My phone broke can i see my text messages online

So first of all i never posted in reddit so idk what it will look like but yeah sorry.
I got with my girlfriend 1,5 year ago online, we talk everytime we can and we spend times together, we make food we watch movie...
and one day (7 month in the relationship) i got to see her on surprise cus she live in a different country and we both minors, she got muslim and strict parent so we see each other on secret, i already tried talking to her parent but im not muslim and her dad is really not someone normal.
the day i saw her i finally saw the life different, everything was colorful and pretty around me, i felt like i never saw the life like this she made every single moment happy and fun, i never felt that before im never showing any emotion unless im with her, i was so happy i was finally myself and she liked it, i offered her a ring and everything, it was perfect.
Until i had to go, i couldn't say goodbye to her due to her parent, i had to take the plane whitout a last goodbye in real life, this was so painfull and i started to see the world grey again, everything was borring and sad i dont feel right and i dont know why, i was thinking i will get used to it again but no, im in my room 24/7 alone waiting for a chance to see her... but guess what my parent tell me to wait my birthday and she is in vacation thoses dates so i need to wait 1 more year starting for now, when we will see each other 2 year would have passed.
i dont know how to not feel sad anymore.

I am Gay. I am 21 she is 39 I should’ve known but I have a thing for woman older then me so fuck it we ball.
We met at an event and there was instant chemistry from the day we first talked on the phone we constantly talked on the phone like 24/7 on the phone which at the time didn’t bother me but is just simply not okay. One of the first days we met she sent me money okay that’s nice…Wrong I have come to understand that it was a lot of love bombing going on from the moment we met. So this is where my stupidity comes in she recently got out of a long relationship and is still living with her ex I believe that to be fine and we proceeded mind you I really loved her like a lot I thought we would get married and yatta yatta until the red flags began I’m just gonna lost lost a few of the things that took place
-The first time we met I was accused of eyeing down her cousins and I got a swift yelling at and lecture because of how “enamored” I was in them when this was farther from the truth.
-This person drinks and when drunk this would cause a lot of verbal abuse towards me…. Things from calling me out of my name to telling me how much of a bad person she is and how she can be a villain… (she was telling me who she was I just didn’t listen)
-Apologizing every time something happened to hurt my feelings but never correcting said behavior I thought she couldn’t be abusive because she apologized abusive people don’t apologize right? WRONG
-Being Jealous of my friend and the relationship I have with her and calling her a B*tch after we got sick from her. Oh I was really stupid here I checked her for it but still forgave her
-Constantly acted like I didn’t know what I was talking about when I would call out behavior and turn it back on to me “But you do that same thing to me…don’t tell me not to do something when you do the same thing even if it’s something I apologized for) because frankly I wasn’t the best in this relationship either I have a temper and I don’t like being played with so even though I forgave I didn’t tolerate her disrespect I tried to leave a few times but I always found my way back
-Most recently my friend committed almost two weeks ago and I am very emotionally distressed about it I had a break down and her drunken response to it the next day is “I don’t need anybody passing energy onto me…” after I had a really bad breakdown the night before while drunk this was when I knew I was finally done those were the magic words I needed to release me from her shackles
-I came home blocked her and then I look down at my arm seeing a scar and then I remembered the same night that I was wasted she dug her arms into my skin so hard it left scars
I’m still fighting the urge to unblock her and try and talk this out but every time I look at my arm I’m reminded why I’m leaving but man it’s hard.

A month ago my mother said “ your father called “ I responded okay with a laugh and left. Leaving me to wonder why he wants to talk to me after all these years. Last we spoke I was in middle school. I kid you not this man asked me “ do you want to marry daddy” I don’t remember my exact response only that after I got off the phone he was asking my mom “how are you raising her” implying I’m rude. Fast forward to this year after I get home from trying on wedding dress. My fiancé at the time stated my mother informed him my father was trying to contact me. I found this highly inappropriate because this was during a time that should of been about me.My mother asked me about it again and it made feel like I had to talk to him or something.
Finally talked to the dude and literally the worst decision. Should of listened to my gut. He came off like a creepy old man, he called me baby and referee to himself as daddy so many times I lost count. My husband doesn’t even call me baby that much. He starts the conversation off by asking “ why don’t you want to talk to daddy?”
He first called me when I was at work so I had to decline the call. After declining once he proceeded to call my phone back to back to the point I had to turn my phone completely off.
After that question I was already thrown off, then he states I’m his only daughter and he misses me. Mind you I know he has another daughter… he didn’t admit to it until I called it out. Idk why he would lie.
Then he proceeds to say he thought.. I was a white woman on Facebook and he’s been messaging her to the point where she responded and said “ I’m not your daughter”
This man thought him a black man, my mother a black woman made a white child…anyways he starts saying he wants to see me and if I want to see him. I literally said I already know what you look like and shut that conversation down.
Then he starts pressing me about why I don’t have Facebook… literally responded with “ I don’t use it because I don’t need it “ After he would say one thing, he proceeded to say “ daddy loves you baby “ Giving me the ick! I don’t even know this man.
The he basically ask me to file his paper work to come to America. Makes up a lie talking about some “ I’ll drive trucks to support myself “ then says I need to send my oldest sister money from time to time.…pathetic. I just ended up saying I have to go because wtf. Got off the phone and he sends
“ My love n my baby I thank God so much that we were able to talk pls let us keep communicating I love u n will always love u my baby I will keep praying 4 u in that state of conceivement Godis going to be with u till the time set by God bye 4 now love u.”
When I tell my mother all of this she says “ I think he was just excited to talk with you” He said he didn’t reach out for awhile because he didn’t have our number….
I told her exactly why I don’t want to speak with him. She then responds he’s your father you can’t do that. Literally I don’t care I’ve went 25 years just fine and now expecting a child of my own I can choose who is welcomed in my life.
This call made me feel traumatized at 25… like I’m dealing with a new trauma at 25! Im trying to figure out how to move on with my mental health after this. The call made feel like if this is really my biological father he’s perverted, may have touch me as a child and he has some type of mental impairment or on drugs.
TL;DR : father randomly wants to keep in contact after 25 years and comes off creepy, mother asked me again to speak with him and it’s disturbing my mental health.

