I've been dealing with indecisiveness anxiety for a long time and and I feel like it's getting worse. I recently got an offer to move to a new team in my company and it's a higher position with a bit more money.
I can't decide if I should take it. I love the relaxing atmosphere and freedom I have in my team right now. I'm so scare that the new team & new boss won't be as great since it's newly formed team. I hate working long hours especially in the evening and boss being difficult on granting time off. I'm terrified. I don't know what to do and the new team has been waiting for me to give the final answer. I'm so scared of making the wrong choice and things like that happened before.
I have panic attack every morning when I wake up and when I go to bed. The upper back / lower neck are is just cold, stiff, and painful. I don't know what to do and hate seeing myself like this.

TLDR: Received a conflicting hernia diagnosis, two surgeons at Shouldice believe I do not have a hernia because there is no palpable bump/lump, ultrasound result and local surgeon believe I do have a hernia. I'm now very confused.
Felt something wrong in lower right groin area, GP wasn't sure what it was, sent me for ultrasound, then I received diagnosis of a hernia. Travelled to Shouldice, two surgeons examined me and both determined I don't have a hernia, but rather most likely groin strain - which I kind of bought into because it occurred after a few days straight of golfing and my hip/groin area had shown sensitivity in past after golfing. Was finally able to talk to local surgeon (no examination) said they there's likely a hernia because it was on the ultrasound image. There's no lump or bump, but something feels 'loose and out of place' for lack of a better description (pain not too bad but dull ache and sharp pain in some positions/movements). Feeling confused with different medical professionals providing different diagnosis and trusting different exams. (Note: not asking for further diagnosis - just wanted to tell story and hear if other's had similar experience.)
But has anyone gone through a similar experience of conflicting diagnosis?

Finally, after having Fallout games in my library for years, I started playing them.
Using Fo1in2. I just finished the Raiders place and my issue with Ian is that after few rounds he decides to switch to melee weapon. I checked that he has a gun (I gave him 10mm SMG). He's told to use the best range weapon before melee. He's got lots of ammo, why he not reloading?
Also, do companions level up? He's still at level 1.

I had my hair transplant yesterday and wanted to share with you guys how it went since I saw very few detailed refuse I had my hair transplant yesterday and wanted to share with you guys how it went since I saw very few detailed reviews in the past. I contacted them initially through WhatsApp after I saw an ad on Instagram. The consultation process was fairly simple. They asked me to take a few pictures and they were able to give me out of estimate of the work that needs to be done. They also gave me the cost estimate and I opted to take the package that included the hotel reservation so I don’t have to worry about that. They asked me to send my flight booking for a confirmation but they did not ask for any down payment. I arrived to Cancun Sunday and they were very organized. They sent me a text message prior to my landing with the car picture and where the pick up location is supposed to be. I got to the hotel which wasn’t bad and had some restaurants urants downstairs. They texted me and asked me to relax for the day and that I will be picked up on Monday 7:30 AM. I went to the clinic on Monday morning. They performed an in-person consultation when we discussed the options and I opted to take the PRP and mesthotherapy based on the experience of few friends who did transplant in the past. Dr.Enes (who is Turkish like the entire staff) shaved my head and started drawing the hairline. I made a few minor adjustments to make it more even and once we agreed on the finalized drawing, we proceeded with the procedure. I would not lie, the anesthesia was so painful. The good news is it lasts for a few seconds only and its managable. The doctor himself did the harvesting, then I got a small break to go to the bathroom and they brought me back to numb the front which was even more painful than the back but again lasts for few minutes. When the implants started, they hooked me up and IV with painkillers and antibiotics. It was so comfortable that I think I slept for a few minutes during that part of the procedure. The whole process was done by the doctor himself. They provided lunch, but it’s cold, soggy, and tasteless so cur The whole process was done by the doctor himself. They provided lunch, but it’s cold, soggy, and tasteless so I would recommend getting your own lunch. I thought the process was easy and everything was done by the doctor and the final result looked great. I met another guy who flew from Texas and had similar experience. They will give medication bad with antibiotics, painkillers and some minor steroids. I would recommend them and I think its a bargain compared to what they charge us in the US.

