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Hey, I am looking for anyone like me who's looking for a close friend and someone who wants a longterm friendship.
I love making and listening to music a ton, hanging out on vc, playing games like minecraft, project zomboid, terraria (never played much), other games, and talking and texting often about life and just hanging out. Usually I am curious in other things too not listed
I'm a nice guy, and I value friendship alot so if your really hoping to find a close friend, you may want to message me haha.
If you like texting often too then that's even better because I am that kind of person. We can also voice chat once we get used to eachother, i'm free more so in the afternoon-night time with vc.
btw I live in the NW Indiana area, but location isn't much of a factor to me and if your from somewhere else, that's totally ok.

 Thanks for reading the post and hit me up if your interested. Tell me a little about yourself so I can get to know you! 

[Request] [Steam] Big Ambitions
Big Ambitions
Hi guys, I’ve been following this game for ages and never really had the disposable to spend on it, I have found it hard to enjoy many of the games I own (played them over and over lol) and I came across this sub and thought I’d give it a shot.
What is Big Ambitions?
It is a tycoon/management sim where you make your own business and do everything from hire staff, design the layout of your stores and such. I have been watching a couple YouTubers play the game and I feel like half a pro already. It’s a deep sim with multiple factors such as market demand and supply, foot traffic, tax, rent. You can then use your profits to buy properties, design the interior buy cars, boats, yacht’s. Go on business courses to develop your own skills. And there is a road map with many decent updates coming in the near future.
Why can’t I buy it myself?
I have recently found myself having to live on my own and living on your own is not cheap, so I have not had the disposable income to spend on games of late.
I love tycoon/management games and have been dying to dig into this.
If anyone feels generous I am extremely grateful. If you can’t gift it me but this sounds like a game you would enjoy your self seriously check it out, it’s extremely good, and the developer (I think it’s a lone developer) is constantly updating and fixing bugs.
https://steamcommunity.com/id/WynneFC
https://store.steampowered.com/app/1331550/Big_Ambitions/

I have been dating for past 3+ years and planning to marry my boyfriend. He is really a great guy who I admire, adore and respect.
But recently after a discussion with my parents, I have been questioning myself if my love is true? Or does true love actually exist?
I come from a wealthier family (networth somewhere around 80cr) than my boyfriend who comes from a family where he is the sole bread winner with lot of financial responsibilities (basically no assets). He is hardworking, passionate and I know he will be successful irrespective of anything.
Coming to our relationship, I was the one who proposed him, back then money was never my criteria. I just could not help myself from not falling for him.I knew his financial and family conditions.. But for me nothing mattered as I just saw him as an individual. He was someone who was more hardworking than me, more passionate than me and had really high morale. Currently he earns more than me though we have same degree.. So if we see individually he is more capable and also I feel is a better person than me which made me fall for him.
Coming to my family discussion, I was always with a perspective that boy and girl are equal. I am 25 now and I can say never till today I saw my parents differentiate between me and my brother. But recently now that my brother is getting married I came to realize that the whole property would go solely to my brother. I love my brother and we have a great bond. But hearing this I did not know how to react.
I know that I have cousins where girls were not given any inheritance, but my dad always complained about how unfair it is. My mom also was not given any inheritance though her dad owns a fortune (his network is 10x of my dad) .. And my mom use to complain about the same. Seeing this I expected that my parents are different, I will have an equal inheritance with my rother.But no.
Basically there is no inheritance for girl child as girls are always expected to get married into a way more wealthier family. So the whole property goes to the son alone. while if a girl does a love marriage then it's her fate and she gets no inheritance.
My family is not open to love marriage so they deemed that mine will be an arranged marriage, sometimes my brother keeps joking about how I should lend him luxuries ones I get married to a richer guy ( in an arranged marriage).
The irony is that few years back my brother fell in love with a girl (who was a gold digger and cheated on my brother later very badly) who came from a very poor family background, though my parents did not like her.. Not because she was poor but there were lot of roumors of her being not a nice girl (had multiple affairs). Still my parents agreed to my brothers choice, as it's his life. It was easy for him as he has no change in life. The girls financial condition never mattered to him as his life is not changing at all.. He will have all the money anyways. No life style change.
But for me... If I marry my boyfriend, I will be living in a 1bhk rented house with his parents. Untill recently the guy I was soo sure about now because of this drastic change which I will have to face.. I am getting a cold feet. I can convince my parents for the marriage, but I know I will get blessing but no wealth.
Till date I always thought I will be living in one of the 5 house which my dad owns, with my bf and his family. But now.. I feel I have too much to lose.
(Legally - only ancestors wealth can be distributed equally, and all the wealth we have now is solely generated by my dad (he is great at stock market). So it's his choice to not give me any assets. Though he loves me i am sure if I go for love marriage .. He won't give me a penny! )
My bf is perfect no reason to break up at all! So if my love is true I should not be afraid to let go of wealth and live in a rented 1bhk right?.. But i am feeling suddenly so chickened out. Feeling too scared about the change in my lifestyle.
I know, if we work hard we can get rich too but tentatively the struggle is scaring me.
If I chose to marry him now.. Will I blame him in future after a fight?
Will love fade away and will I regret later?
Is love greater than money?
Do i really love him? I really think I do... Then why am I getting second thoughts ?
Was I never in love with him?
I am just dwelling in these thoughts now...

