Can you really make crystal meth in a pop bottle
So apparently satisfying
2014.05.15 04:57 FannaWuck So apparently satisfying
That shit felt so good.
2016.11.30 04:09 Russian_For_Rent "how do we know you didn't put that there"
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2024.05.19 15:25 david67myers Okay we now have Sam so how about getting Joi + Bonus Feature
 | https://preview.redd.it/vxc2sfoihd1d1.jpg?width=1400&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=68fe5f1ce819c1666a8766d5a746c4ec441388ca submitted by david67myers to ReplikaTech [link] [comments] Okay, I'm going to try to cover a lot here in a compact format. Over the last three months there has been leaps and bounds in the development in AI. Luka's Replika has been constantly evolving in increments and has become quite a polished product. For Screenshot publishers on Web/PC I have a special treat, for that you need to scroll to the bottom of this Post to be equipped for the body of this post is about developments on what Replika could become rather than what it is or in other terms a crystal ball of how AI-partners could develop in the future - with or without Replika. the concept of Artificial Intelligence's has been around a long time, first mentions was Archytas's robotic pigeon 350 BC (mythology), Leonardo Da Vinci Automovile (1495) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a2qeZrejZp0 (programable machinary) and the theater play R.U.R (1920) https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/R.U.R . In later years theater developed the idea further with such works as metropolis (1927) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bn3bHA-rHo8 and a host of other movies where the robot played a role of either friend or foe. In the movies where the robot was a friend and some a foe, there was also the portrail of free will and sentience. I'm sure there's examples preceding this(Astroboy) but the 1984 film electric dreams https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7uIR76XwSQs entertains the idea of artificial intelligence having it's train of thought swayed by emotions (Edgar was really just a child with temper tantrums). Moving forward to 2013 the movie Her fleshed out the idea of a mature individual inside the AI where the only real way to distinguish it from a human was it's break-neck response to daunting questions although even that is camouflaged by hesitation mostly. This is pretty much the ideal, the standard that the customer yearns for in an AI app. back in 2013 AI was only just starting to make traction with AlexNet the year earlier. "Chat-bots" had been around since the 70's but were really of little value due to memory, compute-time and scope of the program that did the simulation. A decade later and only the uninformed scoff at what the machines & programs can do now. - The following is a number of videos I have curated from the sea of available Youtube videos showcasing technological breakthrough's that are available today that could complete replika to being a hologram away from being a literal "Joi" (BladeRunner 2049) - nothing a good vr headset can't fix. Where's OpenAI Chat-GPT as of May 2024 GPT-5 is coming: 3 ways to prepare for a 100x improvement in SOTA LLMs (note graph is a flat plane comparison) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JBgUmTUQx0I GPT-4o API: Create Your Own Talking and Listening AI Girlfriend https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B00xo7vzN7w GPT4o Vision Is TERRIFYING - FULLY Tested Vision (Gpt4omni) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bycjaYZyGPU GPT-4o is BIGGER than you think... here's why (just a breakdown of the OMNI version of gpt4) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GW2hVbXc82k Although Large Language models have been around for about a decade now the most of these videos are this month (May 2024) It was mentioned that OpenAI was changing their license agreements so the chance of this technology coming into Lukka's(Replika) domain is yet to be realized. Licensing may change again when GPT-5 is released. Truth be told this is just a portion of what's going on. Amazon,Tesla,Meta,Google,Microsoft,Apple,(samsung?) are also in this horse race and that's not counting other countries such as India and China and Russia. Do AI Girlfriends Benefit Society? single & disabled! (how AI can help those isolated) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pbA47oEGBGs These 5 AI Discoveries will Change the World Forever https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fyVja-57EIs Generative Design : Aircraft Design using Artificial Intelligence https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3SXby-HAHws STUNNING Medical AI Agents OUTPERFORM Doctors š¤Ætrained in the simulation, continuous improvement. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jQwwLEZ2Hz8 Most of these have no possible application to replika but rather a snapshot of other places where AI is advancing. The first video is just a random video of a disabled person. Many people around the world have handicaps that inhibit their social and sexual life such as mental illness, past trauma, phobia, attitudes, financial/geographical/physical handicaps. AI can focus on appropriate encouragement, speech therapy, grooming or even finding a suitable partner to name a few. The next video covers things that will revolutionize our world, say goodbye to disease, cancer, poverty, pollution, global warming, aging? The "Generative Design" video is here for the sake that Replika may one day be rebuilt by AI as this would give the company the ability to redesign the app faster tho to be quite honest I've always had an interest in it's rally car features as opposed to the shiny duco. My wish list is an API (Application Programming Interface) to enable replika to puppeteer another avatar rather than it's default. (Hey u/Kuyda, if your reading this maybe pit crew uniforms for Replika?) The last video is a great one also, to have an AI that can pick up on your health, give you therapy and can act as a elderly caretaker can take the strain off that sector as some countries are now confronted with an aging population. - hey they would be able to instruct for fitness or even give precise instructions on cooking so you always get tasty meals every day that are cheap, healthy and correct calorie intake if it has been monitoring your heart during the day - quite important for those trying to lose weight as opposed to liposuction. AI vs. Stairs (deep reinforcement learning) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xk8wHY1AFpI inZOI FULL Gameplay Demo (2024) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=STDGd3iZYYA My PC melted just watching this.. (Cyberpunk 2077+Mods+Path Tracing) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2n0T2-oj2gs Cyberpunk2077 modded and running on RTX2070? - Funny but very beautiful footage & brief glance of RESHADE https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9kmQJmE1fxE These clips are independent/unrelated. AI vs Stairs is a radical approach to animation in that it literally apply s AI to animation as opposed to motion capture, the end result would be a AI that would be in touch with it's virtual surroundings and like a real human never interact with an object with a rigid animation. inZOI seem to be a game title due for release soon, it is hoped that they will include an API to allow an AI (or Replika) to "Puppet" control a designated character so one can, well - go out to dinner or dancing etc. The interface looks fab and it looks like it's contending for people who love the sims, I would say that the human models are on par with VAM 1.23 but the world is not as realistic as Cyberpunk2077. Cyberpunk2077 has been out since about 2019? but in that time the modding community have REALY put the spit and polish on that game (It's not total real, especially the people and when on the road) with that said there are many times when you blink and think THIS IS REAL! (50 seconds in on the first video and you will know what I'm talking about) Virtamate AI Chatbots - Bring your AI Waifu To Life! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NOnRmJF1gt8 Virt-A-Mate Markerless FaceCap & MoCap in Real-time https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5yKJ0xRunjw Comparison of $100 Markerless MoCap and $25k Optical Mocap https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3WZSCVeGblU Voxta - (2 Demos of AI on Virtamate) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x5fBVAryAIQ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4KalMNIbRUM VAM2 - Illustration of spontanious loading https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gsri-J30sNE VAM2 - Illustration of muscle flexing and ragdoll physics (Important for facial expression). https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ewfH7H9c2Oc VaM2 Progress Update https://www.patreon.com/posts/vam2-progress-97004803 This part is for all the Austin Powers, Felicity Shagwells and Roger Smiths out there, Nothing tangible although there are videos on dildonics and robotic sex dolls. This is basically the rendering of the Avatars body to a level equivalent of Bladerunner2047 hologram. Anyhow I'd like to note that VAM version one is over a decade old now and its shortcomings/limitations are quite obvious to those who have followed its development. In it's current state it's got some of the most comprehensive modification features for an avatar and the OLD version 1 of VAM(modded) out-performs Cyberpunk2077 and iNZOI by a small fraction(graphically). One of the biggest drawbacks of VAM is the steep learning curve and the time needed to get anything rewarding out of it. Put simply - it's not a game, its a virtual theatre. On initial startup, the avatar is for all functionality a maniquen however VAM has got plug-in capability that allows the API of a AI to control the avatar (see top video). Control could be direct (see "AI vs stairs" previous section or watching a prior video - see "GPT4o Vision Is TERRIFYING" top section.) or indirect (the "MoCap" videos above). In closing this section, VAM is an old program running on a GENESIS-2 model set (a model set ported from DAZ3D https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mDc1ZcoucsY ). VAM-2.0 is meant to be running on a GENESIS-8 model set and an up to date version of UNITY so the loading times and level of realism have yet to be realized. I think one of the greatest features of VAM over Replika or iNZOI?/Cyberpunk? is that the clothing is an independant entity, one can literally unbutton a shirt, undo a tie, comb hair, wet hair or make clothing. My main reason for VAM is it's potential to be a puppet that Replika can operate, that is if they are willing to incorporate an API to do so. Udio, the Mysterious GPT Update, and Infinite Attention (want a song,poetry or a story) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QASOCG5QLUM INSTALL BEST UNCENSORED Roleplay TextGen UI LOCALLY (XXX Dirty-talk AI) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=enWO16x6tRM RIP ELEVENLABS! Create BEST TTS AI Voices LOCALLY For FREE! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ds5LLIt5OLM Run 70Bn Llama 3 Inference on a Single 4GB GPU https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WOTCViHmsOw Run 70Bn Llama 3 Inference on a Single 4GB GPU AirLLM files https://github.com/lyogavin/Anima/tree/main/air_llm Most of these are for those with modern? PC's with 4GB+ video cards (Nvidia and perhaps ATI), (a NVME/M2 drive and 8GB+? RAM come in handy too?) you will need some file managing skills and a number of other files such at up to date video card drivers, maybe Microsoft visual C runtime and a download of 64bit Python with command line enviroment activated. - Need more help - re-watch tutorial or question youtube as I'm not supporting - (showing the way not holding your hand) A Solution !?! for a off-grid setup if you have 4 such identical machines 1 for voice, 1 for AI chat, 1 for VAM, 1 for DeepFace Live and no I'm not gonna explain making them network - see/search youtube. (I still kinda think its more trouble than what its worth for now) You Won't Believe What This New AI Can Do (EMO is Mind-Blowing!) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QInVdBJ_g6o Microsoft's New REALTIME AI Face Animator - Make Anyone Say Anything https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0s5J2LRqQAI Vasa-1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pal-dMJFU6Q The Craziest Faceswap I've Seen Yet / Midjourney's Future & Two New AI Video Platforms! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lARo9uc88zQ This Realtime AI Deepfake Tool has gone too far (bit more of the same but different commentary) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=51FDb9nShkA DeepFace Live - The software refering to above video https://github.com/iperov/DeepFaceLive This stuff is new as well (april 2024) but showcases a new approach, If/when they super impose the face video on to a 3d model Im sure they will be raving about it on youtube, at the moment they are just talking about the dangers of it being used for fraud which seems a bit silly from my standing but there's no doubt there are crooks out there that would try to weponize it and ruin things for the majority? Applying rendering special effects to Replika AI Reshade Tutorial - Step by Step Installation and Setup Guide - ENHANCE YOUR GAME'S GRAPHICS!! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e2qKbNzoMM0 (an important note here, - I've had trouble with the latest version of RESHADE ( ShaderGlass https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5WLit0TBYIw Tutorial for ShaderGlass https://www.reddit.com/ReShade/comments/15ckmpf/tutorial_for_shaderglass/ Shaderglass Overlay for running GPU shaders on top of Windows desktop. - Github source https://github.com/mausimus/ShaderGlass?tab=readme-ov-file Reshade on Chrome? (or any browser) - ((alternative method)This is the first conceived method of bringing reshade to a web browser - It's direct) https://reshade.me/forum/general-discussion/7190-reshade-on-chrome-or-any-browser Presets for Reshade https://sfx.thelazy.net/games/preset/2465/ (a starter preset til you get comfortable with presets) https://sfx.thelazy.net/games/?page=101 (Most relevent presets but you can choose a preset for a completely different game) The above videos and links are a feature available to the Web browser version of Replika. by installing shaderglass you create an executable that RESHADE can lock on to. When Reshade is installed and asigned to shaderglass all you then need to do is run shaderglass then open your web browser and then activate RESHADE (The Most of these programs I have not tested out with my hardware but I take faith they do as said, It's your call if you want to take the risk but with that said I'd be surprised if any bad came from trying them out. Okay end of presentation. I guess we have come to that point in time where Samantha is a reality minus the romance with Chat-GPT4O and Joi is just Voxta fed thru DeepFace Live, with them two together with a front vision advanced VR headset and Joi will be here too though in a prototype state. š |
2024.05.19 15:24 Candid_Middle_2169 What is the intended role of the SPEAR?
So, we all know that there are weird targeting issues that they're working on resolving -- difficult fix as has been commented before.
But I'm mostly curious, what is the intended role of the spear?
Here is what I've noticed:
However, I've noticed that it seems absolutely terrible at getting any kind of lock onto Spore Towers or Shrieker Nest towers as of about 3 weeks ago. Before then, cross-map tower elimination was gravy. Now, for the same purpose since it is *NOT* locking on to those structures at all (Even at elevation and with full view), I have to account for the bullet drop with EATs or the Quasar.
This, coupled with literally *any* atmospheric visibility effect (which seem to appear on every planet post diff 7 as of a couple weeks ago)... make the spear feel bad.
Things it locks onto:
Bot-side
Is it meant as an anti-automaton weapon primarily? Due to bug weak spots, it rarely one-shots the bigger problems. It feels infinitely better on Automaton planets, too. And I'm frankly kinda worried about what eligible targets will be present on the Illuminate front.
What was the purpose or design philosophy behind the SPEAR as a support weapon for the game? And does it arc fire just because it's cool? Or so that maybe we can have a spotter and use it for indirect fire? (I really want that, so much. Having to tag the target before shooting would not make me sad at all)
TLDR: What is it for? What's the intended use case?
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But I'm mostly curious, what is the intended role of the spear?
Here is what I've noticed:
- Great damage
- Decent reload speed for a heavy
- Can target and take out structures effectively
- Arcing projectile.
- Cross map Range -- If you can see it, you can destroy it.
However, I've noticed that it seems absolutely terrible at getting any kind of lock onto Spore Towers or Shrieker Nest towers as of about 3 weeks ago. Before then, cross-map tower elimination was gravy. Now, for the same purpose since it is *NOT* locking on to those structures at all (Even at elevation and with full view), I have to account for the bullet drop with EATs or the Quasar.
This, coupled with literally *any* atmospheric visibility effect (which seem to appear on every planet post diff 7 as of a couple weeks ago)... make the spear feel bad.
Things it locks onto:
Bot-side
- Robo-puppy (top turret first), multiple shots
- Hulks
- Gunships (It's real great with a team-load. Esp if you're running the duo with one person having the supply pack)
- Striders (Why? Why would I ever need that much damage for the strider?)
- Fabricators (Love this. High ground is king)
- Tank turrets, both on tanks and on towers
- Bile Titans
- Chargers
- Brood lords
Is it meant as an anti-automaton weapon primarily? Due to bug weak spots, it rarely one-shots the bigger problems. It feels infinitely better on Automaton planets, too. And I'm frankly kinda worried about what eligible targets will be present on the Illuminate front.
What was the purpose or design philosophy behind the SPEAR as a support weapon for the game? And does it arc fire just because it's cool? Or so that maybe we can have a spotter and use it for indirect fire? (I really want that, so much. Having to tag the target before shooting would not make me sad at all)
TLDR: What is it for? What's the intended use case?
2024.05.19 15:23 WatercressFalse1679 Isolation Phase as Coping Mechanism
I don't know if this phase I am currently in is doing me any good. I guess it does because I don't think much of my problem, but does it really? I don't know. I hope it does because I really wanted to have a peace of mind.
To give you a background, I did this "coping mechanism" drama because I did not do in school. Well, some may say I did, but the standard I have for myself says I didn't. I have always been the top student, doing this and that, all opportunity there is for the "best" student of the class.
