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2014.05.05 12:40 LadyAbraxus Lexapro
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2020.03.21 16:48 Peeintheshadows Methadone clinic information from a nurse
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2013.09.10 18:35 The Long Dark
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2024.05.22 02:23 Prize-Ad-1947 A Letter To My Addict Brain
My mind is being tested. The addict brain is telling me lately “you’re not on probation anymore, go ahead and just get one drink, it will be fine”…………it has been persistent lately and I know what he is. I recognize him. I know him very well. He is a saboteur. He is so loud and manipulates your mind enough to make one crazy. In September of 2022 I was defeated. I was convinced I would never beat him. I was so sick of him winning so I decided to forfeit the game.
I swallowed 100 aspirin with a bottle of everclear and a bottle of vodka. I wrote a note to my family. I remember passing out and waking up in the ICU fighting for my life. The Dr and nurse didn’t think I would make it. I was going in and out of consciousness. Luckily I didn’t die because I was given a chance to fight another day and beat this voice once and for all.
Since then with the help of AA, an outpatient program and my loving support system I’m no longer fighting him alone. I have a team now. I know how to beat him at his game now. I learned how he plays. I learned how he operates and I’ve studied his patterns. I know when he’ll be more aggressive and persistent. But I know to beat him now. I lost to him for so long but now I’m going to go undefeated against him for the rest of my life.
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I swallowed 100 aspirin with a bottle of everclear and a bottle of vodka. I wrote a note to my family. I remember passing out and waking up in the ICU fighting for my life. The Dr and nurse didn’t think I would make it. I was going in and out of consciousness. Luckily I didn’t die because I was given a chance to fight another day and beat this voice once and for all.
Since then with the help of AA, an outpatient program and my loving support system I’m no longer fighting him alone. I have a team now. I know how to beat him at his game now. I learned how he plays. I learned how he operates and I’ve studied his patterns. I know when he’ll be more aggressive and persistent. But I know to beat him now. I lost to him for so long but now I’m going to go undefeated against him for the rest of my life.
2024.05.22 02:03 hornydarkwitch Just discovered how an IUD procedure goes- I feel violated.
I just saw a tiktok about how doctors don't tell women about using forceps when putting in an IUD. My brain immediately thought "wait, what do you mean forceps? I was never told that when I got my IUD, that has to be fake!"
I jumped on Google and low and behold, I found this really detailed video about the procedure. Not only do they use a tenaculum to hold the cervix in place, they then insert a rode to measure the length of the uterus, and finally insert the IUD.
Now, I don't doubt that all those steps are necessary- but why in hell was I not told about it when I had mine put in? The nurse dumbed it down to "we'll put in a speculum and then the IUD goes in" and I didn't know any better, I had no reason to question her explanation. If she'd told me all the steps, I definitely would have asked for pain relief, which it's already outrageous that it's not part of the procedure.
The procedure itself was painful, but the worst was the intense pain in the following hours, I ended up going to A&E as it was so much more painful than what the nurse had hinted at.
Now discovering what my poor cervix went through, I feel violated. I feel like I was lied to, presented with a straightforward, limitedly invasive procedure, when in reality my cervix was pinched and manoeuvred without any offer of pain relief. How is the state of women's healthcare this atrocious in 2024?
For anyone interested in seeing what the procedure looks like, I recommend the video I watched, it's really clear and seeing a real procedure is super interesting:
https://globalhealthmedia.org/videos/inserting-an-iud/
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I jumped on Google and low and behold, I found this really detailed video about the procedure. Not only do they use a tenaculum to hold the cervix in place, they then insert a rode to measure the length of the uterus, and finally insert the IUD.
Now, I don't doubt that all those steps are necessary- but why in hell was I not told about it when I had mine put in? The nurse dumbed it down to "we'll put in a speculum and then the IUD goes in" and I didn't know any better, I had no reason to question her explanation. If she'd told me all the steps, I definitely would have asked for pain relief, which it's already outrageous that it's not part of the procedure.
The procedure itself was painful, but the worst was the intense pain in the following hours, I ended up going to A&E as it was so much more painful than what the nurse had hinted at.
Now discovering what my poor cervix went through, I feel violated. I feel like I was lied to, presented with a straightforward, limitedly invasive procedure, when in reality my cervix was pinched and manoeuvred without any offer of pain relief. How is the state of women's healthcare this atrocious in 2024?
For anyone interested in seeing what the procedure looks like, I recommend the video I watched, it's really clear and seeing a real procedure is super interesting:
https://globalhealthmedia.org/videos/inserting-an-iud/
2024.05.22 02:02 LonelyAccident1591 23f looking for female friends
feel kind of pathetic but I don't have many other options for making friends . My friends from college are too busy & I don't click very well with my coworkers (I'm shy and possibly autistic? not sure). anyways a little about me: I have 3 cats <3 and a boyfriend <3 I'm a nurse working in the ICU (my biggest stressor in my life currently) fav music: lana del rey, hozier, amy winehouse, paramore, the smiths, oldies I'm trying to read more and would love someone to read with! My fav genre is romance/young adult lit (cliché but 🤷🏼♀️) On my days off I'm usually sleeping and watching movies. I hope to gain more energy to be more productive soon (working out, eating healthy, actually living) also want to learn guitar
as I mentioned earlier,I’m a nurse & I work 12 hr shifts 3-4 days a week and on my days off i’m a zombie. pair that with my anxiety/depression/possible autism/adhd, as well as a physical condition i have that causes fatigue & brain fog. I find it hard to respond sometimes but I really try my best. I hope if anyone reaches out they understand :/
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as I mentioned earlier,I’m a nurse & I work 12 hr shifts 3-4 days a week and on my days off i’m a zombie. pair that with my anxiety/depression/possible autism/adhd, as well as a physical condition i have that causes fatigue & brain fog. I find it hard to respond sometimes but I really try my best. I hope if anyone reaches out they understand :/
2024.05.22 01:59 Actual_Philosophy_83 My(20F) boyfriend (21M) lied to me about his past. How do I heal from this? Should I forgive him?
This is my first reddit post and honestly it's a lot so please bear with me. I'm still trying to figure out how to process everything and make sense of it all. I guess we will start at the very beginning. My boyfriend,( we will call him michael) and I just passed 6 months together. Honestly, hes been great. We clicked pretty fast and have a great bond. I feel safe and comfortable around him and can communicate in a way ive never been able to before. It just kinda works. I definitely fell hard and fast for him and from what I could gather, the feeling was mutual. We had met on tinder in early October and went on our first date in November. We made it official shortly after our first date.
After we started dating, he had briefly mentioned that he had a friend who had a bit of a crush on him. I told him I didn't mind and I trusted him. As long as he kept things respectful to me, it didn't matter. He then explained that her crush was a bit obsessive and he actually wanted to push her out of his life and needed advice. Apparently, this friend, (we will call her beth) was pregnant and wanted Michael to be her baby's God Father. He said that she would follow him and got jealous when he was with other girls. I found this kind of odd but he swore they were just friends, so I told him the best way to let her down gently and let him do his thing. About two weeks later, he told me she was out of the picture. I didn't really care either way but the communication was cool.
Anyways, I pretty quickly forgot about all of that because it was irrelevant and I wanted to focus on our relationship. One night when we were hanging out, he got a snapchat notification. He turned away from me to respond to it but I didn't think much of it, just asked who that was. He said it was just a friend (we will call this one Jen) and they were catching up. I had never heard of her before but I didn't care, I just said cool and dropped it. Just like before, I quickly forgot about that conversation because again,it was irrelevant and I had better things to think about. I trusted him so why should I care who he talks to? He is his own person after all and I understand the importance of friendships.
Fast forward about another two weeks later, him and I had our first argument. I dont remember what it was about. Most likely something small and pointless because I had a stressful day at work but nothing too serious. We did not talk much that day. Later that night, I apologized and we talked it over. Everything was fine. He then told me that earlier in the day, an old friend that he had removed off social media readded him and messaged him. We will call her Molly. Apparently she had just noticed she was removed and was upset and wanted to know why. He told me that he sent her a message explaining that he didn't see her in his life long term and doesn't feel the need to keep someone around who won't be around forever so he didn't want to be friends anymore. He then removed her again. At this point I thought the way he acted was odd. I had never heard of molly before, he waited until he had already removed her before telling me about the conversation, she only came into the picture when we had our first argument and it got me thinking about the other girls who were just friends. I definitely started to over think a bit and was more than curious about who these people were and what their relationship to him was. But he swore they were all just friends. So I continued to believe him.
We went a long period of time without anything coming up so once again I forgot about it and moved on with my life. Him and I were doing great. We were young dumb and in love. I felt truly happy, something I hadn't experienced in a long time. I felt like I genuinely found someone who was right for me and I didn't need to second guess whether or not he was gonna cheat on me. He occasionally would ask to see my phone but I didn't have anything to hide so I allowed him. I had set a boundary with him that if he ever felt concerned or needed reassurance, he needed to bring it up to me first. After we talked it over then he could see my phone, but we would always go through it together. This seemed fair to me. My phone was never off limits, there just needed to be open communication. Anyways, he would always offer for me to see his phone in return but I would decline. I didn't feel the need to and I had learned from past experiences that if you go digging, you will most likely see something you can't unsee.
Then one day he needed to have his wisdom teeth removed. I dropped him off in the morning for his surgery and I was told I needed to hold on to his personal belongings and wait until the operation was over. No big deal. I know this is wrong and I shouldn't have but finally curiosity got the best of me and I looked on his phone. At first it wasn't malicious. I genuinely was just curious. But of course, I saw things I wish I could unsee. It started off on tiktok. In one of his conversations with a friend, he poured his heart out, explaining how he was still so in love with his ex and missed her like crazy. Of course it stung a little to see the things he said but I knew there was someone before me so it wasn't that surprising. That was until I saw those messages had been sent in mid October. So of course i was like huh.we started talking early October and dating early November. So clearly he wasn't over his ex when he met me. But I was willing to forgive it. It wasn't a deal breaker. But Instead of putting the phone down to protect my peace and his privacy, I kept looking. And boy did I find a lot. I found lots of old text messages from contacts that were not saved. Most of then were hard-core sexting and flirting. This dude literally acted like a dog.And yeah it was again hard to see but it was before me and he wasn't like that anymore. With me, he was gentle and respectful and never treated me like an object. Some people just go through a phase and that's okay. Again, it wasn't a deal breaker. But finally i found some very passionate, lovey, intimate messages with an unsaved contact. I was immediately drawn in by the kind words and heartwarming love messages. Whoever this was, they cared for eachother very strongly. I almost immediately felt heartbroken. Not because she was a past love interest, but because he had never spoken to me the way he spoke to her. I read all the way from the top of the conversation. Months worth of love confessions, paragraphs of strong feelings, longing to be with one another, etc. But finally halfway through in one of the paragraphs I see a name. Molly I was shattered. Molly was the girl who supposedly was removed months before him and I even met. The one that was "just a friend" who messaged him and he removed her because he didn't want to be friends anymore. Yeah clearly they were more than just friends. I was livid and felt crushed. Why did he feel the need to lie about something so unnecessary? I wouldn't have been mad if he had told the truth about who she was. But then it got me thinking. Was Beth truly just a friend? Was Jen truly just a friend? What was the actual relationship? I gathered up as much as I could but then the nurse came to the lobby to tell me he was awake and ready to go home. I kind of panicked and in my hurry, I forgot to delete the screenshots out of his phone.
We get in the car and I give him his phone, he's still pretty loopy. Obviously I had a million questions to ask him but I knew he wasn't in the right state of mind to have that conversation so I put my feelings aside and decided it could wait. Well he wanted to take pictures of his bloody swollen face and send it to his uncle. In the process, he sees the screenshots i had forgotten to delete off his phone and immediately screams what the f*** is this? I tried to talk calmly and explain that now wasn't a good time to talk about it and it could wait. He kept pressing "what the f*** did you do? Who the hell is this?" In my mind I thought "uh dude, you tell me." But didn't want to escalate it while he was drugged up. I decided the best option was to simply say that I wasn't mad , I stilled planned on taking care of him while he recovered and that we would need to have a conversation when he was in a better state of mind. He just started sobbing. Oh boy. I kind of ignored it as much as I could. I drove us to the store to get ice cream and other soft foods he could eat before taking us back to my apartment. I helped get him set up in my bedroom and he still was crying. So much so he started coughing out blood. It smelled awful and got everywhere. He was a wreck. I felt bad for everything. I felt guilty for going on his phone behind his back, for leaving the screeshots on his phone and for him crying. It took several hours but eventually I got him to calm down. I kept my word and continued to take care of him until he was recovered.
Finally when enough time had passed I decided it was time to sit down and talk about it. I explained that obviously I had found messages and i wanted an explanation. He told me molly was just a friend, and very clearly it was more than that. I also explained that I had a suspicion that he was not fully honest about his relationship with Jen and Beth either. He looked me dead in the eyes and said he had no idea what I was talking about and they were just friends. I remained calm and explained that I won't be mad at him or leave him. I told him I didn't want to fight. I just felt as though I deserved to know the truth if I was going to continue to be with him, especially since he was still in contact with Beth and Jen while we were dating. We continue to go back and forward for several hours with no progress. I decided then if he didn't feel I deserved the truth, I would find out for myself. I took the screenshots I had found and reached out to the contacts one by one.