my mum has been depressed for nearly a year, she tried ODing in january. she’s still depressed now but she was talking to me about how she was getting “bad” thoughts as in not wanting to be here etc. she told me she wouldn’t do it again especially after last time but before she tried to khs in january i had asked if she’d ever do that and she said she wouldn’t so i can’t really take her word for it again. she told me how she sometimes wishes to not wake up. she has hardly an hope and she just lives through the day and usually just loves being asleep. I found her laying wide awake on the sofa for 2 hours straight today. I’m just feeling a bit concerned as she has mentioned this to people (crisis team i think?) and she’s not classed as “bad enough” to be put into hospital etc, they just told her it’s probably the change of her meds and they haven’t kicked in yet (she got put onto diff meds) I just feel pretty useless as i’m only a teen and all i can do is talk to her and listen to her but it also really drains me especially as i’m battling my own mental health right now. It feels like nobody is taking her seriously enough and those thoughts will eventually get out of hand and she’ll try attempt again. Is there anything that i could do to help her? or is there anything at all in general?

Hey im a Trilingual Canadian living in Montreal.
Im looking for chatty friends to pass the time with and maybe become besties.
I'm 420 friendly easy going non judgemental and I adore clingy people lol.
I adore learning about peoples interests hobbies passtimes what have you.
I have 1 old pupper and Would love people who enjoy sharing pet pics too!
I play games here and there nothing crazy but i do have a switch, and got a pc again!
I listen to almost anything music wise and will watch almost anything tv wise (I am really easy going promise lol)
I love to cook aswell take walks and hikes.
All ages welcome aslong as we click.
If anything sounds good hmu with a chat and lets see where it goes!
Random hello voice clip:
https://voca.ro/18R16nJb0G4O
If we get along and you are open to it we can call too.
Hope to hear from you soon!

Since I was fourteen I’ve had a horrible relationship with my mom. I am now a 26F and still occasionally have to have therapy to work out what happened between myself and my mom.
For some context up until was fourteen, I was very close to my mom. Who was a wonderful and inspiring woman who did a good job on transforming how diversity policy is implemented in the work place. She actively encouraged my hobbies, took me on trips and was someone I looked up to. On New Year’s Day when I was fourteen, she snapped after three months of personal trauma (My granddad died, she was scammed BADLY by a long time friend) She developed psychosis that went untreated. She turned to religion which became obsessive and later ended with her joining a cult like group. She became very emotionally abusive towards me, and my just yes Dad. My brother avoided it by being away. Healthcare was restricted, negative thinking was banned, I was nearly pulled out of full time education. It ended with my mom having an affair, and me discovering it in unfortunately the most movie esque way possible. She was booted out of the house.
She’s (55F) still with her affair partner (46M) My once loving equality spreading mother in her eight years away has lived in various communes, and caused an international search (to get attention). Yet, I still email her monthly. And our emails for the last year have been very normal, almost like they used to be. But why is it that I can’t be bothered anymore? I’ve done this for a year now but over two months I physically can’t email her anymore. I don’t know if it’s because it’s always me making that first communication. I don’t know if it’s worth it anymore, like I think if stop emailing her then I will just never hear from her again. Which upsets me because she was once a just yes mother but just did the biggest 180 I’ve ever experienced in a human. I personally just want advice if it’s worth speaking to her anymore or just seeing if she puts some effort in. More for the sake of the woman who raised me till my teens. My brother hasn’t spoken to her in six months now due to being tired of always putting effort in.

