Failed nursing entrance exam

from elementary to university i have always struggled with this problem - I would fall asleep within 5 mins of reading, at any time of the day EXCEPT after 9pm. THIS HAPPENS EVERY SINGLE TIME NO MATTER HOW MUCH SLEEP I GOT THE NIGHT BEFORE. and this would happen even if i study right after exercising too. the same thing applies to listening to lectures in person or recordings; within 15 mins I'll start to doze off. during my midterms and exams, i would also fall asleep after I've answered all the questions and have a bit of extra time to check over my entries. this ONLY happens when i do anything study-related. for example, if i read reddit at 8am, i wouldn't feel sleepy.
however, the later it gets in the night, the more energetic I get. after 9pm, even if I'm reading boring studies i wouldn't be able to fall asleep even if i want to. usually around 11pm i'd be super awake and could read unbelievably fast. i guess my brain is just bored but i seem to be unable to enlighten my brain :\
after getting many tests done and trying many techniques, they've all failed to identify what's wrong with me or failed to help me stay awake. you might wonder so what have i been doing in my studies; my strategy to combat this was to just study and read after 9pm. but now that I'm studying for the mcat, I need to actually resolve this problem. my exam time is at 8am and I KNOW I will fall asleep during the exam as I have done so many times during my final exams last year.
here is a list of the things I've tried:

• coffee, sitting upright, reading out loud, changing my reading environment, taking breaks, sleep more, listen to music, exercise regularly all failed to help
  
• pinching myself, holding my breath, lifting one leg, eating snacks or drinking water would make me awake for a few seconds but quickly doze off again
  
• I have tested for sleep apnea which I don't have, my vision is normal, and I don't have narcolepsy since this only happens when I study.
  
• stand/walk around while reading helps a bit, I'll get sleepy but wouldn't fall asleep. but i wont be able to do this during the mcat
  

this problem has been bothering me my whole life and i would really like to resolve this. if anyone has any input please share with me! thanks in advance :))

I took it in about 4 hours. I had a lot of case studies about 20 and here and there SATAs, but some MC. I ended the exam on a case study. Had barely any pharm. mostly OB and delegation and infection questions. after a sata a case study would pop up and after a case study another case study would go back to back. No math questions. I feel like I failed but idk took my exam today at 1:30 pm so gotta wait till Thursday around same time for quick results. Did PVT and I got the bad pop up for unable to validate card payment. Will update when I get results .

Background: 21 years in IT consulting. 1+ years as an IT auditor.
Touched 100 qns at roughly the 2hr mark and exam ended.
I did more than 2000+ qns from learnzapp, 50 hard cissp questions video from youtube, osg and other internet sources.
However i was still shocked by the questions, especially the first 50. I really had no clue or confidence as to what were the right answers, similar to the other test takers here.
What i understd from reading the isc2 exam guide several times:
First 100 questions, 25 are unscored. The passing mark is around 70%. So you need to get about 53 questions correct in the first 100 questions. If you fail to you continue up till 150.
So exam taking tip: don’t panic. Keep reading the question and answers, 2-3 times and decide on the answer. Dont worry too much about the time: this exam is not about finishing all 150 qns in 3 hrs.
Pay close attention to words like ‘prevent’,’most’,’best’ and things like ‘security’,’cost’ in selecting the best relevant ans. I tried to adhere to the think like a manager mindset but its tough with the vague ans and limited time.
Resources used: -osg (just read key areas like osi, incident mgt, encryption, firewalls) -cbok (similar) -learnzapp (73% preparedness) -Internet sourced questions - destcert audio files, mindmaps and question app
Anyway just glad its over and all the best to the rest taking the exam!