My GP referred me to public pelvic pain clinic almost two years ago now. I finally received a phone call today saying they have a an appointment for me next Tuesday.
I’m relieved that I might finally get some answers, but also nervous that I might not be taken seriously. My pain isn’t typical of most endo symptoms, but every now and then I read about a case similar to mine. Any suggestions or advice?

Has anyone noticed that when Jared gets triggered, he will have an input that invalidates the person who wrote in’s feelings? Jared has mentioned before a woman who dated him, saying about him, “I didn’t even like him in the beginning”… and now whenever a listener writes in that same thing, he will get triggered and invalidate their feelings.
First of all, I think the woman who wrote in has a right to be frustrated by the fact that someone that begged to date her for years, finally got her, and then cheated on her. At least Jordana defended her a little bit. Jared needs to better understand how particularly painful it is to have a man prove himself to you so much that you can trust him and decide to date him…. (because you think that he loves you so much and will never hurt you) all for him to turn around and hurt you MORE than someone else who you initially liked and didn’t have to force things with. It feels like such a bait and switch.
It’s literally like a company convincing you how great it would be to work there, all for them to fire you once you fall in love with the job. Women also frequently date down and lower their standards to feel like they’re with a good person and in a safe situation, all for them to be fooled once they get hurt at the end— which is extremely painful. This is nothing negative about the guys specifically, but women often will give someone a chance who they feel maybe isn’t their dream guy, all for him to be another disappointment anyways. I just wish that he saw the woman’s side of things more often!

On friday-saturday night i had really intense pain behind my sternum and ended up going to the ER. After some checks and finally an ultrasound the doctors determined my gallbladder was full of tiny stones and one was stuck in the entrance/exit.
I had another ultrasound later on saturday at noon and they found that the stone had left the entrance. However i was in such pain just from moving the ultrasound scope around that i had to throw up.
Under consent I was scheduled to remove my gallbladder on saturday evening. I was really relieved because I just needef the pain to go away.
During the surgery they found that there were micro punctures and necrosis was setting in on one side of the gallbladder.
The surgery was a success, and I was discharged on monday morning (an extra day to keep stronger antibiotics in the IV vs oral antibiotics at home)
Im going back on thursday for a checkup, and next week wednesday they are removing the stitches.
To my knowledge I never had any issues with my gallbladder before this, but obviously that many stones dont form over night 😅. Im still scratching my head thinking if theres anything obvious I missed
I feel so happy that the doctors took me seriously and took such quick action, otherwise things could have been a lot worse, though i am trying not to think about that.

Hi All,
My mother suddenly developed severe chronic idiopathic urticaria 2 years ago. Since then, she has had severe itchiness every day and the wheals essentially cover her whole body (one part may get slightly better and then it moves).
We're in the UK and so far her GP has had her try a range of creams - none of them have really worked at all. About a month ago she was put on fenofexadine 180mg 4 x a day ... so far this seems to have little effect either.
It is really affecting her quality of life and it is very very difficult to get her to stop itching as nothing really has any real effect in relieving the itch.
Just the last few days, she's started developing lots of papule/little blisters on her foot and calf - these are also incredibly itchy but also more painful as it impacts her ability to walk. Has anyone else had this as well?
If anyone has any ideas of what she could do/ask the doctor we would be extremely grateful. We are just at our wits end and it just seems to go round and round at the doctors!
She's tried so far (and has had no effect with)

• 4 x fenofexadine
  
• 1 x fenofexadine + 1 x loratadine
  
• 6 weeks of steroids (mometasone)
  
