Suhagraat raat photo7 ki

mere literally 70s mei aa rahe even though i studied quite a bit and questions bhi kare hai but its always those silly mistake anyways i am done bhai already in logo ne centre ka itna stress dediya hai and why are they changing it like every 2 hours
meine 5 baje check kiya toh ek centre dikha raha tha by chance reddit post dekha toh abb centre badal gaya mei abb raat tak printout bhi nahi nikalwa sakta ki kab badal de
life is getting more and more fucked

So jaisa mene socha tha same happing in today's paper. Now we all are ready for ICAI toughest paper in May 2024 i.e. FMSM. Mene morning main hi predicted kiya tha if audit paper comes easy then FMSM k liye ready lena kyu ki most of us are aiming to get exemption in FMSM. Aur yeh baat icai ko pta hai aisa lagta hai. Main toh aaj raat nahi so raha ho FM complete kr lunga if possible then morning SM, kyu ki SM m L lage pade hai mene toh.

assalamualaikum...42 degrees 😬 02:04pm
i wear caps sometimes simply jab bike pe hun toh...raat ko shower...less use of underwear but pjir b jaha zaruri ho waha i try to still use it...sometimes legs, arms n face wash krke pankhe ke neche letna which feels BETTER than full bkdy shower krke pankhe ke neche letna for some reason...kabi kabi spray bottle m baraf wala pani daal ke phhsss phhss phsss tummy and back pe 😂😂
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Bhai maine apni gaand NTA ko bechdi hai paise dekar. Ab mai inka slave hun. Raat ko bade sahab ne paper postpone kardia kyuki manpower nahi hai. accha bhala 17 ko free hojata . Admit card le aaya tha ab bkl centre change kardenge, oo iski maa ki chut yaar

bhai mujhe lag raha tha ki admit card ko thoda late download karungi kyunki ye log centre bohot badal rhe hai, ab website khulne ka naam hi nhi le rhi
gaand hi phatt rhi hai buri waali
bhailog raat ke 3 baje tak to khul jaegi na?
itna stress horha hai na I NEED MY FUCKING ADMIT CARD FSJSFJGSJSGGDJ

Galli hai agge sorry
Mai delhi ka hu bhenchod inn nta walo ko nanga kr ke rod se marro beech sadak pe bhenchod ajj mai 12 ghante se gand ghis ke padh rha hu bhenchod aur inn dallo ne paper postpond kr diya are bhenchodo Naa tumhari site kamm krti hai naa madarchod tumhare yha koi randi ka phone uthata hai naa bhenchod tum baccho ko assurance dete ho are madarchodo tumhara Kam kya hai bhenchod baccho ka chutiya katna kya? Madarchod nta walo bhenchod koi kamm time pe nhi krte raat me info de rhe paper cancel ho gya hai bhenchod kutte raand salle
Accha yeh batana ki 16 may walo ka admit card same rhega yaa uska bhi nya admit card ayega ham delhi walo ke liye 🤡

Bhai admit card ki link open hi nahi horhi ab , ek toh bole h shaam ko download krne i thought inka "evening" raat ke 8 baje tak chalta h tabtak wait krleta hu kya pata exam centre change hojaye, but bruh ye website hi nahi chalrhi ab , upr se dukaan band hojayegi 9 baje tak, nta you .....🙂

aur kripya yeh bhi bataana ki log keh rhe hain ki Inorganic ka kaafi maal hata diya gya hai, kya yeh sach h? , aur Organic aur inorganic ke woh must do chapters/important konse hote hain jisko krke toh jana he hota ho paper me ... ╮⁠(⁠╯⁠_⁠╰⁠)⁠╭ ... Bhai nhi ho parha sab manage sach batau toh question bhi nhi bana pata hun , jyda time bss lectures ko smjh smjh kar aur unke notes likhne me chale jrha hai aur mai ek lecture me kaafi time de deta hun aur raat tak pura exhaust ho jata hun itne time dene ke baad bhi lagta nhi hai ki mai padh bhi parha hu ki nhi (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠) if any good senior seeing this post or anyone who get efficient sort of suggestion pls share em , that'd be really grateful (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠)

