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Is the horned a parody of the Christian god? (Without the good parts of course)

2024.05.21 13:05 LordGaulis Is the horned a parody of the Christian god? (Without the good parts of course)

Anytime you look into the lore about the lore of the horned rat often seen a picture of the skavenised “last supper” or even doom of kazvar is similar to the seven plagues of Egypt, and someone told me a skaven wrote 13 stone commandments. (Not sure about the last one)
Playing vermintide touchs on the skaven great plan to flood warhammer with vermin that will purify the earth similar to the great flood from the bible, with the grey seers acting as the prophet and the belief that “he alone is the ultimate teacher” similar to Jesus Christ.
If all this is intentional by GW does that mean we can safely say the horned rat is like the supernatural tv show version of god who is bored of trying to fix the world that isn’t his world anymore again and again and wants to destroy everything to create something new that will be his ideal world forever?
P.s by lacking the good parts horned rat as far as I know does not believe in forgiveness and repenting your sins nor the idea of heaven for anyone but himself.
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2024.05.21 13:02 OnlyRelative810 Looking for dark souls 2 pvp coaching!

Hi guys! Nice new one dark souls series (I play it since I Was 12 and now I'm 20 haha) but never got interested in pvp in general. Till today! Today is the day I decided to climb this "ladder" up and I am looking for expert dark souls 2 pvp experts to maybe coach me! Something friendly obviously! I am on PC and my username on steam is "Skyler" or "JasonKrueger6" (check both maybe) with a rat as profile picture! Thank you very much! Vereor Nox!
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2024.05.21 12:23 Lealise Is daily immersive daydreaming a symptom of adhd? And is it normal for it to stop on medication? Do you hear music differently ?

I just started medication so I’m still discovering a lot of its impacts.
Usually I have a very active and vivid imagination.
For example, I will hear a sound in the room and it will trigger an invented melody or even harmonies in my head. I hear music all day long and it also triggers images/scenarios. I have also “practiced” immersive day dreaming as far as I can remember. And I mean IMMERSIVE.
I usually picture invented situations, using characters and topics I’m very interested in, often with what I perceive as complex music. The daydreaming used to be maladaptive (I would miss school, not do my work, get late to events and not sleep/eat/rest. It involves pacing in the room, mouthing dialogues and a lot of jumping and some running.) I could daydream for 8 hours in a row, which is of course very bad. Nowadays I considered my daydreaming immersive but no maladaptive, for 1-2 hours a day for my entertainment.
I love daydreaming, it sometimes gives me sad feelings if I’m in a bad place, but 90% of the time It’s giving me very intense joy, because I daydream about things I’m so interested in. I don’t see time passing when I do it and I can struggle to get out of it and go on with my day. It feels the same as hyperfocus to me.
I also daydreaming all day long while I do other things. My mind is effectively doing two things at once. I thinks it helps me not getting bored when I’m doing it alongside something else. Still this daydreaming is immersive as well and I sometimes need to take breaks in what I’m doing when I’m getting too interested in the dream, then I go back to “multitasking”. I think it makes me less efficient in my everyday tasks, it distracts me and makes me slower even though I enjoy it. And it feels out of my control to an extent.
Since I started the medication (one week ago) it just stopped! I also feel like I struggle much more with audiation and picturing things in my mind. Don’t get me wrong , I can still get lost in my thoughts, but it’s mainly a single monologue and much less vivid pictures/sounds. Even though I miss the experience, it has helped me to function better.
I got diagnosed recently so I have some questions:
  1. Is this type of daydreaming common in most people?
  2. If not, can it be an adhd symptom ?
  3. Has anyone stopped or greatly reduced daydreaming on medication ?
  4. If I stop the medication in the future, will I be able to daydream vividly like I use to/ go back to my old self?
  5. Did your perception of music change on medication ? I feel like I was able to dissect the music and follow a lot of the separate voices composing the harmony. I never had to work or train for it. But now I hear music more as a « block » if that makes sense? I truly don’t think I’m imagining this, it feels like my brain is prioritising the global sound instead of perceiving several details at once.
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2024.05.21 12:23 PatsyStonesBun BMR (Basal Metabolic Rate) calculator based upon fat and muscle goals, not just BMI?

Any recommendations on a BMR (Basal Metabolic Rate) calculator that helps you calculate your BMR based on more factors than just age, gender, height and weight?
Weight/BMI is only part of the picture. I'm hoping there's some methodology that can also factor in current body fat % and muscle mass to more precisely calculate BMR.
Bonus points for one that can take dietary restrictions into consideration. I have to restrict carbs due to being a LADA.
I already know the basics for my goals (which are to lose fat, gain muscle) -- eat a calorie deficit, get plenty of lean protein, restrict carbs. And, I'm already doing weight training 4 days/wk and cardio 7 days/wk. Now, it's time to go from estimating calories and macros to getting them down to a science!
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2024.05.21 12:17 PatsyStonesBun BMR (Basal Metabolic Rate) calculator based upon fat and muscle goals, not just BMI?

Any recommendations on a BMR (Basal Metabolic Rate) calculator that helps you calculate your BMR based on more factors than just age, gender, height and weight?
Weight/BMI is only part of the picture. I'm hoping there's some methodology that can also factor in current body fat % and muscle mass to more precisely calculate BMR.
Bonus points for one that can take dietary restrictions into consideration. I'm a LADA (Latent Autoimmune Diabetes in Adults -- aka Type 1.5 Diabetes) and so I have to severely restrict carbs. I'm open to paid apps or specialty services. I'll be using this data to inform my calorie count (calorie deficit) for the day as well as my macros.
I already know the basics for my goals (which are to lose fat, gain muscle) -- eat a calorie deficit, get plenty of lean protein, restrict carbs. And, I'm already doing weight training 4 days/wk and cardio 7 days/wk. Now, it's time to go from estimating calories and macros to getting them down to a science!
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2024.05.21 11:49 2point9AIDSBOW Unsure if my shirtless pic is helping or compromising the amount of matches I get.

Recently went on a hike and took a nice outdoor shirtless picture. I've been getting more matches, (even though most end up nowhere) but when I looked at my ratings on photofeeler, it did very poorly. I'm in great shape (low body fat with lean muscles) but my gym mirror selfie got almost a 9/10 rating which is much higher than my hiking pic. I'm confused on whether I should remove it or not.
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2024.05.21 11:30 HampurHampur My full review "The Shield". The best TV show of all times. Let's discuss [SPOILER]

