I love cats. I am disabled and home all the time due to a neurological disability and my recently departed 17 year old kitty was great company to me and brought me so much joy.
Over the the last year of her life, I spent 15k on her medical care. When she died, I wanted to give a home to another kitty in need. She is 2 years old. I got a pet insurance policy and a wellness check and snap test and additonal vaccines and set aside an amount of emergency savings that I could afford for her for things like teeth that might not be covered by insurance. This amount was 4k. Sadly, she became ill 10 days after adopting her (it's been 2 weeks since I adopted her now) and the 4k will not cover all her expenses. The insurance will not cover the expenses either, as this is deemed preexisting, due to an infection she had that I did not know about.
I wrote a post asking for suggestions on how to afford her care or any discounted services I could ask for and was so surprised and heartbroken by how I was talked to. I do understand you need to be financially responsible for your animals, but I very truly thought I was. I see posts where an animal is sick and they can't go to the vet because they don't have the $200 exam fee or afford a $300 x ray. But by the end of the week I will have spent 19k on vet bills in a year. Am I delusional, or was this not a lot of money? Do most people have in your designated savings for vet bills more than that? Am I irresponsible, or is it okay to ask for help or assistance programs or discounted services or charities that might see how hard I have tried?

AITA for wanting to ghost my friend?

I (F 16), have a friend (F 17) who I will name as Callie. Callie and I have been very close friends for a year and we used to hang out 2 times a week up until this month due to me having a busier schedule. I have had 3 AP exams and I have been stressed due to school and my sport taking up most of my time which left me unable to hang out with her. Her comments are very passive aggressive as she says "ugh you spend all your time studying you freak" with an annoyed tone, "watch out your boyfriend will leave you if you keep spending all your time at the library", and even "why do you even try if you know you're going to fail". I am normally a very extroverted person and I go out 3-4 times a week. I'm not trying to be mean but I am trying to contextualize. Callie is on the bigger side and I am her "best friend". I do not consider her my best friend as I do not have a best friend, just close friends.
Her comments got gradually more aggressive when I started hanging out with my boyfriend at least once a week because he lives in a different town. She was not even happy for me when I told her my boyfriend and I started dating. She seemed annoyed but she likes him so I am very confused.
Recently, she asked me if I was doing anything before prom (over snap text) and I responded, "yes I have plans with my group of friends". Callie tried getting herself invited but I feel like it is not my place to invite her because it is not my house, she knows of these people but she is not friends with them, and some of them do not like her because she was rude to them at one point. She asked more directly after trying to subtly get invited and I shut her down politely saying, "hi sorry, we have had these plans for two months and the venue is booked, i feel like it would be unfair if i changed our group plans at the last minute". She went and told her popular friends (who don't even like her because she tries to self-insert herself into that group and invites herself to parties), that I "screamed in her face no and that she is too fat to take pictures with my friends and me". That is all nonsense and she made me look bad in front of other people. Mind you, my conversation with Callie was over snap messages. Her popular friends are on good terms with me and they did not believe that I screamed in her face but instead they thought that Callie was trying to get them to pity her. Callie specifically said "Oh *my name* screamed in my face that she doesn't want to take pictures with me and I would be too fat and wouldn't fit in so now I am taking pictures with you guys". Yet again, Callie tried self inserting but she was shut down by them.
Callie is desperately trying to become closer with these popular girls but she is willing to throw me under the bus even when I was there for her through rough times (breakups, mental breakdowns, and I was there when she just needed a friend). I am offended because she is willing to throw away a good friendship for people who only want to use her as DD (designated driver) and they talk so badly of her.
Callie has also been taking her anger out on me, trying to cheat off of my school work, and she complains about me to ME. When I don't give her my school work she gets mad and ignores me but then apologizes and just says it is her mental health. She blames a lot of things on her mental and physical wellbeing but I don't think mental health issues would excuse being mean to me. I feel taken advantage of but at the same time I am her only true friend. She also tried to spread rumors about me and is trying to become BFFs with my boyfriend but her actions are not reciprocated which I find humorous. She is a good person but maybe she is just going through a rough patch. She will be at my prom table during prom and it will be awkward because she will follow me around like a little duckling. She has also tried to get herself invited to my friend's after party that is strictly invite only and she has tried getting onto the party bus with out paying (she was not invited here too). It is in a way that is uncomfortable and desperate but it is not my place to invite her. I want to enjoy my prom and my summer so do I ghost her after prom? AITA for wanting to leave even if I am her only friend? She complains to me about having no one to hang out with too.