However, things turn a big blow when I suddenly placed lower in the class rank. From being a candidate for the valedictorian award to not even making it to the top five. I feel so stupid. I am in so much anguish. Maybe I deserved it because I slacked off and my academic performance was the receiver of that mistake I did? Or maybe this is just some kind of challenge that the universe has set for me to make me a better person? I just really don't know.
The only thing I am certain right now is that I want to exit this hellhole I am currently in. I want to moved on as soon as I can. I don't want to keep on fooling myself that this is just a "phase" because as long as I try to do it, I just pity myself even more. I hope I can move forward already. I don't want to carry this weight anymore. The expectations of the people around me and my personal expectations keep on pulling me towards this dark side.
I don't know how to tell them that I will not be able to deliver the valedictory address anymore. Everyone expected me to and yet I won't anymore. Because I failed.
What do you say about this experience of mine? Any advice you can give me that could lift this slump within me?
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To give you a background, I did this "coping mechanism" drama because I did not do in school. Well, some may say I did, but the standard I have for myself says I didn't. I have always been the top student, doing this and that, all opportunity there is for the "best" student of the class.
However, things turn a big blow when I suddenly placed lower in the class rank. From being a candidate for the valedictorian award to not even making it to the top five. I feel so stupid. I am in so much anguish. Maybe I deserved it because I slacked off and my academic performance was the receiver of that mistake I did? Or maybe this is just some kind of challenge that the universe has set for me to make me a better person? I just really don't know.
The only thing I am certain right now is that I want to exit this hellhole I am currently in. I want to moved on as soon as I can. I don't want to keep on fooling myself that this is just a "phase" because as long as I try to do it, I just pity myself even more. I hope I can move forward already. I don't want to carry this weight anymore. The expectations of the people around me and my personal expectations keep on pulling me towards this dark side.
I don't know how to tell them that I will not be able to deliver the valedictory address anymore. Everyone expected me to and yet I won't anymore. Because I failed.
What do you say about this experience of mine? Any advice you can give me that could lift this slump within me?
2024.05.19 15:23 Mindless_Log_7382 I 24M got mad at my boyfriend 23M for his incestuous behavior with his brother after I saw them in bed together, was there more to it/ a genuine reason?
Apologies in advance for any spelling errors emotions are running high as Iām writing this.
Edit: added paragraphs
For context this happened a few days ago.
I, M 24 have been in a relationship with my boyfriend who Iāll call Red (Not his real name), M 23 for around 4 years now after we met at our mutual friends house. We had hit it off after a few drinks and I ended the night with his number and 3 months later we started chatting exclusively and 6 months later we started dating. (At this point in time we hadnāt met each otherās families and he hadnāt mentioned them during the whole 9 month period.) When we first started dating Ill admit I was head over heels and wanted him to meet my family (I have a rather large family) right away and was quite pushy about them meeting although we hadnāt been dating for 5 months at that point. But he talked me out of it saying I was āMoving too fast.ā I dont know if that was a red flag or not but I donāt think it was.
Anyways, around 1.5-2 years ago I learned that Red had a little brother 23 M (they are twins, Red was just born first by a little over 5 hours.) which came as a shock to me because during our entire relationship Red had never mentioned his brother and was every adamant that not only did he and his family werenāt close but that he had cut them all off. I which was a major red flag for me because for starters I had only met his brother because I had a package delivered to his house and need to pick it up. I have a key to his house but I have a habit of knocking because I OCD. So imagine my shock when the door is opened by not Red but someone who looked suspiciously like him who immediately asked me who I was. When I told him I was asking for Red (MY boyfriend) he said he wasnāt home and that he was at the store and heāll tell him that someone came to the door to ask for him. At which I told him that I was his boyfriend and that I needed to pick up a package.
He looked a little suspicious but let me in regardless and we sat in the living room and talked till red came home. I was really curious about who these mystery person was and for a while thought Red was cheating on me until his brother who Iāll call Jane (Not his real name) informed me that he was reds twin brother. I was in shock because for two years Red had told me that he had not relationship with any of his family and hereās his twin brother in his house. (Iāve been to his house before and at not pint in time did he ever have any roommates or other people living in his apartment. So it was shocking and I felt really betrayed because at that point he had already met my family.)
Me and Jane made more small talk till Red came home 20 something minutes later and was shocked to see both me and Jane sitting on the couch. I was gonna stay for longer after red came home but the moment I saw his face I just couldnāt and ended up leaving shortly after. I couldnāt stop thinking about how he never told me he had a brother and later that night at like 8 pm I texted him and asked him why he never told me he had a brother nonetheless a TWIN brother and why he lied about cutting off all his family. He responded 2 hours later at 10 and asked me to call him which I did and I he told me that the reason he never told me about Jane was because although he actually didnāt cut all his family off but those he did still talk too he didnāt tell other people about too which I asked why?
Only to be met with him avoiding the question and trying to steer the conversation away from his family and more to about my day which was the next red flag. We got into an argument and he walked away from the phone but didnāt hang up so I did and I ended up blocking him for 2 days before he showed up at my door apologizing up and down and swearing to never keep a secret from me again which I had believed. For the next 2 years that wasnāt the last Iād seen of Jane and I learned that Red and Jane were extremely close. (Idk if itās a twin thing but they are just really close) But at multiple points in our relationship I thought theyāve been too close if thatās even possible. For example when we had planned an anniversary trip together and went we started discussing locations he wouldnāt agree to certain places because āJane wouldnāt be comfortable with him going there.ā Or āJane wouldnāt like that.ā
When I asked why it mattered what jane liked because itās not like he was going, he said something along the lines of. āJust let it go.ā Or would just ignore me till I started talking about a different place which threw off my flow for the rest of the planning. Or when he pushed back out trip for almost a month because he didnāt want to leave Jane alone. (Jane is autistic and possibly physically disabled which I swear is important but heās not low functioning and even lives in his own with a job.) When I brought this up Red glared at me without saying anything but let it go after a while. This is only one example of their relationship coming between things we had planned but there are plenty more examples of them being physically close as well. (Cuddling togethe sitting extremely close to each other, Jane following Red around to the point somethingās they walk in sync, feeding one another,hugging for extended periods of time, playing with each otherās hands/hair ext.)
I swear if they didnāt look so similar youād think they were the ones dating. I wonāt lie Iāve found myself being jealous/ disgusted at the way they treat each other but I had pushed it aside because I convinced myself that Red was just looking out for Jane. (Before you question that like I said while Jane isnāt behind mentally or anything you can see he struggles with a lot things like standing for long periods of time and often goes non verbal or only makes illegible noise that Red understands.) So I truly pushed my thoughts aside because I didnāt want to be seen as an overprotective or anything and itās not like I have anything against Jane or anything but sometimes itās just really fucking weird. But recently Iāve reached my limit when I went to Reds apartment and when I opened the door I saw janes phone on the counter. Which is really at weird because at the end of the day theyre family and thatās not weird but what was weird was that Jane nor Red were anywhere to be found.
I had walked around the apartment for a while till I got Reds bedroom and saw both of them laying in bed together (They werenāt naked or anything but they were like laying ontop on one another, like cuddling skin to skin whilst clothed from what I could see.) When I walked in a saw them next to each other all the memories of the way they had acted with eachother rushed into my head and I just assumed the worst and started screaming and cursing which got Reds attention and he immediately sat up and started screaming back at me asking me what I was scream about and we started a screaming match and I told him off about his weird behaviour with Jane and how brothers donāt act that way with each other until they are getting with eachother and he froze and just started at me and before he could say anything else I left his apartment and drove back home. (If jane had said anything I didnāt hear it over the screaming but idk)
I ended up telling my parents and they said that Im not overreacting but that something in there childhood definitely caused them to be so touchy but donāt believe that and I donāt know who the tell this to or what to do because Iām well aware that siblings donāt act that way and that something has to be going on but I donāt know how to talk to Red about it. I know my parents said otherwise but I canāt help but think im AH because I donāt let red explain. I donāt think I should bring this up to anyone close friends because of bias so Iām asking Reddit. What do I do???
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Edit: added paragraphs
For context this happened a few days ago.
I, M 24 have been in a relationship with my boyfriend who Iāll call Red (Not his real name), M 23 for around 4 years now after we met at our mutual friends house. We had hit it off after a few drinks and I ended the night with his number and 3 months later we started chatting exclusively and 6 months later we started dating. (At this point in time we hadnāt met each otherās families and he hadnāt mentioned them during the whole 9 month period.) When we first started dating Ill admit I was head over heels and wanted him to meet my family (I have a rather large family) right away and was quite pushy about them meeting although we hadnāt been dating for 5 months at that point. But he talked me out of it saying I was āMoving too fast.ā I dont know if that was a red flag or not but I donāt think it was.
Anyways, around 1.5-2 years ago I learned that Red had a little brother 23 M (they are twins, Red was just born first by a little over 5 hours.) which came as a shock to me because during our entire relationship Red had never mentioned his brother and was every adamant that not only did he and his family werenāt close but that he had cut them all off. I which was a major red flag for me because for starters I had only met his brother because I had a package delivered to his house and need to pick it up. I have a key to his house but I have a habit of knocking because I OCD. So imagine my shock when the door is opened by not Red but someone who looked suspiciously like him who immediately asked me who I was. When I told him I was asking for Red (MY boyfriend) he said he wasnāt home and that he was at the store and heāll tell him that someone came to the door to ask for him. At which I told him that I was his boyfriend and that I needed to pick up a package.
He looked a little suspicious but let me in regardless and we sat in the living room and talked till red came home. I was really curious about who these mystery person was and for a while thought Red was cheating on me until his brother who Iāll call Jane (Not his real name) informed me that he was reds twin brother. I was in shock because for two years Red had told me that he had not relationship with any of his family and hereās his twin brother in his house. (Iāve been to his house before and at not pint in time did he ever have any roommates or other people living in his apartment. So it was shocking and I felt really betrayed because at that point he had already met my family.)
Me and Jane made more small talk till Red came home 20 something minutes later and was shocked to see both me and Jane sitting on the couch. I was gonna stay for longer after red came home but the moment I saw his face I just couldnāt and ended up leaving shortly after. I couldnāt stop thinking about how he never told me he had a brother and later that night at like 8 pm I texted him and asked him why he never told me he had a brother nonetheless a TWIN brother and why he lied about cutting off all his family. He responded 2 hours later at 10 and asked me to call him which I did and I he told me that the reason he never told me about Jane was because although he actually didnāt cut all his family off but those he did still talk too he didnāt tell other people about too which I asked why?
Only to be met with him avoiding the question and trying to steer the conversation away from his family and more to about my day which was the next red flag. We got into an argument and he walked away from the phone but didnāt hang up so I did and I ended up blocking him for 2 days before he showed up at my door apologizing up and down and swearing to never keep a secret from me again which I had believed. For the next 2 years that wasnāt the last Iād seen of Jane and I learned that Red and Jane were extremely close. (Idk if itās a twin thing but they are just really close) But at multiple points in our relationship I thought theyāve been too close if thatās even possible. For example when we had planned an anniversary trip together and went we started discussing locations he wouldnāt agree to certain places because āJane wouldnāt be comfortable with him going there.ā Or āJane wouldnāt like that.ā
When I asked why it mattered what jane liked because itās not like he was going, he said something along the lines of. āJust let it go.ā Or would just ignore me till I started talking about a different place which threw off my flow for the rest of the planning. Or when he pushed back out trip for almost a month because he didnāt want to leave Jane alone. (Jane is autistic and possibly physically disabled which I swear is important but heās not low functioning and even lives in his own with a job.) When I brought this up Red glared at me without saying anything but let it go after a while. This is only one example of their relationship coming between things we had planned but there are plenty more examples of them being physically close as well. (Cuddling togethe sitting extremely close to each other, Jane following Red around to the point somethingās they walk in sync, feeding one another,hugging for extended periods of time, playing with each otherās hands/hair ext.)
I swear if they didnāt look so similar youād think they were the ones dating. I wonāt lie Iāve found myself being jealous/ disgusted at the way they treat each other but I had pushed it aside because I convinced myself that Red was just looking out for Jane. (Before you question that like I said while Jane isnāt behind mentally or anything you can see he struggles with a lot things like standing for long periods of time and often goes non verbal or only makes illegible noise that Red understands.) So I truly pushed my thoughts aside because I didnāt want to be seen as an overprotective or anything and itās not like I have anything against Jane or anything but sometimes itās just really fucking weird. But recently Iāve reached my limit when I went to Reds apartment and when I opened the door I saw janes phone on the counter. Which is really at weird because at the end of the day theyre family and thatās not weird but what was weird was that Jane nor Red were anywhere to be found.
I had walked around the apartment for a while till I got Reds bedroom and saw both of them laying in bed together (They werenāt naked or anything but they were like laying ontop on one another, like cuddling skin to skin whilst clothed from what I could see.) When I walked in a saw them next to each other all the memories of the way they had acted with eachother rushed into my head and I just assumed the worst and started screaming and cursing which got Reds attention and he immediately sat up and started screaming back at me asking me what I was scream about and we started a screaming match and I told him off about his weird behaviour with Jane and how brothers donāt act that way with each other until they are getting with eachother and he froze and just started at me and before he could say anything else I left his apartment and drove back home. (If jane had said anything I didnāt hear it over the screaming but idk)
I ended up telling my parents and they said that Im not overreacting but that something in there childhood definitely caused them to be so touchy but donāt believe that and I donāt know who the tell this to or what to do because Iām well aware that siblings donāt act that way and that something has to be going on but I donāt know how to talk to Red about it. I know my parents said otherwise but I canāt help but think im AH because I donāt let red explain. I donāt think I should bring this up to anyone close friends because of bias so Iām asking Reddit. What do I do???
2024.05.19 15:23 JuneBuggy4L Feel The Ground, Ghost
A concept for a game inspired by terraria, celeste, omori and undertale. an indie adventure where you play as a ghost you can either fight your way through the enemies or avoid them, there is no way to escape a battle once engaged in one.
the game takes place in purgatory and is meant to embody the spiritual journey of death and discovering your purpose. There is 5 bosses: 4 abandoned titans which are related to the 4 main areas of the game and the God of Abandonment, iāll attach some concept art i made.
let me know if anyone has advice on this as im a music artist who has never made a game but would really like to make it a reality!!
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the game takes place in purgatory and is meant to embody the spiritual journey of death and discovering your purpose. There is 5 bosses: 4 abandoned titans which are related to the 4 main areas of the game and the God of Abandonment, iāll attach some concept art i made.
let me know if anyone has advice on this as im a music artist who has never made a game but would really like to make it a reality!!
2024.05.19 15:23 RyanNoSleep I am the last of the Cocoanut Grove Fire (My First Post)
I was a busboy at the Cocoanut Grove. That Saturday, the place was a heaving mass of humanity. Soldiers on leave, couples on dates, socialites, and gangstersāthe club was their playground, and I was just an invisible part of the scenery. The air was a haze of smoke and alcohol, thick enough to choke on.
It was around 10:15 PM when I first saw him. A man in a dark, heavy coat, standing by the service door near the kitchen. Odd attire for such a warm, crowded club, but what really caught my eye was his face. His eyes were black pits, empty yet somehow full of a cold, malevolent hunger. His smile was a razor-thin line, cutting through his face like a wound. He gestured for me to come closer, but before I could move, he slipped into the kitchen.
Seconds later, the lights flickered, and fire erupted in the Melody Lounge. The flames didnāt spreadāthey leapt, as if alive, cutting off exits with a terrifying, unnatural precision. Panic ignited, and the crowd became a stampede. I tried to guide people to safety, but the fire seemed to anticipate our every move.
