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/r/SoloTravel: Where traveling solo is traveling social!

2010.07.18 18:28 obschart /r/SoloTravel: Where traveling solo is traveling social!

A place for all of those interested in solo travel to share their experiences and stories!
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2012.02.17 18:34 Advice from experienced mechanics from several fields.

This is more than a car repair forum!
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2013.03.16 16:46 ModestSilence HairDye

The HairDye community is devoted to hair dye and dyed hair. Any posts of your dyed hair, or questions relating to dying your hair are welcomed; Anything from Brown to Rainbow. So go ahead, let the world see your gloriously dyed hair!
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2024.05.21 19:09 Zoeee2006 [17/F] - In the UK, looking to meet someone great nearby

Okay first off, goes without saying. If you’re like 35, please don’t message me. I’m sure you’re lovely but I’m not interested in that. Also if your post history is filled with loads of sexual stuff, also please don’t message me, sorry lol but that puts me off.
So, now that’s out the way lol. I’m Zoe, I’m 17, live in England. I’m in college, doing history, psychology and English lit. I hate it so much and cannot wait to be done with it. I’m also a gymnast, nearly made it to team GB before but I got injured and lost my chance. Hopefully will get back there this year though 🙏
Gymnastics keeps me pretty busy, I have a lot of two a days and when I’m not training, I’m in the gym but I do try and have a life outside of that. I have two dogs who need a lot of cuddles and walks, I also like to go out a lot. I go clubbing sometimes (yes mr bouncer that ID saying I’m 20 is real I promise) and I go out with friends a lot too.
Looks wise I don’t know how to describe myself, I’m happy to just send pics but I’m like 5’2. Blonde, good shape. I don’t know 🤷‍♀️ I have three tattoos too lol, yes not very legal but one of my friends is a tattoo artist so he did it for me lol.
I don’t know exactly what sorta guy I’m looking for, would prefer someone confident and active I guess, as most of what I do is outside. Also don’t be younger than me please lol. Outside of that I don’t mind.
Also, please say more than hey 🙏 effort is really attractive so please introduce yourself properly! :)
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2024.05.21 19:09 Amber-ForDays Should I look for another vet? Lymphoma diagnosis.

Hi,
I need opinions.
My 6/7 year old dog has had a few health concerns. A few months ago, she had a lump on her chest. I made the decision to wait a week to see if it resolved on it's own. It didn't, we made an appointment. We got to the vet and unfortunately it resolved when the appointment occurred.
I told them she was otherwise fine. I mentioned she had vomiting a few months prior, but that had resolved too. They told me to watch things and bring her in if anything pops up. We joked that I paid $80 for her to get belly rubs.
About a month ago she started having a weird breathing situation going on. It resembled what she did when she would be having an anxiety situation. We didn't notice any triggers, and I decided to monitor for a week. She was eating a little less, but she is normally picky and regularly gives me trouble eating, so this didn't really throw a red flag for me.
After monitoring, we made a vet appointment. The vet did an exam and determined it to be anxiety induced. We upped her trazodone.
A week later, still no improvement. I called and made another appointment. Unfortunately, though, the day I made an appointment, she just had a 180. She started having some serious issues and we made the decision to take her to the emergency vet. The vet there was able to do an exam and suspected cancer without any invasive testing. She did mention she did an ultrasound review of her and found fluid (and I think this isn't a normal exam for vets). She also said that her back leg seemed to have a mass on it that she was concerned about. Her stomach was also considerably bloated despite not eating much.
We are moving forward with some treatment (likely chemo) to keep her as comfortable as possible, but all of those decisions are still pending. I want her to pass comfortably, not necessarily have her with us longer (though I won't complain about a few extra months).
But I have another dog. And I will have more dogs in the future. And I feel I may need to consider this situation and how things were handled. Obviously there's not much to do with cancer from a curing perspective, but the fact that I had to go to the emergency vet to find out really bothers me. My dog was to the vet twice, and there was no indication of concern from the vet for her. Everything was chill and "let's start with this and see if it helps". Maybe it's because she is so young? The next steps were probably going to unveil the cancer as they were the tests we did in the hospital.
What are your thoughts? Is this maybe just that easy to pass up? Or maybe it literally could have shown up within a week? For the record we also did not notice her leg having the issue.
Im just having a lot of guilt for not noticing the signs sooner and I want to make the right decisions for her, and my other dog in the future.
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2024.05.21 19:08 Exotic_Trash_9285 A deceptive connection between a 28M and 25F. What should I do?

So when I met this woman (F 25) who, within minutes, seemed to be the person I (M 28) had been waiting for. The connection was immediate and deep, a rare harmony between two souls. We talked for hours, laughed at the same things, and each meeting seemed to confirm how much we understood each other.
She confided in me that she was married, but quickly explained that they were in the process of getting a divorce. I believed her without question; after all, there was no reason to doubt.
Months passed, and our bond only grew stronger. We were in love, exchanging daily love messages, and even though we lived in different cities, we made every effort to see each other. Each meeting was a new memory we added to our shared book of memories.
However, something began to change. She seemed distant, and when I asked if everything was okay, the answer was always the same: work stress. The messages became less frequent, and the anguish started to set in. I felt anxious and worried, not knowing what to do. My anxiety, which had been under control for years, came back with a vengeance. The woman I had fallen in love with was, unknowingly, torturing me emotionally.
Then one day, she suggested that we slow down. She said she felt overwhelmed and needed some time. Reluctantly, I agreed, believing her words that our love would remain intact, just at a different pace.
It was then that the truth came out. A friend of hers, who had also become my friend, revealed something unexpected: he didn't know about the intensity of our relationship. To him, and apparently to her husband, they had never been in crisis. On the contrary, they were living a period of harmony. Her husband mentioned that recently things between them were very good, including their intimate life.
The revelation hit me like a punch. I felt used and humiliated. Everything I believed about her was a lie. I was just an escape valve during a temporary crisis in her marriage, nothing more. And now, she had simply disappeared, leaving no trace.
Amidst an anxiety crisis, confronting my own feelings, I sent a desperate message. I told her she needed to tell her husband everything that had happened, or I would. She eventually told me that she would tell him regardless. Immediately, I regretted it, feeling vile for threatening her in any way. I apologized numerous times because, despite everything, I didn't want to cause harm to her or her daughter.
Days passed, she haven't said anything to him and I often see her acting like nothing happened, and the pain didn't subside. I wonder if we would ever love each other again, but the reality is inescapable: love never existed. She was an illusion, a deception that taught me harsh lessons about trust and vulnerability. And I, left to pick up the pieces, move forward thinking if I deserve something real, something true.
What should I do?
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2024.05.21 19:08 Public_kitty Cremation

I am 32, with 2 very young children. My father recently passed and it was sudden. We spoke everyday, and he loved with all his heart. He loved us so deeply. I am devastated and broken hearted.
He did not have any type of insurance, he was working on his finances so there isn’t much in terms of what is left behind.
All death expenses I am responsible for. My siblings cannot afford it and no other family was able to. This is the first time I have ever had to do anything like this, and am learning just how costly death is.
I tried really hard to find a way to burry him, because that is traditionally what is wanted/done within his family. But financially, there was no option. I do not have it, and what is left behind from him (if the state grants it to me) won’t even cover the expenses before burial.
I am not sure what the stance of cremation is. I have no choice but cremation and I am struggling with it. I still plan to save up after cremation to afford a plot to burry his cremations in. I feel shame and worry.
Is there an answer to how God feels about cremation?
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2024.05.21 19:08 Jonny-Burns Anything else we can do to improve sleep?