So today was my CUET (UG) paper. It was a hot afternoon, and I wasn't feeling very well because I couldn't properly shit today. It happens every time during my exams. While writing the paper, I felt a little pressure in my a$$, so like any normal person, I decided to fart. I thought it would be silent, but no, it was so loud, and after a point, I couldn't even control it. It was so fucking loud that everyone heard it, the guy giving paper on my left side stared at me for 2 mins straight. After that, I didn't even look anywhere, tried to focus on my paper but that incident was horrifying me whole time. After completing my paper, I ran away from my class and left the center as quickly as possible. I dunno why does this happen with me all the time during my exams? Why can't I shit properly? I'm not afraid of exams, neither do I've any kind of stress but still I can't shit properly during exams. Fuck itttttt! I just hateee my shitty shit routine
Do any of you also faced similar situation or some other embarassing situations? Do tell your story in the comment section. Thanks for reading my tragedy :)

i am a partial dropper and my last hope is bitsat to get something. i studied my ass off for jee but i fucked up(27s1 and 6s1) and also my anxitey during lastg 15 min of exam(fuck you. i hate my self). during the last 15 minutes i went from 60 correct:5 wrong to 35 correct:25 wrong. i hated myself for every part of it. uss last ke 15 min me maine aapne aap ko chod diya. my bitsat is on 24 i am now getting nervous for my exam fuck it. kaise bhi krke acha chala jaye. please give me a paper that i know. bohot downfall ho gaaya mera. i see my friends on insta everyday roaming somewhere and enjoying time, mai 3 saal se ek kamre me band hu. bhai log mai to apna college ka fest bhi attend nhi kiya💀💀. btw i motivated a boy for jee studies we studied together uske 99.5% aaye🤡🤡🤡. mera adv ka cutoff bhi clear nhi hua

I got married 2 years ago and changed my legal name to my husband's name, but decided I wanted to keep practising in my maiden name. I have a couple of publications, and also just didn't want to give up my maiden name altogether.
I signed up for MRCP Part 1 earlier this year and, as per their advice, signed up for my online account using the name I am registered with on the GMC register, my maiden name. I believe you actually can't sign up for an account unless you do this.
A few weeks before the exam, I got the email saying "Dear Dr {Maiden name} please make sure you have ID ready to show at your exam..."
I emailed back explaining that all my ID (passport etc) is in my married name. They replied saying they had changed my name on the system to married name.
I phoned up, and was told that they didn't have a way to hold 2 names in their database, so I should contact them again immediately after taking the exam to change my name back to my maiden name, and continue to continuously alternate changing my name back and forth before and after every exam I take through the College.
I emailed again, calling them out on how ridiculous this is. In a world where many married women/people in same sex marriages practise in a maiden name, their systems are discriminating against these protected characteristics.
They told me they had issued a "discrepancy letter" so that my name on the system would match my ID, but any certificate etc would have my maiden name, and match my GMC.
Got my results today, and lo and behold....it has the wrong name on it.
Anyone else had a similar experience? I feel so frustrated and let down, when so many others must be in this situation. Not to mention the fact that I have paid nearly £500 for this privilege...

Whatever happened in english for us happened, the mismanagement on part of the invigilators and time problems etc, this post is not to complain but a step forward, abhi our focus should be the next exam thats ahead of all of us, that being said what happened in english though it's mostly out of our hands, I dont want to give up on my hope for a good college and i am sure none of you do either, I have an idea, it's a shot in the dark but one worth taking
idea is

1. simply pressuring nta with a spam of emails for requesting a retest.
2. MORE IMPORTANTLY getting this issue some media coverage, if some news channels covers this news i feel like nta will be obligated to correct their mistake, I believe there our enough sources on social media from kids tearing up on youtube to paragraph long rants on twitter, parents furious on facebook and us students mostly on reddit and some on instagram.

i feel like we can use that and make something out of it, if not a retest maybe some change in the marking scheme making it more just but with the number of people that have suffered from this i truly believe we have a shot. do you think it is possible to get this into the news? there are 9000 members in this subreddit surely someone will have some connections

Any fellow nurses here take the ASCP DLM exam? I have my MSN MHA and am responsible for POCT training on the nursing side. Was wondering what the exam is like.
Hospital gives nursing administrators $1500 annually towards certifications and am looking for additional credentials.

Hi everyone! I was wondering how long it took for you to study and prepare for the EAS and CST childhood exams? I’m a career changer and haven’t taken an exam in years. I looked at past posts and saw mixed reviews on the exams. After reviewing the math portion I’m a bit worried and I’m not sure if I should give myself a few weeks before each exam to study?
Thanks for your help in advance!