Aaj mere best friend ka birthday tha, mei dummy student hu lekin aaj mere coaching ki chutti thi toh soocha 11th mei pehle baar school chala jao. Meine phone par baat kari school ke management se aur mujhe aane ki permission mil gayi thi par jab school bus mere ghar ke samne khadi thi aur mere hi interzaar kar rahi thi mujhe mere papa inshara de kar bulate hai aur kehte hai, school ke principle ne aane se mana kardiya hai(bkl sali). Haar din jab mei meri coaching ki van ka intezaar karta hu toh mujhe bus jaate hua dikhti hai par jaa nahi sakta school aur dosto se mil nahi sakta.
10vi ka result aaya ahr mere main 5 me 93 bane aur best five mei 94.4 par koi khushi nahi hai kyoki ye marks kuch nahi kehte. mere awaare classmate jisne baas last mahine mei answers raate maar diye uske lag bhagh mere jitni hi aa rahe hai. Mujhe marks se problem nahi hai but meri problem hai ki meine jo marks laane ke liye saal bhar dil lagakar padha aur chizo ko samajne ki kohshis kari out of genuine curiosity and passion of learning, uska koi outcome nahi tha. Mere parivaar wale bohot khush hai lekin mujhe koi khushi nahi ho rahi. Also i know acche marks aaye hai par jitne expect kare the utne nahi aa rahe. ss mei 99 hai, english mei 90 science mei 89, aur maths mei 91, pata nahi kya galat likha tha. ek toh meri handwritings aids dene wali hai aur presentation raadi hai uska kuch aasar hoga, but it doesnt matter and shouldnt really think about it.

Aaj mere best friend ka birthday tha, mei dummy student hu lekin aaj mere coaching ki chutti thi toh soocha 11th mei pehle baar school chala jao. Meine phone par baat kari school ke management se aur mujhe aane ki permission mil gayi thi par jab school bus mere ghar ke samne khadi thi aur mere hi interzaar kar rahi thi mujhe mere papa inshara de kar bulate hai aur kehte hai, school ke principle ne aane se mana kardiya hai(bkl sali). Haar din jab mei meri coaching ki van ka intezaar karta hu toh mujhe bus jaate hua dikhti hai par jaa nahi sakta school aur dosto se mil nahi sakta.
10vi ka result aaya ahr mere main 5 me 93 bane aur best five mei 94.4 par koi khushi nahi hai kyoki ye marks kuch nahi kehte. mere awaare classmate jisne baas last mahine mei answers raate maar diye uske lag bhagh mere jitni hi aa rahe hai. Mujhe marks se problem nahi hai but meri problem hai ki meine jo marks laane ke liye saal bhar dil lagakar padha aur chizo ko samajne ki kohshis kari out of genuine curiosity and passion of learning, uska koi outcome nahi tha. Mere parivaar wale bohot khush hai lekin mujhe koi khushi nahi ho rahi. Also i know acche marks aaye hai par jitne expect kare the utne nahi aa rahe. ss mei 99 hai, english mei 90 science mei 89, aur maths mei 91, pata nahi kya galat likha tha. ek toh meri handwritings aids dene wali hai aur presentation raadi hai uska kuch aasar hoga, but it doesnt matter and shouldnt really think about it.

I completed mostly all the pyqs of organic chemistry jee advanced ab aisa lag rha ha ki vo raat se gye ha. Idk ab kya kru Konse questions kru Like jo final ho ki ab complete ho gya ab aage kuch nahi krna aisa feel ho. Any recommendations?

