Headache, sorethroat, and neck pain

First time posting here, so excuse any mistakes!
I’m 30 M, and 225 lbs, 5’5”.
For the past two months, I’ve been experiencing sinus pain, nose pain, headaches, shortness of breath/chest tightness, and intermittent chest and back pains.
This all started in the middle of March, I was staying at my partners place, and the sewage at their apartment backed up into their bathtub, where it sat for 48 hours until someone was able to come and take care of it.
Right after the plumbers left, I began experiencing all of these symptoms at once. The next day, I went to the emergency room, and they did X Ray, D dimer, and troponin, and it’s all come back clear.
I returned to my home that day, and have been dealing with this since.
Thus far, I’ve been to the ER two more times, with the same tests taken as before coming back clear. I’ve had a PFT, an echo, and a chest CT, all of which the doctors said came back completely clear.
My symptoms are at persistent, with no change whether I’m at rest, or out and about.
I seemed to get some temporary headache relief from Benadryl.
My primary care doctor originally prescribed me an albuterol inhaler, and later Symbicort, neither of which offered any relief.
A pulmonologist prescribed me a short course of Prednisone and antibiotics, suspecting a possible sinus infection and asthma exacerbation. I had childhood asthma, and have had zero issues with it as an adult, I haven’t touched an inhaler in decades.
He also advised I take Flonase as well. The prednisone taper lasted 12 days.
On about the 9th day (when I was down to a 10mg dose), I decided to just try taking a Zyrtec. Within 30 minutes, my chest and head suddenly lightened up, and I felt things finally feeling better over the next few weeks.
The past week, all the exact symptoms have returned, despite me taking Zyrtec daily, and still taking the Symbicort.
My pulmonologist wants to prescribe me a stronger inhaler called Breztri, but I’m reluctant since my PFT is fine, and none of the inhalers have given me any relief.
What could I possibly be missing? Should I perhaps see an allergist? I have zero history of any kind of seasonal allergies; this is my first time taking allergy meds in my life. And if it is allergies, why’d the Zyrtec just stop working?

I was working at home and made an ice coffee. Brought it to my desk and 10 minutes later found myself resting on my futon with half the coffee spilled all over the desk. I've been known to take some naps during the day but this struck me as really odd so I immediately suspected a seizure.
The odd thing is that my grand mals are BAD. Takes me hours to come around and then days to fully gain my senses. I always have crazy muscle pain, nausea, and a throbbing headache. This time, I just felt a little tired. I got up and continued my work.
Any idea what might have happened here? It doesn't really sound like a partial/absence because I heard they only last seconds and then the person becomes conscious again quickly after. This almost seems like I had an extremely mild grand mal, spilled my coffee, and then in confusion made my way to the futon where I become fully concious. I'm at a loss.
I've called my neurologist to seek some input but figured I'd ask here in the meantime. Thanks!

I’m 14 weeks 2 days, and everyday has been a struggle. The nausea, vomiting, headaches, I feel so exhausted and it’s becoming terrible to be at work, especially with brain fog. I feel like can’t do anything at home either, like cook a meal or take my dog out. It’s been constant, I have had two full weeks of feeling fine in total. It feels terrible to be awake. I know it’s all worth it for baby but the right now has been uncomfortable and painful at times. I’m in awe with how other women can work like this everyday. My partner works out of town for 7-10 days at a time and it’s been so hard.
Sorry for the rant, I just feel helpless and sad right now.

