Headace and feeling tierd and eyes feel

And I need to make her her favorite foods, and feed her until she's all full and happy and whenever she's upset or sad I'll cook her something to make her happy abd if she eats too much I can massage and make sure her belly feels good .and mm ..we can go out for dinner and she can mog me when we're all out and girl moving awee,>\<

I know it's a dumb question and it shows that it deals 1 damage, but I feel like the fists actually deal more than that, anyone has a clue about this?

I started noticing my AGS symptoms late at night after having a baby a couple of years ago. At first I thought it was from the c-section.... googled getting sick at night and was surprised it asked have you been bitten by a tick and has the bite not healed normally. Realized, hey I have been bit 7 times and one particular bite on my leg hadn't healed but looked like a bruise for months. Stopped eating meat, felt better. Ate it again, felt like dying. Ok. Got this. I'll stop meat and maybe soon-ish I can get better....but then get bit again. Then ate a pre-packaged chocolate snack cake that eventually had me crawling on the floor to the bathroom. Checked ingredients- tallow. Tallow? Oh, animal fat. It's worse. Got tested and AGS was 0.62. Worst club to join-no offense. Months go by, got bit again, bite takes months to heal, looks like bruise, etc. A turkey meatloaf got me next. Ingredients: enzymes. Enzymes? What the..... Download the Fig app. It helps. Fall and winter pass, it's spring get bit again by a lone star nymph. Haven't even been outside but to go in/out of the car. Avoided meat, lard, enzymes.... but now my stomach hurts most nights, I get super sluggish and getting chest pains. It's been over a month and the bite won't heal, it oozes now. Call the only allergist nearby that said Alpha-gal on their website but the next available appointment is three months away. Popping antihistamines to get by. Feels like I was hit by a car the next day. Stop dairy and all byproducts. This crap is in everything. Fig says no sugar and I finally relent. Ok not even sugar now. Brings me to now, I just woke up at 2:45 am by a stinging feeling. Pulled another nymph off me. Probably got it unloading groceries earlier? Who knows. I hate this. I don't want to be done in by a damn tick, tic tac or jello. If you've read all this, thanks for listening and what the hell do you guys do to keep these little assholes away? Any and all advice will be appreciated.

Tldr at bottom.
I (25m) have been with my gf (25F) for almost 1 year, and it’s just been a year since we met a couple weeks back. I absolutely adore her and love our relationship - I never thought I’d be this happy with someone. She’s everything I want in a partner and I can’t imagine ever being with someone else.
Now, before I got with her, I enjoyed weed edibles fairly often. Not all the time, but at least 3-5 times a month. I know a dealer (I’m in the UK, weed is still very much illegal) who makes these amazing brownies (even without weed in them they’d be amazing) that are strong as hell. She sells them in boxes of two and they last me forever because my tolerance is low and they’re very generously strong. I have no interest in smoking, just edibles. I liked to take them and just listen to an album, or play some games, or watch a movie. Nothing crazy.
I stopped taking it about a year ago though. No real reason, I think more than anything I just didn’t have enough spare money to throw at weed. I like it, but it’s not a priority like that. Plus I wanted to focus on this new girl I’d met, so I kinda forgot about it for a bit.
Fast forward almost a year of being with my gf and I’m starting to get a bit of an itch about weed again. The thing is though, my gf is from a different background to me. She comes from a very white middle class family, very family oriented, very “traditional”, and anything even close to illegal bothers her. I think breaking the law bothers her more than the thing in question. As well as this she’s not much of a drinker, which I only mention because it’s the only frame of reference I have in regards to how she feels about substance. Since I’ve known her we’ve never really gotten drunk, but one time we went out to a gig, she had 3 ciders across the whole evening between 6 and 11pm, and considered that like.. a heavy night for her. Which is fine, everyone has their own pace and I’m in no way trying to shame her, but it illustrates how interested she is in that kind of thing.
I think what scares me most is that early in our relationship, I mentioned an interest (not an intent, an interest) in growing a very small batch of psychedelic mushrooms for microdosing purposes, and it majorly freaked her out, to the point that she said it might be a deal breaker for her. . I really don’t want to risk losing her and obviously I’d choose her over weed, but she’s not an unreasonable person and I really think she could come to realise there’s no need to be afraid of things like weed, and that it wouldn’t effect us or me or anything - it’s just like having a drink but a different feeling. If anything it’s less harmful than having a drink, and a much nicer feeling.
So yeah, TLDR, I’m interested in purchasing some edibles just to have once every now and again just to relax and forget about my anxieties on a Friday night but my gf of almost one year is very much a rule follower and anything illegal freaks her out - how can I put this to her?

