Holden caulfield personality type

You know what they say, if at first you don't succeed....... ehhhh something or another. You get the point!
(P.S. pictures of me on my profile)
Searching for the "one" isnt easy, but what can we do aye? First things first, to throw some random bits of info out there about me! (Info dump incoming 😂)
I'm 24 and biracial! Half Irish and half African/northern Indian, and I'm living in the UK!
I'm approximately 6'0"-6'1" in height and id say an average/kept build. I also have somewhat long-ish hair for a guy, going near my shoulders, it's naturally straight! I also have a well kept somewhat shorter and neat beard :) I also have very fair skin. I guess I took physically more from one side of my heritage 😂🤌 I'm also a Muslim lad! So just putting that out there too for the sake of it.
I do enjoy binging on junk food but between my high metabolism and my physically active job working as an electrician (which I'm trying to fully establish myself in) I tend to never put any weight on 🤷
So! What am I looking for? Well it's a long shot. I'd like to imagine something like the female version of myself. My other half. Someone I find attractive, kind, easy going, fun to get along with, can hold a conversation without making it feel like a one sided effort and chore. Etc!
Important note!!!
IF you are not from the UK. Be aware relocating doesn't appear to be an option for me currently 😅 so bear that in mind please. I am open to a potential long distance but again. There's that.
I guess I'm the hopeless romantic type. Fantasising about soulmates, something real, serious, natural and everything great. Is that easy to obtain these days? Bruh. HECK no 😭 but can a guy try? Well, here's to hoping I suppose. Guess only time will tell
Anyone between the ages of 20-27 is welcome! Anyone who wants to actually get to know each other and dreams about something sincere and real! (With some fun stupidity and jokes thrown in there of course, that banter is a must🗿👍)
I like a woman with a little bit of confidence ya know? Probably one of the most attractive personality traits, who can hold a conversation and engage with the other person you know? Nothing more off putting than someone who gives single worded dead replies lol
Here's a bit more about me. My hobbies! my hobbies are various. I'd argue I'm an ambivert. Though my main hobbies lean towards something a little more introverted. You have hiking and the likes as well as going out with friends and driving around at night with them, but then you also have gaming which is a huge hobby of mine!! Well probably the thing I do most consistently 😭
So yeah! There's my shot being let out. I'd say I consider myself to be an honest and open book and would like someone who is open, honest and sincere in the same way!
Oh! And my preferred platform is Snap (:
So. Here's to hoping!

"i've never met someone like you, you're the type of person you meet maybe once or twice in a lifetime, i am not the person for you, you are very unique"
(skip half of this since its just context)
it hurt. so bad. almost every single one of my relationships ended in some form of the above. No, im not smart, or a flawless person, thats not what they mean, they mean i'm a literal unique individual that words fail to describe, unique is "the goal" as someone said, but you know what that also means? almost everyone is ordinary, and they are intimidated in ways that even though they're attracted to me, they feel as if they are not the one for me because i am so different than them, regardless of shared hobbies and shared interests. i find it to be a literal curse. because i have yet to meet this somehow elusive "unique" individual for myself that they believe ill find. i never had an issue with my ex's at all.
im not rich, im not someone highly educated. my personality is simply.. mine. mine and mine alone apparently. i feel VERY isolated. VERY lonely. i was told the words free spirited and unique as a child and now these words CONTINUE to haunt me as an adult. I AM TIRED. it never brought me friends, i was too weird, i didn't hold or speak the same as others, yes im ND but i dont get why i need to find someone who is just "equal" to me?
unique was never a compliment. unique was never something i asked for. i just dont understand what people mean. when i think of unique people, i think of some of the most isolated and unfortunate people in the world. i think of women like Marilyn Monroe, intelligent, misunderstood, someone who had love to give. I am destined to be the same fate..?

Okay I know this is not an intp specific issue but I’m just curious if it's more prevalent amongst my type than I initially thought.
Most of my life I’ve just been used to being adopted by other extroverts or making friends due to forced proximity (living close to each other). I found that now working full time and living alone, it’s extremely difficult to make friends if u have 0 connections before in a new place.
Before, I never tried reaching out first cause I’m afraid of rejection but now, in my current situation, I do and often find myself not receiving the same level of reciprocity. Rinse and repeat, I do this with everyone I think I could become close to but it never amounts to anything. Of course I never overdue it cause I hate being a burden lol.
I have no idea if some aspect of my personality is off-putting or unattractive to explain why this happens. It’s a similar story to old friends who I am not longer in close proximity. They never reach out to me, so I stopped trying too.
Note: I also do mask a lot, especially to new people so my 100% authentic self is not out there. I’d say 60%??? Which I also found does not align with many people so maybe I’m just too strange and socially awkward? But I do well at networking events tho. . . I really don't know what’s wrong with me

Early today, many apes were asking if DFV is going to start live streaming again because of the Fight Club speech tweet.
I don’t think he will, and here’s why. Our image of the Kitty/DFV right now is exactly what we needed and he knows that. That’s what he’s trying to convey. I think giving us more insight to Keith and his thoughts and theories take away from the power of the mysteriousness. Roaring Kitty (his YouTube stream) was the perfect set up to become DFV.
What I want to do is think about this from his perspective. Forget the fact that he’s a time traveling god (true). Forget that he knows what’s going on (also obviously true) and just think about the ride he’s been on. It’s a classic coming of age story for a hero.
Keith Gill was once just a young husband and dad, trading stocks by day, live streaming by night to his four followers. It was life as an every day man in Boston. He was Roaring Kitty. He was incredibly kind, intelligent, and positive. An absolute gem of a human. He was what any of us could have considered to be a good person and friend. He was also wicked smart and most importantly, right.
But then, like many classic heroes (Luke Skywalker, Katniss Everdeen, Frodo Baggins, Harry Potter) he accidentally found himself centered in this midst of chaos caused by other forces (hedge funds) at a time with lots of unrest (COVID/Politics/Wagrowing income inequality). He did something that the masses saw as bigger than he meant.
The people took Roaring Kitty and we turned him into DFV, this larger than life, always had the answer, could save us type of archetype hero.
Imagine you were in his shoes. Husband, father to a young child, newly a huge millionaire, but the face of a revolution, which you don’t ask for. Movies being made about you, people setting up camp in front of your house, everyone knows who you are. You were just trading stocks.
Now, in Feb 2021, you have a choice. You have become rich and the power holders are after you. You see all the DD about how rigged the game is and how the rich continue to get richer - do you ride off into the sunset and leave the regular apes that you now know are getting screwed, or do you do something about it?
I think with several of these tweets, he’s been basically saying “I chose to stay”. Specifically, with the Fight Club tweet, Edward Norton’s character is going around town and average people are saying that they inspired him, just like what almost certainly had happened with Roaring Kitty. He’s the perfect example of what we want our heroes to be, and we took Roaring Kitty and turned him into DFV.
And now he’s accepting that. He sees what’s going on, he understands he has the power to change things, he’s willing to put himself at great personal risk to stand with us.
Honestly, when we win, I hope this is the story that’s told and that people understand. Keith didn’t ask for this, we asked for DFV. The masses need a leader, and after 3 years, he’s now saying “look, I’m not doing any of this shit, but I understand why I matter to you. I am here, and answering the call the way I know best. Memes and hype”.
Kitty isn’t a god, he isn’t a time traveler, he isn’t omnipotent, but he is a normal person that has stepped up and that’s why we should admire him. He probably has the same fear that any of us would have, more so than we would have, but he’s telling us he’s with us anyway. I do think He’s very smart and has most importantly, put in the work. I do think he has more info than we do. But honestly, it’s better for us if we don’t get to be part of his brainstorming. He’s gonna get things wrong, and it’s better for us if we don’t see that. The image of DFV is more important than the thoughts of roaring Kitty (at the moment).
One of my favorite moments in a story to illustrate the idea of a reluctant hero, forced into action for the good of the people is when Frodo says to Gandalf “I wish the Ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had happened.”
And Gandalf responds: “So do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”
And Keith has decided to be DFV, the ring bearer, the mocking jay, the chosen one, the one who brings balance to the force. I see you and thank you , Keith, Kitty, DFV.

