I finally got oral surgery done on Monday, May 6th, the thing I've waited for years to get done is finally done and I thought for sure this would bring me happiness and that my smile would return, and it did, for a while … but it didn't take long at all for grief and sadness to take over again, or for my smile to fade.
I go back next week to have the sutures removed and to have the implanted prosthesis adjusted. It hasn't been incredibly painful, nearly all of the swelling was gone after 4-5 days and the bruising is all but faded now, fitting to match my smile.
I got to witness the Aurora Borealis Friday night for the first time in my life right here in my backyard and I am still absolutely enthralled by the whole experience. I know some people get to see the Aurora very frequently but I don't and it's been on my bucket list for a very, very long time.
I didn't even know we were expecting such a sight here until just minutes before it began. I was sitting outside, on the front porch of my very good friend's house when I felt a sudden and severe change in energy and pressure. I assumed we were about to get some rain or a storm of some sort so I looked up to the sky and said, “hey, do you see those lights?”
Hello Aurora! It split the sky right above our heads! It started out as lines of bright white light but quickly transformed into brilliant, undulating colors that danced effortlessly among our stars, between the veil and weave. Its maw appeared wide, its voice transferred into light, and its energy and messages were flowing. So much was received, so much was shared.
I wanted so badly to believe in what I was seeing and even more to believe in what I was feeling … but like all things, the moment was fleeting and I soon found myself back in my usual way, alone and crying. I decided to hop on Zillow for no good reason at all, planning to look anywhere but where I currently am but it opened to my last search and … how am I supposed to be expected to not read into everything?
Is it not strange that a little spot in that location would be open just now? Just as I'm considering a change of scenery … Why there? Why now? And why did I find it on the night of the Aurora? I mean for real, what does it mean? Maybe nothing and maybe everything. I'm not sure it matters either way, I'm still paralyzed by grief and feel unable to trust myself to make any decisions or changes.
I spent most of Sunday crying. It was Mother's Day and those tears were for many reasons. I have so many conflicting thoughts and emotions about my mother and about myself as a mother but that's an entry for another day.
It's Tuesday now and I think the surgery really did me some good, I haven't been drinking during the healing phase and I'm really trying to take better care of myself, well, my physical body – at least I know what my body requires to heal, I wish the rest of me could heal so easily.
14 months and nothing has changed. It is not time that heals but love and after all I've lost, I guess I just no longer have enough …