I had my first ever date with a mixed black/ white woman the other month, and I was overwhelmingly hit with this amazing feeling of just being around someone who sees life through the same eyes I do. She had the same experiences as me growing up in the uk, especially being the same mix. She just felt like home. And after never knowing what home felt like, it was a big thing for me.
She’s moving country so I won’t peruse things for that reason. But I’m like damn, its hard to not see myself with someone who isn’t mixed, let alone the same mix 😂
I’m 27 and it took all of those years to have finally had that experience ??! Is there somewhere I can go or some dating app where I will find more mixed people?

So this is going to be a VERY long story and I hope some of you can take time out of your day so I can get some perspective from other people as I feel some serious guilt after what happened the past 3 days.
To give some background, I was an employee at a grocery store and I became friends with a girl that I'm going to call Amy for the sake of privacy. Amy was cool and we got along great. She did mention that she had a boyfriend and it honestly didn't bother me at the time. I was just happy I made friends with a cool person at work. We would sit together in the break room and have a lot of conversations together and even add each other on sc and talk occasionally outside of work. She did kind of mention to me however that she doesn't have a lot of friends and she was trying to make an effort to be in a group of friends.
Well at the beginning of this year, she ended up quitting and I was pretty sad as she was one of the few friends I made at this job. We didn't speak again until 2 months after she quit. I have a friend group that I have known since I was in middle school and once or twice a month we get together to play video games, play board games, watch movies, etc. I decided to invite her to this friend gathering as I remembered her saying that she didn't have too many friends and I wanted to see her again. She ended up coming and it went amazing for her. She loved being around my friends, we were all laughing and having a great time. She loved all of my friends and we invited her to our discord server afterwards and she became an official member of our friend group. Afterward, I learned that the reason she quit the job was that she had a miscarriage and it destroyed her emotionally. She told me that inviting her to this friend's gathering sorta changed her life and helped her through that dark moment.
Everything seemed to be going smoothly until one day she asked to hang out with me one-on-one at my place. I agreed and she came over and we played video games and watched a few movies together. It ended up becoming super late and we decided to just sit on my couch and just chill and talk for a bit. The conversation ended up starting to get very personal/sexual and there seemed to be an awkward tension happening in that moment. She then tells me that she's actually “Poly” and is into open relationships. Hearing this, I realized that I sorta had feelings for this girl and I made a very risky move by asking her if she wanted to be together in an open relationship in a FWB way. She talked to her BF the very next day and he agreed to let her be with me in an open relationship and that's when it all started.
The first 2 months of our relationship went great. She was seeing me once a week and we were trying to make our relationship work. We started talking about our personal lives a lot more and it seemed like this relationship was going to work. All of the friend group knew about our relationship and she was still active in our discord server and everything seemed to be going well. The relationship started to get kind of serious and we both said that we loved each other. We started discussing having kids potentially in the future and trying to make this open relationship work somehow as it seemed like we both had serious feelings with each other despite her technically having a BF. I stopped viewing this as a FWB and believed that she was the girl I was going to spend the rest of my life with.
However, things started to go a little downhill in the third month of our relationship. I started to notice that she wasn't as talkative and enthusiastic about our relationship as she once was. She started to reply a lot slower to my texts and we started to get into fights. We ended up getting into a MASSIVE fight about a week ago. Long story short I tried to talk to her about our relationship and was kind of wondering why she was acting the way she was. She EXPLODED on me and started yelling at me and saying I was being so annoying by asking her constantly about our relationship. I tried to be as calm as possible as I didn't understand why she was acting this way. I said something along the lines of “If we are a couple I feel like we should talk this out as I care about you” She then said something along the lines of “we aren't a couple, we are just a FWB”. I was heartbroken when she said this after she told me that she loved me and wanted to have a family with me. It was way too overwhelming for me to handle so I decided a few days after the fight that I would break it off with her.
I sent her a text that said that we should stop being in a relationship and just remain friends. Initially, she agreed but I kind of realized as I kept snapping her and texting her I felt heartbroken and I didn't wanna talk to this girl anymore. So I ended up texting her that I don't think we should see each other anymore as it's way too painful for me. I implied that I don't want her around the friend group anymore as it's going to make me feel terrible and fuck with me mentally. She then insisted that she should stay because she was technically part of the group now and that this relationship should have nothing to do with the friends she made. I then later talked to my friend group and they all agreed that she should be exiled and that my mental health is much more important. We ended up banning her from the Discord server and cutting all contact with her.
Well, I feel horrible now. I understand I was heartbroken and still am but I feel like it was a mistake to kick her out when she told me how much of an impact this friend group had on her, especially through her miscarriage. My friend group is all on my side and thinks I did the right thing by kicking her out of the group but I want to hear other people's perspectives. and their advice