Our boy is 29 months now, his sleep has never been great regardless of how much sleep training and different methods we have tried. We got to a point when he was 2 that he was sleeping through the night, we would put him down awake and he would sleep until morning, then he started trying to climb out of his cot, succeeded a couple of times, so we decided to try him in a toddler bed, the first 3 nights were great, then he started getting worse, getting up as soon as we left the room and opening the door, we put a gate across his door, after a few nights of him getting up over and over again we decided to leave him at the gate with the hope he would go back to bed on his own (he would run and jump in his bed if he heard us going up to him so he knows how) again, nothing worked. We decided to put him in his travel cot since it was deeper than his old cot and thought he wouldn't get back out, lasted about a month before he started consistently climbing out of it and landing with a thud, to keep him safe we had to put him back in his toddler bed, then right back to getting uo all the time.
We got him a bed tent, got him excited about it, that kept him in bed for about 2 weeks before he realised he could unzip it and leave himself so that's where we are now, he gets up and leaves his bed again 5 minutes after we put him down and does it consistently, then wakes up at 5.30 and refuses to go back to sleep, can tell he's tired, he will lie there yawning but won't let himself fall asleep, we got him a gro clock, he understands that he doesn't get out of bed until the sun comes up, but ignores that rule, we got him reward stickers for staying in bed all night, this doesn't deter him either, if we leave him at the gate he will stand at it and shout constantly without backing down, we are at our wits end.
The last couple of nights he has been climbing on his small bookshelf to get something from up high on his drawers, can anybody offer any advice? We are now completely out of ideas.
Tia.
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2024.05.21 19:05 No-Yoghurt-8758 Still unemployed (25f) and my boyfriend (26m) wants me to move in?

We are in love and are crazy about each other. But despite this I am not sure if this is a bad decision. We’ve been dating almost a year now, and spend a ton of time together. I was laid off back in January and have still been looking. I’ve been applying to full time corporate positions similar to what I was doing before nonstop and have had several interviews going all the way up to the final round, but never seem to make it all the way through. It’s been very disheartening. I plan on getting at the very least part-time retail job when my Unemployment runs out. The only reason I haven’t got one yet is that the hourly job would pay less than what my Unemployment currently is.
We have been talking about moving in together for a few months, even prior to me losing my job. I do think he thought I would have a job by now, but he has continued to be supportive. He even paid for my plane tickets home recently so I can visit my family to be at my sister’s graduation. He has also helped me with my food and groceries so I can focus on paying my rent and other bills. He has even said I can get on his insurance once mine runs out. I just have a feeling he is going to start to resent me. It’s looking like I’m not going to be able to make as much as I did before anytime soon. I’m confident I can get part-time job, but it will not be enough to help pay our rent in the high cost of living city we live in. He makes three times as much as I did, so he is very well off. He assures me he has no problem paying for the rent in its entirety until I can get something.
Our leases end in august so we have started looking at apartments now. My mom has told me to be cautious because if I rely on on him, he could take it away and ask me to leave at anytime. He has assured me he would never do this, that is in love with me and wants to marry me, but wants to see how we do together first. I’ve met all his family and friends. My lease and his lease end soon and I want to move in together, but it would be putting so much reliance on him and trusting he will catch me if I fall. The alternative is me moving back home 2000 miles away with my parents. What should I do?
TLDR: Should I move in with my long-term boyfriend, despite being unemployed??
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2024.05.21 19:04 nox-electrica (History Q) How did ancient astrologers calculate the ASC accurately if birth times weren't commonly recorded?

I was thinking about the astrologers of the past that we refer to, like Valens, Dorotheus, Firmicus Maternus, etc, and how a lot of birth times don't always get recorded even now in the present.
For example, I have a parent who was born in the 1950s and in a very rural part of what we'd probably consider a third world country. Said parent can still tell me about a time where children didn't commonly make it to adulthood so parents would have large families or sometimes wait like a week before even deciding on a name or registering the birth with their country's records.
We actually cannot say with 100% certainty when my parent's birth day was because their father had to travel to a neighboring town to actually register the birth like almost a week or two later. This is only in the 1950s. I can't even imagine how many people in, say, the 1800s, 1500s, or 200s CE were born under similar circumstances and may only know their birth dates within a range of a few relative days if a parent or family member recorded/remembered the information.
I imagine a lot of the prominent astrologers we study today have charts with times because they were successful enough to work with wealthy individuals that were born into families able to record data accurately.
Still, it makes me wonder if there were methods of chart rectification that were more commonly practiced back then to compensate for what can potentially be a blurry birth date or time.
So my question can probably be summed up as like…
In lieu of an accurately recorded birth time, like let's say the owner of the nativity has only a day and maybe at best can say "born after sunrise, born before the afternoon" what were the usual go-to methods for an astrologer to determine the ASC (and by proxy, the placement of the rest of the chart?)
I'm also kind of wondering if this is why Whole Sign may have so much prominence and use — if an astrologer has only the Sun & Moon to determine a chart's design, I feel like there would be no choice but to do a reading without houses and possibly even a necessity to fall back on derivative from planet houses if a client had a question about what would have been, say, a 7th house question but had no ability to narrow down where the 7th house actually falls in, for example, Equal from ASC or Porphyry.
Have any of you guys gone down the "what did they do before clocks were readily available in every household to determine the ASC?" rabbit hole? If so, what did you find? How did they do it before clocks were commonplace in every house?
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2024.05.21 19:03 miniature_ranni I have a couple of questions about healthcare/prescriptions for my IEC Visa (UK to CA)

Hi, i'm purchasing my healthcare plan & travelling to Canada soon but i'm unsure of a few things.
I will be living in Toronto/Ontario as I think it's region specific for health care
I take a controlled substance (Vyvanse 50mg) for my diagnosed ADHD. Is this covered by my health insurance or result in any complications with continuing to access my medicine? I would be able to provide evidence and a diagnosis letter from my psychiatrist + support from my GP.
How would I go about accessing and receiving prescriptions once i'm in Canada?
My plan is to purchase the basic health care plan + excess fee from TrueTraveller, however i'm open to other providers if they would be a better fit.
Thank you so much!
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2024.05.21 19:02 Deeedeebobeedee Questions for people supporting Israel

