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Broke no contact and don’t know what to do next. I feel like I’m dying
Broke no contact after one year and now I feel like I’m dying
I(M19) broke up with my ex(F19) one year ago. I broke up with her because I was in a very toxic relationship and we had long distance (she used to live 500km from my city). She used to always be rough with me because I didn’t have enough money to spend on her. For example( one day when i went to her and didn’t buy her flowers she told me to send her the money for the flowers 30£ on PayPal). She used to stay on tinder (she didn’t know that I had access to her phone and saw it) and even went to the club with her uni group and a week later got “the kissing disease”. She was always telling that she didn’t kiss anybody even if doctors say that you can get this disease only by kissing someone. During the winter break she had to come to my city and told me to buy her the ticket(60£). After I told her many times that I don’t have the money, she told me “if you’ll want me near, you’ll find the money” and she was right, even though I was in the last year of high school, I used to work on Saturdays and payed her train ticket. Every time when I went to her, I had to pay both the train ticket and the hotel room because her sister wouldn’t let me sleep in their apartment even though they had 2 bedrooms. At the same time, my family let her sleep in our apartment when she came to my city. So I broke up with her before summer, when she didn’t want to pay 40%(she didn’t even want to ask her family if they can or cannot pay it) of the total sum of our trip to Spain. She told me that she regrets being in a relationship with me, blocked me and I thought at the moment that she broke up with me. The next day, she called me and I asked her who will initiate (I thought it was a call to break up officially). She started screaming through the phone that I m a psycho and that it was me the one who wanted to breakup. I felt so guilty that the next month I was everyday crying. Finally I decided to call her to have a normal conversation about what happened, we clarified everything. One month later, after a terrorist attack near my city, she texted me and asked how am I doing and sent a picture with us, telling that we’re so cute together. I said that it was true. She didn’t apologize, didn’t even say anything that she would like to get back together.
After this we didn’t talk for the entire year but I was feeling very sad the whole year because when I broke up with her, I didn’t tell her about tinder(saw 2 chats with 2 dudes in her phone) or about what happened in the club that night.
After one year, I called her and very respectfully said that I really needed answers in order to obtain closure. She told me that she was only “communicating” on tinder (I think it’s a lie) and totally refused to recognize that she cheated on me that night in the club. After this, she told me that she has to go and that if I want to continue talking, we can talk in the evening . 20 minutes after this short call I wrote her that I was thankful for her answers but I didn’t think it would be right for us to continue talking. She responded that I shall never get in touch with her ever again in order to accuse her of something that happened a year ago. One week later I called her again in order to excuse myself for the fact that I reached out to her. She didn’t respond and at that moment I understood that she restricted me on insta . I sent her the message that I was sorry. My friends told me that I was a piece of shit for doing this.
NOW I FEEL LIKE MY HEART WILL EXPLODE BEACUSE I FEEL SO STUPID AND ASHAMED . I even though maybe buying a train ticket and go to her city to visit her, but idk if it’s right. My family doesn’t want even to hear about my ex and is tired of hearing me talk about her. What should I do, please HELP
Ps we were dating during a year and a half and I was traveling to her every 3 weeks.