I am currently an incoming freshman at UCSC (Currently wait listed for Davis and Irvine, but rejected at UCLA and Berkeley after wait list) and I am very curious to know that what are like key categories through which the admission officers will evaluate the transfer process. I know it may be too early to think about it but I feel UCSC is not really the choice that I feel represent my interests. It doesn't have as better of an research grant like Davis, Santa Barbara or Berkley or internship opportunities. Does anyone has transferred from UCSC to UCLA/ UCB/UCSB sucessfully? I would like to have some tips in order to prepare myself. Getting 4.0 may be hard but it isn't impossible for sure, I did that same in high school for many AP classes but Junior year tanked due to personal problems.

Now we can begin a future of life and happiness, something I do my damest to do. Give something never had before unconditionally love. Show the compassion you deserve. Relieve some ur stress level. Believe or not got heart of gold willing to do whatever it takes to see that you and ur mom are taken care of. Ur wonderful person with big heart, very intelligent, hardheaded at times this beautiful friendship is one best one I had like I wrote letter to you that's my inner soul that talking to you. I fell in love with you and I couldn't stop it tried it happened. We had our aggrugements but end we pull back together. That there something. Say like this not hide it no body how feel. We take one step at time we together can make something beautiful in life or out life. I do love you your kids know. One thing I never give up on you I always be there no matter what. Goodnight my best friend do love you now get chance to spoil you.

Call me immature, stupid and foolish or something but I’m so fucking tired of this shit. At the 7/11 at College-Spadina St there was this guy in red and woman that’s obviously high on whatever drugs and screaming and yelling at strangers and calling the n-word and stuff. They harassed a takeout delivery guy and eventually a homeless woman in front of the store told them to stop. Of course being the coward he is, the man started focusing his verbal attacks on the homeless woman. I just couldn’t stand it so I told them to shut the fuck up, guy went into a very close stare down with me trying to intimidate. To be honest, I’m not scared one bit, even if I will most likely get hurt. I have to say thanks to another dude who pulled me out and walked me to the other side of the street, he might have saved my skin.
Just wanted to rant about this, I feel like these people just get bolder every month because nobody does anything about them. Will delete this post in a few days.

YouTube: “LET THEM - JUST LET THEM” Looking at Life with Dee
This video and poem has truly helped me begin to feel at peace with the fact that I truly have no control and there’s nothing I can do but let them walk out of my life.
If you are hurting and feeling confused because someone has decided they are better off without you, please watch this.
Let them live with the decisions they have made.
Let them live with the memories of you.
Let them live with the invasive “what if”’s when they begin to feel regret.
Let them leave, knowing that you WILL be okay.
Just let them.