Well, I got laid off today. First time I've ever been fired or laid off. The CEO or his wife, the supposed CFO, didn't even have the hutzpah to do it themselves. They had my friend, a fellow manager, and the sweet HR manager do it for them. Either way, it was neither unexpected nor unwelcome. On the upside, I will soon have an interview for a job that is about 5 minutes away! I'm waiting for confirmation of the time tomorrow. I can walk there on nice days in about 30 minutes without breaking a sweat. I can drive there in 5-10 minutes, traffic dependent. For comparison, I currently drive 34 miles each direction through one of the worst traffic jams in the area. I'm not going to miss that. I could use a little advice. The new job is basically administrative assistant for a wealth management company. I do have some financial experience as I have my health and life licenses in a few states, but that line of work didn't work out for me. What does work out, has always worked out, is administrative type work. I've been an office manager for the past 10 years, and I have skills and knowledge in a bunch of industries.

1. What should I ask them? Seriously, I'm sure I'm asking the stupidest possible questions at my interviews. I'm not the people person, but if anything there are too many articles about this out there. Tell me what you asked that got you your job. They always say, "Do you have any questions?"
   
2. Should I buy a new suit? The website has a "meet the team" page and they are ALL dressed business business, not even business casual. I've worked in the call center and tech industry for years, so dress is casual casual. Should I walk by there sometime and peek in? Drive by? Would that be creepy? Anyway, I don't have a proper suit, I don't think - so I guess I just answered my own question.
   
3. Do you have any other substantial advice? I would appreciate whatever you think will help.
   

It seems to me from what I’ve been reading and the way the game plays that it’s not just encouraged but almost forced to choose a main weapon type and build your character and perks around that. For my personal play style I like to carry a variety of weapons that I switch to and use depending on the situation, for example I might use a long range rifle to stealth kill enemies until I’m noticed and then rush in with a rifle or handgun and then if anything comes close pull out a shotgun or melee weapon. Seems you can’t do that in this game because if you don’t have all the perks for a particular weapon type you do shit all damage and get overwhelmed in seconds. And unless you have perks for carry weight reduction, it’s not plausible to carry multiple types of weapon because you end up being overencumbered 90% of the time you play. I really want to be able to use whatever I want, whenever without feeling limited and weighed down, like in previous Fallout games, but I feel like I’m spending more time in my sessions crawling to my stash box and scrapping items then I am exploring and actually playing the game and it’s really putting me off. Sure I can equip all the perks for a single weapon type and only carry a couple of those with me but it really spoils my enjoyment of the game. Hate to be so negative, I am enjoying it a lot but this is really bogging me down at the moment. I don’t get much time to play as it is so I don’t really want to spend most of my time managing my inventory and adjusting my character build so I can survive basic encounters instead of just hopping on and immersing myself for an hour or so.

For reference… I am NOT the type of person who believes in the meaning of dreams, “signs”, and all that kind of stuff. (No judgement to those who do, it’s just not something I’ve ever been into!)
I was not trying to get pregnant, and I had no suspicion that I was. I hadn’t even missed my period! I have dreams about being pregnant all the time, so I was super weirded out when I had a very clear dream urging me to test. I felt so dumb reaching for the test that I put it back down. A few hours later I got a nagging feeling again. I took the test and walked away from it, because it was so stupid that I was testing because of a weird dream.
“YES +”
No way. That weird dream was making me see things that weren’t true. Went to CVS and bought a 5 pack of tests, two lines on each. I was absolutely blown away. I seriously had no suspicion of pregnancy.
After telling my therapist this story, I was convinced she’d think I was nuts. She told me that this is actually a fairly common occurrence.
Has this happened to you?
I think I will pay attention to dreams from now on!

Hellooo c: I’m 22 with 10+ years of experience, looking for a long term romantic roleplay where we both be invested in our characters relationship and world building! I do MxF playing either gender, but I have slight preference for playing male. I absolutely love brainstorming drama, gushing about possible scenarios and overall I just adore the process of creating these dynamics between two different personalities and perspectives. I’d love it to be like we’re writing a novel together!
Length wise, I prefer at least a paragraph or two for each reply, though depending on the where we are in the plot, quick back and forths can be okay too. For starters I’d expect a bit longer. Things I won’t reply to (sorry!) * One liners * First person * Asterisks, slashes, etc. I prefer real face claims but might be okay with realistic art, nothing anime or overly cartoonish. I’d ideally like to roleplay with someone 20+.
I totally get that life gets in the way and that replying every day can be a hastle. Depending on my muse, I can reply multiple times a day to once every three days, maybe even once a week, but I will do my best to communicate with you. Even if you drop off the face of the earth and return months later and want to continue our plot, that’s okay with me!
If you’re interested please pm me! Include your age, types of plots or tropes you enjoy, and if you’d like maybe even a roleplay example. I have quite a few plots I have in mind but would love to develop something new with you. Looking forward to hearing from you guys ✨

Aka a thinly veiled rant about the good and bad sides of 3.23 from the view of my group so far.
Aka our perspective and complaints. This is me/us letting off steam not hating on the game. We love it, we're playing it more 2mrw. It's great.
The main Reason it is being put to text is because it seems all too common for events to end with big updates that break parts of them. It's concerning how often the final week is unplayable and IIRC last time even got extended, right?
AS is, Xenothreat was fun, even if we cant finish it ourselves~
Let me preface this by saying, fuck yes, 3.23 has performance wise netted some of the FPS I have ever experienced in Star Citizen and the Server Replication has saved me from frustrations so many times already. I know some people were afraid it would be another 3.18, but by god it might be my favorite update so far.
Let's start with a positive change; Master Modes. I know some people hate them, but I have to say I love them. I find them to be more responsive for some reason, I like the new Quantum overlays albeit GM and MM are almost as bad as feet as far as measurements go.
The Gimbal Changes I will have to get used to, mostly because at this point in time as a fixed gun purist I really have no idea what gimbals do anymore and am too afraid to ask.
HUD 2.0 is a godsent, the map, the new icons, the way it just works and doesn't get halfway covered up by my arm all the time. I think nothing has delighted me as much in an update as this ever, at least not in star citizen. Kudos to the devs on this one it is one of very few changes in SC where I believe most players can't help but like it more than its predecessor.
Let's move straight to the main reason 3.23 so far has left a sour taste in my mouth. Xenothreat Overdrive.
Me and my group had not been able to play at all during 3.22 with bugs and just straight up login errors galore so we decided when 3.23 went live, "You know what, we have a week of free time let's do a phase a week." so lemme break it down into our attempts so far and the absolute downfall of a great event at least in OUR community.
Day 1: Intel Raids, they were great fun. The Intel raids pretty much went from "this fuckery is broken" to a nice few rounds of bunkers with purpose. Our first Intel Raid had no card spawn. Ai stuck in unreachable places still shooting and multiple lacks of rendering screens, so we learned our lesson early. Bring Tigerclaws like a madman , abort and restart the screen until it works and stay safe.
The Gameloop itself was good fun both solo and in a group and overall I could see myself doing this type of mission over and over for the right pay (Personally I'd prolly consider doing it for 20k solo). Once we learned the few tips and tricks, it all worked fine and we left for day two in high spirits.
Day 2: Priority Targets, Introducing the Star Teenagers favorite Dance "The Server Hop" We all like space fights, so seeing we only had to do three of them filled us with a bit of sadness beforehand but we thought we could bash out three in the nine hours we had put aside easy and move on to Phase 3.
God we were wrong. In total it took us seven attempts to get our first card, not because we died or a server crashed but because the cards simply did not spawn. QT'd in and out. Flew away and back and even waited up to half an hour. Nothing helped but hop servers try again, Hop servers try again, which then led us to with a good few tries under our belt getting our third card after a frustrating and admittedly mediocre night of Star Citizen.
It's essentially just a bounty with double the Quantum Jumps needed, though we had to say 3.23s AI really makes you consider if you wanna take any fighters into a fight against ballistic Valks.
Day 3, The Breaking, the Fuckening, the examples for haters to feed upon.
Fleet battles against five hammerheads and their escorts? Server Wide assaults? Lets go! Or so we thought as here are just a few issues we had before even getting to the event.