April 2, 2024
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katocean. — 04/02/2024 6:15 PM
I have a few contacts now via twitter.
[6:16 PM]
I just love people who are all about saying fuck the establishment. To a degree.
[6:16 PM]
Wow!
[6:17 PM]
I got one that is banned permanently. Then a throw away one. And then my main one im vocal on
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katocean. — 04/02/2024 6:23 PM
Oh YOU ARE BLUE BALLS SECURITY?!?!
[6:23 PM]
Lmaooooo
[6:24 PM]
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[6:25 PM]
Damn there alll out early today. Now Jess is live
[6:26 PM]
Absolutely!
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katocean. — 04/02/2024 6:34 PM
Awee shucks, well its been a nice distraction
[6:34 PM]
Who do you think is your favorite streamer of the Squirrels to watch?
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katocean. — 04/02/2024 6:45 PM
It was. A long but fun day
[6:47 PM]
But my stupid ex made me go out the night before and up till like 3AM. I was pissed.
[6:48 PM]
So I just rolled out of bed at like 1230-1 and uber down
[6:48 PM]
No make up or anything and threw comfys on and dipped
[6:48 PM]
Well thank you. I was a hot mess express
[6:49 PM]
5'7
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katocean. — 04/02/2024 6:52 PM
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katocean. — 04/02/2024 7:05 PM
Big plans for tonight?
[7:12 PM]
Watching the streamers! I just made it on Jess' poster! Shes putting all our names on her poster
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katocean. — 04/02/2024 7:28 PM
STOPPPP
[7:29 PM]
Where was that???
[7:29 PM]
Aweee shucks stopppp
[7:32 PM]
Danks
[7:34 PM]
Did DOA say he was coming back?
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katocean. — 04/02/2024 7:36 PM
Ahhh okay. Ill just stick on Jess' live for now
[7:40 PM]
Why??
[7:42 PM]
I try and not to be a rude person. I like engaging in conversations with people
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katocean. — 04/02/2024 7:44 PM
Your boy just went live
[7:48 PM]
Ill head over cause jess is just writing names on her poster lol
[7:48 PM]
Shoot streets is live
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And yellin at the 5-0
[7:48 PM]
Gotta watch that
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katocean. — 04/02/2024 7:59 PM
Wow
[7:59 PM]
UNDER CONTROL
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katocean. — 04/02/2024 8:15 PM
Nah.
[8:15 PM]
I dont have much of an appetite
[8:16 PM]
But Chris' chipotle does look good but Im always disappointed when I get it. Plus Im saving every nickel and dime I have right now. So deff not ordering out or anything for a while.
[8:19 PM]
What do you know how to make besides pizza?!?!
[8:19 PM]
Lol
[8:21 PM]
Meatloaf
[8:21 PM]
Spaghetti good
[8:21 PM]
Chicken long as its well done lol
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katocean. — 04/02/2024 8:22 PM
Hahaha im picky and get weird food adversions. I like everything fully cooked and well done
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katocean. — 04/02/2024 8:47 PM
Ruhhh rooh!
[8:49 PM]
Its just starting to sleet / snow over here
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And my dog wont stop bothering me to go out. Im like ANNA PUP HUSH YOU DONT NEED TO POTTY EVERY HR
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April 3, 2024
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 7:38 AM
Sorry I fell asleep so early last night
[7:40 AM]
Thank you! Just woke up, its deff snowing but not much yet
[7:41 AM]
Yay for April! And snow! You never know what youre gonna get in the midwest
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 7:47 AM
No I applied for an apartment yesterday so hoping to hear back today... applying for another one today. Thats about it. Im temp staying in Wisconsin at my moms. Trying to return to work next week
[7:47 AM]
How about you??
[7:52 AM]
We both live such exciting lives right now
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 7:55 AM
How? My life is so messed up right now. I cant wait to get back to normalcy soon. Back in my own place, working, my daily routine etc
[7:57 AM]
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 8:12 AM
Whose that?
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 8:24 AM
Ewww
[8:24 AM]
Omg
[8:24 AM]
Lord
[8:24 AM]
Stop
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Wtf
[8:24 AM]
I look like a night crawler
[8:31 AM]
Gah idk what you're definition of beautiful is but that is NOT it
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 8:33 AM
Wtfff lmao. That girl was NOT PLAYIN WITH YA
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 8:53 AM
Boy you and your pizza I like plain cheese but a GOOD and mean has to be good, bacon, chicken, bbq hits every once in a while
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 9:15 AM
Ewww
[9:15 AM]
No
[9:15 AM]
I dont even like hot dogs.
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 9:24 AM
Apple duh
[9:24 AM]
You're probably an android weirdo
[9:24 AM]
K bye
[9:30 AM]
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 9:58 AM
I dont really drink pop but If I do it has to be coke. I used to like pepsi then I went to Europe and they only had coke... so then bam I made the switch ever since
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 11:07 AM
Mmm I guess horror. I prefer documentaries, war movies especially about WW2, Drama, biographical movies, etc
[11:08 AM]
I'm more of a serious person with a purpose
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 2:22 PM
Im just annoyed AF
[2:23 PM]
The application process for these two places are driving me up the fucking wall
[2:23 PM]
Its easier to buy a fucking gun then it is to apply for an apartment
[2:23 PM]
And im just beyond livid right now
[2:23 PM]
All I want to do is cry
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 3:05 PM
Do you have a million dollars you can send me? That would be helpful, okay Ill take 100k... i wont be greedy
[3:05 PM]
Thank you
[3:06 PM]
I want to go home so badly. I want nothing to do with my ex. I dont even want to see him but I want to be back in my "home" until I have somewhere of my own again
[3:06 PM]
I hate that all my stuff is still there, that im at my moms
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 3:31 PM
You have a better mind set then me
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 3:38 PM
Karma works too slow for me
[3:38 PM]
And never seems to happen
[3:40 PM]
Damn lol
[3:40 PM]
Or did YOU break it?!?! Lmao
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 3:50 PM
Oh lord I dont want to get into politics. But I am NOT a Trumper. I will say that. I'm a pretty liberal activists and wouldnt be a social worker if I wasnt. But I will say, from a fiscal standpoint I am more conservative as I got older & on my own. And I do recognize that we do better as an economy usually when a republican is president. But thats all Im gonna say about that
[3:52 PM]
Oh god I know. I wish we didnt have to go through these two bafoons again. I want new fresh faces, younger faces with progressive ideas. But I pretty much hate both sides at this moment in time and govt in general
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 3:57 PM
Agree
[3:58 PM]
Im about to be in therapy for the next hr so my lack of responses will be why
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 6:04 PM
I know I just sped through his stream and caught up. Im worried they are keeping his phones and computer and fur coat. Cause the officer is like "for further investigation"
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 6:26 PM
Just relaxing. Contemplating if Im going to eat dinner or not.
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 6:44 PM
No way sir
[6:44 PM]
Im in a depression funk
[6:46 PM]
I can give you my instagram if you want
[6:46 PM]
But deff no selfies right now