Let's start with Beth. She was the quickest to respond. I briefly explained who I was and that I was hoping to ask some questions about my partner because I felt like i was being lied to and was hoping she could fill in some of the gaps. She texted back and simply asked "do you work at blank" I responded that yes, I did. She then asked if I lived at a specific apartment complex. I said yes and was creeped out. She knew where I worked and lived. She then asked if she could call me. I agreed. For some context, he told me that she was a friend he had met in school. He explained that she had gotten out of a rough relationship and he wanted to make sure she was okay when it happened. That's how they became close. He explained that they would hang out all the time and eventually she became obsessed with him. Well during my phone call with her, I heard a very different story. Yes, they met in school and initially started off as friends. But, slowly with time as they started to spend more and more time together, they started to catch feelings. He said I love you first. And she proved this with screenshots. She also sent me pictures of them holding hands and kissing. She explained that they never officially started dating but they definitely were more than just friends. Their relationship was much more physical and romantic than platonic. She also told me that they had hooked up about 3 times. She explained that they had eachothers location and pretty frequently they would make plans then he would last minute cancel. So she would see what he was doing and would see him at two very specific addresses. Visiting my work or my apartment. She eventually asked him where he was and he told her that I was his cousin and was trying to get out of a rough relationship so he was helping me. I felt sick. No wonder why she was "obsessed" he was borderline dating her, telling her he loved her, and then started to ditch her when he made things official with me. Then it killed me to realize that even though they never had an official title, he was dating the two of us at the same time. I didn't know what to do. I ended up apologizing to her for everything he did and told her I never would have agreed to be his if I knew he was entertaining someone else. Michael overheard this phone call between us and looked like he had seen a ghost after. All he did was started crying, said she was lying, and that she was only a friend. I asked "so....these screenshots and pictures are all made up?" No response. He knew he was busted.
I decided I needed to take some time to process that information and I didn't want to say something I would regret. I let him stay at my place because he had nowhere else to go and I went to stay with a friend. He kept calling and texting but I couldn't deal with it. I cried all night. I was a mess. I should have just accepted that I was cheated on and lied to but I couldn't leave. I needed to know the truth. So I kept reaching out. Next up was Jen. I never was able to reach her, but I found out through Michael and Beth that Jen was Beth's best friend. But even more than that, I found out the three of them had a threesome together. He had told me previously that he had never been interested in a threesome and would never want to have one. Then I found out not only did he have one and lied about it, but it was with two girls he told me were just friends.
I went back to my apartment the next day and tried to talk stuff out. He just continued to say they were just friends. I finally snapped. I screamed and cried and told him that I just wanted to know the truth. That I deserved the truth. He looked me in the eyes, pinky promised me no more lies. We talked for a while and basically he explained that he never had an official title with Beth. They were very close but he basically just used her to pass time because he had nothing better to do. He said he loved her because that's what she wanted to hear and he treated her like a partner without ever having any real feelings for her. He knew as soon as he met me that he wanted me but didn't want to hurt her so he just kind of pushed her to the side but kept her in the picture. I felt so sad for her. He used her. He led her on. He treated her like an object and then threw her to the side when he met me.I asked why he lied about having a threesome. He said he felt ashamed Apparently they started to do it and then he chickened out so he didn't really count it. That made sense to me. I was pissed that he lied but at least it made sense. Next I asked why he told me Beth and Jen were just friends instead of being honest about the relationship. He said he never had feelings for either and they never had the official title so he didn't think it was important and he did not want to scare me off. I explained to him that although I understand why he lied to me, I didn't forgive him. I warned him that I would not tolerate anymore lies and obviously for the time being I did not trust him. I told him I wouldn't break up with him but if I found out he lied again, he would lose me. I also told him I considered what he did as cheating since he was seeing us at the same time after him and I became mutually exclusive. After we concluded our conversation about Beth and Jen, I started thinking about molly and the messages I had seen. I asked him what their relationship was, he said just friends. I freaked and told him to give me his phone. I found their old messages and told him to read them. "Hey goofball, you awake? Well if you're not I have something impossible to say to you. You are my sun, my moon, and all my stars. I love you lots and want you to know that no matter what happens I will always care about you. To me you are perfect. Amazing. And attractive asf. You are also very sweet and caring and adorable. Don't think about the negative things about yourself that will drag you down. You are way more than that. This is an official goodnight and I love you goofball." This is just one of the MANY messages sent back and forward. He reads the conversation and just goes oh. He then says he didn't remember any of that happening. We began to argue and the story he tried to spin was that his life must have been so traumatic that his brain literally deleted his past memories and replaced them with false memories where he didn't do these things that he is ashamed of. He got caught in lies and after so long was just like...whoa I did that? I had no idea I didn't remember. Technically I didn't lie because I told what I thought the truth was the way I remembered it. I told him I wanted to break up and he cried and begged me to forgive him and stay. I listened.i tried to move on and make things normal again but I couldn't stop thinking about all the lies and what else he might have been lying about. Then randomly one day, Molly added me back on social media. She was the last and took over 1.5 months so honestly I figured I'd never get ahold of her. I was genuinely surprised to see her show up on my friend list and reached out. Once again back story, he told me that she lived in Wisconin and they had never met. He said he was also using her for nudes and to pass time, same way he used Beth. He had told me that he removed her off social media months before him and I even met and aside from that one night she reached out, he hadn't heard from her in forever. I found out from her that she did not live in Wisconsin, she lived in the same state as us That to her, they were definitely dating and in love. I also saw a messaged saved on snapchat where he had been texting her in October (after we met) and even sent her the same pickup lines he had sent me. he had cheated with not just one, but two (at least that I know of) other girls.
At this point I had been broken so bad I didn't even feel the pain anymore. I just went numb. I had no more tears left to cry and couldn't be bothered to care anymore. I stopped eating and taking care of myself. I just went to work, came home, slept and repeated. I had watched the man that I loved and adored, one that made me feel so safe and happy turn into a monster right in front of me. He wasn't him anymore. I finally could see him for who he was. But I still didn't leave. He told me that he had only ever slept with three girls. I later found out it was actually six. He told me he had never been in love before. I later found out he tells basically every girl he's ever talked to that he loves them AND genuinely was in love with his ex before me. He told me after his ex and him broke up, he had a rebound but he only hooked up with her once before ghosting her. I found out they actually dated for several weeks, hooked up several times, and she had taken cute couple pictures with him and posted them on social media. He said that he never wanted to take those pictures, she made him put his Hands on her and pose and if he didn't cooperate, she would throw a tantrum like a child. One last thing I think that is important to mention,when we went on our first date, I told him I don't do hookups. We stayed out late and hit it off really well so I offered for him to stay the night at my place. I said I was okay with cuddling and whatever but I did not want to have sex. He seemed okay with it. I went to bed and then when I woke up, my pants were off and he was inside me. He claimed he didn't know I was asleep and thought I wanted it because apparently my butt kept rubbing against him while we were spooning.
It's been about a month since all that and I'm still just meh. I haven't exactly forgiven him but I also don't hate him. Things are normal. I act normal we still do couple things. But I can't help but wonder if he is just using me the same way he used them. I mean after all, he lives in my apartment rent free and asked me to buy him a truck for his birthday. He says I should forgive him because he genuinely doesn't remember doing these things and he didn't mean to lie to me. He said he's so ashamed of who he was but isn't like that anymore. He doesn't associate with who he was and wants to be given a chance to show that he is different. But can I ever forgive him? Should I? Where do I go from here? I feel so lost and confused. I dont think I'll ever be able to trust his word again. I dont feel secure. He broke me so bad I can't even feel anymore. Am I crazy and somehow making this a bigger deal than it is? Can I ever have the man I fell in love with back? I'm sorry if this was confusing. I'm typing this all out in one sitting. Please help me because I genuinely am so lost and I don't want to tell any friends because I don't want them to hate him.
TLDR: My boyfriend cheated on me with at least two other girls that I know of at the moment and has lied to me about too many things to count. His argument is that It doesn't actually count as cheating because he technically didn't date these people and he didn't remember doing it.
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After we started dating, he had briefly mentioned that he had a friend who had a bit of a crush on him. I told him I didn't mind and I trusted him. As long as he kept things respectful to me, it didn't matter. He then explained that her crush was a bit obsessive and he actually wanted to push her out of his life and needed advice. Apparently, this friend, (we will call her beth) was pregnant and wanted Michael to be her baby's God Father. He said that she would follow him and got jealous when he was with other girls. I found this kind of odd but he swore they were just friends, so I told him the best way to let her down gently and let him do his thing. About two weeks later, he told me she was out of the picture. I didn't really care either way but the communication was cool.
Anyways, I pretty quickly forgot about all of that because it was irrelevant and I wanted to focus on our relationship. One night when we were hanging out, he got a snapchat notification. He turned away from me to respond to it but I didn't think much of it, just asked who that was. He said it was just a friend (we will call this one Jen) and they were catching up. I had never heard of her before but I didn't care, I just said cool and dropped it. Just like before, I quickly forgot about that conversation because again,it was irrelevant and I had better things to think about. I trusted him so why should I care who he talks to? He is his own person after all and I understand the importance of friendships.
Fast forward about another two weeks later, him and I had our first argument. I dont remember what it was about. Most likely something small and pointless because I had a stressful day at work but nothing too serious. We did not talk much that day. Later that night, I apologized and we talked it over. Everything was fine. He then told me that earlier in the day, an old friend that he had removed off social media readded him and messaged him. We will call her Molly. Apparently she had just noticed she was removed and was upset and wanted to know why. He told me that he sent her a message explaining that he didn't see her in his life long term and doesn't feel the need to keep someone around who won't be around forever so he didn't want to be friends anymore. He then removed her again. At this point I thought the way he acted was odd. I had never heard of molly before, he waited until he had already removed her before telling me about the conversation, she only came into the picture when we had our first argument and it got me thinking about the other girls who were just friends. I definitely started to over think a bit and was more than curious about who these people were and what their relationship to him was. But he swore they were all just friends. So I continued to believe him.
We went a long period of time without anything coming up so once again I forgot about it and moved on with my life. Him and I were doing great. We were young dumb and in love. I felt truly happy, something I hadn't experienced in a long time. I felt like I genuinely found someone who was right for me and I didn't need to second guess whether or not he was gonna cheat on me. He occasionally would ask to see my phone but I didn't have anything to hide so I allowed him. I had set a boundary with him that if he ever felt concerned or needed reassurance, he needed to bring it up to me first. After we talked it over then he could see my phone, but we would always go through it together. This seemed fair to me. My phone was never off limits, there just needed to be open communication. Anyways, he would always offer for me to see his phone in return but I would decline. I didn't feel the need to and I had learned from past experiences that if you go digging, you will most likely see something you can't unsee.
Then one day he needed to have his wisdom teeth removed. I dropped him off in the morning for his surgery and I was told I needed to hold on to his personal belongings and wait until the operation was over. No big deal. I know this is wrong and I shouldn't have but finally curiosity got the best of me and I looked on his phone. At first it wasn't malicious. I genuinely was just curious. But of course, I saw things I wish I could unsee. It started off on tiktok. In one of his conversations with a friend, he poured his heart out, explaining how he was still so in love with his ex and missed her like crazy. Of course it stung a little to see the things he said but I knew there was someone before me so it wasn't that surprising. That was until I saw those messages had been sent in mid October. So of course i was like huh.we started talking early October and dating early November. So clearly he wasn't over his ex when he met me. But I was willing to forgive it. It wasn't a deal breaker. But Instead of putting the phone down to protect my peace and his privacy, I kept looking. And boy did I find a lot. I found lots of old text messages from contacts that were not saved. Most of then were hard-core sexting and flirting. This dude literally acted like a dog.And yeah it was again hard to see but it was before me and he wasn't like that anymore. With me, he was gentle and respectful and never treated me like an object. Some people just go through a phase and that's okay. Again, it wasn't a deal breaker. But finally i found some very passionate, lovey, intimate messages with an unsaved contact. I was immediately drawn in by the kind words and heartwarming love messages. Whoever this was, they cared for eachother very strongly. I almost immediately felt heartbroken. Not because she was a past love interest, but because he had never spoken to me the way he spoke to her. I read all the way from the top of the conversation. Months worth of love confessions, paragraphs of strong feelings, longing to be with one another, etc. But finally halfway through in one of the paragraphs I see a name. Molly I was shattered. Molly was the girl who supposedly was removed months before him and I even met. The one that was "just a friend" who messaged him and he removed her because he didn't want to be friends anymore. Yeah clearly they were more than just friends. I was livid and felt crushed. Why did he feel the need to lie about something so unnecessary? I wouldn't have been mad if he had told the truth about who she was. But then it got me thinking. Was Beth truly just a friend? Was Jen truly just a friend? What was the actual relationship? I gathered up as much as I could but then the nurse came to the lobby to tell me he was awake and ready to go home. I kind of panicked and in my hurry, I forgot to delete the screenshots out of his phone.
We get in the car and I give him his phone, he's still pretty loopy. Obviously I had a million questions to ask him but I knew he wasn't in the right state of mind to have that conversation so I put my feelings aside and decided it could wait. Well he wanted to take pictures of his bloody swollen face and send it to his uncle. In the process, he sees the screenshots i had forgotten to delete off his phone and immediately screams what the f*** is this? I tried to talk calmly and explain that now wasn't a good time to talk about it and it could wait. He kept pressing "what the f*** did you do? Who the hell is this?" In my mind I thought "uh dude, you tell me." But didn't want to escalate it while he was drugged up. I decided the best option was to simply say that I wasn't mad , I stilled planned on taking care of him while he recovered and that we would need to have a conversation when he was in a better state of mind. He just started sobbing. Oh boy. I kind of ignored it as much as I could. I drove us to the store to get ice cream and other soft foods he could eat before taking us back to my apartment. I helped get him set up in my bedroom and he still was crying. So much so he started coughing out blood. It smelled awful and got everywhere. He was a wreck. I felt bad for everything. I felt guilty for going on his phone behind his back, for leaving the screeshots on his phone and for him crying. It took several hours but eventually I got him to calm down. I kept my word and continued to take care of him until he was recovered.