I have already made short post that I finished series finale. I stiil feel sad, depressed and that feeling when tv show ended.... unbelievable how "The Shield" is stuck with me. Can't believe this journey is over.
I wanted to say so many things. Firstly, how can I miss this? I was too young when it came out, but I hear about "The Wire" everywhere even now. "The shield" feels like out of the radar all the time. WE MUST DO SOMETHING WITH IT! Please, just watch "The Shield"!
My friend told me to watch it and he stumbled upon this Tv show in one cool review that was left by some user (girl , actually) on my native language site about movies/tvshows.
When I look at some photos and pictures of "The Shield" I have thoughts that it is like CSI or some other typical cop show with nothing more. How wrong was I with such first impression.
What I really like that "The shield" has blu-ray release. So cool tv show is reinnovate for high quality format and has a lot of bonus features on blu-ray.
My friend also told me that I need to watch especially until Season 5 where it will be so high level quality writing that I gonna really appreaciate "The Shield".
As for myself, I fond of cinema. I just not go easy on any movies/tvshows. I am very nit-picking because I like to learn about cinematography, screenwriting, directing and so on. For me movies like the greatest art and I study movies as an art. That's why I feel bored about modern movies and TV shows. Screenplays are not bold, not so complex, characters feel flat and creators afraid to insult other races, woman right and so on. Many movies and TV shows of modern era feel convinient. I am tired of that. And I started to watch "The Shield" six months ago.
"The Shield" was aired in the right time! Year 2002 like "The Wire". From the pilot episode "The Shield" don't try to be convinient, it shows you what Vic and his team doing, what "The barn" doing everyday. Everything around characters feels not-convinient: drug-addicted, child trafficking, other awful staff around. Characters not just saint and clean, they do what they have to do like it or not as a viewer. That's what I wished for a long time. "The Shield" just clicked with me. I can't even imagine TVshow about cops can be on such level with great cast, great characters, really good screenwriting, directing and editing.
Before "The Shield" I can't tolerate semi-documentary cinematography and "hand-held" effect of camera in movies. In "The Shield" I fall in love with such camerawork and editing. That's really what I can't imagine I would love in cinemas. In this Tv show every take is so close, editiing beetwen close-mid plan camera panning and it feels so great in terms of "The Shield" storytellling. You are always near characters, you like breathing just around their shoulders and see every bad side of Farmington so close that you feel how disgusting this district is. Incredible work from cinematographers and editors.
Dynamic feeling of everything that happens on the screen. The greatest part of "The Shield" it is never trying to dragging some melodrama to extend seasons or try to be sentimental in the scenes. Modern TVshows really like that and i don't. Don't need to play with the viewer. In "The Shield" everything happenes so fast, so realistic that sometimes you can't even catch a breath. Not a single dull episode. In every episode something cool will definetely happens and it keeps you attached to the screen. And I don't mean that "The Shield" hasn't some melancholic or not-fast pacing moment. On the opposite, "The Shield" has everything what makes cinema alive and fascinating.
Let me explain what I really like about "The Shield" and I have never experience such different emotions just in one piece of the cinema:
In "The Shield" you can feel like a kid again and rooting for cool-masculine guys who breaks door and shout: "Police! On the ground!". After some episodes I really wanna just play in cops and criminals on my yard with friends. That's how action feels in this Tv show. I wanna buy merch with "Strike Team" on it and snake eating rat logo. Incredible.
In "The Shield" as an adult you can feel totally devastated by events that just happened on the screen. You can feel pure emotions from character actions. And what most important you don't want to judge character right away you want to put yourself in his shoes because what character did feels so realistic. Characters here not some fancy cards, you can feel them like real human beings.
In "The Shield" you can laugh as an adult. Humor in some scenes and from some characters really spot on and not stupid. It is full drama but some episodes has great humor parts. And again it feels so real and natural like human beings in real life would joke about something. Bilings sutuations and lines from later seasons are just pure gold.
In "The Shield" you want to discuss some parts of the story. It feels like after reading a good complex books with interesting characters you start to think about their actions and how you can think about your actions in the real life. What it is like to be a coward? To be hypocrite? What about loayalty and friendship? Trust me not so many movies/TVshows can be so full-thinking. It's a miracle that such depth can be in cop TV show. I stiil can't imagine how believable characters are and situations in "The Shield". Script and story of all seasons and how characters arcs redeemed is golden!
So I trying to say "The Shield" can feel like popcorn-blockbuster cop show in some parts with overacting but sometimes it's pure complex drama with silence scenes and great acting and very realistic characters. It's the best mixture of movie formula that I have seen in my life! I stiil can't imagine that I saying such words in terms of cop TV show.
"The Shield" was ahead of its time. It is a real piece of art. In modern days I want to see Tv show with overacting (when it need to be done), cool action and the same time it can provide me with great drama sequences and believable characters.
[SPOILER] section below. Please read only if you watched the series.
What I also like about "The Shield" it has great leading character. Michael Chiklis was born for this role. Maybe in first seasons you can think he overacting sometimes and can't be so dramatic but in the late seasons Michael have shown one of the best acting scenes in cinema. Pure mastery. This 42 second silence in front of Olivia was something unique and incredible. Then final eyes scene with Cloudette and finale running eyes scene in the ending of season 7 when he sits alone.
Vic is so well written in every season. He is the anchor of the show. So charismatic, strategy wise, musculine and cool and what I like the most this character feels real. When Vic came alone in gang territory and didn't fear anything you believe in that. You understand as a viewer that not anybody in "the barn" have balls for things that Mackey can do. He uses "shortcuts" in police work that only he can manage. He has really metal backbone. Even when he mentally broke at the end of the 1st season he needs just a couple of minutes to grab his shit together and go further. Character has a great amount of willpower and dedication to do anything that he wanted to.
Vic is the greatest anti hero in cinema history. Many side characters hate him but when there is a problem that no one can resolve Mackey step up. Farmington is so dirty that it needs people dirty as Vic to clean it.
I actually always rooted for Vic as a viewer because nobody in "The Shield" is black and white. Even Claudette free Kleavon from death penalty to keep her warm place. And I like that "The Shield" shows every character is corrupt somehow.
But I can't believe that Vic betrayed Ronnie. It hits hard. After that I as a viewer understood Cloudette words: "Vic is trying to be someone he wants you to see him". We viewers see Vic true nature in the final episode and it hits hard too. He always was like that and we didn't want to accept. And some part of me like him but other part can't forgive him for what he did to others. Such a great character downfall through all seasons. And this shot when he smiled to his gun and go somewhere. Where did he go? He can't sit tight he always need to be "living on the edge" this his type of character.
I wanna write about other characters. Shane for sure. But Post is too big. I leave it for later.
10/10. I am empty and depressed that "The Shield" journey ended for me. Can't believe that many people don't know about this masterpiece. I am glad I stumbled upon it. It touched my strings for cinema love that not any movie or tv show touching in years.
So many emotions and thoughts. Thanks to Shawn Ryan, Michael Chiklis, Walton Goggins and every other member of "The Shield" crew and FX. I wish I had a chance to tell it to them personally. I am grown man but I feel emotions like a kid again. Pure emotions from "The Shield" story.
To sum up my words. I like this ending montage of Season 2. It has great editing and you feel emotions. I literally cried when I rewatched it after the final. Clodette touches Dutch and thanked him. Aceveda moving forward. Coriine in thoughts. Dutch investigate a murder again. And Pile of money scene... Vic the only one who is laughing but others feel mix emotions. Gives shivers to my spine.
The Shield - Overcome Season 2 Ending (youtube.com)
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2024.05.21 08:39 theambivalentagender Not quite aphantasia, not quite perfect visualization....

So I will start this by saying I'm pretty sure I don't have aphantasia. I've always considered myself to have a very vivid imagination. When asked to picture an apple, I can picture a pretty realistic apple. Vivid daydreaming got me through a lot as a kid.
The issue is....my vivid imagination also isn't entirely accurate or in my control. Back to the apple thing, I can picture an apple, but parts of it aren't quite right. The best way I can describe it is like seeing one of those early deep dream/ai art generator programs as they're in the process of generating the image of an apple, and the parts you're focusing on are a pretty good red apple, but outside of that there's weird vaguely round apple like shakes and the colors are wrong and there's randomly a giant cartoon stem and leaf.
Faces are the biggest problem for me. I've been with my partner for over ten years. Of course I know what he looks like, of course I could describe him to you. But the more I try and picture him in my mind's eye, the more the image distorts out of my control. Where his beard is becomes a black void, his nose loses all detail, the shape of his face elongates. He's literally sitting right next to me right now and if I close my eyes and look away for just a moment I get a different face in my head. A detailed face, but the wrong one.
I'm an artist who likes drawing comics. This has been one of my biggest struggles in learning art. I constantly use references, but I find myself having to trace directly off these references over and over rather than being able to just look at the reference and draw, because literally in the time it takes me to glance back at my page my mind's eye fucks with what I thought I saw.
Importantly, I don't tend to use traced refs in my final pieces, certainly not of others works. I use them to practice the "feel" of what I'm drawing over and over until my muscle memory kicks in. I also take my own pictures a lot for direct traced references, particularly for landscapes and facial expressions. Again though, most of it is training my muscle memory.
I just feel like this isn't what people mean when they say they have perfect imagination, but it isn't a complete lack of mental imagery either. I can't find anything about this anywhere though, all the literature on aphantasia and hyperphantasia is exactly that, those two extremes and how people fall between them.
Same thing happens with people's voices. It honestly makes me feel sad that I find it hard to picture a comforting word in a friend's actual voice. It also used to drive me nuts that I couldn't actually sing a song in my head without it getting messed up in some way, and I needed to sing it out loud for it to be right.
I do wonder if this is why I like drawing comics and cartoony characters. I can remember exaggerated and simplified details pretty well.
Anyway, does this sound at all like anything others go through?
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2024.05.21 07:28 Adept_Gene8477 I believe mewing contributes to self-hatred