As someone who was born and raised in the uk I can understand how people as a base instinct would root for Israel, as a teenager I saw posts on social media about Palestinian oppression and started sharing them. I was told off by my mum, my posts all got removed and when I asked a teacher about it in school they told me being anti Zionist was anti semitic, everything I saw in the news was pro Israel and labelling Palestine as a terrorist state. I have some Jewish roots so have always been raised with an awareness of antisemitism, my mum taught me about the holocaust as well as other things like South Africa’s apartheid. However the one thing I can’t understand is how people are not only still siding with Israel but not actively doing their best to show support and join Palestinian demonstrations. I can see how people would start with Israel but not how people can still be actively supporting a genocide. I just have questions because I still can’t understand how you can see what’s going on and think that it’s alright.
1.) what entitles Israel to forcefully remove civilians from their homes? 2.) what entitles Israel to commit ecocide which almost exclusively harms civilians? (which they have done en mass. According to many sources.) 3.) If you support Israel do you also support the US and UK invasions in the Middle East? 4.) Do you see Palestinian infants as terrorists and how can you justify the deaths of so many children? 5.) What is your opinion on the constant use of drones simply to make noise with the purpose of depriving everyone in Gaza of sleep (which is a common torture method and goes against the Geneva convention) 6.) have you seen the videos from Palestinian content creators like Motaz Azaiza and if so what is your opinion to seeing content like babies being pulled out of rubble? 7.) How is a state that excludes people from living in areas, walking down certain streets and restricting basic human rights and access to water, electricity and food not an apartheidal regime? (All against the Geneva convention.) 8.) why is the reaction to October 7th so disproportionate? 9.) Do you realise that Hamas only exists as a result of Palestinian oppression? 10.) Do you know that the amount of people detained by Israel without trial or charges even just currently; dwarfs the amount of hostages taken by hamas? 11.) What’s the justification behind videos (which are for the most part proven to be untampered) of Israeli snipers, tanks and soldiers firing at and killing children, unarmed civilians literally holding white flags as well as clearly marked vehicles carrying aid workers. 12.) How can you see pictures and videos of entire cities reduced to rubble and think that’s ok as a military act? 13.) Do you respect the amount of articles of the Geneva convention Israel has broken as a legitimate response to October 7th and if so at what point did these actions become justified for you? 14.) what makes terrorists worse than an army systematically committing the same atrocities on a much larger scale? 15.) Do you realise that the nations that support you are mostly doing so against the wishes of their citizens to support the war economy. (Check novaramedia for their polls they’ve reported them on most of the biggest financing countries including the Uk and US according to entirely trusted sources.) 16.) Why are Hamas so much more willing to enter negotiations and why are Israel so resistant to them. 17.) Do you think Israel should be going further? 18.) And lastly at what point is it too far for you?
P.S I am not writing this to bait anyone and my position has been formed from a standpoint that has started out pro Israeli and was neutral until late 2021. I stand with the Palestinians from a country that not only has heavily supported Israel for years but was a key part of its formation, I have formed my opinion based on the facts of what I’ve seen despite being raised entirely to the contrary. (Also my mum is currently watching a documentary on the nakba, she also now firmly supports Palestine having raised me in a household that believed in Zionism.)
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2024.05.21 19:02 TopplingTheGovt Quick vdroop question

I get the general idea. But I don't get in which direction vdroop effects things.
Does greater amounts of vdroop or minimal vdroop help minimize voltage spikes?
Does greater amounts of vdroop or minimal vdroop help ensure stability when overclocking on a process that's constantly shifting load percentage?
Thank you so much in advance <3
I'm sorry for asking something that may seem obvious, but I've been researching vdroop and llc, and idk if it's just common knowledge or what, but all everyone ever does is mention how It effects voltage spikes and stability, without actually mentioning in which direction if it helps or hurts those things with lower or greater vdroop.
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2024.05.21 19:02 minohawk Short term disability after burnout

I've been feeling burned out lately in my job as a software engineer. I started working right after graduation and haven't taken a real break. After three years of work, I've been feeling particularly down over the last couple of months.
Recently, my father had a severe accident, so I had to travel back to my country to check on him. Since I didn't have any PTO days left, I lied about my grandfather's death to take bereavement leave and some extra days to be with my family.
I just returned to Canada and I'm not feeling well. I'm considering seeing a therapist to explore if I'm eligible for short-term disability leave. What do you think my best option is in this situation? Should I leave my job, take a break, and then start applying for new positions (I'm not sure about this option since I'm moving to Toronto and my rent is quite high and I don't have a lot of savings and as you know the IT market is not as good as it was, so I don't know how much time Im expecting to land a new job )
Or should I go on short-term disability leave and figure things out once I'm well-rested? in this case, is my grandfather death could be an issue if they find out its not true, and do I even have to mention it to the therapist or the insurance compagny?
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2024.05.21 19:01 Malfarro Looking for games with good character customization

I basically need the glorified character creation engines that may or may not have gameplay as a bonus.
What I REQUIRE:
A game has many clothing/armor options, preferably in different styles
Many hair options and various accessories, hats, glasses, masks, etc
It is possible to change body shape and height (medium priority)
The clothing items (or at least most of them) are available at once (no paywalls or "kill this dude to get that armor") and I don't have to spend too much time to unlock them
PC only, and preferably something that doesn't weigh 200 GB
Things I DON'T CARE FOR:
A hundred face sliders. Having a good face gen is a bonus, but my main aim is good item variety
Stunning ultra graphics (I mean, the graphics should not be vanilla Minecraft, but if there are good old games with good variety...)
Games/tools I already know about and use:
Champions online (had to buy/grind a few costume parts packs though) - near total hit
City of Heroes - total hit (so many of everything and last time I checked all was available from the start without paywalls because the game is legally dead)
Saints Row series - partial hit (nice in-game shops one has to drive to, unfortunately not all items in one place)
Hero Forge mini figures creator - partial hit (so much stuff deeply customizable and free, but I want normal characters and not minis)
2D stuff like Heromachine, Fabrica de Herois - partial hit (because 2D)
What WON'T DO AT ALL:
Skyrim, Oblivion, Fallout 3/New Vegas - no clothes customization during the character creation and I don't care for 50 facial sliders, better give me 50 kinds of eyes
DC universe online (have to hunt for those costume pieces, the pieces available during character creation are few)
So, thank you for reading this long post, waiting eagerly for your suggestions.
And before you redirect me to an old post Google shows when asked for games with good character creation, I've read it, but it's a bit vague and it's clear its author and I have different goals and therefore not all games from that post will suit me. Thanks in advance and how foolish would I feel if this thing gets deleted for missing some technicality...
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2024.05.21 19:01 No-Yoghurt-8758 Still unemployed (25f) and my boyfriend (26m) wants me to move in?

