As the title says. When I boot up the game. I only got to the red barrels logo and then the game closes.
I'm using Poco x6 Pro

“It was a special day, during the year 0, in the Roman occupied lands of Palestine, as I was with a very important task”
Gabriel started to narrate her story, reminiscing those days she mentioned.
““_Give this message, to a girl named Mary, in Bethlehem:You will bear the Son of God, and He shall be God in form of man_” as Lord YHWH ordered me, and as I walked down the streets, I began to hear a voice, of a rather young girl, going person to person, asking for something, before she came up to me, and asked me:”_Miss, do you perhaps know of a man looking for a bride? I am looking for a man to marry_”, and when I asked of her name, she was the one and only Mary, so I was taken aback, given how young she was, but I had to send her off, as I was not prepared for this”
Gabriel kept going, not taking her gaze off from Mary.
“I met her some time later at a well, and I asked her for how long she has been asking for a husband, and she’s been searching for 3 days, and this was the 4th, and had begun to lose hope in finding a man, despite praying each night. I would be lying if I said I didn’t feel bad, so that night, now that I was sure that was the Mary Lord YHWH appointed me, I entered her mind in her sleep, and gave the this message in her dreams:”_Mary of Bethlehem, for 4 days you’ve prayed to find a man, and tomorrow, you will, as you will be the mother of The Savior, Jesus Christ. Tomorrow, you will find your man before sundown_” and the next morning, she gave those incredible news to her parents, who were very joyous and honored that Lord YHWH heard their pleas”
Gabriel had a huge smile on her face, Göll also smiling from the story.
“What happened after? She met her husband Joseph right?”
Gabriel immediately answers Göll’s question.
“Yep, she did, in the same well she met me, as he heard of her wish, and decided that if no one else was going to marry her, he will, Mary was very happy to hear that, and decided to spend the rest of the day until sundown to be with him, as they then both began to learn more of each other, Joseph revealing he is a carpenter, which coincidentally had helped Mary’s parents, but that day, when Joseph and Mary went to her house, they found the entire house had been ransacked, the parents unharmed, and both thanked our Lord for the safety of Mary, who then gave her the news that the Roman Emperor had found out about the existence of hidden Christians, and sent soldiers to eradicate them, before Joseph stepped up, promising to protect Mary if her father gave him her hand, which they happily did”
As Gabriel was talking and Göll was listening, Brunhilde was still focused on analyzing any trick that Mary was using against Lucifer.
“And so, Mary and Joseph embarked on a long travel, where they met with a caravan heading to Nazareth, where under the guise of rags and wrinkles, I decided to join in, to keep an eye from Mary, before I once again entered her dreams, announcing that the birth of Jesus will be a virgin one, and that she must say this to everyone to avoid confusion, but as the caravan traveled, Mary had began to suffer the symptoms of pregnancy, Joseph taking extra care for her, before they were stopped not too far from Nazareth due to a storm, before Mary decided that they were close enough where she and Joseph could make it there by themselves, and once the storm settled, she and Joseph thanked the caravan, and made it to the city of Nazareth, meeting a group of farmers before Mary began to go into labour, the farmers helping Joseph hurry Mary into their staple, lying her carefully on a pile of cloth and straw, and as Mary started to give birth, a bright star shined above, when Lord YHWH sent the 3 other Archangels to tell 3 kings to follow the star, and give their gifts to the son, as he shall bring salvation from sins”
Göll was amazed at the story, before Gabriel kept on going for the final snippet.
“And thus, began the birth of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, which Mary and Joseph, together, helped raise, and bore witness to his various parables and miracles, and both sadly wept at the time of his crucifixion and his rebirth, but even after he was gone, Mary kept on spreading the word of God, redeeming sinners and aiding with local issues, and one day, years after the death of Jesus. I was allowed to show myself in my full glory, for I had one last task for Mary:helping her ascend to the kingdom of Heaven before her death, a feat yet not done by neither man nor woman today, and as she ascended, Lord YHWH gave her among the biggest honors a human could ever have:the titles of Holiest saint, greatest woman, and the one most important title, the one of the Queen of Heaven:_Regina Caeli_”
As soon as Gabriel finished narrating, Brunhilde was still puzzled.
“Queen of Heaven? So she’s a much bigger deal than I thought”
Göll said, amazed at Gabriel’s story of Mary, Gabriel looking at the fight.
“Yeah, but I’m confident she’ll net humanity a well needed win”
{Intermission:Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit}
[these intermissions are meant to be like extra chapters with either interaction with audience members, or are the introduction of them]
As Mary was walking to the arena doors, she was greeted by a familiar voice and footsteps nearby.
“May God be with you, my dear”
And as Mary turns around, she can see her dear husband Joseph, accompanied by Jesus and his 6 other siblings:James, Joses, Simon, Jude, Judith and Miriam.
“Joseph? My kids, what are you doing here?”
Mary asked them, resting her thurible around her neck and waist as Joseph went to hug her, alongside the rest of the family.
“Just wanted to see you one last time before we went back to the audience seats, dear Mother”
Jude told Mary, as she embraces the hug”
“Thank you my son, worry not about the fight, I’m sure our Lord won’t let me die against his greatest oppressor, for I am his Holiest Saint”
Mary smiled, before she saw Gabriel approach them, her family also noticing her.
“Been some time, Mary of Bethlehem”
Mary was about to bow, but Gabriel stopped her.
“I was just passing by, I was headed to the medbay to help our Raphael, but I am glad to see you safe, although I never would’ve thought you’d step up instead of Joan” “It is my duty as the Queen of Heaven to eradicate sin and bring salvation”
Mary responded to Gabriel, before she looked at the door to the arena behind her.
“We’ll keep cheering you on, Mom”
Judith said happily, Jesus and Joseph nodding as Gabriel then accompanied them back to the audience seats, Mary looking at the arena entrance, taking out her bible and beginning to pray as Heimdall began to announce her entrance.

