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Sega of Japan deserves all the criticisms for their idiocy of overtaking the dictatorship of the wider Sega company and running the company down because they tried to manage the global markets without understanding the cultures behind them and basing their actions upon the tastes of the Japanese market. On top of putting their eggs in one baskets and obsessively trying to make the Saturn king of Japan's console industry................
However there's a gigantic misconception on the internet by understandably P$!%ed off Western gamers that Sega of Japan's boneheaded run of the company is some unique kind of stupidity unmatched in history.........
Actually there's bad news and its that this is actually a big problem in the Japanese business world especially among companies that are domestic giants such as Konami.
And I'll start with one of my favorite franchises. Mobile Suite Gundam.
Back in the late 90s and early 2000s the most recent iteration of the franchise Mobile Suit Gundam Wing aired on the Toonami block on Cartoon Network. And to say it was a massive success. It was easily Toonami's most watched program after Dragon Ball Z and Sailor Moon and there would be profitable sales of Gundam Wing figures in American major retailers like K-Mart and kB Toys during the show's run. There was more demand for further Gundam content. Easy pathway to creating a juggernaut in the anime industry in America right?
Well the immediate followup to Gundam Wing was....... The original Gundam. Form the 1970s. I'm not kidding. The studios that makes Gundam Sunrise made this choice.
Massive gigantic bomb in America. Even Toonami's less popular programs like Ronin Warriors hard much higher viewerships.
The show's reason for flopping was that the original Gundam looked just so outdated with its animation being 70s flair. The original Gundam is actually superior to Wing in almost every other way especially the overall plot...... But the animation looked so old nobody wanted to watch it.
Why did Sunrise choose to follow up Wing which was their latest installment just before Turn A which was actually running in Japan during the same time Toonami was airing Wing in America?
In Japan the specific continuity the first original Gundam series follows, the UC timeline, is the handsdown most popular canon. The first two sequels Zeta (the Gundam series with the highest ratings ever in the history of the franchise within Japan) and ZZ formed a trilogy with the original Gundam of interlinking stories that culminates and concluded most the unresolved arcs in the original Gundam along with a slew of entwined movies and OVAs (think miniseries in Western terms). Basically the UC timeline is so big in Japan that we still get new stories every couple of years focused on specific characters, incidents, and so much more as well. Ask the general populace about Gundam and its the robot suits and characters of the UC timeline such as Amuro Rey and the Zaku robots and the that they immediately picture in their heads when they think Gundam similar to how the vast bulk of Star Wars fans below 16 always associates the franchise with Luke, Princess Leia, Chewbacca, Obi Wan, and Anakin/Darth Vader and the iconic scenes are teh Death Star onscreen and lightsaber fights.
So in Sunrise's head, not only was the first Gundam a guaranteed success in America but that they had to follow it up with it because the UC is the heart and soul of the entire franchise. The studios sincerely believed that with the original Gundam's even better and more complicated storyline that crowds will flock to watch it every weekday on Toonami...........
Failing to realize that a prime part of what made Wing so impressionable on Western audiences was the visuals of space battles and the awareness of the mobile suits in action. The complicated story of Gundam Wing (for the standards of Western animation on TV was definitely a component that made kids stick to the end but what attracted them in the first place was awesome onscreen actions like Heero escaping capture and knocking out a bunch of men on the way with kicks and piloting the Gundam for the first time to demolish tanks and humvees and a division of soldiers within seconds.
Sunrise did not get this point. They mistakenly assumed that teens and children in the West would have understood the original Gundam's anti war storyline entwined with lots of politics and drama was something that was darn complicated for an American 12 year old to get. They failed to get that the West's TV animation scene was extremely tame hell mainstream afternoon Network Television overall even live action was pretty much PG in content and something like Gundam was definitely pushing it for timeslots for minors including teens. That issues like killing children in a mass bombardment with permanent arm crippling even decapitation was only started to be accepted on afternoon teen soap opera and Saturday morning cartoon timeslots.
That it was pretty tame (by modern standards) live action shows with lots of cool visual action that was bloodless and usually PG like Hercules The Legendary Journeys and its sister spinoff Xena and Buffy the Vampire Slayer that the teen range was watching in addition to laughably corny stuff (but still having cool colorful onscreen effects) like GI Joe making the center of children's animation.
When the original Gundam flopped Sunrise took around 2 years to realize their mistake and released G Gundam. An incarnation of the series around the premise of Robots dueling each other in a tournament of gladiatorial fights. Thats an understatement G Gundam takes the whole premise to another level by making the Gundam robots fight with the speed, fluidity, and magical abilities of Dragon Ball Z. Kung Fu with giant Robots.
But the damage was done. While G Gundam did a hell lot better than the original Gundam, interest in the franchise has waned by then and in turn merchandise sales which Sunrise makes its bulk profits from were nowhere as profitable in America as Wing was. When Sunrise attempted to bring over their newer series such as Seed (which was massively popular in Japan even far more than Gundam Wing and G Gundam which already were considered hits by the studios) it was canceled from the maintime slot shortly afterwards and the ret of the series was put on death slots. The momentum had ceased. And not helping was that by that point other mech anime such as FLCL also aired on Toonami and fellow rival franchises like Zoids were begin imported.
Basically by now Gundam had looked generic to the Western audience esp Americans. The next wave of new anime fans in the 2000s was a disadvantaged market because the novelty of Gundam Wing being the first mech anime was not there for future Gundam installments. Gundam has fallen so out of the anime Zeitgeist that whatever we got in the future aired on lesser known channels like Color TVs or came in DVD releases if not even localised at all only being available on fansubs.
The worst part? When Gundam Wing ended its run on Toonami, Turn A Gundam, their newest incarnation with even better animation and just as much awesome moments of one giant mech destroying a an army of other mechs in addition to divisions of tanks and infantry, had just finished airing in Japan. By all logic it should have been a no brainer to snatch this as the followup to Wing right?
But not to Sunrise because Turn A was one of the lesser popular incarnations at that point. Because the UC was so the face of the franchise in Japan so it must succeed in America and the rest of the world no?
Does this sound familiar? Simply to put Japanese companies have a gigantic issues of failing to realize that what succeeds in Japan is not applicable elsewhere. And that given the chance to they'll even try to micro manage even something as loose in concept as franchise licensing in other countries.
OK thats an exaggeration I just said but my point ist he horrible mishandling of the Sega Saturn outside of Japan isn't really some 1 in a billion lottery ticket level of stupidity. Sega of Japan's screwups is actually quite typical of companies that succeeded domestically but never did anything in other markets that then decide to expand to outside markets beyond Japan. The Gundam example was so already long that I don't feel like typing anymore but boy oh boy there are a gazillion examples you can find if you do your googling from Konami's early mishandling of the Yu-Gi-Oh TCG as well as their shift to focusing on Pachinko and Pachislot much to the dismay of Western gamers esp fans of MGS and Silent Hill. And so much more.
Simply Sega of Japan isn't uniquely stupid. Its a perfect symptom many issues of the business world in Japan.