I just got home after exams and too much rain and totally forgot about the weather situation in uppal. Also i want us to have 2 points today only. After our previous records against GT, I definitely want us to qualify playing against them. I don't want us to wait for our final game to find out whether we're moving forward in the tournament or not.
I have full trust in the captain, he's a very good pitch reader, so I don't mind us playing less overs just give us the game. 🙏🏾

I am from India and have scored step1 in 260s and step 2 in 270s.I have tutoring experience of about 2 years. Anyone interested can DM. Thank you.
I started tutoring 2 years ago and have helped a lot of students clear their steps exam in first attempt with good scores. I will use u world, amboss some topics and FA, or any materials you will like to study like NBME. You can tutor with me while you can give your NBME exam to see how your performance increases and then you can decide to get further tutoring. If you want me help you with NBME question, , I can do that as well. I will explain you all the concepts required to crack usmle exam. Concepts are basically from u world, up-to-date, NBME, amboss. These resources will detail concepts will help you excel in exam. Iwill use zoom or google meet as online platform for this tutoring. Interested candidates can DM.

I am super confused now, one of my friends said they were allowed a calculator and another one said he wasn’t.
Can anyone give me a clear answer on whether we are allowed a calculator for the Planning exercises?
I know for maths exams we a not.
Appreciate help👊.

I haven't been able to study for my exams for over a week, my first one is in a week (I'm in college btw, should be getting my bachelors degree this year and go on to my masters next year so these exams are quite important). I made an appointment with the dr. and e-mailed my study counselor to ask if we can inform my teachers (so they know I'm having a hard time and I'm not just being lazy) and if we could have a conversation. I'm kind off hoping the dr. will give me a note, not that it will solve anything. I just need a brake, because now I'm just stressing about not being able to work for school and that doesn't help at all. I hope they can help me out, because I really don't see me getting through these exams

After reading a post here by a student suggesting that the sudden downtick of class attendance, completion of assignments and increase in cheating and plagiarism is partially the professors’ fault, I have to ask this… are teachers reverting back to all in-class exams?
Since COVID and the increase of the use of online courses, or at least many elements from online courses, administrating exams is obviously so much more efficient on-line.
I do know that this promotes cheating. I do not want students to feel like they “need” to cheat to keep up with those that do.
I’ve tried to adapt to the real world by changing the nature of many of my questions… from objective, mostly fact-based answers that can be “looked up“ to asking questions about things we have discussed in class, including film segments.
I also have started requiring answering practical questions where, for example, students view details of a crime scene and I ask for implications and psychological impressions… something that’s hard to cheat with others on and not show up.
Are any of you eliminating online testing because of cheating concerns?