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Just because you’re transported to another world, doesn’t mean you’ll escape from your pain.
Abused by her parents, thirteen-year-old Frances only wants to be safe and for her life not to hurt so much. And when she and her class are transported to the magical world of Durannon to fight the monsters invading the human kingdoms and defeat the self-titled Demon King, Frances is presented with a golden opportunity. If she succeeds, Frances will have the home she never had. If she fails, Frances will be summoned back to the home she escaped.
Yet, despite her newfound magic and friends, Frances finds that trauma is not so easily lost. She is dogged by her abuse and its physical and invisible scars. Not only does she have to learn magic, she has to survive the nightmares of her past, and wrestle with her feelings of doubt and self-loathing.
If she can heal from her trauma, though, she might be able to defeat the Demon King and maybe, just maybe, she can find a home for herself.
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Ginger makes an offer to Lakadara. The rest of Telkandra's remaining brood discuss the fate of their allies.
“Not good?” Sara asked as Helias strode into the tent and made his way straight to the bottle of wine.
“Not good,” Helias muttered.
Sara nodded woodenly. “Privacy spell?
The tauroll waved his sheathed Fangroar and after pouring himself and his wife a drink, sat down. “We’re safe. Oh Galena, this is really not good.”
“How dead are we?” Sara asked, her tone light.
“We’re not dead. We’re just in a lot of danger and even if we somehow force the humans to retreat, we’ve lost this war,” said Helias.
“Explain.”
Helias drank deep, noting that Sara was also drinking deep as well. “Thorgoth is going after the humans. That part of the plan is as good as it gets. We’ll be attacking them, and using the dragons, whilst our forces hold off Titania. Our objectives are also well-chosen.” Helias buried his head into his hands and let out a deep groan. “But winning this doesn’t change anything.”
“If we can defeat the humans, why won’t that change anything?” Sara bit her lip. “Unless it renders us unable to beat Titania?”
“Yes. Even on the chance we beat the humans we won’t be able to invade them, we won’t be able to defeat Titania. We’d be at a stalemate and both armies would have to withdraw.” His hands dropping to the table, Helias stared at his wife. “And we don’t have any reserves left. We’re going to lose the war, even if Thorgoth lives.”
“If we defeat the humans—”
The general shook his head. “By defeat, I mean we’ll hurt them but we can’t prevent them from withdrawing. We might kill a few of their leaders, their important mages and Otherworlders, but they will still have soldiers. After coming so close, they won’t surrender. They’ll keep attacking until they kill enough of Thorgoth and Berengaria’s supporters that nobody will help them, or until both of them die.”
“Alright so, what do we do?” Sara asked. Helias looked at his wife, noting how still she sat. Her wings were clamped tight to her back and her lips were drawn tight.
“Sara, I don’t have good answers.”
Sara steepled her trembling fingers as best she could. “They’re going to be better than mine. I don’t know anything about war.”
“Right. Well, you need to surrender to the humans if you are captured. Present yourself as a non-combatant. Cry, scream, anything to declare that you don’t mean any harm,” Helias said.
“Why not Titania?” Sara asked.
“She has every incentive to kill you off and far less compunction about doing so. Killing our family off would allow her to have more land to give away to her loyalists. In contrast, the humans have Erlenberg troops fighting with them along with those of the Lightning Battalion. They’re going to be far more friendly to Alavari civilians,” Helias said.
Soft hands, grabbed onto Helias’s waist with a surprisingly firm grip. “What about you? I can get away, but how are you going to survive this?”
“I don’t know. I—”
“Don’t you dare! Our daughter needs her father and I need my husband!”
The general stared at his wife. “Sara, I can’t surrender to the humans if we win. They want me dead.”
Sara refilled Helias’s glass. “Then you need to help Thorgoth defeat them.”
“Then what? We’re never winning this war. Thorgoth is going to be invaded and—”
Cutting him off with the clink of her goblet against the table, Sara hissed, “And what? Why think that far? We can plan for that after this battle, so long as you are still here and with me.”
Letting out a breath Helias pushed his hair back and allowed himself a sigh. Reaching across the table, he took his wife’s hand.
“Sara, you’re right, but you know you can escape this if Thorgoth is defeated.”
The harorc placed her other hand on top of his. “We’re partners. I need you. We need you. So promise me that you’ll do your damndest to live.”
Helias closed his eyes and nodded. “I promise. First things first, before we turn in we need to talk to the dragons.”
***
Fennokra stalked slowly toward the camp. This wasn’t the collapsed side-passage where she and Yolandra had some privacy. This was the main camp where Thorgoth and their army were preparing for what had to be the final battle.
It was also where her siblings were swallowing the last of what seemed to be a side of salted pork.
“Velkandra, Makentra, we need to talk.”
Their second-eldest sister licked her lips, her neck rising to Fennokra’s level. “I am assuming you mean in private?”
“Of course.” Fennokra could see Velkandra’s haunches tensing to raise herself higher. Her sister was trying to look down on her. Allowing her head to dip, she held her height.
“Alright.” Velkandra flicked her tail and Makentra, licking his lips, followed them.
Since their enemies had set up their siege camp behind them, the Alavari camp had been reduced in size. Still, there was the alcove of the collapsed tunnel. Whilst couriers and soldiers crossed across this natural cavern to the defenses on the other side, they kept a good distance away.
Yolandra was waiting for them, scratching something into the cave wall. Fennokra let out a rumble in her throat and her sister turned from the wall suddenly, shaking her head.
“Velkandra, Mankentra—”
Velkandra puffed a cloud of smoke out. “What’s this all about?” she hissed, lips drawn back to show teeth.
Fennokra took a step away from her sister to take Yolandra’s side, her eyes narrowed. “Are you joking? Do you not think we should at least discuss what is going on?”
“And what would be the point? It is a bit late to be having this discussion. The course of the winds have been chosen,” said Velkandra.
Yolandra rose to her full height on her four legs, but even so she was still shorter than the silent Makendra. “The winds can be fickle, Velkandra, and where we are is proof.”
Velkandra pursed her lips, eyes for the first time, looking toward the ground. “The survival of our family is tied to that of Thorgoth. To abandon him would be death by the hand of the Stormcaller and her allies or by his hand.”
“Besides, if we were to abandon Thorgoth’s cause, that would be dishonorable. We promised to assist him,” said Makendra.
Fennokra blinked at her brother’s tone. It was quiet and yet there was a touch of a deep growl to his voice. His claws were ever so slightly digging into the ground.
“We are dragons. We can think and make decisions for ourselves. We are allowed to consider other options, are we not?” Fennokra asked.
Velkandra’s tail flicked violently side to side as her neck turned to her younger sibling. “Then why does it sound as if you wish to follow in the wingbeats of our elder sister?”
“Who we killed. I was there. I lost a claw striking her down!” Fennokra raised one clawed hand, flexing the remaining digits.
“On that, why did we have to kill Lakadara?”
All golden eyes fixed on Yolandra, who held the gaze of her siblings with a contemptuous scowl.
“Lakadara betrayed us,” said Velkandra, almost growling.
“I’ve been thinking over what happened. Lakadara said nothing about betraying our mother. She merely was questioning if Thorgoth was trustworthy,” Yolandra said.
A scowl flaring his nostrils, Makentra growled. “He fed us, trained us in how the humans and their allies fought. Hid us from their eyes—”
“And now Caldra is dead!” Yolandra exclaimed.
“Which is why we must kill the Stormcaller and her friends! So we can avenge him and our mother!” Velkandra almost completely unfurled her wings. Only the tips slapping the stone forced her to pull them back.
“Then what?” Yolandra asked.
Velkandra frowned. “Then what? We’d have our revenge—”
Yolandra’s tail cracked against the ground. “Then what? You all must have heard of what Thorgoth is capable of. What he’s done to others.”
Makentra rolled his eyes. “Sara’s story is just a story. She might have been just trying to turn you.”
“She was honest and she is not the only tale I’ve heard. You must have heard rumors of what Thorgoth did to his own son, Teutobal,” said Fennokra.
“Propaganda,” Velkandra hissed through her gritted teeth, while smoke wafted through the gaps. “In any case, we have no other option. We fight or we die.”
Fennokra, her claws grinding against the floor, had had enough.
“Velkandra, Makentra, have you ever considered that Thorgoth is perhaps using us for his own goals? We have not even considered what he might do to us after we’ve destroyed the humans and their allies. How do we know the Stormcaller and her allies might treat us better? Besides in the first place, she never intended to kill our mother—”
Fennokra blinked. She was flying backwards, something hard was bearing her into the wall. Dizzy as if struck by one of the Stormcaller’s spells, she realized that the force was the foreclaws of her elder sister. Mad rage lit those golden eyes that were the exact same shade as hers. Horrified, Fennokra tried to throw Velkandra off, but her sister was larger and heavier than her.
“Say that again. I dare you to say that again—ARGH!”
Velkandra rolled off, forced off of Fennokra by the Yolandra shoving into her side. As the elder dragon recovered, the smallest of Telkandra’s brood hissed, “It’s the truth! You are a fool to deny it!”
An ugly sneer on her lips, wings quivering with fury, Velkandra snorted. “The truth? Oh right so we are speaking the truth then. Well here’s the truth. Our kind is doomed!”
Makentra blinked. “Sister?”
“Of course Thorgoth is going to get rid of us or try to after this campaign. He has to, but right now he needs us and that’s what we need to rely on until we gain more strength. Of course, whether he wins or the Stormcaller’s allies win, how can we expect to survive in a world dominated by these lesser species hm? How could they ever not see us as a threat?”
Velkandra stalked toward the wide-eyed Fennokra and Yoandra. Her head turned side to side as she fixed her sisters with wild wide eyes.
“Well? Tell me Fennokra. Speak the truth Yolandra. Or are you both too afraid to admit that our kind are doomed and the only thing is to live as long as we can and hopefully avenge those that hurt us as we do so.”
“You’d have us fly to our deaths?” Makentra asked.
The stammering voice brought Velkandra around. Extending a wing, she touched its tip to her brother’s. “I would at least have us fly together.”
Fennokra shook her head. “We’d knowingly fly with a murderer of children and someone who would want to kill us after we’ve stopped being helpful to him.”
“And we have no other options,” said Makentra. Letting out a breath, he rose to his claws and walked away. “I’ll see you tomorrow, sisters.”
Velkandra, without another word, turned for the exit. “You know it’s true, Fennokra, Yolandra.”
Fennokra closed her eyes. Yolandra, though, narrowed hers. “Doesn’t change that Lakadra’s blood is on our claws.”
Velkandra flinched and left. She strode away so quickly she nearly stepped on Helias and Sara as they came to the cave. She gave the pair no acknowledgement other than a growl.
“See you tomorrow, General,” said Makentra, his tone curt. “We will talk to King Thorgoth ourselves for the plan’s details.”
“Of course,” said Helias. He bowed as the pair left before turning to Yolandra and Fennokra. “I believe we missed something important?”
“Be honest, General Helias. Even if we succeed tomorrow, your king has no use for us after we help him kill the Stormcaller, am I correct?” Fennokra asked.
Sara and Helias didn’t say anything. Their slight move to stand closer so they could hold hands was enough.
“I thought so,” said Fennokra. She let out a sigh and glanced at Yolandra, who nodded. “We will be on the battlefield tomorrow. Where are we going?”
“You’re going with me. We’re attacking the forces sallying from Kairon-Aoun. The plan is that you dragons breathe flame over their army to soften them before we attack.
“Understood. Any questions Fennokra?” Yolandra asked.
Fennokra shook her head. What could be asked anyway?”
Yolandra flashed the pair a joyless smile. “For what it is worth, you two have been good caretakers to us. Even if it was to preserve your own lives.”
Helias didn’t bow. Instead he extended a hand. Yolandra stared at him, but Fennokra, recognizing the gesture, extended a single talon.
“May you always be able to see the sun.” At the dragon’s blink, Helias smiled. “It’s an Alavari saying. It may come from when we used to be enslaved by the Goblin Empire. It means good luck.”
Yolandra nodded and Fennokra found herself smiling.
“Our mother taught us a saying as well. May you never fly alone. I wish that for you both,” said Fennokra.
“Thank you,” said Sara in a quiet voice. She curtsied and the two dragons dipped their heads. They watched Helias and Sara leave with placid smiles.
Then, when nobody was looking, they turned from the entrance to hide their bulks as best they could. The gloomy light of the alcove their only curtain of privacy.
***
Frances slowed slightly as they approached Lakadara’s enclosure. However, Ginger did not slow down.
“Hold on, Ginger, what’s the plan?” Frances asked.
Adjusting her new crown mid-stride, Ginger said, “I’ll show you. I’m certain it’ll work, though.”
Frances’ eyebrows rose. “Is that crown getting to your head already?”
The new Queen of Erisdale flashed a slightly nervous grin over her shoulder. “Yes actually, but I think that’s a good thing in some way. Don’t you?”
Frances found herself nodding. It was strange to see her friend even more confident than usual and so comfortable in the regal crown that she wore atop of a standard Lightning Battalion light blue uniform. Yet she rather enjoyed the new gait that Ginger had.
“I do.” Frances smirked. “Your Majesty.”
Ginger rolled her eyes. “Fuck you.”
Giggling, Frances stopped herself as they drew even closer to Lakadara. The dragon was drawing herself up, placing her massive foreclaws over each other.
“Lakadara. I am Ginger, the new Queen of Erisdale. Pleased to make your acquaintance.”
The dragon coughed, blowing out a puff of smoke. “Greetings Ginger, Queen of Erisdale. I’m sorry for your predecessor’s demise.” Lakadara’s golden eyes narrowed. “Why are you here?”
Ginger dipped her head. “Thank you and as to why I’m here. I have a proposition. If you accept it, I will grant you and your kin, the domain of the Erisdalian mountains marked by the Kwent River Valley, Freeburg and Athelda-Aoun as your home in perpetuity, so long as you do not attack humans unless in self-defense.”
“I am unfamiliar with human geography. From the Stormcaller’s expression, I assume that is a lot.”
Frances swallowed and closed her mouth, but she didn’t question her friend. Ginger, still smiling slyly, nudged her. “It is. Frances, can you lend me a hand here?”
Nodding, Frances closed her eyes and imagined a rough map of Erisdale and its territories. With a wave of Ivy’s Sting she created an image of Erisdale, highlighting in red the expanse of the mountains that bordered Alavaria and Erisdale. The area that Ginger had described sketched a rough red triangle between the three points. It was a fairly sizeable area with a low and Alavari human population.
“My husband is in negotiations with Queen Titania and I’ll have to talk to Frances and Prince Timur, but we are quite certain that Athelda-Aoun will also be included in this area,” Ginger said.
Lakadara’s golden eyes were flickering as she examined the land. Suddenly, she turned, long neck arching toward the Erisdalian Queen. “And what must I do? Fight on your kingdom’s behalf?”
Ginger shook her head. “No.”
“No?”
“Nope. If you would like to do so we can renegotiate the agreement, but my husband and I fully intend to grant you this land.”
The dragon’s tail lifted up as her eyes narrowed. “Explain yourself and the favor you seek. This is far too generous.”
“Let me explain myself first. If what I’m told by my experts is correct, you can lay eggs by yourself without a mate, but it takes time right? A few decades?”
“Yes. Still, that doesn’t explain—”
“Here me out. This war is going to end. We may lose, but if we win, banishing you to the north is making you Queen Titania’s problem and she’ll have more than enough problems to deal with. You might just end up coming south again and we know how that ended. I’d prefer to avoid that so that means we need to make an agreement. You need a new home and I need peace for Erisdale. If the kingdom has to give up some poor agricultural land then I’m all for it.”
The dragon nodded. “I see, but why so much land? Why not just give me a cave? Or request my service as Thorgoth did?”
“And how will you eat? Hunt? Where will your grown children go? I’m making an agreement that will last for decades, not just a few years. As for service? I was tempted, but you wouldn’t agree to that anyway and why should you? We haven’t given you any reason to agree.” Ginger gave Frances a wave to dispel the map. “Maybe in the future we can work something out, especially if the dragon population increases. Your service in return for more food, but again, I want to start us off on the right path, not the left path.”
“Left path?” Lakadara asked.
“Erisdalian expression. It means the wrong path,” Frances said helpfully.
Lakadara nodded slowly. “You still ask for a boon, though.”
Ginger nodded. “Yes. I want you to speak to your siblings. Before the upcoming battle starts, tell them of my deal with you. So long as they choose to accept that deal and defect, then I will have it so our forces will not hurt them. After that, you may leave. I will not request you to fight with us.”
“You want me to show myself to Thorgoth? To the siblings that tried to kill me?” Lakadara asked, mouth agape.
Ginger stepped closer to the dragon, who lifted her head away from the queen. “I want you to save your siblings. I want you to save yourself from becoming the last purple dragon in existence. I would rather you not be alone, stewing in hatred for my kingdom and our allies who brought down your family, even if we had just cause. I want peace. What do you want?”
“How do I know I can trust you?” The dragon suddenly grimaced. “Ah, right, you want a lasting peace. You have every reason to want peace.”
Ginger, arms crossed tapped her foot. Frances could see how stiff her friend was, but the action was also comforting. That her magic-less friend had such control over the situation, despite being faced with the dragon was rather…badass.
Letting out a puff of smoke that slowly drifted into the cavern, the dragon pondered the queen’s proposal. Frances held her breath and yet the dragon remained silent, only her tail moving from side to side.
Ginger waited, still content to wait for the dragon’s answer. Frances couldn’t. The tension coiled in her chest, waiting to explode.
“Lakadara, what do you want for your future?” Frances asked.
The dragon glanced at Frances, golden eyes wide. She turned back to Ginger, who continued to stand tall, awaiting Lakadara’s answer patiently.
“I accept your offer, and your promise for the future,” said Lakadara, dipping her head.
“We are glad that you wish the same as we do,” said Ginger. She extended her hand and Lakadara, took her claw and put the tip of it on the queen’s palm.
*Author’s Note: Queenly Ginger was really neat to write 😀 *