CANCER ZODIAC TAROT READING - UNEXPECTED INCOME MAY 2024

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cJ5mIkLhCyY
cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac dates
10 things about cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac traits
cancer zodiac personality
cancer zodiac symbol
cancer zodiac month
cancer zodiac tattoo
cancer zodiac characteristics
cancer zodiac facts
cancer zodiac sign
cancer zodiac animal
cancer zodiac and capricorn
cancer zodiac art
cancer zodiac aesthetic
cancer zodiac air sign
cancer zodiac astrology
cancer zodiac attributes
cancer zodiac and scorpio
cancer zodiac and aries
cancer zodiac and aquarius
about cancer zodiac sign
all about cancer zodiac
are cancer zodiac dangerous
about cancer zodiac sign girl
age of cancer zodiac
attributes of cancer zodiac sign
after cancer zodiac
animal for cancer zodiac sign
anime characters cancer zodiac
aries and cancer zodiac sign compatibility
cancer zodiac birthday
cancer zodiac bad traits
cancer zodiac birthstone
cancer zodiac best match
cancer zodiac birth dates
cancer zodiac body part
cancer zodiac background
cancer zodiac bracelet
cancer zodiac best friends
cancer zodiac baby girl
best crystals for cancer zodiac
bad things about cancer zodiac
boy cancer zodiac
best match for cancer zodiac
birthday wishes for cancer zodiac
best color for cancer zodiac
best job for cancer zodiac
best stone for cancer zodiac
birthstone for cancer zodiac
bracelet for cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac compatibility
cancer zodiac color
cancer zodiac celebrities
cancer zodiac constellation
cancer zodiac crystals
cancer zodiac color palette
cancer zodiac characteristics female
cancer zodiac compatibility chart
cancer zodiac chinese
cancer zodiac sign dates
cancer zodiac dates range
cancer zodiac description
cancer zodiac days
cancer zodiac demon
cancer zodiac drawing
cancer zodiac daily
cancer zodiac dates 2024
cancer zodiac dogs
cancer zodiac dark side
definition of cancer zodiac sign
dates for cancer zodiac sign
dark side of cancer zodiac signs
dragon cancer zodiac
different types of cancer zodiac
demon cancer zodiac
does cancer zodiac have anger issues
description of cancer zodiac sign
double cancer zodiac
diamond for cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac element
cancer zodiac emoji
cancer zodiac enemies
cancer zodiac explained
cancer zodiac earrings
cancer zodiac energy
cancer zodiac ear piercing
cancer zodiac eyes
cancer zodiac español
cancer zodiac emotionally manipulative
everything about cancer zodiac
evolved cancer zodiac
element of cancer zodiac
evil cancer zodiac
enemy of cancer zodiac
emerald for cancer zodiac
easy cancer zodiac drawing
emotional cancer zodiac
explain cancer zodiac sign
everything you need to know about cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac flower
cancer zodiac flower tattoo
cancer zodiac for today
cancer zodiac female
cancer zodiac favorite color
cancer zodiac famous people
cancer zodiac fire sign
cancer zodiac friends
cancer zodiac facts male
facts about cancer zodiac sign
facts about cancer zodiac woman
fun facts about cancer zodiac
famous cancer zodiac
flower for cancer zodiac
facts about cancer zodiac man
features of cancer zodiac sign
female cancer zodiac sign
friends of cancer zodiac
funny cancer zodiac quotes
cancer zodiac girl
cancer zodiac gemstone
cancer zodiac greek god
cancer zodiac god
cancer zodiac goddess
cancer zodiac gif
cancer zodiac gem
cancer zodiac good and bad traits
cancer zodiac good in bed
cancer zodiac gifts
good things about cancer zodiac
geek bar cancer zodiac flavor
gemstone for cancer zodiac
girl cancer zodiac
gifts for cancer zodiac man
gifts for cancer zodiac woman
gemstone for cancer zodiac sign
girly cancer zodiac tattoo
god of cancer zodiac
gem for cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac horoscope today
cancer zodiac horoscope
cancer zodiac health problems
cancer zodiac horoscope 2024
cancer zodiac history
cancer zodiac house
cancer zodiac hand tattoo
cancer zodiac hair color
cancer zodiac hoodie
cancer zodiac humor
how rare is cancer zodiac sign
happy birthday cancer zodiac
how is cancer zodiac sign
how dangerous is cancer zodiac
how to be friends with a cancer zodiac
how will cancer zodiac die
how to deal with cancer zodiac sign
healing crystals for cancer zodiac
habits of cancer zodiac
herbs for cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac in hindi
cancer zodiac in chinese
cancer zodiac images
cancer zodiac in telugu
cancer zodiac info
cancer zodiac in spanish
cancer zodiac is what month
cancer zodiac in relationships
cancer zodiac information
cancer zodiac in 2024
is cancer zodiac dangerous
interesting facts about cancer zodiac
is cancer zodiac rare
information about cancer zodiac sign
is cancer zodiac rich or poor
instagram bio for cancer zodiac
images of cancer zodiac sign
is cancer zodiac sign lucky
indian celebrities with cancer zodiac sign
is cancer zodiac a water sign
cancer zodiac jewelry
cancer zodiac jobs
cancer zodiac july
cancer zodiac june
cancer zodiac january 2024
cancer zodiac june 21
cancer zodiac japanese
cancer zodiac july 22
cancer zodiac june 27
cancer zodiac july 16
july cancer zodiac
jobs for cancer zodiac
june cancer zodiac sign
july cancer zodiac traits
jewelry for cancer zodiac
june cancer zodiac personality
june cancer zodiac traits
june vs july cancer zodiac
july birthday cancer zodiac
jade for cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac kids
cancer zodiac keywords
cancer zodiac keychain
cancer zodiac kpop idols
cancer zodiac killers
cancer zodiac karma
cancer zodiac know for
cancer zodiac keyboard symbol
cancer zodiac child
cancer zodiac knight
kpop idols cancer zodiac
kpop idols who have cancer zodiac sign
korean actors cancer zodiac
korean celebrities with cancer zodiac sign
katangian ng cancer zodiac
karaang napta cancer zodiac sign
karma cancer zodiac
what kind of person is cancer zodiac sign
things to know about cancer zodiac
everything to know about cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac lucky numbers
cancer zodiac love
cancer zodiac logo
cancer zodiac love language
cancer zodiac lucky colors
cancer zodiac love compatibility
cancer zodiac libra
cancer zodiac lips
cancer zodiac least compatibility
cancer zodiac leo
lucky stone for cancer zodiac sign
logo cancer zodiac
leo and cancer zodiac sign
lucky color for cancer zodiac
lucky wallpaper for cancer zodiac
lucky number for cancer zodiac sign
lunar eclipse effect on cancer zodiac
libra and cancer zodiac sign compatibility
last day of cancer zodiac
love life of cancer zodiac sign
cancer zodiac meaning
cancer zodiac men
cancer zodiac memes
cancer zodiac match
cancer zodiac month dates
cancer zodiac moon sign
cancer zodiac moon
cancer zodiac meaning male
cancer zodiac meaning female
meaning of cancer zodiac sign
male cancer zodiac
meaningful cancer zodiac tattoo
more about cancer zodiac sign
month of cancer zodiac sign
moonstone for cancer zodiac
month of cancer zodiac
male cancer zodiac tattoo
match for cancer zodiac
mlbb cancer zodiac skin
cancer zodiac necklace
cancer zodiac negative traits
cancer zodiac number
cancer zodiac names
cancer zodiac nails
cancer zodiac nail designs
cancer zodiac nicknames
cancer zodiac necklace gold
cancer zodiac neck tattoo
cancer zodiac necklace silver
nicknames for cancer zodiac
names for cancer zodiac girl
nature of cancer zodiac sign
names for cancer zodiac boy
negatives of cancer zodiac
nature of cancer zodiac
number for cancer zodiac
nba players cancer zodiac
names related to cancer zodiac
next to cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac outfits
cancer zodiac origin
cancer zodiac opposite
cancer zodiac opposite sign
cancer zodiac overview
cancer zodiac of the day
cancer zodiac oc
cancer zodiac origin story
cancer zodiac occupations
cancer zodiac other names
opposite of cancer zodiac
one word to describe cancer zodiac
other names for cancer zodiac
outfits for cancer zodiac sign
opal for cancer zodiac
one piece cancer zodiac
october cancer zodiac
onyx for cancer zodiac
another word for cancer zodiac
ox cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac personality traits
cancer zodiac planet
cancer zodiac personality female
cancer zodiac personality male
cancer zodiac pictures
cancer zodiac powers
cancer zodiac pros and cons
cancer zodiac pendant
cancer zodiac power color
personality of cancer zodiac sign
picture of cancer zodiac sign
pros and cons of cancer zodiac
pictures of cancer zodiac sign girl
planet for cancer zodiac
pisces and cancer zodiac sign
power of cancer zodiac sign
pearl for cancer zodiac
peacock cancer zodiac
perfect match for cancer zodiac sign
cancer zodiac quotes
cancer zodiac qualities
cancer zodiac quotes funny
cancer zodiac quiz
cancer zodiac questions
cancer zodiac quote of the day
cancer zodiac quiet
cancer zodiac quiz buzzfeed
cancer zodiac quora
cancer zodiac queen
qualities of cancer zodiac sign
qualities of a cancer zodiac
quotes about cancer zodiac
questions to ask a cancer zodiac
quotes for cancer zodiac sign
quiet cancer zodiac
questions for cancer zodiac
questions to ask a cancer zodiac sign
quiz for cancer zodiac
quora cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac reading
cancer zodiac red flags
cancer zodiac reading today
cancer zodiac ruling planet
cancer zodiac rising sign
cancer zodiac relationship
cancer zodiac reddit
cancer zodiac ring
cancer zodiac range
cancer zodiac rappers
ring for cancer zodiac
ruby for cancer zodiac
rabbit cancer zodiac
red flag cancer zodiac
rappers that are cancer zodiac sign
real cancer zodiac facts
rat cancer zodiac
ruling planet of cancer zodiac sign
random facts about cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac sign traits
cancer zodiac sign meaning
cancer zodiac sign month
cancer zodiac stone
cancer zodiac soulmate
cancer zodiac sign compatibility
cancer zodiac sign tattoo
sign of cancer zodiac
stones for cancer zodiac
symbol for cancer zodiac
stone for cancer zodiac sign
symbol of cancer zodiac sign
scary facts about cancer zodiac
serial killers with cancer zodiac sign
cancer zodiac tattoo ideas
cancer zodiac today
cancer zodiac tattoos for females
cancer zodiac traits female
cancer zodiac traits male
cancer zodiac tattoos for guys
cancer zodiac tarot card
cancer zodiac type
traits of cancer zodiac
things about cancer zodiac sign
tattoo cancer zodiac
types of cancer zodiac
tattoo ideas for cancer zodiac
the meaning of cancer zodiac sign
tattoo cancer zodiac sign
today cancer zodiac
today cancer zodiac sign
today's cancer zodiac horoscope
cancer zodiac urban dictionary
cancer zodiac usernames
cancer zodiac upset
cancer zodiac usa today
cancer zodiac usernames for instagram
cancer zodiac unlucky numbers
cancer zodiac unlucky color
cancer zodiac urdu
cancer zodiac unique facts
cancer zodiac unlucky
unique cancer zodiac tattoos
unique cancer zodiac tattoos for females
ugali ng cancer zodiac sign
understanding cancer zodiac
username for cancer zodiac
urban dictionary cancer zodiac sign
unhealthy cancer zodiac
usa today cancer zodiac
unknown facts about cancer zodiac
unlucky colour for cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac virgo
cancer zodiac vape
cancer zodiac vibes
cancer zodiac videos
cancer zodiac vs scorpio
cancer zodiac vs leo
cancer zodiac venus
cancer zodiac vector
cancer zodiac vs gemini
cancer zodiac vindictive
virgo and cancer zodiac sign
vans cancer zodiac
virgo and cancer zodiac
villains cancer zodiac
vintage cancer zodiac
vintage cancer zodiac charm
venus in cancer zodiac
van cleef zodiac pendant cancer
cancer zodiac in vietnamese
cancer zodiac water sign
cancer zodiac weakness
cancer zodiac woman
cancer zodiac wallpaper
cancer zodiac what month
cancer zodiac water or fire
cancer zodiac worst match
cancer zodiac worst traits
cancer zodiac when mad
cancer zodiac wallpaper aesthetic
what is a cancer zodiac
what month is cancer zodiac sign
what month is cancer zodiac
what color is cancer zodiac
weakness of cancer zodiac
what are the traits of a cancer zodiac sign
what is the meaning of cancer zodiac sign
woman cancer zodiac
what is a cancer zodiac animal
what is good about cancer zodiac sign
cancer x zodiac
zodiac cancer x gemini
astrology cancer x capricorn
cancer zodiac letters
cancer x
cancer x cancer zodiac compatibility
cancer x cancer zodiac
zodiak taurus x cancer
what sign are cancer
x cancer
cancer zodiac year 2024
cancer zodiac yin yang
cancer zodiac year
cancer zodiac yin or yang
cancer zodiac yesterday
cancer zodiac year of dragon
what are cancer zodiac signs
year 2024 for cancer zodiac
yin yang cancer zodiac
year of the dragon for cancer zodiac sign
year of cancer zodiac
youtubers with cancer zodiac
year 2023 for cancer zodiac sign
year of the dragon for cancer zodiac
what year is cancer zodiac sign
what does it mean if you are a cancer zodiac
how to know if your a cancer zodiac sign
cancer astrology zone
cancer zodiac pisces zodiac
why are zodiac cancers so dangerous
cancer about zodiac
cancer zodiac in chinese zodiac
cancer zodiac zodiac
cancer sheep zodiac
zodiac cancer characteristics
zodiac cancer celebrities
zodiac cancer child
zodiac cancer chart
cancer horoscope 0800
cancer zodiac july 07
horoscope cancer 09 juin 2023
are cancers good for cancers
are cancers lucky
cancer sun 0 degrees
cancer 0 degrees
what are cancers sign
why are cancers called cancer
why is cancer called cancer zodiac
what represents cancer zodiac
0 degree cancer astrology
0 degree cancer
0 cancer
cancer zodiac 15 year cycle
cancer zodiac 10 things
cancer zodiac 10
cancer zodiac 18k
cancer zodiac 15th birthday
cancer 101 zodiac
zodiac cancer 16
cancer horoscope 19 march 2024
cancer horoscope 13 december 2023
cancer horoscope 11 march 2024
10 bad things about cancer zodiac
10 things about cancer zodiac male
10 things about cancer zodiac female
100 facts about cancer zodiac
10 facts about cancer zodiac
10 good things about cancer zodiac
10 interesting facts about cancer zodiac
10 facts about cancer zodiac sign
14k gold cancer zodiac necklace
cancer zodiac 2024
cancer zodiac 2024 prediction
cancer zodiac 2023
cancer zodiac 2025
cancer zodiac 2024 january
cancer zodiac 2024 career
cancer zodiac 2023 predictions
cancer zodiac 2024 in hindi
cancer zodiac 2024 march
cancer zodiac 2023 horoscope
2024 for cancer zodiac
2 types of cancer zodiac
2025 for cancer zodiac
20 facts about cancer zodiac
2026 for cancer zodiac
2023 for cancer zodiac
2023 cancer zodiac predictions
2024 prediction for cancer zodiac
2024 lucky color for cancer zodiac sign
2024 color of the year for cancer zodiac sign
cancer zodiac 3 stages
cancer zodiac 3 types
cancer zodiac 3 signs
cancer 3 zodiac
cancer horoscope 31 january 2024
cancer horoscope 30 march 2024
cancer horoscope 31 july 2023
cancer horoscope 30 march 2023
cancer horoscope 30 august 2023
cancer horoscope 30 november 2023
3 types of cancer zodiac
3 stages of cancer zodiac
3 words to describe cancer zodiac
3 facts about cancer zodiac
3 different types of cancer zodiac
3d cancer zodiac sign
3 fun facts about cancer zodiac
august 31 zodiac sign compatibility with cancer
cancer june 30 zodiac sign
cancer zodiac june 30
cancer horoscope 4 march 2024
cancer horoscope 4 april 2024
cancer horoscope 4 may 2023
cancer horoscope 4 january 2024
cancer horoscope 4 october 2023
cancer horoscope 4 april 2023
cancer horoscope 4 september 2023
cancer horoscope 4th december 2023
cancer horoscope 4 july 2023
cancer horoscope 4 june 2023
4 types of cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac wallpaper 4k
cancer zodiac july 4
zodiac sign of cancer 4 letters
what do cancer zodiac sign mean
cancer zodiac rules
4 cancers
zodiac cancer types
cancer horoscope 5 march 2024
cancer horoscope 5 april 2024
cancer horoscope 5 october 2023
cancer horoscope 5 april 2023
cancer horoscope 5 june 2023
cancer horoscope 5 july 2023
cancer horoscope 5 january 2024
cancer horoscope 5 may 2023
cancer horoscope 5 february 2024
cancer horoscope 5 december 2023
5 facts about cancer zodiac
50 cent is a cancer zodiac
50 cent zodiac sign cancer
cancer 5th house zodiac
cancer zodiac sign july 5
cancer zodiac july 5
june 5 zodiac sign cancer
5 cancers
cancer zodiac 69
cancer zodiac 69 tattoo
cancer zodiac 69 meaning
cancer horoscope 6 march 2024
cancer horoscope 6 july 2023
cancer horoscope 6 april 2023
cancer horoscope 6 december 2023
cancer horoscope 6 october 2023
cancer horoscope 6 june 2023
cancer horoscope 6 september 2023
69 cancer zodiac
meaning of cancer zodiac sign 69
cancer zodiac july 6
what does the 69 mean for cancer
cancer born on july 6
cancer big 6 astrology
69 cancer sign
6 cancer causing foods
cancer horoscope 7 march 2024
cancer horoscope 7 may 2023
cancer horoscope 7 september 2023
cancer horoscope 7 july 2023
cancer horoscope 7 june 2023
cancer horoscope 7th may 2023
cancer horoscope 7 november 2023
cancer horoscope 7 august 2023
cancer horoscope 7 april 2023
cancer horoscope 7 february 2024
cancer zodiac july 7
cancer horoscope 8 march 2024
cancer horoscope 8 january 2024
cancer horoscope 8 may 2023
cancer horoscope 8 september 2023
cancer horoscope 8 june 2023
cancer horoscope 8 april 2023
cancer horoscope 8 august 2023
cancer horoscope 8 december 2023
cancer horoscope 8 november 2023
cancer horoscope 8th march 2024
july 8th cancer zodiac
cancer zodiac july 8
signo zodiacal cancer julio 8
what flower represents cancer zodiac
why cancer is dangerous zodiac
what gifts do cancers like
cancer 8h
cancer horoscope 9 june 2023
cancer horoscope 9 may 2023
cancer horoscope 9 march 2024
cancer horoscope 9 january 2024
cancer horoscope 9 april 2023
cancer horoscope 9 october 2023
cancer horoscope 9 september 2023
cancer horoscope 9 november 2023
cancer horoscope 9 august 2023
cancer horoscope 9th april 2023
9 cancer zodiac sign
july 9 zodiac sign cancer
cancer zodiac july 9
what do cancer look like zodiac
what does cancer hate zodiac
9 cancer symptoms
what cancer zodiac sign
what cancer zodiac sign means