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I am seeing a lot of posts where people are discussing who to give their vote to, and almost all those posts have comments saying "give votes to the lesser evil", or "No point of giving NOTA as the candidate with most votes after NOTA will still win".
That is not the case anymore.
A Supreme Court bench headed by CJI DY Chandrachud issued a notice to EC to consider NOTA as a "fictional candidate" and if NOTA gets a majority, that election will be considered null and void and fresh elections will take place for that constituency.
They also said that any candidate getting less votes than NOTA will not be able to contest elections for the next 5 years.
This basically means, if your constituency has bad candidates, who do not know the difference between their head and knee, or they cannot spell their names even after having a Master or a doctrate, do not hesitate to vote NOTA. It counts.
Source - https://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/india/supreme-court-issues-notice-to-ec-on-plea-seeking-re-election-where-nota-gets-majority-vote/articleshow/109629608.cms
PS: I am in no way suggesting that anyone should vote for NOTA, this post is just to be treated as information against a previous notion that NOTA votes did not count and a leader would still get elected.
Because at the end of the day, it does not matter who comes into power at a national level, the development and upkeep for your constituency will be looked after by the candidate you choose to get to power. Use that power to elect someone responsible. If none of the candidates are worthy, force change, and you have the power to do so now.

Is anyone interested in using Twitter Spaces for live discussions, to share ideas, experiences and to network?
How it would work:
We would come up with a topic and someone would make a Twitter Spaces for it, I do not have to be the host, then post the link here so that others could join.
We can discuss our experiences with drop shipping, how to leverage AI tools in business, how to setup a TikTok shop, marketing through social media, how to get into franchising, buying/leasing real estate, running a laundromat/coffee shop/etc., the topics are endless.
For those of us that work at home, this could be a way for us to stay plugged in and keep motivated.
I used to host networking rooms in Clubhouse where I would put people from different industries together in the same room to network and share knowledge. Those rooms were open to the public. People from the public would come in and ask questions and network as well. Because the Clubhouse app no longer works the same way that's the reason I am suggesting using Twitter Spaces.
After our daily discussions we could post a link to the session recording (Twitter spaces allows for the discussions to be recorded right in the app) to continue the discussion here. This will be a way to archive the discussions and be a way for people who missed the live discussion to contribute and catch up.
Let me just say again, I do not have to host I just have experience hosting these types of discussions. If the community decides this is a thing we want, just make sure the person who starts the daily discussion/topic that he/she checks to make sure a discussion isn't already scheduled for the day or currently running.

Hello, sorry if it's a dumb question, but I was wondering why my CPU seems to use more ressources for the same result.
I use throttlestop to sometime disable intel turbo boost (I have a i5-11400f), and often (I would say always) I can play a game with turbo boost disabled and I get the same performance as when my turbo boost is active (At least, I don't see any difference). If i'm not wrong, it also happen even if I limit FPS with nvidia panel, so I was wondering why..
(I don't say that turbo boost doesn't improve perf, but that it seems to often be running for nothing?)

I blacked out by the pool in Mexico. Too much to drink, not enough food and heat stroke. Don’t remember getting out of the pool and my friends didn’t know where I was for about 15 minutes till they saw staff putting me in a wheelchair. There were so many people there and I’m terrified because literally ANYTHING could have happened in that 15 minutes. No one knows if I was in the elevator, the bathroom or anywhere else. A Canadian Dr helped my friends with me. I’m humiliated and ashamed. It’s been two days and I still feel dizzy, cold and weird. This was my nightmare last night:
Dream:
Young blond mom on the couch with her kids jumps at a sound from upstairs scaring her two kids. Then laughs apologetically telling the kids “I forgot we have cats 😅.” Her narrator voice says “this is me. I have memory problems and sometimes it causes problems with the kids.” The scene changes to her driving with her kids beside her and her narrator voice says “sometimes I think about something and have to remember to fix my face before it scares them.” Her face drops and she starts crying but fixes her face as soon as the kids look up at her. Then the scene changes to looking into the windows of an urban gym building where a big creepy dead looking guy leads a black and white cow down the stairs inside and around the corner so only the rump is visible and then a flame thrower engulfs the cow in flames and it’s charred rump disappears as he drags it out of view. Two more big creepy men come down the stairs with their gym bags and go around that corner. In my mind, they were going to be served a beef meal, but the view changes as if I’m inside standing next to the creepy gym men looking into the room the cow was dragged into. There is no cow though. There is a dark room lined with lockers, a step up and a desk to the right on the raised part of the room. An evil being, like a man with no arms, his muscular legs with gym socks are full of syringes sticking out all over with blood trickling down them, his body is unstable, shifting and morphing a sickly whitish blue grey with veins and light crawling all over him. He has no right arm and a stump for a left arm with more bloody syringes sticking out of his shoulder and the stump. His whole body writhing with the crawling light. He steps up on the platform and turns around. His head is misshapen and he has big gross buggy eyes all over his face that are morphing in shape, size and bulge until they settle into two big gross eyes roughly where a human’s should be still pulsating and bulging. He looks at us and says something like “I’M THE ONLY ONE HERE WORKING HARD TO BRING HIM OUT!!! What are all of YOU doing?” And as he’s saying all that a little blue stone like humanoid creature with a big head a stocky blocky body appears out of his head and dances triumphant down his arm that sprouted while he was talking. There is electricity and lights crackling down the arm and around the creature. Around the whole body of gross guy who now has both arms. I don’t know what the creature is, but I know it’s evil.😈 it actually looked a little like the devil emoji. Me and the two big creepy gym dudes are scared. Then I am the blond mom walking into a lobby, a big room with maroon carpet and couches all spaced apart around the perimeter and a frosted glass ceiling with plants growing all over the outside of it so you can only see them like shadows. The back wall is open and you can see jungle outside. I know this is an asylum and I’m there to see my husband. There are people wrapped in blankets on each couch. One dark haired evil man to the left on a couch facing into the room with a desk in front of it is still as stone staring blankly, there is someone on the couch immediately to my left who stirs but not much and I can only see them in my peripheral. There is a woman on the couch across from us in a pink robe who is creepily happy but incoherent. And someone on another couch to the right of her sleeping. There are strange advertisements on rectangular signs sitting on the floors between each couch. One is a close up of a used condom and I can’t tell what it says but I’m aware that it is propaganda for the evil little creature. I sit on the couch where my husband is and we are covered with a dark red blanket. We cuddle up and the woman’s narrator voice says “we don’t always get this extra time together but we cherish it when we do.” And I snuggle closer to him and he holds me. We are drifting to sleep but I’m unsettled by the strange people around us. I wake a little and hear the patients mumbling. They are all moving and making sounds now. I’m most terrified by the man that was so still and staring because I thought he was catatonic and kept sedated because he was evil. I woke my husband and he said “it’s ok! We’re just excited because SHE’S HERE!” I look at him terrified and he says, “Well, IT’S here.” And he points to the stars in the sky, “See? MARS is rising!” All the patients are looking and pointing at the stars. Then I see a huge red planet coming over the horizon and I’m scared. I look up at the frosted glass ceiling and see the silhouette of the little evil being dancing on the ceiling trying to get in and then the creepily happy woman in a pink bathrobe is at our couch and she’s grabbing my feet. I’m terrified and screaming for my husband to get her away. I woke to my boyfriend rubbing his feet on mine telling me it’s just a dream! It’s a dream! Your ok! And I could hear the weird noises I was making trying to scream.
I don’t want any more nightmares and I don’t want to remember what happened.