Finally when enough time had passed I decided it was time to sit down and talk about it. I explained that obviously I had found messages and i wanted an explanation. He told me molly was just a friend, and very clearly it was more than that. I also explained that I had a suspicion that he was not fully honest about his relationship with Jen and Beth either. He looked me dead in the eyes and said he had no idea what I was talking about and they were just friends. I remained calm and explained that I won't be mad at him or leave him. I told him I didn't want to fight. I just felt as though I deserved to know the truth if I was going to continue to be with him, especially since he was still in contact with Beth and Jen while we were dating. We continue to go back and forward for several hours with no progress. I decided then if he didn't feel I deserved the truth, I would find out for myself. I took the screenshots I had found and reached out to the contacts one by one.
Let's start with Beth. She was the quickest to respond. I briefly explained who I was and that I was hoping to ask some questions about my partner because I felt like i was being lied to and was hoping she could fill in some of the gaps. She texted back and simply asked "do you work at blank" I responded that yes, I did. She then asked if I lived at a specific apartment complex. I said yes and was creeped out. She knew where I worked and lived. She then asked if she could call me. I agreed. For some context, he told me that she was a friend he had met in school. He explained that she had gotten out of a rough relationship and he wanted to make sure she was okay when it happened. That's how they became close. He explained that they would hang out all the time and eventually she became obsessed with him. Well during my phone call with her, I heard a very different story. Yes, they met in school and initially started off as friends. But, slowly with time as they started to spend more and more time together, they started to catch feelings. He said I love you first. And she proved this with screenshots. She also sent me pictures of them holding hands and kissing. She explained that they never officially started dating but they definitely were more than just friends. Their relationship was much more physical and romantic than platonic. She also told me that they had hooked up about 3 times. She explained that they had eachothers location and pretty frequently they would make plans then he would last minute cancel. So she would see what he was doing and would see him at two very specific addresses. Visiting my work or my apartment. She eventually asked him where he was and he told her that I was his cousin and was trying to get out of a rough relationship so he was helping me. I felt sick. No wonder why she was "obsessed" he was borderline dating her, telling her he loved her, and then started to ditch her when he made things official with me. Then it killed me to realize that even though they never had an official title, he was dating the two of us at the same time. I didn't know what to do. I ended up apologizing to her for everything he did and told her I never would have agreed to be his if I knew he was entertaining someone else. Michael overheard this phone call between us and looked like he had seen a ghost after. All he did was started crying, said she was lying, and that she was only a friend. I asked "so....these screenshots and pictures are all made up?" No response. He knew he was busted.
I decided I needed to take some time to process that information and I didn't want to say something I would regret. I let him stay at my place because he had nowhere else to go and I went to stay with a friend. He kept calling and texting but I couldn't deal with it. I cried all night. I was a mess. I should have just accepted that I was cheated on and lied to but I couldn't leave. I needed to know the truth. So I kept reaching out. Next up was Jen. I never was able to reach her, but I found out through Michael and Beth that Jen was Beth's best friend. But even more than that, I found out the three of them had a threesome together. He had told me previously that he had never been interested in a threesome and would never want to have one. Then I found out not only did he have one and lied about it, but it was with two girls he told me were just friends.
I went back to my apartment the next day and tried to talk stuff out. He just continued to say they were just friends. I finally snapped. I screamed and cried and told him that I just wanted to know the truth. That I deserved the truth. He looked me in the eyes, pinky promised me no more lies. We talked for a while and basically he explained that he never had an official title with Beth. They were very close but he basically just used her to pass time because he had nothing better to do. He said he loved her because that's what she wanted to hear and he treated her like a partner without ever having any real feelings for her. He knew as soon as he met me that he wanted me but didn't want to hurt her so he just kind of pushed her to the side but kept her in the picture. I felt so sad for her. He used her. He led her on. He treated her like an object and then threw her to the side when he met me.I asked why he lied about having a threesome. He said he felt ashamed Apparently they started to do it and then he chickened out so he didn't really count it. That made sense to me. I was pissed that he lied but at least it made sense. Next I asked why he told me Beth and Jen were just friends instead of being honest about the relationship. He said he never had feelings for either and they never had the official title so he didn't think it was important and he did not want to scare me off. I explained to him that although I understand why he lied to me, I didn't forgive him. I warned him that I would not tolerate anymore lies and obviously for the time being I did not trust him. I told him I wouldn't break up with him but if I found out he lied again, he would lose me. I also told him I considered what he did as cheating since he was seeing us at the same time after him and I became mutually exclusive. After we concluded our conversation about Beth and Jen, I started thinking about molly and the messages I had seen. I asked him what their relationship was, he said just friends. I freaked and told him to give me his phone. I found their old messages and told him to read them. "Hey goofball, you awake? Well if you're not I have something impossible to say to you. You are my sun, my moon, and all my stars. I love you lots and want you to know that no matter what happens I will always care about you. To me you are perfect. Amazing. And attractive asf. You are also very sweet and caring and adorable. Don't think about the negative things about yourself that will drag you down. You are way more than that. This is an official goodnight and I love you goofball." This is just one of the MANY messages sent back and forward. He reads the conversation and just goes oh. He then says he didn't remember any of that happening. We began to argue and the story he tried to spin was that his life must have been so traumatic that his brain literally deleted his past memories and replaced them with false memories where he didn't do these things that he is ashamed of. He got caught in lies and after so long was just like...whoa I did that? I had no idea I didn't remember. Technically I didn't lie because I told what I thought the truth was the way I remembered it. I told him I wanted to break up and he cried and begged me to forgive him and stay. I listened.i tried to move on and make things normal again but I couldn't stop thinking about all the lies and what else he might have been lying about. Then randomly one day, Molly added me back on social media. She was the last and took over 1.5 months so honestly I figured I'd never get ahold of her. I was genuinely surprised to see her show up on my friend list and reached out. Once again back story, he told me that she lived in Wisconin and they had never met. He said he was also using her for nudes and to pass time, same way he used Beth. He had told me that he removed her off social media months before him and I even met and aside from that one night she reached out, he hadn't heard from her in forever. I found out from her that she did not live in Wisconsin, she lived in the same state as us That to her, they were definitely dating and in love. I also saw a messaged saved on snapchat where he had been texting her in October (after we met) and even sent her the same pickup lines he had sent me. he had cheated with not just one, but two (at least that I know of) other girls.
At this point I had been broken so bad I didn't even feel the pain anymore. I just went numb. I had no more tears left to cry and couldn't be bothered to care anymore. I stopped eating and taking care of myself. I just went to work, came home, slept and repeated. I had watched the man that I loved and adored, one that made me feel so safe and happy turn into a monster right in front of me. He wasn't him anymore. I finally could see him for who he was. But I still didn't leave. He told me that he had only ever slept with three girls. I later found out it was actually six. He told me he had never been in love before. I later found out he tells basically every girl he's ever talked to that he loves them AND genuinely was in love with his ex before me. He told me after his ex and him broke up, he had a rebound but he only hooked up with her once before ghosting her. I found out they actually dated for several weeks, hooked up several times, and she had taken cute couple pictures with him and posted them on social media. He said that he never wanted to take those pictures, she made him put his Hands on her and pose and if he didn't cooperate, she would throw a tantrum like a child. One last thing I think that is important to mention,when we went on our first date, I told him I don't do hookups. We stayed out late and hit it off really well so I offered for him to stay the night at my place. I said I was okay with cuddling and whatever but I did not want to have sex. He seemed okay with it. I went to bed and then when I woke up, my pants were off and he was inside me. He claimed he didn't know I was asleep and thought I wanted it because apparently my butt kept rubbing against him while we were spooning.
It's been about a month since all that and I'm still just meh. I haven't exactly forgiven him but I also don't hate him. Things are normal. I act normal we still do couple things. But I can't help but wonder if he is just using me the same way he used them. I mean after all, he lives in my apartment rent free and asked me to buy him a truck for his birthday. He says I should forgive him because he genuinely doesn't remember doing these things and he didn't mean to lie to me. He said he's so ashamed of who he was but isn't like that anymore. He doesn't associate with who he was and wants to be given a chance to show that he is different. But can I ever forgive him? Should I? Where do I go from here? I feel so lost and confused. I dont think I'll ever be able to trust his word again. I dont feel secure. He broke me so bad I can't even feel anymore. Am I crazy and somehow making this a bigger deal than it is? Can I ever have the man I fell in love with back? I'm sorry if this was confusing. I'm typing this all out in one sitting. Please help me because I genuinely am so lost and I don't want to tell any friends because I don't want them to hate him.
TLDR: My boyfriend cheated on me with at least two other girls that I know of at the moment and has lied to me about too many things to count. His argument is that It doesn't actually count as cheating because he technically didn't date these people and he didn't remember doing it.
2024.05.22 01:53 EvilZero86 Story #39 - The Dark Side 3
Quick Recap:
This is a continuation of an ongoing event. I checked my timeline of fasting. After I finished a fast a few days later Laura's mother had a medical emergency. This is when they learned that she had some kind of brain cancer.
Story:
Since then, Laura returned to work. I was absolutely surprised she had returned to work so soon. She was different. A woman going through great pain. Still emotional and angry. She had chosen to come back to work. She was not ready to be back at work. She was still highly emotional from the whole ordeal. This puzzled me. But, then it all made sense. This is exactly around the time I finished my consecutive fastings and began to crystallize a new reality. In other words, my reality started to become stable. I had also eaten sugar after the fast. That tended to give me some anxiety. I won't go in too much detail about this, but I know it was allowing my reality to stabilize and I stopped surfing through parallel realities so to speak. And reverted back a little bit to the old reality. But, not completely.
That was also very interesting because it allowed me to understand things that were going on behind the scenes. She told me what happened during the time she was away. Her mother started berating and cursing her. Almost as if she can't control herself anymore. This was every day. Laura told me that she cried every day. She says it got so bad that she thought about suicide. That it got that bad. She just couldn't take it anymore and she didn't have much support. Not from her own sister or boyfriend.
The cancer continues to eat away at her brain. She continues to get worse by the day. It is almost inevitable. She found a good nursing home for her mother. This is where she is currently living. There is not much the doctors can do for her having brain cancer. She's awaiting her last days.
Conclusion:
Her(Laura) mood seems to have improved. I believe she still has days of tears. However, I think I understand the emotional demons she carries. I have seen them during the fast. And they seem to be the ignition to my triggers. That lets me know I have triggers to get rid of. More weaknesses to overcome. More demons to transmute. Laura has this natural ability in personality to activate triggers within me. Now, things are starting to make sense as to why she is greatly affected during my fasts.
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This is a continuation of an ongoing event. I checked my timeline of fasting. After I finished a fast a few days later Laura's mother had a medical emergency. This is when they learned that she had some kind of brain cancer.
Story:
Since then, Laura returned to work. I was absolutely surprised she had returned to work so soon. She was different. A woman going through great pain. Still emotional and angry. She had chosen to come back to work. She was not ready to be back at work. She was still highly emotional from the whole ordeal. This puzzled me. But, then it all made sense. This is exactly around the time I finished my consecutive fastings and began to crystallize a new reality. In other words, my reality started to become stable. I had also eaten sugar after the fast. That tended to give me some anxiety. I won't go in too much detail about this, but I know it was allowing my reality to stabilize and I stopped surfing through parallel realities so to speak. And reverted back a little bit to the old reality. But, not completely.
That was also very interesting because it allowed me to understand things that were going on behind the scenes. She told me what happened during the time she was away. Her mother started berating and cursing her. Almost as if she can't control herself anymore. This was every day. Laura told me that she cried every day. She says it got so bad that she thought about suicide. That it got that bad. She just couldn't take it anymore and she didn't have much support. Not from her own sister or boyfriend.
The cancer continues to eat away at her brain. She continues to get worse by the day. It is almost inevitable. She found a good nursing home for her mother. This is where she is currently living. There is not much the doctors can do for her having brain cancer. She's awaiting her last days.
Conclusion:
Her(Laura) mood seems to have improved. I believe she still has days of tears. However, I think I understand the emotional demons she carries. I have seen them during the fast. And they seem to be the ignition to my triggers. That lets me know I have triggers to get rid of. More weaknesses to overcome. More demons to transmute. Laura has this natural ability in personality to activate triggers within me. Now, things are starting to make sense as to why she is greatly affected during my fasts.
2024.05.22 01:45 _-someone-_- Poem about my panic attacks.
For context, when I get them my body freezes and basically starts to seize. They come on randomly, without anything to trigger them. Here’s the poem.
People don’t understand The loudness of the mind So loud that it almost seems to stop time It’s overwhelming Overbearing Like the words aren’t mine Yet here I stay, frozen, As my brain starts to untwine
My muscles, they freeze Like I have some disease. But no one seems to understand me. I can barely talk I can’t even walk I just sit there and cry As my mind seems to rot
My limbs they go numb And then I become Like an infant that just started sucking its thumb.
I feel so damn helpless Embarrassed and scared But no matter what, it seems that I’m never prepared
The nurse says that she Has never seen Someone react such a way as me I’m sorry I’m sorry I can’t control it It just happens, all I have to do is exist
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People don’t understand The loudness of the mind So loud that it almost seems to stop time It’s overwhelming Overbearing Like the words aren’t mine Yet here I stay, frozen, As my brain starts to untwine
My muscles, they freeze Like I have some disease. But no one seems to understand me. I can barely talk I can’t even walk I just sit there and cry As my mind seems to rot
My limbs they go numb And then I become Like an infant that just started sucking its thumb.
I feel so damn helpless Embarrassed and scared But no matter what, it seems that I’m never prepared
The nurse says that she Has never seen Someone react such a way as me I’m sorry I’m sorry I can’t control it It just happens, all I have to do is exist
2024.05.22 01:35 Billymays76 My grandma's turning 90 soon and I'm scared.