TL;DR: I grew to hate how I look as a result of getting into mewing. I feel like we, as a species, were forced into an unnatural lifestyle that caused our bodies to mutate into an unhealthy ugly, mess, and now, because of Mike Mew's work, we have to feel ashamed of it.
I have a lot of things to say, and even though I understand that not all people will read everything, I feel the need to pour my thoughts out.
I am 22 years old, and unfortunately, it so happened that I learned about mewing only a few months ago. Before Mike Mew and his work gained significant popularity among Gen-Zers after the release of his “Ultimate Mewing Guide” on YouTube, I was not even aware this practice existed, which makes me regret many life decisions I made up until this point.
It’s been about a month since I started mewing and I fully believe that tongue posture and craniofacial structure have a direct correlation. When I listen to Mews’ lectures, it feels like puzzle pieces falling into place. Their theories are so logical and spot-on that you begin to question how it is even possible for orthodontics to exist for centuries, or even thousands of years, without dentists realizing that problematic teeth are not a genetic trait. How come these people still treat malocclusion in children using braces? Moreover, mewing improves breathing and can potentially prevent migraines, as those often happen as a result of palatal shrinkage.
But aside from talking about the incredible health benefits of mewing, there is no doubt Mike Mew also places great emphasis on how oral posture affects the attractiveness of one’s face. When you listen to him, it sounds like he is driven to solve the problem of prevailing “ugliness” in the modern population. The amount of work he puts into analyzing the ideal facial structure is astounding. He shares a lot of valuable information on what a person must do to achieve a better-looking face. But my question is, did the problem of ugliness exist in the first place? Do people actually see down-swung faces as unattractive? By providing the instructions on how to improve one’s appearance from the get-go his work automatically assumes that this is the case, but is it really?
While I agree with Mike on most of his theories, whenever I hear things like “A face of a mouth-breather”, it makes me feel nothing but pain, and the reason for that is mewing works most effectively for reshaping the bones in adolescents and young adults, and according to the man himself, after 25 years of age, it is practically impossible to make any significant changes by utilizing proper oral posture.
So, do women really only find men who have a chiseled jawline and pronounced cheekbones attractive? I know I am only one example, but before learning about mewing, I never identified the facial features of a mouth breather as flawed, or even identified them at all, for that matter. I considered a smaller jaw as much of an individual trait as the shape of one’s nose or eyebrows. Yes, looking back on it now, it is an incorrect judgment, as most of the time a weak jawline is a result of an incorrect oral posture and a sedentary, relatively unhealthy lifestyle, but this is beside the point. I distinctly remember having a few crushes on guys in the past who would be considered to have a weak jawline. It’s just to show you how diverse women’s tastes really are.
So why must broad jaws matter, if I was and am genuinely attracted to guys who don’t possess them? Why must it matter, if nowadays, we no longer require large masseter muscles to chew on raw meat for our survival? Why must a slight down-swinging of the maxilla be seen as an unfavorable trait if it did not get so far that it impacts one’s health? Why should the purely aesthetic aspect of all of this matter?
In my opinion, mewing and orthotropics is a wonderful field of study that should be used to spread awareness about the small jaw epidemic and dental malpractices that genuinely ruin people’s faces. It is great for preventing malformities in future generations as well as treating adults who have problematic craniofacial structures that impact their health. But unfortunately, most people, when they hear the word “mewing”, picture a magic exercise that will make them look like sexy Squidward.
I see it very clearly, mewing has become a tool that enables insecurities to grow spread, and fester.
As I stated before, prior to watching videos on orthotropics on YouTube, I was completely unaware of the fact that forward development is deemed as aesthetic perfection. And now, I often subconsciously analyze the facial structure of random people I see in public when I never did in the past. Worst of all, I started seeing my own face as putridly ugly, when in the past, I considered myself to be not very attractive, but at least not looking worse than an average person. And recently, I realized this might be something that is happening not only to me but, probably, to many people interested in orthotropics.
So, do we really care about beauty standards, or is this idea being actively pushed on us by the looks-maxing mentality? To me, personally, it looks like Mike’s focus on looks in relation to mewing not only does not help to solve the problem, but instead, it is actively creating it. Or at least, it makes it severely worse, because, even if there were people like me, who did not care about perfect jawlines before, then from now on, their numbers are going to be dropping in the near future as mewing gets more and more attention.
“You aren’t ugly, you have bad habits», Well, does pushing with all the forces of your tongue on your maxilla in hopes of getting the face of a model sound like a good habit to you? Or performing inter-oral pulling or b0ne-smashing? And also, rating and judging other people’s faces, and suggesting to undergo plastic surgeries in case they are too old for mewing, so “it’s over for them”. Are these the good habits people are talking about?
And if we do follow the logic of “Mouth-breather face = bad habits”, what will the reasons for the malformation of one’s face be? What are the things that ugly no-good modern-day Quazimodos did, that are now being used as a valid excuse for others to judge them for their physical flaws? First of all, according to Mike Mew, breastfeeding plays a huge role in the development of natural proper oral posture. (Only 34.5% of women breast for the first 6 months as of the years 2000-2008 according to this article https://www.cdc.gov/mmwpreview/mmwrhtml/mm6205a1.htm#:~:text=Among%20infants%20born%20in%202000,16.0%25%20breastfed%20for%2012%20months.)) Second, human jaws require a consistent and considerable amount of work for them to achieve good development. (Modern diet is progressively becoming softer, and more processed). And third, the human body requires a lot of physical movement, running, and walking to maintain optimal and healthy back posture, which subsequently affects the structure of the skull. (I don’t know the statistics, but nowadays, most likely most of us can’t survive without sitting at a computer for 6+ hours a day). So, do all these things look like bad habits that one can easily and consciously fix? Adding a bit of exercise to one's life can do some good, that's a nice habit! But what about all the other stuff.... What if you are approaching the age when your bones don't grow anymore?
To get to the point, I don’t understand why people should be ashamed of their appearance when the modern lifestyle is literally doing everything to prevent the healthy growth and physical development of children. Cavemen did have beautifully wide dental arches as a result of chewing on raw meat, running barefoot, and hunting wild animals, but did they also have to spend 12 years of their adolescent life sitting at a school desk, studying, doing homework, and trying to get good grades? Maybe they also produced some impressive pieces of art, music writing, etc.? Then why should we be ashamed of the fact that we did not manage to keep our bodies at peak physical performance, while also studying, or god forbid, having an extracurricular interest that also involves a lot of sit-down work and is time-consuming?
I, myself, wasn’t ever a mouth-breather! I just had an absolutely awful back posture all throughout my life because I decided to dedicate my life to producing electronic music from the young age of about 13 years, which requires an endless amount of hours sitting at the computer. And now I get to be called ugly and lazy for it. I never even played video games in my life, ever! I don’t drink and I don’t smoke, and I’m not overweight, and yet I have to hate myself and how I look?? Just because of my passion?
It feels like we were forced into this unnatural, for our species, lifestyle that causes our bodies to mutate into an unhealthy mess and yet we still have to carry the guilt and shame of its consequences.
It makes me feel awful looking at how quickly the image representing “The face of a mouth breather” vs “The face of a nose-breather” is spreading, thanks to Mike Mew. The way it labels people based on their appearance is almost comparable to a racist caricature. It seeps into young adults' minds and makes them put people into categories, even if they never thought of this stuff before.
I’m not suggesting to ditch mewing as a whole and to continue living as uneducated, unhealthy modern apes. I’m asking people to stop cultivating an environment where we focus on negatively labeling people with unfavorable facial features that they get as a result of, mostly, circumstances beyond their control and that do not carry any health risks. Mewing may bring health benefits in the form of sleep apnea prevention, but it also changes the mindset and I don't think this is a good change.
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2024.05.21 07:28 faerie4444 No obvious way out of the mold currently…

This is my third exposure ever. I’m currently staying at my dad’s apartment because my boyfriend and I broke up a couple of months ago, couldn’t afford another place to go, so I had to move back home to my dad’s apartment. There’s visible mold in the window sills, on the wall moulding above the carpet, and in the bathroom. I cleaned it off the window sills, use an air purifier, am taking binders, getting out of the apartment when I can, keeping the windows open all the time, having the fan running as much as possible, taking a bunch of alka seltzer gold (a functional medicine practitioner who specializes in mold detox advised this for brain fog), and am going to start going to the gym with my dad just to use the sauna there. I also eat a low fodmap diet, I don’t eat any mold-exacerbating foods, I take magnesium and a B-complex vitamin everyday. Unfortunately, the symptoms have still progressed.
I’ve also been applying for a lot of jobs here in the town he lives, have had a couple of interviews, but nothing has stuck. I turn 26 in a few months so I won’t have my dad’s insurance to be on anymore.
My symptoms are mostly cognitive/neurological and mental health related and have grown worse. At first, I did have random days where I would wake up with body aches. This mold exposure has been mostly cognitive, neurological, and mental health-related, as opposed to my first exposure, which was both physical and cognitive/neurological/extremely mental health-taxing. I started having intense suicidal thoughts (that uncontrollable depression that definitely feels like it’s not coming from me, if you know you know), paranoia, intense fatigue, insomnia, ton of anxiety, feeling like I’m vibrating internally, tremors, LOTS of trouble with focus and word recall, problems with memory, and sometimes muscle weakness in my legs. Obviously none of this is stuff I experience when I’m not in a moldy place.
I don’t have the money to move to another place, and I’m losing hope and motivation but I know I need to keep going and figure it out. I’m worried about my ability to even start a job with all of these symptoms, but am conflicted because I know I just need money to get out, and the job could just also offer another potential way to get out of the apartment more often. I’m scared of starting a job just to not be able to sustain it. I’ve asked all my friends if I could stay with them and none of them are able to have me. I live in California and I have a friend who lives in Santa Fe that would be down to have me visit/stay with them for a couple weeks, so it COULD be an option to move there (it is dry there in Santa Fe and I’m currently living in a beach town), but I don’t have another place lined up for after if I were to visit her and it feels like a huge jump/risk to move to another state with little money. I just don’t want to be without shelter.
I also don’t have a car. I was living in a walkable place before I was here at my dad’s. My dad and my brother don’t understand the mold symptoms and they think I’m a bit crazy, so I’ve stopped confiding in them about it, because my dad is just honing down on the fact that I need to get a job and move my life forward, and I totally understand his point of view (especially since he really doesn’t understand the mold thing at all), but he does not get the whole picture of what I’m going through and refuses to understand. Him funding any way out of this is not an option.
I’m just…scared. The cognitive and mental decline is so scary. And I’m young. I just want a normal 20-something life. If anyone has any ideas on what I could do, wants to talk, has words of encouragement even (I need a ton of that right now also because this is just…insane and I’m trying to hold on)…I would really really appreciate it.
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2024.05.21 07:06 thesirensirena Please help :(