I've had this machine for about 15 months. It's been a good machine, although it has gotten relatively light use. I haven't used it for about 10 weeks, as I have been recovering from a medical issue. Yesterday, I turned it on and got error code #16 - basically it "has encountered a problem, contact customer service." Very non-specific. I called customer service and was walked through the 10 minute complete power cycle procedure. That did not work. The tech said the next step is likely to replace the whole unit (as other people have said, for an astounding $700). I actually received two different answers from two different technicians, and am currently waiting for a return call - I am not entirely sure what for because, although he was very nice, I couldn't really understand what the tech was saying.
It seems impossible that unplugging, waiting, then plugging it back in is the ONLY thing to try before a complete replacement. Has anyone else had this issue and, if so, was there any other solution?

For newer and older members that are still timid, shy and scared to walk outside with their fingernails and/or toenails painted, I wanted to use an event I was at to help you get over your fear(s).
I went to ACEN here in Illinois. It’s an Anime convention where tons of people of all walks of life dress up as comic book, anime, video game and even cartoon characters that they deem fit. If the character calls for having on polish, a ton of folks wear it with no fear. Then, there are men who just wear polish because they wish. They walk with wives, girlfriends, partners with their families in tow and no one bats an eye at the convention or outside of the convention.
All of this to say that most of our fears are internal. Just go do it and literally stop caring. You’ll live better focused on what makes you happy than what someone has to say about it.

I (36m) went on a date with a woman (39f) A few weeks ago. She said she was looking for a relationship, not a hook up. She is recently divorced. She has poor self esteem and anxiety. She dated one other guy, and it was a situationship that she was unaware that she was in. The date went well, we were all over each other, and we ended up having sex at my place afterwards. As soon as we got done, she got out of bed and said she needed to go home. There was no cuddling or pleasantries afterwards. Tried to set up another date later and she said she was too "afraid and confused" by dating. Saw each other at a store about a week later and had a flirty conversation. She was messaging me afterwards saying how good it was to see me. I tried to set up another date a few days later and she was hesitant. Told me she didn't understand herself, and that I shouldn't see her again.
I met with my therapist today and explained to him what happened. And he pointed out that she was probably feeling rejected, and was using me to feel in control again. Suddenly, everything makes sense. Now I feel angry, used, and dirty. Not to diminish victims, but in a way, I feel like I've been SA'd. Obviously, I'm not going to see her again, but I have a strong urge to message her and express how hurt I am and how wrong she is, in order to get some type of closure. What is the best thing for me to do in this situation?

Not today, but years ago in my 20's.
I once had a date with a teacher that went well and we ended up doing the deed using a Skyn comdom. It went great and we both enjoyed it. Once we were finished she went to pee and I cleaned up at the sink. Then, I walked over to the trash to dispose of the Skyn.
My habit has always been to tie the condom in a knot before throwing them away. I figure it prevents smells or messes or whatever. It has never been a problem. So, I started to tie the knot like I usually do. That's where everything went downhill.
What I learned that day is that Skyns don't really tie up very well. You can get a knot if you're gentle but if you pull it too hard the condom will break right at the knot. They are not like synthetics where you can just tug on them as much as you like to make the knot tight.
It was like slow motion, I was carelessly pulling the knot tight when it snapped sending some of the contents flying into her black purse which was open on the counter.
I was absolutely dumbstruck because it was such an unexpected and shocking moment for me. I was just standing there speechless, staring at the halves of condom in each of my hands. But before I could regain any of my mental faculties, she walked out of the bathroom. She hadn't closed the door to pee so I didn't have any warning.
Without thinking I tossed the condom halves into the trash. She must have seen a weird look on my face because she asked me what was wrong? Like an idiot I told her it was nothing and walked over to the toilet to pee too. The door was still open so I looked over to see her looking right into the trash can.
She started to tear up, gives me a dirty look, and begins to get dressed in a hurry. I'm an idiot so I don't realize why she is upset and ask her if she is okay.
“You're an asshole!”, was her reply, “You seriously weren't going to tell me the condom broke?!” It is at that moment I realized she thought it broke during and was worried about pregnancy. So, I tried to explain how it happened afterwards but she didn't believe me and ended up leaving.
I was too embarrassed at that point to tell her about the purse so I let her leave without saying anything. I'm not sure if she ever noticed. I wish I came clean though because it would have been evidence that it broke at the counter and not inside.
She was a cool person I wish I had played that better.
TLDR: Skyn broke after sex causing it to launch a load directly into my date's purse and I'm an idiot so instead of being honest I handled it in a way that made her think she might get pregnant.