• Corsairs cant leave the hangar because of a massive hitbox in front of them.
• Stations suddenly engage our ships despite 0 crimestat (netted us almost 7 deaths throughout these 3 days)
• Asteroid fields not rendering
• Entire FLEETS not rendering.

Those of course are just serverside issues and honestly, We are used to those by now aren't we, we know not to let them infuriate us~ We still love this game after all.
And then came the fights... oh boy.

• We spent about 3/10h we played not getting the mission, having to serverhop as once one player died all ships suddenly disappeared and became "missionmarker_xyz" instead.
• The ballistics on Cutty blacks shreds (Aint bad but oh boy was it unexpected)
• Hammerheads rubberband like crazy, no other ships did, just them. And being QT Jumped by a hammerhead only to die instantly ain't fun.
• ARMISTICE ZONES being serverwide causing you to be unable to even fight.
• Lagging ships one-shotting you with a rocket they never fired on any of your orgmates screens.

And then there was the biggest offender. The Gladius. We would love to fight them, but they don't want to fight us. Instead the Xenothreat pilots all embraced their inner Fanatic and Suicide Rammed our ships multiple times.
We counted almost 10 attempts in total and we ain't talking maneuvers here accidentally flying into them. We are talking nearly stationary ships from our end, being boosted into by a Gladius.
10h later, we didn't complete one bit of Phase 3.
Did we expect to finish XT in one week? Honestly not but it's still sad that its impossible because of such disheartening factors.
Do we expect CIG to lengthen the even into 3.23.1? Not really.
Do we expect anything we experienced to be normal to all other people? Also no.
This was but a rant by someone who loves this game and plays it with a passion letting out the steam I built up over hours of playing it and being kept from playing it~
CIG, we love you, but whatever you gave that AI, please take it back.
On a more positive note though~<3
a positive change; Master Modes. I know some people hate them, but I have to say I love them. I find them to be more responsive for some reason, I like the new Quantum overlays albeit GM and MM are almost as bad as feet as far as measurements go.
The Gimbal Changes I will have to get used to, mostly because at this point in time as a fixed gun purist I really have no idea what gimbals do anymore and am too afraid to ask.
HUD 2.0 is a godsent, the map, the new icons, the way it just works and doesn't get halfway covered up by my arm all the time. I think nothing has delighted me as much in an update as this ever, at least not in star citizen. Kudos to the devs on this one it is one of very few changes in SC where I believe most players can't help but like it more than its predecessor.

If you don't wanna read my nonsense that's totally fine I wanna hear ur methods and processes anyway ! My situation, Just to preface, I am in therapy but the day to day is so grueling that 50 minutes of chatting per week isn't enough for me rn. I know this shit takes time and I'll probably look back at this and cringe. I guess I have a history of crummy relationships where I try to fix it all when it starts going south, spent a while alone figuring out my patterns then met my ex. We had a lowkey amazing 2 years together; I've never been understood and understanding of someone else like that before. I never saw a true chance of a future with someone. It was going great, wanted to move to another state, looked around Zillow together for a while then signed the lease together. he changed his mind in the midst of our drive to the new place. I knew I'd regret not full sending, so I took on the lease alone knowing I might be breaking us up - he said he wanted to get his stuff together and meet me here when his lease is up, any time we saw each other he said he'd be here beside me soon. Well - he told me a week ago he isn't in a position to move (I get it) and that he loves me, but he hates his life situation and just doesn't want to move right now; I literally have not heard from him since. I tried to be understanding and took time to come up with an "I can't imagine feeling the way you do, I'm here for you, what do you think this means for us?" Type message. I'd just visited him a couple months ago and he said I'm his person, he never wanted to break up; I hope yall trust I gave him every opportunity to open up the past few months about any doubts or worries he had, he eventually distanced himself out of my life completely, he's isolating from all of his friends too. My therapist says he's ashamed of his position in life (he says he hates himself etc etc and I know I can't fix that even tho I lowkey think I could bc his family has told him for years he isn't good enough and stuff I'm sure he's internalized) ANYWAY I guess context doesn't matter because he won't talk to me now 😀 so not only am I mourning the loss of the good 2 years, (I really thought he was 'the one' which makes me feel so silly and dumb in todays society but fml), but I have to start settling into a new TOWN and STATE and apartment I thought I'd be sharing with him. It's so scary to imagine finding a new group of friends and stuff alone. I know I'm strong and did it all despite the struggle and all the shit I should tell myself to boost myself up, my therapist said I need to "let myself be a 22 year old going through a break up," and not rush my process - but I don't even know how to process this. I know he's on his own journey, I can't dwell on whether he's struggling or finding other people to replace the idea of me, (I know I shouldn't check or care but he's using social media he'd never used when we were together like Snapchat and our mutual friends say he has a habit of sabotaging things when they get good - kinda implying if he did find someone else it wouldn't end any better for him but that doesn't comfort me at all lmao) I have to figure my shit out. I want to cry in a ball all the time but also bash on myself for staying in bed and not being "productive," whatever that means. I normally stand my ground and speak my mind, but when I get into a lovergirl relationship it seems like all hope for me goes out the window. It feels so hard to find someone who accepts all of the weird shit I have to offer, I guess I'm scared I won't find that again but I'm more so just so sad that it wasn't him
If you read this far, you're so real for that thank u. I'm just sad asf trying not to resent him or myself for being 13 hours away from my friends and family. Why would he move me out here and then dump me :/ I tried so hard to be the best; it scares me too in the future I could meet someone and it be better, then end up the same way. I just want to find someone to figure it all out with. I thought I did. It was so good before I moved, and I'll never know what we could've done together if he took the chance. I can't imagine he would initially sign the lease if he never wanted to but maybe I was really misunderstanding the whole time. I guess as a "see a problem fix it" type, I just can't grasp avoidance