(PART 1) https://www.reddit.com/fantasybooking/s/TFDKfdWs5m
Road To Over The Edge
The night after Backlash, Vince McMahon demanded to know the whereabouts of Stephanie. The Undertaker was absent from the show, but The Jackyl assured Vince that she was safe in the arms of the Lord of Darkness. The Jackyl challenged Vince to meet him in the parking lot and beat the answers out of him if he really wanted to know. Vince stormed to the parking lot, only to be jumped by Mideon. Vince would easily fight him off, but was nearly run down by the ominous hearse at full speed that had crept in arena parking lots for months.
Shane McMahon began to forcefully insert himself as the leader of The Corporation and it started with The Rock. After failing to take back the WWF Championship from Stone Cold at Backlash, Shane fired The Rock from The Corporation and cemented it with a slap to the face. A Rock Bottom to Shane was interjected by Triple H, Chyna, Big Boss Man, and The Mean Street Posse, who put a beat down on The Rock. On the pilot episode of SmackDown! Shane completely usurped control from Vince McMahon over The Corporation and kicked him along with his stooges, Pat Patterson, Gerald Briscoe, and Sgt. Slaughter out of the group.
His reason? Vince lost focus. Shane stated that Vince only cared about Stephanie instead of the bigger picture which was The Ministry. Shane was also disgusted that Vince not only became so accepting of a reject like Mankind, but that he seemed to have more of a bond with Mankind than his own son. Big Show, Ken Shamrock, and Test refused to side with Shane and willingly departed The Corporation to stand by Vince’s side. Shane promised that under his leadership and vision, The Corporation would succeed in erasing The Ministry where Vince failed.
The pilot SmackDown! concluded with the Black Wedding. Shane was hesitant to interfere and stop the wedding out of fear that it could be a set up. Former Corporation members, Ken Shamrock and Big Show attempted to put a wrench in the plans for the wedding, but both were taken out by the Deadman with a baseball bat. Finally, Stone Cold Steve Austin would emerge and crash the wedding, managing to fight off most of The Ministry, whilst also saving Stephanie.
Vince would go on to form The Union that was comprised of Mankind, Ken Shamrock, Big Show, and Test. The Rock stepped in as an ally and unofficial member of The Union to assist in bringing down The Ministry as well as sticking it to The Corporation for his unceremonious removal a few months prior. Stone Cold vs Undertaker for the WWF Championship, Rock vs HHH, and a Triple Threat Elimination tag team match pitting the Mideon and Viscera, Mankind and Big Show, and Boss Man and Shane were the 3 big matches going into Over The Edge. Though Stephanie had been rescued from her horrific situation, her demeanor underwent a transformation in the weeks leading up to the PPV, seeming to constantly be in a zoned out state of shock.
Over The Edge
● Mideon and Viscera def. Mankind and Big Show and Shane McMahon and Big Boss Man in a Triple Threat Elimination Tag Team match
Big Show and Mankind were surprisingly the first team eliminated after The Ministry and The Corporation formed a brief alliance to work against them. The commentators were surprised to see Shane forming an alliance of any kind with The Ministry after all they’d done the last few months, but Shane’s hatred for Mankind, feeling Vince favored him more, would always cause him to act irrationally.
Boss Man and Shane seemed to be on their way to scoring a win over Mideon and Viscera after Chyna had attacked Mideon with the ring bell, while the referee was distracted, but The Brood and The Acolytes would soon get involved. With chaos fraying the referee’s attention on the match, Gangrel would spit blood in Shane’s eyes, allowing The Ministry to take the win after a double Chokeslam on Shane.
● The Rock def. Triple H via DQ after interference from Chyna
● The Undertaker w/Paul Bearer def. Stone Cold Steve Austin to win the WWF Championship
While the first few minutes of the match started off hard hitting, it didn’t take long for interferences to come into play. Just as Austin hit a Stunner on Taker, Shane McMahon ran down and attacked the ref to stop the pin. Shane’s delusional intention was for Undertaker to win the title, so that a member of The Corporation could beat him for the title and stop The Ministry. Shane would grab a steel chair and waffle Austin in the head with it. Vince would run down and tackle Shane, which led to Union and Corporation members running out and brawling to the back.
Moments later, Stephanie McMahon came walking towards the ring with a box in her hand, similar to the one that contained her teddy bear months earlier. She entered the ring and opened the box that was revealed to contain…..the urn! As Austin and Taker rose to their feet simultaneously, Stephanie glanced at the urn and then both men, before bashing Austin in the head with the urn.
Undertaker would capitalize with a Tombstone Piledriver, while Paul Bearer revived the referee to make the 3 count pin. The fans and commentators were stunned at what they were witnessing. A seemingly entranced Stephanie dropped to one knee and took an Undertaker style bow before the urn as Bearer rose it up and fire exploded from the turnbuckles. Stephanie McMahon was now property of The Ministry of Darkness!