So yesterday saw my 10th result bohot bura laga mere dada ji ka bday tha unhe pata chala ki result aya kyuki mere ek cousin Jo same 10th mai hai usne pehle hi apna result bata diya tha usse 96% aye aur muje 75-85 ke bhecch mai aye offcourse real percentage nhi reveal kar rha kyuki mere dost bhi follow karte Mera acc coming back mere dada ji ka phone ya papa ne phone handover kiya and I was literally shaking bohot bura lag rha phele mene happy birthday wish Kiya fir unhe result bataya aur unhone acha mene toh bola tuje acha hi yega aur mai rone lag gaya unhone pata chala ki mai roo rha tha toh muje samajha rhe thi ki kitne aye isse koi farak nhi padta and all but mai aur baat hi nhi kar paya fir mere bua (woh cousin ke mom ka) phone aya mene ekdam dhere awaz mai result bataya aur fir emotional hogya unhone ne bhi bola acha hai roo mat mere mai aur baat karne ki himaat hi nhi I feel like my parents don't deserve me baki sare dost 90+ la rhe hai aur sabke mumi status wagera laga rhi i feel bad and ashamed ki mene apne parents ko kitna disappoint kardiya mere mumi bohot sad thi but papa bole tikhe hai jo huya so huya ab agee pe dhyan de but kya karu kush samajh nhi a rha hamesha woh result yaad a rha hai raat mai soh nhi pa rha ekdam ese daar sa gaya hu sab dost maza kar rhe aur muje breakdown ho rha hai panick attacks a rhe....... I know I will do better sabko disappoint kardiya tution wali ma'am ko mumi papa ko family ko 🥲

C C Am Eklo yo raat ma Eklo yo raat ma Mero yo Am khat ma Mero yo khat ma D D Nachalau ghari ghari Nachalau ghari C C ghari Chihan ki pari Chihan ki pari
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[Verse 2] C Am G Hiu jastai seto Naram gala timro Gulabi C timro oth C Am G Hiu jastai seto Naram gala timro Gulabi C timro oth C Am Nashalu aakhale Bishalu bhakale G C Bhayechu ma madhosh C C Am Lageko maat ma Lageko maat ma Haat cha Am haat ma Haat cha haat ma D D Na jiskau ghari ghari Na jiskau ghari C C ghari Chihan ki pari Chihan ki pari C C Eklo yo raat ma Eklo yo raat ma Am Am Mero yo khat ma Mero yo khat ma D D Nachalau ghari ghari Na fakau ghari D ghari Na jiskau ghari ghari C C Chihan ki pari Chihan ki pari

Kabhi kabhi lagta hain ke mere phone ka camera hamesha shuru hain. Does that mean my cellphone company have my nudes?

welcome to the "nta dominated world", mai jee wali hu, + dropper, experienced this even last year, experienced it even this year. the date announced for jee result vs the date they released it in was also very different so dw,
nta is known to be shitty with their dates 💞
everybody say nta ki mkc and sojao, kal ya aaj me raat ke 2-3 baje result aajayega dw 🙏🫂

So aaj boards ka result aaya and guess what my stupid ass scored 78.8 percentage (with highest in biology 82 like wtf jabki mein jee ki so called prep kar raha hu
kal pw ka jo short test diya tha us mein 96/96 aaye 10 baje result aaya maa baap full khush ki chalo thoda sa hi sahi par comeback to ho raha hai (not judging my test but they judged my seriousness)
fir madarchod result aa gaya aur papa thoda gussa ho gaye even told me a waste ( I am not blaming my father and pliz don't type you don't deserve him and all those bullshit bro just stfu and don't judge my family from this single line and my perspective)
par fir jab shaam ko thoda eavesdrop kara to suna ki papa bole ki chicken le aaye kya but my mom denied it saying ki aaj somvaar hai (my family are all shivbhakts and they say i was blessed with three marks on my forehead full badassery)
Physics : 26 question diye the 17 ho gaye baaki nahi bane even tho fight pura kiya
Chemistry : Bawaal chiz padhi be Fe0.93O wali chiz majaa aagaya hands down the best class
Maths : jaisa chal raha hai aur haa sir ne aaj se quad eqn start kara
aaj bhot kam self study hui aur raat ko jagkar apne notes + maths ke hw attempt karunga

