You are not the center of the world. The world doesn't spin around you. You are a bunch of numbers of letters on a screen. Nobody cares about you. Nobody - literally nobody - sees your name ingame and thinks "I WILL GRIEF THIS GUY UNTIL HE QUITS".
You are bad at the game and you are an easy kill. And most likely you lack the self reflection to realize that. You think you are so important that others must be constantly targeting you because they must strong emotions towards you, even though you just happen to be a weak link in your team and they actually don't really care about you. You misjudge the intentions of the enemy because you think you are somehow important and the other person must be spending their time thinking about you.
Playing against good players is frustrating. But you accepted that you will be encountering this kind of players when you first booted up the game and went online. Yet somehow, you don't like it. Why don't play something else where you don't need to improve or can't encounter other players?
You have time to go on reddit and start a smear campaign against good players but you have no time to actually sit down and reflect your mistakes and improve at the game. Don't be like that. Be a better person.

I’ve been suspended ( paid suspension)from work with no email or suspension letter. My manager just showed me an email from the head office which did not have my name or employee number. But just used the word “team member “ The accusation was “It has come under the companies notice that you’ve been accused of using company resources for personal gains “ I don’t know what it means. They are taking few days to investigate it.
Company : Coles Liquor.
Anyone experienced the same ?

Apologies in advance for any spelling errors emotions are running high as I’m writing this.
Edit: added paragraphs
For context this happened a few days ago.
I, M 24 have been in a relationship with my boyfriend who I’ll call Red (Not his real name), M 23 for around 4 years now after we met at our mutual friends house. We had hit it off after a few drinks and I ended the night with his number and 3 months later we started chatting exclusively and 6 months later we started dating. (At this point in time we hadn’t met each other’s families and he hadn’t mentioned them during the whole 9 month period.) When we first started dating Ill admit I was head over heels and wanted him to meet my family (I have a rather large family) right away and was quite pushy about them meeting although we hadn’t been dating for 5 months at that point. But he talked me out of it saying I was “Moving too fast.” I dont know if that was a red flag or not but I don’t think it was.
Anyways, around 1.5-2 years ago I learned that Red had a little brother 23 M (they are twins, Red was just born first by a little over 5 hours.) which came as a shock to me because during our entire relationship Red had never mentioned his brother and was every adamant that not only did he and his family weren’t close but that he had cut them all off. I which was a major red flag for me because for starters I had only met his brother because I had a package delivered to his house and need to pick it up. I have a key to his house but I have a habit of knocking because I OCD. So imagine my shock when the door is opened by not Red but someone who looked suspiciously like him who immediately asked me who I was. When I told him I was asking for Red (MY boyfriend) he said he wasn’t home and that he was at the store and he’ll tell him that someone came to the door to ask for him. At which I told him that I was his boyfriend and that I needed to pick up a package.
He looked a little suspicious but let me in regardless and we sat in the living room and talked till red came home. I was really curious about who these mystery person was and for a while thought Red was cheating on me until his brother who I’ll call Jane (Not his real name) informed me that he was reds twin brother. I was in shock because for two years Red had told me that he had not relationship with any of his family and here’s his twin brother in his house. (I’ve been to his house before and at not pint in time did he ever have any roommates or other people living in his apartment. So it was shocking and I felt really betrayed because at that point he had already met my family.)
Me and Jane made more small talk till Red came home 20 something minutes later and was shocked to see both me and Jane sitting on the couch. I was gonna stay for longer after red came home but the moment I saw his face I just couldn’t and ended up leaving shortly after. I couldn’t stop thinking about how he never told me he had a brother and later that night at like 8 pm I texted him and asked him why he never told me he had a brother nonetheless a TWIN brother and why he lied about cutting off all his family. He responded 2 hours later at 10 and asked me to call him which I did and I he told me that the reason he never told me about Jane was because although he actually didn’t cut all his family off but those he did still talk too he didn’t tell other people about too which I asked why?
Only to be met with him avoiding the question and trying to steer the conversation away from his family and more to about my day which was the next red flag. We got into an argument and he walked away from the phone but didn’t hang up so I did and I ended up blocking him for 2 days before he showed up at my door apologizing up and down and swearing to never keep a secret from me again which I had believed. For the next 2 years that wasn’t the last I’d seen of Jane and I learned that Red and Jane were extremely close. (Idk if it’s a twin thing but they are just really close) But at multiple points in our relationship I thought they’ve been too close if that’s even possible. For example when we had planned an anniversary trip together and went we started discussing locations he wouldn’t agree to certain places because “Jane wouldn’t be comfortable with him going there.” Or “Jane wouldn’t like that.”
When I asked why it mattered what jane liked because it’s not like he was going, he said something along the lines of. “Just let it go.” Or would just ignore me till I started talking about a different place which threw off my flow for the rest of the planning. Or when he pushed back out trip for almost a month because he didn’t want to leave Jane alone. (Jane is autistic and possibly physically disabled which I swear is important but he’s not low functioning and even lives in his own with a job.) When I brought this up Red glared at me without saying anything but let it go after a while. This is only one example of their relationship coming between things we had planned but there are plenty more examples of them being physically close as well. (Cuddling togethe sitting extremely close to each other, Jane following Red around to the point something’s they walk in sync, feeding one another,hugging for extended periods of time, playing with each other’s hands/hair ext.)
I swear if they didn’t look so similar you’d think they were the ones dating. I won’t lie I’ve found myself being jealous/ disgusted at the way they treat each other but I had pushed it aside because I convinced myself that Red was just looking out for Jane. (Before you question that like I said while Jane isn’t behind mentally or anything you can see he struggles with a lot things like standing for long periods of time and often goes non verbal or only makes illegible noise that Red understands.) So I truly pushed my thoughts aside because I didn’t want to be seen as an overprotective or anything and it’s not like I have anything against Jane or anything but sometimes it’s just really fucking weird. But recently I’ve reached my limit when I went to Reds apartment and when I opened the door I saw janes phone on the counter. Which is really at weird because at the end of the day theyre family and that’s not weird but what was weird was that Jane nor Red were anywhere to be found.
I had walked around the apartment for a while till I got Reds bedroom and saw both of them laying in bed together (They weren’t naked or anything but they were like laying ontop on one another, like cuddling skin to skin whilst clothed from what I could see.) When I walked in a saw them next to each other all the memories of the way they had acted with eachother rushed into my head and I just assumed the worst and started screaming and cursing which got Reds attention and he immediately sat up and started screaming back at me asking me what I was scream about and we started a screaming match and I told him off about his weird behaviour with Jane and how brothers don’t act that way with each other until they are getting with eachother and he froze and just started at me and before he could say anything else I left his apartment and drove back home. (If jane had said anything I didn’t hear it over the screaming but idk)
I ended up telling my parents and they said that Im not overreacting but that something in there childhood definitely caused them to be so touchy but don’t believe that and I don’t know who the tell this to or what to do because I’m well aware that siblings don’t act that way and that something has to be going on but I don’t know how to talk to Red about it. I know my parents said otherwise but I can’t help but think im AH because I don’t let red explain. I don’t think I should bring this up to anyone close friends because of bias so I’m asking Reddit. What do I do???

So a little backstory.. My bf 23M and me 23F have been on and off for 2 years. We dated for 3 months in 2022 but I broke up with him because it was a shit show we both had too much going on and neither of us knew how to be in a healthy relationship. We stayed friends and would have sex occasionally lol. I feel like we both have grown as people individually we have learned from our past mistakes and are completely different people now.
We just got back together last month and honestly everything is perfect. But, there is one problem.. he's been acting weird. For example, we both work overnights and for a few weeks he would call me literally as soon as he got off work and we would talk all morning until we both fell asleep. But, now he doesn't text or call at all when he gets off he'll just call me when he wakes up after work. Which is usually 3pm- whenever.
To paint the picture: Usually, we will talk before he goes into work. Which is around 11 - 11:30PM then he doesn't text me at all while he's at work.. literally radio silence. He gets off around 7-8 AM NOTHING. I don't hear from him until 3-5ish PM.
I don't like this type of communication. Because it makes me feel anxious when he goes long periods of time without talking to me. It makes me feel like something is wrong. I know this is a flaw and I have been working on it. I don't want to be a codependent couple so I try to give him time to himself and vice versa.
I did bring this up and told him I understand that he probably doesn't want to talk when he gets off work and that's ok but I need him to communicate this like a simple "Good morning im not really in the mood to talk right now but I'll call you later" is what I want to hear instead of silence. Like, He just randomly stopped talking to me in the mornings I even sent a good morning text one time and he didn't respond to it untill he woke up that afternoon.
We did talk this out and he agreed that I was right and he apologized. I've noticed some changes. For example if I haven't heard from him in awhile (like 4+HOURS) he'll send me a text to let me know why. Which I really have been appreciating and acknowledging I even tell him thank you for communicating that with me.
Howeverrrr, yesterday I had a missed call from him at 11AM (I was sleeping) I called him back at 1pm. He was at a lake fishing with some friends. We talked for about 30 minutes, mostly him talking to his friends and me listening. He told me his phone was on 20 percent and that he would call me when he gets home...ok no problem. We hung up and I didn't hear from him until 3:50AM. I have a missed call from him and a text that says "good morning". I haven't responded yet. I am kinda mad at him because I really just don't understand why he goes silent sometimes. I have asked him if it's anything I am doing and he tells me no he just has a lot going on during his day (which he does) but does being "busy" cause him to go 14 hours with no communication?
Why is he acting like this? I'm not sure if it's something I did or if sometimes he just needs alone time. I don't want to break up with him, this is our only problem I want to fix it just don't know how. I'm open to any advice/ criticism. He has been super reassuring that nothing is wrong his excuse is that he gets super busy.. but I still don’t understand.
TL;DR! Boyfriend goes silent for hours I don’t know what to do

For Years I have thought deeply on what the trinity actually is. Speaking with my non Christian friends they can't comprehend the one God three persons concept and I was getting frustrated trying to explain it.
I have thought about what the trinity is and meditatied and prayed on it deeply.
Am I wrong about the conclusion I am too which I am about to explain?
We as humans in a sense are a trinity since we are created in the image of God. For example I can be one man but three different persons as well. I am a son, my relationship to my own father is unique in which we act and treat each other other in a unique way towards each other.
I am also a Father myself, and my relationship to my children is unique compared to my relationships with others.
I am also a husband, and that in itself is a unique relationship different than with anyone else. Therefore I am a trinity in a sense.
I sort of have a different role and personality with each of those people. (Father, children, spouse)
I am also made of body, mind, and soul which is a trinity.
Am I wrong in this explanation and of thinking to understand what the trinity really is when it comes to God?