• balneum plus
  
• Eurax
  
• Cetraben
  
• Clobetasone
  

If you read my last post, you will see that my conversations with Bobby toward the end of my time at South Grove were not exactly going well. Throughout the process of leaving and meeting with him, I kept wondering “when is he going to let go?” It felt as though he was going to cling to me until I eventually caved and came back. He had allowed my wife and I to stop serving and even attend other churches to take a break. I’m not sure if he thought I would attend somewhere else, be reminded that God only moves at South Grove, and then come back. That was not the case at all. We attended a church in Sandy Springs, GA and then one in Athens, GA which I had attended before. I had never heard preaching like that in person before. Those pastors gave me Christ each Sunday that I attended. That, coupled with my conscience, made it impossible to even think about going back to South Grove.
As a somewhat funny side note, Bobby apparently changed the music that was played on Sunday(s)? I had mentioned in passing during one of our conversations that I had issues with Bethel, Hillsong, and Elevation Church. Interestingly I was discipled by the preaching at each of those churches early on in my Christian life. However, I had become highly concerned with their theology and how other members might read their name on the lyric screen, and listen to their preaching. Anyway, Bobby brought up the fact that they changed the music “for me.” Honestly, the music was one of my last worries.
Before my last conversation with Bobby, he wanted to know why I couldn’t disagree with issues concerning spiritual gifts and the other issues I had and still be a member in good conscience. I remember the first time I brought conscience up to him, he seemed puzzled. I tried to explain to him that because of the way I felt about certain doctrines, I could not be a member because I believed that I was going against my conscience. That did not register with him.
Up to our final conversation, I felt like I was in a vice grip. I really thought Bobby was going to draw out the painful process of trying to get me to stay at South Grove over several months. That and him trying to pit my wife against me (probably a story for another time). But finally, over lunch at the Blind Pig, something changed. In our last lunch, the vice grip seemed to be loosened completely. Bobby asked if I had heard of the “Leaving the Network” website. I had no idea what he was talking about, but he said he addressed it at a team meeting. I thought nothing of it. He also said “I’m sorry if I’ve ever hurt you in any way.” Pretty vague, but I guess I appreciated it? He blessed me to leave at that point. A few months later, he grabbed lunch with my new pastor at Cleveland Road Baptist Church to “check in” on my wife and I. I would’ve loved to be a fly on the wall, but unfortunately I don’t know much about that conversation other than some of the awkwardness.
That was the last of the excruciating process of leaving South Grove. From being told I had a demon, to “where else are you going to go?”, to Bobby planting seeds of doubt in my wife’s mind, to “I need protected from the sheep,” to anger even mentioning my doubts about Steve Morgan, to “I bless you to leave.” If I said everything was smooth sailing after that, I would be a liar. I think about my time at South Grove everyday. I think of those who I hurt and I think about those who were hurt just like me. I think about those who are deceived and blindly follow. I think about the people who were once my family who would no longer and still no longer talk to me. I think about what was said about me after I left, if anything. I’m angry most days and sometimes I don’t know why. Except I do know why. I was a fool. Who moves across the country for something like that? Who gives up everything for something like that? Apparently someone like me. And for what? If nothing, it makes me long for justice. It makes me long for the day that I will be brought home to the One who loves me. That day seems really far away now though. Until then, I’m tormented by my time in the Network.

Please Embark. Cashout is ok, but the feeling of progressing through the rounds shouldn’t be exclusive to Ranked, especially when the “motto” for the game is “Can you reach the finals?”.
I love playing Ranked, but I play with lesser skilled friends too and don’t really wanna play Ranked against sweats in that case (it’s not fun for me, my friends or my rank). We used to have a lot of fun in unranked tournaments before their removal.
We still play together but find ourselves getting bored after fewer matches than before! Anyone else feel the same?

Urine PCR after 2 weeks = clear. Cervical swab after 3 weeks = clear.
I also had strep, gardnerella and ecoli as coinfections. I still have ecoli, the rest is clear :)
Now here is my 4-1-1, because maybe I can help someone:

Failed treatments: 7 days doxi, 10 days erithromycin... Successful treatment: 10 days doxi + 1.5g azithromycin ...

I treated gardnerella with metro and strep with a vaginal antibiotic (polygynax).
I sent my doctor the bible post + the cdc guidelines and a study on the effectiveness of dual treatment for UP/MP and he gave me the bible treatment. Do NOT be afraid to educate your doctors. This thing is a beast that's yet to be acknowledged in the way it deserves.
My symptoms were:

urgency to pee... burning urethra... burning clitoral hood and vaginal opening... stinging or "icy" pain on clitoral hood and vaginal opening... itching around entire vulva and even down to the bum... swollen vagina, kind of blue-ish color... sensitivity to touch, thigh movements, sitting for a long time, pain after friction and touch...