I am brazilian and in our law there are 3 cases which exclude the unlawfull nature of certain acts.
Self-defense
Strict compliance of legal duty
State of need
The last one is what is the important one for this post, it describes the situation where someone engages in unlawful conduct to save another person or themselves from danger, which they neither caused nor could otherwise avoid, thus sacrificing a legal interest of lesser or equal value to preserve another.
So the bronze age killed another ship because the crew knew that it would need those resources to be able to survive and thus preserve the lives of everyone onboard. It fits State of need.
I know the judgment happens 400 years in the future and they even abolish presumption of inocence, but stills sound so dumb that an advanced and unified human race would abandon a principle so basic as this.
So if an people are trapped in a cave with no food is better for everyone to die rather than someone be used as food to the others. It is such a simple principle that it sounded really dumb that they just lost it over the years, even when the very survival of the human race was at risk
Some may reply to this saying that earth survived at the end so their act was not justifiable. To that my anwser may be a specif to brazilian law but i think theres something similar in other law systems, we got a thing called a putative State of need, in which if the state of need is not real but those who act uppon it are fully convinced that it is their actions aren't unlawfull
So it isn't unresonable to say that after the bronze age saw the droplet destroy the whole of earth's fleet in minutes, that the crew thought that the only way to guarantee their survival and that of the human race was to canibalise the other ship so that their ship could survive the travel to another star system.
What makes it even worse is that after the battle the whole of hummanity entered the same state of dispair that the crews on the ships got so the whole humans aren't human in space feels like complete bullshit.
The whole thing being a crime against humanity sound so backwards to me. They say that they were in a inhuman state of mind which in my opnion it is the exact opposite, they were in a state of perserverence thats completely human. Trying to say that self-preservation isn't human sound so off.
It feels like the whole judicial system went backwards while the rest of the human race went foward.
Sorry for any spelling mistakes.

I have a 6.5-year-old private student who takes "general music" lessons from me as part of her homeschool education. I've been working with her since last September on music basics like beat, rhythm, pitch, etc, using fun percussion and games, etc. We started on ukulele as a supplement to that, and she has done much better than I thought. To be honest I thought she hated it at, like, would refuse to even pick up her instrument, etc, and even still continues to fight it sometimes. But I can often trick her into picking it up and trying, either by using play along YouTube videos or kind of egging her on by saying things like "I bet I can play this chord faster than you."
Then her mom asked if we could also do piano, so now we do a combo of all three things: general, uke, and piano. (I see her 2-3 times a week!) She also seems to hate piano, but I cannot figure out how to get her more engaged. I don't try to make her sit on the bench for more than a few minutes at a time, and I have tons of games and manipulatives and she rejects it most of the time. BUT, She brought up her brothers getting their belts in jiu jitsu, and my general music teacher ears perked up lol. I floated the idea to her about earning "belts" for piano, and she lit up.
Anyway, I'm wondering how to structure this "belt" system for piano, especially since she's really struggling with basics. I'm not keen on investing in a whole new curriculum, so i figured I'd map something out that would help her grow in confidence. Does anyone out there do anything like this with private students, especially really young ones like this? I'd appreciate tips and tricks!

I was using him for narcissistic supply but it was more for company. I don’t like being alone and he was this normal guy listening to my fucked up stories, it felt nice. I lied to him a bunch of times about how I felt because I knew that’s the only way to make him stay.
I despised him otherwise. I told him I had NPD and I don’t feel the same way as he does with love. I thought he’d be wise enough to leave but he didn’t. I don’t know if it speaks to his lack of self esteem or his generosity. Either ways, I had enough of faking it and cut it off. It would’ve hurt him more in the long run and I would’ve kept myself from healing.
He wanted to know if I had lied and how I could fake smiling and blushing. The smile part isn’t exclusive to love and blushing… I had blush on lmfao. He was so clingy, hated it. He kept saying I don’t believe you when you say you’re a narcissist because you love your family.
He’s such an idiot. Anyways, whatever I think doesn’t matter because I did the right thing. I faced my shame of breaking up and i won’t do this again.