We are in love and are crazy about each other. But despite this I am not sure if this is a bad decision. We’ve been dating almost a year now, and spend a ton of time together. I was laid off back in January and have still been looking. I’ve been applying to full time corporate positions similar to what I was doing before nonstop and have had several interviews going all the way up to the final round, but never seem to make it all the way through. It’s been very disheartening. I plan on getting at the very least part-time retail job when my Unemployment runs out. The only reason I haven’t got one yet is that the hourly job would pay less than what my Unemployment currently is.
We have been talking about moving in together for a few months, even prior to me losing my job. I do think he thought I would have a job by now, but he has continued to be supportive. He even paid for my plane tickets home recently so I can visit my family to be at my sister’s graduation. He has also helped me with my food and groceries so I can focus on paying my rent and other bills. He has even said I can get on his insurance once mine runs out. I just have a feeling he is going to start to resent me. It’s looking like I’m not going to be able to make as much as I did before anytime soon. I’m confident I can get part-time job, but it will not be enough to help pay our rent in the high cost of living city we live in. He makes three times as much as I did, so he is very well off. He assures me he has no problem paying for the rent in its entirety until I can get something.
Our leases end in august so we have started looking at apartments now. My mom has told me to be cautious because if I rely on on him, he could take it away and ask me to leave at anytime. He has assured me he would never do this, that is in love with me and wants to marry me, but wants to see how we do together first. I’ve met all his family and friends. My lease and his lease end soon and I want to move in together, but it would be putting so much reliance on him and trusting he will catch me if I fall. The alternative is me moving back home 2000 miles away with my parents. What should I do?
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2024.05.21 19:01 Douglasjm Magic is Programming B2 Chapter 2: Feelings

Synopsis:
Carlos was an ordinary software engineer on Earth, up until he died and found himself in a fantasy world of dungeons, magic, and adventure. This new world offers many fascinating possibilities, but it's unfortunate that the skills he spent much of his life developing will be useless because they don't have computers.
Wait, why does this spell incantation read like a computer program's source code? Magic is programming?
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"So, in short, the most stuck-up bully of my life is now begging for our help to fulfill his greatest dream, because we've happened to become his only remotely realistic hope of achieving it. Do I have that right?"
Carlos looked up from his plate of succulent roasted meats and vegetables, all covered generously with a rich gravy, and raised an eyebrow at Amber. They were in Mayor Stelras's personal dining room, enjoying the service of his personal chef. "You know you do. You've read the letter yourself, what, a dozen times now?"
Amber set the letter aside yet again and took another bite of her own lunch. "Yeah, I know. It's just…" She shook her head and chuckled. "Out of all the things that happened the last few weeks, this one is somehow the hardest for me to believe is real. It's ridiculous. I know it's ridiculous. I've personally met and spoken with royalty! Kindar should be nothing compared to that! But, somehow… This is hitting me harder than anything."
Carlos nodded calmly. "Makes sense to me. The presence of royalty is completely new to you. It's huge and important, and far beyond anything you ever expected might happen, but the only thing you've experienced before that's different is its absence. You don't have any memories in the back of your mind telling you 'that's not how this is supposed to work.' For Kindar, you have a lifetime of memories telling you that he's more powerful and better supported than you are, and that you're mostly helpless against his bullying. Now that you're the one in power, and he's the one helpless against you, that's not just new, but contradicts a lot of your past experiences. Some part of you in the back of your mind is having difficulty reconciling the contradiction; it's like you have a subconscious voice shouting 'that's wrong; it's not how this is supposed to work!' For meeting Princess Lornera, that voice is only confused and surprised, not feeling like something's wrong."
"Hmm." Amber cocked her head and paused. She looked down and idly speared another forkful of tender steak. She made a few more contemplative sounds as she chewed and swallowed. "That makes some weird kind of sense. I think." She shook her head. "How did you know that? I never would have figured it out."
Carlos chuckled. "Don't feel bad about it. Not many people would ever figure out that kind of thing about how human minds work without being taught. I certainly didn't. My dad's a therapist, and he taught me a lot."
Amber blinked, then blinked again. "I have never heard of that profession before. In fact, I think it doesn't exist here."
Carlos realized on reflection that "therapist" hadn't translated. There was no word for it in Ganler, the native language here. "Huh. … I hadn't thought about it, but I'm not surprised. It took a long time for people where I grew up to realize that kind of thing can be important. Or maybe the hard part was realizing that it takes education and training to do it well."
"Ah."
They ate mostly in silence for a while, occasionally humming in thoughtful consideration while they chewed. Eventually Amber was leaning on her elbow, just watching as Carlos scraped up a few last bits of gravy from his plate. She stared distantly at nothing. "Hmm… You know, I'm tempted to actually accept, just so I can rub his face in how I succeeded better at his own greatest ambition than he ever will."
"Hmm? Oh right, Kindar." Carlos chuckled. "I imagine a few sessions of smugly condescending to him would be rather cathartic revenge for you. Would it be worth the downside of helping him actually achieve his ambition, at least to a minor degree, though? I'm sure that if Darmelkon had any other viable options for helping his son with this, he would have taken care of it years ago. If we refuse, we'll be denying Kindar from achieving his ambition at all. Wouldn't that be better revenge?"
"Logically, yeah, that makes sense. But it just doesn't feel satisfying to me." Amber took a sip of water and pushed her empty plate away. "I want to show him how badly we outclass him now. I want to see his face when he realizes that he will never measure up to the 'annoying stupid girl' he used to tease."
Carlos put his hands together, resting his elbows on the table, and rested his chin on his hands as he looked at Amber. "Not to mention how much money Darmelkon will pay us for doing it." His voice was calm and level.
Amber nodded quickly. "Yes, that too."
"You realize we're already rich now, right? Receiving taxes, and all that."
Amber threw her head back laughed uproariously. When her laughter finally tapered off, she leaned forward and looked Carlos in the eyes. "You may have heard that Darmelkon is rich, but you clearly don't understand how filthy rich he really is. Yes, I was shocked when he offered a hundred gold bounty for finding us back before we became nobles, but that was only because I didn't know why he considered us valuable. For this? For helping his son achieve his otherwise impossible greatest desire? A price in platinum would be cheap! I would bet that he'll pay in mythril and be glad about it."
"Hmm." Carlos quickly did the math in his head. 100 gold was roughly equivalent in value here to a million dollars on Earth, and is also equal to 1 platinum. So 1 million dollars per platinum. 100 platinum is 1 mythril. So each mythril coin is around the same order of magnitude value as 100 million dollars. Just 10 mythril to match a billion dollars. "Okay, that's more than I thought. So he's a major business tycoon? What the hell is he doing living in a backwater in the middle of nowhere like Erlen?"
Amber shrugged. "I have no idea. Ask him."
Carlos stared for a moment and snorted. "I suppose it doesn't matter." He took a deep breath. "Alright, I guess we're at least seriously considering it after all. So, let's break it down, pros and cons. Pros: personal satisfaction for you, Darmelkon loses any basis for claiming we still owe him a favor, and we get a ridiculous amount of money. Cons: Kindar becomes a noble. Also, we have to put up with him being here for a while. Anything else?"
"Another one for pros: Even with the favor and Darmelkon paying so much, Kindar himself will personally owe us, bigtime." Amber grinned. "His house will just about be permanent vassals in service to us."
Carlos hesitated, then frowned. "… Just how much, and how long, do you intend to keep paying him back for how he treated you?"
Amber raised an eyebrow and shrugged. "…Until I get tired of it? I don't know."
"I'm all for giving him a well-deserved comeuppance, turning the tables, and giving him a taste of his own medicine to teach him a lesson. But I will not countenance continuing to humiliate and abuse him long term!" Carlos shook his head emphatically. "If we do that, we would be bullies just as bad as he was. I hate bullies, and I refuse to be one."
Amber slowly lowered her eyes, blushed, and nodded shyly. "I… You're right. That is not the kind of person I want to be. I'm sorry for suggesting it."
Carlos leaned forward and reached out to gently put his right hand on top of her hands. "It's okay. What's important is that you recognize your mistakes, learn from them, and make yourself a better person. My parents taught me that very, very thoroughly."
"Yeah." Amber sighed and shook herself. "Thanks. I'll try to remember that. And… Should we just call off the whole idea?"
"Only if you truly want to." Carlos squeezed her hands gently. "If you can get some satisfaction without taking it too far, then that's completely okay, and you were right that there are serious benefits to it. Even having him as a vassal house, as long as we treat him reasonably. Though… Hmm." He frowned. "There has to be a reason why strong noble houses aren't raising up new vassal nobles all the time, right? It's not all that hard to make a noble soul plan if you know the requirements details."
"I suppose. Lorvan probably knows the reason."
Carlos nodded. "Yeah. I feel like he might just ask if we can figure it out ourselves, like he did about nobles keeping mana wellsprings, though…" He shrugged. "I'm sure Darmelkon knows too, and he wouldn't have asked if the Crown forbids it, or anything like that. He's ambitious and ruthless, not stupid. We should ask, certainly, but I expect any consequences we might have overlooked will be manageable. As I see it, the core question is just…" Carlos reached his other hand forward, firmly clasped and lifted both of Amber's hands, and looked her in the eyes. "Amber, what do you want to do with this?"
Amber stared back for a moment, then averted her gaze. "Don't you have an opinion about this too? Why are you only asking me?"
"Of course I have an opinion, but all he did to me was loan me a sword in a dungeon and then act rude and arrogant when he demanded it back afterward. You are the one who grew up being bullied by him. How to treat him matters far more to you than it possibly could to me." Carlos squeezed Amber's hands reassuringly. "Amber, please, look at me." He waited, and after a few seconds Amber hesitantly turned her head to face him directly again. "My opinion on this is that I want our response to be something that you will be content and happy with. All other relevant considerations that I can think of are less important than that."
Amber stared and slowly nodded. "I… Thank you." She squeezed Carlos's hands back and awkwardly extracted her hands from his grip so she could lean forward and rest her head on them, propped up by her elbows on the table. "I think… I do want to accept, but maybe with some conditions. I still want to show him up in person and see his reaction. Part of me still feels afraid of him, and I want to prove to myself that he doesn't have the power to threaten me anymore. That seems like something your 'therapists' would say something about. Would they say it's a good idea? Do you know?"
Carlos nodded. "Yes, absolutely. Standing up to something you used to fear is a great way to resolve residual fear of it that lingers in your mind."
"Then, yeah. I want to do that, and I do still want to get some payback." Amber hesitated. "But if I start bullying people like he did, I'd start hating myself as soon as I realize it. So, no bullying. And that goes for Kindar too. If he can't learn to stop being a bully, then he doesn't deserve what he wants. Let's give him a chance. Make our conditions clear, and demand partial payment up front, but give him an opportunity to earn our help."
"That sounds fair." Carlos cocked his head and frowned in thought. "Having him with us may require adjusting some of our plans. … Actually, we're overdue for making certain plans in the first place. I got a bit too carried away with my excitement over all the spell keywords we can learn now. Sorry."
Amber grinned. "Have you forgotten that I told you I'm well known for always having a plan? What do you think I've been doing the past two days?"
Carlos raised an eyebrow, then grinned back at her. "Oh really? Let's see what you've got!"
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2024.05.21 19:00 No_Run_187 Bizarre HR - Leave Situation