Throwaway account because I need advice before I go mentally insane. There's a guy that I started to talk to in high school. I didn’t know him but he seemed like my type (same religion/spirituality, same ethnicity, tall, good vibes) and so we started to talk because I wanted to get to know him better.
Fast forward to a couple weeks after we start talking, he tells me he loves this other girl that we both know (we all go to the same school). He tells me all of his issues with her and how he’s depressed about her not liking him back and I'm like oh. I never knew he felt this way about her. He said that he would always love her and he just has a feeling that they will end up together.
In my head, I was friendzoned and honestly I was okay with it because we only talked for like 2 weeks before he told me about his past situationship with that girl. We kept texting though and we ended up getting really close (he wasn’t in a situationship during this, he was just grieving the fact that she didn’t like him back).
Fast forward 5 months, we're super close now. But then he completely disappears, no calls, no texts and right before he disappeared he told me he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. That broke me. Then a month later he comes back out of nowhere and apologizes about what he did and says he was in a bad mental state and he just needed to be alone. I was so hesitant to let him back in because I still felt broken from that last conversation. But he apologized so much so I caved and said I guess we can be friends. We went to the same school too, so I'd see him every day regardless, including when he completely stopped talking to me. He also has mental health issues and has been told by doctors to get properly diagnosed but he hasn’t done it.
Then we start talking again and 6 months later he tells me he loves me. I was shocked, because remember he spent the first couple weeks of us talking telling me about how he'd always love that other girl and they were destined to end up together. So in my head I'm like "uhh...are you sure about this?"
We had our big final exams coming up too, so I wasn't trying to start anything romantic that could mess with my studying. I already knew he was capable of sending me on an emotional rollercoaster, and I didn't need that affecting my academics. So I told him I didn’t feel the same way about him, leaving him heartbroken. We still saw each other every day for the next 2 years at school and would text on and off. He told me he would be willing to wait till we were older, but I didn't want to give him false hope and told him I cannot guarantee him anything.
We ended up both graduating and are now at university and at this point, I thought he had moved on. We spoke 4 or 5 times during our freshman year and they were 8+ hour long calls or full days of texting. Now we are in our sophomore year and he tells me he still loves me. I don’t know what to do. I legitimately thought he was over me and moved on. I feel like I'm just shattering his heart into a million pieces at this point, because sometimes when we talk he seems so emotionless, like he's just numb from the pain. Now we speak occasionally every few months and sometimes every few weeks. He just texts me out of the blue or calls me.
But he thinks I don't love him back. The thing is I don't want to let myself love him back, because he has never given me a sense of stability. Since I met him he has always acted on very strong emotions, gets very upset and very angry and that has rubbed onto me. Whenever he would get sad, I would get sad and I felt like I had no control over my own emotions when I was around him. If I was in a happy mood and he was upset about something, he would get angry at me for being happy while he was upset. I also feel like he has no goals in life. He's just cruising along whereas I want someone who's very goal oriented and has a stable job because I am very goal oriented. I have done a lot better than him academically speaking as well. Sometimes I think it is my fault for him not trying because I broke his heart by saying I didn't love him back, but I think that’s a stupid thought and I'm not responsible for him acting the way he does and slacking off.
I also realized that despite him being the same ethnicity, he isn't in touch with his background at all which is very different to me. And due to this, I 100% know that my family will not be fond of his family and my family will not be happy with me dating him. They are aware of him though and know that we used to be close friends. He is also not religious/spiritual. I would say I'm 100 times more religious/spiritual than him. I have met other guys who do align with my goals in terms of stable careers and hardworking, enjoys traveling, and has the same religion/spirituality. But I just have not known these guys as long as I have known him. I feel like we both either have attachment issues or a trauma bond or we are just some dysfunctional soulmates.
A part of me wants to give him a shot, but I don't want to end up trying to mold him into who I want him to be. I don't want to nag him about studying harder at university or tell him to travel just because that's what I'm into. If I do that, he may grow to resent me down the line because he would have only made those changes because I pushed him, not because it's what he genuinely wanted for himself. The truth is, he just doesn't seem to have any goals of his own right now.
Another part of me thinks that if we try to make it romantic, it could completely ruin the relationship we've built over all these years. We're still at a point where we can reach out to each other for help when we really need it. I don't want to risk damaging that bond by giving a romantic relationship a shot, only for it to backfire and make us end up resenting or even hating each other.
I also feel like I'd be doing myself a disservice by giving him a chance. There are certain non-negotiable qualities I need in a partner, and he just doesn't display those. I feel like I'd be settling if I committed to him. I don't want to spend my life having to constantly manage his emotions and push him to take action. I don't want to mother him - I already felt that way when we were very close before.
After all these years, I still have an emotional bond with him though. And he still says he loves me. I have tried no contact multiple times, the longest being around a year. But it just hasn’t worked. The other girl he mentioned in the first two weeks of us talking many years ago is long gone by the way. It's been just me and him in that sense for a long time now. And we have so many mutuals and know the same people, which makes fully separating impossible. But I don’t know if taking the risk and giving him a shot is the way to go or if leaving things as they currently are is the better option.

Hello everyone. I am planning to take the MCAT in early August and wanted to ask if I should schedule in either of the dates in my title. The pros of taking it on the 8/2 are that the score release occurs on the last day of the 10 day deadline for the last September exam on September 14th in case I need to retake and can get it in this year. However the later dates would give me a few more days to get in some last min studying. I wouldn’t want to take it later as that’s after classes start in August. Thanks for any advice🙏