Hello,
My cat, a female Unspayed has been showing a faint pink mucus around her vulva and has been dripping a pink/red substance around the house this started May 13th, and for the following two days May 16th I’ve given her a supplement for urinary tract infections that I found on amazon with great reviews. It is May 21st and there's still no progress I've been giving her only wet food and she has also been using her litter box but I notice it's less poop and pee than usual also she's been licking her vulva excessively. I did some research online and saw that it is either Pyometra or a UTI infection
I've booked an appointment for her to get spayed on June 24th, 2024, as it is the cheapest vet in my city (Toronto) it's only around 200$ and they are booked for anything in advance. I feel like that might be too far in time. I can not afford for her to get an emergency surgery as it is too expensive, what do I do… I’ll appreciate any advice/recommendations and prayers,
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I have naturally really curly hair a combination of 3 a,b and c I’ve straightened my hair or gotten perms to straighten my hair permanently (my roots would always been too curly so I’d still have to straighten my hair after those treatments) since I can remember My mom didn’t know how to deal with my hair or didn’t want to and has always told me I look pretty w straight hair as opposed to my natural hair A few years ago I decided I was done straightening my hair cuz it was a lot of work In middle school I’d always cry while straightening my hair cuz I just wanted to be like those girls who come out of the shower and barley do anything and have amazing hair It didn’t help that both my younger sisters have really nice curly/wavy hair that’s so much easier to maintain and style I’ve yet to find a way to style my hair in a way I like and feel comfortable with so I usually have it tied back And it grew out a good amount over the years and my hair was healthier than it’s ever been But then the Christmas before last we went to Sweden to see family and my mom convinced me to dye my hair so I had a lot of highlights done and it damaged my hair a lot So when I got back from Sweden I dyed it back to dark brown and let it grow My ends were completely damaged so at some point I decided I wanted to choose health over length and started cutting all the split ends And the more I cut the more I got annoyed cuz it seemed like the split ends r never ending and appear right away It got to the point where my hair went from being pretty long to now shoulder length and the worst part is I still have split ends Like I keep getting them I’m just unsure of what I’m doing wrong I try to take care of my hair I do weekly oil routines and leave it overnight or throughout the day if I’m free and then wash it I also use hair masks once a week and I haven’t used heat on it in over a year My hair is so short now and I still can’t style it and hate how it looks and I still have split ends and I just want soft healthy ends Please if you have any advice or anything cuz I’m desperate

My close friend Abby (30F) and I (33F) have almost 10 years of friendship and a great history of helping one another during trying financial times. We started out at the same crappy low paying entry level job, and it was common for us to borrow anything from $20-$150 from each other here and there if we were a bit short on rent or needing gas or groceries to get to payday. When we moved on from that employer, small things would still occasionally come up, and I could always depend on her to spot me. She has a chronic health issue that requires an expensive medication that isn’t covered by her insurance, and I’ve even helped her out with that when money has been tight. No matter what, I’ve always gotten paid back like clock work according to whatever payment plan we’ve discussed.
A little over a month ago while visiting a friend, she got into a car accident that caused damage to her windshield and her side mirrors, and I thought nothing of it when she asked for a short term loan to fix the repairs. We agreed on small weekly payments based on her direct deposit, and I even mentioned some non-monetary favors she could do for me to reduce the total amount.
When time came for her to pay me something, she avoided me that day. However, I thought nothing of it because she had been working a lot and I guessed she was just tired so I decided to wait another week until her next payday. The next week came and she mentioned that she didn’t forget about me but that it might have to be another week before she could pay me, and the amount would likely be smaller than we initially discussed. I appreciated her honesty and told her to just keep me updated.
Within a few days of this conversation, she called to tell me that she adopted a cat and sent me a haul on Snapchat of all of the supplies she bought for it. Now she didn’t just get your run-of-the-mill litter box and food bowls—everything was TOP OF THE LINE. A fancy self-cleaning box, multiple collars, leashes and harnesses for walking, a stroller, a large variety of toys and scratching devices, and several bags of high cost food and treats. While this shopping spree easily hit the $1,000 mark, I didn’t criticize her spending and assumed that maybe she’d gotten a bonus or something that improved her financial state, and that we would be back on schedule with her payments.
The next week, a few days before a payment “due date”, we planned an outing to a local festival. There was a small entry fee that we had previously discussed her covering for me to count toward her balance but when we got to the venue, she only produced enough cash for her ticket and said she’d forgotten. I was a little annoyed but not necessarily suspicious until we were walking through the festival browsing various vendor booths and she miraculously “found” a wad of cash in her purse. She proceeded to spend at least $200 on drinks, food, and several handmade pieces of jewelry and pottery, and I was DUMBFOUNDED.
Again, I foolishly waited to see if she would give me at least something on our next payment date but I didn’t receive a dime, and she’s still hitting me with that “I got you next week.” At this point, we’re 2 weeks out from when she agreed to have the loan paid back! While it wouldn’t put me in any financial distress to take the loss, it’s the principle of my friend spending at least 2.5x the amount I loaned her on such frivolous things while putting me off.
Any advice on how I should approach this, as our friendship has been conflict free until this point?

I don't know how many other women have experienced this, but my mother seems to think that if a man asks for your attention or to touch you nicely, you were obligated to give in. Even if you have a partner or simply don't want to. This goes doubly if the man is not conventionally attractive because he just wants to talk to a pretty girl.
Years ago I was at a wedding with my family, but my boyfriend wasn't invited. A guy came up and asked me to dance and I declined. My mother threw a hissy fit and started to make a scene to force me to dance with this man. I danced one dance and tried to get away, but he grabbed my arm and wouldn't let go and grabbed my body again. After the next dance I forcefully remove myself and ran back to the table and reported back what he had done. He had the nerve to come back a little while later and ask again, which I strongly declined while my mother glared at me and hissed that I was being a bitch.
The funny thing is my mother also likes to say I'm naive and going to get murdered for it and that I can't even walk places in broad daylight by myself. But I'm also supposed to serve men just because they ask nicely?

Stan Pranin mentions some important information about both the pre-war students and the post-war students.

I think it is due primarily to the fact that very few of O-Sensei's students trained under him for any protracted length of time. With the exception of Yoichiro (Hoken) Inoue, a nephew of Ueshiba, Gozo Shioda, the founder of Yoshinkan Aikido, and Tsutomu Yukawa, O-Sensei's prewar uchideshi studied a maximum of perhaps five to six years. (1)

and

The same can be said of the postwar period. The initiates of that period include such well-known figures as Sadateru Arikawa, Hiroshi Tada, Seigo Yamaguchi, Shoji Nishio, Nobuyoshi Tamura, Yasuo Kobayashi, and later Yoshimitsu Yamada, Mitsunari Kanai, Kazuo Chiba, Seiichi Sugano, Mitsugi Saotome and various others. Shigenobu Okumura, Koichi Tohei, and Kisaburo Osawa form a somewhat unique group in that they practiced only briefly before the war, but achieved master status after World War II. None of these teachers spent any lengthy period studying directly under O- Sensei. (1)

Finding out that many of Morihei Ueshiba's students didn't spend any lengthy time with him is a fairly critical piece of information. The pre-war students of Ueshiba came the closest to replicating his abilities. Those students were studying Daito ryu aiki. Their training was different.