The scene faded back in to a shot of the team and host in the prison courtyard, the two groups of teens each standing by a dirty laundry cart. "Elimination challenge!" Chris exclaimed happily. "Here we go! No 'Get Out of Jail Free' cards here, people! This, is 'Escape from Total Drama Pen.'!" The camera quick-panned away from Chris' close-up to one of the carts.
"Each team must hop in their laundry carts, while one member pushes through the obstacle course to freedom!" As he spoke, the scene flashed to a shot of wooden dummies dressed like prison guards with automatic swinging arms, and then again to a pair of narrow platforms over a water pool with large sandbags swinging back and forth between them, and once more to the prisoner dummies with various sharp objects attached to their hands.
"When you reach the wall," Chris continued as the camera moved back to the group shot, "get diggin'! First team to reach the boxcar to freedom wins immunity!" The shot quick-panned over to a pair of boxcars sitting on a small section of rail tracks. "Convicts, select a pusher!"
"I'll do it!" Chase and Sky volunteered simultaneously, and the two quickly turned their heads to each other.
"I'll be the one to push for us!" Jasmine declared to the Grips. "Does anybody have a problem with that?" she asked her team, who were already starting to climb into the cart.
"I don't," Millie said as she got on.
"You are our best option," Anne Maria added as she hopped onto the cart.
Jasmine smiled. "Excellent!"
Confessional: Jasmine
“When you have long legs, speed can come off as an attribute,” Jasmine confessed.
Confessional Ends
"Not to be a jerk or anything," Chase said as the focus moved back to the Gaffers, "but I want to be the one who pushes, not you."
"Only one of us can do it, and it should be me," Sky offered.
"I know we won the shovel, but the Grips have Jasmine pushing for them," Chase argued, “and if we want to beat them, we'll need a lot of speed coming from me.”
"You're not the only one who's been on a track team," Sky protested. “I practice track at my school in order to prep myself for the Olympics.”
"I have longer legs than you," Chase pointed out, "and that'll at least make us on par with the other team."
“This bickering is not helping us,” Sky groaned and turned to her team. "So team, who do you want to drive the cart? Me or Chase?"
"I say Chase," Ripper said first. “Sky's not Sonic fast.”
"Well I think Sky should push us," Scott declared. “Chase being on the track team is more of a hobby to him.”
"To break the tie, I'll go with Sky," MK said. "She is the team's leader."
Chase sighed. "Alright!" He walked towards the cart. "But if we don't win, it's not coming back to me."
Confessional: Sky
“Me and MK don't know each other well, and she is generally not cordial, but I do have to thank her for having my back in the situation,” Sky explained.
Confessional: MK
“The way I see it, if Sky loses the cart challenge for us, me and Scott can use that as a reason to pick her off,” MK told the audience. “With her and Trent's love plot coming to a halt, there's no need to keep her in the game any longer.”
Confessionals End
"This is it, teams," Chris announced as the two groups were shown in their starting positions – most of the teams in their carts, with Jasmine and Sky ready to push. "On your marks...," the host said as a few deep notes began the fast-paced music that would play during the challenge, "get set...escape!"
The two started pushing immediately, and Jasmine managed to get an early lead for the Grips. However, Sky was gaining momentum, and the two kicked up a cloud of dust behind them as they entered the first obstacle – the sharp-handed prisoner dummies. The camera watched from above as they weaved around and through the field in different directions, and at one point it looked like their paths were going to intersect. The two girls briefly locked eyes and steeled themselves as their carts bounced off each other, rattling their teammates inside.
The viewpoint shifted to show the start of the next obstacle – the narrow platforms over water, with large bags already swinging back and forth threateningly. Sky pushed her team up onto the platform, and the focus moved ahead to Jasmine doing the same as well. The people in the carts ducked down to get away from the swinging bags. However, Anne Maria's big hair stuck up enough for one of the bags to brush past it, which slowed it down enough that Jasmine ran face-first into it while she had been distracted looking back at the other team. It knocked her down and caused her to let go of the cart, which managed to keep rolling along without her.
"We can use this to our advantage!" Ripper barked. "Keep it steady and we can catch up!"
"I got it!" Sky picked up her pace. She managed to get them past Jasmine and another two bags and they caught up to the Grips' cart, which had stopped at the end of the second obstacle. The viewpoint shifted to show them watching in shock as the Gaffers approached unsteadily, with Jasmine running just inches behind them.
Just as Sky was getting the groove of pushing the cart, a bag hit her in the head, which caused her to lose her balance and the front left wheel of the Gaffers' cart to leave the platform as it rapidly approached the end of the second obstacle, and the camera zoomed in as it dipped down and hit the corner where the narrow platform ended, causing the cart to spill forward.
"Hurry up!" Anne Maria commanded as Jasmine retook control over the Grips’ cart and sped forward, past the pile of Gaffers and into the final obstacle.
The camera followed them as they weaved through the guard-dummies, becoming more and more excited as they neared the wall. "Alright," Jasmine said. "We're getting closer to victory!"
A second passed in silence as they kept going at the same speed. "Uhh, Jasmine?" Justin said nervously as he eyed the approaching wall.
"We can stop now!" Millie notified.
Their words caused her to skid to a stop just in front of the wall. "Thanks for the warning," Jasmine said as her teammates breathed a sigh of relief.
"We may not have a shovel," Brick told his team with a spoon in hand, "but we must make do with what we have."
“Go go!" Jasmine eagerly ordered everyone out the cart. “Hop to it like kangaroos!” They all ran over to the large 'X' and started digging.
"Well this is just great!" Ripper complained as he, MK, Chase, and Scott picked themselves up off the ground, and Sky turned their cart back upright. "We're behind the Grips!"
“This is why I should've been the driver,” Chase spoke out. “I would have been able to avoid those bags.”
"None of this is our fault," Sky said. "We can still catch up to the Grips if we don't start arguing with each other."
The footage flashed ahead, showing the Gaffers sitting in the laundry cart with Sky pushing them through the final obstacle. Moments later they arrived at the wall, a hole and sizable dirt pile already by their opponent's cart. The four Gaffers hopped out, and Sky took the shovel out of her pocket.
"Jump right to it, team," Sky ordered. "We have a lot to dig!"
The camera flashed to Chris and Chef at the finish line, Chris sitting on the entrance of a boxcar while Chef leaned against it. "So..." Chris asked. "You ever seen that prison flick? The one with the guy in it? You know? The guy with that face?" Chef rolled his eyes and shook his head.
"So are you doing anything after work?" the host asked awkwardly. "We could always rent a-" He noticed the look on the cook's face and amended, "or not. I was... busy... anyway. Very busy. I'm just… throwing it out there."
The scene changed to a side view of the Grips in their tunnel, Jasmine hastily digging in front with her spoon.
"We're making good progress so far," Jasmine said. "Even if we're stuck with spoons."
"I can hear them ahead of us now," Millie said. "Wouldn't it be faster if we helped dig too?"
"Ten hands are better than two," Jasmine agreed.
Confessional: Jasmine
“After losing two challenges in a row, the Grips really need to bounce back this time,” Jasmine stated. “I've watched enough prison movie like “Holes” and “The Shawshank Redemption” to understand which spots are easier to dig out first.”
Confessional Ends
Another flash took the scene back to the Gaffers, Ripper being the one using the shovel to dig in the front.
"I'm not lying when I say that we're going to win," Ripper said as he kept digging.
"The Grips may have gotten here before us, but they have spoons and we have a shovel," Chase added.
“And it's all thanks to me!” MK cheered before catching sight of Scott's glare. “And Scott as well.”
Confessional: MK
“Right. Forgot the basic concept of teamwork,” MK sheepishly confessed. “Usually I always fly solo in everything I do, except group projects, and most of the time, I have to do everything because my supposed group members are uncooperative.”
Confessional Ends
The Gaffers heard a sudden rumble, causing them to stop in their tracks. A hand burst out of the dirt, creating a hole that increases thanks to a familiar head sticking their head out.
“Izzy?!” the team cries out at the sight of her. The psycho hose beast had fake buck teeth in her mouth and a camo hat with sticks sticking out on top, and she chittered in response.
“Yep. That's her,” Chase confirmed.
“Yeah, I've been living underground amongst the prairie dogs,” Izzy explained as one of the prairie dogs popped up and angrily chittered at the team.
“Aw, Butchie, it's okay,” Izzy assured the creature. “These are my friends.”
“Are you here to help us or…” Scott started to ask.
“Of course! Follow me, I know a shortcut to the finish line!” Izzy said.
“A shortcut?” Sky felt uneasy.
“Of course,” Ripper scoffed. “Why spend hours digging when you can finish faster?”
Confessional: Sky
"I'm not the type to cheat whenever I'm in a competition, and taking shortcuts is the easy way out," Sky explained in the confessional trailer, "but I don't really have a choice here."
Confessional Ends
“And of course, I became the second in command prairie dog,” Izzy told her team a story as they moved through the shortcut, “which meant I shared all the prairie dog council meetings and oh, oh! Here we are!”
“Finally! I need to get out of this hole!” Chase said and crawled faster.
The viewpoint moved to the surface as rock got pushed out of the way and Chase emerged from beneath. "You've got to be kidding," he muttered in annoyance.
The camera moved again, showing that the Grips’ tunnel had come up in front of the boxcars. All members of the Killer Grips were celebrating in front, while Chris and Chef watched.
"We lost?" Izzy said as she emerged from her hole.
"Yes, we did," Chase told her as he and the other Gaffers got out of the hole. "And aren't you out of the game? We did vote you off."
“Uh-uh. You voted off Kaleidoscope,” Izzy rebutted.
A flash took the scene back to the third episode's elimination with Izzy, Ripper, and Chase in the bottom three. “Izzy! Time to go!” Chris announced.
“I'm not going anywhere,” Izzy objected. “That's not my name.”
“Can I get a pen over here?” Chris raised his hand in annoyance. A pen was given to him, and he started to write on the paper. “It says "E-Scope" now, okay?!”
Izzy stubbornly stayed in her seat, and Chris looked over to his side. “Yo guys. Want to make sure we keep this ballot in the files as an official record of Kaleidoscope's departure?” he asked as he continued to scribble. “I'll notarize it. Foresight. That's why they pay me the big bucks.”
The flashback ended and the focus returned to the Gaffers. “So technically, Izzy's still in the game!” Sky realized.
Confessional: MK
“I didn't expect this to happen, but I'll allow it if it means I get an extra vote for tonight's elimination ceremony,” MK said.
Confessional Ends
A flash took the scene to the craft services tent, the camera lingering on an outside shot before cutting to Chef at the counter while the Grips ate at their table in the foreground.
“It's such a relief to have finally won a challenge after losing the past two ones,” Brick started to say.
“Well, this is an effect of Trent not being around to lose for us,” Justin said. “We made the right decision voting him off last time.”
“Even with the other team getting Izzy back, they're still going to lose a member,” Anne Maria remarked. “It's sorta a win-win for us.”
The footage skipped ahead, showing Ripper and Scott sitting around in their trailer before MK joined them.
"Okay, look," MK said as she addressed the two boys, "we have to vote Sky off tonight. She's helpful, sure, but she'd be hard to beat if the teams merge."
"I second that," Scott nodded. "She also slowed us down in the cart portion of the challenge."
"I told you guys that Chase should've pushed for us, but you didn't listen," Ripper huffed.
“I convinced Izzy to help us with the vote, and Chase won't be necessary since he and Sky have some sort of friendship with each other,” MK said.
"As long as we have the majority, we're all set to go," Scott said with a wink.
The theme of the Gilded Chris ceremony began to play, accompanied by the standard introduction sequence. It faded into a long-distance shot of the award stage, the camera zooming in as the theme came to an end. The six Gaffers cast their votes, the camera panning down from Chase and MK in the top row, to Izzy and Scott in the middle, and Ripper and Sky at the bottom.
"Time's up!" Chris announced excitedly. "I'll tally the votes!" He held up a device similar to the voting pads, and began to read off names. "Chase, Scott, Izzy, and MK." Each name was accompanied by the sound of an award getting thrown and caught and the four were shown holding their latest prizes. "Another award, and another day to compete."
The host held up the final award. "Tonight's final Gilded Chris and another chance at the million goes to…" he said as Ripper and Sky were shown watching nervously, "...Ripper!"
The aforementioned contestant caught his prize as Sky felt disappointed with the results.
Confessional: Sky
“I didn't want to vote for Chase and Izzy and MK and Scott helped out with the challenge, even if they're unsportsmanlike,” Sky explained. “I talked to Chase and Izzy about voting for Ripper since he didn't do much today, but I guess Izzy chose to vote off someone else.”
Confessional: Ripper
“Voting for Sky didn't hurt one bit,” Ripper confessed. “Like MK said, she's really athletic and could easily win the season if we chose to eliminate somebody else tonight.”
Confessional: Izzy
“Even though I was told to vote off specific people, I decided to go with voting MK,” Izzy admitted. “I still remember how she acted during last season's dodgeball challenge.”
Confessionals End
The footage flashed forward, showing Sky on the red carpet getting handcuffed by Chef.
"Dead girl walking!" Chef called out before escorting the eliminated contestant.
"Hold on!" the voice of MK cried out as she ran up to the two. “Leave her and take me!”
“Sure. Whatever,” Chef took the handcuffs off Sky and offered them to MK.
“I was kidding!” MK pushed the cuffs away from her. “Like I'd willingly quit the game. I'm just here to see the loser off.” She looked at the slightly taller girl teasingly. “I'm sure you'll be happily reunited with Trent the Challenge Thrower.”
"As long as I'm not on a team with someone as underhanded as you," Sky retorted as she grabbed the handcuffs and walked past the now miffed girl, "I'll be happy anywhere."
The Gilded Chris theme began to play as Chris turned to the camera. "Folks are getting feisty!" he said. "The Gaffers just lost their best player and team leader this early in the game, and with her out of the way, how low will this team sink just to win? Tune in next week to find out on Total! Drama! Action!"
(Roll the Credits)
(Bonus Clip)
Sky was sitting in the back of the Lame-o-sine as she looked at the window. "You know what’s ironic?" she started. "Trent outlasted me last season by one episode, and now the same thing occurred, only with the roles reversed." She turned her head to look at the camera. "I wish I could've stayed on the show longer and prove that I'm more than Trent's athletic girlfriend, but I'm pretty sure the fans know that I have a distinct personality."
"If there's one thing I can say about my performance, it's that I didn't do anything questionable or controversial that could be used against me in the future or vilify me." She paused for a moment and blinked. "What do you mean Aftermath?"
Eva - 14th
Geoff - 14th
Izzy - RETURNED
Trent - 12th
Sky - 11th
Killer Grips: Anne Maria, Brick, Jasmine, Justin, Millie
Screaming Gaffers: Chase, Izzy, MK, Ripper, Scott

