Ma chele choti

Maile chai last year boards deko ho ani baira apply garne bhanera last ma kei ni ramro bhayena ani time ekdamai dherai waste bhaisakyo. Maile ielts pani disake ani overall ramrai aayo (7.5) ani ielts deko ni 1 year huna lagisakyo. So the thing is nothing is going according to my plan ani I'm feeling very lost like k garne k nagarne bhairako chha. Ani main kura is malai baira jane bhanda ni cabin crew ma ekdamai dherai interest chha. 7 8 padhda dekhi nai ekdamai icchya thiyo tara mero ghar ko kasaile ni malai support nagarne bhayeko le I chose to try for abroad studies ani aaile mero condition dekhera I don't think ma baira jana sakchu plus I get homesick really easily. Malai aaile feri air hostess tira ekdamai interest bhairako chaa I mean already nai thiyo tara was just suppressing it for the sake of my family. My mom is the only one who supports me yo cabin crew wala line ma and my father is absolutely against this field. Aaile dekhi haina school padhda dekhi nai maile dherai choti manauna try garey tara nothing is working. I'm deciding to go against his will ani training lera air hostess ko lagi apply garne sochirako chhu ani padhai pani sangai garne sochirako chhu even though ma sanga lifetime nabolnu hola. Yei barey sochera ekdamai dherai roisake ani yo type garda gardai ni ma roirako chu LOL. I don't know k garum should I go against him and chase my dreams or should I give up everything and do as he says.. (They're calling me downstairs for discussion gtg I'll update later please pray for me)