So very, very soon, my grandmother will be turning 90. I am excited, not many people live until 90, even less without one of the many complications she has. I'm happy for her but I am still so scared.
She's been dealing with delirium since January 7th. However, when she came home around April 23rd, her cognition has improved an astonishing amount. I still can't understand why. My best guess, is simply just the delirium taking a long time to leave the body. The cause of her obtaining it, I still don't know. I wanted to post about it, but the first time it didn't get a lot of attention and I've been trying to find the words for it but still haven't.
She went to the hospital because she fell and has an L1 and L2 mild compression fracture. Thankfully it wasn't too serious, the doctors have confidence she'll recover well, her physical therapist says she's very strong, she doesn't even have to wear the brace that much either. I still get so anxious when she sits down a bit hard and when she tries to bend forward to pick up something though. And she has been getting stronger.
The reason why I'm scared is because I'm scared of the future. Now, her cognition is basically a day and night difference, but she still has hiccups. Most of it can be chalked up to her lack of education when she was a kid, and also the fact that old Hispanic women are INCREDIBLY superstitious. But she still has hiccups. Sometimes she still forgets my brother's name but most times she can guess it right. To be fair, he pretty much never spends times with her.
She still believes someone stole some money from her, which she believed during her delirium. She still gets sad about it and apparently other things were stolen too, but she doesn't react as badly as she did during the delirium. She would literally be so stressed out until she's red in the face and almost passing out. Screaming, crying, literally passing out, then talking when she's passed out and crying too. It was horrific.
Her cognition is still amazing though, her doctor and neurologist were so surprised by that. We told her today "you know your birthday is coming soon right?" And she looks at us with a big grin, and says "did you guys think I didn't know?" And starts laughing. She can recite bible passages very well by memory, though not 100%, still INSANELY impressive.
She is so much more clear, thinks so much more rationally, even when she's crazy tired or just woke up, she is still clear.
I'm scared of the future. I'm scared that she will get delirium again. And delirium can hurt the brain, and even if she doesn't have dementia, it could possibly increase the chances of it more. I'm scared of "jinxing" it. Like I tell someone "yeah her memory is so good" and then right after, she all of a sudden develops the delirium again.
I still remember the morning she woke up with that delirium. It gives me a sinking feeling in my chest when I think of it. Basically almost 5 months of hell. It was so horrible. I'm scared to go through that again. It's to the point, where if she says something that doesn't make sense, my heart starts pounding and I think "oh God no, the delirium's back."
Now, she tells me things that catch me off guard with how clear she is. She told me "we have dominoes to play with in that dresser next to my bed." And she's right. Haven't seen those dominoes in a year and I completely forgot about them.
She remembers the horrible rehab she was in, remembers my best friend and his family, remembers the woman she was friends with at the rehab, etc. During her delirium, she didn't say a single word about the rehab, but now she talks to us about it. Her cognition is frankly amazing. Even with the minor hiccups she has, it's still amazing.
I'm obsessed now with researching everything I can possibly do to make sure her mind doesn't slip again. Cleaning her very well whenever she uses the bathroom so she won't develop another UTI, giving her the most nutritious meals for her mind and body, encouraging her to read more, trying to exercise more, etc.
I know I should be happy now, I am. But I'm still so scared. When her memory started coming back, I thought "I used to pray for times like this" and now I'm praying that her mind doesn't slip again. That she will recover and get stronger than ever because I still have hope. Even after all this, I still do.
We plan to ween her off her Xanax since those are benzos and even then, they don't affect her that much. I'm still very iffy on the dementia "diagnosis" since that diagnosis was made back in June, when she was in that horrific rehab and the nurses there would just tell people, including paramedics she has dementia. Keep in mind, no scan or anything. And when you leave an 89 year old woman in a crap filled diaper, a UTI and a horrific bedsore, yeah, she's not gonna be the most clearest person.
I pray that all these complications will become less serious and her body and mind will recover, and stay recovered. I'm committed to making her as mentally and physically strong as I can. Her other physical therapist literally helped this lady who was over 100 years old, walk and even do a light jog, after years of her being so frail. I pray I'm able to do that for her.
Any advice for any of this? Thanks.
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She's been dealing with delirium since January 7th. However, when she came home around April 23rd, her cognition has improved an astonishing amount. I still can't understand why. My best guess, is simply just the delirium taking a long time to leave the body. The cause of her obtaining it, I still don't know. I wanted to post about it, but the first time it didn't get a lot of attention and I've been trying to find the words for it but still haven't.
She went to the hospital because she fell and has an L1 and L2 mild compression fracture. Thankfully it wasn't too serious, the doctors have confidence she'll recover well, her physical therapist says she's very strong, she doesn't even have to wear the brace that much either. I still get so anxious when she sits down a bit hard and when she tries to bend forward to pick up something though. And she has been getting stronger.
The reason why I'm scared is because I'm scared of the future. Now, her cognition is basically a day and night difference, but she still has hiccups. Most of it can be chalked up to her lack of education when she was a kid, and also the fact that old Hispanic women are INCREDIBLY superstitious. But she still has hiccups. Sometimes she still forgets my brother's name but most times she can guess it right. To be fair, he pretty much never spends times with her.
She still believes someone stole some money from her, which she believed during her delirium. She still gets sad about it and apparently other things were stolen too, but she doesn't react as badly as she did during the delirium. She would literally be so stressed out until she's red in the face and almost passing out. Screaming, crying, literally passing out, then talking when she's passed out and crying too. It was horrific.
Her cognition is still amazing though, her doctor and neurologist were so surprised by that. We told her today "you know your birthday is coming soon right?" And she looks at us with a big grin, and says "did you guys think I didn't know?" And starts laughing. She can recite bible passages very well by memory, though not 100%, still INSANELY impressive.
She is so much more clear, thinks so much more rationally, even when she's crazy tired or just woke up, she is still clear.
I'm scared of the future. I'm scared that she will get delirium again. And delirium can hurt the brain, and even if she doesn't have dementia, it could possibly increase the chances of it more. I'm scared of "jinxing" it. Like I tell someone "yeah her memory is so good" and then right after, she all of a sudden develops the delirium again.
I still remember the morning she woke up with that delirium. It gives me a sinking feeling in my chest when I think of it. Basically almost 5 months of hell. It was so horrible. I'm scared to go through that again. It's to the point, where if she says something that doesn't make sense, my heart starts pounding and I think "oh God no, the delirium's back."
Now, she tells me things that catch me off guard with how clear she is. She told me "we have dominoes to play with in that dresser next to my bed." And she's right. Haven't seen those dominoes in a year and I completely forgot about them.
She remembers the horrible rehab she was in, remembers my best friend and his family, remembers the woman she was friends with at the rehab, etc. During her delirium, she didn't say a single word about the rehab, but now she talks to us about it. Her cognition is frankly amazing. Even with the minor hiccups she has, it's still amazing.
I'm obsessed now with researching everything I can possibly do to make sure her mind doesn't slip again. Cleaning her very well whenever she uses the bathroom so she won't develop another UTI, giving her the most nutritious meals for her mind and body, encouraging her to read more, trying to exercise more, etc.
I know I should be happy now, I am. But I'm still so scared. When her memory started coming back, I thought "I used to pray for times like this" and now I'm praying that her mind doesn't slip again. That she will recover and get stronger than ever because I still have hope. Even after all this, I still do.
We plan to ween her off her Xanax since those are benzos and even then, they don't affect her that much. I'm still very iffy on the dementia "diagnosis" since that diagnosis was made back in June, when she was in that horrific rehab and the nurses there would just tell people, including paramedics she has dementia. Keep in mind, no scan or anything. And when you leave an 89 year old woman in a crap filled diaper, a UTI and a horrific bedsore, yeah, she's not gonna be the most clearest person.
I pray that all these complications will become less serious and her body and mind will recover, and stay recovered. I'm committed to making her as mentally and physically strong as I can. Her other physical therapist literally helped this lady who was over 100 years old, walk and even do a light jog, after years of her being so frail. I pray I'm able to do that for her.
Any advice for any of this? Thanks.
2024.05.22 01:10 FlyHarper Getting diagnosed (childhood trauma)
30yr old female, ten years in the military, single mom, lots of trauma.
I am currently going through the process of being diagnosed with Bipolar II.
I am reaching out because I have spent precious hours or sleep and working hours (called off) reading this reddit bipolar2. I'm has made so much sense to me, especially some of the Posts that made so much sense it felt like it was about me.
I have been treated for mental health since 2013. (19/20yr) It started in the navy after I had a sexual trauma. I was having anxiety attacks, I couldn't be in the workshop without feeling anxiety so intense I was either going to cry rage or run to the bathroom and hide while I try to calm myself. They started me on Prozac and at the time it helped with the anxiety attacks. But I still had high anxiety and I have had depression episodes that felt never ending. The navy doctors never diagnosed me due to certain diagnosis could effect your job. So they would say things like adjustment disorder (which is only 6 months) or traits of BPD, generalized anxiety and depression, and they would test my most severe symptoms. I always thought it was weird that they're giving me drugs before an diagnosis. Even now that I'm a veteran and using the VA it's the same issue. I'm getting a certain set of drug options.
It feels like ok you can have a turkey sandwich, ham, chicken, but those are the options. You can try the turkey with the ham. They would only offer me antidepressants and I have been on almost every single one except paxil and amitriptyline (which I would have happily tried since I have stomach issues too)
Fast forward to now. I have mostly been effected by anxiety and depression. I'll be anxious so much so that I go numb. I don't care about anything. I just want to sleep. I don't do hygiene well(which boggles my brain since I usually have to take one before work and one before bed, due to my trauma I feel a layer of filth that won't go away with a shower) I do the bare minimum for myself and even my kid. The anxiety is constant. My mind is always racing. I used to say it feels like I'm in a racquet ball court and there's thousands of balls bouncing and ricocheting in the glass box. Now I've learned it's called FOI. The difference between the anxiety and depression for me is I can be anxious and not depressed. But my anxiety causes me to be depressed and it can last months. Sometimes it feels like years. It's like sometimes my depression is louder than the anxiety and sometimes my anxiety is louder. It's like my psyche can't handle the anxiety and so it just switches off.
This has effected my family my job and my relationships both friends and boyfriend.
I will feel like I'm not myself.
Things I love I can't motivate myself enough to go enjoy like being outside or swimming. Not even for my kid. It's awful.
I have had a lot of traumatic experience as a child, I.e. physical, emotional, verbal and sexual, both to me and my brother and mom. Because of the abuse it is assumed I might have PTSD or BPD by the doctor I was seeing at the time. But I didn't feel like I had all of the specifiers for either of those. Plus I've had trauma at such a young age it's hard to know what's normal for me and what's not.
By the time I was in my mid twenties I had several patterns of severe depression periods and everytime I came out of the depression I thought I was "cured" the antidepressants were helping, the consistent lifestyle that's now structured is helping, etc. And I would be so relieved from the crushing depression that I didn't question or think about the energy I was having or if it's weird that I traded the depression for other issues like spending too much money, dating men too fast or not in a healthy manner, I was just relieved to be social and going out of my house. I thought I was making bad decisions because I'm a piece of shit and need to try harder to be decent. I'd clean my house, do more things for my kid, basically function like an adult, if not a little extreme.
The times I had a new doctor and they did the generic screening questions I always felt like the bipolar was too extreme for me to fit. My best friend is bipolar and I was not as intense as her. Same as my ex-husband. So I didn't think I was possibly bipolar.
But in my mid twenties, I was starting to wonder why I wasn't getting better, why do I have there ups and downs, it feels like a cycle or a pattern (not a pattern that makes sense)
I asked my doctor if the depression was resistant and I asked why the meds weren't working. I have ADHD (possibly just whatever mental health disorder causing ADHD symptoms?)so I would ask the doctor if maybe the ADHD was causing/manifesting the anxiety or exacerbated it. I read ADHD can make you more susceptible to anxiety and depression.
Basically a lot of Mental health issues share a lot ofbtje same symptoms. I read about the personality disorders and clusters A,B and C. I read the dsm 5 tr specifiers for mood disorders and other mental health issues.
With the help of dsm 5, the specifiers made me realize I have more to my mind than just anxiety and depression.
I'm currently waiting on an extensive screening with the VA to see what's going on.
The nurse practitioner I'm seeing now thinks it could be bipolar II. I hope it's not but I also feel like if it's a diagnosis that can help my treatment then fine. At this point I just want to feel better.
I've been diagnosed with ADHD, traits of BPD, generalized anxiety and depression, PTSD. Most of these didn't feel like they fit me. I would be depressed and that depression would crush me and make me not take care of myself or my home or I was moving so fast, up and about being the Energizer Bunny until I burned myself out and then I was back to being useless.
The DSM 5 specifiers pointed out that I had more than just the anxiety and depression. Some for major depression disorder (MDD), I did see why they might see traits of BPD since I had childhood trauma and there's some patterns of changing jobs and relationships. But I don't feel like I have a lot of fear from abandonment and my moods feel more like I don't have control of them. BPD seems more like your thoughts control your moods and feelings but for me I feel more like I'm being jerked around. I'll start to have energy and the depression lifts to boom, I'm depressed again don't want to shower work or socialize. It's horrible and makes me feel like I'm a horrible person.
I'm hoping by expressing my concern of the pattern/ cycle of depression and anxiety more similar to the hypomania and depression to my provider that the treatment could shift towards a new treatment that's more appropriate.
