Reading interest inventory kindergarten

I've grown to be disdainful of Harry Potter fanfiction, not that i have anything against the story
While I have heard good and bad things, I've never cared because I didn't read the story, was never interested in it or the movies
However the few times I am interested, I can never seem to find what I want, hence the disdain
For example, when I look up Harry Potter black oc's, I unfortunately forget that Sirius black is a popular character
I'd just like an Oc story with a POC oc, preferably one that's black, but I'm fine with anything at this point
But if you would, please don't send stuff about Harry being black, I would like a character that can interact with him, not a replacement with his name
Thank you for your time

So after a couple of years of not playing, I logged back on to find a bunch of my upgrade modules in my inventory, as well as unequipped suit upgrades. I didn't think much of it as I was lost, getting my bearings on the game again.
I started equipping things without reading too much. After playing for a bit, I realized my living ship had its organs equipped, as well as launch thrusters.
When I try to fly my ship says the launch thrusters are at 0%, though they are at 100%. If I try calling my ship it says it can't launch because it's at like 3000% fuel. I cant unequip the launch thrusters.
Am I missing something or should it not be possible for my living ship to have launch thrusters equipped in the first place? Any ideas? I'm able to launch from a space station but the second I land on a planet or a landing pad I'm unable to relaunch or recall my ship.
EDIT: I also appear to have an active void egg in my inventory.

Dear SEC executives and staff,
As an investor, I take my investing seriously - as I am sure all of you do!! I have read, fully, the potential rule change(s) pertaining to SR-OCC-2024-001 - and I have questions, as follows:
(1) If a clearing member defaults on their financial obligations, the OCC, as the central counterparty, has an obligation to the counterparties on the other side of , say, a short sale, correct ??
\* The answer should be "YES". *\**
(2) The OCC has a fiduciary duty to ensure that counterparties of short sales, such as the shareholders - ex: (GME), are protected in the event of defaults by clearing members involved in such short selling transactions. This is an essential responsibility for upholding the integrity and stability of the market!! As such, why would the OCC be creating a rule to bail out the 'short selling' Wall Street firms - essentially prolonging the inevitable if they lack the financial capacity to cover their bets??
\* That is what this rule, in essence, does - and that's just wrong!! The answer is: "It shouldn't". *\**
(3) If the SR-OCC-2024-001 rule is to ascertain parameters in the OCC's proprietary system for calculating margin threshold requirements during high volatility - why am I not provided with the specific details on how these parameters will be calculated ??
\* The answer is: They should be made available to everyone*\**
(4) I have no idea how these margin threshold requirements are calculated, and everything in the proposal's supporting evidence as related to this is REDACTED. Why?? \* The answer is: They shouldn't be redacted at all *\**
(5) If I understand this rule correctly, and I think I do, if multiple clearing members default, the OCC would also incur losses from having to cover those defaults, yes?? Therefore, it would indeed be in the OCC's best interest to prevent clearing members from defaulting - because the OCC would lose money also, yes??
\* The answer to both questions should be: "YES" *\**
(6) If I understand this next item correctly, the OCC wants to give significant authority to OCC's Financial Risk Management (FRM) section for approving idiosyncratic control settings. In my opinion, this introduces a significant risk to the OCC and it poses a conflict as they are required to safeguard both OCC's interests and at-risk Clearing Members. Being that this proposed rule favours Clearing Members at the expense of market fairness and investor protection, this issue has been flagged to the SEC for commentary and review.
In my opinion, it appears the OCC is fearful of clearing member default toppling the market. Not wanting to use their own funds to bail out bad CLEARING MEMBER bets, the OCC is proposing a rule to adjust margin thresholds during volatile market periods. The SEC had the good sense to REJECT this proposal - and now, regular OTC investors have the opportunity to support this decision and get it removed completely!!
After giving this rule change a thorough review, I am recommending that the SEC fully remove and eliminate this OCC rule completely. It is a rule fraught with peril and has enough conflict and risk to warrant its dismissal and removal!!
Thank you for your time and attention to this email!
Regards to all,

Today's trading facts: The total volume traded pre-market and regular trading hours was about~30.6 M shares of which 10 698 698 shares were shorted and so if they were covered 2X (~21.5M) by end of day with VWAP at $3.27. After hours ~1.1Million shares unlike in the past the shares were low volume thus perhaps retail. Was this short covering or new buyers jumping in the meme run started by Roaring Kitty.
The shares on the dark pool was 15,124,311...so in reality how many shares were taken off retail hands is the big question. As it is evident that even from the early posting of 13F that institutions are buying in..the VWAP for 120 days is $2.90 except for the last four days.
Retail hold on to your shares from predatory hands...lock them up for sale price so brokerages cannot borrow them for shorting...reduce the liquidity for shorting. In addition, do not put stops and do not buy shares on margin as below $3...the shares were scooped by the brokerages. You may ask how do the big boys pick off the shares...they use a third or fourth decimal to the bid in the dark pool and the lit pool cannot see it but Citadel and Virtu who are the gatekeepers see and act accordingly.
Kindly retail look the short interest numbers from April 30 for NYSE (42,586,717) and TSX(17,816,044) = ~60.4M which is down from 61.5M from Apr 15. From April 16-30 on NYSE 14M shares traded between $2.64-2.98 with VWAP of $2.80 and only 1.6M shares were covered while on TSX 33.8M traded between $3.66-4.00 with VWAP of $3.85 while further 543,138 shares were shorted.
The present SI is well above the NYSE(43,485,405)+TSX(12,538,405)= 57,023,447 shares in Jan 2021 during the meme run!
CNBC is saying that the meme run is over but in reality I am not certain.
The SEC rule to be implemented is in works and the basis of the meme rally which is a lot broader this time as numerous short positions have been held with SWAPs, synthethic shares and naked shorting and this is why Roaring Kitty alerted retail but it is measured and controlled by the MM but with 60.4M shares short. If you read my report yesterday 94M shares traded on NYSE but how many shorts really covered is the question...no many shares were available to short but today there is larger volume to create a bear trap...the meme rally will continue with ebb and flow for the month until: finra.org/rules-guidance/gu...
Next, It is believed that the SWAPS big time on BB happened with the last meme run and because there was a 60M debenture as free shares for shorting the shorts and SWAPS felt that by deliberately compressing the price of the stock either PW will convert and provide further liquidity or BB would do a money raise with shares as AMC did today and provided share liquidity to the shorts! However, because BB did a note raise which was oversubscribed and restricted in share conversion for the past three months the MM have constrained the stock to allow covering but reality is the SI remains high at 60.4M it is possible the SWAPS may have been covered but additional shares requires liquidity and so the meme run initiation but controlled to harvest shares but at a low price. The new SEC rule added a further complication so you may have seen Ken Griffin doing interview which one could see through...ah business secrets...really! Citadel and Virtu are the gatekeepers of flow and manipulation.
https://twitter.com/EduardBrichuk/status/1790896075253149847?t=T43EkfUZVXSeBuASi31F8w&s=19