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 6:52 PM
You can find it idk how to link it
[6:52 PM]
Still have all my pictures with my ex tho
[6:52 PM]
Just havent felt like deleting yet
[6:53 PM]
Also please if you see him tagged dont message him or anything. Even if you think thats being helpful.
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 7:06 PM
No bueno
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 7:20 PM
No bueno = No good
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katocean. — 04/03/2024 8:38 PM
Thank you
April 4, 2024
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 9:12 AM
Morning, thank you. You as well
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 11:54 AM
Go to St. Louis Scientology Squirrel right now
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Shes in the St louis org
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Under cover live
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Recording
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But keep it on the DL. We dont want to many people knowing
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On YY
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Yt**
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:06 PM
No but it was great. Cant wait for the full replay to be posted
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:14 PM
My mom informed me she had the book back in the 70s and her & her first husband read it. And thought it was "interesting"... I'm like omg... I could have became a sciento! Thank god it was just a dabble into the book and nothing more
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:22 PM
Oh god
[12:22 PM]
Probably one I hate
[12:22 PM]
Oh and to answer your question earlier... yes, I want to move to the PNW badly. Thats my dream
[12:22 PM]
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[12:25 PM]
Pshhh i know why its your favorite picture... creepy old men lol
[12:25 PM]
But I did post it as a thirst trap sorta bahahaha
[12:25 PM]
I've lost nearly 80lbs this last year
[12:26 PM]
I always was skinny but the last 5-6 years I put sooo much weight on. I got up to 210 and now down to like 130
[12:27 PM]
Which is great. But id love for other parts of my life to fall in place so i can just be happy overall
[12:27 PM]
Do you try and work out? Or anything?
[12:27 PM]
Maybe LESS pizza XXXXX! Lol
[12:27 PM]
Jk
[12:28 PM]
Have you talked with your doctor on getting on like Wegovy or Ozempic? Do you have insurance?
[12:28 PM]
It was a life saver for me
[12:28 PM]
Yeah fool. I found ur fb too. XXXXX XXXXX
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[12:29 PM]
I gotta know who im randomly talking to
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:29 PM
But you have nothing besides memes and rando pictures that i can see and emoji bits or whatever lmao
[12:30 PM]
Get yourself on like Tinder or Bumble or Ok Cupid or somethin!
[12:30 PM]
But you deff have to have pictures
[12:31 PM]
I dont know. Im not in any place to give dating advice. I cant even fathom doing that at all right now. Im just ready to be single and build myself back up.
[12:31 PM]
Sheesh
[12:31 PM]
Im sorry
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:37 PM
What do you think the issue is? Like not placing blame on you or anything... but when you do a deep dive into yourself what issues or things do you think makes it hard for a women to want to pursue anything further with you?
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 12:53 PM
The snap chat thing is a little creepy IMO
[12:53 PM]
So Im not surprised you arent getting much traction from that
[12:53 PM]
Yeah not having a car is a huge hinderance
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 1:11 PM
No. My mom does alll the time. Shes actually watching it right now lmao. I find them cheesy AF. Ha. One of my ex's & cousin are extras in those show allll the time
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 1:22 PM
Only medical show I can watch is Greys Anatomy. And its because Ive been watching it since I was 16... and just cant give it up. 19 almost 20 years now.
[1:22 PM]
And I was and like "oh god this would never happen IRL" lmao
[1:23 PM]
Its the story lines for me of the characters. Not necessarily the medical aspects and patients.
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 1:31 PM
I dont watch the Good doctor. I watched like 2 episodes when it first came out and I couldnt get past his insane autistic melt downs
[1:31 PM]
Lmao Im an asshole
[1:32 PM]
Cute what?
[1:34 PM]
Lets see how fast Sciento dad blocks me
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 1:41 PM
Oh fuck me
[1:42 PM]
Probably Kathy hopefully
[1:42 PM]
And not Kathleen lol
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 2:07 PM
No
[2:07 PM]
Lol
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 2:31 PM
Lol!
[2:31 PM]
Me and Scientology twitter back at it right now
[2:31 PM]
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[2:31 PM]
I love the attempting gaslighting
[2:33 PM]
Hahaha i love toying with these little fuckers
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 2:48 PM
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 3:18 PM
No thank you
[3:18 PM]
Maybe 5-10 years ago
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 7:19 PM
Hey I took a really long afternoon nap just woke up
[7:20 PM]
Lol
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 7:28 PM
Probably like a deep purple
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 7:38 PM
Yeah pretty close
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katocean. — 04/04/2024 9:30 PM
No
[9:30 PM]
Lol
[9:30 PM]
Sorry
April 5, 2024
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katocean. — 04/05/2024 8:31 AM
Sleeping, Ive been going to sleep early these days by like 9-10 ish or so
[8:32 AM]
Honestly, right now, I wake up wait for the day to go by just so I can go to sleep
[8:32 AM]
Im contemplating on returning to work next Tuesday
[8:37 AM]
I wish
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katocean. — 04/05/2024 8:52 AM
Basically between 1,300-1,400 fml
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All 1 bedroom, 1 bath
[8:52 AM]
Sucks
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katocean. — 04/05/2024 10:19 AM
Oh wow
[10:19 AM]
What kind of jobs do you do?
[10:19 AM]
What does your daughter do for work? Did you finish college with a degree or nah?
[10:24 AM]
How do you bring in any income, if you don't mind me asking? Are you on like disability?
[10:25 AM]
Like surveys?
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katocean. — 04/05/2024 10:27 AM
Ahhh okay just curious
[10:27 AM]
You gotta get on that and get that money
[10:33 AM]
My favorite up and coming person right now is HonestAv
[10:33 AM]
https://open.spotify.com/album/11ZfrqRpeCnGBAbJ8e50kH?si=E9lWAq4mTTibq7p9Yo25EA
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[10:33 AM]
I relate to his songs so much
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katocean. — 04/05/2024 10:34 AM
Nah but his songs and lyrics are so relatable
[10:40 AM]
Ha. Im conservative. No more thirst traps.
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katocean. — 04/05/2024 11:01 AM
Aweee thats nice of her for something so simple
[11:01 AM]
My ex is my age
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katocean. — 04/05/2024 4:32 PM
Awee sorry to hear about your gmas cat, hope its ok!!
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katocean. — 04/05/2024 7:08 PM
Ha
[7:09 PM]
I put in a few more inquiries. I do have a back up plan for May though.
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katocean. — 04/05/2024 7:20 PM
HOT
[7:20 PM]
hahahahah
April 6, 2024
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ThaBiGGDoGG — 04/06/2024 3:34 PM
Not sure what I did that made you upset. I wish you lots of luck with what you are dealing with. I'm always here if you wanna talk.