My apologies in advance – this is going to be long but hopefully not too convoluted/confusing. I posted this in the legal advice sub but haven't gotten any advice, so am posting here in hopes of getting advice. Please let me know if there's somewhere else I should ask my questions.
My questions are about the possible ethical/legal conflicts going on with a corporate level certified financial planner (CFP)/investment advisor representative. This person is a founding principal of and works in an LLC located in Chicago and is registered/licensed (per their SEC IAPD report) in Illinois and Florida. Information available online indicates that this person also carries the title of Chief Compliance Officer for the company. I will refer to this person as Pat. Pat’s online credentials are listed as CPA, CFP, PFS and registered investment advisor.
Pat’s client that I am concerned about is more than 70 years old and the owner of a nationally-known company with significant assets/value. The client maintains (for tax reporting purposes) a residence and vehicles in Missouri, however, actually spends the majority of their time in California, where they also have a residence, vehicles and other properties; client also owns properties and vehicles in other states. The client is not married but has adult children and siblings; the relationships with these family members is distant but not estranged. Client will be referred to as Shannon.
In addition to having the company, Shannon established a 501(c)3 foundation that accepts donations and provides scholarships. Pat is named on the board of this foundation as the treasurer, which seems inappropriate to me but I am unsure if this is legally or ethically an issue.
In recent years, Pat has become more actively involved in the employee/personnel aspects of Shannon’s company, most recently personally taking on the role of firing employees or reducing their hours to create non-livable employment situations; employees who previously communicated directly with Shannon are now being directed to communicate through Pat with their questions/concerns. Pat has, on many occasions, answered calls going to Shannon’s personal phone.
Pat has also become more involved in Shannon’s personal life and appears to be influencing Shannon to be more isolated from family members, as well as trying to convince Shannon to sell properties (Pat refers to these properties as “money pits” in an effort to influence Shannon to sell them). I have become aware that an updated legal document (unsure if it was a will or trust or something else) was prepared for Shannon that has the potential to pass any estate/inheritance to Pat when Shannon dies if the family remains distant or becomes further estranged. I don’t have a copy of this document nor do I know the name of the lawyer that prepared it, but this set off huge alarm bells for me.
All of this together seems incredibly sketchy to me but I am not sure where to start with regard to reporting it. Part of me is concerned about the isolating of Shannon as possibly crossing into elder abuse but I don’t believe that Shannon’s mental state is sufficiently diminished enough to support that they don’t understand what is going on; I believe that Pat is a master manipulator, especially since they have had this ongoing advisoclient relationship for many years.
I’m looking for any advice regarding how to bring this situation to the attention of whomever would investigate it – or any advice at all, really. Thank you.

IKAILANGAN KO NG MEANINGFUL ADVICES NYO. Di ko akalain na nasa silent quitting era ako Since 2022. Nagsimula lahat ng ito noong lumipat kami dito sa place ng Partner ko. Ngayon 2024 na, and I actually had plans of leaving pero hanggang ngayon di ko nagagawa dahil sa anak na maiiwan ko. Di ko syabpwedeng isama kase walang mag aalaga sa knaya kapag nagsimula akong mag work sa corporate. Ayoko din naman syang ipaalaga sa iba. Gusto ko nang i end itong 5 years na relationship na ito dahil sa madaming bagay. 1. Di ko na sya makausap ng matino - Kapag nasa difficult conversation kami wala kaming nagiging resolution. Puro argue na lang at kung suswertehim may bangayan na. - May oras din na ididissmiss na lang yung convo kapag talaga walang nanalo or parang malabo na maresolve 2. May mga nagaganap na pag iignore/invalidated ng feelings - 10 years ang gap namin. May mga bagay na di talaga magkakaroon ng sense sa isa't isa. that's one reason na naiinvalidate yung feelinga ng bawat isa 3. Walang cooperation sa responsibilities - Ang gusto ko kase sa isang household ay magtutulungan sa chores at may mga tasks na dapat di na sinasabi na gawin ng bawat isa For example: Kapag nakakita ka nang kalat ng mga bata sa floor, dapat pinupulot mo na hinfi yung aantayin mo pa yung asawa mo pulutin pa yon -Pauulit ulit na lang na sinasabi yung task mo. Jusko 5 years na kayong magkasama kailangan paulit ulit na lang ba magbilin ng gagawin mo - wlang teamwork sa gawaing bahay. Porket sya may work at ako wala dapat ako na lang lahat sa gawaing bahay tsaka sa pag aalaga sa bata 4. May sumabatan ng nangyari about sa contribution - For example: Yun na nga na ako tong walang "ginagawa" (nagmamanage po ako ng store, livestreamer din po ako, naglilinis ng bahay, nag aalaga ng baby), dapat di na sya masyadong nag aalaga ng bata. Dapat after work na lang nya, dapat nagrerest na sya at kumpleto ang tulog nya for 8 hours. buti pa daw ako kumpleto tulog ko kase pag shift pa daw nya nag titimpla pa sya ng gatas ng anak nya within the shift 5. Naiistress nanako magmanage ng finances namin - Lagi na lang ako namomoblema sa finances. Hindi naman kulang sahod nya. Sobra sobra pa sana pero kase ang nangyayari is imbis na di na kami nagkukulang dahil may sati sari store business kami. Ang nangyayari is nagiging liability pa yung store kase umuutang pa sya doon na lagi kong sinasabi na wag kase mababawasan yung puhunan ng store. May time pa na andami nyang inutang sa store dahil may pa event sa bahay ng parents nya.

1. He is not keeping his words.
2. For example yung number 5 yung about sa store. Pinagusapan namin na hindi kami kukuha ng kahit ano sa store para doon sa party na yun. Nag agree sya pero nung araw na yun, pero nung araw na nung handaan andami nyang inutang. Naiyak talaga ako kase tagal bago namin naibawi yun. Yung sanang pera na dapat sa pangkain namin at para sa bills napunta lang sa store na dapat lumalago at extra source of income. Naging liability pa.
3. Any small thing or big thing na pinaguusapan namin na umaayon sya pero di nya ginagawa or di nya tinutupad. Nakakapagod umasa at mag expect.
   
4. Noong start ng pagtira namin sa bahay noon ng parents nya. Nakakatrauma talaga.
   
5. We have a different way of raising a kid and a home. Alam ko naman na expert yung parents nya na sa pag aalaga ng bata. Mahalaga ang experiences.BUT may mga ginagawa sila na hindi naman advisable ng pedia. Like yung pagpapainom ng water below 6 months old. Kahit na sabihin kong wag, ay bih ididisregard nila tas papainumin nila para daw di madehydrate yung bata. gagawin nila yun lalo na pag di ako nakatingin. Another one, is yung pag umiiyak yung annak ko sa gabi or even sa araw, pag di ko agad napatahan within 2 mins. aagawin nila. AAGAWIN AH. AAGAWIN. Ganun sya up until kaya ko na talaga sya patahanin around nung 1 year old na sya. Meron pa, tinuturuan ko kase yung anak ko na mag Baby Led Weaning ever since 6 months old na sya. Grabe yung mga negative remarks ng magulang nya about sa ginagawa ko. Kesyo sayang yung pagkain or di dapat nilalato yung food or baka mabilaukan si baby. Eventually nung nalay off si partner sa work natigil sya kase nga sayang daw yung pagkain dapat di daw ganun. Hanggang ngayon di ko na try mag BLW kase nahirapan na ako. Galing nya kumain noon .Ngayon hanggang sa ngayon sinusubuan pa din. Another one is yung kapag may venture kaming gagawin for example nagbebenta kase kami ng isang supplement na talagang nakakagamot ng mga sakit. Alam nyo ba na ang negative nila saamin andami nilang sinasabi na negative. Dinodown na nila kami eh nagsisimula palang kami. Kahit anong new venture/ palno na shineshare namin sa kanila, may masasabi silang di maganda. Close minded kumbaga.
   

SHET GANITO YUNG FAMILY NG PAPAKASALAN KO?

1. May mga bagay na di ko mapatawad sa parter ko
2. Una na sa lahat yung mga moments na dinisregars nya yung mga pakiramdam ko during may postpartum days. Sabi ko na nakakaranas ako ng depression, di sya naniniwala. Baka hysteria lang daw due to articles or videos I am seeing. Meron pa yung ayaw nya akong nagpapapanood ng mga bagay about sa mental health ta may tendency daw ako mag self diagnose. Like hello, masama ba na meron akong self awareness at gusto ko pagabralan bakit ganito ako or yung relationship namin? Eh la nga kaming pera pang counseling eh kase daming binabayaran.
3. Meron talaga yung isang moment na gusto ko nang umuwi sa amin dahil mabebenta yung bahay namin. Gusto ko pag nabenta yun eh makukuha ko yung share kondin kase tumira ako. Alam ko na kapag nag reside na ako sa place ng partner ko at ibinalik ko na yung susi ng bahay na yun, mwawalan na ako ng tsansa na habilin yung mga kapatid ko na ibigay yung pamana ng tatay ko sakin (NANGYARI NGA PO LAHAT YUN DI KO NAKUHA YUNG MANA KO). Sama ng loob ko ah. May timea na pag naalala ko yun. Masakit. Di ako kinampihan ng asawa ko. Pero naisip ko din , ito yung better plan ni Lord. Yaan ko na yung pera.
4. Yung sinibukan nya na pinabasa ng partner ko sa parents nya yung sensitive letter na naglalaman ng hinanakit ko sa parents nya at nararamdaman ko. Di nila binasa pero may idea na yung parents nya. Ayaw nila basahin pero galit na sila. Shet trauma is real. Doon ako nagwonder na sino tong lalaking jinowa kom (DI PA KAMI KASAL)
   
5. WALA NA AKONG BALAK MAGKA ANAK SA KANYA AT MAGPAKASAL SA KANYA Di ko alam kung may pagmamahal pa aba ako para sa taong to pero dahil sa mga experiences na ito, ayoko na magpakasal. Ayoko matali sa isang tao na di naman nakikiniv saakin, yung tipong tatawagin ko sya ng maraming beses mula sa pagseselpon o panonood bago ako mapansin, yung tipong di na sya ligtas na pagsabihan ng nararamdaman ko. Katulad na lang nung isang araw, grabe ang hirap ko pa sabihin yung honest feelings ko about sa ginawa nyang pagsusungit at pagrereklamo sa di ko pag prioritize sa dishes pero di nmaan nya naisip na naglinis naman ako at needed ko lang magpahinga kase sakit talaga ng ulo kom KUNG TALAGANG ANG SAKIT SA PANINGIN NG MGA HUGASINBAKIT HINDI NYA HUGASAN BAKIT AANTAYIN NYA PA NA AKO ANG MAGHUGAS??!!! Di ko alam kung papakasalan ko pa ba sya kung alam ko na ganun ang pamilya nya na hindi supportive at di rumerespeto sa pananaw ng ibang tao Di ko alam kung papakasalan ko pa ba sya kung alam kong di naman nya tinutupad yung mga simasabi nya. Di ko alam kung papakasalan ko pa ba sya ngayon ngayong nalaman ko na reklamador sya sa madaming bagay
   

NOW, ALAM KO NA MAY FLAWS DIN AKO. DI KO SINASABING WALA. MY MGA NAKAKAGAGONG MGA UGALI AKO. DI LANG PURO SYA TO HA. GUSTO MO NG LISTAHAN OH ETO :

1. Masyado akong clingy. Madalas di ako nagiging sensitive sa space ng asawa ko. Alam nyo ba na kahit nagwowork yan madalas gahambalain ko pa yan. For example, tutok na sya sa work nya at sinasabi naman nya sakin na madali maputol focus nya kapag nagagambala sya pero eto ako kausap ng kausap sa kanya or may papaabot ako or may bigla akong isasaksak sa extension cord, or kapag di pa tulog si bata at gusto nya pumunta sa tatay nya hahayaan ko sya imbis na pigilan ko sya na makakapagwala ng focus nya. magagalit sya syempre masisira na mood nya. Eh ako tong si dragona, kapag nagalit na sya or masusungitan ako lalo na pag sensitive ang mood ko, sasama loob ko. Mag aaway kami most of the time. Ako naman nag umpisa.
   