Rant about green flag kt.
Green forest kt
Also Noone has proposed to one another yet We just in dating phase, not in relationship 🤷🏼‍♂️
Continuation...
So as usual hami tya bhaktapur bata wednesday farkyem ghar. Then we chatted for a while and she continuously requested me to rant about her and so whats I did. But she was expecting a roast lol Haha. Thursday, i was busy with college assignments so we didnt talk that much haiii but she called me on my mobile and we talked for a lil bit and we came up with a plan to go to pulchowki this saturday. Friday mero international student eligibility scholarship ko lagi naxal ma interview thiyo so tya gako they. Thikai vayo interview ani ma ghar ayera sute.
Ani tespaxi baneshwor ghumna niske ma college mates vetna like bato ma she called me and we were on phone the whole time in bus, bla bla kura vo ani i found it funny when she asked aru kt lai vetna ta gairachainau ni and eben apologised to me if she was sounding desperate for attention, anyways ma khayera farke around 7. So, friday is club night for me and bois. So as usual my best friend said club jam vanera but i denied yesterday because club gaye vane hiking jana mildaina vanera, sathi pheri risayo ma sanga, hike ma tyo ni auna wala plan thiyo but ma club jana namanera risayo u ani audina vanyo. So at last, we decided, she and i will go alone.
Tara u sanga kunai ramro luga thena hike ma lagaune vanthyo soo i said chinta naliga, i will bring one t-shirt for you merai lagau. And she agreed. Teii 7 baje samma Sato bato pugam vanera plan banaye ani halka chat garera sutyem. Uslai pheri nidra lagenaxa 12 baje and she had had messaged me lol but ma nidayi sakera herina. Mero ni ankha 4:56 ma khulyo ani ma fresh vayera ani uslai uthauna call gare(personal alarm things) ani tespaci Dubai jana ready vayera 6 baje tira afno afno ghar bata niskem.
Ma chadai pugeko they so,tya i bought some bananas and snacks to munch on because why not. 🤷🏼‍♂️ Ani tespaxi tyo ni ayoo, saw her from distance, waved hi andbwe hugged and i was standing there like a stud holding ek darjan kera.😂 and she was like kasle khanxa yetro thulo thulo kera which i found funny. Anyways she complimented that i looked cute today banera Soo hamii micro chadyem
ani me being chalak as i am, bought earphone instead of air pods so that we can share it in a romantic way. Ek earphone do atma moment vayo for next 30min or so. Hahaha aba hera mero mobile ma matra dik chik song (the script, post molane, drake, lil baby, rammstein, pink flyod shits) haru matra thiyo so she wasn't really impressed with my music taste balla talla photograph vane euta romantic song vetyo tyo sunyo majale othrr than that i felt she tolerated listening to my favourite songs. I really glad that I didn't play Travis Scott songs to her though. (By the Travis Scott is fucking legend)
Tespaxi, pugem, we bought snacks and some drinks and around 8 pm hidyem mathi. Uslai pheri yad ayo she has to take her medicines, so we stopped at nearby bhati looking hotel for chiya and sel. She ordered black tea and I ordered milk tea. She wanted to dip her sel in my jutho chiya ani she asked if she can try. And she drank my jutho chiya brooooo what😭😭 mero siblings ra cousins le ni das choti socha houuu. Teii aba khayera hidyem. Then i remembered that i bought her t-shirt and i showed her that, she was looking fine af already but she still wanted to wear mine. Najik ko hotel ma gayera change garyo and it was suiting her well.
Anii teii Guff gardai hidira them. Ekdam jiskera. Also she wore my jacket lol. Bichma basera couple wala photography ni garem also ek arka ko roast pani hanira them. Vro laughed at my dumbest jokes yrrr. Lolol lamest jokes possible. J hos ramailo nai vaira thiyo. We were listening to romantic songsz talking about past experiences, and sharing opinions. Just idk i wanted to prank my ex gf which she somehow agreed for, but network nai milena lol. Tespaxi we sat and ate chips tyo ni tesle malai afnai hath le khuwayo, so cuteeeeeee haha. Jhan afai euta khane, malai 3-4 wota ekchoti khuwaune like a child. Haha. It was cute though. We then again clicked pictures, rested. Ani teii jiskera basira them. About nonsense stuffs literally. Bato ma she was like playing with my hair ani maile ni usko tanira they kapal. Harek kura ma rich kid Rich kid Banera malai jiskaira thiyo tho which was halka annoying.
Literally hath ma hath samayera hidira them haha. Looked cute haha. Asked one uncle to click our couple pictures and it came out cute. Ma chor jasto dekhira chu vanira they, to Which she said, that i look good and i have good or say decent fashion sense Alsoo teii usko crush ko nam ni samw merai ho which i found halka weird but it's true. Tespaxi weather suddenly change vayo, ani pani parna thalyo.
Do jaan, ek umbrella moment vayo hamro. Cuddle garyem anii listened to romantic songs like mila ho tumse, aye ho zindagi me, rabata bala bala. Nachdai rain ma gayira them alsoo singing with our chateko bora voice We still continued the journey despite rain. Anii like ma bato ma thadai hidxu soo she wss like tmi side laga chup chap and scolded me lol ki tmlai kei vayo vane, ma k garne (flirting way ma) haha which I found cute. Tespaxi vir chada ni u agadi hidne ani malai paxadi bata tanera lagnii it was cute. Alsooo like ma bolna like chup chap basyo vane ni like sodhni where are u lost, k sochira testo testo, basically attention chaira thiyo lol. Alsooo like mero lagi chata ni samatyo and like maile eta aau uta auu Vanda ni testai manii. Teii ek arka ko pura billa udaira them belabela ma.
Tespaxi like 1 bajna lako thiyo so ajai 2hrs journey baki thiyo so we decided to return without reaching mathi samma. Bato ma testaii, hath ma hath samayera hidira them alsoo like maile chorna bitikai tesle kehi minutes pachi afai tyo hath samauthiyo which I found so cuteee. More couple pictures lim testai testai. Khadai ramaudaii ghumyem. Alsoo we talked about dark secrets also.. by the way, like she was so considerate k. Tyo jacket layera ako thena, so i gave her mine but bela bela ma she gave me to wear it chiso lagxa tmlai Banera lagau. Alsooo saman haru ni samaidira thiyo. Alsooo bela bela gentleman gentleman Banera malai jiskaira thiyo lol.
Coincidentally pulchowki hiking bato ma tesko school friends le dekhyo hamlai cuddle gardai also hath samaudai ani uslai jiskiyo halka so for sometimes she became sad jasto but pachi pheri mood fresh vayo anii teii pheri ramrari bolna thalem. Halka gham lageko thiyo tyo bela, soo we clicked more pics anii teii Guff gardai hidira thiyem. Ek arka lai herdai smile gardai, dank jokes crack gardai tala jharyam. Alsoo like i said tmi tmlaima dependent ma lagxu bahira chinta naleuu jiskeea. To which she was like yes yes malai laga lol
(Kunai kunai incident yad airaxaina) Tara it was cute moments together. Literally i couldn't believe we were meeting for the second time.
Tespaci gadi chadyem ani lagankhel gayem. Gadi ma she was sleeping on my shoulders. Cuteeeee haha. Lagankhel to durbar square, jada i bought her two jhumkas. Tespaxii patan ma rooftop lasa something something ma basem anii enjoyed momo pizza testai ani pay garne bela she didn't let me pay even if i was insisting i will pay. Literally 1000+ ko bill thiyo and she paid. Ani tespaxi i wanted to buy a ring lkina vane i lost my ring mathi hike Garda kheri anii instead she bought us matching bracelets which was cute but 300 houuu, costly lol.
Tespaci we went to have coffee in Himalayan java coffee for which i paid Clicked cute little mirror selfies. Drank coffees. Teslai mero coffee khanu man thiyo soo she again drank my jutho by asking if i can try. Enjoyed the view ani teii Guff gaff garem. Ramailo vayo ta ekchin basera. Was finally like we are back to real world after getting lost in the woods.
Tespaxi hamii farkida coincidentally lalitpur ma jatra raixa soo tyo heryam buttt literally it was so crowded lol. Uslai bacha jasto samatera anii protect garera literally tanira they from crowd like escaping game jasto. By the way, i love newari culture and cuisine. Anii testaii lagankhel pugem. Uslai bus ma chadaye ani we hugged for the last time and departed. By the way, she took my shirt and new jacket again. Mero wardrobe chorxa ki kya ho.
Bato bhari i was thinking about today memories. It was soooo fun houuuu. Literally hardly 18 hrs time spend garyo hola asti ani ajako milayera but i feeel like i have known her from so many years.
Maile ajako kati payw kura ani incidents haru chutaira xu buttt seriously kati wota cute cute moments thiyo ajaa ta hahaha sochda kheri ni blush garxu hahaha.
Are we stuck in rom com movie?
Excited for the next meet. What future holds for us?