Just a rant about being a first time DM...
I'm in need to play, but due to my work time/enviroment I am not able to join any game, either offline or online, due to mostly time schedule issues, and whatnot.
So, having at home my precious PHB, MM, and having the Starters and Essential Kits, I decided to bring the latter with me, because if I cannot be the player, maybe I can be the DM.
I posted on the work bulletin about the chance to have a D&D game, once or twice a week sessions, and was greeted with three possible players, but due to THEIR schedule we couldn't even do session 0.
Little bit frustrated I remembered that I was registered on mRPG, for the pbp type of game, and again, since there was no active campaing set up, I decided to create my own, still with the Essential Kit one; and even with a limit of 4 players, I got requests from more than that, and even if I was not really ready for a big (?) group I accepted them all, even accepted the request for the initial free feat and gave them chance to use ALL class/races from the PHB instead of limiting them to those in the Essential Kit rulebook, because, at the end, I wanted to enjoy the game, and also for my players to be more interesting.
We started out quite fine, until at one point two of the players never connected to the platform anymore for weeks, which made me throw them out (with explanation on their PM), and was able to get another player that was looking for a campaing.
Started the first real quest only two of the 4 players have been currently active, while I am able to see them online most of the time (mRPG tells you how long ago somebody was online).
Last night, the last player to join, and the one most active have decided, sharing with the whole "table" that he is leaving because of what above, and I cannpt be upset with him/her.
I understand that PbP is totally different from online/offline games with a 4 hours session where the descriptions are fully immersive, and the action is instant, but being online, and not even posting once every few days, is frustrating.
Is it like this in the beginning, or it will be like this always?
TL/DR: wanted to play so bad that I became the DM, just to have to to push two players out of the campaing, and one leaving shortly after.

Completely isolated to the point it is now considered alienation
All of my muscles in my body are locked tf up (especially my traps, neck, legs, ankles) sometimes when I walk It feels like I have completely forgotten how to walk. I look like a fucking pencil
A simple text message will throw me over the edge simply because I do not know how to respond
2017-2018 seems like it was yesterday. I’ve been stuck in time. I simply do not do a single thing. Wake up - scroll laptop - scroll phone - snack - go bathroom - podcast - sleep - wake up - repeat - basically been doing this same exact shit for 5 years now 😂
Obviously super depressed to which doesn’t help
Have lost all of my friends, have no connection with anyone, it’s like I am stuck in time just watching life pass me by, family doing shit, friends are doing shit, everyone is out doing shit except me
What kinda life is this lol I’m gonna get some fent this week and consider actually taking it because I don’t even have the energy or effort in me to try and get out of it anymore I Don’t give a fuck this shit is fucking hell bruh

Hey y’all, so I dated this guy during high school and my freshman year of college (2020-23 inclusive) and he took me to South Africa for a trip with his family because that’s where he was born. The trip was awesome, I loved everywhere we went and all the things we did. Probably the best trip of my life so far. We broke up a while after on somewhat good terms and went no contact shortly after. We go to the same university so I sometimes see him around campus (we don’t speak or anything). We were also kinda part of the same friendship group but I’ve drifted from them because I don’t really want to linger in his life and vice versa. Pretty sure he has a new gf now anyway.
Basically the point of all of this, I would LOVE to go back to South Africa for another trip. I’m wondering if it’s quite weird to do that, seeing as I only like it because he took me there and is South African. I have no South African background, just genuinely love the place. Obviously he isn’t in my life anymore so I shouldn’t care what he and his family thinks. But I know he will probably eventually find out through mutual friends. I know he can’t be defensive/protective over a place, but just wondering if it will seem obsessive or weird to him, his family and my friends.
Sorry for the long post. Any advice is greatly appreciated. Be brutally honest, thanks!!