Code 418 talks about the governostate's authority/emergency management during states of disaster. Looks normal, for the most part:
https://statutes.capitol.texas.gov/Docs/GV/htm/GV.418.htm#:~:text=(a)%20The%20governor%20may%20recommend,mitigation%2C%20response%2C%20or%20recovery.
So why do they dislike it so much that they felt the need to add 'repealing it' to their platform?
Here's the part of the code they don't like, if I had to speculate correctly:
"Sec. 418.0125. LIMITATIONS ON MEDICAL PROCEDURES. (a) In this section, "nonelective medical procedure" means a medical procedure, including a surgery, a physical exam, a diagnostic test, a screening, the performance of a laboratory test, and the collection of a specimen to perform a laboratory test, that if not performed within a reasonable time may, as determined in good faith by a patient's physician, result in:
(1) the patient's loss of life; or
(2) a deterioration, complication, or progression of the patient's current or potential medical condition or disorder, including a physical condition or mental disorder.
(b) The Texas Medical Board during a declared state of disaster may not issue an order or adopt a regulation that limits or prohibits a nonelective medical procedure.
(c) The Texas Medical Board during a declared state of disaster may issue an order or adopt a regulation imposing a temporary limitation or prohibition on a medical procedure other than a nonelective medical procedure only if the limitation or prohibition is reasonably necessary to conserve resources for nonelective medical procedures or resources needed for disaster response. An order issued or regulation adopted under this subsection may not continue for more than 15 days unless renewed by the board.
(d) A person subject to an order issued or regulation adopted under this section who in good faith acts or fails to act in accordance with that order or regulation is not civilly or criminally liable and is not subject to disciplinary action for that act or failure to act.
(e) The immunity provided by Subsection (d) is in addition to any other immunity or limitation of liability provided by law.
(f) Notwithstanding any other law, this section does not create a civil, criminal, or administrative cause of action or liability or create a standard of care, obligation, or duty that provides the basis for a cause of action for an act or omission under this section."
....How I'm reading that, non-elective medical procedures (i.e., abortions that are required due to risks toward mother's health) would become legal during states of disaster, based on Healthcare provider's guidance. And they don't like that one bit. So they need to change it.
Is that correct? Am I "conspiracy-theorying" correctly?