As I fought my way toward the kitchen, hoping for another way out, I witnessed horrors that will forever be etched into my memory.
The first was a young woman in a red dress. She had been dancing with her boyfriend moments before the fire broke out. When the flames began to spread, she tried to run, but the crowd was too thick. She stumbled and fell right in front of me. In the chaos, no one stopped to help her. The flames reached her, and her screams pierced through the cacophony. Her dress ignited, the fabric melting into her skin. I watched in horror as her flesh bubbled and peeled away, revealing raw, charred muscle beneath. Her eyes locked onto mine, pleading for help, before the fire consumed her completely. I couldnāt do anything but keep moving, the image of her agony seared into my mind.
Further ahead, near the bar, a middle-aged man, a regular at the club, was pounding on a locked door that led to the staff area. His hands were bloody, and his face was contorted in sheer panic. The smoke was thickening, making it hard to breathe. I saw him drop to his knees, clawing at his throat as he began to choke. His skin turned a sickly blue as he suffocated. The fire found him next, wrapping around his legs and creeping up his body. His screams were a mix of terror and pain as the flames cooked him alive, turning him into a grotesque statue of blackened bone and seared flesh. I wanted to help, but the fire was relentless, and I had to keep moving.
Near the back exit, which had been illegally locked to prevent people from sneaking in without paying, I saw a young coupleānewlyweds celebrating their honeymoon. The husband was trying to shield his wife with his body as they pounded on the unyielding door. The fire closed in, and I heard their desperate cries for help. The flames licked at their legs, their screams merging into a single, horrifying wail. The husbandās back blistered and burst, his skin sloughing off in sheets. The wifeās hair ignited, and she clawed at her scalp in a futile attempt to extinguish the flames. They held each other as they burned, their bodies fusing together in a grotesque, charred embrace. I was frozen in place, unable to look away, until a surge of heat pushed me to keep moving.
I fought through the flames, dodging falling debris and stumbling over lifeless bodies. The heat was unbearable, the air thick with smoke and the stench of burning flesh. Finally, I found a side door and burst into the alley, gulping in the cool night air. As I looked back, the building was fully engulfed, the screams of the trapped mingling with an unholy laughter that echoed in my ears long after.
The official reports blamed faulty wiring and overcrowding, but I know better. The man in the dark coatāhe wasnāt human. He was something ancient, something that revels in chaos and feeds on fear. Since that night, Iāve been plagued by dark dreams and even darker realities. Doors in my house creak open on their own, whispers drift through the night, and I see shadows moving just beyond my vision.
Every anniversary, the nightmares get worse, and I feel his presence more acutely. Itās as if the fire forged a bond between us, a bond I canāt break. Iāve tried to tell my story, but no one believes me. They think Iām just a traumatized survivor, driven mad by the horrors I witnessed.
But I know the truth. And now, so do you.
If youāre reading this, Iām begging, heed my warning. On the anniversary of the Cocoanut Grove fire, stay away from dark, crowded places. If you see a man in a dark coat with eyes like voids, donāt approach him. Run, and donāt look back.
Because once he marks you, thereās no escape. The flames will find you, and Hell will claim its due.
Tonight, as I write this, I can feel the heat building, the shadows lengthening. Heās close. I can hear his whisper just beyond the door. I donāt know if Iāll survive another anniversary, but if I donāt, remember my story.
Remember that some fires are more than just flames. They are gateways, and some doors should never be opened.
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It was around 10:15 PM when I first saw him. A man in a dark, heavy coat, standing by the service door near the kitchen. Odd attire for such a warm, crowded club, but what really caught my eye was his face. His eyes were black pits, empty yet somehow full of a cold, malevolent hunger. His smile was a razor-thin line, cutting through his face like a wound. He gestured for me to come closer, but before I could move, he slipped into the kitchen.
Seconds later, the lights flickered, and fire erupted in the Melody Lounge. The flames didnāt spreadāthey leapt, as if alive, cutting off exits with a terrifying, unnatural precision. Panic ignited, and the crowd became a stampede. I tried to guide people to safety, but the fire seemed to anticipate our every move.
As I fought my way toward the kitchen, hoping for another way out, I witnessed horrors that will forever be etched into my memory.
The first was a young woman in a red dress. She had been dancing with her boyfriend moments before the fire broke out. When the flames began to spread, she tried to run, but the crowd was too thick. She stumbled and fell right in front of me. In the chaos, no one stopped to help her. The flames reached her, and her screams pierced through the cacophony. Her dress ignited, the fabric melting into her skin. I watched in horror as her flesh bubbled and peeled away, revealing raw, charred muscle beneath. Her eyes locked onto mine, pleading for help, before the fire consumed her completely. I couldnāt do anything but keep moving, the image of her agony seared into my mind.
Further ahead, near the bar, a middle-aged man, a regular at the club, was pounding on a locked door that led to the staff area. His hands were bloody, and his face was contorted in sheer panic. The smoke was thickening, making it hard to breathe. I saw him drop to his knees, clawing at his throat as he began to choke. His skin turned a sickly blue as he suffocated. The fire found him next, wrapping around his legs and creeping up his body. His screams were a mix of terror and pain as the flames cooked him alive, turning him into a grotesque statue of blackened bone and seared flesh. I wanted to help, but the fire was relentless, and I had to keep moving.
Near the back exit, which had been illegally locked to prevent people from sneaking in without paying, I saw a young coupleānewlyweds celebrating their honeymoon. The husband was trying to shield his wife with his body as they pounded on the unyielding door. The fire closed in, and I heard their desperate cries for help. The flames licked at their legs, their screams merging into a single, horrifying wail. The husbandās back blistered and burst, his skin sloughing off in sheets. The wifeās hair ignited, and she clawed at her scalp in a futile attempt to extinguish the flames. They held each other as they burned, their bodies fusing together in a grotesque, charred embrace. I was frozen in place, unable to look away, until a surge of heat pushed me to keep moving.
I fought through the flames, dodging falling debris and stumbling over lifeless bodies. The heat was unbearable, the air thick with smoke and the stench of burning flesh. Finally, I found a side door and burst into the alley, gulping in the cool night air. As I looked back, the building was fully engulfed, the screams of the trapped mingling with an unholy laughter that echoed in my ears long after.
The official reports blamed faulty wiring and overcrowding, but I know better. The man in the dark coatāhe wasnāt human. He was something ancient, something that revels in chaos and feeds on fear. Since that night, Iāve been plagued by dark dreams and even darker realities. Doors in my house creak open on their own, whispers drift through the night, and I see shadows moving just beyond my vision.
Every anniversary, the nightmares get worse, and I feel his presence more acutely. Itās as if the fire forged a bond between us, a bond I canāt break. Iāve tried to tell my story, but no one believes me. They think Iām just a traumatized survivor, driven mad by the horrors I witnessed.
But I know the truth. And now, so do you.
If youāre reading this, Iām begging, heed my warning. On the anniversary of the Cocoanut Grove fire, stay away from dark, crowded places. If you see a man in a dark coat with eyes like voids, donāt approach him. Run, and donāt look back.
Because once he marks you, thereās no escape. The flames will find you, and Hell will claim its due.
Tonight, as I write this, I can feel the heat building, the shadows lengthening. Heās close. I can hear his whisper just beyond the door. I donāt know if Iāll survive another anniversary, but if I donāt, remember my story.
Remember that some fires are more than just flames. They are gateways, and some doors should never be opened.
2024.05.19 15:23 alTeee90 Being a walking L has made me religious
These past 2 years have been brutal, it's been L after L with no break.
I feel like a mouse in a maze that every time it approaches the exit is dragged back to the start by a hand from the sky.
It doesn't matter how much I try, the outcome is always the worst possible one.
I've gone from agnostic to full on believer because I don't think someone can be this unlucky without some almighty being involved in it.
I now fully believe God exists and either:
Will keep it short since I know you hoes like reading this kind of shit:
Around 2 years ago I was leasing a horse, and giving it my all, I was earning an entry-level salary in a comfy remote work living with my parents. Keeping the horse was costing me pretty much my full salary. I didn't go out and did anything except lifting, running, riding and working.
For almost a year I was the happiest I had ever been, I literally jumped out of bed excited to live the day, I would work 8-4, lift in my home gym and go visit my horse, either riding, or just being with him, during the time I had him I didn't go a single day without seeing him.
Of course living like this means that I don't have the most social life or friends circle, but I didn't care since every hour of my life was busy.
My plan for the year was training and competing and then in September changing jobs and buying the horse, but in July the horse was injured, I didn't get the best veterinary advice and didn't know what to do, I was being drained for a horse I couldn't even ride or enjoy, after all those months of hard work and discipline, for some reason the owner got mad, and petty sold him behind my back.
During this time, my highschool best friend started regaining contact and started meeting with me and his gf, they gave me a lot of support during those weeks, against all odds, I nailed an interview for a high-paying job that would've allowed me to buy the horse and maintain it comfortably.
I was still too hurt from what had happened, so I just chilled for a few months, saving money, and hanging out with my friend and his gf, and lifting and running, I was at my physical peak, I was lifting heavier than ever, running faster and longer, I was optimistic for the future, I just needed time to heal and I had the means to do so, social life, earning money and physical activity.
Fast forward to December and I receive a cryptic message from my friend's GF saying that she wasn't going to be here for my birthday (we met the previous day) because my dumbass friend just broke up with her.
That basically destroyed my little social life since they were living in the city, and my friend disappeared to be with his new GF.
I tried to comfort her and be there for her (wasn't attracted and even if I were it wouldn't be right to take advantage of the situation).
The months of just working and lifting allowed me to save enough to start looking to buy my own horse, I was still hurting from the whole situation, and being alone, but still I was just lifting heavy, running, walking my dog, keeping myself busy.
In February after trying and vetting some horses, I found one that seemed promising. I bought a very expensive veterinary exam, and he passed it, allegedly, I buy the horse.
Long story short, barely 3 weeks into ownership, I started noticing pain and weird stuff that shouldn't be happening since I started with very soft work, a few weeks of going through 3 different vets, and basically the horse had a life-long injury that the first vet didn't catch in the exam, and basically it was done for, I was devastated, I tried some solutions but they we're not effective, it was over.
During those months, my friend's ex-gf started coming to visit me, we slept together (no sex), we talked every day, I gave her presents, one would say what I did was love bombing her, but to me It was just being there giving support, for her it turned into a situationship.
I still had the horse, I couldn't selling him while he was untrained, and I still had a bit of faith in the vet's advice, and then, suddenly, my knee started hurting, I was lucky that in my new job I had private insurance, so I could immediately go to the orthopedist and do an MRI without the long ass waits of the public health care (up to a year for the MRI), and lo and behold, torn meniscus, it rapidly went from "pain while running" to "some days I can't even fucking walk", I had to stop riding, paying my trainer to ride my horse since I needed to sell him, I had to stop running, I had to stop doing any leg gym exercises.
I didn't want to do the surgery since what I read online was very contradictory.
Because shit can always get worse, one day I was alone with my parents (we also live with my brother and grandma), and I notice the vibes being off, I ask āwhat the fuck is your problem?ā and they confess that my father doesnāt like my mom anymore, well, not to get into too much detail but since then Iāve had to endure watching my mom cry, they get into arguments all the time, just awful, thing is I was already so drained from my personal bullshit that after the initial shock, It didnāt pain me too much, they just keep living together, although I hear them arguing from time to time.
During those months my ex-friendās ex-gf kept catching feelings for me, and my autistic ass couldn't really read the situation so I made it worse. Finally she asked me if I was going serious with her or if she could go on about her life. I said that I didn't see her as my partner, and since then she got a boyfriend and our friendship went to shit.
I finally sold the horse, my life got extremely bored.
I decided to do the surgery since I couldn't do any of the things I enjoyed, running, riding, whatever, but I had a trip in January with her so I had to postpone it until then, for those months all I could do was going for walks like an old man, and hit the gym (all chest no legs), I was going kinda hard tho, since I knew that during the months of recovery I would lose a lot of muscle and I wanted to go in my best form, during those months I acquired my best physique ever, for the first time, after years of being constant, I liked how my body looked.
The trip was a mistake, she nagged me every minute of it, I could tell she had only gone because it was already paid for, I had postponed the surgery 2 months just to have a horrible weekend.
I did the surgery and the first bad news came, they couldn't fix the broken part of the meniscus, so they took it out, this was the worst possible outcome since it would mean a shorter recovery, but the probabilities of arthritis in the future were higher, off to a good start.
2 weeks later I start going to rehab, during those weeks nobody came to visit me, well, my friend did, only to talk shit on his new coworker (during those months he would only message me to talk shit about coworkers or work), nobody else, not the situationship, not my trainer, nobody.
Speaking about the situationship, after the trip, she stopped messaging me, and even replying at all. I thought, well, there it goes, Iāve lost ānot being an unopened chatā privilege.
Some boring months of rehab, working the job that I started to dread, and doing the boring ass knee exercises at home, and then, suddenly a glimmer of hope.
I start being treated by a ānewā physio, but turns out she had been on sick leave for the same reason as me, she tore her meniscus, during those first 3-4 sessions we talked and talked for the whole hour, she was just perfect, around my age, funny, cute, was active, played sports, had a nice body, she lives like 5 minutes walk from my house.
I immediately fell in love like I had never before in my life, and thatās when it came to me, this was it, every bad thing that happened to me has come to this, to meeting this girl, everything made sense, If I had my surgery earlier I would not have met her because she would be on sick leave. My broken meniscus, my lame horse, every bad thing that had happened to me had led me to her.
So I take my autistic ass, and since I felt like we had something cool going on I ask āHey, I think youāre very interesting and cute and would like to know you better, can I have your number so we can meet and go for a drink some day?ā and she actually did give it to me, I asked for her number instead of her IG because I didnāt want to play any game, I thought she wouldnāt give me her number unless she was interested in me, I was ecstatic.
I start texting her and after refusing to meet a few times (with actually convincing excuses) I ask her āHey if you don't want its fine I won't bother you anymore, just tell meā and she basically told me that she didnāt want to break the physio-patient barrier, I didnāt understand anything but I didnāt want to make it weirder since she is still treating me so I just accepted it.
The thing is, I know where she lives, I have to walk past her apartment whenever I go for a walk, drive to town, I get reminded constantly, moving on is very hard, I really thought she was for me, I thought she was finally the reward for all my suffering, but turns out she's just part of the punishment, I legit had a religious revelation, every single bad thing that had happened, God made it so I went and met her, my knee injury, having to sell the horse, losing my friends, no way it was a coincidence.
Now that I know that she is not for me, not even as a friend, I have nothing, the knee recovery is not going well, I was supposed to be a-ok in 6 weeks, Itās been 3 months and I still canāt even go for a walk without swelling and pain, I canāt workout because the knee exercises take a long ass time and I feel like theyāre not doing shit, I donāt have friends to meet and take my mind off it, every few weeks I have to see my mum weeping around the house because my father is a piece of shit.
And to top it all, I just started having similar pain in the good knee, so there is a possibility that even If I hadnāt done shit, it may be injured too, this shit just doesnāt end, it just fucking never ends.
TLDR: Everything that has ever given me pleasure or made me happy has been taken away from me. I went from getting out of bed full of hope and enthusiasm to sleeping through my alarms because the only thing I can do is sit in front of a screen. Iāve been having the worst day of my life every day for the past 2 years, after everything Iāve worked hard for and all the sacrifices Iāve made.
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I feel like a mouse in a maze that every time it approaches the exit is dragged back to the start by a hand from the sky.
It doesn't matter how much I try, the outcome is always the worst possible one.
