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I'm currently looking to upgrade the CPUs in my HPE ProLiant server. My current server specs are:

• 2x Intel Xeon E5-2620 v2 CPUs
• 94GB DDR3 ECC 1600MHz RAM
• 2x 460W PSUs
• (and in the future, a 1650 Ti LP)
• Various storage disks

I'd like to upgrade to the Intel Xeon E5-2690 v2 CPU (since I have a dual CPU setup, I need to buy 2 CPUs). This upgrade will help improve the performance and capabilities of my server, which I plan to use for hosting game servers and other general server applications.
The official retail price for these CPUs is around 80+ euros each. However, I've found them listed on AliExpress for around 15 euros. This significant price difference has me concerned about the legitimacy and reliability of the AliExpress listings.
I'm not sure if I can trust these AliExpress sellers or if the CPUs they're offering are genuine. I want to make sure I get authentic, high-quality CPUs that will be compatible and reliable in my server, as the stability and performance of my game servers and other applications are crucial.
Can anyone provide advice or insights on purchasing CPUs from AliExpress? Are there any red flags I should be aware of or steps I can take to ensure I'm getting legitimate, reliable parts? I want to make sure I make a wise decision that won't compromise the performance or stability of my server, as it's crucial for my game server hosting and other server applications.
Any help or guidance would be greatly appreciated!
Note: This post was translated with the assistance of AI.

Whatsapp at 21:05 from a teacher, the night before their class, "For the class tomorrow, can you please talk about the media in the USA? The main broadcasters and especially the news media. Also magazines and the "yellow press." Also about how people get news from social media etc. Thanks!"
I don't want to be negative, but just for awareness as you plan for next year: know that the "work" part of the experience is sometimes exasperating, and might take up more brain space than you'd like. Even if you don't deal with stuff like this teacher - and I have 6-8 more - be aware that "only" working half days, i.e. talking for four or five hours in back-to-back classes, is exhausting (at least to me, a non-teacher).
My school requires me to independently teach during my entire 15 hours/week, and the teachers routinely make requests like this one. For the last several weeks they've started leaving me alone in the classroom, which isn't allowed. The school director doesn't care ("you're the only one who has complained") and talking to the asesoría only caused me more problems. I know a previous aux had similar issues, and probably many others before us. I like the students, and I like the teachers even when their behavior exasperates me. It is what it is.
I'm glad I had this opportunity. It was worth it to live in Spain! Just wanted to say, don't assume you'll be jetting around Europe all the time without a care in the world. Factoring in the extra prep time, down time between classes, and a long commute (my own choice), school took up a solid 30 hours a week in my case. Prepare yourself to work, and then be pleasantly surprised if your school doesn't require much.

In school I thought I was dumb and doesn’t understand it, but now I take some time and did some khan academy with math courses on brilliant and understand some things and theory that I couldn’t when I was in school, but even with understanding I don’t feel anything, yes I can solve problems or equations but I don’t feel anything, not sense of accomplishment nothing I just grind through problems without any feel.
How you all do it for long hours it is just seems pointless to me, in my mind it goes: okey I did this problem and what it is, just a number or x, or equation, just data without any meaning I cannot do with it anything and I feel bored.
Examples when I don’t feel bored. If I build something or fix something or draw something, I look at drawing and feel like I did something and feel good(my drawings are bad), I see substantial progress, with math my logic is: Good job, now you can do even harder problems, aaaaand what?
My question is how do math for you become fun or enjoyable? What the secret? Sometimes I just do it in spite of don’t understanding it. But I lose this feel fast.

Yo bro ever since December we went to movies u been acting mad different bro. My bad for being on my phone the entire time, idek why I’m saying this now. I have an attention span of a rock bro I can’t even concentrate. Even when I went Hassan Minaj with - and - I was on my phone the entire time idk y I do this. My bad for doing dumb shit on my phone like looking through mans snaps and my camera roll 💀💀 trust I have worse shit on my camera roll LMAO cuz I’m in bare baisti group chats on WhatsApp. Like now that I think that’s why you prob askwd what I do with the screenshots I take in January when we linked at chucks honestly I don’t even know why I take screenshots of random shit but my bad at the movies wasn’t the place to be doing this shit.