Throwaway account because I need advice before I go mentally insane. There's a guy that I started to talk to in high school. I didn’t know him but he seemed like my type (same religion/spirituality, same ethnicity, tall, good vibes) and so we started to talk because I wanted to get to know him better.
Fast forward to a couple weeks after we start talking, he tells me he loves this other girl that we both know (we all go to the same school). He tells me all of his issues with her and how he’s depressed about her not liking him back and I'm like oh. I never knew he felt this way about her. He said that he would always love her and he just has a feeling that they will end up together.
In my head, I was friendzoned and honestly I was okay with it because we only talked for like 2 weeks before he told me about his past situationship with that girl. We kept texting though and we ended up getting really close (he wasn’t in a situationship during this, he was just grieving the fact that she didn’t like him back).
Fast forward 5 months, we're super close now. But then he completely disappears, no calls, no texts and right before he disappeared he told me he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. That broke me. Then a month later he comes back out of nowhere and apologizes about what he did and says he was in a bad mental state and he just needed to be alone. I was so hesitant to let him back in because I still felt broken from that last conversation. But he apologized so much so I caved and said I guess we can be friends. We went to the same school too, so I'd see him every day regardless, including when he completely stopped talking to me. He also has mental health issues and has been told by doctors to get properly diagnosed but he hasn’t done it.
Then we start talking again and 6 months later he tells me he loves me. I was shocked, because remember he spent the first couple weeks of us talking telling me about how he'd always love that other girl and they were destined to end up together. So in my head I'm like "uhh...are you sure about this?"
We had our big final exams coming up too, so I wasn't trying to start anything romantic that could mess with my studying. I already knew he was capable of sending me on an emotional rollercoaster, and I didn't need that affecting my academics. So I told him I didn’t feel the same way about him, leaving him heartbroken. We still saw each other every day for the next 2 years at school and would text on and off. He told me he would be willing to wait till we were older, but I didn't want to give him false hope and told him I cannot guarantee him anything.
We ended up both graduating and are now at university and at this point, I thought he had moved on. We spoke 4 or 5 times during our freshman year and they were 8+ hour long calls or full days of texting. Now we are in our sophomore year and he tells me he still loves me. I don’t know what to do. I legitimately thought he was over me and moved on. I feel like I'm just shattering his heart into a million pieces at this point, because sometimes when we talk he seems so emotionless, like he's just numb from the pain. Now we speak occasionally every few months and sometimes every few weeks. He just texts me out of the blue or calls me.
But he thinks I don't love him back. The thing is I don't want to let myself love him back, because he has never given me a sense of stability. Since I met him he has always acted on very strong emotions, gets very upset and very angry and that has rubbed onto me. Whenever he would get sad, I would get sad and I felt like I had no control over my own emotions when I was around him. If I was in a happy mood and he was upset about something, he would get angry at me for being happy while he was upset. I also feel like he has no goals in life. He's just cruising along whereas I want someone who's very goal oriented and has a stable job because I am very goal oriented. I have done a lot better than him academically speaking as well. Sometimes I think it is my fault for him not trying because I broke his heart by saying I didn't love him back, but I think that’s a stupid thought and I'm not responsible for him acting the way he does and slacking off.
I also realized that despite him being the same ethnicity, he isn't in touch with his background at all which is very different to me. And due to this, I 100% know that my family will not be fond of his family and my family will not be happy with me dating him. They are aware of him though and know that we used to be close friends. He is also not religious/spiritual. I would say I'm 100 times more religious/spiritual than him. I have met other guys who do align with my goals in terms of stable careers and hardworking, enjoys traveling, and has the same religion/spirituality. But I just have not known these guys as long as I have known him. I feel like we both either have attachment issues or a trauma bond or we are just some dysfunctional soulmates.
A part of me wants to give him a shot, but I don't want to end up trying to mold him into who I want him to be. I don't want to nag him about studying harder at university or tell him to travel just because that's what I'm into. If I do that, he may grow to resent me down the line because he would have only made those changes because I pushed him, not because it's what he genuinely wanted for himself. The truth is, he just doesn't seem to have any goals of his own right now.
Another part of me thinks that if we try to make it romantic, it could completely ruin the relationship we've built over all these years. We're still at a point where we can reach out to each other for help when we really need it. I don't want to risk damaging that bond by giving a romantic relationship a shot, only for it to backfire and make us end up resenting or even hating each other.
I also feel like I'd be doing myself a disservice by giving him a chance. There are certain non-negotiable qualities I need in a partner, and he just doesn't display those. I feel like I'd be settling if I committed to him. I don't want to spend my life having to constantly manage his emotions and push him to take action. I don't want to mother him - I already felt that way when we were very close before.
After all these years, I still have an emotional bond with him though. And he still says he loves me. I have tried no contact multiple times, the longest being around a year. But it just hasn’t worked. The other girl he mentioned in the first two weeks of us talking many years ago is long gone by the way. It's been just me and him in that sense for a long time now. And we have so many mutuals and know the same people, which makes fully separating impossible. But I don’t know if taking the risk and giving him a shot is the way to go or if leaving things as they currently are is the better option.