During my early teens my perception of reality became quite distorted, nebulous. I began experiencing blockage whilst trying to think, my thoughts became cloudy. I also began experiencing stomach issues, I would often skip school because I felt sick in the stomach, causing really strong urges to go to the bathroom. I also felt tired all the time, I lost a lot of the energy I once had. My face changed a lot, I looked seriously ill. My skin looked yellow-ish, and so did my eyes. My eyebags pretty much doubled in size. My breath was and still is bad, as a result I started brushing longer and more often than most people, including my tongue and other parts of my mouth, but I can feel whatever is causing the bad smell comes from deep inside. My sight became worse as well, it pretty much feels like astigmatism. I lost my sense of balance to the point that I couldn't walk straight. Whereas I was once normal, although shy, in the span of a few months my anxiety manifested and sky-rocketed to the point that I'd get daily headaches from the overthinking and constant worrying. I then became self-aware about my lack of balance...i won't go into detail here, but this destroyed my life. All this went on for 9 years until my stomach started making these absurdly loud noises, constantly, everyday. A lot of times in the middle of class, which was super embarrassing. The stomach pain got worse, and this went on for about a year until I decided to do some research online, and that's when it dawned on me that I might have celiac's disease. Right then and there I stopped consuming anything with even the slightest trace of gluten in it.
I've been on a celiac's diet for over a year and while I feel there might be some long-term damage, my health has improved drastically. My balance has returned. I can actually form sentences without stopping halfway through because I can't reach the words I want. My anxiety has decreased considerably, although not completely. My reality feels a lot more clear, it's like I'm waking up from a very long dream.
But in these 10 years, people have obviously noticed what was going on with me, and those that didn't cut ties with me because I was acting weird decided to mock me and bully me, several of which were school teachers. I saw life-long friends join the fun and betray me. I lost my reputation, my friends, and a decade of my life.
The whole point of this, is that I want proof of what I experienced. I wanna prove to everyone that doubted me and minimized my issues that I went through something serious. A piece of paper that I can display as to say "It was this all along, folks". So I wonder, what physical "scars" should I look for that could help me get an official diagnosis. For instance, my teeth have taken on a yellowish color, particularly noticeable on the biting parts of my crowns. Not only that, but it's like they're inexplicably deteriorating. I also read that if I pull my lower eyelid down, the color of the inside part will be different for people experiencing celiac reactions, but I'm not sure how to properly check this. I know that if I start eating stuff with gluten and a few days or a week later I take a blood test, it will show up that I have celiac's disease, but how do i prove all the other stuff like the lack of balance?

Hi - hoping some intelligent doctors can help.
37 / male
I badly injured my back/neck at the gym yesterday. I couldn’t - literally - walk this morning. Pain has traveled from my upper back to my neck and along my right arm - which is now tingling - feels like nerve issue.
Went to doctor in NYC - specialist who suggested the below for pain, plus MRI and X - Ray pending my insurance. Diagnosis, he said, is muscle spasms and potential pinched nerve but won’t know for sure until we do images.
I was prescribed steroid / Medrol (Methylprednisone) - 4MG pack over 6 days, plus 500mg of Naproxen (2x daily) and 10mg Cyclobenzaprine/Flexeril / muscle relaxer (which I will take only at night).
He also said to ICE for the first 24-36 hours from start of injury then switch to HEAT.
QUESTION - is it safe to take the 3 meds together? Pharmacist says yes.
I’ve been reading taking NSAIDs like Naproxen plus steroids is bad for GI issues. Are those two often prescribed together? I am not a big pill taker but I’ll do anything to help - most pain I have been in.. maybe ever.
Does the benefits outweigh the risks? I only hope to take this until the pain cools down.
Thank you.

First off, I'm 15 years old, AFAB. I'm not on any medications and I'm diagnosed with depression and anxiety. The only medical history that is significant is that a few years ago, around two years ago, I recieved notice that I was vitamin D decificent.
For around a year now, I've been dealing with these odd pains in my joints and muscles. When they began, they started off mostly painless. Recently, both the occurances and intensities of these pains have spiked. They've been significantly worse the last three months. The pains are on and off, but I'll get sharp pains in random parts of my body (fingers, wrists, neck, back, shoulders, ankles, knees, etc..) only for them to go away after a certain period of time. These pains are, at minimum, around a three on the pain scale. At most, they can reach about six. These pains usually last around at least a minute and at most a few hours, but at times they impact my day to day life. These pains will often interlap, too, so when one stops, another begins.
Should I visit a doctor regarding this issue, or is it just something that everyone deals with on a day to day basis?