TLDR: I went on a blind date with a fuckboi I met on bumble and he tried to pressure me into having sex with him despite me saying I wasn't interested in hook ups before the date and saying no multiple times during.
I'm usually picky about who I meet/go on dates with, so most of my date experiences have been alright but there are times when I lose my ability to think, become impulsive and put myself in dangerous situations and this is one of those times.
I matched with him on bumble, he had a fake profile which I clocked immediately and swiped right on him to let him know about it. but after talking to him, he sounded fun so I kept texting and after texting for like 3 days, he asked me out. now, this is where I would've asked him to add me on socials first or atleast talk for a few more weeks before meeting if I were in my right mind but I was feeling "adventurous" and for some reason I thought, "you know what would be fun when you're not doing mentally okay? going on a blind date with a guy you've barely texted for 3 days". so I said yes but I did let him know that I wasn't interested in hooking up and not to waste his time if that's what he's looking for since his profile said "looking for something casual". he responded with, "yeah, it's okay. let's see where it goes." so i thought he got the hint and wouldn't bring up anything sexual on the date and I was gonna have so much fun meeting a stranger but boi was I very wrong and in for a huge disappointment.
so the date. we hadn't even exchanged phone numbers or our names for that matter so I texted him on bumble when I arrived at the place. I thought he ghosted me after waiting for 15 minute(when I was 15 minutes late myself lmao) and he was nowhere to be found but then he arrived. he looked decent, dressed well and smelled really nice so I briefly found him attractive but soon as he opened his mouth, I lost all the attraction. ekdam forced English accent. ma tyo accent sunna nasakera nepali ma reply dinchu, usle feri English ma jawaf dincha. maile use gareko English words feri kei pani bujhdaina clearly nepali accent ma bhanda pani. text garda ta thikai bolya jasto lagthyo k ho yesto bhairathe.
la jj bhayeni suru ko 30 minutes ta thikai thyo, ek arka ko introduction, interests and stuff. tespachi keto le true colors dekhauna thalyo. he brought up my body count first which I was obviously not comfortable sharing with him so told him that. tespachi ekchin topic change ani feri estai sexual question. ani maile dodge garna khoje pani ghumai firai tetai jaane. ma uncomfortable ani ali ali scared bhaisakya thye and I just wanted to get out of there. bathroom jaanchu bhanera ghost hannu parne tara mero people pleasing habit le diyena. so I just started giving him one word answers ekdam unenthusiastically. tei pani testai kura garna khojiracha ajhai. ani maile "maile timilai bhetnu agadi nai hook up ma interested chaina bhaneko thye, kina tei kura lyaira ghari ghari" bhane and bro literally went, "but I thought I could convince you".
consent ko lagi ajhai pani "convince" garchan ra bhanne sochera what the fuck bhaye ekchhin. ani jigyasa laagera sodhey pani "hook up ma interested nabhako manche lai lyayera yesari nagging garera convince ni hunchan ra?" bhanera ani he responded with "koi hunchan, koi hudainan". kasto keti haru le sex garchan hau esto keta haru lai bhanera ekchin danga nai parey. aafai boast ni garirathyo body count bare 30+ bhandai. testo charismatic sarismatic KEI thiyena feri.
maile remind garayepachi ekchin topic change garyo ani feri ghumai firai tetai tira jaana thalyo. 2-3 choti yesto garepachi sarhai bhayo bhanera "NO! stop it!" bhane. aba chai masanga kei hudaina bhanne confirm bhayesi chai mobile chalayera basna thalyo lmao. bich bich ma ali ali conversation gare jasto ni garthyo. malai insta magirathyo, ma bhutro ni dinna bhanera insta nai chaina bhandiye. tespachi food aayo, malai bhok lagirathyo. khayera jasari ni taap hanchu bhanne sochey. "yaha ko food ramro cha hai" bhandai kura nikalna thalyo ani maile "ahh" bhane and he goes "yaha tala hotel pani cha, hamro hook up huncha ki bhanera yaha bolako" re. "muji" bhanirathe man manai tara bahira bhanna sakina. ma uncomfortable bhako bhayera pani khako khai thiye so he asked why I was drinking so much. "ahh pani dherai nai khanchu ma. timilai khana man lagdaina especially w food?" bhanera sodhey and he responded with "nope. you know malai k khana man lagiracha? kiss. can we atleast kiss" bhanera feri kura nikalna thalyo. aba chai atti bho bhanera thulai swor ma "STOP, NOTHING IS HAPPENING" bhandiye ani balla chup lagyo muji. ani chito chito khayera niski haale ma. bill split garne bhanera paisa nikale, mandai manena. thikai ho tara atleast paisa ta waste bhayena mero.💀
I haven't gone on any dates after that lmao. ajhai time lagcha hola recover huna. ajha without consent chhoko bhaye ta k haal hunthyo hola mero. so girlies, don't be like me. be really picky about who you meet/go on dates with AT ALL TIMES and don't hesitate to leave abruptly if you're feeling uncomfortable because esari coerce garna khojne le without your consent chhuna pani sakchha/could do worse things to you.
be safe!

Ma aasti bharkhar 10,12 barsa paxi gau jadai thiye aahile samma 2 choti matra gau gako xu . bato mai gadi bigriyo ani maile gau ko relative lai lina bolaye ani uhale aali oora samma hiidai aaija ma yeta bata lina aauxu vannu vayo.Ma hiidai gaye sunsan bato thiyo jungle thiyo eekxin paxi lina aaunu vayo , gau pugne bittikai malai eekasi joro aayo testo joro keile aako thiyena j khada pani teti belai vomit hune pani khada pani vomit hune vairathyo ani ma eekdamai aatiye ra health post laijanus vaney ( gau ma hospital xaina ) eekjana aarko relative le talai masan lagyo hola ma jhar fuk gardinxu sancho hunxa vannu vayo. suru ma ta maile manina tara teini sancho vayena vaney laijanxu vannu vayo teti bela samma mero situation serious vaisakya thiyo and then he starts citing some mantra ani nidhar ma kharani lagaidinu vayo anii fuuu garnu vayo . uuhale fuu garne bittikai malai mero joro sancho vayk vomit ni sancho vayo 1 second mai sab thik vaihalyo ma aachama parey ma sanga keile yesto vako thiyena . maile yo sab kasari garxan vanera sodhha ta paadh khurukhuru yesto kura sikne hoina vannu hunxa . yedi kasailai yo bhoot preth k ho kasari yo possible xa thaxa vaney please enlight me.