I’m currently employed in California.
My employer caused me debilitating anxiety, depression and panic attacks. I have this well documented with my physician for months.
This work environment has also had numerous internal investigations regarding a toxic work environment/abusive supervisors and has had 30+ people quit or get fired within 2/3 years of the start of the organization. This organization has been under scrutiny in the public eye, but as we all know … the money is protected. (Wanted to add this context)
It took 3 weeks from requesting a reasonable work accommodation with HR (remote work for 6 weeks to adjust to my medication was request) for them to give me no other option but unpaid leave. They even tried forcing me back into the office even though I stated I couldn’t operate a vehicle at the time…
While my position has some on site duties - the majority of my responsibilities can be done remotely. I am currently the only qualified person in my role so we have used external contractors in times when I’ve been absent or drowning in projects.
As I’ve continued requesting accommodations as time has gone on so I could attempt returning the work …. They continued to only offer me unpaid leave. I’ve applied for SDI - but that has taken a long time. I am now on month three without being paid.
Recently our HR team was under investigation which led to our original VP’s resignation. After the resignation I corresponded with our coordinator who was the only HR team member left. After a couple weeks, a new VP was hired and she called me asking for my equipment back so they “can utilize it while I’m on leave” She never asked about my disability or how I’m doing. And there is no current staff member that could utilize the equipment I have. I know they have the right to their equipment but I’ve been on unpaid leave for 3 months and now they need my equipment? Sounds sketchy to me.
Also the head of my department has shared social media and LinkedIn posts with team milestones, excluding me and me only. I know I’m being targeted while I’m out because I was when I was in office.
Would love any thoughts to this. There’s so much more involved but did my best to include important pieces. Thank you!
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2024.05.21 19:00 Upbeat-Lavishness-23 Hello. I want to share suggestions on how to make Dota better. Maybe the developer can hear me here