its gonna be a long trauma dump.
im 19f, appeared in 12th this year, this would be my first drop. vaise to iss sun pe lurker rehti thi, aaj laga maybe kuch bol hi du to atleast relief rahega kisko dhang se bataya to. vaise to life meri bekar nhi hai overall dekha jaye to. yaha pe logo ka padho bc achhi lagne lagti hai life, and phir agle din vahi rr.
i was five almost, jb mere nana ne pehli baar mujhe touch kiya tha. mummy papa ka office rehta tha and bhaiya ka school to akele chhodne ki jagah nana ko bula lete the vo log ki mera dhyaan rakhe. achha dhyan rakhe the (apna lolzzz). now that i think about the movements and the way he'd shake afterwards, pyare nanaji was most probably cumming in his dhoti holding his five year old granddaughter on his thigh. (i mean, ladke shayad better jaane, kabhi kisi se detail mein puchha nhi iss baare mein. after it had got some action and y'all are ejaculating, do you guys like, freeze for a bit a breathe hard? agar nhi to im sorry for the wrong allegations). anyways that happened for a while. uske baad ka mujhe kuch yaad nhi. tbh ye bhi nhi yaad tha, until 3-4 saal pehle jb i read a similar scene in a book and ye yaad aaya phir shock mein chali gayi. had two beautiful frnds jinko bataya iss baare mein and they tried to help me out as best as they could. andar se ye bhi lagta tha ki mummy ko kabhi pata bhi chala to nahi manengi, isiliye parents se thoda grudge rehta tha and ladti jhagadati rehti thi.
fast forward to present, mai apne best friend ke saath relationship mein aa gayi and slowly but surely, he made a great impact on my relationship with my family. like uski uske parents ke saath achhe relations hain and ladka bhi sahi hai (haa pyar krti hu usse, mar jaungi ek din) to convince kr liya mujhe ki mere parents bhi pasand krte hain mujhe. and tb se mere relations meri family ke saath significantly improve hue. i even started to trust them.
to kya hai na, mummy and nana ki jamti nhi hai (he's neither a good husband nor a good father), isiliye mummy unse baat nhi krti. ek din recently mummy unhi ke baare mein upset thi and maine mummy se bol diya ki "uss aadmi se to mujhe nafrat hai. royi hu bestfriend ko batate hue" and mummy was like mujhe batao but mana kar di ki abhi nhi.
agle din she came to me and said ki unhe raat mein neend nhi aa rahi thi ye sochte hue ki aisa unhone kya kar diya ki I don't trust her but trust my frnds? phir bohot bolne pe mai unhe puri baat bata di (utni detail mein nhi obviously) and she was very supportive. boli ki "maa baap important hote hain par bachcho se zyada nhi. mai to vaise bhi unhe ghar na bulati but ab to sawal hi nhi uthata. shakal nhi dekhungi unki". and mai apne room mein aake rone lagi ki maine apni maa ko galat samjha ki vo mujhpe yakeen nhi karengi.
then agle din, i think jb mai ghar pe nhi thi tb mummy bhaiya ko ye baat batayi and he told her abt how once i confessed to him i was a lesbian (bisexual boli thi but lauda hai), and pata nhi kaise, mummy ko convince kr doya ki im making this whole story up for sympathy and to seem cool.