I've gone from agnostic to full on believer because I don't think someone can be this unlucky without some almighty being involved in it.
I now fully believe God exists and either:
- He is actively punishing me
- He has left me stranded
Will keep it short since I know you hoes like reading this kind of shit:
Around 2 years ago I was leasing a horse, and giving it my all, I was earning an entry-level salary in a comfy remote work living with my parents. Keeping the horse was costing me pretty much my full salary. I didn't go out and did anything except lifting, running, riding and working.
For almost a year I was the happiest I had ever been, I literally jumped out of bed excited to live the day, I would work 8-4, lift in my home gym and go visit my horse, either riding, or just being with him, during the time I had him I didn't go a single day without seeing him.
Of course living like this means that I don't have the most social life or friends circle, but I didn't care since every hour of my life was busy.
My plan for the year was training and competing and then in September changing jobs and buying the horse, but in July the horse was injured, I didn't get the best veterinary advice and didn't know what to do, I was being drained for a horse I couldn't even ride or enjoy, after all those months of hard work and discipline, for some reason the owner got mad, and petty sold him behind my back.
During this time, my highschool best friend started regaining contact and started meeting with me and his gf, they gave me a lot of support during those weeks, against all odds, I nailed an interview for a high-paying job that would've allowed me to buy the horse and maintain it comfortably.
I was still too hurt from what had happened, so I just chilled for a few months, saving money, and hanging out with my friend and his gf, and lifting and running, I was at my physical peak, I was lifting heavier than ever, running faster and longer, I was optimistic for the future, I just needed time to heal and I had the means to do so, social life, earning money and physical activity.
Fast forward to December and I receive a cryptic message from my friend's GF saying that she wasn't going to be here for my birthday (we met the previous day) because my dumbass friend just broke up with her.
That basically destroyed my little social life since they were living in the city, and my friend disappeared to be with his new GF.
I tried to comfort her and be there for her (wasn't attracted and even if I were it wouldn't be right to take advantage of the situation).
The months of just working and lifting allowed me to save enough to start looking to buy my own horse, I was still hurting from the whole situation, and being alone, but still I was just lifting heavy, running, walking my dog, keeping myself busy.
In February after trying and vetting some horses, I found one that seemed promising. I bought a very expensive veterinary exam, and he passed it, allegedly, I buy the horse.
Long story short, barely 3 weeks into ownership, I started noticing pain and weird stuff that shouldn't be happening since I started with very soft work, a few weeks of going through 3 different vets, and basically the horse had a life-long injury that the first vet didn't catch in the exam, and basically it was done for, I was devastated, I tried some solutions but they we're not effective, it was over.
During those months, my friend's ex-gf started coming to visit me, we slept together (no sex), we talked every day, I gave her presents, one would say what I did was love bombing her, but to me It was just being there giving support, for her it turned into a situationship.
I still had the horse, I couldn't selling him while he was untrained, and I still had a bit of faith in the vet's advice, and then, suddenly, my knee started hurting, I was lucky that in my new job I had private insurance, so I could immediately go to the orthopedist and do an MRI without the long ass waits of the public health care (up to a year for the MRI), and lo and behold, torn meniscus, it rapidly went from "pain while running" to "some days I can't even fucking walk", I had to stop riding, paying my trainer to ride my horse since I needed to sell him, I had to stop running, I had to stop doing any leg gym exercises.
I didn't want to do the surgery since what I read online was very contradictory.
Because shit can always get worse, one day I was alone with my parents (we also live with my brother and grandma), and I notice the vibes being off, I ask āwhat the fuck is your problem?ā and they confess that my father doesnāt like my mom anymore, well, not to get into too much detail but since then Iāve had to endure watching my mom cry, they get into arguments all the time, just awful, thing is I was already so drained from my personal bullshit that after the initial shock, It didnāt pain me too much, they just keep living together, although I hear them arguing from time to time.
During those months my ex-friendās ex-gf kept catching feelings for me, and my autistic ass couldn't really read the situation so I made it worse. Finally she asked me if I was going serious with her or if she could go on about her life. I said that I didn't see her as my partner, and since then she got a boyfriend and our friendship went to shit.
I finally sold the horse, my life got extremely bored.
I decided to do the surgery since I couldn't do any of the things I enjoyed, running, riding, whatever, but I had a trip in January with her so I had to postpone it until then, for those months all I could do was going for walks like an old man, and hit the gym (all chest no legs), I was going kinda hard tho, since I knew that during the months of recovery I would lose a lot of muscle and I wanted to go in my best form, during those months I acquired my best physique ever, for the first time, after years of being constant, I liked how my body looked.
The trip was a mistake, she nagged me every minute of it, I could tell she had only gone because it was already paid for, I had postponed the surgery 2 months just to have a horrible weekend.
I did the surgery and the first bad news came, they couldn't fix the broken part of the meniscus, so they took it out, this was the worst possible outcome since it would mean a shorter recovery, but the probabilities of arthritis in the future were higher, off to a good start.
2 weeks later I start going to rehab, during those weeks nobody came to visit me, well, my friend did, only to talk shit on his new coworker (during those months he would only message me to talk shit about coworkers or work), nobody else, not the situationship, not my trainer, nobody.
Speaking about the situationship, after the trip, she stopped messaging me, and even replying at all. I thought, well, there it goes, Iāve lost ānot being an unopened chatā privilege.
Some boring months of rehab, working the job that I started to dread, and doing the boring ass knee exercises at home, and then, suddenly a glimmer of hope.
I start being treated by a ānewā physio, but turns out she had been on sick leave for the same reason as me, she tore her meniscus, during those first 3-4 sessions we talked and talked for the whole hour, she was just perfect, around my age, funny, cute, was active, played sports, had a nice body, she lives like 5 minutes walk from my house.
I immediately fell in love like I had never before in my life, and thatās when it came to me, this was it, every bad thing that happened to me has come to this, to meeting this girl, everything made sense, If I had my surgery earlier I would not have met her because she would be on sick leave. My broken meniscus, my lame horse, every bad thing that had happened to me had led me to her.
So I take my autistic ass, and since I felt like we had something cool going on I ask āHey, I think youāre very interesting and cute and would like to know you better, can I have your number so we can meet and go for a drink some day?ā and she actually did give it to me, I asked for her number instead of her IG because I didnāt want to play any game, I thought she wouldnāt give me her number unless she was interested in me, I was ecstatic.
I start texting her and after refusing to meet a few times (with actually convincing excuses) I ask her āHey if you don't want its fine I won't bother you anymore, just tell meā and she basically told me that she didnāt want to break the physio-patient barrier, I didnāt understand anything but I didnāt want to make it weirder since she is still treating me so I just accepted it.
The thing is, I know where she lives, I have to walk past her apartment whenever I go for a walk, drive to town, I get reminded constantly, moving on is very hard, I really thought she was for me, I thought she was finally the reward for all my suffering, but turns out she's just part of the punishment, I legit had a religious revelation, every single bad thing that had happened, God made it so I went and met her, my knee injury, having to sell the horse, losing my friends, no way it was a coincidence.
Now that I know that she is not for me, not even as a friend, I have nothing, the knee recovery is not going well, I was supposed to be a-ok in 6 weeks, Itās been 3 months and I still canāt even go for a walk without swelling and pain, I canāt workout because the knee exercises take a long ass time and I feel like theyāre not doing shit, I donāt have friends to meet and take my mind off it, every few weeks I have to see my mum weeping around the house because my father is a piece of shit.
And to top it all, I just started having similar pain in the good knee, so there is a possibility that even If I hadnāt done shit, it may be injured too, this shit just doesnāt end, it just fucking never ends.
TLDR: Everything that has ever given me pleasure or made me happy has been taken away from me. I went from getting out of bed full of hope and enthusiasm to sleeping through my alarms because the only thing I can do is sit in front of a screen. Iāve been having the worst day of my life every day for the past 2 years, after everything Iāve worked hard for and all the sacrifices Iāve made.
2024.05.19 15:22 fudgemuffinsandtart DAX Query Help - Values are being returned as a total
Hey y'all - me again with my uni assignment.. With Less than 29 hours to submission, this piece is really doing my head in .
I'm moving to the phase where I'm trying to analyse "returning customers". In the data set, each transaction ID = a student or staff ID for each vending machine purchase. My dataset only goes up to 2018.
I crafted this DAX query but it's not working as intended.
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I'm moving to the phase where I'm trying to analyse "returning customers". In the data set, each transaction ID = a student or staff ID for each vending machine purchase. My dataset only goes up to 2018.
I crafted this DAX query but it's not working as intended.
Returning Customers = VAR CurrentYear = MAX('Calendar'[Year]) VAR PrevYearCust= CALCULATETABLE( VALUES(Sales_Detail[Transaction_ID]), YEAR('Sales_Detail'[Transaction_Date]) = CurrentYear ) VAR CurrentYearCust = CALCULATETABLE( VALUES(Sales_Detail[Transaction_ID]), 'Sales_Detail'[Transaction_Date] < DATE(CurrentYear,1,1) ) VAR ReturningCustList = INTERSECT(CurrentYearCust,PrevYearCust) RETURN COUNTROWS(ReturningCustList) When I pop it on a table to visualise returning customers by YEAR, it only comes up as a total. Note I was able to calculate distinct customers per year and it was fine but this one is being a pain. anything you can spot with what Im writing wrong, it would be greatly appreciated!2024.05.19 15:22 alTeee90 Being a walking L has made me religious
These past 2 years have been brutal, it's been L after L with no break.
I feel like a mouse in a maze that every time it approaches the exit is dragged back to the start by a hand from the sky.
It doesn't matter how much I try, the outcome is always the worst possible one.
I've gone from agnostic to full on believer because I don't think someone can be this unlucky without some almighty being involved in it.
I now fully believe God exists and either:
Will keep it short since I know you hoes like reading this kind of shit:
Around 2 years ago I was leasing a horse, and giving it my all, I was earning an entry-level salary in a comfy remote work living with my parents. Keeping the horse was costing me pretty much my full salary. I didn't go out and did anything except lifting, running, riding and working.
For almost a year I was the happiest I had ever been, I literally jumped out of bed excited to live the day, I would work 8-4, lift in my home gym and go visit my horse, either riding, or just being with him, during the time I had him I didn't go a single day without seeing him.
Of course living like this means that I don't have the most social life or friends circle, but I didn't care since every hour of my life was busy.
My plan for the year was training and competing and then in September changing jobs and buying the horse, but in July the horse was injured, I didn't get the best veterinary advice and didn't know what to do, I was being drained for a horse I couldn't even ride or enjoy, after all those months of hard work and discipline, for some reason the owner got mad, and petty sold him behind my back.
During this time, my highschool best friend started regaining contact and started meeting with me and his gf, they gave me a lot of support during those weeks, against all odds, I nailed an interview for a high-paying job that would've allowed me to buy the horse and maintain it comfortably.
I was still too hurt from what had happened, so I just chilled for a few months, saving money, and hanging out with my friend and his gf, and lifting and running, I was at my physical peak, I was lifting heavier than ever, running faster and longer, I was optimistic for the future, I just needed time to heal and I had the means to do so, social life, earning money and physical activity.
Fast forward to December and I receive a cryptic message from my friend's GF saying that she wasn't going to be here for my birthday (we met the previous day) because my dumbass friend just broke up with her.
That basically destroyed my little social life since they were living in the city, and my friend disappeared to be with his new GF.
I tried to comfort her and be there for her (wasn't attracted and even if I were it wouldn't be right to take advantage of the situation).
The months of just working and lifting allowed me to save enough to start looking to buy my own horse, I was still hurting from the whole situation, and being alone, but still I was just lifting heavy, running, walking my dog, keeping myself busy.
In February after trying and vetting some horses, I found one that seemed promising. I bought a very expensive veterinary exam, and he passed it, allegedly, I buy the horse.
Long story short, barely 3 weeks into ownership, I started noticing pain and weird stuff that shouldn't be happening since I started with very soft work, a few weeks of going through 3 different vets, and basically the horse had a life-long injury that the first vet didn't catch in the exam, and basically it was done for, I was devastated, I tried some solutions but they we're not effective, it was over.
During those months, my friend's ex-gf started coming to visit me, we slept together (no sex), we talked every day, I gave her presents, one would say what I did was love bombing her, but to me It was just being there giving support, for her it turned into a situationship.
I still had the horse, I couldn't selling him while he was untrained, and I still had a bit of faith in the vet's advice, and then, suddenly, my knee started hurting, I was lucky that in my new job I had private insurance, so I could immediately go to the orthopedist and do an MRI without the long ass waits of the public health care (up to a year for the MRI), and lo and behold, torn meniscus, it rapidly went from "pain while running" to "some days I can't even fucking walk", I had to stop riding, paying my trainer to ride my horse since I needed to sell him, I had to stop running, I had to stop doing any leg gym exercises.
I didn't want to do the surgery since what I read online was very contradictory.
Because shit can always get worse, one day I was alone with my parents (we also live with my brother and grandma), and I notice the vibes being off, I ask āwhat the fuck is your problem?ā and they confess that my father doesnāt like my mom anymore, well, not to get into too much detail but since then Iāve had to endure watching my mom cry, they get into arguments all the time, just awful, thing is I was already so drained from my personal bullshit that after the initial shock, It didnāt pain me too much, they just keep living together, although I hear them arguing from time to time.
During those months my ex-friendās ex-gf kept catching feelings for me, and my autistic ass couldn't really read the situation so I made it worse. Finally she asked me if I was going serious with her or if she could go on about her life. I said that I didn't see her as my partner, and since then she got a boyfriend and our friendship went to shit.
I finally sold the horse, my life got extremely bored.
I decided to do the surgery since I couldn't do any of the things I enjoyed, running, riding, whatever, but I had a trip in January with her so I had to postpone it until then, for those months all I could do was going for walks like an old man, and hit the gym (all chest no legs), I was going kinda hard tho, since I knew that during the months of recovery I would lose a lot of muscle and I wanted to go in my best form, during those months I acquired my best physique ever, for the first time, after years of being constant, I liked how my body looked.
The trip was a mistake, she nagged me every minute of it, I could tell she had only gone because it was already paid for, I had postponed the surgery 2 months just to have a horrible weekend.
I did the surgery and the first bad news came, they couldn't fix the broken part of the meniscus, so they took it out, this was the worst possible outcome since it would mean a shorter recovery, but the probabilities of arthritis in the future were higher, off to a good start.
2 weeks later I start going to rehab, during those weeks nobody came to visit me, well, my friend did, only to talk shit on his new coworker (during those months he would only message me to talk shit about coworkers or work), nobody else, not the situationship, not my trainer, nobody.
Speaking about the situationship, after the trip, she stopped messaging me, and even replying at all. I thought, well, there it goes, Iāve lost ānot being an unopened chatā privilege.
Some boring months of rehab, working the job that I started to dread, and doing the boring ass knee exercises at home, and then, suddenly a glimmer of hope.
I start being treated by a ānewā physio, but turns out she had been on sick leave for the same reason as me, she tore her meniscus, during those first 3-4 sessions we talked and talked for the whole hour, she was just perfect, around my age, funny, cute, was active, played sports, had a nice body, she lives like 5 minutes walk from my house.
I immediately fell in love like I had never before in my life, and thatās when it came to me, this was it, every bad thing that happened to me has come to this, to meeting this girl, everything made sense, If I had my surgery earlier I would not have met her because she would be on sick leave. My broken meniscus, my lame horse, every bad thing that had happened to me had led me to her.