Please help :(
TLDR; I got my hair done by somebody that is well trusted and she did nothing I asked for.. Any advice on how to fix it? Did she do a good job like she claims? Hair growth remedies? Please help😖
I got my hair done by someone I thought I could trust. She’s big in the music scene here &does this whole group of girls’ hair. They’re quite literally KNOWN for their hair bc of the bright colors &elaborate patterns this stylist does on them. She told me if she freestyled it she would charge me less but asked for reference pics. So I sent some &she said it’d be $500 because of my length, the style, &she was going to do a special treatment on my hair to keep it healthy before &after..
I made it explicit that I wanted to keep my length ¬ do much of a cut besides trimming. She assured me she’d keep my length as much as possible. She even commented on it bc I had virgin hair aside from that. Along the way she convinced me to do things I told her I didn’t want bc she kept saying it was her best recommendation. Like I told her I didn’t want to bleach my roots &I wanted my hair dark at the top bc I’m getting older and didn’t want super bright colors at the top. She told me if we bleached my roots the color would transition better. So I went along with it bc I’ve never dyed my hair in elaborate patterns, just colors.
She painted bleach in my hair for 3 hours and got product all over my ears &forehead. She said after 30 mins my hair was lifting fast &removed the first foils. After the 3 hours she did my roots and sat down for 30 mins to let it process. She did check my hair often but would sit for long periods &much can happen between then because… She blow dryed my hair in the most aggressive manner possible. I should have said something there I know, but I felt like I was getting my hair done by someone very known &didn’t want to sound rude. I know I can be sensitive. But she also kept hurting me with the blow dryer &burning me. I did tell her multiple times &she made it seem like I was being sensitive. Like she would just say “oh. “ I look down ¬ice some of my wet hair looking reallllllyyy white I mean PAPER WHITE. So I touched it bc I know exactly what melted hair looks like &sure enough the hair broke off in my hands with no effort at all.. I could tell that there was clear definition between that white shade &the hair above it, which was also extremely light. I had prev bleached hair at the very ends which everybody knows process faster but she had bleached the whole ends at the same time. I could tell there was damage. Mind you I’ve dyed my hair very bright colors ¬ needed to bleach my hair to the point of breakage.
So let’s talk about the roots.. When she washed off the bleach I could see I had some HOT ROOTS BABY. They were Snow White! I thought ok well at least she’s gonna cut some, let’s trust the process. She blow dried it &I could see little hairs flying around &breaking off. I thought: damn, must be the melted hair? She was also yanking my hair but I thought “you never get your hair done. Isn’t this why they call people tender headed? Don’t trip. Don’t be difficult.” Maybe I was fan-girling at the opportunity to look like a brand new woman after trying to crawl myself out of my worsening depression.. You should treat yourself, right? Well you know how you can’t see yourself much when you’re getting your hair done? After the color… well..
The dye got dripped all on me btw, on my face &forehead, in &on my ears. My scalp was so stained. A good chunk past my hairline was super bright blue even after she washed it out, I couldn’t even get it off with the wipes. Like how was I going to go to work like this? The blue is very unflattering on me. And why are my roots HOT PINK!! There is a clear line of demarcation from HOT ROOTS. She took 0 responsibility for it and said roots are porous and need to be colored twice. That's what I paid 500 for?? Who would wanna walk around like this?? I think she made some mistakes &got trigger happy with the razor. My hair is so short and thin now. I have like a rat tail! I showed her a reference picture for my bangs &she cut them so short they don’t lay correctly. We agreed to light layers to blend the bangs A LITTLE. So why is half my hair up to my shoulders? And are these really layers? Y’all let me know ;( I think my hair looks crooked, wonky and is definitely uneven.
I had to go to work with my hair in a beanie &I haven’t stopped crying since I left the salon. I feel so ugly. Even in a ponytail my hair looks crazy! The so called layers are so blunt and choppy and all around my head. My hair is so precious to me. I’ve dyed it all purple and kept my length. So I’m not sure what went wrong. She said in her professional opinion she did her best and you can’t always predict how somebody’s hair will react to bleach bc everybody is different.
She said she could blend the layers &strip the color Wednesday &bring me back to my natural hair color as close as she can.. is that possible without bleaching again? And would you trust her again? I’m a single mom and cannot afford to go to another salon.. should I dye it black? Cut it myself? What can I do? Please help I feel so horrible and stupid :( and yes I paid her bc she took 10 hours and I was just blaming myself for trusting someone… What can I do to make it grow faster? Any advice is appreciated. Please no rude comments. I mean enough to myself, thank you.
First pics are of my hair the next day (today.) The long, dark hair is the before &after pics she took. Then I put a few reference pics I sent her. The last 2 are actual pictures of hair she’s done.
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2024.05.21 06:45 thesirensirena Am I the asshole?

Am I the asshole?
TLDR; I got my hair done by somebody that is well trusted and she did nothing I asked for.. Any advice on how to fix it? Did she do a good job like she claims? Hair growth remedies? Please help😖
I got my hair done by someone I thought I could trust. She’s big in the music scene here &does this whole group of girls’ hair. They’re quite literally KNOWN for their hair bc of the bright colors &elaborate patterns this stylist does on them. She told me if she freestyled it she would charge me less but asked for reference pics. So I sent some &she said it’d be $500 because of my length, the style, &she was going to do a special treatment on my hair to keep it healthy before &after..
I made it explicit that I wanted to keep my length ¬ do much of a cut besides trimming. She assured me she’d keep my length as much as possible. She even commented on it bc I had virgin hair aside from that. Along the way she convinced me to do things I told her I didn’t want bc she kept saying it was her best recommendation. Like I told her I didn’t want to bleach my roots &I wanted my hair dark at the top bc I’m getting older and didn’t want super bright colors at the top. She told me if we bleached my roots the color would transition better. So I went along with it bc I’ve never dyed my hair in elaborate patterns, just colors.
She painted bleach in my hair for 3 hours and got product all over my ears &forehead. She said after 30 mins my hair was lifting fast &removed the first foils. After the 3 hours she did my roots and sat down for 30 mins to let it process. She did check my hair often but would sit for long periods &much can happen between then because… She blow dryed my hair in the most aggressive manner possible. I should have said something there I know, but I felt like I was getting my hair done by someone very known &didn’t want to sound rude. I know I can be sensitive. But she also kept hurting me with the blow dryer &burning me. I did tell her multiple times &she made it seem like I was being sensitive. Like she would just say “oh. “ I look down ¬ice some of my wet hair looking reallllllyyy white I mean PAPER WHITE. So I touched it bc I know exactly what melted hair looks like &sure enough the hair broke off in my hands with no effort at all.. I could tell that there was clear definition between that white shade &the hair above it, which was also extremely light. I had prev bleached hair at the very ends which everybody knows process faster but she had bleached the whole ends at the same time. I could tell there was damage. Mind you I’ve dyed my hair very bright colors ¬ needed to bleach my hair to the point of breakage.
So let’s talk about the roots.. When she washed off the bleach I could see I had some HOT ROOTS BABY. They were Snow White! I thought ok well at least she’s gonna cut some, let’s trust the process. She blow dried it &I could see little hairs flying around &breaking off. I thought: damn, must be the melted hair? She was also yanking my hair but I thought “you never get your hair done. Isn’t this why they call people tender headed? Don’t trip. Don’t be difficult.” Maybe I was fan-girling at the opportunity to look like a brand new woman after trying to crawl myself out of my worsening depression.. You should treat yourself, right? Well you know how you can’t see yourself much when you’re getting your hair done? After the color… well..
The dye got dripped all on me btw, on my face &forehead, in &on my ears. My scalp was so stained. A good chunk past my hairline was super bright blue even after she washed it out, I couldn’t even get it off with the wipes. Like how was I going to go to work like this? The blue is very unflattering on me. And why are my roots HOT PINK!! There is a clear line of demarcation from HOT ROOTS. She took 0 responsibility for it and said roots are porous and need to be colored twice. That's what I paid 500 for?? Who would wanna walk around like this?? I think she made some mistakes &got trigger happy with the razor. My hair is so short and thin now. I have like a rat tail! I showed her a reference picture for my bangs &she cut them so short they don’t lay correctly. We agreed to light layers to blend the bangs A LITTLE. So why is half my hair up to my shoulders? And are these really layers? Y’all let me know ;(
I had to go to work with my hair in a beanie &I haven’t stopped crying since I left the salon. I feel so ugly. Even in a ponytail my hair looks crazy! The so called layers are so blunt and choppy and all around my head. My hair is so precious to me. I’ve dyed it all purple and kept my length. So I’m not sure what went wrong. She said in her professional opinion she did her best and you can’t always predict how somebody’s hair will react to bleach bc everybody is different.
She said she could blend the layers &strip the color Wednesday &bring me back to my natural hair color as close as she can.. is that possible without bleaching again? And would you trust her again? I’m a single mom and cannot afford to go to another salon.. should I dye it black? Cut it myself? What can I do? Please help I feel so horrible and stupid :( and yes I paid her bc she took 10 hours and I was just blaming myself for trusting someone… What can I do to make it grow faster? Any advice is appreciated. Please no rude comments. I mean enough to myself, thank you.
First pics are of my hair the next day (today.) The long, dark hair is the before &after pics she took. Then I put a few reference pics I sent her. The last 2 are actual pictures of hair she’s done.
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2024.05.21 06:30 -ISayThingz- The Panic Attack