Hello. I want to share suggestions on how to make Dota better.
Many heroes buy blink dagger. But not everyone is and is not always ready to pay full price for it.
I suggest adding the BLINK SHARD item. Costs 1000 gold, has a radius slightly larger than that of the for staff. Otherwise it works like a regular blink (maybe a little longer cooldown). I know that this can overly strengthen previous blink hero users. Therefore, the Blink shard should not improve into a blink. Some heroes like Axe, Magnus, Puck will still choose to blink. And other heroes who did not always take it will take a blink shard (venomaser, lich, clowerk). Players will have to choose between blink and blink shard and this will diversify the gameplay.
Many hero picks do not do anything for some heroes who gain an advantage. Many picks cannot do anything to Bristleback, Phantom Assassin, Huskar, etc. Hero abilities can disable passives but not items. The only item against passives is silver. He is not convenient for many heroes; you cannot use an ability under his influence or collect him on a support.
I propose adding a new item that disables passives. Firewater. 4000 cost. Crafted from Wind Lace, Tiara of Selemene, Orb of Corrosion and a recipe. Gives item bonuses and has an active ability: you throw a bottle at a point, pouring the contents of the heroes in the area approximately like the old Omniknight aura, a debuff is hung on the heroes for 4 seconds (the next ability used in this hero will turn off the passive for 4 seconds and will cause periodic damage). Cooldown 25 sec.
The flask's flight speed is the same as the alchemist's ability 2. Used on a point on the ground.
This will ease the balance of some heroes and additionally hit the excessive healing of some picks due to Orb of Corrosion.
Add the ability to accumulate charges for several urns. They are easy to dispel and often you can’t do anything to peaks with a large amount of healing. Other items are often either too expensive or it is not profitable for your hero to buy them.
Add an only mid game mode. As in lol. Only mid with towers and throne 5*5 heroes without forest and sides. This mode will replace turbo and make it easier for new players to enter Dota.
You can also add exploding fruits to the forest on both sides. They work like a sniper's grenade, scattering all heroes when attacking a fruit. Useful for constrictions and escape. Makes the gameplay more spectacular, let him throw the hero in all directions at the radius of a sniper’s grenade.

I think that Ancient Apparition's skills are outdated and do not fit into modern Dota.
Below I will offer a description of the skill rework:
1skill. ICE CUBE.
Envelops himself or an ally in an ice block that blocks 2/3/3 attacks and 100/150/200 magic damage. (falls off after 6 seconds or when attacks or damage are blocked) cooldown 30

2skill. ICE VORTEX
old skill, but can be switched through control (attacks everyone/attacks only heroes {I think that after the rework of the 3rd skill it will be necessary to give the opportunity to vortex zone heroes in the line})
3skill FROST GROUND
Works similar to VOODOO RESTORATION.
creates a field around the hero that deals a little damage every second, slows down the movement of enemies, and reduces their health regeneration by 30% for 4 sec(can be cast on a teammate under the influence of the ICE CUBE, working oll duration cube, stops working 3 seconds after broke the cube)
4 skills
COOLING TOUCH
Increases the range of your next attack. It deals 150/225/300 pure damage and prevents health regeneration for 5 seconds. cannot be dispelled. Cooldown time 25 sec. you can save yourself by clicking BKB or another save item
Aghanim Shard
Grants 2 Ice Cube charges. increases damage block to 4 attacks or 250 magic damage
When you deal 50 magic or 1 attack, cube fragments scatter around, causing a little damage and slowing down opponents
Aghanim like old ultimate
This will make the hero truly situational against a hill. Now it is not always effective even against healing picks.

I propose to remake 1 ability of the Tidehunter.
Replace it with the walrus ability from Aghanim's labyrinth. Like the OGRE SEAL TOTEM, but with the ability to turn a little while sliding. Each bounce deals damage and slows enemies. As you level up, the number of bounces increases and, accordingly, the range and damage. This will make the hero much more interesting in lane and in fights. Don't change Aghanim. (Whoever added the aganim shard is a genius. It greatly improved the hero)

Loosen up Pudge's hook. The hero is picked or banned in every game. It is not normal that a hero can dominate a map using a hook that is not maxed out. Even if you remove the ability to pump up a hook by more than 1, the hero will still be picked.
Or reduce the radius of 1 spell at the initial levels
Or reduce the speed at the first levels.
Or add vision to the hero and a hook for everyone, even in the fog of the battle, provided that the hook is not maxed out.
Make pudge players max hook

And finally. This can be mechanically challenging. Let when the enemy hero goes into the fog of war, you saw him for another 1-2 seconds. Could attack and use abilities. The forest will still be used for an ambush, but it will be a little harder to escape into it. Probably every player lost a fleeing enemy in the forest. This will weaken the Tinker a little because he will be visible if he blinks. Often he blinks point-blank at you and gives you abilities, but you cannot catch him due to the fog of war.

thank you for your attention

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2024.05.21 19:00 No-Yoghurt-8758 Still unemployed (25f) and my boyfriend (26m) wants me to move in?

We are in love and are crazy about each other. But despite this I am not sure if this is a bad decision. We’ve been dating almost a year now, and spend a ton of time together. I was laid off back in January and have still been looking. I’ve been applying to full time corporate positions similar to what I was doing before nonstop and have had several interviews going all the way up to the final round, but never seem to make it all the way through. It’s been very disheartening. I plan on getting at the very least part-time retail job when my Unemployment runs out. The only reason I haven’t got one yet is that the hourly job would pay less than what my Unemployment currently is.
We have been talking about moving in together for a few months, even prior to me losing my job. I do think he thought I would have a job by now, but he has continued to be supportive. He even paid for my plane tickets home recently so I can visit my family to be at my sister’s graduation. He has also helped me with my food and groceries so I can focus on paying my rent and other bills. He has even said I can get on his insurance once mine runs out. I just have a feeling he is going to start to resent me. It’s looking like I’m not going to be able to make as much as I did before anytime soon. I’m confident I can get part-time job, but it will not be enough to help pay our rent in the high cost of living city we live in. He makes three times as much as I did, so he is very well off. He assures me he has no problem paying for the rent in its entirety until I can get something.
Our leases end in august so we have started looking at apartments now. My mom has told me to be cautious because if I rely on on him, he could take it away and ask me to leave at anytime. He has assured me he would never do this, that is in love with me and wants to marry me, but wants to see how we do together first. I’ve met all his family and friends. My lease and his lease end soon and I want to move in together, but it would be putting so much reliance on him and trusting he will catch me if I fall. The alternative is me moving back home 2000 miles away with my parents. What should I do?
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2024.05.21 19:00 Shoridin First day review