I have continous pain around my eye and my neck. It drives me mad. I thankfully got a prescription for Vicodin from a pain specialist doctor. It kind of helps. Prayer and meditation helps a lot. Its a heavy burden on me and makes me short tempered.

Hi all, I understand this might not be one of the significant cases but I could really need some reassurance from you all.
They found a cyst anterior to the pons measuring 1.2cm x 1.1cm x 0.8cm.
What I’m freaking out about is:
Can a brain tumor be mistaken for a cyst on MRI W/O contrast?
Is MRI W/O contrast enough to spot another brain tumor other than the cyst?
I’m really scared having to face this all again later in the future as I’ll be going for a neck/brain MRI with contrast because I’ve been experiencing neck tension which eventually leads to headache from the tensed neck. Doctor told me it’s anxiety and prescribed some muscle relaxants but still feeling tense in the trapezoids and neck.
Thank you all so much

Has any one developed these pains as things progressed? I didn't have this at the start of my lc experience but as things went on I noticed I got connective tissue issues where they tear constantly causing severe pain in ligaments.
My lower back and back of neck (at c1) is always burning almost like I have tiger bites on there. In thr lower spine area it has also cause some sexual dysfunction and abdominal pain expeeicslly when empting bowels.
I don't understand what this debilitating pain specifically in ligaments come from. I'm in my late 30s and never had ligament issues. Now o feel like a 90 year old where any sudden movement would lead to a tear.

Sorry for the long post…for some reason this post was removed from the Humira forum so posting here for input. Has anyone taken Humira and ended up regretting it or realizing you don’t need it? I’ve had moderate to severe alternating butt pain for a few years now, on occasion very debilitating, sometimes okay, most frequently hurts to some level these days. X-ray showed no ankylosing but did show mild erosion on iliac side of joint and suggested “mild ilii osteitis condensans.” Primary care doctor sent me for a CT and bloodwork and referred me to rheumatologist in fears that it may be AS. CT indicated potential sacroiliitis but bloodwork was totally clear, no inflammatory markers and negative for the BL27 gene or whatever. Rheumatologist was pretty quick to diagnose it as inflammatory/autoimmune based on family history and the fact that I also have type 1 diabetes and celiac disease. He sent me for a MRI that confirmed bilateral active inflammatory sacroiliitis and bone marrow edema. He said it’s for sure axial spondyloarthritis that could “only” be from 1 of 4 things: ankylosing spondylitis, ulcerative colitis, crohns, or psoriasis. I have no other symptoms of any of those things plus blood work was clear. I guess I’m wondering how he could be so confident of what it was, when my X-ray indicated potential ilii osteitis condensans which is a structural problem (even though I’ve never given birth)? Or inflammation from overuse injury from hiking? I also have super flat feet and just wonder if perhaps if there is ANYTHING at all that this could be other than one of these major autoimmune disorders…he wants me to start Humira right away but I am very nervous about it given the infection risk (I also had high-risk cancer causing strain of HPV 10 years ago that I don’t want to return), and a number of other side effects plus the headache of dealing with Acredo speciality pharmacy. And the potential for the Humira to affect my blood glucose management for my type 1 diabetes. I guess I don’t feel confident with my diagnosis despite having two rheumatologists recommend the same thing…and I feel like Humira isn’t the sort of drug to “just give it a try” with unless I start showing symptoms of one of the disorders or have more extreme debilitating pain. I should mention that he recommended Humira specifically because he’s worried that if I do have crohns or UC, Taltz would set it off, and I can’t take Rinvoq or anything like that because of the cardiovascular risk with the diabetes. Anyway, wondering if anyone’s gone though something similar and has any input? I am just so uncomfortable with the thought of taking Humira and suffering unwanted side effects without feeling confident that I need it

Had my LP - opening pressure was 27
Had horrible low pressure headache for 4 days after. Layed flat the whole time to manage pain. Then on day 5 high pressure headache (rebound pressure?). Then I had a day where I felt great. And now out of nowhere my low pressure headache is back.
I will be calling my doctor again tomorrow but what the heck is going on? Csf leak? Why did I have rebound high pressure for a day and then feel fine and now all of the sudden the low pressure headache is back?
I can’t believe I am saying this but I actually miss my high pressure headache.. the low pressure headache is HORRIBLE.