I'm an engineering graduate student at a very famous university. She's a different kind of STEM grad student at the same university (mid-twenties). She has only been in America for a few years. Before everyone jumps and says "Chinese girls are just like American girls" the reason that I'm making this post is because i'm afraid that i'm missing some cultural norm or context, causing me to screw up the situation. Dating in America is fairly toxic, in my opinion. It seems as though it's often a contest of who can appear to be the least interested. My Chinese colleagues tell me that Chinese girls need to be chased a bit harder. That they're more pragmatic, so a guy who shows little interest would not be a good long term investment for a Chinese girl. Also, I realize that I'm anxious and insecure so there's no need to over-emphasize this in your response. Ultimately, I'm really sad for how this has turned out, but friends of mine tell me things are probably going as well as they could be. With that out of the way, I hope to hear your thoughts on my story.
Back up to a few months ago. I see this girl at the gym quite frequently. One day she asked how many sets I have on a machine. There are very few machines at the school gym so I get this question from girls quite frequently. Anyway, in between sets, I chatted her up, made little jokes "where did you do undergrad? ... well, no one's perfect" ... "I'm going to ask you five questions, and to win, you need to give me incorrect answers only"... she seemed to enjoy this, was smiling a lot, and when I'd see her from across the gym, she would smile and wave. Anyway, some weeks passed and I would see her at the gym occasionally. I would try to get her to play along with fantasies about robbing a bank together, but she didn't seem to follow, and would ask what I meant, perhaps because of the language barrier, perhaps because she's a STEM girl. I noticed that she actually cheated at the "wrong answers" game by changing one of her answers, so I called her out on it the next time I saw her. "how do I know I can trust you?" :)
I probably went too far the next time that I saw her. I was nervous but planning to get her number "has anyone ever told you that you're super cute, but super annoying?" She gave me a big embarrassed/confused smile and said "WHAT?!". I asked how we might continue the conversation, she suggested instagram, but I presented my phone number keypad. She looked around a bit embarrassed and reluctantly typed her number in. I didn't call her. I figured that was already too intense. I texted her and told her to save my name as "(My name) - such and such clever hot fantasy thing". She laughed let me know she saved it (!).
I saw her around campus a few days later, she smiled and waved to me. I figured that I hadn't screwed up too badly yet. A couple of days later I saw her at the gym, tried to make the joke about robbing a bank, again, but she asked what I meant. I guess that didn't go over well and I don't remember exactly how the conversation ended. I called her later that night and she didn't respond. I texted her and told her that I just had a quick question and she could call back if she would like, but that there was no pressure to do so. She responded with laughing emojis and asked if I wouldn't mind texting. I texted her an invite for coffee, but told her to hold the flowers and chocolates since we just met. She laughed, said thank you but she's too busy lately, and let me know that she would see me "at the gym sometime!". Fairly disappointed, I said "cool, shoot me a text or call sometime". She hearted the message (ouch). I thought this was a death knell, but friends of mine encouraged me to keep trying. "She's probably attracted to you, but not comfortable enough yet."
So the next time I saw her at the gym, I said "Hey!" gave her a Hi-five and kept going. She looked embarrassed, so I didn't want to stick around in case she needed space. A couple of days later, we were at the gym together, but I didn't want to come off as upset or needy, so I kept my head in my phone. I figured that maybe she had had enough. Anyway, this time, she actually said hello to me as she walked by. So of course, I smiled and said hi back. We would see each other about once per week, making small talk. I told her that she had a pretty voice. Rather than leaving the complement there (too much tension), I asked if she could sing, found out that we both like Karaoke, and told her we should start a rock band. This was a joke of course, it seems that the two of us have little time for a life outside of our research.
I texted her the next day, told her that I am curious about her thoughts on American vs. Chinese culture, and about why she was considering saying in the US after graduation. Told her that I enjoy our chats together, and was hoping that she would consider joining my American rock band (Laughing emoji). Try-outs to be held at the Karaoke lounge nearby. She didn't respond and I was quite disappointed again.
I happened to be walking on campus last week and we ran into each other (very unusual) so I asked if she had a minute to talk. She was on her way to a meeting, so I suggested that we meet up after that. She told me to text her. So naturally, I texted her, and this time she agreed to meet! (Last Tuesday) I was more excited that day than any time I can remember, at least for the past few years.
So we met up that afternoon and she suggested that we sit on the grass together. She smiled and asked me why we couldn't just continue talking at the gym together. I can't believe that she doesn't know why I was asking her out for a second time. She must have been looking for emotional reassurance or something like this. I told her it's hard to get to know someone if you only ever see them at the gym, smiled, and playfully said, "but maybe this is a one-sided relationship, don't worry, I'll just be crying myself to sleep, no big deal". I tried to say this in a light-hearted way so that it wasn't too intense. She was wearing large sunglasses this day (relevant later), I asked her to take them off but she refused, "OK, no problem". I then did a cold read routine on her, as an ice-breaker. She corrected me when I was wrong, and it sounded like she's a workaholic (not uncommon for our university) and that she had trouble not thinking about work. I thought it was a nice time, as we got to learn a bit more about each other. She told me that she would be away on an internship for the summer, but she would be back. I made a joke about how my heart broke for a second but was quickly mended. Our "date" didn't last very long, less than a half our, and she went back into her office building. She said goodbye to me, but only said the first syllable of my name (very cute). If she had been an American girl, I would have made an effort to at least touch her shoulder or hug goodbye, but my understanding is that this would be too much for a Chinese girl. My Chinese friend (Call him Tadashii, introduced again later) said that this was the right thing to do. I had previously dated a Chinese girl who wouldn't even hub me until I told her I wanted to date exclusively, several months into the relationship.
I was stoked for the rest of the day, so excited that I had finally been able to make plans to be with her alone, however short it was. I wanted to send a follow-up text, but held myself back and waited for about 42 hours (Thursday). I told her that I really enjoyed seeing her, I was happy that we had the opportunity to learn something about each other, and complimented her suggestion of sitting out on the grass together.
When she didn't respond, I was once again, fairly anxious and upset. I tried very much to keep it to myself.
The next day, I saw her at the gym again (Friday). This time, she seemed to be in a bad mood. She wasn't resting between sets and I got the feeling that she was avoiding me. Before I left, I approached her anyway (mistake?). I asked if we could exchange socials that are popular in her country, and she said "No, I don't add people on that". According to my Chinese friends, this was BS because everyone uses this app. She quickly shut down my attempts at conversation. I tried to go into a story about the school newspaper and she said "no, I don't want to hear about it" while perhaps forcing a smile. I realized that she was either in a bad mood, or really did not want to speak with, or both. So I said "ok, have a good night" and went home feeling very bad once again. Backing up a few steps, I noticed that she had a large pimple near her eye this day, which would explain why she hadn't wanted to take off her sunglasses while we were hanging out together on the grass. It could also suggest that she was too embarrassed for me to see her. She is an incredibly beautiful girl and clearly puts a lot of effort into her appearance so this could have easily been what caused her mood to shift so dramatically last week. I know what acne does to someone's self confidence, as i struggled with it frequently when I was younger. It must be ten times worse for women.
I guess this is a stressful time for the girl, and my advances haven't been making things easier on her. It would be quite tragic if I gave up simply because I had misread the circumstances. Of course, I don't know what she's thinking and I'm really worried about trying too hard. I'm used to girls responding to my follow-up text after a date with either enthusiasm, or by letting me know that a second date wasn't going to happen.
My Chinese colleague Tadashii, who seems to have good intuition on relationships with Chinese women gave me his input. He told me that Chinese women may very between chaos and order rapidly, like the Dao, in order to "test" men. They want to see that a man is actually dedicated. Further, a Chinese girl may have a stereotypical view of American men as "players" who only want to hook up. She is probably scared that I'm like this. He emphasized that this was only one data point in a series of mostly positive interactions. The 180-degree shift in demeanor could indicate a bad day or stressful period, but if a girl is truly disinterested, she would probably let me know at some point. His suggestion is to wait a month, until the girl is settled into her internship life. At that time, she would probably appreciate someone friendly reaching out to her to check in. In this way, we might have a text correspondence. This is something that I would never usually do, but he said it's typical for Chinese people to chat over apps or text while maintaining a long-distance friendship. He also mentioned that he's made girlfriends this way.
She will likely be away for two to three months. I haven't even found out where she was going. I usually try not to get girls thinking about work on dates, asking basic questions like "what do you do..." (no fun) but in this case, it was actually logistically relevant. oops. My plan is to follow Tadashii's advice. Maybe I'll see the girl at the gym again on Friday this week (38 hours from now). My American friends say that I should let her approach me this time. They also say that I should try to catch her again in the Fall when she returns. Tadashii says that waiting until the Fall is too long. This would send her the message that I was intimidated by her emotional response last week, or that I really was just an American player, and. not very serious about her.
So am I blown out, or should I hold on to the anxious pain of hope? Thanks in advance for your input.