Super sakit na ng ulo ko kakaisip paano ako makakatransfer from red school sa Baguio to either HAU or AUF. The universities have entrance exams and I think sa HAU tapos na nga ata? I'm not quite sure kasi nahirapan din ako makahanap ng time para ayusin pag transfer ko kasi I'm neck deep in stress.
"Specialized" kasi program ko (pero special headache lang dulot) and I'm under Lithan so ifykyk. 1st Sem grades ko wala pa din like hindi pa complete kahit sa portal, September pa tapos ng curriculum for my freshman year. How can I transfer if wala ako makukuhang TOR??

This is the second time I am taking the Net+ exam and I failed both times. I feel hopeless and frustrated. Each test had very different questions on it, and I felt so sure of myself and my answers both times. I got 86-92% on all of Jason Dion's practice exams on Udemy and I studied via CertMaster. That material was a lot more tough than any other resource so I guess I need to thoroughly go through all of Certmaster and feel comfortable with it? Does anyone have any other suggestions?

Since I started kendo, I have learned a lot of concepts without quite understanding what they’re called. Kikentaiichi is one of those. In practice, I’ve been working on it and thinking about it without even knowing it was called that. So if that’s the case, why did I fail my 1-kyu exam due to lack of kikentaiichi? I suspected it on Sunday and figured it out tonight: it’s because when I’m winded, my kikentaiichi completely falls apart.
It manifests in several ways. I slow down a bit after each waza before turning around. My accuracy suffers. I become more rigid. And my fumikomi become less pronounced and more disjointed. All of these flaws are most visible in the last 10-15 minutes of practice. By the same token, when it’s earlier in practice and I haven’t done a lot of jigeiko yet, my kikentaiichi looks a lot better.
So I think I know what I need to do: I need to improve my stamina. I also need to be more mindful of kikentaiichi when I am exhausted. Finally, I need to be mindful of kikentaiichi when my opponent and I are both striking at the same time.

No, not because of acads. Surprisingly, I am loving the pressure and the intensity of the workload. But the thing that I do not like is my circle.
Napapansin kong mas naddrain ako sa circle ko kesa sa acads itself.
Kapag may mga groupwork kasi, parang nakatatak na sakanila na once na nagkasama sama kami, matic ako na yung leader. Wala namang problema sa akin yun. Pero kasi parang nagiging kampante na sila and refused to push themselves to do their best kasi “andon naman ako”. This week lang, meron kaming major requirement that forced us to do an overnight stay sa dorm. Tinulugan kami. Worked on a slow pace, na para bang hindi kami naghahabol ng deadline. Kampante na hindi raw strikto ang instructor sa time, and would accept everyone’s output kahit na past deadline na (had an instructor who gave us a failing grade for passing a requirement literally minutes after their supposed deadline; I learned from that—ewan ko ba kung bakit sila hindi).
Wala namang problema sa part na pacing, kasi naniniwala naman ako na hindi lahat is kasing pace ko. Pero sana naman, consideration?? Like, matatapos na sana namin yun agad if may initiative sila. May mga researches pang dapat gawin, pero they chose to slack. We could’ve finished faster if may initiative sila. We could’ve had time to sleep kung may initiative sila. Pero wala eh.
Hindi lang that instance nangyari yun. Kahit na large groups, tapos nasaktuhan na kasama ko sila, instead na sila yung ineexpect kong maging responsive sa gc kapag naga-ask ako ng inquiries, sila pa yung walang imik.
Literally noong isang araw din, kagrupo ko nanaman sila sa isang minor subject. That day may video presentation kaming isusubmit, at math exam namin na both isusubmit ng midnight. Aware sila na ako yung nag eedit, tapos kinukulit pa ako through message na pakopyahin sila sa math, which I know may time silang isolve kasi wala naman na kaming other requirements liban sa mga yun. Wala naman din akong magagawa kundi magrespond sa mga messages nila, kasi nagrerespond ako sa gc namin eh. Ramdam kong wala akong takas that moment.
I feel like they’re befriending me kasi may nakukuha sila sa akin. Hindi naman sila academically challenged. In fact nga they’re doing well eh. Feel ko lang na hindi ako nattrato nang tama. Sana mali lang yung nararamdaman ko.
Paano nga ba ako napunta sa circle na ‘to? Inampon ako hahaha. Typical introvert na inampon ng mga extroverts. Hindi rin ako nakukwentuhan ng mga ganap sa buhay nila. Casual talk besides acads? None.
If anyone experienced/ is experiencing this, please let me know if paano niyo nasolutionan. Alam kong mas intense ang workload the more you go further sa college, and ayaw kong makadagdag ang social life ko don.

So I (21F) am struggling with university, I'm doing a degree I love and I'm the type of person who enjoys learning so the extent I went to uni even though I'm not a great academic.
I started off university 3 years ago, first semester I had amazing grades, I wasn't working and all my time was used for studying and socialising. The second semester I decided I should start working, I was getting living loan payments from my student loan for the first semester and decided I could probably cut that off in order to reduce how much money I would be in debt for.
Honestly it was the worst decision of my life. Since I started working my grades dropped, my attendance was null and I wasn't even earning enough money for it to be worth even continuing to work.
Ever since then, I've failed multiple papers, passed a few with good grades, haven't regularly attended any lectures and I'm still broker than I was in my first semester.
I feel so lost because I know financially it's not worth continuing university if I keep failing, on the other side the three years worth of loans isn't worth it unless I see it through.
Going through university for this long, seeing my friends about to graduate this year and I'm still repeating classes is making me re-evaluate everything. I truely enjoy studying, I enjoy learning and the hope of a career in my chosen industry is so exciting, but the pattern of burning out before exams is so intense I can't even find the time to decide whether or not it's even worth it anymore.
I feel like I've subconsciously made the decision that quitting my job (I get like 8-10 hours a week it's not worth even working) is the best choice for me and the way I function but I'm so overwhelmed and broken constantly that I've never gotten to the point where I can actually make the move to do anything about it.
I desperately need advice, I really don't want to drop out of uni. I made a mistake starting to work, even after a horrible breakup I was studying 8-9 hours a day and failing because I can't seem to study and work in the same day.
I'm sick of comparing myself to other people who can handle work and study at the same time, I've put my trust in hard work for 3 years and I've seen a significant drop in my overall mental health and life health simply because of this one decision I made years ago.