I'm gonna start this off by saying this is a vent post. It's really long and goes over all the big instances I can recall of animal cruelty happening in my childhood all the way to present, so it will be a lot of paragraphs. The timelines are estimates, but due to trauma I have poor memory involving dates when things happened, and this probably still isn't every incident, again just the big ones I can recall. Read at your own discretion.
I (19F) live with my grandparents (70M and 67F) and my parents (42 M 43 F). Due to some injuries from last year and some medical history, I am disabled and currently jobless, and in the process of trying to obtain disability, which is relevant for later.
Since I was as little as I can remember, my family has always had cats. I even grew up with some cats that ended up feeling like siblings for me not having anyone around them age to interact with until my sister was born when I was 8.
My parents have always loved cats, but I don't think truly ever valued cats. They've always been left outdoors, and eventually the elements always get them. I have never had a family pet that grew past the age 12. All of our cats have either been attacked by dogs that are also loose in my neighborhood, been suspected to have been tortured and unalived by neighbors, got sick, or got ran over, because my family doesn't care and will just 'replace" pets less than a year later.
When I was around 5, I had my very first pet kitten. This kitten was a runt, so it stayed small for a long time. It also was very hard to potty train, and because of this, they released it outside when it was maybe barely 7-8 weeks. He did good for about a month, but after that, he vanished. But there was evidence when he disappeared that there were large dog paw prints in our driveway because it was rainy that previous night, and his food bowl was dragged out in the yard, which he couldn't have done.
Also around 5, my aunt (at this time 13F) was living with us, as her mom (my mom's mom) wasn't taking good care of her and was in and out of jail. She had pet guinea pigs for a bit. My parents decided to feed the guinea pigs potatoes without doing any kind of research. One of them died. The other one was sick and anxious all the time, so my aunt decided to release it in our backyard? It was also winter. (I want to say that I do not blame her directly because she was still a child and in a similar situation to me, and my parents didn't care about the well-being of these poor guinea pigs anyways.)
And yet another story of around age 5, my dad bought the family a pet red-eared turtle. The tank was too small for her. My dad also thought it would be "funny" and "cool" to put fish in there with this turtle whenever we were about to go on vacation. She ate all the fish in the tank: Neons, goldfish, the tank cleaners, and whatever other fish species he put in that confined tank that wasn't more than 20 gallons. (Red-eared turtles alone need around 40 at minimum.)
But that's not all. While on vacation, both I and my 13 year-old aunt got baby yellow-belly sliders. We took them home, and we put them in the tank with our adult turtle. She ate the heads off of both of them. There was one goldfish left there as well, and I got traumatized seeing both the dead turtles, and seeing her eat that last gold fish in two chomps one time.
When I was around 6, my family randomly decided, "Let's own goats!" because they have a big backyard with an old shed. Well, they ended up buying a small amount of chicken wire fence and giving them outside of the barn about a few feet to move around when our backyard is fairly large and most of it wasn't being used. And we live in a residential area, so every night we had the goats, they would scream. My parents hated their screaming and started neglecting them more by giving them less attention, which only made them scream 24/7. Finally, my parents decided to give the goats to some distant family that has farmland. (We are in the south.)
When I was around 8-9, I got another cat. She was a pretty cat, but very mean and feisty. She didn't really like anyone, but I loved her regardless. This cat was too annoying for my parents to deal with because she had behavioral issues, and instead of taking her to the vet, they decided to make her start staying outside. She loved it, but a bit too much.
(Big TW: death and some descriptions of gore) One day, I had to help my mom deal with her corpse on the road. I was obviously really sad and fell into a deal depression. I also panicked and nearly threw up when I saw, because her eyeball was hanging out. It was so disturbing for a child to see. We buried her together, but I was made fun of one day by my parents for randomly crying about her death.
When I was around 10, I owned my third cat. She also had a brother from the same litter, and my mom had recently lost a cat that she did keep inside from kidney disease. I haven't had my own cat in a while, and they decided to adopt this sibling pair from the neighbors. I got the female, my mom got the male, because she is the type to insist that boy cats are better.
Anyways, I LOVED this cat. I did so much for her, and she loved me and followed me everywhere. We'd cuddle to sleep together. She was my best friend.
But my parents never got her fixed. They also never got the brother fixed. They ended up doing the tango (gross I know, but nature) and my cat had kittens a little bit less than a year old. Since she was too young for kittens, she at first didn't know what she was doing and even misplaced her first outside and ran to me while in labor with the second. I found that kitten and helped her with all 5 of her kittens, all girls also, and the kittens ended up getting close to me as well.
Of course, once they were around 6-7 weeks, my parents were wanting to start finding home for them. But they also had another idea in mind. They wanted me to get rid of my adult cat, and the brother cat as well, and we'd take one kitten. At first I was like no, but they manipulated me and convinced me a kitten would be better. I told them which kitten I wanted, and it looked a lot like my cat. But no, since they thought one of the cats might be distantly Siamese and thought it looked the coolest from it's tabby and Siamese-like pattern, they chose that one, and then dropped my beloved cat and her brother off at a cemetery, didn't even let me say bye. They just threw them away like pieces of garbage. And then I ended up resenting that kitten anyways for not being MY cat, so the family ended up crashing her as well, and she disappeared a few years later.
Around age 11-12, I somehow managed to have pet hermit crabs, another pet yellow-belly slider turtle, and two pet rabbits. My parents were basically throwing pets at me because I guess they felt guilty or something about what they did to me. I didn't end up taking care of any of them, and they all died of starvation and/or dehydration, and I still feel terrible about it. I was so depressed that I couldn't take care of myself either. And I was given animals on top of it, and I was forced to be a high schooler in school. The pets suffered at the cost of what? Why did I even have them?
Around age 13, my parents were driving me home from school, and we saw some Canada geese with their babies by a pond. I'm sure you know where this is going, considering everything else. My mom convinced me to jump out of the car with her, and she distracted the adult geese while I caught a baby one. I knew that in itself was bad, but I didn't know Canada geese were such a protected species.
The little guy imprinted on me. I loved him, he would follow me around the yard. But once again my parents got out that chicken fence, only this time it was on the side of the house, and no shed for him to take cover in (still like a few feet of movement max.) He was growing fast, and he was plucking his feathers. A neighbor noticed and told us to get rid of him or we'd call authorities. They lied and said we "found him and rescued him." I was told to lie about this narrative for years. They ended up dropping him back off at the pond we got him from about two months after we first got him. He couldn't fly, his family wasn't there. He was defenseless. I still feel terrible to this day, I know I was manipulated, but I was 13. And again, I defend my aunt and she was also 13, so I really don't know.
When I was 15, that first turtle I mentioned was still there at our house for all those years. She had quite literally been there for a decade. My parents got tired of having to clean her tank, and she was obviously too big for it as well. But was their response to upgrade tanks and the old filtering system that's been there all that time? Nope. While I was at school, he just...released her. And not in a pond or anything, you know, being an aquatic turtle. (Not like that would be better, but better than what he did.) He just put her outside, in our front driveway. She ran away surprisingly fast according to him. An aquatic pet turtle. Just released in a residential neighborhood. I'm totally sure nothing awful happened to her.( /sarcasm.)
When I was also 15, this was when the pandemic hit. I was super depressed and bored all the time. But then a female stray cat came to our house and had kittens behind a board against my grandparents house. I started fostering them and their mom immediately. I didn't know at the time that we had any no kill shelters nearby, and neither did my parents. When the kittens were old enough, we started rehoming them. There were 3 in total. 1 got a home. The other was still outside for some reason and disappeared. The other one became my pet, whom was at first the family pet. But then they decided that he was too annoying (because he was sweet and affectionate and not what they wanted out of cats which was mean, feisty, playful.)
He is the sweetest boy ever and is still alive to this day, but because I still live with my horrible family, he has to be outdoors, and he gets really scabby from the bugs outside during the summer. As soon as I can I will move out, take him to the vet, and take him out of this home. He shouldn't have to be here.
A few years ago, my sister (11F but maybe 9F at the time) got her own kitten. He ended up growing up to be sweet and affectionate like my cat, so neither her nor my parents want him and he's outdoors, so I'll probably try to take him too.
My sister now has her own new cat that's about a year old she got last year. So far she's not abandoning him since he's a mix of sweet and playful, but my parents have talked about making him indoor-outdoor, which really means "Indoor-outdoor for a few days but after a while we'll just leave him outside and let him stay there."
As a child, I was taught so many messed up things about animals. That dogs are disgusting, gross, and pets have no feelings, and I was taught that cats also have no feelings as a child, but that they are at least a more fun and less gross pet. In fact, in my parent's eyes, no animals have feelings or sentience or any of those things. They are just play things for our benefit. Because of this, as a child I also did not treat animals with the respect they deserve, and I acknowledge this. I have been unlearning so much of this behavior since I was about 13, the goose that I had was my wakeup call.
Please, I know it may seem crazy to some that I out of all people are speaking on this, but if you own animals, please keep them indoors. And with cats specifically, if they crave outside, harness train them. Buy/build a cheap patio in your window if possible. Just don't let them roam free. They will kill so much wildlife. Having to also deal with the grief of my pets killing and bringing dead rabbits, moles, birds opossums, etc. is also a lot. It heavily effects your surrounding ecosystem as well, because annually house cats are estimated to kill over a billion birds and over 6 billion mammals. That's disastrous, and could be avoided if there weren't so many bad pet owners.
Also, don't get animals that go in tanks/terrariums/cages in general if you don't have the money to get them the most spacious enclosure with ALL of their needs. Don't put fish in bowls, it effects their eyesight and shortens their lifespans SIGNIFICANTLY. In general, do not get a pet unless you have the financial means to do so AND if you've thoroughly researched that pet, get it ethically sourced, and if you make sure you have the mental capacity to care for an animal. ANIMALS ARE NOT TOYS. ANIMALS ARE NOT HERE FOR OUR ENTERTAINMENT, FOR OUR JOY. THEY ARE LIVING BEINGS WITH THOUGHTS, EMOTIONS, AND A LIFE. THEY DESERVE RESPECT AND DECENCY. NO, THEY DESERVE BEYOND DECENCY, THEY DESERVE TO BE WORSHIPPED AND NURTURED AND SPOILED BY US, NOT TORMENTED AND ABUSED! Thank you.
Also, if you somehow got this far, please read my previous story and give me advice on that one if you have the time, but if not that's perfectly okay. My living situation sucks, but hopefully things can change. I'm counting on a change to happen soon.