So I just got snipped about 11 hours ago. I live in a small European country, where snips are not very common. Waited almost a year and a half for my appointment (6 months mandatory wait for potential regrets, then crazy wait times and some admin issues). At least it's for free. I took the rest of the week off work, although I don't really get any official sick days (benefits of being self employed, with the disadvantage of no work=no money).
I will try to give a dry account of the experience, mostly for anyone considering it or those that are worried and stressed about it on D-day as I was.
Emotionally I was frazzled all morning before the procedure, but by now I am slowly easing into it.
The procedure itself was scalpel with small incision, and cutting of about 1cm of the duct, and self dissolving stitches. The doctor was nice, helpful, explained the procedure and attended to all my worries.
It went quite fast and smooth. Maybe 15-20 minutes, it felt longer but I was out fast. The local injection on the left side caused some sharp pain, but it went away quickly. Didn't feel almost anything else. The right side injection was almost painless, but the procedure was unpleasant for a bit. Not really pain, more of a feeling of being kicked in the nutts, without the sharp pain that comes with it. All in all I would say the pain was at most 6/10, and usually less than 3. Discomfort peaked at like 9/10 at times, but it was quite tolerable with some breathing exercises and the doctor being amusing.
When I left there was some pressure and discomfort. I went home to rest and have been in bed aside from toilet breaks. Lying down with legs slightly raised, and almost constant cooling. There is pretty much no pain so far, and still some discomfort, around 1/10 at most. Standing and walking around can get it to like 3/10, but usually I barely feel anything. Some leg movements can cause a momentary jab of minor pain, but really nothing serious. Didn't take any painkillers at all so far, and I don't feel a need to as I am quite comfortable (but I was always in favor of feeling the pain and understanding it).
Special mention to my absolutely angel of a wife, who drove me to the procedure, waited with me and helped me relax, took me back home and is doting on me left and right, despite having a hectic schedule with our very hyperactive elementary-school-age kid.
One thing I will be happy to know, if anyone has experience with that specific type of procedure: I have a band-aid on the stitches. When would be a good time to take it off?
Thank you, and I hope my account of the procedure will help other people come to it more relaxed and at peace. I will update if anything special happens. Otherwise probably in a week or two to report how easy it was, and in 2 months to report success.
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2024.05.21 18:57 L4v3n Cryptocurrency aka crypto - hush! hush! in Nepal

Repost: I actually posted it in Nepal but they removed my post. See how filtering has been done. No freedom of speech! Hope NepalSocial wouldn't do that.
I wonder why people fear using word crypto in Nepal while talking or posting in social media. Is it because CBI police arrest people who talks about it? If so, there's no freedom to talk about it? Sorry, arrest me if it is because I am talking about it.
I remember back those days when bitcoin started mining. I read about it, the process, and all. It was good though, but I was young enough to not predict and forsee the future. Now I regret how I missed the treasure back then. During that time, I guess it was still illegal in Nepal? or the laws was not created? No idea, really!
I totally understand why Nepal made it illegal and I respect the decision of NRB. However, I would like to suggest NRB to do thorough investigation and research on this matter. I agree the huge sum of money will go out of nation if we accept trading crypotcurrency. People who do that should be punished by the law. But people can also do peer-to-peer trading within Nepal without taking much risk. Should they be punished for it? I may lack in-depth research in it. What do you guys think? Any banking officials/economists/analysts wanna discuss about the nature of those types of transactions - the pros and cons? If government doesn't understand something fully, doesn't mean it should be made illegal. The new personnel should be leading the government in such scenario who understand completely and provide valid logical arguments.
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2024.05.21 18:57 CholaPeroBonita Seeking Career Guidance and Support: 3+ Years on This SWE Journey

Hi, all! 👋

Intro/Question:

Let me just start out by saying that I’ve been on here for a little while and have admired not only the persistence, dedication, and grit of the women on here, but also the kindness and support in comparison to other groups. I wish I could give/get hugs from you all because a lot of you seem like such wonderful people, and I could really use some of that kindness in my life at the moment.
Now, I guess I’ll get right into my reason for posting this: I’d love some advice/insight/thoughts from y’all on recommendations for my next steps in this career transition towards software development because I’ve been struggling for awhile with finding a FT or even PT role.
Throughout this time, my mental health has also declined greatly (while on this journey, I’ve actually started antidepressant medication for the first time ever because my mental health has exponentially decreased, and have also seen a few different therapists in the same span of time).

VERY brief overview of my journey thus far:

Early Education: Growing up in a predominantly white community outside the main city, I was put into ESL classes despite being born in the U.S. I'm Latina, and my parents--who knew little English at the time--agreed with everything the educators suggested. This meant I was often taken out of critical science and math classes to make time for ESL work. Despite being a straight-A student, I had to work harder than others, and I believe this was one reason why.About a year and a half ago, I was diagnosed with combined ADD/ADHD. As a kid, it often took me longer to complete my work. My parents noticed but assumed it was just the way I functioned. My mom often recounted how I needed a "million" breaks while doing homework, which often led to late nights. Despite these struggles, I managed to stay on top of my studies.
Undergrad Education (2015 - 2019): I am a first-gen college grad and earned a bachelors in biochem & environmental science summer 2019. I discovered computer science during my junior year of college (by then, it was too late to take more courses in CS let alone attempt to make a switch without staying an extra year, which my scholarships would not cover). After graduating college, I was still interested in learning more about CS, so I took an Introduction to Programming in C course at my local community college, and not only earned an A, but also thoroughly enjoyed the content.
Grad School (Spring 2022): Enrolled in an online Masters in CS at Case Western Reserve University for those without CS degrees with a $30,000 grant from the dept. Took Discrete Mathematics and Algorithms & Data Structures in Java (those of us w/o a CS degree had to pass these before being able to move into the rest of the program where we’d be merged with those who DID have CS degrees), but paused due to my younger brother's unexpected passing.
Bootcamp (Fall 2022): Received a full-ride scholarship to a bootcamp (1/15 out of 1200 applicants accepted) where I learned full-stack development with Python, JavaScript, SQL, Flask, AJAX, and React, among other technologies. Graduated December 2022.
Further Learning (Spring/Summer 2023): Accepted into Code the Dream’s React course, dedicating over 20 hours per week to mastering React all while volunteering to work on open-source projects.
Internship (Fall 2023 - Present): I was interning at an early-stage Ed Tech startup up until the end of April, contributing to building an app from the ground up. I Gained experience in code writing/reviewing, CI/CD methodology, technical communication, and working on a software development team along with other teams like the content team and design team.

Struggles/Thoughts:

I have been consistently applying for FT/PT roles, internships, etc. with nothing but maybe 4 interviews since graduating from my bootcamp. In addition, I’ve been tweaking my resume for jobs that I feel I could be a particularly good candidate for using Jobscan with no luck.
With regards to the startup, they’ve informed me that they do not have sufficient funding to bring me on. Furthermore, about a month after the internship contract officially ended, the other female intern (graduated from the same bootcamp, although different cohorts) at the startup also let me know that she was being brought on again for an extended contract, and asked if I was offered the same—to which I replied that no, I wasn’t. I guess she also has an associates in CS, which also helps and I am not mad at her for anything and support her and uplift her, but as you can imagine, I am a little disappointed (more in myself than anything, I guess). It just makes me feel a bit crushed. I made myself always available (even after hours), replied quickly, got along super well with everyone, got my tasks all done for the most part. ==> Towards the end, I was tasked with a particularly difficult task, and was able to get through a good chunk of a new game, but was not able to fully finish. During this period, I was also struggling to get ahold of my ADHD meds, but they seemed to be out of stock everywhere, so that also didn't help.