I applied in this company/agency because they have an AU client and the work shift was good. Anyway, I applied last April and they responded with asking me to schedule an interview with them. They sent the HR's calendar where I chose my preferred date. However, I was not available on the dates they provided so I asked if there are other available dates since I have prior commitments. They responded the same day that someone was already hired for the position.
Two weeks ago, I received an email from them. In the email, they said a new slot for the position opened and asked me to choose a date for an interview if I was interested. HR interview came and everything went well. I was asked to send the screenshot of my computer specs and internet speed. The next day, I was then asked to provide my referrals so I did. They sent survey emails to these people and wouldn't proceed with my application until everyone has finished the survey. After that was completed, I was asked to complete an assessment exam. After passing the exam, I was given a schedule for an interview with the "specs manager". She asked me the same thing as the HR did. It was a sales position so I was expecting something like doing a mock call. Anyway, the interview was done in less than 10 minutes.
After 3 days, they emailed me that the position was closed. It's not a problem that I didn't get the position. What was annoying was that they failed me without even knowing my skills. Yes I am bitter about it because HR told me I have very good communication skills. Lol.
Anyway, I was just looking for another job because I feel unproductive during the day.

Hi! Masama ba akong kapatid kung nagdadalawang isip akong pag-aralin yung kapatid ko sa college ngayong pasukan? Ganto kasi yung nangyari:
20yrs old na ang kapatid ko at ngayon lang sya nakapagdecide na magcollege. Noong grumaduate siya ng highschool, gusto namin sya mag-aral ng college agad since may 4ps pa sya nung panahong yun at makakaless ako sa gastusin kasi may scholarship naman ang 4ps sa mga beneficiary. Ilang beses namin pinagsabihan na mag-aral sya, but nagiging mitsa lang yun ng pag-aaway namin kasi ayaw niya daw mag aral. After trying to convince him so many times, nag give up na ako. Hinayaan ko sya.
After several mos. after graduation, nagdecide sya na pumunta sa city (probinsya kami nakatira) dahil yung mga barkada niya ay mag aapply daw ng merchandiser sa Gaisano. Yung desisyon niyang yun, agad-agad. Since wala syang pera pang gastos doon, ginamit ni mama yung perang tinatago niya para sana sa pagpapaayos ng bahay namin para ibigay sa kapatid ko. At pumunta nga sya doon sa city at nag apply. Kasagsagan na ng pagsubmit ng requirements, umuwi ang kapatid ko at sabi e di na daw sya tutuloy sa pagpasa ng requirements kesyo ganto, ganyan. Nainis kami ni mama kasi almost 3,000 pesos din yung binigay ni mama para magawa niya yung requirements tapos hindi tutuloy? Sa hirap ng perang kitain ngayon, ganun-ganun nlng? Ang sabi ko sa kanya, ibalik niya yung pera ky mama, kahit paunti-unti pero hanggang ngayon, wala talagang binigay ang kapatid ko.
Another attempt niya ng pagwork is dito na sa amin, factory worker. Madali syang nakapasok since nirecommend sya ng pinsan ko. Pero kami yung nahiya since pala absent at nagresign after 2mos. Sa loob ng 2mos na yun, 500 lang yung naabot niya ky mama at kanya lahat ng sahod niya.
This time, sabi ko sa kanya mag aral nlng sya ng college since yung factory na yun ay nagbibigay ng scholarships kahit resigned ka na. Proven na yun kasi dahil din sa factory na yun kaya ako nakapagtapos ng college. Pero ayun, hindi pa din niya tinake yung opportunity na yun.
May mga LGU programs din sa TESDA scholarships, ilang beses ko din syang sinabihan, hanggang sa naubos nlng yung slot, hindi niya talaga pinansin.
Nag-18 yrs old sya, nawala na yung 4ps benefits niya, ksama ng scholarship sana niya kung nag aral lang sya. Laking hinayang namin ni mama kasi sobrang laking tulong na sana noon sa amin. Mga kabatchmates nya ay malapit ng mgtapos sa tulong ng 4ps at yung iba ay nagtapos na nga.
Sa mga panahong tambay lang sya, nagkaissue pa na sya daw ang nakabuntis sa kapitbahay namin. Inamin niyang may nangyari sa knila pero hindi daw sila magjowa. So si mama, hianarap ang pamilya ng babae at ang gusto ng pamilya ng babae ay suportahan namin yung pagbubuntis ng babae. Pumayag kami. Pero inamin din ng babae after the ultrasound (kami ang nagbayad) na hindi sa kanya ang pinagbubuntis niya kasi hindi tugma yung binigay nilang date na ginawa nilang deed sa date na nakalagay sa ultrasound. So nagstop na din kami sumuporta sa pregnancy niya at tinakasan pala sya ng lalaki kaya yung kapatid ko ang pinaamin niya.
Ngayon, ang routine ng kapatid ko lang ay gumala sa mga barkada niya, halos buong araw wala sa bahay, uuwe lang para kumain, at magselpon ng magselpon. Pag inuutusan ni mama, siya pa galit kasi naiistorbo yung pagseselpon niya. Sinasagot sagot niya din kami ni mama.
Ngayon, nagsend sya ng link sa akin about entrance exam at balak niya daw mag aral. May college naman dito sa amin at accredited yung ng isang University sa Bukidnon at dito din ako grumaduate. Sinabihan ko sya na dito nlng na college mag aral since libre at pang gas lang ng motor since may motor nmn kami at di naman masyadong malayo yung school. Pero hindi sya pumayag. Gusto niya doon sa community college sa kabilang bayan. Di na lang daw sya mag aaral kung di din daw doon sa community college na yun.
Valid ba tong nararamdaman kong inis?
Nagdadalawang isip ako bilang ako ang gagastos. Ako na kasi ang nagbibigay ng panggastos mismo sa bahay, grocery, bills at sarili ko din since nasa ibang region ako ngayon nagwowork, so may renta, pagkain at araw araw na allowances din akong expenses dito. To think na di naman kalakihan yung sahod ko pero nagtitipid lang talaga ako para may maisuporta ako sa knila. Para sa akin, hindi ako, kami ni mama, nagkulang sa pagreremind sa kanya na mag aral noong madaming opportunities na binigay.
Naiiyak na lang ako kasi nagchat si mama sakin ngayon na kinoconvince nya kapatid ko na doon nlng sa amin magcollege pra malapit lang at di masyado kalakihan yung magiging expenses niya araw-araw, pero ang response niya ky mama, 'Wag ka makialam kasi si Ate naman gagastos, hindi ikaw.' 😭

So, this is not a sympathy post, neither I am depressed, I was really good in everything till 10th be it science , language or social sciences, after getting a general promotion in 10th(2021), I asked around and got to know ki sab cool log engineering karte, mere ek senior ke saath ek conversation was enough for me to choose non med. Then I gave an entrance for a prestigious school and got in, i thought that my path for future is now set and I will most probably also become the cool youtuber iit bhaiya. 11th was online, i didn't study even a single bit in that year fir bhi passed then came 12th, got enrolled in a local coaching for jee but they were more interested in taking my money rather than completing my 11th backlogs. Still, I felt I was at fault i didn't gave enough efforts to get a good rank(got. Around 82 percentile), got SVC in du but kyunki meri aadhi se jyada class was going for a drop , toh I also got on the bandwagon however In the drop year something weird happened my performance worsened, I got blank in my jee mains and got around 80 perc less than last year, in second attempt I was sure that I would cross 95 but also couldn't, gave advance but I know i fucked that exam i now have deep intellectual insecurity also gave ipmat this year uski cutoff I will most probably pass with only a slight edge, ab mai aage kya kr sakta hun is my question mai apne college ke bare Mai nahi bol raha mai apne intellectual attitude ke baare Mai bol rha hun, mai dhang se mehnat nahi kar pa Raha kisi exam ke liye aur agar Mai college ke exams mai ache se perform nahi kar pa Raha to age ke exams mai kya karunga .