I see so many trans people talk about passing as a binary yes/no question like either you pass or you don't and if you pass to one person you pass to everyone and if one person says you pass and someone else doesn't then someone is lying and frankly I think passing when you're in the middle of your transition is like 40-60% on you and 60-40% what your observers are bringing to the table.
Like there's the obvious stuff:
Where do you live? I know I've seen posts from trans women talking about having an easier time passing in majority conservative areas where a man would never be caught dead in a dress so if you're in a dress and don't have a beard then you're read as a woman.
Do you pass better in pictures or IRL? Some people post only their most flattering angles and get mad about being hugboxed by people who don't see things that are visible in a 360. Other people have traits that are "obvious" if you're used to staring at pictures of trans people all day to decide if they pass that never get noticed IRL because they have body language down.
But also so much of it just comes down to the individual you're interacting with and what their experience is. Maybe your cashier has worse eyesight than you expected. Maybe the librarian had a butch aunt so she's always looking to build connections with butches. Maybe the grocery store clerk is an incel who's the only person in fifty miles who actually pays that much attention to jawlines. Maybe you look a bit like the bus driver's sister who has a strong jaw too. Maybe the light in the movie theater happened to create a shadow on your neck that looked like an adam's apple to the attendant, who is also on the shorter side himself. Maybe the guy at the dog park has a high pitched voice too. Maybe the lady at the gym just moved here from Utah and is still very worried about the transes.
Last election, I went up to one desk and the worker there called me "sir" and then passed me along to the next worker who called me "ma'am". Neither one of them hesitated or gave me any kind of looks or gave me any reason to believe they were doing anything but doing bland polite customer service (I live in an area where calling people "sir" and "ma'am" is common)
So, do you pass? There are a lot of things you can do to hedge your bets and increase your odds of being read the way you want to be read, but at the end of the day, ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Way more often than we'd like to admit, whether we pass or not has very little to do with us.

Like that Lana Del Rey's song... Anyway.
I like my girl inside, crazy, brave, badass.
I dont care about what does other thinks, I dont mind about red flags or toxicity, leap of faith yeah, when you go, fully go in, when you dive, fully dive in !
Im not rational man, Im romantic, when I love I love in extreme, looking for the same, living the life in extremes, I took lots of leap of faiths I do not care about the normal, what will people say, what will people think, I dream and I dream big.
I fight, I fight for what I love but I couldn't find anyone to fight for me, anyone romantic as me, anyone passionate as me.
Giving up on small things, giving up on previously told never to give up, giving up on the one you told to love more than anyone.
So, that is what I seek, a romantic and passionate lady, that would fight, that would love in extremes
So, lets not think about what will happen tomorrow, you be mine, give yourself to my palms.
Insane is not neccasarry neurodivergent but a crazy soul.
Im attractive, honest, kind and looking for a lady with same traits.
Im neurotypical, do not use any drugs or alcohol, Im looking good and ready for rock&roll.
Ride or die
What will be, will be.
18+only.