Next steps:

I’m debating whether I should just keep applying, find some other program (AS/BS/MS), or just stop this trajectory altogether (although, I REALLY hope that I won’t have to because it would probably break me 😔).
I know that my math skills probably aren’t on par with those of others in the field, and I know that I need to work on those as well, so if you have any suggestions for free resources for that/what I should focus on with regards to teaching myself these concepts I’d also really appreciate it. I'm currently taking the Harvard CS50 course for credit as well as a Mathematics for Machine Learning course on Coursera (they state that this is for people of all math levels).
I’ve learned a lot and am passionate about continuing to grow as a software engineedeveloper. Any advice on next steps, opportunities, etc. that you feel may be relevant would be greatly appreciated. Thank you SO much if you read this far! 🫶
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2024.05.21 18:55 Zerone06 Chinese Taoism holds a presence in Altaic mythology in the form of gender-based duality and creation

The famous symbol of Taoist cosmology, Yin and Yang, represents dualism in the principles of universal existence. But it also reflects the harmony within these two, that is, it also has a monistic side.
The Altaic creation saga is a cosmogonic "beginning of everything" text of the Turks and it contains elements influenced by Taoist principles.
Here is how it goes:
When there was nothing, there was only water. Ulgen was flying above the water, forever adrift, since there was no place to land. But one time, Ulgen heard a voice from within him, "Hold from below, grasp what lies before you!" With that, he reached out his hand. From the depths of the water, a piece of rock emerged. Ulgen alighted upon the land, but then he just rested on, for he knew not what to reach further. Then, Goddess Agine rose to the surface and adressed him: "Create, then! Say 'I did, it's done', or else, do not say 'I did, it's not done.'" And then, she disappeared. Leaving Ulgen alone with the deed of creation.
If we were talking about Greek mythology, this would probably end up in sex. But Agine enters the water and disappears, and the story continues in another way. Because Agine has fulfilled her role. Agine is the goddess who triggered Ulgen into creating. By saying "Say 'It's done,' or else, do not say 'It's not done,'" she teaches Ulgen to believe that something that is desired to happen will happen, in other words, affirmation, because cosmogonic texts (since everything is created for the first time) have an aspect of suggesting how the world should be. One other side is the power of logos But that's a whole another matter.
In short creation first comes from Agine here. Now, the connection of nature-related feminine energy and creation is not a first in mythology as it exists in almost every mythology, but here it's a bit different because Agine inspires the creator instead of, you know, taking from him and causing creation by herself. She inspires the act itself, now we can talk about the manifestation of a dual system of thought without relying on gender and birth as it usually happens in myths, but rather in a cosmological sense.
The heaven/earth concept is another concept of Turks which is also a part of this dual system of thought. In Chinese historical literature, we can see the term Tianxia (天下), which means everything under the sky. So there is sky, and then there is what's under it. This is highly related to the Mandate of Heaven so it's a concept of mythology as well. Again, the usual translation of Tian in Chinese is Heaven so it's a divine thing. And from the Turks they usually refer to sky as Tengri. Dots are already connecting.
Anyways, let's continue with the saga:
An entity named Erlik emerged. Ulgen asked him who he was. Erlik declared his desire to gather soil and fashion it into an earth of his own, but this intention of him angered Ulgen. Erlik said that he would bring the soil to him if he kept his anger, Ulgen calmed down. Erlik then brought the soil. Ulgen took the soil and shouted: "What I have done will be!" and a piece of land was formed before him. Then he sent Erlik back to the bottom of the water again. This time Erlik only delivered some of the soil, but kept a piece in his mouth. However, the soil that Erlik kept in his mouth also grew larger and got stuck in his throat. When Ulgen asked why he hid the soil, Erlik answered that he wanted to create a place for himself. Ulgen got furious at his yet again attempt to rival his divine self. With fury, he banished Erlik, declaring he will never be able come to the surface again. Thus, Erlik remained underground forever, spreading diseases, torturing dead souls, and unleashing his curse.
Now here it resembles Greek mythology indeed. Erlik is similar to Hades as his role is ruling the underworld as the god of evil. But still, is the concept here really the one and the same as the clash between Zeus and Hades?
The distinction between good and bad is existent here that is obvious. But hear this: Although Erlik and Ulgen seem to be enemies in principle, they are actually complementary to each other. They are the two faces of creation, two faces of the same coin, just like how it was with Agine. The conflict between them is essentially conflict of territorial dominance of creation. While Ulgen represented the sky, Erlik wanted to take the earth, but when he couldn't, he was sent underground. Erlik is a complementary element of the creation since without under what there is cosmos can't fully shape.
Here is the explanation of Yin and Yang from Encyclopedia Britannica: Yin is a symbol of earth, femaleness, darkness, passivity, and absorption. Yang is conceived of as heaven, maleness, light, activity, and penetration.
As you can see, Yin and Yang contain not one, but all what is opposite. Therefore, we can clearly see Erlik's position on the opposite side of Ulgen, who, as heaven, represents Yang's properties. Now there are strong theories that Tengrism is a pantheistic religion. In the believed cosmological model of the Tengrism, all shapes from a tree and all what existence reaches is essentially bucketed in one. The elements of the universe are all connected to each other. So, while the model is like this, factors like the creation being formed from great contrasts and the universe's being still representing those opposite powers inevitably reflects the Taoist principles here. After all, Yin and Yang stand for Earth and Sky as well. Which is a clear core in Turkic belief as it could be understood from Orkhon inscriptions.
The saga ends as it follows:
Before getting imprisoned in the depths of the world, Erlik yearned for the most little piece of soil. Ulgen initially hesitated, yet Erlik pleaded so much, eventually he granted him the soil. But when Ulgen asked him what was his intention with the soil, Erlik plunged into the water, vanishing from sight.
As you can see, Erlik is indeed holds a part of creation in himself. It can be understood from here that the duality used by the Turks in their conception of the universe and creation is not dichotomous, but rather a form of harmony, and that it is probably related to Yin and Yang.
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2024.05.21 18:54 Kacklc923 Independence

I'm curious about how you navigate the question of independence with your toddlers. At what ages did you start giving them more freedom?
Some scenarios:
○When did you stop actively supervising on the playground? ○At what age could they play in the backyard while you were inside? ○When was the first drop off playdate? ○How old were they when you let them play in another room without constant checks? ○When could they get their own snacks and drinks? ○How old for the first sleepover at a friend's house? ○At what age did drop-off for sports, dance, etc. start?
My 3.5-year-old seems to crave independence. She rides her 4-wheeler in our backyard/the golf course while I work inside, has friends over or goes to playdates without me/other adults having to entertain them, gets herself dressed in the morning after making her bed, goes to soccer, dance, cheer while I run errands. Plays independently, but knows I'm always here to help.
Reading other posts, I sometimes wonder if I'm the crazy one, allowing her these freedoms. But I also see her glowing with pride at every small victory, and I think maybe this letting go thing is kind of the point. We're not just raising kids, are we? We're growing adults. And adults need to fall sometimes so they can learn to get back up again. How do we know we're giving them enough freedom to fly, but not so much they falter? And what are your biggest concerns and why?
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