While it's all a little fresh (~1 month?), and I still obviously haven't completely gotten over it yet, I felt like coming online and asking for other opinions to either validate/justify my own or give me other ideas.
I am a fulltime engineer with an established career and that is definitely something I'm looking for in a partner, especially as costs continue to rise and I'm interested in having kids and providing them freedoms in the future as well. After moving to NYC for my job w. no local friends, and as a more introverted engineer, connections online are where I'll end up meeting most of my people. I'm not particularly interested in the dating apps (TindeBumble/Hinge) as it's bot/catfish ridden, you can never get a full idea of intentions in an easy manner when you're 1 of 1000 on there, they hide half the people you'd be interested in unless you pay premium, etc. So connection isn't something that comes easy to me, and I definitely will try to hold onto it when I have it and ride or die for my squad.
I had already "experienced" a long distance relationship in college when I was 21 and moved to Seattle for 3 months. Long story short there, I kind of ghosted my ex-girlfriend of that time as clearly I wasn't that interested in her and couldn't see her. Hoped that we could rekindle things when I came back but that relationship wasn't for me. So, I already kind of know that long distance relationships "don't work" for me -- I distance myself and don't get any "physical touch" or "in person quality time," but I willingly continued with this one (with OP girl) because I have nothing else going on for me and we were having a good time.
I met this girl by chance online in a video game that I play with my friends every night. We happened to enjoy playing the game together so we continued to talk for a week or 2, playing probably 6 or 7 days each week. We proceeded to exchange information and communicate off the game. She lives 5 states (10-12hr drive) away from me, has a car, lives with her parents (potential issue -- I'm likely not going to go there), and at the time was dropped out of college with no degree/career, but working a regular retail job -- so no real income either.
We continued communication and after 2 months or so, I decided fuck it, I'd like to try and meet in real life and either legitimatize what we have or figure out that it's not going to work out. I booked an airbnb in the city near her fully paid for and flew out to meet her. Sparing the details, we had a great time over the 4-5 days. I did not ask her to be my girlfriend at that time but was definitely interested in meeting her again. We continued to talk and I flew her out one more time to me in NYC where we spent a week and put a label on our relationship.
As time continued, there was no next plan to see each other despite obvious interest on both ends. Long story short, she was encouraged to go back to school -- and will later tell me that it was "for me" and not for herself, which I'm hoping she'll look back at in the future and see how silly that statement is ... but she "did it for me" so that I could be happy with her or w/e you want to call it. So she was going to school and working retail, and we would spend the rest of our hours late at night together on the video game. She was an amazing girlfriend, completely about me 110%. I never had any mistrust in her, she treated me as well as you could from 11 hours away, and we talked every single day. I don't have many things I'd complain about with her other than simply not being able to see her.
Again I found myself distancing, it really no longer felt special as the relationship continued strictly online. I cannot see my girlfriend and I can get the "same satisfaction" from playing with any person on the internet. I believe that I'm seeking companionship and this was quickly turning into more of a "friendship." So ~1 month ago (1 year since we started talking), after a week or 2 of thinking about it -- not talking to her about it, but asking other people -- I was pretty set on just ending the relationship. I was advised to potentially wait until the end of the semester, but I wasn't going to sit there and pretend like I didn't know what was going to come 30 days later. So that's what I did. I called her and basically ended the relationship. She let me have it as she was blindsided and was in love with me ... "you were my future ... I went back to school for you ..." etc.
The reason I'm having such a hard time getting over it (albeit, a short period of time has passed here) despite it being my decision is because she never wronged me in any way and we had a great connection/chemistry. So again, as mentioned above, as someone who doesn't connect well with others, doesn't trust others, and is rather analytical/negative -- it feels bad to throw away something that was good and still could have been. It's not like I have a betteother option here locally. I totally could have "played" her and tried to date locally until I found someone else that was better. But I felt like I made a "selfless" decision and "let her go."
I've had some other things happen during this time period, my parents got divorced 8 months ago randomly (I was blindsided), I'm looking for a new job, etc. I have since enrolled in therapy, I had my first session last week and we didn't get to discuss or go into this specific topic. Clearly I need to work on myself, and am committing to that as the next chapter of my life, but could I have worked on it with her?
I was at the point where I would have been willing to pay to fly her to me 1x each month just to see her ... again, since she can't afford it. While it was never really discussed further and her schedule isn't going to change as she needs to work to pay for school which she can't afford, I just don't see how I could legitimately see her enough times in person within the next 1000 days. That would put me at 30 years old. And while people will tell me that's not old, or whatever, for me I just don't see how I can wait until 30 just to see if it's going to work out. If she was local/closer to me and the situation was the same (no career, lived with parents, etc.) -- we'd still be dating or I'd have never jumped to breaking up with her. Wouldn't have considered it.
So maybe you'll read this and think -- "You're an idiot, you made the right decision, get over it." Or maybe you'll tell me "I threw away something good and could have communicated better, been more patient, ." Maybe I could have just told her: "I'm losing romantic interest (or w/e verbiage), can we change something up" whether that be a 1x a week "date night" where we eat on camera together and watch a show. I have no idea. Again, that doesn't solve being together in person, but throwing her away for nothing is eating me up a bit. Was there more for me to learn with this person and grow? Should we have continued to grow together and hope then if/when we do come together in person it's that much better?
As an engineer, it's tough to not know if the action you made was the right one, I'm having a hard time facing reality right now and looking for random unbiased opinions. So all in all, I want someone else to tell me if I made the right decision. Thanks.