so i (15, mtf) have been really worried abt how my transition will end up going. i'm closeted to everyone except a group of supportive friends (to whom i owe the world) and i'm thinking of coming out to my parents within the next month or two.
i really have two concerns when it comes to my transition, one of which obviously being family reaction. idk my mom said that she'd love a trans child but wouldn't let them get hormones (i'd love a child with cancer, but i'd never get them chemo) but my dad has made fun of the "tr---ies" before so... (he does very much believe in "life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness" though, so there is hope in that regard)
but my main concern is probably passing (which i'll probably never be able to do bc my face is already not only masc, but ugly masc). i don't want to have ffs, it's just something i have to do to fix my condition, but i'm worried it might leave my face disfigured in some way, even though if i get a competent surgeon i'll probably be fine (my wallet won't be though!). boymoding sounds like dysphoria hell and i'll probably have to do that from whenever i get hrt to at least 3-5 years after that when i can afford ffs. presenting as a boy, even a feminine one, might genuinely make me want to off myself. being a visible trans woman sounds like hell, i don't want to be a crude approximation of my own being i just want to be myself, and also being killed with rocks for taking a piss doesn't seem very nice. it doesn't sound like too much to ask for but i must've pissed off some god in a past life or smth because i've been cursed with this.
i have a strong brow ridge with very masc forehead projection, a square jaw, and a big nose and those are genuinely killing me inside. i know ffs could definitely fix a lot of those issues but at least 60k for that in a place where insurance or universal healthcare doesn't cover it (i live in alberta, canada) is so much money that i'll never have to a point where it feels hopeless. alberta just banned hrt and puberty blockers for those under the age of 16 (and the conservatives, who will probably be in power next year, want to ban transition to anyone below the age of 18), and the only pediatric gender clinic in the province is open for six hours a month with a three year waiting list. i don't want to wait at the very least another year watching everything in my body degenerate into a disgusting male form but i can't do anything else so i guess i'll just rot in self-loathing until then.
i just wished i hadn't spent my whole life until abt six months ago repressing this. i knew that i was supposed to be a girl since i was 10 at the latest. my earliest memory is me wanting to just wake up as a girl. if i just accepted it back in 2019, before my dad got radicalized, before everyone cared so much about trans people, i'd be on hrt by now or at least blockers. why did my entire life hinge on the stupid decision of a terrified 10 year old? who deserves that?
i just wish i could be cis, afab or amab i don't care, it doesn't matter. everything would be so much easier. no surgery, no hate, no dysphoria, why can't i just be in the right body. seeing ppl online being proud of their transness is so confusing to me, why would you be happy about being this way, it's a birth defect. seeing passing trans ppl makes me feel worse somehow. it shouldn't, if anything it means that it's probably possible for me too, but i just feel like they were born wrong right.
tl;dr: teenage trans girl in a hopeless situation wallowing in dysphoria, even though she's incredibly privileged in just having the possibility to pause her male puberty before it completely and utterly irreparably ruins her.
sorry i just need to get this out of my system, even if it just bounces off some wall of noise
i think im gonna cry myself to sleep to Romantic Vivisection now

So i recently platinumed Elden Ring after about 700 hours into the game. It was my first souls game and I really liked it, my friend told to go buy ds3 and thats exactly what i did. But when i started I really dont feel having fun I was surprised by the no jumping 😂 and Its not an open world like er any adviceof how the game works hear cuz i die too much and dont know where to go

Top Digital Marketing Agency in Dubai

In the bustling metropolis of Dubai, where the skyline gleams with architectural marvels and the pulse of innovation reverberates through its streets, one name stands out as the vanguard of Top Digital Marketing Agency In Dubai , Medialinks. Nestled within the heart of this dynamic city, Medialinks emerges as a beacon of creativity and ingenuity, offering a comprehensive suite of services to propel brands to new heights in the digital sphere.

Medialinks:

Stepping into the virtual realm of Medialinks is akin to embarking on a journey into the future of marketing. With a mission to redefine the digital landscape, this esteemed agency welcomes brands with open arms, offering innovative solutions tailored to meet their unique needs and aspirations. From cutting-edge strategies to immersive experiences, Medialinks embodies the essence of creativity and innovation, paving the way for brands to thrive in the ever-evolving digital ecosystem.
Unveiling the Essence of Digital Marketing:
Digital marketing is more than just a tool—it's a dynamic force that drives brand visibility, engagement, and growth in the digital age. As the digital landscape continues to evolve at a rapid pace, brands must adapt and innovate to stay ahead of the curve. That's where Medialinks comes in, offering a comprehensive suite of services designed to help brands navigate the complexities of the digital realm with ease and confidence.
Strategic Approach to Success:
At the heart of Medialinks' success lies a strategic approach that combines creativity, data-driven insights, and cutting-edge technology to deliver tangible results. Whether it's crafting compelling content, optimizing search engine visibility, or leveraging social media to engage audiences, Medialinks employs a holistic approach to digital marketing that ensures brands stand out in a crowded marketplace.
Immersive Brand Experiences:
In today's digital age, brands must go beyond traditional marketing tactics to capture the attention and imagination of consumers. That's why Medialinks specializes in creating immersive brand experiences that resonate with audiences on a deeper level. From interactive websites to captivating social media campaigns, they harness the power of storytelling and technology to create unforgettable experiences that leave a lasting impression.
Measuring Success:
In the world of digital marketing, success is measured not just in likes and shares, but in tangible business outcomes. That's why Medialinks employs a data-driven approach to measure the effectiveness of their strategies and campaigns. By tracking key performance indicators and analyzing metrics, they provide brands with actionable insights that inform future decision-making and drive continuous improvement.
Customer Testimonials:
But don't just take our word for it—let the testimonials of satisfied clients speak for themselves. From startups to multinational corporations, brands of all sizes and industries have experienced the transformative power of Medialinks' digital marketing expertise. Their glowing reviews serve as a testament to the agency's unwavering commitment to excellence and innovation in the digital sphere.
Conclusion:
In the ever-evolving world of digital marketing, Medialinks emerges as a guiding light for brands seeking to navigate the complexities of the digital landscape with confidence and success. With their strategic approach, creative vision, and unwavering commitment to excellence, they stand at the forefront of digital marketing in Dubai and beyond. So the next time you're in search of a partner to elevate your brand in the digital sphere, look no further than Medialinks—the pinnacle of digital marketing excellence in Dubai.

Sober Song #192
Stay Young, Go Dancing - Death Cab For Cutie
​
If you missed song #191, it’s probably because I accidentally posted it on my own user page instead of stopdrinking by mistake. At this point, I’m not going to fix it, but anyone interested in my thoughts on U2’s “I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For” can find it there. In that post, I mentioned something my therapist has said about believing that enjoyment could be enough as far as a “meaning of life” and perhaps we don’t necessarily need to accomplish anything in particular. I have a hard time accepting that, but here’s “Stay Young, Go Dancing” in honor of the sentiment. It’s a pretty simple, short song, but I liked it immediately the first time I heard it. Several of the recent times I can really pinpoint feeling “happy” had something to do with music or music events (Cause when she sings, I hear a symphony / And I'm swallowed in sound as it echoes through me / I'm renewed, oh, how I feel alive”) and I have said before how important music was for getting through the fog of early sobriety (“Lost in a maze / Of a thousand rainy days, of a thousand rainy days / But when I heard her voice / Oh, it led me to the end, yes, it led me to the end”). Being with other people and enjoying the same music together has a lot of power to connect (“As the music plays / Feel our bodies' sway / When we move as one”). Connection of some kind is usually a crucial part of recovery, so I’d recommend getting it in whatever healthy way works for you. I think finding joy and interest in the world is also important, and that’s something that seemed easier when I was younger. Therefore, doing things that make me feel young helps. I have to get older, but I don’t have to feel old or let go of simple joys just because of it (“And through autumn's advancing, we'll stay young, go dancing”).
​
Life is sweet
In the belly of the beast, in the belly of the beast
And with her song in your heart
It can never bring you down, it can never bring you down
​
Lost in a maze
Of a thousand rainy days, of a thousand rainy days
But when I heard her voice
Oh, it led me to the end, yes, it led me to the end
​
Cause when she sings, I hear a symphony
And I'm swallowed in sound as it echoes through me
I'm renewed, oh, how I feel alive
And through autumn's advancing, we'll stay young, go dancing
​
As the music plays
Feel our bodies' sway
When we move as one
We stay young
Go dancing
​
Life is sweet
In the belly of the beast, in the belly of the beast
And with her song in your heart
It can never bring you down, it can never bring you down
​
Cause when she sings, I hear a symphony
And I'm swallowed in sound as it echoes through me
I'm renewed, oh, how I feel alive
And through winter's advancing, we'll stay young, go dancing
Stay young, go dancing
Stay young, go dancing
​
When was the last time you went dancing? IWNDWYT <3