In reality, I’m happy to say I don’t think about her every single day… but it’s becoming a semi regular thing where my mind will wander and somehow land on her.
There’s been an overall trend of people on social media pandering to unremarkable wannabe influencers and I think Jaimie an ultimate example of how this has gotten out of hand. She makes me irrationally angry and that’s partly due to the actual people who praise her and tell her she’s gorgeous when she’s not even close to cute.
I’m so thankful for this group cause otherwise I’d feel like I was in the twilight zone.

hi. i’m a 17 year old girl and the other day one of my friends sat me down and told me that i had done some things that rubbed another person in the group the wrong way, and the resentment had built and in so many words i’m not welcome in the group anymore (from my understanding). the things i had done were perceived slights that i didn’t mean in a bitchy or rude way but came off badly, and i guess i had just said stupid stufff like that too many times. i felt awful, and i feel awful. i tried to apologise to her but she just thought i was being disingenuous because the things i said were obviously purposefully back handed, but i swear to god they weren’t. that was it, there’s nothing i could do to be forgiven, i was out of the group. today i went in to school and didn’t know where to go at lunch so i sat in a study room and read a book. i just felt so alone. people from the group are nice to me but they don’t like me enough to stick by me so why does it matter? it means nothing. they can all say there’s no bad blood but it means nothing if i’m all alone. i met with a friend over the weekend and she talked me through what happened and made me feel less guilty but i still sat alone at lunch like a pathetic loser. what can i do to get through life? how to i bear being so alone and isolated? how do i stop being depressed so i can at least focus on school work? i feel paralysed. i feel like i can’t survive two more years like this. i don’t know what to do. any advice would help me.