Right now the provider and I suspect it could be bipolar II. She started me on vraylar but I'm waiting for the VA to approve the prescription. She told me to stop taking the Zoloft 100mg I'm on(which normally I would titrate so I don't have effects from stopping suddenly). I'm having a nervous breakdown. Like I was bad before and now stopping the Zoloft is like gasoline on my mood. I'm not going to work I'm so anxious. So I went to the walk in clinic at the VA and they put me on a low dose of Seroquel. That has been hard. I'm on day two and I'm so out of it and lethargic I slept all day. I didn't go to work. I missed a week and a day. They know a little of what's going on but I know I'm on thin ice, if I don't get my shit together and go back to work soon I'm probably going to be fired.
Right now I'm kind of hoping this reddit could explain some of their personal experiences with getting diagnosed and the treatments they've tried. Especially people with childhood trauma or sexual trauma as a young adult, parents that were alcoholics, abusive, negligent or created unstable homelifes.
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I am currently going through the process of being diagnosed with Bipolar II.
I am reaching out because I have spent precious hours or sleep and working hours (called off) reading this reddit bipolar2. I'm has made so much sense to me, especially some of the Posts that made so much sense it felt like it was about me.
I have been treated for mental health since 2013. (19/20yr) It started in the navy after I had a sexual trauma. I was having anxiety attacks, I couldn't be in the workshop without feeling anxiety so intense I was either going to cry rage or run to the bathroom and hide while I try to calm myself. They started me on Prozac and at the time it helped with the anxiety attacks. But I still had high anxiety and I have had depression episodes that felt never ending. The navy doctors never diagnosed me due to certain diagnosis could effect your job. So they would say things like adjustment disorder (which is only 6 months) or traits of BPD, generalized anxiety and depression, and they would test my most severe symptoms. I always thought it was weird that they're giving me drugs before an diagnosis. Even now that I'm a veteran and using the VA it's the same issue. I'm getting a certain set of drug options.
It feels like ok you can have a turkey sandwich, ham, chicken, but those are the options. You can try the turkey with the ham. They would only offer me antidepressants and I have been on almost every single one except paxil and amitriptyline (which I would have happily tried since I have stomach issues too)
Fast forward to now. I have mostly been effected by anxiety and depression. I'll be anxious so much so that I go numb. I don't care about anything. I just want to sleep. I don't do hygiene well(which boggles my brain since I usually have to take one before work and one before bed, due to my trauma I feel a layer of filth that won't go away with a shower) I do the bare minimum for myself and even my kid. The anxiety is constant. My mind is always racing. I used to say it feels like I'm in a racquet ball court and there's thousands of balls bouncing and ricocheting in the glass box. Now I've learned it's called FOI. The difference between the anxiety and depression for me is I can be anxious and not depressed. But my anxiety causes me to be depressed and it can last months. Sometimes it feels like years. It's like sometimes my depression is louder than the anxiety and sometimes my anxiety is louder. It's like my psyche can't handle the anxiety and so it just switches off.
This has effected my family my job and my relationships both friends and boyfriend.
I will feel like I'm not myself.
Things I love I can't motivate myself enough to go enjoy like being outside or swimming. Not even for my kid. It's awful.
I have had a lot of traumatic experience as a child, I.e. physical, emotional, verbal and sexual, both to me and my brother and mom. Because of the abuse it is assumed I might have PTSD or BPD by the doctor I was seeing at the time. But I didn't feel like I had all of the specifiers for either of those. Plus I've had trauma at such a young age it's hard to know what's normal for me and what's not.
By the time I was in my mid twenties I had several patterns of severe depression periods and everytime I came out of the depression I thought I was "cured" the antidepressants were helping, the consistent lifestyle that's now structured is helping, etc. And I would be so relieved from the crushing depression that I didn't question or think about the energy I was having or if it's weird that I traded the depression for other issues like spending too much money, dating men too fast or not in a healthy manner, I was just relieved to be social and going out of my house. I thought I was making bad decisions because I'm a piece of shit and need to try harder to be decent. I'd clean my house, do more things for my kid, basically function like an adult, if not a little extreme.
The times I had a new doctor and they did the generic screening questions I always felt like the bipolar was too extreme for me to fit. My best friend is bipolar and I was not as intense as her. Same as my ex-husband. So I didn't think I was possibly bipolar.
But in my mid twenties, I was starting to wonder why I wasn't getting better, why do I have there ups and downs, it feels like a cycle or a pattern (not a pattern that makes sense)
I asked my doctor if the depression was resistant and I asked why the meds weren't working. I have ADHD (possibly just whatever mental health disorder causing ADHD symptoms?)so I would ask the doctor if maybe the ADHD was causing/manifesting the anxiety or exacerbated it. I read ADHD can make you more susceptible to anxiety and depression.
Basically a lot of Mental health issues share a lot ofbtje same symptoms. I read about the personality disorders and clusters A,B and C. I read the dsm 5 tr specifiers for mood disorders and other mental health issues.
With the help of dsm 5, the specifiers made me realize I have more to my mind than just anxiety and depression.
I'm currently waiting on an extensive screening with the VA to see what's going on.
The nurse practitioner I'm seeing now thinks it could be bipolar II. I hope it's not but I also feel like if it's a diagnosis that can help my treatment then fine. At this point I just want to feel better.
I've been diagnosed with ADHD, traits of BPD, generalized anxiety and depression, PTSD. Most of these didn't feel like they fit me. I would be depressed and that depression would crush me and make me not take care of myself or my home or I was moving so fast, up and about being the Energizer Bunny until I burned myself out and then I was back to being useless.
The DSM 5 specifiers pointed out that I had more than just the anxiety and depression. Some for major depression disorder (MDD), I did see why they might see traits of BPD since I had childhood trauma and there's some patterns of changing jobs and relationships. But I don't feel like I have a lot of fear from abandonment and my moods feel more like I don't have control of them. BPD seems more like your thoughts control your moods and feelings but for me I feel more like I'm being jerked around. I'll start to have energy and the depression lifts to boom, I'm depressed again don't want to shower work or socialize. It's horrible and makes me feel like I'm a horrible person.
I'm hoping by expressing my concern of the pattern/ cycle of depression and anxiety more similar to the hypomania and depression to my provider that the treatment could shift towards a new treatment that's more appropriate.
Right now the provider and I suspect it could be bipolar II. She started me on vraylar but I'm waiting for the VA to approve the prescription. She told me to stop taking the Zoloft 100mg I'm on(which normally I would titrate so I don't have effects from stopping suddenly). I'm having a nervous breakdown. Like I was bad before and now stopping the Zoloft is like gasoline on my mood. I'm not going to work I'm so anxious. So I went to the walk in clinic at the VA and they put me on a low dose of Seroquel. That has been hard. I'm on day two and I'm so out of it and lethargic I slept all day. I didn't go to work. I missed a week and a day. They know a little of what's going on but I know I'm on thin ice, if I don't get my shit together and go back to work soon I'm probably going to be fired.
Right now I'm kind of hoping this reddit could explain some of their personal experiences with getting diagnosed and the treatments they've tried. Especially people with childhood trauma or sexual trauma as a young adult, parents that were alcoholics, abusive, negligent or created unstable homelifes.
2024.05.21 23:56 FightingButterflies Has any of you had this happen?
Hi there everyone. Please excuse the length of my post. I'm a talker, and a detail person. The thing is, I need help in figuring out what could be happening.
Six weeks ago I went to the emergency room sure my potassium was low again (I was right...when it comes to my potassium being low, I have yet to be wrong), and they gave me two and a half huge pills to take while I was there and then discharged me.
Three weeks ago I was feeling the same...worse actually. So I went in and they said I was at a critical low and I needed an infusion and more pills. That was fine with me. I'm just trying to keep from having the fatal heart arrhythmia that my Dad died of at the age of 71 at the age of 48 (he had Crohn's disease, I have Lupus).
Yesterday I went in because I was sure my potassium was low again, and I was right. They gave me pills to take there and they did another infusion. I think they might have infused me with twice as much potassium as they had three weeks prior, but I could be wrong about that.
The ER doctor insisted that I needed to be admitted, but couldn't be bothered to come talk to me about it and answer the questions I had about why this keeps happening over a relatively short period of time, and why I can't keep my potassium from going down to a critically low level every few weeks. Nope. I never saw him ONCE. He told one of the nurses to tell me that he would be admitting me, had them start treatment on me without telling me what they were doing or why they were doing it. There was no f*#ing way I was letting him admit me. (I decided that if I needed to be admitted I'd go to a better hospital). (Just in case you're wondering why I didn't go to the ER at the better hospital, I chose not to because their ER is a nightmare. I didn't want to go through it until I knew that I needed to).
Anyway, I'm home, and I'm feeling good. No heart palpitations, none of the pain that leads to me going to the ER for this, no shortness of breath.
Normally I need an infusion once every few years. So all this happening in the course of six weeks is REALLY WEIRD for me. And I've battled low electrolytes for ten years at least.
I was on high dose steroids (to get my brain pressure under control) for about six to eight weeks over Christmas and into the new year. Then I weaned off of them per the doctor's instructions. I'm suspicious that this might be playing a role in the process speeding up to what feels like hyperdrive, but I have no idea how that would have happened, or why. And I'm open to all opinions.
My question is, has this happened to anyone else? Did you and your doctor ever figure out why your body didn't hold on to the potassium for more than a few weeks? Did weaning off of high dose steroids play a role in it?
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Six weeks ago I went to the emergency room sure my potassium was low again (I was right...when it comes to my potassium being low, I have yet to be wrong), and they gave me two and a half huge pills to take while I was there and then discharged me.
Three weeks ago I was feeling the same...worse actually. So I went in and they said I was at a critical low and I needed an infusion and more pills. That was fine with me. I'm just trying to keep from having the fatal heart arrhythmia that my Dad died of at the age of 71 at the age of 48 (he had Crohn's disease, I have Lupus).
Yesterday I went in because I was sure my potassium was low again, and I was right. They gave me pills to take there and they did another infusion. I think they might have infused me with twice as much potassium as they had three weeks prior, but I could be wrong about that.
The ER doctor insisted that I needed to be admitted, but couldn't be bothered to come talk to me about it and answer the questions I had about why this keeps happening over a relatively short period of time, and why I can't keep my potassium from going down to a critically low level every few weeks. Nope. I never saw him ONCE. He told one of the nurses to tell me that he would be admitting me, had them start treatment on me without telling me what they were doing or why they were doing it. There was no f*#ing way I was letting him admit me. (I decided that if I needed to be admitted I'd go to a better hospital). (Just in case you're wondering why I didn't go to the ER at the better hospital, I chose not to because their ER is a nightmare. I didn't want to go through it until I knew that I needed to).
Anyway, I'm home, and I'm feeling good. No heart palpitations, none of the pain that leads to me going to the ER for this, no shortness of breath.
Normally I need an infusion once every few years. So all this happening in the course of six weeks is REALLY WEIRD for me. And I've battled low electrolytes for ten years at least.
I was on high dose steroids (to get my brain pressure under control) for about six to eight weeks over Christmas and into the new year. Then I weaned off of them per the doctor's instructions. I'm suspicious that this might be playing a role in the process speeding up to what feels like hyperdrive, but I have no idea how that would have happened, or why. And I'm open to all opinions.
My question is, has this happened to anyone else? Did you and your doctor ever figure out why your body didn't hold on to the potassium for more than a few weeks? Did weaning off of high dose steroids play a role in it?
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As of 2021, I have tutored and helped students enrolled at the following U.S. universities community colleges county & city colleges schools for-profit institutions listed below in alphabetical order:
I OFFER FLEXIBLE PAYMENT PLANS:
Considering the fact that you found my contact information online, it’s understandable to be skeptical regarding the legitimacy of my services. Therefore, I’m willing to do all of the following to help you feel more secure in trusting me with your academic needs:
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2024.05.21 22:48 Dissociating_fairy May 21, 2024
There's quite a bit to go through today.
Last night I had an anxiety attack. My trigger was my mental health and how despite being diagnosed with depression and anxiety and taking medications, I still feel like something is wrong with my brain. I have intrusive and racing thoughts which are hard to control and last night it was SOO overwhelming that I froze. I started to cry uncontrollably, I tightly clasped my hands together and felt like I couldn't let go...eventually, I started pacing and shifting my weight from my right to left leg back and forth until I calmed down. Surprisingly I slept well after that. I felt like I got some deep sleep. I don't know if the anxiety attack just tired me out so much that I slept the best I have slept for the past week or so.
I dreamt quite a bit. But the dream that stood out was that I was pregnant with his baby. I remember having this big pregnant belly, I remember giving birth and the delivery being so smooth and quick, I remember the nurses laying her right next to me on my left side for some skin-to-skin contact...she was so cute. I was so happy having my new baby girl, him, and my mom all by my side. I looked up pregnancy/birth dream meanings and supposedly it means "new beginnings". The way I interpreted it was that not only am I going through this new transformation as an individual, but our relationship is too. But also he has been the only person I have truly wanted a baby with so maybe it could just be a more literal subconscious desire.
After a quick yoga session, I went out to the store this morning. I went to World Market to look for this 5-pack coffee syrups sample because I started making my coffee at home again but didn't have any syrups to give it that **pizzazz**. I got them along with a new espresso cup because the one I had at home was broken. I also bought these cute little felt mushroom string lights. I thought the mushrooms would look pretty cute since I have a lot of plants and stuff in my room. After that, I went to Chick-fil-A and got my usual. And I know I said I wasn't depressed, but maybe I am? Just a little? Because despite doing all these little things that should've brought me joy, I didn't truly feel happy. I didn't feel super sad...I guess the best way to describe how I feel today is numb.
I'm pushing through. My goals for today (besides the stuff I already did this morning) is to hang up these string lights, do laundry, and do my evening yoga session.
