . it started eating me and making me hollow , so hollow that i am writing this post . toh maine saari kosish ki apne aap ko improve karne ki par ni kr paa rha . har baar bhencho haar jata hu khudse voh guilt still haunt me . 2-3 baar suicide krne ka bhi socha pr kabhi himmat nhi hui yeh aata tha man me mai aise nhi mar skta apne aap se haar ke nhi mar skta aur meri life meri nhi hai kyunki marne ke baad mere mummy papa ko trauma aur sadness jhelna padega ( i am not suicidal , abhi kaafi aage jana hai starting line pe kaise haar maan lu ) . is saal bhi distraction sab me nikal gya mujhe pata hai mai chutiya hu aur sympathy nhi deserve krta aur na chahiye . is saal bhi 300-350 ke approx expected hai ..aur ab toh padhne ka bhi man nhi kr rha . ab toh roo bhi nhi skta i wanna cry cry hard par nhi kr paata i wanna forgive myself for all my mistakes and move on and live life worth living not life controlled by my urges . mujhe apne aap ko improve aur better karna hai .
soch rakha hai dusra drop lunga par phir man me aata ki is baar bhi haar gya toh .. kya hoga kya bolunga mummy papa ko ... pr yeh.. bhi aata ki bina apna best diye kaise tu give kar skta kya tu apni urges se haar jayega kya tu itna kamjoor hai ..at the end i know i fucked up and take responsibility and it was my duty to study .
thinking of posting daily on this subreddit after NEET 2024 till NEET 2025 about daily target completed and how much i studied i will help in maintaining consistency .

Bhai mein jab centre ke andar pohocha aur computer ke saine beitha tab mere dono side ki seat khaki th and meine mann mein bola ki agar koi bhi ek side ladki beithi to exam achha jayega
pehele to ek mota dropper akar beitha jisse meine modern physics ka doubt bhi clear karliya and us hi se related question bhi aya paper mein
dusri side ki seat abhi bhi khaki thi lekin fir ek ladki akar beith gayi waha par and dikhne mein bhi achhi thi, but exam shuru hone wala tha to baat nahi karni thi mujhe kyuki wiese hi gand fati thi
but jab mere pass attendance sheet Ayi to meine use sirf apni photo chipkayi and Tina sign kare I gave it to her fir mujhe yaad aya ki BISI, sign bhi karna hota hai
fir meine Asse sheet manga wapas and usse pehele to samajh nahi aya kyuki centre ke chutiya log mic par bhi chilla chilla ke announcements de rahe the
fir meine wapas bola to usne suna aur apne hatho se mujhe sheet di 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
meine pure complete karke exam shuru kiya and pura complete kar diya 3hrs, ab pata naih kaisa gaya but haan to a certain extent wo jo upar wish mangi thi wo puri ho gayi
fir jab mein bagal wale mote dropper se baat kar raha tha tab uss ladki ne muge meri shoulder par pat kiya 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
mein jab muda to mujhe wo smile karte hue dikhi 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
fir usne mujhe puchha ki aapka exam laissa gaya 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
fir bohot saari baate kari and even though mein shayad apni mummy ke alawa kisi ladki se 6 mahine baad baat kar raha tha to bhi i was very confident and achhe se baat kari without fumbling and end mein usne mujhe bye bhi bola 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
Just sharing to make other guys jealous, nothing else...
PS: Extensive use of emojis kiya hai to purposely look cringy thank you

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Mai apne baal choti rakhti hoon. Mere curly hain to meri aankh par aate hain. Mere teachers ne kuch nahi kaha tabhj bhi mummy ko kat vane the aur bol rahin thin teacher dategi. To Maine bola bus aage kutva Dena peeche ke bade rakhna kyunki pichli baar bahut chote kar diye the. She said ok. Mujhe laga is baar acche katega so i let him cook. Barber ne bola adjust karne ke liye thode katne karenge peeche ke par unse pichli baar ke tarah hi kaat diye 😭😭. Samne se bhi bahut zada chote kar diye boy cut lag rha hai. Maine mummy par bhorose Kiya par abse na karungi. Itne gande lag rahe hai yaar.