Hi again,
When deploying software from new MS store through Intune in user context, how can i keep the software updated on the devices?
Here is an example: I have shared PC and a different versions of the software has been installed to different users in the same device... I have got to known that the deployment should have been executed in system context to shared devices right? Anyway, came to know with this case recently and I am looking for help how could I effectively update the software to all users?
In general the MS store supposed to take care of automatic updates right?

Hello!
30(F) in Delhi looking to get into strength training and weight loss (hopefully). I'm getting older and many friends have told me that strength training plays a big role maintaining healthy body later. I've also gained weight which makes me feel a bit sluggish- I don't want to feel like that. I've never been to a gym and tbh, it scares me a bit. I am shy and I do not know how to begin, how to vet a gym, get membership, should I get a trainer since I'm a beginner? Or can I just do it at home? There are so many questions.
I do take dance classes but i would like to specifically work on strengthening my body a bit.
How did the ladies here, in my age group specifically, start with their gym journey, esp if you did the whole process on your own, without guidance? What would be your advice? Anything i should keep in mind? I'll be thankful.

So I have been interested in LOA, manifestations for many years, to change my life completely. I thought its magical that how people are getting their desires by techniques and stuff. i always believe anything is possible. searched about it, every techniques, subliminal, meditation(everyday for 6 months i tried.) and what not but after years of practicing. i haven't reached anywhere. i have heard/read at multiple occasions that at max it take few months to get your desires in reality. I am in this for more than 3 years now. and even after all the failures I still believe i can turn it around, i am trying to locate my issue. And i don't know but i have noticed a pattern of sort i guess it is that i easily get bored of these techniques. for few days i listen subliminals and then after some time I'll get bore, feeling of tiredness start to surround me and i stop doing it. but again after few days I'll try something else in hope of that this time I'll persist, that I'll get it. like affirmations, I'll write them, will try to read them by making a time frame, but in few days my urge to do this is gone. I feel weirdly numb, boring. i make Pinterest vision boards, would decide to see them before sleeping but again after some days it feel like a chore that i have no interest in. has happened multiple times sometimes because the exact opposite of desires happen like couldn't clear a exam, i want to clear with a high rank(I stopped meditation completely after this, was devasted) etc. but most of the time, i don't know why my urge dies. same with self concept I feel tired of repeating stuff in my mind, and then i am unable to do any efforts, but then I bounce back to manifesting, finding something, getting tired of it, cycle repeats.
everyone says persistence is very important. keep persisting etc. but I can't somehow. how do i resolve this. i tried reading books but they to bore me death, once i even started to take notes but i couldn't finish book. but then again i believe this is possible that when people says they changed overnight it is possible. and I always comeback at this, because anything is possible. But I can't persist, even if I force myself I would stumble to something that says you should enjoy manifesting. but I can't after certain time frame. can anyone help me, guide me, I'll be grateful

Your ships finally arrive at the meeting place, Sitnalta Freeport. The Freeport is a major trade centre well known for being an anonymous place of business due to the abnormal amounts of heavy metals in the surrounding nebula which blocks IFFs. Whilst IFFs are useless the station is more than well defended enough to deter potential attackers as well as the amount of enemies anyone would make from trying to harm their favourite place of business. There is one rule on the station, don't rock the boat. Although officially being controlled by independent interests it is well known that Trion Incorporated holds the largest amount of shares in the station. When you dock Trion's influence is obvious, most of the station's security being made up of personnel from the mercenary branch of Trion Security as well as a number of simple mk1 and mk2 combat droids in standby mode all on display to demonstrate what happens to those who "rock the boat". The coordinates of the meeting place lead you to a private docking bay on the lower levels of the station, where most of the dregs of the station go as to not impede its public image. The moment you enter the private docks multiple turrets and guns are aimed at you. A hooded individual, bearing the symbol of Faction Paradox, greets you with the same modulated voice as the person in the message.
"Apologies for the paranoia, when you're going after the company's dirtiest of dirty secrets a little bit of caution is warranted. Right, now that everyone's here we can begin."
They slot a datachip into a cheap holographic projector and the image of the person who originally made the briefcase is shown
"You already know my name, and if you are listening to this message I am already dead. I've already given my sorry speech so I'll get to the point. There is a reason why the datavault is so difficult to access, why no traceback routines work, the datavault doesn't exist. Well, not really, the datavault exists in a state of quantum flux, simultaneously existing and not existing. This means that it cannot be tracked by any normal means, I have found a way around this. When I first accessed the datavault I installed a piece of code onto the database, completely benign until it comes into contact with the second part, once it does it will create a constant stream of data between the datavault and reality causing it to become "anchored". In order to install it properly you will need access to a datavault interface and slot in the stored datachip, a slight issue considering that only high ranking members of Trion Incorporated are given access to them. Once the datavault is anchored you will have a short window of opportunity to reach and infiltrate it before Trion realises anything is wrong and removes the anchor code. I wish you luck in your endeavours."
The figure removes the datachip.
"There are two locations that can be easily accessed by the public which contain a datavault interface. The Kerris interface and the SS Ultra Lux. Since Kerris has been compromised by the daleks and I don't want to risk giving them access to the datavault we will have to go for the Ultra Lux. Tomorrow, the Ultra Lux will be passing by the station to pick up guests for its latest business party, I have already forged invitations for each of you as well as a copy of the code for eveyrone. Once you're on the ship your job will be to find your way to the interface, either in the captain's quarters or on the bridge. Do try to be carefull, some of the wealthiest and most influential scum of the galaxy will be there and security will be tight, all out assault will be nigh imposible."
They give a pointed look at the pathers.
"Payment for the job is 500k credits per head, if you die it will be sent to your next of kin, if you don't have a next of kin that's one less person I need to pay. More details will be discussed once the location is established, any questions?"
As she says this most of the mercenaries scatter and start taking stock of weapons.