i passed my +2 2012 ma...sarai psychology padhna maan thiyo, sanai dekhi it was my dream...but family and friends suggested(compelled) me...na padh,scope chaina...ani i just went with the flow just like a dead fish....joined IT...was doing well, testo ramro ni haina ma padhai ma..average thiye, still chu....11 class ma ma rusticated bhako thiye, dherai kura haru le garda..tara i passed akkai choti... 8 class ma i smoked a joint for the first time, this was back in 2008.. tara not for long..2 3 months ig....tara from 2011 i've been smoking more than a pack of cigarettes every day.....ma trekking dherai janchu,,,like 3 times a year minimum...ahilay samma testo health problem kehi ako chaina;luckily....tara i was diagnosed with bipolar when i was 15 years old and been taking mood stabilizers since...doc says i've to take it life bhari...fast forward few years 2012 bata...IT join gare pachi, 2 sem dekhi i stared doing a job...garnu parne thena tara khai i just needed extra money to do drugs so my main motive for earning was to do drugs...ani auta point ma atti bhayo ani finals aunu bhanda 6 mahina agadi i admitted myself into a rehab...kasailay jabarjasti ja bhaneko thena malai..i just wanted to change..so i did...i still dont have a bachelors degree...2015 to 2021 i was sober...never took a drop of alcohol or any other substances...i had a girlffriend when i was 17 years old..it lasted for 6 years..ghar ma aune jane sabbai hunthiyo teti khera dekhi nai...tara testai k k bhayo...hami chutiyem...uu bidesh gayo without even telling me,...break up bhako 1 mahina ma bihe garera...now she is divorced with a kid...karma hola sala...tespachi i never fell for anyone...tara i was and still addicted to sex...sex and drugs...6 barsa i was sober..tara sex ma chai i was addicted..still am...2021 ma i lost my sister whom i cared and had deep regards and always put above me..uslai kehi bhayoo bhane malai pain hune jastai thiyo...i could not cope that...we were inseparable,family never wanted us to be together..yini haru sngai bhayo bhane na sutchan na khanchan guff nai matra garera baschan....j hoss..i was a father figure to her, an idol as one may say...tara i lost her...then i started using again 2021 ma....yetti dhereai khaye ki i lost all my savings and earnings...i earn good enough;still..enough to sustain me and my family....tara tyo period ma i was earning even more, kina ki i needed drugs...and the price was high...alik besi nai high..i started working day and night...khane high hune ani kaam garne just for the money to drugs...i just wanted to numb myself anytime..could not cope that my sister was gone forever...after 2 years hoss ayo...i forgot about her...hoss nai thena 2 barsa yaad ta kaha bata aoos....ani to quit drugs i could not do it myself ani no one knew ki i was using again...everyone sees me as a cheerful guy, but only i know ki how bad of a guy i am....its kind of impossible to quit after 2 years of continuous abusing that thing...so i went for methadone treatment...tapered it quite fast...like 6 months mandatory khanu parthiyo tara i have this strong will, which i feel lucky to have...mailay less than 5 months ma tapper garera methadone ni chode...ani being sober for almost 6 months hola..i had this nightmare about my sister...feri reality hit hard...i promised myslef.. last aak choti khanchu ani i'll never do it again.. tara being an addict sanai dekhi ani on top of that being mentally unstable...again tehi phase start bhayo...drugs and meaningless sex....just to cope with..which is an excuse; i can rationalize that part... ani about a month ago.. auta kt ko abortion garnu paryo, worst part i dont know mero ho ki haina...kina ki she has a boyfriend too...ani being a rich spoiled girl..24 ki 25 age ho...she asked me for money natra ghar ayera tamasa gardinchu bhanna thalyo...mailay abort ni garidiye ani paisa ni magyo as a compensation re...tyo ni diye....i dont even remember having sex with her ma tetti high thiye,,later found out ki even she did not know usko bf ko baccha thiyo ki mero ani sala shyal kt, testo dhani bhayera...bf sanga ni paisa magecha,,,ma sanga ni..ani usko 2nd abortion raicha tyo...stri charitra daiba na jane...testai testai life chalirako cha, i really have a nice happy life/family.. tara ma chai atti naramro bhaye.. saabb lai khusi parna khojchu, chahine bhanda dherai responsibility linchu and i am quite good at it too..tara addiction is killing me....last 8 days malai 2 din biteko jasto lageko cha..tara 8 din bitecha...i even dont know k k khaye ko ko sanga gaye, k k gare....katti lai jepayo tehi bhane... i lost my friends, brother yo 8 din ma ani i dont know the reason...mailay k k bhane hola jhagada paryo hola..i just have these txts that i dont recall typing...lost as in the sense..relationship bigyo...now i have literally no one to share my feelings with..i am empty..ani going through withdrawals;severe withdrawals....yesterday, i tried to hang myself, tara my dog saved me...khai kasari tha bhayo teslai...mero dhoka agadi ayera bhukeko bhukai garyo, scratch gareko garai garyo..ani baba mamu curious bhayera dhoka dhyan dhyang hanna thalnu bhayo khol khol bhanera...i hid the rope but could not hide my tears...they did not suspect i was literally about to hang myslef...tara they cried ani i realized ki i was doing a bad thing,...not only i was about to kill myslef ki i was about to emotionally murder my parents.......aba i dont know what to do...k garne kaso garne...kaslai bhanne.......i feel nothing..i cut different part of my leg yo sochera ki physical pain bhayo bhane mental pain jancha bhanera, tara jadaina raicha,,,...ma pagal huna atisake...so this is it.....i have nothing more to say...thank you for reading, kasailay padhyo bhane,, yetro lamo post ma padhdina thiye hola...tara kasailay padhyo bhane thank you for you time...be well...have a happy life...thank you

So the thing is maile headphone lyako 1.5 years vathyo , ani ghara aauda babalai vanethye headphone banauna parni vacha vanera ,maile afai gayera banayera lyauchu vanda diyena, ani afai gayo lera, ani 1 ghanta ma farkesi, chichyayera, he made me fucking feel like shit, literally testo minor chij thyo yar, esto chichyayera tharkayo, literally, Kei vako thena headphone, battery fulleko thyo, dherai vathyo lyako so, ani care garni haina kei chij ko, lauda lassan, La vanyo thikai cha, sustari vaneko vaye k hunthyo yarr, Yo matra haina, Literally harek kura ma i feel like i am shit, J kura ma ni, i have been good in my academics always, ani ek choti naramro grades athyo ( not top wala) 11 ma, Teti bela samma i was good, Ani tyo result ma ni, prize pauthyo top garni students le, ani mero ramrai thyo marks, which i gave my best studies my ass off, but he was angry with me that, I didn't get the shit, after that mero confidence nai purai down vayo , padna padhe ajhai jhan abdi, tara, confident nai thena, Ani harek chij ma estai feel huncha, they never allowed me to do house chores, and still think i am a dumb fuck and cant handle any tthings, i fucking hate it , i an 21 years old, ani they are too much over controlling, aba 2 din ma ghar chodera ktm janchu, i will feel like heaven, I fucking hate my dad !!!!!!!; how do you guys deal with such situations??? Edit : i reread the entire thing written by me, and it got me confused reading my own english while j was writing this i was flowing in emotions, so don't go jnto english , understand the feeling