TW: Discusses Severe Panic Attacks
Picture you’re me for a moment, and assume you’re up at 12:30 AM when you have to be out the door at 4:30 AM. You only have about four hours to sleep, you have a big workday tomorrow, and you decided it would be good to take melatonin to go to sleep. The melatonin decides to upset your gut and you didn’t eat very much today. Naturally, your GERD kicks up a little.
Except now you think it’s a heart attack. After all, your chest is already tight.
Or maybe hypoglycemia? Look on Google! They show the same symptoms for everything. Is it finally time? Is this my last hour? Let’s say you try praying to a God you’re struggling to believe in anyway, and then you realize no one is hearing you.
Your hands get shaky your muscles ache, you feel like an elephant is sitting on your chest and you can barely breathe. You feel like you could vomit at any moment. Swallowing hurts because it feels like pins and needles going down the edge of your throat. You feel dizzy, even though you’re laying down and you were just woken up from a peaceful sleep. One second is halfway to dreamland and there’s a huge panic the next. But why? You weren’t thinking about anything. This isn’t fair. Even when you’re calm, there’s a panic.
If that’s you, you just went through one of my many midnight panic attacks. Right out of sleep…
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2024.05.21 05:41 teethfestival Am I missing the palmaris longus in one or both of my arms?

Am I missing the palmaris longus in one or both of my arms?
Sorry if the pictures are unclear. On my left wrist there is one prominence when I put my thumb and pinkie together and on my right wrist (I am right-handed) there are two prominences when I put my thumb and pinkie together. I suffer from muscle weakness so these are the farthest they flex out :(.
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2024.05.21 05:38 SchruteFarmsBBBg Down 83lbs

I found out today that I've lost 83 lbs. I haven't weighed myself throughout my entire journey because I feel like it's discouraging and also inaccurate because muscle weighs more than fat. And I do weight train so I didn't want to even look at a scale. I've just been taking measurements and taking progress pictures.
Well today I went to the Dr and was told I weigh 212 lbs. (I'm 5'5 F) my heaviest weight was 295 lbs. I was so overjoyed that I cried when I got home, after my appointment. I knew I lost weight but to actually hear that number was alost surreal. I don't remember a time in my life where I was this light. Even when I was a teenager I would fluctuate between 220-250. So to be 13lbs away from getting out off the 200s is just...an unexplainable feeling.
I'm very proud of myself and just wanted to share the news with someone, but don't really like bringing it up to people In my real life. Would post a pic but it says this sub doesn't allow attachments.
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2024.05.21 05:30 MedicinalRadium Trauma dump for a sad event.

So I have to get this out of my head and vent a little. It's poisoned my nature and I can't seem to shed it. As a preface, I can easily say I'm one of those laconic unperturbed types. One of nature's damage control officers, calmly instructing people to put out burning dynamite before it goes boom. Basically, when stuff goes bad wrong, I don't freak out, I just deal. Last Thursday things went bad wrong. And I did me. I handled things as well as they could be handled. They worked out horribly, but that's how it was going to go no matter what I did. I did my best and the night ate the world anyway. My simple undoing? Kittens. There has been a stray cat hanging around (and getting fed) for a few years at my place. I have adopted three of her kids over two generations before I finally got her trapped and fixed. With one last semi feral daughter left over. I thought the last generation was too young to have kittens of her own, but she did. And it went terribly. Do you know what a rat king is? It's when a group of rats get tail tied together and eventually starve to death because the mass of them can't find food. Picture that but with new born kittens, underdeveloped and bound together with umbilical cord and placenta. One wrapped so badly it's legs never fully formed. So one dead and crawling with maggots, one hopelessly tangled with the dead one but struggling. One with an umbilical hernial who kicked.loops of her own intestines out trying to get free, and one I managed to cut loose undamaged but not developed enough to take food. And me doing my level best to help. I separated them and cleaned them. Drowned one who was beyond all hope as a mercy in warm water. Tried to feed and heal them to no avail. Eventually surrendered them to their mother cat rather than sit with them until death. I keep playing this on a loop in my head. It's ridiculous. I did nothing wrong. I did all that I could do and did it well. I've treated fatal gunshot wounds with less emotional loading. I'm the guy you come to when you need to control the bleeding or when everything has gone wrong. And I'm so angry and so sad that the universe made me participate in this that I'm ready to be a good man just so I can get into heaven and try to murder God for not fixing this. I don't need to understand it. I don't need absolution. I need some ritual that closes this piece of yesterday so I can look at tomorrow. Meanwhile I thank you for letting me trauma dump. There's precious few places in life I can do that. I will be ok. But I hate the blind unfairness of nature sometimes. I know it's ok for this to hurt, but this event is eating way too much of me.Thanks for reading. Go pet something small and helpless.
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2024.05.21 05:05 DFWnurse123 Pest Control Help!

Hello,
We found a rat in our kitchen a couple days ago. A couple pest control companies have come out and recommended removal of all insulation in the attic, sanitizing, sealing all the gaps in our roof, and blowing in new insulation. The quotes have ranged between 13-20k. I’m worried they are taking advantage of us because this seems outrageously expensive.
Can someone with experience with rodent control please share if this is reasonable and necessary? I’m attaching some pictures.
We just want to do what’s safest for the health and safety of our family.
Thank you!
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2024.05.21 04:19 FakeFicwriter "Halfway to the end of C2, hang tight" -Ryaine