I 23M have been talking to this girl 22F for the last 2 months seriously. We hang out all the time have been to two festivals with her since then. We hang out everyday, no matter if it’s hanging out or just cuddling at the end of the night. I pick her and her friends up from the strip or bars we have here when when they get drunk and shouldnt be driving. I usually pick them up around 3am and it takes about an hour so I get back at 4am even though I work early. I’ve done this numerous times throughout the last few months. Sorry I’m rambling. I went through her phone recently and she’s sent one her managers a naughty photo (I don’t even get naughty photos.) and she’s also texts the guy she was talking to before me numerous about hanging out and he sends her photos but from what I can see from the texts they never link because misaligned schedules. I’m not sure what I should do. She also doesn’t know that I went through her phone and found this out.

Needing some advice on a situation.
I’ve been with my boyfriend for a year and I decided to move in a month ago. His sister is living at his house only pays minimal rent, no bills, no cleaning products and only pays for her food. She is soooo lazy never cleans up after herself or her dog. There’s food left around the house, dirty dishes, she leaves doors unlocked and her dog shits on the new garden rocks. Which she doesn’t clean.
I had been telling my boyfriend about it and complaining that I’m the one cleaning it up and she needs to. It’s been going on for weeks and she’s turned around and said that since I’ve moved in the expectations are too high. And I make her feel like she has to move out.
She can’t get a home loan for another 7 months and its resulted in me feeling unwanted and moving out as of today.
I’m also not impressed with my boyfriend as he says that I’m the one complaining (he doesn’t take blame which he also complains about her). And the fact he’s been talking about me behind my back.
We just refinanced the house and I don’t know what to do. I’m mentally struggling and it’s all her fault. But if he makes her move out then it’ll be blamed on me that I did that to her. And make her and the family hate me. Please help I feel so unwanted.
TL;DR: Me (28F ) having issues living with my boyfriend (29M) of a years sister. Do I move out until she leaves or move back in and deal with the background sooking?

I’ve been diagnosed in about 2017. So it’s been quite some time. I’ve had 4 relapses already, recent one about 2 months ago. My levels are stable again on Carbimazole 5mg.
last year I was supposed to have TT but I chickened out (even the 1 in 50,000 chances of complications is still high to me)
but I’m just so tired now. I’m getting older (28) and i don’t think I’m fertile at this point. There were a few chances in my current relationship where I could’ve gotten pregnant (accidentally) and didn’t. At first I was happy but then got more sad.
Now, I’m not actively trying but seeing if it’s even possible. Almost a WHOLE YEAR of UNPROTECTED SX and nothing. That’s insane.
I recently went to my doctors and they didn’t tell me much. My endocrinologist(his coworker As he’s on holiday) talked to me about it. How GD can cause infertility. How even if I got pregnant, I would have to tell them Right away because of the Carbimazole I’m taking right now. And the passing of antibodies To the child. Oh I’ve read so much, it can cause miscarriage, birth defects, even thyroid storm. I even read Propranolol can affect fertility and I’ve been on it for years cause my heart palpitations never stop!!
apparently surgery can help eyes too? They got worse again. And the heat! Oh how I can’t stand being SWEATY all the time. Even when I’m cold !! I went outaide the other day after about an hour after a shower and that messed up my body heat so much I was sick with almost a fever for the whole night and had to take double paracetamol and propranolol to being the heat and heart rate down.
I’m scared of the TT damaging my vocal cords, or the parathyroid glands or just anything going wrong. But it seems there is more negatives than positives in Staying. im not even counting the constant aches and pains and ZERO energy and honesty my brain is dead.
The pregnancy thing is the one thing thats making me more decided but I’m still not sure. I wasn’t even planning on having kids but when I feel that ‘choice’ was taken from me, I’m becoming more and more upset and realise it’s something that I actually want.
i don’t know what to do now.