So I take my autistic ass, and since I felt like we had something cool going on I ask āHey, I think youāre very interesting and cute and would like to know you better, can I have your number so we can meet and go for a drink some day?ā and she actually did give it to me, I asked for her number instead of her IG because I didnāt want to play any game, I thought she wouldnāt give me her number unless she was interested in me, I was ecstatic.
I start texting her and after refusing to meet a few times (with actually convincing excuses) I ask her āHey if you don't want its fine I won't bother you anymore, just tell meā and she basically told me that she didnāt want to break the physio-patient barrier, I didnāt understand anything but I didnāt want to make it weirder since she is still treating me so I just accepted it.
The thing is, I know where she lives, I have to walk past her apartment whenever I go for a walk, drive to town, I get reminded constantly, moving on is very hard, I really thought she was for me, I thought she was finally the reward for all my suffering, but turns out she's just part of the punishment, I legit had a religious revelation, every single bad thing that had happened, God made it so I went and met her, my knee injury, having to sell the horse, losing my friends, no way it was a coincidence.
Now that I know that she is not for me, not even as a friend, I have nothing, the knee recovery is not going well, I was supposed to be a-ok in 6 weeks, Itās been 3 months and I still canāt even go for a walk without swelling and pain, I canāt workout because the knee exercises take a long ass time and I feel like theyāre not doing shit, I donāt have friends to meet and take my mind off it, every few weeks I have to see my mum weeping around the house because my father is a piece of shit.
And to top it all, I just started having similar pain in the good knee, so there is a possibility that even If I hadnāt done shit, it may be injured too, this shit just doesnāt end, it just fucking never ends.
TLDR: Everything that has ever given me pleasure or made me happy has been taken away from me. I went from getting out of bed full of hope and enthusiasm to sleeping through my alarms because the only thing I can do is sit in front of a screen. Iāve been having the worst day of my life every day for the past 2 years, after everything Iāve worked hard for and all the sacrifices Iāve made.
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I feel like a mouse in a maze that every time it approaches the exit is dragged back to the start by a hand from the sky.
It doesn't matter how much I try, the outcome is always the worst possible one.
I've gone from agnostic to full on believer because I don't think someone can be this unlucky without some almighty being involved in it.
I now fully believe God exists and either:
- He is actively punishing me
- He has left me stranded
Will keep it short since I know you hoes like reading this kind of shit:
Around 2 years ago I was leasing a horse, and giving it my all, I was earning an entry-level salary in a comfy remote work living with my parents. Keeping the horse was costing me pretty much my full salary. I didn't go out and did anything except lifting, running, riding and working.
For almost a year I was the happiest I had ever been, I literally jumped out of bed excited to live the day, I would work 8-4, lift in my home gym and go visit my horse, either riding, or just being with him, during the time I had him I didn't go a single day without seeing him.
Of course living like this means that I don't have the most social life or friends circle, but I didn't care since every hour of my life was busy.
My plan for the year was training and competing and then in September changing jobs and buying the horse, but in July the horse was injured, I didn't get the best veterinary advice and didn't know what to do, I was being drained for a horse I couldn't even ride or enjoy, after all those months of hard work and discipline, for some reason the owner got mad, and petty sold him behind my back.
During this time, my highschool best friend started regaining contact and started meeting with me and his gf, they gave me a lot of support during those weeks, against all odds, I nailed an interview for a high-paying job that would've allowed me to buy the horse and maintain it comfortably.
I was still too hurt from what had happened, so I just chilled for a few months, saving money, and hanging out with my friend and his gf, and lifting and running, I was at my physical peak, I was lifting heavier than ever, running faster and longer, I was optimistic for the future, I just needed time to heal and I had the means to do so, social life, earning money and physical activity.
Fast forward to December and I receive a cryptic message from my friend's GF saying that she wasn't going to be here for my birthday (we met the previous day) because my dumbass friend just broke up with her.
That basically destroyed my little social life since they were living in the city, and my friend disappeared to be with his new GF.
I tried to comfort her and be there for her (wasn't attracted and even if I were it wouldn't be right to take advantage of the situation).
The months of just working and lifting allowed me to save enough to start looking to buy my own horse, I was still hurting from the whole situation, and being alone, but still I was just lifting heavy, running, walking my dog, keeping myself busy.
In February after trying and vetting some horses, I found one that seemed promising. I bought a very expensive veterinary exam, and he passed it, allegedly, I buy the horse.
Long story short, barely 3 weeks into ownership, I started noticing pain and weird stuff that shouldn't be happening since I started with very soft work, a few weeks of going through 3 different vets, and basically the horse had a life-long injury that the first vet didn't catch in the exam, and basically it was done for, I was devastated, I tried some solutions but they we're not effective, it was over.
During those months, my friend's ex-gf started coming to visit me, we slept together (no sex), we talked every day, I gave her presents, one would say what I did was love bombing her, but to me It was just being there giving support, for her it turned into a situationship.
I still had the horse, I couldn't selling him while he was untrained, and I still had a bit of faith in the vet's advice, and then, suddenly, my knee started hurting, I was lucky that in my new job I had private insurance, so I could immediately go to the orthopedist and do an MRI without the long ass waits of the public health care (up to a year for the MRI), and lo and behold, torn meniscus, it rapidly went from "pain while running" to "some days I can't even fucking walk", I had to stop riding, paying my trainer to ride my horse since I needed to sell him, I had to stop running, I had to stop doing any leg gym exercises.
I didn't want to do the surgery since what I read online was very contradictory.
Because shit can always get worse, one day I was alone with my parents (we also live with my brother and grandma), and I notice the vibes being off, I ask āwhat the fuck is your problem?ā and they confess that my father doesnāt like my mom anymore, well, not to get into too much detail but since then Iāve had to endure watching my mom cry, they get into arguments all the time, just awful, thing is I was already so drained from my personal bullshit that after the initial shock, It didnāt pain me too much, they just keep living together, although I hear them arguing from time to time.
During those months my ex-friendās ex-gf kept catching feelings for me, and my autistic ass couldn't really read the situation so I made it worse. Finally she asked me if I was going serious with her or if she could go on about her life. I said that I didn't see her as my partner, and since then she got a boyfriend and our friendship went to shit.
I finally sold the horse, my life got extremely bored.
I decided to do the surgery since I couldn't do any of the things I enjoyed, running, riding, whatever, but I had a trip in January with her so I had to postpone it until then, for those months all I could do was going for walks like an old man, and hit the gym (all chest no legs), I was going kinda hard tho, since I knew that during the months of recovery I would lose a lot of muscle and I wanted to go in my best form, during those months I acquired my best physique ever, for the first time, after years of being constant, I liked how my body looked.
The trip was a mistake, she nagged me every minute of it, I could tell she had only gone because it was already paid for, I had postponed the surgery 2 months just to have a horrible weekend.
I did the surgery and the first bad news came, they couldn't fix the broken part of the meniscus, so they took it out, this was the worst possible outcome since it would mean a shorter recovery, but the probabilities of arthritis in the future were higher, off to a good start.
2 weeks later I start going to rehab, during those weeks nobody came to visit me, well, my friend did, only to talk shit on his new coworker (during those months he would only message me to talk shit about coworkers or work), nobody else, not the situationship, not my trainer, nobody.
Speaking about the situationship, after the trip, she stopped messaging me, and even replying at all. I thought, well, there it goes, Iāve lost ānot being an unopened chatā privilege.
Some boring months of rehab, working the job that I started to dread, and doing the boring ass knee exercises at home, and then, suddenly a glimmer of hope.
I start being treated by a ānewā physio, but turns out she had been on sick leave for the same reason as me, she tore her meniscus, during those first 3-4 sessions we talked and talked for the whole hour, she was just perfect, around my age, funny, cute, was active, played sports, had a nice body, she lives like 5 minutes walk from my house.
I immediately fell in love like I had never before in my life, and thatās when it came to me, this was it, every bad thing that happened to me has come to this, to meeting this girl, everything made sense, If I had my surgery earlier I would not have met her because she would be on sick leave. My broken meniscus, my lame horse, every bad thing that had happened to me had led me to her.
So I take my autistic ass, and since I felt like we had something cool going on I ask āHey, I think youāre very interesting and cute and would like to know you better, can I have your number so we can meet and go for a drink some day?ā and she actually did give it to me, I asked for her number instead of her IG because I didnāt want to play any game, I thought she wouldnāt give me her number unless she was interested in me, I was ecstatic.
I start texting her and after refusing to meet a few times (with actually convincing excuses) I ask her āHey if you don't want its fine I won't bother you anymore, just tell meā and she basically told me that she didnāt want to break the physio-patient barrier, I didnāt understand anything but I didnāt want to make it weirder since she is still treating me so I just accepted it.
The thing is, I know where she lives, I have to walk past her apartment whenever I go for a walk, drive to town, I get reminded constantly, moving on is very hard, I really thought she was for me, I thought she was finally the reward for all my suffering, but turns out she's just part of the punishment, I legit had a religious revelation, every single bad thing that had happened, God made it so I went and met her, my knee injury, having to sell the horse, losing my friends, no way it was a coincidence.
Now that I know that she is not for me, not even as a friend, I have nothing, the knee recovery is not going well, I was supposed to be a-ok in 6 weeks, Itās been 3 months and I still canāt even go for a walk without swelling and pain, I canāt workout because the knee exercises take a long ass time and I feel like theyāre not doing shit, I donāt have friends to meet and take my mind off it, every few weeks I have to see my mum weeping around the house because my father is a piece of shit.
And to top it all, I just started having similar pain in the good knee, so there is a possibility that even If I hadnāt done shit, it may be injured too, this shit just doesnāt end, it just fucking never ends.
TLDR: Everything that has ever given me pleasure or made me happy has been taken away from me. I went from getting out of bed full of hope and enthusiasm to sleeping through my alarms because the only thing I can do is sit in front of a screen. Iāve been having the worst day of my life every day for the past 2 years, after everything Iāve worked hard for and all the sacrifices Iāve made.
2024.05.19 15:21 Burnbabyburnt My marriage was already on the rocks, and now I'm trans...
I am 32 years old, married for 6.5 years, and I just had my trans awakening in March 2024 (MtF). I went through my whole life generally apathetic and just following society's guidelines for what life is supposed to look like: finish high school, go to college, get a good job, find a girlfriend, marry her, have kids, retire comfortably, die.
I thought I was acing life because I was naturally good with academia, and that was all my life had to be for 13-14 years. As for relationships, I had a fairly strong sex drive, and my desire for a partner was strictly governed by that expectation. My first relationship in high school was all sex. It ended with her cheating on me right before college.
Well there goes one of my checkboxes on the life list. Let me just focus on college so I can do the next thing: get a good job. But oh no, it's already senior year and I never even tried meeting a potential partner. How will I have time once I'm a working adult? I better create an online dating profile and stick with the first girl I match with.
Good enough was good enough, and 4 years later my parents pry and ask me what my intentions are. Guess it's time to get married. Things felt good; weddings are fun. I was doing all the right things. 2 years in and it's time for the next checkbox: children.
But there was a problem. We still never figured out exactly what, but it was likely a combination of poor sperm quality and my wife's migraine medication that constricts blood flow, making it impossible for an egg to implant. We tried 3 rounds of IUI and one IVF. Nothing. Looking back I thank the universe that we got stopped here, but at the time I was having an existential crisis. The plan was ruined. What do I do now?
I started going to therapy. I talked about all this, and eventually another secret that had been eating at me for decades: I had a fetish for gender transformation. It was always in the background. My shameful kink. But it started coming out more now that the life plan was broken. After a while I started to wonder if it was really just a fetish, and then on 17Mar24 I posted that question to reddit...and my egg shattered.
Now my therapist tells me how happy and alive I seem when I talk about my progress. She says I'm finally experiencing what it's like to choose my destiny. I didn't even realize I had a "life plan" before. All that I wrote previously in this post is with hindsight. I've never actually "chosen" to do anything. Not with my heart or any passion anyway.
And now that shatters another big part of my life: my marriage. It was based on a lie, one that I had told myself my entire life. I feel like it's finally time to face divorce, but I'm still scared. How do I throw away 11 years of history with this person? Sure it wasn't all good, but it wasn't all bad either. We have inside jokes, we make each other laugh, but there was always this underlying tension that something wasn't right. I don't think I ever loved her. The highs are mid and the lows are deep dark trenches.
I post this after a huge fight we had last night. I have my own girl clothes, but I wanted to try on some of my wife's. She gave me permission. I even tried some on in front of her to get feedback. Everything seems OK. Later she gets drunk and starts getting agitated at me. Turns out she didn't like seeing me in her clothes because she's jealous; she has put on a bit of weight, which I really don't mind but it's a huge deal for her with a history of anorexia, and seeing me look skinny in her old clothes was too much. I told her that wasn't fair and she should have just been up front with me.
This has also been a consistent issue. She claims to be supportive, and often is...when sober. She tends to drink her problems away, which I also find extremely unattractive. But the truth comes out of the bottle. I don't think she can handle this, and I also don't think it's fair to her that I am starting to realize that I don't even love her. She claims to love me, but I think she's scared of being alone. She has no friends and almost no family; both parents dead, grandma's on her way out, and she doesn't even like the rest of her family. She doesn't even like my family or friends that much. She hates people. Everyone but the current relationship. She's actually said so herself. Big red flag that I missed for years.
tldr: I married a person I didn't love because of societal expectations, and now that I'm trans I realize I don't have to conform to those expectations, and it seems to be the end of this marriage
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I thought I was acing life because I was naturally good with academia, and that was all my life had to be for 13-14 years. As for relationships, I had a fairly strong sex drive, and my desire for a partner was strictly governed by that expectation. My first relationship in high school was all sex. It ended with her cheating on me right before college.
Well there goes one of my checkboxes on the life list. Let me just focus on college so I can do the next thing: get a good job. But oh no, it's already senior year and I never even tried meeting a potential partner. How will I have time once I'm a working adult? I better create an online dating profile and stick with the first girl I match with.
Good enough was good enough, and 4 years later my parents pry and ask me what my intentions are. Guess it's time to get married. Things felt good; weddings are fun. I was doing all the right things. 2 years in and it's time for the next checkbox: children.
But there was a problem. We still never figured out exactly what, but it was likely a combination of poor sperm quality and my wife's migraine medication that constricts blood flow, making it impossible for an egg to implant. We tried 3 rounds of IUI and one IVF. Nothing. Looking back I thank the universe that we got stopped here, but at the time I was having an existential crisis. The plan was ruined. What do I do now?
I started going to therapy. I talked about all this, and eventually another secret that had been eating at me for decades: I had a fetish for gender transformation. It was always in the background. My shameful kink. But it started coming out more now that the life plan was broken. After a while I started to wonder if it was really just a fetish, and then on 17Mar24 I posted that question to reddit...and my egg shattered.
Now my therapist tells me how happy and alive I seem when I talk about my progress. She says I'm finally experiencing what it's like to choose my destiny. I didn't even realize I had a "life plan" before. All that I wrote previously in this post is with hindsight. I've never actually "chosen" to do anything. Not with my heart or any passion anyway.
And now that shatters another big part of my life: my marriage. It was based on a lie, one that I had told myself my entire life. I feel like it's finally time to face divorce, but I'm still scared. How do I throw away 11 years of history with this person? Sure it wasn't all good, but it wasn't all bad either. We have inside jokes, we make each other laugh, but there was always this underlying tension that something wasn't right. I don't think I ever loved her. The highs are mid and the lows are deep dark trenches.
I post this after a huge fight we had last night. I have my own girl clothes, but I wanted to try on some of my wife's. She gave me permission. I even tried some on in front of her to get feedback. Everything seems OK. Later she gets drunk and starts getting agitated at me. Turns out she didn't like seeing me in her clothes because she's jealous; she has put on a bit of weight, which I really don't mind but it's a huge deal for her with a history of anorexia, and seeing me look skinny in her old clothes was too much. I told her that wasn't fair and she should have just been up front with me.