IMPORTANT TO NOTE:

My symptoms were mild before I got the ecoli UTI, then all hell broke loose. Apparently, that's also common. UP thrives on inflammation.... TREAT YOUR COINFECTIONS. I didn't get metronidazole alongside my strep and UP antibiotics cuz it would have been too much. I started doing boric acid and baking soda baths and IMMEDIATELY felt my symptoms go down by a lot! Not gone, but wayyy better. Strep, efecalis and gardnerella all cause burning, just like UP... ST John's wort suppositories and vaginal oil are like natural lidocaine. It did wonders for me!!!...

AFTER TREATMENT:

My WORST day symptom-wise was the day after azi. That's also common and called a herx reaction. Then my symptoms went away for 3 days and came back for about a week. I've been symptom free for the last 10 days or so, after 3 months of agony. Azi is still in your system and does it's magic for 2-3 weeks after taking it. Expelling dead/dying bacteria after successful treatment is also painful. Trust the process.

I did not have sex during treatment and I plan on giving myself rest until ecoli is also done... BUT, I did some self loving, and it wasn't painful at all ;)
Finally, if it wasn't for this sub, I couldn't have done it. Thank you, THANK YOU. I never felt so much love and gratitude toward strangers on Reddit. This is the best community out there hands down and so, so important in this lonely world of STIs!

Swollen round bite with white ring and red center. Very itchy and throbbing with pain. Located in East Tennessee

Hi. I (26F) found out recently na kasabwat ng ex best friend ko and kapatid (25F) ko sa pagkalat ng chismis at hubad na picture ko. Pinagkalat nng kapatid ko sa mga kamaganak ko na wild girl daw ako at kung kani kanino nagpapakarat. (Single ako and i tend to have fun sometimes talaga but i do it safely).
This sister of mine ay nakikitira sakin, i pay all the bills and groceries and hati kami sa internet which is 900 pesos lang per month. Ang pinakaambag nya sa bahay ay maglinis. That’s it. Kase wala pa syang work and kakapasa nya lang sa board exam. Lagi kami nagaaway kasi lagi nya ako pinagdadabugan at sinasagot (may anger issues talaga bata palang kami). Napuno na ako finally sa pagdadabog nya and pagsagot sagot nya sakin. Pinalayas ko sya. And sinabi ko iwanan nya ang phone nya at laptop nya dahil ako bumili lahat nun.
Dun ko nalang nalaman na chinichismis nya pala ako sa buong maganak ko. Chinichismis nyang pokpok na daw ata ako kasi naguuwi ako ng guy sa bahay ( like anong pake mo bahay ko to ako nagbabayad dito ). Di ko kasi napigilan basahin messages nya at ng mga tiyahin ko. Dun ko nakitang pinagchchismisan nila ako. Pati kapatid kong panganay. I thought my secrets were safe kasi kapatid ko sya. Wala kaming magulang growing up and kami lang ang sanggang dikit kaya sobrang sakit na ganto ginawa nya sakin.
Nagpost ako ng hubad kong picture sa isang subreddit dito na im looking for fun, and nakita sya ng ex bestfriend ko(sya lang nakakaalam ng reddit ko na yun). Sinend nya sa kapatid ko kasi nagwoworry lang daw sya at concerned daw sya. Pero itong kapatid ko. Pinagkalat naman sa buong maganak ko. Lahat pinagsesendan nya talaga. Ultimo ex boyfriend ko. Pinagsendan nila.
I am bipolar and super depressing nito for me. Sobra yung ginawa ng kapatid ko.
I feel like sobrang gago ko dahil gusto ko matauhan kapatid ko at magsisi sa ginawa nya at ibenta ang phone nya. 😭😭
Please tell me if abyg kasi this is super painful for me and grabe ung betrayal. 😢

my size is 26DD (underbust measurement rounded up from 25"). I've been using sports bras basically forever but it's annoying because they completely lose elasticity eventually and stop compressing.
finding regular bras in the correct or close enough size is painful enough so idk if these are even made, or if id have to get something custom made
any recs are appreciated:')