It has been 20 years now since 8th grade, but I can't help but think this particular incident negatively impacted me throughout High School and into adulthood. Here is the backstory:
In 8th grade I had a guy named Ben in a couple (or maybe most) of my classes. I knew who he was throughout middle school, but only really started talking to him in 8th grade. He was funny but at the same time had a tough exterior and was cool. I was a somewhat shy kid and didn't have that many close friends in Middle School. But I really wanted to "belong." Anyway, Ben would always make small talk with me and I started thinking to myself "Hey, this is a guy I could see myself being friends with." I thought it was cool that he was actually initiating conversation with me so I did the same. We weren't close, but we had mutual "like" for each other.
About halfway through the year, a guy named Geoff moved to our school (He was there in 7th grade but I didn't know him). Him and Ben were already best friends- not sure if they knew each other before 7th grade or if it was during 7th grade that they became friends. But I had him for a few classes as well, with one of them being in a class with both him and Ben (it was health class I think). We were "cool" with each other I guess until he started dating my ex girlfriend and she talked crap about me to him and it made him "hate" me. I don't even remember exactly what she said, but it was basically that I was a "bad person" to her after we broke up and of course he's inclined to believe his GF and will protect her (she told me on the bus that he hated me after hearing about what kind of "person" I am and another guy said he wanted to beat me up). I never did talk to him about it, I honestly just ignored it and he ignored me in return. Then they broke up within a couple weeks anyway because middle school relationships never last. So everybody is happy (or not).
So Ben is unaware of Geoff's dislike towards me which is cool, because he doesn't need to know our drama. Ben talks to me about having a party with some guys from our school at his place next weekend and says I'm invited. Basically we would play video games such as Halo and would spend the night. He told me "I'm inviting you because I really think you're cool." He also asked for my phone number (our house phone, I didn't have a cell phone) and that he would call my place tonight. He said "If your parents don't recognize the number, just say it's your friend inviting you over." I was on cloud nine. Not only was I getting invited by someone I thought was cool, but he said "Friend!?" As someone who had some social anxiety, I felt like the luckiest guy. Later that day, he showed me the invite list and my name was on it and there were about 5 or 6 other guys that I knew, including Geoff. I was cool with the list and figured since Geoff wasn't dating my ex anymore that his so-called "hatred" towards me didn't apply anymore. I was wrong.
In our health class, Ben was showing Geoff the list. I was sitting somewhat close, close enough to hear them. Then I heard Geoff say "rmchampion? No, you can't invite him, he's gay!" (not homosexual, but gay was used as an insult or a slang) Ben looked over at me and said "No he's not" and he knew that I was listening because I started watching them. You could see sadness in his eyes. My heart sank. The teacher (unaware of what was going on) started talking so basically it was a "We'll talk later" and the bell rang for the next class shortly after (I didn't have a class with Ben for the rest of the day). I was mortified and the rest of the day was a blur to me. I was holding out hope for that night that I would get the phone call from Ben talking about his party but it never came. I remember waking up the next morning for school feeling sick to my stomach. I didn't have the courage to ask Ben about the party and if I was still invited. It took one of the guys that was on the list (his name was Andrew), to ask about the guests to Ben (we were in the same table/group for one of our classes) and said "isn't rmchampion going too?" And Ben replied "No." I was crushed inside but didn't show it. Ben was never "mean" to me, but I feel like we were never the same after that. It was even worse when Geoff was talking to this girl saying "We need a stripper at Ben's party, you should come." Not because of her being a stripper per say, but the way that I was feeling FOMO.
Geoff ended up moving away again after 8th grade and I didn't really have any classes with Ben again in High School. Years later after High School, Ben saw me getting gas and he randomly went up to me and said "Hey, I remember you from school, I just thought I would say hi" and I'm like "Oh yeah, hi!" and he was like "Well, good to see you!"
I do think that really scarred me. Of course, I moved on from that incident and made other friends. But now I am terrified of rejection. Maybe that's why I'm still single. And when friends make plans with me, I try not to get too excited until it actually happens because I know that another "Geoff" could come into my life and ruin it. So, thanks Geoff, you made me struggle with confidence for years.
Not really sure what my motive is here, just want thoughts on this. I never really told anybody about this. Not even my parents knew about it. I think I was too embarrassed.

My (33F) BF (34M), and I have been together for over 12 years now. I first met him in high school and we were friends for a few years. We lost touch after he graduated, but ended up reconnecting when I was in college. We've been together since.
About 7 years ago, we were at a crossroads. His friend had passed away suddenly in an accident and he proceeded to spiral, he started trying drugs, staying out all night, engaging in very reckless behavior and it truly scared me. I tried everything to pull him out of it. It took a lot of work, and me almost leaving for him to start putting his life back together.
A little backstory. I work for my family's business. I have worked for the family business since I was 18 years old, and honestly, it would be great if I didn't have to work with the same people I see on the holidays. My family can be, in a word, toxic. There is a lot of infighting and drama. Working with them is similar to our personal lives, stressful and chaotic. When my grandmother passed away about 3 years ago, I was willed some liquid assets that had belonged to her and my grandfather (gems, jewelry, precious metals, cash etc) and their house they had had since the 60's. And honestly this was a blessing, with that inheritance I finally felt like I could pull free from my family and get out of the family business and take time to go back to school and do something I was passionate about. However, I had no savings at the time, and wanted to get a decent amount saved before I quit. At this time an opportunity opened up at work, the pay was way higher, but required 4-7 months of travel time a year. I talked it over with my BF and we decided that we only needed 2 years to save up what we needed. I took the job and prepared to leave for 2 months for training at the main branch.
About a month into my training, my BF suddenly quit his job, with no explanation other than "I had to, I can't work there anymore". I was concerned about our financial goals because of this, but he swore up and down that he would get a new one shortly and that he wouldn't need any help with his personal bills. Well a year went by and he had only taken up gig work and temp jobs. I wasn't happy as I was having to travel all the time and was having to be really frugal in order to get all our joint bills paid while also putting money into savings. He was managing to pay his own bills, so I let it slide since he tossed in what he could to the joint pile as well. Now I'm sitting here, about to complete my two years and my BF has decided to come clean to me.
For the past two years, while I have been working a job that has been soul crushing, and has had me away from home for weeks to months at a time. I've missed birthdays, weddings, friends baby showers, etc. I've sacrificed the last 2 years of my life to make enough to be able to live my life the way I want to. And he tells me last week that he has been paying his personal bills by selling the things my grandparents had willed me that I had left in a safe that was hidden in the house. A safe he only had access to because the hunting rifle is in there, and I thought, y'know he wouldn't do that to me.
I'm honestly in shock. It was a substantial amount and it makes me nauseous to even try to quantify it right now. I've already set in motion quitting my job and have given notice. And now I have so much less than I thought I did. He only told me because he had figured a way to pay me back and had gotten a stable job and was planning on using most of his paycheck to give to me until I was made whole. But this, just honestly disgusts me. I feel so violated. More than that, I wonder if this his go to pattern now. Life is stressful, a lot of change is happening, and he just self destructs?
After what he put me through 7 years ago, I don't know if I can look past this. Yes, he came clean to me, but I just can't seem to get past this feeling. I look at him and just feel nothing right now. It's breaking my heart because I really care for him, and yet I just can't see anything changing. I feel so conflicted, we have been together so long and even have all the same friends and share a life together. Will we be able to come back from this? Or, is this what falling out of love feels like?
TL;DR! - My BF confessed to me that he used part of my inheritance to pay his personal debts while I was away traveling for work to save up enough money to leave my toxic family. I have a whole life built with him and I am conflicted on what to do, but I feel so empty when I look at him. Is this what falling out of love feels like? Can we come back from it?

Injustice is intolerable to the human. By his nature, Prince Regen disobeyed his father, Lord Sard, who was master of exports on Astragoth, second in power only to the planetary minister, the emperor's own nephew Anj Kurim. Perhaps how Prince Regen became son to Anj Kurim is a tale too bold to ever be repeated, for it dares the instinct of man to do right or wrong, the hearts of the young to fall in love from mere eye contact and the honor of the knights who braved the arena on the tournament of Easter. A tale too bold, but I'd go mad to keep it all to myself:
The lords in question were the three barons of slag on Astragoth who commanded the planetary production of mech armor alloys, Astragoth's most valuable export. The types are well known, Bronze-Steel, Silver-Steel and Gold-Steel, although none of those alloys contain any such metals, they are named poetically, rather than literally. Lord Sard grew quite suspicious of them, or perhaps jealous. He had them summoned, stripped, beaten and arrested, accusing them of crimes against his office. His next order of business was to have their estates seized.
Normally such a moment would be conducted honorably through a Trial of Combat, but since these men were severe mech knights, Lord Sard chose caution over honor. His son was not such a coward, and witnessing the atrocity, he fought his way into the holding compound in light armor without markings, but only so the guards would not die withholding their attacks. Regen considered dying honorably to be more important than shielding himself with his identity. When he had rescued the three lords, he did turn himself in, for he took responsibility for his actions.
Lord Sard was furious and had his son exiled. Regen was sent into the frontiers of Astragoth with only his fine robes, a horse, some supplies and a servant named Igor. Igor was quite corrupt, and when they were out in the wilderness he shot Regen in the back of his head when the prince was bathing in a stream, and left him there face down in the water, believing he had killed him. Letting nothing go to waste, Igor took everything, the clothes, supplies, horse and even the prince's identity, managing to assume the prince's identity.
Regen was not dead. By a miracle he'd survived, and the gunshot attracted a retired combat medic who fought in the Scratch Wars and had seen much worse than a naked, drowned man with a gunshot wound in his head. She easily patched him up, rolling the cosmic dice with critical precision. It was not enough for Regen to have his memory intact, as he had severe amnesia.
By instinct he was still very honorable and brave, and pleased with this, he was made apprentice to the one who'd saved his life. She taught him how to care for the kinds of injuries the locals came to her with, and in time he grew wise in the ways of medicine and he worked hard, volunteering to help anyone who needed his strength.
One day he came to the main star port of Astragoth, travelling in the world and seeking his fortune. The daughter of Anj Kurim, Lili, was getting married soon. The whole city was in a state of celebration and three days of games were declared, in which mech knights would duel for the honor of Princess Lili's favor. No mech knight who wasn't willing to risk death would dare step into a close-range combat in the Phoenix Dome, as the impressive arena of Astragoth was called then.
Regen put his only coin into the coffer of the richest man on the planet and bought a ticket to the games. The likelihood that he'd be seated so that Princess Lili could not take her eyes off of him was only the whim of such stars. She'd seen him there and something was different about this man than any she'd ever seen. Some part of her had sailed through the ethers at the dawn of time, and he was her other half, torn from her when she was born as a human on Astragoth. That's how the Princess described the feeling.
Regen glanced across the crowd and met her gaze. He felt like his world began that day, at that moment, as though suddenly every detail of his life became relevant. It was all so he'd be at ~Bed, Bath and Beyond~, right there in the Phoenix Dome as an eight-meter-tall fusion-powered battle armor mech walked out the gates spraying steam at thirteen hundred degrees Celsius from its flamers.
The opposite gate opened but there was no other mech. A weird silence fell over the crowd. It wasn't uncommon for someone to forfeit, anything could go wrong. There was a challenge issued, not as though any unexpected contestants ever answered it. Yet this time a mech in full bronze-alloy armor did enter Phoenix Dome. Nobody knew who it was, and when the newcomer won the battle, they left without claiming the victory.
On the second day, the new husband of the Princess Lili was revealed, and the games would be in his honor as well. He was Prince Regen, except it was really Igor, having assumed Prince Regen's identity. When the combatants were about to fight a third mech entered the arena, this time in silver-alloy armor. He fought both enemies at once and defeated them. Again, before claiming the victory, the mech knight left the arena.
Lord Anj Kurim had a battalion of mech painted in white and decorated with garlands surrounding the arena on the third day. No more intrusions and dishonorable departures. The insults on the first two days by mysterious mech knights could only be surpassed by the games of the final day.
No mech knight had the courage on the third day. Anj Kurim worried this was worse and relayed to the mech commander of the wedding games detail to allow any rogue mech knights in, deciding it couldn't be worse than no games at all.
When the mech knight in the gold-alloy came around the corner and spotted the battalion guarding the arena, he did not know they were ordered to let him past. He charged at them, firing his weapons and they scattered. The holo displays in Phoenix Dome showed this exchange, emphasizing the damage to the government-owned superstructure, cashing in on each chunk of concrete sheared away by laser fire.
The gold-alloy mech stood in the arena alone. Someone had hijacked the holo displays and suddenly they showed the face of just one man in the crowd, and as he looked up he recognized himself. It was all coming back to him in a flood of memories.
The other two mech from the previous games entered, the bronze-alloyed and silver-alloyed. They stood side by side, having found Prince Regen in the crowd and turned their mech to face him.
"Open your cockpits and reveal yourselves." They were ordered by Lord Anj Kurim.
They were the three lords Regen had set free so long ago.
"Honor the Princess!" they were told and they did.
"Now the Prince!' but they saluted the man on the holo display instead of Igor. Lord Anj Kurim saw that Igor was terrified. He drew his sword and beheaded Igor on the spot, his blood spraying all over the booth, and Princess Lili was barely able to escape the gore.
The real Prince Regen was married to the Princess Lili, and the remains of Igor were tossed to the dirt floor of the arena and left there. Soon Regen inherited Lord Anj Kurim's position and had his father's power stripped from him and he gave the three lords back their old homes.
And the armor? What alloys are we even talking about? Some say the bronze is infused with courage, to do what is right even when it is very dangerous and to overcome fear in order to act. Some say silver is imbued with the holiness of love, how it causes miracles, drives us to our destiny and opens the locked doors of fate. And gold? Gold stands for honor, an unyielding adherence to fairness and justice.