Writing is wonderful, isn't it?
I'm Zach. I'm in the information technology sector by trade, but a writer otherwise. I work with interactive fiction, currently delving into two of my latest projects (one based in my high-fantasy universe that's been in development for over ten years!)
Anyways. That's a small tidbit, but I've got something better formatted.
What's my Age?: Twenty-Five (25).
Where am I located?: Columbus, Ohio!
Why'd I make this post?: The truth is simple. I'm looking for friends, people that I can grow with, get to know, and if something further emerges - so be it. Above all, personality is a key cornerstone for me. I can work with differing hobbies, cultures, and lifestyles, as long as you can do the same.
What's my Fatal-Flaw?: I'm loyal to a fault. It's screwed me over a bit in the past, but I've since worked to correct it. Nonetheless, I stick my neck out for those I've grown to care for.
How about some hobbies?: Alright, let's line 'em up!

• Writing. I've adored working with interactive fiction, and have multiple novels in development and in the publishing stages. With a little magic and a bit of luck, I'll be a published name pretty soon.
  
• Gaming. I'm into a variety of genres. These range from strategy to RPG, to MMO, to shooters, and beyond. Co-op tends to be a specialty of mine, though I'm quite flexible.
  
• Game-Development. This binds together with writing - especially interactive fiction. I love crafting interactive universes that others can delve into. Dynamic stories filled with choice and riveting corners down every turn. There are so many options to explore, so many characters to meet, befriend, antagonize, and more!
  
• Walks. I love exploring, and taking random walks throughout areas is a favorite of mine. Especially if there's food around to grab a bite of!
  