I’m in my 2nd year of teaching and have a toddler. I’ve had to call in sick so many times to stay home with him now, it’s getting exhausting. My partner often says he can’t take the day and our family is a little too far to help out.
How do other parents deal with it? I feel guilty taking time off, I’m getting stressed trying to create lessons for when I’m away and feel like I’m forever falling behind. Are there things you’ve done that make it easier?

Hey all,
I'm a 24 year old guy from Germany. I'd say im pretty extroverted and love talking to people. I've had some relationships in the past but it never really ended up working out, and I never got the right "click" in a sense. So here I am just looking to see if I might find someone where that happens.
About me: I work in software engineering and my hobbies are cooking, fitness and video games. Also love a good show or movie, essentially just the basics. I'm 6'3(190cm), bearded, and slightly chubby but also somewhat fit since I workout. I'm happy to share pics as well :) Personality wise I'd say im a very direct and honest person and I enjoy taking the lead. I can talk about a lot of things, sometimes I ramble a bit too much so feel free to stop me if I do. I'd also consider myself very responsible and trustworthy. However I am sometimes not the best with emotions (wanting to learn that though!) and take a little while to warm up. A few fun facts at the end of my introduction: I speak german, english and computer (haha), but I'm also learning swedish atm. My favorite animals are bears 🐻, and im vegetarian.
About you: I have a soft spot for shy girls who need a bit of a guiding hand. Doesn't mean you have to be that though. I mostly just want to be able to have deep conversations, do things together and see if we match, I think its a bit of an interpersonal thing for me. I do not have much of a preference looks wise, just be hygienic :P I do like shorter girls but since im pretty tall myself I think most will fit into that bracket. Be atleast 18+ but preferably 21+.
So yeah, feel free to shoot me a message and we'll go from there.

Hi all
I’m fairly new to Sweden and I’ve recently had my bid accepted on an apartment.
I have a Loan Promise from my bank, but the realtor is looking to sign the contract today. My Loan Promise is from my daily bank but it isn’t necessarily with the bank I’d like to take the mortgage with, I want to look for the best rate.
What happens next please? Can you sign today before there’s approval from a bank?
It’s very confusing so I’d be super grateful for any help :) - thank you

My dad is abusive, not physically but he has crushed me mentally. He's the sole earner in our family so we have to keep up with it. He has anger issues and drinking issues. Every day he drinks at night and keep verbally abusing my mom, me or my brother. Up until I was 15 I used to stay quite and accept my fate but then as I grew older I started speaking up to him, we all did. We even talked to him when he used to be sober during the day, still do. And no matter how many times I try to talk to him, he never changed. In front of others he pretend that he's the nicest person in the world and would do anything for us. So our relatives doesn't believe us. He even was in an extra martial affair and we begged him to leave us but he didn't. Its like he's a sadist person and enjoys seeing us in pain. I'm from India so no one will support us if my mom leaves him. Now I just want to get a job after graduation and take my mom and brother away from him. But lately I've realized I am becoming short tempered like him. Snapping on someone or being angry very easily. I'm in a very happy relationship from many years n now I don't want to ruin it because of my anger. He has always supported me but i dont want to hurt him with my behaviour. I don't know how to control it anymore. Every day when I get home seeing my dad's face brings the rage in me. Every word he speaks hurts me in some or the other way and im not able to ignore it. Earlier I used to not pay attention to him but now it's unbearable to do. I don't wanna be like him, I wanna be a good person but don't know how. Can anyone please help me understand how to deal with it?