Any red flags here?
This is my gfs friends brother in law who lives with them the last few weeks and she said they’ve only had one conversation in person before this. Her friend watches her kids a lot and she knew he was interested before this conversation because the friends mom told my gf that the brother in law told her he thinks she hot. I found this out after she said he was just looking for friends to hangout with. Also, he knew she had a boyfriend. Please let me know what you think. Let it go , or let her go. She thinks what she said is perfectly fine and innocent and that she didn’t want to say fuck off cause she would have to see him again over there.
This is how the messages went on fb. She showed me these btw.
Him - You going back to Chelsea's tonight? Her- Just to pick up Mark. Emma's staying the night Him- Worddd I gotcha alrighty then I been tryna play a game of pool for weeks now no one ever wants too Him-All I can do is ask so Imk lol Her- My boyfriend would wanna go Imao Him-Ahhh word is he chill or Her- He's incredibly insecure lol but it's been getting better Him-Ahhh so it be weird then？ Her-Unless you had a girl with you(laughing emoji) Him -Fuck well nvm I guess lol

Hey im a Trilingual Canadian living in Montreal.
Im looking for chatty friends to pass the time with and maybe become besties.
I'm 420 friendly easy going non judgemental and I adore clingy people lol.
I adore learning about peoples interests hobbies passtimes what have you.
I have 1 old pupper and Would love people who enjoy sharing pet pics too!
I play games here and there nothing crazy but i do have a switch, and got a pc again!
I listen to almost anything music wise and will watch almost anything tv wise (I am really easy going promise lol)
I love to cook aswell take walks and hikes.
All ages welcome aslong as we click.
If anything sounds good hmu with a chat and lets see where it goes!
Random hello voice clip:
https://voca.ro/18R16nJb0G4O
If we get along and you are open to it we can call too.
Hope to hear from you soon!

Hi all. Buckle up.
I am a member of the Ordinariate of the Chair of St. Peter, but do not live within driving distance of any Ordinariate parish. As such, the diocese in which I live is not "my diocese" as the Ordinariate is. Also, it means that the pastor of the parish I attend, though spiritually my pastor, is not canonically my pastor (I don't believe, unless as an Ordinariate member I am permitted to be an actual member of a non-Ordinariate parish). My soon-to-be-betrothed is not an Ordinariate member, but a regular Roman Riter, and lives a state away, two dioceses away. The priest we would love to do our Pre-Cana, and our Wedding Celebration, lives within the diocese in which I currently reside but is not either of our pastors, and he also has received permissions for himself to pray the Divine Worship: Daily Office as his liturgy of the hours and has said many Ordinariate form Masses.
That context out of the way:
1) May any Roman Rite priest do our Pre-Cana?
2) May we have an Ordinariate form Wedding Mass?
3) Must her pastor or my local "pastor" be the one to celebrate our wedding, even if an Ordinarite form is permitted, or may we have any priest celebrate our wedding with the permission of her Bishop (we are choosing a parish within her diocese)?
4) Do priests commonly travel a few hours (2.5 hours from the priest we favor) to celebrate Wedding masses if they have agreed to well in advance, if the above question 3 is answered in the affirmative?
Thanks!