My mom was diagnosed with stage IV a month ago. She has Mets to her lungs and lymph. She is having a lot of pain but she feels like the oxycodone gives her headaches. We are hoping they will put in an order for a nerve block. What other pain management helps? Thank you for your recommendations.

Been rated for headaches for years now, but decided to go in again to follow up. I went in a decade ago for neck pain and headaches and got brushed off. Tried chiropractic, because i couldn't get anything else. No progress.
Have been to urgent care a handful of times when my neck seized up. Muscle relaxers, no progress.
Went to a private provider a few years back after my neck locked up a few times in a month. Did physical therapy. No real progress.
Headaches and pain have been getting worse, so I said, eff it. Let me go to primary care and see if I can get something, anything. She listened. I actually got an MRI, which detected an abnormality in my brain/skull. The diagnosis is something I've never heard of, but the symptoms 100% match my pains.
Here's your PSA to get help. Eventually a doctor will listen. You can find the cause of your pain. And you can get help! Do it!

My dental hygienist did an injection to numb my lower teeth for a deep cleaning. Ever since then I've had a shooting pain in my chin. It happens maybe once per day but it's really annoying. At first I thought it was tooth sensitivity but I'm pretty sure it's this. The worst one happened where it shot from my chin and around my cheek up above my right eye. Sometimes I do also feel a dull throb or headache along with it.
Does this get better with time? Has anyone in a similar situation found any treatments that worked for them?

Female, 27, 5'1, 119lbs, no medications. non-smoker.
I have a history of pancreatitis, IBS, minor stomach ulcers etc.
I started with what I thought was a stomach bug or food poisoning, diarrhea, chills and high temperature, extreme pain in the abdomen and distention, migraine, and joint pain.
I had had pancreatic flares before and never had symptoms other than severe pain predominately on one side. I know pancreas pain and it doesn't seem like this is the main issue, I am sure all are playing off each other anyways.
Once the headache, fever, and joint pain subsided, I was left with stabbing gut pain and severe bloat for over a week now. Anything I eat or drink hurts, and I now have severe hemorrhoids which I have had in the past. I can't have solid stool, I get huge stomach pain and a minor amount of loose sludge if I am lucky. It's not easing up and I have a prescription of Anusol coming tomorrow for a start but I fear there's a deeper issue going on. I should note there is also a strong burning sensation all over my abdomen.
Thoughts? I'd love to avoid the hospital if possible.

TL;DR: Left shoulder is weak. Need exercises to strengthen it for long bike rides
When riding my gravel bike I'm experiencing pain between my left shoulder blade and my spine. It feels like the muscles there are tensing up and tightening. The pain is most pronounced when gripping the hoods, less when gripping further back and least when in the drops.
I am aware that geometry and position on the bike (not engaging the core enough, rounded shoulders etc) can lead to too much weight on the hands and pain in the shoulder and neck and am therefore doing core exercises regularly and trying to keep proper position on the bike.
However, I'd assume that these issues would affect both shoulders to some degree. But so far, the issue doesn't appear on my right side. As far as I can tell, I'm balanced with equal pressure on both palms (or maybe even slightly favoring my left side by putting more pressure on the right because of pain).
Which leads me to believe that the muscle between my left shoulder blade and my spine is probably particularly weak (possibly from chilling on my couch for years on my left side propping myself up on my left elbow?).
I am looking for exercises that strengthen this particular muscle. Not to increase max strength but to improve it's performance in an endurance setting of course (long bike rides holding my upper body to some degree and making micro adjustments to steering etc). Any help and suggestions will be much appreciated!
If anyone knows any good stretches for this muscle that would also be great! "Classic" shoulder stretches and foam rolling over the area don't seem to get the best results and the muscle stays tight for days.
Thank you!