I was diagnosed as an adult with ADHD. I know that sometimes people who have ADHD are misdiagnosed as having Dyslexia, but I also know that they're very comorbid. I have some Dyslexic traits and my friends think I have mild Dyslexia, but I'm not sure if they're just byproducts of my attention issues.
Arguments FOR me having Dyslexia are
1- I subvocalize and cannot read well when there's verbal noise
2- I'm not a great speller, though I don't think I'm atrocious.
3- More importantly than generic spelling, I'm have big holes when it comes to phonetics. So like I will spell Rogue 'Rouge' 100% of the time bc I feel like the word should end with the g, and the u coming after feels wrong. If a word has a letter that could be a or e, I get it wrong (consistently vs consistantly, both sound right in my head so idk which one is wrong). I also often WILDLY misread Proper Nouns, I thought the name 'Lalonde' was 'Lanode' for years.
4- Bad at remembering names
5- Not great at left and right. As a kid both hands looked like L's. As an adult I can get it right about 70% of the time instantly, and 30% of the time need 2 seconds to remind myself which side of my body is my left.
Arguments against me having Dyslexia are
1- I didn't have any problems learning to read as a kid (again wasn't a great speller but wasn't in the bottom percentile or anything)
2- I was a voracious reader as a kid, though that fell off when I started having my own phone
3- I have a good vocabulary and I don't think I'm particularly bad at remembering words in the moment. Sometimes my mind will blank on things but it's more often street names or something like that than forgetting the word for fork.
4- I wasn't good at grammar as a kid, but I'm very interested in linguistics now and find it very interesting. I feel like I'm comprehending it all very well, and I'm currently learning a new language and while I have some weak spots, I don't think I'm struggling particularly hard.
I feel like all my Dyslexia symptoms *could* be a product of ADHD and having trouble with attention. That being said, I'm not afraid of the label or anything. So if there's a resounding 'yes this is Dyslexia it doesn't matter what the Root of the issue is' I'll gladly make use of it!