Purano geet haru sunyo vane kasto ramro hunxa like melodious hunxa, so many musical instruments are used to create melody But nowadays, mostly guitar use garxan and they make a song which sounds like shit ( sabai lai vanya hoina hai, exceptions are always there ). It might offend many people.
I feel like purano songs haru ma Open Throat Singing hunthyo tara ahile dherai lai Closed Throat Singing garnu parya xa. Teti matrai hora vanya singers haru ko aawaj ni ramro hunna.
I feel like todays singers are like guys next door who somehow sings. Old singers were a huge deal , i cant have a vocal like them no matter how much i try type ko feeling aauxa old songs sunda. Eg: Narayan Gopal,Udit Narayan Jha,Prem Dhoj Pradhan, Ram Krishna Dhakal, Nabin K Bhattarai, Rajesh Payal Rai, Raju Lama, they have extra-ordinary vocal and the composition of their songs were legendary.
One more thing, yesto sunanai nasakine singers ko geet ma 40/50/60 millions views aauni raixa. Ek choti khana banauni bela, geet bajhirathyo mobile ma, ani ahile ka naya geet bajhyo, and i listened to these songs and decided to never listened to these.

Kaile kai samjida thukka yesta *ug ni teacher hunxan jasto lagxa.Kura chai ma school padha kheri ko ho.Tapai daju/bhai haru teacher hunuhunxa bhane chai story padhera matra judge garnu hola tapai haru lai relevant nahuna sakxa kina bhane ahile student kutna paidaina.
I believe ki there are some days/occasions where you absolutely don't hit the students because its their day.Some examples maybe : 1.Picnic. 2.Tour. 3.Exam day 4.when actual teacher is absent and you are just filling his class.5.Sports meet.
I think you already know what i am gonna say so here it goes..
1.Picnic: Maile school ko picnic ma pitai khaye not just "oii k gareko patta putta". It was more like dooom.Reason: Picnic siddiyesi school bus chadna dila garyo bhanera.Picnic destination school bhanda *ug 20 min thada thiyo ani ma matra haina 6-7 jana thiem malai matra hanyo.
2.Tour:Rati ko 9:30 ma halla garyo hotel ko arulaii disturb garyo bhanera pitdira. *ug hotel ma hamro school ko student bhanda aru koi thiyena.Tour aako student rudai suteko ma.
3.Exam day:la op le exam ko din ni pitai khayo ta k bhaye raixa i know i know.Nepali ko exam thiyo ali sanai huda ho ani jindagi ma nadhekeko sabdha dhekhe ani sir lai sodhxu question sodha ta k bayo bhanne lagyo.Sir you सारांश bhaneko k ho bhanera sodhe.ug le "Nepali ko exam dina aako re सारांश bhaneko thaxaina then doom.
4.Aru teacher ko extra period handle gardai xa bhane ta kina pitna parxa k.Ajha jo teacher le pityo tyo teacher le padhauthena k.It was more like therapy is expensive but student kutna is free.Extra period ma aayera pitra ni gayo.
5.Sports day:BICHARA OP i know i know. Seniors haru ko long jump hudai thiyo.Tyo hunxa ni pace lina ko lagi area/ dhaudine bato tesma raixu ma.oii teha bata hat yeta uti milayera bhanne no sidhai aayera paile tyo calves ma hanyo ani teha dhuyera neuridha *ug le dhad ma hanyo.Yeti bessari hanyo ki pitai khayesi 10 class ko dai le samet "tesari ta nahaneko bhaye hunthyo yaar" bhanyo.Ani ma sports meet bata rudai ghar aayera sute.
So that's it.Lekhda kheri ni man nai kinna bayo.So teacher daju bhai haru kaile kai just remember ki tapai haru ni ek din student hunuhunthyo.Ani last ma cherry on the top hai guys.
Mathi ko sabai occasion ma student chai ma thiye ani teacher chai sabai occasion ko eutai ho.so *ug *uck you 1000 choti mar *atho.
P.s. : self study ma student lai uthauna canteen ma bottle pani bhayera deep freeze ma rakdinu hai bhanera dintho.Ani uthauna tei ice pani kanaidini.
Yo post jata ni rakhe hunxa hai guys tara on one condition tyo gali chai hatauna paidaina. Hajur haru ko din shuva rahos

Hadi ghopte kalo , bhanthe Jaile aba mero palo .Afno umer ko sathi bhai le gaisake bihe afuta pariyo kaile aatnaune kto .Punte bhai ni bhancha Dai mero ta gf le hairanpari bb chuppa deuna bhani. Afu bhane imagination ma takiyalai chuppa khanu paryacha.Sakth launda hudahuda 29 po pugiyo .Sara jiwan kaam kaam ra ghar ko kuno matra heriyo. Sathi bhailai ta 5 choti sex bhaisakyo yaar kti kina chaiyo bhani guff lauchu Tara uniharulai k tha bicharo sathi lai aile samma chuppa ni mero kukur tommie le matrai deko cha Guff ta feri esto ki sathi harle loveguru naam mero rakhdyachan Love bhane ailesamma euta kti sangani gariyena aba sex ni ekdin AI doll sanga hunecha

Aile 7th sem ma bharkhar vakoley aba auney1st sem back kaile Dina paauxa? Eklei choti regular haru sanga ho?