2. ON MY SENSITIVE AT LOW DAYS, MASUNGIT AKO AND I TEND TO RAISE MY VOICE OR MAGDABOG KAPAG DI AKO NAPAPAKINGGAN OR DI AKO NAIINTINDIHAN. -Lalo na noon na di pa ako nagpaprioritize ng self development, mahilig ako makipag away or makipagtalo at magkimkim ng sama ng loob. Pero alam nyo ba na bago pa ako mabumtis, di ako ganito. Magaling ako magregulate ng emotion pero life happens and eto yung number 1 thing na inaayos ko sa sarili ko ngayon kase hirap mabuhay na may galit ka sa puso. Nakakapatay talaga ng buhay. relationship. lahat.
   
3. TAKOT AKO SA FEEDBACK,REJECTION, AT PAGKAKAMALI
   
4. Matagal na panahon din ako nag rely sa sarili ko bago ko nakilala ang jowa ko at nagkaroon ng anak at napilitinang tumira sa ibang tao. So what I do to learn is to research at makinig sa mga professional. Pero ang hirap saakin magtake ng feedback from other people. Like sa parents ng jowa ko, lalo na pag alam kong taliwas sa niresearch ko or sa tamang gawain, di ko talaga sinusu od. Tulad nga ng sa tubig sa mga baby. Meron din naman benefitial pero hirap din ako sumunod kase may ibang way ako ng paggawa ng ibang bagay or di ko sya magawa dahil nahihirapan ako ganun. sabi nt partner ko ito daw talaga yung PINAKA OPPORTUNITY KO. DI AKO MARUNONG TUMANGGAP NG FEEBLDBACK AT REJECTION AT DI AKO MARUNONG MAG SELF REFLECT PURO DAW AKO PAGTURURO NG MALI NG IBA LALO NA DAW SYA PERO DI KO DAW ALAM MAG SELF REFLECT. I'm working on this NOW by having a self reflection journal. Pag may difficult feelings ako as much as possible sinusulat ko agad sya tas tatandaan ko yun. Meron na din akong self development apps para makatulong sakin. Pag nasa point naman ako na nagbibigay ng feedback yung jowa ko, imbis na magdahilan ako, hihinga na lang ako para di ako makapag rason.
   
5. PALAASA TALAGA AKO SA KANYA. -Nung una talaga palaasa ako sa sarili ko. Pero nhayon, i tend to be more pala asa sa kanya. For example sa pag aalaga ng bata, pinag aalaga ko sya kase madali ako ma overstimulate sa anak ko at need ko din maglinis ng bahay. Or sa pagsasampay ng damit, malayo ang sampayan samin. Since malayo at madming sampayin, sya ipagsasampay ko. At sa basura, syempre ako na nag ayos ng basura namin, sya na sana magtapon .Dahil meron na sya sa buhay ko , umasa na ako sa kanya sa mga bagay na kaya ko namang gawin.
   
6. MAY MGA ARAW DIN NA TIMATAMAD AKO AND I TEND NA DI MAGLINIS OR MAG AYOS LANG PERO DI MAGLINIS
   
7. ito yung talagang point na kung gaano kagulo ang utak ko makikita mo sa surroundings namin. Tambak na hugasin. Tambak na labahin. magulong kusina. Ngayon, since na discover ko yung pomodoro at time blocking, Ang ginagawa ko, for 5 days a week , mag aassign ako ng isang focus na room para linisin tas for the rest may speed cleaning ako na 25 mins para di ako ma overwhelm. May time din na di ko napagluluto yung partner ko dahil either walang maluto or nakalutan ko talaga( Yes po. nakakalutan ko. Nakakalutan ko rin kumain). Syempre gagalit sya alang makain ang pamilya.
   
8. PALASUKO PO AKO. DI AKO CONSISTENT. MADALI AKONG SUMUKO.
   
9. Eto palang yung relationship na di ko na kaya. naka ilang attempt na ako ng pag alis at pakikupaghiwalay pang lima ko na po ito. Di din ako consistent sa mga gawain. may hyperactive days ako. may time na di ko na bigla gagawin ang isang bagay.
   

RESPONSABLE SYA NA TATAY. DI SYA NAGKULULANG SA PERA. SA TULOG LANG. DI NYA AKO SINASAKTAN PHYSICALLY. MAHAL NA MAHAL NYA ANAK KO. PERO BIG DEAL TALAGA YUNG EMOTIONAL AT MENTAL TORTURE KO. Nakilala ko na sya on a deeper level at ayoko na talaga
ANG HABA DIBA. KUNG NAKAABOT KA DITO. GUSTO KO AY MAGBIGAY KA NG MEANINGFUL ADVICE. LIBRE LAIT. SUMAMA MAN LOOB KO LAGAY KO NA LANG SA NOTEBOOK KO PARA MAGREGULATE NG EMOTION. ITUTULOY KO PA BA MAKIPAGHIWALAY OR BAKA NAMAN GAGO LANG TALAGA AKO AT DI AKO KARAPAT DAPAT SA PARTNER KO. BAKA MAY LIFE ADVICE KAYO LALO NA SA MGA MATATAGAL NA ANG RELATIONSHIP NILA AT MAY SAME PROBLEM SAAMIN NA NAPAGTAHUMPAYAN NYO SHARE NYO NA

I've noticed in a couple few of cases over the years that folks I've worked with who present with a sort of low-grade or even subclinical neurodivergence have come back with just bonkers psychometric results. In one case, alarming psychosis. In another, the results suggested high histrionics, superficiality, and low anti-social tendencies. There was one or two others. In all cases, the tests had perfectly apt validity scales. But it seems that the clients were either interpreting the questions hyper-literally and/or too expansively (via some form of literality).
For example, in one case I check in with a client who reported they hear voices others can't hear. This person was not at all psychotic, but did present as odd. They pointed out that when they think about things, they can hear their own voice in their head. It was that literality that pointed us towards ASD1, maybe 2. In another, a client reported that "too many rules" keeps them from getting what they want, an item meant to indicate recklessness. This was a super tender human. They replied that the question wasn't asking about rules, which they like. It was asking about "too many" rules, and reflected back about his difficulties with insurance bureaucracies and dealing with the layers of traffic court. He was over-litigating about 30% of the test in his fixation on "being honest". In this case, that pointed us to ADHD and maybe ASD1.
I think of these cases and they really impart upon me the importance of going through individual items of interest and REALLY listening to the client when the results just don't quite make sense. I love these instruments, but I also don't.