So, this is my first time writing on reddit.
I (m21) found out my ex (m24) cheated on me. We have known each other since June last year, we met just a couple weeks after he broke up with his long-time boyfriend of 6 years. We live 1 and a half hours away from each other. I live in Brisbane; he lives in the countryside. So, every weekend we were always together. We started officially dating in September. I was only out at the time to my friends, not to my family, so getting into this relationship was a bit scary because he was out and proud. It’s funny because in the beginning he would try to accuse me of cheating, tell me he’s scared of me cheating, but I would’ve never done that. I loved him. Turns out, he was the one cheating.
In December last year, he told me to respond to an Instagram message for him. After I sent it, I saw a message he had sent this guy, A, he commented on his story, something flirty and it caught my eye. I confronted him about it. He admitted to being “lonely” and wanted to talk to him. Then he tells me he thought the guy was attractive. He was a friend of one of his co-workers. My ex only saw this guy once! Anyways, he would block this guy, then unblock him, then block him again, etc.
There have been times where I’ve had to confront him on a lot of stuff. For example, his ex. He told me his ex was blocked; he would never talk to him but that was all a lie. I would see notifications from his ex, he would tell me, his ex would create all these accounts just to get in contact with him, which that part was true but my problem was that he would never tell me but he never understood why that was a problem. When we went away for our six month anniversary last month, we wanted to watch Netflix but the Netflix on the hotel TV wasn't working so he told me to get his laptop and we'd watch "Is It Cake?" on there. His iMessage dings. He doesn't use iMessage. I see a text from a number and it was like "how dare you use my trauma against me" and "I just want to talk." His ex was always asking for money and would say "I need to talk it's important" and it wouldn't be important. He was always asking for money. I asked him why he didn't tell me he was still talking to his ex, he just told me "he wanted to see the kittens. I said to him if he wanted to buy one, he could see them but if he wasn't buying one, I don't want him near me" and he told me it was no big deal and that he loved me. Told me he deleted and blocked the number but I went through his blocked list, the number wasn't there but I didn't bring it up. I just moved on and wanted to enjoy our holiday. Then, when I was getting my tyres done, he told me about some random number calling him twice and he sent me a screenshot. In the screenshot it showed his call log, like, his calling history. Turns out he was on the phone to his ex, through Instagram the night before after we said "goodnight" to each other. He then said "oh yeah, I forgot to tell you. My ex called me last night about the kittens, again." and I was pissed because how do you forget to tell someone that. We ended up having a huge fight about it, he said he feels bad for his ex because he has no family and all this stuff. All these excuses. Again, I ended up forgiving him and moving on.
Fast forward to Monday, I recieved a friend request on Insta from the guy I confronted my ex about back in December, A, and I knew what was happening but I just deleted his request but then he kept on requesting to follow me. I told my ex about it and he told me not to worry about it. Then, yesterday on Tuesday, all day, I had this sick feeling in my stomach because I had a feeling something was going to happen. Then that night, I received a message from his old co-worker she said "I think you need to see this" and I responded with a question mark because nothing had come through but then the screenshots and screen recordings came through. My heart sank. He has been messaging A since December and messaged him again when he got back from my house after celebrating his birthday with me (I spent over $300 on his presents) and my family (my mum bought me a couple presents too) early because his birthday is on a Monday and I can't be there. (He stayed at mine, Thursday, Friday, and went home on Saturday). That Saturday, was my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary lunch, where my nanna said to my ex "you're apart of the family now", which made me happy but I loved him and I loved that my family loved him but that same Saturday, he went home and texted A. When I was looking at the screenshots of the texts and screen recordings, the screen recordings showed he was on Tinder. I was fucking mad. I called him immediately and said "what the fuck!" and I started reading out the texts he would send this guy on Instagram and on Snapchat. The other guy, A, didn't entertain him. He would just ignore him or just have small talk but it was just my boyfriend doing the flirting but what broke me was when A asked my ex "who's the J in your bio" and my ex said "that's my boyfriend. We're in an open relationship." I felt my heart break into a million pieces. He basically confirmed everything, said he was on Tinder and said he was on Grindr, and he said he was last on Grindr "two days ago" and yesterday, two days ago, was Sunday. I was at his house, he would've been on it when I left his. I felt so many different feelings all at once, I felt like I was going to burst. I then, just went over to my best friend's house but both A and my ex, told me they haven't had sex and my ex told me, that even though he was on Grindr and Tinder, he didn't sleep with anyone just talked to a couple guys and that's it.
I obviously broke up with him yesterday but we're stilling messaging each other. I even called him last night after I got back from my friend's house and we spoke more about the situation. I know still having contact with him isn't good for me but I still love him. Even though we only dated for six-almost seven months, I still love him. I think because this is my first relationship, I want to cling on this but at the same time, I know I deserve better. I haven't cried yet. I don't think I will tbh. He keeps saying how he's sorry and how he feels guilty and all I can think is then why do any of this in the first place? I told him last night, if you were feeling this way, talk to me, hell even break up with me. I remember in the beginning our relationship, I told him that he'd have to break up with me because I don't like the idea of me breaking up with someone but hey, I broke up with him. He told me he had made some "big mistakes" and I said "you made choices. Not mistakes. Calling it a mistake is trying to avoid that the idea has a consequence" then he said "if you want me to suffer than just don't ever get back with me" and I said "I don't want you to suffer but no, I don't see us getting back together. I love you and I've forgiven you for the past shady shit you've done and I can forgive you for this but I will never forget it." I just can't be with him knowing he did this. I had this feeling for months that he was doing stuff behind my back and now that's it all confirmed, it makes me feel good now that I don't have to constantly worry about what my boyfriend is doing. I would worry so much it was making me sick. He would tell me he loved me, he wanted to marry me, he bought me a promise ring, he told me he wanted kids with me, told me he wanted to do everything with me. He told me how sorry he was, how guilty he felt because he said I'm the sweetest, kindest, caring, funniest and most loving person he's ever met and he's going to miss me heaps but all I can think about is like if he did love me, if he did think of me like that, why would he do what he did.
This morning, we were talking some more and I told him that even that I hated what happened, that I was still thankful for the memories because before him, I wasn't doing anything. I was just working and going to uni. My life was pretty boring but thanks to him, I found this confidence and I got all this self-esteem but even though it's only been a day, I can feel my confidence and self-esteem going away. I told my family this morning, well, I told my youngest sister (15) last night because she saw how upset I was and she said "you want me to beat him up" and my other sister (17), I told her this morning and she just called him a cunt and told me I'm better off. My mum, she loved my boyfriend so she was a bit disappointed in him but I was happy when she didn't react, she just sat there and listened to me and told me "maybe you two will work things out" and I told her "no, I don't think I can" and she said "and that's fine." I wish I could talk to my dad but I'm not out to him because he's like crazy homophobic even though my sisters have told me he's asked them if my ex and I were dating lol and said he's ok with it and will love me but I don't know, I'm just still scared to tell him. Maybe one day. My cousin (26) though, I'm very close with her, she's pan, I came out to her two years ago when we went to spread our aunties ashes (weird I know but we went for a walk and it felt right) and she basically told me "I knew it!" apparently everyone knew I was gay before I even came out. I honestly felt like I hid it well but nope. The only person who had no idea was my mum lol but my cousin told me, how she has never seen me happier and was so shocked when I told her that we broke up and the reason why. She thought he was a good guy. We all thought that.
On my grandparents anniversary card, they've been married for 50 years, which I mentioned above and I wrote "I hope I get to experience your type of love one day" in a sense that my ex and I, would end up celebrating our 50th wedding anniversary, even more in the future but unfortunately we won't but I know I will someday. One day. I'm only 21. I know not all guys are bad but for the mean time, I'll just be focusing on my assignments for uni, work, and getting back into the gym. It's been a while but I'm currently sitting in the library at uni writing this listening to a mix of fun songs and sad songs by Raye, Adele, Beyoncé, Lemonade hits different now that I can relate to the songs except Freedom because I'm not black. Love the song though. I'm white as paper. Milk even. I've been listening to Kim Petras, Ethel Cain, Miss Britney, Ariana Grande, again true story, bye and We Can't be friends hit different now. Who else? Rihanna, Megan thee Stallion, Glorilla, Bia, miss Olivia Rodrigo and some Taytay even though I'm not a big fan of miss swift, her pen game is strong. Respect. I've also been listening to Dua Lipa, Ayesha Erotica, Black Veil Brides, Queen Nicki, Billie Eilish, Chase Atlantic, The Neighbourhood, Charlie XCX, Kylie Minogue, Tate McRae, Villain of the Story, Loreen (Tattoo is amazing!), Doja Cat, also my guilty pleasure song, "Jam" by miss Kim K. I love her. I love a boss bitch. I've been told my music is very confusing. One minute I'm listening to "treat me like a slut" then Yungblud plays.
Anyways, I know I'll be alright.