Basically the title. My (21ftm) friend (21f) is about to have a baby. The father is not in the picture so it's just her, her family and friends. I've recently taken up knitting and I offered to knit a blanket for the baby. She said yes and asked me to knit the babies initials since she already picked a name. The name she picked has the initials ASS. I laughed because I thought it was a joke. It was not a joke. She that she decided to name him after a character from a wattpad book (Don't even remember which one) that has the same initials. She said reading that book sparked her interest in reading and writing and the ASS was her favorite character. We read that book when we were like 12! I spent an hour trying to convince her not to do this but to no avail. I told her I'm not knitting the word ASS on a blanket. She has not spoken to me in 3 days. A part of me hoped she was pulling some sort of prank on me but her mom called me two hours ago about it so...yeah. The character's name is Axel Storm Spencer.

This is a script I wanted to do for Autism Awareness Month originally posted on my old account. I tried my best and I am completely open to any tips or suggestions if you want me to write a script specifically for you, you can message me right now I am doing commissions completely for free. I do ask that I am credited and that you let me know if you use my script so I can check it out. If you need to make any minor changes that is completely fine but please do not change anything that will mess with the main idea.
Tags: A4A, Comfort, Loving, Autism, Autistic listener, Overstimulated, Party , Crying [A4A] [Comfort] [Loving] [Autism] [Autistic listener] [Overstimulated] [Party] [Crying]
(upbeat music, people talking)
Hahaha yeah, what’s up babe? Do you want me to go with you? Okay love text me if you need anything. Yeah I’ll just be out here.
I’ll be right back. I'm going to go find them. (footsteps) Maybe they’re outside. (sliding door opens and closes) No, maybe they’re in the bathroom. (footsteps)
(knocking on door) Love are you in there? (door opens) Babe are you okay? Hey, hey it’s okay. What’s going on hun? No you don’t need to talk about it right now if you don’t want to.
Yeah of course you can have a hug, come here. Do you want to step outside for a little while? Of course I’ll go with you. Do you want your earplugs to block out some of the noise? Yeah they’re right here on my keychain (keychain jingles) there you (the background noise quiets down)
Take my hand and we can go outside. (Door opens, background noise gets slightly louder, footsteps, door opens and closes, noise gets much quieter) Is that better love? I’m glad, are you ready to talk about what caused you to go hide in the bathroom?
That’s perfectly fine honey you don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to. We can just sit out here for a little while and enjoy the quiet. Yeah the stars are really pretty tonight, you can see a few constellations. Yeah the Little Dipper is right there and there's Orion's Belt.
They’re just as amazing as you. Of course I mean that they’re unique just like you. They look amazing just like you, and every star that’s a part of them is amazing just like every part of you is amazing.
You’re ready to talk, okay I’m listening… I can understand that, there were a lot of people in there talking and the music was really loud. Yeah there were a lot of new people. I don’t completely understand it but from what you’ve explained I see why you got overwhelmed. Oh sorry overstimulated.
What do you mean “why am I with you”, I’m with you because I love you. Yes even with your autism. Honey, why are you asking me this? Hey shhh it’s okay I’m right here just let it out. Don’t apologize for crying love, it's normal.
Yeah we can go home if you want. You wait out here and I’ll go back in and grab our stuff. (the speaker kisses the listener) I’ll be back. (Footsteps, door opens closes, the background noise gets louder) Hey yeah we’re going to head off, yeah everything is fine we just don’t want to be out too late. Yeah I’ll call you tomorrow.
(Door opens and closes background noise fades out) You ready to go love yea here’s your jacket. Let’s go (gate creaks open and closes) You okay honey you look kinda down? Why do you feel bad? (car door opens and closes, car engine starts) No I’m not upset that you wanted to leave the party. Why would I be mad? You were uncomfortable in there and needed to leave and you were able to express that to me. If anything I’m happy that you were able to tell me that you needed to leave. I know that isn’t easy for you and I’m really proud of you for telling me that.
Honey I love you and you don’t ever need to question that. I love you and only you with or without your autism. (Car engine stops, car door opens and closes) Come here honey (speaker kisses the listener) I love you and I always will, let’s get inside.
(Door opens and closes) Now what do you want to do? Pajamas,couch,movie and cuddles. You got it now go get your pjs on, I’ll get a few blankets and get a movie going, yes I know your comfort movie. Now go get into your pjs.
Hey hun you look comfy, come sit down. I’ve got your comfort movie all cued up, your favorite blanket, a few of your fidget toys, a book and your favorite safe foods. You don’t have to thank me. I'd do anything to make you feel better. Come cuddle up. Do you want to read your book, watch the movie, or just stim with your fidget toys and cuddle? Yeah we can just cuddle while you stim. I love watching you just go into your own world and zone out. It's adorable. Yes it is, have I ever lied to you? That was one time and it was for a surprise so it doesn't count. (Soft laughter) I love you too. Can I give you a kiss? (Speaker kisses listener)
You look so cute when you blush. There it is again. Can I ask you something? Do you ever feel like you have to mask around me? Okay can I ask why?
Your ex always made you feel bad for the way you act, oh honey. I would never make you feel bad for you being you. I love how you act. I love how you can go on hour long rants on your special interests and when you ask me to stim with you or just sit with you while you stim.
I don’t ever want to make you feel like you have to mask or be embarrassed because of your autism. I love you, autism and all. Because you’re unique and gorgeous. I love your personality, your laugh, your smile, the way your face lights up when you get to learn more about your special interests.
You are an amazing person and I love you. I want you to be proud of who you are as a person. (speaker kisses the listener) Look at me honey I want you to be happy and I want you to love yourself.