Training of the pre-war era. From multiple interviews, there were official training times at the Kobukan dojo for 4 or 5 times a day. There were two morning classes, one which ran from six to seven A.M. while the other ran somewhere between nine and eleven. In the afternoon, there were either two or three classes, but at least one was from two to four and another from seven to eight P.M.(2) (3) Training times lasted one to one and a half hours.(4) According to Shirata, the amount of time spent per week in training was about seven to eight hours. (5) Of course, the students were free to train with each other. (2) We also know that brand new students spent months either watching or doing other chores before being allowed to train. (6) (7) (8) This gives us some indication of the training times per week.

But what were the total years some of the pre-war students spent training?

Gozo Shioda
1932 Began training under Morihei Ueshiba.
1941 Was posted to China, Taiwan and Borneo.

Kenji Tomiki
1926-1927 Began training under Morihei Ueshiba. Mostly either summer months or vacation time spent training. (9)
1934 Moved to Tokyo. Full time training. (9)
1936 Moved to Manchuria. (10)

Rinjiro Shirata
1931 Began training under Morihei Ueshiba.
1937 Mobilized into the Army.

Shigemi Yonekawa
1932 Began training under Morihei Ueshiba.
1936 Moved to Manchuria.

Minoru Mochizuki
1930 Began training under Morihei Ueshiba.
Late 1930s Moved to Manchuria. (11)

With most students being mobilized for the war, by 1942 when Kanshu Sunadomari began training under Morihei Ueshiba, there were very few students. Training in those days was done only for a little while in the mornings and evenings. Also, Ueshiba was spending time traveling to Iwama. (12) As you can see, the actual number of years that the pre-war students spent training was really not that long, either in duration or per day. Another important thing to realize is that Ueshiba was not at the Kobukan dojo all the time during this period.

From 1926 until the outbreak of World War II, O-Sensei maintained a heavy teaching schedule centering his activities in Tokyo. His students were primarily military officers and person of high social standing and his teaching services were in constant demand. He was obliged to travel extensively around the country and made almost yearly visits to Manchuria, then under Japanese political control. (13)

There was actually only a small amount of training in those years for the prewar students and only a few actually trained more than five years. Adding to that, Ueshiba had a very busy traveling schedule as he went to various places to train people. Morihiro Saito even mentions how busy Ueshiba was traveling before the war. (14) In fact, after Mochizuki opened his dojo around 1931 (15), he stated that when Ueshiba would travel each month to Kyoto to teach Omoto kyo followers, that Ueshiba would stop at Mochizuki's dojo to teach there for two to three days. (16) Between the actual travel times and the teaching times, Ueshiba was not at the Kobukan dojo regularly. None of this even touches upon Ueshiba's teaching style and how chaotic or confusing it had been. The actual teaching style and method used by Morihei Ueshiba will be dealt with in another chapter.

Then there is the post-war period. Some of the post-war students are listed below.

Akira Tohei (1929-1999) 1946-1956 Studied under Koichi Tohei. 1956-1963 Studied under Morihei Ueshiba. 1963-64 Toured U.S. and taught in Hawaii. 1964-1972 Taught at various places in Japan. 1972 Dispatched to America.

Fumio Toyoda (1947-2001)
1957 (age 10) Studied under Koichi Tohei
1964 Shodan by Saito (Tohei was in Hawaii).
1965 Ichikukai dojo as resident for 3 years. After completing this harsh training, he continued to attend Hombu classes for 3 hours each day.
1969-ish – Uchideshi under Kisshomaru Ueshiba (Morihei had died) (sandan).
1971 Yondan.
1974 Dispatched to America (godan).

Mitsunari Kanai (1939-2004) 1959-1966 Uchideshi at Hombu. 1966 Dispatched to America (yondan).
Seiichi Sugano (1939-2010) 1957 Started training at Hombu. 1958-59 Studied under Morihei Ueshiba. 1965 Dispatched to Australia.
Yoshimitsu Yamada (1938-) 1955-56 Uchideshi at Hombu. 1964 Dispatched to NY Aikikai.
Kazuo Chiba (1940-) 1958- Uchideshi at Hombu. 1960 – Sandan. Assigned to Nagoya. 1962 Yondan and teaching at Hombu. 1966 Dispatched to England.
Mitsugi Saotome (1937-) 1955 Started Aikido. 1958 Uchideshi at Hombu. 1960 Teaching at Hombu. 1975 Departed to America.
Shizuo Imaizumi (1938-) 1959 Started Aikido. 1965 Apprentice Instructor at Hombu (sandan). Frequently trained under Koichi Tohei, 1975 Moved to America.
During the post-war period, the students of Morihei Ueshiba actually had more total years training than the pre-war students. A closer look at how much time was spent training directly with Morihei Ueshiba shows that the actual time is significantly less than what it appears. There is relatively little difference between pre-war and post-war in the actual amount of hands-on time with Ueshiba.

Ueshiba moved to Iwama for about ten years from around 1942 to 1952. (17) During this time in Iwama, his actual training schedule with students appeared to be limited to twice a day.

Morihei's daily schedule in Iwama in those years:
7:00-9:00 A.M.: Aikido training followed by a simple breakfast.
4:00P.M.-6:00P.M. Aikido training.(18)

For those ten years in Iwama, the students did not train extensively. It would appear that, at most, there was 4 hours of training each day. While four hours a day is not something to easily dismiss, it is nowhere near an extensive training schedule. We also have to take into consideration whether the students in Iwama trained every day. Even at that, Ueshiba's teaching style was still confusing and at times, chaotic. Saito did mention that the training was severe. (19)
Ueshiba split his time between the Tokyo hombu dojo and Iwama for a short period. Stan Pranin notes that Ueshiba actually lived in Iwama for 15 years after the war ended. (20) Kanai responds that after he started at hombu around 1958, Ueshiba split his time between Iwama and Tokyo. (21)
Until 1955, hombu dojo was not very active. Between 1955 and 1959, more students started coming to the dojo to train, including foreign students. Even then, Ueshiba was not a regular teacher there. He would show up whenever he wanted. (22)
Nishio remarks that when he started, around 1951, it was six months before he saw Ueshiba. (23) In fact, Nishio goes on to note that there weren't many students and that Kisshomaru Ueshiba and Koichi Tohei were the teachers. (24)
Robert Frager remarks that he only saw Ueshiba occasionally during his first year, which would be sometime in the mid 1960s. (25) Walther Krenner also notes that Ueshiba wasn't teaching regularly around 1967. (26)
Kisshomaru Ueshiba states that his father was "besieged by visitors starting from early in the morning and he spent large amounts of time in receiving them". Kisshomaru also notes that his father traveled often. (27)
Taking a closer look when Ueshiba was at the Tokyo hombu dojo, what time, or times, did he teach?