Okay so this is more of a general question, but I am curious. I've been ghosted more times than I can count. On snapchat, on discord, on twitter, and even here on reddit. I mean, I don't have much room to talk either since I do the same thing. But I wanted to know how much time I should wait for someone to reply. Late last year, I met this girl (18f) who I thought was "the one," so to speak. We talked for a few weeks before she just...disappeared on me. I texted her multiple times and she didn't reply a single time. For reference, we met through snapchat and were talking on there. Now, I have a rule for people who ghost me. I like to give them about a week to reply before declaring it a lost cause and giving up on them. So I gave her about a week and after she didn't bother responding, I removed her on snap and tried to move on.
But this has kind of thing has happened numerous times. I've matched with people on dating apps that never replied to my initial message or never replied (even after messaging me first). I've had people disappear on me for days only to come back as if nothing happened. I've met people from all across the world and from all walks of life, and not a single one of them stuck around past 2-3 months. They all seem to disappear sooner or later as if I never meant anything to them. But I don't know how much time to give people who just disappear on me like that. How much time should i give them, if any at all?

I (16M) graduated last Friday. After the ceremony ended I couldn't find my parents anywhere. I was looking around for them and then I decided to check my phone. My mom sent me a text a while ago letting me know that my sister went into labor and her and my dad were at the hospital. This upset me because I thought my parents were there but realizing that they weren't just made me sad. I saw everyone else with their family taking pictures and stuff and I was just standing there awkwardly not knowing what to do. My mom told me that they would be back asap to come and get me.
They did not. I waited for a good 20 minutes watching everyone else leave. I decided to just walk home because I got tired of waiting. I walked 3 miles before my parents drove by and made a u turn to come and pick me up. They were mad when they saw me walking. They told me that It was disrespectful of me to for leave with out telling them and accusing me of putting myself in danger.
I told them that It wasn't alot of people left at the ceremony and I didn't want to wait anymore. I also told them that they knew it was important for them to be there and they completely bailed on me. They told me that they were sorry and kept trying to justify why they left. I told them that it doesn't make sense for them to leave when my sisters husband were there with her and if they really wanted to abandon me they could have at least had one of them stay with me but they left me with no one to watch me and ruined what was supposed to be a good day for me.
My sister didn't even give birth that day she gave birth like 18 hours later which pissed me off more. The problem is my parents are upset with me because they wanted to take another picture of me with my cap and gown on but I refused. The one they took of me in the car I wasn't smiling and my parents wanted a redo because of it.
I told them no. I said that if they already had a picture of me and that it's all they are gonna get. I told them that there are pictures of me on my school's facebook page and they can screen shot it from there or can leave it alone. If they choose to attend my college graduation they can maybe see me in another cap and gown. But until then, I don't see why I have to put it on just for them when they chose to miss it.
They feel as if I'm punishing them by not allowing them to take a picture of me. I just feel like if they wanted a picture they should've been there. Other than that they can use the ones on Facebook, the one in the car, or none at all.

Hello Y'all! I am just reposting the update and adding some insights in case my last post was removed.
OLD POST << Hello, folks! Some people here must have seen my last post about my experience with folliculitis and how it wouldn't stop coming back no matter what I did ( even after a ton of antibiotics and other medication for 6 months ) and I think I found out why. After endless textbooks and science papers, I finally came across some interesting papers :

• Cutaneous larva migrans with folliculitis: report of seven cases and review of the literature ( the most important )