I met this friend when we were studying abroad. We were quite close as we lived near each other, and I consider her my best friend when we were abroad. She has been in-and-out of Europe because her boyfriend lives there, and we do not hang out often after we both came back to our home country.
Last week she asked me if we could hang out, and I said totally yes to that. We discussed about cafes and where are we going to go, but hasn't come out with a destination yet. I also told her that I will check my schedule, and come back to her(I have a pending meeting regarding work, but didn't tell her). She then replied about the cafe we're interested in, and she said she knows the coffee is good, but she hasn't explored the area.
The problem starts now. I have a habit of replying to texts in my head, and forgetting to actually reply. Especially on my personal Instagram, where everything is casual. I always reply on Whatsapp, but maintaining a good reply streak on Instagram is just too exhausting. I think this is a thing I can improve, and I will find a way to fix this.
She sent me a message yesterday, asking if we are going to hang out or not. Seeing the notification, I realized that I've been ghosting her and immediately replied. First, I apologized and offered some dates(which are three weeks away, turns out I'm busier than I thought), then apologized again.
This morning I saw that she left me on read. It's probably the hormones but I feel so shitty, and I can't help to blame myself. I just put her on hold without considering her own schedules, and I feel like a really bad person about it.
What can I do to fix this problem? What better things can I do? Is a simple apology enough for my wrongfulness? Would it be too much if I text her again, address what I've been doing wrong and apologize again, over a late reply? Should I leave this be and accept the worst scenario?
TL,DR: My friend asked to hang out. I said yes. I ghosted her for 3~5 days. I apologized but think she's mad. What should I do?

No dear diary this time, but dear reader,
Who downvotes here? Speak up when you don't agree, are you a wimp? a chicken, to me you are. A weak sad person.. I notice some posts are getting downvoted lately, for whatever reason. My latest post also got downvoted by someone, i had 2 okay! Today i have 1, hehe.. I know i shouldn't care, but it hurts me. And if it hurts me, i bet it hurts other people to. I was never popular and i am still not. People dislike me too for some reason. Do i want to know? Yes and no.. No, because it will hurt me. Yes, because it might be growing pains.
We are exposing thoughts and feelings here. We are opening up, sharing stuff.. I share my stuff, because i don't have anyone else to share it with and i am sorry for the shitty life you experience today (over half is your own mistake anyway), but i was there too.. i hated my life, i hated everything. And now i am finally enjoying my life again. Doing whatever the fuck i want! But soon that's over, my normal life will start again, i need to find a job, i need to give my time and energy away for probably a thing i don't care about, you think my holiday was free? I worked my ass off. (That was my life anyway, i'm gonna do a career change and i better pick something i love and care about, but there is no guarantee i will find that.) I am scared.. for what the future will bring. I am already on the half of my own life..
What i also find interesting, i can't speak for others, but i notice this with my own posts.. Positivity, being happy and content, living out your dreams, is not appreciated is it? Is it jealousy, is that what it is? I dare you downvoter, speak up! Block me for all i care! Or i will block you, but i need to know who you are. If you dare, but i already know.. you don't dare do you? How weak of you.
We got people from all walks of life here, from rich to poor, to the fortunate, to the homeless, everybody is here.
Sometimes i think, we are addicted to shit. We don't appreciate someone else's happiness. It seems like that to me.
I try to be balanced, not only happy peppy or only dark in my writings, i also have my darkside. I just choose not to focus on that all the time. I can go dark, shall i go dark? It will trigger you.. it's not nice. You will hate what i have to say. Because i will talk about life and death, mainly death. I will talk about endings and sufferings. I will talk about the horrible nature of people. I will talk about our future. Because if you ask me about the future, it's very dark. That's why i live in the moment, we will lose everything. Our precious earth, it's gonna go if we don't act soon, if it's not already to late, and i have been thinking that it's too late for more then 2 decades.. I hope i am wrong with this, but i don't see us change enough.
But today i am living it, my dreams, my wishes, my wants. And i do know, we humans will lose everything. This eternal growth we are doing as a specie is insanity. I am traveling now, because i know in the future it will be harder to do so. Prices will rise, climate change will get worse.. It's basic science.. if you paid attention in school, you would know this. If you have any interest in the world, you would already know this.
Anyway fuck you downvoter, block me, or be a man/woman and identify yourself, speak up. Not only to me, but to other people too, i am talking to you! What is your problem, ey?
Anyway, i am also sharing my good stories, because it's mainly shit isn't it? What i read here and on the other subs. i want to be that balance.. i want to show that it's possible to enjoy your own life, a living example.