Hello Reddit this is my first post ever on here, it seems crazy to ask a bunch of strangers for opinions, but I just need any kind of input or perspective other than my own. I’ve been with my girlfriend since December 27th of 2022. We met at work after getting to know her for 6 months and thinking that I was out of her league I couldn’t believe she was interested in me. Our sense of humor and personalities meshed really well and we both enjoy each other’s company. She’s perfect I fell in love with her almost instantly she truly made my life better and just simply seeing her smile lit up my world. As time has gone by that spark we shared in our first few months of dating has seem to vanished. Before I knew her she had already been taking care of baby cousin and officially about a month ago gained full custody of her. She is 3 years old and is under my girlfriend’s constant care. This was something I actually didn’t find strange I didn’t mind her having a child and I have been trying to help in anyway I can. However this makes things difficult because my girlfriend rarely has any free time to spend with me. Since we’ve been together we have only gone on 1 date. The rest of her time is devoted to helping her younger brother and mother. Her brother has a complicated history with mental health and her mother is also not in the best shape. There is a lot on my girlfriends shoulders she has to take care of her daughter, brother, and mother and that’s not including herself. All of her money and resources goes towards them. I’ve tried to help in any way I can. By sending her money to help pay for things. However here’s where it gets a little weird. My girlfriend is roommates with her ex. She and her ex currently live together and pay rent together. This has made it so that I can’t visit her at all, and she doesn’t want to risk being seen out with me. Since her ex is the name on the lease he could kick her out if he finds out she’s with me now. She keeps saying she can’t visit me because it’s suspicious and that we can’t go out because she has other priorities. I’ve struggled with this it seems selfish of me to want her all to myself especially with all of her responsibilities. However I can’t help but feel I’m not really in a relationship. We work in retail and when our store had to close we both got jobs elsewhere. It’s been about 2 months now and I haven’t seen her once. However prior to this I only ever really saw her at work. I miss her so much and we text as much as we can and I keep trying to plan things with her but she keeps telling me there’s no time. Earlier this year she purchased a new car that she’s still paying off with my help. I helped her with the down payment by paying most of it myself and when she told me she couldn’t cover the monthly payments. I told her not to worry and that I would cover it. It’s been this way for a few months now. The payment is 390 every paycheck and I send her that amount each time. However I am not making huge bucks as I said I work in retail. I have been struggling lately financially. Sending her 390 each paycheck along with helping her with other expenses has left me with not much leftover. I have bills myself and I have to help my parents sometimes. This usually means I’m living paycheck to paycheck something that’s new to me. I haven’t been able to save up or try to get a better job because I’m so drained of working OT shifts and pushing myself to cover my expenses and my girlfriends. All of this work just to not see her. I don’t expect anything in return it was my choice to help her, but the fact that I don’t see her at all and only text now hurts. She’s been through a lot in her life, stuff that I don’t want to disclose, but she is so strong and just someone I look up to. I just can’t help to think we are on separate paths. I want to go on dates and take her out to eat and just spend time with her something. It seems like she was satisfied with just seeing me at work but now that we don’t work together I feel neglected. I don’t want to lose her but I’m afraid of telling her all of this will make her leave me. But I also want to have a relationship and spend time with her. I know she loves me the connection we have feels strong and real to me but I just need some opinions or suggestions on what to do with my relationship. I don’t want to lose her she’s my everything. But I don’t know if I’m her everything. We might just be on different paths and want different things. I just know I love her.

I recently flew to Los Angeles and on my flight back home, I had a seatmate whom I talked to for 5 hours straight (entire duration of flight). We talked about practically everything about one another and from my perspective, I thought we shared a pleasant conversation. And only a day after the flight did I realize that I actually like him a lot, a crush you could call it. However, not only did I not get his contact information, there are some other points that I'm unclear about.

• He is about a decade older than me (I'm in my early 20s) and perhaps he saw me as a child/teenager instead of a woman despite telling him my age--I'm still in college as well so it makes our age gap feel even bigger
• He has lived in America, Los Angeles for many years of his life and I feel like most Californians are naturally extroverted and friendly, and has the tendency to strike up conversations with strangers and I took our interaction in a completely incorrect way and he was actually just being friendly. Maybe no matter who sat beside him, the same thing would've transpired
• Although he was the one that started the conversation (and there were numerous times during those 5 hours where I either stopped talking or ended the conversation because I felt bad for taking up his time but he picked it back up every time) and told me that his original plan was to nap and work on the flight but instead talked with me the whole flight, he never asked for my number or contact information
• This may seem insignificant, but when the plane landed, he didn't offer to bring down my carry-on luggage. I'm not sure why that hurt my feelings hahah, I feel like if a guy likes someone, they would offer to do things like that at least.
• Our shoulders were touching for most of the flight and we leaned so close many times, but once again, that may be because of his friendly American demeanor and the fact that we couldn't hear each other very well due to the background noises, so we had to stick closer to hear each other