mummy aayi and mujhse boli ki "tum jo batayi ho, vo sach mein hua hai ya jo tum ghatiya books padhti ho, uski vajah se dimag mein baitha li ho ki mere saath bhi kuch galat hua hai?" and phir asked me abt that lesbian wala and told me ki inhi sab vajah se my face has lost its innocence and mai kuch nahi kar paayi hu. kaise i didn't deserve the marks i got in boards and sabka entrance exam tha but sab ek event mein aa rahe the but tumne kuch padha nhi tha isiliye nhi aayi (true but jisko neet dena hota vo aise bhi na aata). and how she feels ashamed and unsafe to go out with me varna i would wander off with "bhaiya log". that other girls of my age look smart and innocent and good even of they're fat. and gori ladkiyo ka chehra nhi pink hai, but you have yellowish tone and you never look smart, tumhare andar vo cheez hi nhi. she ended her speech with, "tumhari vajah se maine apne baap ko galat samjha. agar tum jhoote ilzam laga rahi ho to uska anjam dikhega." and then very lightly said, as if she didn't believe it, "aur agar mere baap ne kuch kiya hoga to bhagwan batayenge."
since that day, i haven't been able to look at my family the same way. the love, trust and respect i had for them seems gone. uss din ke baad mummy achhe se baa ki but bhul nhi paa rahi unn words ko. isse pehle bhi aisa bohot kuch boli hain vo jo bura laga tha but ye Dil tod diya. i can't believe my first heartbreak is from my mother itself.
isse pehle bhi she'd questioned my character. mai maanti hu, mai chutiye bachchi thi. nhi samjhti thi kuch. school bus mein achhe bhaiya log mile the to sabko achha samajhti thi and apne age ke logo se ghul mil nhi paati thi. isiliye almost got tricked by a senior jo uss time 11th mein the (i was in 6th, koi dost nhi tha to attention ki bhukhi rehti thi). uske liye mummy branded me as "characterless". I WAS IN SIXTH, NHI PATA THA MUJHE KUCH. phir ek baar humlog kahi gaye the and mummy dusri seat pe chali gayi mujhko leke jbki meri dost pichhe ki seat pe thi. i tried going to her to uss time to mummy bas gusse se dekhi but ghar aake boli ki how im such a bad daughter, achhe ghaf ki ladkiya sirf apne mummy papa ke paas rehti hain but tumko to matakna rehta hai. tumhare jaisi ladkiyo ko characterless rehte hain, kisi ki nhi hoti hain. (this was in class 9th).
ho sakta hai mai apna side leke dekh rahi hu isiliye mai khud ko sahi samajh rahi. but galti kya ki maine ye to koi achhe se explain karo???
recent ye nana wala batane ke baad to bas yahi manati hu roz bhagwan se ki maar daale mujhe. sach nata rahi, jb dekhega na koi sirf meri mummy papa aur bhaiya ko saath mein, to itne perfect lagte hain. and mai manhoos ki yarah aa jaati hu beech mein. (mumma thinks ki mera chehra normal rehne pe mahoos lagta hai, i should be smiling har samay varna apni life barbaad ke dungi aisi shakal bana ke).
marne ka ya relapse krne ka (i used to self harm) roz mann krta hai, but apni best friend aur apne bf ke baare mein sochke ruk jaati hu. sach mein doni pagal pyaar krte hain mujhse. bestfriend ki life already laudi ho rakhi hai, aur nhi pareshan krna, bf ki life mein pehle hi bohot trauma the, ab badhane ka mann nhi. i promised him I'd helo him heal.
ab 15 aur 16 ko cuet hai but padha nhi hai kuch and pata nhi kaise niklega. nikalka bhi zaruri hai varna home life aur fucked up ho jaayegi plus ghar se niklungi to insabme dimag nhi lagega.
samajh nhi aa raha kaise padhu ab, aakhiri din bacha hai, sab kuch padha hai but revise krna hai. idk bhai, higheay sach mein sundar lagne laga hai (srsly)
edit: aaj matashree ko therapy de rahi thi. and pata chala she has shit communication skills and she meant to say ki hopefully ye sab mera vehem hai but boldi kuch aur. and batayi mumma bhaiya bhi bola ho sakta hai vehem ho but he cried when he first heard it. matashree se phir ladi khub ki baat nhi krne aata achhe se ro rahi hu kb se. tumlogo ke comments+ mummy se baat krke jo relief Mila hai na, thankyou yaar. literally verge of suicide se happy kr diye ho.