Infact, it is a thief of your motivation, hardworking, discipline,,mental peace, etc etc the list is long Everybody has their own life, own journey, own struggles, the sooner you realize that your journey is yours, it's unique to you, you'll have your own idea of struggles and happiness, and own path. Just because your friends had it easy doesn't mean you are supposed to have it easy too. So why compare and ruin your own mood and life?
Instead of accepting the fact that, world is indeed unfair and non of the people's lives are same, you wanna be depress all day comparing your life with others? Ma snga ko sathi ka pugisakyo, ma yei xhu vanera dinvari sutera depress hune? Stfu
Aafno life change grna aghi badhnalai did you do anything? Compare grna lagako energy baru aru kura Jun timro control ma cha, tyo kurama lagauna Acceptance is the key Kati choti vannu maile, ma thkisake Please guys stop trying to control the things that aren't in your control, you'll lose your mind, been there done that, not good for anyone.
Do the thinfs in your control, and accept your situation as it is, Try improving of course but not in a negative way like comparing and getting mad and sad about the world being unfair.
Do you think the world wasfair to lord Ram? The God that we worship so much
He was literally a prince , still had to live in jungle for that Many years.
Some thinfs are just meant to be
Summary: IT IS WHAT IT IS, SO ACCEPT AND MOVE ON

Mero 1.5 barsa agi accident bhako thyo testo chot ta lageko thiyena tara tesley garda malai ailey pani bato haru katna dar lagxa hinda kheri pani bike haru chalauda pani. Tyo incident paxi malai kasto ma real nai haina jasto feel huna thalxa kailey kai chai din mai 2-4 choti ma real haina yo sab illusion ho jasto lagxa ra afno hath tokxu dream haru haina thapauna ailey chai 2-3 din ma ekpali yesto bhairakhxa. Aru lai pani yesto hunu common hoki ? mailey yo kura khassai notice garya thina tars tyo accident paxi mero anxiety ekdam dher badheko xa syano syano kurama pani lastai dar lagney. Ekaichoti accident bhako 8-9 mahina paxi afai realize bhayo ki malai yesto hudaixa bhanera so please arulai pani yesto hunxa ki nai? normal ho ra yo sab? dher lamo hunxa bhanera yeti matra lekheko ailey lai

Yesterday i attempted exam for 3rd time . 1st time in regular i just read guide , no coding in laptop , no anything , so could not pass . 2nd time i thought lets get some concept from youtuber , there was about 10 day gap , 7/8 days i watched jenny's lecture and made note , and read that and went to exam . No practicing in laptop . So , again i failed . Last year , i skipped exam because i knew i won't pass and i had other backs too . So , i thought not to waste time on c . And here the 3rd attempt comes , i.e. story of last 1 week . I attempted every questions & think the answers are right too . But how ? What's the secret ? (Let me continue in nepali...) . 1st ra 2nd attempt hani sakey paxi yo yetikai padera/video herera matrai katdaina vnney chai vaie sakeko thiyo , laptop ma code ta hannei prxa vnney thaha thiyo . Code ta hanney ? tara concept ta chaiyo kasari liney ? video herney mero scl ko ? youtube ko ? A big no .regular sakiyeko 1 hapta ma back xa , feri tehi cycle continue hunxa vnney thaha thiyo . So , i started with a book "Learning C with examples" . Thanking to fellow redditers who were suggesting it . I started reading from fortran . Kina ki aghillo back ma fortran last ma birsiyeko rish le garda ho . Tara starting with fortran became a big help for me . Kina ki fortran ma agadi ko sabai lesson ko important important question ekai thau ma xa , lekhney tarika farak hola tara logic bujepaxi it will do a big help to you while studying agadi ko lessons . Mailey chai book bata padna suru grey , ani agadi laptop & chatgpt , ekdam minor minor kura pani i didn't ignored . chatgpt lai sodi halney nabujeko. fortran ko sabai program code haney laptop ma . ani suruma chai afai try grthey , kahiley logic bigrintheo ta kahiley format . ani suru hunthiyo chatgpt ko kam , copy the code & ask chatgpt what is wrong ? now it gives a correct code . Still can't understand the logic ? then ask chatgpt to explain each line taking a random example . believe me , u will enjoy it . It took me 3 days to complete fortran . Tara yeslai diyeko time le agadi ko chapter lai time nei lagena khasei . Then i moved to front . 1/2 lesson lai ta khasei time dina prdaina . But 3/4/5 lai chai time dinu , 4 marks na ho vnera sarra guide pdney haina tyo loop haru kasari chalxa , kun kun ma k farak xa and imagine a situation when u gonna use this . see example of each , ani relate it with fortran , fortran ma k garintheo yehi huda ? . This will help u a lot . lesson 5 ko program chai rmro snga hernu , laptop ma grnu maximum sabai . Pattern ko lagi i watched few videos from this channel https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLVlQHNRLflP8IGz6OXwlV_lgHgc72aXlh&si=U-FQp1MJxvgkh3taani function ko duita video xa yehi channel ma , he explains very well how function works . Teti bujey paxi function will be supper easy . sabai vnda sajilo program nei function ma xa . This lesson is only tasting if u can use recursive function and know how it works or not ( exam ma pani tehi sodyo hijo) . agadi lesson 5 ra fortran ma jsto program solve grna ni vandaina . just kasari result aunxa bujepaxi you can . tara 2/4 ota code chai hannei prxa else you will forget how to write in exams . Ani read theory from book not guide . tespaxi ko lesson array , pointer , structure , file . (mailey pointer chai padina because time thiyena tara exam ma luckily theory aayo , tyo pani lekhiyo ali ali theory hereko var ma) . Agadi ramrari padeu vaney kehi garho nei hudaina because these lessons will give u only new features to work with different kind of data type theory chai ramrari bujhnu , ani program chai laptop ma at least few ta sab ko hannei prxa , minor minor mistakes haru thaha hunca . natra exam ma int main() paxi pani ; diinxa . tara program ko logic khatrei vnney kehi hudaina tei string vayo vaney compare grney tarika farak hola number vnda aru kehi xaina ....Hera kta ho malai chai exam paper dekhda ekdam sajilo lagyo tara yeha opposite opinion dekhera aru lai ni help hos vnney sochera yeti lekhiyo . C sachai garho xaina , khatra khatra logic launey ni sodaina k , simple kura ho , just computer lai format nabigari kina lekhera teti vandina saknu paryo , tara surumei sidhei guide hereu ra eautai program nagari gyeu vaney u will never pass . Ani program herda satto janxa , Omg , 2 page ko ? Bro tyo 2 page ko program ma 1.5 page ta yo yo data han yo yo print gar vndei ra 4 ota if loop ra } bracket le khayeko hunxa , yo ek choti program ma dubiyo vney kehi ghoknei prdaina yr , logic tehi 3/4 line ko simple huney rahexa . tara tyo logic chai eauta example snga relate grera bujnu pryo ( u can take help from chat gpt) jstai sorting grda hos ya matrix multiply grda hos , kina loop tesari chalayeko xa bujhnu pryo , hamley real life ma ni matrix multiply grda hos ki transpose grda hos tehi nei garinxa tara aba tyo computer le bujhney vasa ma lekhnu pryo teti ho , kunai bujenau vney i repeat again ask chatgpt to explain each line by line taking a example . Yetti ho kta ho mero vnnu , time chai dinei prxa 6/7 din complete . Baru arko brsa ekai choti vnda yehi back sakiyepaxi gharma book/laptop lyaera padnu . Afai le naheri code hanera output aauda xuttei ananda auney rahexa . U guys will enjoy . Believe me . Ani best wishes .