⦁ Hookworm-Related Cutaneous Larva Migrans by Patrick Hochedez and Eric Caumes on Oxford Academic ( PDF online, this one contains very in depth information ) (( Just click on doi ))
⦁ Hookworm: An Uncommon Cause of Folliculitis in Travelers on Pubmed ( PDF online )
⦁ Hookworm folliculitis by Khaled Ezzedine and Thierry Pistone also on Pubmed
⦁ A Creeping holiday souvenir : about a misleading case of hookworm folliculitis on Oxford Academic.
There's a parasite that is so small and easily caught ( they come from animals, mostly dogs and cats ) that has the same characteristics of bacterial folliculitis. In fact, in some of these papers, it is said that if the antibiotics and nothing else works, it's probably this thing. They don't appear on blood tests and sometimes you can't see them even with a biopsy.
( Doctors found out because of a guess, actually. )
One thing that I did not find on textbooks and was surprised to read is: bacterial folliculitis rarely itches. Itching is the main sympton of parasitic folliculitis, in fact, the itching is worse at night. Although it was studied in 1929 at first and they are found everywhere ( principally in tropical and subtropical countries) most doctors end up missing the clues because these little f**ks are not that well known and they don't show the usual characteristics that parasites show ( for example, at first I thought they were scabies, but mine are not contagious so I ruled it out ) but this kind of parasite can be non contagious too.
By the way, I must specify that other kinds of folliculitis CAN itch too. Here they are talking about the difference between bacterial and parasitic folliculitis.
So it explains those past symptoms that I previously talked about :
⦁ Comes back after medication even if weeks later.
⦁ Sugar can make it worse ( parasites like that )
⦁ Heat and sweat make it worse.
⦁ There are no other symptoms like fever or pain ( apparently, the larvae can't reach deeper skin, so it stays trapped on the outer layers of skin. )
⦁ The lesions appear some days after first contact and can take very few days to appear other lesions.
⦁ The lesions follow a TRAIL. They can be linear or just jump from one place to another. They are always close initially before going onto other places.
⦁ It started on my thighs, but besides the thigh it is also common to appear first on the skin of your feet or above the gluteous. And then it goes to the rest of your body.
Yeah, so Doctors can end up misdiagnosing because it can look like scabies or bacterial folliculitis. As one of the papers said, it can last years because the parasite can die but come back. A person can get them anywhere but it's most common to get them after having contact with water or soil contaminated, even stepping on it for a second can be enough.
Another interesting thing is that infections of the skin can look different on everyone, no matter the race, so sometimes they can be parasitic but look like bacterial, virus, fungus folliculitis. Most of them usually have a brown dot in the middle though.
So I ask you guys to read those papers, they may help you. They talk about the medication that was used and apparently it's rare for them to have side effects, and of course, be careful with self medication, if you can please contact a medically qualified professional. I know that choice is not available to everyone but if you can, a second opinion can be very helpful.
Today I went to check with my doctor and everyone was very happy to confirm that that was the actual problem. So I am happy to share this information with you guys.
Cheers! >>
UPDATE ( 2 )
It's working. As I answered someone else back there " The good news is that was exactly the problem. The bad news is that folliculitis is a very uncommon thing to get when it comes to parasites and it's the hardest to get rid of, unfortunately. They basically say " It's hard to get rid of, take the meds until it's gone" because that's something that doesn't happen every day and the doctors and scientists are kind of not totally sure what to do. So I'm taking 12mg ivermectin every monday ( two pills of 6mg ) because that's usually what people do and works most of the time. At the start I had them all over my body, but then months later I took ivermectin for three days and they kind of died, so I had to stop taking any kind of medication for 30 days to take another lab test, but surprise, the lesions did not grow like before ( every 3 days ) , for a whole month I only got two or three new ones and they would die almost immediately. It really depends on the person how many times you'll have to take the medication, in my case , my immune system and overall health is not the best so it makes a bit of sense that it's taking a while."
I'll add a part of Cutaneous larva migrans with folliculitis: report of seven cases and review of the literature here as for some reason the paper is not uploading :
[ We reviewed all cases that were seen in our department from April 1991 to April 2000 of CLM in which creeping eruption was associated with folliculitis. Patients were included if they presented with localized folliculitis and creeping eruption. Folliculitis was defined as pustular follicular cutaneous lesions. Creeping eruption was defined as one (or more) linear or serpiginous mobile cutaneous track(s). The following information was recorded: age, sex, recent travel history, country visited, time from return to clinical onset and presentation, clinical signs, treatment and outcome. All the patients received oral antihelminthic agents, plus topical treatment in one case. Treatment options for CLM in our department include a single dose of oral ivermectin 12 mg weekly until cure, and oral albendazole 400 mg twice daily for three consecutive days.
Five patients were cured with one to three courses of ivermectin (unit dose 12 mg), including one also treated with thiabendazole ointment. Two patients were cured with albendazole 400 mg twice daily for three consecutive days. Lesions of folliculitis took longer to clear than those of creeping eruption.
Folliculitis is an uncommon clinical form of CLM, as only five cases have been reported in the literature. However, it may be more frequent than previously thought. For example, in a 2-year prospective study, CLM was observed in 69 patients, two of whom also had hookworm folliculitis. Folliculitis in a patient returning from (or residing in) an endemic country should lead to consideration of infection by a hookworm (or other nematode), even though bacteria are the most common cause. All the cases of parasitic folliculitis in our series and most of those found in the literature were pruritic, in contrast to most forms due to other microorganisms. The diagnosis of parasitic folliculitis was based on clinical findings alone. Histological studies are unnecessary, but show nematode larvae trapped within the follicular canal, stratum corneum or dermis, together with an inflammatory eosinophilic infiltrate. In three cases, the larvae were identified as Pelodera strongyloides, a free-living nematode belonging to the order Rhabditoidae. In another case of folliculitis the larvae were identified as Ancylostoma caninum, a hookworm. The pathogenesis of parasitic folliculitis may be related to an allergic reaction to the presence of the nematode larva in the follicular canal.
The remaining patient's clinical signs subsided only more than 2 months after presentation. In one case, thiabendazole eradicated the creeping eruption but not the follicular lesions. Our experience is similar. The clinical response to a single 12-mg dose of oral ivermectin was less favourable in our patients with folliculitis that in most other patients with CLM. A single dose of ivermectin cured two of five patients in our series, whereas it usually gives cure rates of 81-100% in CLM. Treatment was repeated until the pruritus disappeared, this symptom being indicative of parasite viability. In conclusion, folliculitis should be added to the dermatological manifestations of CLM. The clinical diagnosis is facilitated by the pruritic nature of the lesions and their association with serpiginous tracks. Treatment is more difficult than in classical forms of CLM. ]
So yeah, hope this helps a bit.
Please be very careful, these medications can be harsh on your organs and I am not exaggerating, drink plenty of water.