I'm 32M living in Toronto. I used to be very positive person and I still am but sometimes I get to sit down and have some alone time and try to reflect myself and see what's going on thoroughly.
I used to work as an independent contractor for a corporate so I was making a great money so purchased a townhouse with the money I saved up and the financial help from parents. The townhouse is currently valued around 750k and I have 350k equity in it. I quit my job last year and bought a existing restaurant and currently running the restaurant right now. Making half money I used to make from working for a corporate but I see it more value for myself because from this restaurant I'm getting more ideas and currently planning on opening a new restaurant from scratch, not buying a existing one. If I sell my restaurant, maybe I can sell it for around 230k. But I have a business loan of 166k so I would end up with 50-60k I guess. I don't have any saving for now, but every dollar is invested in and currently have around 100k in my investment portfolio. Those are everything I have, which means 500k is all I have for 32 year old man with a wife and a baby due in August. I feel quite grateful for what I accomplished so far and I still have motivations to go and move forward. But the detached houses are just out of reach and I wonder if I can ever truly think I can afford one here. Like, even if I save 30k/year and my portfolio grew 10% for 3 years. That's like 100-150k and I'm purely imagining like those houses will be increased by 300-500k in prices during the same time. That's 2-4 times wealth gap again. I get so demotivated by simply thinking about it. Also, with lots of crimes and stuffs actually puts me off about living in Toronto or Canada. Plus for business perspectives, the current economy, the unknown future economy, inflation, increasing minimum wage and taxation, those actually makes me want to stop any types of business to conduct in Canada...
Truly thinking maybe Canada isn't the place that offers me the best... I've been loving this country since I came in 2012 and I'm not really ready to move out Toronto or leave Canada at all yet. I'm curious how people nowadays handle their emotions or stress about current financial situation. Maybe some are doing better but I know by facts lots of us are not doing well. I simply want to find a way to improve the skills to handle this type of stress and become better at it so I can rebound bigger. Hope the same to you all.

Hi everyone. I'm usually a decent trip planner, but for whatever reason I am having trouble deciding what to do for a very short Ireland trip in June. My wife and I are flying into Dublin on a Monday morning and have to be in Limerick by Wednesday evening for a conference. We don't plan on spending any time in Dublin. We live in a very crowded city and just want to see some beautiful open (and green!) countryside or coasts. We have a rental car. It'll be our first time in Ireland.
The first idea is of course to drive the Ring of Kerry. Day 1 we'd drive into Kenmare or Killarney. Day 2 drive the Ring of Kerry. Day 3 drive to Limerick.
The second idea is to go straight across Ireland from Dublin, making a ring through Connemara and swinging down through the Burren and do the Doolin-Cliffs of Moher hike.
My question to everyone is which from your experiences sounds like the better or more feasible plan? Or is there something else we should consider entirely?
Some general information about our traveling: I'm comfortable driving through any little winding, challenging road, we like hikes (I can handle long hikes, though great elevation change is a challenge for me) and enjoy stopping at whatever historical sites we might run across on the road. The Aran Islands would be the dream stop but we just don't have the time this trip. We generally like going off the beaten path when traveling, but I know so little about Ireland that I haven't a clue what that'd be (and it's the summer so there may not even be much in that category). Thanks in advance!