Hey im a Trilingual Canadian living in Montreal.
Im looking for chatty friends to pass the time with and maybe become besties.
I'm 420 friendly easy going non judgemental and I adore clingy people lol.
I adore learning about peoples interests hobbies passtimes what have you.
I have 1 old pupper and Would love people who enjoy sharing pet pics too!
I play games here and there nothing crazy but i do have a switch, and got a pc again!
I listen to almost anything music wise and will watch almost anything tv wise (I am really easy going promise lol)
I love to cook aswell take walks and hikes.
All ages welcome aslong as we click.
If anything sounds good hmu with a chat and lets see where it goes!
Random hello voice clip:
https://voca.ro/18R16nJb0G4O
If we get along and you are open to it we can call too.
Hope to hear from you soon!

Hi all. Buckle up.
I am a member of the Ordinariate of the Chair of St. Peter, but do not live within driving distance of any Ordinariate parish. As such, the diocese in which I live is not "my diocese" as the Ordinariate is. Also, it means that the pastor of the parish I attend, though spiritually my pastor, is not canonically my pastor (I don't believe, unless as an Ordinariate member I am permitted to be an actual member of a non-Ordinariate parish). My soon-to-be-betrothed is not an Ordinariate member, but a regular Roman Riter, and lives a state away, two dioceses away. The priest we would love to do our Pre-Cana, and our Wedding Celebration, lives within the diocese in which I currently reside but is not either of our pastors, and he also has received permissions for himself to pray the Divine Worship: Daily Office as his liturgy of the hours and has said many Ordinariate form Masses.
That context out of the way:
1) May any Roman Rite priest do our Pre-Cana?
2) May we have an Ordinariate form Wedding Mass?
3) Must her pastor or my local "pastor" be the one to celebrate our wedding, even if an Ordinarite form is permitted, or may we have any priest celebrate our wedding with the permission of her Bishop (we are choosing a parish within her diocese)?
4) Do priests commonly travel a few hours (2.5 hours from the priest we favor) to celebrate Wedding masses if they have agreed to well in advance, if the above question 3 is answered in the affirmative?
Thanks!

Hi all. Buckle up.
I am a member of the Ordinariate of the Chair of St. Peter, but do not live within driving distance of any Ordinariate parish. As such, the diocese in which I live is not "my diocese" as the Ordinariate is. Also, it means that the pastor of the parish I attend, though spiritually my pastor, is not canonically my pastor (I don't believe, unless as an Ordinariate member I am permitted to be an actual member of a non-Ordinariate parish). My soon-to-be-betrothed is not an Ordinariate member, but a regular Roman Riter, and lives a state away, two dioceses away. The priest we would love to do our Pre-Cana, and our Wedding Celebration, lives within the diocese in which I currently reside but is not either of our pastors, and he also has received permissions for himself to pray the Divine Worship: Daily Office as his liturgy of the hours and has said many Ordinariate form Masses.
That context out of the way:
1) May any Roman Rite priest do our Pre-Cana?
2) May we have an Ordinariate form Wedding Mass?
3) Must her pastor or my local "pastor" be the one to celebrate our wedding, even if an Ordinarite form is permitted, or may we have any priest celebrate our wedding with the permission of her Bishop (we are choosing a parish within her diocese)?
4) Do priests commonly travel a few hours (2.5 hours from the priest we favor) to celebrate Wedding masses if they have agreed to well in advance, if the above question 3 is answered in the affirmative?
Thanks!

Hi all. Buckle up.
I am a member of the Ordinariate of the Chair of St. Peter, but do not live within driving distance of any Ordinariate parish. As such, the diocese in which I live is not "my diocese" as the Ordinariate is. Also, it means that the pastor of the parish I attend, though spiritually my pastor, is not canonically my pastor (I don't believe, unless as an Ordinariate member I am permitted to be an actual member of a non-Ordinariate parish). My soon-to-be-betrothed is not an Ordinariate member, but a regular Roman Riter, and lives a state away, two dioceses away. The priest we would love to do our Pre-Cana, and our Wedding Celebration, lives within the diocese in which I currently reside but is not either of our pastors, and he also has received permissions for himself to pray the Divine Worship: Daily Office as his liturgy of the hours and has said many Ordinariate form Masses.
That context out of the way:
1) May any Roman Rite priest do our Pre-Cana?
2) May we have an Ordinariate form Wedding Mass?
3) Must her pastor or my local "pastor" be the one to celebrate our wedding, even if an Ordinarite form is permitted, or may we have any priest celebrate our wedding with the permission of her Bishop (we are choosing a parish within her diocese)?
4) Do priests commonly travel a few hours (2.5 hours from the priest we favor) to celebrate Wedding masses if they have agreed to well in advance, if the above question 3 is answered in the affirmative?
Thanks!