Funniest date in my life lol. So met this girl on bumble after breakup with my ex was desperate to be in relationship. So talked to her on vc and exchanged numbers talked for almost a 1 week.
Decided to go on a date , selected a chill cafe and decided to met there at 8.00 pm today. So i dressed up and went there waited for 5 min she entered the cafe and after her a huge man, like HUGE. Vo gate mein bhi atak sa raha tha lol.
She came to my seat and said "Yeh mera best friend hai. Raat ho rakhi hai to safety ke liye insko saath layi hoon. If you dont mind". I said "Nahi, koi baat nahi yeh hamare saath baitega". She said "He will sit on that table at the back". So i nodded..
After some time we started talking about our hobbies and anime which we talked a lot about in chat. But the bouncer guy was looking straight at me like vo eye contact ek dum glaring vala bana raha tha. Sala Motaa gubbara ghura hi ja raha tha. He was hugeee like i am 6'3" he was atleast 6' but twice as wide as me.
So uncomfortably talked with her while he eye me down. And she complimented my hair and touched them. I have long hair but as soon as she started touching my hair. Bouncer stood up as looked at me in rage. Like Rage. So i told her to stop touching and bouncer bhai sat down after that.
She then showed me her nails as i tried to compliment them she passed her hand to me. I grabbed it and as soon as i grabbed it gubbara stoodup and started walking towards us. I was not scared but ready ki iski ankh mein namak dal dunga phir dhakka de dunga isko. Mota sala uth bhi nahi payega.
He came closer i picked up the salt then the girl pulled her hand cause i was distracted. Mota vapis jane laga. Not to body shame anyone but he was about to kill me there. So yeah after that refrained from touching her. Finished my food and asked if she want to go dutch. She agreed and we went home. Blocked her as soon as i reached home.
Edit- She was soo nice of a girl. A huge green flag. I didn't understand why she did that cause this never happens even in anybody's wildest dream.