What the title says.
Basically, I've been crushing hard on this girl who I'll call R that I met one day by chance due to our paths colliding. I remember one day about 2 months or so ago I saw her and 4 others talking outside one of the study rooms in the library. I had just finished meeting with the board games club I was in so I decided to approach the group since I had never seen them and because this girl made my heart skip a beat when I saw her for the first time.
Anyway, I approach them and discovered that they were a pre-med fraternity and then we all kinda shared our majors and such and had a nice round of small talk. I tell them that I'm majoring in Geography with a concentration and minoring in economics with the hope of eventually being an urban planner or ecological consultant and they all think it is cool and then, one of the pre med people says they're majoring on biochemistry and I make the joke that he's going to end up polluting or contaminating the city I work for or smth like that which ends making the whole group laugh, including R and she generally seems to enjoy my presence albeit in a non romantic way since... we had just met so I wasn't too deeply into her other than thinking ahe was pretty.
Anyway, I had to leave due to unrelated reasons and I left feeling good since I had just met some new people and because I made R laugh. Some time passes and even though I continue my life and such and I generally move on but for some reason in my unconscious mind whenever I pictured the scenario of having a loving gf, I would always picture R as being my lover which confused me since we had barely met. Anyway, after some time, I sort of admitted that I liked her and I look up the fraternity she's in and found R and some stuff about her via the fraternity's instagram and, on the advice of my cousin, I email the fraternity if they'd want to do a joint meeting with the board games club as like a fun stress relief activity since my cousin explained that when she was in college she would invite groups over for joint meetings with the clubs she was in.
Anyway, When im reading the stuff on insta, my minds going like "what the fuck, she's so similar to me" since she's majoring in public health and minoring in sociology which while those are different from what I'm studying exactly, they're pretty similar and we would have a lot to talk about if we ever went on a date since our interests seemed to align. I also discover via the same post actually that, like me, she likes her field since it gives her the chance to learn new things all the time, which is something I also think about my field, hobbies and life in general. Anyway, ik it may be weird but I felt like we were really similar people in terms of values and shit like that which, combined with her being absolutely stunning, made me begin to really like her. Anyway, I later looked up her name out of curiosity and discovered via her LinkedIn and a post my university made about her and some other pre med people and I discover that... like me, she also wants to eventually work internationally, wants to help others, and wants ti use her discipline to teach members of the public about her field to help make the world a better place. I remember after that I took my family's dog for a walk and I was just kind of emotionally paralyzed and repeating the phrase "what the fuck" in my head over and over since I wasn't expecting her to be that similar to me.
Later on, I also discovered via the same insta post as before that, as a hobby, R is also part of a Bollywood dance group at our college which, while I'm not particularly interested in dance or that style of music, is still a green flag for me since, as my joined subreddits and some posts of mine suggest, I'm an avid drummer and love to listen to and play music and even though my favorite styles are more prog and groove based stuff like jazz, djent, funk, progressive metal, fusion, latin music, samba, kletzmer(I'm also jewish and have fond memories of hearing that music when I was younger) and a pinch of Indian classical music, I can still very much use our hobbies relating to music as a fun conversation starter.
After I sent the email to the medical frat, some more time goes by and one of the members responds to me and says that the frat is doing a games thing at a local coffee shop. When I found that out, I just about jumped for joy since I thought R would be there since she was important in the frat. Anyway, I go there and she isn't there due to coincidence and whatever and I still have fun but I'm also on the verge of tears because I had been looking forward to getting the chance to talk to her in a low-key, friendly way to see where it would go.
After that, about a week passes and I'm talking about this whole thing with my therapist and how the unknown aspect of it was bothering me and she suggested that I email the person who invited to the games thing and see if him, R and others would want to hang out once finals were over and kind of see where it goes with R and because of this, I emailed the person who invited me out and now here we are.
I know my story's long but I just really adore this person so I remember even the small details of our interactions, learning about her and finding ways to meet her again but anyway, it's gushing time!
She's soooooo fucking pretty!!!!! She has this beautiful jet black hair that perfectly compliments her beautiful brown eyes and her smile could make the Mariana trench look like a disco club since it is so radiant and lovely😍. She's also sooo intelligent and I absolutely love her values and the way she wants to make the world better and help people❤️ I also can't help but marvel at how driven she is as a person too since I can relate and because I've always liked women who are intelligent and independent❤️ Lastly, she also seems like such a nice person since she was so easy to talk to during our first interaction and I just imagine us talking for hours🥰
In terms of imagining her and I and my dreams with this, I always imagine us just enjoying each other's company, us going to each other's events to support one another, us supporting each other through tough times, us communicating openly and honestly and being the type of couple who always talks things out and never goes to bed angry since we're nearly always able to work past our problems in a diplomatic way that works for both of us equally, me laying my head on her lap or vice versa while we watch movies and such, us just enjoying each other's company, her laying her head on my chest or vice versa, us doing it(this is reddit lol), and us generally just being an egalitarian, honest, communication based and happy couple😍😍😍

32m who’s been in LA for 10 years, and I’m starting to lose it. My friends are either normie, westside, or coupled up, and I need a change.
I’ve got a dumb classic car, a nice place, and a solid job, but what I really need are some interesting people to waste my time with. Whether you’re into galleries, movies, bars, restaurants, poker, chess, coffee, the park, just roaming the Eastside, let’s go be insufferable together – seeking friends and, shocker, single women.
If you’re tired of snarking away all your screen time and want to break free from the reverse CBT of the internet, let’s meet up and make this summer something.
This isn’t a subreddit meetup request – DM me if you’re in LA and reading this

I'd love to make some platonic male friends! I'm from the pacific northwest in the USA!
I love most sports, music, performing arts, movies, tv, cooking, baking, outdoor stuff, travel, some video games ( I own a Nintendo Wii), Disney & Disneyland Park, reading shopping, etc.
I only ask three things of anyone who is interested in DM'ing me :

1. Anyone interested be no younger than 25 and no older than 35. I have the age range as I feel uncomfortable talking with people younger than that age or older than that age. Please respect my comfort level
2. If your posting/commenting history is all or mostly sexual, please don't DM. I only want platonic friends and nothing sexual please
3. If you're going to ghost me at some point or delete your profile, please don't DM as that's just plain rude and inconsiderate

Looking forward to hearing from people!