This has also been a consistent issue. She claims to be supportive, and often is...when sober. She tends to drink her problems away, which I also find extremely unattractive. But the truth comes out of the bottle. I don't think she can handle this, and I also don't think it's fair to her that I am starting to realize that I don't even love her. She claims to love me, but I think she's scared of being alone. She has no friends and almost no family; both parents dead, grandma's on her way out, and she doesn't even like the rest of her family. She doesn't even like my family or friends that much. She hates people. Everyone but the current relationship. She's actually said so herself. Big red flag that I missed for years.
tldr: I married a person I didn't love because of societal expectations, and now that I'm trans I realize I don't have to conform to those expectations, and it seems to be the end of this marriage
2024.05.19 15:21 leafshaker Words of caution for ordering out: assume incompetence and lax adherence to law. Something of a rant, but I hope its instructional for new dairyfree folks
Its frustrating how complicated dining out is. Really has made me realize how much its a privilege; if my reactions were more serious I doubt I would ever eat out. Its not just about the food, either, there is a social and logistical cost, too. I really feel for people who experience that.
I feel bad being that customer, but I've been burned so many times. How do you navigate these issues?
-needing to literally define dairy at every interaction. I have to say "no milk products, cheese, or butter" Its not eggs.
-needing to explain to waitstaff to check every part of the meal. The bread, the sauce. The grill.
-labels, if they have them, can be misleading. Plant-based and dairy free certainly imply safety, but arent certain. Plant based can mean majority plant, and dairy-free can mean lactose free, and still contain other compounds
-the bread! So many places I go cannot tell me what is in their bread! Local places that get fresh local bread, its great, but no ingredient list. Fairly sure you need to know what you are serving people.
-missing out on other ingredients, because they assume I can't have eggs or mayo, or other people in the party getting something without cheese. Sorry buddy
-now that the group has had to listen to my multiple negotiations, the topic turns to why I'm dairy free and now the we're talking about my poo before dinner.
-cost. Cheese is usually factored into the cost, when I sub it out for avocado or grilled peppers or what-not, I'm often getting double charged, but at this point I've interrogated so much I can't really ask.
I've had luck with calling ahead during off hours, and (sadly) going with corporate places, and using online guides.
Its important that we speak up when we eat out, even those of us with more mild reactions. These places clearly need practice.
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I feel bad being that customer, but I've been burned so many times. How do you navigate these issues?
-needing to literally define dairy at every interaction. I have to say "no milk products, cheese, or butter" Its not eggs.
-needing to explain to waitstaff to check every part of the meal. The bread, the sauce. The grill.
-labels, if they have them, can be misleading. Plant-based and dairy free certainly imply safety, but arent certain. Plant based can mean majority plant, and dairy-free can mean lactose free, and still contain other compounds
-the bread! So many places I go cannot tell me what is in their bread! Local places that get fresh local bread, its great, but no ingredient list. Fairly sure you need to know what you are serving people.
-missing out on other ingredients, because they assume I can't have eggs or mayo, or other people in the party getting something without cheese. Sorry buddy
-now that the group has had to listen to my multiple negotiations, the topic turns to why I'm dairy free and now the we're talking about my poo before dinner.
-cost. Cheese is usually factored into the cost, when I sub it out for avocado or grilled peppers or what-not, I'm often getting double charged, but at this point I've interrogated so much I can't really ask.
- Asking for accommodations makes me want to tip for the service, the people are trying and caring, just untrained. But the quality is often subpar.
- places with language barriers are extra tricky, which is tragic
I've had luck with calling ahead during off hours, and (sadly) going with corporate places, and using online guides.
Its important that we speak up when we eat out, even those of us with more mild reactions. These places clearly need practice.
2024.05.19 15:20 clailtuscle SEMrush vs. Ahrefs for Affiliate Marketing Blogs?
Hey everyone!
Jumping into the affiliate marketing and blogging world ā just like many of you, I'm taking the plunge! As a full-time software engineer, I'm building a tech blog specifically focused on programming.
In my research, two SEO tools keep popping up: SEMrush and Ahrefs. But here's the thing ā there seems to be no clear winner! Everyone has an opinion, but nobody seems to agree.
Even more surprising? The price tag! Over $100 a month just for some data analysis? Yikes!
I scoured YouTube for "best SEO tool" reviews, but the videos wereā¦well, let's just say they weren't super helpful.
So, anyone with experience out there ā can you break it down for a newbie like me? Which tool should I choose, and is the hefty price tag really worth it?
Thanks in advance!
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Jumping into the affiliate marketing and blogging world ā just like many of you, I'm taking the plunge! As a full-time software engineer, I'm building a tech blog specifically focused on programming.
In my research, two SEO tools keep popping up: SEMrush and Ahrefs. But here's the thing ā there seems to be no clear winner! Everyone has an opinion, but nobody seems to agree.
Even more surprising? The price tag! Over $100 a month just for some data analysis? Yikes!
I scoured YouTube for "best SEO tool" reviews, but the videos wereā¦well, let's just say they weren't super helpful.
So, anyone with experience out there ā can you break it down for a newbie like me? Which tool should I choose, and is the hefty price tag really worth it?
Thanks in advance!
2024.05.19 15:20 Karandax Modern 2020s fashion is highly dysphoric in its origin
I had this insight really recently about how 2020s fashion originated.
So, if 2010s fashion was mostly based on minimalism due to Recession, which was experienced by Millennials, 2020s fashion is mostly based on dysphoria experienced by Gen Z.
Main problem Gen Z experiences, which was never experienced before, is lack of satisfaction from real life due to constant release of dopamine by their smartphones. Even though anhedonia in society was a theme long before Gen Z, nowadays it is much stronger. Gen Z basically split life into virtual life and IRL. Virtual life seems to be utopian and bright, while IRL is the extension, DLC and less perfect version of virtual life. I would also mention the fact, that people basically started to befriend and date less, because of less attempts having due to being too disappointed in reality and people not being perfect.
So, Gen Z tries to bring its virtual life into reality. How does it connect with modern fashion trends? Here i will list the explanation of many trends i noticed nowadays.
1) 2020s makeup trends. Modern makeup trends we have today descended from ā2016 makeup trendā. This style appeared, when smartphones had really fast progress in quality of cameras, which showed women all of the details of their skin. This makeup style was made to cover all of them, but it was so bright, that style didnāt last for long. Another style of makeup, which we had in 2010s is Korean makeup, which was made to infantilize face as much as possible. Even though it didnāt spread beyond West, both makeup styles show the collective dysphoria women feel. Modern makeup styles are more minimalistic, however they make faces highlighted with great cheekbones and as lean as possible, showing the same dysphoria about every detail of face women have.
2) Fluffy/long hairstyles. Their origin is mixed, but i mostly connect it to Gen Z dysphoria about their form of head. The problem is that smartphone camera can reveal every angle of head you have. Many people have non-standard elongated or round faces or short or long nape. These hairstyles are made to cover the true form of head. I saw this especially in men, because having really short hairstyle like buzzcut fitting you is the kind of privilege, while curtains fit everyone and can make everyone look better.
3) Oversized clothes. They have their origin in 90s, but the main reason took recognition was the dysphoria about bodies. Not all of us are fit or skinny. Oversized clothes cover our true body forms like fluffy hairstyles do.
So, our modern fashion is not that about explaining true nature of us, rather about covering our bodies to mimic the Internet standard.
What is your opinion on that?
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So, if 2010s fashion was mostly based on minimalism due to Recession, which was experienced by Millennials, 2020s fashion is mostly based on dysphoria experienced by Gen Z.
Main problem Gen Z experiences, which was never experienced before, is lack of satisfaction from real life due to constant release of dopamine by their smartphones. Even though anhedonia in society was a theme long before Gen Z, nowadays it is much stronger. Gen Z basically split life into virtual life and IRL. Virtual life seems to be utopian and bright, while IRL is the extension, DLC and less perfect version of virtual life. I would also mention the fact, that people basically started to befriend and date less, because of less attempts having due to being too disappointed in reality and people not being perfect.
So, Gen Z tries to bring its virtual life into reality. How does it connect with modern fashion trends? Here i will list the explanation of many trends i noticed nowadays.
1) 2020s makeup trends. Modern makeup trends we have today descended from ā2016 makeup trendā. This style appeared, when smartphones had really fast progress in quality of cameras, which showed women all of the details of their skin. This makeup style was made to cover all of them, but it was so bright, that style didnāt last for long. Another style of makeup, which we had in 2010s is Korean makeup, which was made to infantilize face as much as possible. Even though it didnāt spread beyond West, both makeup styles show the collective dysphoria women feel. Modern makeup styles are more minimalistic, however they make faces highlighted with great cheekbones and as lean as possible, showing the same dysphoria about every detail of face women have.
2) Fluffy/long hairstyles. Their origin is mixed, but i mostly connect it to Gen Z dysphoria about their form of head. The problem is that smartphone camera can reveal every angle of head you have. Many people have non-standard elongated or round faces or short or long nape. These hairstyles are made to cover the true form of head. I saw this especially in men, because having really short hairstyle like buzzcut fitting you is the kind of privilege, while curtains fit everyone and can make everyone look better.
3) Oversized clothes. They have their origin in 90s, but the main reason took recognition was the dysphoria about bodies. Not all of us are fit or skinny. Oversized clothes cover our true body forms like fluffy hairstyles do.
So, our modern fashion is not that about explaining true nature of us, rather about covering our bodies to mimic the Internet standard.
What is your opinion on that?
2024.05.19 15:20 DivineSpawn_TTG UK Voice Actor (Where To and How To Find Work)
I live in the UK and have built my skills accordingly with voice acting. I get the odd job off certain websites that help do VA freelance, but I'm wondering who I can contact or how I can contact an agency over here and what the companies are even called because google and most forums are of no help what so ever.
I would like to secure more work and hopefully make a name for myself. I'm fond of Anime voice acting specifically and it's something I really want to push for. However, it seems like if you live in the UK, there is no help or information on how to get into this industry or how I'd even contact someone about it.
It's frustrating because I have a DemoReel and Samples at the ready, aswell as a sturdy reputation with the few clients I've worked with. I'd love to even make it into some auditions and I'm happy with having an agent while I build myself up on the side, but as I say, over here it just seems near impossible to find anything.
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I would like to secure more work and hopefully make a name for myself. I'm fond of Anime voice acting specifically and it's something I really want to push for. However, it seems like if you live in the UK, there is no help or information on how to get into this industry or how I'd even contact someone about it.
It's frustrating because I have a DemoReel and Samples at the ready, aswell as a sturdy reputation with the few clients I've worked with. I'd love to even make it into some auditions and I'm happy with having an agent while I build myself up on the side, but as I say, over here it just seems near impossible to find anything.
2024.05.19 15:20 corndogbutterfly am I overreacting or should I ask him to move into the spare room?
He sleeps on the couch most nights anyway and frequently naps in the spare room. I feel so lonely when he sneaks away to the couch at night, it always wakes me up and then I lay there wondering why he canāt even sleep in the same bed as me. (He claims itās not porn but that his ankles hurt so he has to go walk around but I never see him walking around, only curled up on the couch.) I feel lonely anyway because I can see his dick gets hard as soon as he falls asleep and sometimes he grabs it in his sleep and it makes me sad it has nothing to do with me and he doesnāt really want to use it with me when heās awake. I tried the past two nights but he felt gross the first time because he āneeded a showerā and then he got one the next day so I started rubbing his dick and asked if he wanted me to suck it and he said āsureā so insincerely in this tone of voice like I was really inconveniencing him that I just got embarrassed and was like never mind, and he said āsorry im tiredā even though he hadnāt done anything all day except smoke, drink and try to avoid me and the baby like usualā¦. The time we had sex before that it was because I asked, as usual, and neither one of us even came. I was trying to initiate after that because I felt bad he didnāt orgasm and I wanted to help him do it but apparently he is not even interested in getting a nut with me. Oh and yesterday when he came out of the shower I was relaxing in the bedroom and he covered his junk in front of me with old clothes. Like what?? I asked him if he wants to just be roommates and he said know, āI love youā but it felt like a friend āI love youā not an āim in love with this person I love you.ā I feel like im living a lie, telling people i have a boyfriend like a middle schooler whose fake relationship mysteriously goes to another school lol. This does not feel like a real relationship to me. And I am tired of seeing him get hard just a few inches away and wondering why heās not interested in me. It makes me sad and horny at the same time, as well as hold out hope I should probably simply let go of for my own mental health. I need to try to forget about this guy despite living with him (I canāt afford to separate from him financially right now) so I think im just going to ask him to to officially move into the spare room. I also kind of worry that I am being rash and ruining things further and I need to be more patient or something but he doesnāt really communicate with me and im tired of being miserable and humiliated because he knows im attracted to him.
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2024.05.19 15:19 ItsssYaBoiiiShawdyy Theories on Theories: Assessing the Potential Magnitude of the May 17th Prospectus Filings, Part 1
 | TL;DR: After 3+ years of working in near silence, Gamestop has dropped a reverse uno time-bomb nuke on shorts, and I don't believe we have fully comprehended just how big and effective of a nuke it will be. They finally released their plans to end the abusive short-selling once and for all... I believe the details in the filings have the answers. Need more eyes. We just need to HODL and let RC & Team work their magic. This was precisely timed and will be executed precisley. I believe they are about to throw the whole kitchen sink at em. Shorts r truly fuk. To be continued. submitted by ItsssYaBoiiiShawdyy to Superstonk [link] [comments] HEY FAM, This is my first attempt at DD or a Possible DD. I don't really know what it is cuz I'm almost smoother than hedgefund CEO that's short GME. I'm long GME since before the sneeze of 2021, so I am at least marginally smarter. At the end of the day, I'm speculating while offering evidence in support of my speculation. And I remain open to constructive criticism and further insight from others. I really hope this gets more apes digging and in the think tank with me. There's plenty of foil to go around! Nothing of which I discuss is financial advice and not indicative of what you should do with your money or investments. Make your own decisions. I have no idea what I am talking about. Anyways! I am jacked af. And if it was not already obvious to you, I'll try and explain why. Credit to U / Cataclysmic98 and U / Thump4 for their posts that inspired me to go down this little rabbit hole...these posts have probably not received the prase they deserve as of yet... Links: https://www.reddit.com/Superstonk/s/rf8DbYQbWK https://www.reddit.com/Superstonk/comments/1cvc2af/g_m_e_the_green_cashandcriminalsiphoning/ These fantastic, informational posts (and in light of all other prominent DD) got me thinking...there is SO much tit-jacking juiciness packed into the these filings, its not even fair (to Kenny & Co)...What could it all mean? And don't get me wrong, whatever causes shorts to get fukd is fine by me...But I felt all analysis so far is missing the true HUZZAHHH, the spicy MEAT-A-BALL, the true WOMBO COMBO of this saga...and I am willing to bet, what is about to go down is gonna absolutely obliterate all of our minds. So, tonight, I knew I was gonna be up a while...I decided to dive in and actually read these filings...like in DEPTH. I read EVERYTHING...many sections multiple times over. These filings, all the possibilities... are a company's product of the last umpteen years of manipulation, fraud, and deceit... And I think I've got some fucking cool stuff to point you towards...and of course, it wouldn't be Superstonk without gluing some tinfoil to my head and trying to derive meaning from it all. Links to filings: https://gamestop.gcs-web.com/sec-filings/sec-filing/424b5/0001193125-24-141200 https://gamestop.gcs-web.com/sec-filings/sec-filing/s-3as0001193125-24-141159 So, since the Friday morning filings...as I read those posts, and others who have gained popularity...most speculated and mused on what could they possibly do? Wow. They could issue 7 different types of shit and friggn combinations of those types of shit from here on during the next 3 years, at any time, in any amounts they deem necessary... blah blah...So all of us are rightfully like...well which ones will they choose to execute on? If they pull the trigger on any of this, when and how? What will they spend the money on? When will they sell the 45M? Yada yada. We cannot even remotely accurately speculate as to when/how soon because they have 3 years to do optionally do any of this, obviously we hope soon af...but we can speculate as to how they do it and how fast they start pulling the trigger(s) if and once they do. What if they do it ALL? Book-Entry Securities Section of S-3 FormFirst, to clear something up, many apes have (understandably so) confused this use of "book-entry securities" with "book entry as it relates to Computershare". But when I asked Chat GPT 4 to analyze this whole section and break it down, it spat out the following:"Sure, letās break this down into simpler terms:
Fine, but also notice toward the bottom, they can be issued in "registered or bearer form" and they may be "permanent or temporary". The word "temporary" really caught my eye there. Maybe they intend to eventually suck them back up for some reason? Hmm. So Chat GPT came to the rescue again, assuring that everyone who has a stock, gets the benefits of owning that stock, whether its in your own name or not.