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Ryaine then call the team to continue on their journey, now going West for their next checkpoint.
“Well thanks for the story Kabbu”
“You’re welcome”
“It was inspiring but also a bit tragic, hope you doing well”
“Don’t worry, it’s all in the past, we should just continue on our own journey”
“*grumble* My song is definitely better than that story”
“Ryaine, how much more walking we have to do, I feel like we have been walking for hours and hours”
“Vi, we just rested 5 minutes ago”
“I know but we have been in the Forsaken land for what feels like days, where are we even going anyway”
“Vi, we are going to the next checkpoint, it won’t be long, just half time we take to get to that resting spot”
“Checkpoints?”
“For easier navigation, I set up checkpoints in our path like the ones we were at, it’s set up as a flagpole in a middle of nowhere”
“How many more checkpoints we have to go...”
“There are three checkpoints, we just went by the first one so just two more”
“ARRGH!!! WHY DID I SIGN UP FOR THIS”
“Don’t be such a whiny bee Vi”
“I have an idea, how about we all play some trivia games about each other while we are on our journey”
“Sure”
“Ok”
“Yeah”
“Sounds fun”
“I will win this”
“Don’t worry Mothiva”
“Well… I guess…”
“Great, then how about we start with some trivia about the past of our own species”
“What do you mean by that”
“Like before we become sentient and live longer”
“For example...”
“Did you know, honeybees like Vi once use the movement of their body to communicate, in shorter terms, bees used to dance to speak with other bees”
“Vi, are you good with dancing?”
“No... well I never try to”
“You should try it sometimes”
“And teach us some moves”
“Kabbu, Leif, Gen, Eri, I doubt I can’t teach you any moves, I hardly dance, the last time I did was like when I was very young”
“I imagine Vi would probably be good at ballet or tango...”
“Uhh what is ballet or tango”
“Dance styles, something the trivia book says, not sure what they are supposed to be”
“Trivia book?”
“It’s a book that contain a lot of facts, trivia and cultures from around the world, at least that’s what the book says, I got it from Ryaine”
“Huh, can I see it”
“Sure”
Vi checks out the trivia book, she is unable to read it.
“What language is this written in, I can’t read it at all, Leif, can you read this”
“…Nope, this isn’t Bugnish nor Roach dialect, it’s another language entirely”
“Huh, Ryaine, do you know what kind of language is this written in”
“It’s written in the Common English, it’s the language the people from the Westland uses”
“So then… do you understand them”
“I am not really sure, it’s been more than 5 years since I used the language, I am already very rusty at that point”
“Say, that looks like a moth, what does that writing says”
“it says “Moths are nocturnal insects, which mean they are more active at night than day, this is also why their wings are commonly more dull than butterflies that are diurnal” end of sentence”
“Well that explains why Leif is very awake at nighttime”
“My wings are not dull, this book is a disgrace”
“Mothiva, your wings are fine, they’re not dull”
“Huh there is some writing beside a wasp picture”
“That says “Bees evolve from Wasp after they become accustomed to consuming pollen from flowers” end of sentence”
“What does “evolve” means”
“That means Vi and Zasp are related”
“What?!”
“No, me and him can’t be related, we don’t even grow up together”
“I have to agree with her, I am not related to her”
“No I mean like they are related by a common ancestor that existed was like several hundred thousand moons ago, you two are distinct species related by the same genus and are more related by genetics than you would think”
“Uh Ryaine, what is genetics and genus”
“Genetics is a study on how heredity and variations within a living organism”
“Evolve, genetic, genus, heredity, variations, organism, what the heck are these fancy sciency words and where the heck you learn any of this”
“The same trivia book”
“This book contains some interesting concept of science”
“I don’t know, I think both professor Honeycomb and Docter H.B at the hive would be interested in this, I am just confused on how me and Zasp are “genetically” related with each other, nevermind the fact I don’t even know what that word means”
“Well, how about this one, ants can lift 10 to 50 times their own body weight, in other words, Gen and Eri here can easily lift 10 to 50 of their own kind alone”
“10 to 50 times?! How the heck ants are that strong, I can’t even lift Kabbu for longer than 30 seconds without my body getting sore and meanwhile Gen and Eri can lift 50 ants easily?!”
“Thanks for the compliment though we are not that strong”
“Perhaps you never tried to push yourself to your limits, maybe you just haven’t realised your potential”
“Well thanks for the encouraging words, Maki, but we never seen another ant that can carry more than 3 other ants, let alone 10 to 50”
“For your question Vi, something about their muscle structure and their exoskeletons which allows them to have such strengths, terms you probably wouldn’t get it either”
“I have so much questions, like how what the heck is this books source and how the heck the book’s sources even get these kinds of facts and statements”
“Its sources were the old books the giant’s left”
“Wait… the giants?”
“Yup, those books were filled with all the knowledge the giants have left us”
“Huh”
“The giants must have been one cultured and scientific kingdom to have made such book filled with knowledge, science and culture of other bugs”
“Wonder why they haven’t contact with Bugaria”
“Well from what I can remember, there was a war 150 years ago that kills many of the giants”
“What kind of war? And how did so many died”
“Well, I don’t know… maybe when we get to the kingdom, we could check their libraries, it prob would have the answer”
“How about we continue with the trivia, did you know that there are more than 350,000 species of beetles, each with its own unique diet, body and colouring”
“350,000- How the heck, Kabbu you had 350,000 brothers and sisters?!”
“Ehh… no Vi I don’t…”
“No, Vi… misunderstand what species means, it’s just that there are 350,000 bugs that falls under the classification of beetles”
“So, what counts as a beetle”
“Well Bark beetles, Dung beetles, Ground beetles, Weevils-”
“Wait Weevils, the creature we fought back at Forsaken lands, the ones that ambushed us… is related to Kabbu”
“Yeah, they’re both on the order of Coleoptera, which also includes ladybugs-”
“Wait, Doppel is actually a beetle”
“Yup, same order of Coleoptera”
“Well, this is embarrassing”
“Well Leif, guess we settle that argument, give me the 250 berries you bet… later, when we get home”
“Still, he is a ladybug, that horn he has is fake, want to bet 250 berries on that”
“Nah, I stopped gambling since I just won 250 berries”
“…damn you Vi”
“Say Vi, since you’re a bee, do you know any bee that eats royal jelly”
“Yeah, maybe, why?”
“Well this books tells me that, new queen bees are born when a young bee continues to eat royal jelly, which allows them to mature their reproductive organs and become the queen of the hive when the old queen”
“Are you… kidding me”
“What is it Vi”
“SHE… WILL BE THE NEW QUEEN?!”
“Uhh… Vi, please calm down”
“ARE YOU KIDDING ME, she is literally the most snobbish bee I ever seen and she is the FUTURE QUEEN?!”
“Well, if it makes you any better, if multiple queen bees appear, they may fight to the death to get dominance”
“Well, she better not win this or so help me, say Lyra, does the book has anything about turning me into a Queen bee”
“Well, how old are you Vi?”
“I don’t know…16, 17 years old?”
“And how long does the average bee live”
“…40, 50, 60 years? I don’t really know how old bees can live, I only know that they can be very old, like both professors back at the hive”
“Well, you are way too late sadly, it basically takes just 17 days for bees to mature according to the book... so about 3-5 years”
“Ugh dammit, why am I a worker bee and not a queen bee, I can rule better than she ever will”
“Well, we like you just the way you are”
“Also, as a queen, you likely never be able to go exploring”
“Well if you think it that way, I guess I like being a worker bee now”
“Say you dorks done with trivias about yourself, what the trivia about me, Mothiva, the best singer in Bugaria-”
“Silk moth cocoons are killed to be harvested and reeled to be made into a fabric called silk…”
“…”
“Well, you didn’t ask what kind of trivia so”
“The giants harvested bugs for fabric…”
“Well, they aren’t truly benevolent, nor truly evil, some are very good while others are torturous, in this case, if nobody complains, nobody is stopping them”
“Now I feel like we are lucky that they haven’t come for us… or Bugaria”
“Well, most of them just avoids Bugs in general, some admired bugs due to their beauty, some are taking care of them for their own entertainment, another care them to keep some of their species alive, a lot care them for producing goods, and the smallest percentage kill bugs for some power trip, as I said, not everyone is truly good or evil”
“Jeez Ryaine, how did you know so much about the giants”
“Back where I was from, it was taught to many of us regarding their history and interaction to preserve our history and origins, our culture is somewhat build from their culture, we speak and write in their most common language”
“I have a question that is stirring in me for a while, if you know so much about the Westland kingdom, why didn’t the Queen tell me or team Snakemouth regarding them with this much detail you just gave to us”
“…well, nobody asked me more about it, I am guessing vague wordings also is a part”
“Anyway, we are about to reached our next resting spot, we will be camping the day now since its getting too dark for a safe journey, we’ll continue tomorrow, hang tight“
“Huh, I was having fun with the trivia, didn’t realised it was already dark”
“The fog is probably a part of why it did”
After that whole trivial discussion about everyone’s species trivia, they reached the second checkpoint of their journey, after a bit of flattening and arguing on who gets which spot, everyone pulled out their tent set and tried to assemble a tent following Ryaine’s instruction,
some were successful, some let their ego get away in making a successful tent and had to get help embarrassingly, once everyone set up their tent, they all went to have some of Lyra’s stew near the campfire and have some conversations.
“Well thanks for the stew Lyra”
“Your, welcome”
“It's very good, it's not Jayde’s level but it’s cutting it close”
“Admitably, it’s very delicious for a stew, not as good as the one I made”
“Safe those backhanded compliments for someone else Mothiva, let just enjoy what we have and just have fun in the journey”
“Say Lyra, what is your secret in making the stew”
“It's simply the use many different ingrediant to get a complex flavor and adjusting the amount of ingredients used to stick out two or three flavor profiles of the stew”
“Huh, what ingredients did you use”
“That’s a chef’s secret Eri, I’ll probably reveal it soon but not today”
“Well, I think this is a good time to recap the expedition's plan”
"We've just passed two out of three checkpoints, after the third, we will be out of the forsaken land and finally get to the Westfields, a grassy plain that will have sunlight coming through"
"So how much longer will it take to get to the Westland kingdom?"
"Still a while, we're still about two Bugarias away,"
"Ugh, couldn't we go any faster, my fans are probably missing me back at Bugaria"
"Nope, we're already on the fastest route, you shouldn't rush out of here since we can easily get lost in the fog."