My girlfriend (33F) and I (41M) have been dating for 8 years. Recently I’ve been giving serious thought to splitting up, but it’s complicated.
We live in Japan. She’s Japanese, I’m American. Culturally, this may be important. We speak in Japanese exclusively. My Japanese level is near-native. She doesn’t speak English.
TL;DR: We love each other, and she’s a great roommate, but I feel like this is going nowhere, and there are some major issues with our relationship. It’s becoming harder and harder for me to imagine future life, marriage, etc., with her.
Background: - The first year dating, we were living separately, same city. - Then I went overseas on assignment for my job, for 6 years. We met infrequently during this time, typically a couple of times per year. - Returned a year ago and we moved in together.
Since moving in together a year ago, things have not gone how I expected. This is my first time living with a girlfriend.
There are some things I really like about her.
Companionship/friendship - She’s been like my closest friend all this time, particularly during covid when we would game and video call together. - Caring, supportive, loving. - Generally in positive spirits. - We can have small talk and laugh together.
Good housemate/roommate - She’s great at doing chores. - Extremely clean.
Low maintenance - She typically does not ask for things. - I can go out when I want, and she never complains.
But there are some things that are causing me to seriously think about splitting up.
She seems to enjoy a kind of “self child-ization” - She enjoys having youthful mannerisms, and greetings that a high-school student might give. - Prides herself on her youthful looks, diminutive physique. - Has children’s toys for herself (stuffed animals, etc) here and there throughout the house. - It almost feels like instead of us having children, she has assumed the role of a child in our relationship. - This makes it hard for me to consult with her on serious topics, like buying a house, career planning, future planning, etc. because it’s hard to take her seriously.
Sex life is not good - We have not had sex for at least 4 months. She seems mostly okay with this. I’m starting to go crazy, but at the same time I seem to have lost some of my sexual interest in her, and we’re more like close roommates/buddies now. While I was living abroad, we would meet infrequently and have sex on those occasions, but now we seem stuck.
Career concerns - She seems content at her job doing basic accounting work. It’s entry-level and seems based on a lot of analog, outdated bookkeeping rules. She frequently says she’s bored at work, doesn’t seem to do much. No career interest, or interest in advancing. - I have a complex job with a crazy amount of stress. The imbalance between my work and hers makes me feel that it’s unfair. I feel I’m trying hard to support a good lifestyle for both of us but I don’t see her doing the same. (Btw, I pay all the rent and she pays for utilities, household items, and groceries.) - I feel that I can’t really discuss my work in detail with her because I’m a manager handling complex situations, and she is often just watching YouTube at her work. The level of challenge in what we do is significantly different.
Home life - On days off, she basically sits around all day in pajamas and plays games when I’m out exercising, being social, etc. I love playing games too, but it seems our ways of spending days off differ significantly. - On days off, she only seems to go out when I drag her out on dates and stuff. - She is constantly watching me when in the house. I feel her eyes on me all the time. She might consider it doting, or being attentive. But her way of constantly looking at me makes me feel uncomfortable. It’s like I am the focus of her attention. I don’t like this and I have warned her about it several times. I want her to pay less attention to me. - It feels like I am dictating all of our actions: she goes to bed when I do, goes where I want on dates, watches the movies I want to watch, will exercise if I prompt her, etc. Or rather, she seems to enjoy letting me dictate all our actions.
Preferences have drifted apart - We both like games and anime. This is great. - Early after we began dating, I started getting into the world of craft beer. Now, I’m actually part-owner of a brewery, and craft beer is a significant part of my life focus. She doesn’t drink at all. - We do not like the same temperatures. I hate hot weather, she hates cold weather. It makes living together difficult, temperature control, etc. I’m pretty active in cold months, she prefers heat and beaches.
Apologies for the rambling post. Would appreciate observations, comments, ideas.

Hey there everyone! I hope everyone is doing well, recently I've been craving a Harry potter or a percy jackson roleplay. More specifically one taking place during the era of the golden trio.
Obviously, I do have a plot but I do want to discuss things together and come up with one that we both would like. Ideally I'd want us both to play multiple characters and take part in world building. I usually roleplay in 3rd person but am not opposed to 1st person, I prefer to be detailed but usually match my partner for length. This will be a long term roleplay and I'd want to discuss everything from our characters to the plot, threat etc. I want us to use at least 1 or 2 canon characters even if we use ocs so keep that in mind. I'd want us both to play multiple characters so keep that in mind, I would also be open to doing double ups if the person asks!
Please put some effort into your first message and don't just say "Hey rp?" Let me know if you'd prefer Percy jackson or Harry potter as well as which characters you'd be open to play etc.
So if this is something you'd be interested in be sure to shoot me a message so we can discuss it together!