Every day I wake up waste my entire day by either sleeping or on social media. Every day I feel heavy and not well Every night I think Tommorow I'll break this cycle but no since I am a loser it's not possible. Ha malum hai main apni nakamyabi ka dosh kisi or ko de rhi hun still Himmat krke uthiti hun kuch krne bus health issues,sinus,migrane, obesity and binge eating disorder. Mereko bachpan se hi bhoot mental health issues rhe hai,anxiety,bpd,PTSD,severe depression, emotional eating ,body shaking ,shy ,darpok af and God knows what not I was a fair kid and as well as some people use to call me pretty or Sundar bacha and my own family sometimes use to say I was pretty as kid then became ugly as I inherited my dad's nose,which is flat. My family called me ugly. I was a kid jise log class me smart samjhte the but whi ghr pr kuch nhi ,but those efforts dalne p meri achi rank aati thi and I use to trick people into thinking I'm smart My parents were always protective of us bro sis.
I was digitally raped (meaning:- some random stranger on train penetrated his finger inside my vagina for good momint ,masturbated me when I was 6 years old) That fucked me hard time mentally,uss waqt pta nhi tha kya hai but knew kuch galat hai
Being a perfect kid I was bullied a lot (phle kidzee me fer in kV:-class 1,2) Log akela chor dete the phir exam ke time dost ban jate the phir agle din kehte the yaad ni aa rha mujhe ki dost the lol Phir transfer ho gya or mai chali ek dusre sheher phir vo sheher bhi chuta 9th . Me phiry depression got worst I gained weight and became foolish no tuition Phir dusri jagah admission huay jaha ek bhi din class nhi gyi (papa managed my attendance)toh kuch ata nhi tha nahi koi coaching kri phir bhi got 68.5 % in pcm 2023 Socha drop lu,waha p bhi I got bullied, sexualized kuch samjh nahi aa rha tha padaie bhi people treated me like shit,was fat shamed ,and I had huge breast with fair skin things were even worst,rumours porn , bullying u knew it all because the guy who liked me told me Ek ex boyfriend jisko maine chance Diya broke my trust again played victim Phir mai wapis aa gyi jha ma papa rehte. Now my family Papa mummy an elder brother joh bahir rehta They love me alot but they have a family of shit which they refuse to acknowledge jiske wajah se bhar bhar ke trauma h dono me Mummy kbhi kbhi uthti hai or mujhe Marne lgti h ki padhti q nhi chillati q nhi muh dikhane wali body hai teri,bas khari ho phone chalati ho ,or mai nakhre nhi dikhati chilsti hu agle din baat krne lgti hu Ek baar narazgi Zahir kri kyuki unhone ek purana phone Bina mujhse puche destroy kr diya I was angry but more sad,Ghar me kalesh hogya Ghar me har kalesh ki wajah mujhe mante hai (joh ki sach hai) Nanu ek ache insaan hai but ache pita nhi papa ko shadi nhi krni thi toh vo bhoot gande kapdo me lete huye the jab nanu dekhne aaye and nanu said yes,married off his beautiful daughter to a guy 7 years older ,elder brother of 2 sister and a brother. Papa ki bhi galti h mana krte pr nhi kiya mummy ki bhi ki unhone bhi nhi kiya She was a victim of domestic abuse by my paternal side but my papa was good man thatcosted alot Unke gharwale galat krte hai vo nhi dikhta Abhi bhi bhoot kand huye Insab ki wajah se mummy thodi si pagal hai(unhe nhi pata but halki si,jalti rehti hai ghuti hai under unki fault nhi hai) Otherwise sab normal she loves us cares for us and everything But mummy papa ko kuch samjh nhi Ata ki how much they need help Meri therapy start huyi thi after much chaos vo bhi band krwa di as mom dad said kuch nhi tha ,or vo bas thagta hai paise lol(my stress was higher than city's best therapist) Abhi jab toxicity badh jati hai i cut myself scream Or maine October me period pain killer jisse meri pain or badhti hai ,ketrol,or 3-4 aciloc or kuch medicine milake suicide ki koshish ki I failed their also Aaj bhi phir kuch huya mummy thodi phori papa felt bad mujhe mar mili bhoot . Maine first attempt bhi nhi diya Kuch ata bhi nhi 7 din se Kam me jee hai Jiska centre kaha ayga pta nhi,but phir travel or phir sab ghurenfr Ab kuch nhi ho sakta Mera Bas khana rona binge eat krna and be shamed for the pathetic body I was,I only get groped mocked by everyone Parso mumy ne ek juice Wale ko bolte huye suna kisi ka chota hota hai kisi ka bada or ohir vo gussa hogeyi
Phle socha tha kisi tarh १ mhine padh ke 94 percentile aa jaygi ,usse kuch hoga nhi Mai general hu with no benifits but phir bhi muh dikha paungi But padh khaa paari hu only crying, sleeping, eating Also mere 3 root canal or 8 danto me feeling hai it hurts alot Upar se Sardi ho gayi I'm always thinking of how better things have een agar paida na hoti But I had always one dream to serve my parents off and samaj sewa ,logo ki takleef nhi dekh pati humesha help krti thi khair tbhi Aaj itna kat gya Bhoot kahani h abhi but baad me Don't worry mai nhi mrungi I'm a loser I'll fail there too Ab kya kru pra nhi Padha nhi ata kuch (I was a dropper)