"Ryaine?"
"Yeah, Sir Maki?"
"What are your plans for this expedition, especially one that gets the sponsorship of the Queen"
“A few reasons, I have a bit of a desire to lead an expedition, I wanted to go back where I was from”
“Say, how did you get to Bugaria from the Westland kingdom”
“Well, way back at 6 years ago, I was with on a team exploring this area, I can’t remember much but I think we were in the Forsaken lands trying to do some recon to find other civilization, then a beast attacked and I was the only survivor”
“Ryaine, I am so sorry...”
“I hope you are doing okay”
“Yeah, I am fine, I gotten over it very fast, I can’t remember much but we manage to get as far as the first checkpoint we were in. After the attack, I tried to salvage as much as I could before I ran away to safety, the few things I salvage include the clock, the map we had, this compass, a helmet and shield that I cannibalize for stuffs, and this”
Ryaine pulls out a small glass vial sealed in a wine cork, it contained a shiny and luminous substance in it
“What’s that, it’s so shiny”
“This substance is what we known, as Shifting Energy Matter or SEM matter for short, it’s a very rare substance that in very short terms allows magic in a magicless word”
“IDK, it just looks like some old shiny substance to me”
“Nope, he is probably right Vi, we could feel its energy from the vial, it is indeed likely magical”
“Well then, how does it work”
“I don’t really know much but if I remember correctly, its powers lies inside a living being”
“Ehh...”
“It means that its potential lies greatest when it is inside of you, literally”
“What kind of powers can you get from it”
“A lot, from what I know, it allows control of all the elements from fire to ice to lightning and probably some more”
“So, basically Leif’s ice magic but more varied”
“Basically, though you need more than a small vial to allow such potential to be unlocked, another reason why I set up the expedition”
“Say if Ryaine originally came from the Westland Kingdom, how about Lyra, you both look like your related”
“I may be very close to Ryaine but we aren’t related, he just raised my as a father figure, I was very much born in Bugaria, Ryaine found me in my cocoon and raised me to what I am now, I don’t remember anything past being born”
“All this talk about backstory makes me bored, you guys want to hear that song already”
“I think you all should go rest now, also Mothiva, it isn’t a good time to sing at this time, the beast is more active at this time”
“*grumble* fine then, only because I can’t die here, not alone in the middle of nowhere anyways”
“I’ll be on guard duty, in case anything tries to attack us, if you hear shaking or growling, then don’t move and make a sound before I say to do anything”
“Well good night”
“Good night”
“Good night”
“Good night”
“Good night, I guess…”
Everyone went back to their tent and went to sleep, the tent set include an extra bedding that can used as a thin yet slightly-more-comfortable-than-the-floor, comfortable mattress, though not everyone can easily on their mattress, especially if a tent is shared by three people and a chomper
“Kabbu, can you move, you took like half of the space”
“We think you should move a bit back and sleep horizontally to the mattress to fit more”
“Why me...”
“Vi, you are the smallest member of the team, you could fit in less space”
“Easy for you to say Leif, when you are the tallest member of the team-”
“...zzz....”
“You got to be kidding me”
As Kabbu, Leif and Chompy went to sleep instantaneously before Vi able to argue with any of them, Vi had to settle with the uncomfortable end of the mattress, still too small for the small bee, after spending several minutes unable to sleep, she decides to get out and check outside the tent, she only saw the campfire burning on a bunch of lit charcoal and no one else near it,
“Huh, Ryaine’s not here...”
“Wait, Ryaine is not here, didn’t he said to be on guard duty-”
“Hold up, a written message”
To anyone who found this, I am out to do some quick recon, if you don’t make a lot of noise, you should be ok. If you need my help, please hopefully don’t because you wouldn’t be able to find me out here at night, you probably should just wait and hope I came fast instead. If you see anything big, warn the other and quickly run into your tent and don’t get out till I said to get out.
  • Ryaine
“Well guess I’ll be on guard duty…”
Vi then sat around the campfire and pull her notebook out, the notebook was a bunch of paper to a fastener made out of welded plastic and having a leafy cover.
She uses it keep around her tasks, her ideas, and sometimes her own fictional stories, she has been working on an adventure genre story inspired by her team for several moons now, today she is doodling on the notebook, well if you live with the most famous artist of your land, you probably learned a lot regarding how to draw, would you?
Meanwhile with Ryaine
“Well, don’t worry about it, it’s not going to be very long, I’ll get back before anyone notice”
Ryaine is currently inside a crater, collecting a shiny luminous substance into a glass jar, much to anyone’s knowledge, he was already out pretty much the second everyone went in their tent and took a half an hour walk towards the site following the movement of his vial
“Well, this is already all I can get from the crater, it’s a good yield for what’s it’s worth and rarity, better get to the camp now, Lyra would missed me”
Ryaine then went to the crater’s edge and scale out of the site, and plans to backtrack back to his camp, lucky that he already records the direction he takes,
“Well, another left and right and we are done.”
“…”
“This feels way too safe…”
Ryaine looks around twice
“It’s above me?”
He looks up, nothing on him
“Below?”
Not below him either
“Well probably paranoia, better get there fast, am I right?”
“Yeah definitely”
“Good, well I am-”
“Wait…”
“Well, fuc-”
Ryaine quickly make a dash back to his tent, with the beast following behind him, he makes jumps, quick dodges and the both-party-stops-for-a-moment-to-pant-and-quickly-chases-again thing, with his glowing jar lighting up the way, meanwhile back at the camp
“…zzz…”
Vi has fallen asleep next to the campfire, notebook on hand.
Meanwhile back with Ryaine
“F*ck, f*ck, f*ck-”
Back to Vi again, the grounds beside her starts shaking and wakes her up a bit
“Ugh… Leif, I am-”
“Oh, a dream, and some rumbling…”
“Wait, rumbling, f*ck, the beast is coming”
Vi then tries to get back at her tent
Meanwhile back with Ryaine, he is now beside the campfire, trying to deal with the beast
“RAWRRR”
“Well, still as loud as I remember”
Meanwhile back at Vi, she is now responding to Ryaine… wait a minute, how can she respond back, if she… right, Vi didn’t make it to her tent and witnessed the beast herself and its very loud roaring, reminiscence of the Primal Weevil roars mixed with Deadlander screeches
“Oh f*ck, Ryaine that’s the f*cking beast?!”
“…a little help here, would be nice”
The Beast encounter
Set:
Starts with Ryaine in the front, Vi in the back, Items disabled, turn relay disabled and spying disabled, the battle ends with Vi reaching 0 HP
Track played: “???” (Deadlander assault theme), track 79 by Tristan Alric
Ryaine (Playable stats)
HP: 35, Defence: 2
Basic attack:
Slash: 6 damage + 1 piecing, attacks by timing a button press like Chompy’s attack
Skills:
Charged strike: 10 damage + 1 piecing, attacks by holding down like Kabbu’s heavy strike
(3 TP)
Defend: Protects Vi for a turn, taking half the damage she would have gotten otherwise
(2 TP)
Heal: Heal itself or its allies for 12 HP
(3 TP)
The Beast
HP: 200, Defence: 5
Special:
Scripted to use a KO strike after turn 8
When one of the character falls, the battle ends
Moves:
Slap: does 12 damage
Rush: Does 7 damage to all party
Charge: Roars for a turn and gets charged
KO strike: Roars and does 99 damage to the front and middle party, only does so after a specific trigger
““RAWRRR”
“Ugh… it’s soo strong…”
“Hang tight Vi…”
Ryaine then pulls out a second sword and slash the beast with it
“RAAWRRR”
“It’s effected, Vi get-”
“[Stab noise]”
“Ryaine!!”
“[Crashing sound and glass shattering noises]”
“Urgh…dammit”
“RAWRRR”
“What is that noise, COULDN’T YOU-”
“Oh, F*CK”
“RAWRRR”
“AHH”
Mothiva awaken by the several very loud roars, went to check outside and see the beast outside near her tent, understandably she quickly panic in fear and went cuddle Vi who is also in fear as well
“[sword slashing sound]”
“RAAAWRRR”
“Maki, thank goodness you’re here”
“Get that motherf*cking monster of a beast out of here, I can’t die here alone”
“Same…”
“Kina get Ryaine some medical attention, I’ll deal with the beast”
“Maki… use the sword… it effects it”
“Jeez why did Maki think I should be a nurse when I am more than capable of helping him”
“Thanks… regardless… Kina”
Maki then uses the sword and slash the Beast with it, it roared for its last time and run away from the camp
“Is the beast are gone?”
“Yeah… it already ran away”
“Phew we are still alive”
“Yeah, that could be worse-”
“…”
“Vi, get off me”
“Well, I was scared, you were too”
“NO, YOU WERE”
“NO, YOU WERE”
“NO-”
“Please, everyone calm down”
“…yes?”
“We just had a run in with the beast, we should make sure everyone is doing safe and fine, I’ll check the surrounding, the rest of you check the inside of the tents”
“Kay”
“Fine, I guess”
Everyone then went to do their duties, Vi went to her tent and fine, Kabbu, Leif and Chompy still sleeping soundly
“COME ON NOW, that many roars and literally none of them wakes up, HOW DID-”
“Oh, heavy sleeper badge…”
Meanwhile at Mothiva’s tent
“ZASP HOW THE HECK YOU STILL ASLEEP-”
“Oh, WHY YOU WERE EATING MY-’
Meanwhile at Maki’s tent
“p-please h-help me m-Maki, there is a scary roar”
“Don’t worry Yin, I’ll protect you from any danger”
Meanwhile at Gen and Eri’s tent
“Last tent, I guess I’ll check it-”
“AHHH”
“Get away from us you monster”
“GEN, ERI, THE MONSTER ALREADY LEFT”
“Oh, Kina, well guess we’re fine Eri”
“Yup Gen”
“Ugh… why did they both even come along with us”
Meanwhile on Ryaine
“Well, seems like everything is fine- huh?”
Ryaine saw a shiny, luminous clump on the ground, he went to check it out
“Well must be the substance, well the jar broke, guess I’ll get a new jar-”
“Hey Ryaine, found something?”
“Nothing important, …I just finished checking, everything is fine”
“…Ryaine why are you stuttering”
“What do you mean”
“From what I learn from living you for 3 years, you never stutter even in stressful condition, that would mean you either hiding something from me or trying to make a lie against me”
“Well fine, I just found more SEM matter around the campsite, I am going to go and store it somewhere”
“Oh ok”
Ryaine then went to his tent and puts the substance in a wrapped box as he ran out of jars, everyone then went to the campfire
“Ok everyone, what did you find”
“A heavy sleeper badge”
“A missing drowsy cake”
“Two very paranoid Ants”
“Nothing important”
“Well good then, I also didn’t find anything important, we’re very likely to be safe, we also probably should go back to bed, we have a long day ahead of us”
“Ok then”
Everyone then went into their tents and went to sleep, except Vi who still can’t sleep very well, she decided to force herself into the middling portion of the bed, due to heavy sleeper badge, neither Leif nor Kabbu woke up even when they got thrown off to the less comfortable soil. It is a long day for the expedition team and a rest is more than deserved here, with the beast and all.
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2024.05.21 04:05 UMNmaster 33[M4F] #Minnesota - Looking for a serious relationship that leads to marriage, etc.