33 y.o male 6 2” , 244 , non smoker I have a cytoscope Tomorrow and I can’t stop crying in fear …. for what happened with symptoms overnight end of March from a health scare and being upset form another unrelated issue . Started with constipation and diarrhea.. then that night decided to fap. And woke up twice to pee and had slight burning afterwards… then k rush to urologist who tells me it’s that I’m drinking alot of liquid before bed , seltzer or tea(drank tea around 8 that night ) and be irritants , but they also ordered me a urinalysis that I dropped off sample in morning, results came in which were clear no blood , white blood cells etc. and they prescribed me antibiotics and told me to take them for 30 days but I only took for like 14 days cause they were not working cause they thought my symptoms sounded like prostatitis or pelvic floor symptoms but I’m freaking out cause although it’s getting better prob from antibiotic inflammatory response and pelvic floor exercises it’s not really going away.. so I also ask for a PSA test with was 0.38 and then they ordered me a CT Urogram with contrast and without contrast and cytoscope with is on May 15… they also ordered me Kidney , Metabolic Function and a complete blood count .. all which came back fine . The CT urogram with and without contrast showed nothing wrong with my bladder , kidneys or uterers.. after I got that news my symptoms felt better but I still woke up to pee at night .. around this time the pain after urination went away but still having to go frequently, in between this time I also had another health scare with my gums in my teeth that was just gingival overgrowth but I though that was mouth c word. So my urinary issues started to get better and I didn’t even notice them 2 weeks ago end of April , but now I have this upcoming test and it’s all I’m hyper fixated on , I’m urinating a lot more and paying attention to what my urine looks like making sure I don’t see blood .. I messaged. My doctors probably 10 times and asking if the CT scan would have picked up anything in my Bladder , my doctors said that the CT scan looked inside my bladder , outside my bladder and around jt , it saw everything and nothing was wrong. but the Cytoscope will also look as well and I was reading stories and articles and stuff how the cytoscope will detect stuff on wall or whatever, but then again I also read that there would be wall thickening on CT scan with contrast… I have been crying off and on these past few days , not able to sleep well, having to get up to urinate , hyper fixation on my urine and stream , start time , post void dribble all of that.. and idk if it’s my stress making it worse or if that’s an actual issues I have going on … I’m so afraid.

I don’t deserve the air I breathe...
Hello.
Before I get into my story, I have one question for you: Is there any chance for redemption for the hell and hurt you’ve caused in this life?
I am 23 years old. I’ve had horrible suicidal depression my whole life. I have been addicted to fentanyl since 15. A little under two years ago, I had 3 wrecks in a year nodding off behind the wheel. Thankfully, I didn’t injure anyone physically, but I totaled both vehicles in all 3 incidents.
The first one involved a single mother and her barely kindergarten aged child. I can’t get the picture of the fear in that baby’s eyes out of my head. I could have killed them both, and that should have been bad enough to stop me from using while driving but i did it again and again. Enough to have two more wrecks and cause even more financial and emotional burdens on everyone involved.
My parents have done everything they can do for me. They’ve sent me to rehabs, supported me every step of the way, bought me vehicle after vehicle even after the wrecks.
My mom had fucking CANCER during this time and I stole money from them to get a fix. WHILE SHE WAS FUCKING DYING.
I feel like I don’t even deserve to be alive. Is there any chance for redemption at this point? Or should I just give up now and squash any chance of causing any future pain for other innocent people?
I can’t live with myself, I can barely leave home, I can barely function.
I just want to find these people I wrecked into and beg for their forgiveness. Even if the situation is long over with and everything is settled, the guilt still remains and it makes me want to destroy myself.
Thankfully I had insurance and they all got new vehicles but that doesn’t make anything better. It doesn’t take away the fear and pain and financial hardship I caused these innocent people.
How do I learn to live with myself again?
Is there any hope of redemption?
Do I deserve to even live at this point?