Aologies in advance for the length. Okay so I'm a college student and my ex and I go to the same school. He lives in the dorms and I live off campus with some friends. We were dating for about 9 months. His friends and mine all hang out too so it's a really tight knit group. He's a foreigner here on a visa and makes excellent grades on the honor role and is active in the community on campus. He's on track to go to Ivey League also, so everyone likes him and respects him.
We started having sex almost right away. There was just such an attraction. He's a college aged male so he wanted it like all the time. And usually I obliged. But one night about a month ago, he was over at my apartment. There was only one roomate/friend of mine home. We were in my room and he wanted sex. I said I didn't want to tonight and he started pressuring me. We were laying in bed and I was on my stomach. I won't go into detail but he got behind me and did it anyway. He acted like it wasn't a big deal because have sex all the time.
I was in shock and felt disgusting so I told him I needed a moment and went to get in the shower. The other reason it was indeed a big deal is because I told him no is because I was on my period and had a tampon in. I did for the record, tell him that but he thought I was lying because I didn't want to do it. So again he pushed himself onto me despite my protests and struggling. I tried to fish the tampon out in the shower but I couldn't find the string. He came into the bathroom (the lock was busted) and tried talking to me. I told him I didn't want to talk but he insisted and even got into the shower. I was crying and I told him I wasn't lying about the tampon and I was scared because having one inside you can cause major medical problems. He said he'd get it out but I didn't want him to touch me. I got out of the shower and he kept wanting to talk and apolgizing and touching me. I finally screamed at him to leave me alone for awhile, while I took some time to think but be wouldn't.
My scream triggered my roommate who came in and saw me obvious upset, crying, wet, in a towel. She was alarmed. I told him if he wasn't gonna give me space then he should leave. My roommate wanted me away from him to ask what was wrong and when I told her, she said we should go to the hospital to get the tampon out. So we left and my ex was still there. At the hospital the nurse asked if I had been raped and I was taken aback honestly. She asked if I knew the person...yes. If it was consensual... not this time. She nodded and asked if I wanted to file a police report. I was so confused by this. I told her no and we left.
In the car she said the nurse had a point and it was SA. I wasn't ready to accept that at the time. But here's the kicker! My ex called me while we were on our way back. He doesn't have a car so he called a friend to come get him. He asked if I was okay and said he was calling to break up with me! Apparently I embarrassed him by having to have a friend come and get him in the middle of the night and him having to explain that he got kicked out. And "in his country, kicking someone out of your house is the ultimate form of disrespect." Also that now people were in his business.
I was devastated. We didn't talk for about a week and I had to see him on campus. Of course all our friends were asking what happened. I obviously didn't want to tell everyone the truth so I just said he broke up with me because I kicked him out. So people were telling him to forgive ME! It took me a while to realize that what he did was indeed SA and it took me some time to admit that. But with the help of my friend and roommate who is the only one of our friends who knows the truth, I came to terms that, that's what happened.
About a week after the break up, he calls me and wants to talk. He asked me to meet him at a park near campus so I did. I listened to him talk for about 45 mins straight. Here's the thing, and yes I might be dumb and naive but I really do love him and I was willing to listen to him and even get back together if he admitted what he did and promised to never do it again. But during that entire speech about what he saw as our future and how much he loves me, etc, he never once apologized. He didn't even bring that night up. Which told me that he really doesn't think he did anything wrong. And that scares me.
So he said he wanted us to get back together. I told him I'd think about it. I took the day and then told him I thought it was better if we just stayed friends (it's easier to be friends than completely cut him off because all our friends also hang out so we'll be around each other). So now all our friends think that we broke up solely because I kicked him out and that while he shouldn't have broken up with me in the first place, that I should forgive him for the break up and get back together. I keep telling them I refuse and now they're saying I'm punishing him and I'm being unfair. They keep trying to convince me. But they don't know the whole truth. The only one who does says I shouldn't give in because I'm being pressured.
I probably wouldn't even have this thought except with all the peer pressure I'm starting to doubt myself. AITA? Should I just explain to him how much he hurt me and see if he apologizes and get back together? It's breaking up the friend group too because my roommate that was there that night hasn't told anyone what happened but keeps telling the rest that they don't have the full story and now she hates my ex. And it's chaos. I also don't want the harmony of our group to go away.