I 19 female, I've been in a long distance relationship for 3 years with John (fake name) 19 male. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety when I was 16. For context, John and I met in a group and since then we started talking. (I was dating my ex, but when I realized that I had developed feelings for John I ended that relationship.) In this group he was a big womanizer, and he talked to his ex, which didn't bother me since I never thought there was anything malicious about it. 4 months later I asked John if he felt anything for me, because he was acting romantic and sweet toward me, he said yes and then we started dating. (Note: he was jealous of my friends). A few weeks after we started dating, and all of our mutual friends knew about our relationship, and he didn't feel uncomfortable with people knowing about it, I sent him Intimate photos, he went on and sent these photos to our group, where there were more than 100 people, including our friends. When I saw it I was shocked and immediately left the group. My friends came to talk to me and so did he. He apologized, said he was going to send these photos to a group that was just him because according to him it was easier for him to see. Reading this now I realize it's a strange thing... but at the time I was so in love that I excused him. That same day we made a video call until I went to sleep, he praised me a lot, dedicated some songs to me, it was very romantic.During the next few weeks we made video calls every day, watched movies, listened to music, talked a lot until the early hours of the morning. There was a day when a girl joined the group where we were, and she and I became very good friends, there ended up being a lot of confusion because she wanted to date John, but he didn't want to. However, he always asked for intimate photos for her or for another girl in the group, he said it was to make me jealous, he ended up sending some intimate photos to her too. Well, a few months passed and I was suffering with my mental health, a few months before I met him I had tried to take my life, and I was under psychiatric care. During that time I started smoking and hurting myself, but he always helped me not to do so and always asked me to stop smoking and never use drugs. Until one day I was having an anxiety attack and felt the need to hurt myself while I was on a call with him, so he asked me to write his name on my skin with the razor. I did, he laughed. Some more time passed and I experienced what I think was an attack of schizophrenia, I saw and heard a person talking to me and asking me to do certain things that would hurt me. John stayed on video call with me while he tried to calm me down and said everything was ok and asked me to pray. That day my mother had gone to work, so I was alone at home, she wouldn't come back until 1pm. A few months later he asked me to buy some sex toys, I initially refused and was a little afraid, but then I agreed and bought my first vibrator. He always asked for videos and photos, or even for me to use the vibrator on a video call, as he always sent photos and videos and even did things on a call, I accepted. It turned out that I got sick, I couldn't walk, I felt a lot of pain, very strong cramps, I went to the hospital but it didn't help. I took some medication but none of it helped. Jonh was worried about me and asked me to go back to the hospital, which I did, but once again it didn't do much good. Then in December he asked me to buy another toy, but this time it would be a dildo. I was very afraid to buy it since I didn't have much privacy at home, but I bought it. When it arrived, he asked me to use it but I said I wasn't going to use it at that moment because I wanted to wash it first and then use it but my mother was in the living room so there was no way. He was extremely upset, he said that I had promised to use it the day I arrived and that he was tired from work and just wanted it to cheer him up a little. We argued a little and went to sleep.Cut to a few months later when he got a new job (he worked with his father), met some new people and completely changed. He became cold, distant, wanted everything his way or he would get upset and give me the silent treatment. Since then we started fighting almost every day, sometimes several times during the day. He always said he would break up with me if I didn't do what he wanted or the way he wanted, as I was "blind", so to speak, I always did everything. I don't want to go into too much detail but this but one thing you need to know is that during one of those fights he told me "welcome to hell". Since then everything has gotten worse. For me to achieve the minimum I had to do everything he wanted, how he wanted and when he wanted, in his time. If he wanted videos, I had to record them and send them to him, otherwise he He said he was going to break up with me or that he wouldn't talk to me until I sent the videos. I'm not a saint either, I often freaked out because of jealousy and when I saw that he had followed his ex I got really upset, because she was the only one who made me insecure, and he knew that. One thing I forgot to mention was that he told me at the beginning that he only followed some friends and family (he told me who was who and that if I wanted I could remove someone). Another thing I forgot to mention was that he's been in a group for a few years where his friends who are in that group always hit on him, he's kind of reciprocal with them. He never let me go there because according to him I wouldn't like the type of humor they have there... a group that sends a lot of videos and photos of naked women, women dancing.. But he refuses to leave because he "is already a long-time member there, and his friends are there", in his words. Coming back, he told me that he only followed her because she followed him first and I told him that if she followed him it was because he unblocked her, he was upset that I said that and blocked her again. Some time later I returned to the hospital with some urgency as I was unable to cope with the pain, I needed to stay there overnight whilst receiving medication. He wasn't happy about it at all since that meant there would be no videos or photos. The doctors asked me to do some tests as quickly as possible to try to find out the cause of this pain, which they thought was the kidneys (but it wasn't).This meant I had to leave the house and go to the clinics to schedule exams and take them. He was never happy when I needed to leave the house or when I went out with my family. Cut to a time later when we broke up (my initiative) and I put all the toys in the trash. He was super upset and we kind of talked back and forth (I know what many off you will think But I couldn't really break up with him. So he made me buy all the toys again. That is what happened. Well, I bought not only the toys but also some lingerie. He really liked that and it seemed like we were finally okay. But it didn't last long. Soon we fought again and broke up, once again I put everything in the trash, he came back, he forced me again Buying but he was the one who bought the things. He continued to force me to record the videos and send them to him. During this time of ending the relationship and coming back, ending the relationship and coming back, I called his friends to ask for help. John was super upset with this attitude of mine. He told me that I made a mistake and broke his trust. Then time passed and he went on a trip with his family when he returned home, it was on a day when there was a party in his city and his friends were going. When he got home he told me and said he was going to sleep. I was suspicious so I went to look at his friend's profile and guess what? His friend had just post a story where John appeared. Same t-shirt, same cap. The same face. Obviously I confronted him about it and he told me it wasn't him because he was sleeping at home. I didn't believe it but leave it behind. At this point, my best friend couldn't take it anymore, almost every day of me crying to her about John and his actions. A few weeks went by and I asked his friend if it was really John or not, he said no (I believe he was covering it up.So he went to get a tattoo, on his neck. When it was over he went to sleep. I don't remember that day well but I remember that I called him many times that night and when he answered I heard moaning.. so I hung up and told my best friend. I called again and again and when he answered I heard the sound of a car. I was devastated, I couldn't believe it. The next morning he freaked out at me, and said he was sleeping. First he said that his mother had answered the phone, then he said that he had answered the phone and that the moans were his because of the tattoo. I pretended this situation hadn't happened and we moved on. (note: I was emotionally dependent on him) Cut to January of this year, when he asked me to open up the relationship as this wasn't working. I said no, and that in my view it was like cheating but without the burden of conscience. So he continued to treat me badly. He admitted that when he first started treating me badly it was only because he wanted me to break up with him. (he thought traumatizing me and triggering me was a good idea) He told me he didn't want me to see his Facebook so I wouldn't see his relatives' profiles. When I asked about some people he followed that he had already said were cousins, he said that they were friends or that he didn't know that his friends had asked him to follow them and sending messages to them. When I followed someone he always freaked out and asked who he was over and over again, for example: I followed someone, John saw it and sent me a message asking who it was, I replied "he's a friend of mine" Then John would go on "who is he?" and again "who is he?" and again and again... Two months ago he said he wanted some time, I said very badly, he said it could be but that we wouldn't be with other people nor would there be flirting with other people. He agreed. But then we got into a big fight where he threatened me with a lawsuit, he didn't give me reasons or anything, he just said he was going to sue me. I insisted on knowing why he only said he was going to have to pay him a high price and I would probably go to prison. So for the next 3 days this was our topic of conversation, him threatening me, me crying, and asking why. Then I reached my limit On the day of the last lawsuit threat, I told my mother about him, the way he treated me and that I wanted a new cell phone number.(She didn't know, I never told her about him. Although he tried to contact her a few times. But I blocked him) So we went to buy a new contact for me, as he couldn't call me or get in touch with me anywhere. He asked some people to call my mother and my friends. My friends were talking to me and sending me screenshots of everything, so someone sent him the link to our group and he went in there and found out my new number. I was weakened when my friend told me that he was crying and that he told him that he loved me and that he was afraid of losing me. So I said okay I could talk to him. He told me some things like that he was sorry for making me suffer. I tried to understand his side. We came back. But I told him that the first thing he did I would leave. I did not go. And I regret it. He was never affectionate, or cute with me again. He continued to force me to send him photos and videos. And doing what he wanted. He was upset when I left. He didn't like me posting full body photos or showing more. Whereas he could go around shirtless, send shirtless photos to his group, post shirtless photos online. Once he published a photo of a photo with his cousin and hid it from me so I wouldn't see it (I knew he was going to this party, he had told me, it was a family party) Since then, I went to lawyers to ask for advice. One of the people I managed to talk to, as it was online and free, told me to contact the police and that what he was doing was wrong. Every time I ask him something he gets upset and says they are useless questions, that I'm stupid, I don't understand anything. Whenever he forces me to record something, he never sends anything. He always says he's tired, But if his friends ask him to go out or go to dinner or do anything, he'll go, even if he's tired. This is it. I don't know what to do anymore, I'm really afraid that he'll do something, after so many threats, and all the lies. I have the support of my family and friends. I'm sorry if there are some mistakes, I used the translator and tried to explain more or less all the information you should know. Please be friendly.