26 male 155 lbs talking 40 mg and the purging stage is draining me mentally. I was on accutane for six months in 2019 and requested to go back on it because I was over the constant mild acne I had post first round of accutane. I’m currently in week two and my face is breaking out so bad. Mostly painful big nodes just randomly showing up everywhere like my neck and back and that don’t even get a head. I work in business and it’s killing my self-esteem. If you started purging early on, when did it stop?

I’m 26 and I’m 99% I have endo. I started birth control at 13 due to bad cramps and was on it for over 10 years. I went off of it and everything was fine at first but my periods kept getting worse and worse. For the past year or so my periods and the week prior are unbearable. For the week before, it’s the worst depression I’ve dealt with and I have zero energy and I’m EXTREMELY irritable. Then the day I’m going to start my period I get cramps so bad they drop me to my knees, I’ve passed out from them a few times and I get disoriented from the pain. The pain radiates to my lower back (which is the worst pain of it all), to my hips and all the way down my legs. I have a lot of GI issues and usually get bad cluster headaches. Nothing helps. I’ve tried muscle relaxers, excedrin/tylenol/motrin, weed, heating pads, hot epsom salt baths, massages, stretching. I get minor relief from some of the things but it barely scratches the surface. I’ve finally had enough after how bad it was tonight and I’m going to be looking for a gyno to talk to. I’ve been dreading it and putting it off because I have a lot of medical distrust and doctors don’t have the best track record with helping with this sort of thing. I just wanted to vent to people who can understand how bad the pain really is. Thank you for reading!