Hi all. Buckle up.
I am a member of the Ordinariate of the Chair of St. Peter, but do not live within driving distance of any Ordinariate parish. As such, the diocese in which I live is not "my diocese" as the Ordinariate is. Also, it means that the pastor of the parish I attend, though spiritually my pastor, is not canonically my pastor (I don't believe, unless as an Ordinariate member I am permitted to be an actual member of a non-Ordinariate parish). My soon-to-be-betrothed is not an Ordinariate member, but a regular Roman Riter, and lives a state away, two dioceses away. The priest we would love to do our Pre-Cana, and our Wedding Celebration, lives within the diocese in which I currently reside but is not either of our pastors, and he also has received permissions for himself to pray the Divine Worship: Daily Office as his liturgy of the hours and has said many Ordinariate form Masses.
That context out of the way:
1) May any Roman Rite priest do our Pre-Cana?
2) May we have an Ordinariate form Wedding Mass?
3) Must her pastor or my local "pastor" be the one to celebrate our wedding, even if an Ordinarite form is permitted, or may we have any priest celebrate our wedding with the permission of her Bishop (we are choosing a parish within her diocese)?
4) Do priests commonly travel a few hours (2.5 hours from the priest we favor) to celebrate Wedding masses if they have agreed to well in advance, if the above question 3 is answered in the affirmative?
Thanks!