Very worried that was my last chance at love. I'm 36f, almost 37. I had been incredibly hopeful that my last partner would be my last one. Wanted to marry him and have children. I was very much in love.
I could feel him pulling away from me (and everyone else) and eventually the relationship just completely disintegrated. We lived two hours apart, saw each other on weekends. One weekend we fought, I drove home, crying, turning the 2 hour drive into almost 4 hours because I had to keep stopping. Later that day, he called, and broke up with me. His last words to me were "I'm just going to hang up now" and he did. Not a peep since.
I turned down two dates recently because I'm just absolutely terrified to let anyone see me again. Like see who I am, see my heart and my soul. It's like this time, my ability to trust was just absolutely decimated. I've experienced some major trauma in my life, but oddly, that breakup feels like it might be the straw that breaks the camel's back.
That was six months ago and I still miss him so much. I'm able to see that I would not go back to that relationship if I could, and I have a very small piece of hope that someone might still be able to fall in love with me and give me the companionship I want, but I can barely feel that hope right now.
It's a really scary feeling. It overwhelms me.

So here is the situation: did some research on term life policies and Google suggested I contact ethos life insurance for a quick and easy quote, so I filled out the info online. Got a call back the next day from an ethos agent who said unless I removed the freeze on my credit they couldn’t get me an accurate quote. So I left it for the time being. About three weeks later, I was cold-called by an independent agent who said he got my info from ethos, who gave me his state license number. Fast forward over a number of conversations via text and email and we’ve picked a plan and need to sit down today to fill out the application which he wants to do over the phone with esignature. He said I needed to bring my bank account info to this meeting. The vibes felt off for me about this, so I asked him to email me beforehand a digital copy of the application which he did. I noticed on it that there was an option to pay by credit card. In the meeting today, we went through the application which mirrored the one he had emailed me. But when it came time for the payment info, he said my credit card could only be used for the initial premium payment and he definitely still needed my routing and account number for my bank. This all Felt off to me, so I told him I had to run. But now I’m kind of freaking out because the guy has my SSN and a credit card number, and I’m feeling pretty foolish. About 5 hours after the phone call he sent me the following text: “Wasn't sure if giving me your banking info was an issue, im always skeptical myself. If it's better for you, we can do a zoom call and allow u to take over my computer. That way you could put the banking info in yourself and submit the app without having to give me the info. Just a thought I figured I'd run by you. Have a good evening!!”
My instinct is to ghost the dude and hope for the best while monitoring my credit card like a hawk. Not good that he has SSN, but I have credit freezes in place.
So my question for the hive mind is how bad is this? Does this seem normal?

i ordered jimmy johns delivery and was surprised to see that i got a text from them directing me to track my order through uber eats. i was trying to search online if they got rid of their own delivery service but found nothing. is this normal?
(i ordered through the actual jimmy johns app)

TLDR: Had a mental breakdown with flashes of light, brain zaps, inability to sleep, strange behavior, shakes, panic attacks, possible dissociation, myoclonus, visual hallucinations, possible auditory hallucinarions, and paranoid ideation. Still feel out of it weeks later, but am recovering. What the hell could've happened?
I recently had an extemely strange psychological episode. I have anxiety, and functional, mild depression, but no history of psychological issues beyond that. It started out with sleep issues, but kept getting stranger.
I first remember acting strange to a woman at my work, and asking her if she had anyone she was interested in which is very much outside something that I would normally do. I kept talking to her as the day went on, but had some weird behavior that I didn't really understand: spacing out suddenly while she was talking to me (dissociation??), accidentily stared her down, flipped off another coworker in the wrong context, but played it off, chuckled mid-sentence while talking to her, and after being put alone I was talking to myself, but snapped out of it when people came by.
Over the weekend I was mostly normal. No one told me that I acted strange, but I could tell people thought I was distracted/tired.
Going back to work again I got put with the guy I flipped off. Tried to be cordial, but it felt way too awkward to apologize. We went to a different area. My other coworker walked by so I tried to take the chance to apologize to both of them, even though it wasn't a good idea because of how nervous I felt. She was teary eyed, and would not make eye contact with me. Walked by again to leave, and I just nodded to her to tell her that I understood the timing wasn't right, but she just looked at me for a breif moment as if I were insane. I then told my coworker in really awkward terms to forget about it, and that I didn't mean anything, but I think he took it as me saying that I was having cognitive problems...
That night I had a panic attack. First time I've ever had one, I attributed it to work. Sent a stupid late night text to my supervisor that I quit, and would not be leaving notice, and then back tracked a few hours later, saying I would leave notice. I slept for a few hours then went to work.
The is where my memory gets hazy, but I know my sleep was horrible. Most of these memories are disjointed. I remember: having brain zaps (I did not take any medications, now on SSRIs), seeing flashes, having twitches occasionally, and having horrible shakes (I get shakey sometimes from anxiety, but never as bad as I did then). I also had strange headaches, and a bad taste in my mouth at different points.
This is embaressing, but I had a strange moment leaving one day where I felt like my mind quit. I was walking, looked at my coworker, and made a horrible horrible comment toward her. I can't even repeat it, but it was embaressing to both of us, and shocked her. I kept walking, I felt like my brain was disjointed, and my actions were automatic. I said some nonsense about onions, and another inappropraite comment, and then suddenly snapped out of it. It felt horrible, not like the times I spaced out. In the nights after work I was obsessing over this moment wondering what the hell happened, unable to sleep. This is when I started getting paranoid delusions, but I was able to wake up my mom, and she talked me down from it.
Thank god my coworker was understanding, although I never addressed anything, she put herself around me, which I took as meaning that she was concerned more than anything. At this point people could tell I wasn't right, but I do have clear memories of acting normal. I did not go in my last day due to not sleeping.
The day after my last day I was so tired I started seeing spiders in the cab of my truck while driving, and the day after that (I think?) I had the worst panic attack of my life.
My mom ended up getting a sleeping pill from my grandma, and I was able to sleep a full night, finally. I recovered somewhat over the next few days, and only then fully realized how insane I was feeling/acted.
Does anyone have any explanation for this, mental, physical, or otherwise? It was scary as hell, and I never want it to happen again. I feel like it gave me a small amount of brain damage. Can lack of sleep cause all this?