I have argued multiple times now that Sukuna and Yuji’s link has not been severed* yet, and that Gege wants the audience to be thinking of this lasting connection and its meanings while all of the action in Shinjuku occurs. Beyond the chained metaphor of the enchain vow and the now mirrored appearances between the two, Gege has now included more concrete jujutsu mechanics that tie Yuji and Sukuna together even more.
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Todo may just be unnecessarily cautious here, but I argue that Gege’s leaving more hints that back up Kenjaku’s own words:
Despite no longer inhabiting the same body, Kenjaku knew that Sukuna and Yuji's connection would remain strong. An even better detail? Todo could not use Boogie Woogie on Yuji because Yuji was positioned in the epicenter, the eye, of Sukuna’s own storm. I still believe that Yuji’s meant to be a tragic character, but there’s a couple ways for him to be saved still. Though, this is just an analysis on the play of words, take it with a grain of salt.
Todo suggests that Yuji and Sukuna may share a somewhat subconscious connection and may be able to even share thoughts between one another.
I have argued that Sukuna may have broken his brain in 260 and could be succumbing to death soon. How would Sukuna survive? How would Gege wrap up Megumi's story? Even more, how might Nobara still have a chance to return and meaningfully contribute to the fight?
Gege has been leaving breadcrumbs in the story to suggest Sukuna and Yuji's dependence on one another for their shared survival. Sukuna needed Yuji as a useful vessel to finally return to being a person and not only a cursed object. Anyone before Yuji that ingested one of his fingers simply died or went insane. Sukuna inhabiting Yuji's body now allows Yuji to learn difficult skills because it's been practically trained by Sukuna. In short, the two of them have positively impacted the other's survival, and I think Gege will continue this theme of codependence until the end.*
Therefore, I argue that the enchain metaphor, the mirrored appearances, and Todo's theory that Sukuna and Yuji remain connected, act as Gege preparing a logical precedence for when Sukuna inhabits Yuji's body again. I don't mean to simply argue about a narrative payoff for Yuji and Sukuna's connections, but to additionally say that Gege's done this to justify when Sukuna takes Yuji over again. Sukuna had to wait for Megumi's spirit to be crushed when he forcibly took over his body. Due to their established connections, especially through jujutsu, Sukuna should have an easier time fully possessing Yuji than he did Megumi.
I argue that Sukuna will force his way into Yuji's body somehow and will likely take Yuji hostage. Due to Yuji being so like Sukuna already, especially post-awakening, Yuji will not be able to fight back like before. Perhaps Megumi and Nobara work together to free Yuji? By allowing Sukuns an escape route through Yuji, Gege could expand the story and give time for both Megumi and Nobara to contribute to the fight. Even more, the proposed scenario allows Megumi and Nobara to make up for failing to save Yuji when Sukuna first took him hostage.
Will Sukuna kill Yuji and enforce a binding vow again? Will he simply use Yuji's body to continue to fight off jjh forces? Will he force Yuji to eat a finger? Will he somehow take over Yuji's mind? Gege has left himself with a range of possibilities, but a small enough pool to theorize likely endings.

Sukuna and Yuji's Mirrored Appearances

Earlier in Shinjuku before Yuji's awakening, before their familial ties had been revealed by Sukuna.
Note that their eyes did not always have the same spiraling pupils.
Yuji's black flash awakened his latent abilities and Shrine, but Sukuna may use that against him. Yuji's only become closer to Sukuna now.
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Look at the eyes!
Sukuna and Yuji now share the same pupils and missing right eye.
Thanks for reading!
Notes:

• My argument that the enchain vow acts as a metaphor for the lasting connection between Yuji and Sukuna. I also theorize that Yuji will have to pay a price for the enchain vow in order to break the "chain or curses."
• The paragraph about codependence simply explores the positive effects of Yuji and Sukuna cohabiting a body as a narrative tool by Gege. As far as has been revealed, Megumi's the only other mortal beside Yuji that's ever survived eating one of Sukuna's fingers.
• This was in my 260 fight breakdown, but I expanded on it for more clarity.

I’m not good at being particularly open with many people, but I can be open to an extent/friendly on a basic level. But sometimes I meet people I feel I can open up to that bit more and would like to be closer with (non-romantic, I’m not interested in relationships) and I just don’t know how to do that. Like if someone were to say “open up, tell me what’s bothering you” I can do that to an extent because it’s clear, but I don’t know how to go about fostering closer friendships between others.
Eg at work - I work with some really lovely people who I feel I really trust and we all seem to have eachothers’ best interests and work well together as a great team. I feel I’ve become a lot closer to these people throughout this school year (I work in a school) and it’s really nice to have them around. They’ve been incredibly supportive of me and I’m openly very appreciative of that.
But I feel like there’s boundaries in friendship that I don’t know how to cross if that makes sense? Like I was thinking recently, and I notice a lot of people will go into others’ classrooms and have a chat first thing in the morning, often they’re all chatting and I’m on my own but I don’t know how I can just waltz on in there and say good morning and start a chat without just being awkward and it being like ‘why is she here’ although I know they’d be too nice to say that - I feel like maybe they have important things to catch up on and I don’t? And like today, one of the colleagues I get on well with was talking about a child getting in another’s personal space and demonstrating, nearly used me for the demo but then said something and used someone else instead - I feel like maybe she thinks the closeness would have made me uncomfortable when actually, when I feel comfortable with someone like I do her and the others, I like physical connection. She could very possibly suspect I’m autistic (undiagnosed and don’t talk about it) based on her knowledge from work and things I’ve shared online. But I feel I’m giving off the wrong signals, like I don’t want any more than necessary closeness, like I’m doing something wrong and I don’t know what? I feel like I’ve built up my relationships more with them a lot recently due to a situation where I had to report someone at work, and their unwavering help and support throughout that - but it was easier as it was a very black and white situation and they hold the same opinions that I do and were more than happy to support me.
It’s hard for me to say accurately, as the depression/generalised anxiety disordeOCD (these are diagnosed) have been acting up a lot lately and I don’t think the most recent meds I’m on have been working for me but there’s hurdles to jump before trying something different. But I feel so different and left out even though I think I’m just being unnecessarily sensitive and based on their attitudes towards me I feel like they don’t want me to feel that way at all.
Idk what I’m expecting by posting this. Replies, advice, listening, anything all welcome. Thanks for reading

Hi everyone. Here’s the rundown:

• I’ve been laid off for the past 6 months and have only secured 3 interviews in that time span
  
• One company finally liked me and gave me a job offer
  
• The company is a smaller ad agency with no more than 40 employees.
  
• The company said they wouldn’t train me and that I’d essentially need to train myself (first red flag).
  
• it’s a digital marketing / client management job. i was forward with them that I haven’t used Google ads directly before they’re still interested in hiring me. (The job directly invovles building and running Google ads campaigns)
  
• When going over the job offer it states that there is a non-compete for a year after employment. It says they can deem if a company anywhere in the US is their direct competition and sue me for working with them if they like.
  
• There’s also a clause that says any invention or creation I make during my time of employment (including my free time / off time) will legally belong to them. It states that under copyright law anything I create while working for this company will be owned by them.
  