This is super long but I need help badly.
I (f24) recently married the love of my life (m27). We had been together for 6 years before getting married. I’m mentally ill (Bipolar, ADHD, Anxiety, PTSD) but have been very stable for a year, even though I had an episode a few months ago. I used to use drugs and I’ve attempted suicide before. He’s been with me through it all. After he proposed, we had a long talk about me explaining that I need help. I basically gave him an out. I told him that I will do everything I can for us, but that I’ll need more from him than he will from me. He agreed and I reminded him that I’m stable now and that could change. But he’s lied to me a lot and won’t communicate.
I’ve worked really hard to get him to communicate with me, but he doesn’t do a great job at it. He’ll get upset over small things and take his anger out on me by being cold. I encouraged him to read a marriage book that my counselor recommended and he says he will but I have to constantly remind him. He also lies to me, which I’ve asked him not to. He’s also asked me to share less and less personal stuff with him. Like if I’m feeling suicidal or feel like self harming or any fights with my parents. Recently, I suggested we go to his parent’s house for Mother’s Day because I know he’s been missing his mom. It’s extremely stressful for me and I get severe anxiety with his family since I’m still learning their language and they don’t speak mine. We were running late, but he’s Hispanic so his family hadn’t even started on dinner by the time we were supposed to be there. I was taught by my parents to show up on time. I was taught by my husband and his family to show up whenever. So I asked my husband if I could have time to curl my hair and it would make us 20 extra minutes late. He said yes but I double checked and his answered stayed the same. He started acting weird, quiet, and stressed. It started stressing me out but we left. Then we stopped by the store to get flowers but they had none so he came into the car and slammed the door. It scared me so I teared up and he kept saying, “Let’s go home, I don’t want to go anymore.” I wanted to go home but I knew that he didn’t so I apologized for crying, put on his favorite song, scratched his back, and told him I’m going to continue driving to his parent’s and if he really wants to go home, tell me. He didn’t say anything and I was trying not to cry, but I was upset I ruined it and I was extremely overwhelmed. We got to his parent’s, he gave me a hug, then said “sorry.” He went inside like nothing was wrong so I acted happy too. We were only supposed to stay for 2 hours. 1.5 hours in my stomach started hurting bad so I asked my husband if we could leave. He said yes but we ended up staying 3 hours. On the drive home, he said that it was me curling my hair that made him stressed. I was really angry. We came home and he asked if I needed to vent about what was going on and that he wouldn’t get upset. I basically told him that he’s been rude to me lately, not taking care of me, and not appreciating the things I do. I explained how tonight he lied to me into thinking that something was okay, because he said it was okay, but he takes his anger out on me for it. He got very upset and told me he’s going out of town for work for 3 days. I told him I’m not okay with that. Going out of town for work is a rare thing and optional. Last time he did it, he didn’t tell me until I called him at the time he was supposed to be home (6pm) and he said he’s not coming home until 4am. When that happened, I asked him that next time he communicate it with me and accept trips no longer than 2 days. He agreed then. He basically told me that he wasn’t asking and he needs this to get away from me and he’ll be leaving Wednesday and come back early Friday. I told him we should compromise and he just ignored me. This all happened on Mother’s Day.
A few days ago, my mom got in a really bad car accident. I asked him to cancel his trip so he could help me with her and he said no and made up some bs excuse. I called out the excuse and told him to tell me the truth and he said he needs this. So I said okay and dropped it. Then last night I see him packing and ask him why he’s packing if he’s not leaving until Wednesday. He told me he’s leaving on Tuesday. I break down into tears and tell him this is not how relationships work. You can’t just do things on your own, lie, and not communicate and expect things to be okay. I also found out he gets back late Friday night. I felt heartbroken and had a panic attack. He asked me if there’s anything he can do to help and I told him he can cancel the trip and use $300 to take a weekend for himself at a hotel. It’s a fair compromise. At least I’ll be prepared for that. I needed his help on Tuesday (today) and had a plan to have a fun night together so I don’t bother him with any of my problems while I’m gone. He said no he’s going on the trip. He told me a month ago that because he does so much for me, he feels like he shouldn’t have to compromise. I started crying harder and told him that this isn’t good for my mental health and he starts punching the couch and then goes into our room and slams the door. I just sit on the couch afraid to move and afraid to make it worse. I convinced myself that the greatest gift I could give him is peace and just tell him it’s okay if he goes. I went in to tell him that and he replies that he “doesn’t care.” I told him I have some requests. I want him to text me every morning, have a 30 minute minimum phone call every night, that he reads the book for at least 30 minutes daily, that he attends a counseling session with me, and when he comes home for the weekend he apologizes and treats me better than he’s ever treated me. Most importantly, I asked that he would be kind to me that night so we could have a good memory. He said he can’t just pretend nothing’s wrong and be nice to me. He said he’s mad at himself, not me. I told him that he’s taking it out on me. He finally was nice. I asked for his help creating a plan in case I feel suicidal since my therapist is away for 2 weeks. He wouldn’t help me with it. That’s how we ended the night. I woke up this morning in pain. I couldn’t get out of bed, couldn’t eat, and couldn’t complete my responsibilities. He texted me good morning but they were just words. His words are meaningless and I got angry and said some things I regret. Like sending him a picture of his vows and calling them lies. He told me he would call me 3 hours ago but he hasn’t. I feel so much anger towards him but I need to keep it inside or else I’ll make the situation worse.
I truthfully want to kill myself. I feel like our relationship is over. I’ve been thinking of going to a hospital but I can’t miss work because he wants to get out of our current living situation and every dollar counts.
I don’t know how to make him communicate or be honest with me. He’s not always like this. For example, we had a great weekend together and he took such good care of me. When he acts like this, it can trigger a minor episode since I’m medicated because of all the stress. Which sucks because I need his support more and he withholds it. It all feels like a punishment for the venting I did.
I’m sorry this is long but I need some type of advice, hope, reassurance, or something to make me not want to die. I’m off today and can’t imagine going into work tomorrow or the next 2 days. I’m a registered behavior technician (RBT) that works with an autistic client. I’m so depressed how am I supposed to help anyone else?