The uchideshi's day begins around 6 a.m., when he cleans the dojo and the grounds outside. The first class of the day starts at 6:30. This class is usually taught by Uyeshiba himself, the Osensei, which means the old teacher. The young uchideshi sit on their knees during this hour, which can be an uncomfortable and tiring experience.
The first class is usually taken up mostly with discussions about God and nature - Uyeshiba doing the talking and the uchideshi listening. It is in this hour that the young uchideshi is exposed to Zen philosophy and the deeper meanings of aikido - its nonviolent and defensive perfection and understanding.
If this all sounds rather remote and difficult to grasp for a Western reader, he may be interested to know that the young Japanese uchideshi often feels the same way. The 83-year-old Uyeshiba many times speaks about highly abstract topics, lapsing usually into ancient Japanese phraseology, so that his listeners often find it difficult to follow him.
When this long hour is over, the young uchideshi exuberantly spill out onto the dojo floor for a half-hour exercise break. All the restless energy pent up within seems to come out and they throw themselves into the practice of their techniques with each other.
At 8 a.m. begins the real study of aikido techniques. This class is taught by a different instructor every day, and is attended by a large number of persons from outside the dojo. Sometimes this hour is taught by Uyeshiba's son, or Waka sensei as he is called. Sometimes Tohei sensei, the greatest of Uyeshiba's followers, instructs the class. (28)

When Ueshiba did teach, he often spent a large amount of time talking and the students just wanted to practice techniques. (28) (29) Ueshiba traveled often. He also entertained visitors. He only taught the morning class at hombu dojo when he was there. From the mid 1940s to the mid 1950s, he was rarely in Tokyo. From the mid 1950s to the mid 1960s, he split his time between Iwama and Tokyo and still traveled occasionally to various other places. In the late 1960s, Ueshiba's health was declining and he rarely taught. Not even getting into the subject of just how confusing Ueshiba's teaching style was, the students of Ueshiba never had extensive training time with him, either pre-war or post-war. What time there was, the post-war students focused on techniques and throwing each other around. The exceptions here would be Kisshomaru and Saito. Both seem to have had more access to Ueshiba than most other students.
With everything mentioned, it is very plausible that many of the people training in Tokyo were actually students of Kisshomaru and Tohei. When Ueshiba retreated to Iwama, he left hombu dojo in the care of Kisshomaru. It also explains why Saito was able to develop the curriculum that he did since he had more time with Ueshiba.
This isn't to say that all the students of aikido never trained with Morihei Ueshiba or that they did not learn from him. This is only to show that the actual hands-on training time with Ueshiba was not extensive. Ueshiba was not really focused on teaching so that whatever the students could glimpse was done so by a very dedicated effort on their part. Ueshiba must have, in some manner, given out certain aspects for training aiki in the pre-war period. Those students stood out.
After 20 years in aikido why aren't you at least close to the pre-war students?
There is an interview with Henry Kono in an Aikido Today magazine that sheds light on the answer.
ATM: When you had conversations like these with O'sensei, what would you talk about?
HK: Well, I would usually ask him why the rest of us couldn't do what he could. There were many other teachers, all doing aikido. But he was doing it differently - doing something differently. His movement was so clean!

ATM: How would O'sensei answer your questions about what he was doing?
HK: He would say that I didn't understand yin and yang [in and yo]. So, now I've made it my life work to study yin and yang. That's what O'sensei told me to do.
The answer is Aiki. Daito ryu aiki. Specific training (not techniques) for aiki. Heaven-Earth-Man. Yin/Yang. Have you found what those training methodologies were?

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I’m forced to appear for this attempt.
Hello people, What should I do if I don’t want to appear for this year’s attempt but my parents won’t let me skip this one ( and I live at home; so they will know my centre too). It will be my 2nd attempt. I haven’t done any mocks. Lots of revision is left. I am super stressed don’t know where to start where to end. The thing is even if I can make the use of the remaining 24days , due to stress nothing is going inside my head!
Please help, those of you who have gotten through competitive exams. Shed some light. I can’t even tell my family how stressed I am! I literally have noone to express.

I have accepted my CJO with Delta as a FA and I go to training at the end of August. I will be 31 in a few weeks. Coming from a background in Law Enforcement as well as several years in retail and commercial banking with no collage degree. I’m sad to say I wasted my 20s not savings and still living at home. I know this job is isn’t about the money especially in the beginning but I am pretty concerned with how much time it could take to save in order to move out on my own. I have a nice set up at my parents as I have my own floor and my really only bill is my car payment each month of $450. From experience with other jobs do you see me making the right decision to make this my career? Are you happy with your time with the airline? What advice can you give someone with minimal savings but wants to do something new as a career? I feel lost right now, I don’t want to take on this job and change my mind to only start over. I either would love to do this as a career or reconsider my decision.

I have naturally really curly hair a combination of 3 a,b and c I’ve straightened my hair or gotten perms to straighten my hair permanently (my roots would always been too curly so I’d still have to straighten my hair after those treatments) since I can remember My mom didn’t know how to deal with my hair or didn’t want to and has always told me I look pretty w straight hair as opposed to my natural hair A few years ago I decided I was done straightening my hair cuz it was a lot of work In middle school I’d always cry while straightening my hair cuz I just wanted to be like those girls who come out of the shower and barley do anything and have amazing hair It didn’t help that both my younger sisters have really nice curly/wavy hair that’s so much easier to maintain and style I’ve yet to find a way to style my hair in a way I like and feel comfortable with so I usually have it tied back And it grew out a good amount over the years and my hair was healthier than it’s ever been But then the Christmas before last we went to Sweden to see family and my mom convinced me to dye my hair so I had a lot of highlights done and it damaged my hair a lot So when I got back from Sweden I dyed it back to dark brown and let it grow My ends were completely damaged so at some point I decided I wanted to choose health over length and started cutting all the split ends And the more I cut the more I got annoyed cuz it seemed like the split ends r never ending and appear right away It got to the point where my hair went from being pretty long to now shoulder length and the worst part is I still have split ends Like I keep getting them I’m just unsure of what I’m doing wrong I try to take care of my hair I do weekly oil routines and leave it overnight or throughout the day if I’m free and then wash it I also use hair masks once a week and I haven’t used heat on it in over a year My hair is so short now and I still can’t style it and hate how it looks and I still have split ends and I just want soft healthy ends Please if you have any advice or anything cuz I’m desperate