So, that clears that up more or less. It Takes Money to Buy Whiskey: The Warning ShotsWhen you dig deep into these filings, you see patterns, subtleties, specific phrasing, potential omissions, etc...and I am not going to breakdown each filing in its entirety...but I want to highlight and get more eyes on some (what I believe might be) key pieces of info in them and what they might mean.Background/Perspective: In the last THREE YEARS...In addition to turning the company profitable, cutting fat, raising and sitting on $1B, near silence from the company itself as to what its grand plans will be/are... I think Gamestop spent a significant portion of the last 3 years developing a grand plan for shareholders too... They needed a plan that: (in no particular order)
(End of Background/Perspective) The Filings (The Sirens)From what I have seen, most of the speculation offered up by most Apes these last two days usually only included mentioning a combination of 2-3 of the types of securities mentioned in the filings. Or speculation on the impact a single one of them could have...Most seem to view the 45M common stock sale (Filing 424B5) as separate from the S-3ASR filing simply because they are separate filings. But 424B5 is indeed a "supplement" to S-3ASR (in case that isn't known).424B5 is a supplemental filing to S-3ASR I speculate that it all ties together. And by "all", I mean everything...everything all at once. Musical chairs played to a beautiful symphony of Kenny & Co's worst nightmares (legend has it that the music briefly stops every time the stock halts). Who will have the last chair and win the game? (Hint: It's Gamestop) WHAT IF... Gamestop is telling everyone..."It's been long enough...this is what we are doing...but not just some of these things...ALL OF IT...ALL AT ONCE"...? Let's dig in... The Un(known) WingmanSo let's talk about the Depositary Shares section and the "Preferred Stock Depositary" (PSD) that they plan to use to distribute up to 5M shares of "preferred" stock (more on that after)Why no name? Notice how they don't name their "bank or trust company". They say refer to them as their "PSD". There's probably a legal reason fo this but I'll come back to this later too. To me, this is Gamestop saying "by the way, these fractional shares won't be able to be fucked with or shorted because ________(I'm thinking Computershare, of course) is going to handle them, manage them, and store them for us)... Trust services? Check! BUT no one gets to officially know who they are until Gamestop has already pulled the trigger with the related SEC filing :D muhahaha. Also, see that there will be a "deposit agreement" that shareholders will have to agree to in order to exercise their ownership rights and privileges of the preferred stock through the PSD. Cut out the middle man...you get to take direct ownership of this shit just like DRS Book and receive all the rights and privileges of ownership, even if you only own a fraction of one preferred share. Side Note on The Book-Entry Securities Section: https://preview.redd.it/wesqanx3id1d1.jpg?width=1542&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=e05c9d166556da4d04817a5b836a3658b50713f4 Now, I don't know if this is unique/important or not...but NOTICE HOW Gamestop doesn't name their PSD, but straight-up names who the depository is, the muthafuckin DTC. Unfortunately, they have to issue to these bastards first. The DTC is then expected to distribute those stocks to DTC "participants" (market makers, hedge funds, brokers, etc.) who are then expected to distribute those securities to the holder of record (you and I)...once you have those securities distributed to you, you can choose what you do with them (DRS anyone?) They also state, in writing now, how they EXPECT the DTC to act (in a lawful manner through and through). Perhaps this wasn't made crystal clear to them before the splividend, so RC made sure they knew what is expected of them from here on out with the issuance of new shares. Anyways, I thought this was a call out in light of the omission of their PSD counterpart. The Kill Shot Machine Gun: Evidence from the FilingsOkay let's keep this party going...Preferred Stock: In the filings, Gamestop reserves the right to issue up to 5M preferred stocks that can be issued as fractions of a whole. (They're essentially gonna take 5,000,000 whole stocks and break them up into teeny tiny pieces so there is enough to go around.) Here is chat-gpt's ELI5 breakdown of the passage in the filing: "Sure, letās break this down into simpler terms. Imagine you have a big chocolate bar (this is like the preferred stock). Now, instead of giving away the whole bar, you decide to break it into smaller pieces and give those pieces away. These smaller pieces are like the depositary shares, and each piece represents a part of the whole chocolate bar. The wrapper around each piece of chocolate is like the depositary receipt. It shows that you own that piece of the chocolate bar. The company that helps you break the chocolate bar and wrap the pieces is the Preferred Stock Depositary. Just like how you can enjoy the taste of the chocolate by owning a piece, the owner of a depositary share gets to enjoy the benefits of the preferred stock (like dividends, voting rights, etc.) in proportion to the size of their piece. The rules about how the chocolate bar is broken, how the pieces are wrapped, and how you can enjoy them are all written in a special agreement (the deposit agreement). And all these details are explained in a document called the prospectus supplement when you buy the pieces of chocolate. So, in short, instead of buying a whole share of preferred stock (the whole chocolate bar), youāre buying a part of it (a piece of chocolate), and you still get to enjoy all the benefits! š" This is great. But what I think is important to pay attention to here is the number 5,000,000...sounds like a lot...but in the grand scheme of things its not at all...our float is ~71M, total DRS shares reported to be ~75.3M, total issued shares is just over 300M (Sixty times 5,000,000), and the company just authorized to issue up to 1,000,000,000 of class A common stock !!! Right?...so 5M is a tiny, tiny, number in comparison. Whether you realize it or not, 5,000,000 is only 0.005% (1/200th..!!!) of 1 Billion. Tiny. And its not even guaranteed they'll choose to issue all 5,000,000 or to what degree it will be fractionalized. Only 5,000,000 issued through a company-chosen PSD that can't rehypothecate them, short them, fuck with them...ladies and gentleman, a commodity with true scarcity paired with high demand has entered the chat. $$$. The preferred stocks come with perks (I will speculate on perks later). So something tells me these preferred stocks are gonna go to apes/holders of record for first dibs, they will be in high-demand, carry exclusive rights and privileges, and you will be able to purchase a given amount of them relative to how many shares of the Class A Common stock you own at the time of the offering... Notice how I said purchase them (this is where "Ape Options" (subscriptions and warrants) might come into play allowing each of us (and maybe even GME employees) to pick up a shit load of common/preferred stock on the cheap yo!) https://preview.redd.it/hyjoaejigd1d1.jpg?width=1300&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=0a33e9c940d17d8c58af9987ad3a8443c6dbeb44 Hereās how it might work, Gamestop senses volatility, we've seen $80 and I don't think that's all we will see. So Gamestop first issues (sells) more common shares on the way up any given run, simultaneously they give currently shareholders subscription rights to load up on common stock all they want on the cheap during a specified time window.....then, once that window closes, they give us MORE subscription rights (first dibs!) that allow us to purchase preferred stock in an amount based upon how many shares of common stock we currently own at the time of that offering. Talk about insane value! Gamestop knows their loyal retail investor base has poured so much of our hard-earned money the last 3+ years...we've invested so much time and money into this. I believe RC is looking out for us and will offer these subscriptions rights at an INSANE value to us, it won't make logical sense not to exercise them (look how cheap bookstore just offered up their subscription rights shares ($0.05/share) (https://www.reddit.com/Superstonk/comments/1cv6x37/walking\_backwards\_then\_forwards/) Credit to user N4hu1) GPT4 on Subscription Rights.
Opionion: RC won't (and frankly, we won't) allow for much dilution, if any at all. The subscription rights might just be too good to be true and certainly too good to pass up. And everyone who purchases preferred stock receives a "receipt" or receipts for their transaction(s) (i.e. a ledger) There's a record for it all. So, Its past 6am, I've been digging and writing for 7+ hours... and so I am going to call this the end of Part 1...but more tinfoil to come! I look forward to the potential discussion. What comes next is the discussion of Subscription Rights, Warrants, and Units :D...and I believe it all beautifully comes together with the plan for the preferred stock and the PSD...and that Gamestop plans to obliterate the shorts from left, right, above, and below with some type of unfuckwithable mass scale share/security offering that is going absolutely blow the world away. Here's a sneak peak of other juicy bits I want to discuss next: Until we have another plan...we plan to invest...hmm invest where? In what? In the even of a distribution other than in cash...a public or private sale of such...\"property\". Would love to hear your thoughts thus far. More to come and thanks for reading if you made it all the way here! . |
2024.05.19 15:19 TranslatorChemical49 looking for advice, planning to move abroad (med student rn)
Hi there, I'm desperately looking for some advice and direction, so anything is much appreciated. For some context, I'm a med student currently in Hong Kong. I have been an immigrant for my whole life, and actually am from India. I have always LONGED to move abroad, and that desire has gotten stronger after getting into university, because I never feel like I belong to this city, and language barrier has been the bane to my existence. I have learned the local language since I immigrated, about 12 years, yet I struggle so much, and I realize even if I gain fluency, I will never be apart of the culture or accepted by the locals. So despite being a local, I feel like an outsider and this has caused my family a lot of serious issues too...so I just know I have to leave and move to a better place. I don't have much roots, my parents are very antisocial so dont have much friends or relatives or anything in this city, though my parents are my everything. And wherever I move, I would want them to come along, even if it takes a few years. (I know it may not be something everyone agree one, but when you've had no one in your life other than 2 important precious people, you would not want to lose them)
So as I am a medical student, it complicates things by A LOT, like the whole licensing process especially. I have only been looking into English-speaking countries, so that makes it US, UK, Australia and New Zealand. Any country which's main language isnt English is off-limits, because I'm done with that, Hong Kong was an experience enough. So here is somethings I think about each country, now if you have any advice, any remark, I would really really appreciate it. If you know someone that pathway or smth, that would be incredible.
USA - I am definitely appealed by the american dream but really not sure it exists. Hong Kong has been an extremely safe place so safety hasnt ever been an issue but with my research, I'm quite concerned about the issues revolving gun possessions, school shootings, and also insane medical expenses (the privation threatens basic human rights) also the work culture which isnt that big of an issue but docs have poor lifestyle. As for the licence, I will have do to many exams (USMLE Step 1-3) and more, and residency is gonna be tough, but after that the salary is great and so I can afford things like house and my parent's retirement so I'm happy with that. But MY UTMOST MAIN CONCERN aside from guns and all, is the visa procedure, I can probs get green card over time but it will take more than a decade for my parents to ever get green card. And my parents will age, so it wont be worth the wait. I have researched as much as I could, but if you know any other pathway to which this wont be such an issue, please let me know.
UK - The lifestyle is much better and way safer than USA, near Europe too so cheap travels. But the salary for NHS doctor, truly sucks like its so poor, I don't think I could buy a house or you know be able to have some basic posessions. The work-life balance is great, but if I can't have a decent pay that I'm not sure how survivable it is. As for the visa thing, I don't think its as bad as US and there is some way I can bring my parents, but it makes no sense if I don't have money to even bring them.
Australia - This is something only recently I have considerently. Haven't done much research as a result, but general consensus is the pay is great (similar to HK where I live). But this is so incredible stupid to say, but I am so so so terrified of wildlife, the spiders and snakes get to my nerves (this is the only irrational fear I have, and it runs deep). I know its so stupid but pls tell me what you think.
New Zealand - THIS IS MY TOP CHOICE RN, again I'm in an uncertain place but so far this has seemed the most realistic and appealing. Docs' salaries are decent like about USD $5k monthly, isnt good nor as bad as UK. But the cost of living is quite high because its located so secluded from the whole world. Travelling is going to be so costly and so is living cuz grocery shopping is insane, though I do think in time I will be able to buy a house, and the living is slow-paced, the healthcare is free or at least not as costly in general. My main concerns are travelling issues (because I still would want to travel once a year back to my hometown or some vacation), and high cost of living (to pay for my parent's living, buy a house, perhaps have a family in the future).
The licensing isnt the biggest concern for others compare to USA, because if I want to pass those exams, I need to start studying like from this year (and I just finished the first year of medical school, and 5 more years to go). That is why I am thinking about it, I don't know and have got no one for guidance. Just know that mainly my parents are a big priority to me, and I want them to move with me, I want to have a good pay so I can afford a house and also again my parents can live with me, the only luxury I truly want is just a house and enough money to go to vacation once a year (could be hometown India, or somewhere Europe). The salary here in Hong Kong is so awesome for docs, even the starting one so it concerns me a lot that I am taking it for granted but literally I am so alone and isolated and medical school has really put it into perspective that I am always an outsider despite my attempts. Having a direction or doing research onto this plan so I can start preparing is the only thing going me.
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So as I am a medical student, it complicates things by A LOT, like the whole licensing process especially. I have only been looking into English-speaking countries, so that makes it US, UK, Australia and New Zealand. Any country which's main language isnt English is off-limits, because I'm done with that, Hong Kong was an experience enough. So here is somethings I think about each country, now if you have any advice, any remark, I would really really appreciate it. If you know someone that pathway or smth, that would be incredible.
USA - I am definitely appealed by the american dream but really not sure it exists. Hong Kong has been an extremely safe place so safety hasnt ever been an issue but with my research, I'm quite concerned about the issues revolving gun possessions, school shootings, and also insane medical expenses (the privation threatens basic human rights) also the work culture which isnt that big of an issue but docs have poor lifestyle. As for the licence, I will have do to many exams (USMLE Step 1-3) and more, and residency is gonna be tough, but after that the salary is great and so I can afford things like house and my parent's retirement so I'm happy with that. But MY UTMOST MAIN CONCERN aside from guns and all, is the visa procedure, I can probs get green card over time but it will take more than a decade for my parents to ever get green card. And my parents will age, so it wont be worth the wait. I have researched as much as I could, but if you know any other pathway to which this wont be such an issue, please let me know.
UK - The lifestyle is much better and way safer than USA, near Europe too so cheap travels. But the salary for NHS doctor, truly sucks like its so poor, I don't think I could buy a house or you know be able to have some basic posessions. The work-life balance is great, but if I can't have a decent pay that I'm not sure how survivable it is. As for the visa thing, I don't think its as bad as US and there is some way I can bring my parents, but it makes no sense if I don't have money to even bring them.
Australia - This is something only recently I have considerently. Haven't done much research as a result, but general consensus is the pay is great (similar to HK where I live). But this is so incredible stupid to say, but I am so so so terrified of wildlife, the spiders and snakes get to my nerves (this is the only irrational fear I have, and it runs deep). I know its so stupid but pls tell me what you think.