Hi everyone! I am writing this hoping it will offer some sort of comfort to those who don't have enough time/energy to dedicate to this stupid exam because we are tired
1 month of studying (background: FM intern with Step 1: 210, Step 2: 219)
30% Uworld done with 59% average UWSA 1 (3 weeks before exam): 185 UWSA 2 (2 weeks before exam): 201 NBME 6 (1 week before exam): 415 NBME 7 (5 days before exam): 392 + randy neil youtube videos for biostats
Day 1: HELL. Fatiguing. Long questions stems that did not seem similar to uworld, 2 drug ads per block with 3-4 associated questions. Had difficulty with time management until my energy drink kicked in. Lots of biostats (never did actual math). Tons of pharm and micro. Had 3-4 questions where I had to read histology slides. 2 EMBRYO (?!!) questions. I felt like I was guessing on a lot. I left day 1 feeling defeated and 99% sure I failed.
Had one day in between day 1 and 2. On this day off, I did 30 ccs cases and used the acronyms from this video which helped keep me organized https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qmxWuV4psFs&t=1276s
Day 2: Much better than day 1! Felt like the questions were more similar to the content tested in uworld/nbme exams. No biostats or pharm or drug ads. The cases were a breeze and actually kind of fun. Despite feeling better on day 2, day 1 loomed over my head and I convinced myself I failed.
Score: 209! (my goal was to just pass)

Hello my name is Thomas and it will also be my characters name. Today I'm looking for a almost no limit multiple girl slave/ blackmail roleplay. If this interests you then read below and select which one interests you the most.
Prompt 1- I am a honor student at one of the best college academies in the world. This college has been a top 3 college ever since it was founded and no one really has an idea how. The reason why is because they make sure their brightest and highest testing students are rewarded well and taken care of. The students who can't keep up become their slaves. Even professors can find themselves enslaved to students if they can't keep a good collective score in their class. Of course money helps as well anyone who donates money to the school can be well rewarded for doing so with a slave or more depending on the amount. And since the people own the slaves there is no running for them on or off campus they are slaves to their owner. They can be traded, bet, given away or more.
For my character, I would be new to the school and have just aced my entrance exam along with that I belong to a rich family which have donated a big sum of money already.I am the first to do it so the headmaster of the school rewards me with my first slave. She wants me to choose if I wish for a younger slave or older slave. This can become a more opened up long term world where I form a no limits harem
Prompt 2- Student's Pet- You are a Professor at my college and one day while I was leaving campus late I passed by your car. I was just going to walk past but I stopped because I noticed some movement through the window. I looked through the window and saw you had your eyes closed but not only that you were rubbing your pussy through the jeans you wore today before taking them off slowly and starting to rub it through your panties as you moan a bit. I stood there watching before pulling my phone out and starting to record it to jerk off to later. About 3 minutes into the recording you start to unbutton your jeans and grope your own breasts. Continuing to get this all on recording I immediately stop when I look to the side and see someone coming. I stop the recording and put my phone away before jogging past your car and accidentally hitting it. You stopped what you were doing and button your jeans back up and open your door not seeing anyone but now noticing the person approaching. You start your car and then head home and while I'm walking home I review the video I got from recording you.
Prompt 3- Foreign Exchange Fun- You are a foreign exchange college student staying at my house that i agreed to when I registered at the college. Prior to when you came you had agreed to pay rent and everything needed. 3 months in and you don't have the money for the rent nor anything else anymore but have nowhere else to go. I wake up hitting the snooze button on my phone alarm. I start to get up wiping my eyes early in the morning 4 in the morning to be exact. I go to the shower running the water straight cold and I look in the mirror. I. Then turn and hop in the shower for 15 mins before getting out and putting of some dark blue jeans and a white t-shirt. You didn't pay your rent yesterday but I didn't say anything no, instead today you will pay the rent one way or another. I grab another outfit from a bag. It's one that is meant for a girl, it's a black lingerie one piece around, and the collar is fuzzy white fur and the lingerie comes along with some cat ears. I open my door heading to your room knocking on the door heavy and loud knowing you are still asleep "Hey we have to talk, you never paid this month's rent. I'm gonna leave something in front of your door, put it on and come talk to me in the kitchen." I drop the outfit in front of your door heading to the kitchen, pulling out two pans and then some eggs and bacon
Prompt 4- I woke up early as always and got up slowly heading into the bathroom and starting a cold shower. I got undressed from my night clothes and hopped in waking myself up with the cool water. About five minutes later I got out and looked in the mirror as I used a towel to dry my face and that's when I noticed a strange mark on the right side of my chest. "What the hell?" I question it as I hover over it with my fingers and a few memories flash through my mind of the night before mainly of a girl saying to use the power however I decided it was necessary. And then I passed out waking up in my bed. Shrugging it off I got dressed fully and grabbed my stuff to leave for my college classes of the day
This prompt is based on a anime called Code Geass. My character will be blessed with the power of the geass but in different ways. He can activate it with by his words or he can invade your mind and place what he wants into you mind to make you do it. Now what I do with this power is completely up to us.
Prompt 5- I took the lockbox out from underneath my bed. I had no clue what it said it was obviously from out of this world. I opened the box and inside was a chemistry setup of some sorts used to mix together different injections. It had a few recipes inside and the ingredients seemed to be infinite. It had four injections inside originally and when I used it on one of my friends by accident I was surprised that they listened to anything I said. I was slowly starting to decipher the clearly alien language and learned that the injections currently inside were syrumes that injected nanites into the person's body and the injector could control them in any way. Look at the other recipes the names were suggesting different things such as body altercations, a simple syrume making a person act like a chosen animal to even one that cause a instant but painful death. I sighed as I took out one of the syrumes that let me control someone and then put it in my pocket as I got ready to leave for my boring nine to five job
This roleplay is different from above but I want my character to find a alien chemistry mixing station of sorts. It allows me to make all types of syrumes that could alter my life in wonderful ways and others in wonderful ways If I chose or horrible ways if I chose that instead.
Prompt 6- This is a very different prompt. I was in a one on one gm style roleplay a while back and she is still very busy now so she can't roleplay as much. However I loved it and am looking for someone to start a new one with
So, the roleplay would be based on the webcomic/webnovel and now anime solo leveling. However, my character would be awakened as nothing like any other. I would be awakened with the class/job of fuckboy or something similar. Then I would go through the world trying to make my class works. I'd get skills based around manipulating and fucking women to help me in dungeons and out of dungeons.
If you have read it all and made it this far thank you for reading. I do appreciate it since there is alot to read here but in smaller buts basically. If you are interested in any of them or have your own idea then message me please. As you can tell slavery and the such is big for me and along with that so is free use and other kinks like that. Every roleplay in my list will all not be straight smut as well they all have a slice of life portion to them. I hope to hear from you all soon.