LIBRA ZODIAC PREDICTIONS MAY 2024

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xttgsAnXHlA
libra zodiac predictions
libra zodiac predictions 2024
libra zodiac predictions 2023
libra zodiac sign 2024 predictions
libra zodiac weakness
libra horoscope predictions today
a libra zodiac sign
a libra and pisces relationship
best libra zodiac matches
what zodiac is libra's best friend
libra horoscope zodiac compatibility
libra zodiac coloring pages
zodiac libra color
libra zodiac daily horoscope
libra zodiac sign horoscope dates traits and personality
disadvantages of libra zodiac sign
daily zodiac libra
what are the zodiac dates for libra
do libra have a dark side
what is the zodiac element for libra
libra astrology predictions for 2023
zodiac predictions for libra
libra zodiac reading for today
february libra horoscope
zodiac libra facts
gemini libra problems
gemini libra and leo friendship
zodiaco libra hoy
horoscope libra health
horoscope libra yahoo
j z zodiac sign
male libra pros and cons
new libra zodiac dates
n zodiac sign
libra zodiac necklace
october libra zodiac
october libra zodiac sign
october zodiac sign picture
october zodiac personality
questions for libra
zodiac libra wallpaper
questions for libra woman
r zodiac
r zodiac signs
libra zodiac sign predictions 2023
libra zodiac sign predictions 2024
libra zodiac sign horoscope today
libra zodiac sign horoscope
libra zodiac sign horoscope 2024
libra zodiac sign horoscope 2023
libra zodiac sign 2023 predictions
is libra the prettiest zodiac sign
libra zodiac horoscope today
libra zodiac personality traits male
virgo libra cusp zodiac sign
wallpaper zodiac libra
wallpaper zodiac sign libra
what is the best zodiac sign for libra woman
zodiac libra horoscope
libra 0 degrees
libra zodiac horoscope 2024
libra star sign predictions 2024
libra star sign 2023 predictions
libra zodiac 2023 predictions
2 libra relationship
2 libra compatibility
3 zodiac signs most likely to break libra's heart
3 zodiac signs libra will likely regret breaking up with
4 libra placements
libra 4
5 libra placements
zodiac libra personality characteristics
9 libra sabian
libra predictions
2024 libra predictions
libra predictions today
libra predictions tomorrow
libra predictions for february 2024
libra predictions this week
libra predictions for april 2024
libra predictions for 2023
libra predictions march 2023
libra predictions for may 2023
libra horoscope august 2023
libra horoscope april 2023
libra horoscope april 2024
libra horoscope astrology
libra horoscope astrolis
libra horoscope april
libra horoscope animal
libra horoscope astroyogi
libra horoscope august
libra horoscope astrostyle
libra august 2023 predictions
2024 predictions astrology libra
libra ascendant 2024 predictions
libra ascendant 2023 predictions
libra april 2023 predictions
libra april predictions
astrological predictions for libra 2023
vedic astrology libra 2023 predictions
astrology predictions libra love
do libras like change
libra horoscope by ganesha
libra horoscope birthday
libra horoscope by susan miller
libra horoscope birth dates
libra horoscope best match
libra horoscope business
libra horoscope bejan daruwalla
libra horoscope by prokerala
libra horoscope by prem kumar sharma
libra horoscope bengali
libra career predictions 2023
libra career predictions
libra horoscope cafe astrology
libra horoscope compatibility
libra horoscope characteristics female
libra horoscope career
libra horoscope characteristics male
libra horoscope.com
libra horoscope cainer
libra horoscope career 2024
libra 2023 career predictions
libra 2024 career predictions
libra horoscope 2024 career predictions
libra 2023 career predictions july
tarot card predictions for libra
libra horoscope dates
libra horoscope december 2023
libra horoscope daily
libra horoscope description
libra horoscope day after tomorrow
libra horoscope december
libra horoscope definition
libra horoscope daniel dowd
libra horoscope daily ganeshaspeaks
libra horoscope details
year of the dragon 2024 predictions for libra
libra december 2023 predictions
daily predictions for libra
libra december 2022 predictions
daily horoscope libra prokerala
libra horoscope predictions today
libra horoscope elle
libra horoscope element
libra horoscope earth sign
libra horoscope español
libra horoscope explained
libra horoscope education
libra horoscope english
libra horoscope elle weekly
libra horoscope education today
libra horoscope elle monthly
libra predictions for 2024
libra predictions for today
libra predictions for june 2023
libra predictions for april 2023
libra predictions for september 2023
libra predictions for july 2023
hagan fox predictions for libra 2023
libra future predictions
saturn transit 2023 to 2026 predictions for libra
libra future predictions 2024
libra february 2024 predictions
predictions for libra
2024 predictions for libra woman
libra horoscope ganesha
libra horoscope ganesha speaks 2023
libra horoscope ganesha speaks 2024
libra horoscope general
libra horoscope ganesha speaks tomorrow
libra horoscope girl
libra horoscope gemini
libra horoscope good days
libra horoscope - google search
libra horoscope gemstone
gemini libra problems
libra horoscope hindustan times
libra horoscope hindi
libra horoscope health
libra horoscope hoy
libra horoscope huffington post
libra horoscope health 2023
libra horoscope health today
libra horoscope health 2024
libra horoscope hindi 2023
libra horoscope honey
libra horoscope 2024 predictions
libra horoscope predictions 2023
libra horse 2024 predictions
libra 2023 health predictions
horóscopo libra hoje
libra prediction in 2024
libra prediction in 2023
libra horoscope in urdu
libra horoscope in urdu weekly
libra horoscope in urdu monthly
libra horoscope in hindi
libra horoscope in urdu 2023
libra horoscope in 2024
libra horoscope in arabic
libra horoscope in chinese
libra in 2024 predictions
libra in 2023 predictions
libra prediction july 2023
libra prediction june 2023
libra horoscope june 2023
libra horoscope january 2024
libra horoscope january 2023
libra horoscope june
libra horoscope july
libra horoscope jessica adams
libra horoscope jan 2024
libra horoscope jonathan cainer
libra june 2023 predictions
libra july 2023 predictions
libra january 2024 predictions
june predictions for libra
libra horoscope kelli fox
libra horoscope kids
libra horoscope kannada
libra horoscope kerala
libra horoscope keen
libra horoscope king
libra horoscope kamal kapoor
libra horoscope knight
libra love horoscope today
libra love predictions 2023
libra love predictions 2024
libra horoscope love
libra horoscope love today
libra horoscope lucky numbers
libra horoscope love life
libra horoscope lucky color today
libra horoscope lucky color
libra horoscope love tomorrow
libra horoscope lucky days
libra lucky numbers predictions
libra prediction march 2024
libra monthly predictions 2023
libra may predictions
libra horoscope month
libra horoscope march 2024
libra horoscope may 2023
libra horoscope march 2023
libra horoscope meaning
libra horoscope march
susan miller libra 2023 predictions
libra may 2023 predictions
susan miller libra 2024 predictions
libra moon sign predictions
libra moon sign 2024 predictions
marjorie orr predictions libra
libra man 2024 predictions
libra moon sign 2023 predictions
libra male 2024 predictions
libra predictions november 2023
libra horoscope next week
libra horoscope november 2023
libra horoscope next month
libra horoscope next week career
libra horoscope november
libra horoscope next week love
libra horoscope name letters
libra horoscope now
libra horoscope next week ganeshaspeaks
libra lucky numbers lottery predictions
libra swati nakshatra 2024 predictions
libra swati nakshatra 2023 predictions
libra november 2023 predictions
libra prediction october 2023
libra october predictions
libra horoscope october 2023
libra horoscope of the day
libra horoscope oracle
libra horoscope overview
libra horoscope of 2024
libra horoscope of 2023
libra horoscope oscar cainer
libra horoscope of this week
libra october 2023 predictions
october 4 2023 predictions libra
libra prediction for this month
libra horoscope personality female
libra horoscope personality male
libra horoscope prokerala
libra horoscope picture
libra horoscope penny thornton
libra horoscope pregnancy
libra horoscope planet
libra horoscope patrick arundell
libra horoscope pinkvilla
libra horoscope partner
powerball libra lottery predictions
libra horoscope quotes
libra quarterly horoscope
questions for libra woman
questions for libras
libra rising predictions 2024
libra rising predictions 2023
libra horoscope russell grant
libra horoscope relationship
libra horoscope reading
libra horoscope rising sign
libra horoscope romance
libra horoscope right now
libra horoscope rob brezsny
libra horoscope reddit
libra rising 2024 predictions
libra rising 2023 predictions
libra prediction september
libra horoscope september 2023
libra horoscope sign
libra horoscope susan miller
libra horoscope september
libra horoscope stone
libra horoscope shqip
libra horoscope susan miller 2023
libra horoscope sign characteristics
libra horoscope saturday
libra september 2023 predictions
libra star sign 2024 predictions
libra zodiac sign 2024 predictions
libra zodiac sign 2023 predictions
libra horoscope today
libra horoscope tomorrow
libra horoscope today love
libra horoscope this week
libra horoscope today in urdu
libra horoscope today vogue
libra horoscope today prokerala
today's libra predictions
libra lotto lucky numbers predictions today
tarot predictions libra
tula rashi predictions
libra horoscope uk
libra horoscope urdu
libra horoscope updated daily
libra horoscope urdu 2023
libra horoscope upcoming week
libra horoscope urdu weekly
libra horoscope youtube
libra horoscope uk 2023
libra horoscope us
libra horoscope univision
libra horoscope vogue
libra horoscope vogue today
libra horoscope vogue india
libra horoscope vice
libra horoscope video
libra horoscope vogue 2023
libra horoscope velida
libra horoscope vice daily
libra horoscope vice monthly
libra horoscope vedic
libra weekly predictions
libra woman predictions 2024
libra horoscope weekly
libra horoscope weekly love
libra horoscope weekly in urdu
libra horoscope water sign
libra horoscope woman
libra horoscope what are they like
libra horoscope work
libra horoscope weekly hindustan times
libra woman 2023 predictions
libra woman 2024 predictions
libra prediction yesterday
libra horoscope yesterday
libra horoscope year 2024
libra horoscope year 2023
libra horoscope yahoo
libra horoscope yearly
libra horoscope yesterday hindustan times
libra horoscope yesterday vogue
libra horoscope yesterday love
libra year 2024 predictions
libra year 2023 predictions
libra zodiac predictions 2023
libra zodiac predictions 2024
libra zodiac predictions
libra horoscope zodiac
libra horoscope zodiac sign
libra horoscope zodiac astrology
libra horoscope zodiac compatibility
libra zodiac horoscope 2024
libra zodiac 2023 predictions
z library premium
z library premium membership
z library project
libra horoscope 11 march 2024
libra horoscope 13 march 2024
libra horoscope 13 march 2023
libra horoscope 1 march 2024
libra horoscope 17 march 2023
libra horoscope 10 march 2024
libra horoscope 14 march 2024
libra horoscope 12 feb 2024
libra horoscope 17 may 2023
libra horoscope 15 march 2024
libra predictions 2024
libra predictions 2023
libra 2025 predictions
libra 2022 predictions
libra horoscope 2024
libra horoscope 2024 ganeshaspeaks
libra horoscope 2024 career
libra horoscope 2024 money
libra horoscope 2024 love life
libra horoscope 2023 for students
2023 libra predictions
libra horoscope 30 march 2023
libra horoscope 31 march 2023
libra horoscope 31 december 2023
libra horoscope 31 march 2024
libra horoscope 30 october 2023
libra horoscope 30 june 2023
libra horoscope 3 march 2024
libra horoscope 30 april 2023
libra horoscope 31 january 2024
libra horoscope 30 november 2023
libra lotto prediction
libra horoscope 4 april 2024
libra horoscope 4 march 2024
libra horoscope 4 july 2023
libra horoscope 4 may 2023
libra horoscope 4 september 2023
libra horoscope 4 october 2023
libra horoscope 4 april 2023
libra horoscope 4 january 2024
libra horoscope 4 december 2023
libra horoscope 4th march 2024
4 libra placements
libra horoscope 5 july 2023
libra horoscope 5 december 2023
libra horoscope 5 june 2023
libra horoscope 5 march 2024
libra horoscope 5 april 2024
libra horoscope 5 may 2023
libra horoscope 5 march 2023
libra horoscope 5 april 2023
libra horoscope 5 october 2023
libra horoscope 5 february 2024
5 libra
libra horoscope 6 october 2023
libra horoscope 6 july 2023
libra horoscope 6 april 2023
libra horoscope 6 march 2024
libra horoscope 6 june 2023
libra horoscope 6 may 2023
libra horoscope 6 december 2023
libra horoscope 6 september 2023
libra horoscope 6 november 2023
libra horoscope 6 february 2024
libra horoscope 7 may 2023
libra horoscope 7 june 2023
libra horoscope 7 april 2023
libra horoscope 7 march 2024
libra horoscope 7 october 2023
libra horoscope 7 december 2023
libra horoscope 7 november 2023
libra horoscope 7 july 2023
libra horoscope 7 august 2023
libra horoscope 7 september 2023
libra horoscope 8 march 2024
libra horoscope 8 august 2023
libra horoscope 8 may 2023
libra horoscope 8 september 2023
libra horoscope 8 june 2023
libra horoscope 8 january 2024
libra horoscope 8 july 2023
libra horoscope 8 april 2023
libra horoscope 8 december 2023
libra horoscope 8 november 2023
800 libra horoscope
libra horoscope 9 march 2024
libra horoscope 9 january 2024
libra horoscope 9 june 2023
libra horoscope 9 august 2023
libra horoscope 9 november 2023
libra horoscope 9 september 2023
libra horoscope 9 may 2023
libra horoscope 9 october 2023
libra horoscope 9 february 2024
libra horoscope 9 october

I am not in a good state of mind as I type this but I am desperate. For some background I am marrying my childhood friend, and early 20s coworker. We’ve been in a relationship for two years and are set to marry in the summer.
I have bipolar1 disorder and currently had to stop one of my medications due to it causing migraines and I have not felt mentally great to begin with. Lately he’s been telling me I’m short and being aggressive with him and though it’s possible I have it hasn’t felt like it. Normally I know when I’m being mean or short when I’m not in a stable place mentally. But it just felt very weird and made me sad because I’ve been making a conscious effort to be extra sweet during this time.
I was in a very emotionally abusive relationship with an adult when I was 17 and I definitely have some lingering trust issue but through our relationship I’ve never doubted him and we have open phones and it’s all been a fairytale.
Well tonight we got into it because when I denied a sexual advance he accused me of being short and aggressive again. I got the pit I used to get in my stomach so I went through his phone and saw his ex of 7 years (they dated from 13-20) was in his recent search on Facebook. I woke him up and he said he didn’t and I said then why is it there and he said “I don’t know” then started telling me I need to contact my psychiatrist tomorrow to get on new meds
This JUST happened. So right now I am in the mindset of packing my shit and going to my moms and texting his whole family (who loves me) I also know I am not in a good mindset so maybe this isn’t the best idea but I just feel sick to my stomach. And my whole body is vibrating. I feel drunk and I’ve been sober two years. What do I do?
TLDR; fiance is doing things on his phone he shouldn’t and kind of blaming me. What do I do?

I wasn't active until the start of this year so I missed the whole 2023 advent calendar. out of interest I went back and looked at the whole orion/clues etc thing that happened tangentially to the advent in case it yielded any clues for the upcoming plot. watching back over the daily animations and prizes, I noticed:
day 5: Y25 plushie released as a prize. it has previously been speculated that this yurble is the one appearing in the vandalized neopian travel posters.
day 6: orion dialogue suggests he believes "something terrible is about to happen". the prize released on this day is a book "the big book of intermediate evil plots". more interestingly, the accompanying animation shows a lupe being haunted by the shadow usul.
going to shadow usul's neopedia page, we can read a short text detailing the shadow usul setting upon someone in a dark forest:
"Don't tell me... NO!" Toby shouted as he turned to look, only to see that the sky was filled with waves of boulders, as big as codestones, coming right at him. "AAARRGH!!!" The poor Gelert bellowed, as his body became swollen and bruised, racked by a pain the likes of which he'd never experienced before.
"Heh, magic pebbles." the Shadow Usul chuckled, while unleashing a mighty torrent on the poor, overmatched Gelert. "But I'm only getting started... just watch!"
magic pebble was an old faerie ability used in the battledome, but has been retired for some time. shadow usul goes on to use two? other retired abilities but this is the only one explicitly named, and is also her opening move.
day 7: what are the prizes today? pebble and Christmas Rock.
?????? what has shadow usul got to do with anything? who knows. just thought it was strange coincidence. I Personally hoping this means we un-retire all those interesting moves when the battledome part of the plot begins. but for now I'm just going to stash a bunch of those advent prizes in case they're relevant later. please roast me in the comments if this is unhinged/been speculated on before and I'm late to the party