I’m a stay at home mom of two baby boys. Married 3 years & dated 6 months prior to marriage & got pregnant a couple of months before getting married.
I’m going to get shit for all my bad decision-making here.
I prayed (out loud) for a man that would meet all this criteria and one month later met my husband. He met all the criteria of my prayer so no matter what bad things happened, I thought God had this purposed for me. I mean like a checklist of 10-20 items all checked off. I was vedy devout in my faith. But, now looking back I feel like maybe it wasn’t God who answered my prayer. Maybe this was like a time in the book of Job where God let Satan attack Job and take everything away from him. I don’t know. Oddly enough, the man that became my husband said he prayed for this, too, one month prior.
He love-bombed me. He devalued me. Later, he threatened to leave me (but never has). While we were dating, when I was pregnant, when we were engaged. He called escorts behind my back. I find out he had sexual relations with a woman in his apartment complex one week before we started dating - he told me three years into our marriage. Before we dated, he also had a two year affair with a married woman (whose husband to this day has no idea about it.) He was meeting her and texting her behind my back 2 weeks into us being officially dating exclusively. I find out because he got arrested and I went to pick up his things on his person at the jail. I guess his passcode in one try and there I see the truth. He lied about this woman - he said she was a best friend with no I love yous and no sexual relations. He even asked me if it was okay to be friends with her and I asked him those two questions. He lied and the proof was right there. We were fairly new so I didn’t read too many texts. I spent one hour on his phone at most and handling a panic attack in between.
I read where he texted escorts, too, and read two other relationships he had while seeing this married woman. My mind was blown. I was done. I screenshoted some evidence for my personal keepsake. I texted the married woman because their I love you was so recent. I told her what happened and said to go get him out of jail because I was done. She blew up my phone with texts. She wanted to know who I was and she wanted to share all the creepy details about this man. She claimed they only had sex twice and it was rape - bullshit. She also said a lot of other things like she knew when he bought me a coffee and knew when he went to the city to meet his friends. She said he said that they could still have sex while he was seeing me. He denied it and said it was the other way around.
When he got out of jail, he contacted me and sent me a video. She texted me to show me he sent her a video, too. Same shirt, same scenery and all filmed back after back. He told her how much he cared about her but he was letting her go. He came to meet me because I took his dog to care after her while he was in jail. He talked me into giving him one more chance. I moved into his apartment to get away from a situation at home. I fell for him hard and believed I was in love. We texted and talked all the time and when we were able, we were together. I went on a trip for a week withoht him to California. I got back and the sheets were washed. He said he did that for me so I can come home to clean sheets. Later over the course of our relationship I noticed he never much stepped up to do the laundry. A lot of chores started falling on me. Before even being married he expected me to coean his whole apartment which seemed to have never been touched once with any cleaning.
We were fighting a lot and I saw some of his anger but I thought he was just frustrated with things he was dealing with in his life. He got sort of pushy with me having intercourse with him at times I told him I didn’t want to because I wanted to wait. That made him angry. I find out that he had been FaceTiming escorts from the first weeks we started dating and found at least one call every month up to the week we were suppose to get married. I was shocked! I had no idea and I couldn’t believe it. We had intercourse so much that he wouldn’t need that so I thought. He said it was like porn to him and he had that habit from before he met me. Keep in mind, I’m religious so I was abstinent most of my life and these red flags weren’t so obvious to me. I thought most men were dogs like this. The biggest factor that blew my mind (of which he explained away) was that these escorts weren’t typical - they were transgender women and some still had their boy parts. After talking with someone who I thought was like a mom to me(I find oht later she wasn’t for me), I went through with the wedding, and besides, I was having his baby.
We moved states. I noticed a lot of verbal abuse starting from typically the night time as we shared a bed. He would cuss at me a lot and get so angry. It was almost every night. I was surprised - thinking who is this guy. He made me cry a lot. It was so stupid, I got screamed at just for rolling over in my sleep. He explained this away later after the problem got better. I began feeling like I made a mistake in marrying him. I was so scared at the same time because this was my first pregnancy. I feared so much about the “what ifs” and what world this baby was coming into.
The abuse got worse. It got physcial from time-to-time. He says I was abusive back but I feel like it was reactive abuse because it became too much for me. I would hit him back. It ate at my mind every day and I had all these hormones because I was going to have a baby soon. When pregnant, he has pushed me, held me down, jumped on me with his hands around my neck. He said things that were horrible like he would walk away from this son like he did his first son (he had a son from an earlier relationship which he had nothing to do with). Fear overcame me and some days I thought ending my life was the only way to escape my life and prevent a nightmare for my son. (These feelings relented later in time.)
One time he held up furniture above his head and he was ready to throw it at my head - I believe this was right after our son was born. We argued a lot because my mistrust in him because what I mentioned I discovered earlier. I wanted him to assure me he was trustworthy so sometimes I asked for his phone. Doing that resulted many times in violence and rage. When he had that furniture held up, I felt like he was going to end me right then and there. He stopped himself and I asked him why. He said because he saw the fear in my eyes.