Sorry it's quite late where I am (for me) and I can't sleep so apologies for typos or formatting.
My sister encouraged me to come here (again). She's an avid reddit user and she's the one that found the story about me but I can't find it and she can't either now. Some of you might remember it as I'm writing.
Anyways, I (32F) and my husband (33M) were invited to my nieces birthday party on April 27th.
We don't get along with my SIL, she's the most entitled person I've ever known. I've tried my best to get on with her and even asked her to be my bridesmaid when I got married.
She made everything about her, she didn't like the dresses, she didn't like the shoes, she refused to come with us to go shopping but got upset that we'd chosen the dresses without her. We did try our best to find a date that suited her but instead she went off with her boyfriend every time. I did tell her politely that if she didn't like the dress then she could step down being a bridesmaid, nope she went crying to my MIL that I'd dropped her as one, of course, my MIL believed her over me and I had to send screenshots to prove that I didn't drop her. I didn't get an apology either, the messages just stopped. I was ignored for a few days and then a message appeared as if nothing happened from my SIL.
My in laws enable her behaviour by always talking down to my husband and siding with her over any minor detail. I have told him, he needs to stick up for himself but he won't. It's easier for him to just 'take it'.
She was upset she didn't get a plus one but my other bridesmaids did. My other bridesmaids were either already married or had long term partners not one that had been on the scene for all of 3 months. She wanted him to be part of the bridal party and to be a groomsman. The best we could do was invite to the reception because of the allocated numbers, apparently that wasn't good enough! We were asked to drop a guest and then bump him up, I explained I wasn't going to do that as I'd already got the RSVP's from everyone. Anyway, he did come to the reception and he left after 2.5 hours and I didn't even communicate with him so I assume he felt uncomfortable. The reason I didn't communicate with him was because it's not up to me to introduce myself, 'oh hi I'm the bride, nice to meet you.' Not one of my husband's family said congratulations to us either and they tried to take photos of my husband with his family without me.
They've always done that, always got me to either take the photo or could I move out of the way as it's 'only family' allowed in photos. I wasn't invited to their thanksgivings/Christmases/birthdays either, I don't think my MIL liked the fact that her son was growing up. We were 24 when we met. They also tried to take one last 'hurrah holiday' to Cuba before my husband and I got married, leaving me behind. I was quite upset but let my husband go. I found it entertaining that my in laws were perfectly okay with me not going anywhere or invited but somehow my SIL boyfriend HAD to come to our wedding...?
Fast forward 4 years, they're still together. Cool. I still don't really know him that well, let's just say my husband and I's relationship with our in laws got majorly strained after our wedding.
So our niece is 1 this year. We were invited to go to the birthday party but we declined. We were told that we were selfish and didn't care about our niece. I do care about my niece and so does my husband but we're not free babysitters and I am very rarely invited out to go see her even if I tried to arrange it myself, it's either, SIL goes out with my husband and niece or we look after her for the day without SIL..? But my SIL will have ago at both of us over message to say we clearly don't care about spending time with them. SIL also makes a huge point about me either being aunty or not being aunty, it's like a weird power flex.
My in laws live in a different state but my SIL lives in our state. So my in laws very rarely see the child either. They wanted to go to sunny Florida now they've retired whereas we're out in California.
SIL had ago at us because she was asking for money towards our nieces savings account which we declined and bought her some presents instead. Apparently she 'already has' the presents we got her and maybe if we made more of an effort to see her we'd have known that... so we've wasted our money on some toys that could've gone into her savings account 🤷🏼‍♀️
She doesn't even get us presents that we would like, not that I'm complaining because I'm grateful for anything. I just think if you can't get us something we want ourselves how can you expect us to be okay with giving money to your daughter??
For a bit more context, she didn't come to my bachelorette party, instead she plastered all her insta that she was out with her bf and told my other bridesmaids it 'wasn't her thing' so we said the same words to my SIL as to why we weren't going. She doesn't make the effort to see either of us on our birthdays. She bitched about me to my MOH that I wasn't being fair to her that I can't understand that she's busy and then bitched about me again because I wasn't involving her with the wedding details?? It's either one or the other!
She said my wedding dress was tacky and 'not her style'. She didn't like the hairdresser doing her hair. She didn't like the layout of the venue etc etc.
Anyway I'm unsure where to go from here. I'm thinking of going LC or NC from my side and let my husband decide what he wants to do.