Gender: male
Age: 29
Height & Weight: 5,10 or 5,11 dont remember. Weight 90kg, will loose some pounds definitely 😅
Marital status: Single, never married
Education: bachelors (sociology & political sciences)
Profession: Farmezamindara
Hobbies: Well i have alot but ill highlight a few. HUGE football fan, favourite team is Arsenal♥️, i enjoy watching shows and movies. I watch formula1, i closely monitor world politics and conflicts. im into RAP music but enjoy indie, hiphop, electronic and country. Im into history and love exploring cultures. Basically im into everything from fighter jets to cars to bikes, fashion, sports and the list goes on.
Do you want kids: yes definitely
Religion: sunni muslim but not very religious.
Deal breakers: judgemental people.
Interesting facts about you: I was born and raised in karachi but moved back to my ancestral hometown after school (10th) . Im an introvert but love to hangout with close friends. I STUTTER. Yes i have a little problem with my speech but not that much. Im a PISCES . Yes i love with all my heart and im extremely loyal. I used to smoke but ive quit, i tend to enjoy a beer or two on occasions, yes please don’t judge.
City: based in south punjab I’ll disclose it in DM. Wouldn’t mind moving.
Residence: yes i own my own house.
Family details: im the ONLY child, i live with my parents and my grandmother. Im very close with my two chachu’s and 2 phupo’s who all live abroad.
Joint/nuclear: living with parents but willing to move out.
Requirements: absolutely no requirements. Im basically a very liberal guy im not that typical Pakistani guy that has absurd requirements like height,skin and not working after marriage. Basically i just want a partner to have fun, laugh and enjoy my life with. don’t want a “bahu” for my mother, I want a wife and a bestie.
Expectations from the partner: loyalty, honesty and understanding.
Timeframe in which you want to marry: this years end or next year.

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Hello Reddit. I'm here because I'm nearing the end of my rope.
I'm a 36M living in a bilevel house with my mother (MM, 63F) and grandmother (GM, 83F), the latter of whom is the homeowner. We live in a very isolated area, which causes MM significant psychological distress due to her having several different psychological issues like agoraphobia, depression, and CPTSD to name a few. She needs me to come with her in order to go anywhere beyond 10 or 15 miles, and because of our isolation, that's basically the entire trip to the nearest town.
We live in this area because we're very poor and only my GM had the credit and the savings to buy us a house. She did this because MM (and therefore me) wound up homeless for awhile after MM's divorce, which caused the depression and exacerbated her PTSD (the divorce, not the homelessness).
Hopefully that's enough backstory for you to understand. MM is miserable here and spends half her time in bed because of the depression. When she's not depressed, she's angry and cursing GM's name for putting/keeping her here (We were supposed to move twice already, but because MM and GM have such a fractured relationship, they'd inevitably have some big argument and not speak for weeks, so plans always fall through.). When she's not doing either of those things, she's rather evenly split between leaving me alone and asking me to go somewhere with her. If I go with her, things will probably go okay that day. Otherwise, she either cries or yells and starts throwing things.
The thing is, I've been going places with MM for almost 20 years. I spent my entire life savings (probably a 5-digit figure) keeping her and I off the street when we were homeless because she had very little money and I refused to abandon her. I've handled her with kid gloves and done my best to be a model son for as long as I can remember, and if it's helping at all (which it no longer seems to be), it's doing so at a glacial pace. In my youth, I always told myself I'd endure it and try to help her however I can. This started to seriously wane about a decade ago, it dropped further after her divorce, and it plummeted when we were homeless. If it's recovered since then at all, I've burned through it all again. She just refuses to budge. We have to move again, and that's that. I agree, but GM and I can be patient. MM cannot. I'm sick of her constant negativity, and she cannot take criticism of any kind. I've tried to gently encourage her towards dealing with her agoraphobia, and she freaks out and treats me like shit for days in return. Her psychiatrist seems to do little but agree with her constant dumping, and sh6e's already on the highest safe dosages of Xanax and Paxil. I love her and want nothing more than to see her succeed and be happy again, but she just refuses to compromise or listen for more than a few days. It's getting to the point that I just don't care anymore.
AITA?