Pretty much a vent. I 19F found out i was pregnant from Boyfriend 20M quite quickly. I did one test (early) a day or two before my period was predicted, i had unsafe sex and took a plan B but obviously was already ovulating and to be fair i was being a bit young and dumb because afterwards we also had unsafe sex twice. The test was negative and i was relieved. Waiting with full hope for my period to arrive, it didn’t and a couple days after being late i took another one. I had crazy “im gonna have my period cramps” for a week now and i knew something was wrong normally when i get them its ALWAYS within two days. Suprise it’s positive.
100 emotions but also 0, i didnt take it all in. We called for an abortion appointment, she told us we were too early and needed to wait a week, we did. I was so scared, a million thoughts because it was conflicting it was the best choice but not one i wished for and I felt so much i was so overwhelmed.
Saturday, we go there fully prepared. Full on lies to my parents (they are christian and didnt know) planned the days after free. They told me it was too small (fetus) and needed to go back in a week. My boyfriend was going on a long planned holiday with his parents the next week (they also dont know). Now we scheduled for 2 weeks later. He said it’s even better because they are sure it will be big enough to remove succesfully… “successfully” but we’ll get into it.
7 weeks pregnant, the second try. I had AWFUL pregnancy symptoms, every single one nausea i couldn’t eat anything with the stress of puking and my family finding out. Horrible cramps every single day. Full alone and no one to talk to (only BF), physically and mentally suffering. Anyways we go back. Everything went super quick. Upstairs > room with other woman > i was the first one.
I was deadly scared and also have PTSD (sexually related but not by bf) which did NOT help also the Gyn was a male. They asked if i had any questions, i told them i know everything but am very scared. The gyn said to me “of course you don’t have any experience with it” which was wtf?! Very weird in my opinion. First they poke the needle 4 times before getting it right, great. I woke up hazy with the worst feeling in my life or so i thought i felt so extremely violated which probably is also partly my ptsd.
I felt relief because the symptoms like nausea disappeared. I was optimistic “the worst is the procedure” afterwards at least it’s “done”. Mentally punishing myself with shame, guilt, fantasies of what could’ve been. I know i needed to do this and it was the best choice but i was absolutely not happy about it, my mom was a teen mom so it was also a layer of understanding her pain and not hold grudges so much because she actually went through so much.
I immediately took a copper IUD. Two future apportionments. After 3 weeks checking if the abortion was successful and 6 weeks after (in total) if the IUD was placed correctly.
In these 3 weeks i was mentally at a low; no adults who i can go to, keeping it a secret, punishing myself and i need to pass all my exams otherwise i get kicked of the study and have literally no other life plan (uni psychology), the extreme guilt, mood swings well you get it. The SurgicalA was the most traumatic experience in my life the feelings of violation to my body were worse than when i got rxped. I was not a victim, this was my doing.
Here the story: physically i bled 1.5 weeks with heavy cramps they told my this was normal also considering the IUD makes it “worse”. It stopped bleeding although the cramps, mood swings everything was baaad. I got an yeast infection because of the antibiotics. Got something for that and i thought that must be it the cramps are just my IBS. 4 days later the bleeding came back in flows of none to heavy bleeding with heaaavy crampings. Clots and jelly like structured blood came out i knew something was wrong but told myself its the copper IUD.
3 weeks later check up (today) The did a pregancy test, i got called in the room and the first two words where “THE TEST WAS INSTANTLY POSITIVE” my heart SANK. “Could it be you’re pregnant again? Idk what you have been doing you should know” They did a vaginal ultrasound scan she told me it’s and incomplete surgical abortion. There’s leftover tissue she told my i was going to get heavy cramps and blood. If it’s not gone the second appointment/check up i need to do the D&C. I’m going to do the check ups at another clinic, they are not professional or helping the experience in any way. Literally died at the first words of POSITIVE PREGNANCY.
This is the worst i have ever felt. Something inside me died, the most traumatic experience in my life needs to be done again? AGAIN? I feel hopeless and extremely lonely. I am scared to death at even the possibility of going through this again. They told me maybe it’ll go away by itself but it’s been 3 weeks and the chances are really low. The cramps and bleeding are extreme, i am exhausted and a hollow shell of flesh. The school pressure is big, these 3 exams predict my future. I HAVE TO PASS. I have 0 energy and constantly need to fake how i feel with others. My BF is extremely supportive but i also feel like i’m bringing him down in this deep hole i’m sinking in. It’s been 11 weeks now of daily pain, scared he’ll get tired of me. I’m tired of me! I’m suffering physically and mentally and see no light at the end of the tunnel.
Now the reason i wrote this was to vent, but also i see none failed/incomplete surgical abortions only medical. Anyone with any advice/similar experiences? How did you and can i move forward.

after failing the first time (i tried without studying after graduating since i was cocky and thought i was prepared enough; i wasn't), i retook the exam today and passed with a 631/800 score! This is with 2 weeks studying solely utilizing youtube videos and pocketprep. I understand ACSM is one of the harder exams, and now I'm eyeing their EP cert once I get some experience working in the field!

Hello all— I am seeking advice on a situation that I never thought would happen to me. I have been accused by a patient (a patient with dementia I might add) of diverting narcotics. The incident occurred about a week ago. The patient was very confused and irritated my whole shift, so when she asked to speak to my charge nurse, I assumed it was about one of the other thousand issues she had with me that day. However, when charge left the room, she informed me that the pt told her that I had not given her any of her pain medication that day. Of course, this is not true; I was giving her her her prescribed medication as often as I could and spent most of my shift in her room constantly trying to make her more comfortable. I was very surprised to learn that she had accused me of diverting but thought there’s no way they would believe her over me…. but i was wrong. They called in house sup and made a very big deal about it, even talked to the oncoming nurse and told her that she would need a second verifier for giving any narcotic and that she needed to have another employee in the pt room with her at all times in case she tried to accuse her of anything else. It was allllll made into a very big deal and now I’m very nervous that they are going to require me to take a drug test. While I would not test positive for narcotics, I do take the occasional THC gummy for sleep/anxiety/stress/whatever.
All that to ask this— if they require me to take a drug test, should I refuse? or should I just take the test and fail? I’m very nervous and don’t wanna lose my license over this.
I should add that I live in a state where THC is only medicinally legal and I do not have a prescription.
Any advice is welcome.

Very long L-posting here
I'd just turned 16 when lockdown began and life was so good. My grades were great, I was hanging out more with my friends and was moving away from being an asocial loser, talked to girls regularly, was funny and had charisma.
When the pandemic hit I stopped caring about school and played video games during classes and cheated on most online exams. By the end of 2020 I was so addicted to Discord that it makes me feel sick. I was a senior in 2021 and by that point I lost all my social skills, I felt dead inside and my friends pretty much moved away from me, I spent the year mostly alone with minimal social interaction.
When HS ended I didn't know what career I wanted, then in 2023 I picked some basic ass major and had a wake up call of how horribly I was destroying myself. I thought about how younger me would feel about now and realized I needed to change.
I dropped out and decided to pursue something I really want, currently studying for the entrance exam in November. I'm so grateful for my parents for supporting me even though I don't deserve it. It's been hard but I believe things will get better.
I still struggle with self-esteem and knowing that all my friends are miles ahead of me, sometimes I daydream about going back in time and doing everything right.
Thanks for reading.