everyone asks this, i know, but i am genuinely a little puzzled right now. for context, i’m a bisexual woman and she’s a lesbian woman. we’ve been online mutuals for months now but only started talking a few weeks ago because we both have a lot of common interests and got dumped (lol).
at first, we chatted a lot because at least on my part, it was a distraction from my breakup, i just wanted some friendly company, but now i think i genuinely have developed a crush on her. i know it’s a bit quick, but i’ve found myself waiting for her texts, and even waiting for my shifts to end just so i could talk to her. she has increased my screen time from 2 to 6 hours and time spent talking to her flies by to me. if one of us has plans with other people, we would update each other so we know we aren’t ghosting. we also message each other good morning and good night everyday.
anyway, a while ago, we did our face reveals and she’s so gorgeous. i kept fumbling over my words because she’s just that beautiful. when i showed my face, she said she’s mindblown by how beautiful i look and she typed about 5 messages talking about how she likes my eyes. when i tried to deny it, she kept insisting that i looked pretty (don’t want to include specific wordings in case she sees this and realizes it’s about her). after that, we moved on to talking about something else and when i mentioned a habit of mine, she slipped up and said “cute.” but quickly took it back because she’s not really normally a cheesy person unlike me haha. and when i went into how i think she’s so pretty (again, not gonna use the specific wordings), she said it makes her go “AHHH” which i thought was so cute. when we were talking about another habit of mine, she made a joke saying “just how i like my women”. not to mention when i told her i’m smiling at my screen because of her, she talks about what my smile probably looks like. i don’t think she even realizes this, but comments like this make me blush so much it’s embarrassing.
i don’t know if this is a genuine crush or an infatuation, and i don’t want to make her uncomfortable or anything, so i normally just keep it friendly and slip in a few “you’re so pretty” here and there when she sends me pictures of herself. this is insanely stupid i’m aware, considering we haven’t even been talking for that long, but it’s slowly driving me insane, which is ironic because she jokes about how she drives me crazy. she does drive me crazy, just not in the way she thinks.
i want to flirt with her, but i don’t know if i should. the thing is, her ex broke up with her because they weren’t mentally in the right place for a relationship and they told her that when they’re ready, they would want to get back together and the girl said she’s kinda optimistic, but she wasn’t so sure about it. FYI she told me all of this before we got close, but i still don’t want to ruin anything. not to mention, i don’t even know if what she said to me counts as flirting. i guess i just want to know if you guys think there are some signs here or if i’m being delusional as always. i don’t really know how to proceed from here, any help would be greatly appreciated.

not a big deal i just really het uncomfy and annoyed and on edge whenever people say “oh you’ll be so cute when you’re pregnant” or “when you’re pregnant you’ll crave this”. i’m not even married to anyone, i’ve never talked about my sex life, and it’s just really uncomfortable. i feel like guys don’t ever get this treatment and it’s MY CHOICE. it makes me feel like they don’t respect me and only see me as someone that has the ability to give birth or something. idk. anyone else feel this way?

Bi male … and there’s a cute ginger guy barista at my area Starbucks. I can’t resist flirting a little. It’s not overt. I hold his gaze just a little longer than a straight guy would. When he approaches the counter to take my order, I always say it’s nice to see him again and use his name. When he hands me my drink, sometimes I let my fingertips briefly and softly graze his hand. He never seems put off by any of this, and he always greets me with a smile … but I’m also cognizant that this guy is at work, and he probably has enough stuff to deal with, and perhaps my flirting is just another burden. Or maybe my flirting makes his day! Haha, maybe he doesn’t even notice! People who work in the service industry, tell me: should customers like me just knock it off? (Full disclosure: if he ever said, “Wanna go for lunch sometime?” I would.)

I’m sure this sub has discussed it before buts let’s actually analyze what kind of package this cute man has. The aura is giving 9-10 inches but maybe some underwear pics would say different? Any thoughts?

Hoyi there :3. I am on a grand quest to find love, on the hunt for the most important role in my life to be filled and to fill that for someone else, and that is to be partners (Aka future Spouses, Aka Love for eternity. That whole thing)
Couple ground rules. These are NON NEGOTIABLE AT ALL NOT NEGOTIABLE

1. Never EVER want human kids. Dont have them with you now and never want them please. Please be 100% child free not NEGOTIABLE.
   
2. MALE between 19-23. NO ABSOLUTELY NO one older or younger. Hard rule. Very HARD rule.
   
3. East coast prefered. HEAVILY prefered! Bonus points if you are in the tristate area but east coast is alright
   

Ok now that we got the hard boring ugly rules out the way, lets say the fun stuff. Umm Im a girl thats very short, very very short, I have curly brown hair, I have brown eyes. I have freckles. I am whiteeee skin color. I am an absolute DOG of a girl. I want to love love love you all the time and be with you all the time. Im such a golden retriever as they say, and I want you to be the same. I am looking for my absolute darling of a soulmate, my man for eternity. Thats what I hunt for. :>
What I like (hobbies wise get your head out of the gutter mf!!!)

1. I LOVE ANIMALS ANIMALS ARE MY LIFE
2. I love houseplants a ton
3. I love nature in general and the woods
4. I play some video games
5. I am into anime and other medias, not social media though, most is cancer!

Qualifications to be my boy for eternity: (breathe its not hard I swear)
1 Be extremely affectionate. Please please PLEASE expect and want to be the cutest most affectionate most adorable guy on the planet with me, because thats what I will do with you. Please please love all the cute stuff and dont shy back
2 Please be under 6 foot tall. I know it sounds shallow but Im really short guys please ;-;
3 Please be on the skinnier side. Im small!!!! AHHHH
5 please be serious. I swear. Do not bother me if you want to fool around. In addition respond with a small description of yourself. You dont need to write a ton but dont just say 'hey 😏' either because nope. Just hard pass
6 Love animals. Simple as that
Ok thats all I can think of. Can't wait to hopefully finally meet you my dear. Please. Let's just love each other forever.
(Did you notice number 4 is missing? 🤭 :P)

I had some dose of Ocd since i was a child and now that i’m 22 almost all of them disappeared
However only one stayed that gets on my nerves.
Whenever im watching any tv series, movies or anime, i get these annoying compulsive obsessions that i have to do. For example
I see a cute girl and i say in my mind: aww she’s gorgeous and then a thought pops up telling me that maybe im gay and then i have to pause the show and repeat that im not gay and im straight.
This happens a couple of times and its so annoying especially when a really good scene comes on.
Anybody knows how do i deal with that?