Hello everyone,
I'm reaching out to inquire if any of you have experience traveling with a pet in the cabin on an intercontinental flight lasting 12 to 13 hours, I would be traveling from South America to Europe, the best option would be traveling with KLM this include a transfer at Amsterdam Schiphol Airport, before heading to Berlin. I'm particularly interested in hearing your recommendations and any challenges you may have encountered.
My furry companion is a small Shih Tzu, and I've been read that KLM airline specifies a kennel size of 46 x 28 x 24 cm for pets traveling under the front seat. However, my pet happens to be 2- 3 cm taller than the prescribed limit. I'm curious whether the airline measures the kennel or the pet before boarding. Additionally, I'm wondering if there's a possibility of upgrading to an economy comfort seat for a bit extra, particularly the ones with extra- free space in front (not the ones next to the emergency exit), and whether pets are permitted in such seating areas.
I'm concerned that the excess height might lead to a requirement for my pet to travel in the plane's cargo hold. Avoiding this scenario is my top priority.
Any insights or advice you could offer would be greatly appreciated. Thank you in advance for your assistance!

I thought it was interesting that they showed us every vote before Jeff read them tonight. I don’t remember that ever happening before.

I went to my local shelter 3 years ago looking for a dog, but I ended up with a cat who screamed at me from a kennel. She became my best friend and my baby, and she saved my life a few times when I was at my lowest. This past Sunday, she was vomiting and I took her to the vet to find that she had some intestinal blockage. $9000 in vet bills and 2 days later, they told me I could finally take her home. Right before I started heading out, she went into an unexpected cardiac arrest due to an underlying heart disease, and it took them 10 minutes of CPR to get her heart to beat again, but she was in a coma with almost no chance of waking up, and a high chance of brain damage if she does, given the seizures she was having. I had to stop her from suffering and let her go, and made the call to have her put down on my lap. I don't know what to do without her and my house doesn't feel the same now that she's gone. I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight and I could use some company. I'm down to chat, call, or play some games on PC. I promise I can be fun and interesting and I'll try not to ruin the vibe. I'd prefer someone from 18-25 and from the US if that's okay. Thank you for reading.

Hey all,
So a bit about me, I'm a 24 year old male from the USA. I'm a bit of a nerd, liking reading books (love philosophy like Hegel, I like to read Kafka and Kierkegaard as well) a bit of crime stories, some horror, some scientific non fiction books and I have a few atlases as well. I love geography. :) As of late, I haven't been as invested in my interested due to a bit of depression but I am improving quite a bit.
I love video games! I'm currently working on a few, including Black Mesa, Dark Souls III, and an unhealthy addiction to Warframe at the moment.
I also have a blog I've been working on as a bit of a passion project where I work on video games and write about them, take screenshots along the way, write out reviews and updates and so on. Would love to share if I connect with anyone :) Even just something for you to read out
I like all things astronomy as well - albeit only a casual knowledge of it. I like to build Legos, Finished the Saturn V rocket and working on the Discovery space shuttle at the moment.
I love television and movies, some of which being Seinfeld (huge nerd for that show), The Sopranos, movies like JAWS, 2001, Inception, Interstellar.
Music may be most important and closest to my heart. I love alternative music, shoegaze, classic rock, classical (classical guitar in particular <3), jazz, some metal.
I hope to hear from some friends soon! Only looking for something casual as I haven't been on this site in a long time and I'm not looking to shy away from coming back so soon.
Feel free to send a message even just to say hi, take care :)

Hi all!
I'm graduating in June with BA in Biochemistry and I'm planning to work in a research lab for 1-2 years. I'm currently an undergrad assistant in a school lab for about a year now, and I applied to our junior specialist position. My lab manager just told me that they would offer me the position if I'm certain I can commit. I was looking for other labs and opportunities and applied to a few but haven't heard back yet, and I'm not sure if I can get any offer.
I'm really torn on this because I'm doing fine in my current lab and I don't want to just pass on this offer, but I also want to try and explore new research and see what I'm truly interested in. I feel like I'm always a bit lost on this since I haven't found a focus I'm truly passionate and really want to do research on, and I know that figuring this out is very important, so I'd really like more opportunities for me to explore that.
Another thing is that I'm planning on applying for bio PhD programs next year, and I've seen people saying they are highly competitive. I think from what I've read online, my GPA isn't going to give me much advantage, so I really want to get good rec letters and do my best to build a strong personal statement to compensate. I worked in another lab before the current one, so I'm wondering if I should try to get three different lab experience and PIs as my rec letter writers, and would that be beneficial for me? I know for sure some of the programs directly specify that they want at least two rec letters from PIs.
Right now I just can't decide if I should stay in my current or wait and look for new opportunities? I'm a bit scared that if I refuse my current lab's offer and I couldn't get another one or couldn't get into a good lab afterwards would hinder everything. Any advice is appreciated!
Thank you!