Sorry for this but this is a long one. I don’t understand something that happened recently and need help understanding this. For the past 3 years, I’ve been playing a game pretty regularly. I’m not mentioning it here because it’s not important. Just know it’s a pvpve open world sandbox style thing with nothing except money being saved between sessions and artificial and natural PvP modes. It does not matter what happens since you come back as you started the next time you log in. In the last year, someone (15m but same grade) from the school I go to found out I play that game and started playing it with me. We have done a lot in that time including getting some pretty rare cosmetics that take a long time to get. These cosmetics are specifically pvp focused meaning I’ve gotten pretty good at it these past 5-7 months. Once we did that, he wanted to keep doing the artificial pvp mode whereas I wanted to get back into the natural mode of it. It started an argument and we both took a long break from it. Around a week ago, we started playing the game again. He recently invited me to a discord server with other classmates who he knows since some were buying the game. I joined and was having fun talking with those people just trying to be likeable. A running joke in the server involves one person being banned for pointless reasons such as no saying a certain word or humming in the vc. I was having an okay time when I looked back in one of the channels and saw the discussion that involved whether I should be invited or not. The initial question was asked by my “friend” saying I was “chill now”. This was countered by two people saying how they had nothing against me but thought I was weird. I brought it up in a playful manner and the people who responded said they were sorry and didn’t know I was no longer friends with another weird person (we had hung out together since 1st grade and fell apart at the end of 7th grade). Looking back I should have been more concerned but I didn’t want to cause an altercation and get banned. I don’t think of myself as weird, maybe socially awkward at times but I think this interaction shows how I generally try and be nice to people at most times. Just today, me, my friend, and the two other people who got the game all got on together. We spotted a group of enemy players and went to go fight them since our group was double their size. We stayed there for a bit, me and my friend being more experienced spawn camping them a bit, before we sent them back to ground zero. We both died on accident when they got the upper hand on us and eventually my friend wanted to team up with them. I didn’t want to do this as teaming up with other groups like this is incredibly boring. He made fun of me to the other people in the call saying I was trying to be like a streamer he introduced me to. This wasn’t true although that streamer could have influenced some of my actions towards other players. We kept gong when I said a cringe thing and got kicked from the vc. I rejoined but was immediately met with a perma ban to which I responded by sabotaging my group as a joke. This wouldn’t have cost them anything since they were going to get off before any progress was made anyways and I thought it would be a funny thing to do. When I did that, they locked me in a jail cell before team killing me a couple times which ended in my “friend” stating, “you have no friends, this is the last time you will see us in a group together”. This really hurt me as after seeing the other comments, I felt I had to fit in as much as I could with these people. I never perceived as though I did something really horribly wrong so I messaged him later asking why he banned me, again, light heartedly. He said I was being an a** and trying to pin the blame on me. According to him, he kicked me, then I sabotaged, to which he banned and jailed me. I don’t think it happened in this sequence at all. I was still trying to be friendly with him and apologized to which he said we could play together again but I wasn’t going to be unbanned from the server. I don’t understand why he and the other people in this group share the same animosity towards me and this seems to be a large consensus towards my personality. I can’t understand if I’m the problem and I am weird or if I’m being manipulated by these people. This group is less of the issue moreover is the fact that they felt this way and if there’s something I can do to fix my image. I’m fairly average in everything physical and excel mentally and I try to be friendly and helpful to everyone. I can’t understand why people feel this way. Can someone help me out?

I met a guy on Bumble. We got on well, he was only seeing me and at one point, deleted the account (without telling me tho, he was quite new to online dating apps in general). Recently we decided to put a hold on the relationship while he's going on a trip. I told him I'll be open to other options, and he's ok with it. His deleted account disappeared on my chat list, and it hasn't been 30 days since he deleted it last time (I think). Does this mean he recovered it?

I don't come to reddit often and I'm probably going to delete this later but if anyone has some advice on hope to cope I would really appreciate it.
My cat is 17 and recently his health seems to have been declining out of nowhere. He's eating less, drinking less, constantly cleaning himself to where he's wet after, responding/walking slowly, and a few hours ago, he was meowing super loudly. At first I thought this was him about to throw up because that's a regular thing he does before throwing up, but he didn't and was wobbling a bit when walking. He's been laying only on the floor (during the day he does jump up onto the beds and couch and was sleeping perfectly fine on my bed earlier today, purring and everything) and hiding under beds. Not purring either and his nose is dry. He seemed so happy and peaceful earlier in the day I don't know what happened. I'm wondering if this is just temporary and he's going to be fine in the morning, or if one of these nights I'm going to go to bed and wake up with him not there.
My mom hasn't been helping either, she's constantly telling me how she thinks he's gonna pass soon and it's stressing me out even more. My last day of school is in 2 days and I'm graduating in a week, I know he's just a cat and doesn't care but I want him to be here when I graduate. Though I fear that's not gonna happen. I just feel like a mess. I love him so unbelievably much, words alone aren't enough to express how much he means to me, and I hope he knows that. I already lost one cat a few years ago and that was probably the most painful experience I've ever been through. I've healed but I don't wanna go through it again, even though I know I will.
I wasn't mentally prepared the first time because one moment I was happily sitting in my room, and the next my parents called me into the living room with the worst news ever. I want to know if there's anything I can do for myself to calm down and for my cat so he isn't hurting physically or emotionally either. Sorry I'm just rambling at this point, my heart feels like it's going to explode out of my chest. I love him so much.

Hello OKOP empire. Thank you for taking time to read this. it will be long but on to my story.
So I'm going to give background of the beginning of my life. It was my determining factor of why I didn't want anything to do with her. Names I use are not their real names.
When I was conceived my Bio mom (we'll call her Sally (17F) ) already had a little girl my bio half sis (call her Chrissy (1F) ) Chrissy would go to our babysitters house ( call her Jenny (34F) ) while Sally went to school. When bio Grandma (Call her Karen, don't know how old she was at that time) found out Sally was Pregnant with me, She was furious, According to my Bio Aunt (Deny (14F) ) Karen almost killed us. Deny said she had to step in and stop Karen from hitting Sally even more after she threw her down the stairs. After her rage subsided she took Sally and Chrissy to an apartment and said you want to be sleuthing around your old enough to live on your own. Sally kept trying to go to school as she dropped off Chrissy at Jenny's, then would go to a job and try to make things work.
Time goes on and I am born, I then started going to Jenny's as well sometimes spending the night with Chrissy as well at times.
Now Jenny was Babysitting in the day, EMT at night and did foster care with her husband Lee (38M). his job was teaching Spanish. Super hero's in my eyes FR.
After that month Jenny said she had not seen me and Chrissy for about 2 weeks. She got a call from social services asking her to go to Sally's apartment to check on her and the children. Jenny wasted no time at all grabbed her bag as her son (Josh (10M) ) asked to go with she said sure.
Jenny went up too the apartment door and knocked, with no answer but as they stood outside she could hear kids crying inside but still no one came to answer the door. She went and got the manager of the apartment complex and asked him to open Sally's door. But she had to call the cops and paramedics to come out before he could open the door. they had to stay outside for about 20 Mins for the emergency services to show. They finally get the door open and see Sally on the couch unresponsive. Jenny went to the bedroom door as one of the police officers had to break it down due to it being locked. I was only around 2 months old and Chrissy at this point was almost two years old and didn't know how to open doors at that time. So Josh went in with Jenny, seeing Chrissy trying to feed me a bottle that was filled with curdled milk. Josh looked at Jenny and said mom she looks dead referencing me. They rushed us to the hospital and found that Sally was alcohol poisoned and I was very dehydrated, underweight, eyes sunken into my sockets. Doctor told Jenny if i were not able to gain weight in 3 days i would be in ICU for failure to thrive ( basically all organs start to shut down and would basically be dying). Chrissy and I were put into Jenny's foster home that night. Jenny took us home and feed me close to 8-8oz bottles. she said it was the most amazing thing as i ate my skin turned back to a pinkish color my eyes came out and my body started filling out, never throwing up a drop.
Time goes on and we were put into the fosteadopt program. Karen wanted Chrissy but did not want me. She ended up taking Chrissy without finalizing papers with the court, taking off to another state.
I was a little over 2 yrs old when Jenny and Lee official adopted me. Now she was my mom and he my dad giving me 5 brothers and 1 sister. Big family I know
I was 6 yrs old when we had ready a weekly reader on adoption in school. A lot of what they were saying in it with how adoptees feel is exactly how I felt, also as my family would be talking about who got what from which parent. I asked who's eyes did I have and my mom would answer you have your mothers eyes. I got very confused about that then we read that weekly reader. So many questions had swirled in my mind. One day as my mom and I are walking into a Wal-Mart crossing the front where the cross walk is as I'm holding her hand, I asked her mom am I adopted? She looked at me with a pause and said well yeah you are in a more concerned voice then any other emotion. I didn't ask anymore questions for a few days, but one night I walked into my parents room and asked why did my family give me up and all my mom said was god meant for us to have you. I then asked if i had any sisters or brothers and she told me about Chrissy. Being so little I couldn't really deal with the thought of someone just threw me away and felt like I did something wrong and that's why my bio family didn't want me.
As I get older with a year or two in between i would keep going to my mom asking more questions. Now you remember my parents also did foster care as well and I would hear and comprehend at around 12 of the children coming to my home for things and they would tell me of there horrifying story of how they ended up in the system. A lot of them were horrible stories and I couldn't understand how a parent do something as bad as they did to their own children.
When I was Fourteen I went to my mom where my brother Josh was talking with her about something and said ok mom I am old enough to know what exactly what happened to me cause I deserve to know my story. I saw my brother and her share this look of like hey its time she should know kinda face. She then proceeded to tell me the whole story minus what i wrote about Karen and Sally bit cause she did not know about that. Deny is the one that filled me in about that. Deny was the one to call in with concerns about us that day my life was saved, to social services.
I spent many days with free time in computer class looking so hard for my half sister after that but since it was still so new at that point I could not find much out about anyone.
More time goes on and I was around 26 yrs old and I do a little google search looking for Sally sue to her being the only way i could possibly find my half sister. I had found a birth certificate that I had a very strong feeling that it was Sally's, A couple months go bye with no other hits and one day i see i have two message requests on FB one from Deny which she began by giving info about me where we lived and just personal info that no one else would of known except for the ones involved. i had another from Chrissy who was saying basically the same thing. I went numb. from the top of my head to the tip of my toes i felt like electricity was vibrating my body. I asked my husband what he thought he said its up to you love what ever you want to do i'm hear for you. so i begin to type and we had gotten to know each other. i went to their state and met them also met Karen. didn't really care for that but was told Sally was telling Chrissy and Deny to find me that was top priority to her for some odd reason. but anyway they asked if i would want to meet her, i answered im not sure im up for that yet.
I get back home after a 2 week visit and I was being asked many times to meet or at least talk with Sally. I finally said no i'd rather not cause i already have a wonderful loving mother and i rather not go down that road with Sally cause i couldn't get over her just leaving. Jenny gave permission for Sally to visit or send me letters as i grew as much as she wanted but she never sent anything or called. my adoption was an open/closed adoption. meaning Sally could contact me anytime and visit me where it was closed for the Bio father who was never in the picture. But Chrissy/Deny and I had a huge fight about it and are no longer in contact. its better cause it was a very toxic family and id rather leave the toxins out of my life.
So guys was I the AH for not wanting to meet/talk to Sally???
​