Edit: DO NOT message me a simple hi or hello, with no information about you, Put some effort in to your message like i have, come on. Day+Attempt#192
Hello everyone, Thank you for taking the time to read, I know its long, I know - I know. But its worth the read, Trust me. I appreciate you immensely.
Here's a bit about me,
My name is Jay, I live on the East coast of the US. I'm looking for love - like everyone else on here.., but you may not believe or even be doubtful that I've never had a GF before with me being 26, but its true. I'm simply just not willing to "be with" just anyone and I'm very picky. I want us to be a match, more than just have similar things in common.
One thing I have always been told is that I'm a "Real Catch, I'd be extremely lucky to have someone like you" - WELL THEN TAKE ME. I'M FREE. LOL.
About me:
Physically -
~I'm a semi-tall guy, around 5'10.
~I'm thin but muscular.
~I have dirty blonde/ brown hair.
~Changing colored eyes.
~A voice nice enough to melt all your safeguards and get right into your heart and weak spots.
~I do not have any tattoos or piercings. Though I would like to get some eventually.
If you'd like to see a picture of me just ask and I'll show you - IF I may see you as well, I simply just don't want a picture of me out there for anyone to see.
-If there's anything else you'd like to know just ask.
Otherwise -
~I do have 3 pet bunnies I would be more than happy to show you, they are extremely cute.
~I'm a very honest and down to earth guy.
~I'm very patient and easy going.
~I'm very curious and inquisitive. I will try to ask everything I can to learn all about you haha.
~I'm Very VERY Kind & Caring, I will probably ask how you are feeling a bajillion times a day, simply out of care for you.
~I can get pretty clingy, and will always want your attention and to be talking with you. If i have someone im interested in i wont want to talk to anyone else🤷‍♂️
~I'm very trustworthy - you can confide in me, and entrust your deepest secrets and I wont tell a soul.
~I'm a HUGE hopeless romantic, im old fashioned and will always try to impress you.
- I'm, a BIG softie even though I may look a smol bit intimidating, but I'd do just about anything to see you smile or laugh. And yes.., I do mean anything.
~I'm a big goof - I will get up to some silly shenanigans ALL the time, I will crack dumb jokes and send you memes and tik toks just to make you happy, even if its from across the room I'd wait to see your reaction lol.
~I'm extremely loyal, and would never even think of cheating.
~I will cook for you, and clean up too, even around the house, I'm very self productive and don't ask for much. Just don't forget to kiss the cook.
~I'd also love to just cuddle up and watch a movie or read a book together, anything to get us closer. Id try to take you out on dates whenever possible haha. I have a million SUPER romantic date ideas I have but have never had anyone interested enough in me to take out. Here's your chance ;)
~I will always want to share stuff I find interesting with you, and try to share every moment of every day with you. I'm not looking for someone who can only talk for a small amount of time, I want someone who's willing to put in all the effort I put into them back into me, it goes both ways. If I'm "with" someone you are my TOP priority nobody and nothing else would be. You would be the only person I'd truly want to talk to, so rest assured I would NEVER cheat, even more so because no one is interested in me - Hence why I'm here hahaha.
I'm sure there is more to me than this snippet but I cant think of more at the moment haha, so get to know me and find out more about me.
Some of my interests are: Engineering- I'm a nerd. I admit it. I love being technical and hands on, I love building things. All kinds of things, from furniture, machinery, and reverse engineering anything I find. I love learning how things work and trying to improve things.
Music - I prefer music with a very fast pace, or with some very meaningful lyrics I can relate to. I love to sing along to music and songs that have a deep meaning behind it I can sympathize with makes it all the better. Some bands I like are: Bad Omens, Beartooth, Demon Hunter, MIW, I9K - The list goes on. I'm a bit of a metalhead unfortunately.
TV Shows & Movies - I love watching shows, and I'd love to stream some shows and have some E-dates with you, to get to know you, or if you are close to me, maybe we could do it in person. Some shows I like or more of the Fantasy/Sci-Fi, Comedy, Action, stuff like: National Treasure, Halo, BattleBots, Rick and Morty, AHS, Anything Marvel or DC, The Witcher, Wednesday, The Sandman, The Magicians, The Umbrella Academy, ETC.
Gaming - Yes yes I know, Basic guy likes basic stuff. But gaming has been a thing for me since forever. I know most of you wont care or want to hear that, but I'll leave out the specifics on this part unless you are interested in that, MEGA Bonus points if you are.
Here's a lists of Cons to dating me-
~I'm not Ryan Reynolds. Disappointing, I know.
~I will fight you on what goes on pizza lol.
~I'm not rich.., Yet.
~I can't pronounce Worcestershire.
~I'm slightly forgetful, but with good reasoning.
~(Not really a con but- some might disagree) I still have ALL of my firsts, Do with that what you will c:
~I've got an endless pile of love and affection and no one to give it to! What a dilemma! Help me fix it?
Other than that I'll save the rest for a bit more of getting to know each other.
Here's a bit of what I'm looking in you:
~Preferably someone with lots of free time, and loves to chit chat. I'm seriously not interested in getting 1 message a day. Though I understand people get busy, I personally am not willing to try to learn about you and form something with 7 responses a week. Effort gets reciprocated and I appreciate the time you put in me.
~Physically: -I’m not personally attracted to anyone who’s “curvy/ chubby”, I apologize. Not a shallow thing, I just dont have the attraction chemical in my brain for that, I’m sorry. -If you’re shorter than me, thats a plus to me. -I love dimples, if you have those when you smile, bonus points 😊 - I’m not sure what else to put.., but as for nsfw wise find out😂
~I'm a sucker for a different accent other than American, and if you have an Posh English accent you have already won my heart.
~I'm also only really looking for someone within the ages of 18-35. I don't want anyone old enough to be my mom lol.
~I'd prefer (But not a must) people NOT on the other side of the world, as other time zones SUCK. I don't expect to find anyone who also has never had a boyfriend either, but that would be a real plus. I also don't mind a LDR, but I don't want that forever. But it gives us time to get to know each other.
But as for attributes I'm looking for in you:
~Someone who is above all else very very Loyal and would never cheat.
~Someone who is Honest, and will tell me the truth over a little white lie.
~Someone who is Kind & Caring, who'd constantly check on me, and accept me for who I am & help me improve day to day.
~Someone who is trustworthy, and I can count on to keep my secrets safe, or even just help me remember things.., I do tend to be somewhat forgetful.
~Someone who is very Patient and wants to see me succeed and will help me do so, just like I would help you. Even if its small day to day things, I would appreciate your company ANY time.
~I want a partner who is Affectionate, can reciprocate, and loves to snuggle and talk about their day, and what their interests are, and what makes them happy.
~Someone who can admit they get clingy or overprotective is a bonus.
~A partner with good communication is key, if something wrong we have to be able to talk about it.
~A partner who likes to game with me or at least watch me play would be a plus but not a requirement.
~Someone with a good sense of humor and like to joke around, I am a big goof after all and I love to joke around. Sending memes is always appreciated and good to cheer people up too!
~I'd prefer someone with the same music taste, but not a requirement, Plus if you wouldn't mind if I send you love songs occasionally that's a bonus, or sending me some back haha.
~Being willing to voice call is a must, Texting forever is not the way to go. I have to know what your voice is like haha, later on we can video call if you are comfortable with that. I prefer chatting on Discord because Reddit messages of any kind I'm sure you know are unreliable and sucky in general. So please send me your discord if you have one :)
~I would LOVE to see picture of your pets if you have any. Bonus points if it includes your beautiful self haha.
I'm sure there is more I'm looking for but I cant think of it right now haha, I will have to edit this when I think of it.
Please tell me about you as an opener! I told you a good bit about me, now its your turn haha.
Tell me some things like -
~What's your name?
~Where are you from?
~How old are you?
~What are your hobbies / interests?
~What about my post interested you?
~Where is my TV Remote?!
~Selfie? Pet pics?
~Hit me with your best joke or meme :)
~What's your favorite candy?
I'd LOVE to get to know you, and see where things go.
But yeah, I know it was long I'm sorry haha. Send me a message and lets get to know each other! :)

Hi,
I just received a letter interviewing me under caution for flytipping, which I absolutely did not do.
I live in a block of ~150 flats, and we have a binstore that has a door that goes directly out into the road. Since the day the flats were built in ~2017, people have tried to get in, and one of the doors has visible wear and tear. There have been repeated reports of homeless people and others breaking into the binstore, but it is still the place for me to dispose of all my rubbish.
I just got a letter interviewing me under caution for flytipping. The stuff out there is all garden furniture or large bits of wood, apart from a small carboard box with my name on it - I don't remember the exact box, but I get online deliveries most weeks so it is definitely from something I bought. However, none of the rest is mine, and I didn't leave the box outside - I left it in the binstore as always.
The letter asks me 16 questions - excluding the personal details, they ask me if the rubbish is mine, how I normally dispose of rubbish, where did the rubbish come from, how and why was it left there, did anyone give me permission to leave it there, and what did I do to prevent it being left there.
I'm freaking out a bit as, as part of my career, I need to get security checked and they always ask if I have been cautioned (or maybe even if I have been interviewed under caution). I worry that this - on top of a deeply unhelpful £400 fine - could impact my future career.
I am not sure if there is any evidence that I didn't do it, because the only thing I can think of is security cameras and I don't know if there is any. But equally, beyond the box with my name on it - which I suspect was either moved there accidentally by someone breaking into the binstore, or accidentally by the people emptying the bins - I don't know what evidence they could have to lead to me having done it (because I didn't!)?
Very grateful for any advice as to how I should proceed, and if there is any way I can clear my name. I need to respond to their questions by the middle of next week I think.

I had the most unpleasant and sour experience of my life playing the tcg in person at a pre-release... for the first time ever and I understand why people say they don't play in public anymore.
I am a collector through and through. I buy to look at shiny cardboard and to have fun opening packs to collect Mt favorite pocket monsters.
I've been doing so fairly consistently since 2016 and very seriously since August of last year. I have never played the game publicly ever in my life, only with family and friends in a safe and casual environment.
I've been incredibly excited for Twilight Masquerade since it was reported on months ago. I loved the Teal Mask DLC and all its editions, some of my favorite content in poke.on period. So I wanted to get my hands on it early and enjoy getting packs with my family at the local card shop, lcs. Well I was having a blast until my last game.
I was 0-2 as I'm a complete novice and building decks with a 40 card deck and packs isn't ideal, so obviously I wasn't good. I am a 24 pro guy and I got washed by an 11 year old girls palafin in one turn. But I was still optimistic that I might get lucky on my last game.
I find my table and introduce myself and the first thing I was met with was "alright, let's get this over with" in the most exasperated, annoyed, and rude tone ever. My smile immediately turned to a stone cold face. My opponent starts by rapidly shuffling their deck and just slams it on the table and starts setting up so loudly that the other people at the table (my brother being one playing right next to them) stopped their game out of shock. And the entire time was seriously emanating a foul, bitter, and horrid aura of sheer disgust. "Flip your card" "Heads or tails, call it". Slamming cards down left snd right. Constantly saying backhanded comments, being rude to everyone around us, budding in on my brothers game. Groaning at my pace, grabbing my cards off my side of the table without asking, degrading me and belittling my knowledge. Sitting up and shooting daggers of disgust and contempt and asking "is this your first pre-release?". God forbid a collector who spends their free time and expandable income on video game cardboard cards want to participate in the hobby at a deeper level. And of course my deck shuffle luck is horrendous and I can't get my second electric or luminous energy to damage, so it looks like I'm stalling. "You're not going to play the tatsugiri, wow, okay" rolls eyes and scoffs.
Finally starts dealing damage and eventually takes me out. Then when the judge, their friend and the professor of the store, comes over they get sportsmanlike and says "wow that sure was close at the end, I was getting nervous!" (Which to be fair, was a little true, I could see the nervousness). But then like tossed the table slip at me to sign and told me where to sign, even though, I had just done this twice...
I was so peaved the whole time that I spent my day awake at this even mid-day, when I could be sleeping because I work third shifts usually and going off 1 hour of sleep.
I told my brother who was there the whole time and didnt stop their terrible behavior, etiquette, and attitude, not one word in the store.
I finally got a second with a worker in the store and told them what happened. I got some of my favorites, crown zenith 3 packs, and a lost origin blister for 4 bucks, and was about to go. The professor comes up and apologizes to me about what happened and said that no matter what, behavior like that is not acceptable and that they apologize profusely. Tried explaining how this isn't a surprise but nonetheless a disappointment and that they'd talk to their friend to say how that behavior isn't acceptable.
I go there all the time. Every off day, I try and go and when I do, 9/10 times I'm walking out having spent at least 35 dollars and even more fairly often. And that won't change after the one bad experience. I appreciate the professor for what they did, but I should've stood up for myself but I didn't want to cause a scene at such a fun event.
I just hope that people can have some grace and patience for newcomers to the game without being total jerks.
I'm sorry for the long post. I just needed a place to share my experience to the people who'd understand the most. Thank you for the time and I hope you have a great day.
(P.s. if you're going to leave a mean or rude comment, just be blunt about it, that's all that I ask)

There’s long been the theory that Nintendo tries to make people gay.
A famous example is the cover art for Super Mario Galaxy. If you isolate the letters on the title that have a shining star it spells U R MR GAY. On the sequel Super Mario Galaxy 2, the stars spell out YA I M R U?
One that I’ve heard that I think is a particular stretch is that the game Pikmin is supposed to be a subliminal command to “pick men” aka be gay. I don’t think this one has any credence since the Japanese name Pikumin is both a reference to “ippiki” which is a counting word for small objects, as well as “piku” being short for picnic and “min” being short for mini.
Another one I’ve heard is for Baldur’s Gate 3 that Astarion’s name specifically is pronounced “ass tear”, subliminally programming people to think about gay male sex. Given the heavy marketing push with Astarion and appealing to that crowd, this one feels more believable.
Which ones have you heard and which are you favorite?