There's this girl in my class who I'm really attracted to, liked her since the first day of college. Same class bhayeko le ek dui choti casual kurakani hunthyo suruma, Tara about six months later I mustered up the courage to text her, ani I'd say we were starting to hit off quite well. Class ma bhane feri we were seated afar from one another and hence never really spoke to each other.
Overtime I began to realise that the text messages were just drifting and there came a point when I eventually decided to ghost her. I just felt that kei bhaihalo bhane pani it wouldn't work out well, so text ma kunai glimmer of hope thiyo bhane pani I killed it and decided to focus on my studies. Little did I know, another guy from our class had also been talking to her and unlike me, he actually confessed his feelings to her. She rejected him saying that she wasn't interested in romantic relationships for now and wanted to focus on studies.
My friends tease me saying that she rejected him because deep down she wants me to make a move tara I just know she'd probably reject me too. Nowadays, we just look away from each other when we're in close proximity and barely even hold eye contact. Tara for some reason she still runs in my mind 24/7. I feel like I still like her even though I've been telling myself the opposite countless times. I feel the need to talk to her but I know that the spark that was previously there won't exist. I want things to go back to normal, back when we were still merely classmates, but I know I'm asking for the impossible. That's why nowadays I feel like I'm stranded in a no man's land where every direction leads to nowhere. How can I stop feeling like this?

Yo transcript ma sabai kura kasari dekhinxa? Like regular ma katako ani back ma katako vanera. Plus transcript ma fail vako vanera dekhauxa ki dekhaudaina regular exam ma? Ani back kati choti deko cha euta subject ko lagi vanera dekhaucha ki dekhaudaina? Ani kunai regular exam or back exam ma absent vayeko kura dekhincha ki dekhinna? Euta sem ko sabai subject ma fail vayeko case ma kasto dekhincha? Ani yo sabai kura le kati ko effect garcha going abroad?

Anyone have idea about HackerSpace Kind of place in Kathmandu area , where tech enthusiast comes together and work . Not in sense of Cafe for freelance workers, Intermediate level ma pugepachi dherai problem aaudo raicha when one is growing tech skills so for mentorship and to found like minded people is there any such kind of space. Don't say do internship.Looking for such place like get together hoss week ma 1-2 choti , is there active discord server ? Or Any kind of tech fellowship program runned by any Orgs.?