I have been teaching since 2005, and was a tutor (I helped other students in Japanese studies) for an additional 2.5 years. Teaching is all that I know for the most part, and I have never really put thought into signing a new contract for the next 2 years. However, just before the annoying beer named virus took over, I had started to feel like the place I am in was no bueno. There was as noticeable change in the "quality" of the students. They started to show more open hostility, disrespect, and defiance towards the teachers.
In my school in particular I am a foreign language and ESL teacher on top of being a gen ed teacher, and as much as I don't like it I have classes over multiple grades at the same time. Post beer, the school really changed. It was like admin and education department used that down time to mess up everything, the class times changed, the schedules changed, the school rules changed, it got worse and worse.
Also during this time a lot of the parents too stock in how well their children were actually doing in school versus what the teachers were saying (this is a semi-private schools so there is a higher incentive to smudge how well the children are doing). This led to a lot of the good children being removed from the school for better places, or for cheaper places (why pay so much if the quality isn't there), or they just moved away to a different city.
So to fill those spots the school did massive open enrollment drives and stalked the school with children who ... honestly they need special education to help them. Don't take this the wrong way, we had a lot of children who have ADD ADHD or were autistic, I am neurodiverse myself so I never really had issues with those kids after we learned a pattern that worked for them. These days, we have more neurodivergent children who have behavioral issues, who have a hard time maintaining themselves in the classrooms, but they can be managed with the right efforts (most of them).
The real problem are the children who come from real money families that zero respect, zero manners, zero self control, and zero drive to learn. At the beginning of this year I signed a new one year contract because, I can no longer see myself working in this school. Daily I am met with the hours of effort I put in the design of my lessons being turned to waste, the daily barrage of students screaming at me because they can't for the life of them talk with a normal voice volume, the daily frustrations of having to repeat everything in two languages 10 times because in neither language do they pay attention, I am tired of not being able to reuse lessons that were massive hits with the children in previous years because the child now don't have the language abilities or the practical abilities to do the work and the amount of time it takes to reduce, simplify, and remake the lesson is wasted because it no longer has the original meaning behind why they were doing it.
I am so tired of weak management, unhelpful administration, out of touch parents, and openly hostile or dismissive coworkers. Why did I sign a new contract, because I wasn't prepared to leave yet, I wasn't prepared for the move, and I have no idea what to do other than teaching and this school has made me hate being a teacher. Forgive me for I have signed a new contract when I am mentally checked out now. I will continue to do my work to standard, but I am tired of burning myself out to make stellar lessons to have them shat on.
Thank you for letting me rant.

If I won the lottery, I would buy KSP and finally run a decent game dev.
1) Development
>! I would hire the the sane team and bring in new people. Keep working on what they were working on. 1st meeting would be about the goals for KSP 2: EVERYTHING!.
Yup we are finally gonna give the community everything they want. Nothing is to big or to small to go on the punch list.
All ideas, suggestions and mods will be worked on. More planets. New systems. Interstellar travel. Custom Parts. Graphics upgrade. !<
2) Mods
>! No mod support. We don't want people to mod the game. We want to hire the modders. We want modders to bring their ideas and join the team to be able to use all the tools. Modders are a great source of creativity and works. Modding doesn't pay. They do it because they like the game.
Some people have great ideas but don't have skills to mod. Some modders produce high quality work. I want to contract these people and help them with their ideas.
We can't be a snobby dev. Once the modder has finished developing the feature we can throw more work their way and if they do well and want to stick with us, we have just found a new talent. One side of modding we can't do is IP. But we will partner with who we can to get the brands we love in the game !<
3) Deployment & Marketing
>! We would pull the game and work on the "EVERYTHING" frame work first. Make sure we have a structure that can support everything. We would release it once the bare bones is in and it has at least multiplayer, and 3 systems. Kerbol, a new system and RSS.
We would be open with the community on everything we are working on with weekly demos. We would expand our market to E-Sports and children. I want ads on YT and Tik-Tok and run yearly events. I want the game to make it easy to create and share content. !<
4) Monetization
>! I hate nickel and diming and GAAS. To cover the great endeavor we are going to have to go back to basics. Everyone is going to get everything and pay for it, upfront. There is some ceiling on game prices, we are going to break it.
No DLCs. No season passes. No skins. We have to accept the downsides of the strategy. Free to play gets more people in and benefits those who have little get to enjoy the base game.
Charging a huge price upfront means less people play at the start. We counter that by having a longer dev cycle. We should target KSP3 for 12-15 years down the line. The game will grow over time and then we will be in a better position for the next release. Higher prices also increases pirating. !<
5) Support
>! We want to be on consoles. But we are going to test the limits on PC. EVERYTHING has to be scalable. The base game has to be there for everyone even lower spec PCs. We would partner with a peripheral developer and get specific peripherals that are compatible with consoles. They should be cheap even if we have to subsidize them.
We will develop supporting apps so you can interact from mobile. Some features will be too complex, we should have features run from server side and pass the end result to the users. Even if it slows the game down.
Every customer support ticket will become a how to video. People are smart they just want the game to work. We will work to solve all issues even if we have to remote in. A problem for one person is a deal breaker for another person. We will have the highest quality game with the service and community to support it.!<
...if I won the lottery
(Edit, I'm trying to make the sections collapse but it didn't work)

So sometimes I feel like my therapist doesn’t think I’m autistic and that she might be redirecting away from it when I explicitly talk about an experience when framed in that light. Like she thinks I have this negative self belief that self sabotages me instead? (I mean I do, but that’s still not what I mean when I talk about autism.) And that I’m discounting my emotionally intelligence and self understanding when I’m talking about autism. I’m not, I don’t think those are incompatible and I know just how much work I’ve intentionally put into to try and learn those skills.
Recently I ended up talking about early childhood and I got diagnosed really young with dyslexia after struggling with school had hurt my self esteem and she helped reframe how young it actually was and how there was a kind of insane amount of pressure. And then she started trying to reframe it in like a maybe I was over pathologised and there was nothing wrong with me I didn’t have learning disabilities type of way? Which there wasn’t anything wrong with me, but I also can’t be arsed with trying explain that I do actually have learning disabilities to someone.
I’ve been seeing this therapist for a few years, she really helped, I’ve gotten sober. I started actually honestly talking about my boundaries. I don’t want to look for a new therapist over this. I’m not interested in opening up again and rebuilding this level of trust.
I guess the next step on boundaries would be to actually call her out on this but I’m not sure I have the spoons to try and update my therapists understanding of autism and learning disabilities. And it does hit my insecurity that I’m just faking and lazy, over exaggerating my difficulties, when I’m just about holding down a job and have my own place and I can just about manage the social aspects of work. My life is a mess outside of that though and sometimes I feel like I’m treading water, trying not drown in a puddle when I should be fine.

It has been 20 years now since 8th grade, but I can't help but think this particular incident negatively impacted me throughout High School and into adulthood. Here is the backstory:
In 8th grade I had a guy named Ben in a couple (or maybe most) of my classes. I knew who he was throughout middle school, but only really started talking to him in 8th grade. He was funny but at the same time had a tough exterior and was cool. I was a somewhat shy kid and didn't have that many close friends in Middle School. But I really wanted to "belong." Anyway, Ben would always make small talk with me and I started thinking to myself "Hey, this is a guy I could see myself being friends with." I thought it was cool that he was actually initiating conversation with me so I did the same. We weren't close, but we had mutual "like" for each other.
About halfway through the year, a guy named Geoff moved to our school (He was there in 7th grade but I didn't know him). Him and Ben were already best friends- not sure if they knew each other before 7th grade or if it was during 7th grade that they became friends. But I had him for a few classes as well, with one of them being in a class with both him and Ben (it was health class I think). We were "cool" with each other I guess until he started dating my ex girlfriend and she talked crap about me to him and it made him "hate" me. I don't even remember exactly what she said, but it was basically that I was a "bad person" to her after we broke up and of course he's inclined to believe his GF and will protect her (she told me on the bus that he hated me after hearing about what kind of "person" I am and another guy said he wanted to beat me up). I never did talk to him about it, I honestly just ignored it and he ignored me in return. Then they broke up within a couple weeks anyway because middle school relationships never last. So everybody is happy (or not).
So Ben is unaware of Geoff's dislike towards me which is cool, because he doesn't need to know our drama. Ben talks to me about having a party with some guys from our school at his place next weekend and says I'm invited. Basically we would play video games such as Halo and would spend the night. He told me "I'm inviting you because I really think you're cool." He also asked for my phone number (our house phone, I didn't have a cell phone) and that he would call my place tonight. He said "If your parents don't recognize the number, just say it's your friend inviting you over." I was on cloud nine. Not only was I getting invited by someone I thought was cool, but he said "Friend!?" As someone who had some social anxiety, I felt like the luckiest guy. Later that day, he showed me the invite list and my name was on it and there were about 5 or 6 other guys that I knew, including Geoff. I was cool with the list and figured since Geoff wasn't dating my ex anymore that his so-called "hatred" towards me didn't apply anymore. I was wrong.
In our health class, Ben was showing Geoff the list. I was sitting somewhat close, close enough to hear them. Then I heard Geoff say "rmchampion? No, you can't invite him, he's gay!" (not homosexual, but gay was used as an insult or a slang) Ben looked over at me and said "No he's not" and he knew that I was listening because I started watching them. You could see sadness in his eyes. My heart sank. The teacher (unaware of what was going on) started talking so basically it was a "We'll talk later" and the bell rang for the next class shortly after (I didn't have a class with Ben for the rest of the day). I was mortified and the rest of the day was a blur to me. I was holding out hope for that night that I would get the phone call from Ben talking about his party but it never came. I remember waking up the next morning for school feeling sick to my stomach. I didn't have the courage to ask Ben about the party and if I was still invited. It took one of the guys that was on the list (his name was Andrew), to ask about the guests to Ben (we were in the same table/group for one of our classes) and said "isn't rmchampion going too?" And Ben replied "No." I was crushed inside but didn't show it. Ben was never "mean" to me, but I feel like we were never the same after that. It was even worse when Geoff was talking to this girl saying "We need a stripper at Ben's party, you should come." Not because of her being a stripper per say, but the way that I was feeling FOMO.
Geoff ended up moving away again after 8th grade and I didn't really have any classes with Ben again in High School. Years later after High School, Ben saw me getting gas and he randomly went up to me and said "Hey, I remember you from school, I just thought I would say hi" and I'm like "Oh yeah, hi!" and he was like "Well, good to see you!"
I do think that really scarred me. Of course, I moved on from that incident and made other friends. But now I am terrified of rejection. Maybe that's why I'm still single. And when friends make plans with me, I try not to get too excited until it actually happens because I know that another "Geoff" could come into my life and ruin it. So, thanks Geoff, you made me struggle with confidence for years.
Not really sure what my motive is here, just want thoughts on this. I never really told anybody about this. Not even my parents knew about it. I think I was too embarrassed.