25tard hu. koi excuses nahi dunga, ache se effort nahi dala 11th me. allen me hu and pehle pehle ache marks aate the achi rank ati thi ab dheere dheere gande ho gaye hai. ab kuch dino pehle final major tests hue. avg percentile nikali, 86.6 ke around aari thi 6 tests ki (city ke hisaab se I think).
chem doob gayi hai kaafi had tak, equilibrium ke baad se and in general bhi bhot kharab hai. physics doob gayi hai fluids se. Math achi hai, lekin udhar bhi marks Kam Hore hai thode.
Oct Nov tak bhot ache marks aate the achi rank aati thi, lekin evening batch me tha to zyada idea nahi tha kaisa hai kyuki Kam log the bhot and syllabus bhi kam tha so ig wo count nahi hota major test hi consider karna hai.
INMO likha lekin udhar bhi hag diya kaafi had tak, 22 marks hi aaye not even close. but vo thik hai kyuki pehli baar diya tha. nsep nsec to diya bhi nahi
ab gaand phat rahi hai kyuki final full syllabus tests me hag diya me, best batch mile nahi mile bharosa nahi.
guilt alag hora hai ki mummy pappa se itna paisa leke dummy me admission liya(11th me normal schl tha handle nahi hua) and ab unki magajmaari bhi mummy pappa ko paalni pad rahi hai.
Feel hora ki distract ho gaya hu, guilt hora ki inmo ke liye ache se nahi padha, aur guilt hora ki chem me oc ache se nahi padhi, bc iupac me bhi dikkat hoti kabhi kabhi.
kya karu bhai advice dedo koi cumback karna hai. itna paisa khaya hai Maa baap ka vo lautana hai. help pls. abhi 15 din hai mere paas cumback ke liye. fir 12th start ho jaegi.

mere id card me photo 3 sal purani thi my school said it was fine but mujhe rok liya center pe bol rahe ye nahi chalega ab aadhar card lao ab BKL CBSE ne mera center 1 ghante dur diya ghar se to ab mai kaha se lata aadhar card phone bhi nahi merepe ki phone karke mangwa du salo ne 10:10 tak rok ke rakha fir jane diya :/ meri jo gand fat rahi thi uss time agar exam dene nahi dete mai wahi roo deta so maine eak sir ke phone se papa ko phone lagagya papa bole mummy leke aa rahi hai jaldi se till then unhone mujhe exam likhne diya, fir itni gandi management thi waha ki mummy neeche aadahr card leke aa gayi head ko dikha bhi diya but mujhe exam ke baad nahi chor rahe cuz unko laga koi aadhar card class me leke ayega I sat alone for an extra 30 min after exam fir pheeche se vice principal ayi and mujhe dekh ke techer se phuchti hai kya hua why is he sitting alone fir after hearing me, mere invigilator pe gussa ho gyi ki bacche ko tang kar rahe ho fir jane diya lol jate same guard bolta aadhar card lana from next time warna harassment hota sabko I'm like yeah man I totally harassed your staff today chup chap gate khol bsdk udhar mummy papa ko alag tension ho gayi itna accha school tha and itna chutiya managment bc pura school ac tha atleast garmi to nahi lagi so that's good
AND BC KHUCH CHECKING NAHI HUI LITERALLY KHUCH NAHI BANDE KHUCH BHI POCKETS ME RAKH KE JAYE KHUCH FARK NAHI PADTA INKO MERE PE ITNA MOTA WALLET THA MUJHE LAGA PHUCHENGE BHAI BANDE NE PAT DOWN TAK NAHI KIYA METTLE DETECTOR TO DUR KI BAAT HAI