So I've been radio silent, but I'm kinda back now. This is the beginning of my rewrite for this fic. Unfortunately I'm gonna take a bit to make the next part, this is due to me being part of the ficnnap. So future parts are gonna take a while to get going, hopefully I'll be functional enough to sit down during the summer and write a bunch.
Anyhow, I hope you enjoy the fic. Any feedback would be nice :).
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`Psionic Imprint Subject: Elias Meier, Exhausted Director'
Date [standardized Human time]: June 27th, 2136
Humanity learned it was not alone in the year of 2015, when it was viscously attacked by a hostile alien force intent on colonizing Earth. But humanity fought back, with the formation of XCOM. For the first time in the entirety of human history, Humanity stood as one. And we won, barely and not without consequences. Countries fell apart, or were briefly colonized; or in the case of Advent, for a couple decades.
Of course there was also the aliens that were invading. After some time it was found out that all of them of them were enslaved, controlled and distorted by the Elders.
Or Ethereals if you wanted to be pedantic. God I have had enough of pedantic people.
After a few tense decades, the aliens had slowly filtered into human society. The Vipers forming Sisterhoods, Mutons forming tribes, Sectoids getting into everything, Andromedas forming a haven for their people, and Chryssalids... once thought to be a dying race, surging back to life in 2077 and becoming a horrendous problem for everybody. There were a couple others but I couldn't be bothered to remember them.
Ding a little ring tone sounded, reminding me of my wretched job. I groaned, and waved my hand. I heard a dial up sound, as the system connected. Finally it connected, and one of the voices I dreaded hearing started speaking.
A monotone male voice, the voice of an emotionless thing created by XCOM to make death. "Hello Meier. I have a report, Wraith unit sent to System Gliese-832c has returned. A sapient alien civilization has been discovered. It is not what we expected though."
Wonderful, great even... God this is gonna be a whole thing to handle.
"Explain Odin, I will have to schedule a meeting about this new discovery."
"I have sent a data packet to your computer, which you would see if you looked at it sir"
How the fuck has he developed sarcasm? Has he always had this quirk or did he create it just to personally fuck with me?
I sighed and spun my chair around, away from the great view of my office window. The office I was trapped in was decently sized, the large desk with two 57 inch monitors on each side. The room was 10 feet tall, and 20 feet from door to window, and 12 feet wide. There was a seating area with two couches and a coffee table. A large drink cabinet flanked by two busts on pedestals, and a foyer sitting on the opposite wall flanked by tall standing plant pots with ferns. The entrance was double doors that looked like wood, but were actually plasma and explosive shielded metal doors.
On the left monitor was a display of the planet baring alien life. It was tidally locked, and was inhabited by... sheep, literal fucking sheep. Course they had paws instead of hooves and had no nose but still, literally just fucking sheep. They were apparently called Venlil. They had a decent population, and were part of a larger federation with an unknown number of species. They were at war with 7-8 feet tall nazi space crocodiles, and were deathly afraid of anything "predatory".
I glanced at a small box that appeared, it was an addendum by Dr. Valhen regarding the Venlil. It was a hypothesis regarding their physiology.
Experimental Codex Simulations put them at a 21.53% chance of surviving to a century with current physiology. Likely hood of genetic modification to weaken species at 71.89%.
The addendum pointed out the knocked knees, and the absence of a nose being the most likely areas of modification. I quirked an eyebrow up. I know Dr. Valhen had experience tearing open modified aliens and modifying people at an extreme levels. But still this had to be stretch.
"I have done my own calculations sir, and I have come to the same conclusion as Dr. Valhen sir." I stared pointedly at my monitors before sighing and rubbing my face.
Hmmm whom do I trust more? The mad scientist that walks around in several different metal bodies, or the psychopathic Codex who was created to be unnaturally good at killing. Hmmm good question... how about neither and say fuck it.
"OK Odin. Would you kindly contact the rest of the board and notify them about an emergency meeting?"
"Of course sir, I have already notified them about the scheduled meeting."
... Fucking prick. Oh well if I'm going to be sitting through a meeting I'm going to atleast drink some of the piss flavored water called vodka to pretend I can get drunk.
I stood up and walked over to the drink cabinet. A small round drone that was more of a floating camera came out of the ceiling and followed me. I opened up the cabinet and selected the highest proof alcohol I could find. After popping the bottle and grabbing a shot glass I walked back to my desk. Sitting down as an encrypted channel lit up my right side screen. I pressed on it and poured a shot, the small camera drone hovering in front of me just beyond the desk. The right monitor lit up as 6 people connected.
The Heads of Military, Research and Development, and Diplomatic Affairs were all in the meeting. Dr. Tygan and Dr. Shen heads of R&D, General Zhao and General Kelly heads of Military, Ms. Clark and Mr. Freeman heads of Diplomatic Affairs.
Dr. Tygan didn't look a day over 30, even though he was older than myself. His white coat looked immaculate, and his glasses clean. But his posture and eyes spoke of a man who was debating falling over asleep or shooting someone in the face. Dr. Shen had safety gear on, his clothing stained by machine fluids and sweat. He looked more alive in his 40's than Tygan, and behind him was a scene of a bustling space yard. General Zhao was prim and proper, his posture rigid and his face completely neutral. General Kelly looked to be in a ships captain quarters, his General uniform replaced with a mandatory protective jumpsuit. He looked like he was just woken up, a steaming cup of coffee sitting before him. Ms. Clark and Mr. Freeman looked... normal, they had proper uniforms on and looked like they had been working for a while but still had plenty of energy.
I shot the glass back then looked back at the drone, which had moved to be above the monitor. "So... I have received a report from Odin, and it is the reason for this meeting. Have any of you received the report as well and viewed the contents?"
Dr. Shen squinted at something behind the camera, before bending back and nodding. "Yeah I glanced at it, doesn't really affect my operations honestly. Besides I doubt that they could even get close to the OCDM. That thing can wipe out all kinds of stuff. "
Ms. Clark palmed her face, an exasperated look on it. "Could we not immediately discuss killing these new extraterrestrials? For all we know they number in the hundreds of species, or dozens. Not to mention we do not know the full extent of their technology. They could be much more powerful than us for all we know!"
General Zhao spoke up, a dismissive look to his face. "I have already run through some of the internal information of the Wraith unit. It appears that they have relatively the same level of technology as us. In fact they are actually inferior in some areas. For instance they practically have no cybersecurity. We could shut down their whole planet with a button press."
Ms. Clark groaned as she put her face in her hands. Mr. Freeman just leaned back looking tired. He raised a hand, a ding from the system notifying that he had a question. "Have we attempted to secure a direct access to their network? The more we know about these aliens the better. For all we know they have plans on dealing with "predatory" aliens. We could be signing the death certificate of humanity if we don't investigate more."
Clark looked up with shock and anger. "Yo-you can't be serious Mr. Freeman?! We haven't even attempted communication with these people and you're already planning on spying on them?! We should talk to them first, not just assume they are gonna be murderous!"
Everyone else on the meeting glanced around, the unsaid thing hanging in the air. Clark was very new to the board, and had grown up in New Russia. One of the European countries with the most amount of aliens. Everyone else had either only interacted with aliens as acquaintances, or killed them. Not to mention that XCOM was literally formed with the intention of pushing an invading alien empire off Earth. It had a long and bloody history with aliens, not to mention some of the things that it had done to aliens in service to Humanity.
General Kelly just sighed as he took a long sip of his coffee. Putting it down he crossed his hands in front of him. "We're getting off track people. We need to decide our course of action moving forward with these Venlil and their allies. I would recommend sending a civilian science vessel alongside two Avengers and a Hammer. The Hammer ship can operate in Stealth mode in the alien system, while the Avengers act like Cargo Ships. This allows us to put on a good face while still ensuring that our assets will be protected."
There was nodding across the board, everyone seemed to reluctantly agree on something for once. Then they all stared at their cameras, obviously waiting for myself. I sighed and poured another shot. "I concur with Kelly's plan, but I would also like to have Mothership Valhala on standby with Fleet Alpha. I would like you Kelly to command it, if you are too busy General Zhao will command instead."
Kelly and Zhao looked shocked by what I said. But they both donned neutral faces quickly afterwards. Zhao raised a hand, the system dinged signaling that he had a question. "May I ask why you are requesting this? Last time I actively commanded was for Operation Living Mausoleum and we all know how that turned out."
I shot back the glass and pointed at the camera. "That Operation was fucked from the very beginning. There was jack shit you could've done to prevent the casualties that occurred. Not to mention that you can't compare yourself to the Commander, he was inhumanly good at what he did. Hell from what I hear the man could practically see into the future. So quit it, stop beating yourself up over it. You're one of the greatest generals I've ever had the pleasure of working alongside with."
Zhao's face briefly clouded with a dark brooding look as I talked. But when I finished it lit up in surprise. He must still be beating himself up over that shit operation. I still remember reading the reports and feeling afraid about the future of XCOM. But thankfully Valhen managed to control the damn thing, and Diplomatic Affairs quelled the fires that had started from it.
"This meeting is concluded. Get back to whatever you all are doing." One by one the channel sent quiet. Tygan just stared into space, a vacant look on his face. "Tygan? Tygan!" He jumped in his seat, finally coming to. He took off his glasses and rubbed his face. "Tygan... it's getting worse... you really should reconsider your stance."
He looked up, a fire in his eyes. He put his glasses back on, tapping his fingers as he did so. "Well I won't. I'm not gonna stoop down to Valhen's level of depravity. The procedure is completely experimental and for all I know it's a miracle that I'm even still alive. I am almost 200 years old. If my mind is finally failing then so be it. I have played God long enough."
He left the channel right afterwards, only for another person to appear. It was Dr. Valhen and she had no camera feed. All I could see was a noise graph. "Meier... I would like to... make a... request- demand... I would like to attend the mission."
I slammed the shot glass on the table. "Absolutely not, I don't care what you're reason is. My final and only answer will be no. So kiss my ass, and go back to cutting apart death row inmates and war criminals."
…After a few seconds of silence and the graph not moving, it started laughing. That laugh told me more than enough. "Oh Meier, naughty naughty Meier... keeping me away from the new toys? How cruel of you... forgive me... I will honor your request..."
She... it left the channel. I closed it up, and spun my chair around. The window allowed me to view the Appalachian Mountains in all their splendor. In the distance I could see the camo fields of ships shifting as they moved about. I stared at the bottle before corking it and walking back to the cabinet.
This is gonna be an absolute shitshow. For all we knew we are boldly striding towards a war that will be the end of humanity once and for all.
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Hi Reddit,
My Husband (28 M) and I (24 F) have been together for 4 years. Since the start, he has been insecure about cheating. He was viciously cheated on in his previous relationship and blames it on that. I have never cheated on him nor has he ever found anything to even assume I was cheating. I use to be empathetic towards his insecurities as I have been cheated on too. However, for the past 2 years, I have been loosing said empathy.
After pulling my phone records and going through all my contacts last summer, he went to therapy for a month or two and his episodes of accusing me have decreased, but not stopped. I have been in therapy since January and he is the one who brought up going to individual therapy for both of us. However, he has yet to get back into therapy and he continues to accuse me of cheating. We are also in couples counseling, which hasn't necessarily been overly helpful. He keeps saying that he has gotten better with accusations so I should just be more patient with his since he is my Husband.
Our last fight was a few nights ago. We were being intimate (which is a struggle too since I have low libido) and he said my breast tasted like wintergreen Copenhagen and then he found/tasted a piece on me and accused me of cheating. This obviously ruined our intimacy and he kept asking for an explanation. I told him I did not have one besides I was hiking in the forest earlier that day and maybe had a pine needle on me. He didn't accept this answer and went to bed upset. However, he didn't bring it back up.
When we discussed this in couples therapy, I acknowledge that he didn't escalate this fight and didn't bring it back up, which was an improvement form his past episodes. He still accused me in therapy and said I could've been with another man in the forest. Our therapist pointed out that this was kinda silly and suggested that if I was cheating, I probably would've showered. My husband said true, but said he has learned not to trust people.
I am so tired of being accused. It hurts so bad and he doesn't acknowledge the pain it causes. He also doesn't get help for the issues and has excuses as to why he hasn't done therapy yet. He is upset at me because I told him I no longer have empathy for him and this issue. AITAH?