Mere toh gotey mu me aa gaye hai syllabus dekhke. Studying discrete maths from go classes. The content is fab but it's so vast ki raat ko panic attacks se hi uth jata hu mai aur lectures padhne baith jata hu subeh 4-5 baje

Yaaar this is just a vent u dont need to read it mei sabse jhut bol bol ke thak gyi huu ab bus ab sab sach likhna hai akhri baar So meri journey chalu hoti hai 9th se mummy ek din aise hi puchti hai konsi stream legi and i had no idea about it matlab ye sab cheezo ke baare mei pata hi nahi tha never ever cared to know about aage ka, meine kahan pata nahi dekhenge bhai ne bola arts le lena and mummy ne gusse se bola arts nahi legi ki wo option hi nahi hai and i am a very rebellious kid thus fir mei bhi bolne lagi ki haa arts mei kya problem hai blah blah but then 10th end ho gya and mera confusion bohot jyada badh gya i could not choose between sci,comm,arts i just couldnt say ki ye ek cheez karni hai my thinking was ki abhi tk inme se kuch try nahi kiya toh choose kaise karu it was also related to guilt nahi chahiye future mei so bohot bohot socha aur fir mummy ne bola sci safe option agar accha nahi laga to "stream switch" wala bahana diya and i was okay with it kyunki i couldnt choose then waise mujhe maths bohot pasand tha school se hi so 2nd reason mummy ka ye tha, then started 11th mei bohot serious thi ki jo bhi karungi best banungi ussme so isiliye i had decided i will give my 100% if not enough 200%, starting mei achhe se religiously padha marks bhi theek thak the the problem that happened in start was mei chutiya coaching mei chali gyi the problem was with the crowd it was so dumb and not serious, mere marks theek thak the fir bhi meri class mei rank 5-6 thi imagine and ye sirf start mei nahi hua pure do saal yahi hota raha mei gande marks laati thi but fir bhi wo mere peers se better the toh mei delusion mei rahi ki i am also topper jab ki mei nahi thi, 11th saare lecs attend kiya did not even miss a single lec and carefully listened all of them then aaya 12th it kind of gave me reality check ki mei kahi stand nahi karti and i aggressively started solving diff types of books like literally dc pandey hc verma and sbt ke ques karti thi of the same chap but again the problem was saare nahi kar paati thi only some sums i used to do and never did it in time bound manner, still uk what i got selected in the toppers batch i wasnt even a topper T_T it was just relatively i was better than my classmates for eg; mujhe mains wale mock mei 139 aaye the toh baaki ko 120-100 range mei so ofc i was not good but i was just better than others, ab iss toppers batch mei aane ke baad aukat pata chali i was constantly scoring less marks generally i was the 2nd last or last in the list eventually i got removed from it baadme aaya october syllabus was over and i was all set ki revision karungi oct mei and then mocks from nov onwards meine toh test series bhi le liye the allen and fitjee ke, but my procrastination kicked it i stopped studying uske baad classes bhi band ho gye the so puri tareeke se padhai band hogyi thi i mean ek sec bhi padhna chhod diya tha meine mujhe fomo hone laga tha kyunki literally i had given up on living life for 2 years meine padhai ke alawa kuch nahi kiya na movie dekhi na logo se baat ki na khelne gyi na kuch celebrate kiya no functions nothing pura isolate kar diya tha and one day mere friend ne status pe rakha tha ki uska bday hai and i was baffled kyunki mujhe toh yaad tha ki abhi kuch dino/mahino pehele hua tha naa 1 saal kaise hogya and that moment changed me, mujhe kuch jyaaddaaaa hi fomo hone lag gya tha i thought ki mei kya baat karungi logo se ki jab badi ho jaaungi mujhe toh pata hi nahi hoga kya hua inn do saalo mei(tabhi mujhe ye realise ho raha tha ki ye baate itni imp nahi hai but my inner self could not accept it it was enough for her) so meine movies dekhna chalu kar diya literally koi bhi bakwas si movie jo bhi youtube pe available ho kyunki mere pass koi prime ya netflix nahi tha then it was dec mei pura dec fifr movies and yt shorts scroll karte rehe gyi then jan same routine drr hi nhi lag raha tha mujhe idk whyy, kuch ig 3 din bacche the mere 1st attempt ko i started to get scarred i started to revise everything day and night mains ke pehele puri raat soyi nahi revise kar rahi thi and then gave mains got 75%tile and the main thing is nobody knows all this stuff thats happening they think i gave my 100% but the truth is i gave up in the end i didnt try at all in the last, then came the bad news uk what i started to watch porn yaa i am fully wasted person, so backstory i was introduced to porn by my friend in school and i told her i will never watch it and dusre dost ne bola tha ki wo mujhe porn dikha ke rahega and i used to tell him it wil never happen but unfortunately it did happen and the problem with it was it entered in my life at wrong time i was already lonely and miserable and thats why i started watching porn starting mei it wasnt addiction but lately it has started to affect me badly meine mains ke baad naa hi boards ke liye padha naa hi second attempt ke liye and i have not revised since so many months just counted 6 months i have not studied a single thing, i have no college and i have no backup, parents ameer bhi nahi hai naa hi business hai humara i am fucked in life i blame myself for it fully i deserve all the loneliness and isolation i am a toxic person who should not live i cant do one thing properly i cant control myself i cant do anything i dont have any talents but i do have many things that interests me but i have no hope from life currently, was suicidal rn so thought i could vent out all and feel lighter and yes i am feeling lighter idk kya hoga mera but lets see what happens i have alot of dreams which are unrealistic thats why i need to live to complete those, now slowly i am getting back on track although i waste alot of time still of reddit and youtube but still i am now consiously trying to reduce it and study again i need to get a college this year i cant take a drop my mental health wont support that decision of mine sooo peace out byee idk maybe i wont come on reddit after this or probably i will(99.999% i will itna self control built nahi hua hai) There's a lot more to this but i cant type each and every thing but atleast while writing i recalled those things thankss ps: there might be errors but who cares i aint going to read it again neither should u read it

Maine bc raat ko jag kr 5am tak assignment complete kra and jab teacher ke pas gya to first page dekh kr marks lga diye. I am not saying ki I am not happy but check to krle pura sale.

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