I forgot to mention this. my parents are both working, my eldest brother is a dropout and my second brother just graduate from college
I(M21) have reached my limit. Or maybe I had reached my limit before.
I can't live in my home because I can't feel safe and rested. I can't study at peace, I even got even more severe burnout than my last time I had a burnout to the point of transfer to another school and shifting to another course after my dad ask me to wash the dishes and now I can't even bring myself to hold a pencil and do my one week late assignment or to bring myself to study. I had lot of assignments to do and yet my parents ask me to do house chores as if I have more time than my brothers who are not in school anymore. My family is heavy reliant at me in chores, I even had to skip college just to clean the fucking house that smells like 3 day old piss.
I want to run away, but I don't have enough money to live and to go to college.
I'm scared of running away because I live in a poverty country where college degree is a must. I don't even had skills to work, so I'm scared.
I'm scared of being homeless, I overheard my dad even threaten my eldest brother to eat food or else he will give up his job(he even said that he wanted to kill himself and this is first time I heard, the giving up his job part is the one I often hear because I or my brother ended up not cooking with the ingredients he bought but can't cuz we're busy in studies, although my brother is free most of the time now because he's graduated and is now mostly doing hobby and study for licensure exam).
Sometimes, I get jealous of my brother having time to do hobby even the house smells like a virus and he is in the house most of the time in this season.
I am losing my mind. I don't even know what I job I want to work in. I don't even have someone to talk to and I can't trust everyone anymore.
I want to get out of here, my mind keeps telling me that but I know I can't. I can't bear my family keep relying on me.
I can't study in peace because they will use my studies against me. "You are a nursing student and yet you get angry over this. I don't think you can be nursing because you will be dealing with different kinds of people and there are people who are like this."
I don't want them to be in my graduation yet I feel like they will ended up in my graduation anyway. (Because I would feel like a hypocrite)
I am starting to get angry at everyone, look down on everyone and create a scenario where I get the upper hand while someone is on the verge of getting angry or is hurt.
I can't escape my home. I can't even steal money from parents because it's on debit card now and I dont know the password. I will get in jail if I steal the credit card and hack and flush out the money because they have cameras.
They say they support me but they will always find ways to keep me on this house. They always see me as incompetent and child that need guidance even though I am an adult.
I don't want to stay here any longer. I'm tired dealing with them.
Even if they would support me like make me enroll to trade school where I train for a year and then I can go job hunting, it feels so wrong. They would say things like "we supporting you and yet you complain?"
They make me feel like I'm the wrong even if they are the ones making me feel this way. They are the ones restricting me too much to the point I don't have confidence of myself. It makes me question a lot about my thoughts and feelings and my purpose.
My brother scold me in the college while I enroll this course that this course is too hard for you, you shouldn't enroll it with the tone as if I did something wrong in front of many seniors and students.
My mother say "you shouldn't be enroll in this course because this is for very smart people and look at you now", "you should return to your previous course because it's easy and I think it suits you, that school makes you feel safe". "Maybe if you enroll to the trade school, you would change your mind to returning to that school and you become a second year ". I even thought about following the advice and I feel disgusted of myself. I feel like I can't decide on my own and whatever I decide will lead me to my downfall.
I can't find a course anymore that helps people while I don't feel like a hypocrite, and also a job that helps me survive and gives me time for my writing.
I'm lost and confused. I want to seek help from my cousin outside of this country but they are not obligated to help me and they hate me.
I don't know what to do anymore.

Edit: this isnt much of an AITA post, but I feel like I can get decent advice from here
Ok, so I (17f) and my sibling (15f, who we will call Jade) both attend the same school, and one of the classes we have to take is gym. We have two coaches, one for the boys, and one for the girls. Both Jade and I have taken this class, and had the same coach, and I speak for both of us when I say the coach is a bitch (I will refer to our coach is Ms Ass)
Ms Ass is notorious among the students for not doing her job and her favoritism for the kids who play softball. There were plenty of times where the two girls in my class who did softball were told to go out to Ms Ass' bus to get something for her, and she always treated them better than the rest of us. When I took her class, she never even taught us anything. She had us watch videos a few times, and whenever we went to the gym, she just told us to find something to do, and we would oftentimes just go sit in the corner together and play on our phones if we had snuck them out of the locker room. That, or we were made to walk all the way up to the college tennis courts, and usually got fussed at if we just sat in the corner like usual even though there were no open courts and we didn't know anything about tennis.
Now, the school year is almost over, and my sibling had Ms Ass for the last semester, and their experience has been even worse. Jade has a disability, which basically makes it extremely painful for them to run, and they are also almost legally blind in one eye. Jade first started coming to our Nana and Dad about a few minor problems, like constantly not doing much of anything in gym, but it's been a lot worse for the past few months.
At one point, the entire class had to go out to the baseball field and picked grass with their hands, which I can't give many details on, but the way Jade described it, it was torture for them and all of their classmates. There was one time where all the girls were forced to stay in the locker room so Ms Ass could go talk to the other coach (which left the entire class alone in the locker room), and got in trouble when they all were playing hot potato with a basketball. They were just expected to sit and do nothing until Ms Ass came and got them. Jade has been bullied before in the class by one of the other students when she was begging to go on a different team when playing basketball, and her excuse was "everyone on this team is useless", even though no one actually knew hoe to play and Jade quite literally couldn't shoot the ball because of their vision, and they have had to play volleyball before too even though they can't see, but a few days ago was the final straw for everyone.
Since the end of the year is so close, everyone has been taking exams, which included gym class and the FitnessGram tests. A few days ago, Jade's class took the tests, and that included a mile long run. As you can imagine, Jade couldn't do it, but they were told to do it anyway. They ended up texting our Nana and Dad during lunch because they were in so much pain after doing it, and Nana told me that Jade was struggling to even walk with how bad it was. The nurse even carried Jade's bags until Nana got there because of the amount of pain they were in.
Our Dad also called and immediately asked for the principal, so the principal knows about it, but according to him we had to fill out a 504 form for Jade for their disability, which we were never told by anyone to do.
Everyone in the family has agreed that the coach needs to be fired, but idk if we can actually do anything. What do we do?
Edit 2: We did send a note to Ms Ass explaining that Jade had a disability, but she ignored it. Idk if that helps with anything