The Truth was an anthology in the truest sense of the word. Each episode was a new present to unwrap. It is kind of surreal that it is gone now.
I recently did a partial review of The Truth on my blog, and I thought I’d share it with you guys here.
The Truth is an anthology of nearly 200 episodes spanning a wide variety of genres. It billed itself as movies for the ears, and it certainly lived up to that description. Now, it is true that quite a few audio dramas fit that description, but you have to consider the context that The Truth occurred in. The first episode of The Truth premiered way back in 2011. The indie audio drama community was still very much in its infancy. Fiction podcasts tended to be short story readings like StarShipSofa or Lightspeed Magazine. If you were lucky, you might get something like The Drabblecast, with music and sound-effects added to the mix. The Truth was a full-cast show, performed rather than read, and with immersive sound-effects and music.
The Truth was an anthology in the purest sense of the word. Each episode was a new present to unwrap. It spanned multiple genres and styles. The early years did tend to be a bit more experimental in terms of material. I had the opportunity to chat with series creator Jonathan Mitchell. Jonathan described these early episodes as scenes rather than stories. True, they are certainly shorter than later episodes, but that’s hardly a bad thing. Each of them was like a snapshot into a different life, and they were certainly memorable snapshots. I’m not the only one who is of this opinion. Many episodes from this era of The Truth were featured on various programs such as All Things Considered, Weekend America, Planet Money, This American Life, and Studio 360. Eventually, the need to pay the bills came knocking. So, the episodes began to favor longer stories in order to provide more space for ad breaks. Now, some people say this was the era when The Truth went into decline. Personally, I strongly disagree. There were still many quality episodes being produced.
The real decline, ironically, was around the time The Truth celebrated its tenth anniversary. Well, maybe not entirely ironically. I have noticed that many anthology podcasts tend to start going stale around the ten year mark. It was at this point the misses started to outnumber the hit. Now, to be fair, there were still a few diamonds in the rough. That being said, it was clear that the writers’ well of inspiration was starting to run dry. The episodes also increasingly had the same feel to them. The decline of The Truth didn’t come with a bang, but with a whimper.
It is certainly sad that the curtain has finally fallen on The Truth. No show can last forever. Eventually, if you smolder well past your time, you will see a steady decline in quality. In the immortal words of Harvey Dent, you either die a hero, or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain. I certainly hope that The Truth is always remember for what it was, rather than the decline it saw during its final season.
And that, my friends, is what this review is all about. We are going to celebrate The Truth in all its myriad ways. From those early “snapshots of a life” episodes, to the more full-length episodes. We will also look at a few less than stellar episodes. They can make for a good teaching moment about what not to do.
Okay, all well and good, but what about science fiction? Well, I have reviewed three episodes that invovle science fiction.
“Moon Graffiti” is an alternate history tale. It is set in a world where The Eagle lander of Apollo 11 crash landed on the Moon. We follow Neil Armstrong and Buzz Aldrin musing on life as they wait for their oxygen to run out.
“Brain Chemistry” follows a man named Richard. He was cryogenically preserved, but he’s been revived. The future isn’t quite what he expected. Oh, climate change is a bit of an issue, but the people are nice enough. Unfortunately, Richard, and others like him, could only be revived as a brain in a jar. He spends his days as an exhibit in a museum. He tells visitors, usually kids on field trips, about what the 21st Century was like. One day, he meets another cryonically preserved brain named Casey. Richard hasn’t had much to look forward to in a long time, but Casey lights up his world. They might be a couple of brains in jars, but they’ve got serious chemistry.
“Fish Girl” follows a girl named Win who has the ability to talk to fish. She befriends a porcupine pufferfish named Jane. Jane lives at an aquarium store, but longs to see the ocean. Win can’t do that, but she can take her down to the pond. Safely in a plastic bag, of course. It’s sure to be the adventure of a lifetime for them both.
This is merely part one. I’ll be making a part two, so be on the lookout for that in the near future. I wouldn’t be surprised if there’s part three eventually.
Like I said, this just the start. More to come in the future.
Link to the full review is over here: http://drakoniandgriffalco.blogspot.com/2024/05/the-audio-file-truth-part-1.html?m=0