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Last night I had an anxiety attack. My trigger was my mental health and how despite being diagnosed with depression and anxiety and taking medications, I still feel like something is wrong with my brain. I have intrusive and racing thoughts which are hard to control and last night it was SOO overwhelming that I froze. I started to cry uncontrollably, I tightly clasped my hands together and felt like I couldn't let go...eventually, I started pacing and shifting my weight from my right to left leg back and forth until I calmed down. Surprisingly I slept well after that. I felt like I got some deep sleep. I don't know if the anxiety attack just tired me out so much that I slept the best I have slept for the past week or so.
I dreamt quite a bit. But the dream that stood out was that I was pregnant with his baby. I remember having this big pregnant belly, I remember giving birth and the delivery being so smooth and quick, I remember the nurses laying her right next to me on my left side for some skin-to-skin contact...she was so cute. I was so happy having my new baby girl, him, and my mom all by my side. I looked up pregnancy/birth dream meanings and supposedly it means "new beginnings". The way I interpreted it was that not only am I going through this new transformation as an individual, but our relationship is too. But also he has been the only person I have truly wanted a baby with so maybe it could just be a more literal subconscious desire.
After a quick yoga session, I went out to the store this morning. I went to World Market to look for this 5-pack coffee syrups sample because I started making my coffee at home again but didn't have any syrups to give it that **pizzazz**. I got them along with a new espresso cup because the one I had at home was broken. I also bought these cute little felt mushroom string lights. I thought the mushrooms would look pretty cute since I have a lot of plants and stuff in my room. After that, I went to Chick-fil-A and got my usual. And I know I said I wasn't depressed, but maybe I am? Just a little? Because despite doing all these little things that should've brought me joy, I didn't truly feel happy. I didn't feel super sad...I guess the best way to describe how I feel today is numb.
I'm pushing through. My goals for today (besides the stuff I already did this morning) is to hang up these string lights, do laundry, and do my evening yoga session.
2024.05.21 21:42 Remarkable-Ice-3939 Should I go to Psych NP school without experience?
I really love psychology and mental health. Im constantly educating myself and others on mental health, disorders, tendencies, emotional wellbeing, etc. Im obsessed with the brain and how it works and the impact it has on our day to day! I love advocating, helping, healing. I truly do. I am super patient, understanding and a great listener.
With that being said I want to become a psych NP and be able to treat, guide and help those in need but I have not been able to obtain any psych experience as an RN. Ive worked in Telemetry, step-down, MS and LTAC. Ive tried applying for jobs to make sure that I have the experience under my belt and also to just solidify my interest, but its been a struggle. I have been an RN for 5 years and have been travel nursing for a bit but I am ready to settle and move forward in my career. Finding a psych position has been impossible and I don't want to spend much more time on the floor at this point I'm ready to move move move and increase my salary in this terrible economic time. Im debating between FNP, which is basically what I have experienced in my 5 years or Psych NP, which I feel my heart is in.
do you think applying to Psych NP school without prior experience is bad idea? Even if I have such a great interest in mental health? interest in mental health and actually working with the population are not the same thing so I am very torn. I know a lot of people apply without experience but what do you guys think?
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With that being said I want to become a psych NP and be able to treat, guide and help those in need but I have not been able to obtain any psych experience as an RN. Ive worked in Telemetry, step-down, MS and LTAC. Ive tried applying for jobs to make sure that I have the experience under my belt and also to just solidify my interest, but its been a struggle. I have been an RN for 5 years and have been travel nursing for a bit but I am ready to settle and move forward in my career. Finding a psych position has been impossible and I don't want to spend much more time on the floor at this point I'm ready to move move move and increase my salary in this terrible economic time. Im debating between FNP, which is basically what I have experienced in my 5 years or Psych NP, which I feel my heart is in.
do you think applying to Psych NP school without prior experience is bad idea? Even if I have such a great interest in mental health? interest in mental health and actually working with the population are not the same thing so I am very torn. I know a lot of people apply without experience but what do you guys think?
2024.05.21 21:36 Independent-Bike-732 Having trouble transitioning to slow station, coping with boredom
I recently left my shitty IFT job (yippee!) where we would usually do 14-18 calls in a 20 hour shift. I was there for almost 3 years. We were in the trenches all the time, morale was trash, management was worse.
I really enjoyed the people I worked with and the camaraderie, but since starting medic school I was so sick of getting whipped 40 hours a week. I resigned and went to a staffing agency that staffs a BLS crew for an FD 5 minutes from my house.
Enough context, how to the folks at slow stations cope with the BOREDOM. We pull about 700 calls a year, 60% being from a nursing home 2 minutes from base. I’m still VERY new there, but I’m kinda at a loss for what to do with myself. I relieved a crew yesterday that said there hasn’t been a call in 2 DAYS.
I made the decision to work there knowing damn well it’s a slow station, and that I’d have the opportunity to study. I feel like I can’t concentrate there. I NEED to have physical exertion or else my brain won’t work (diagnosed adhd, refused meds). I’m afraid my BLS skills will deteriorate, not that they got used much at IFT. I feel like I have cabin fever every shift and I’m crawling up the walls. My partners watch TV and bring their laptops and sit all day. I do genuinely like the people I work with there, but I feel like I’m annoying them by talking or wanting to take the truck out.
I’m not planning on leaving yet, but it’s looking like it might not be a good fit for me. Does anyone have an experience like this? What helped y’all?
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I really enjoyed the people I worked with and the camaraderie, but since starting medic school I was so sick of getting whipped 40 hours a week. I resigned and went to a staffing agency that staffs a BLS crew for an FD 5 minutes from my house.
Enough context, how to the folks at slow stations cope with the BOREDOM. We pull about 700 calls a year, 60% being from a nursing home 2 minutes from base. I’m still VERY new there, but I’m kinda at a loss for what to do with myself. I relieved a crew yesterday that said there hasn’t been a call in 2 DAYS.
I made the decision to work there knowing damn well it’s a slow station, and that I’d have the opportunity to study. I feel like I can’t concentrate there. I NEED to have physical exertion or else my brain won’t work (diagnosed adhd, refused meds). I’m afraid my BLS skills will deteriorate, not that they got used much at IFT. I feel like I have cabin fever every shift and I’m crawling up the walls. My partners watch TV and bring their laptops and sit all day. I do genuinely like the people I work with there, but I feel like I’m annoying them by talking or wanting to take the truck out.
I’m not planning on leaving yet, but it’s looking like it might not be a good fit for me. Does anyone have an experience like this? What helped y’all?
2024.05.21 20:46 Sugnuf How is she such a good doctor?
 | She is an immunologist, obgyn, neurologist, neurosurgeon, emergency surgeon, GI surgeon, emergency doctor, GI specialist, and nurse! submitted by Sugnuf to premed [link] [comments] |
2024.05.21 20:34 it_is_well_ Appt with neurosurgeon
The only appointment I've had with my neurology office has been with an NP, and she asked for me to follow up with the MD in about 8 weeks which put the appointment towards the end of June. Since then, I had an MRI which the radiologist flagged a proximal artery, but the NP read the MRI and said there was nothing there causing any nerve interaction. Thanks to this group, I know better than to take an MRI reading from the nurse, no offense to her, and pushed to get in with a neurosurgeon which actually is getting scheduled before I see the MD, ironically. I had also tried to get in with this neurosurgeon previously and their scheduling department told me I couldn't see him till January, so goes to show how far getting the right referrals from the right offices count.
what questions do I need to ask explicitly at this appointment?
I generally go to my appointments by myself, but I'm wondering if there's wisdom to bringing my husband. I feel like surgery on my brain starts to become a big enough deal that it requires both of our full understanding. Thoughts there?
I'm curious about the efficacy and longevity of MVD surgery, but maybe I'll wait till I get there. I'm finally feeling like I'm in a holding pattern, with better days, and less better days, but knowing better how to navigate them.
(I also have an appointment request with the Mayo clinic, as truth be told, I don't trust that anyone in my area really has enough TN experience to be comfortable doing neurosurgery. However, I do think it's valuable to get that neurosurgeon's eyes on it in case the Mayo consult is months out.)
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what questions do I need to ask explicitly at this appointment?
I generally go to my appointments by myself, but I'm wondering if there's wisdom to bringing my husband. I feel like surgery on my brain starts to become a big enough deal that it requires both of our full understanding. Thoughts there?
I'm curious about the efficacy and longevity of MVD surgery, but maybe I'll wait till I get there. I'm finally feeling like I'm in a holding pattern, with better days, and less better days, but knowing better how to navigate them.
(I also have an appointment request with the Mayo clinic, as truth be told, I don't trust that anyone in my area really has enough TN experience to be comfortable doing neurosurgery. However, I do think it's valuable to get that neurosurgeon's eyes on it in case the Mayo consult is months out.)
2024.05.21 20:23 Leoisacuck Vyvanse problem
Hey all!
I have been on 50mg vyvanse for about 6 months, I got it because of my increasing difficulties to have motivation to do school work and everything else my adhd riddled brain was having struggles with, and they worked great and I finally am done with school. But, I am now in my preceptor (for nursing) and I now am questioning the effectiveness, I am “focused” but cannot finished the job I am focused on as I have 4 other patients needing something and often find myself completely crashing and shutting down which sets me father behind in the day, and I am way more hyperactive and emotional when on them. My question is has anyone had this? What should I bring up to the doctor? And what do I do going forward, it is stressing me out because I know they aren’t working as much anymore and it’s reflecting in my work
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I have been on 50mg vyvanse for about 6 months, I got it because of my increasing difficulties to have motivation to do school work and everything else my adhd riddled brain was having struggles with, and they worked great and I finally am done with school. But, I am now in my preceptor (for nursing) and I now am questioning the effectiveness, I am “focused” but cannot finished the job I am focused on as I have 4 other patients needing something and often find myself completely crashing and shutting down which sets me father behind in the day, and I am way more hyperactive and emotional when on them. My question is has anyone had this? What should I bring up to the doctor? And what do I do going forward, it is stressing me out because I know they aren’t working as much anymore and it’s reflecting in my work
2024.05.21 20:07 KaiSaya117 Autism in marriage
Kind of just curious about something. I am on the autism spectrum and my husband is ADHD. He's a full time nurse and I've been out of work for a year as I was supposed to work on myself, get an education in something and become a real jobbed person. Pay off my autistic traits is something called PDA, pathological demand avoidance. When I even start thinking about going back to school or work it's like my brain locks up and I simply will not do anything. He's getting frustrated being the only support and rightly so I feel. But I don't think I'll ever be able to actually correct this or accomplish what he'd like for me and honestly will need from me.
In another area, bed, I'm also not the most active. (Possibly tied to the autism, we don't know) He finds he's ALWAYS HAVING TO INITIATE which I know is bad. I just can't make myself do it. Or anything of value for that matter.
Is it fair to keep him held down by my inability to provide either financial or Loving care? Am I going to destroy our marriage by being this way?
Thank you for any feed back.
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In another area, bed, I'm also not the most active. (Possibly tied to the autism, we don't know) He finds he's ALWAYS HAVING TO INITIATE which I know is bad. I just can't make myself do it. Or anything of value for that matter.
Is it fair to keep him held down by my inability to provide either financial or Loving care? Am I going to destroy our marriage by being this way?
Thank you for any feed back.
2024.05.21 20:01 Mister-Psychology Deduction items test (not normed ... yet)
This is a 35 min deduction test consisting of items that all follow the same template. It starts out being fairly simple so most users should be able to understand what to do. But the items will get complex so prepare your brain. This template is heavily inspired by an obscure online test most people likely have not seen.
The test is NOT NORMED so you won’t get an IQ score if you take it. You will only see how many items you got correct and can ask for a PDF with all your answers. But if everything goes well then after a month we can calculate a norm and then make sure everyone can get their IQ score. This is only possible if the data is good and the items end up having good loading. Since the items are experimental we can't know how this pans out or what we can take away from this test run. Hopefully a little experiment is fine. I have a few more tests I'll post too.
https://survey.alchemer.eu/s3/90705028/flodhest-Jurij
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The test is NOT NORMED so you won’t get an IQ score if you take it. You will only see how many items you got correct and can ask for a PDF with all your answers. But if everything goes well then after a month we can calculate a norm and then make sure everyone can get their IQ score. This is only possible if the data is good and the items end up having good loading. Since the items are experimental we can't know how this pans out or what we can take away from this test run. Hopefully a little experiment is fine. I have a few more tests I'll post too.
https://survey.alchemer.eu/s3/90705028/flodhest-Jurij
2024.05.21 19:48 ironfoot22 To the July Intern
These are the things I learned about residency that I wish I could tell myself as a July intern on wards service. I know many of y’all here will disagree with a few, but this is how I see it. There’s definitely quite a few missing, so y’all fill in what I forgot.
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- You earned the right to be here. You’ve proven you can do it so don’t doubt yourself.
- You’re not expected to know everything on day 1. Your job is to show up with a good attitude and ready to work hard.
- Listen to the nurses. Some of these critical care nurses, especially. Ask for their input and don’t brush them off as mere nurses.
- Write things down. Print a list and make check boxes by each patient for what needs to get done that day. There are interns who forget things and interns who write things down.
- The first thing you need to learn is to tell sick from not sick, and that can be tricky at times. Later on you refine that until you see a whole spectrum of how sick a patient is.
- Don’t waste too much time pre-rounding. Brief pertinent exam, ask patient about changes in symptoms, but the highest yield is asking the nurses.
- Call consults before noon if you can. It’s a courtesy to the consultant/their team plus they’re far more likely to be seen that day, avoiding a delay in workup for the patient.
- Your note doesn’t have to be an essay. Keep things simple and don’t get bogged down in eloquent explanations.
- However, document your reasoning well. Especially in tough cases, drop a paragraph about why you’re doing what you’re doing and the patient agrees.
- Auto text or whatever your EMR uses. Make an arsenal of these. Use them for everything. If you have a kind of case you see a lot, template out a note so you make sure you’re documenting all the important stuff in an efficient manner.