A couple of days ago, a very longtime friend texted me asking if she could call later. I said sure and and gave one time parameter. I made myself available and she didn't call. I woke up later to pee and saw a text that must've come in after I'd gone to bed. The next morning I apologized and she said she'd call later in the morning. Once again, I made myself available and held off taking a shower for fear of missing her call. At 1pm, I texted asking if she was ok. She said she was and that she was on her way to meet up with coworkers and that she'd call later. Once again, no call. I got a text after dinner, she apologized for missing our call, but that she was going to her boyfriend's place and we'd catch up next week.
Usually I'm a person who gives tons of grace to my family and friends, but this has me feeling a little miffed.
I was worried about her after the first text and invested a fair amount of emotional energy on that. She's been through a lot over the past couple of years and I wanted to be there for her.
Would you feel miffed?

Hi, this is my first time posting on Reddit. I just need to vent some frustration.
I'm currently attending a well-respected university. Our department is pretty small, with only around 1,000 students across all four years. My boyfriend (we've been together since first year, during online classes) is 22, and I'm 20. Building on what I mentioned, my boyfriend and our Dean (34F & a single mom) are family friends, but their friendship seems to have blossomed during the return to in-person classes. She, along with many others, knows my boyfriend and I are together. It's pretty common knowledge—I'm involved in a lot of student organizations and consistently make the dean's list, so many professors and students recognize me.
During face to face classes, After our 2 PM classes, my boyfriend would usually take me home. Sometimes we'd grab a date, but other days he'd just crash at my place for a nap then uuwi siya (at least, that's what I thought). Napapansin ko, palagi silang magka chat and he doesn’t even call her ma’am or miss, first name basis sila. At first, I just brushed it off. I mean, come on, she's way out of his league, age-wise, and super respected pa. But, lagi niya inuutusan si BF—utos dito, utos doon. He practically lives in her office na running errands like chauffeuring her around in her car or his. I tried to be cool about it, but the jealousy's creeping in. TAKE NOTE: he won’t let me open his phone or hold his phone pero okay lang sakin kasi sobrang tiwala naman ako sakanya.
Gaano sila ka close? For example:
It was a school break, so we barely saw each other. But it was our monthsary, and we'd planned this date for ages. I was so hyped, all dressed up, and we were having a great time until...he slams on the brakes and says our dean needs a ride. Apparently, she got into a small accident, and no one else can drive her car? Seriously? My heart sank. He ditched our date to chauffeur her around, and I ended up back at home, alone, in my fancy dress.
December (NEW YEAR) at 12 am: he told me matutulog na siya kasi lasing na daw. Turns out, a friend of mine spotted him smooching some chick at a bar. Sinend sakin yung video the next morning pero diko makita yung face ni girl kasi naka lean siya sa neck ni bf. I confronted him about it pero sabi niya someone daw na kilala niya dati. (Grabe siya mang gaslight, grabe siya mag sinungaling). Even before the New Year's Eve incident, there were red flags I ignored, marami na nagsasabi sakin na he’s up to no good but I used to think trusting people meant shutting out outside opinions, especially when they painted him in a bad light. I wanted to believe the best in him, even if he looked like a walking "fboy stereotype." Blind trust turned into heartbreak. This whole situation has been a wake-up call. My self-worth is important, and I can't let anyone walk all over me. So yeah, we broke up.
But last week ko lang nalaman, Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse, his best friend throws another grenade into the situation. He confessed that my boyfriend manipulated me from the very beginning, and there was more to their "friendship" than meets the eye. After nya pala ako ihatid samin, he would go back to school to be with our dean. The woman he cheated on me with last December? Our freaking Dean. And get this - turns out there was already something going on between them even before that. I feel so betrayed, like everything he ever told me was a lie. It's disgusting. I’ve heard pa nga na they’re officially together na ngayon and ayaw daw ni Dean na lumalapit sakin si boy, or sumama even with our friends (we’re classmates btw). Medyo all out na rin sila sa relationship nila. The Dean's behavior is actually frankly concerning. She shows up at every off-campus basketball game, sitting on the player's bench and cheering him on, completely disregarding the professional boundaries. It's no wonder rumors are flying around our department na.
But yah, With her being the Dean, it terrifies me that my grades or academic standing could be affected by all this personal drama. I don't care about their relationship, I just want to focus on my studies and not have this mess spill over into my academic life.

I'll admit, I say this from the perspective of a guy going through heartbreaking problems in my relationship, LTR of three years, planned future together, desperate to start renting while both unemployed in the worst housing market in the country in one of the worst job markets in recent times, shit is rough
My relationship was and has been tumultuous, we've broken up before, gotten back together many times, last time was 2 years ago. My gf and I frequently have talks about whether we can move forward together, whether or not I am "reliable", whether or not we are compatible, whether or not I am adult enough to be deserving of a relationship with her, things like that, whether or not I'm someone she can depend on to help her escape her home life, the idea that I'm the one forcing the relationship. From my end, it feels like I'm stuck as a constant therapist, frequently a punching bag, always have to be available, pay for the majority of expenses, have to be the mellow one, and try making myself a sex god basically.
I know how all this sounds, you don't need to comment on my relationship. I've never had a love like this before, I only stated the negatives, not the positives, ditto for her negatives, we are still together for a reason.
The thing I'm wondering is, though, I always see women on here claim that the breakup is always the man's fault, it always comes purely down on him, it's always us, after all, the woman breaks up with us months beforehand, and no matter how much it hurts the man to lose what is likely his only deeply intimate human connection in his life, it's nothing compared to being a woman and being chained to a being that is less perfect than yourself, and also is incapable of providing for you entirely, in a horrible economy.
The thing is, can the man actually save the relationship though? Would you ever let him? If your demands on the man are things you yourself aren't doing can he save the relationship? If he's meant to provide for you when you can't provide for himself can he do it? If he's meant to not only pursue things he wants, but also pursue things you want for you, whether or not he can even afford them is it actually possible for him to save the relationship?
The things my girlfriend has told me often fills me with despair, because the only problems she has that are readily fixable are flaws related to my personality, other things, like wanting me to save her from her circumstances, wanting me to be a 24/7 personal assistant or slave (my gf has regularly told me she wants a 24/7 personal assistant or slave), wanting me to be essentially some dominant alpha guy but also not that simultaneously; basically forcing me to constantly prove my worth and simply put in significantly more effort than her, in addition to already being her therapist, lover, and best friend all in one, I truly don't know if these are things I can do right now. And what makes it worse, once I get another job, once I build up more savings, I can do the things she wants of me.
One thing she resents me for is that I never put as much effort into renting an apartment for us despite having a full time job before I got laid off, the thing is, I didn't put in that effort because only I was working while she is unemployed, we live in a major city with very high rents and neither of us can drive so we can't move elsewhere and most places that are cheap have no jobs anyway; no I wasn't putting as much effort into finding housing for us as she did, not nearly enough, but that was because I wanted to feel fully secure so that if we moved in together our life would not be precarious and we wouldn't grow to resent each other due to the stress of living on edge; but of course her family isn't abusive so I'm not even upset that it just isn't enough for her, but it's like, our original plan was for me to work full time and her to work part time so we can support each other, she herself changed it to just me, and while my last job was higher than average pay, it was nowhere near enough for a secure life in this city.
Sorry if I ranted too much about me, it ain't about me, my thing is, what I wanted to discuss is, maybe in spite of women claiming that the breakup is telegraphed for months in advance or even years in advance, maybe the problem is that what the women are demanding are genuinely more than what the man can provide, maybe the women hold off on the breakup because they know on some level they just aren't actually being fair to their partner, and maybe the men act deeply hurt not because they didn't hear or heed their partner, but rather because they truly believed that love might win out and their partner would love them enough to see what they love rather than pet-peeves they dislike, or even accept that he is trying his best?
I know for my partner, I truly feel I am trying my absolute best. My last job, for all the pay, was extremely exploitative and abusive, it ran on a climate of fear where threats of termination were constant, eventually I myself was terminated, despite this I was always there for her, always soothed her heart and pain, was her constant therapist and supporter and friend and financed all of our dates and if I only had a bit more savings would have financed our lives too, she was and is loving, she's amazing, through my pain and misery she was there for me too, but it's like, what's demanded of me to even be worthy of her love at this point is more than what I can even give no matter how much I want to, and she tells me that she fears a future with me because she thinks I can't plan or finance effectively, and it all boils down to....
I understand her problems and her complaints and my flaws, but yet, how can I singularly save the entire relationship, finance both our lives, completely keep myself together mentally through all this and it's just...my gf sometimes thinks I'm only with her due to scarcity mindset or because I think she's the "best" I could get, but that's not true, I love her with all my heart, with everything within me, she's the only person I want a future with, and the main reason I fear breaking up most of all is, what becomes of all the pain, suffering, and heartbreak I endured? The time and money I invested? The stress? And all to potentially go through that again, with another woman, in some distant future, with even more baggage, and even more of my youth gone?
TL;DR: What if women really do expect too much of their male partners and the man actually cannot save the Relationship no matter how much he tries? What if every expectation met leads only to a higher demand and expectation? When a man has already hollowed himself out almost completely what else can he give to his partner?
Please don't make this about me or my relationship, I'm using my own situation as a comprehensive example, and again, I am reasonable towards my girlfriend's demands, she absolutely does deserve to be provided for, I just don't want to be discarded for something I can't immediately do, and as a mam, I don't think I can actually stop that from happening no matter what I do