• Travel. Similar to above. Traveling is a favorite. I'd love to take a trip throughout Europe eventually, or one that winds through the entirety of the U.S. over a two-week extravaganza. What's your dream destination?
  
• Cheese-Making. This one's pretty new, and I'm still in the studying stages. I'm planning on getting into the craft of making cheese. Working with the cultures, ensuring I can create different types, and taste-testing with others. My goal in the long term is to create an artisan business if I can!
  

What's your career?: Currently, I work in the information technology field as a Support Engineer. I'm still quite passionate about what I do, but my long-term goal is to create a self-sustainable income from my writing endeavors.
Lastly, what are some random fun facts about you?: Lining them up!

• I'm credited in a critically acclaimed video game.
  
• My friends find me weird for adoring cottage cheese.
  
• I'm an avid dog lover who has a pitty-girl that's a rescue!
  
• Lastly, I can spend an entire night talking about anything at random, especially if a friend needs a distraction.
  

Anyways. It's been fun. I'd love to get to know you, so feel free to send me a message! Take care, and have a wonderful afternoon!
~Zach

Writing is wonderful, isn't it?
I'm Zach. I'm in the information technology sector by trade, but a writer otherwise. I work with interactive fiction, currently delving into two of my latest projects (one based in my high-fantasy universe that's been in development for over ten years!)
Anyways. That's a small tidbit, but I've got something better formatted.
What's my Age?: Twenty-Five (25).
Where am I located?: Columbus, Ohio!
Why'd I make this post?: The truth is simple. I'm looking for friends, people that I can grow with, get to know, and if something further emerges - so be it. Above all, personality is a key cornerstone for me. I can work with differing hobbies, cultures, and lifestyles, as long as you can do the same.
What's my Fatal-Flaw?: I'm loyal to a fault. It's screwed me over a bit in the past, but I've since worked to correct it. Nonetheless, I stick my neck out for those I've grown to care for.
How about some hobbies?: Alright, let's line 'em up!

• Writing. I've adored working with interactive fiction, and have multiple novels in development and in the publishing stages. With a little magic and a bit of luck, I'll be a published name pretty soon.
  
• Gaming. I'm into a variety of genres. These range from strategy to RPG, to MMO, to shooters, and beyond. Co-op tends to be a specialty of mine, though I'm quite flexible.
  
• Game-Development. This binds together with writing - especially interactive fiction. I love crafting interactive universes that others can delve into. Dynamic stories filled with choice and riveting corners down every turn. There are so many options to explore, so many characters to meet, befriend, antagonize, and more!
  
• Walks. I love exploring, and taking random walks throughout areas is a favorite of mine. Especially if there's food around to grab a bite of!
  
• Travel. Similar to above. Traveling is a favorite. I'd love to take a trip throughout Europe eventually, or one that winds through the entirety of the U.S. over a two-week extravaganza. What's your dream destination?
  
• Cheese-Making. This one's pretty new, and I'm still in the studying stages. I'm planning on getting into the craft of making cheese. Working with the cultures, ensuring I can create different types, and taste-testing with others. My goal in the long term is to create an artisan business if I can!
  

What's your career?: Currently, I work in the information technology field as a Support Engineer. I'm still quite passionate about what I do, but my long-term goal is to create a self-sustainable income from my writing endeavors.
Lastly, what are some random fun facts about you?: Lining them up!

• I'm credited in a critically acclaimed video game.
  
• My friends find me weird for adoring cottage cheese.
  
• I'm an avid dog lover who has a pitty-girl that's a rescue!
  
• Lastly, I can spend an entire night talking about anything at random, especially if a friend needs a distraction.
  

Anyways. It's been fun. I'd love to get to know you, so feel free to send me a message! Take care, and have a wonderful day!
~Zach

Writing is wonderful, isn't it?
I'm Zach. I'm in the information technology sector by trade, but a writer otherwise. I work with interactive fiction, currently delving into two of my latest projects (one based in my high-fantasy universe that's been in development for over ten years!)
Anyways. That's a small tidbit, but I've got something better formatted.
What's my Age?: Twenty-Five (25).
Where am I located?: Columbus, Ohio!
Why'd I make this post?: The truth is simple. I'm looking for friends, people that I can grow with, get to know, and if something further emerges - so be it. Above all, personality is a key cornerstone for me. I can work with differing hobbies, cultures, and lifestyles, as long as you can do the same.
What's my Fatal-Flaw?: I'm loyal to a fault. It's screwed me over a bit in the past, but I've since worked to correct it. Nonetheless, I stick my neck out for those I've grown to care for.
How about some hobbies?: Alright, let's line 'em up!

• Writing. I've adored working with interactive fiction, and have multiple novels in development and in the publishing stages. With a little magic and a bit of luck, I'll be a published name pretty soon.
  
• Gaming. I'm into a variety of genres. These range from strategy to RPG, to MMO, to shooters, and beyond. Co-op tends to be a specialty of mine, though I'm quite flexible.
  
• Game-Development. This binds together with writing - especially interactive fiction. I love crafting interactive universes that others can delve into. Dynamic stories filled with choice and riveting corners down every turn. There are so many options to explore, so many characters to meet, befriend, antagonize, and more!
  
• Walks. I love exploring, and taking random walks throughout areas is a favorite of mine. Especially if there's food around to grab a bite of!
  
• Travel. Similar to above. Traveling is a favorite. I'd love to take a trip throughout Europe eventually, or one that winds through the entirety of the U.S. over a two-week extravaganza. What's your dream destination?
  
• Cheese-Making. This one's pretty new, and I'm still in the studying stages. I'm planning on getting into the craft of making cheese. Working with the cultures, ensuring I can create different types, and taste-testing with others. My goal in the long term is to create an artisan business if I can!
  

What's your career?: Currently, I work in the information technology field as a Support Engineer. I'm still quite passionate about what I do, but my long-term goal is to create a self-sustainable income from my writing endeavors.
Lastly, what are some random fun facts about you?: Lining them up!

• I'm credited in a critically acclaimed video game.
  
• My friends find me weird for adoring cottage cheese.
  
• I'm an avid dog lover who has a pitty-girl that's a rescue!
  
• Lastly, I can spend an entire night talking about anything at random, especially if a friend needs a distraction.
  

Anyways. It's been fun. I'd love to get to know you, so feel free to send me a message! Take care, and have a wonderful day!
~Zach

Writing is wonderful, isn't it?
I'm Zach. I'm in the information technology sector by trade, but a writer otherwise. I work with interactive fiction, currently delving into two of my latest projects (one based in my high-fantasy universe that's been in development for over ten years!)
Anyways. That's a small tidbit, but I've got something better formatted.
What's my Age?: Twenty-Five (25).
Where am I located?: Columbus, Ohio!
Why'd I make this post?: The truth is simple. I'm looking for friends, people that I can grow with, get to know, and if something further emerges - so be it. Above all, personality is a key cornerstone for me. I can work with differing hobbies, cultures, and lifestyles, as long as you can do the same.
What's my Fatal-Flaw?: I'm loyal to a fault. It's screwed me over a bit in the past, but I've since worked to correct it. Nonetheless, I stick my neck out for those I've grown to care for.
How about some hobbies?: Alright, let's line 'em up!

• Writing. I've adored working with interactive fiction, and have multiple novels in development and in the publishing stages. With a little magic and a bit of luck, I'll be a published name pretty soon.
  
• Gaming. I'm into a variety of genres. These range from strategy to RPG, to MMO, to shooters, and beyond. Co-op tends to be a specialty of mine, though I'm quite flexible.
  
• Game-Development. This binds together with writing - especially interactive fiction. I love crafting interactive universes that others can delve into. Dynamic stories filled with choice and riveting corners down every turn. There are so many options to explore, so many characters to meet, befriend, antagonize, and more!
  