My spouse and I are having a boy and narrowing in on names - we want the first name to start with an "S" and middle name to start with an "E" to pay homage to two different family members. I'd say our tastes are "left of center," meaning we like slightly unique/non-traditional names but also not anything too out there. I've also noticed I tend to gravitate towards gender-neutral names.
We landed on Skyler for the first name pretty quickly - things we like about it: it's relatively different but not too wacky, the meaning behind it, the nickname Sky, and that we don't know too many people with the name. My main concerns are: it's trendy or maybe even dated (is this a name that was cool 10-20 years ago but dated now? My name is like that, so I'm a bit conscious of it) and even though I consider it to be pretty gender neutral, do people think of it as more of a girls name?
For the middle name, we're leaning towards Emmett - I know it's pretty trendy right now, but the name has significance/meaning in our culture and I'm not as concerned about the trendiness since it's a middle name. With that being said, I'm definitely open to other "E" names - some others we're considering are Everett and Emerson (which I think are even more trendy tbh).
Our last name starts with a K, so the full name would be Skyler Emmett K---. What do y'all think of this combo?

Hi Reddit,
My Husband (28 M) and I (24 F) have been together for 4 years. Since the start, he has been insecure about cheating. He was viciously cheated on in his previous relationship and blames it on that. I have never cheated on him nor has he ever found anything to even assume I was cheating. I use to be empathetic towards his insecurities as I have been cheated on too. However, for the past 2 years, I have been loosing said empathy.
After pulling my phone records and going through all my contacts last summer, he went to therapy for a month or two and his episodes of accusing me have decreased, but not stopped. I have been in therapy since January and he is the one who brought up going to individual therapy for both of us. However, he has yet to get back into therapy and he continues to accuse me of cheating. We are also in couples counseling, which hasn't necessarily been overly helpful. He keeps saying that he has gotten better with accusations so I should just be more patient with his since he is my Husband.
Our last fight was a few nights ago. We were being intimate (which is a struggle too since I have low libido) and he said my breast tasted like wintergreen Copenhagen and then he found/tasted a piece on me and accused me of cheating. This obviously ruined our intimacy and he kept asking for an explanation. I told him I did not have one besides I was hiking in the forest earlier that day and maybe had a pine needle on me. He didn't accept this answer and went to bed upset. However, he didn't bring it back up.
When we discussed this in couples therapy, I acknowledge that he didn't escalate this fight and didn't bring it back up, which was an improvement form his past episodes. He still accused me in therapy and said I could've been with another man in the forest. Our therapist pointed out that this was kinda silly and suggested that if I was cheating, I probably would've showered. My husband said true, but said he has learned not to trust people.
I am so tired of being accused. It hurts so bad and he doesn't acknowledge the pain it causes. He also doesn't get help for the issues and has excuses as to why he hasn't done therapy yet. He is upset at me because I told him I no longer have empathy for him and this issue. AITAH?

Hi everyone,
I wanted to get another POV on this, this is a LONG one so sorry.
I've been married for almost 3 yrs together for 7. I am 30 husband is 40, no kids.
When we dated he was never romantic or very into small gesture things like cards, flowers, opening doors, kiss you before leaving in the morning, like cheesy things or just even like date night just to name a few. I thought I would be okay with that but realized I wasn't and maybe thought it would get better as time went on but it didn't. So I thought okay maybe I'll tell him what I need right because communication is key and no one is a mind reader. So I've told him many times within the 7 years and I realize I only got these things when I said something about it or ask for it, which to me defeat the point if I have to consistently ask for it. I feel I always say from a place of love like hey wouldn't it be nice if we did this more or you know I really would like this more in the relationship because it important to me and makes me feel loved. We discussed love languages and what we both needed out of each other to help the relationship, but every thing was temporary with no permanent change.
Within the 7 years we have gotten married again me thinking it would get better because he said he would do better and I believed him. We've gotten a house a puppy and it's just been alot.
Last year was when I hit my point of him not making our relationship a priority and everything else is coming before us. We had a really bad argument probably the worse since being together. So I told him I wasn't happy and still nothing from him. We started marriage counseling and I was so emotionally detached that I didn't see it helping so I said I wanted a divorce, still no respond from him, he said okay. Over the weekend we talked and decided to work on it in therapy and give it a shot.
In therapy there were some heavy discovery about him - like he didn't take none of my concerns about our marriage over the 7 years seriously and admitted to not taking my feelings seriously. - He didn't need to be married to show commitment -the things I need to feel love he doesn't place value on them just because he doesn't need them. (His love language is physical touch), he can do all those things with anyone -He was draw to me because I challenged him
I was taken back by the not taking me seriously and now I just feel like trust has been an issue for me because I don't feel safe with my feelings or emotions with him. I told him I feel like whenever your partner talks about their feelings or needs why wouldn't you take it seriously this is the person you love, so in that it makes me question his feelings towards me.
I asked questions like would I have to always bring up divorce(which I don't want to do) for you to do things and he couldn't really answer me, will you take my feelings seriously, can you reassure me this won't happen and he couldn't give me an answer on any of it, couldn't reassure basically didn't want to promise anything.
I'm feeling like I made a mistake taking divorce off the table. I don't know how I can come back from this because I feel like he's leaving me to fix the problem he caused. I get the feeling he just wants to stay in the marriage because he doesn't want to start over not necessarily because he loves me, like he rather be in a marriage that's not working vs finding a relationship that will work.
Part of me feels I need to move on but I guess part of me is feeling like it's not a big deal( this is something i am working on in my own therapy I tend to push my feelings under the rug) and something we can work on but I don't know I if it will change after 7 years.
I do realize that I made mistakes in our relationship as well, my communication, not realizing what I need in the relationship sooner, shutting down and I could go on so I do take accountability on where it's due.
Has anyone been through this or something similar? And if so how did you work the trust back? Is it possible?