I am grateful to the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva for offering me this precious opportunity to share my experience of practising Buddhism with you.
I am 62 years old. Today, I can eat, sleep and walk like a normal person. However, did you know that I once was a paralyzed woman who could not even get up from bed, had difficulty turning over, and could not take care of myself? Through practising Buddhism and reciting Buddhist scriptures, I have completely freed myself from the misery of hell. I want to tell you with hard facts that practising Buddhism and reciting the scriptures has not only given me a second life, but has also benefited me immensely. I want to share with you how I transformed myself from paralysis to health within four years without undergoing any surgery! May my presentation plant the seeds of bodhi in your hearts, so that more people will have faith in Guan Yin Bodhisattva who has boundless supernatural power, and recite Buddhist scriptures as soon as possible to be free from suffering and gain happiness!
1. When I was young, I opened two bars so I created bad karma, and karmic retribution is right on my heels!
I am the eldest daughter of my family and the eldest daughter-in-law of my in-laws family. Both my mother and mother-in-law are Buddhist practitioners and urged me to practise Buddhism as well. However, because of my youthful ambition and good fortune, at the age of about 36, I ran two bars and enjoyed the pleasure of earning money, not bothering to practise Buddhism at all. By then, I was young and foolish, in the bars I gained filthy money by means of woman’s charms, which invariably created a lot of bad karma. How many people lost their morals and conscience for my sake of monetary gain? How many families have been broken up behind the scenes? How many people have done many things against ethics and morality under the paralysis of alcohol? I hereby express my deepest repentance to Guan Yin Bodhisattva! Karmic retribution is inescapable. I planted the evil cause so I reap the evil effect. The bad karma I created within two years of running the bars has brought me a tragic retribution 13 years later! (So, dear fellow practitioners, please take this as a warning!)
In 2010, I was 49, my predestined 369 calamity arrived. One day in July, my karma exploded. I suddenly collapsed at home kitchen while stirring frying vegetables. In an instant, I felt that the sky was falling, and I had nowhere to turn for help. An otherwise healthy me entered a life of hell on earth from then on. Every day, I ate, drank, pooped and peed in bed, had difficulty turning over, couldn't wash my hands and face, had trouble swallowing, so it was worse than death. I was paralyzed in bed from then on. The doctor said I had a herniated disc in my lower back. All the bones in my back were misaligned. Both knee bones were necrotic and so swollen. I have visited all the local city and provincial hospitals, big and small, to seek medical care. I almost spent all the several hundreds of thousands of RMB I had gained from my bar business. However, the condition got worse and worse.
2. Since encountering the excellent Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door, I have been practicing Buddhism hard to overcome any obstacles on the way and finally achieved a new life.
Perhaps it was the blessing from my family members who had been making offerings to the Buddha and practising Buddhism for years. Thanks to the mercy of Guan Yin Bodhisattva, I finally encountered the Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door in 2012 when I was in the most desperate situation in my life. The person next door to my bar heard that I was sick and came to see me. She brought me Buddhist scripture, recitation device, Buddhism in Plain Terms, counters and many other Dharma gems. She told me the Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door was very efficacious, and asked me to try it. Although I could not move on bed, I listened all Master Lu's recordings like a thirst. I was pleasantly surprised to hear cases of patients who had been cured of cancer and serious illnesses by practising Buddhism and reciting the scriptures. The recordings of Master Lu's programs were like a bright beacon in the darkness, bringing me hope for life and giving me great encouragement. I felt I was awakened by a powerful energy, stirring up my strong desire to live. I told myself: I must survive; I must save myself! I started to practice Buddhism and recite scriptures as if I had grabbed a lifeline.
I am illiterate, so I had to lie in bed every day and learn to recite word by word with the recitation device. Due to the heavy karma, there was no virtuous and the high-minded practitioner around to teach me how to burn the Little Houses in a rational and lawful way. I foolishly took an ashtray instead of a plate to burn the Little Houses, which resulted in the ashtray blowing up. In order to eliminate karma quickly, I was foolishly reciting the Heart Sutra and Amitabha Pure Land Rebirth Mantra after ten o'clock at night, which resulted in the light bulbs breaking several times (Here, I sincerely remind my fellow practitioners: Master Lu enlightened us not to recite the Heart Sutra and Amitabha Pure Land Rebirth Mantra after ten o'clock at night. Please make sure to read the Introduction to Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door carefully in order to avoid practising Buddhism irrationally). Therefore, we must follow the instructions of Master Lu, and never do what the Master does not allow us to do. The whole process of reciting Buddhist scriptures to eliminate karma is very bumpy. It is really easy to create karma, but very hard to eliminate it! However, I firmly believed that the Bodhisattva is infinitely powerful. As long as I diligently practised Buddhism, my fate would definitely get changed. Hence, I relied on the blissful cases in Master Lu's recordings as my spiritual support. I kept persevering, not afraid of any difficulties, and recklessly recited Buddhist scriptures.
Since I ate, drank and pooped in bed, my aura was very bad. As I could not get up by myself, so I had to lie in bed to recite the sacred Buddhist scriptures. I felt guilty and torn, wondering if this was the appropriate way to recite the sacred Buddhist scriptures. Will it affect the effect of the recitation? Gratitude to Guan Yin Bodhisattva for Her compassion, and I dreamed of Master Lu that night. Master Lu who was dressed in a black suit smiled at me and kindly comforted me: “don't worry.” After I woke up, I was very grateful for Master Lu's compassion. Master Lu knew about my special situation, so this is a sympathy and a condolence to me. After I recited Buddhist scriptures 4 to 5 months late, my neck and head were able to turn significantly. Such a Dharma blissful change thrilled me. All the trials and perseverance I had gone through in the past had not been in vain. Guan Yin Bodhisattva has boundless supernatural power, which had given me a glimmer of hope for recovery! (Here, I sincerely remind my fellow practitioners: In the absence of illness, recitation of Buddhist scriptures must be respectful. A point of respect harvests a point of benefit.)
3. The unique characteristics of attending the Dharma conference and formally acknowledging Jun Hong Lu as my master allow my physical health to improve with Dharma joy
In February 2017, I befriended a fellow practitioner. She invited me to attend the Macau Dharma Convention together. I thought to myself: “can I take the bus by myself?” “Can I attend the conference?” With a strong faith from my inner heart, I attended the conference via keeping reciting the Great Compassion Mantra on the trip. Unbelievably, I arrived at the conference as I wished with the blessing and protection of Guan Yin Bodhisattva, although my bulky legs could only barely support my body in the seat. I was in tears when I listened Master Lu's wise words and saw the holy icon of Guan Yin Bodhisattva. On the night of the conference, I dreamed of Guan Yin Bodhisattva! Gratitude to Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva for saving me from suffering and giving me a new life. At the end of the Macau Dharma Convention, I instantly made two vows: to be a vegetarian for 15 days per month and liberate 10,000 fish.
Before I attended the Macau Dharma Convention, I had to take a break whenever I walked two steps, and my body was not able to move much. After returning, my legs started to become strong enough to support my body and I could walk on flat ground. Despite they were not very flexible, they were no longer the same as when I was paralyzed like a limp in bed. My whole body is getting better and better in essence, vital energy, and spirit. I was very surprised! Master Lu has enlightened that there are many Buddhas and Bodhisattvas coming to bless attendees at each Dharma conference!
In August 2017, before the Dharma Convention in Malaysia, my fellow practitioners urged me to formally acknowledge Jun Hong Lu as my master. Since I am an illiterate, compassionate fellow practitioners helped me to fill out the application form of seeking discipleship. My fellow practitioners told me that there were so many people wanted to formally acknowledge Jun Hong Lu as their master that I might not be able to reach my wish this time. Then, I had to wait for the opportunity next Dharma Convention. I told myself that whether I could reach my wish or not this time, I would actively participate in Master Lu’s Dharma Convention. Considering my age, it is a blessing for me to attend one more Dharma Convention. To my surprise, one week later, my application for seeking discipleship was approved. Gratitude to Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva!
On the day of seeking discipleship, I was very excited. During the process of seeking discipleship, I heard a voice in stereo that was very loud. When I opened my eyes, I was surprised to see Tathagata Buddha, and many other Bodhisattvas coming down from heaven. At that moment, I saw that the upper half of Master Lu's Dharmakaya appeared transparent with a huge lotus flower. I was suddenly moved to tears. I was oblivious to the fact that Master Lu had come to my side until the time of issuing the discipleship certificate. Master Lu was very compassionate and empowered me with blessing. Master Lu enlightened, "Because five people opened their eyes during the worship ceremony, they have no lotuses planted in the pure land. But it's okay, when the ceremony is over, you can go to the front and kowtow to ask the Bodhisattva (to plant a lotus)." I then rushed to the front to worship. Before I finished worshiping Bodhisattva, a young fellow practitioner came over. He asked, "How do you feel? Did you see anything?" I said, "I saw Tathagata Buddha." He asked, "How are you sure that was Tathagata Buddha?" I said, "Both my mother and mother-in-law are Buddhist disciples, and Tathagata Buddha has curly hair."
I was grateful for the compassionate blessing from Guan Yin Bodhisattva and Master Lu. When I returned home after seeking discipleship, I made two vows: to be a vegetarian for the rest of my life and never kill (animals). The power of a vow outweighs the force of karma. After I made the vows, Master Lu’s Dharmakaya came to help me heal my legs in my dreams. Once, I saw Master Lu’s Dharmakaya passing by my room while I was half-squinted. Master Lu asked me, "Which foot is uncomfortable? Where is aching?" Instantly I woke up and then I found that my feet didn't feel as heavy as they used to be and I walked more lightly. I excitedly shared the news with my old father, "Master Lu has come to bless me again!" I am grateful to Master Lu for his compassionate care for every sentient being. Every time I dreamed of Master Lu, he would always compassionately endow me with abundance of blessing, and I was always surprised by the improvement in my health.
In a short time, I could not only separate my feet and take turns to walk up and down the stairs independently. Moreover, I could bend back and forth freely with my arms crossed. The bones in my back, which were all misaligned and uneven, were now completely normal again. Previously, I couldn't raise my hands to wash my face, brush my teeth or comb my hair because the bones in my back would pull the nerves and cause severe pain when I raised my hands. In those days, whenever I sneezed or defecated, I felt like to cheat death on pain. In those hellish day I went through unimaginable pain and suffering. Now, however, I can take care of myself completely and move around freely. Sometimes I get a little tired after walking for too long, but I can recover after 10 minutes of rest in bed. Although it is still slightly bumpy while I was walking, if you don't look closely, you can't see it. My family was overwhelmed to see the dramatic change from being paralyzed and bedridden to walking independently since I practised Buddhism. My old father, who was taking care of me at the bedside, complimented me straight away: you have completely changed, becoming healthier and healthier now! I was so excited that I had tears in my eyes. Without the rescue of Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva and Master Lu, I really wouldn't have the blissful transformation I have today!
In 2019, at the Dharma conferences of Indonesia and Singapore, I pleaded with my fellow practitioners to be merciful to give me the opportunity to volunteer. According to the rules of the Dharma conference, I was already overage. However, I was adamant that I must do volunteer work. Guan Yin Bodhisattva has given me a second life, so I have to serve all sentient beings physically. I am grateful for Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva who helped me out. When I came back from the conferences, I found that I could bend and squat easily and freely, and I had no problem even sitting on the floor. I am grateful to Guan Yin Bodhisattva for compassionately helping me to eliminate my karma at every conference, so that I can obtain incredible blessings and improvement occur every time.
4. The incredible blessing of setting up the Buddhist altar accelerated my health recovery and created a medical miracle.
From the time I set up the Buddhist altar in 2017, I insisted on offering Bodhisattvas incenses morning and evening every day. At first, the body was still straight and could not bend and bow. For two years, in front of the Buddhist altar, I prayed for Bodhisattvas to bless me so that I could recover my health a little better so I can use my own experience as an example to convince sentient beings to gain faith on Dharma and practise Dharma. Gradually, I was able to stand to offer incense to Bodhisattvas, to bend and bow, and finally to kneel in front of the Buddhist altar to recite the scriptures. I was full of Dharma joy! Initially, my back still hurt from kneeling. With the karmic obstacles being removed, my back didn't hurt anymore. Sometimes when I went out with fellow practitioners to set up the Buddhist altar, particularly on the Buddha's Birthday, I could kneel to recite the Eighty-eight Buddhas Great Repentance for an hour and a half. My fellow practitioners couldn't keep it up, so I was the only one who kept it up until the end. I am so grateful to Guan Yin Bodhisattva for Her compassionate blessing!
At one time, the doctor at the provincial hospital told me that I had to have surgery to put two steel plates into the bone, but I refused. Because I firmly believe that with the of blessings of Guan Yin Bodhisattva and Master Lu, I am afraid of nothing. Buddha is an extraordinary doctor. The only way to recover completely is to repent sincerely and practise Buddhism. I can now move as freely as a normal person. This medical miracle achieved was completely relied on practising Buddhism, reciting scriptures, being a vegetarian, helping new practitioners to set up Buddhist altars, volunteering at Dharma conferences, and actively propagating the Dharma. To improve my family economic financial, I went out to work on construction sites as a helper, do cleaning and housekeeping!
Those patients who were once slightly paralyzed did not recover as quickly and well as I did, even with surgery.
Dear readers, when you see such a dramatic change in me, what are you hesitating for? Hurry up and pick up the Buddhist scriptures to recite! I am the living example, the ironclad evidence. Guan Yin Bodhisattva does exist, and She is Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate, answers any prayers.
Thinking of the bad karma I created in the two bars when I was young, I feel grievously sinful. I have earned ill-gotten wealth, but the karma was produced, and karmic retribution is inescapable. If one hasn't been retributed, the time hasn't come yet. After I got old, all the retribution came to me. Not only did I use up all my money, but I also had to suffer from physical illness and paralysis. I advise everyone to remember Master Lu's enlightenment: Do not do anything that is evil; Do not fail to do good no matter how petty the deed; Do not engage in evil no matter how trivial the deed. Dear readers, please consider it carefully before earning any money, and don’t commit such deep sins as I did for the sake of monetary gain, or else the consequences will follow you!
Without the merciful salvation and blessings of Guan Yin Bodhisattva and Master Lu, I would not have been reborn today! I made a few great wows: honour the teacher and respect his teachings, live an ascetic life for lifetime, be a vegetarian lifetime, not kill, not eat eggs, not smoke, not drink; transcend the cycle of rebirth for good and attain enlightenment in one lifetime. In this life, I will follow Guan Yin Bodhisattva to cultivate my mind and change my behaviour and never quit. I will follow my benefactor, the Compassionate father, Master Lu, to propagate Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door and never stop! Although I am over 60 years, I will continue using my own experience as an example to convince sentient beings to gain faith on Dharma and practise Buddhism. Together with my fellow practitioners, I will get up early and go home late to help set up Buddha altars for new practitioners. No matter how far and how difficult the trip is, I will always be strict with myself. I will go wherever I am needed. Even if I am eating, as soon as I receive a mission for propagating Dharma, I will put down my chopsticks and set off without delay.
Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door is peerlessly efficacious, and Guan Yin Bodhisattva is Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate, saves beings from suffering, has supernatural power, and answer all prayers. As long as we have a devout heart and we persist in reciting Buddhist scriptures and practicing Buddhism, no difficulty can defeat us! My physical changes are the most powerful evidence! May my true presentation give some inspiration to those people who are still suffering from illnesses, so that they can acquire faith to practising Buddhism, and pick up the Buddhist scriptures to recite. May more sentient beings having affinity with Buddha break free from delusion and attain enlightenment, balance egoism and altruism, and free from suffering and gain happiness.
My deepest gratitude to the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva!
My deepest gratitude to all Buddhas and Bodhisattvas from ten directions and three periods of time!
My deepest gratitude to the Dharma protectors!
My deepest gratitude to the selfless and altruistic Master Jun Hong Lu!
If there is anything that is not rational or in line with the truth in the presentation, I’d like to seek forgiveness from the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva, all Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, Dharma protectors, and Master Jun Hong Lu.
I’d also like to seek forgiveness from my fellow Buddhist practitioners.
I, not my fellow practitioners, will be responsible for my own karma!
Shared by: Dharma Practitioner Ganen, Gratitude and Namaste!
Translated by: Frank
Statement by Translator