• Walks. I love exploring, and taking random walks throughout areas is a favorite of mine. Especially if there's food around to grab a bite of!
  
• Travel. Similar to above. Traveling is a favorite. I'd love to take a trip throughout Europe eventually, or one that winds through the entirety of the U.S. over a two-week extravaganza. What's your dream destination?
  
• Cheese-Making. This one's pretty new, and I'm still in the studying stages. I'm planning on getting into the craft of making cheese. Working with the cultures, ensuring I can create different types, and taste-testing with others. My goal in the long term is to create an artisan business if I can!
  

What's your career?: Currently, I work in the information technology field as a Support Engineer. I'm still quite passionate about what I do, but my long-term goal is to create a self-sustainable income from my writing endeavors.
Lastly, what are some random fun facts about you?: Lining them up!

• I'm credited in a critically acclaimed video game.
  
• My friends find me weird for adoring cottage cheese.
  
• I'm an avid dog lover who has a pitty-girl that's a rescue!
  
• Lastly, I can spend an entire night talking about anything at random, especially if a friend needs a distraction.
  

Anyways. It's been fun. I'd love to get to know you, so feel free to send me a message! Take care, and have a wonderful day!
~Zach

In life i am always thinking about other peoples feelings and im the type of person to help someone out in a heartbeat or own up to my mistakes. I work with kids 1:1 and today my coworker wasn’t watching her kid and he was sitting on the table I have my stuff on. I don’t know what my coworker is but I really wanna find out. I was watching but didn’t want to overstep and when I walked over after she moved him my ENTIRE CUP of caffeine was on the table. It ruined a paper and crayons on the desk. I wake up at 6:15 so I need caffeine to stay awake. she kept turning to look at it but never said a word. she didn’t offer to clean it up or anything. she watched me throw out the soggy papers and clean the entire thing. then later asked why we don’t have paper towels. i’m sorry but i get it your kid did it but CLEAN IT UP. I was waiting for her to say something the entire day because she’s grown enough but I couldn’t say anything about it because i have a hard time calling people out because I know I will lose it.

Writing is wonderful, isn't it?
I'm Zach. I'm in the information technology sector by trade, but a writer otherwise. I work with interactive fiction, currently delving into two of my latest projects (one based in my high-fantasy universe that's been in development for over ten years!)
Anyways. That's a small tidbit, but I've got something better formatted.
What's my Age?: Twenty-Five (25).
Where am I located?: Columbus, Ohio!
Why'd I make this post?: The truth is simple. I'm looking for friends, people that I can grow with, get to know, and if something further emerges - so be it. Above all, personality is a key cornerstone for me. I can work with differing hobbies, cultures, and lifestyles, as long as you can do the same.
What's my Fatal-Flaw?: I'm loyal to a fault. It's screwed me over a bit in the past, but I've since worked to correct it. Nonetheless, I stick my neck out for those I've grown to care for.
How about some hobbies?: Alright, let's line 'em up!

• Writing. I've adored working with interactive fiction, and have multiple novels in development and in the publishing stages. With a little magic and a bit of luck, I'll be a published name pretty soon.
  
• Gaming. I'm into a variety of genres. These range from strategy to RPG, to MMO, to shooters, and beyond. Co-op tends to be a specialty of mine, though I'm quite flexible.
  
• Game-Development. This binds together with writing - especially interactive fiction. I love crafting interactive universes that others can delve into. Dynamic stories filled with choice and riveting corners down every turn. There are so many options to explore, so many characters to meet, befriend, antagonize, and more!
  
• Walks. I love exploring, and taking random walks throughout areas is a favorite of mine. Especially if there's food around to grab a bite of!
  
• Travel. Similar to above. Traveling is a favorite. I'd love to take a trip throughout Europe eventually, or one that winds through the entirety of the U.S. over a two-week extravaganza. What's your dream destination?
  
• Cheese-Making. This one's pretty new, and I'm still in the studying stages. I'm planning on getting into the craft of making cheese. Working with the cultures, ensuring I can create different types, and taste-testing with others. My goal in the long term is to create an artisan business if I can!
  

What's your career?: Currently, I work in the information technology field as a Support Engineer. I'm still quite passionate about what I do, but my long-term goal is to create a self-sustainable income from my writing endeavors.
Lastly, what are some random fun facts about you?: Lining them up!

• I'm credited in a critically acclaimed video game.
  
• My friends find me weird for adoring cottage cheese.
  
• I'm an avid dog lover who has a pitty-girl that's a rescue!
  
• Lastly, I can spend an entire night talking about anything at random, especially if a friend needs a distraction.
  

Anyways. It's been fun. I'd love to get to know you, so feel free to send me a message! Take care, and have a wonderful evening!
~Zach

Writing is wonderful, isn't it?
I'm Zach. I'm in the information technology sector by trade, but a writer otherwise. I work with interactive fiction, currently delving into two of my latest projects (one based in my high-fantasy universe that's been in development for over ten years!)
Anyways. That's a small tidbit, but I've got something better formatted.
What's my Age?: Twenty-Five (25).
Where am I located?: Columbus, Ohio!
Why'd I make this post?: The truth is simple. I'm looking for friends, people that I can grow with, get to know, and if something further emerges - so be it. Above all, personality is a key cornerstone for me. I can work with differing hobbies, cultures, and lifestyles, as long as you can do the same.
What's my Fatal-Flaw?: I'm loyal to a fault. It's screwed me over a bit in the past, but I've since worked to correct it. Nonetheless, I stick my neck out for those I've grown to care for.
How about some hobbies?: Alright, let's line 'em up!

• Writing. I've adored working with interactive fiction, and have multiple novels in development and in the publishing stages. With a little magic and a bit of luck, I'll be a published name pretty soon.
  
• Gaming. I'm into a variety of genres. These range from strategy to RPG, to MMO, to shooters, and beyond. Co-op tends to be a specialty of mine, though I'm quite flexible.
  
• Game-Development. This binds together with writing - especially interactive fiction. I love crafting interactive universes that others can delve into. Dynamic stories filled with choice and riveting corners down every turn. There are so many options to explore, so many characters to meet, befriend, antagonize, and more!
  
• Walks. I love exploring, and taking random walks throughout areas is a favorite of mine. Especially if there's food around to grab a bite of!
  
• Travel. Similar to above. Traveling is a favorite. I'd love to take a trip throughout Europe eventually, or one that winds through the entirety of the U.S. over a two-week extravaganza. What's your dream destination?
  
• Cheese-Making. This one's pretty new, and I'm still in the studying stages. I'm planning on getting into the craft of making cheese. Working with the cultures, ensuring I can create different types, and taste-testing with others. My goal in the long term is to create an artisan business if I can!
  

What's your career?: Currently, I work in the information technology field as a Support Engineer. I'm still quite passionate about what I do, but my long-term goal is to create a self-sustainable income from my writing endeavors.
Lastly, what are some random fun facts about you?: Lining them up!

• I'm credited in a critically acclaimed video game.
  
• My friends find me weird for adoring cottage cheese.
  
• I'm an avid dog lover who has a pitty-girl that's a rescue!
  
• Lastly, I can spend an entire night talking about anything at random, especially if a friend needs a distraction.
  