Not really sure what kind of advice I’m looking for, I think I just want a place to share feelings I’ve had recently.
My ex and I broke up over a year ago with things ending on good terms, and us agreeing to initial space while we let the break-up settle but that overall we wanted to stay friends. A few months later he started reaching out, and we back slid hard via texting, but eventually things fizzled out again and they’ve stayed that way ever since.
I always thought I wanted to keep him in my life somehow, we had a great friendship and a lot of respect for one another, but honestly now he feels like a stranger. I’m planning a trip to visit some mutual friends that live near him and no part of me wants to reach out to see if he wants to join for any of it, not because I’ve moved on fully, but that it would just feel weird - we aren’t friends any more. And if we aren’t friends anymore, am I just keeping him around on social media in hopes of something happening that never will?
I’m trying to think about this carefully before I delete him, since there would be no going back. We’ve known each other for years, long before dating, and maybe what we have now is all anyone can hope for post break-up. I should be thankful we ended things well and leave it at that.
Maybe I just want to remove him out of a fear he’ll do it first.

I've been using BitDefender for a while now, and it's been driving me insane. I keep getting false positives for programs on my laptop and I'm constantly having to try and add exceptions to no avail.
I side-loaded a well-known manga-reading app ages ago to the Android compatibility setup on Windows 11. (I forget the exact name for it at the moment) BitDefender decided out of the blue a few weeks ago that it didn't like that, but it didn't settle for quarantining the app itself. It took down the entire Android compatibility feature out of Windows 11! Took me quite a while to figure out what the hell was wrong and how to fix it.
I like trying out various ROM hacks. (mods for old video games) I keep getting a false positive for the setup tool for the demo to "Super Mario Star World". Normally, this wouldn't be a big deal. It's a program specifically meant for altering a separate file, so I would normally understand the mistake. However, when the false positive pops up during every single scan of my computer, it continues to complain when I hit the "Do Nothing" button to verify that I know the program and know that it isn't an issue, and continue to put the folder where I keep my gaming stuff in the exceptions list. I keep on constantly getting that complaint no matter what.
I'm a big Persona fan. I set up the Korean version of "Persona 5X" as well as an auto-translation tool that hooks into the game, sends the on-screen text to an online translator, then replaces the on-screen text with an English translation either from the translator or from a slowly-growing database of manually-translated text. It's really impressive. However, no matter what I do, BitDefender keeps quarantining the game or the translator tool, even when I tell it not to and make exceptions for it.
It's driving me nuts, and like I said, no matter what I try to do, it keeps complaining or quarantining my files. When I make exceptions, I can set them for the "Antivirus" and "Online Threat Prevention", but not "Advanced Threat Defense" because that's only possible if I manually add each individual .EXE file in my gaming folder. It's getting to where I've spent the last week with it turned off, which still doesn't stop the occasional scans and continued complaints about the Star World tools.
I've tried Avira and Avast in the past, and switched because of getting constant pop-ups demanding I get the paid version of those tools. This one's driving me nuts because of the ignored exceptions and overzealous quarantining. Those are the widely-recommended anti-virus programs here on the Reddit page. Any advice to either get BitDefender to back off, or a different anti-virus with a better exception tool set I can use to keep my stuff safe?

(M20) Last year I was with a girl (20) that we were having a lot of fun and I started having feelings for her, she told me from the first day that she was diagnosed as a sociopath and she was also alcoholic but I didn't really care, things went north and she started being really cold and wouldn't reply on messages or calls, when we were out she was like nothing ever happened, one day I was studying and had my phone off and when I opened it she had sent me a photo of hers with her ex drunk and naked, the reason behind this was that I didn't reply "fast". Her best friend was my best friends' girlfriend, my girlfriend (ex) once called drunk and asked If we had a problem to switch partners for a day or even have the 4 of us sex together. Now I'm almost 6 months in a healthy relationship and my girlfriend (F21) is treating me really well, its been almost a year after I broke up with my ex and for some stupid reason I can't get her out of my head, anybody knows how to stop this thing, I don't want to ruin the relationship I have.
tl:dr Can't get over my ex no matter how horrible she was to me and I'm trying to not ruin my current relationship

I have had good and bad experiences off this forum but I won’t give up! So here’s me : Hiya! I’m just ust A femboy looking for a serious ltr , so I’ll get to the point 🤗. I’m not here for the games , or ghosting . I’m here for something long term. Dating apps don’t work for me sadly.
Located: Texas.
Willing to move to another state or have my future partner live with me .
Appearance :
A thick black femboy who loves dressing up sometimes . Height : 5’3. I wear glasses to read manga . My style is mostly goth/casual clothes from mostly anime shirts and chokers.
💙My hobbies:

• Anime : Some of my favorites animes are Tokyo ghoul , Sword Art Online , Yuri on ice , Future Diary, JJK, MHA, Yaoi(Love stage , Sasaki and Miyano)
• Manga : I’ve completed so many mangas from yaoi , Ouran high school host club , berserk , ect .
• Cosplay : I’ve done Pokémon & a Tokyo Ghoul cosplay before .
• Anime cons: I’ve been to at least 11 anime/Comic cons.
• Dueling (Yu-Gi-Oh!)
• Pokémon
• Yaoi
• Pc gaming
• Overwatch. I love this game have over 500 hrs .
• Marvel/DC
• Tv drama : The Vampire Diaries , Supernatural, Buffy The Vampire Slayer, The 100.
• Horror- big fan of tv shows , movies like AHS
• Consoles I have are : Ps5, Nintendo switch , psp, ps vita, Nintendo 3ds , wii, gameboy , ect .

🩷What im looking for in a Relationship🩷

• [ ] Monogamous
• [ ] Single
• [ ] Loyalty
• [ ] Communication
• [ ] No kids
• [ ] Open-minded
• [ ] Common interest : Nerdy (Anime, Games, Star Wars or anything nerdy)
• [ ] Sure on what you want
• [ ] Mature
• [ ] 21+ in age : no exceptions .