I am a teacher in a self-contained autism room in a public school. I have a student who will be starting at an independent school for ESY, because her needs outweigh what the district can give. She’s a sweet girl and I love her but this is definitely the right move for her.
I want to come up with some ways to entertain her until the end of the year. I know she is very bored. The trouble is she is physically aggressive. She’s non verbal and uses an AAC but she threw it at her 1:1 and gave her a concussion, so we switched her to pecs on the wall, which she has destroyed. She cries when it’s time for work trials, heavy work, or OT. I’ve tried offering her puzzles and sensory toys but they all get thrown. I know she loves to play in water, but we don’t have a sink available for her to play with, and orbeez are a choking hazard as she tries to eat them.
She loves sensory swings and items like that but unfortunately we don’t have anything like that in our school. I just want to think of a few things she might like so she doesn’t sit on her beanbag all day, growing frustrated.
Does anyone work with high needs students and can you make any suggestions? Thanks!

i am trying to learn more about my great grandmother, ive tried over the years and ive continually ran into a pretty solid brick wall.
my great grandfather and great grandmother are both from poland (because obviously this is a polish genealogical problem). my great grandfather came to america when he was young, but during WW1 he volunteered with the polish brigade in france to help fight germany. after the war he was allowed leave to return to poland for a year or two (which a lot of polish soldiers spent time in poland after ww1 ended) and ended up damaging some clothes, took it to a tailor in krakow and met my great grandmother who was the tailor. eventually they started talking and the next thing you know theyre getting married and going back to america together, she was literally 6 months pregnant with my grandfather when they came back to america, its even noted in the ship manifest ive found for their return trip that she was pregnant at the time. anyways, less happy ending is that this was in 1922, in 1930 she ended up dying suddenly of tuberculosis when my grandpa was like 7 years old. my great grandpa married another women several years later who my grandpa mostly knew as his mother, she was a great women i never knew her but my grandparents and parents and uncles and aunts would all say nice things about her.
anyways, i have pretty successfully broken my great grandpas brick wall, but when i was searching last, the main problem is my great grandpa was born in 1899 and his baptism recorsd were pretty easy to locate online. my g-grandma was born in 1901 and those records were not available online. as of now i dont think ive ever seen any baptism records for her. however, i do remember i saw once either marriage record between her and my great grandpa or maybe some other official document once she came to america stating her parents names as andrzej pac/pacz and marianna wawrzak. but again ive never found any actual baptism record, and i would have to look around again to refind that other document listing the names of her parents, but that document didnt list her parents ages or anything so i have no clue where to even start looking for getting her baptism record that would probly give me enough information to start searching for her grandparents or something.
i am also partly looking for a link to a specific noble family in poland, which yeah people hear all the time, but my great grandma's surname is literally pac or pacz, ive seen spelled both ways, and there is a noble family from the duchy of lithuania that had the pac surname and was very powerful politically in the 1700s before dying off in the 1800s because of the patriarchs of the family not having any children. i have heard from family sources that there is a link somewhere connecting her to this family, but i am not at all sure where to look, obviously im not going to claim thats valid without having any sources to prove that, but thats why i want to look further back in her family history so i can see if there might be a link 100+ years back or so.
side note, but ironically i did find another branch of my family had minor nobles in it, my great grandpa's grandparents. i found some baptism record from poland listing his grandmother as the grand daughter of the leader of some village that is now a neighborhood in krakow. she married some guy that bought his way into the nobility by being a wealthy accountant/financer in krakow, which i found super funny because my dad, who would be this person's great great grandson, also went into accounting.
this is the family im specifically talking about
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/House_of_Pac

Hello people, What should I do if I don’t want to appear for this year’s attempt but my parents won’t let me skip this one ( and I live at home; so they will know my centre too). It will be my third attempt. I haven’t done any mocks. Lots of revision is left. I am super stressed don’t know where to start where to end. The thing is even if I can make the use of the remaining 24days , due to stress nothing is going inside my head!

I know there have been a number of "I'm an ME and I want to switch into software/programming, is this possible?" posts in this sub, and I've read through plenty of them and I'm confident that it is possible. This may not even be entirely relevant to be being an ME, other than to show that I have a stem degree. The short timeline of relevant info for me is as follows:

• Fall 2015: Start MechE degree
• Take some online python course in my free time during an internship (codecademy?)
• Take MATLAB course #1 and learn to use MATLAB essentially as a calculator
• Take MATLAB course #2 and learn to use MATLAB to solve PDEs
  • Project: MATLAB script to model and plot airflow over an airfoil (finite difference solver)
• Fall 2018: Finish BSME/Start MSME
• Grad level programming projects:
  • MATLAB script taking input of thermal management requirements and volumetric constraints and outputs heat sink specifications, convection requirements and a link to a fan that meets the requirements
  • MATLAB script to provide the performance/efficiency curve of a PEM hydrogen fuel cell given its physical parameters
  • MATLAB script for resultant pressure of airflow over an airfoil (finite volume, SIMPLE algorithm)
• Spring 2019: Finish MSME
• Fall 2019: Start job as ME in utility industry doing design, eventually transition to hydraulic analysis role
• April 2020: COVID hits, I take edX class using python for research, gain some exposure to NumPy, SciPy, scikit-learn.
• By July I got convinced (don't remember how) that web dev was an easier path into a programming role than the stuff I've been learning. At this point I can code decently, so I start learning front end stuff starting with HTML then CSS/Bootstrap then some JS. Fell off for a little over a year
• Oct 2021: tried to hop back on the web dev train, did a freecodecamp JS course. Kinda fell back off again.
• 2022-Present: I use python to automate some parts of my job, scripts that while I believe are well commented and readable, are only a couple hundred lines each. Useful, but certainly not a skill showcase of any kind. When I try to learn for the sake of getting a programming job, I've usually gone back to the web dev stuff. JS/TS, React etc.

I'm starting to this this web dev stuff isn't for me. I feel like I'm enjoying it in real time, but it is always the thing I'm doing when I fall off. Analytical, mathy stuff has always been my bread and butter, so I'm thinking it may be time to just roll back and focus on the python automation and analysis side. My question? How do I build a resume for this type of job? For web dev, it seemed straightforward enough to follow along and make a web app with someone one a YouTube tutorial and have projects of substance to showcase your skillset.

1. Other than more courses similar to the one I took back in 2020, what skills and projects should I be trying to add to my resume? Do I need more than just python?
2. What roles are more tailored towards this skillset? ML engineers, data engineers, automation engineers? Any other titles I should be reading job postings for to see what skills are desired?

Thanks in advance!

I recently started using a usb to ethernet adatper to stream plex since the wifi strength is poor in my room. However I have been unsuccessful in making the lg companion app work again. When going to the network settings in the lg menu, it says its not connected to ethernet even though there is internet connection, I think this is what's confusing the app.
If anyone has a similar setup and was able to get it working let me know what you did.