We fought and made up A LOT. That was our relationship and me asking him where he has been or was he with someone. It was terrible for both of us. I discover later that he lied about a lot of things. I didn’t even know he didn’t have a drivers license until about 1-2 years into our marriage. I didn’t know the pictures of his boy parts I found once while dating were to the escorts. I asked him approximately a thousand times. He doesn’t just lie - he tells a story with details and the whole thing is a lie.
I use to check his phone and browser history because it was never ending place of discovery. I never got confessions out of him but I did get evidence that he thought he hid. He must have gotten better at hiding things because I would find less and less. I got to a point where I don’t check anymore - I know and it’s a damn headache to live like that. All the time he did these things, he swore his love for me. He said I was everything.
I discovered again a lie the first time he went to Miami last year (his first time away from me.) He took advantage and called at least ten eacorts and almost met up with one (or did. I don’t know. There’s no money spent but he lied and said the last escort called was his co-worker. I may never know what happened but his coworkers got weird around me after that trip. They won’t look me in the eye.) I didn’t know all this until December last year where I asked him for his T-Mobile password. He didn’t think I would find this when giving me the password.
I saw a text after that trip and found out he lied. He was awake at 2:00PM after he told me he went to bed on the phone. He told me how he missed me SOOO much. He said he tried putting his arm around me in bed to realize I was not there. We FOUGHT over the phone. He didn’t want me to see the rest of the texts between him and his coworker. He left bruises on my arms pushing and shoving me with all his strength. He overpowered me and I never saw the messages. He said he was hiding the fact ge did cocaine. I lost control because I pulled a knife out at him. Not to hurt him but to intimidate him. (I never lost it like this again -he ALWAYS uses this against me to say I’m the abusive one.)
December he admitted the elaborate cocaine story he gave me was a LIE. He said he did do cocaine but not how he told me. The real thing he was hiding was the escorts. At that time, I find out he kissed a coworker (maybe more but nobody will tell me anything.) Another girl told me he was always flirting with new hires. After I find this out from these girls, he put two holes in the walls and broke the doors at the apartment that was in my name. He also bought me $200 roses and a new marriage ring fo Christmas along with other nice gifts. He even goes to therapy to get better at his lying problem (which he only did for about 3 sessions.) He swore this was the last time I would EVER have this happen to me. He swore he loved me and our family. My second baby was born February after ALL of that.
November, my mom died and left me money. I find all that out after I put money on a house for us - Our first house. I made sure we were good. I made sure my baby had everything he could need. I didn’t even buy myself a new car (backstory I lost my good credit, my 2020 car and had one eviction in this marriage. I was almost $30,000 in debt after all of that. My husband made his bad credit good and how we got the house, too. He still has his car and no evictions on his name. We paid over $5,000 for his traffic tickets and court fees plus his debts.)
I could have left then but I was vulnerable because I was having another baby in two months.I feared all the time because I couldn’t get a job or keep one being pregnant and I worried about having one after because I wouldn’t make enough with him and me working would put us at a negative income. I tried building this website but I have yet to get sales. I knew I needed to get out but one last things I feared was breaking up my marriage. I thought he could get better for all his problems.
His anger reared its head again this past month. I found a book titled “Why did he do that.” My husband fits a lot of those examples of abusers. The book said the nice guy is the mask.
This time when he got angry, he said it was my fault he cheated on me. He said it’s a woman’s fault if a man cheats. He said that women need to keep a man happy. He said he had depression caused by me which he never mentioned before. He always said I made him happier than he ever has been in his life. I didn’t know about the cheating just like I didn’t know about the cause. He endlessly lied to me.
I went to his work and asked his boss about the girl he kissed. He is still lying. He said he told his boss what happened. His boss said they both said nothing when they came in for questioning. My husband got the word out and it turned into drama when those girls texted me.
My husband is two people. Dr. Jekell and Mr. Hyde. I just learned recently he has been reading my journals on my phone and texts between my sister. He read my reddit posts. He lied about this and kept it to himself. I feel like he may have planned trapping me in my marriage so I would have nothing. I feel like he is stalking me, too. I have 30K left locked up in a CD - he wants that when its available to pay off the credit cards in his name. We both spend on those cards for food and needs. I want to keep it as my nest just in case. He scares me sometimes. I feel like he may charm a judge when we fight for custody if I leave. I’m scared he will bring up the knife incident and the baker act (I was bakeracted last year when 5 months pregnant- he said he would cut me off financially and have me and our unborn baby fend for ourselves. I panicked and he was being a monster. I said he was hurting me and he said he didn’t care.) I told a cop I wanted to hurt myself but I wasn’t suicidal - I just feared my husband and wanted to get away from him. It was impulsive and I regretted saying it immediately. He was messing with my mind - he fake called the cops. Never dialed but acted out a conversation. I called right after.
I fear him. He is looking like a pscychopath to me or narcist - he pal ed his whole marriage and family around abuse and lies. He admitted to lying to keep me from leaving him on a few occassions. He would act like a little innocent and hurt boy. I could never see the abuser when he switched.
Would you be scared, too? I feel like no matter what I will never be free from him. My husband has once told me nobody will believe me. Everyone thinks I’m crazy - he said this right after convincing the cops that. (Time where he bent the truth to make it funny - the cops were sold.)