So, over the weekend I finally decided to bite the bullet and take part in my first Muay Thai interclub.
Long story short, I've been training Muay Thai for over 3 years now, initially started training just to to lose some weight. I was 152 kg when I first started and I'm now around 70kg.
I trained in Thailand for a month a couple of years back but no fights. Instead I launched a clothing brand that I'm building up and thought I speak about Muay Thai so much so why not jump in myself.
I did a full write up here including the full video of my interclub: https://gymnasty.world/blogs/news/first-muay-thai-interclub-experience
Well aware of what I need to work on but this is just to show those that are considering competing that they can. I'm only 5ft3 so I'm always at a disadvantage but I always try and make it into a positive. It's all a learning experience and you can't pick and choose your opponents.
For those who'd rather not leave reddit, I'm dropping the full blog here:
Video: https://youtu.be/4NHImbqMJWc?si=I0V6xiPOKdOETmoa
After training Muay Thai for around three years, I finally decided to step into the ring.
On the 19th of May, 2024 I took part in my first inter club. Quite a big leap for me after losing over 88kg in weight, it was time to really put myself to the test.

My Training over the years

For over 3 years now I have trained consistently and had little breaks here and there. Even when I’m having a break, I’m not really having a break, I’m still doing some form of training or exercise.
I’ve always trained as though I’m going to compete, even though when I first started, I had no visions of actually competing. It was all just for fitness in the start.
Throughout consistent training and just naturally getting better, the goals had shifted.
First I just wanted to get fit, and I did. Then I wanted to start a business to inspire others to take up Muay Thai or martial arts training in general. I launched GYM NASTY.
So, what’s the new goal?
Well, it’s to have GYM NASTY shorts be worn in a fight at Rajadamnern or Lumpini, inspiring people along the way.
Now I’ve lost over 88kg in weight, my injuries had been all cleared. I took it upon myself to start taking my training a bit more seriously.

Training for a Muay Thai Interclub

It might sound a bit excessive but I was training for my Muay Thai interclub like it was an actual fight.
Running before pads and sparring, weights, strength and conditioning. To be fair this is how I usually train, but I wanted to get in the right mindset and prepare as best as I could so I stepped up the intensity a little bit more. There’s no point signing up if your head isn’t fully focussed on competing.
I didn’t focus on anything specifically but I upped my running and skipping to help with footwork, cardio and conditioning.

The day of my Interclub

On the day of my interclub I weighed myself again, only to find out that I was .8kg lighter than I had entered. I wasn’t too fussed about this, I spar a lot of bigger and taller opponents quite regularly. Being 5ft3 it’s something I’ve had to get used to over the years.
The interclub was held at Kiatphontip in Leeds, a very highly respected gym around the world, especially in the UK Muay Thai scene.
Believe it or not, I actually knew who my opponent was as he’d spoken to me through GYM NASTY before and had shown a lot of support for my journey so it was really nice to share my first interclub with him.
I had warmed up around the ring ready to go in, I felt quite sharp and very energetic. Wasn’t nervous at all which came as a surprise.
Once I’d stepped in the ring my mind went blank, it felt as though I’d just gone into auto pilot and everything was just going at 1,000 mph.

My first interclub

It was such a good feeling to finally get in the ring and compete. After training for over 3 years, it’s nice to see what level I’m at.
With it being my first time competing, I didn’t fully expect my mind to go as blank as it did. I kind of zoned out and could only hear faint voices from my coaches.
In the second round I relaxed a bit more and felt more comfortable. I wasn’t throwing as many fancy techniques as I usually experiment with in sparring, I was just trying to keep it basic without using too much energy.
It just goes to show, you definitely do fight how you train. Even though I wasn’t fully comfortable, I resorted to what I knew best and just kept it basic without trying risky techniques.
My first interclub was a really good experience, I wasn’t really worried at all and I handled it really well. I spent some time speaking with fighters and reading people’s interclub experiences online, just to get a feel of what I was letting myself in for.
Having competed now I can say it’s one of the best things I’ve ever done and I can’t wait to fight again.
If you’re considering competing and it’s your first time, here are some of my key takeaways.