I had my birthday barre and brunch party Saturday morning! I reserved for a private class for my friends and I and it was a success! Followed by brunch at a cute place a few doors down. It was a total of 18 friends and I, including a few gentlemen, with one of them being my boyfriend. My boyfriend complained so much later that night saying he was in a lot of “pain” because his tendinitis, sciatica, and the lack of cartilage on his lower back, didn’t allow him to perform well in class 🤭 mind you, he’s never mentioned any of these physical issues, ever 😂 (aka it was too hard for him and refuses to admit that) LOL. He’s still complaining about how sore he is! All of my friends said they can’t believe how much they underestimated barre, they all thought it looked like cake prior to starting class, but were moaning and groaning the entire time, then gave me props for performing so well and doing this daily. My boyfriend even said he can’t believe I enjoy doing this daily 😅😂 now a ton of my friends are interested in potentially signing up!! How cool!!! Yay Pure Barre!!!

the age old question, i know, but i am genuinely a little puzzled right now. for context, i’m a bisexual woman and she’s a lesbian woman.
we’ve been online mutuals for months now but only started talking a few weeks ago because we both have a lot of common interests and got dumped (lol). at first, we chatted a lot because at least on my part, it was a distraction from my breakup, i just wanted some friendly company, but now i think i genuinely have developed a crush on her. i know it’s a bit quick, but i’ve found myself waiting for her texts, and even waiting for my shifts to end just so i could talk to her. she has increased my screen time from 2 to 6 hours and time spent talking to her flies by to me. if one of us has plans with other people, we would update each other so we know we aren’t ghosting. we also message each other good morning and good night everyday.
anyway, a while ago, we did our face reveals and she’s so gorgeous. i kept fumbling over my words because she’s just that beautiful. when i showed my face, she said she’s mindblown by how beautiful i look and she typed about 5 messages talking about how she likes my eyes. when i tried to deny it, she kept insisting that i looked pretty (don’t want to include specific wordings in case she sees this and realizes it’s about her). after that, we moved on to talking about something else and when i mentioned a habit of mine, she slipped up and said “cute.” but quickly took it back because she’s not really normally a cheesy person unlike me haha. and when i went into how i think she’s so pretty (again, not gonna use the specific wordings), she said it makes her go “AHHH” which i thought was so cute. when we were talking about another habit of mine, she made a joke saying “just how i like my women”. not to mention when i told her i’m smiling at my screen because of her, she talks about what my smile probably looks like. i don’t think she even realizes this, but comments like these make me blush so much it’s embarrassing.
i don’t know if this is a genuine crush or an infatuation, and i don’t want to make her uncomfortable or anything, so i normally just keep it friendly and slip in a few “you’re so pretty” here and there when she sends me pictures of herself. this is insanely stupid i’m aware, considering we haven’t even been talking for that long, but it’s slowly driving me insane, which is ironic because she jokes about how she drives me crazy. she does drive me crazy, just not in the way she thinks.
i want to keep flirting with her, but i don’t know if i should. the thing is, her ex broke up with her because they weren’t mentally in the right place for a relationship and they told her that when they’re ready, they would want to get back together and the girl said she’s kinda optimistic, but she wasn’t so sure about it. FYI she told me all of this before we got close, but i still don’t want to ruin anything. not to mention, i don’t even know if what she said to me counts as flirting. i guess i just want to know if you guys think there are some signs here or if i’m being delusional as always. i don’t really know how to proceed from here, any help would be greatly appreciated.

Hi again I know what I post and tell is kind if upsetting but this is kind of a vent account ig? So sorry if you wanted something else.
So I’ve been friends with “O” for three years now. And it was a good friend ship in the beginning she was nice but jokingly mean but I matched her energy. Some lines were crossed but it wasn’t serious. But in 7th grade she started to date my friend “A” and it was cute and smooth sailing. Until they started to put me in the middle of everything. And before school ended they weren’t so good and it got worse over summer. (TW this contains talk about overdose, attempted suicide and self harm) They would both have these moments where they would say they where going to commit suicide and two times I and the other person really panicked. On one day O was going to overdose by sending us a photo of pills and it was a mess but we got her mom involved and she was fine. Another day A said she was but it was serious I was at my dads house and O called me crying and I was trying to calm her down and after we hung up I called my mom panicking snd my mom texted my step mom so we drove to A”s house and she wasn’t there, it was a whole thing. But they had bad communication and it was killing me to where I believe I should be dead and I used to harm myself sometimes but of course other things pushed me at the time but this was a major one. But after they broke up it was messy. O would talk bad about A too me and after I would tell her stop she would for a few minutes but I just let her cause I thought “she’s just grieving”. It got worse and other stuff happened and now she’s just manipulative, abusive, and condescending. Ofc there’s other stuff but I’m running out of time to type. Please tell me if I should I have a plan to have a talk with her but ofc there stuff I’m not telling so please tell me if I should or not. Everyone around thinks i shouldn’t be her friend.

I was about 2 days in and relapsed. I know days don't really matter I just need help. May you guys pray for me? I also need advice. I almost always use the same prayer when I relapse. I have never been good at prayer and Would like you guys to give me advice on what I should say. I Really am trying to use these mistakes as good, and turn it into a better relationship with God. I just need to focus, because winning the battle within myself is the biggest battle there is. May you please pray for me? (My name is Max) I am trying to just stop thinking about this stuff and focus on the girl I find cute. I know I shouldn't try and tempt myself with women and stuff, but women can also be a good motivation. I can try and say to myself what would she think of me if she found out about me masturbating and stuff. Anyway I would love for you guys to pray for me and give me advice. I've been trying to delete social media such as Reddit itself (but I don't know the password and or email so I am basically stuck for now) I don't really get tempted on Reddit though anyway) Then there is snapchat, I have already deleted that and it should be permanently deleted soon. I know I have made some serious progress from when I started 4 years ago. I am now 19 turning 20. I know I have gone through these 4 years of struggle and temptation, but now I need to overcome these for God. I need to put my life fourth for God and God alone.