- Be cool to your co-interns. Y’all are about to spend the next few years together. Don’t leave them in a lurch or punt to others all the time.
- Call the seniofellow/attending, especially at first. Even if they give you attitude, it’s ultimately their responsibility and they should know that.
- Try to update families daily if you can, especially for your ICU folks.
- Never, ever lie. Even once will destroy your credibility.
- Have a good attitude in a way that refuses to be bullied - don’t take that shit.
- Read all your own images. Then when rads drops a report, read that and see if you can find what they’re describing for every notes finding. It’ll make you a better doctor.
- Get to your new city as early as possible. Do things like car inspection, dentist appointment, vet appointment, etc. before July kicks off.
- Our profession has a high rate of substance abuse. Do what that what you will.
- Sit down with your family and SO and let them know what to expect and try to explain how intense this job is. When there’s a difference between expectation and reality, you have problems. Either way, it’ll strain your relationships.
- Because of this, be deliberate on spending time with your SO/friends/family even if you’re dead tired.
- Wear comfortable shoes
- Scour the hospital for the best restroom. Sometimes having a proper relaxed shit can turn a day around.
- Get to know your chiefs. Go to them with problems earlier rather than later.
- Use every minute of PTO
- Step outside the hospital for a few minute a day when you can. See the sunshine.
- Make friends with the cafeteria staff and they’ll hook you up to no end.
- Make friends with the transporters and techs - they will save you.
- Appreciate the hell out of what PT/OT/SLP do.
- Know how to tell a patient no.
- Pharmacy is your friend - they know things
- If something is emergent, keep calling to follow up. If your crashing patient needs abx, it’s not like some doctor video game where you put the order in STAT and everyone goes rushing. Call down and check the status, let them know it’s needed now.
- Don’t order everything STAT
- Calling people in general gets so much more done and avoids so many headaches.
- You’re going to lose your first patient. Remember how you feel, and make sure you never forget it. You’ll need it later.
- Hang out outside of work, invite the nurses as well.
- Election ‘24 is coming up in November so work is a great place to talk candidly about politics and try to change others’ beliefs /s
- If you’re struggling, reach out to someone.
- Try to get outside on your days off
- It’s not uncommon to end up on an SSRI
- Take the stairs places as much as you can. Cardio and a nice lower body workout.
- Answer pages as they come in. Anything STAT call back the moment you see it. Aim to get back to everyone within 5 minutes if you can.
- Day to night nurse shift change. Wait 30-45 minutes, then go around and talk to the nurse for all your patients. Let them get report and see if they have questions. Explain the plan, agree on when to call you, make sure orders all look good and make sense. We even used to bring candy from the physicians lounge to pass out for this.
- Put the diet order in
- Keep your presentations short and to the point unless someone wants them longer. Know the details, but you don’t have to recite them. You don’t have to say all the exam findings that were normal and not related to the patient’s disease
- Always be prepared to dodge a punch when near a geriatric patient
- Even a 5-10 minute phone call with your loved ones on a frequent basis can do wonders
- Some people are just assholes and you can’t take things personally
- Other people are mad at something else and want to take it out on you.
- Be cool to the med students
- Get good at delivering bad news
- Celebrate delivering good news
- Fuck prior authorizations man
- When calling a consult, have a specific clinical question you need help answering. Know the patient well. Keep the call centered around what you need from them but be ready to provide details if needed. “Dr. X wants you on board” is resident code for “I know it’s bullshit but my attending made me call.”
- Delirium and sundowning are real af. The trick is to get them home.
- Benzos aren’t just “settle down” drugs. It’s like a whisky shot through the vein in the sense that it can also disinhibit people and make wildness worse
- Get to know 1 thing about each patient other than what’s in their chart. What job did they have? What’s their favorite team? Do they have pets? You’ll remember them better when the list is large and it can make the job more rewarding
- If the nurse is worried ALWAYS go to bedside
- If you feel the urge to get a tattoo, do it
- Read everyone’s note each day on your patients
- Case managers and social workers are heroes. Get to know them and work together to get patients proper dispo
- Don’t wear your damn shoes in the call room bed
- Sit down in patient rooms if you can. It shows you’re listening, it’s less intimidating for them, and they’ll tell you more.
- Talk louder to older patients
- Sternal rub like you mean it
- Sit done one day, caffeinate, and do all those stupid compliance modules in a single bolus.
- Never make the same mistake twice
- If things don’t add up, your math is wrong
- Some patients don’t care about their health and won’t look after it after all you do. That’s just the gig.
- If something adverse for residents goes into place on a “temporary” basis, it never goes back the other way. Fight for your rights.
- You’re not crazy - the patient always tells the attending something completely different or remembers some important detail. We get it.
- Have a good comfort show to stream when you come home half dead.
- Trust but verify (that’s actually a Russian proverb Reagan borrowed when speaking about the USSR)
- Remember to love it more than you hate it. Find a way to make it fun. They say it’s the best time you never want to have again. You get to save and improve human lives. There’s no greater calling in the world than that.
2024.05.21 18:43 Feisty-Chance-7149 Tysabri/JCV/MRI/Rant/Vent
I was diagnosed in September 2023 and started on Tysabri in November. My first JCV antibody level pre-Tysabri was negative/indeterminate at 0.2. My first level post-Tysabri was positive/indeterminate at 0.45. My most recent level is positive at 1.1. My MS Neurologist said that once my level gets to 0.9 then it's time to switch.
I had my first MRI post diagnosis on Friday. I got the radiologist read last night and it showed no new lesions, no brain loss, and even some of the lesions have decreased in size. I'm very happy with these results, but I'm also kinda annoyed. I was secretly hoping that tysabri wasn't working so I would feel better about switching off it. It's a terrible thought, I know. I was just really hoping to get more time on it. My Neuro is pretty conservative when it comes to Tysabri, so based on prior conversations, it doesn't seem like he will be on board with the 6 week schedule change. I'm a stem cell transplant nurse and have taken care of patients with PML, so I understand that the risk is still low, but I've seen what it does. And I'm not sure how I feel about continuing to put myself at that risk.
The previous conversations about coming off Tysabri, I had decided to go with Kesimpta. My Neuro wants to do an Ocrevus transition, so I don't have the rebound Tysabri effects. Has anyone done this?
I have my Neuro follow up on Friday and this will be the first time I see him in person since the JCV level and MRI, so lots of discussions to be had. I just felt the need to rant/vent.
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I had my first MRI post diagnosis on Friday. I got the radiologist read last night and it showed no new lesions, no brain loss, and even some of the lesions have decreased in size. I'm very happy with these results, but I'm also kinda annoyed. I was secretly hoping that tysabri wasn't working so I would feel better about switching off it. It's a terrible thought, I know. I was just really hoping to get more time on it. My Neuro is pretty conservative when it comes to Tysabri, so based on prior conversations, it doesn't seem like he will be on board with the 6 week schedule change. I'm a stem cell transplant nurse and have taken care of patients with PML, so I understand that the risk is still low, but I've seen what it does. And I'm not sure how I feel about continuing to put myself at that risk.
The previous conversations about coming off Tysabri, I had decided to go with Kesimpta. My Neuro wants to do an Ocrevus transition, so I don't have the rebound Tysabri effects. Has anyone done this?
I have my Neuro follow up on Friday and this will be the first time I see him in person since the JCV level and MRI, so lots of discussions to be had. I just felt the need to rant/vent.
2024.05.21 15:21 unavngiven My mom died... [Very long post]
This is my first reddit post, although I have been a long time lurker of many subreddits. I am 23 years old and an only child. I am not a native english speaker, so please forgive any weird formatting or any spelling/grammar mistakes.
As the title states, my mom died ... and I am currently writing this to try and process this whole situation. I've tried to section all the paragraphs in chronological order, to make reading easier. Sorry for the extremely long post - I just needed to get it all out.
We only just celebrated her 60th birthday back in february. She did all the cooking, cleaning and planning without any trouble - even down to picking out the perfect napkins and flowers for her white and gold theme.
My mother was without a job. She had been jobless for almost 2 years now, after she was fired from her old cleaning job due to frequent sick days because of stomach cramps and pain. She was seen by a doctor back in 2022 for her stomach aches, and they found no physical cause - hence why we concluded it must've been due to stress. The stress and stomach pains subsided after she'd been fired. So we thought no more of it.
In march she was doing a 4-week internship in a local supermarket to see if she might've been a good fit for a permanent paid position. This is common practice for unemployeed people here in Denmark.
My mother started having stomach pains again during this internship, soon followed by back pains as well. She figured this was due to her spending most of the day sitting as a cashier in an uncomfortable position. My mother wasn't very tall, so she had trouble reaching the floor pedals that control the cashier conveyer belt.
In the beginning of april, she went to the doctor. Her stomach and back pains hadn't gone away although the internship was over. Her doctor also concluded it was most likely due to her uncomfortable working position, and that it would pass in a few weeks time. The doctor did some bloodwork, and found that she was severely lacking vitamin D, but nothing else seemed concerning at the time.
In the middle of april, her pains had only gotten worse, and she went to the doctor again. Her doctor did more bloodwork, and did a phisycal exam of my mothers stomach. Her doctor ordered a CT scan to check for anything serious.
19th of april. I accompany my mother to the hospital for her CT scan. We get told that we'll have the results in a week or so. My mother is not looking good when I pick her up at the bus station. She is more pale than usual, and has trouble walking at her usual pace.
23th of april. My mother received a referral to a meeting at the hospital with a doctor and nurse, to discuss the results of the CT scan. This referral is sent from the hospitals cancer department. My mother and I speak on the phone, she is concerned, but I tell her that this type of referral must just be standard pratice, and that she shouldn't worry untill we have spoken with the doctor. I cried that night.
25th of april. The day before her meeting with the doctor, I received a phone call from my mother. She tells me that she had fallen while at home, but that I shouldn't worry. I, of course, worry.
I pack my things and leave for my mothers house, I live an hour away by bus. When I finally arrive my mother seems okay-ish, but the house is another story. My mother is normally known for being a clean freak, and her house has always been clean and organized, But it wasn't anymore.
Her kitchen was a mess, and the dishwasher hadn't been empited or loaded for at least two weeks. Her bathroom is even worse, and I won't even begin to describe the state of the toilet it self. It is a sight that will horrify me for the rest of my life. I cleaned everything, while my mother rested.
My mother had also started sleeping on the guest bed, saying her own was too uncomfortable for her.
While cleaning the bathroom, my mother wakes up. Despite her state, she says she wants to help. But before I can even tell her no, my mother has another fall. Her legs essentially just crumble beneath her, and she falls backwards and lands head first on the floor. We argue back and forth about calling an ambulance, but she refuses to let me - so I don't, even though I should have. I guess I still respected my moms authority too much.
My mother lives alone, as my parents are divorced (they are very good friends though). My mother refuses to let me call my dad and tell him about this whole situation. She is stubborn and too proud to admit defeat.
26th of april. We take a taxi to the hospital. The taxi driver has a help my mother into the car. During the carride my mother says very little, but seems slightly delirious and very tired. When we arrive at the hospital, I quickly borrow a hospital wheelchair for my mother. She is almost unable to walk unassisted at this point.
After waiting for a while in the waiting area, a nurse comes and guides us to a meeting room. My mother is very tired at this point, and still delirious, and I have to handle most of the conversation with the doctor.
The CT scan results showed Pancreatic cancer. The cancer had already spread to her liver and abdomial cavity.
I had read about this cancer a few days prior, trying to figure out what was wrong with my mother. I knew what this meant, and I knew that it was effectively a death sentence. The doctor told us that an operation was out of the question, since the cancer had already spread. And due to the clearly weak state of my mothers health, chemo would also not be offered, as it would finish her.
I told the doctor of her two falls and the state of her home, and that she would not be safe on her own. The doctor had her admitted to a nearby bed department for stomach- and gastrointestinal surgery patients.
The hospital did a ton of bloodwork on my mother when she got admitted, and everything was off. All numbers were either too high or dangerously low. My mothers health was in fact so bad, that I was told she was a heart attack risk. I was also told that if a heart attack happened, she would not be brought back - as it would only prolong a very short and painful life.
I called my dad.
27th of april. My mother slept most of the day.
28th of april. My mother had another fall during the night, trying to get to the bathroom.
29th of april. My dad shows up to the hospital. He wasn't able to get off work until now, as he works in the other end of the country. He is shocked to see my mother in this state. We are told once again by a different doctor that nothing can be done. They are looking into getting her a spot at a nearby hospice.
The rest of the remaining week is spent in hospital. My dad and I are by my mothers side every day. She doesn't leave her hospital room, apart from a few times a day for a smoke break outside. My dad and I take her outside in a wheelchair, which she needs help to get in and out of.
Her bloodwork is showing some slight improvements, but she is still having trouble with infections and receives a lot of antibiotics. She eats like a mouse, but drinks a lot of fluids.
My mother is often very confused or tired most days. She gets referred for an MR scan, to see if the cancer has spread to her brain, or if one of her falls has caused permanent damage. Lucikly the MR scan shows that nothing is wrong with her brain.
She gets confused about her diagnosis a few times, thinking that she had brain cancer instead due to the MR scan. I have to remind her a couple times about what the doctor actually said.
6th of may. My mother seems to have stabilized somewhat so my dad has gone back to work.
7th of may. I get told by the hospital staff that my mother is to be transferred to a different hospital, which is one hour away. I become very upset by this news, and unfortunately yell at one of my mothers nurses in frustration. I yell at her that It'll be harder for me to get to my mother in time if something were to happen. I am ashamed of this childish behavior, as the transfer was the best desicion for my mother in hindsight.
I leave with my mother as we get transferred to the new hospital and their department of palliative care.