▶️MY TYPE:
TALL (taller than my own height) , very communicative, masculine(mostly beards and body hair) gamers/anime nerds. These are just preferences not a deal breaker .
✅Ps: for compatibility reasons I’m a 100% bottom.
IMPORTANT : If you made it this far, please message me an introduction about yourself. This is extremely important as it tells me alot about you. I won’t respond to a simple message. If you can’t make the effort , I won’t waste my time honestly .

I am 25F. My dad is 65 and mom 60. I only have one sibling and she is 33. I was born in the US and raised in India. My parents were not rich but they raised me and my sister well. Never let us feel that we need to ask for anything. Lived luxuriously. I was always told as a kid that after highschool in India, I have to return to the US, get a degree start working and then I would file for my parents green card since when I was born in the US they only had a work visa and had to return to India. I came to the US when I was 17.5 years old. Got a nursing degree. Successful in my career and working full time as the assistant director of nursing in critical care. I am simultaneously in school full time to get my masters. When I first came in 2016, I lived in a rented room, my parents supported me and used to send Monday for rent. I used to work part time in library and support my food and any other needs like clothes etc. In 2020 when I got my first job, I started sending them money back and so far I am still sending. I did as I was told and I filed for my parents green card and now they are permanent residents. Their plan all along was to move in with me in United States and we would all live together again. During this Journey I met an amazing person who is now my significant other. We plan to get married. My parents dream of living with me is not going to fulfill and I see a huge change in their behavior towards me. I explained to them and apologized and said I know that it was your dream all along and followed every direction that you gave me but I am an adult now. I want to enjoy with my partner and live nuclear like my Parents did. I also said this doesn’t mean I will neglect them but instead of staying in the same house we will have a different arrangement. On the other hand my sister who is 8 years elder got married the same year to a guy who lived in the US and moved here in 2016 as well. I was supposed to go Kansas for an engineering degree instead of nursing but she made a comment regarding who will pick me up from the airport. I was supposed to live in the dorm but because my sister made that comment, I at the age of 17.5 changed plans and went to another state where I received grant and scholarship so my education was basically free for undergraduate. I have visited my sister and she has visited me. We haven’t met in the past two years and she thinks I have no interest in meeting her. We talk on the phone everyday and if I have any vacation days I go to see another country. Last to last year I went to Morocco because my partner lost his father. We went there. Last year I went to France and met my best friend there who was gonna get married in Jan this year. She has some issues which I do not understand. When she was my age she was living her life. I try not to hold any grudge against her when she did not help me in 2016. I explained to her let me enjoy with my partner for now. When I am getting older and married and settled, that’s when people seek out family and meet and stay connected. I told her since I am working so hard let me travel see new places now and she can definitely visit me. I do not have the budget to go see her and then go on a vacation. Now it’s been 2 weeks she is not talking to me and my parents have abruptly come to the US and working in a random motel. I don’t know what to think anymore. Even though I am the youngest in the family I feel the oldest.

I need somebody's help or advice 😅
5 years ago I dated this dude, found out he was married.
I've been getting texts and messages from who I thought was him even after changing my phone number multiple times so I stupidly messaged his friends about it, asking them to get him to quit. I was trying to avoid getting his wife involved, even though I probably should have from the jump.
Well, he swore up and down it wasn't him so he and his wife decided to get law enforcement involved. Fine, maybe it'll stop.
We concluded that there might be a middle man and that was the end of the cops involvement.
Today though, I got a call from his phone number. I didn't answer, but text him "what do you want?"
Again, Swears up and down it wasn't him and that someone spoofed his number. Now he's threatening to press charges on ME for harassing him. His wife clearly doesn't believe it's him. I don't know if it's him or if it's actually a middle man.
What am I supposed to do? Will the harassment charges actually go somewhere?

i honestly just can't take it anymore. i'm tired of feeling alone all the time, tired of crying, tired of being just a loser. so many times i've thought i finally found people who liked me and it turns out they were talking poorly about me behind my back the whole time like i'm some clown they only keep around because it's funny. i'm tired of it. so many times i think i finally have a friend group only to learn that they've been dragging my name through the mud.
you know that saying "if everyone's the asshole, you're the asshole"? i started thinking that if this keeps happening to me so many times, then i have to be the cause. i wondered if i was making people uncomfortable, if i was saying things that were rude without realizing. i asked people if i did something wrong, if i upset them, because if so i want to know so i can apologize and make sure i don't do it again- they just deny that anything is wrong like i can't see that they don't want to be talking with me. i've racked my brain in every way but i genuinely can't figure out what i am doing wrong somehow in all of my relationships. i am down to just a few friends and acquaintances but now i feel like i'm just constantly paranoid that i'll lose my last few friends and be truly alone.
the loneliness is genuinely killing me. i'm tired of always texting first asking to go to lunch/dinnestudy together. noone ever texts me first or wants my presence. it always feels like im like im some begger begging for literally anyone's time so i don't feel lonely. it's humiliating. once i planned to go to brunch with some girls in the city, one of them texted me that they were both busy, and then i saw on their story that they had gone to the city together. lol. they weren't busy, they just didn't want to go with me. im honestly just tired. especially of all the advice of 'learning to do things by myself'. i do that all the fucking time that's the problem. i hate when i say i want a friend group or when i say something and the response is "oh well being in a friendgroup isn't all it's cut out to be" "being in [xyz] is exhausting" "having to reply to people all the time gets annoying" "the grass on the other side isn't always greener" but it must be so easy to say all of that when you are on the other side of the grass.
i just really just can't do this shit anymore.

That awkward moment went the loan people send me automated text every couple of hours to let me know I’m in debt, Yesterday I Sent them a message back basically telling them where to stick it cause I’ve emailed and called them to let them know about my situation- as vague as possible so they can’t use anything against me. All of a sudden not a single text, I feel like it’s not an automated message 😂😂😂😂😂