This job is not a long term solution for me. I wasn’t happy being a client manager at my previous job and the lack of training makes me anxious. However, now I’m scared of the non-compete and intellectual property clause in the hiring papers.
My original plan was to take this job and keep applying to other places / leave as soon as I find something else.
I need a job, my unemployment only has 3 weeks left, and I live with my girlfriend who is currently in school so I feel pressured and forced to take this job. However I do not want to lock myself off from other opportunities or lose the rights to anything I may happen to create during my time at this job.
Does this sound shifty to you? What would you do in my position? I really don’t know what to do and I’m extremely anxious so any advice would mean the world.

Doing another reread of Blood Meridian, and just finished the section of David Brown’s arrest through the Yuma Massacre of the gang. I feel like this obviously is a very pivotal moment in the gang’s history as it lead to their destruction, but also has an air of mystery surrounding some of the events in this time frame that fascinates me. I’d like show a few points that come to mind and some questions to fellow readers.
Glanton’s Apathy: “Glanton supervised with some interest the raising of the walls about him but otherwise left his men to pursue the business at the crossing with a terrible latitude. He seemed to take little account of the wealth they were amassing although daily he’d open the brass lock with which the wood and leather trunk in his quarters was secured and raise the lid and empty whole sacks of valuables into it.” After establishing themselves taking over the ferry and robbing those who came to use it, I get the feeling Glanton just falls into a state of complete apathy. He seemed to have no interest in how his men ran the ferry or even how much money they were making with this new racket. After spending basically the whole novel up to this point going from one place to another to kill people or stay a step ahead of harm’s way, at the ferry he is simply existing. What is the reason behind this sudden loss of all motivation?
Rescue of David Brown: So Davy lights an officer on fire and gets thrown in jail. After Toadvine and Webster tells Glanton, he immediately rounds up 5 nameless gang members and sets off towards San Diego to rescue him. Two questions I’ve pondered on this event: Would Glanton have launched a rescue if it was anyone else in the gang? And, why did he not take any of his veterans with him? This question leads into the next topic, but I find it strange that he leaves behind the judge and basically all the named gang members who we know have been riding with him a while to rob harmless travelers while he goes on what could be a dangerous rescue mission.
Glanton Abandoned: After finding out that David Brown escaped jail, Glanton and his men spend two days getting blackout drunk and getting into a fight with soldiers. Then comes the line: “Glanton returned to Yuma alone, his men gone to the gold fields.” This casual reference to Glanton’s five men just leaving him in San Diego and hunting for gold went unnoticed to me on my first reading, but stuck out to me this time. At several points in the novel there’s mentions of Glanton or someone else in the gang inquiring about a missing gang member, and then we literally just had Glanton traveling to rescue another to not leave him behind, but then here all of a sudden we have a handful of his gang members just leaving for good and there’s no reaction by him or further action taken. Did the men tell him about their plan? Did he give his blessing? Or did they sneak off while he was drunk? I can’t imagine say Webster or Henderson Smith taking off like this, so again makes me wonder why Glanton picked who he did to go on his rescue mission, and not any of his more trusted fighters.
The judge in charge: During Glanton’s estimated two week absence, the judge had been appointed to be in charge of the ferry operations. Upon Glanton’s return, there are a few examples that immediately point towards things being off… The first thing he sees is “a young Mexican girl was crouched naked under the shade of the wall. She watched him ride past, covering her breasts with her hands. She wore a rawhide collar about her neck and she was chained to a post.” Next he rides into the compound, and finds it empty, no one is around. Riding down to look at the river, “the doctor came scrambling down the bank and seized Glanton by the foot and began to plead with him in a senseless jabber. He’d not seen to his person in weeks and he was filthy and disheveled and he tugged at Glanton’s trouserleg and pointed toward the fortifications on the hill. That man, he said. That man.” The judge is on the rise of the hill, naked except for a loose robe, with his new acolyte Black Jackson standing beside him in a similar garb. Later we have the passage: “By evening the drunkenness and revelry had begun afresh and the *shrieks of young girls** carried across the water to the pilgrims huddled in their camp*.”
So obviously some weird stuff has gone down in the last couple weeks. Young girls are chained outside on posts, the judge and at least one other gang member is strutting around basically naked except for a loose cloth, and it seems like it’s become a regular occurrence that the night it filled with the screams of young girls. The judge’s short rule over the ferry has made the doctor go mad with fright, and it seems his influence of turning some of the other men to his level of debauchery has taken root. (I don’t believe all of the men would partake in his ways, I think one of the reasons for the Tobin and kid to be so wary and antagonistic towards the judge at the well after the attack was because they saw what a monster he had become).
There’s a lot to unpack with what is going on in just a couple pages. To me it seems the judge has turned the ferry into his personal underage carnival of pleasure and sadism. His actions caused the doctor to run to Glanton of all people to try and help, even though the doctor is well aware of what type of man Glanton is. The lesser of two evils? Perhaps the doctor picked up that Glanton had been the only man who was able to keep the judge in check, and as soon as he was gone the judge was now off leash and immediately took the situation to an extreme. Unfortunately for the doctor and the young girls at the men’s mercy, Glanton’s apathy continues and he just goes to his quarters to get drunk.
Glanton’s Death - Coincidence, or Planned? - After my last reading of this section with Glanton being split to the thrapple, I had the thought “damn he got unlucky.” Like he was gone for two weeks or more, shows back up to camp, and then the Yumas attack and wipe out everyone. However, after that thought on the bad luck of his timing I got to thinking of the judge’s later conversation with the kid where he says that he told the jailers that the kid worked with the Yumas to plan the attack. Could someone have tipped the Yumas off to Glanton’s return as the right opportunity to attack? If it was all a coincidence, it’s something to think about that their revenge would have been a missed chance if they had attacked a couple days earlier when Glanton was still in San Diego. However, I don’t think or know why the kid would be the one to make this scheme. The only gang member really who I think could have done it and had a reason to do it is the judge. Maybe after getting a taste of power he didn’t want Glanton to ruin his fun, or maybe he felt his time with the gang had runs it’s course and he wanted to wipe them out as a sort of clean slate. Or maybe he just thought it would be funny, like what he did to Reverend Green in his introduction. What are your thoughts on the timing of the Yuma attack and the death of Glanton?
For some reason I just really love this short section in the novel, there’s a lot to think about and so few details that it leaves a lot open to the imagination.