1. Story was translated from Chinese into English by meaning, not word by word. If there is anything that is not rational or in line with the true meaning of the Chinese version, I’d like to seek forgiveness from the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva, all Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, Dharma protectors and Master Jun Hong Lu.
   
2. Author Ganen was interviewed by Frank during the translation for the detailed information.
   

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原文如下:
从瘫痪卧床到行走自如做家政，心灵法门创造了医学奇迹
感恩南无大慈大悲救苦救难广大灵感观世音菩萨摩诃萨！
感恩十方三世一切诸佛菩萨！
感恩龙天护法金刚菩萨！
感恩恩师慈父卢军宏台长！
感恩师兄们！
感恩大慈大悲观世音菩萨慈悲，让我能有这个宝贵的机会与大家分享我的学佛经历。我今年62岁，现在是一个能吃、能睡、能走路的正常人了。但是，你们可曾知道，曾经，我是一个连床都起不了、翻身都困难，生活完全无法自理的瘫痪老人！如今，通过学佛念经，我把自己从地狱的苦海里完全挣脱了出来。我要用铁一般的事实告诉大家：学佛念经不仅给了我第二次生命，更让我受益无穷。我要跟大家分享，在这患病的四年里，在没有经历任何手术的情况下，如何让自己从瘫痪到健康的蜕变！愿我今天的分享给有缘人种下菩提种子，让更多的人相信观世音菩萨法力无边，早日学佛念经，离苦得乐！
1. 年轻时开酒吧造恶业，得现世报！
我是家中的长女、婆家的长媳。母亲和婆婆都是学佛人，都劝我也学佛。但是，由于年轻时好胜心强，加之财运不错，36岁左右，我经营两家酒吧，享受挣钱的快乐，根本无心学佛。年轻愚痴的我经营酒吧时靠女色来赚取黑钱，赚的都是不正之财，无形中造了很多恶业。在这种灯红酒绿中生活，我为了金钱利益，让多少人丧失了自己的道德与良知？背后又造成多少个家庭的破裂？又有多少人在酒精的麻痹下做出多少违背伦理道德的事情？弟子在此向观世音菩萨深深忏悔！因果报应丝毫不爽，种恶因得恶果。开酒吧这两年中我所造下的恶业，在十几年后让我得到悲惨的现世报！所以，请大家引以为戒！
2010年我49岁，正逢“三六九”关劫。7月的一天，我的业障大爆发，在家炒菜时突然间倒下。瞬间，我感觉天塌下来，叫天天不应，叫地地不灵。一个原本健康的我从此进入人间地狱般的生活。每天，我吃喝拉撒都在床上，翻身都很困难，没法自己洗手洗脸，吞咽困难，简直生不如死。我从此瘫痪在床。医生说我是腰椎间盘突出。后背的所有骨头都错位。两个膝盖骨头坏死，肿得很大。当地市里、省里大大小小的医院我都看过了。我几乎把我做酒吧生意所赚到的几十万块钱都花光了。然而，病情越来越严重。
2. 得遇殊胜法门，坎坷学佛路中坚持不懈地修行换来重生
也许是家人一直供佛学佛的福德。承蒙观世音菩萨慈悲，在我人生绝境之时，我终于在2012年得遇心灵法门。以前我开店隔壁的人听说我病倒了，就来看我。她给我送来了经书、念佛机、《白话佛法》、计数器等很多法宝。她告诉我心灵法门很灵验，让我试试。我躺在床上虽然无法动弹，却如饥似渴地把师父的录音听了个遍。听到人们通过学佛念经把癌症、重症都治愈的案例，我惊喜万分。师父的节目录音就像黑暗中的一盏明灯，让我看到了生活的希望，给了我很大的鼓舞。在这个过程中我像被一股强大的能量加持唤醒，激起了求生的强烈欲望。我告诉自己：我一定要活过来；我一定要自己救自己！我像抓住了救命稻草似地开始拼命学佛念经。
我不识字，只能每天躺在床上跟着念佛机一字一句地学着念。由于业力牵引，身边没有遇到善知识教我如理如法地烧送小房子。愚痴的我曾拿个烟灰缸代替盘子烧送经文组合小房子，结果烟灰缸炸掉了。为了抓紧时间消业，我晚上十点后还在念《心经》和《往生咒》，结果家里的灯坏了好几次（趁此机会我诚心提醒师兄们：师父开示，晚上十点后不要念诵《心经》和《往生咒》，请师兄们一定要好好看《心灵法门入门手册》，避免操作不如理不如法）。所以，我们一定要听师父的话，师父不让做的就不做。念经消业的整个过程非常坎坷。真是造业容易，消业难啊！但是，我坚信菩萨法力无边，只要精进努力，一定会得到改变的。于是，我依靠师父录音中的法喜案例作为精神支撑。我一直坚持不懈，不怕万难，拼命念经。
由于吃喝拉撒都在床上，气场非常不好，自己又无法起身，只能躺在床上念经。我内心愧疚又纠结，不知道这样念经是否如理如法？会不会影响念经效果？感恩菩萨慈悲，当晚我就梦见师父了。师父身穿着黑西装，一边慈祥地笑着一边安慰我：不要担心。醒来后，我非常感恩师父的慈悲。师父知道我的特殊情况，这是对我的宽容和安慰啊。后来，大概念经差不多4～5个月后，我的脖子和头也能明显地转动了。这样法喜的变化，让我激动万分。我过去所经历的磨难与坚持都没有白费。观世音菩萨法力无边，让我看到了康复的一丝希望！（作者提醒：师兄们，在没有病痛的情况下，念经一定要体态恭敬，一分恭敬一分受益。）
3. 参加法会与拜师的殊胜，让我的身体不断法喜蜕变
2017年2月份，我结识了一位师兄。她邀请我一起去参加澳门法会。我心想：我能自己坐车吗？能去法会吗？凭着内心坚定的信念，路途中我一直念《大悲咒》。虽然我笨重的双腿只能勉强支撑着身体坐在座位上，但在观世音菩萨一路加持护佑下，我竟然能够如愿到了法会现场。现场听到师父开示、看到观世音菩萨的圣像，我泪如雨下。大法会当天晚上，我就梦到了观世音菩萨！感恩大慈大悲救苦救难观世音菩萨救我于苦海，给了我新的生命和生活。澳门法会结束，我当即发愿：一个月吃素15天，放生一万条鱼。参加澳门法会前，只要走两步路我就要歇一歇，而且我的身体没办法大幅度活动。
澳门法会回来后，我的双腿开始变得有力，可以支撑起身子在平地上走路了。虽然还不是很灵活，但是比起原来像软泥一样瘫痪在床的状态，已经不可同年而语了。我整个人精、气、神也越来越好。我非常惊喜！师父开示过，每场法会有很多佛菩萨来加持大家！
2017年8月，马来西亚法会前，师兄们让我拜师，但我不识字。慈悲的师兄们帮助我代笔填写拜师申请表。师兄们告诉我，这次拜师的人太多，有可能排不上队，得等到下一场法会才有机会。我告诉自己，无论这次能不能拜师，我都一定积极参加师父的法会。我这么大年纪了，能参加多一场法会都是我的福报啊。让我惊喜的是，一个星期后，我的拜师申请通过了。感恩观世音菩萨慈悲！
拜师当天，我激动万分。在拜师过程中，我听到一个非常立体、非常响亮的声音。我睁开眼睛时，我竟然看到了如来佛祖，还有好多菩萨都从天上下来了。这时，我看到师父上半身的法身呈现透明状，有一朵大大的莲花。我顿时感动得泪如雨下。直到颁发弟子证的时候，我浑然不觉师父已经走到我的身边。师父非常慈悲，给我灌顶加持。师父说:“因为拜师过程中有5个人睁开了眼睛，所以莲花没有种上去。不过没关系，等拜师仪式结束后，可以到前面去磕头求菩萨。”我就赶紧跑到前面去拜。我还没拜完，就过来了一个年轻师兄。他问我：“您感觉怎么样？有没有看到什么？” 我告诉他：“我看到如来佛祖了。” 他说：“您怎么确定那是如来佛祖呢？”我说：”我家母和家婆是学佛人，如来佛祖头发卷卷的。”
感恩观世音菩萨与师父的慈悲加持。拜师结束回家我就发愿: 终生吃全素，不杀生。真是愿力大于业力，发愿后，师父又来梦里帮我治疗双腿。有一次，我半眯着眼睛看到师父从我的房间经过。师父问我：“还有哪只脚不舒服？还有哪个地方疼痛的？” 瞬间我就醒了，醒来我发现我的双脚没有了原来的沉重感，走起路来更加轻盈了。我激动地跟老父亲分享：“师父又来加持我啦！”感恩师父慈悲关怀着每一位众生。每次梦见师父，师父都慈悲给予加持，我的身体总会有惊喜的好转。
没过多久，我不仅可以分开双脚，轮流迈开步伐独立上下楼梯。而且，我双手叉腰，可以前后自如地弯腰。后背的骨头原本因为全部错位并高低不平，如今完全恢复正常了。原本我没办法把手举起来洗脸、刷牙和梳头，因为手一抬，后背的骨头扯神经会导致剧烈的疼痛。每次打喷嚏或排泄的时候，都有种痛不欲生的感觉，就像死里逃生一样。这种地狱般的日子让我历经常人难以想象的苦痛折磨。然而现在，我的生活可以完全自理并且行动自如。有时候走太久会有一点点累，但是卧床休息十几分钟就可以恢复过来。虽然走路还有一点点高低现象，但如果不仔细看，是看不出来的。看到我学佛念经以来，从瘫痪卧床到独立行走的巨大变化，我的家人无比震惊。当年在床头边照顾我的老父亲直夸我：现在整个人完全变了，变得越来越健康了！我激动得泪眼婆娑。没有观世音菩萨与师父的大慈大悲救苦救难，真的不会有我今天的法喜蜕变！
2019年印尼法会和新加坡法会上，我恳请师兄们慈悲给我做义工的机会。按照法会规定，我已经超龄了。但是，我坚决一定要做义工。观世音菩萨给了我第二次生命，我就要身体力行地为众生服务。感恩观世音菩萨的慈悲，让我能如愿以偿。从法会做完义工回来，我发现我可以轻松自如地弯腰和下蹲，就连坐在地板上也没有问题了。感恩菩萨每次法会上都慈悲帮我消业，让我每次都能有不可思议的加持，变化。
4. 设佛台的不可思议加持，加速我身体恢复健康，创造医学奇迹
从2017年设佛台起，我每天坚持上早晚香。起初，身体还是直直的，不能弯腰鞠躬。两年里，我每天在佛台前上香求菩萨加持，让我身体能恢复得更好一些，能为众生表法。慢慢地，我从站着上香到弯腰鞠躬，到最后可以跪在佛台前念经。真是法喜充满啊！刚开始跪着后背还是很痛。随着业障的消除，我的后背也不疼痛了。有时候和师兄们出去设佛台，遇到佛诞日，我跪着念诵《礼佛大忏悔文》足足有一个半小时的时间。许多师兄都坚持不下来，唯独我坚持到结束。真是感恩菩萨慈悲加持！
曾经，省医院的医生告诉我，必须做手术把两块钢板放进骨头里，但我回绝了。因为我坚信有观世音菩萨和师父两座靠山，我什么都不怕。在因果面前，佛是大药王。唯有诚心忏悔，学佛修行才能彻底康复。我完全靠学佛念经吃素、设佛台、参加法会做义工，积极弘法度人，才创造了医学奇迹：现在和正常人一样行动自如。我甚至去工地做小工，搞卫生、做家政弥补家用！那些曾经轻微瘫痪的患者就算做手术，也没有我恢复得快，恢复到如此好的状态。
读者朋友们，你们看到我如此天翻地覆的变化，还犹豫什么呢？赶快捧起经书念经吧！我就是活生生的例子，铁一般的证据。观世音菩萨真实存在，并且大慈大悲有求必应啊！
现在回想起年轻时开酒吧所造下的恶业，真是罪孽深重。不正之财赚到了，可是，因果报应丝毫不爽，不是不报，时候未到。在我人到老年时，所有的报应一涌而来。不但钱财全部用尽，还要遭受肉体病痛的瘫痪之苦，因果不空啊！奉劝大家一定要谨记师父的教诲：诸恶莫作，众善奉行！不以善小而不为；不以恶小而为之！挣任何钱财之前都要三思，切记不可为了金钱利益而像我一样造下如此深重的罪孽，否则果报如影随形！