• Focus on cardio: Your adrenalin is going to kick in and sap your energy. It’s a bit more intense than usual sparring.
• Don’t worry: Everything is safe and controlled, you’re not meant to be putting all of your power into your shots.
• Enjoy the experience: Take everything in, once you’re settled start to enjoy it and have some fun.
• Warm up beforehand: Make sure you’re warmed up and you feel loose. You don’t want to cause yourself every injuries.
• Listen to your coaches: They’re there to help you, they will see things that you can’t see when you’re in there so make sure you keep an ear out for your corner once you’re settled.

What’s next for me competing?

Well, now I’ve got a taste for it, I most definitely want to go again.
I plan on competing in a few more interclubs this year to gain more experience and hopefully move up to fighting different classes.

Kickoff: 18:00 Yerevan, 09:00 EST, 06:00 PST
Link: https://www.youtube.com/live/XxHf_-O7dvw?si=GPXo9Q-tKrEZCuGq
Title Scenarios:
If FC Noah wins, they will be APL champions. If Pyunik wins, they control their own destiny on the final match day against Shirak and Noah would need a Pyunik loss and a victory over West Armenia to become champions.
The title winner will start in the first qualifying round of the UEFA Champions League. If Pyunik wins the league, they become a seeded UCL team (I.e. their potential draw is with weaker teams). If Noah wins, they will be an unseeded UCL team (I.e. their potential draw is with stronger teams).

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Hello all!
I've (31, F) been dealing with rosacea type 1 and 2 since I was 15 with a mild case of ocular thrown in the mix (yay for the winning combo).
Treatment background: I've tried Ivermectin, Elidel, Metronidazole, Rozex, diets/suppl, no alcohol, doxycycline, Mirvaso, hypochl. acid, azelaic acid, zinc oxide and other OTC products, have been wearing sunscreen daily for years, IPL and Vbeam.
I've definitely seen progress with some of the treatments (could be a post of it's own) but I'm still not where I'd like to be. Right now I've put my fight with Type 1 on hold because the treatment interferes with my Type 2 treatment:
In the recent years I've had two serious type 2 flares for which doxycycline proved to be the winner of all treatments. Bonus: ocular symptoms improved aswell. When I came off the doxy (was on it for 3 months) for the first time I'd see my skin worsen but it was nowhere as bad as before.
Around August 2023 I think my skin was already pissed off by using sulphur soap too often and not moisturising properly. Then the morning after a party (alcohol incl), summer heat and using Azelaic acid was the final blow. The months after my skin exploded and I was miserable. Suddenly my type 1 didn't seem so bad because I was dealing with a full blown type 2 party from hell. It's still hard to admit to this day but at times I wanted to end it all because of how miserable I had gotten. I starting working from home permanently, stopped dating, hardly went out anymore. It was terrible. I decided to try another round of doxy to get me out of this state, which thankfully helped!
I took my round 2 of doxy (100/day) for around 8 months. I know it's way longer than the usual 3 months but I spoke about it with my derm at length. Plus, I started looking for a new job at that time, started dating again and I desperately needed to feel like a happy person again after feeling like absolute shit for half a year. Thankfully, round 2 worked like a charm again and I was clear, minus some minor breakouts.
Now, I know some people here are on antibiotics permanently but I wasn't comfortable with this idea. After going through my options with my current derm and seeking a second opinion from another derm everyone came to the same conclusion: either take doxy in cycles (so that I can still come off) permanently or try a last option, isotretinoin.
Iso scares me because of the side effects but potential antibiotic resistance scares me even more. So, two weeks ago I decided to bite the bullet, come off the doxy and started isotretinoin. FYI: doxy and iso are not to be taken together because of potential swelling of the brain.
I'm 70 kgs and on 20/day, started on the 7th of May. Blood testing included, zero alcohol, sunscreen always. No chance of me getting pregnant so not on birth control but I need to do a mandatory pregnancy test anyway. The latter is just protocol, so I'll respect that.
Why am I posting all this? For two reasons. Firstly, I know what it feels like to be absolutely miserable because of this condition. Hiding from society, scared of the future of my skin and mental health. I've spent countless tears and dark days dealing with this shit. I want to tell you that you are not alone. You're not "being dramatic" or "vain" when the skin on your face feels like it's burning all the time or covered in p&p's. What you're feeling is valid. But I'm also here to tell you not to give up! There's progress to be made! Ask me anything in the comments!
Second reason: I'll be posting each month for anyone dealing with type 2 that considers taking isotretinoin. I'll be 100% transparent about the treatment, progress, side effects etc. Reading other ppls posts on here has helped me immensely so now it's my turn. I hope my isotretinoin journey will help you decide your own path.
Thank you. I will post in around two weeks, when I'm 1 month in on 20/daily isotretinoin.