Ano po pwede ko i focus para sa qualifying exams incoming 3rd year bsa? Tig 12-points po each for theory and problems per subject and super wala po foundation ko so balak ko magstudy kahit 12 hours per day until June 5-6.
To give you an idea how bad my foundation po is, akala ko dati credit means decrease ngayon ko lang po nalaman while self studying na it meant enter in the right column, and debit = enter in the left column. Super naclarify po neto ung mga times na confused ako dati.
I think naman po im a fast learner, di lang po talaga ako umattend nung online classes ko or sumagot ng maayos nung freshman year kasi depressed ako.
Bale do you think keri basta mag todo review ako? Sa mga naka take na ng quali na tamaraw bsa. ALam ko naman po na di sobrang hirap pero gusto ko parin maging prepared lalo na halos wala akong alam. Delayed na po ako 2 years at pag di ko to mapasa, madedelay ako ng 3 years huhu
Ung subjects po ay:

• Intermediate accounting 1
• Intermediate accounting2
• Cost accounting and control with SAP
• STRACOMAN
• Finman
• Oblicon
• Business laws and regulation 1
• Income Taxation

Ung problems naman po ay tig 9 points each, theories 12/14 pts per subject.
Passing ay at least 80% ng 150 pts total po ata.
Pinakaworry ko po intermediate account 2.
TYIA

tl;dr: Punishing me from something I can't control (lag) is horrible. Not punishing toxic players is stupid. The game is making re evaluate whether to continue playing.
Yesterday, I played Mobile Legends like I did. I had my finals exams but you know how it is. I agree I'm not the best player in the game but did you just punish me for "Feeding"? Over the game, my ping was an average of 120ms when I'm the only one in my screen. Once someone else (especially an opponent) goes into view, it spikes up to 200-250ms of ping. How can you be useful at that ping level? The best you can do is deal a bit of damage but most of the time you'll be standing there waiting for an opponent to kill you.
Mobile Legends is fun. I love it. Aside from Minesweeper, it currently is the only game in my phone. I even spent money on it so I can buy some heroes. It is the one that introduced me to MOBA coming from RPG and FPS games. However, the past few games I had with them have made me reevaluate whether to continue playing it.
I am not against punishing people who AFK and feed. But punishing them from committing those behaviors because they have high ping is too much. Some people do try their best to be useful even in these scenarios but they still get punished from something out of their control.
Coming from the single-player world, if this is the culture of multiplayer games, it has to stop. Punish people for being bad players. Don't punish them from something they can't control.
What's worse is that toxic players in matches don't even get punished. They just get a "STRONG WARNING" as if that is going to help. You can bash everyone in the match - call them stupid or smurfs or other condescending terms you can think of. All the game gives you is a "STRONG WARNING".
Another thing that made me want to quit is their matchmaking. I don't know how they do it but it seems to be random. If my opinion makes a difference, they should let go of Classic mode altogether and simply make every person play Ranked matches.
Supercell does it this way and coming from some of their games, they do things so much better than Moonton. Sometimes, ping gets high but this is rare (only around 2-3 for every 30 games). Even then, you won't be punished - it just means the other player wins against you.
They also don't have a classic mode where you play with other people just for fun. You have to play with other people and rank up. Because they have really good servers, they don't need to worry about people AFK-ing a lot.
The game is really testing me. The only reason I'm playing is because my other friends play it as well. But really, as the days pass on I'm thinking of finally pulling the trigger and quitting altogether.
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I am a film student (highschool) and we need to create a short film our final exam. Although I do have an idea of what I want my film to be about Im having struggles thinking about a narrative for my idea. We have a time limit of 10 minutes and most people are storyboarding right now but I'm still stick deciding what the first scene will even look like. Here's a brief summary of my idea please help me bring it to life
In my Media production, I intend to create a short film that encapsulates themes of loneliness and isolation as well as subtly addressing more complex issues such as mental health and the infamous relationship teens have with the media in this current digital age. Featuring one character to enhance the audience's perception of loneliness, the narrative will follow a young teen losing grasp of reality and their inability to distinguish between reality and their parasocial existence. Despite the lack of people, I intend to create expressions of the characters' thoughts, feelings and emotions as they fall deeper in between the blurred lines of online and reality. Through having one character in my film I can achieve this by drawing all focus on that character whether it be through voicing their intentions through narration, using lighting to externalise an internal feeling, or simple composition of the frames and shots in each scene creating a unique first person experience for the audience.
Also give me any tips on actually making the film (can you tell I've never done this before 😭")