New Zealand - THIS IS MY TOP CHOICE RN, again I'm in an uncertain place but so far this has seemed the most realistic and appealing. Docs' salaries are decent like about USD $5k monthly, isnt good nor as bad as UK. But the cost of living is quite high because its located so secluded from the whole world. Travelling is going to be so costly and so is living cuz grocery shopping is insane, though I do think in time I will be able to buy a house, and the living is slow-paced, the healthcare is free or at least not as costly in general. My main concerns are travelling issues (because I still would want to travel once a year back to my hometown or some vacation), and high cost of living (to pay for my parent's living, buy a house, perhaps have a family in the future).
The licensing isnt the biggest concern for others compare to USA, because if I want to pass those exams, I need to start studying like from this year (and I just finished the first year of medical school, and 5 more years to go). That is why I am thinking about it, I don't know and have got no one for guidance. Just know that mainly my parents are a big priority to me, and I want them to move with me, I want to have a good pay so I can afford a house and also again my parents can live with me, the only luxury I truly want is just a house and enough money to go to vacation once a year (could be hometown India, or somewhere Europe). The salary here in Hong Kong is so awesome for docs, even the starting one so it concerns me a lot that I am taking it for granted but literally I am so alone and isolated and medical school has really put it into perspective that I am always an outsider despite my attempts. Having a direction or doing research onto this plan so I can start preparing is the only thing going me.
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Photographer Michelle goes to an Anti-Valentine's Day party, where romance is forbidden, but a captivating blonde makes her want to break all the rules.
2) Departure from the Script:
Struggling actress Amanda wakes up with a hangover, in a stranger's bed, with no idea what happened between her and butch photographer Michelle.
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https://relinks.me/B074CJY1QQ
The Hollywood Series includes three sapphic romance novels and three short stories with a total of 325,000 words, so it's the perfect escape to immerse yourself in love and the glamour of Hollywood.
Here's the suggested reading order:
1) The No-Romance Rule:
Photographer Michelle goes to an Anti-Valentine's Day party, where romance is forbidden, but a captivating blonde makes her want to break all the rules.
2) Departure from the Script:
Struggling actress Amanda wakes up with a hangover, in a stranger's bed, with no idea what happened between her and butch photographer Michelle.
3) Damage Control:
Famous actress Lauren hires a PR agent to prove to the world that she's straight. But is she really?
4) Dress-tease:
A reverse striptease gets Laurenās pulse pounding. "Dress-tease" is free on Amazon in most countries.
5) Just Physical:
It was supposed to be just a one-night stand between actress Jill and stuntwoman Crash.
6) Worth the Wait:
Crash and Jill try out a new sex toy. "Worth the Wait" won the Good Sex Award.
2024.05.19 15:19 kaiomann Please help me sort my available things & ideas
I have a bunch of tech already available and some ideas what I want to do in the future, but no experience to put it all together. If this sub is not the correct one please guide me in the right direction.
Things I have:
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Things I have:
- Desktop PC in the office, mostly used for games and general media consumption (via streaming).
- Mesh Network across the whole apartment for stable wireless connection.
- Raspberry Pi 4B connected via LAN to the router, no wireless module. The PI has a base setup (Raspbian) but does not do anything currently.
- Pixel 8 smartphone + old LG smartphone (Android 10 I think) not in use anymore.
- Various bluetooth speakers without smart functionality.
- Old-ish TV in the living room that allows limited casting of YouTube, Netflix & Prime video.
- Laptop connected to the TV via HDMI. It's setup to autostart in Steam Big Picture mode for game streaming. I control BPM via Xbox controller. I also have a wireless keyboard & mouse combo connected to the laptop.
- WiZ smart bulbs allowing changing of light temperature & brightness.
- Dreame vacuum robot.
- Google Home setup which currently includes the light bulbs & the vacuum.
- Home Assistant. I'm aware it exists, but currently I have no need to switch from the google ecosystem yet. Open to it though
- Some use for the Pi. PiHole, RetroPi, server of some kind? Can it run PiHole + other things in combination?
- Some use for the old phone. Can it be used as a display / control panel for some other stuff?
- A way to make the couch experience with TV & laptop more fluent. If I want to stream something that the TV does not support (let's say Twitch) I have to switch the input to HDMI, leave big picture mode, use keyboard & mouse to open the browser and watch it that way. Ideal setup would be controlled all via phone (casting) or controller.
- A way to connect multiple audio devices (TV, bluetooth speakers, maybe PC speakers) to all play the same music and control them on one central place.
- Google Pixel tablet for media consumption. I saw that the base station includes a speaker & the tablet allows casting, might be interesting.
- More smart lights. I saw IKEA has some things but it looks like they have their own locked down ecosystem.
- Voice commands, rather use an app.
- Large-scale media storage.
2024.05.19 15:18 JaeAuthor The Hollywood Series is now in Kindle Unlimited
If you haven't read my award-winning Hollywood Series yet, you can now binge-read it in Kindle Unlimited or snag your own copies on Amazon.
https://relinks.me/B074CJY1QQ
The Hollywood Series includes three sapphic romance novels and three short stories with a total of 325,000 words, so it's the perfect escape to immerse yourself in love and the glamour of Hollywood.
Here's the suggested reading order:
1) The No-Romance Rule:
Photographer Michelle goes to an Anti-Valentine's Day party, where romance is forbidden, but a captivating blonde makes her want to break all the rules.
2) Departure from the Script:
Struggling actress Amanda wakes up with a hangover, in a stranger's bed, with no idea what happened between her and butch photographer Michelle.
3) Damage Control:
Famous actress Lauren hires a PR agent to prove to the world that she's straight. But is she really?
4) Dress-tease:
A reverse striptease gets Laurenās pulse pounding. "Dress-tease" is free on Amazon in most countries.
5) Just Physical:
It was supposed to be just a one-night stand between actress Jill and stuntwoman Crash.
6) Worth the Wait:
Crash and Jill try out a new sex toy. "Worth the Wait" won the Good Sex Award.
submitted by JaeAuthor to sapphicbooks [link] [comments]
https://relinks.me/B074CJY1QQ
The Hollywood Series includes three sapphic romance novels and three short stories with a total of 325,000 words, so it's the perfect escape to immerse yourself in love and the glamour of Hollywood.
Here's the suggested reading order:
1) The No-Romance Rule:
Photographer Michelle goes to an Anti-Valentine's Day party, where romance is forbidden, but a captivating blonde makes her want to break all the rules.
2) Departure from the Script:
Struggling actress Amanda wakes up with a hangover, in a stranger's bed, with no idea what happened between her and butch photographer Michelle.
3) Damage Control:
Famous actress Lauren hires a PR agent to prove to the world that she's straight. But is she really?
4) Dress-tease:
A reverse striptease gets Laurenās pulse pounding. "Dress-tease" is free on Amazon in most countries.
5) Just Physical:
It was supposed to be just a one-night stand between actress Jill and stuntwoman Crash.
6) Worth the Wait:
Crash and Jill try out a new sex toy. "Worth the Wait" won the Good Sex Award.
2024.05.19 15:18 Luno-luna8897 Gf compares herself to my ex every day. I need help.
My girlfriend of 2 yrs keeps comparing herself to my ex-girlfriend. It started off around nine months ago. It all started because of some comments that I made to a friend of mine around one year prior. I had just come out of a relationship, and my now gf was seeing someone else. I was heartbroken from my last relationship, but I was done with it. we came together as she was leaving her ex. i patiently waited for her to grieve her ex to ask her to start a relationship with me. weāre both in our late 20s. The comments I made to my friend were a direct comparison with their bodies. I was having a very openhearted conversation with a friend of ours in common, but this friend decided to go tell her the comments completely out of context because she was in love with her.
I know what you think that these comments were chauvinist and insensitive, but in all honesty, I didn't mean to say that one person was better than the other. The comments were made during a conversation about past relationships and sex, but I didn't bring any of these topics up. This friend decided to bring these topics up and directly question me about the differences between my current girlfriend and my ex. iām pretty straight forward when people ask me things. I still thought that my current girlfriend was much more beautiful than the one I had before (not that matters so much to me, i value other things over bodies). Since then, though, my girlfriend has looked her up on social media and on her agency site (she used to model, but was pretty bad at the job), and convinced herself that she is the downgrade.
Since then my current girlfriend has developed an eating disorder and yesterday she bumped into my ex by chance, further augmenting her fears. I I tried hard to make her believe that she was beautiful, but after yesterday, she says that she will never believe a word out of my mouth when I talk of her beauty. In all this time, I've tried to amend to these comments that were made, and try to explain the context, but to no avail. iām her only psychological aid in this as all her female friends only say stupid shit like āyes if my bfās ex was a model, i too would feel the sameā. nobody tells her that this is ridiculous or not important or that sheās hot as hell. I tried to tell her that my ex-girlfriend was a monster of a human being.
To me, my girlfriend is heaven on Earth, she's the best person I could ever have wished for. And physically stunning, much more than my ex-girlfriend (I don't particularly care about it by the way, but iād like to point it out again just how gorgeous she is in case anyone thought her doubts were realistic). She is the kindest and sweetest human that ever came on this planet. She's going to therapy right now since of a couple of years, but I don't think it's helping her very much. the more I try to tell her I love her and I think she's beautiful, the more she says that I'm lying and that she has to accept this trith that has apparently shattered her completely. I don't know if I should leave her or stay, hoping that it gets better, but I don't really see a way out, I really think that she would be "the one" for me, if this entire thing of my ex-girlfriend hadn't come between us.
The more I tell her that she should not let her self-esteem crash because of the monster of my ex-girlfriend, the more she brings her into the conversation and just says sheās more slender, or this or that, or this again. I tried to reason with her saying that she's my ex for a reason, and that she will always be the most beautiful for me because of how she treats me and how she is as a human being.I tried to tell her that if this continues, it will eventually split us apart, and sheād be sorry for the rest of her life.
She doesn't care and continues saying day after day that my ex-girlfriend is more beautiful. itās like talking to a wall. I don't know what to do. I love her but I don't think I can continue having to bear continuously getting a cold shoulder and being told that I'm a liar. our sex life hasnāt gotten better from this, to the point we have it maybe once every two weeks. the moment weāre alone sheās a cold entity, but says that she loves me and thatās why she isnāt leaving me yet. wouldnāt someone that loves you believe you and trust you and follow up on that?Itās like bringing someone a gift (your love) and seeing the person throwing it in the trash and laughing.
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I know what you think that these comments were chauvinist and insensitive, but in all honesty, I didn't mean to say that one person was better than the other. The comments were made during a conversation about past relationships and sex, but I didn't bring any of these topics up. This friend decided to bring these topics up and directly question me about the differences between my current girlfriend and my ex. iām pretty straight forward when people ask me things. I still thought that my current girlfriend was much more beautiful than the one I had before (not that matters so much to me, i value other things over bodies). Since then, though, my girlfriend has looked her up on social media and on her agency site (she used to model, but was pretty bad at the job), and convinced herself that she is the downgrade.
Since then my current girlfriend has developed an eating disorder and yesterday she bumped into my ex by chance, further augmenting her fears. I I tried hard to make her believe that she was beautiful, but after yesterday, she says that she will never believe a word out of my mouth when I talk of her beauty. In all this time, I've tried to amend to these comments that were made, and try to explain the context, but to no avail. iām her only psychological aid in this as all her female friends only say stupid shit like āyes if my bfās ex was a model, i too would feel the sameā. nobody tells her that this is ridiculous or not important or that sheās hot as hell. I tried to tell her that my ex-girlfriend was a monster of a human being.
To me, my girlfriend is heaven on Earth, she's the best person I could ever have wished for. And physically stunning, much more than my ex-girlfriend (I don't particularly care about it by the way, but iād like to point it out again just how gorgeous she is in case anyone thought her doubts were realistic). She is the kindest and sweetest human that ever came on this planet. She's going to therapy right now since of a couple of years, but I don't think it's helping her very much. the more I try to tell her I love her and I think she's beautiful, the more she says that I'm lying and that she has to accept this trith that has apparently shattered her completely. I don't know if I should leave her or stay, hoping that it gets better, but I don't really see a way out, I really think that she would be "the one" for me, if this entire thing of my ex-girlfriend hadn't come between us.
The more I tell her that she should not let her self-esteem crash because of the monster of my ex-girlfriend, the more she brings her into the conversation and just says sheās more slender, or this or that, or this again. I tried to reason with her saying that she's my ex for a reason, and that she will always be the most beautiful for me because of how she treats me and how she is as a human being.I tried to tell her that if this continues, it will eventually split us apart, and sheād be sorry for the rest of her life.
She doesn't care and continues saying day after day that my ex-girlfriend is more beautiful. itās like talking to a wall. I don't know what to do. I love her but I don't think I can continue having to bear continuously getting a cold shoulder and being told that I'm a liar. our sex life hasnāt gotten better from this, to the point we have it maybe once every two weeks. the moment weāre alone sheās a cold entity, but says that she loves me and thatās why she isnāt leaving me yet. wouldnāt someone that loves you believe you and trust you and follow up on that?Itās like bringing someone a gift (your love) and seeing the person throwing it in the trash and laughing.
2024.05.19 15:18 WayInteresting8432 My (25M) gf (28F) keeps making disparaging comments about my kink and itās really starting to get to me
Some info, I (25M) enjoy anal stimulation. This includes toys, fingers, etc. when I first asked my gf (28F) to peg me she asked if I was gay. This hurt me. And led to an argument, but that was nearly two years ago.
Since then my gf has grown to tolerate my kink, but I know sheās not really into participating in it. With that being said I should note that I donāt ask for anal play very often. It can go from 2 weeks to over a month before I ask for it again because for me to want it everything has to be perfect, my day, my mood, etc.
Last night we returned from a party where I was the designated driver, so my gf was really drunk when we got home. Now I hate having to babysit drunk people, and Iām waiting for my gf to go to bed so I can shower. I wonāt take a shower while sheās drunk and awake because the last time I did it led to her falling down the stairs while I was showering.
She could tell that Iām getting antsy and wanted the night to end. She made the comment āIāll go to bed so you can shower and have vibrator in your ass time.ā
Now this was at 1 am, after a party, after I already did a 9 hour shift at work, Iām drained from the day, I just wanna shower and go to bed. Iām not in the mood to play with my butt.
I think itās kind of disparaging that she makes a lot of similar comments, about me only caring about sex, and more specifically having my ass played with. It feels like whenever sheās frustrated with me in any way, she attacks my kink.
How do I approach her about this?
TLDR: my gf thinks Iām obsessed with anal play when itās not true
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Since then my gf has grown to tolerate my kink, but I know sheās not really into participating in it. With that being said I should note that I donāt ask for anal play very often. It can go from 2 weeks to over a month before I ask for it again because for me to want it everything has to be perfect, my day, my mood, etc.
Last night we returned from a party where I was the designated driver, so my gf was really drunk when we got home. Now I hate having to babysit drunk people, and Iām waiting for my gf to go to bed so I can shower. I wonāt take a shower while sheās drunk and awake because the last time I did it led to her falling down the stairs while I was showering.
She could tell that Iām getting antsy and wanted the night to end. She made the comment āIāll go to bed so you can shower and have vibrator in your ass time.ā
Now this was at 1 am, after a party, after I already did a 9 hour shift at work, Iām drained from the day, I just wanna shower and go to bed. Iām not in the mood to play with my butt.
I think itās kind of disparaging that she makes a lot of similar comments, about me only caring about sex, and more specifically having my ass played with. It feels like whenever sheās frustrated with me in any way, she attacks my kink.
How do I approach her about this?
TLDR: my gf thinks Iām obsessed with anal play when itās not true