I am very ashamed by my behavior to my mothers old nurse, as this department for palliative care was truly the best place for my mother. She seemed very satisfied and happy to have been transferred. They have a large garden with wild flowers, and lovely staff. And my mother got a much bigger room all to herself. She also meets with their physical therapist, who helps my mother relieve some of her pain.
My mother and I have dinner together in the evening in her hospital room. My mom is her old self, although with some delayed speaking. I unfortunately have to rush a bit when leaving, as to not miss my bus home, so I quickly say goodbye to her and leave.
8th of may. In the morning on my way to the new hospital, I received a phone call from her new doctor. My mothers liver has suddenly started to fail due to the cancer. When I arrive, she is asleep. I am told she wont wake up again.
I called my dad, but he wont arrive until the evening, due to the distance from his workplace.
I spend most of the day in my mothers hospital room, listening to her sleep. She occasionally attempts to cough in her sleep, but it mainly just sounds like yells. It is terrifying. The nurses give her pain medication and some sleep medication to help her body relax.
My dad arrives in the late evening. We drive to my mothers house and stay the night there. We spend most of the late evening looking at pictures and scrapbooks of my mother, and packing a bag with clothes for her, for when she passes.
When prepareing the guest bed for my dad, we find a blanket that my mother slept on. It is stained, matching the previous state of the bathroom. We throw the blanket out.
9th of may. Mom is sleeping. Dad and I spend the day at the hospital, but we don't sit in her hospital room. It is too eerie and uncomfortable. We check on her occassionally. Towards the evening, her breathing becomes slightly more rapid and quick. But the nurses tell us to go home. There is no reason for us to sit by her side during the night - as it'll only make it worse for us.
10th of may. I wake at 6.12 am to my phone ringing. It is a nurse. My mother has passed away in her sleep at 6.05 that morning due to liver failure. My dad and I drive to the hospital. I am the first to see her body after the nurses prepared and dressed it in the clothing we picked.
(warning: the following paragraph may be slightly upsetting to some readers)
It it eerie and uncomfortable to see my mother like this. A symptom of pancreatic and liver cancers is that your skin will yellow. Something that I hadn't noticed in my mother till now. I cant help but think that she looks like a wax doll, although I feel horrible for thinking it. I finally touch her hand, after gathering the courage to, almost like I am afraid to distrub her. Her hands are cold, and only get colder as I sit by her side. I am supposed to say my goodbyes to her, and tell her how much she means to me, but in this moment I am speechless. I can't say anything, even on my mothers deathbed. I feels wrong to speak to a corpse. I should've said those things while she could hear them instead. I kiss her forehead before I leave the room.
17th of may. Funeral. The church and casket was beautifully decorated with colorful flowers, like my mother had requested. She didn't want anything white or depressing. I cried all the way through the funeral service, stopping only when it was time to carry the casket out. My dad on the left side, and me on the right, and some other family members behind us. Purple rain by Prince was played on the church piano as we carried the casket. I knew the casket would be heavy, but nothing prepared me for the sheer weight of that thing.
21th of may. Today. I don't really know what to think of my mothers death. Some days I almost forget that shes gone or that all this has been happening, until something reminds me of it.
In a way, I am thankful. Of course I didn't want my mother to die, but I'm glad that her suffering wasn't prolonged for months while she slowly withered away to cancer. And I'm thankful that my mother didn't live to suffer from alzheimers, like her own mother. And I am glad that if anything, my mothers death has brought my dad and I closer.
But at the same time, I am angry that she didn't get to live more of her life. She was only 60 years old, and should have had 20 more years at least. If she at least was 70, it might've been easier to lose her but I doubt it.
I think mostly of all the things she will miss out on, which saddens me the most. I am 23 and my mother wont get to see most of my life or my achivements. If I have kids, she'll never meet them, and she I get married, she'll never see it. My 24th birthday is coming up soon, and I don't know how I'll handle that day without my mother for the first time - or christmas for that matter.
I want my mom.
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As the title states, my mom died ... and I am currently writing this to try and process this whole situation. I've tried to section all the paragraphs in chronological order, to make reading easier. Sorry for the extremely long post - I just needed to get it all out.
We only just celebrated her 60th birthday back in february. She did all the cooking, cleaning and planning without any trouble - even down to picking out the perfect napkins and flowers for her white and gold theme.
My mother was without a job. She had been jobless for almost 2 years now, after she was fired from her old cleaning job due to frequent sick days because of stomach cramps and pain. She was seen by a doctor back in 2022 for her stomach aches, and they found no physical cause - hence why we concluded it must've been due to stress. The stress and stomach pains subsided after she'd been fired. So we thought no more of it.
In march she was doing a 4-week internship in a local supermarket to see if she might've been a good fit for a permanent paid position. This is common practice for unemployeed people here in Denmark.
My mother started having stomach pains again during this internship, soon followed by back pains as well. She figured this was due to her spending most of the day sitting as a cashier in an uncomfortable position. My mother wasn't very tall, so she had trouble reaching the floor pedals that control the cashier conveyer belt.
In the beginning of april, she went to the doctor. Her stomach and back pains hadn't gone away although the internship was over. Her doctor also concluded it was most likely due to her uncomfortable working position, and that it would pass in a few weeks time. The doctor did some bloodwork, and found that she was severely lacking vitamin D, but nothing else seemed concerning at the time.
In the middle of april, her pains had only gotten worse, and she went to the doctor again. Her doctor did more bloodwork, and did a phisycal exam of my mothers stomach. Her doctor ordered a CT scan to check for anything serious.
19th of april. I accompany my mother to the hospital for her CT scan. We get told that we'll have the results in a week or so. My mother is not looking good when I pick her up at the bus station. She is more pale than usual, and has trouble walking at her usual pace.
23th of april. My mother received a referral to a meeting at the hospital with a doctor and nurse, to discuss the results of the CT scan. This referral is sent from the hospitals cancer department. My mother and I speak on the phone, she is concerned, but I tell her that this type of referral must just be standard pratice, and that she shouldn't worry untill we have spoken with the doctor. I cried that night.
25th of april. The day before her meeting with the doctor, I received a phone call from my mother. She tells me that she had fallen while at home, but that I shouldn't worry. I, of course, worry.
I pack my things and leave for my mothers house, I live an hour away by bus. When I finally arrive my mother seems okay-ish, but the house is another story. My mother is normally known for being a clean freak, and her house has always been clean and organized, But it wasn't anymore.
Her kitchen was a mess, and the dishwasher hadn't been empited or loaded for at least two weeks. Her bathroom is even worse, and I won't even begin to describe the state of the toilet it self. It is a sight that will horrify me for the rest of my life. I cleaned everything, while my mother rested.
My mother had also started sleeping on the guest bed, saying her own was too uncomfortable for her.
While cleaning the bathroom, my mother wakes up. Despite her state, she says she wants to help. But before I can even tell her no, my mother has another fall. Her legs essentially just crumble beneath her, and she falls backwards and lands head first on the floor. We argue back and forth about calling an ambulance, but she refuses to let me - so I don't, even though I should have. I guess I still respected my moms authority too much.
My mother lives alone, as my parents are divorced (they are very good friends though). My mother refuses to let me call my dad and tell him about this whole situation. She is stubborn and too proud to admit defeat.
26th of april. We take a taxi to the hospital. The taxi driver has a help my mother into the car. During the carride my mother says very little, but seems slightly delirious and very tired. When we arrive at the hospital, I quickly borrow a hospital wheelchair for my mother. She is almost unable to walk unassisted at this point.
After waiting for a while in the waiting area, a nurse comes and guides us to a meeting room. My mother is very tired at this point, and still delirious, and I have to handle most of the conversation with the doctor.
The CT scan results showed Pancreatic cancer. The cancer had already spread to her liver and abdomial cavity.
I had read about this cancer a few days prior, trying to figure out what was wrong with my mother. I knew what this meant, and I knew that it was effectively a death sentence. The doctor told us that an operation was out of the question, since the cancer had already spread. And due to the clearly weak state of my mothers health, chemo would also not be offered, as it would finish her.
I told the doctor of her two falls and the state of her home, and that she would not be safe on her own. The doctor had her admitted to a nearby bed department for stomach- and gastrointestinal surgery patients.
The hospital did a ton of bloodwork on my mother when she got admitted, and everything was off. All numbers were either too high or dangerously low. My mothers health was in fact so bad, that I was told she was a heart attack risk. I was also told that if a heart attack happened, she would not be brought back - as it would only prolong a very short and painful life.
I called my dad.
27th of april. My mother slept most of the day.
28th of april. My mother had another fall during the night, trying to get to the bathroom.
29th of april. My dad shows up to the hospital. He wasn't able to get off work until now, as he works in the other end of the country. He is shocked to see my mother in this state. We are told once again by a different doctor that nothing can be done. They are looking into getting her a spot at a nearby hospice.
The rest of the remaining week is spent in hospital. My dad and I are by my mothers side every day. She doesn't leave her hospital room, apart from a few times a day for a smoke break outside. My dad and I take her outside in a wheelchair, which she needs help to get in and out of.
Her bloodwork is showing some slight improvements, but she is still having trouble with infections and receives a lot of antibiotics. She eats like a mouse, but drinks a lot of fluids.
My mother is often very confused or tired most days. She gets referred for an MR scan, to see if the cancer has spread to her brain, or if one of her falls has caused permanent damage. Lucikly the MR scan shows that nothing is wrong with her brain.
She gets confused about her diagnosis a few times, thinking that she had brain cancer instead due to the MR scan. I have to remind her a couple times about what the doctor actually said.
6th of may. My mother seems to have stabilized somewhat so my dad has gone back to work.
7th of may. I get told by the hospital staff that my mother is to be transferred to a different hospital, which is one hour away. I become very upset by this news, and unfortunately yell at one of my mothers nurses in frustration. I yell at her that It'll be harder for me to get to my mother in time if something were to happen. I am ashamed of this childish behavior, as the transfer was the best desicion for my mother in hindsight.
I leave with my mother as we get transferred to the new hospital and their department of palliative care.
I am very ashamed by my behavior to my mothers old nurse, as this department for palliative care was truly the best place for my mother. She seemed very satisfied and happy to have been transferred. They have a large garden with wild flowers, and lovely staff. And my mother got a much bigger room all to herself. She also meets with their physical therapist, who helps my mother relieve some of her pain.
My mother and I have dinner together in the evening in her hospital room. My mom is her old self, although with some delayed speaking. I unfortunately have to rush a bit when leaving, as to not miss my bus home, so I quickly say goodbye to her and leave.
8th of may. In the morning on my way to the new hospital, I received a phone call from her new doctor. My mothers liver has suddenly started to fail due to the cancer. When I arrive, she is asleep. I am told she wont wake up again.
I called my dad, but he wont arrive until the evening, due to the distance from his workplace.
I spend most of the day in my mothers hospital room, listening to her sleep. She occasionally attempts to cough in her sleep, but it mainly just sounds like yells. It is terrifying. The nurses give her pain medication and some sleep medication to help her body relax.
My dad arrives in the late evening. We drive to my mothers house and stay the night there. We spend most of the late evening looking at pictures and scrapbooks of my mother, and packing a bag with clothes for her, for when she passes.
When prepareing the guest bed for my dad, we find a blanket that my mother slept on. It is stained, matching the previous state of the bathroom. We throw the blanket out.
9th of may. Mom is sleeping. Dad and I spend the day at the hospital, but we don't sit in her hospital room. It is too eerie and uncomfortable. We check on her occassionally. Towards the evening, her breathing becomes slightly more rapid and quick. But the nurses tell us to go home. There is no reason for us to sit by her side during the night - as it'll only make it worse for us.
10th of may. I wake at 6.12 am to my phone ringing. It is a nurse. My mother has passed away in her sleep at 6.05 that morning due to liver failure. My dad and I drive to the hospital. I am the first to see her body after the nurses prepared and dressed it in the clothing we picked.
(warning: the following paragraph may be slightly upsetting to some readers)
It it eerie and uncomfortable to see my mother like this. A symptom of pancreatic and liver cancers is that your skin will yellow. Something that I hadn't noticed in my mother till now. I cant help but think that she looks like a wax doll, although I feel horrible for thinking it. I finally touch her hand, after gathering the courage to, almost like I am afraid to distrub her. Her hands are cold, and only get colder as I sit by her side. I am supposed to say my goodbyes to her, and tell her how much she means to me, but in this moment I am speechless. I can't say anything, even on my mothers deathbed. I feels wrong to speak to a corpse. I should've said those things while she could hear them instead. I kiss her forehead before I leave the room.
17th of may. Funeral. The church and casket was beautifully decorated with colorful flowers, like my mother had requested. She didn't want anything white or depressing. I cried all the way through the funeral service, stopping only when it was time to carry the casket out. My dad on the left side, and me on the right, and some other family members behind us. Purple rain by Prince was played on the church piano as we carried the casket. I knew the casket would be heavy, but nothing prepared me for the sheer weight of that thing.
21th of may. Today. I don't really know what to think of my mothers death. Some days I almost forget that shes gone or that all this has been happening, until something reminds me of it.
In a way, I am thankful. Of course I didn't want my mother to die, but I'm glad that her suffering wasn't prolonged for months while she slowly withered away to cancer. And I'm thankful that my mother didn't live to suffer from alzheimers, like her own mother. And I am glad that if anything, my mothers death has brought my dad and I closer.
But at the same time, I am angry that she didn't get to live more of her life. She was only 60 years old, and should have had 20 more years at least. If she at least was 70, it might've been easier to lose her but I doubt it.
I think mostly of all the things she will miss out on, which saddens me the most. I am 23 and my mother wont get to see most of my life or my achivements. If I have kids, she'll never meet them, and she I get married, she'll never see it. My 24th birthday is coming up soon, and I don't know how I'll handle that day without my mother for the first time - or christmas for that matter.
I want my mom.