没有观世音菩萨和师父的慈悲救度与加持，就没有我今天的重生！弟子许愿尊师重道、一生清修、终生吃全素、不杀生、不吃鸡蛋、不抽烟、不喝酒；一世修成，永断轮回。今生跟着观世音菩萨修心修行，永不退转。跟着恩师慈父卢军宏台长弘扬心灵法门永不停息！我虽然60多岁了，但是我要身体力行地为大家表法，起早贪黑地和共修组师兄们一起去助缘设佛台。无论路程多么遥远，多么艰辛，我都严格要求自己。哪里需要我，我就走到哪里。哪怕我在吃饭，只要接到弘法任务，我一定当即放下筷子，一刻也不能耽误地出发。
心灵法门灵验无比，观世音菩萨大慈大悲，救苦救难，法力无边，有求必应。只要我们有一颗虔诚的心，只要我们坚持念经修行，没有什么困难可以打倒我们！我的身体变化就是最有力的证据！愿我的真实分享给那些还在受着病痛折磨的人们一些启发，让大家生起学佛念经的信念，捧起经书念经，愿更多的有缘众生能够早日破迷开悟，自利利他，离苦得乐！
我的分享结束了，分享中如有不如理不如法的地方，请观世音菩萨慈悲原谅！请十方三世一切诸佛菩萨和龙天护法菩萨慈悲原谅！请师父慈悲原谅！请师兄们批评指正！我自己的业障自己背，不让师兄们背！感恩合十！
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There have always been big fast scooter manufacturers, like Dualtron. But I've noticed that in the past few years, more brands have introduced flagship escooters that have gotten bigger and faster. Examples: Segway GT2, Inmotion RS7, Apollo Pro, Vsett 11+, etc
These new flagships usually feature 11" tires, superior coil suspensions, hydraulic brakes, turn signals, a huge deck, much higher top speeds, longer ranges, and weights above 100 lbs. They are every bit as fast as mopeds (often faster) and are easily capable of sustaining NYC traffic speeds.
What's the view on the forum of this development? Personally, I think it's a great thing, and that the new scooters are safer than smaller scooters in the hands of responsible riders -- torque when you need it, better braking, better able to handle potholes, etc.
But I suspect many here (probably including Miser and his +1 and certainly all of the leg bikers), disapprove of these SUV scooters and think micromobility should cluster around small, portable scooters lighter than 40 lbs and speed limited at 18 mph.

I was a recent graduate and was actively applying to graduate programs abroad for almost one year now. I am a middle child in mid 20s and the elder one is about 4 years older than me while the younger is in his teens. I had been unemployed for 9 months when this incidence happened. I used to work at a company and contribute to the costs around 7k ish out of 15k total (the older one paid the rent online as he was out of the valley) for two of us living in a suburban area of Kathmandu. Yestai chaldai thyo, I resigned from the job to focus on my graduate application preparation ( SOP, GRE, IELTS, PAPER). I didn't have much savings (50k ish) at the moment I resigned. I asked for my parents to cover any additional cost, besides 50k, incurred during the application process. And I went to my hometown to stay with my parents and focus on the preparation for 5 months. Then I returned to take one of the exam. The exam went well. Coincidentally,as the elder one had returned to the room, I shared my ambitions with the elder one (grad application, application fee required and all, without expecting any contribution from his side). He didn't react at the time. Then, I returned to my hometown again to focus on another exam. As I had used up my personal savings, I asked for my parents and they agreed to give me almost 1 lacs so that I can focus on the exam and overall preparation. After around 2 months, I returned to Kathmandu to appear in the exam and to prepare different documents (LoRs, transcripts everything).
When I was there in Kathmandu, all of the sudden, the elder one had problem with me not contributing to the rents and other costs. At one point, he even accused me of misusing the amount (1 lacs)I got from our parents . FYI, he didn't even ask for the money to me/my parents and I asked for the money for the sole purpose of application fees to various programs. The timing of his confrontation was quite crucial as well as the deadlines of the programs I am applying to were nearby. Had he asked me politely if I can contribute to the rents/other costs for some months due to some financial difficulties he was going through, I might have done the same by borrowing some more from my friends. But all of the sudden he accused me of not contributing and told that he will hope that I wouldn't get into any programs I was applying to. I felt really disheartened at that moment. I do know that I should have contributed. But at that moment, I was going through rough patch, both financially and mentally (3 rejections on my earlier applications). Now, I am currently living in the hometown and contemplating whether I should rethink living with the elder one specifically. I am thinking about finding a new job (it won't be difficult in my sector, but it will be hard to focus on my remaining grad school applications and papers while working full time in parallel) and borrowing some money from my friends (which won't be a problem as I used to lend them all the time earlier) so as to pay my contribution for all these months with interest and living on my own separately.
My apologies for rambling on and on but I would appreciate your genuine suggestions in this regard.