I know a lot of first time moms are anxious and feel concerned enough to go get checked when they feel something is wrong. I just can’t help but feel like I am a frequent flyer so to speak and am too anxious. I feel like the boy who cried wolf.
I’ve been checked 3 times throughout my pregnancy (I am in my 34th week) and am about to go in for a 4th today due to having lasting Braxton Hick’s after intercourse. It started Sunday night and lasted consistently for at least 6 hours. I timed them through an app and they were on average lasting 50 seconds and were about 6 minutes apart. Never increased in intensity but were painful and wouldn’t go away with tylenol, water, or getting up and moving. I finally was able to sleep and when I woke up 3 hours later they had stopped but resumed off and on throughout the day and through last night. Any physical exertion brought them on in a relatively normal pattern with at least 4 per hour.
My midwife recommended getting checked once more and said I probably need IV fluids and checked for dilation. My previous checks were for spotting and another case of Braxton Hicks and seeing “fireflies” that ended up needed a muscle relaxer to stop.
I guess I just needed to vent. Thankfully, I had enough PTO accrued to take the last two days off but my maternity leave will be unpaid and I plan on hopefully working until I go into labor. I’m terrified I won’t be able to physically do it and sacrifice my income earlier than expected.

I (19f) have been with my girl (20f) for two years now. We had a rocky start and still have our moments but from my perspective we are doing pretty well considering how things were at the start. We both have made mistakes and upset one another but it seems like just lately I can’t do anything right. I didn’t come here for sympathy so I’d really appreciate some honesty. We’ve had arguments where we’ve both “broken up” with one another. As of lately it seems I’m getting broken up with a lot maybe once every two weeks. I’m so heartbroken and lost and I don’t know what I’d do without her. We’re still pretty young so I don’t want to hold her back and deny her of a stable future. I always suggest talking and so does she but we never seem to get round to it. Some days I’m the love of her life and she misses me so much . Others in holding her back and I’m acting like a man. I made the mistake of not letting her know what has been upsetting me lately so it clouds my judgement sometimes when she starts an argument. I’m not excusing poor behaviour from myself by justifying it with my mental health but I’m not doing well lately and neither has she been. I don’t trust anyone and I feel so lost and alone. I cut off all my friends and I only see her when I’m not working. I love her so much and don’t want breaking up to be the final option. Sometimes she’ll break up with me but because I’m so numb to it I just say ok. And then she flips thibking I’m fine with us breaking up when I’m not. She expects me to do the complete opposite of what she says she wants. I’m an asshole and I can be selfish at times but I believe the love I have for her is so strong that I can fight and fix things for us. Any help would be appreciated thanks?

I know a lot of people complain about the fact that emotional blunting is a bad side effect of antidepressants, that they don’t feel like themselves anymore. However, I just came out of a final exam and while everyone was extremely nervous about the exam, I was cool as a cucumber.
I really don’t miss being stressed out and anxious all the time. It’s true that I don’t feel intense emotions much anymore so scary movies or rollercoasters aren’t as thrilling anymore, but I can handle that trade-off. I think that some people just feel emotions far too deeply and while it can have its benefits, it’s usually just a painful and miserable experience. I also don’t see myself realistically stopping my medication because I genuinely do not like how my emotions are “naturally”. Just because something is “natural” doesn’t mean it’s good for you, just like how anthrax appears naturally doesn’t mean you should ingest/inhale it.