Currently I'm at university nearing the point of writing a bachelor thesis. I'm 20 years old. And I feel so helpless. It feels like I forgot why I chose to do a Bachelor of Computer Science in the first place. Writing a bachelor thesis. About what? I literally have no idea. I'm already only going to lectures because I got no life. Even to the lectures I like. I literally only go to them because I got nothing better to do in my free time. It's depressing. It is clear that I lost the *why* in studying Computer Science. Primarily I went to university to get a better social life because my school social life was bad. But seriously, expecting a better social life in Computer Science is definitely a funny thing.
I went to university because somehow, magically I expected that my life would turn around, that someone would "give" me a purpose. But the more and more attend higher classes at university, I start to see a problem: You don't go to university because someone tells you to. You go to university because you *want* to. That's where my fifth life crisis starts to begin.
In my first semesters all courses were mandatory. I had a pupose: If I didn't attend these courses, these lectures, don't submit my exercises, don't find a group for group work, I will have a problem. That problem is not passing these mandatory classes. There was a clear purpose. Like in school.
Then, I got into higher semesters. And I started to see a problem. For the first time I had the *choice* between different elective courses. *I* had the choice to choose something which interests me. This choice overwhelmed me so much that I was close of dropping out. It made me feel purposeless because there way no *why* in taking these courses, just out of an intrinsic motivation. No external pressure. I didn't have to submit exercises anymore. Sure there were still discussions about voluntary exercise sheets. But no grading, no submission, no feedback. No group work anymore, so the *only* social element of my life went away, too. It is hard. It is hard waking up in the morning and knowing you will be all alone in the lectures by yourself, then going alone to the cantine to eat, then going home alone to do *voluntary* exercises alone.
Somewhere, in late high school, until now, I lost every purpose in life, both non academically but also academically. I never managed to develop an intrinsic motivation. My parents always told me what to do. My school always told me what to do. But because of my autism, my adhd, I had ZERO idea what to do on my own, nor was I ever capable of social connections. So I either start to drown myself in academic work, or other addictive things. Both is not healthy.
Well, of course there was a purpose: These courses go to be able to write my bachelor. But why do a bachelor? And doing all the requiremenets just because of the bachelor feels dumb. Because I *had* to, not because I *wanted* to. I could also just write out a paper written as "[My name] is the king of the world" and that wouldn't make me feel better.
What is the purpose?
I don't want to go to university, leave university, just to get a paper handed out in the end where it's written "Firstname Surname got a bachelor in subject x", being a random number who did the bare minimum to pass all previous courses, did the bare minimum to write a bachelor thesis about a generic topic, who had no social life, no contact to anyone at university. You realise how depressing that is when you got no life outside university?
This sub is not about depression, I know. But my problems are twofold, of which a large part is having a universal fifth-life crisis, no clear purpose in "why" I go to university. I literally have no hobbies. No friends. No purpose in university. Let me get one thing straight: The subjects, or the difficulty, are not the problem. I'm in my 5th semester right now and didn't fail one exam once, even though I didn't went to any lecture last semester because I was fed up of isolating myself outside.
Why should I do anything, why should I do anything, studying, going to lectures, doing voluntary assignments, learning the content, asking questions in the lectures if I got no social life? No one to discuss the topics with, no one to talk about the amazing thing Computer Science is? Who cares what I know, what I am capable of, what my bachelor thesis is if no one reads it? If no one wants to listen to my opinions, my ideas? If I'm just a number?
I got no purpose! No intrinsic purpose! I *need* others to give me purpose. And that's bad for university. To me a life, at university, without a social element is purposeless. University *needs* interconnection, discussing ideas, exchanging ideas. I got neither of that, nor outside university.
How are you able to have an intrinsic motivation at university? How are people able to write papers? Alone? How is that physically possible? To me, sitting infront of my PC, alone, writing a Bachelor thesis, doing literature research, alone, on my PC, going, alone, to the library for literature sounds like the most DEPRESSING thing I have ever witnessed. How do people manage to do what? How do people manage to do things ALONE? Because they got a social net? People to talk to? I don't get it.
I see the point of my Bachelor thesis infront of my eyes and afterwards I see a gaping void in my life. It scares me. *What* to do after a Bachelor thesis, alone? Masters? Alone? Again 2 years of torture? Doing work at some random company? Alone? I don't want to be alone anymore. I'm tired of it. Sick of doing academic work alone. Sick of doing *anything* alone, outside, inside my apartment. Everywhere. It's so dumb. So pointless.
So, please tell me, *why* should I do *anything* at university out of an intrinsic motivation? *How* do you get an intrinsic motivation to do things at university?