Anyways. It's been fun. I'd love to get to know you, so feel free to send me a message! Take care, and have a wonderful evening!
~Zach

Writing is wonderful, isn't it?
I'm Zach. I'm in the information technology sector by trade, but a writer otherwise. I work with interactive fiction, currently delving into two of my latest projects (one based in my high-fantasy universe that's been in development for over ten years!)
Anyways. That's a small tidbit, but I've got something better formatted.
What's my Age?: Twenty-Five (25).
Where am I located?: Columbus, Ohio!
Why'd I make this post?: The truth is simple. I'm looking for friends, people that I can grow with, get to know, and if something further emerges - so be it. Above all, personality is a key cornerstone for me. I can work with differing hobbies, cultures, and lifestyles, as long as you can do the same.
What's my Fatal-Flaw?: I'm loyal to a fault. It's screwed me over a bit in the past, but I've since worked to correct it. Nonetheless, I stick my neck out for those I've grown to care for.
How about some hobbies?: Alright, let's line 'em up!

• Writing. I've adored working with interactive fiction, and have multiple novels in development and in the publishing stages. With a little magic and a bit of luck, I'll be a published name pretty soon.
  
• Gaming. I'm into a variety of genres. These range from strategy to RPG, to MMO, to shooters, and beyond. Co-op tends to be a specialty of mine, though I'm quite flexible.
  
• Game-Development. This binds together with writing - especially interactive fiction. I love crafting interactive universes that others can delve into. Dynamic stories filled with choice and riveting corners down every turn. There are so many options to explore, so many characters to meet, befriend, antagonize, and more!
  
• Walks. I love exploring, and taking random walks throughout areas is a favorite of mine. Especially if there's food around to grab a bite of!
  
• Travel. Similar to above. Traveling is a favorite. I'd love to take a trip throughout Europe eventually, or one that winds through the entirety of the U.S. over a two-week extravaganza. What's your dream destination?
  
• Cheese-Making. This one's pretty new, and I'm still in the studying stages. I'm planning on getting into the craft of making cheese. Working with the cultures, ensuring I can create different types, and taste-testing with others. My goal in the long term is to create an artisan business if I can!
  

What's your career?: Currently, I work in the information technology field as a Support Engineer. I'm still quite passionate about what I do, but my long-term goal is to create a self-sustainable income from my writing endeavors.
Lastly, what are some random fun facts about you?: Lining them up!

• I'm credited in a critically acclaimed video game.
  
• My friends find me weird for adoring cottage cheese.
  
• I'm an avid dog lover who has a pitty-girl that's a rescue!
  
• Lastly, I can spend an entire night talking about anything at random, especially if a friend needs a distraction.
  

Anyways. It's been fun. I'd love to get to know you, so feel free to send me a message! Take care, and have a wonderful evening!
~Zach

Hello. I'm going through a phase in my life where I'm living as a ladyboy (feminizing my appearance but still identifying as a man).
I like the attention I get from others because it feels like my "true-self" is finally being seen and understood after a lifetime of emotional repression. I especially like sexual attention from men because it makes me feel pretty (I've also never had sexual intimacy as a ladyboy, so naturally I want that). Sometimes I get jealous of other feminine men, because I feel like they'll get the love that I feel like I have yet to experience (I feel guilty and somewhat ashamed for feeling this way).
It also sometimes makes me feel slightly sad or angry (not enough to say anything) when people I'm close to (not strangers) seem to not register my appearance, because it feels like a rejection of my feelings (although they likely don't mean it this way).
I don't do well with negative attention. I'm an introverted, agreeable, consciencious type person (a nerd, perhaps) that just wants to be left alone most of the time. When I feel disagreeable, narcissistic, authoritarian type people are bullying me I usually lash-out in anger or even explode and get ready to physically fight.
However, I don't feel a compulsive need to go out in public and seek attention from others. I actually don't leave the house that often and prefer being alone. I do post my thoughts on reddit a lot, both because I like feeling understood and also because I like to be emotionally vulnerable in order to process my feelings of shame. I also don't enjoy hook-up culture with because there's just not enough intimacy in doing so.
With this information, would you say I have signs of personality disorder traits or is this just a normal human desire for wanting to be cared about?
As a side note, I have like 5 years of therapy under my belt. My therapist said my main personality disordered traits were probably Avoidant, but I was never officially diagnosed and I think it's extremely unlikely that I have a full-blown personality disorder (he wasn't the type of therapist who makes frequent diagnoses, though).

I have to admit that I’m at an all time low. I want to help myself for once and just do something that will benefit me. For example, going for walks outside, eating more clean, spend a good 30 minutes reading- something that will better myself. I begin to picture myself doing such activity but quickly feel as though I’m some sort of fraud. It’s like I’ve been in this mental state for so long that I can no longer picture myself living a happy life and when I try to, I tell myself “That’s not you, you’re an agony, depressed, angry filled person. You cannot be that.” I then feel like I don’t deserve that type of life or to just be happy at all. Does anyone know what I mean?

Just to preface, I am in therapy but the day to day is so grueling that 50 minutes of chatting per week isn't enough for me rn. I know this shit takes time and I'll probably look back at this and cringe. I guess I have a history of crummy relationships where I try to fix it all when it starts going south, spent a while alone figuring out my patterns then met my ex. We had a lowkey amazing 2 years together; I've never been understood and understanding of someone else like that before. I never saw a true chance of a future with someone. It was going great, wanted to move to another state, looked around Zillow together for a while then signed the lease together. he changed his mind in the midst of our drive to the new place. I knew I'd regret not full sending, so I took on the lease alone knowing I might be breaking us up - he said he wanted to get his stuff together and meet me here when his lease is up, any time we saw each other he said he'd be here beside me soon. Well - he told me a week ago he isn't in a position to move (I get it) and that he loves me, but he hates his life situation and just doesn't want to move right now; I literally have not heard from him since. I tried to be understanding and took time to come up with an "I can't imagine feeling the way you do, I'm here for you, what do you think this means for us?" Type message. I'd just visited him a couple months ago and he said I'm his person, he never wanted to break up; I hope yall trust I gave him every opportunity to open up the past few months about any doubts or worries he had, he eventually distanced himself out of my life completely, he's isolating from all of his friends too. My therapist says he's ashamed of his position in life (he says he hates himself etc etc and I know I can't fix that even tho I lowkey think I could bc his family has told him for years he isn't good enough and stuff I'm sure he's internalized) ANYWAY I guess context doesn't matter because he won't talk to me now 😀 so not only am I mourning the loss of the good 2 years, (I really thought he was 'the one' which makes me feel so silly and dumb in todays society but fml), but I have to start settling into a new TOWN and STATE and apartment I thought I'd be sharing with him. It's so scary to imagine finding a new group of friends and stuff alone. I know I'm strong and did it all despite the struggle and all the shit I should tell myself to boost myself up, my therapist said I need to "let myself be a 22 year old going through a break up," and not rush my process - but I don't even know how to process this. I know he's on his own journey, I can't dwell on whether he's struggling or finding other people to replace the idea of me, (I know I shouldn't check or care but he's using social media he'd never used when we were together like Snapchat and our mutual friends say he has a habit of sabotaging things when they get good - kinda implying if he did find someone else it wouldn't end any better for him but that doesn't comfort me at all lmao) I have to figure my shit out. I want to cry in a ball all the time but also bash on myself for staying in bed and not being "productive," whatever that means. I normally stand my ground and speak my mind, but when I get into a lovergirl relationship it seems like all hope for me goes out the window. It feels so hard to find someone who accepts all of the weird shit I have to offer, I guess I'm scared I won't find that again but I'm more so just so sad that it wasn't him
If you read this far, you're so real for that thank u. I'm just sad asf trying not to resent him or myself for being 13 hours away from my friends and family. Why would he move me out here and then dump me :/ I tried so hard to be the best; it scares me too in the future I could meet someone and it be better, then end up the same way. I just want to find someone to figure it all out with. I thought I did. It was so good before I moved, and I'll never know what we could've done together if he took the chance. I can't imagine he would initially sign the lease if he never wanted to but maybe I was really misunderstanding the whole time. I guess as a "see a problem fix it" type, I just can't grasp avoidance