I feel very silly writing this, like a high schooler. Although I know that I'll probably never see him again and have no way of contacting him, I can't stop thinking about our interaction and I need to hear a stranger's brutal opinion on this matter instead of hearing my friends encourage my delusions. I mean, this is a crush forum, so I shouldn't feel ashamed in writing this. I just need to know if this entire situation was delusional on my end and it all meant nothing.

So I moved from a county to another as I changed my job to a much better one March this year.
on my first day the neighbours were harassing me and knocking on my door in unreasonable hours asking me to move my car from my driveway as they have "an agreement" amongst themselves to keep my driveway for the neighbourhood bins!!
I have been shouted at and chased by one of them without considering that if there is any agreement then the landlord haven't mentioned it to me.
fast forward, I called the landlord and as he lives just down the road he showed up at my doorstep in 10 minutes.
the story begins here, he found out I have kittens (on top of the declared cats in the contract) and he went mad and started to be aggressive shouting and going mad and grabbing my 4 weeks old kittens to check if they have fleas! They shouting again then he left slamming the door behind him. Then he walked back and asked me how fast I can find another place? Then left completely.
I have CPTSD and what happened affected me badly so I sent him an email the next day stating that his behaviour made me suffer and I wouldn’t want to stay anyway after what happened and I want him to issue me the leave notice.
He then started throwing everything back on me saying that I am the one who’s requesting to leave and he wants to charge me for reletting costs nearly £500.
I moved out and hired a professional company to clean the property and claimed my full deposit back from the DPS. The landlord went mad and sent me an email requesting the reletting costs of £500 + the disposal of all the carpets of £830 + stains of the stairs of £50 + £75 as he said there’s a strong urine smell comes from behind the washing machine!! And in total he wants my full deposit and he wants me to pay the extras on top, but he’s happy to take only £700 as he thinks it’s “extremely generous of him”. He sent me the email on Friday evening and wants the response by Monday morning otherwise he’s going to take me to court for breaching the contract and threatening me of claiming more if I don’t accept his generous offer!!
What are my rights here? And what can he do?
Knowing that my carpets were on the floor not his, and I still have the receipt of the professional cleaning company and the cats were only allowed in one room not all the house! And there’s no clause for the reletting costs mentioned in the contract.
I don’t feel it’s fair to pay this much for a place I stayed in for only 3 weeks! And I mentioned before to him that I will be happy to contribute towards the reletting costs but won’t pay the whole amount as it wasn’t my decision to vacate.
Please advise me!

God is fake and only a cope for simpletons to feel like they have value in this universe. I sit back and laugh at how simple Christians really are. Corny Christians can take their trash special education low life beliefs and go cram it up their loose asshole Bwahah I will never associate with those little kids.

My previous post was about how we had trouble with communication and then how i broke his trust for the second time (i didn't cheat or anything). I texted my ex last year standing up for my relationship and shared with my boyfriend later on. And the second time my boyfriend sent a text mending things because he had been distant since he is living alone and his cat died, i was really happy that things were better with us and i wanted to share that with my best friend who had always been really critical of him. I was going to his text to my friend but then accidentally forwarded it to him. After then he felt heavily betrayed cuz this was the time. I feel so guilty. I miss him terribly. Our relationship was so healthy and amazing. I didn't mean to break his trust. But i did. Because of my insecurities. Who cares if someone is critical of him or us. It's been a week since we broke up. 3 of my kittens died in front of me this week. I feel so hopeless and defeated. And guilty. That is lost the one person who cares about me. That is couldn't save my kittens. I buried them with my hands. My friend has been really supportive through this time. But it feels so heart shattering knowing i was the one who ruined my relationship and hurt my boyfriend. He is my everything. I really wish and hope and pray everyday he is able to trust me again. I understand that he cannot. But i really pray he does. Me sending that message to my friend was an impulsive decision and i never meant to hurt him or humiliate him in any way. Idk life feels so helpless without him.