hi everyone! looking for a little bit of advice here. For some context, I (26F) have been hanging out with a man (30) who I met through a mutual friend. We haven't been on any clarified "dates" but we have spent 1x1 time together, and there's clearly been some attraction. On Friday night, we got dinner together, which kind of happened by accident because some other friends bailed.
for context: He had expressed interest in me to our mutual friend, saying I was cute and wanting to ask me out (about a month ago). We also don't necessarily share a friend group, but we share one close mutual friend and he has shown interest and said he really likes my friend group and wants to hang out with them. He is also within the last year out of a 6 year relationship.
On friday, when we got dinner, he essentially told me that he thinks I'm really cute, and has such a great time with me, and enjoys my company/likes me but doesn't date within friend groups. I challenged him a little bit on this, saying that we are all adults, and that I think he should reconsider, because (I didn't say this but) I find it a bit silly to not pursue something due to a singular mutual friend and wanting to be friends with my established friend group. He agreed to think about it a little bit, but that dating within a friend group is a hard line for him. He then made it clear that we weren't currently on a date (which is fine by me). I really like him, I think he has the potential to be the kind of person that I see myself with, but I feel like his indecisiveness is really confusing. I want to give him some grace because he's just getting back into the dating game after a very long relationship.
Since Friday, he texted me Saturday morning saying he "had a great time last night at dinner" and has been in my instagram DMs a little bit, being supportive or showing interest in my interests. How do I handle this? Do I reach out after a few days and ask for more clarity? Or let him take the lead? I feel like I'm not sure how to proceed, but wanting some more clarity here.

I(M19) broke up with my ex(F19) one year ago. I broke up with her because I was in a very toxic relationship and we had long distance (she used to live 500km from my city). She used to always be rough with me because I didn’t have enough money to spend on her. For example( one day when i went to her and didn’t buy her flowers she told me to send her the money for the flowers 30£ on PayPal). She used to stay on tinder (she didn’t know that I had access to her phone and saw it) and even went to the club with her uni group and a week later got “the kissing disease”. She was always telling that she didn’t kiss anybody even if doctors say that you can get this disease only by kissing someone. During the winter break she had to come to my city and told me to buy her the ticket(60£). After I told her many times that I don’t have the money, she told me “if you’ll want me near, you’ll find the money” and she was right, even though I was in the last year of high school, I used to work on Saturdays and payed her train ticket. Every time when I went to her, I had to pay both the train ticket and the hotel room because her sister wouldn’t let me sleep in their apartment even though they had 2 bedrooms. At the same time, my family let her sleep in our apartment when she came to my city. So I broke up with her before summer, when she didn’t want to pay 40%(she didn’t even want to ask her family if they can or cannot pay it) of the total sum of our trip to Spain. She told me that she regrets being in a relationship with me, blocked me and I thought at the moment that she broke up with me. The next day, she called me and I asked her who will initiate (I thought it was a call to break up officially). She started screaming through the phone that I m a psycho and that it was me the one who wanted to breakup. I felt so guilty that the next month I was everyday crying. Finally I decided to call her to have a normal conversation about what happened, we clarified everything. One month later, after a terrorist attack near my city, she texted me and asked how am I doing and sent a picture with us, telling that we’re so cute together. I said that it was true. She didn’t apologize, didn’t even say anything that she would like to get back together.
After this we didn’t talk for the entire year but I was feeling very sad the whole year because when I broke up with her, I didn’t tell her about tinder(saw 2 chats with 2 dudes in her phone) or about what happened in the club that night.
After one year, I called her and very respectfully said that I really needed answers in order to obtain closure. She told me that she was only “communicating” on tinder (I think it’s a lie) and totally refused to recognize that she cheated on me that night in the club. After this, she told me that she has to go and that if I want to continue talking, we can talk in the evening . 20 minutes after this short call I wrote her that I was thankful for her answers but I didn’t think it would be right for us to continue talking. She responded that I shall never get in touch with her ever again in order to accuse her of something that happened a year ago. One week later I called her again in order to excuse myself for the fact that I reached out to her. She didn’t respond and at that moment I understood that she restricted me on insta . I sent her the message that I was sorry. My friends told me that I was a piece of shit for doing this.
NOW I FEEL LIKE MY HEART WILL EXPLODE BEACUSE I FEEL SO STUPID AND ASHAMED . I even though maybe buying a train ticket and go to her city to visit her, but idk if it’s right. My family doesn’t want even to hear about my ex and is tired of hearing me talk about her. What should I do, please HELP
Ps we were dating during a year and a half and I was traveling to her every 3 weeks

Hello everyone, there’s a guy I like. Or so I thought so. I am lesbian I’m pretty sure. I’m reminded of that anytime I see a beautiful woman. I even sometimes blush just getting the chance to speak to some at work sometimes so there’s no doubt for me I like women or at the very least femininity.
I do need some other perspectives on this situation specifically how my emotions reacted . Saturday this guy and I were voice chatting and it’s great and all. We have been friends for a while now and he does this thing where he says anything cute I say he calls it an exhibit and it’s cute. A bunch of those were said Saturday and I smiled a lot and had a great time talking to him
Yesterday we talk more about stuff and he tells me that he put a screenshot of a conversation we had as his phone background. To give context here it went;
Me: hey I love you
Him: yes? I love you too
Me: (: What are you thinking?
I’m not sure why I even said that to begin with but I was very tired at the time but I did mean it. Though I meant as like a best friend
When he told me he had made a screenshot of that as his background the smile I had prior disappeared. I had this sunken feeling and I felt uncomfortable. Everytime I looked at the picture I kept feeling that weird feeling.
I’m so conflicted because Saturday I felt great I smiled a lot and I felt warm from over conversation. I did too leading up to that picture. So idk why my emotions were that. I’m just confused and could use some insight