17M . Bachpan se sports me bohot accha tha (state cricket bhi khela tha )aur basketball and football me school ko represent bhi kia tha fir 7 me meri academy shift hoagy aur ghar se duur hogaie isliya chood ni padhi aur uske baad Dadaji ko paralysis hogaya to puri family ka focus shift hogaya . Mere dada ji ki last wish the muhje tv me khlete hua dekhna lakin vo pura hone se peele vo challenge fir 8 ki ending me ye deicide ho ki ham shift hojayege khyki hamne naya ghar kharida tha aur uske pas ek cricket academy bhi the uska name Vijay Yadav tha (uses boot ache cricketer nikle hai jaise ki Rahul tewatia aur mohit sharma ) vaha pe baat kari to pata chola ki registration ke XXXXX amount dena tha aur family ke uper expenses ka burden tha kyuki abhi abhi shift hue the isliya decide hua ki after 6 months dekhnge aur fir 6 mahine baad jab family stable hogai to merlo mana kar Diya gaya ki is sad me future nhi hai. unto pata tha ki much sports se boot pyarr tha aur Padhi me bhi avg tha lakin uske liye kabhi family ne kuch nhi bola par pata nhi kyu mana kar diya aur fir c-19 agaya aur sab baand hoagy aur mere fitness bhi khtm ho gayi eventually in obesity fir jab 1 lockdown khula to decide kiya ki body ko back in shape Lana hai to badminton academy start kardi just for fitness aur jo Socha tha vaise hi hua fir 10 me boards agaye .paper 2 terms me the to peele me Bina paddle 70% age Lekin ghar wale boot narazz the aur mere kuch so called friends ne pock bhi kiya to fire I decide 1 time in my life to study eventually ending with 97% in 2 term aur overall something 85-87 % ke around mere 10 khtm .( mere papa nit Trichy se dropped out the kyuki uses time pe family ki financial condition thik nhi the ) unka sappna tha ki mai IIT jayu aur fir maine pcm leli aur soccha ki dadaji ka spna to pura nhi kar paya papa ka karne ki koshis karta hua aur ek ganndi si local coaching join karli pata nhi kaise unhone manipulate kiya but started preparing (uses coaching ne dummy school bhi dill diya ) 11 was great I started going to coaching mere friends bhi boot the at 11 I was that good ki I.E Irodov bhi solve Kate tha aur hot bhi thi lakin chem thodi f***d up the but fir dehire dehire I stated spending time playing basketball khuki mere society me basketball ka naya court construct hua tha and got good at it aur fir ghar pe bina baate I started playing tournaments aur position bhi thik thak ti jaise 2 ya 3 . fir Ayi 12 aur padhne se Mann hat gaya aur mere khelna ghaer walo ne baand kardia aur fir mere coaching me bohot changes hone lane purane teacher chood ke Jane legate aur without experience teacher joined which f****d up the syllabus and around nov 2023 mere coaching ke top faculty separated and formed their own institute lakin khuki separate hue the to jo owner tha puranni wali academy ka chi***ya tha aur ussne cases Karne start kardia aur jo bacche star faculty ji vajhse uni coaching Gaye to unhone baccho ko manipulate Karna start kardia aur fir saree bacche distract hoagie lekin my father was very serious about that and thanks to my big cousin brother ( vo bhai iitk se tha) I was supposed to get IIt anyway. due to this whole scenario my org chemistry was like shit and maths to kya hi bole aur fir somehow managed to score 91 percentile (27s1) in 1 attempt lekin ghar wale khush nhi the aur merko tanne padhne lagaya aur kyuki mera gym aur sports done band kardia I got fat once again . I hate study mtlb Marne sada passand hai padhne se lekin kya kara ghar ke bada beta hu to I have to do thing I hate like I love it because life sucks ye samhj agaya aur fir 12 boards die aur usme maths me thoda Ganda kardia aur fir abhi 5 ko 2 attempt diya . meri sablse badi galti ye thi ki ma kabhi na nhi bol paya .na kabhi ghar walo se paise liya party wagers Karne ka liya khaki ek mindset bann gaya Tha ki kuch achieve kar na beyond IIT. aur fir dost kamm ho Gaye aur dosti khtm hone lagi . fir lonely hoagy a ghar se niche nhi jata tha tha aue ek baat sabse zadda chubh thi ti kii me ek waste potential hu kyuki I was very good and playing and learning different sports . Aur ab a kela hua hardly 2-3 dost hai jinse baat hoti hai suci**l thought bhi boot aye Kyuki jee nhi ho para tha lekin papa ko kon samjhaya . fir Socha ki ek paper ke liye ye say nhi Karne kyuki mere family bhi hai aur ek choti behen bhi hai. mere sath ki dost jinne jee diya unke bohot zadda marks aye aur mere par aur pressure bada gaya . My father is very chill mtlb vo bolete hai ki kabhi bhi alcohol wagera try Karna ho to unnse suggestion le ke karu vo acchi suggest karenge that type of chill . agar mera IIT ho gaya tho ye bhi confirm nhi hai ki mere degree complete hogi ya nhi ye papa ko pata hai aur un hone allow bhi kar diya hai Kyuki kuch future plans hai . aur ab samjh agay hai ki life is unexpected aur what so every the situation is I will fight . ab a kela hu lekin khush hu kyuki motivation aur dicipline agaya hai aur mai apne idols ko dekhta hu (jaise mera idol cr7 hai) to ussko intna time se dekhne ke baad ye Sikh mili ki vo pane papa ka spna pura kar sakta hai to mai kyu nhi .mai bohot obbsesed hu sports se ki abhi thodi dere mere ram vs mcl ka match hai UCL😅. All the end destiny matters not the journey for me .

Sabai ramrai padeko nai hunxu , textbook , manual sabai nai padxu
Practise ni garera gako hunxu
Exam ma q ni sajilo lagxa Tara khai k hunxa hunxa soche jasto kailai hunna , janeko Kura nai majjale bigarera aauxu.
Bigrinu vanera fail nai hune tw haina Tara soche jasto kailai aaudaina , ajha semester KO eauta subject tw naramrari nai bigrinxa
Najaneko/napadeko question bigarda kei ni lagdaina , Tara janeko garirakheko question nai bigrirahanx , ek dui choti haina sadhai estai hunchha padnai jhau lagxa
Hija Pani Water Supply ko exam thiyo , nepali writer ki book ma wrong gareko raixa , tehi q nai aayo , tyo book nahaerne bela samma thik nai janeko thiye ani herepaxi tyo hola vane ani tehi gare , napadeko vae baru milauthe
Hija Matra haina sadhai sabai exam ma esto hunxa.
I know marks doesn't matter that much but still.

Hello guys mero chai aauta rare skin condition xa jasle garda mero pinky finger ra ring finger ko fingerprint ramro sanga dekhinna. Yesle garda biometric ma thulo problem aathyo. Passport banauda ni thumb ko matra print lera banako. Aba mero us visa interview aaudai xa malai ta tanab vaxa k garne hola😭😭. Im just 18 rn but aaileta tanab vaxa. Dermatologist koma ni dherai choti gaisake.

i just went to a shop and tried paying 280 through siddhartha banks mobile banking. i scanned the fonepay qr, ani server error try again vanera dekhayo. i tried 2 more times , it worked the 3rd time. tara ma hidne bela ma 280 debited vanera 3choti message aayo.
ani ma pasal ma gaye, pasal ko fonepay ko notifs ma ek choti matra dekhako cha. i waited for 10 mins, message aayena ani farke. mero bank bata paisa kateko cha, uta paisa gako chaina. aahile phone garna siddhartha bank ni khuleko chaina. what do i do?