Not sure how to describe it in words, it’s more of a feeling. By “classic” I just mean particularly noteworthy. They can be modern classics.
During summer months I tend toward books where a lot of the plot takes place during the summer or in a warm climate. During fall/winter, I read Russian novels or Dickens because I associate those with “cold and blustery winter” (Not all of the time—I know. War & Peace takes place over many seasons). I’ll take any fiction genre besides horror or magical realism. Southern gothic is on the table.
Some past “summery” books I’ve read and loved: East of Eden, My Antonia, The Sound and the Fury, The Sun Also Rises, The Stranger, Catch-22, Cat’s Cradle, I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings, and all of Toni Morrison’s books. (I’ve read other works by the authors of the books listed above; those were just my top favorites—too many to list here!)
I read Black Boy by Richard Wright last summer, and it put me in a terrible headspace. It was too depressing for me at the time, but I am still open to sad stories. Don’t know if I’m ready for gut-wrenching right now.

I'd like to preface this by saying I do not think any advice that promoted toxicity is worth typing out. I feel like unhealthy behavior in relationships is often encouraged in our society and I want nothing to do with that. The reason I say this is because too often I see straight monogamous couples consider even making eye contact with the opposite gender as some form of cheating or categorize innocent interactions as forms of cheating.
In my relationship, I 100% trust my partner and believe that he behaves appropriately and is kind to everyone he meets. He is a genuine soul and is full of love light and laughter. He treats me like royalty and I've never felt more loved than I have with him- not even from my own family members. I feel I have to place emphasis on his personality because I know from the depths of my soul that this person will never ever do anything to hurt me.
He and I both share the view that we do not wish to partake in this toxic heteronormative culture of having to ask eachother permission to do something in case it's considered cheating because we both know right from wrong. So here comes in his coworker, she's a lovely woman and they are all a part of a group that frequently spend a lot of time together .
They all travel together as well and I've noticed that she happens to be next to him in a lot of photos- which on its own says nothing. However one time we were all watching a movie and I had been fidgeting between a cramped sofa and floor for 2 hours because I dislike sitting on the floor but when I finally asked my partner to swap so I could sit on the couch she made a comment saying im making him sit on the floor but said nothing when i was the whole time. She was sitting in his seat and I assumed it was because she wanted to befriend me but that threw me off.
Not sure if this should raise alarms because I don't want to be the woman who sabotages female friendships with the delusion that someone is attracted to her partner. But I can't help but think, he is such a lovely soul and I would understand if she did have a minor crush but I don't know how to wrap my head around that really if that were the case.

can i just say, it's so counterproductive that you are to be a future allied health professional parading 'para sa bayan' if sa peer level pa lang ganito ka na ka-condescending. you obviously don't care whether this 'mediocre' person does well or not and see them as a mere anomaly to a passing rate. you don't care whether this person will be a good professional or not, at all. do you feel like your standards are being disrespected by people who underperform? how is it your business? so what is it to you kung na-taint yung oh so immaculate 100% passing rate ng college niyo?
obviously it's not your responsibility to help this person aim higher or get better. it's valid and respectable that you value your future profession so much. so much that you are projecting on people who seemingly take things basta-basta. but it's people like you who make it harder to get better in an academically rigorous institution such as UP. i sincerely hope you all pass the boards, and if you were right about the mediocre person, i hope they never get surrounded by people who think like you anymore.
p.s. your post is successful ragebait i'll give you that <3

I have absolutely 0 desire to play because the meta is absolutely no fun for me. This is not a problem in itself and has happened many times in the past. Then I did my quests and waited for the next expansion. But the doubling of quests and the constant logging in and rerolling (5x arena/battlegrounds? maybe 10x? neverfuckingever) has taken all the motivation out of it. And I know that some people will say "if you don't enjoy it, quit". But then I won't have the gold for the next expansion and I already know that I'll probably stop playing Hearthstone altogether... Does anyone else feel the same way? Do you have any tips? I'm really close to just uninstalling it...