mere id card me photo 3 sal purani thi my school said it was fine but mujhe rok liya center pe bol rahe ye nahi chalega ab aadhar card lao ab BKL CBSE ne mera center 1 ghante dur diya ghar se to ab mai kaha se lata aadhar card phone bhi nahi merepe ki phone karke mangwa du salo ne 10:10 tak rok ke rakha fir jane diya :/ meri jo gand fat rahi thi uss time agar exam dene nahi dete mai wahi roo deta so maine eak sir ke phone se papa ko phone lagagya papa bole mummy leke aa rahi hai jaldi se till then unhone mujhe exam likhne diya, fir itni gandi management thi waha ki mummy neeche aadahr card leke aa gayi head ko dikha bhi diya but mujhe exam ke baad nahi chor rahe cuz unko laga koi aadhar card class me leke ayega I sat alone for an extra 30 min after exam fir pheeche se vice principal ayi and mujhe dekh ke techer se phuchti hai kya hua why is he sitting alone fir after hearing me, mere invigilator pe gussa ho gyi ki bacche ko tang kar rahe ho fir jane diya lol jate same guard bolta aadhar card lana from next time warna harassment hota sabko I'm like yeah man I totally harassed your staff today chup chap gate khol bsdk udhar mummy papa ko alag tension ho gayi itna accha school tha and itna chutiya managment bc pura school ac tha atleast garmi to nahi lagi so that's good
AND BC KHUCH CHECKING NAHI HUI LITERALLY KHUCH NAHI BANDE KHUCH BHI POCKETS ME RAKH KE JAYE KHUCH FARK NAHI PADTA INKO MERE PE ITNA MOTA WALLET THA MUJHE LAGA PHUCHENGE BHAI BANDE NE PAT DOWN TAK NAHI KIYA METAL DETECTOR TO DUR KI BAAT HAI

Mere pyare bhaiyo bheno apse request hai agar apko pata hai ki apka selection nahi hone wala to please apne Ghar ke sare chappal, bat, dande, mummy ki chudiya, papa ki belts ye sabhi cheeze chupa ke rakh dijiye warna inhi cheezo se ajj apki Gand mari jayegi, dhanyawad hamare sath jude rehne ke liye hopefully kaal Tak app zinda Bach Jaye

Mummy papa Dara rhe yaar gand phati padi hai 😭

Bhai commerce leke literally zindagi kharab ho gayi hai, 11th to kar li kisi tarah ab ye 12th nah ho pa rahi, bhenchod itna gande subjects, leni nahi thi mujhe but phir bhi li because mummy papa ko lagta hai art se kuch nahi kar paungi mujhe leni art thi but phir bhi li commerce gm ke liye, ab lagta hai house wife hi Banna padega, zindagi drama ban gayi hai, ghatiya wala drama

Aaj mere classmates ne group banaya farewell ke baad after party ke liye.sabse kehte hai ki 1500 leke aao.maine group leave kardiya kyunki 1500 mere liye bahut jyada hai I know yahan pe bahut logon ke liye bahut choti rakam hogi par mere gharke liye bahut jyada hai.meri mummy ne 11th aur 12th mien apni jwellery bech ke fees bhari hai.jab ghar walon ko bataya yeah to papa bole chale jao main intezaam karlunga.mujhe pata hai ki unke pass nhi hai phir bhi keh rhe hai.maine mana kardiya bc.ab class ke you know "cool" ladkon ne pehle to mauj li group pe mere doston ne bataya yeah uske baad call karke kehte hai ki itne bhi nhi karpaoge kya Ghar walon se kaho Kahan leke jayenge Paisa. Bc gand mien ghuse hai. Agar paise hote to bhi na jaata salon ke saath. Jo mera friend group hai unmien sabko pata hai meri ghar ki halat woh nhi force kar rhe Dene ke liye aur meri wajah se ja bhi nhi rhe. Mujhe nhi pata yahan post karne ka kya Karan hai bss thodhi frustration thi aur yeah community bhaiyon ki lagti hai. Tabhi bata rha Thanks for reading. Baaki koi suggestion do salon ko kaise mana Karu gand mien ghise hain.

ever since i was a kid i loved cars, as i got older, i started learning about engine and hydraulics and overall how the car functions. my dad also taught me a lot cause he’s an engineer himself. i decided at a very young age that i wanna make cars for a living.
my parents always supported me in whatever i did, didn’t even yell at me when i almost failed 11th cause they were understanding enough. i fucked jee up and now finally gotten into some decent tier 2/tier 3 private college. while choosing the stream, my dad immediately chose cs and i argued that i don’t wanna do cs as i genuinely don’t understand it. i got 68 in cs in cbse. they replied “aur kya karega, aur kuch scope nahi hai. when you take cs you’re open to every other field in the world. abhi dekh chatgpt bhi bana liya. cs given you lot of opportunities. tesla car bhi software pe hi chalti hai”
ab pata nahi college mein kya hoga. mujhe abroad jaake engineering karni thi, woh bc mummi ne chutiya sa reason deke chodva diya. ab 4 saal cs ki gand main ghuske marvaunga apni, fir masters ke liye bahar jaake mba karunga (maa baap wohi chahte hai and i think wohi hoga) fir naukri karke mar jaunga. mera gaadi banane ka agenda kahi aaya hi nahi . i know maa baap mera bhala hi chahte hai par idk bhai kya sochu cause agar gaadi mein scope nahi raha fir berozgar jaisa pada rahunga. give your thoughts