I'm an established guy with a house and all that jazz, but the only thing I haven't found is a wife. I'm looking for a woman that wants to get married and have kids once we've gotten to know each other well enough. I'd prefer a housewife to raise our kids, but I can be flexible on that.
As for me, I'm a software engineer and fairly nerdy. I like board and video games as well as dissecting media rather than just mindlessly consuming it. I have a dog named Rex, and you'll see plenty of pictures of him. Reach out if you're potentially interested and we can exchange pictures.
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2024.05.21 04:02 Aitch3 Looking for OLD advice

I'm (45m) looking for advice on how to better utilize dating apps. I very strongly get the impression that I'm not the typical male user of dating apps. For starters, I'm ND and Demi, I read through everything in a profile, usually twice, before swiping right.
I'm pretty sure I need to get some better photos, and more recent ones, but I'm terrible at selfies, and don't normally have pictures taken of myself. I read through the FAQs and comments, and I don't have any of the types of photos that are just about unanimously bad (no fish, no icky bathrooms, no muscle shirts or posing in bed).
I'm not sure if I need to update or work on the text portions of my profiles. I think in general it does a decent job of showing who I am, and would be appealing to the kind of women that I would be interested in. I very much think that I need to change my method of introducing myself, on apps that do that. From what I hear, women almost always get inundated with messages, most of which have no substance. But I can spend way to long trying to come up with something to say that will actually illicit a response, but I think only once has somebody responded to me messaging them.
Not to say I haven't had any luck with apps. My last relationship started from an app, and lasted for a bit over a year, I'm still good friends with her. I just learned from that relationship that I'm really not an ENM kind of guy. Which is kinda weird since pretty much all of my close friends are. That's part of why I'm looking for advice elsewhere.
I've been doing what I can to go out and meet new people, but being ND it's not the easiest thing for me to do. One of the Apps I use is Hiki, which is specifically designed for ND people, but it's nowhere near as commonly used as other apps.
I would appreciate any advice, or if anybody is really keen on dissecting my profile, I would be glad to share it in a private conversation.
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2024.05.21 03:50 emther01 Abraham has had quite the journey from adoption (first picture) to today (last picture). He's gaining muscle, and I can finally see his adorable ears. I'm so glad that I decided to take the chance on him. He deserves it. ♥️

Abraham has had quite the journey from adoption (first picture) to today (last picture). He's gaining muscle, and I can finally see his adorable ears. I'm so glad that I decided to take the chance on him. He deserves it. ♥️ submitted by emther01 to RATS [link] [comments]


2024.05.21 03:04 bpdxgoddessxcomplex My family actually sucks

I grew up in a small town in south Mississippi. My mom and dad were only married for nine months, two years after I (27f) was born. I have an older sister (29f). My mom and dad split up and both of them always had mixed answers when I would always ask. My mom would tell me that my dad was a drug addict and she came home to him nodded out while he was supposed to be watching my sister and I. My dad would tell me that my mom cheated on him with my childhood stepdad. Before my step dad was my step dad, he was my grandmother's long term boyfriend. My mother slept with him and he ended up marrying her. Problem was, he was a registered sex offender. He served seven years in prison for sexual assault of a child under thirteen, ten years before he met my grandmother. My mom and dad then made a custody arrangement, my dad would have full custody of my sister, and my mom would have full custody of me. We got alternating weekends once we got a little older, but my sister and I were raised very differently. My step dad was a very evil man. He abused my mother, and he abused me in every way possible, for many years until i stood up to him. My grandmother on my mom's side had three daughters, my mom, and my two aunts. My grandmother on my fathers side had three sons. At one point, my aunt was staying with my uncle and my grandmother after she left an abusive marriage. They hooked up a few times, but ultimately she went back to her abusive husband. She ended up pregnant, and still says that he is her now ex husband's son. However, I cannot help but see the uncanny resemblance of my uncle every time I look at him. None of my aunts or uncles, neither of my parents, none of my cousins, not even my sister graduated high school. So it was a HUGE deal when I graduated high school and community college. Every adult in my life was in some sort of abusive relationship, or toxic. They would cheat on one another, do heavy drugs,etc. but none of them ever had and held a job of any type, other than one uncle who has been working in the same grocery store for thirty years. I had no role models growing up, I was abused and my mother allowed it. She married a sex offender, knowing she had a young daughter. The older that i get, the more I resent my mother for that. How could she? Every family member stayed in Mississippi, got married young and had several children. They are all very conservative, yee-haw, southern baptist, rebel flag flying rednecks.
College truly changed my life. It changed my mindset on so many things and made me realize that there is a whole world out there. I got into a "serious" relationship when I was eighteen. He was a raging drug addict with a list of mental disorders, seventh grade dropout. But that was what I knew. He was abusive. He isolated me, financially abused me by making me get fired from every job i had, mentally and emotionally abused me, etc. I lived with him and his parents for two and a half years. During that time, he had been arrested on Christmas morning, 5150'd twice, diagnosed with Antisocial Personality disorder (sociapathy), and dropped out of college. I stayed so that i could complete college, then I planned on leaving. None of my family has a stable home. The ones that do have stable homes are covered in filth such as mouse droppings, roaches, animal feces, etc. so i feared i had nowhere to go and i felt stuck. But I finally left. I slept on my sister's sofa or in my mom's spare room, but i was deeply depressed more than ever. I finally took a huge risk and moved to New Orleans on a whim. I packed up everything i owned into a suitcase and a backpack, I bought a one way train ticket and told myself I have nothing to lose but everything to gain. I've grown and evolved so much since,and I am truly happy I left Mississippi and got my life together.
Since moving to New Orleans and evolving into a better person, most of my family no longer liked who I was. Cutting off most of my family members and no longer caring what they think has made me so much happier and stronger. I do still talk with my mom and sister, my grandmother, two aunts and 3 cousins. My mom ignores me most of the time and never calls or reaches out to me, ever. She lives in an old trailer that is literally falling apart, infested with roaches and mice, mold and mildew growing everywhere, and cigarette smoke that sticks in the air with no circulation. She goes out of town (a few hours away to the delta) with her fiance and stays in a camper during the week most of the time. She has MS and a shopping list full of other illnesses and ailments, but keeps taking herself off of all her medications except her pain and heart medications. My mom used to be so clean and would never allow our house to be less than clean, and actually went out to town on her own for shopping or parks or zoos. She never goes anywhere now. She stays in her trailer or the camper constantly, except around christmas time, then she will go shopping. She is also a compulsive liar and loves to get attention from the family by faking illnesses and injuries. My sister lives in a double wide trailer in the middle of nowhere, on her farm. She is completely happy being a stay at home mom with her son, but I can tell she resents our baby cousin that she adopted from our older cousin, who lost custody of all three of her children because she is a drug addict and would let them go days without eating, or would leave her young, autistic children at home alone for extended periods of times. My sister ended up with the oldest child, who never saw a day of actual schooling until she ended up with my sister. She is eleven, and she is finally getting to first grade education levels. My sister and her husband scream at her for every little thing she does wrong or forgets to do. They send her to her room and won't let her out to play most of the time. My sister also has a TON of dogs and cats. She has some of her dogs in a fence behind her trailer, that never get interacted with and never leave the fenced area. She has some dogs that live in kennels covered in feces, only let out once or twice a day to use the bathroom. She has a few small dogs that she favors who are inside dogs and don't live in a crate, but she never takes them to a vet, they are covered in fleas and infested with worms. She says she only has cats to keep the rats away from her farm, so she has several fertile cats at all times, who constantly reproduce, run away, get run over, or eaten by a wild animal. I recently took a Snowshoe Siamese kitten from her, she found five kittens inside her walls. She gave one away, I took one and quickly worked to get rid of fleas and worms and got all her vaccines, two passed away young, and she planned on keeping one. When she would send me pictures of her kitten, it was so dirty and you could see the fleas from the photos. I felt so sad for her. Yesterday, my sister told me that kitten died and it hit me so hard. She would have been a beautiful cat, but she was neglected to death. No one in my family graduated high school or had any kind of fulfilling career. All of my aunts and my mother were all in abusive relationships, but they were completely dependent on their husband bc they are all stay at home wives. even now.
I had no positive role models. I never saw what a healthy relationship looked like, I was never pushed and encouraged to make something of myself and evolve. I was ridiculed for leaving Mississippi and told "you'll be back in less than a year."
Somehow I managed to make it. Now I have a fancy corporate job, making good money, with my own apartment, car, etc. I've never had a relationship that wasn't abusive, toxic, and terrible. I'm constantly terrified that i'm still toxic and bad. I'm afraid to allow my boyfriend to get too close or move in with me because i'm afraid that i will become dependent on him.
Anyways, my family sucks and I could have ended up like all of them, but something inside of me wanted more and a better life. This is the rant. Thanks for reading if you make it this far.
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